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lowk FUCKED up, butttttttttttttt would any of the comic book yanderes lobotomize their darling? we always talkin about willingness and shit saur... ya know!! just a lil off the top if ykwim
𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐂 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐌𝐄𝐍 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐋𝐎𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐄𝐒…
!!! GN reader, take a wild guess (lobotomies), neurological terms used, basic delusional behaviors, unethical uses of superpowers, unethical practices in general, mentions of brain dead/vegetative/mentally handicapped reader, Hal’s part briefly describes actual lobotomy procedures, Joker jumpscare in Harvey’s, gaslighting, a small history lesson here and there, themes of forced drug abuse, Tim Drake being a good candidate for the Saw franchise.
GRRRRAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHGHHHRRR. Anon, come over here so I can give you a lil forehead smooch. I’ve always wanted to write a yan lobotomy blurb, but… I didn’t really know what direction I wanted to go. Or who to write about. The idea is was legit, “hee hee, wouldn’t it be silly if there was a yandere lobotomy fic” and that’s about it. So I guess this is my chance to get some feelings out about that, yay!!
A few of these are a bit longer than usual cuz this type of shit is my jam. I also didn’t know if you wanted me to rank them on least to most likely, so shoot me a follow up ask if that’s what you wanted. Mwah!!
Bruce Wayne: Definitely not off the table. I’m willing to bet Thomas Wayne had at least one book on lobotomies; just an antique hardback that makes for an interesting read. I can see young Bruce sitting on his father’s lap in the study, tiny hands tracing over the book’s old diagrams as Thomas lovingly describes all of the morbid things they’d do to people (you know, classic father/son bonding activities). Who knew it would actually come in handy one day? Moral repercussions be damned, my man can pull off a sick lobotomy. There are of course factors he has no control over — such as your own brain plasticity and cognitive function — but that’s not exactly his fault, now is it? What your brain decides to do post-lobotomy has nothing to do with him (jokes aside, he’d be devastated if you were totally fucked up afterwards… though he’d easily adapt).
Bucky Barnes: I think he’s had enough mind-meddling of his own to give this a hard pass. It doesn’t matter how bad you are; he’s not doing anything to your brain. You’ll learn to behave on your own accord. And thank god, cuz bro would NOT make a good brain surgeon. He’d brick you so fast. Also, fun fact, the Soviets were actually the first to ban lobotomies (if memory serves correct; Google is backing me up, so… do with that what you will). I don’t know if this carries over to the KGB and their little secret evil organization side shenanigans, but yeah. Let it be known that the chances of lobotomized Bucky went down by… like… 3%.
Clark Kent: At first, I was about to say no, but then I remembered the Justice Lords from the JL cartoon, and… you know what? Maybe. It would be a very low chance, but if it’s gotten to the point where you’re a danger to yourself, Clark would have no other choice. What else can he do? Your safety always comes first and foremost. While the two dots singed into your forehead would raise a few brows, it’s not like he lets you out much anyway. He’d spend a long time trying to cope with the guilt. He did this to save you… he just had to save you from yourself. At least his heat vision is precise enough that he wouldn’t fuck it up. Now all that’s left to do is hope that you turn out okay. He’ll consider it a job well done if you can at least still smile at him.
Dick Grayson: He really isn’t that much different from Bruce, is he? Yeah, he’d do it. Maybe with a few more reservations, but he’d still do it. I think it’s in your best interest if you don’t let him spiral this far, because he’s not against the idea of you being in a completely vegetative state. Yeah, it would suck that you aren’t as active of a participant as he’d want you to be, but having complete control over your care is good enough for him. He’ll easily let his own delusions fill that void. Honestly, a part of him might even hope you turn out with a mental capacity of a toddler. It’s the best of both worlds; while you can still respond to your environment, you also rely heavily on his care. Perfectly pliable in his hands… a dream come true! Yay!
Hal Jordan: Nah. He’s good. Last he checked, he’s not the most qualified person in the world to quite literally poke around in someone’s brain. Hell, even the thought of it makes him sick. No drilling holes into skulls, no skewering needles through eye sockets, no thanks! He’ll leave that up to the people who can stomach the grosser shit. Now, is the thought of a quick operation that theoretically fixes your bratty behavior tempting? Sure. But Hal’s not an idiot; he knows the risks, and those risks just don’t seem worth it. There’s a reason lobotomies are unethical nowadays. Unless the topic comes up in some sort of show or movie, the thought wouldn’t even cross his mind.
Harvey Dent: Neither Harvey nor Two Face are all that keen on the idea. They might’ve done some fucked up shit to you (definitely Two Face more than Harvey), but a lobotomy? That’s just a new level of fucked up. A Joker level of fucked up, even (and the thought of being compared to that piece of shit makes both sides of Dent want to light up an entire room). Besides, there’s no one on the entire planet he’d trust to pull off a procedure like that on you. While he might know a guy or two who would totally do it in this day and age, he’d sooner put a bullet in their brain than let them fuck around with yours. That being said, don’t think you’re totally out of the woods. At the end of the day, it’s all up to the coin, remember?
Jaime Reyes: Would Jaime? No. Absolutely not. It’s unethical, it’s fucked, and it’s also just gross. Anything to do with surgery makes him feel extremely squeamish, and he might actually pass out if he thinks about it too hard. But would Khaji Da? Yeah. Probably. Though it would have to be an extreme scenario, where you’re just completely beyond controlling. Khaji Da knows the risks, and while he’ll execute the technical aspects flawlessly, the results are naturally unpredictable. It would be unfortunate if the scarab lost its host’s mate. Your poor little noggin is at the mercy of Jaime’s resolve. Is he in full control? Then don’t worry, his incoherent mutterings about severing connections in your prefrontal cortex are nothing but his weird intrusive thoughts. But… if he isn’t… uh-oh.
Peter Parker: Nope. No lobotomies here. He’s quite aware of the repercussions, both morally and practically. Honestly, he doesn’t even see most of your behaviors as something in need of correcting in the first place. Maybe if you were causing yourself any sort of harm, but other than that, he can put up with a lot of your bullshit. Talking back? Name calling? Hitting and kicking? Straight-up just being abusive? As long as you don’t leave him, he’ll work with it! Peter is the exact definition of a pushover yandere. You can get away with a lot, and that includes not getting lobotomy!
Reed Richards: I can see him pulling one off. Is it the most desirable outcome? Definitely not. But there’s only so much he can put up with before he finally puts his foot down. If you’re the insubordinate type, you’ve probably given him at least 17 heart attacks by now, and it’s only natural he’d come up with a way to curb those behaviors. See, me personally, if I were to get a lobotomy from any of these men, I’m calling up Reed. He’s no neurologist, but I’m sure he can whip up something to study your brain waves and accurately predict the outcome of a lobotomy. Plus, he’d probably have the safest environment and instruments for the operation. You won’t feel a thing, trust. Now let’s hope months of collecting data and trial runs on some less-than-willing test subjects pay off!
Remy LeBeau: Yeah, no… probably not. Thanks to Sinister, he knows first hand how invasive a lobotomy is. You’d have to be really unstable for him to even consider that idea. He definitely has the means to do it — all he has to do is put a finger up to your forehead and burn through your frontal lobe — but having the resolve to do it is a different story. While he might’ve turned out semi-okay post-lobotomy, there’s no telling what would happen after yours. Way too risky. Only something to consider as a totally nuclear option. So don’t make him do something he’d rather not, okay? It’d be better for you, better for him, better for everyone.
Scott Summers: Like Gambit, he’s a victim of Sinister’s fuckery but 10 times worse. I don’t think he’d be able to stomach the thought of doing anything surgical to you no matter how disobedient you are. But… maybe we can make this a little interesting. Scott’s attracted some hella weird attention over the years… who’s to say someone like Sinister wouldn’t get his hands on you and do a little fucking around? Maybe Goblin Queen? A particularly pissed off Phoenix? While Scott himself wouldn’t dare lobotomize you, I think there’s some people out there who would. Or, hear me out: mind controlled Cyclops almost crushing your skull with an optic blast. It would be more blunt force than an actual lobotomy, but I’m willing to bet it would fuck up your cognitive function all the same. Despite the immense horror and guilt he’d feel afterwards, a small part of him can see it as a blessing in disguise (depending on how you turn out, that is).
Steve Rogers: Honestly, Cap was frozen at the funniest point in history ever. The amount of lobotomies increased exponentially from the 40s to 50s (mind you, WWII ended in 1945), and then antipsychotics were introduced as a more ethical way to treat mental illness, which Steve wouldn’t know shit about. Unfortunately for all of my fellow sickos out there, lobotomies were probably never a thing Steve liked about the 40s, but allow me to offer an alternative. Steve thinks there’s clearly something wrong with your mental health; why else would you act like you hate him? Luckily for him, this is the 21st century, where people know much more about mental illnesses and disorders. He could easily pull some strings as Captain America and get you the help you so obviously need. So, I guess the question is, how many different prescriptions of antipsychotics can one take at once? Guess you’ll find out!
Tim Drake: So… uh… y’all better pray that he doesn’t get any intrusive thoughts about this shit. And if he does, PRAY that he snaps out of his weird fit before it’s too late. DO NOT LET BRO COOK. I don’t think he’d totally fuck it up or anything, but the chances of him spiraling and performing more than one are dangerously high. You might find the out hard way just how much poking and prodding a brain can take before it shuts down. Depending on how manic he is, he might actually lobotomize you while you’re conscious. No anesthesia, no painkillers, just him pouncing on you with a hammer and pick. You will be rawdogging this lobotomy like god intended. That’s when he’d fuck your shit up. Unless you want him to brick your brain, you better fight him off and wrestle those tools out of his hands. The post-manic episode clarity would be insane. “Uh… sorry I tried to give you a lobotomy.” Cool, man. Okay.
Wally West: Wally “if you need to give someone a lobotomy, that’s honestly a skill issue” West. Who needs that shit when you’re THE master manipulator? It would take some god-tier perception (or paranoia) to see through a fraction of his act, and even so, what good will any of that do when he’s got everyone else wrapped around his finger? Fighting against him is a dangerous game. If need be, he’ll play the loving caretaker while you’re the loony one. Poor Wally… he’s trying to help you through your issues, and this is the thanks he gets? Wow. Now, for the sake of a little exploration, I think it’s important to note that Wally could theoretically go through with it (by phasing his hand through your skull and solidifying at the right angle), but that sounds way too unstable to pull off. It would probably run the risk of turning your brain into a soup, and I’m pretty sure that kills people.
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Ideal Trip
Pairing: San x reader
Genre: Action, fluff
Word count: 15.2k (💀)
Warnings: San is kinda not a nice man at first, but then he is!, blood, monsters getting mutilated, but it's for like 5 seconds so don't worry.
AN: I legit had a dream of this. This dream happened after crazy form teaser pics dropped and I had this in my drafts for that many days. I hope y'all like this as well. Please consider liking and pls reblog as it motivates me to write more!
The school that we are currently standing in front of is called 'The Ideal School'. Literally, that's it's name. Talk about overestimation. Even though it is called so, it is nothing like your average good school.
You see, it's an old school. Older than I can remember. Heck, my father was a student at this school.
And we came here to give an exam, a Mock test in particular. Some of our friends applied for this. Well, their parents did. And me you ask? I was here because, and these are my mom's words, "you will give the exam because all of your friends are giving it".
Yeah me and dad thought it was bullshit.
But as both of us are scared of her shouting and making the house a circus, I decided to give it.
And so here we are, sitting inside one of the classrooms on the ground floor. My classmates were there, as well as students from other schools.
The walls here are really old, covered in writings that stretch across the walls, doors, and windows. It feels so different from my school, and I can’t help but find it a bit strange.
Time passed and we were just chatting when all of a sudden there was this commotion in the corridor.
Us being curious little kids we went outside. We somehow got to know that a boy has been found sneaking in the canteen and going through the food stash.
I don't know why, but all of us went there. Why? To see the commotion there? Tsk, kids.. where is the canteen?
Reaching the canteen, we saw that the child who had dared to sneak in was being scolded. The teacher was saying something about punishing the kid. The kid, no older than 10, looked traumatized by the screaming teacher.
They are pretty strict with this" I asked one of my friends.
"I wouldn't last a day here" she replied with a chuckle.
I heard one of my other classmates say something but before that a high pitched sound pierced my ears.
My hands instinctively flew to my ears as black spots began to creep into my vision. And then, everything went dark.
Aw come on I came here to give a test not to pass out. Get up you weak ass bitch.
You do wake up, but not where you expect. This isn’t The Ideal. It’s your school. The one four stations away.
What. The. Hell.
The bell rings. The freaking bell.
You try to calm yourself, but panic bubbles up. You’re in your classroom, lying on one of the benches. Groggily, you push yourself up using your elbows and glance around.
Beside you, someone stirs.
“Wake up,” you mutter, shaking her.
