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inkskinned · 1 year

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

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krysmcscience · 16 days

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I have some questions about karaoke night, Alex Hirsch. Very Important Questions. Which I will happily scream at a poor hapless baby triangle who can have no answers for me, and possibly also does not have object permanence yet.

Follow-up that is I guess suggestive, but let's be real here, Bill's a fucking triangle:

Dude slipped right into his birthday suit, lmao

this is so stupid :D

Anyway, I don't care what anyone says, this brilliant individual knows what's up - Bill is absolutely way more of a monsterfucker than Ford could or ever will be, full stop.

#fanart #billford #bill cipher #stanford pines #gravity falls #book of bill #i watched gravity falls because i was curious about all the Toxic Old Man Yaoi on my dash and wanted context #turns out most of the context was in the book of bill tho lmao #look they either banged or married or both while drunk and i will accept no other possibilities #you don't use the phrase 'and one thing led to another' in a PRIVATE JOURNAL if what happened wasn't salacious in some way #i mean - ford didn't exactly grow up in The Most Inclusive Time Period???#dude was probably like 'gotta use this wording for plausible deniability - NO ONE can know i boinked the talking triangle'#in other news - i must bully the baby billy #don't know how much more GF stuff i'll toss up here but i have a few other little scribbles in the works. probably won't color them tho lol #also don't ask me why bill's bowtie stays where it is despite his “pants” being under it. just. just fucking don't ok???#EDIT: oh and since i see this a lot in this fandom for some reason: DO NOT REPOST THIS PLZ K THX :D

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victory-cookies · 5 months

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DUDE THAT WAS AMAZING

#my favourite show I’ve been to #nothing but bangers really great energy #we were barricade which was amazing too #Cody complimented my nails!#I did ones especially for the show based on the deathless tour poster and he pointed them out and told me they were cool!#I got a shirt and got my vip vinyl signed #all in all it was an amazing show #my feet hurt so fucking bad but whatever #I also I think made a kids day #it was their first concert and they also had the vip and they’d made a bunch of bracelets #and they asked me if I wanted one #and I was like ‘I’ll trade you!’ bc I had made a deathless tour kandi cuff #and so I pull out this big bracelet and they were just seemed so delighted by it and they immediately put it on and went to show their dad #so that was a nice experience #the people in line for the vip were super cool too it was a good hang #anyway #im so tired but I had so much fun

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sergeant-angels-trashcan · 1 year

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Yall remember how Texas had that "report an abortion" form that they had to take down after a week?

Well, Missouri has one, only it's for reporting transgender concerns.

Comrades. Friends. Romans. Countrymen. You know what to do.

#queer politics #transgender #trans rights #trans legislation #trans genocide #missouri #fuck the AG man #PLEASE deal with this the same way we dealt with the texas one #i want this man to be SHAMED #I want my trans kids to know they are LOVED #i want this thing down by SUNDAY #please. if you do one thing for me ever im asking that this is it

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batbabydamian · 8 months

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*you opening the love letter* what does your damijon look like, pls pls pls pls pls pls pls, i know it would be so cute, i just know it 🙏🙏🙏

here you go! thank you for the ask, this was a lot of fun to do! they're working on a case together ^^

#ask #super sons #jondami #damian wayne #jon kent #batbabyart #after getting this ask i couldn't stop thinking about older Damian outfits 😭#just based on comic artists throughout the years Damian's got a fairly decent range of style it was hard to choose but v fun!!#Jon's wearing a bunch of layers to cover up bulk while Damian's layering to give off more bulk LOL #i decided to lean a bit into Cizmesija's recent look for him and contrast Jon's more colorful casual wear #didn't want tooo much Batman 666 vibes so i tried giving Damian another color option thru A but i still liked B more lol #also every time i draw older Damian his hair keeps changing sdfgh that one poll apparently did not help me decide haha

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pokimoko · 3 months

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Asexual bird? Please

How about two asexual birds?

