#and then they try to play with me and they’re like ‘oh… 😶’

[blushedfemmes]

i need to get better at video games or i am never gonna pull a cute gamer butch… 😔 you might think i'm joking but no it’s dire

[neilperryismine]

dps rewatch thoughts: part 2

(just my random + film student thoughts)

“…and not when I had come to die, discover that I had not lived.” *silence*

“Meeks put your coat down. Picnic blanket. Right here.” “Yes, sir.”

“Wait a minute, who gave us half a roll!” “*mumbled* I’m eating the other half” “come on” “you want me to put it back?”

I love Meeks and Pitts

TODDS SO CUTE CLAPPING HIS HANDS😆

THEYRE DANCING

the cave meeting ends - bell (at midnight)

“Mr anderson are you a man or an amoeba” 😟

HOPKINS THATS HIS NAME

“Don’t believe me, come see for yourself” neil and charlie jump out of their seats and go up first without hesitation. the others wait and Meeks looks at them, hesitating. 👬

They get on the desk first, and while charlie looks around and admires the view, neil looks forward and then jumps straight down. He looked at the world from a different perspective, but only one.

RADIO FREE AMERICA🗣️🗣️🗣️

Stick fencing!!!!

LETS HAVE A PARTY WOOO LETS HAVE A PARTY👯‍♀️

unhappy anderperry…

“You look as stirred up as a cesspool”

“I appreciate this concern…”🧐

“I can take care of myself just fine” “no.” so you want to care of him??!!!!!

“what do you mean ‘no’?” “no❤️😊”

“we are dreaming…poetry…I’m being chased by WALT WITMAN”😊

Meeks during football/poetry: 😶🤓

“Charlie I got the part! I’m going to play puck!”

“Nyah!”❤️

Neil’s happy stims😊

“I sound my barbaric yawp over the rooftops of the world. W. W.”

“Truth is like, like a blanket that always leaves your feet cold. You push it, stretch it, it'll never be enough. You kick at it, beat it, it'll never cover any of us. From the moment we enter crying to the moment we leave dying, it will just cover your face as you wail and cry and scream.“ wow.

Neil: 😍

TODD JUMPS INTO NEILS ARMS

NEIL HAPPY JUMPING

Knox falls over twice🤦🏼‍♀️

“That-a-boy pittsie. Inhale. Deeply.” 💀

“Your parents collect pipes? Oh! That’s really interesting!”

“Duh it’s a lamp Meeks!”

“This is the god of the cave” *looks and smiles at todd*

“Poetrusic by Charles Dalton”

“Laughing, crying, tumbling, mumbling. Gotta do more. Gotta be more. Chaos screaming. Chaos dreaming. Gotta do more. Gotta be more.

“The saxophone is more…sonorous.”

“If I don’t have chris I’m gonna k*ll myself” *cut to neil*😭

“Knoxious you gotta calm down”

CHARLIES BERET

“Carpe diem…even if it k*lls me” KNOX😭

NEIL AND TODD EYE CONTACT AND LAUGH AHHH (AND MEEKS NOTICES)

Todd’s hair💀

Scarf flip😭

“Exercising the right not to walk” - Charlie’s ahead of the others.

“It’s your birthday, happy birthday!”

“It’s rather aerodynamic isn’t it”

“Oh my!”

I LOVE THE DESK SET SCENE

THE POETS IN THE CAVE SCENE:🧍‍♂️😳 no one can tell me they’re straight after that

Pitts hits his head again

The whole film is getting darker

Uh oh…the party scene

ANDERPERRY GLANCES👀

“Me and Pitts are working on a hi-fi system” “I might be going to Yale…uh but I might not”

Charlie is so enjoying watching the awkwardness of them trying to interact with Gloria and Tina

“I published an article in the school paper in the name of the dead poets. Demanding girls be admitted to Welton. So we can all stop beating off.” WHAT

“Alright but you still shouldn’t have done it CHARLIE” woah angsty neil

Neil staring at todd and then pretending he wasn’t!!!!

Meeks jumper alert!!

“Sucking the marrow out of live doesn’t mean chocking on the bone.”

Stick talking spotted!!

