#and there is simply an element of ego to it - to enjoying the idea that those I admire like what i say

[fellhellion]

🚬….

[infantilebliss]

What is Treasured about Adult Infants

'ABDL' is a label that, although typically falls into a specific category of certain individuals that share a 'general interest' in something, that isn't entirely accurate either. ABDL as a whole often falls into a wide, wide amount of different 'spectrums of taste' and desires that not everyone that is ABDL shares. To say that one ABDL is the same as another in terms of what they 'like' about such is more than likely going to be incorrect, since many people are into the ABDL for a variety of reasons.

Some enjoy the ABDL because they want to relax and enjoy themselves, falling back into a more infantile mindset without any hardship pressing them down... others do it for the humiliation and degradation, enjoying being talked down to and being beet red on their face, the feeling of being dominated or to dominate. Some enjoy have the 'Adult' of Adult Baby being the primary aspect of their ABDL exploration, others enjoy being more then 'Baby', and others enjoy a near-balanced mixture of the two. Whether this AB balancing either has them be in a nursery filled with just 'baby things' scaled for their size, 'adult things' that have some elements such as the changing table and pacifier as they go about acting the 'adult', and others want the two hybridized, being treated as both the adult and the baby that they want to be. Others of the ABDL also have a mixture of other desires, other fetishes, other needs, and other tastes that often can blend into their ABDL aspect (or not)

For someone like me, the reason why I enjoy ABDLs, and more importantly why my tastes always fall into the 'maturity range' of those that act the infant or newborn, is the 'head' of these adult babies. I love the idea of an adult that wants to be so relaxed, so soft, so warm, that their entire being that has been strung up and tied in knots and a variety of walls and pillars in order to survive in a 'social environment' that requires the suppression of so many things be destroyed... the ideals of modesty, dignity, and social appearance being removed as the little ones are allowed to instead focus on themselves... to let their little greeds of feeling connection, of feeling touched, of having someone understand them to be there for them.

A little one that has their mind have their fears, anxieties, and complex emotions and thoughts be either broken down or outright suppressed with instead a permanent 'high', one where the little one feels so soft, secure, safe, happy, and loved that she can't help but let her little emotions burst out of their lips and through their wiggling limbs. One where they don't care if they make so many spit bubbles, adorable silly noises, awkwardly moving their toes or hands without direction or purpose... instead, knowing that everything is taken cared of... a settled, holding feeling where the little one has so much trust, that the little one feels both the lightest they have ever been in their pretty heads and heavy across the rest of their body. One where they don't worry about the destination of themselves as their future is secure in their hearts, being so relaxed that even crawling and feeding themselves is very difficult for them. One where they have an ever-swarming feeling of victory within their awareness, one where they have a connection so deep and a security so soft yet tight that they can simply relax and 'free themselves', being able to let go of so many complex and hard things and instead focus on what is important to them... whether those important things being their little super egos focusing looking towards their cognition and inspirations towards the 'arts' as they are either sitting down in their baby seat or on the floor colouring on their paper, writing whatever they desire, or typing and playing whatever they want on the keyboards and controllers as they let their imagination and immersion be able to go wild, one where their minds are able to be able to explore diverse worlds even within their own wonderlands with their stuffies as they no longer need to suppress such creativity and logic... or their little Id, being able to enjoy eating and sleeping, cuddling and playtime, and letting their infantile needs of listening to someone's heartbeat as they are swaddled tightly and fed their baba, being rocked back and forth as the little cutie feels so close and wanted that all of their urges that they have suppressed due to needing to meet social rulings of the societies that they are forced to walk in be able to not only be released but also fulfilled.

What I love about adult infants and newborns is to have their pretty heads be fully released and freed~ A feeling of all that was suppressed becomes raw and open, and all of the ego that was forced upon them in order to integrated to be forgotten. To allow the little ones be able to be themselves and not feel suppressed, whether it be by others and/or themselves as they attempt and to survive into the 'adult world', instead being able to reach a freedom that so many strive for but will never receive. An adult infant that, even with her much used pampers and her slobbered knuckles, has that intelligence in her eyes knowing and feeling everything that is and has happened, her future sight feeling a sense of ease as her thoughts are about security and love instead of feeling unsteady and alone. One where they are an absolute winner in their hearts and never want to grow out of their cribs ever again~ A feeling of acceptance as they are either treated the full infant or have those adult 'things' that they loved and desired to explore be integrated into their pampered lives. Giving them a freedom to their heads and hearts as they feel like their world has opened up and been released to them despite being in a position where being strapped onto their seats, carried around everywhere, or lying on their backies and tummies is the new norm for them now.

I hope that explains what I love, personally, the most about ABDL, and why the Newborn/Infant elements of it is so alluring to me~

[wrathofrats]

diswa back again with the brain

curious if you have any thoughts about the LA ghoulettes? i've been searching for content of them because... women...

I actually haven’t thought a ton about them since the concert so thank you for bringing them up! I immediately kind of imprinted on this post by @slippy-socks and so I’ll be using/referring to those names and designs and elements bc YEAHHHHHH GHOULETTES OF OTHER ELEMENTS FUCKING FINALLY

Anyways now that I have solid headcanons I can add them to every growing list of ways to make them weird bc oh I’ve been thinking as I’ve been writing this (puts on my t shirt that says ask me about the LA ghoulettes)

Headcanons under cut for length!

Calliope - vocals/ quintessence

I think Callie is more of a traditional quint personality wise. Very intellectual and likes structure. She’s just a more serious gal! Obviously gets along well with aether, they’re kinda book besties when she’s summoned, sharing different books on the stars and magic and other interesting things about the world. She thinks phantom is cute in that aspect. Helping him create maps of the stars in his room with stupid stickers he found. I think Callie’s quintessence revolves more around astral ideas as opposed to medical and body wise like aether and shadow wise like phantom.

She’s a very calm entity I think. She leans femme. Sweet and low energy but with a stoic commanding respect nature to her. She prefers to be alone or with another low energy individual such as aether or rain.

Eden- piano / earth

eden likes mischief. Can be a bit egotistical. Perfectionist and takes her instrument very seriously and can be annoyed when some of the other ghouls tend to mess around more.

She’s very honest, one to not beat around the bush. Gives amazing advice but won’t just tell you what you want to hear, will tell you what you need to hear.

Despite her more aloof side, she is very physical! She loves physical contact, and often has her arm around another ghoul or is on someone’s lap or is holding someone’s hand.

She enjoys hanging around dew, they feed off of each others more chaotic sides and get into friendly competitions that have the other swearing up and down the other is cheating

Loire- cello/ water

Another more introverted ghoulette. Shy and timid and tends to hang around Callie more as she feels she’s more safe and stable.

I don’t think she talks much, simply content on hanging around, partially mute, goes quiet when she gets overwhelmed. I think she has a lot of feelings and tends to shut down a bit, but she’s trying her best

Sweetheart when she’s comfortable with you. Very much is an acts of service gal. Getting another ghoul a drink or a snack or sewing up ripped clothes without asking, cleaning rooms when she sees they’re in a bit of disarray, she likes to stay busy by helping out her pack.

Tends to be seen more around Callie, cirrus and mountain as they feel the most grounded to her.

Soleil- cello/ fire

she’s a bimbo

You’ve seen ifrit the himbo? This is soleil the bimbo.

She’s sweet and strong and kinda stupid. Very extroverted. Loves her pack immensely.

Obviously can be a bit hot headed, her and Eden share an ego and are often together because of it, Eden being more competitive while sol is there to kinda have fun and see how far she can push Eden to be better.

She’s such a supporter, constantly cheering on the other ghouls, loves to compliment them and tell them how amazing they are (can be a bit aggressive but … she’s trying her best)

Like the other beloved himbos, is not allowed in the kitchen or the greenhouse because of multiple incidents (cough, dews a bad influence, cough)

Often seen around Swiss, Eden and cumulus because of their brighter personalities

[yamayuandadu]

Hisami and Zanmu. What drives their love for each other? Does Hisami just like egotistical oni? Do they go on dates? Do they ever cuddle? Would Hisami prefer if Zanmu kissed her or scolded her? Both, maybe?

A truly profound set of questions. Sorry it took me so long to answer them, I haven’t been on social media much lately. I didn’t lose enthusiasm for this pairing or anything - my general interest in Touhou might fluctuate, but I’m fairly sure that much like in the case of junheca my interest in Zanmu and Hisami is here to stay.

I won’t bring much new to the world of zanhisa discourse with this but like many people I like the idea that Zanmu enjoys the fact she can’t fully account for what Hisami does. This idea simply has a lot of comedic potential. Maybe she enjoys the element of uncertainty this introduces to her plans, specifically. Surely it can boost her ego if her plans work even if she is not in full control of some element. And there’s no way Hisami isn’t doing some sort of cartoon villain sidekick yes-man routine during the planning stages (which doubtlessly also provides the desired ego boosts). To put it sort of bluntly, I also think Zanmu is into Hisami on the level of physical attraction. She’s supposed to be a corrupt monk, her irl counterpart according to a legend associated with Ikkyu who famously wrote love poetry and had multiple relationships over the course of his life, there’s no way she doesn’t experience it on some level imo. On a relevant note, it would be cute if Hisami’s title was essentially her memorializing something Zanmu said about her early on after they met. On Hisami’s side, ever since I read about the riveting academic arguments over whether it’s defensible to call yomotsu-shikome forerunners of oni I’ve been thinking about how to adapt that with her character in mind. What I have to offer is that she originally developed feelings for Zanmu in no small part because they share the unusual “sort of kind of oni but you can poke holes in this claim” status (logically Zanmu should be a tengu, that’s the default path for corrupt monks, I would really love to see that referenced at some point). Otherwise she’s just been assigned henchman at birth, and Zanmu lets her truly utilize her talents to follow this calling. 

I like to interpret the game’s events as a pivotal point in their relationship so imo they WILL go on dates at some point at the very least - Hisami’s ending is essentially the first one as far as my headcanons are concerned. I do think they cuddle though. Perhaps more, even. Hisami occupies the position of a henchman with benefits.

Last but not least, clearly a combination of both is optimal. I have some more relevant thoughts pertaining to that that I will spare the readers from (for now).

[m0e-ru]

I think for me the allure in base releases in persona games is how it feels cloudy and there's still mystery involved regarding how one should go about the concepts and characters introduced in the story. as inconvenient as it is, it's fun to scour different media release after, or even before, that release, to see how they tried to present these concepts and characters, how they actually came out to be, and how they decide to shape them henceforth, adding on to what was already introduced and simply building on it, or topping on details that probably weren't obvious in the initial release, or something they wanted to be more prominent to evoke a more specific image of those ideas.

it's fun to look at famitsu magazines and decipher what those game teasers were all about. it's exciting to read through novels or listen to drama tracks to look a new perspectives of the same story, or even look beyond it. the art book gets released and youre looking through creator comments and concept art and deciding whether to agree to these ideas and decisions or not

but when the re-releases came, golden and royal for me, the whole charm of the game was wiped away and just became too... saturated. the eerieness of bright eye searing yellow wasn't eerie anymore, it just look more mellow and hopeful. from fog and static, theres sub and glitter. which is I guess what they were pretty much going for, when they decided to try out a new technique to draw an audience in. the red and white and black gave a monochrome outlook to the player's worldview, and the flashy and chaotic elements of the ui and other game design made it feel like you were breaking out of the off camera elements that felt too limiting, too controlling and tame, yet dark. now, the flashiness felt like too much sugar in a dessert meant to be a bit more bittersweet. there's a new meaning of rebellion vs control considering how yal's prominence in the plot was completely overshadowed with what az had going on.

I guess what in trying to say in the end is that both the base releases and re-releases have their own charm and can be enjoyed in different ways and through different perspectives. it just makes me a little sad to see how these concepts and characters shrouded with mystery and aching to be uncovered, which is what intrigued me in the first place, were just... stripped naked entirely. you look under the sheets torn off by the people that wanted more people to look at these creations and you see that it wasn't even the same thing underneath. it feels like they stuffed all the things people could like than retaining what these things had that people already like, it's just that they didn't realize they liked it in the first place. their insides were mangled and now their outsides were prettied up as well. all this mystery and intrigue I once found were just blank spaces filled in by someone else rather than the audience themselves

yosuke's closeted nature, kanji's relationship with his own orientation, naoto's own identity and representation. even chie's tomboyism and teddie's malleable inhuman body. and even outside of that, there's adachi, another label slapped on him and exaggerated only the traits that would make him more marketable to an active market that wants to be spoonfed to fill their egos and say they're right. and I sit here looking over all that had happened to realize these writers are not as sincere as they could seem. it's a big project after all, and there's too many people looking over your shoulder.

and the nature of fandom itself, I suppose. if there's mystery and intrigue pressured by audience reaction profit, then then fog shrouding them would dissipate and theres no fun looking through the unknown anymore

[readingsbylibramc]

birth chart reading for @moonriseblueeyes

hello! welcome to your reading. l'm gonna give you a quick overview of what l'm going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn't clear, of course. you'll find out your dominants' influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits' analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a locomotive shape. this means that you're a very ambitious person, with a lot of energy. jupiter has a big influence on you, and your life revolves around travelling, acquiring knowledge and fulfilling your ambitions. the empty part of your life is what you have to develop, hence your social, financial life, your self-esteem, mental health and also your communication and thinking style.

your dominant planets are mercury, the moon and the sun. you're probably very smart and witty, you know how to make your way through things, you have great problem-solving skills. you're creative, artistic and sensitive, yet you're also ambitious and adventureous, you're not afraid of fighting for what you believe. you're also very outgoing and sociable, you probably make friends easily as you seem very easy to approach.

your dominant sign is aquarius. you're eccentric and rebel, you don't like being told what to do. you're very considerate of others, as you focus more on the development of a group rather than your persona. that's because you want the people you frequent to be as open-minded as you are. aquarius people are capable of elaborating different ideas in a short amount of time; hence, you either overwork yourself, or you're not able to keep up with all your ideas, leaving projects unfinished.

your dominant element is air. in your life, you adore seeking knowledge of any kind. you may be interested in studying different subjects, from those you study at school like science, maths, literature etc. to more unconventional ones, such as astrology, psychology, criminology and so on. you enjoy interacting with people; even if you’re not that sociable, you’ll still be interested in their point of view and their ideals, as you see it as a way to expand your own mind. you’re also interested in vintage, and you may have a retro aesthetic or just like history in general.

🌎 ascendant in virgo, 18° / 2nd decan ruled by mercury and saturn

you have a practical approach to the world. you’re kind of logical, it’s hard for you to improvize. you always want to keep everything neat and organized, at least in your mind. you could have a natural coldness to your face. you may seem younger than you are, but still very mature and responsible. with your attentive eyes, you pay attention to every single detail you see. you’re a perfectionist, and you always want and try to be at your best state. I would say you’re quite competitive when it comes to your goals, but you don’t really do it to be above others. you do it because your obsession for details kind of stresses you out. improving and proving yourself is a way to boost your self-esteem, you feel fulfilled when you can achieve your goals. you are extremely intelligent and logical, you’re always up for a deep talk or simply for an occasion to gain more knowledge. you like being smart, you always want to know about everything. even the latest, trendy meme counts for you. your nature is very cautious; you’re rarely impulsive, you always think deeply about your decisions, as you don’t want to make any mistakes. because of that, you can be particularly picky. not only with material things such as movies, books, food etc. but even with people. it’s hard for you to open up to someone you don’t know at all. you take things slow, both in friendships and in relationships, just to preserve yourself. you may come off as kind of snobby, but you’re just misunderstood. you don’t like flaky bonds, you need security in your life. physically, as I’ve already mentioned before, you have this kind of strict look on your face. your eyes may be almond-shaped, and you could have a natural feline gaze. overall, you have something smaller about your features; you could have thin lips, a small nose, small eyes… you could have a smaller frame with thin bones, and you don’t gain weight easily. you may be of average height, and I’ve noticed that most virgos tend to have pretty long legs? no matter if they’re tall or not, their legs will still be longer than their bust.

virgo ascendant square sagittarius pluto: you're aware that the world is too nasty for your honesty, hence you may have trust issues. even though you are friendly, you're very picky about who you decide to actually call your friend. you may constantly feel lonely, as if no one were willing to listen and understand you. you live with the fear that others may take advantage of you, hence you end up doing it yourself, unconsciously. you may be controlling, but your chart hints that it's not too much of a big deal. you may have the tendency to do it sometimes, but it's mostly a bad trait of your past life. the universe is testing you to see if you've learned your lesson or not. you have all the skills to avoid this type of behaviour now that you're aware of it.

🌞 sun in aquarius, 19° / 2nd decan ruled by uranus and mercury

this is the most intelligent aquarius decan. even though you may face some insecurities, you’re typically a strong-minded person. you strive for independence, as you focus your existence on your witty intellect. you have the ability to achieve great things, as your mind is literally revolutionary, even though you may struggle to make those projects concrete. a downside to this placement is that you may not give enough importance to your words; you’re brutally honest, and you may often hurt someone with your thoughts. even though you may appreciate it, as you don’t like it when people aren’t straight-forward, you probably don’t realize the effect your words can have on others. you’re also quite stubborn, and you take particular pride about your ideals. you may feel offended when people disagree with you. or maybe, you don’t even say your opinions, because you could be aware of the weight of your words and you don’t want to hurt others, or you’re afraid of being judged. people may define you as cold, but you’re really not. you just struggle to look sweet like other signs. you’re more detached, but that doesn’t mean that you don’t have emotions.

aquarius sun conjunct aquarius venus: you enjoy peace and harmony. you want your surroundings to look all neat and clean, and same goes for the people you surround yourself with. you wish people saw you as easy to approach, even though you may struggle with your image. you try to be as formal and kind as possible with people you don’t know well, unless they start getting on your nerves by disagreeing with your opinions or being too bossy. you’re very feminine, not only in your looks and manners but also in the way you dress. you’re quite romantic too, and dream of having a perfect marriage. the downside to this aspect is that because you take so much care of yourself, people may mistake your self-love for vanity, especially with your scorpio placements. also, your self-esteem may depend too much on others’ opinion of you; you may start thinking you’re ugly and unworthy of love just because someone told you you’re not their type, to sum up.