“Five more minutes,” she grumbled.
“This isn’t your house! We’re at school!”
“School?!”
She bolt upright, eyes wide and frantic, looking more like a confused puppy than anything else.
The two of you quickly realize you’re in your classroom. Familiar, but something about it feels… off.
“Should we go out?” she ask softly, looking at the door.
“Yeah, let’s go.”
You peek out first. The hallway is unsettlingly quiet. Too quiet. Something feels very, very wrong.
The two of you head to the neighboring classroom, where your other friends sit cluelessly at their desks.
“Surprise, motherfuckers,” you announce.
“Ah!”
“So, what’s the deal?” you ask, ignoring their startled expressions.
“The stork?” one of them jokes, earning her a glare sharp enough to cut steel.
You sigh. "We need to figure this out. Let’s go.”
As the defacto leader of your little group, your friends all look at you for guidance. You don’t remember volunteering for the job, but it’s become second nature by now.
The layout of the school flashes in your mind—there’s the main building, the field, the stage at the far end, and the smaller two-story building beside it, home to the singing room. It’s always been your favorite spot.
Stepping outside, you’re greeted by chaos.
No, worse than chaos. Something you can’t explain.
Students, rows upon rows of them, march silently across the school grounds like lifeless puppets. Their faces are blank, their movements robotic.
And suddenly, you’re alone.
You whirl around. Where are they? Your friends who were just right here. You rack your brain, desperate to remember, but all you get are fragments: the classroom, the field, the students, their uniforms.
But the uniforms are wrong. These kids aren’t wearing your school uniform. They’re dressed in plain white—head to toe.
A chill runs down your spine.
You look down at yourself. Your uniform’s still intact: white shirt, blue skirt, tie. No jacket, though. Why the hell didn’t the school provide winter coats? It’s freezing.
Your breath comes out in shaky puffs as you call out for your friends.
Nothing.
The silent students turn to look at you, their blank faces unnerving.
“What are you looking at?” you mutter, backing away instinctively.
Before you realize it, you’re standing in the middle of the field. How did you get here? Your legs feel like they’re moving on their own.
Your mind races. This has to be a nightmare. Right?
Your feet carry you toward the singing room, up the stairs of the two-story building. Maybe it’s your love for music—or the connection you’ve always had with the music teacher—but something about this place feels… safe.
The door to the music room looms in front of you, larger than usual. Slowly, you push it open.
Inside, your teacher sits at the piano, but something is horribly wrong.
He’s completely black. Not in a racial sense—his entire body is an inky void, like a shadow brought to life. The contrast is so stark it makes your chest tighten.
You stagger back, trying to be as silent as possible, but the universe seems to hate you. Your shoe scrapes against the floor.
The shadow turns to face you.
Your breath catches. For a moment, it doesn’t move. Slowly, you back away, step by step, until you’re near the stairs.
And then, it bolts toward you.
Your legs carry you down the stairs, sprinting as fast as they can. The ‘krt krt’ sound of the thing chasing you sends shivers down your spine.
You run across the field, not daring to look back. The students don’t react, as if this is all normal to them.
Your heart pounds in your chest as you collapse onto the stairs, exhaustion seeping into your bones. You wrap your arms around yourself, trying to shield your face as if it’ll protect you from whatever is coming. The sound of your own ragged breathing fills your ears, but it’s soon overtaken by another noise.
It’s faint at first—a low, guttural growl, followed by the unsettling ‘krt krt’ sound that echoes in your mind. Your chest tightens. You don’t dare look up.
It’s here.
You brace yourself, every nerve in your body screaming for you to move, but your muscles refuse to obey. Your breath catches as the sound grows louder, closer, until you swear you can feel its presence looming over you.
This is it.
And then, it happens.
A sharp, metallic sound slices through the air, followed by an agonized screech that makes your blood run cold. You flinch, instinctively pulling your arms tighter around your head. The screeching stops abruptly, replaced by silence so heavy it feels like the world itself is holding its breath.
When you dare to look up, your eyes widen.
There, standing a few feet away, is someone you’ve never seen before.
The first thing you notice is the knife in his hand—long, sleek, and dripping with blood. The blade glints faintly under the dim light, a cruel contrast to the dark substance staining it.
Then your gaze travels upward.
His silhouette is sharp and commanding, radiating a quiet intensity that sends a shiver down your spine. He's tall, with a posture that exudes confidence and danger all at once. But it’s his face that steals your breath away—delicate yet fierce, almost otherworldly. His features are so striking it’s hard to tell if he's beautiful or terrifying.
But the most jarring detail is his hair.
Bright fiery red with black highlights, with contrast to his pale face, the colors clash in a way that should look ridiculous but instead feels hauntingly perfect. The contrast is mesmerizing, drawing your eyes like moths to a flame. You don’t even like red, but on them, it feels… powerful.
He glanced down at the lifeless black figure sprawled across the ground, his expression unreadable. Blood pools beneath it, the deep crimson stark against the pale concrete.
For a moment, it’s like time itself has frozen.
Your savior turns, his piercing gaze finally meeting yours.
It’s only for a second, but it’s enough to knock the air out of your lungs. His eyes—sharp, unyielding—cut through you like the blade they wield. There’s something chilling about the way he looks at you, as if he's staring straight into your soul.
You open your mouth to speak, but no sound comes out.
Before you can process what’s happening, he turns away.
“Wait!” you call out, scrambling to your feet despite the ache in your legs.
He doesn't stop.
You stumble forward, your mind racing with a thousand questions. Who is he? How did he know you were here? What even was that thing he just killed?
But before you can take another step, something cold wraps around your ankle, yanking you down with a force that sends you crashing to the ground.
The floor wasn’t soft, and neither was your chin. Pain radiated through your jaw as you lay there, groaning. “It hurts like a bitch,” you muttered, clutching your face.
When you glanced down, though, any complaints about the fall evaporated.
There, gripping your ankle, was a dismembered hand.
Cold, pale fingers dug into your skin, unmoving, yet somehow alive.
A guttural scream tore from your throat, raw and uncontrolled. You kicked instinctively, but it held firm. Panic rose, choking you, as you clawed at the ground to pull yourself away.
Before you could react further, like a thunderbolt, the guy reappeared. He raised the blade high and brought it down with a sickening crunch.
Again.
And again.
The hand was reduced to a mushy, unrecognizable mess as he hacked at it relentlessly. Blood splattered across the floor and your legs, and the wet, squelching noise made bile rise in your throat.
“Stop! Stop, it’s gone!” you wanted to scream, but your voice refused to come.
Finally, he crouched down, prying the mangled remains from your ankle. His fingers worked quickly, efficiently, peeling the cold digits away.
He stood up, wiping the blood from his hands on his pants, and turned to leave without a word.
“Wait!”
Your voice cracked, desperate, but it was enough to make him stop.
He froze, mid-step, but didn’t turn around.
Scrambling to your feet, you dusted yourself off and stumbled after him.
“Excuse me, mister!” you called, your voice trembling. “Can you please tell me how to get out of here?”
He turned then, slowly, and his gaze locked onto yours. He was taller than you by at least half a head, and his dark eyes bore an intensity that sent shivers down your spine.
“You…” His voice was deep, rough around the edges. “How are you talking?”
You blinked. Is he high or something?
“What?”
“And your clothes,” he continued, as if you hadn’t spoken. “They’re different. Have you… escaped the process?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you snapped, your frustration mounting. “I just want to get out of here.”
“Are you from this school?” His tone sharpened, almost accusing. “Answer me.”
“Yes, but—”
Before you could finish, his hand shot out and grabbed your arm.
His grip was like iron, unyielding, and he started dragging you forward without hesitation.
“Hey!” you yelped, tugging at his hand. “Let me go! What are you doing?”
He didn’t answer.
Your heart pounded in your chest as you struggled against his hold. “Listen, mister! I don’t know what’s going on, okay? I just woke up here, and I don’t know what the hell happened! Please, let me go!”
He stopped abruptly, spinning around to face you. His piercing gaze made your stomach churn.
“So…” He spoke slowly, as if piecing something together. “You haven’t been processed.”
“I don’t know what that means!”
His eyes raked over you, up and down.
Did he just check me out? you thought, outraged. Whoop, whoop, that’s the sound of the police!
“Follow me,” he said curtly, turning away.
You stood your ground. “No. How do I know I can trust you?”
He chuckled, the sound low and humorless. “Do you see anyone else here you trust more?”
Your lips parted, but no sound came out. Damn. He had a point.
“My name is San,” he offered. “What’s yours?”
You hesitated.
“It’s fine if you don’t trust me yet,” he added, almost kindly. “But if you want to survive, you’ll follow me.”
Against your better judgment, you nodded. Your questions could wait—surviving took priority.
As you walked behind him, you glanced down at your legs and winced. Blood streaked your socks and shoes, the sticky warmth making your stomach churn.
Noticing your hesitation, San spoke without looking back. “Where’s the nearest bathroom?”
“Huh? Oh, the men’s bathroom is—”
“Does gender matter?” he interrupted. “Just tell me the closest one.”
You sighed and led him to the bathroom in the main building. He pushed the door open and strode inside, heading straight for the sink.
“Come here,” he said, gesturing at the ground in front of him.
You hesitated. “Me?”
“Yes.”
Reluctantly, you stepped closer.
“Take off your shoes and socks,” he instructed.
“What? Why?”
“They’re covered in blood,” he said simply. “And if ‘they’ track us by your bloody footprints?”
You swallowed hard. “who are they?”
His lips quirked, almost amused. “You really have no idea, do you?”
You shook your head, confused and unnerved.
“Take them off,” he said again. “Or I’ll do it for you.”
Grumbling under your breath, you crouched down, slipping off your shoes and socks, your fingers trembling slightly. San grabbed them and rinsed the shoes under the tap.
“The socks are ruined,” he muttered, tossing them aside.
He straightened up and glanced at you. “Wait here.”
Before you could protest, he was gone.
As the silence pressed down on you, the weight of your situation finally hit. You slumped onto the edge of the sink counter, your legs weak.
What if you never got out of here?
“Are you okay?”
San’s voice startled you, and you looked up to see him holding a pair of sneakers.
“They’re not your size, but they’ll have to do,” he said, handing them to you.
You slid off the counter and slipped them on. They were too big, but at least they were clean.
“Let’s go,” he said, heading for the door.
Something about him felt off—his protectiveness, his calm demeanor in the face of chaos. Why was he helping you?
You didn’t know, but for now, you decided to trust him. You didn’t have much of a choice.
San was overjoyed. Even the strongest word for happiness couldn’t capture the overwhelming elation surging through him.
He had found a human. A real, living human—someone other than himself. And not just any human, but a student from the very school they stood in.
Finally, he could go back to his family.
Well, a makeshift family, but a family nonetheless.
A group of people who had taught him that the blood of the covenant truly was thicker than the water of the womb.
He cherished them, loved them, and would do anything to protect them. Most of all, he missed them.
Every fiber of his being screamed for him to grab this girl and force her to unlock the path. He could taste freedom—it was right there within his grasp.
But San was no brute. He prided himself on being patient and calculating. He’d use this girl the right way, ensuring they both got out safely.
Still, a pang of guilt gnawed at him. She wasn’t just a tool; she was just as lost as he was, maybe even more so. Her confusion and fear were written all over her face.
But a man had to do what a man had to do.
“Hongjoong hyung,” he murmured to himself, his voice barely audible, “I’m coming home. Just wait a little longer.”
The sound of his own voice brought a small chuckle to his lips. Damn, I must sound like a lunatic, talking to myself like this. But it didn’t matter. He had a plan, and nothing would stop him now.
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I had been walking for what felt like an eternity. Either this guy was playing some elaborate prank on me, or he really did live on the other side of the universe.
Finally, after what seemed like ages, we stopped in front of a room.
I recognized it immediately—this used to be the teachers’ lounge.
Now, though, it looked like he had claimed it as his own.
The room was cluttered but strangely organized. In one corner, several of those stark white uniforms the kids outside were wearing hung in neat rows.
The shelves, once filled with papers and notebooks, were now stocked with weapons and strange equipment I couldn’t identify.
A large table occupied one corner, covered in maps, papers, and a small computer that looked like it had been swiped from the computer lab.
On the opposite side, there was a pile of clothes and a small mattress on the floor. A mattress. Since when did our school have those? Where did he even get it?
“It’s getting late. You should sleep,” he said, his tone casual.
I stayed rooted at the doorway. The thought of sleeping in the same room as a man—a man I had just met—made my skin crawl.
“I don’t want to,” I replied, crossing my arms.
“Okay, then don’t,” he said, shrugging as he made his way to the mattress.
And that was it. Just like that.
Feeling slightly foolish, I shuffled over to a chair by the table and sat down. That’s when I realized just how cold it was. My legs were freezing, and my arms weren’t faring much better.
I curled up in the chair, hugging my knees in a futile attempt to stay warm.