[marvel-snape-writes]

I just think the image of surgeon era Stephen and Christine fooling around in his office in the early days is hot… so then this random bit of writing was born 😶

I Hope It’s a Kiss

Stephen Strange’s head was still engrossed in the patient files on his computer screen when his office door opened, immediately knowing who it was from the footsteps that earned him a Cheshire Cat grin.

“I’ve got something for you.” Christine spoke from the door way.

“Oh, yeah?” Stephen raised a brow, the smile still on his face as he made a couple more clicks on the mouse of his computer, “I hope it’s a kiss.”

“It might involve something like that.” Christine giggled, walking closer to him.

“Why don’t you come over here and show me?” Stephen finally lifted his head in her direction, pushing his chair out from under the desk and patting one of his thighs.

“Oh, typical,” She rolled her eyes, walking over to him and accepting his offer of sitting on one of his thighs, “Always making me come to you.”

“Darlin’, making you cum is one of my favourite things to do.” Stephen flashed her a sweet grin, wrapping an arm around her waist to secure her balance.

“Regardless of where we are, it would seem, judging from how we spent Friday night…” Christine mumbled, feeling her cheeks growing slightly pink.

“Absolutely, sweetheart,” Stephen nodded, “Even if you wake up alone in your bed the next morning, you can always tell judging from where on the scale from one to ten we need to get you referred to Dr Barnes the chiropractor whether you spent the night before with me…” He shrugged, raising his eyebrows and enjoying the deep shade of red that her cheeks now were as he gazed up at her, “Now, what have you got for me, hm?”

“The mutual patient of ours that has recently been put on the fast track list for his surgery, I have his scan results.” She held them up, smiling softly.

“You could have easily asked one of the office staff to have them scanned onto his records instead of delivering them to me in person.” Stephen shrugged, glancing down at them.

“Oh, so that is the ‘thanks’ I get?” She rolled her eyes, placing the file down on the desk.

“Well, what kind of ‘thanks’ were you looking for, Doctor Palmer?” Stephen arched a brow, trying not to smirk as one of his hands found itself on her thigh.

“Something a little more worth my time.” Christine dared herself to say.

“I’ll show you something a little more worth your time over this goddamn desk if you keep that attitude.” Stephen’s voice lowered.

“Is that a threat or a promise?” Christine arched a brow, biting her lip as their eyes met.

“Whatever will get me off the fastest.” Stephen shrugged, trying not to let on how much Christine acting like this turned him on.

“I don’t think you’d have the stamina for us to give it a go twice…” She shrugged, tracing her index finger along his jawline, glancing down at his lips, “So, it wouldn’t be a very fair answer.”

“Again, I don’t recall me asking you to show up at my office and give me attitude.” Stephen squinted his eyes, “But I would forgive it for that kiss.”

Christine placed her hand against his cheek and pressed their lips together, her eyes briefly closing for a few moments.

“That will be all, Miss Palmer.” Stephen spoke as they both pulled back in unison.

“Oh, will it?” Christine arched a brow, remaining against his thigh, “Because from what I remember it was me who came to you, how do you know if I'm finished?”

“You always cum for me, sweetheart.” Stephen shrugged, “But so does everyone else…”

“Everyone else?” Christine placed her hands on his shoulders.

“Don’t be jealous, baby, they’re only human.” Stephen flashed her that irritatingly arrogant side smirk.

“So, when you call me…” One of Christine’s hands trailed down the top half of his scrubs, “And you're playing with yourself…” Her hand made its way to the crotch of his scrubs as it dipped between them, Stephen automatically parting his legs a little more automatically for an undenied invitation, “And you tell me I’m the only one who can get you off…” Her fingers gently enveloped around his cock from over his scrubs, massaging her palm against it gently as her lips grazed his ear.

“Mm…” Stephen allowed a soft noise to pass through his lips before trying to gather himself together enough to speak, “Sweetheart, I just know that by the click of a finger you’d be on your knees for me.” He bit his lip as he paused for a moment, “What does it matter if I lie to you?”

“Did I just come in here for you to offload the truth to me, Strange?” Christine arched a brow, keeping her hand flat against his length that was now making itself slightly more known against one of his thighs.