🌙 moon in capricorn, 0° / 1st decan ruled by saturn

in your group of friends, you’re probably the responsible friend, as you’re very reliable and mature, almost serious. you always want to be seen as a point of reference, yet you tend to shy away from the spotlight. even though you may desire it, you feel too shy and pressured being in the centre of attention. you don’t like talking about your feelings; even if you do talk a lot, you prefer talking about news, hobbies etc. you don’t want to be the subject of the conversation. because of this, you tend to repress your emotions, as you don’t want to be seen as vulnerable. you’re a nice listener, your friends can rely on you when they need to vent without wanting an advice, as you’re probably not the best at finding a solution to their problems. you may find yourself wanting to follow a schedule, otherwise you feel as if you’re too relaxed and you’re not being productive. this is also a placement that can indicate coldness in your family environment / childhood. maybe your parents were quite strict, but overall it was nothing too serious that hurt you deeply.

capricorn moon opposite cancer jupiter: you enjoy making different experiences and living your life to the fullest, making you also a risk-taker. you may lack self-control. with this trait you get bored easily, and you may have a reputation for being flaky. you tend to overindulge; you may spend too much money, or even develop eating disorders like binge-eating. at least, you're able to build your life again and have a fresh start, but you risk to get stuck in this cycle. you have the potential to master different talents, but you may struggle to develop them due to this placement. you're a procrastinator, and you find it hard to focus on more things at the same time. you may also attract people with different beliefs and ideas from you, causing you to fall out with them easily. there are also positive sides to this placement, though! you're probably naturally lucky, even though luck may not always be by your side. you have a nice sense of humor, making you more likeable.

🗣️ mercury in capricorn, 28° / 3rd decan ruled by saturn and mercury

you can come off as cold by the way you speak. when you're speaking to someone you're not close to, you choose your words more wisely and patiently; with your friends, on the other hand, you take off your mask and you just act the way you feel to. you may also be the type to give dry answers, such as 'ok', 'alright', 'good' and so on. your tone is calm and placid, while your voice sounds quite youthful, but still with a note of steadiness. you're funny, but your humor is more sarcasm-based. you're not intimidated easily; even when someone tries to argue with you, you don't back up from it. you may dive deep into your mind to find the right answer you to your problem. even if it takes you some time, you manage to find a solution. a downside to this is that you may lack patience. mercury is also retrograde, so you may have trouble communicating your thoughts in a clear and understandable way. due to this, people may misunderstand your ideas and opinions and viceversa. you're more introspective, you're better at thinking than speaking, which may make you more of a listener.

❤️ venus in aquarius, 24° / 3rd decan ruled by uranus and venus

when it comes to love, you actually step out of your comfort-zone! aquarius is unpredictable; that is, you're not into clichés. sure, you need a loyal partner who's stable both emotionally and financially, but at the same time they must have something unique about them. you're not the type to fall for the first guy you see down the street. in addition to that, you're not into the typical, cheesy romantic stuff. you want your partner to be a friend, not only a boyfriend/husband. you want to feel able to talk and vent to them, just like you'd do with a friend, but also someone that is willing to stay with you through thick and thin. you hardly fall in love at first sight, and you act quite casually around your crushes. in fact, most of the times you come off as so detached that you hardly look like you're interested in someone. people could get intimidated from you because of that, in fact sometimes you just wish you could be the one taking the lead and ask others out, and maybe you do. also, you need a partner that can stimulate you mentally. you can't stand a boring relationship with no amusement and excitement, you want someone that can constantly surprise you in some way. in fact, you'd probably choose brains over looks. last but no least, you hate feeling committed. that doesn't mean that you're unloyal, not at all. but you can't be with someone possessive that wants to take control of your life, it would be the death of you. you're able to stand up on your own.

☄️ mars in aries, 14° / 2nd decan ruled by mars and the sun

you're very impulsive, it's natural for you to act before you think. you're motivated to pursue your goals. you're a natural born leader, you love being the boss and being seen as a point of reference, even though this could make you seem a bit bossy when working in groups. people may see you as fearless, but that's because you don't think much about your decisions. even if you make a wrong choice, you don't give up and try anything to solve it. in fact, you can't stand losing. you're a serious competitor, you always strive for the 1st place. that's also caused by the fact that, with your aquarius sun, you're likely afraid that people could see you as too weak, and then take advantage of your kindness. you're very defensive, but your purpose isn't hurting others, but protecting yourself.

aries mars square cancer jupiter: you easily come off as more assertive and arrogant than you actually are. you say things impulsively, and sometimes you’re too blunt and hurt people’s feelings. you don’t do it on purpose, though, there’s no malice behind your acts; it’s just your natural way to express your opinions. you’re also very competitive, and this may make you look selfish. on a positive side, you probably have a naturally nice body (or maybe you react fast to diet/workout). you’re a risk-taker, and if you’re not you should try breaking the rules sometimes (obviously not doing illegal stuff lol). in fact, it’s when you’re both physically and mentally active that you’re able to come up with even better ideas, as you’re full of creativity. to cope with this placement, you can try doing something fun to challenge your mind, basically get out of your comfort-zone. of course you don’t have to overdo it, but it would be beneficial.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in virgo. you appear as someone intelligent, possibly judgmental and critical. in fact, you’re a perfectionist, and most of the time you appreciate it when someone takes care of themselves just as much as you do. you’re also particularly pessimistic, and this could be annoying for those around you. you’re very logical and pragmatic, and you may even be a bit judgmental. you can read people’s mood very well, it’s easy for you to understand whether someone is sad, angry, happy… because of that, you always try to make people feel at ease, you’re always kind with people, and that makes you extremely likeable. you’re probably a very genuine person. it’s hard for you to hide your real emotions, and even if you wanted to hide them you wouldn’t be capable.

your 2nd house is in libra. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. with this placement I’d suggest that you should pursue a career that allows you to express your creativity, as arts and beauty allow you not only to make money, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could also spend money in venusian things like clothes, make-up, decorations and anything that involves beauty and aesthetic.

your 3rd house is in scorpio. you probably love witty jokes and sarcasm. you’re extremely honest when you think and speak, and most of the time you have no problem expressing your opinions. you could possibly be very good with words and be good at convincing and manipulating others. usually this placement makes someone kind of mischievous when it comes to words, especially with your impulsive aquarius energy that may make you hurt people unintentionally. your mind is very deep, you’re probably not really into small talk. you may also love anything that is considered taboo, like astrology, horror, nudity, death… you’re also quite secretive, you’re seen as an enigma. you don’t want to share much about you. last but not least, you value honesty above all. you only speak the truth, and hence you also want it back. you may as well be into conspiracy theories, science and anything that can expose what’s behind the universe, the government etc. you have amazing communication skills and also an entertaining sense of humor that is able to light up the room.

your 4th house is in sagittarius. the moon and pluto are also placed in this house. you could come from a foreign place, or perhaps you moved houses a lot during your childhood. perhaps, you have someone in your family that is from a different culture or religion from yours, or perhaps they’re able to speak more than one language. your parents could have been very successful at school, they could actually be professors. you might’ve always been a smart kid, you could’ve grown up learning more languages and you were most likely good at school too. you also got to make lots of experiences during your childhood, you might have travelled a lot. your relationship with your family is most likely very good. it could be that there might have been a few misunderstandings between you and your parents, but nothing too serious. maybe, they could have been a bit distant, it could be that they had to travel a lot for work and hence you felt lonely; or maybe, it’s the opposite, they were a bit too affectionate and overwhelming, possibly possessive too, and you may have been babied or spoiled a bit too much.

your 5th house is in the sign of capricorn, with also your sun, mercury and neptune placed there. capricorn usually brings a feeling of seriousness to the house it’s in. you could be a bit more introverted, probably you’re not the type to frequent clubs, parties, etc. you’re more serious from that point of view. your hobbies could actually drain your energy for you; let’s suppose you’re into videogames. you could literally spend the whole day playing videogames, as you take your hobbies very seriously. you’re not the type to start a project and then leave it, you’re very resolute. also, you most likely have ‘mature’ hobbies; you could be into politics, economy, history… you could be into slower types of music, for example, or perhaps you like reading about world issues. with your children you may be quite strict, as you see them as a responsibility. also, you may often be attracted or attract older or more mature partners. you’re most likely a very romantic and artistic person, you may be fond of music, dancing, singing, acting… anything creative that stimulates your senses. yet, you may be a bit picky when it comes to hobbies; you probably only like reading specific types of books, you only listen to a certain music style, and so on. you may also be into spirituality such as psychology, astrology, law of attraction, yoga, mediation, etc. you try to be nice and kind to everyone, as you don’t wanna be seen as someone unpleasant to be with. you have a spectacular way of speaking, almost dramatic, that could make you come off as a know-it-all. when telling stories, you may exaggerate a bit, but at least you’re entertaining to listen. you could also gesticulate a lot while speaking, and maybe you like mimicking voices as well. you aim to express your feelings through creativity, it’s very important for you to write poetry, songs, drawings etc., it’s also a way to relieve stress and worries. your way of speaking is very attractive, it’s like a magnet. with this charisma of yours, it’s impossibile not to listen to you, you most likely have an extremely soothing and entertaining tone of voice. you would do amazing as a teacher or even as a (voice) actress.

your 6th house is in aquarius, with also your venus and uranus placed there. people with aquarius in their 6th house need to change their routine throughout their life. probably, when you were younger they taught you things that aren’t healthy for your body and health. you may have to change your diet, your medicines… also, you may sometimes procrastinate in your day-to-day life. for example you wouldn’t mind skipping a day of school or work to play videogames. this placement also indicates that you may often come across unpredictable events in your daily life. you may often see strange, unordinary things, or perhaps it’s your routine that is like that. you may lack consistency when it comes to diets and health, for example; you may start a diet and keep it for a month, then you get tired and drop it all of a sudden. you could also develop unexpected diseases. you may pursue a career that looks unexpected for you at first, something that you never thought you’d do. it will most likely be a creative, artistic job. it will be a very pleasant job, it won’t even feel like a duty to you as you’ll choose a job that you like and that you’re passionate about. regarding your health, throughout your life you may often come across sudden health problems, illnesses may come out of nowhere. you have a very logical, pragmatic mind. you try to be as well-spoken as possible, especially with strangers, but when people get on your nerves you can’t help but kill them with your words. before expressing your opinion on a certain matter, you like making sure that your thought actually has proof to be supported. you’re very analytical, and hence you also overthink a lot. especially when it comes to people you care, you start overthinking so much about little things like late replies to messages that you create a variety of hollywood-worthy scenarios in your head. you also pay lots of attention to details, and you can’t tolerate typos and grammar mistakes. you always try to speak and write in the most correct and polite way as possible.

your 7th house is in pisces. with this pisces descendant, you attract people that are pretty much very intuitive and soft; they could have pisces placements, or at least they’ll be extremely artistic and emotional. yet, you may as well surround yourself with 'broken’ people. that is, people that aren’t exactly in the best state of their health, whether physically or mentally. also, in a relationship you probably hate feeling suffocated. while your pisces descendant may make you enjoy skinship, you may sometimes also need your space, you still need your freedom. also, pisces makes you idealize your crushes/partners way too much, to the point that you create an image of someone in your head that turns out to be the opposite at the end. you ignore your partner’s flaws, as they seem perfect to you. you may also end up having lots of partners before settling down, as you may struggle to find the right person for you. yet, after that you’ll feel completely satisfied with your relationship, it will bring you lots of love and success.

your 8th house is in aries. mars is also sitting in this house. generally, people with aries in their 8th house are very confident when it comes to taboo topics; they have no problems showing their interest in them, especially with people they’re intimate with. you constantly try to improve yourself by coming up with new projects, you love challenges. they help you growing up into the person you want to become. you may come across some hardships regarding yourself, your identity. but, when you face those fears and start loving yourself, you’ll naturally become more mature and 'transform’. you’re an extremely goal-oriented person. you want to be the best at everything you do, not only to be better than others but also the best for yourself. you’re very astute, it’s impossible to trick you, and you always find a way to be in charge and get what you want. yet, you can get quite obsessed about your goals, that you could do extreme things to get what you want. in fact, people with this placement can even manipulate others, as they’re totally capable of doing that.

your 9th house is in taurus. saturn is also placed in this house. with this placement, I feel like you may use your intellect to gain financial security and material possessions. while this is a good thing, as it helps increasing your confidence, don’t forget that your intellect is more important than money or any other thing. don’t underestimate it. you’re totally capable of learning and understanding things by yourself, hence don’t wait for others for help. you should start dealing with your own experiences alone, without anybody else’s help. this placement can also be someone a little close-minded; in fact, you’re probably very stubborn and firm about your beliefs. you hardly ever allow others to change your mind. you may also be into poetry, philosophy, and just anything that can stimulate both your mind and feelings. in fact, your mind is constantly wandering somewhere else, allowing you to travel with your fantasy. you’re also probably attracted to foreign things, like people, music, fashion, languages, movies etc. you love learning about anything, and you may also have a good memory. in fact, it’s common for you to be the one who explains things and possibly even leads a group, and this could unluckily make you seem as a know-it-all. you do take pride in your wisdom, indeed. your deep way of thinking is also where your desire for freedom comes from, as you wish to be able to expand yourself through travelling and new experiences.

your 10th house is in gemini. jupiter is also sitting in this house. you may actually pursue more than one career throughout your life! you’re very flexible and skilled at multi-tasking, so you probably wouldn’t feel stressed about it. perhaps, you could alternate a creative profession with a more logical career, like working in an office for example. also, your suitable jobs should include communication and creativity at the same time; you could be a writer, for example. or perhaps, you could keep these two things in two separate jobs. what matters is that you use words in both of them, and hence you could even be a judge, a singer, a translator, etc. you may also have to interact with other people in your job, I don’t see you working from home for example. you may also be very popular on your work place, and you may even be in the public eye for your job. in addition, I see you acquiring fortune and abundance from your career, not only financially but also emotionally.

your 11th house is in cancer. this placement indicates that your friends, they’re your comfort-zone. you feel understood when you’re with them, they’re pretty much like a family to you. you can tell them anything, you put all of your trust in them. or at least, if you haven’t met anyone like this yet, you’ll surely meet a friend that is like a soulmate to you. they’ll also be very important for your growth. in addition, it could also be that you’re still friends with someone from your childhood or even high school days, and hence you could literally grow up together. you could also have some step-siblings. you could also have very big goals you want to achieve in your life, probably since your childhood. as a result, you may end up pursuing your dream career for instance.

your 12th house is in leo. this is kind of a tricky placement, as leo rules the self, the ego, and the 12th house rules fears. you could be afraid of being too confident, of feeling worth it, or even just by being in the spotlight. perhaps, you have stage fright. this fear of embracing your persona makes you very insecure, even though you probably don’t show it. also, since your 12th house is the house of dreams, you could often make dreams that involve yourself. you hardly ever dream of someone else, and if you they’re probably your lovers, possibly your friends. you may also make daydreams or sleeping dreams of creative, utopic scenarios. you most likely have lots of dreams, that could even predict the future. you may be a bit too pragmatic to embrace your spirituality. I think you’re already working this out since you’ve booked an astrology reading to discover more about yourself, but remember that you should definitely try to get more in touch with your soul! even doing simple stretching, meditation or yoga can help give you some space to think about your identity, your wants and your needs. the 12th house is also the house of fears, and since its cusp falls in capricorn, you may be afriad of authority, like the police for example, or anything that appears to be much bigger and more supported than you. it may also manifest in fear of not being organized, and also fear of money / success loss.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract pisces, capricorn, aquarius, leo, and cancer placements. your future spouse will most likely have some of their planets in leo, cancer, aquarius or pisces; they’ll be well-balanced, with a stable job and finances. yet, they won’t be too much of a workaholic, as they’re also most probably a chill individual who loves relax and vacation as well. you’re most likely going to meet your future spouse abroad. or perhaps, they are foreign and they travel to your country. you may also meet them in a place related to foreign culture, so maybe in a place filled with tourists, or perhaps in an exotic restaurant, perhaps at a sushi bar if you’re not japanese for example. it may also be time for you for new experiences, perhaps you’re doing something for the first time, such as trying a new sport or taking a plane. you may also meet your future spouse at work, or through a colleague of yours. your children will have capricorn and cancer placements: they’ll be extremely reliable and intelligent; they could be a bit rebellious during their early years, but they will become more mature as time goes by. they’ll be very creative and quite sensitive too.

👶🏻 family life

your mother was probably the more dominant figure in your family. she’s very smart and optimistic, and she could be into fashion and self-care. yet, she could be a bit moody, over-emotional and impulsive. overall, she’s a very joyful person who’s always ready to crack a joke and put a smile on others’ faces. she may be a sagittarius, a pisces, a gemini or a cancer. as for your father, he is more laid-back, but probably very stubborn and also quite protective too. he may have gemini or virgo placements in his chart, as well as aries and scorpio. if you have siblings, your relationship with them may be quite pleasant. probably, you used to get along very well with them, it was pleasant for you to hang out and talk to them. they could have gemini, leo, virgo, libra or taurus placements in their chart.

📊 career

as I’ve already mentioned above, your future career will most likely involve communication of any kind; you could have to interact with other people, and hence you may work in a place that allows you to communicate with others and that can get quite crowded, like a shop for example. you’ll most likely start from these small jobs, like working in a cafe for example. above all, communication and creativity are the most indicated fields for you to be successful. you would do amazing as a writer for example, or perhaps you could even become an amazing teacher / professor. yet, you may even choose to pursue a more complex career, like a career in the med field. you could become a nurse for example, as it allows you to both help and communicate with other people, or even a surgeon, a doctor of any kind. you could even do well in politics or in a company, especially in marketing. you will start from simple things, but as time goes by, you’ll be able to become more independent, maybe even a leader. you probably won’t have to depend too much on other people.

👕 fashion sense, style analysis

you probably have a very particular style. it probably describes who you are. you may be into traditional pieces of clothing that are always a must: cardigans, blazers, plain t-shirts, jeans etc. you probably wear natural shades of colours, hence white, beige, grey etc. or maybe also pastel colors. you may also be into retro fashion trends, especially 70s/80s. you don't like following fashion trends, you prefer making your own.

👁️ past life, life purpose

in your past existence, you were very in touch with your home, self, and probably marriage too. overall, your past life was very peaceful, especially when it comes to your family. this lifetime, though, you need to focus on letting the world know who you are. you have to build a reputation for your name and feel satisfied with your career, while still taking care of your family.

🤔 major transits analysis / july 4

this capricorn full moon is going to be extremely beneficial for you! in the next couple of weeks, you're going to clear your doubts and experience a gradual enlightenment as regards your feelings towards someone or something, your emotions. you might have been feeling anxious or unstable; this capricorn full moon is here to calm you down. exploit this positive transit to start something new: a new hobby, a new routine, a new relationship, etc. it's the perfect timing for new beginnings!