I just wanted to sleep—sleep and maybe never wake up.
“You can wear my jacket,” his voice broke the silence.
Startled, I glanced at him. He wasn’t even looking at me, his arm draped over his eyes as he lay on the mattress.
“Is it washed?” I asked skeptically.
He let out a low chuckle. “Seriously? That’s your first concern? You’re freezing, and you’re worried about whether it’s clean?”
“Well, yeah,” I muttered.
“Do you want it or not?”
“Fine, I’ll take it,” I said, too cold to argue further.
Wrapped in his jacket, I was finally warm. The thick material cocooned me, and the lingering scent of something earthy—him—filled my senses.
It was so comforting that, before I knew it, I had passed out, slumped over the table with my arms folded under my head.
"Bro, I think San has company."
"What the fuck do you mean?"
Inside a makeshift room—cramped and chaotic with tables, equipment, holo screens, and all the clutter that a group of overgrown boys would gather—two figures were hard at work.
One of them, silver-haired and deeply focused, sat hunched over his task. Across the room, a black-haired guy with glasses was multitasking, eating a chocolate bar while working with one hand.
"Geez, stop eating while working, Wooyoung."
"I do what I fucking want, Yunho."
Yunho rolled his eyes, muttering a quiet "whatever" before cupping his hands around his mouth like someone yelling into a canyon.
"I think San has companyyy!" he sang in a childish tone.
Immediately, there was the sound of something crashing. Yunho looked up to see Wooyoung scrambling over boxes to get to him.
“What the fuck do you mean, bro?"
"Don't believe me? Just watch."
Wooyoung peered at the hologram and saw it: a red dot labeled "San," but beside it, another red dot marked "Unknown."
"You think it's a processed kid?" Wooyoung asked hesitantly.
"Doesn't seem like it. If it was processed, San wouldn’t let it stay in his room for long."
"True..."
"Hello, hello."
The two boys turned toward the door, where two figures entered the room. The first, a man with brown hair in a suit, strode in confidently. Behind him, a taller man with black hair streaked with light brown highlights followed, also suited up, both with guns in hand.
"Did you kill them, Mingi?" Yunho asked.
"Ask the maknae."
"For the love of god, hyung, I’m old enough! Stop babying me," the younger one whined, despite his protests sounding anything but mature.
"Jongho-ya, did you kill them like Hongjoong hyung asked?" Wooyoung teased, giggling.
"Yes," Jongho replied proudly.
"Aww, our Jongho’s all grown up! Come here and give hyung a hug!" Wooyoung exclaimed opening his arms and skipping toward the youngest.
"Nuh-uh, hyung. I’ve got a gun in my hand. I will rat ta-ta-ta you up."
"Wooyoung, calm down!" Yunho scolded.
While the three bickered, Mingi moved to the hologram and stared at it.
"Um, I don’t know much about your holo stuff, but I’m pretty sure someone’s in San’s room right now."
The three of them stopped, looking at him in disbelief.
"What? Am I not allowed to be smart?"
"No, it’s not that, hyung. It’s just...you were never smart to begin with," Jongho muttered, earning nods of agreement from Yunho and Wooyoung.
"Wow, the disrespect! I just helped you kill those players!"
"Okay, but jokes aside," Yunho said with urgency, "San really does have someone in his room. Should we tell Hongjoong hyung and Seonghwa hyung?"
"Tell me what?"
Speak of the devil.
Hongjoong entered the room, light brown hair slightly tousled. Though shorter than the others, his aura made it impossible to underestimate him. He was flanked by Seonghwa, the group’s oldest and de facto mom, and Yeosang, who had green hair with black stripes. Although he looked like a Greek statue, his strength is not to be underestimated.
"Tell me what, Yunho?" Hongjoong asked again, his voice firm.
"San has some company," Wooyoung blurted out.
"Ooh, really?" Yeosang chimed in, a mischievous glint in his eyes.
"Yes," Yunho confirmed, walking toward the hologram and shooing Mingi aside as the others crowded around him. "If you look at this red dot, you’ll see it says 'Unknown,' which means there’s an unidentified entity with San. It could be someone processed, but honestly, I doubt it. San’s not that reckless."
"I mean, he kinda is," Seonghwa remarked dryly.
"Aren’t you all?" Jongho muttered, earning glares.
"Enough, everyone," Hongjoong commanded. "Let’s focus. Wooyoung, Yunho, can we contact San right now?"
"We could," Wooyoung said hesitantly, "but wouldn’t that alert the other person?"
"Wooyoung," Hongjoong said slowly, "our priority is to ensure San comes back safely, whatever it takes. Let’s not overthink it."
"Okay, then I’ll—"
A sudden piercing sound emanated from the hologram. Yunho’s fingers flew over the controls as he opened a new tab, revealing San’s face. He was trying to contact them.
When San woke up, it was dark outside. He looked around, and the girl was still fast asleep, slumped over the table like a rock.
He walked toward the table and sat across from her, then grabbed the computer and started typing away quickly. He had recently found a way to communicate with his family, but it was only for a limited time.
"Hello?"
"Oh, hello San! Got company?"
Straight to the point, just like his best friend.
"Kinda, yeah."
"Who is it, San?" came the voice of the leader, one of his hyungs.
"A girl."
"OoooOooo—"
"Please shut up wooyoung"
"San, why do you have a random girl in your nook?" Seonghwa, the oldest, asked, his voice stern.
"Hyung, guys... she’s from this school."
A brief silence followed. No one spoke, waiting for their captain's response. Soon, a sinister grin spread across the captain's face, sending an eerie vibe through the room.
"Well, tell me more about her, San."
---
Ugh, I hate waking up.
I stirred awake to the sound of rustling clothes. Looking up, I saw, surprise, surprise, that guy again.
San. I still don’t trust him. At least he didn’t do anything while I was asleep.
He was rummaging through the white outfits stacked in the corner.
He suddenly turned, as if he could sense me watching him. "You should wear this," he said, holding up one of the outfits.
"What’s wrong with what I’m wearing now?" I replied, feeling petty.
"Sure, if you want to get attacked by a processed, be my guest." He put the outfit back in its place.
Ever since I met this guy, he’s been going on and on about these “processed” things. What the hell even are they?
"I mean to ask… what is this processed thing you keep mentioning?"
He stared at me for a few seconds, then said, "Wear this. I’ll tell you as we venture out."
---
The outfit turned out to be surprisingly comfy. It was flexible and looked good too.
It was basically a white shirt, with a white jacket and a hood over it, paired with white trousers. Pretty neat.
We were walking down the stairs when he suddenly started speaking.
"This world is a post-apocalyptic world."
Well, that’s one way to start a conversation.
"The government wants to create emotionless puppets to work for them. This world is basically full of puppets—no talking, no expressing, and most importantly..."
I looked at him, waiting. What was he going to say?
"...no music or dance."
If this was a text conversation, I would’ve sent the crickets emoji. There’s no way in hell this man just said that.
"No… music?" I asked, my voice timid.
"Yes, no music. No dance either. My family and I have been trying to bring fun back into this world. But because of some technical issues, I had to stay here."
"So, you’re staying here for a reason?"
"Yes," San said, the lies sliding off his tongue. He didn’t have a choice. To go back, he had to lie. For his plan to work, he had to lie. Did he feel bad? Who knew. The process had almost taken his emotions away, but he escaped at the right time. "And since you’re here alone, why don’t you help me with my task?"
Okay, so he sounds sketchy, but it makes sense. Damn, this is harder than choosing which album to buy, and that shit is hard...
Okay, maybe he’s starting to become a little more tolerable.
"What kind of help?"
"For now, stop being a whiny kid and listen to me."
I take back everything I just said—this guy is still a bitch.
"I’m not whiny."
"Whatever helps you sleep at night."
I looked around and realized we were on the ground floor, near the gate of the field. It felt so strange to see it so empty.
The emptiness of the field stretched out before you, its silence almost deafening. The once-familiar grounds now felt like a foreign, lifeless expanse, devoid of the chatter, laughter, and energy that used to fill it.
San kept walking ahead, his posture straight and his steps confident, as though he had a destination in mind. You, however, lingered near the gate, staring at the field, a strange ache forming in your chest.
"Keep up," he called over his shoulder, his tone clipped. "We don't have time to waste."
Reluctantly, you followed, your footsteps echoing against the eerily quiet surroundings.
"So," you began, your voice breaking the silence. "This whole 'no music, no dance' thing... It sounds ridiculous. How does anyone even live like that?"
"They don’t. They survive," San replied without looking back.
The words hit harder than you expected. "What do you mean?"
He stopped abruptly, turning to face you. His expression was unreadable, but his eyes seemed to hold a depth of pain that made your stomach churn.
"I mean exactly that," he said. "The processed aren’t alive. They’re shells of people, controlled, used. No thoughts of their own, no emotions. Just... tools."
You shivered, though it wasn’t cold. "That’s horrifying."
"It is." His voice softened, just slightly. "That’s why my family and I were trying to change things. Music and dance... they’re not just entertainment. They’re freedom. Expression. Resistance."
You stared at him, the weight of his words sinking in. For the first time since meeting him, you saw a glimpse of something more—a passion, a purpose that made him seem less like a cold, calculated stranger and more like someone who truly cared.
"But why you?" you asked, the question slipping out before you could stop it. "Why stay behind? Why not someone else?"
San hesitated, his gaze dropping to the ground. For a moment, you thought he wouldn’t answer.
"It wasn’t supposed to be me," he admitted quietly. "But plans don’t always work out. Someone had to stay, and I was the only one who could.”
San lied straight through his teeth, the words slipping out with practiced ease. But deep down, a twinge of guilt gnawed at him. He hated deceiving you, especially when you looked at him with cautious curiosity, as though weighing whether to believe him.
He justified it to himself—he didn’t have a choice. If he told you the truth, that he was here because of a mishap, because things hadn’t gone according to plan, you’d never trust him. And trust was what he needed from you. Without it, his chances of getting back to his family, his real purpose, would slip away.
So, he buried the guilt and steeled his resolve.
You didn’t notice the flicker of hesitation in his gaze as he spoke, his voice steady and unwavering. "Helping me is the only way to survive here," he said. "Together, we can fix this world, bring back what’s been lost."
He sounded convincing, even to himself. And when you nodded, still wary but willing to listen, he let out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding.
But as the two of you walked through the quiet expanse, San’s mind drifted back to the faces of his family, their smiles, their laughter. He thought of the nights spent planning, dreaming of a world where music and dance weren’t forbidden.
He clenched his fists. Lying to you wasn’t just for him—it was for them, for everything they were fighting for. He couldn’t afford to feel guilty. Not yet.
San’s mind was racing as he led you through the eerily quiet halls of the school. He knew one thing, which was informed to him prior by the captain. The principal’s office held the item he needed—the key to returning to his realm, to his family. But there was one problem: he couldn’t enter it himself. The rules of this world were annoyingly rigid—only a student or a staff member of the school could access the office.
And that meant he needed you.
He glanced at you from the corner of his eye as you followed, your expression a mix of confusion and determination. You had no idea how critical you were to his plan. Yet, despite his guilt over using you, there was no other choice.
“The principal’s office…” he began, breaking the silence. “Do you even know where it is?”
You nod your head.
San looked relieved “That'll make things easy”
You look at him, gesturing around. “Half of here looks like it’s been taken over by… whatever you call those things.”
“Processed,” San corrected. “And they’ll make reaching the office more complicated.”
You stopped walking, folding your arms as suspicion flickered in your eyes. “Why do you even need to go there? What’s so important that it can’t wait?”
He hesitated, weighing his words carefully. “It’s something that could help us. Something that might give us a chance to survive in this place.” It wasn’t entirely a lie, but it wasn’t the full truth either.
After a few minutes of standing in silence he breaks it “We need to go somewhere to get a little information first. It's for me if you're wondering”
“Library, maybe?” you suggested.
“Good idea,” he agreed. “But the library is likely crawling with processed. We’ll have to be careful.”
The path to the library wasn’t easy. Shadows seemed to stretch unnaturally along the walls, and faint, distorted murmurs echoed through the corridors. San moved with sharp, calculated precision, motioning for you to stay close.
At one point, you almost stepped on a loose tile, but San’s arm shot out, pulling you back just as a processed shuffled by, its vacant eyes scanning the hall. The two of you froze, your breath shallow as you pressed against the wall.
The position was simply vulnerable. San’s back pressed against the wall, while yours was pressed against his chest. His one hand wrapped tightly around the front of your shoulders. Another hand held onto the knife.
Once the danger passed, you whispered, “How do you know so much about avoiding them?”
San hesitated for a moment, then replied smoothly, “I’ve been here long enough to learn their patterns. Stick with me, and you’ll be fine.”
Finally, you reached the library. The massive double doors loomed before you, slightly ajar. Inside, the faint glow of flickering lights revealed rows of dusty shelves and scattered books.