“Oh, I’d offload something onto you, given half the chance…” Stephen spoke in a low tone, gazing up at her as he stole a kiss from her lips.

“Oh, yeah?” Christine licked her lips slowly once he pulled back, now working her fingertips back and forth along the entirety of his hardening cock and earning a soft moan from him in return, “And what might that be?”

“Would you like me to show you?” Stephen asked before his mouth fell open once more as he let out a small grunt from the delicate way she was handling him from over his scrubs, “I’m not sure you could handle it right here. I’m not so sure the desk could, either, come to think of it…”

“Maybe it’s a flaw in me, Doctor Strange,” Christine bit her lip, pressing her thumb directly over the increasingly dampening tip of his cock from over the material and glancing down at the darker patch upon his scrubs from where his precum has leaked through his boxers and into them, smirking when she heard the hiss he made through clenched teeth, “But, honestly… I’d let you do your worst.”

“Mm, fuck it…” Stephen growled, wrapping his arms around her and lifting her off his lap and onto his desk at the side of his computer, immediately grasping at her scrubs as their lips smacked together.

“If you’re such a good Doctor, how about you run me some tests about how I always have this unsatisfied craving of wanting you to do me no good, Stephen Strange…” Christine grinned, wrapping her arms around his neck as her fingers immediately darted into the hair at the nape of his neck.

“Shut the fuck up and I’ll show you the very meaning of being satisfied.” Stephen practically panted out his words from how turned on he was, even losing his breath at how keen Christine was in helping him practically tear her scrubs bottoms off and barely even waiting a moment before doing the same with her underwear.

“Mm, you really mean right here?” Christine grinned, glancing down between between them as Stephen fumbled with the waistband of his scrubs before grasping onto her thighs firmly and pulling her closer to him on the edge of the desk.

“Does that fit into your schedule this afternoon, Doctor Palmer?” He asked against her lips, one hand against her thigh and the other loosely jerking up and down his length in anticipation as he lined himself up with her perfectly.

“I think I can shift a few things around just for you…” Christine smirked as she hooked her legs around his hips, gazing up into his eyes, “But we sure aren’t going to heaven any time soon if we go through with it in your office… with the door unlocked…”

Both of their hearts were thudding in unison with a mixture of arousal and the thrill of getting caught. Christine gazed up at him and almost lost her breath from the dark, lustful expression she was met with gazing back at her. She knew he was going to be trouble from the moment she met him — he just had one of those faces that said, “I was made to break your heart”. And she would let him. At any given moment, any given opportunity, she would just let him. Especially after the words that fell out of his mouth in response;

“When did I ever say I was a Saint?”

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[yabagofmilfs]

Ohh my god sorry but you have melted my brain with "trying to trigger the heat via topical application of scent rich fluids" 😶😶😶 especially because it mentions in rabbit heart Geno coming to cole harbour to start the courting process... Oh my god baby Sid getting sent up to his childhood bedroom with his childhood hero Malkin to just... Take his shirt off and lie there while Geno jerks off on his chest??? While his parents and Penguins dynamics coordinators wait downstairs making awkward conversation? Baby Sid who'll do anything anything anything to play professional hockey but who is awkward and skittish about it anyway? Both of them dancing around the fact that they're both kinda creeped out by what they're doing but also unexpectedly into it? Baby Sid experiencing heat with a partner for the first time? Anyway I have a PhD in omega biology and I can assure you this is all 100% scientifically accurate so you should for sure write it.

lmao thank you for validating me Dr. Anon.

that initial meeting in cole harbour is more of like a suitor coming to call situation. Geno and the Pens are not the only ones who could get Sid. i haven’t worked out the details of how the lottery draft would work in this situation but in my mind maybe sid has veto power or maybe they’re measuring compatibility in some way? tbd, and i may not even address that at all honestly since im most interested in the bits after. this is a universe meant to be handwaved in service of my own self indulgence.

at the time of the cole harbour visit, sid is only just beginning to wean off his suppressants, so his own scent is still very muted and he can’t pick up on others very well yet either (love ambiguous “suppressants” as a plot device). after the draft, when sid’s moved into geno’s, is when the suppressants are finally almost entirely gone and they start trying to induce his heat. vyas gives them a list of things to do every day and sid gets to experience alpha scent fully for the first time in the most overwhelming way possible. :)