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

you’re very in contact with your spirituality, making you more sensitive to higher affirmations. you have the ability to visualize what you want. that’s the key to activate the loa: travel with your fantasy, and visualize what you desire. do you want a new car? imagine yourself doing road-trips on that car. a new phone? visualize yourself making calls with that phone. you can even literally create a story involving those topics and it will come true. you can also help yourself by writing and listening to your own affirmations, maybe covered up by some music. in this way, you'll develop a more optimistic mindset and you'll be able to attract more positivity in your life. you just have to believe in your power!

this is the end! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

[scytheknite]

Planet Earth

Life is... confusing, beautiful, destructive, plentiful, putrid, continuous, contemplative....

I've recently become aware of the waste we produce on a regular basis. Simple objects and desires create massive destruction to this planet we call home. It can be overwhelming to realize the means we use to create remedies that can have such simple resolution.

The idea "Earth will be here long after humans" comes to mind. In the past 24 hours alone, many negative man-made experiences have been brought to my attention. From animal abuse to satiate the wicked and deranged ego/mind to destruction of the earth for unnecessary gems... It seems the world can never have enough.

We live on this planet and have access to so many resources; it seems irresponsible to continue to live in a community that values vanity over preservation and genuine appreciation.

Why does the rat race force acceptance of a lesser awareness?

Is it so difficult to appreciate and value the things we have? For every negative we try to make a positive... Is that the goal in life? To progress every experience, element, drug, compound, into its ultimate form?

Can we not be happy with a simplistic life? Why do we need to have constant gratification? When did hand made goods and genuine experiences become a thing of the past?

This world we live in seems to be chasing its own tail. We have evolved; yes. But to what extent do we allow ourselves to be forced into unnecessary evolution?

Why does capital gain persist when life can be so simply enjoyed?

At what point do we look around and learn to love what we have? Where has community gone? Moderation, appreciation, shared knowledge?

Our young are groomed to become members of a society that values capital gain over love. They seem to be encouraged to compete or have the best material objects- implemented through social experience and online media. When do we encourage them to simply live? To find the foods, books, sounds, and experiences that will bring them emotional awareness and self-discovery?

How do we encourage the acceptance of a unified and loving society that can rely on each other? When is enough, enough?

Who woke up one day and decided that they needed more than someone else? Why is competition so important? How have we fallen so far down as a people that having more than someone else or taking what they have is preferred to lifting each other to our greatest selves?

One would think that it would be easier to participate in unity to develop our society than to abuse the resources (humans, goods, fuel, relationships) present. What is the purpose of progress if it is not accessible to our entire society? Only those that can afford it, deserve it? At this moment in time a 2-bedroom apartment is between $1200-$1500 in an average community. That doesn't include the overpriced groceries, gas, standard utilities, clothing, and occasional fun experience. The average pay is $15 an hour for a non-collegiate being- how are they supposed to provide a service to society and be able to find peace?

Without peace these beings are ultimately unable to achieve the desired outcome. They become exhausted, unfocused, and angry.

And why wouldn't they? Constant struggle of financial stability, a society constantly changing the social norms, lack of support medically and mentally... These people are Angry. Frustrated. As they should be.

The expectation that we can create beings prepared for the future in these circumstances is absurd.

There are many societal issues that need to be addressed in order to provide a positive environment for the beings of the future. Generational curses that need to be decimated, negative societal structures that need to be evaluated, political agendas that are simply unacceptable... How are we to provide a platform for the future when we are fighting nature on a regular basis?

The encouragement of confusion and scientific exploitation is also a major concern. There are resources available to those who can afford them and those who cannot end up suffering. How is it fair to provide medical services at a cost of close to nothing for disorders that are crafted by the imagination, and not to beings who cannot control their complexities?

As a whole society sits here and accepts what they are given. Will there be a change? Will distractions cease and motivation to create a better path break through? It will be interesting to see how the world around us changes. Hopefully for the positive future of our planet.

[w-ht-w]

Why are we (or some people) drawn to sad things? Especially INFx types?

I suspect b/c it feels familiar. Like solace.

1. We want to help people who are hurting. Empathy is one of the INFP’s greatest gifts. We tend to be very attentive to our own emotions, as well as those of others. ... Because of this, we can experience a lot of “secondhand sadness.” ... it can overwhelm us. The upside is it sharpens our emotional senses... My roommate makes fun of me for how I feel sorry for characters in movies or TV shows who are hurting. Sometimes I even empathize with the villain or a character who has just committed some horrible act. 2. We see life as one grand story with all its ups and downs. For INFPs, sadness is only part of the story — and usually the part that precedes the joyful resolution. Sadness means dreams, desires, and passions are present, even if they are momentarily going unfulfilled. Getting to the heart of these pursuits is the best way for an INFP to relate to someone else, even if the other person is in the midst of a sad time. In themselves, INFPs use times of sadness to bring themselves back to their core values and reinforce the morals and beliefs that make them unique and remarkable. 3. Sadness helps us know ourselves and others better. Sadness helps us learn more about ourselves and others, which is perhaps the biggest reason INFPs value sadness. Personal growth is very important to INFPs, and in times of sadness, we know that people return to their values and are forced to grow. For INFPs, walking with someone through pain and sadness can be one of the most fulfilling moments of a relationship. Hardly anything else fulfills an INFP more than knowing they played even a small part in helping someone grow in a meaningful way. Their emotional intensity often means that when INFPs get low, they sink very deep. They can do this because they believe that ultimately there is a path out. They can step down with a friend going through a hard time because they believe that someday both of them will return to the surface. (x)

“Most people try to hide their sad stories. But I want to hear, I want to know. There’s an element of truth that can only be found in a story that is full of heartbreak. I want to know about the struggles my parents have faced, my friends have faced. There’s a beauty embedded in those stories; a raw, humble, broken humanity in it. When we shed all our pretention and our egos and reveal our brokenness, that’s something I think is beautiful.” – Melissa, an INFP INFs like to empathize. They like to immerse themselves in emotions. Just as the SP feels good when they take an exciting new risk, or the SJ feels good when they put things in order, the NF enjoys feeling, empathizing, and understanding. Does this mean they constantly want to be inundated with negative emotions? No. While they are typically good listeners who enjoy being there for people, they also can become emotionally overwhelmed if they are constantly taking on other people’s emotions. They feel fulfilled when they can listen and connect with struggling people, but they have to do it in moderation. Sometimes they enjoy simply connecting with melancholy art forms or an idea that evokes strong emotions. (x)

I am an INFJ and longing for a deep and honest relationship but maybe I was seeking loneliness and sadness unconsciously. ... I love sad things. I loved characters in fiction books who needed to bury their true feelings and suffered a lot. This is what I have been doing in my whole life.  ... I always thought myself to be a bit odd, often going out of my way to feel sadness and pain, vicariously through my favorite TV series or films. As a kid, it was mainly through books. But once I learned to embrace that part of me, I was all the better for it. We INFJs are emotionally rich; it’s part of what allows us to deeply understand others ... I believe, the choosing of sadness via favorite TV series is a controlled and comforting way of processing my very colorful, and at times darker, emotions. Sometimes my favorite characters even feel like dear friends… of course, not in a out-of-touch way. Mostly, just in a therapeutic way. ... Surely it’s fairly simple – if you are aware that people will all die, that no one here now will be here in 200 years, that everything around you will disappear and be replaced, and that, in the end, everything is dust be blown around in different patterns …. well, that’s quite sad. That all human endeavour and achievement is so poignant, because it’s basically pointless – unless you help someone else, or make a connection, or something, and have some other momentary impact. But even that disappears.  If you are aware of that, then it is all sad. So sadness becomes more than just not-happiness, it’s more pervasive and, in a way, more real. More lasting. It becomes about what you pass on, and what you don’t pass on.  And not all types really connect with that. (x)

...

 being “intrigued” by dark painful things. This is something I’ve been curious about for awhile. I don’t think it’s a strange thing necessarily. I think that for same reasons that this article explains why some people are “drawn to sad things,” the same goes for sadness which is also painful, or feelings of anger, or just strong emotions. I think this may be because, human beings are not made to be happy all the time. Life is hard, we all know this. When you spend your time unable to be yourself and “feel” the way you want to, or the way you intuitively know you should be feeling, I think you begin to yearn for ways to express it/ feel it. I think desire to feel pain can come from wanting to understand it. Wanting to know how much people have suffered so that you may understand/relate to it. Or maybe because you’ve seen that the world is cruel, and begin to wonder, how on Earth could I possibly be feeling just happy, when the reality is showing me that life about so much more than that. Missing out on so many wonderful/terrible feelings, despite them maybe being painful etc etc. as strange as that may sound. We know they are a part of life, they are still- feelings that are “human” to us all. This could be a way of saying, something’s missing, the people around me are ignoring something that I think is very important…everyone seems afraid to be themselves, they’re in pain but they can’t express their pain, so instead they start drinking and taking drugs to let it out. I want to help them understand that it’s okay to cry or let it out. In a way, crying is beautiful, because it means the person has accepted their feelings. Maybe because you understand this, you want to help those who are in pain accept their feelings, and so you in turn through listening to what is causing pain, adopt pain in a way, so that you can guide them through accepting and make them feel as if they finally have someone to turn to, and in which you both feel a beautiful sense of sadness and understanding. I think, what drives a lot of artists is these kinds desires to feel or recognize these feelings.  (x)

[keshetchai]

I'm going to push back a little bit to this response, because I want to be clear about what I'm actually saying. I think we still agree about the issue of validating egos here, but I want to explain that my criticism of the ego and the psychoanalyzing here is less about evil-being worship and more about everything else. The motivations behind these choices, the impact they make — but specific to Lilith.

I, personally, do not actually care if someone worships Lucifer because that's "the devil," or "evil," or whatever. I don't believe in a "Lucifer", and it has no bearing on me, and you can hardly culturally appropriate an awkward mistranslation that got smashed up into the eschatology of a majority religion like Christianity. That alone isn't a material issue to me.

Just like any religious practice, the vast majority of those people aren't extremists who want to kill people or perpetuate evil on purpose. So frankly, on that level, I simply don't think it's my business. If someone wants to worship Humbaba or Pazuzu or whatever, that's not actually my problem. We'd all be liars if we acted like there's no way someone could psychoanalyze our own approaches to religion. It would be misguided of me to think I'm above getting my own human ego in the way of things, or that my ego never gets validated by things I do or believe, just because I'm not interested in demon worship or whatever. I'm human too. It happens.

If they want to work out their personal demons with some Mesopotamian demons, it's not for me, but it's also not like I don't use religion to wrestle with myself, my own identity and baggage, my feelings, how society exists, etc. It's a big part of any religion: dealing with the realities of being human, and working out how to live in the world and what it means to do so.

The issue I have here is moreso that when people spiritually colonize from living communities, it's harmful to both the people they thieve from, and to themselves, because it's dishonest and stolen.

And yes, things can be stolen. From an academic standpoint — hell, from a personal standpoint, I am all too aware that syncretism exists and can't be prevented. That's not how the world or people work. Judaism is full of syncretism. But syncretism happens from within the community in question, naturally and usually as a result of dominant cultural hegemony being synthesized by minorities and blended communities. Theft happens from without, and is constructed. That's why, to me, Kabbalah is a closed Jewish practice, and Christian or pagan cabala/qabbalah is theft. People who left Jewish life to convert to Christianity and then adapt Kabbalah for their new, Christian purposes — that's not syncretism to me, that is stealing. It came from someone who made themselves outsiders.

Judaism having strongly Hellenized elements that impacted our religion is syncretism (and sometimes assimilation) because those ancient pagan empires wanted to influence our culture and religion (cultural hegemony!), and because two communities living together like that will influence each other. It is organic, messy, and complex. It's still often the result of empire, but not always a result of majority culture inflicted on minority communities.

Neopagans adopting Lilith as a first women/mother of monsters are stealing because there is no flourishing pagan-jewish world where such a syncretism might've existed. Even the Babylonian Jewish world that saw incantation bowls — that heavily predates Lilith being associated with "first Eve." There's no place where the modern associations, ideas, and Lilith worship could have developed except out of being stolen.

My issue is pretty much not at all "they worship demons," because I don't understand why people do or enjoy or think a LOT of things in life, and I'm okay with just shrugging and moving on. I'm (personally) much more likely to be judgemental about the shoddy historical arguments people make in favor of whatever.

As long as they don't harm people. But stealing is harmful, and does hurt people.

And it's not terribly effective to work one's out frustrations with an imperial religion and its dominant influences on society by repeating all the harmful shit they do to someone else, often with zero real awareness. Having had experience with peak late 90's/00's neo-paganism/new age (some specifically Wicca, lots more generic pagan), it's a huge problem when that's what they end up doing.

Btw the reason gentile pagans are fixated with Lilith is because she is the parallel to their fixation with "Lucifer," or "Satan," as a means of deconstructing their fucked up relationship with Christianity and Christian theology, and the internalized terrible garbage they picked up from Christian normativity, even if they weren't previously practicing Christians.

Lucifer/Satan gets to replace Jesus/God (the representation of XYZ Christian theologies they have issues with) and Lilith gets to replace Eve (the representation of XYZ Christian theologies relating to women that they have issues with).

The replacements represent - to some extent - themselves. They choose means of interpreting these characters that specifically make them into people who were unfairly victimized (within Christian theology) and marginalized, and who were ultimately "right." Or more "powerful," or ultimately more sympathetic/human/compassionate.

It's a fantasy wherein they get to validate their own frustration/pain/feeling of exclusion or powerlessness/treatment of being seen as an "ungodly" or "bad" person, and then make that person who typifies those things in their mind as the real hero, regardless of how doing that affects other people, or even if it makes sense.

It's actually very transparent when you think about it. I can almost guarantee Lilith would hold almost no sway to any of them if she wasn't explicitly mentioned as a counterpoint to Eve.

[angry-geese]

Sukuna requests. S/o makes fun of him all the time, calls him weak, etc. What nobody knows at the beginning is that s/o is significantly stronger than sukuna

The Definition of Human - Sukuna x Reader

Warnings: some swearing but its pretty tame. mention of death, and violence. Sukuna kind of needs his own warning. sfw. gn!reader.

a/n: as much as i love the idea of sukuna being soft for his human s/o i also love the thought of them being much stronger than him and him having no clue what do to with that

Word Count: 2.1k

You were just a sorcerer when he first met you, barely an adult, cast out by your village.

Someone so powerful hadn't been born for centuries. A sorcerer like you could turn the world of Jujutsu on its head. And that was the last thing they wanted to happen. The older you grew, the more unpredictable you became. You were far too strong for the village elders to handle. While you could have been a powerful ally, you would have been an even worse foe. The very people that had raised you, who taught you how to use your powers had begun to fear you.

Though you weren't trussed up like a sacrifice, you were sat by one of his altars like one.

It was only by chance you stumbled across such a thing. The surrounding woods were vast, and winding. No matter what path you took, you always seemed to wind back up by them. Perhaps it was a work of sorcery, meant to keep you lost in the woods forever. No trail seemed to lead back home. The village elders never expected you to last long on your own against the elements, let alone the King of Curses. But growing exhausted, and hungry, you had little choice but to stop and rest. The altar had offerings in the form of food, and a place to rest. Far more than Sukuna needed. You figured he wouldn't notice if you took a few things.

At the base of an altar sat a much smaller form. A human, one from the local village. Your shoulders were slumped, your arms curled around a bag. You didn't look sad, so much as you looked furious. You were talking to yourself, listing out all the ways you’d flatten each and every structure, how you’d salt the very earth they stood on, how you’d turn the once rich, fertile soil uninhabitable.

For having Sukuna’s interest in mind, he was certainly ready to burn it to the ground. Your village did little to appease the King of Curses. The humans in it were conniving, and rather quick to betray him. The relationship between the two was strained at best. In exchange for offerings in the form of crops, alcohol, and whoever decided to get on the village elders’ bad side, he wouldn't burn your home to the ground.

In a way, you were their last sacrifice to him, and by far his favorite.

As a child your parents had warned you, telling you never to go into the woods alone. A four armed man wandered out there, and he had a habit of making travelers disappear. Now that very same forest you once feared was your only sliver of comfort.

It took you a moment to realize he was standing there. And when you finally noticed him, you didn't look at him with the fear most humans did. There was a curious glint in your eyes. You sized him up, studied him in a way he wasn't used to.

In your hands you held an apple—an old offering—paring it with a knife. You were carving around the bruises. The texture of bruised apples always bothered you.

“It's dangerous to be out here alone, little one,” he said, eyeing you up like prey, “you should know that by now.”

“You’re the least of my worries, old man,” you said, popping a chunk of apple into your mouth.

You were still human. Strong, but human. You needed sleep, and food. If exposed to the elements too long you would freeze, or succumb to heatstroke or thirst.

“Old man?!” He said, clearly offended.

“What? You don't think I’ve heard the stories?” You asked. “You don’t scare me.”

And you were right. Even as he looked you in the eyes, you didn't back down once. You, unlike every other human from your village, weren't scared of him. He found you curious, and interesting. From the very moment your eyes locked with his, he was infatuated.

“I should frighten you,” he warned.

“You don't,” you said, “in fact, I think I could kick your ass!”

Expecting it to be an easy fight, he took your offer.

What resulted was a fight that would last days. Sukuna had never met anyone who could last so long against him. Let alone a human. Your strength was only rivaled by your unwavering rage. You were determined in a way he’d never seen before. Your village, along with half of the surrounding forest would be razed in the battle.

They had to have seen this coming. The child that is not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel it's warmth.

And it's warmth you felt.

You couldn't imagine yourself being sad. You were too filled with anger and betrayal. There was no room left in your heart for sadness.

He remembers the look of the fires, and how they glinted in your eyes. He thinks that's when you began to turn into a curse.

After the third day, he had grown not only bored, but tired. It was clear neither of you were capable of destroying the other. He figured you were too tough to eat; you wouldn't make good meat. Uraume couldn't do a whole lot with you. And you were too combative to be a concubine. You would not go with him willingly. He's not one to give up, nor is he one to admit defeat, but he knows when he's not going to win. The two of you would mutually destroy the world before you would destroy each other. There was no end in sight. Sukuna simply wanted to leave.

So he simply headed for home.

That enraged you. After days of fighting, there was no climatic end to the battle. You wanted something more.

"Hey asshole!" You said. "You can't just walk away!"

"I know when I've met my match." He said. "Do you?"