But you both knew it wouldn’t be that simple. San stepped forward, scanning the room. “Stay alert,” he warned. “The processed aren’t the only thing to worry about in places like this.”
“What else is there?” you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
“Let’s hope we don’t find out,” he muttered, his hand subtly resting on the dagger strapped to his side.
The moment you entered, the library twisted into a neon-lit maze of mirrors, the air turned cold, suffocating, like the maze itself was alive and hostile. The mirrors stretched endlessly, reflecting an infinite number of you—and none of them felt right.
“San?” you called out, panic lacing your voice.
No response.
“SAN!” This time, your voice cracked, raw and desperate.
Then you heard it—a low, guttural hiss, like the sound of something primal awakening. Your heart leapt to your throat as a shadow shifted in the reflection, something dark and unnatural slithering behind the glass.
The black void creatures emerged, their shapeless forms twisting grotesquely as they crawled from the reflections into your reality. Their hollow, inky eyes locked onto you with an intensity that froze your blood.
Your legs moved before your mind could catch up, adrenaline flooding your system. You bolted down the corridor of mirrors, each step echoing with a deafening clarity. The neon lights flickered erratically, casting jagged shadows of the creatures chasing you.
Behind you, the whispers started—low, distorted murmurs that seemed to claw at your sanity. They grew louder, overlapping, forming a cacophony of voices that sent shivers down your spine.
The maze twisted and shifted with every step you took, the mirrors rearranging themselves as if mocking your attempt to escape. You turned a corner and nearly collided with a reflection of yourself. But it wasn’t you—it was something else, something hollow-eyed and smiling eerily.
You screamed and turned the other way, but the creatures were gaining on you, their movements unnaturally fluid, like shadows dragged against their will.
“SAN!” you screamed, your voice cracking as tears streamed down your face.
“I’m here!” His voice rang out, faint and distant, but it was there.
Your chest heaved as you pushed forward, your feet pounding against the mirrored floor. You glanced back and instantly regretted it. The creatures were right behind you, their forms flickering and writhing like living nightmares. One of them lunged, its clawed appendage slicing through the air just inches from your shoulder.
A burst of neon light blinded you as you stumbled forward, crashing into a mirrored wall. The surface rippled under your touch, distorting your reflection. You turned, back pressed against the glass, as the creatures closed in.
The largest of them, a towering mass of void and shadow, loomed over you. Its hollow eyes burned with a hunger you couldn’t comprehend. Its whispers turned into a deafening roar as it lunged.
“NO!” you screamed, bracing for the impact.
But then the mirror behind you shattered, and an arm shot through the jagged shards, yanking you back with a force that knocked the breath out of you.
You tumbled to the ground, landing hard on the other side of the mirror. The air was different here, colder but less oppressive.
“Got you,” San’s voice came, low and fierce. His grip on your wrist was unyielding, and his eyes burned with determination.
“San!” you gasped, tears blurring your vision.
“Stay behind me,” he ordered, his tone sharp and commanding.
The creatures weren’t done. They began slipping through the shattered mirror, their forms reforming with a horrifying fluidity. San pulled you to your feet, his gaze darting around, calculating.
“We’re not safe yet,” he said, his voice tight. “Run!”
He pulled you along as the creatures poured into the new corridor, their shrieks echoing through the maze. You ran as fast as you could, San leading the way, his grip never faltering.
Suddenly, you both turned a corner and saw it—a door at the far end of the maze. Relief surged through you, but your hope was quickly dashed. The door wasn’t ordinary; it was made entirely of thick, reinforced glass.
San stopped beside you, his face set in grim determination. "We’re almost there. Keep moving!" he barked, grabbing your wrist and pulling you along.
The creatures shrieked behind you, their distorted forms growing closer with every second. You both skidded to a halt in front of the glass door, and San quickly examined it.
“It’s locked!” you gasped, panic rising in your throat.
“Not for long,” San muttered.
“Huh?”
Without hesitation, he stepped back, his fists clenching. Then, with a guttural yell, he slammed his fist into the glass. A web of cracks splintered across its surface, but it didn’t shatter.
The creatures were nearly upon you, their whispers turning into a deafening roar. San didn’t stop. He struck the glass again, this time with everything he had, and the door exploded into shards with a thunderous crash.
“Go!” he shouted, grabbing you by the waist.
“Wait—what are you—”
Before you could protest, San lifted you effortlessly and hurled you through the opening. You landed on the other side with a thud, scrambling to your feet just in time to see him climb up the jagged edges of the broken door, the neon lights behind him casting an almost heroic glow around his figure.
San leapt through, landing in a crouch beside you as the creatures clawed at the shattered remains of the glass. He grabbed your hand and pulled you up.
“Run,” he commanded, his voice steady despite the chaos.
You didn’t need to be told twice. Together, you sprinted away from the maze, the sounds of the creatures fading behind you as the two of you finally escaped its horrifying grasp.
Both of you stumbled out of the maze, panting heavily. The moment your feet hit solid ground, the mirrors behind you shimmered and collapsed inward, dissolving into nothingness. The silence that followed was deafening, the only sound being the ragged rhythm of your breathing.
San slammed his fist against the nearest wall, his jaw clenched tight. “Damn it! We failed!” His voice echoed through the empty library.
You flinched at his tone, but you didn’t blame him. After everything you had been through, it was hard to come to terms with failure.
San ran a hand through his hair, his frustration palpable. “All of that, and we still don’t know what I needed to know. We’re wasting time we don’t have!” His eyes darkened, a rare glimpse of despair flashing through them.
You were about to try and console him when something caught your attention—a slight weight in your pocket that wasn’t there before. Your hand slipped inside, and your fingers brushed against the edges of a piece of paper.
“What the…” you murmured, pulling it out. It was old, almost fragile, the edges yellowed as if it had existed for decades. Strange symbols and scrawled writing adorned its surface.
“San,” you called softly. He didn’t respond, too busy pacing angrily.
“San,” you repeated, more firmly this time.
“What?” he snapped, turning to you, his eyes sharp.
You held up the paper. “I found this in my pocket.”
His expression shifted from irritation to confusion. He stepped closer, snatching the paper from your hand and scanning it quickly. His eyes widened as he read, his grip on the paper tightening.
“This… this is it,” he breathed, almost disbelieving.
“What is it?” you asked, peering over his shoulder.
San pointed to a phrase written in bold near the bottom of the page: “The Key to Realms: Chromer.”
“It says the key we’re looking for isn’t a traditional key. It’s a sand clock,” San explained, his voice filled with sudden urgency. “A sand clock called Chromer. And it’s in the principal’s office.”
Your brows furrowed. “A sand clock? Why would something like that be the key to anything?”
“It’s not just any sand clock,” San replied, his tone deadly serious. “The Chromer is a relic that connects dimensions. It’s what I need to go back to my realm. This is the information we were searching for.”
You both stared at the paper, the weight of its significance settling over you.
“But how did it get in my pocket?” you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
San shook his head, his expression unreadable. “I don’t know. Someone—or something—wanted us to have this. Whatever force controls this place isn’t done with us yet.”
The two of you exchanged a glance, the reality of the situation sinking in. The journey was far from over. If anything, it had just begun.
The hallways stretched endlessly ahead, dim and cold, as if life had been sucked out of the building. The air felt heavier with every step, and the faint echoes of your hurried footsteps reverberated eerily. San walked ahead, his shoulders tense but his movements calculated and sure.
You, on the other hand, couldn’t stop glancing nervously over your shoulder. The memory of those void-like attackers from the maze haunted you, and your gut told you they weren’t done yet.
“Stay close,” San said over his shoulder, his voice low.
You nodded, clutching your jacket tighter as if it could shield you. Suddenly, a shiver ran down your spine—an unnatural chill that made your skin prickle. Before you could react, a guttural sound tore through the silence.
They were back.
Out of the shadows, black void-like figures materialized, their featureless forms surging toward you. But this time, something was off. They weren’t even glancing at San. All their focus was on you.
“San!” you screamed, backing up instinctively.
San turned sharply, his eyes narrowing as he took in the scene. “Why the hell are they only after you?” he muttered, stepping in front of you.
One of the figures lunged, and he swatted it away effortlessly with his arm. “Just stay behind me!”
“I’m trying!” you yelled, dodging another swipe from one of the creatures.
Despite his best efforts, they kept finding ways around him, their movements unnervingly quick and calculated. San could only defend so much, and his frustration was mounting.
“You need to fight back!” he barked, slashing through one of the attackers with a weapon he’d conjured from seemingly nowhere.
“I don’t know how to fight!” you snapped, ducking as another creature swiped at your head. Your heart was pounding so hard it felt like it might burst out of your chest.
“Then run smarter!” San shouted, his voice strained. “Don’t just run blindly—watch their movements!”
Easy for him to say. You scrambled to your feet after nearly tripping over yourself, your breaths coming in short, panicked gasps. The creatures weren’t slowing down. One lunged at you from the side, and you barely managed to dodge, crashing against the wall.
“Damn it!” San growled. He lunged forward, grabbed your arm, and yanked you toward him. “Stay close—closer!”
He practically dragged you down the hallway, his speed making it hard for you to keep up. His movements were fluid, each strike precise as he knocked away the attackers that got too close.
Still, they came.
Another void-like figure lunged directly at you, faster than the others. You couldn’t move in time. But just as its claws were about to reach you, San spun around, shielding you with his body. The creature’s attack hit him squarely in the back.
San didn’t even flinch.
“San!” you gasped.
“I’m fine,” he gritted out, slashing the creature to nothingness. “But you won’t be if you don’t stop being a damn target.”
“I’m not trying to be a target!” you shot back, the fear making your voice crack.
San sighed heavily, glancing at the path ahead. “We’re almost there. You just have to survive a little longer.”
“That’s not very comforting!” you hissed.
He didn’t respond, instead focusing on cutting a path through the swarm of attackers. The principal’s office was just up ahead, its door faintly illuminated like a beacon.
“Run!” he commanded, pushing you forward.
With every ounce of strength you had, you sprinted toward the door. The attackers closed in, but San was right behind you, clearing a path and yelling for you to keep moving.
You reached the door, slamming your hands against its cold surface. It wouldn’t budge.
“It’s locked!” you shouted, panic surging.
“Move!” San barked, his voice sharp. He didn’t hesitate, driving his fist into the glass pane. It shattered instantly, the shards spraying everywhere. Without a second thought, he gripped you around the waist and hoisted you up.
“Go through!” he demanded, lifting you through the broken opening and onto the other side.
You scrambled over, your heart still racing. San quickly followed, vaulting through the broken glass. He landed beside you, his chest heaving.
For a moment, neither of you spoke, the chaos behind you finally falling silent. Then San glanced at you, his expression unreadable.
“You’re alive,” he said simply, his tone more relieved than he let on.
“Barely,” you muttered, collapsing against the wall.
He smirked faintly, brushing glass dust off his clothes. “Good enough.”
Your legs felt like jelly, your lungs burned from the constant running, and every part of you was screaming to stop. The fear, the chaos—it was all too much. You pressed your back against the wall, glaring at San as he dusted himself off like nothing had happened.
“I can’t do this anymore,” you snapped, your voice trembling with exhaustion and frustration. “This is insane, San! I’m not some fighter, I’m just... I’m just a student who got stuck in this nightmare!”
San turned to you, his sharp gaze softening ever so slightly. For a moment, he didn’t say anything, as if weighing his words.
“I didn’t ask for this either,” he finally said, his voice calm but firm. “But we don’t have a choice. You’re my only shot at fixing this mess, and I’m your only shot at surviving it.”
You scoffed, throwing up your hands. “Great pep talk, really. But I’m done, San. I can’t keep running and almost dying every five minutes!”
Instead of arguing, he pulled out his watch. The faint, flickering blue light of the device illuminated his face as he fiddled with it.
“What are you doing now?” you asked, exasperated.
“Calling my family,” he said simply, his tone uncharacteristically soft.
The watch buzzed faintly, then a holographic screen popped up, displaying blurry but familiar faces. You recognized one of them immediately—the leader, Hongjoong, with his sharp eyes and commanding presence.
“San,” Hongjoong’s voice came through, clear and steady. “You’re still alive.”
“Barely,” San muttered, glancing at you. “I’ve got her with me. We made it out of the maze, but things are getting worse. The attackers are targeting her now.”
“Why her?” Seonghwa’s voice chimed in, his tone calm but laced with concern.
“I don’t know,” San admitted, running a hand through his hair. “But it’s making everything ten times harder.”
Another voice cut in—Wooyoung’s. “Maybe she’s got something they want? Or maybe she just smells like fresh prey.”
“Wooyoung, not helpful,” Yunho interjected.
You felt scared. Being in the mercy of these unknown and certainly shady men. He can do whatever he wants to you. It all came down like a mirror shattering. Ironic
“Look,” San continued, ignoring the bickering, “we’re on our way to the principal’s office. We think the key—the Chromer—is there. But it’s getting harder to move without drawing attention.”