[pinkkinoko]

Jesus christ please bless us with your kid!mungrove hcs 😩😩😩😩😩😩 i love these babies so much

*High pitched yelling*

You’ve unleashed the beast😶

To be quite honest, I think the drawings center mostly around a three year old Billy and a five year old Eddie, which would make it a separate timeline from my foster care au (god I’m gonna illustrate some stuff for that too because😭💔) but anyway, I’m pretty sure for them to meet it would be Eddie probably going to California.

So far, I’ve thought it’d be interesting to have Eddie’s parents skip town without him, something that unfortunately happens a bit too often, and Wayne has to make a drive to Cali for work, but since he’s not about to leave Eddie to fend for himself, he decides to take him with. Eddie is a pretty energetic five year old, so the drive there is hell for him, and he’s also cranky because his parents promised they wouldn’t leave him behind next time they bailed. It’s also the middle of June, so it’s ridiculously hot, and when they finally arrive in cali, Wayne does his best to let Eddie get some time to burn off his stress by taking him to see the beach.

Eddie’s still sulking, but he’s a kid, so he’s over the moon about getting to see the beach, and he’s dumbstruck with just how big it is. He’d only ever seen stuff about it in picture books, so Eddie’s practically vibrating with anticipation and trying to wrestle out of Wayne’s grip while he tries to smear sunscreen on him so his nephew doesn’t cook in the California sun.

Once he’s looking like he’s been dipped in mayonnaise, Wayne finally lets him go and Eddie all but teleports to the shore. He’s about to run straight into the water before something tugs him from behind and has him falling flat onto the sand. He’s about to cry when he opens his eyes and stares up into these big blue orbs that are looking down at him with what looks to be stern disapproval. Eddie wants to be annoyed, but this kid looks like one of them little angels he sees when he passes by the church on Sundays. The ones with those tiny wings and pretty blonde hair.

He giggles and points a finger up into that stern face, “You look like an angel!” The other kid makes an even angrier face and bends down to smack a hand onto Eddie’s forehead. “No. Billy.” He says it in a very serious tone, like Eddie’s made some big mistake he’s gotta be told off for.

“Ow!” before he has a chance to complain, the child—the boy—is being lifted up into the air. Eddie almost thinks it’s magic before he sees the pretty lady in a white dress, her blonde hair matching his angelic little acquaintance.

“Oh my, Billy! We don’t hit people! I’m so sorry, you ok sweetie?” Billy is squirming in her arms, obviously very upset at being removed from his task of pestering Eddie. The lady is trying to help Eddie up but having a hard time due to Billy’s protests, so Eddie dusts himself off and stands up on his own—like a big kid.

“Um, I’m ok, um, I think, I think Billy should say sorry too.” Eddie purses his lips and stares up at the two with expectant eyes. Kids in Hawkins always make fun of him because of where he lives and the hand-me-down clothes he wears, even the grown ups make funny faces at him when he plays alone in the park with no shoes on. He’s made it a habit to have a big attitude and a bigger mouth. The adults are always telling him he’s rude, he just things they’re ruder for staring.

The lady blinks down at him before smiling—she has a really pretty smile, she looks like an angel too—and setting Billy down.

“You heard him Billy, think you can say ‘sorry’ for hitting him? Maybe the nice boy will play with you when you make up.” Eddie thinks Billy doesn’t like the idea at all, he has big tears threatening to fall down his cheeks and he’s looking at a spot just in front of his feet.

“Why’re you crying? You hit me!” Billy starts wailing in earnest at that, big hiccuping sobs as he walks up to Eddie and points at something behind him. Eddie turns around and looks down to see a big shard of brown glass sticking up from the sand a small ways away.

Oh

He turns back and scrunches up his nose.

“You should use words! Just say something! Sheesh, you’re awful pretty, but you don’ talk, huh?” Eddie doesn’t really think it was mean, he’s just being honest, but Billy just starts crying even louder at that as he turns betrayed eyes onto Eddie and runs back to his mom.