"The hell is that supposed to mean?"

"It means this world will burn before we destroy each other."

The two of you were quite literally a match made in hell. You would be a powerful ally and an even worse foe. There was no point in fighting you.

He did nothing to stop you when you followed him.

You were more of a nuisance than anything else. He often found himself comparing you to a cockroach. No matter how many times he tried to squash, poison, or starve out you always came back. If he couldn't kill you, then he had to have you on his side. You weren't something to be deceived, betrayed, injured, or killed. You were stronger than that. You were sharp, too, with a tongue to match. Whether harsh words he threw your way, you returned in double. It was rare he found a human with quite a tongue on them. He often remarked about having it nailed to his door. You simply pointed at his servants and dared them to try it.

They never did. Anyone who dared harm you often met a gruesome fate, either at his hands, or yours.

He didn't consider himself capable of falling in love. And he isn't. To some extent. But love is what he felt. You were the closest to an equal the King of Curses had ever met. In many ways you surpassed him, but those who admitted it often met a swift death.

He moved onto the next village. So did you. Word had not yet spread of what happened. People knew of the fires, but not of the deaths, and your connection to them. You settled down, taking up work with the local shamans. Though you were a newcomer, your help was gladly accepted when Sukuna first showed up, demanding offerings.

In the beginning you tried to warn them. That didn't help. They never listened. It always ended the same way; with a razed village and a bunch of needless deaths.

Sukuna would visit. Often in the late hours of the night as you were trying to get some sleep. He did little more than steal your food, and make himself far too comfortable. Of course that's how most of your meetings went.

He's not sure when he fell for you. But it was something that happened all at once. After years of a back and forth between you two, something gave. You took a place right by his side. He found himself no longer taking concubines, no longer indulging in the sacrifices presented to him. He found himself consumed with the thought of you. He had to have you.

“I can't believe you’re all out of sake,” he said, one night while visiting.

“I wonder who’s fault that is,” you said.

He cast you a glare from across the room. You'd have to buy more in the morning anyway. But all the good stuff has been put up as an offering, and the only sake left in the market is watered down, and worth nothing to you. You don't drink the stuff all that much anyway, you just used it for cooking.

“I question why I keep you alive,” he said.

“I think if you could even kill me,” you said, “you would have by now. Someone as weak as you doesn't stand a chance.”

He didn't like this, and hauled you into his arms, carrying you away from your cooking.

“No!” You squealed, too busy giggling to put up much of a fight. “The rice is going to overcook!”

Sukuna couldn't care less about the rice. He tossed you rather carelessly onto your shared bed, caging you in his arms. The kiss he pulled you into was fleeting, and soft, like he was almost afraid to touch you.

When the village elders first discovered these meetings, it didn't take them long to exile you. The very people that had welcomed you had ignored your warnings and betrayed you. You had gone from respected, and even loved, to feared in an instant.

At some point you stopped trying to warn them. If you really wanted to, you could stop him. Delay him at best. Give people time to run. At least someone would survive. But after a while, you began to think some of them deserved it. The sacrifices they provided were never enough when Sukuna grew tired of toying with them. It was just you and him. Two constant presences in each other's life. You grew used to his company. Enjoyed it, even. You’d never tell him that. Mostly because you didn't want to inflate his ego even more. You were as much his as he was yours.

At some point you became more curse than human.

You could breathe, your lungs would fill with air, but the action provided no relief. You no longer felt the need to eat, and often found yourself forgetting to do so. Food turned to ash in your mouth. The enjoyment of eating was long since lost to you. You're alive, but you're not. Your heart beats but the blood that courses through your veins is not quite right. Your memories of yourself when you were younger fade. But the anger. That fear, that anger, cast into the past, is the only humanity left in you.

You found yourself falling asleep next to him, and in turn waking up next to him. Sometimes in his arms, sometimes on the other side of the bed. He found himself opening his arms for you to climb into. You would do so, albeit reluctantly.

You were his partner. You were a nuisance, but you were his partner.

"Am I dead?" You asked, one morning in the fall. You think it was fall. You remember the leaves turning yellow and orange, but it wasn't cold enough to be winter.

"I haven't killed you yet, so no." He said. "Why?"

"Because I woke up and saw your face, and thought I had finally gone to hell." You said.

His mouth opened, but no words came out. An offended sounding huff left him. He rolled over onto you, pinning you to the sheets. His knees planted on either side of your body, his hands found your wrists. It’d take no effort from you to throw him off. But you didn't. You never did.

“You’re not in hell yet,” he said.

“I'd beg to differ,”

“Then beg,”

“Make me!”

He attacked your neck with wet, open mouth kisses, sending you into a giggling fit. Your skin was warm under his lips. You were always so warm. You were flushed from your chest to your forehead, blush dusting the tips of your ears and your nose. Your arms wrapped around your neck, pulling him flush to your chest. Your heartbeat was audible, racing as he pressed his ear to your chest.

“Stay in bed a little longer,” he said. He was pleading more than he was asking. And you weren't able to find it in you to refuse.

It wasn't entirely awful having someone stronger than him.

[faulty-writes]

[ I am here...to say I got inspired to write a Toshinori/All Might holiday-themed piece. I hope you enjoy it, this idea was also inspired by an EraserMight fan manga and a crystal jewelry necklace I saw. Please note: All Might is younger in this piece. ]

[ Being quirkless was one thing, but as of late you had been desperate to find a job at a pro hero agency. Unfortunately, it doesn’t seem like luck is on your side until you meet the secretary of the newest popular hero, All Might. Of course, you never expected to be offered a job by the hero himself and so close to the holiday as well. ] 

Growing up, it was hard not to feel different when everyone around you had something that made them special. That something was, of course, a quirk. That small but overwhelming element seemed to separate you from the rest of society and you were beginning to loathe the discrimination you faced.

That is, how others seemed to act as if they were superior to you simply because they had something you lacked. You had experienced this type of bias since you were but a child and eventually realized this was the route of your introverted and antisocial behavior.  

You preferred spending time by yourself, avoiding any potential friend-making as normal children would in favor of focusing on your studies. After all, it was hard to find someone that would look past the fact that you didn’t have a quirk and this was something you had long since accepted.

Yet, that didn’t stop you from setting your future goal to work within one of the many pro-hero agencies littered around Japan. You had somewhat of a petty desire to show others that even without a quirk, you could still be involved in work that was directly related to it.

When the time finally came for you to enroll in college and study business management, you came to the sad conclusion that you were simply meant to be alone. Which, in a sense was okay considering you would never actually find someone whose quirk ego didn’t get in the way of being your friend.

At least, that’s what you had believed. Shortly after graduating and beginning your search for a worthy job, you managed to meet a young man named Toshinori Yagi. At first, you thought it strange that such a man was the secretary to the popular hero, All Might.

The one people bragged would be the next number one hero. This was due to the fact that despite only being an official hero for but a few short years, he was making his way up the hero board fast. While you weren’t much for admiring heroes, All Might, in particular, caught your eye.

You were almost ashamed to admit that his agency was one of the few you’d favor working in and ironically that’s how you met Toshinori in the first place. Both of you were on your way to the All Might agency, but you had walked into him by mistake due to the fact you were too busy looking at your phone.

But in your defense, you were searching the internet in an effort to try and find answers to the rumors that were floating around about the All Might agency. More specifically that certain positions had recently opened due to a few firings and despite not knowing if these rumors were true or false.

You decided to try your luck, even if that meant you’d either walk out of the agency a laughing stock or get a job only to discover you were stuck answering phones or handling stacks of paperwork. But you immediately changed your mind about the whole thing when you learned of Toshinori’s occupation.

Mostly because you thought it would be too awkward working at the same agency as someone you had just met and yes, maybe that was a silly excuse. But it’s the one you decided to go with. Of course, you initially expected never to see or talk to Toshinori after you two had bid each other goodbye or tried to.

He took you by surprise at the last second when he asked if you’d like to join him for lunch. His reasoning being that he wanted to make up for the fact he believed he walked into you and despite wanting to say no, you found yourself agreeing.

Part of you was glad you did, considering that the conversation between yourself and Toshinori flowed easily. In fact, it almost seemed like a dream. Especially when you two bid goodbye for the second time and he kissed the back of your hand with the hopes you’d meet again.

You almost regretted telling him that you were looking for a job, but unlike the treatment you were used to receiving. He didn’t make fun of you, though he also didn’t bring it back up in your conversation which you understood. There was only so much someone could do for you.

Well, that and you wouldn’t be seeing him again, right? Yet again, you seemed to prove your assumptions wrong a few weeks later when you were on your way to another job interview. However, you stopped short when you noticed a crowd forming and flashing police lights.

It was certainly a sight to take in considering the joyful holiday decorations that hung along the telephone poles accompanied by the lights that ran along the buildings and display windows. Your breath continued to evaporate into the air as you walked up to one of the many people that were shouting praise about All Might.

“Hey, what happened?” you asked curiously as you reached up to adjust your scarf, tucking it back into the slightly puffy winter jacket you wore. You were a little disappointed you didn’t guess that All Might had saved the day, but you did learn it was just from a group of petty jewel thieves.

“Oh,” you knew you didn’t sound too interested, but from what you knew All Might had just returned from America a few days prior and you could only imagine how many fans he had now. The thought made you crack a smile. “He doesn’t give himself a break, does he?” you muttered to yourself.

You crossed your arms and leaned against the nearby brick wall. Silently trying to figure out if there was a way for you to navigate through the crowd and past the authority figures. However, when you watched them begin to put up yellow tape around the scene, indicating the street would be closed off.

A frustrated sigh escaped you. “Seriously!?” you exclaimed as you gestured to the scene with your hand, catching a few curious glances but nobody said anything to you. Another sigh escaped as you brought your hand up to clasp your forehead, feeling the anger begin to boil in your stomach.

“This had to happen today, of all days?!” you hissed out and yes, you knew it wasn’t All Might’s fault this had happened. Yes, there was another route you could take. But it would make you late and being late to a job interview was one of the worst first impressions you could make.

A low growl rumbled in your throat before you dragged your hand down your face, wanting to scream out and fuss before a familiar voice broke through the air. “Y/n!” you jumped and instantly turned on your feet, your hair ruffling in the cold breeze as your eyes settled on Toshinori.

He looked like he did the last time you saw him, dressed in that same suit and all. However, he also looked a little sweaty and his tie was askew as if he barely had any time to fix it before leaving or heading to wherever. ��Uh…” you raised your eyebrow as your attention finally shifted to his face. 

“Don’t tell me you forgot me,” he stated as those two tufts of blond hair bounced against his cheeks which only seemed to bring your attention to the rest of his hair which spanned out into messy ends. Yet, somehow he made it work. “I…” you glanced back and forth, feeling a little awkward.

“I mean…I…” you looked down and reached one hand up to rub the back of your head. “Huh?” Toshinori seemed to notice your hesitance and took a step forward, gently reaching his hand out to place on your shoulder. “You alright?” he questioned.

“Uh,” you allowed your mouth to hang open and glanced at his hand still resting on your shoulder. Maybe it was the fact you were so unused to physical touch, but you couldn’t help the way your cheeks lit up and Toshinori noticed the soft red hue that colored them.

He wondered for a moment if you were merely shy, but quickly dismissed that thought when he noticed the frown that came to your face and the way you glanced away from him. “I was on my way to another job interview and…” you gestured behind you to the still busy crime scene.

Toshinori looked up, feeling slightly guilty considering he didn’t mean to cause you any trouble. But he quickly reminded himself you didn’t know of his alias, that he was actually the hero that was quickly catching everyone’s eye. The one and only All Might.

“I’m going to be late now,” you finished as you looked to the ground, feeling like nothing short of a failure. “What!?” Toshinori grasped your shoulders and began to shake you. “You had a job interview? Was it that important? Can I help you get there!?” he exclaimed, clearly distressed over your situation.

Despite your vision being slightly blurry thanks to Toshinori, you reached up to grab his arms. Squeezing them as tightly as you could to signal him to stop and he seemed to get the hint. “Huh?” his arms came to a pause, finally giving you a rest. But you couldn’t help but glare at him through your messy curls.

“Heh,” he gave an awkward smile and reached up to run his hand through your hair in an attempt to fix it. All while trying to ignore your continued glare, despite the fact you weren’t actually mad at him. Maybe just annoyed. Actually, this whole situation was annoying.

You turned your head causing Toshinori to flinch. “Huh?” he blinked as he then watched you cross your arms. He worried for a moment if you were angry with him and yes, you did feel angry. But it all came out in a sigh before you brought your hands up to your face, you felt like crying.

It was nice of Toshinori to offer to help you get there, but maybe this was just a sign you weren’t meant to work in an agency, to begin with.  “Mm…” he frowned, his inner-hero calling out to him to comfort you even if it didn’t seem like you wanted such a thing right now.

He stepped forward and once again laid his hands on your shoulders. “Hm?” you lowered your own hands, but that frown still remained on your face. However, you couldn’t help but lean into Toshinori’s embrace and he offered you a smile. “Why don’t you have lunch with me?” he questioned.

As expected, he watched a surprising expression wash over your face. “A-Again?” you found it hard to believe that he wanted to spend more time with you and yet another part of you couldn’t help but wonder. ‘Is this what you call friendship?’ even though it did bring you an unfamiliar sense of happiness. 

Which only seemed to increase when he nodded and reached down to take your hand, gently cradling it in his own. “Y/n,” he said in a gentle voice, “I really like you, so why not spend time with you?” your jaw fell open and you weren’t sure if he was lying or telling the truth.

You had only just met, how could he possibly like you that much? You glanced away, allowing several taunting thoughts from the past to fill your head. Your lip quivered forcing you to sink your teeth into it, Toshinori blinked and continued to take note of your rather odd behavior.

“Y/n, are you-” before he could finish, you interrupted him. “Why would you want to spend time with someone who doesn’t have a quirk?” you mumbled, anger dripping from every word you spoke. It was Toshinori’s turn to look surprised and though you didn’t see it, a look of hurt spread across his face.

You felt him release your hand and place it back on your shoulder, then you let out a small yelp as you were pulled against him. His musky scent filled your nostrils, forcing you to tilt your head to look at him. However, you were surprised to see that sad expression of his. Was he upset at you or because of you?

Either way, it made your heart sink especially when you saw those normally bright blue eyes of his become dull. “Hm?!” you took a step back when he reached over to gently cup your cheek. You felt your body stiffen at the contact, but didn’t say anything as Toshinori looked like he wanted to say something first.

“I…don’t have a quirk either,” he confessed, though he was telling a small white lie. While he had originally been born without a quirk, he was blessed to be given one by a wonderful woman he still looked up to despite the fact she had lost her fight against evil. Yet he continued to keep her memory alive.

That is, he always used her as his source of inspiration. One that helped him continue to choose good and fight for the justice of the innocent. Still, he did take some amusement in the way your jaw dropped in disbelief. “You…you don’t have a quirk?” How could that be?

How did he capture All Might’s attention if he didn’t have a quirk? How could he have gotten a job at All Might’s agency if he didn’t have a quirk? So many questions entered your mind and yet, you knew only a few would get answered. Toshinori watched as your face twisted with confusion.

Unable to stop the small amount of laughter that slipped past his lips which caught your attention and you gave him a small glare. “Apologies,” he said in between his laughter before he nodded. “Even without a quirk, we are valuable, right?” you blinked, unsure of how to respond.

So many negative thoughts continued to pass through your mind and you opened your mouth, wanting to let them all out. But Toshinori seemed to know what was about to happen and reached down to take your hand yet again, allowing his thumb to stroke across your knuckles.

“Lunch?” he asked again causing a sigh to pass your lips, did you really have a choice? Despite that sinking feeling in your chest, you allowed Toshinori to walk you to the restaurant of his choosing. It wasn’t much, just a locally owned business with good seating, private rooms, and a generous amount of food.

You placed your elbow on the table, holding your chin in the palm of your hand as you glanced off into the distance. Ignoring the sweet and savory scent of the various plates in front of you. Toshinori had insisted he order for you, and honestly, you could care less about food at the moment.

“So,” he said as he too propped his elbow on the table, allowing his cheek to rest against the palm of his hand. “How is your job search going? A few weeks ago, you told me that you had been looking to work in an agency,” you blinked before lifting your head and lowering your elbow.  

Your glance hovered on Toshinori a moment before turning to the glass of cold tea in front of you. “It’s going okay, yeah…” not exactly a detailed answer, but you didn’t feel like talking about your career dreams at the moment. Instead, you reached out and took a few sips of your beverage.

Your gaze continued to avert his as you pulled your lips away from the rim of the glass, letting out a sigh before placing it back on the table. Your fingers still remained wrapped around it, twitching slightly. “Maybe I’m just not suited for an agency job,” you finally confessed.

It was disheartening to know that despite how much time you had dedicated to your business studies, it was utterly worthless due to the fact you could never find a job. So much for Christmas miracles and holiday spirit. “Hm?” Toshinori blinked and leaned over the table.

“Aw, come on. Don’t talk like that, I’m sure something will come up,” he said, though he still felt a small weight of guilt in his heart. If it weren’t for him, you wouldn’t have missed that interview in the first place. “Mm...” you muttered in response as you finally turned your glance back on him.

It was almost odd, the instant connection you two seemed to have from the start and yet, you couldn’t help but want to argue with him. “Like what?” you asked, your voice a little flat before you reached over to grab your chopsticks. Might as well eat, Toshinori technically ordered this food for you.

It would be rude not to express your gratitude, despite not feeling grateful for anything at the moment. The fact you didn’t have much of an appetite didn’t help either. Regardless, you brought a piece of food to your mouth and took a small bite, all while trying to ignore the weight of his stare.

He frowned as he watched you, knowing that he had to do something. “Hey,” he perked up when you spoke, “everyone…seems to admire All Might, right?” the question made him knit his eyebrows together. Why were you asking that? Actually, he didn’t know what you thought of All Might or if you were a fan.  

You noticed his expression and scoffed before poking at your food causing Toshinori’s eyes to glance down before once again settling on you. A moment of silence passed between the two of you before you decided to speak once again, still playing with your food.

“All Might is the hero everyone is talking about now, the one everyone wants to be. He’s the most popular graduate of Yuuei within the recent years,” his eyes narrowed, but he remained silent as he wanted to hear where you were going with this. Though everything you had spoken was true so far.

He was one of the most popular graduates of Yuuei, not because he wanted to be. But he had pushed himself to surpass all his goals and be someone that he could be proud of and that others could look up to. That wasn’t such a bad thing, was it?