#ask #art request #my art #art #superb fairywren #fairywren #penguin #little penguin #australian little penguin #fairy penguin #ace #asexual #ace pride #bird art #birds #queer art #pride art #digital art #pride month #lgbtqia+#lgbtq+#queer #critter series #you get two because i couldn't decide which one i wanted to do more so i decided just to do both because i love them both #and also once i realised the fairy name connection between them i couldn't not do them together #okay well technically they're officially called little penguins but i've always know them as fairy penguins #there is actually a lot of them in the state i live. i just haven't had the chance to spot any in the wild yet #but i did see them at the sydney aquarium once. they are such lil' cuties. big fan of penguins me.#as for fairywrens. well i see 'em all the time fluttering about. definitely one of my favourite types of birds #anyway that's enough about what i like. i hope *you* like them too bluesky :3

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wispscribbles · 8 months

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I love your ghost design. I wanna squeeze him :⁠^⁠)

If no hug then why hug-shaped???

#thank youuuu! squeeze that mentally unstable adult man! he needs it!#ask #anon ask #ghostsoap #soapghost #my art #cod fanart #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soap x ghost #doodle #fav hc about ghost is that he is so incredibly touch starved and everyone just assumes he hates touch #but Soap is so touchy he keeps forgetting not to hug and pat and lean on Ghost #and each time Ghost is like ‘what is happening to me?? why do I want to melt rn??? I think I’m in love???’#outwardly he is a stone wall as usual #until Soap actually remembers to give Ghost space bc he thinks that’s what he wants #and Ghost has to finally be the one to reach out and ask for touch #and Soap is the happiest camper #from then on they are stuck together with glue #this all has nothing to do with your ask I’m sorry #I’ve got ghoap on the brain I can’t help it #complete side note: I have many asks in my inbox and I’m so happy y’all write!! just pls bear with me bc I am very slow to respond

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chloesimaginationthings · 2 months

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Vanny finally meets FNAF tape girl in person...

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ministarfruit · 7 months

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day 15: haunting ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

#HALFWAY THROUGH??!#minifemslashfeb2024 #ace attorney #lanamia #lana skye #mia fey #rotating them in my head #what if ghost mia DIDN'T agree with lana #I should add that my original concept for this was #that ghost mia is just a projection and lana is just imagining her spite post-mortem #as one does when they are not in a good state of mind #but I also think if mia genuinely disapproved of her actions... that would be so interesting #either way I think it should haunt lana #I just think that would be interesting #like what if mia asked about it when she was alive and investigating corruption #and lana deliberately lied to her #those kinds of regrets...#I love ghost stories...#me wanting mia to actually haunt the narrative...

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platoapproved · 12 days

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armand + laws, customs, & rituals

#iwtvedit #iwtv #interview with the vampire #armand #MANY SUCH CASES. this is a mere sampling #a fascinating aspect of his character if you ask me. one of the hugest differences between him and lestat but also louis #armand is a creature of habit and ritual #he follows the Laws and also the one key vow he has made to himself (not to make fledglings... til he does)#louis doesn't want to be confined again and lestat is obsessed with being a rebel and not doing what he's told #anyway. i love him.

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nidbaesenpai · 18 days

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Dare you say this love could just save you

#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #act 3 spoilers #isat act 3 spoilers #so my friends want to try going through the game as fast as possible #mostly because of the short time we all get to stream and read the lines together #so trying to jam pack as much angst into this bad boy as possible #lots of little things happened on the first friendquest #but everyone picked up on the malanga fritter third time dialogue and were debating if there ever was a time bonnie had made them spicy #as in bonnie made them spicy in one loop because of the cute odile convo and they didnt make them spicy in this loop #i thought that was interesting but they also did ask me for the straight answer #so i thought thatd be a fun point to put in there :>#the draws

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halogalopaghost · 6 months

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TIL that you can assign an AO3 next of kin to control your account in case of your death???

#ao3 #this is actually really neat #I had a will at one point that included passwords and usernames specifically for my sister so she could manage certain social media #including my fanfic accounts #if anything happened to me #I need to update it it's been like...idk a decade #who makes a will when they're sixteen you might ask #ppl who want to be dead I will answer very seriously while shaking my bottle of SSRI like a baby rattle

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thelien-art · 3 months

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Am I the only one who will be discouraged with interacting with any type of media if it has a picture made by AI with it??

Like I can love a concept and want to check it out but if I see it has been attached to a picture of AI by OP I just won't touch it. I won't check it out or even give it a chance even if I really want to!?!??

Am I the only one that feels like that??

#no art just talk #it makes me really sad as i really wanted to check it out but it had a picture by ai on front #they could have asked an artist if they could use that instead as long as they gave credit #i would love to be asked that an i know im not the only one #it would boost both artists

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cherryfennec · 2 months

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Summer Times