Wayne eventually comes down to see what the fuss is about, and the two grown ups get to talking while Billy glares dagger at Eddie from behind his mom’s legs. Eddie just squats down and stares back with fascination, he’d never seen such a pretty boy before. Even the girls in Hawkins don’t have long lashes and curly blonde hair like Billy.

Eddie really wants to be friends, even if this poor kid doesn’t know how to say much.

Billy, for what it’s worth, wants to throw sand in this weirdos face and tell him he’s stupid. He’s not really great with talking to people he doesn’t know though, so he settles for sticking out his tongue. The scrappy kid just giggles at him and sticks his own tongue out in return.

Billy thinks he hates this idiot.

[amanjinka]

Movement One

(A/N: The prelude and first movement took me 20 days to finish [I used to be able to write 2k words in less than a week] Absolutely wild from start to finish, had both a lockdown due to a potential bomb and a shooting threat at my school. Hope everyone has fun.)

The first week back in school was pretty average for me. Even though we started on the 6th, nothing happened until the 11th. That was the day of that big subway crash.

I remember I couldn’t sleep very well the night before, so I got up early to get ready. That was also the day that I emailed my boss to make sure my work schedule got changed.

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“Thank you very much in advance,it was a pleasure to speak with you, [l/n] [y/n].”

After a quick read through, [y/n] rubbed the sleep out of her eyes and hit the enter key to send off her email. She pushed back from her simple desk and stood up, stretching deeply to further wake herself up. 

After quickly shutting the lid of her laptop, she crossed her room to don her school’s uniform and prepare for the day. ‘Did Hanabi ever bring back those nail gems of mine?’ She wondered, inspecting her faded manicure as she slipped on her ivory coloured socks.

For a brief minute, she debated styling her hair differently from normal, but after a failed attempt or two, she sighed and fell back on her usual look. A couple more layers, a bit of mascara and a spritz of perfume later and she was all ready to head out. Luckily, the walk from dorm to school building wasn’t intensive, and the mid-spring breeze kept her from feeling the slight discomfort of her new shoes as they rubbed up against her ankle. Less than five minutes later, she stood in front of the front entrance to Kosei High School. 

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It was only a few minutes into the first class of the week and already [y/n]’s phone was being bombarded by chats from her friends. Quietly, she slipped her phone out of her bag and began to read up on all she had missed. 

☆Momo 7.57 - There’s a criminal in my class this year. 😶

☆Hanabi 8.01 - ?? WDYM 

☆Momo 8.01 - I mean theres a kid with a criminal record who’s gonna transfer to Shujin this semester. 

☆Momo 8.01 - That’s what I heard at least but he hasn’t showed up yet so I wonder if Mishima was just trying to scare us lol.

☆Yuna 8.01 - You have Mishima in your class? And the transfer student???

☆Momo 8.02 - Yeah, he looks like he went to hell yesterday. What’s going on in your guys’ practices???

☆Yuna 8.02 - He just sucks lmao. Gets hit all the time.

☆Hanabi 8.03 - Which one was Mishima again? Did we see him at the tournaments last year?

☆Yuna 8.03 - He’s the kid with the short dark hair. He never got to play so you probably never saw him. Not like you went to watch the boys match anyway. 

☆Momo 8.03 - Yeah he was at the tournaments.

☆Hanabi 8.04 - He didn’t go to middle school with us, did he??

☆Momo 8.04 - Nah, I think he went to one in a different district. 

☆Yuna 8.04 - Thankfully!

☆Momo 8.05 - Thankfully?

☆Yuna 8.05 - Hes a total kiss ass.

☆Hanabi 8.05 - Yuck.

☆Momo 8.05 - Oh yeah..

☆Yuna 8.06 - I stayed up way too late last night, about to pass out in homeroom.

☆Hanabi 8.06 - Teacher is here, one sec.

☆Yuna 8.09 - Did [y/n] fall into a pit on her way to school or something? How come she hasnt said anything..

☆Hanabi 8.10 - Lol she’s probably just actually paying attention.

☆Momo 8.10 - Omg speaking of [y/n] I still need to send her the dates for the concert lol.