“He inspires so many people, but it’s those people that may rise up and try to challenge him. Like they did today if it wasn’t for All Might inspiring people to challenge his justice then maybe…” you paused, sucking your lip into your mouth for a moment.

Toshinori sensed your hesitance and noticed how your eyes narrowed when you looked at him. Almost as if you knew his secret. “Maybe I wouldn't have missed my interview…and maybe it wouldn’t have made a difference even if I didn’t, but All Might just-” he interrupted you.

“Y/n,” he said, his voice deep and you could sense the warning tone within it. You expected him to say more, to defend All Might’s honor and end your lunch right then and there. But instead, he tilted his head down and scratched the side of his temple.

“You…don’t think All Might is a bad influence, do you?” he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t nervous to hear the answer. However, you merely raised your eyebrow. “Huh?” you tilted your head to one side. “I’m only being honest,” you replied as you somewhat forced yourself to take another bite of food.

Toshinori frowned and brought his hand up to his mouth, his eyes moving back and forth before he asked. “Do you…hate All Might?” he could partially understand if you did being quirkless and having to watch someone get praised for their quirk and heroic deeds might cause some jealousy.

But if you hated him because of this small mishap, that didn’t make much sense. You flinched, and mistakenly dropped your chopsticks which hit the rim of your plate and proceeded to fall to the floor. “Oh!” you reached out, grasping the edge of the table as you leaned to one side.

Staring at your chopsticks which were now covered in dirt, hair, and God knows what else. You slowly closed your jaw before you sighed for what felt like the hundredth time today. You shook your head before bringing your hands up, allowing your fingertips to thread through your hair.

Toshinori leaned back in his seat, somewhat shocked at how you managed to drop your chopsticks on the floor. “Hey,” he said as he grabbed his own and held them out to you. “We can share my chopsticks if you like,” you shook your head, the offer was sweet but you knew it wouldn’t cheer you up.

Your hands then dropped to your lap and yet another sigh came. “How could I…hate All Might?” you gave a sad chuckle as you reached up to wipe your eyes with the back of your hand. “I’d really like it if he appeared to give me a new pair of chopsticks right about now,” maybe you were being too emotional.

But nobody could blame you, right? Maybe you could just ask the hostess for another pair of chopsticks, as awkward as that would be. “Besides,” you said as you rose from your seat, effectively catching Toshinori’s attention. “His secretary seems quite fond of me,” you teased with a small smirk which was somewhat uncharacteristic of you.

However, you did enjoy the way your words caused his jaw to drop. Taking such a thing as a silent victory. “Y/n!” he exclaimed excitedly as he stood up and proceeded to take one of your hands. He oddly seemed to enjoy holding your hand one way or another.

Toshinori opened his mouth, wanting to say something else only to be interrupted by his cell phone with an ‘I am here!’ All Might style ringtone. “Eh?” his expression dropped and he reached into his pocket to fetch his phone, taking a moment to see who was calling.

“Oh, excuse me,” he said as he stepped away from you. “Um…sure,” weird, you thought Toshinori would be the type of guy to turn off his cell phone when having lunch with someone. Then again, if he was All Might’s secretary you understood why he would need his phone on at all times.

“Hm, I see. I’ll be right there,” Toshinori said before hanging up and turning back to face you. Though he looked rather sad which concerned you. “What’s the matter? Is everything alright?” you questioned and watched as he reached up to rub the back of his head. “Yeah just,” he cradled the phone to his chest.

“I’m sorry, Y/n. I have to go,” he said as he slipped his phone back into his pocket and pulled out his wallet. “Here,” he said, holding up a rather generous amount of yen. “My treat today as an apology for your missed interview,” he said before he rounded the table and began to walk away.

You turned, watching as he waved you goodbye and you hesitantly returned the gesture. But you couldn’t help but wonder why he had to leave in such a hurry and if it had anything to do with All Might. You sighed as you turned back and stared at the now-empty seat across from you.

Once again, you propped your elbow onto the table and reached over to take the chopsticks he left behind. ‘Guess I should be used to being alone,’ you thought as you gently tapped the ends of the sticks together before going to pick up another piece of food.

Toshinori looked back as he walked away from you, another frown present on his lips before he quickly ducked into an alleyway. It was a little silly, having to do all these precautions just to avoid everyone knowing your real identity. Still, he could feel himself transform into his alias, All Might.

His muscles expanded to impossible size and his stature grew at least twice his normal size. His messy tufts that were previously hanging in his face now stood tall and he radiated with power. Pressing one hand against his hip, he raised his opposite one and pointed one abnormally large finger into the air.

“Now I’m off to save the day!” he declared before carelessly kicking off the ground. With the city now below him, he couldn’t help but smile as he allowed himself to descend through the air. The rush of wind ruffling his clothes and the adrenaline already pumping through his veins.

Though in the back of his mind, he couldn’t help but allow his thoughts to drift to you. Perhaps, by chance, he could track you down. He was aware of the building you lived in due to him escorting you there on the day you met. “Hm...” he cupped his chin as he landed on the ground once more. Then again he did have contacts he could ask to track you, as extreme as that sounded. On the other hand, it could be viewed as his continued efforts to keep you safe. That was his job as a hero after all. The following day, you decided to take a break from your job search.

Considering the days were ticking down closer to the holiday and most agencies would be closed with the exception of the handful of pro heroes that signed up to watch for criminal activity through the holiday. Still, you decided to take your mind off things and woke up early in the morning.

The sun was just beginning to rise and it was almost strange to see the roads and sidewalks so empty apart from the few businesses that needed to clean and organize before opening to the public. The trees were bare, the leaves that once made them vibrant laying scattered along the ground.

You reached up, pulling your scarf closer to shield your nose and mouth from the cold bitter air. Still, it was nice to go on a walk and hear the sound of the distant birds chirping in the background especially the further you got away from the city.

Still, you did admire the view of the sun reflecting off the dark tinted windows of the various buildings. It was almost a calming sight, but not enough to completely distract you away from the reason you were trying to get away from the city in the first place.

You continued on, hearing the leaves and twigs break underneath your feet before you stepped onto a small wooden bridge that overlooked a running stream. You paused as you neared the middle and walked over to the metal railing that curved with the shape of it.

You glanced over, seeing your rather tired-looking reflection in the water before you folded your arms across the railing. You pressed one hand on top of the other and leaned over to press your chin against them. Continuing to listen to the gentle sounds of the water below as you stared off into the distance.

However, such was soon ruined when you heard something crash behind you causing you to stumble. Your hands desperately grasped onto the railing as you tripped over your own feet trying to turn around. You could feel your heart pounding in your chest as your eyes fixated on the source of the noise.

Expecting the worst but instead, what you saw took you completely by surprise. You blinked as you watched the large man slowly stand on his feet. "All…All Might?" you spoke in disbelief, allowing your eyes to linger at the now indented ground beneath his feet.

His hands were folded and knuckles pressed against his rather large hips. He tilted his head back, giving a hearty laugh that somehow made your already racing heart skip a beat. What was he doing here? Was this a trick? Had you fallen and hit your head on a rock?

That laughter seemed to echo through the forest, effectively killing the silence you were previously enjoying and overpowering the sound of the stream. You allowed one hand to continue holding onto the cold metal railing while your other pressed against your chest.

He finally stopped laughing after a few seconds and brought two fingers to his forehead, giving you some type of odd salute. “Yes, I am here!” he declared before he proceeded to walk over to you. “Uh…” your natural instinct was to take a step back especially as you become engulfed in his shadow.

He then leaned over, resting his arms against the opposite railing in front of you. It was slightly surprising the metal structure didn’t break underneath his weight. Your eyebrows knit together, still rather confused as to why All Might of all people had landed in the same forested area you were in.

You partly wondered in the back of your head if Toshinori had anything to do with this, after all you still thought it strange that you just happened to “run into” him right after All Might had taken care of some low-grade villains. But now his boss, the pro hero himself just so happened to find you by chance?

Something didn’t seem right, but you had no reason to suspect All Might of any ill intentions. “Y/n, is it?” he questioned and while your suspicion only seemed to grow you asked, “How…how did you know my name?” while ignoring the knots that continued to tangle your stomach up.

“Ah yes!” he exclaimed and you were beginning to wonder if All Might just favored speaking loudly and if so, you further wondered how his agency or anyone in close proximity to him handled being around him for an extended amount of time.

“Young Toshinori told me of you!” he said as he leaned back up and pointed his large index finger at you. “Yagi-san told you a-about…” you trailed off, feeling how your cheeks burned at the thought of Toshinori speaking about you to anyone. After all, you had only known each other for a short time.

Then again it was almost flattering that he spoke fondly about you or at least you hoped it was fondly. All Might nodded. “Yes, he seems to have taken quite the liking to you,” he shared before letting out another hearty laugh which was slowly causing you to grow annoyed.

But you kept quiet and waited for him to continue speaking. Though he looked slightly troubled by the fact you didn’t say anything in regard to Toshinori liking you, though your cheeks were still slightly flushed so perhaps he could take that as a sign you felt a similar way?

His smile faded and he turned his head. Bringing his hand up to his mouth, he cleared his throat. ‘Perhaps I should share more,’ he thought before lowering his hand once more. “He spoke of the trouble you have faced and I believe I have a solution!” he declared before he struck a pose.

It was natural for your eyes to trace every curve of those muscles, but they didn’t initially impress you. “Hm?” a solution? What could he possibly do or say to make your troubles better besides giving you recommendations for agencies you could work in?

Still, you found yourself leaning forward, grasping onto the railing where All Might’s arms were previously laying. “You do? What is it?” hell at this point you’d be willing to do just about anything as long as you got a job. All Might blinked, surprised by your sudden eagerness.

“Glad to see I have your attention, young Y/n!” and he hoped that he’d get to see the happiness in your eyes after he spoke his next set of words. “Toshinori put in the good word with me and after some mighty thought. I have decided to offer you-” he suddenly moved, once again pointing at you.

However, you flinched back, staring at the large appendage before he continued speaking. “A job at my agency,” he declared as he leaned back and spread his arms to the sides. Your jaw dropped and a grunt-like noise vibrated in your throat. All Might, of course, noticed this.

He was a tad confused, he thought you would be happy. After all, you had been working hard to find an agency job and he didn’t want you to give up on your dreams. But your current reaction said otherwise. He frowned and reached up to scratch the back of his head. “Um…” what should he even say?

He cleared his throat once more before leaning over and raising his hand. “Is something wrong, young Y/n? I was more than certain you’d be-” you hadn’t purposely meant to interrupt All Might. But regardless, you blurted out, “No, no, no, no!” repeatedly while shaking your head back and forth.

Somewhat startling the hero and causing him to lean back and raise his eyebrow in curiosity. “Uh! I mean…” you paused, feeling your cheeks begin to flush due to the embarrassment you felt. “I…” you let out a sigh and brought your hand up to cup your forehead.

“Sorry, just…” you lowered your hand, glancing away from All Might who despite popular belief, was feeling rather nervous at the moment. He wanted you to accept his offer, but it appeared as though you weren’t exactly thrilled with it. “I wasn’t expecting you to say that,” your eyes settled on him once more.

You then took a step forward but a soft gasp came when you accidentally walked into the railing that separated you from All Might. “Oh…” you glanced back and forth before shaking your head. “Did…Yagi-san ask you to do this?” you questioned before bringing your hands up to your chest.

It’s not that you didn’t appreciate the help. But you would have rather earned a rightful position in someone’s agency, especially All Might’s. Then again would it be rude not to accept the position and acknowledge Toshinori’s efforts? “Hm?” All Might tilted his head.

“Well,” he scratched the side of his temple, allowing a nervous chuckle to leave his lips. “As I said, he put in the good word for you! Surely you would be a worthy addition to my agency!” he exclaimed with a large smile and it was almost amusing to see his cape dramatically flapping in the wind behind him.

He hoped that his explanation would finally put to rest your minor suspicion. “Huh?” you blinked, this is certainly not how you pictured All Might acting though you supposed he would act differently in front of cameras. He had to show the world his best and most professional side.

But when the cameras weren’t rolling. He could, in a sense, be himself. Though if this was himself, it was quite odd that he seemed playful and more enthusiastic than you could bear. Well, maybe you could use that enthusiasm in your life.

“Well…” you looked down, the dull sounds of the stream reaching your ears again. You almost felt like you had no choice. Taking a deep breath, you slowly glanced back up at All Might who, unknown to you, was standing there anxiously awaiting your answer.

“If you mean it, I guess it wouldn’t hurt to try,” a cry then left your lips as All Might jolted forward and effortlessly lifted you up. Your legs curled up to your chest instinctively and you reached down, grasping onto his large forearms. You were partly thankful he was holding you up by your underarms.

Then came his laugh once again, that deep happy chuckle that sent a shiver down your spine. “Excellent! I can have Toshinori help you fill out the paperwork today,” he said as he proceeded to lift you over the railing and place you on the ground in front of him.

Your heart continued to race inside your chest and you hoped he didn’t notice the red-tinted color of your cheeks. “How does that sound!?” he exclaimed yet again, making you flinch. You then began fidgeting with your hands which were pressed up against your chest and your eyes were focused on the ground.

“Huh?” that’s when you noticed the sun was growing bright, casting its warm radiant glow across Japan. Just how long had you been talking to All Might? “Uh…” you gave a nod, and yet again heard the hero give a laugh before his hand grasped your shoulder.

You took note of the way he was smiling at you which yet again caused you to flush, though your cheeks were already tinted red. “Y-Yeah…uh, sounds fine!” you stuttered out, feeling your embarrassment continue to consume you. This had to be one of the most awkward interactions you had with a hero yet.

“Wonderful!” All Might said before turning on his feet causing you to stumble back when his cape hit you by mistake. However, he seemed rather oblivious to this as he walked forward, creating enough distance to ensure he wouldn’t hurt you when he took off into the sky.

He then turned to look over his shoulder at you. “I’ll have Toshinori pick you up at your home, say around 9 o’clock?” he questioned and for a moment you wondered how All Might knew that Toshinori knew where you lived. Did you tell him?

You couldn’t exactly recall, but he could have memorized your apartment building from the day you met. You did recall he asked if he could walk you there, still, it was a little odd. Once again, you found yourself at a loss for words and simply nodded.

“I look forward to seeing you in my agency, young Y/n!” he stated before disappearing into the air, leaving behind a harsh backlash of wind that nearly knocked you off your feet. You stumbled a bit before you reached up, brushing your hair out of your face and readjusting your shirt.

Your head then tilted up, trying to spot All Might but it seemed he moved too quickly. “Mm,” you frowned before reaching into your pocket for your phone. “9 o’clock, huh?” you frowned as you looked at the screen, yeah there was still plenty of time for you to get ready but you’d need to get back home quick.

You almost didn’t want to leave the quiet surroundings of the forest, but nonetheless started for the city once more. After a good shower, you changed into your best business clothes and proceeded to wait for Toshinori outside of your building.

Though you curiously kept checking your phone for the time and when 9 o’clock came, you heard a car horn. “Huh?” you lowered your phone, seeing a rather impressive limousine before you. It looked polished and the surface of it sparkled as if it had just been washed.

However, you were quickly distracted from that when you heard Toshinori call your name. Your head immediately turned and you saw him standing behind the door of the limousine. One foot was pressed against the sidewalk while his other leg remained inside the vehicle.

He wore a bright smile and signaled you to approach which you did with some minor hesitation after slipping your phone back into your pocket. “What’s with the limousine?” you questioned, receiving a chuckle from him. “All Might insisted,” he replied before his smile faded.

“Do you…not like it?” he questioned, once again seeming to act shy as he pressed his hand against his mouth. “What?” unlike before, you seemed to control the “No, no, no” coming out of your mouth. “I-It’s fine, I just…” you allowed an awkward chuckle to leave your mouth.

“I wasn’t expecting it to be a limo, that’s all,” you replied and your explanation seemed to lessen Toshinori’s anxiety. “Heh, well All Might said you accepted his offer. I thought we could take a nice ride and fill out the paperwork together,” he said, and a part of him was actually relieved he had gotten this far.

But there was that certain worry you’d eventually find out who he really was and yet, he found that was a risk he was willing to take. Being a hero made him happy, but not as much as your company. Which sounded strange, but out of everyone he had met. There was just something about you he favored.

A ride and paperwork? That was a new one, still, you couldn’t refuse and shrugged before climbing into the limousine. Toshinori crawled in after you and shut the door as you glanced around the interior with a dropped jaw. Obviously, the first thing you took note of was the amount of space it had.

The second thing was the row of seats that ran along the opposite side of the passenger door. There was also a small table with various drinks concealed in glass bottles. “Oh!” you fell back onto the leather seat when the vehicle started moving. “Careful,” Toshinori said as he draped his arm around you.

“Wouldn’t want you to get hurt,” you blinked at him before slowly nodding, trying to ignore the way your heart picked up speed. However, it didn’t last long as he leaned away and you heard the soft rustling of papers. You leaned over, trying to look at what Toshinori was fiddling with.

However, you got your answer when he turned around and your eyes immediately shifted to the pile of papers he held. The sight only made you groan but Toshinori smiled and placed the stack between himself and you before reaching into his pocket to get his pen.

A soft click sounded before he looked at you. “Let’s start with the easy paperwork first,” he suggested, though that didn’t make you anymore willing to begin and for a moment, you realized why it was such a hassle to get a job in the first place.

Despite Toshinori filling out the paperwork for you, the feeling of exhaustion still overwhelmed you to the point where you were slumping in your seat. “Oh, there’s one more thing,” he said, making you groan as you turned your head to look at him. The stack of papers was smaller, but that meant very little to you at the moment.

Toshinori straightened out the small pile by gently tapping it against his knee before he looked at you. “In the spirit of the holidays, the agency is having a secret santa,” you perked up. “Secret santa?” That's kind of weird, you didn’t imagine many businesses or agencies participating in something like that.

He brought his shoulders up and you noticed the frown across his face and the way he glanced away from you. “But…” you pushed your hand against the seat, slightly invading Toshinori’s space. “What?” you finished and watched as he slowly fixated his eyes back on you.

“Everyone participating has been matched up already,” he expected you to be disappointed and you were…a little. “Oh…” you replied before allowing yourself to fall back against the seat. “Mm…” Toshinori glanced away again, technically his alias All Might hadn’t been matched up with anyone.

Then again, he couldn’t exactly play favorites, and All Might had already given gifts to his employees then again…if you were going to be a new employee he had to welcome you somehow. “Hm…” he brought his hand up, watching as you turned your head to glance out the darkened window.