“You need to keep her safe, San,” Hongjoong said, his voice firm but an underlying meaning present. “Whatever it takes.”
San’s jaw tightened. “I know that, hyung.”
You sat quietly, watching the exchange. It was clear that these people weren’t just his team—they were his family, and their concern for him was genuine.
“San,” a new voice broke in, deeper and more commanding. It was Jongho. “Do you think she can handle it?”
San glanced at you, his eyes searching your face. “She’ll have to.”
Your heart sank at his words. He wasn’t wrong, but the weight of it felt crushing. You wanted to argue, to tell them all that you weren’t cut out for this. But something about the way San looked at you—determined yet oddly reassuring—made you hold your tongue.
“Stay in contact,” Hongjoong said. “And don’t do anything stupid.”
The hologram flickered and disappeared, leaving you and San in the dim light of the hallway.
He slipped the watch back onto his wrist and turned to you. “I know this is hard,” he said quietly, his voice softer than before. “But we’re almost there. Just a little longer, okay?”
You looked at him, searching his face for any sign of doubt. But all you saw was determination—and maybe, just maybe, a hint of trust.
“Fine,” you muttered, pushing yourself off the wall. “But if I die, I’m haunting you forever.”
San smirked faintly. “Fair deal.”
As San and you finally found the door to the principal's office, you both stopped in front of it. The door was large, dark, and imposing, a heavy weight hanging in the air as you both stared at it.
San’s eyes locked onto you, his face tense. “You need to go in there. The Chromer is in that office, and it’s the only thing that can get me back to my realm. You have to do this.”
You hesitated, feeling the fear creep into your chest. “I... I can’t, San. What if something happens to me in there? I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m not like you. I can’t fight.”
San’s frustration was palpable, his fists clenching as his tone grew more urgent. “We don’t have time for hesitation. You have to go in there and get it. Do you understand?”
You took a step back, heart pounding. “I can’t do it. I’m not strong enough. I’ve never been strong enough.”
Before San could reply, the watch on his wrist buzzed, and Hongjoong’s calm voice came through.
“Hey,” Hongjoong said, his tone reassuring yet firm, “we know you’re scared. But you have to do this. San needs you.”
Next, Seonghwa spoke up, his voice gentle but steady. “You might not think you’re strong, but you are. You’ve already done more than most people could ever imagine. You’ve come this far, haven’t you? That’s strength.”
You felt a sense of warmth from their words, but the fear still held you tight. Then you heard Jongho’s voice, clear and strong, cutting through the fog of doubt in your mind.
“Listen to me,” Jongho said, his voice carrying that same unwavering confidence. “You’re not alone. We’re all right here, cheering you on. I know it’s scary, but I believe in you. We all do.”
A slight shift in San’s demeanor caught your attention as he stared at you. His frustration softened, replaced by a look of understanding.
"Jongho's right," San added, his voice quieter now, tinged with sincerity. “I wouldn’t be asking you if I didn’t believe in you too. You’ve got this.”
The weight of their words, their unwavering belief in you, was enough to start dissolving the fear. You didn’t want to disappoint them—especially not San.
Yeosang’s voice cut in next, surprising in its warmth. “You’re stronger than you think. You can do this. We’re right here with you. One step at a time. Just trust yourself.”
Mingi chimed in with his usual confidence, “And if you need any backup, we’ve got your back. We’re with you every step of the way.”
Wooyoung added his usual teasing tone, “You’re stronger than you give yourself credit for, trust me. Now go show us what you’ve got.”
With each of their voices echoing in your mind, you felt the weight of your fear start to lift. You weren’t alone in this. They were all behind you.
You took a deep breath, summoning the courage you didn’t even know you had. “Okay,” you whispered, your voice steadier than before. “I’ll do it. I’ll go in.”
San’s expression softened, a quiet gratitude in his eyes. “Thank you,” he said, his voice sincere. “You don’t know what this means to me.”
You gave him a small nod, looking back at the door. The fear was still there, but now there was determination too. You weren’t just doing this for yourself—you were doing it for San and his family. And that made all the difference.
You stepped up to the door, your hand shaking slightly as you reached for the cold handle. Before you could second-guess yourself, you turned it, pushing the door open slowly. With one last glance at San, you stepped into the unknown, ready to face whatever waited inside.
San and you stood in front of the principal’s office. It looked imposing, with dark, heavy wooden doors that had a strange energy about them. The air felt thick, as if something was lurking just beyond those doors.
San, his face tense with anticipation, turned to you. “You have to go in. We don’t have time to waste.”
You took a step back, shaking your head. “I can’t... What if something happens to me? What if I get caught?” Your heart raced, fear creeping up your spine. You didn’t want to be the weak link, but the thought of stepping into that office alone was overwhelming.
San’s jaw clenched, frustration flickering in his eyes. His patience, usually so steady, was starting to crack. “We don’t have a choice! You’re the only one who can get in there. You’re the student. I’m not allowed in.”
“I don’t know if I can do this,” you muttered, looking away, unable to meet his gaze.
The tension in the air thickened. San’s hands clenched at his sides, his fingers twitching as if he was on the verge of snapping. But before he could say anything, his watch buzzed to life, and the voice of his captain echoed in the silence.
“San, calm down,” Hongjoong’s voice came through, cool and authoritative. “Let her breathe. You know she’s scared.”
San’s eyes hardened as he spoke through clenched teeth. “But we need this, hyung. We can’t afford to fail now.”
“I know,” Hongjoong responded. “But you can’t push her. You’ve trained with her, you know what she’s capable of. Give her a moment. We can’t force her to go in, but we can help her understand why it’s important.”
San's gaze softened slightly as he looked at you, seeing the fear written all over your face. He let out a slow breath and then spoke, his tone more gentle this time. “Look, I know it’s terrifying. But you’re not alone. We’re all here, and we won’t let anything happen to you. You just have to trust me, and trust yourself.”
You felt the weight of his words, but still, doubt lingered in your mind. “What if it’s too dangerous?”
Hongjoong’s voice came again, more insistent. “It is dangerous, but do you want to know what’s even more dangerous? The alternative. We don’t know how much time we have. You’re the key to all of this, and you can’t let fear stand in the way now.”
San stepped closer, his eyes unwavering. “We’ll get through this together. But you need to go in. Do it for us. For you. And for what’s right.”
You hesitated, but then San’s words sunk in. He was right. The fear that had held you back was still there, but so was the determination. You had come this far. You couldn’t turn back now.
Taking a deep breath, you nodded slowly. “Okay. I’ll do it.”
San’s expression softened with relief, but there was a hint of pride in his eyes. “Thank you.” He stepped back, his eyes fixed on the door. “I’ll be right here. Just get what we need.”
With a final look at him, you reached for the door handle, your fingers trembling slightly as you pushed it open. The darkness inside was almost suffocating, but you stepped in, ready to face whatever came next.
As the door clicked shut behind you, you could hear San’s voice, faint but comforting, echoing through the hallway. “You’ve got this.”
You pushed the door open, the sound of it creaking in the silence. Inside, the room was dimly lit, with rows of old bookshelves lining the walls. A desk stood in the center, cluttered with papers and objects that looked ancient and important. The air felt heavy with a strange energy, the kind that made your skin tingle and your heart race.
Your eyes scanned the room, and that’s when you saw it—the sand clock, sitting on a pedestal in the far corner. The chromer. It glowed faintly, its sands moving impossibly slow inside the glass.
You swallowed hard, trying to steady your breath as you walked towards it. Each step felt like it was pulling you deeper into the unknown. This was it. This was the key. You could feel its power, like it was calling to you, urging you to take it.
You reached the pedestal, hesitating for just a moment. Was this really happening? Was this how you were going to help San? You had no idea how this sand clock worked, but you didn’t have a choice. You picked it up gently, feeling the cool glass under your fingers. The sand inside swirled, almost like it had a life of its own.
Just as you turned to leave, you heard a faint creak of the floor behind you. Your heart skipped a beat, and you spun around, instinctively clutching the chromer tighter. But it was only the wind. There was no one else in the room, nothing to worry about—at least, for now.
You breathed a sigh of relief and made your way back to the door, keeping a sharp eye on the room around you. With one final glance at the sand clock in your hands, you pushed open the door and stepped out.
San was standing there, his back to the wall, waiting. His expression softened when he saw you holding the chromer. Without a word, he walked towards you, his hand outstretched.
“We did it,” you said, holding it out to him.
San nodded, a faint smile tugging at his lips, though his eyes were full of concern. “You’re alright?”
You nodded back, still a little shaken but relieved to be out of there. “I’m fine.”
He reached for the chromer, taking it from your hands. As his fingers brushed against it, he let out a quiet sigh, as if the weight of the moment had finally caught up with him. “This is it,” he said softly. “With this, I can go back.”
You both stood in the hallway, the weight of your mission heavy in the air. It wasn’t over yet, but at least you had what you came for.
San gave you a long look, his eyes filled with gratitude. “I couldn’t have done this without you.”
San’s arms suddenly wrapped around you, lifting you off the ground effortlessly. You gasped, your heart racing as you instinctively tried to push away, but his grip was firm, secure.
“Wait—San!” you stammered, panic rising in your chest. “What are you doing?! Put me down!”
His smile was wide, his eyes shining with pure relief and joy. “We did it,” he said, his voice almost a whisper. “I’m not letting you go yet. You helped me get this, and you’re going to be safe with me.”
You squirmed slightly in his arms, but the more you tried to pull away, the tighter his grip seemed to become. The sensation of being carried—of someone else having complete control over you—was overwhelming, and you couldn’t quite figure out why it made you feel so vulnerable. You had always been independent, had always taken care of yourself. No one had ever carried you before.
“San, I—” You trailed off, trying to calm your racing thoughts. His steady heartbeat echoed against your back, reminding you how close you were to him. “Please, I’m not used to this.”
He slowed his pace slightly, as if sensing your discomfort, but he didn’t stop. “I won’t let anything happen to you, I promise.”
Despite his words, a knot of unease twisted in your stomach. Your chest tightened, and your hands instinctively gripped his jacket, as if trying to steady yourself. You couldn’t explain it—the way he was holding you felt so... foreign. So intimate.
You swallowed, attempting to push the discomfort aside, but the fear still lingered. The feeling of being completely at his mercy, so exposed in his arms, made your heart race for all the wrong reasons.
“San, I’m scared,” you admitted, your voice small.
His steps faltered, and he looked down at you, his expression softening. “Hey, it’s okay,” he said gently. “I won’t hurt you. I’ll get you to safety.”
But the truth was, you weren’t just scared of being in his arms—you were scared of what this might mean. You weren’t sure how to handle the feeling of being cared for, of being protected in such an overwhelming way.
You didn’t know what to say, how to react to all of it, so instead, you stayed quiet, allowing him to carry you. You didn’t want to seem weak, didn’t want to burden him with your confusion.
And yet, despite your unease, a part of you felt comforted by his hold. Part of you felt... safe.
San adjusted his jacket as he stood in the middle of the chromer's glowing circle. The energy buzzed around him, and his mind was calm yet excited. This was the moment he'd been planning for days. He was going to ensure everything was set right — that you would go back to your world, and he would return to his with his friends.
As the chromer activated, the world blurred and spun, the familiar hum of its power resonating in his chest. Then, everything stopped abruptly. He felt solid ground beneath his feet, and as his vision cleared, a grin spread across his face.
He was back. The comforting sight of his realm and his friends standing nearby filled him with relief. "Finally," he muttered, stepping forward. But then, a small movement behind him made him freeze.
He turned his head slowly, and there you were, standing wide-eyed and just as disoriented as him. San’s smile faltered, replaced by a mix of confusion and disbelief. His friends, who had started to approach him with cheers of welcome, suddenly stopped in their tracks. Their gazes darted between him and you, their expressions mirroring the bewilderment in his heart.
“San…” Wooyoung was the first to break the silence, his tone tinged with disbelief. "Who’s… she?"
San opened his mouth, closed it again, then ran a hand through his hair in frustration. This wasn’t supposed to happen. You weren’t supposed to be here. He had been sure the chromer would teleport you back to your world, far away from his chaotic reality. But somehow, you were here, standing in his realm, right next to him.
“I—uh—this wasn’t supposed to happen,” San stammered, glancing at you and then at his friends.
You looked at him, your voice soft but steady despite the strangeness of it all. “San… why am I here?”
Before he could answer, Yunho stepped forward, his tall frame imposing but his tone kind. “Wait, wait, wait. Are you telling me this is the girl you’ve been talking about?” He gave San a knowing look, a sly smirk tugging at his lips.
San groaned inwardly. “Yes, but—listen, this wasn’t the plan. She wasn’t supposed to come here.”