☆Yuna 8.11 - Why didn’t she just ask the director?

☆Momo 8.12 - 🤷‍♀️

☆Momo 8.13 - Is Shiho in class today? I meant to ask her about her birthday plans but didn’t see her this morning. ☹️

☆Yuna 8.13 - Nah, she’s out today for a funeral. 

☆Momo 8.13 - Oh. My bad... Well I’ll text her later then.

☆[y/n] 8.20 → ☆Momo [🤷‍♀️] - I don’t know the director’s email address.

☆Momo 8.21 - It was on the sign up sheet and the like every other paper we’ve gotten.

☆[y/n] 8.21 - I don’t have any of those with me, they’re at my mom’s house.

☆Momo 8.21 - then text your mom??

☆[y/n] 8.22 - :( 

☆Momo 8.22 - Whatever. It’s the 28th, 29th, and 30th of April.

☆[y/n] 8.23 - Thank you Momo, I love you <33

“[l/n] [y/n]?” A male voice rang out from beyond [y/n]’s screen. She quickly jolted in her seat, shoving her phone into her desk and looking up to acknowledge her teacher.

“I’m sorry, I don’t know what you said,” [y/n] said, her voice fading as her embarrassment set in.

“I can tell,” He responded, crossing his arms. “I just asked if you could could tell me what it is called when we do geometric calculations on a non-flat surface. ”

“That’s non-euclidean, I think..” She whispered. 

“Yes. Thank you very much Miss [l/n]. It would do you good to turn off your phone before class starts next time so you could answer the first time I ask,” he reprimanded, then turned to move away from her desk and back to the front of the room. 

Shifting down further into her seat, [y/n] focused her gaze to her legs so her peers would not see how red in the face she was. What a great start to the day…

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“[y/n] are you working this weekend?” Hanabi asked as the two walked the halls during lunch time. 

“Yeah but I’m going to be Sundays only for the first couple weeks back,” [y/n] responded then took a quick sip of her drink.

“So you're free Friday afternoon? Cause I was thinking we could go and get our nails done professionally instead of just doing them ourselves."

"I have rehearsal right after school but I'd be free after 17."

"The salon I looked at closes at 20 so we're totally fine,” Hanabi smiled,”It’s only like a 7 minute walk from the station so I’ll just wait for you there.”

After a short silence, [y/n] sighed,“I’m so not ready for that performance.”

“Momo said there was gonna three nights of it, is that for real?”

“Yeah, I’m really not looking forward to it.”

“My brothers going to be back in town pretty soon so I might take him to watch you two.”

“You’d be better off watching a bunch of crickets hop around. It would probably be more to your liking anyway.”

“Yeah well the more you say that the more I want to go.”

“Aww Hanabi, come on!”

“Oh what’s that? Is the bell ringing? Well I guess i’ll get a head start and order my tickets on the way to class! See you [y/n]!”

All I could do was sigh and head back to my class. That concert ended up pretty good, but it was overshadowed by all that stuff with Mister Kamoshida.

The rest of that day was pretty uneventful. I just met all of my teachers and walked back to my dorm after school ended. Hanabi wanted me to run over to the store with her, but I was still pretty tired so I skipped out on it. 

After changing into a more comfortable outfit, [y/n] fell down onto the edge of her mattress and laid her head back as she let her body sink into the soft blankets and comforting scents. Her eyes fluttered shut for a moment, before a loud and obnoxious buzz reverberated throughout her body.

Groaning, she turned over and pulled out her phone, turned it to silent then skimmed through the notifications.

“Detective Prince Akechi on Mental Shutdowns: ‘It could happen to anyone’”

“Everything to know before watching ‘The Cake Knight Rises’”

“4 dead in subway accident, more injured. Driver comatose.”

Hah…

None of it was interesting in the slightest. 

Clear, clear, and clear!

Finally, [y/n] opened up her messages and scrolled up to check just how much she had missed after the morning.

☆Momo 13.12 - He’s real.

☆Momo 13.13 - Transfer student came in after lunch, hes honestly kind of scary looking. Like disheveled almost. He didn’t even introduce himself either.