Seeing your own reflection just like you had earlier in the day, you still looked tired but the only difference now was that Toshinori was with you and from the way he was grasping his chin. He seemed to be in deep thought about something.

You partly hoped it wasn’t him overthinking the fact that you could have possibly wanted to be part of the secret santa gift exchange. “Excuse me, Y/n,” he said, causing your head to turn. “Huh?” you replied, but he seemed to ignore you for the moment as he suddenly got up.

You tilted your head and watched as he walked to the small rectangular window that was directly behind the driver. He then pressed a small button and you watched as the window rolled down. “Hm...” it looked like he was telling the driver something and despite not knowing exactly what that something was.

You got a hint when the limousine suddenly turned causing your body to jerk to one side. Had Toshinori changed the current route you were on? “Is something wrong?” you questioned and watched as he shook his head. “Everything’s alright,” he said as he took the seat next to you once more.

Though you only grew confused by his behavior and the way he glanced away from you. “We’re heading to the All Might agency,” he said, almost making you jump in your seat. “The agency? Why?” you questioned, but he kept quiet and instead glanced at the papers he still held in his hand.

Seeming to count them before he tucked them underneath his leg and reached over to press the window button. Allowing it to open just enough for him to look out of it, his hair whipped around as he narrowed his eyes on the rather large building ahead.  

He then rolled the window back up and turned to you. “I’ll finish the rest of the paperwork, everything is set up for you. Just ask the front desk receptionist to direct you,” he said and you were a bit baffled by his sudden change in behavior.

You pressed your hands against the seat and leaned forward, parting your lips to speak but nothing came out. You already asked if everything was alright and you knew from experience that Toshinori acted strange just before he had to run off somewhere.

Still, you couldn’t help but frown and once again slumped in your seat, crossing your arms. “Fine,” you replied, trying to ease the awkward tension in the air. But in actuality, you only seemed to make it worse and Toshinori looked at you with a sad expression before the limousine pulled over.

You turned when you heard him open the door and somewhat struggle to get out of the vehicle. But at least he held the door open for you and with some hesitation, you crawled out. Smoothing out the front of your outfit before you glanced up, the sight of the All Might agency taking your breath away.

It was a tall building with several windows and a large illuminated sign which more than likely caught everyone’s attention. You stood there with your jaw hanging open before you felt Toshinori walk behind you. “Hm?” you turned, watching him climb back into the limousine.

“Wait, where are you going?” you questioned and he paused. “I…have to take care of something for All Might, I’ll be back later,” he assured and hoped you remembered the instructions he gave you. However, you couldn’t help but feel a tad upset. Still, you tried to push that feeling down.

After all, Toshinori had a lot of work to do and maybe it wasn’t right trying to take up all of his time. Yet, you couldn’t help but latch onto your lip as you took a step away from the curb. “Oh,” you replied as you pressed one hand to your chest, glancing away from him.

This caused him to frown. “I’ll be back later,” he repeated in a soft voice, hoping to lift your spirits. If you only knew how badly he wanted to stay by your side you would never distance yourself from him again. However, you only nodded and turned to slowly walk towards the agency.

He watched as you pushed open the front doors and walked inside. A sigh then escaped him before he climbed back into the limousine which began to pull away from the curb. He turned to look at the small pile of paperwork and laid his hand on top of it, yes he did say he’d fill it out for you.

But it could wait, right now he needed to figure out what possible gift he could buy you. He brought his hand up to his chin, tapping it mindlessly with one finger. It needed to be something meaningful, something to show just how much he cared for you.

In the days that followed, you seemed to fall into your new job with ease. Your coworkers were friendly enough and helped you with whatever you needed. But your job mainly consisted of reviewing paperwork, specifically the criminal incident reports.

You had to make sure each and every report had All Might’s signature in addition to ensuring everything was spelled and labeled correctly. But it came to your attention that you hadn’t seen Toshinori or All Might in your short few days of working at the agency. You assumed they were both busy.

At least that’s the impression you got from asking around a bit, it was a tad shocking that most of your coworkers only saw either or party once or twice a month which raised some questions. If Toshinori was that busy, then why did he make time for you? All Might was a hero, that you understood.

In a way, he was always working and when he wasn’t he was ready to leap into action when needed. Still, it was a little boring and dull around the office by the week of the big holiday. In fact, there were only a few other workers besides yourself in the building which meant it was eerily quiet.

This along with the holiday music that echoed through the halls wasn’t the best combination. But you managed to work through it regardless, finding that it didn’t bother you as much as hearing what everyone had gotten from their secret santa. In fact, you couldn’t help but feel a little jealous.

You were used to being left out, isolated from everyone else because you lacked a quirk. Now you just lacked timing and you knew eventually that someone at the agency would find out you were quirkless and then the discrimination would start all over again.

But at least you didn’t have to see anyone until after the holiday or so you thought. Seems All Might was one of the many heroes volunteering to work through the holiday, and you understood why. But what you didn’t understand is why he decided to leave a note on your desk requesting you to work overtime.

Well, perhaps overtime wasn’t the correct word. Rather, the note instructed that you’d be working through the holiday and you imagined that was only to stop the paperwork from backing up. Sure, it meant extra money for you but it was still disappointing all the same.

Weren’t there special workers that took care of any slack for the agencies so the employees could enjoy the holiday off? Then again, you didn’t really have anyone to celebrate it with. But that didn’t mean you wouldn’t silently protest this injustice.

So with some minor anger, you awoke on the day of the big holiday and slowly got ready for your more than likely boring day at the completely empty All Might agency while everyone else was at home celebrating and opening presents with their family.

You couldn’t help but groan at the thought of presents as you slumped down in your chair, once again the thought of secret santa came to mind followed by the thought of Toshinori. “Mm…” you propped your elbows on top of your desk and cradled the sides of your face in your palms.

Allowing one of your feet to kick the underside of your desk and listened as the sound echoed through the otherwise silent building. Your eyes glanced at the large stack of paperwork, still waiting for your review. You expected such a thing from All Might, he worked quickly and easily triumphed over villains.

You let out a sigh and curiously reached over, grabbing the first paper on top of the stack and glanced over it quickly. “Guess I better get started,” you said before turning to look at the digital clock that hung on the wall then back to the papers. Then you sighed. “This may take a while,” you muttered.

But regardless, you got to work. The silence seemed to work to your advantage and helped your concentration as you went through paper after paper. Easily working your way through half of the pile before you decided to take a break.

Despite your office being on the third floor, All Might seemed to be generous when it came to the construction of his agency and each floor had a small break room with the exception of his office or so you heard. You hadn’t actually seen it, but you imagined it was luxurious.

Your momentary thoughts were interrupted when Toshinori suddenly came to mind. Was it silly to say that you missed him? He seemed so busy on a regular day, you could only imagine what it was like around this time of the year for him. You slowly rose from your chair, feeling a slight discomfort run down your backside.

‘Maybe I should invest in a seat cushion’ you thought as you walked down the hallway to the break room, hearing the floor creak underneath your feet acting as a reminder of just how quiet it was. “Mm,” you tried not to let the silence get to you and turned the corner into the break room.

You had your hopes that a cup of tea might ease the minor anxiety you felt. Searching through the cabinets, you managed to find a clean mug and proceeded to fill the machine with water before pouring the green tea into the mug. You then placed it on the drip tray underneath the machine.

The hot water would take a minute or two to come to a boil, not that you minded. You placed your hands on the counter, fingers eagerly tapping against it. When the water finally came out with a loud hiss, you watched as it filled up your mug.

The slightly musky scent of tea reached your nostrils and you grabbed one of the plastic stirrers located next to the machine and proceeded to mix the contents of your mug. However, the machine hissed once again and seconds later you felt a small dribble of hot water hit your hand.

You ignored the minor discomfort and continued to stir the tea, somewhat eager to get absorbed in your paperwork once more. You didn’t want to think about family, presents, secret santa, Toshinori or even All Might himself. You just wanted to get through the workday, go home, and sleep the rest of the holiday off.

Your hand came to a stop and you proceeded to throw the stirrer into the trash. “Mm…” carefully grasping the mug, you brought it up to your mouth and blew on it a few times before trying to take a sip. However, you ended up jumping when you heard a noise.

The freshly brewed tea spilled over the edges of the mug and onto your hands, you fought the urge not to drop it as you didn’t feel like picking up shattered glass at the moment. You managed to lean over and place the mug onto the counter before you frantically waved your hands through the air, trying to cool your now irritated skin.

“Damn it!” you quickly ran over to the sink and turned on the cool water. Allowing it to run over your hands for a minute or two as you glanced at the ceiling. That noise came again, this time it sounded like a series of thuds, almost as if someone were moving furniture around.

You knew it was coming from one of the floors above you and despite feeling a little scared. You couldn’t help but wonder who or what was making that noise and if you should investigate it. You didn’t have a quirk, so you were already at a disadvantage.

Especially if the source of that noise wasn’t another employee of the All Might agency. In addition, you didn’t remember hearing anyone walk through the floor you were working on. Hell, you hadn’t even heard the elevator. So how was it possible that someone got into the building?

Did they climb through an open window? It all sounded ridiculous you knew, but either way you felt like you had to do something, despite being anything but a hero. You looked down at your hands, wincing slightly at the still red skin and you could feel the way it stung.

You allowed your fingers to graze the skin of your opposite hand, noting that it felt warm to the touch. “Mm...” you frowned before lowering your hand. However, you flinched seconds later when another noise came and you turned your head to look at the ceiling again.

A small amount of fear washed over you. But for one reason or another, the thought of Toshinori entered your mind and you couldn’t help but ask if he would be acting this way. The answer was no. In fact, he’d probably march to the source of the noise if it meant keeping others safe.

You took a deep breath and quickly ran out of the break room. Resisting the urge to head straight for the stairs so you could run down to the lobby and out the door. Instead, you went to the nearest elevator with your heart still pounding in your chest.

Reaching out a shaky hand for the button, you took a step back when you heard the familiar mechanical whirling before the doors opened seconds later. You took a step forward, glancing around before stepping inside. The doors closed once more, leaving you to stare at your reflection against the metal surface.

You glanced at the button panel on the right side of the wall. ‘So many floors,’ you thought before reaching over, allowing your finger to hover over each button for a moment before you looked at the large one that was placed above them. The one that led to All Might’s office.

You didn’t know where the initial noise had come from, but the temptation to see his office seemed to slowly corrupt your mind. ’Well…maybe a small look wouldn’t hurt…then I can investigate the noise,’ you thought as you pushed the button and watched it light up yellow. Then something you didn’t expect happened. 

‘I am here! I am here! I am here!’ echoed through the elevator speakers causing you to stumble back into the wall. Your hands reached back, grasping onto the single metal bar that ran along the back of the elevator just before it started to move.

You almost lost your footing and felt your back hit the top of the bar you were desperately holding. A grunt escaped as you managed to pull yourself back up, your eyes then focused on the small panel above the elevator doors. Watching as it lit up each floor number you passed and halted only when you finally reached the top.  The doors opened and you cautiously stepped forward, poking your head out only to have a gasp leave your mouth. Your hand came up to your chest as you took in the very spacious looking floor. The carpet appeared crisp and clean and the furniture looked polished. You continued to step out of the elevator and your eyes shifted to Toshinori’s desk which looked organized and well kept. But you couldn’t resist picking up the name tag that lay across the top of it and traced the letters of his name with your thumb before placing it back where it belonged. 

“Oh…” you walked over to the windows which overlooked the city. The flashing lights and festive displays caught your eye and you found yourself staring in awe as you pressed your hands against the glass. You were almost disappointed it wasn’t snowing, but you were still smiling. 

That is until another noise came, making you jump back. Your head immediately turned, your eyes landing on the source of said noise which just so happened to be whoever or whatever was on the other side of All Might’s office door. 

Your feet suddenly felt heavy as if they were frozen to the ground and your legs were slightly shaking. Were you afraid? Maybe a little. Your anxiety-ridden thoughts seemed to consume you, thinking of the absolute worst scenario you could be greeted with on the other side of that door. 

Still, you tiptoed over and hesitantly reached for the handle despite not knowing if the door itself was locked or unlocked. Regardless, your fingers wrapped around it and slowly pushed it open. “Hm?” Toshinori or as he looked now, All Might was standing in front of a large window. 

Still dressed in his hero suit which was decorated with hues of blue, red, and white. His silver belt added a few touches of yellow. His bright almost pastel blue cape lightly swayed as he turned to look over his shoulder. “Ah, Y/n!” he announced as he flashed you a smile, almost as if he expected you to come and he did. 

Rather he planned the whole thing, knowing you would be alone in the building. But he didn’t want to make it obvious that he wanted to speak to you so why not lore you to him? You blinked and leaned over, glancing around the room. 

Your eyes caught sight of his oversized and polished desk with the most comfortable-looking office chair you had ever seen. There was a fish tank located to the right of his desk and a bookshelf to the left. Off to the side was a mini-fridge and you couldn’t help being a little curious as to what was inside it. 

Your attention turned back to All Might who hadn’t averted his gaze from you and still had that bright smile on his face. Your eyes traced those pearly whites before looking into his eyes, it was funny they almost reminded you of the shade of blue Toshinori’s eyes were. 

“Uh…” you trailed off, feeling rather awkward. “S-Sorry!” you blurted out before bowing, catching All Might off guard. This certainly wasn’t what he was expecting. Still, he tried to push past the awkward tension and raised his hand in the air. “Think nothing of it, young Y/n!” he replied with a hearty laugh. 

“Is there something troubling you? Is it the paperwork?” he questioned as he approached you. “Huh?” leaning back up, you couldn’t help but look at him with a still flushed but confused face. “I…uh…” you wanted to take a step back, but All Might’s hand reaching over to take hold of your shoulder prevented you from doing such a thing.

You tried to ignore the tingles that his touch brought and shook your head. “I…just…um, h-heard a noise,” All Might tilted his head. “A noise?” he repeated, playing dumb for the moment as you nodded. “Hm, I see,” he replied as he reached up to grasp his chin with his free hand.

Trying to resist the laugh that threatened to pass his lips. “Apologies!” he suddenly exclaimed, lifting the hand that was on your shoulder up to his forehead which was tilted back as he let out a laugh. “...what?” you muttered under your breath.

The longer you spent around All Might the more you were beginning to see that odd almost childish personality of his. As his laughter died down, he glanced at you before walking over to his desk. “Uh...” you stood there, folding your hands behind your back. Feeling rather awkward as the seconds passed.

“That must have been me! I was having quite some trouble…” he trailed off as he laid his hand on his desk and leaned over to grab something from what appeared to be either a bottom drawer or underneath the desk itself. Once again you found yourself being rather surprised something didn’t break under his weight.

“Wrapping this!” he declared, holding up a small box that looked to be wrapped in red and yellow paper and topped off with a blue bow. You blinked, was that a present? He noticed the way you were staring and proceeded to clear his throat as he approached you once more.

“Young Toshinori also informed me of your quirkless status and the secret santa exchange you have missed!” you opened your mouth to reply, but quickly closed it. Feeling a small amount of anger fill you, why did Toshinori share the fact you were quirkless with All Might of all people!?

“Mm...” you clenched your jaw, balling your hands into fists. However, you were momentarily distracted from your anger when All Might lowered himself onto one knee in front of you. “Huh?” you took half a step back and wanted to ask what he was doing, but he once again laid his hand on your shoulder.

His other hand is still holding the small gift. “But!” he exclaimed and you could practically feel the vibrations from his voice echo through the room. “I am here to say that you are not forgotten, Y/n,” his words yet again seemed to make your heart race and that familiar heat rush to your cheeks.

“I…uh…t-thank you?” Despite the silent threat going through your head revolving around finding Toshinori and wringing his neck for exposing your quirkless status so easily and behind your back. Once again All Might seemed to distract you away from your thoughts.

“While you lack a quirk, there is something you must know!” he took his hand off your shoulder and held up one finger. “A quirk certainly makes a difference, but it is the hero inside that is important!” he said before folding his hand into a fist and slamming it against his chest, making you flinch.

“Huh?” All Might noticed this and gave a crooked frown. “Did I scare you?” he questioned before letting out another laugh which had you confused once more. ‘The hero inside?’ you repeated silently in your head, and yes his words were sweet. But you weren’t entirely sure what they meant.

In fact, part of you wondered just how in-depth Toshinori spoke of you, from what you gathered he spilled every bit of information he currently had on you to All Might. The rising popular hero, the one with an incredible quirk that no one could possibly match up to. The one who...didn’t look down on you?

Was he just being nice or trying to raise your confidence? Honestly, you were feeling a wave of mixed emotions and yet, you assumed no one could actually understand what it meant to be completely powerless. But then again, All Might did seem to be sincere when it came to well...just about everything.

You grumbled, raising your eyebrow as you looked at him with clear suspicion. “You...really mean that?” your voice was soft and you couldn’t help the way your lip quivered. Of course, All Might noticed this and frowned. He wasn’t much for words, was he? At least they didn’t seem to work on you.

“Hm...” he glanced away, thinking of what else he could do to prove his words were true. Well, you didn’t seem to reject it when he made subtle affectionate gestures towards you. So perhaps he could try that. He glanced back at you before reaching out to gently cup your cheek.

Your eyes widened before you felt his thumb gently graze along your cheekbone. There was a silent moment between the two of you before All Might stood on his feet once more, towering over you and casting you in his shadow yet again.

You almost hated the fact that your cheeks were flushed, the warmth radiating from them causing you to sweat a little. He was quite satisfied his simple action had worked and presented the small wrapped-up gift to you once more. Holding it out for you to take despite giving no verbal instruction to do so.

But the way he inched his hand closer to you silently indicated he wanted you to do just that. So you did...hesitantly and inspected the colorful paper and bow. You then looked at All Might and flinched when you noticed he had decided to crouch down and place his hands on top of his knees.

A smile still painted his face as he couldn’t wait to see your reaction when you opened your gift. It was small but had a mighty meaning to it and he had his hopes it would continue to boost your self-confidence. “Uh, heh,” you gave an awkward smile before carefully ripping off the wrapping paper.

“Hm?” you blinked when saw a completely white box, it had no writing nor any name on it. Your eyebrows knitted together before you slowly opened it. “Huh?” you glanced at what lay inside. A single necklace on a silver chain with what looked to be a circular yellow gemstone and an All Might charm next to it.

“Do you like it!?” he questioned, nearly causing you to drop the box. “Careful now, I spent quite some time deciding what type of gift you deserved,” he said as he reached over, gently sandwiching your unsteady hands and necklace between his own.