“Well, she’s here now,” Seonghwa chimed in, crossing his arms. His gaze flickered to you, assessing but not unkind. “What are you going to do about it?”
San’s mind raced. He turned to you, his tone softening. “I’m sorry. I don’t know how this happened. I thought the chromer would send you back to your world.”
You blinked, taking a hesitant step closer to him. “So… this is your world? Your realm?”
San nodded slowly, his lips pressing into a thin line. He could see the questions swirling in your eyes, but what caught him off guard was the faint flicker of awe. You weren’t panicking; instead, you were looking around with cautious curiosity.
“Okay, hold up,” Wooyoung interrupted, stepping between the two of you with a playful grin. “This is kind of amazing. She’s here, Sannie. Isn’t that… good?”
San shot him a glare. “That’s not the point.”
“So what are we gonna do now?” Mingi piped up, his voice heavy. He gestured at you dramatically, “we have a child with us”
You look at him with an offended face “I'm not a child. Just because you got an extra 1ft up your butt doesn't mean I'm a child”
San sighed, rubbing his temples. This was a problem. But atleast his friends were enjoying this more than they should, but deep down, a part of him couldn’t deny the strange sense of relief. You were here. With him. It wasn’t what he had planned, but maybe… just maybe, this wasn’t a bad thing.
“I don't know,” San muttered, glancing at you. “You’re here now. We’ll figure this out together.”
“i don't trust any of you, just take me somewhere safe”
San flinched slightly at your blunt tone. His friends exchanged amused glances, but there was a hint of curiosity in their eyes as they sized you up.As you walked, you couldn’t help but feel the weight of their gazes—some curious, others amused—but it was San's quiet presence beside you that gave you a strange sense of reassurance. Maybe, just maybe, you could trust him. For now.
"Safe?" Wooyoung echoed, placing a hand dramatically on his chest. "You wounded me! We are the definition of safe."
You crossed your arms and raised an eyebrow. "Yeah, sure. If safe means being surrounded by a bunch of guys who probably argue over who gets the last slice of pizza."
Wooyoung gasped in mock outrage while Yunho let out a deep chuckle. "She’s not wrong," Yunho admitted, scratching the back of his neck.
"Guys, can we focus?" San snapped, rubbing his temples again. He turned to you, his expression softening despite the frustration evident in his voice. "Look, I understand this is overwhelming. It wasn’t supposed to happen like this. But I promise, no one here is going to hurt you. You’re safe with us."
You glanced around at the group, noting the mix of playful energy and genuine care in their faces. Still, the situation felt too surreal, and trust wasn’t something you handed out easily.
"Fine," you said reluctantly, though your posture remained guarded. "But if anyone tries anything funny, I’ll…" You trailed off, looking down at your empty hands. "I’ll… figure something out," you finished awkwardly.
Seonghwa smirked, his voice calm and teasing. "Noted. No funny business."
Behind you, Mingi whispered loudly to Jongho, "She’s feisty. I like her."
San shot him a glare over his shoulder. "Not helping, Mingi."
Hongjoong and yeosang, who had been quietly observing from the back, finally decided to chime in.
Hongjoong adjusted his captain’s hat and gave a dramatic sigh. “So, let me get this straight,” he said, stepping forward and crossing his arms. “San accidentally brought you here, and now we’re babysitting?”
"Not a child," you snapped again, glaring at him.
Yeosang tilted his head, his calm demeanor in stark contrast to the chaos around him. “She has a point,” he said simply. “But the bigger question is, what are we going to do now? We don’t even know how she fits into this.”
You frowned, feeling like you were being talked about like some kind of puzzle piece. “I’m standing right here, you know. Maybe ask me instead of acting like I’m some sort of problem.”
San sighed, clearly at his wit’s end. “Hongjoong, Yeosang, can we not make this worse? She’s already stressed out enough.”
“Worse?” Hongjoong raised an eyebrow. “You mean worse than accidentally dragging someone into our realm? Yeah, okay, San, sure. Not worse at all.”
Yeosang shrugged, his expression unreadable. “Well, she’s here now. Might as well make the best of it.”
You glanced between them, trying to gauge if they were as unpredictable as the others. "Are these two always this cryptic?" you asked, pointing at Hongjoong and Yeosang.
“Cryptic?” Yeosang repeated, almost amused. “No. I’d say I’m more… realistic.”
“And I’m the strategist,” Hongjoong added, smirking. “Which is why I’m asking the important questions. Like what exactly you plan to do while you’re here.”
You sighed, exasperated. “I didn’t plan anything! I didn’t ask to be here!”
San, sensing the tension rising again, stepped in quickly. “Okay, that’s enough. We can figure everything out once we’ve all calmed down.”
Hongjoong shrugged, falling back into step with the group. “Fair enough. But don’t think I’m letting this slide, San. We’re going to need answers.”
Yeosang gave you a small nod, his calm gaze meeting yours. “You’ll be fine. We’re not as bad as we look.”
You weren’t entirely convinced, but something about Yeosang’s steady demeanor was oddly comforting. Still, as you followed the group deeper into the unknown, you couldn’t shake the feeling that this was only the beginning of something much bigger.
The tent was much larger on the inside than it seemed, a testament to the strange realm you’d been dragged into. The small room San and Wooyoung led you to was simple but cozy—there was a bed with neatly folded blankets, a small wooden table, and a lantern casting a soft glow across the space.
“Here,” San said, gesturing toward the bed. “It’s not much, but you’ll be comfortable.”
Wooyoung grinned, leaning casually against the doorframe. “Don’t get used to the royal treatment, though. We’re only doing this because someone—” he threw a pointed look at San, “—messed up.”
San rolled his eyes, clearly ignoring Wooyoung’s jab. “Get some rest. We’ll figure everything out tomorrow.”
The two of them left, closing the door behind them. You sat on the edge of the bed, sighing as the muffled voices of the group reached you. They were having a meeting about you, their tones ranging from curious to concerned.
It was only then that you noticed something odd about this room. It felt… lived in. A small detail here, a personal touch there. Then it hit you—this was San’s room.
The realization was confirmed when you heard Wooyoung loudly teasing San outside.
“You’re really giving up your room for her? You’re softer than I thought,” Wooyoung said, cackling.
“Shut up,” San replied, sounding exasperated. “I brought her here. It’s my responsibility to make sure she’s okay.”
“You could’ve just given her my room,” Mingi’s voice chimed in, indignant.
“No way,” San shot back. “She’s my problem. I’ll crash with Yeosang.”
“I didn't ask for this, why does my consent not matter?”
Everyone ignored yeosang.
You blinked, surprised by the admission. He was going out of his way to make you comfortable, even at his own expense. Despite everything, a small part of you felt… touched.
Back in the main area, the conversation continued.
“So, what’s the plan?” Hongjoong asked, his voice sharp and commanding.
“We’ll figure it out tomorrow,” San said firmly. “She’s been through enough for one day.”
“You’re taking this pretty seriously,” Yeosang observed, his tone neutral but laced with curiosity.
“Because I’m the one who messed up,” San replied.
You lay back on the bed, staring at the ceiling. It was strange being in this world, surrounded by people who were so different yet oddly familiar. You couldn’t help but wonder how long this would last—and what San’s words really meant.
As the muffled voices outside the room grew louder, it became apparent that San's friends were thoroughly enjoying the situation at his expense.
You soon realised that wooyoung guy would not leave San alone about the fact that he has brought you here.
"San," Wooyoung's teasing tone cut through the chatter, "what’s the deal with you and the girl, huh? She gets your room and your undivided attention. Should we start planning a wedding?”
San groaned audibly, likely rubbing his temples again. "Wooyoung, shut up."
Mingi jumped in with a laugh. "Nah, but seriously, you’re awfully protective, don’t you think? I’ve never seen you this flustered."
“Maybe San has a crush,” Seonghwa chimed in, his usually composed voice dripping with amusement.
“I do not have a crush,” San snapped. "I’m just trying to fix my mistake. That’s it."
Hongjoong chuckled, crossing his arms. "You know, San, your ‘mistake’ is starting to feel less like an accident and more like fate."
Even Yeosang, who rarely joined in on teasing, raised an eyebrow and smirked. “You did seem pretty quick to give up your room for her. Very... gallant of you.”
Jongho grinned, leaning back against the tent wall. "Should we be worried? What if this becomes a thing? Next thing we know, he’s ditching missions to hang out with her."
“Guys,” San groaned, his voice rising in frustration, “I swear, if you don’t stop—”
“San and the mystery girl sitting in a tree—” Wooyoung started singing obnoxiously, only to be interrupted by Seonghwa laughing so hard he had to lean on Mingi for support.
“Alright, enough!” San finally snapped, his face undoubtedly red from a mix of anger and embarrassment. “She’s not a child, she’s not my crush, and she’s not my girlfriend. She’s just—she’s here because of me, okay? I’m taking responsibility!”
His declaration only earned him a chorus of exaggerated "ooohs" and smirks from his friends.
“Whatever you say, Romeo,” Hongjoong said, winking.
From inside the room, you couldn’t help but overhear every word. You rolled your eyes, but a small smile tugged at your lips. These guys might’ve been a handful, but there was something oddly comforting about the way they teased San. And for some reason, knowing he was defending you—even against his friends—made your heart flutter just a little.
The next morning, the sound of a light knock on the door pulled you from sleep. As you groggily opened your eyes, Jongho stood at the entrance, arms crossed, his usual stoic expression softening ever so slightly.
“Get up,” he said, his tone firm but not unkind. “I’m in charge of you today. San’s orders. We’re starting with shooting practice.”
Still half-asleep, you blinked at him. “Shooting?”
Jongho nodded, walking over to a corner where a small handgun rested in a holster. “This world isn’t safe. You need to know how to defend yourself. If you’re going to stick around, you can’t be useless.”
“Gee, thanks for the vote of confidence,” you muttered under your breath, dragging yourself out of bed.
Once outside, Jongho led you to an open field near the camp, where targets had been set up against a cluster of trees. He handed you the gun, explaining the basics of safety and handling in his usual no-nonsense manner.
“Okay,” he said, stepping back. “Let’s see what you’ve got. Aim at the target.”
You took a deep breath, gripping the gun tightly and lining up the shot. To your surprise—and his—you hit the target on your first try.
Jongho raised an eyebrow. “Not bad,” he admitted, a flicker of surprise in his tone. “But your stance is all wrong. You’re gripping it too hard, and your feet are too close together.”
Before you could react, you fired again. This time, the recoil sent you stumbling backward, nearly losing your balance. Jongho caught you by the arm, steadying you with ease.
“Yeah, that’s what I mean,” he said, his expression softening just a little. “You’ve got good aim, but if you don’t fix your posture, you’re going to hurt yourself.”
He stepped closer, adjusting your grip and positioning your arms with surprising patience. His hands were firm but careful as he guided you.
“Feet shoulder-width apart,” he instructed, nudging your leg with his boot. “And don’t lock your elbows. Let the gun’s recoil flow through you, not against you.”
You followed his instructions, firing again. This time, the shot landed perfectly, and you barely felt the recoil.
Jongho nodded approvingly. “Better. Keep practicing like that, and you might actually survive out here.”
A small smile crept onto your lips. “Coming from you, I’ll take that as a compliment.”
He rolled his eyes but didn’t deny it. “Don’t let it go to your head.”
As the morning went on, the two of you continued practicing. While Jongho’s usual stoicism remained, you couldn’t help but notice the faint glimmer of pride in his eyes every time you improved. Despite his tough exterior, there was something reassuring about his presence, and for the first time, you felt like you could truly hold your own in this strange, dangerous world.
Later that day, as the group gathered around their makeshift campfire, Jongho casually brought up the morning’s events.
“She’s good at aiming,” he said simply, crossing his arms as he leaned back against a log.
Yunho immediately seized the opportunity, his face lighting up with a mischievous grin. “Oh, I bet she is. She already pierced San’s heart.”
The group erupted into laughter, a mix of playful jabs and exaggerated gasps.
“Classic Yunho,” Mingi chuckled, nudging San with his elbow. “You gonna deny it?”
To everyone’s surprise, San didn’t snap back or brush it off like he usually did. Instead, he glanced down at the fire, a faint blush creeping onto his cheeks.
“I—” he started, but then shook his head, letting out a small, almost shy laugh. “I’m not even going to argue with you guys.”
The laughter paused for a moment as everyone processed what he’d just said.
“Wait, wait, wait,” Wooyoung leaned forward, his eyes wide. “Did San just admit to something? Did I hear that right?”
“Mark this day,” Hongjoong said dramatically, pretending to jot something down. “The day San didn’t deny his feelings.”
Yeosang smirked, his usual quiet demeanor replaced by a rare glint of amusement. “Looks like someone’s getting soft.”
San groaned, burying his face in his hands. “You’re all insufferable.”
“But you love us,” Seonghwa teased with a knowing smile, earning more laughter from the group.
Jongho, watching the chaos unfold, couldn’t help but smirk. “All I said was she’s good at aiming. You guys took it and ran.”
“Yeah, but you have to admit,” Yunho said, still grinning, “jongho said she hit the most important target without even trying.”
San rolled his eyes but couldn’t help the small smile tugging at his lips. As much as his friends teased him, there was no denying the truth they’d managed to uncover so easily.
As you sat on the edge of the camp, your eyes drifted to where Wooyoung, San, and Yeosang were huddled together. The way they bantered and laughed, their easy camaraderie so natural, made your chest ache in a way you hadn’t expected.
They were teasing each other relentlessly, Wooyoung doubling over in laughter while Yeosang calmly delivered a comeback that made San groan dramatically.
You sighed, pulling your knees up to your chest. You couldn’t help but feel a pang of jealousy. Not because you didn’t like them being close, but because you wished you had something like that—best friends who knew you so well, who could make you laugh even in the most stressful situations, who felt like home.
The loneliness you’d carried for so long suddenly felt heavier. You tried to push it away, but the thought lingered. What would it feel like to be part of something like that?
Wooyoung caught your gaze first, his playful smile faltering when he noticed your expression. Nudging San with his elbow, he nodded in your direction.
San followed his glance, his brows furrowing when he saw you. Without hesitation, he stood up and motioned for Yeosang and Wooyoung to follow him.
“Hey,” San called out as they approached. “What are you doing all the way over here?”
You shrugged, forcing a smile. “Just sitting.”
Wooyoung plopped down next to you, resting his chin in his hand. “You looked like you were deep in thought. Care to share with the class?”
Yeosang sat on your other side, his calm presence immediately grounding. “Something bothering you?” he asked softly.
You hesitated, not wanting to admit what you were feeling. “It’s nothing. Just… thinking about stuff.”
The conversation earlier left you feeling a little lighter, but not entirely. As the evening rolled in and everyone busied themselves with their tasks, you retreated to the small room San had given up for you. Sitting on the bed, you stared at the wall, lost in thought.
A soft knock on the door broke the silence. “It’s me,” San’s voice came through. “Can I come in?”
You hesitated, then called out, “Yeah, sure.”
The door creaked open, and San stepped inside, closing it gently behind him. He leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his expression unreadable. “You okay?”
You nodded quickly. “I’m fine.”
San raised an eyebrow, clearly not buying it. “You didn’t seem fine earlier. You’ve been quiet ever since. What’s going on?”
You looked away, gripping the edge of the bed. “It’s nothing.”
“Don’t pull that with me,” he said, his tone soft but firm. “You can talk to me. I won’t judge you.”
Something about his sincerity broke through the wall you were trying so hard to keep up. With a sigh, you finally admitted, “I felt jealous earlier. Watching you and your friends… I don’t have anything like that. I never did.”
San’s brows furrowed as he moved closer, sitting down across from you. “What do you mean?”
You swallowed hard, the words catching in your throat. “I don’t have those kinds of bonds. Not with my family, and definitely not with friends. I’ve always been… on my own. Watching you all laugh and support each other just made me realize what I’m missing.”
The room went silent for a moment. San’s gaze softened, his usual playful demeanor replaced by something more serious. “You’ve been carrying that around all this time?”
You shrugged, trying to brush it off. “It’s not a big deal. I’ve managed this far.”
San shook his head. “No, it is a big deal. You shouldn’t have to feel that way.”
You looked down, your voice barely above a whisper. “It’s just how it is. I’ve learned to deal with it.”
San reached out, gently placing a hand over yours. “You don’t have to deal with it alone anymore. You have us now. You have me now.”
His words made your chest tighten, but this time, it wasn’t out of sadness. It was the comfort you hadn’t realized you needed.
“You really mean that?” you asked, your voice trembling slightly.
San smiled, a warmth in his eyes that made you feel a little less alone. “I do. We’re here for you. And I’m here for you, no matter what.”
San's words lingered in the air, heavy with sincerity, but you couldn’t bring yourself to fully accept them. You’d heard promises like that before—words meant to comfort, to soothe—but they rarely held up. People always said they’d be there, and yet, when it mattered most, they disappeared.
You offered him a faint smile, hoping it was enough to convince him you were okay. “Thanks, San. I appreciate it.”
But deep down, the wall you’d built around yourself refused to budge. You couldn’t afford to let it down, not when experience had taught you that trust came with consequences.
San tilted his head, studying you for a moment. “You don’t believe me, do you?”
Your breath hitched, but you quickly shook your head. “It’s not that. I just… I’m not used to this. It’ll take time.”
He frowned, leaning forward slightly. “I get it. I can’t change what’s happened to you before. But I want you to know I’m not like that. None of us are. When we say you’re part of this now, we mean it.”
You wanted to believe him, wanted to let those words sink in, but the scars of broken trust ran too deep. Instead, you nodded, giving him another polite, distant response. “I’ll keep that in mind.”
San’s shoulders slumped slightly, like he knew he hadn’t quite reached you. But he didn’t push further. Instead, he stood, looking at you with a quiet determination. “Alright. Take your time. I’ll just have to prove it to you.”
You nod your head hesitantly. Doubts still circling your mind.
“You keep saying that, but I know you’re not gonna. You don’t have to tell me everything, but… I wish you would.”
For a long moment, the room was silent. Finally, you spoke, your voice barely above a whisper. “I don’t know how to do this, San. Trust people. Believe that they’ll stay. I’ve been let down too many times.”
San’s gaze softened, and he leaned forward slightly. “I get it. I do. But… not everyone is going to hurt you. Not me.”
You laughed bitterly, shaking your head. “How can you say that? You don’t know what the future holds. People change, San. They leave.”
“Maybe,” he admitted, his tone steady. “But I’m here now, and I’m not planning to go anywhere. I mean it.”
You looked at him, searching his face for any sign of insincerity. There was none. Still, you shook your head, your walls refusing to come down. “You don’t understand, San. I’ve heard those words before.”
He stayed quiet for a moment, then stood and extended a hand toward you. “Come with me.”
You blinked at him. “What?”
“Just… trust me. For tonight,” he said, a small, almost shy smile tugging at his lips.
Hesitant, you took his hand. He led you out of the room and through the quiet camp, eventually stopping in a small clearing lit by the moon. The rest of the group was nowhere in sight, leaving the two of you surrounded by stillness.
“I wanted to show you something,” San said, letting go of your hand and stepping back. He reached into his pocket, pulling out a small, worn object—a charm.
You tilted your head. “What’s that?”
“It’s something my mom gave me before I left home,” he explained, his voice carrying a mix of nostalgia and warmth. “She told me to hold onto it whenever I felt lost or unsure. And I wanted you to have it.”
Your eyes widened. “San, I can’t—”
“You can,” he interrupted gently, stepping closer. “You’re not alone anymore. And even if you don’t believe me now, I’ll keep proving it until you do.”
The sincerity in his voice, the vulnerability in his eyes—it broke something in you. Tears welled up despite your efforts to hold them back.
“Why are you doing this?” you asked, your voice trembling.
“Because you matter to me,” he said simply. “More than you know.”
The walls you’d built so carefully began to crack. Slowly, you nodded, accepting the charm. “Okay,” you whispered. “I’ll try. For you.”
San smiled, his relief palpable. “That’s all I ask.”
As the night stretched on, the two of you stayed there, talking quietly under the stars. And for the first time in a long time, you felt a spark of hope—a belief that maybe, just maybe, you’d finally found someone who wouldn’t leave.
In the weeks that followed, something began to shift. San kept his promise, showing up in ways you hadn’t expected. Whether it was a warm cup of tea when you couldn’t sleep, a steadying hand during training, or simply sitting beside you in silence when you needed it most, he proved his words with actions.
The group noticed, of course. Wooyoung teased San relentlessly, while Yunho and Mingi exchanged knowing looks. Even Yeosang, usually reserved, smiled faintly when he caught you two sharing quiet moments.
Slowly but surely, you found yourself opening up—not just to San, but to the rest of the group. Hongjoong taught you about navigation, Jongho helped you refine your aim, and Seonghwa shared stories of his childhood that made you laugh until your sides hurt. For the first time in your life, you felt like you belonged.
One evening, after a long day of training, you sat with San on a hill overlooking the camp. The sky was painted in hues of orange and pink, the sun dipping low on the horizon.
“You’ve changed,” San said softly, his gaze fixed on you.
You raised an eyebrow, a small smile tugging at your lips. “Oh? How so?”
“You’re smiling more,” he said, his own lips curving into a grin. “And I think you’re starting to trust us.”
You looked out at the horizon, the warmth of his words settling in your chest. “Maybe I am,” you admitted. “It’s… nice, having people to rely on.”
San chuckled, leaning back on his hands. “Well, you’ve got us now. And we’re not going anywhere.”
You turned to him, your heart swelling with something you hadn’t felt in a long time: gratitude. “Thank you, San. For everything.”
He met your gaze, his eyes soft and sincere. “You don’t have to thank me. I’m just glad you’re here.”
As the sun set and the first stars began to appear, you realized something profound. This wasn’t just a group of people who had taken you in. They were your family now—a family you’d fought to find, and one you knew would stand by you no matter what.
And as for San? Well, maybe—just maybe—he was your beginning, the start of a life you never thought you’d have.
For the first time in a long time, you weren’t looking back at what you’d lost. Instead, you were looking forward—to a future filled with hope, laughter, and the people who made your heart feel whole.
#ateez#ateez fanfic#ateez x female reader#ateez x reader#ateez x you#kim hongjoong#hongjoong x reader#park seonghwa#seonghwa x reader#jeong yunho#yunho x reader#kang yeosang#yeosang x reader#choi san#san x reader#song mingi#mingi x reader#jung wooyoung#wooyoung x reader#choi jongho#jongho x reader#ateez san#san fanfic#san hard hours#san fluff
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Still have nothing to work on at work, which is atypical, so my boss was like I don’t mind if you want to take off early, so I did, I was like can I work from home the rest of the day? And he was like sure no problem. So now I get to play animal crossing and watch YouTube videos :)
#I had nothing to do yesterday too and I did a whole bunch of busy work#like going through all my old emails from months ago and relabeling our archived cases and just reading documents from my coworkers cases#just to have something to do#and there’s legit like. nothing else for me to do.#hopefully we get some new cases soon cause I don’t like feeling unnecessary.
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1. does anyone remember magical cat emporium. The cartoon pilot Lizzie ldshadowlady dropped out of nowhere in 2017. Girlboyfailure main character voiced by joel. Magical girl trans narrative. Cat oli. I learnt of its existence a few weeks ago and I have not stopped thinking about it since. Watch it now. Look at it
2. Would it be cool if we did a fan project where we write a season of it and expand on this world for funsies. Maybe I already have ideas. Maybe. Is that weird. That’s not weird. That’s not weird. Take my hand
#lizzie legit just dropped this and then nothing else ever came of it. wtf I love this. it’s not perfect but the vision is there and#I’m enraptured.#literally I gave it some time like ‘maybe I’ll stop being crazy abt it in time’ and then I’m still here like. wtffff#so mad at myself for not being in the fandom when this dropped I would’ve been campaigning so hard. I was also like 14 tho sooooo#please please please play in this world with me. take my hand#if this doesn’t gain traction I might just do it on my own. it would be fun to make a group project out of it tho#magical cat emporium#astro speaks#reactivating my latent cartoon fan roots
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But unlike you, who gave up on your wish, and almost destroyed the world in the process...
I gave up on my wish, and destroyed myself.
#in stars and time#isat#isat comic#isat spoilers#isat siffrin#isat bonnie#isat loop#mine#isat au#kinda#isat two hats#isat two hats spoilers#ok warnings...#how do you warn for self-inflicted amnesia#self harm cw#suicide kind of??#uhhh. yeah idk what else to include#and i gotta leave for the airport in like 5hrs and i'm hoping at least three of those i can be asleep so. here#rushed but it wasn't getting done if i didn't rush it#that dialogue just fucks w me#in a world where wishes can legit be a form of magic... it's a pretty significant choice of words#for loop especially#the design is similar to the one i posted before but w a few differences#since they're not tryna differentiate themself from siffrin as much and they're not putting as much effort into their appearance#so hair is still messy and they have gloves bc it's still the best way to keep from biting their nails#the favor tree near this town is a cypress. idk if favor trees can be evergreens but that's my justification for their name#oh and they work at a library bc the librarian took them in#after she like. found them under the favor tree with that book and nothing else#i was gonna say that in the comic but then it was ten pages and i was out of time#i hope it still makes sense with all the exposition i cut lol
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Random scene that came to mind:
Hayato and Momina paired up in science class to do an experiment. Hayato takes over the entire experiment, so Momina decides to be helpful by gathering the supplies he'd need for the next portion of the experiment. Every time Hayato is about to ask for an item, he turns to find Momina standing there already holding it. He silently accepts the item and continues. Every time this happens, he gets more and more paranoid... how does she know just what he needs!?! AN UMA?!