“May I put it on you?” he questioned, and once again you felt your cheeks begin to flush. “P-Put it on?” you repeated and for a moment, he was afraid you were going to reject his offer. But instead, he watched as you nodded. “If…you want,” after all, how many actually got a chance like this?

All Might grinned happily yet again and pulled back his hands, taking the box containing the necklace with him. He carefully pulled it from the soft cushion holding it in place and fumbled somewhat trying to unhook the back of it. You smirked at the sight before turning around.

Once again trying to ignore the way your heart raced as his hands brushed the sides of your hair and his fingers grazed your neck before he struggled with the latch of the necklace once more. But after a few moments, you heard the soft, ‘click’ and you reached up to allow your fingers to brush over the cool metal.

You then turned around, almost wanting to ask if there was a mirror so you could see how the necklace looked on you. But instead, you asked. “Why…did you buy this for me?” it was an innocent question, or so you hoped. Your question was responded to with a laugh before All Might stood up with his hands on his hips.

“To remind you that no matter what, with or without a quirk. You will always be small but mighty!” he declared as he raised his arms above his head. “Do not give up on yourself, Y/n. You are a strong hero all the same. Says I, All Might!” He proceeded to strike a pose with one arm curled up and knuckles pressing against his forehead.

His other arm remained outstretched with his palm facing downward and fingers pressed together. You stared wide-eyed at this display, your mouth hanging open and your brain still trying to process his words. You felt your throat tighten and your eyes begin to water.

“Hm?” All Might noticed this and immediately dropped his posture and instead, quickly knelt in front of you. His hands on your shoulders as he watched tears begin to stream down your face. “Does the gift upset you!?” he questioned frantically, his fingers tightening their grip on you.

But you shook your head and reached up to wipe a few tears away. “Then what is it?” he questioned, growing confused when you began to smile. “No one has ever told me that before, it just…means a lot,” you explained in a soft voice as yet more tears began to slide down your cheeks.

“Thank you, All Might. Please tell Toshinori I said thank you too,” you really hoped you’d see him again soon. He blinked a few times before laughing. “I see, I’m quite glad you like it!” he said as he reached back to grasp his cape and gently used it to wipe your watery eyes.

You appreciated it, especially considering his cape felt soft and certainly acted absorbent enough to dry your eyes. “I…don’t know what to get you now,” you said softly, once again causing the pro hero to laugh. “Do not worry about me, I have already gotten my gift!” he stated before standing on his feet.

He then turned and resumed his position in front of the window. Hands behind his back as he appeared to be looking at the city below. “That being said, perhaps you should leave for the day,” you took a step back. “Huh?” you’d be lying if you said your heart didn’t sink in your chest.  

“You’re telling me to go home?” you questioned and watched as he turned to look at you from over his shoulder, giving a nod. “B-But…” you stuttered and he raised his hand in the air. “It’s alright, it was unfair to ask you to spend the holiday working. I can finish any paperwork!” he said confidently, though you couldn’t help but feel some anger.

You were ordered to come in and now you were being ordered to leave? What sense did that make? “I’ll have young Toshinori call you, I’m sure he’s quite eager to spend what remains of the holiday with you,” those words made you perk up and your jaw slightly dropped.

“S-Spend…with…b-but what about you?” it wouldn’t feel right spending time with Toshinori when you knew All Might was alone on the holiday. He couldn’t help the smile that came to his face, though he knew you didn’t know he was also Toshinori. It was sweet to hear your concern. 

“I will be alright! There is plenty to keep me busy and I must keep an eye open for any villains that may cause trouble,” he assured before turning around, fully facing you. He then proceeded to walk over to you, leaning over to be at eye level with you.

“I will be fine,” he reassured you yet again. “Go have fun and be merry, as the saying goes!” he said, shooing you away with his hand. Still, you wore a frown and reached up to clasp the charms of your necklace. Even so, you found yourself walking to the door. But you came to a pause and placed your opposite hand on the door frame.

“I hope you have a good holiday All Might and…thanks for the gift,” you said, not bothering to turn around. “Happy holidays, Y/n,” he said quietly before watching you walk out of his office with a sulk and shut the door behind you. He waited until he heard the elevator come before he consciously deactivated his quirk.Allowing his body to shrink in size, becoming his true self Toshinori Yagi. But he couldn’t help but smile, this overwhelming feeling of happiness making his heart flutter in his chest. You had liked his gift and he certainly hoped he could see you wearing it around the office. But he needed to hurry now, especially if he was going to spend the rest of the holiday with you. Who knows, maybe he could catch you under the mistletoe tonight.                                   

[count-lero]

So I’m bringing something incredibly sweet and tender to the fandom table~

“And what is it?”, you’ll ask. “One second, please!”, I’ll answer!

*rummages in his pouch with fan-art*

Oh! Who could have guessed! Those are some ✨ship feels✨

Wonderfully soft and delicate those feels are. Without any unnecessary angst or anguish. Just something simple but special. 🤲❤️

And I actually believe that such moments between those two happen on very rare occasions, since Metternich is usually quite unbearable and selfish. He simply doesn’t care much, if only it’s not some kind of crazy passion how it was in case of his most famous lover, Wilhelmina, duchess of Sagan. When this love story gets brought up, I always smirk inwardly, as many found Clemens incredibly calm and rational person who savoured life in complete stillness. Like a snake of some sort. However, this affair ruins his “cold and unapproachable” imagery at once.

Like, yeah, he was tremendously passionate.

“Trop de passion et pas assez d’art”

Those were Wilhelmine’s own words. And what a backstab they were at Metternich’s inflated ego. His love towards her lingered in the air until her dying days but he had probably never forgave her fully because of them.

When it comes to my perception of their… ehem… intimate relationships with Schwarzenberg, I see them as something domestic almost. Metternich already had too much disturbances and emotional upheavals in his life - especially in the period between 1809 and 1815 - and he probably wouldn’t love that strictly secret part of his love life to cause him any kind of trouble. He, personally, would probably bring a lot to the table and light-hearted, caring Schwarzenberg is there for it. He is there with his helping hand or his shoulder on which Metternich can lay his overworked head and contemplate in silence. Or continue to speak out on all the political questions troubling his mind. Or complain. Or weep, since he was very sensitive after all. Or dream. Or simply sleep.

Klemens brings almost nothing into those relationships (only in case when Schwarzenberg gets too overwhelmed in dealing with all that sh*t constantly, thus the situation becomes too dangerous, and, of course, the horny element; perhaps too much horny stuff for Schwarzenberg to handle…) and Karl never asks for something back because that’s just how the things work.

Die natürliche Ordnung der Dinge.

(Well, actually no, Schwarzenberg probably doesn’t think that everything’s fine - nothing is fine! It’s horrible and unjust, especially towards the woman of his dreams, but oh well. He had never cheated on her with any other woman. She is the one and only. But Metternich still comes to him and puts everything in his life on fires of Hell.)

So, that’s the main ideas, I guess, and I’m always ready to share them. And will share more in a foreseeable future! Х)

To sum it all up, this art was actually inspired by a certain passage from a book about Congress of Vienna, where the author spoke about all the exquisite dishes which were offered to the guests and their favourite beverage - coffee, since a lot of those men and women passed sleepless nights dancing, playing cards, etc. And after reading that I thought Metternich could probably be that sort of a person who stays awake on his feet for two or three days fuelled by his own passion and coffee, then, with the last bits of his strength, creeps there where nobody is going to look for him, tries to get on the nerves of his saviour one last time and simply passes out in his embrace, because it was too much. Even for such person as Klemens.

And now they can simply enjoy the moments of peace and complete stillness together.

That’s what they both need after all the trouble. 🤫

[vulgarvixxen]

I simply think. Logan teaching Thomas how pussy works.

You are so right anon and honestly I had intended for this to have twice as much Logan but Thomas became the focus. I hope you enjoy this anyway.

Warnings ⚠️: 18+ only, oral sex, vaginal fingering, hint of degradation, hint of feminization kink, slight dom/sub elements, lmk if I missed any

Logan class in session

It happened while talking to Talon and Joan about exes. Talon had lamented about a guy who would never go down because “he didn’t think pussy needed that much fuss.” it made him realize he didn’t know anything about pleasuring a partner with a vagina. Sure he knew from biology where some stuff was but it was only a vague idea and that didn’t help him know what to do or where, and that’s how he ended up here in the mind-palace with Logan and two very enthusiastic volunteers.

On the projector screen was a very simplistic illustration of the human vaginal anatomy, Logan was talking about how the muscular canal is both elastic and flexible. Not as interesting as the fact that it expands? During? Sex? then just goes back to normal later? Why hadn’t that been in his college biology textbook, that was more relevant than the section on how the nose smells! Oh and it turns out those weird videos he came across as a young adult where the actresses “squirted”? Yeah that’s a real thing not just something for porn, the porn was still exaggerating and lame but it was real! Thomas was really enjoying this time with Logan…and two oddly quiet twins.

“Now that we have gone over some of the basic understanding of the vagina and it’s parts I think it’s time for some on hand experience. Remus and Roman have been kind enough to shift their anatomy to a human,” he stops and glares at Remus who just huffs and waves off the teacher’s obvious reprimand, “a human vagina, so you can see how different stimuli are received. Any questions before we begin?” Thomas raises his hand and is called on.

“Why do we need both of them to shift?”

“Ah! Yes, great question! Well just as every penis is unique so is every vagina and as such no two people will respond the same. You will switch between them to try and find what each likes best, and it helps to have a backup if one of our subjects needs a break for water!” Logan says it like he’s reading a script but there is an underlying chipperness one would more likely associate with Patton, it was nice to see.

“You really thought this through. Alrighty I guess I’m as ready as I’m going to be.”

Thomas’s tongue teased Roman’s folds, earning a sighing moan from the red twin, it wasn’t Roman’s “spot” but Thomas liked the breathy moans it pulled out of the other. He teased a little longer before he added circling his thumb around so it swiped both the clit and it’s hood. That got Roman howling out in pleasure, arching his back and grasping for anything for leverage. He switches his tongue and thumb so he’s pressing the tip of his tongue against the clit in a flicking motion.

“𝓕𝓤𝓬𝓴 𝓕𝓤𝓒𝓚, 𝓣𝓗𝓞𝓜𝓐𝓢 𝓓𝓞𝓝𝓣 𝓓𝓐𝓡𝓔 𝓢𝓣𝓞𝓟! 𝓑𝓨 𝓣𝓗𝓔 𝓖𝓞𝓓𝓢 𝓓𝓞 𝓝𝓞𝓣 𝓢𝓣𝓞𝓟“*

Bolstered by the pleading of his ego Thomas continues his flicking, every few licks longer than the others until the cries of “fuck” become screams of “yes” and “Thomas” but he doesn’t stop until Roman is squirming and whining.

“Amazing work Thomas, you found the places that give Roman the most stimulation and used that to help him reach a satisfying climax.” Praises Logan as he helps Roman sit up and sip some water. “I believe our other subject is very excited to be of help, don’t keep him waiting.”

At the direction Thomas wipes his face of the cooling mix of ejaculation and drool and heads over to where Remus is whimpering and clutching the end of his casual shirt. It was kind of cute seeing him so needy and willing, maybe he could do this sort of thing with the intrusive side more often.

“Just lean back now, I’m going to find what makes you feel good. Ok?” Remus nods eagerly to the instructions and falls back onto the bed/table thing both twins have been situated on, his hands still hold his shirt but now his legs are spread and Thomas has to swallow to keep the drool in his mouth from running down his chin.

“Are you always this horny or is it just because you’ve been waiting?” Thomas teased as he leaned down to take his experimental lick over the folds.

“I could hear what you were doing to Ro-Ro and how much he was loving it, couldn’t wait for that to be me. Thomas, make me your bitch, make me feel like a Duchess only good for making her king an heir.” Remus pleads and Thomas backs off to look the side in the eyes.

“Do…do you want me to use she/her while we’re doing this? Cause I’m fine with that but I’m not going to call you names while I’m trying to make you feel good.”

“Shit, yes. Yes please use she/her and call me Duchess if you get the chance to talk!” Remus blushes as she admits what she really wanted and Thomas chuckles at how cute he finds her antics right now.

Right off the bat he finds that she likes her urethra teased a lot more than Roman had but that nibbly kisses on her inner folds got the best gasping jolts out of her. He takes a chance and nibble kisses Remus’s hood as he’s running his fingers over her folds and into the vagina and is rewarded with a chant of “𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞, 𝐦𝐲 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞“ so he kept up the rhythm before changing the angle of his hand so the urethra gets some attention and he can tell she holding back,

“Duchess, be a good girl and cum for your king.” As soon as he finishes his encouragement he is back to nibble kisses but not for much longer as Remus let’s go and let’s her orgasm wash over her. Thomas is thrilled when she “squirts” a stream of ejaculation on his hand between clenches.

“You ok my beautiful Duchess?” He asks after Remus has stopped gasping for breath.

“Wonderful! You’re a natural Tommy, you put straight white guys to shame!” She giggles, she pauses as Logan comes over to help her up just as he did her brother.

“Remus, though in her own words are a bit lacking, is correct. We’ve only had one lesson but I’m confident that should the need arise you will be prepared to bring pleasure to a partner who has a vagina.” Agrees Logan as Remus enjoys her water and waves at Roman who seems to be trying to stay awake.

“Thanks, I really enjoyed this. I feel like I’ve gotten close to the three of you and not just in the biblical sense.” That gets another giggle from Remus and a smile from Logan.

“No more talk, I want snuggles!” Roman demands in a sleepy grumble. It doesn’t take much to snap the twins into clean, soft clothes and shift the mind-palace into a big pile of padding, blankets and pillows. With three of his sides dozing off Thomas couldn’t help but think that he owes Talon a nice candy bouquet for planting the idea in his head.

* fuck fuck, Thomas don’t dare stop, by the gods don’t stop!

[blacksunscorpio]

What does it mean when I have a Capricorn signature?

Signature Sign In Astrology

You might have heard the term signature sign thrown around if you’ve been studying astrology for a while. Others of you might not have heard if this concept at all. It isn’t as well-known, however, it can reveal significant information about you.

What it Means

To put it plainly, the astrological signature sign is the zodiac sign that’s the most specific to you and your character.

How to find it

It involves noting which element and quality/modality appear the most or has the most signs and then combining them into a zodiac sign which is taken to be the signature sign of the chart. It will be easy to do because certain characteristics of signs will repeat themselves. It’s the most frequent modality and element in your natal chart.

Ex. 1 A person has more fire signs than any other element, and more fixed signs than any other quality, then that person's signature is Leo. In some cases, there is no clear majority in either element or quality to give a clear signature. When this occurs, an individual has an Ambiguous Signature.

Ex. 2  Let’s say you are a Taurus Sun, a fixed earth sign. But many planets in mutable signs take up residence in your chart. In addition, you have a multitude of planets in water. This makes you feel like a Neptunian/Pisces, which is a mutable water sign. You might not have many or any for that matter significant placements in Pisces but somehow still identify with the qualities of the sign to a great extent.

How To Find It Cont.

You weigh the elements and modalities of the sign where a planet is located in your chart. Begin with the Sun, next Moon and repeat this process for all the planets in your natal chart: Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto. The ascendant and the Midheaven also have to be considered.

Signature Signs Through The Zodiac

Aries signature

If Aries is your signature sign, you are ambitious and have a strong will. Boss-like. Warrior. Killer instinct. Can sometimes be hot-headed and impulsive, it happens that you act before you think instead of the other way around which can get you into serious trouble. Don’t be Oberyn from GoT and get cocky now. However, you’re a born leader and like to initiate things. Taking action is your second nature. No one will ever pull the Hermit card or 4 of cups for you in a Tarot reading. Way too active. A straightforward sign, which sometimes blends into bluntness, bossiness, or take-no-prisoners attitude. Being independent is very important to you. You hate being told what to do. You like to work alone if you can. Competitive and brave, someone who loves new challenges. You love to win. Will always be after new opportunities to conquer.

Taurus signature 

If Taurus is your astrological signature sign, you prefer to think before you act. Need a lot of time to make a decision, but once it’s done, nothing can make you change your mind. You are incredibly stubborn and persistent. Taurus is the sign of hedonism. If this is your signature sign in astrology, you know how to enjoy life. You appreciate good food, beautiful clothes, and everything luxurious. Taurus craves stability, both financially and emotionally. You are dependable and passionate. Love to cook and or shop for expensive and good quality things. Can be jealous in love or possessive as well. Bullheaded to the point of no return but just as ambitious when it comes to cultivating stability and wealth.

Gemini signature

If Gemini is your signature sign, you are curious, witty, and chatty. You are a great observant, someone who notices every detail, and then make a pun about it. Gemini is incredibly smart. They love to read and write, and they are usually talented when it comes to expressing themselves. However, Gemini because of their mercurial flighty nature can lack focus if they don’t reign it in somehow. This flightiness can give others the impression that they are sometimes superficial. You get bored veryyy quickly. Because of this, you need a lot of mental stimulation. Geminis are life-long learners, they are simply in love with knowledge. Need to be sure to keep that devil and angel [your twins] aligned so as to not make enemies or be seen as two-faced.

Cancer signature 

If Cancer is your signature sign in astrology, you are a gentle soul. However, you become easily overwhelmed with others. Cancer is a crab and will retreat into its shell if it’s not in the mood to deal. Can be moody and or need a lot of time on your own, in the safety of your home. They like to be surrounded by family members. You are soft and caring. HIGHKEY intuitive and can sense the emotions of others easily [especially when developed.] They are extremely protective of their loved ones. Will pinch you with their claws if you mess with them or someone they care about.

Leo signature

If your signature sign is Leo, you have a big heart. Quite warm and sincere. Famous for its generosity. They, like Jupiterians like to give- especially in terms of love and affection. Leos need luxury around them. They are the royalty of the zodiac, right? They enjoy being around others, making people laugh and cheering them up. Have lots of energy but a big ego to go with it. They love attention and might court it often or simply get it naturally since the Sun is in the mix here. Too much of the negative manifestation of Leo can make one prone to arrogance, bossiness, and boastfulness. It’s important to realize that this wounds people around you. If you show others your soft side, they will give you all the love you crave.

Virgo signature 

If Virgo is your signature sign, you are modest, effective, and helpful. Deeply analytical and process information at the drop of a hat. Productivity is very important to you. Virgos have a high attention to detail, and they solve problems by analyzing them. Rational and cerebral thinking is one of your greatest strengths. Quite reliable and have a strong sense of duty. Can be hyper-critical and a bit too compulsive in their tendencies. Prone to nervousness and anxious habits. However, this sign has a very powerful brain. They prefer thinking over feeling, which can be sometimes challenging for them. 