Momina is reading the instructions...
#khr ocs#momo#momina luqman#momo x gokudera#actually not a romantic scene but I dont wanna just take gokudera lmao#based on what happened to me in the 8th grade while partnered with a classmate#he looked legit panicked at one point? I sometimes wonder if he thought I was psychic...I was just reading along lmao#hayato would be CONVINCED this was Momina being a Psychic Freak and nothing else!!! the guy probably dismissed the instructions#from the get go having already done this experiment before so he didnt nofice her reading it...#anyway gonna sleep some more!#I woke up at 1am and finished my activity + project plan!#feeling pretty good about that but also wakin up in the night for hw sucks lol#but I was unwell yesterday so I had to do it like this!#nijojomo world
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me admitting that i dont hate ast*rion after all .
#like him.even . maybe.#i just drew him and i was like teehee~kicks feet and giggles and thenni remembered who this was and#my face morphed in2 thousand yard stare guy#IM SRYYY IM SRRYYYYY#IM FALLIBLE !!#wat do u want from me. if its good taste in characters wwll. u r in tha wrong place .#though i do think its bc like . like tell me why he has 90x the content of anyone else#if i hear wyll say well met one more time im gna blow up our camp.IM SOOOz give me something anything pelase please#like he’ll have nothing for 30 long rests save for a line here or there#but astarion will just want to chat u up every night like can u equal it out please pls ❤️ karlach even .#anyways . i hate gale tho HATE GALE . GALE HATERRR ☝️☝️☝️☝️#idk if its because i found him last or what but atp i dont care to get to know him#this game is legit saur fun . the exploration especially#like i spend 90% of my time opening every vase and crate and reanimating the dead on every1.talking to all the animalz#speak w the dead* i mean#also just rhe potential 4 the funniest mistakes ever#when auntie ethel disguised herself as mayrina in fromt of my eyes i didnt process it and killed her indtead of ethel HAHAAGAHAHAHAHHA#like the sjock of messing smth up so badly but u cant do shit abt it like ok!i guess !#karlach pushing 1hp shadowheart in2 firepitcon accident and killing her . happy family❤️🫶#bg3
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is asmo the only person in the game with skin issues??
is he just unlucky or is everyone else in the game not as obsessed over super clear skin and dont worry too much when acne happens?
#this is a legit question i swear#cause yesterday it was the dry skin (snowy bliss)#today its a huge pimple#(i got one of his old calls in the og game)#in the old games he seems to bring up skin stuff a lot#so im sure hes doing everything in his power to prevent it#but no one else in the house seems to be going to the same lengths#so is this like one of those irony things#where the person who really cares about having clear skin is fighting for their life to keep it clear#and everyone else takes having clear skin for granted and uses dish detergent to wash their face and nothing happens lmaoo#do any of the other characters talk about their skin???#im one of those ppl who have skin issues#but i dont really think too much about it cause its just been a normal part of my life since i was a kid#so a single pimple isnt on my radar#i have to break out or start flaking really bad to start worrying#so....is everyone else kind of similar where they dont care about a little acne popping up#tho i cant imagine lucifer not caring#i think hes just one of those ppl who dont get acne#idk#it feels liks asmo goes the extra mile cause he wants to but also cause he has to#tho i could be wrong#anyways im tired so this is probably leaning on incoherent#obey me asmodeus#i need the lore knowers here#i feel like only three people could answer this with certainty lmao#obey me lore is kinda spread out cause cards and stuff#so i dont expect anyone to know for sure
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i will go to sleep NOW 🫵 (pointing at myself)
#just can’t sleep lately. but#i’m sort of. my mental health hasn’t been getting better but also not worse.#just perpetually stuck in a hole in the ground recently#can’t find footing and climb up but the earth isn’t crumbling away even more for now#like i am alone always nobody likes my creations or me i am a monster yeah yeah yeah it’s getting boring brain#the hypochondria panic about throat cancer is new but i thought we were getting better at handling our health anxiety you wretched creature#and even then it’s recycled. we’ve done cancer so many times#no creativity 🙄🙄#me going over my throat every 5 minutes: i will die in 8 months#i guess with all this loneliness it’s like. it really amplifies my fear of death. my thoughts are all i have ultimately. just the thought of#absolutely nothing… i can’t think about it for too long or else i will start crying#and losing it even more. idk.#you know those characters who hate being immortal n shit. fun trope and i get it but that would also never be me#i would legit do anything for something like that. even just like. 100 more years. ideally a lot more but#yeah. and then my anxiety brain crashes in with ‘you won’t even turn 30 lol’#anyways. bullshit yap time over here i guess. sending good vibes to whoever read this brain fart
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Me pondering: kids are capable of going through and understanding complex problems and their feelings should be taken seriously when it counts.
Me practically: who are all these annoying fucking kids in the milgram fandom and why are they posting the worst takes and most irrelevant bullshit I've ever seen ever???
I think these are valid to coexist.
#haterposting sorry lile kids like amane?#w ACTUAL maturity and intelligence? yes hear them out!!#some 13-year-old posting drivel about “ships” when it's completely irrelevant#or missing the point of very complex plot points bc they are Literally Not The Age Demographic and Actually Dont Understand It?#im SO SORRY i am not gonna b mean to anyone but I WILL HATE THEM FROM AFAR#GO BACK TO BNHA OR DANGANRONPA U ARE ACTUALLY MAKING THE SPACES LOWER QUALITY BY BEING HERE#like obviously it does not matter at all lmao kids will do whatever#i was watching bojack horseman at 13 thinking i was So Smart i don't get to talk#but to be fair i NEVER missed the point as bad as some milgram kiddies in the YouTube side of the fandom#like no “wrong” way to enjoy things but imo they legitimately need to enjoy something else#but literally if your only takeaway from this project is “omg ship cute characters silly”#but you still insist on joining discussion spaces? god please leave#I DON'T HATE MINORS I DON'T DISCRIMINATE i just think the minors who legitimately have nothing to add should shut the fuck up#sorry livechat got me wildin lmaooooo idc that much but like it's a weird contrast#cuz my general genuine feelings for most situations is “yeah listen to kids' perspectives wholeheartedly”#but like ONLINE kids who post about nonsense that has nothing to do with what others are trying to discuss? godddd they legit need to leave#nothing against shipping either long as ur not Gross#(coughbitchesshippingwholeadultawunderagecharacterscough)#but if that's ALL YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT there are way better fandoms for that leave the milgram creators aloooone lmao#minors who actually Think about shit this does not apply to you obviously lol#if ur smart ur smart if you contribute u contribute#but like try to let urself be a kid sometimes too lol
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I've bought so many RH dolls in the past four weeks or so. it's. really disappointing and stressful and stupid and I hate myself, ngl.
#I did really well for a little while there#then I had a very bad couple of days and. I don't know. I don't get it. I guess that explains why I bought a couple that day.#but it just. hasn't stopped since then.#I'm actively working on stopping again now. like it shouldn't be hard right?? but I see them and it's like. oh this is the thing that I#love a lot right now. buying it makes me feel good. nothing else matters. money isn't real. just buy it. it's so pretty.#and it DOESN'T make me happy! of course it doesn't! I feel way too guilty about it!#but I can't do anything about it. I've tried thinking about selling some of my dolls and it legit makes me panic#like the thought alone is so scary that I can't even consider it really#which makes NO sense!#it's so embarrassing and I'm really ashamed and I hate myself#personal
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i have been very sociable since starting the new school yr vs last yr where i was like not lmfao & i was wondering why that was bc i was a lot more sociable in college and then after starting law school i was like avoiding ppl again for no reason and having a lot of trouble being like idk normal talking to ppl bc it’s like i get really 😐 and i will not give anything to ppl i’m talking to which is truly not me at all personality wise but it is smth i struggle w…..but anyway i was thinking to myself why am i doing so much better like i am quite honestly being more sociable than i have ever been in my life now when not much has changed & i had just majorly regressed but i think i was just really emotionally drained last yr for several reasons and i know the reason i was like that in high school was bc i was stuck living w my dad & that was so mentally/emotionally draining that doing everything including talking to other ppl was so difficult and i was very closed off to ppl bc of that & i think i was going thru a similar experience of emotional/mental exhaustion last yr that just made me really drained & not able to be normal around other ppl 😭 bc the only thing that is different abt me now from a few months ago is that i have really been able to let go of certain things that have been causing me a lot of mental distress for a while & even tho i have been dealing w depression issues as always i have been in a way better place emotionally even if not so much mentally & i have been able to be so much more comfortable interacting w ppl & being myself & not being so closed off it’s very nice 😌 i actually feel normal now & it is helping w my depression a lot too bc having that issue again was making my depression a lot worse too. but basically i feel like a normal person again after spending the past yr feeling extremely uncomfortable & not in control of myself bc of how i couldn’t make myself act normal & being all closed off even tho i didn’t want to be. so i love that for me 😊
#michelle speaks#like legit nothing else has changed other than me being less emotionally drained so i think that’s 100% what it was#bc i was so unable to like just behave normally. like i get completely socially locked up it’s very frustrating#bc it’s like i want to just be comfortable & normal but i’m just unable to do that#like u know how normally u just talk to someone & have a convo. imagine trying to do that but ur like 😐 and ur in ur head like a normal#person but ur face is going 😐 and all u can do is give really brief responses & be visibly uncomfortable#& it’s draining for u to do that & u feel embarrassed so u avoid ppl all the time#that is somewhat what it’s like. but i have legit been THE most normal socially interacting w ppl i have ever been recently#like even talking to ppl i have never spoken w before i’m like so normal & sociable it’s great#not even uncomfortable being myself at my externship either which is a huge leap for me i have always been uncomfortable in work spaces#so really i am doing very well rn. i really do think i was just so emotionally drained i couldn’t deal w anything else. so yeah.
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I make only high-quality content.
#Elena of Avalor#Gabriel Nunez#Gabe Nunez#It might seem like I have nothing else to do#but on the contrary I have way too much to do now so let's pretend I'm just unwinding so I won't lose my mind#Don't ask me why I made THIS for this occasion though#I'd like to call it 'every time Gabe laughs'#but I don't think this is every single one because he makes many MANY very quick and little chuckles#and I have no idea whether I can consider it a laugh#And he really often makes that 'pfft' sound but it's certainly not a laugh#And his 'ha!' as a respond to Elena's ha in the Princess Knight doesn't really count either#Anyway it was fun to make and I legit was laughing myself while making it#Yes this is my sense of humor and you have to deal with it#But I hope you like it too akajidkfkkf#My video
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Last night I had a dream and for some reason Jolyne Kujo was in it and she was. also pregnant. while in prison
#jojoposting#it made me do a double take#this was in the legit show just btw#I was watching it in my dream and she was pregnant and I was like ‘araki you are SMOKING something’#it was just so jarring because ‘she would not be fucking pregnant she’d get an abortion’ jajdndnjdjdjd crying#for some reason I remember nothing else from the dream. this part was just so distinct it’s burnt into my memory#jojocore#jolyne cujoh#jolyne kujo#jjba#stone ocean#tw pregnancy#just por si las moscas
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#the fact that i legitimately wanted to go to culinary school and open an allergy safe/nut free bakery when i graduated in 2015#but legit can't figure out WHY i didn't do it is so frustrating. i have gaps in my memory and it's nearly 10yrs later and#I've done....nothing.#and dad showed me someone else doing that exact thing a few days ago.#like honestly........what is the point#sentext#like i hate the pity party I'm throwing but i honestly can't see a path forward that gets me a fraction of a decent life. like 26 is too old#ppl aren't gonna give me the benefit of the doubt anymore im too old for this#when i can't even get a shit call center job i really see nothing for me#except. fast food. lmao.
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TMI emo rant - I'm just moping lmao ( don't read if others being emo makes you mopey too, I don't wanna mope-fy this space :'< take care xx )
When the lady in the workout video says ‘the fact that you showed up for this exercise today is already something that deserves a pat on the back’ after you have felt like a hot garbage of a human being the whole day, week, month, just…
damn lady. coming for my praise and attention starved butt like that 😒
#legit made me feel some sort of way lol I wasn't prepared#not even sure why it stood out like that#like it felt like praise obvs but also made me a bit more sad and disappointed with life lmao#just doin my silly little workout bc I have nothing else to do or going on#don't get me wrong#working out is amazing#it is an achievement to do some sort of movement and it can feel so challenging at times to get it done#but when I don't have anything else going on it just felt like...#well yeah... sad and disappointed in life ig#like oh yeah#THIS is the biggest thing I've achieved recently#sometimes that is a huge achievement for real#but for me atm this all just feels so insignificant :(#and by 'this' I probably just mean me#so basically I'm just being all emo today for some reason#and I shall keep doing my next workout after ranting here unsolicited#and hopefully tomorrow will feel better#xx
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