Libra signature 

If your signature sign is Libra, you’ll be quite elegant. Venusian, baby. No matter what they do, they’ll make sure to do it with their face on and in their best attire. Libras are graceful and charming. They have great social skills, and they get along with everyone. However, sometimes they don’t stand up for themselves even when they should or because they wish to avoid conflict at all costs. They can also be a bit superficial which might be perceived as “fake” by some. There’s a deep need to be liked. Quite good taste though. Keen artistic talents. Great diplomats and would do well as an ambassador or even in HR [actually, please think about getting into Human Resources, there are way too many pieces of shit in this particular department]. This sign strives to create harmony, both visually and in interpersonal relationships.

Scorpio signature 

If your signature sign is Scorpio, you possess the qualities of Pluto. You have a deep mind, are intense and probing with perhaps a bit of a mysterious aura. You make a perfect detective. Nothing stays hidden. Quite loyal and passionate with intense emotions. Intuition is superb, but you are very sensitive at the same time. Scorpio can become obsessed with the object of their love. May be prone to jealousy in love or be quite ruthless and vengeful if slighted. It’s important NOT to get on this person’s bad side because Scorpios rarely [if ever] forgive. Is probably very sexual or unmatched in bed. Might end up rich [Pluto=wealth]. Might become a Mafia-boss. Might become a dictator. Might run a funeral home. Depends, lol.

Sagittarius signature

Expansion. Jupiter rules this sign and as a result one with this signature loves new experiences that aid them in understanding the world better. Optimistic and with a great sense of humor, people love being around them. They have high energy levels and they are always on the go. If your signature sign is Sagittarius, you have an unshakable faith in the universe. Philosophical prowess and an open mind with a streak of jolliness The sign of philosophy, and always looking towards the bright side. Might be blunt, unattached, and a bit dramatic or louder than most, however, lucky breaks might come often or in the nick of time. Makes sense since Jupiter rules luck.

Capricorn signature 

If Capricorn is your signature sign, there are significant earthy vibes to you, no matter your actual sign. Said native is reliable, efficient, and incredibly meticulous, and high-key ambitious. There’s a great need for success that borderlines on obsession. They are empowered by executive achievements and accomplishments. Order, structure, and discipline are paramount. Capricorns are famous in astrology for being known as hard workers who put a lot of effort into achieving their goals. They do not give up. They will climb the ladder, do or die. Typically will be quite successful in life. Often accused of being cold or cruel. Hell, they might be. Still, they are in need and are deserving of love and commitment. Reliable in a relationship once they decide to stop restricting themselves of affection and give in.

Aquarius signature 

Unique and eccentric, you always notice it when you meet an Aquarian. If Aquarius is your signature sign, you prefer to live life on your own terms. Freedom is your most important value in life. You enjoy being around like-minded people, even though your relationships are usually not of an emotional nature. Aquarius is the sign of brilliance in astrology. I always say that Aquarians have the highest levels of analytical intelligence but sometimes get written off because they can be weirdos lol. Mad scientist vibes. Wonderful ideas, fascinated by everything new and modern. Tech geeks. Aquarius is also the sign of humanitarian ideals. If you have this sign strong in your chart, you have a strong sense of justice.

Pisces signature

If Pisces is your signature sign, you have a very strong intuition. Quite sensitive to the point that all that white noise can easily overwhelm them. Hard to make out reality sometimes. Hence, Pisces needs to spend a lot of time alone in suspension thinking about things. Compassionate and have a strong sympathy for those suffering. Great healing abilities and an even greater imagination and creative streak. Probably feels quite good around water and can have a psychic knack with animals. Can be very musical and often have strong artistic talents. Be sure to tether yourself to this world so as to not float off. Escapism is okay but don’t escape reality too much. You may have come from another realm but in this incarnation, you were placed here for a reason. You belong here on earth with us ;).  

[jessecrust]

Elden Ring is a video game. So, what is that?

Video games are a wildly misunderstood artform. The confusion over what is artistic about them and what they are supposed to accomplish has somehow only gotten worse over time. We’ve seen games that are basically just movies that you interact with and we’ve seen games that are essentially just creation engines for you to do whatever you want with. And yet I feel that we’re really no closer to an answer. Even if you feel like you personally know what video games are, ask yourself this: are video games supposed to be fun?

Of course they are, you say. They are games and games are fun. But that’s not true, is it? There are lots of games that are not that fun. There are even games that are not fun on purpose. So, here we are, again at an impasse. Saying games are supposed to be fun is as shallow as insisting music should always be played on a guitar.

The “Souls” series of video games that began in 2009 with Demon’s Souls has long been thought of as games that are brutally difficult for the sake of being difficult. The latest release in the series, Elden Ring, is explosively popular for a (sorta) single player action RPG in the year 2022. It’s enjoyed the most concurrent players on Steam of any Souls games by a factor of six and universal acclaim with perfect review scores from almost every outlet. So it’s naturally led to a bit more fear of missing out than usual for a Souls game.

The discourse around the game has been, frankly, a circus. There’s countless videos of people dying to a stronger enemy and calling it bad game design. There’s tweets about how it takes six buttons to summon your horse companion which is bad game design. And there’s the general complaints you’d expect like why would I want to play a game where I die all the time, that isn’t fun. The logic, far as I can tell, is that dying means you’ve done something wrong. Yet it is my contention that one of the things that distinguish video games as a medium and potentially an artform is exactly that this repetition of death and rebirth is possible.

The first time you played a Super Mario Bros game, you probably didn’t know that Goombas would kill you if you touched them. It’s something you picked up pretty quickly and if you didn’t know already, no one had to tell you. You’d figure it out on your own. I’d like to pretend like there’s some sort of hidden meaning or secret to games like Dark Souls and Elden Ring, but that’s really all there is to it. Believe me, I’d love to write paragraph after paragraph of how brilliant it was for Bloodborne to punish players for rolling backwards all the time by giving bosses attacks that hit really far in front of them because they were used to using that strategy in Dark Souls, but I don’t really need to. The games simply embrace the idea that experience is the best teacher and that death is inevitable and can be overcome. The thing that really decides if the Souls games are for you is your willingness to engage with the game, not how hard it is. I personally think Super Mario 64 is way harder than any Souls game. There were moments where I didn’t think it was all that fun, but I’ve found that’s more my ego getting in the way rather than Super Mario 64′s design decisions. Similarly, Elden Ring and the other Souls games are wildly fun when things are going well. I can’t think of another game that lets me, in the middle of a tense combat scenario, leap 15 feet in the air and slam down on my ass, causing a giant shockwave that stuns the hostile knight in front of me. 

Case in point: one of Elden Ring’s first bosses you can encounter is the Tree Sentinel. I don’t think you’re intended to fight him early, but you can. He’s just sorta roaming around on horseback and you can just walk around him. But if you do choose to engage, your only option is fighting him on foot. Since he’s mounted on horseback with huge weapons, you’ll likely get shredded trying to fight him in his own element. Later on, you can come back with your own mount and easily destroy him since his attacks are very slow and you’re not longer at a speed disadvantage. I lost at least six times before giving up. Once I was on horseback, I beat him in one try. 

Failure is the best teacher, as the inspirational quote generator says. The ability to die and then come back and try again armed with knowledge is only possible in games. I think the best games embrace this and maybe are worthy of being called art. Games like Elden Ring and, another favorite of mine, Hades work death into their core design, pushing you ever onward. Death isn’t always failure, it’s also a wellspring of knowledge and experience that can carry forward. It’s part of what makes video games unique. An idea that’s been around as long as Mario: don’t worry, friend, you’ve got four more lives to go. You’ll get it right this time! It’s something that novels, movies, and music can’t really do. 

There are people who aren’t willing to give Elden Ring the level of engagement that is required to enjoy the game. There is nothing wrong with that and it’s perfectly okay, but please do not mistake deliberate design choices for bad game design. If you’re not having a good time, you shouldn’t force yourself to play it. I didn’t like Skyrim, so I stopped playing it. I don’t think it’s a bad game, it’s just not for me. If you are willing to give Elden Ring the engagement it demands, then you’ll find that it’s not just a good game, but could be the best game ever made. 

[luminary-gremlin]

Jameson’s Escape Room

A/N: AHAHAHAHA

Jameson had been sipping his cup of tea, the escape rooms were still in their prime and was all the manor talked about currently. He had overheard tales of Magnum’s and Illinois’ rooms and their adventures and how they were a great de-stresser for them. He had heard tales of Darkiplier himself coming out with a blush that Wilford would coo over incessantly. He even overheard Host comment to Google about someone’s being the biggest project yet! Which is where Jamie sat currently in between the two, sipping tea and taking a mental break.

“According to my statistics, activity around the manor has increased by 100% some using their escape rooms as a reward no matter if it’s small or big. Others using them as an escape from the outside world, and others for entertainment. This idea of yours Host has worked wonderfully.”

Google spoke as he tapped away on his laptop of logs and statistics he kept on everyone in the manor. Host chuckled softly as he took a sip of his tea.

“Well the Host would only hope that the manor residents would like their rooms and use in more than a singular occasion, hence why I added an implement of it changing yet fitting the theme everytime. That and our dear author here fears writing too many elements into a story and leaves it up to the reader on what else could be in the rooms as a hint of mystery.” The Host then stared off into space for a moment before returning his attention to the two people in front of him. “I must admit it did take a lot of energy out of me.”

Jamie tapped his fingers and bowed his head. He thought he was being subtle but aside from his movement and Host’s mumble narrations of the present, Google took notice.

“Jameson, have you had a chance to check out your room? If not, I sincerely hope we aren’t accidentally guilt tripping you.”

Jamie looked up at Google and shook his head, feeling a little guilty. The truth is Jamie would have loved to see his room but lately he’s just been too busy to interact with it. With writing new comedic skits and planning out Halloween most days he’s simply forgotten about it and then there are other days he feels like he’s missing his comedic touch and brings him into an upset mood that the last thing he wants to do is figure out how to escape with the pressure of being timed. Jamie explained his feelings to the two creators who simply nodded with what he’s saying.

“If it were to make Jamie feel any better… His escape room really has nothing to do with escape. To be fair originally we were going to go for “Activity Room” but “Escape Room” sounded a lot better. For instance Eric’s room is all about sensory, as we noticed he carries his handkerchief.”

Jamie lifted his head at that, it made sense after all not all the egos may enjoy the time pressure over their heads. He cocked his head to the side. “Really?” he signed.

“Oh yes, if I recall Author’s is horror themed and all about the anticipation. Much like how in horror games and there is a long hallway that just screams jumpscare.”

“It’s sort of payback from when I was younger and simulated horror stories to strangers.”

“Oh Dr. Iplier’s has to be my favorite, you know how much Doctor LOVES surgeon simulator”

Google and Host bounced off each other reminiscing about their designs before turning their attention back to Jamie and held out a hand.

“Would you like to see what your room has? I should let you know if I hear anything else except and eager yes we will not force you.”

Jamie thought about it for a moment, he did feel more willing to try it out now without the pressure of time. He gave an eager nod and took their hands, leading him to his room, which he was very curious about.

Jamie stepped in and the room was a mix between Peewee’s playhouse and rubberhose animations, everything had a smile and sung a little tune which got his foot tapping. A feather with a face flew down and tickled his chin, making his nose scrunch up with a smile and waved it away. He then found a comfy looking chair with an old classic tv in front of him. Turning it on, he sat down and got comfy.

At first everything was normal, commercials he hadn’t seen in forever, dancing along to the catchy tunes. Oh how all this made him feel right at home, already he was feeling so much better. Perhaps maybe his lack of motivation was home sickness?

However, Jamie didn’t have long to think as a cartoon began to start. It looked very unfamiliar to Jamie, but what he did recognize was another old timer’s handy work. This cartoon wasn’t familiar to him because it wasn’t a normal cartoon, it was a handmade cartoon animated by Shawn!

Jamie applauded as he leaned in close to find an animated him on screen. The title card flashed “The Ticklish Adventures of Jameson Jackson” and it cut to little Jamie sleeping soundly in bed when his alarm began to ring, triggering a Rube Goldberg device, which ended up vibrating a feather over his bare soles sticking out of the bed. Jamie shivered at the very thought of an evil device, until he looked down to find his feather friend hovering over his bare soles! But not quite touching him yet. Jamie let out a silent squeal and shuffled backwards.

Just then the chair he was in held him down and reclined back, making Jamie’s legs kick up and the feather wiggle itself over his captured soles! He couldn’t move! He shook his head and cackled silently to himself, scrunching his toes, wiggling his ankles, anything to get away from the cheeky feather tracing over his arches like a traditional cartoon like that one episode of Super Mario Bros Supershow when King Koopa was a vampire. Ahem-

After about a minute or so the feather let up and backed away, the chair reclining back as Jamie gasped, a faint smile on his face as he went to continue the animation, worried he had missed all of Shawn’s hard work. The title card “The Ticklish Adventures of Jameson Jackson” flickered on the screen and cut to little Jamie sleeping soundly- hey wait a minute, to Jamie’s surprise the episode restarted! Oh that was just not fair!

He let out a flustered huff as he watched the Rube Goldburg device scene once again and there his feather friend was once again hovering it’s feathery plume over his feet teasingly. Jamie bit his lip but nothing happened. After the scene was over little Jamie woke up with a big stretch, his pajamas definitlely too small for him as his entire tum was revealed before he brought his arms down. He slipped on his slippers and made his way out of his room for some breakfast, passing by the chaos of the manor to eat a breakfast called “Jamie’s Harvest” it featured oats and pumpkin shaped marshmallows, good for the whole family.

Jamie sighed with relief that so far nothing as happened. Until little Jamie went back to his room to change into his normal get up but oh no! Remember how I mentioned his pajamas being a little small? Poor little Jamie tried taking it off but now he was stuck with his arms above his head and unable to see the outside world, oh how dastardly that was indeed! Jamie already was holding back squirms because he knew what was coming. A pair of claws formed behind the little cartoon fellow at his most vulnerable point and the little guy had no idea!

Jamie didn’t even notice the same pair of claws teasingly wiggling their fingers next to him and squirmed and flailed at such a thought of that happening! Oh but how he realized when he was hiding in the chair and felt a hand rubbing his back to soothe him that he just sealed his fate. Just then a pit opened up in front of the chair as it slowly leaned forward to drop Jamie in. Jamie clung for life on the chair as he dangled over the pit of tickly hands reaching out to him. He thought he made a clever idea but alas he watched in “horror” as a claw wiggled itself over his ribs.

Jamie squeaked and tried his best to hold on when the other clawed hand used a finger to wiggle over his taut underarms. Jamie yelped and let go, falling into the pit with hands all over him. Jamie cackled as there seemed to be not a single hand that wasn’t on him. Mulitple hands up his shirt tickling his underarms, his ribs, his sides and hips, his thighs, some tweaking his knees, and many hands holding him down as many used their nails over his soles. Jamie looked up as the hole he fell through closed as he was tickle tortured.

Right before he had to call mercy they all stopped and scuttered away, leaving Jamie on the floor, red faced and panting, holding his belly as he regained his strength. Honestly he was having the time of his life. He did hear Host’s voice on an intercom.

“Jamie are you doing alright, would you like us to help you get out?”

Jamie gave them a thumbs up to indicate he was okay and a shake of his head to confirm he did not want to leave. He got back up on his feet, and walked for a while before finding himself at the same chair scene. He sat down and the cartoon started all over again. And again. And again. Soon enough Jamie started to feel slightly jealous of all the attention his cartoon was getting. Maybe he wants a Rube Goldberg alarm clock, or maybe he wants to get stuck in his jammies and someone take advantage of the situation, maybe he wants to be in Marvin’s magic show on the act where he gets cut in half and Marvin tickles his feets to reassure the audience it’s his.

Eventually though cartoon Jamie had a dayful of tickles and was tuckered out. A cartoon Chase helped him get his comfy jammies on and a hot cocoa, a cartoon Robbie curled up on cartoon Jamie’s bed to make it nice and snuggly warm, and a cartoon Shawn giving Jamie a little handmade doll to snuggle with. All the others joined in and wished Jamie a goodnight and a little message came up on the cartoon saying “We love you Jamie, you put a smile on everyone’s faces and we hope we can do the same for you”

Jamie’s heart swelled up at the message and hugged his legs happily, he felt so loved to be a part of his family. He always wanted to be a part of the Septic family, and always thought he had to play some part to fit in. When really Jamie just had to be himself and be loved endlessly. Jamie was about to get up when another message came up, “How observant would you say you are? Get any question wrong and YOU’LL be the star.”

Jamie squeaked and got up, exiting the room with a stretch when he looked over to the door to find his name with a star like one of those Hollywood doors. Jamie smiled but was too tired from the cartoon tickles to go again. But knowing Host, Google, and Shawn they are very keen on the littlest of details in their creations and most likely will not be anything fair. Jamie felt rejuvenated like his old self and decided to cancel out writing any new cartoon or skits for now and take more times for breaks and being with his family.

Host and Google smiled to themselves seeing Jamie so rejuvenated and young.

“You know, it’s people like Jamie that made me want to do these escape rooms in the first place”

“I agree…and honestly…I think “Escape Room” is the better term for these.”

“The Host ponders what Googliplier is leading up to.”

“Well, the term “escape” sure the point of the rooms is traditionally some sort of puzzle to solve, whether with teamwork or on your own in order to escape any “harm” but, for some people these rooms can be an escape from the real world. They can exist in a world with zero expectations or stresses thanks to your magic on what the player is currently craving. I’ve noticed with some of these rooms, they get to be themselves in a way, like no one is watching, yet they can still feel comfort in knowing they aren’t the only one. It beautiful in a way wouldn’t you say? Sometimes, we all just crave to be alone, but not alone alone.”

The Host smiled and nodded with what Googliplier had to say, “It definitely is a nice way to receive your needs without any expectations. You see all these big, strong, tough, powerful beings and everyone expects them to be the one in charge when really sometimes they want to be the one taken care off. And sometimes something like that is hard to ask for…” The Host trailed off. “Which is why I wanted to create these with you. So that if someone needs some time for themselves they’re allowed to and have fun and boost dopamine and serotonin in the body. I want to thank you for being my building partner through this.”

Google nodded in appreciation for his acknowledgement. “Thank you Host. It’s a pleasure working out your ideas together.”