☆Yuna 13.14 - Kizana said she saw him come into the school with Sakamato. He still hasn’t showed up to class though so maybe he’s getting chewed out.

☆Momo 13.14 - Oh so he really is a delinquent. You think they were up to something or what?

☆Yuna 13.14 - No clue, but she said the same stuff you did. Told me he looked like he was gonna snap at any moment. 

☆Momo 13.15 - 😗

☆Yuna 13.15 - stop that.

☆Momo 13.15 - 🎱

☆Yuna 13.15 - About to come over to your class and tell your teacher to kick you out. 

☆Momo 13.16 - 😱

☆Hanabi 15.36 → ☆Momo[He’s real.] - Did you ever find out what he did? 

☆Momo 15.45 - Only rumours.

☆Hanabi 15.46 - boo.

☆Momo 15.46 - Not like hes just gonna show up and say “Hi, I’m your new classmate, I’m on probation for armed robbery” or something.

☆Hanabi 15.47 - I wouldve.

☆Momo 15.47 - Sure.

☆Hanabi 15.53 - They’re all out of the good brand of rice crackers.

☆Hanabi 16.04 - Hey @[y/n] do you want me to get some of your [favorite drink UwU]? They have your flavor here.

☆[y/n] 16.07 - yes please 

☆Hanabi 16.08 - Alright. It’s buy two get one so I got a new type too.

☆[y/n] 16.08 - You’re my number one Hanabi. Forever and always baby <3

☆Hanabi 16.09 - So you’ll pay for the nail salon?

☆[y/n] 16.09 - I can if you really want me to.

☆Hanabi 16.09 - <3

☆Momo 16.10 - Thought I was your number one forever and alwats 😞

☆[y/n] 16.10 - Alwats.

☆Hanabi 16.10 - Alwats

☆Momo 16.11 - Alright what if I died in a plane crash tomorrow and that was the last thing you ever said to me.

☆Hanabi 16.11 - Then I’d be [y/n]’s number one forever and always for true and real and always and alwats

☆Momo 16.12 - Okay then bye I’m going to go die. [y/n] I will always love you, not Hanabi though she’s my enemy.

☆Hanabi 16.12 - Absolutely.

☆[y/n] 16.17 - I’m going to go do my homework you guys. 

☆Momo 16.17 - Loser.

☆Hanabi 16.17 - booo.

The rest of that week went by really quickly. I didn’t do anything out of the ordinary really. I did my best in class, did my best in practice, did my best to talk to the people around me. It felt like the year was going to be really uneventful to be honest, but all I really had to do was wait until that friday and everything really kicked off.

[1eos]

I knew it was her! because seriously that’s her whole twt. she thinks she’s somebody since she has one of the big followings of starlights on twt and has liked vixx since 2013. not her trying to tell them that the “fold him like origami” is a joke and they should accept it as one. Oh, she’s got this I guess obsession with the actor who is playing the ceo who’s also 10yr younger (she thinks hes hot that is very subjective) and his love interest costar in the bl, she’s always mentioning his height and thinks they’re gonna me kissing each other like it’s that well know popular bl and if it happens she’s gonna combust. she even tweeted the taeknyangi cushion with a large knife up to it and said give me the drama updates or he dies.. I’m just like ..okay 😶 making jokes is fine but when you make these types of jokes your whole personality it’s weird. btw she’s a wontaek supporter shipper whatever you wanna call it ….byeee. sorry for dumping this all on you but I’m so glad you see how weird she is because I feel like no one else does and I’m like how can you not seeeee itttt

~🔮

pls don't apologize. i absolutely hate most international starlights on twitter so any justification is truly a gift. but yeahhhhh i wasnt fucking w her beyond translations bc atp i can sniff fetishism from a mile away. and ik its fetishism bc they all have the same MO. i just knew she was an lr shipper bc she calls leo a tiny baby twink which means even tho leo was, and might still be bigger than [redacted] that's his top 🙄and when i was looking for her fan call again i saw that she got called out for babying people before and said its normal (not the way you do it bitch) AND i saw she had the nerve to call out ppl who treat hakyeon as the 'woman' in their ships nd its like girl you are literally doing the same exact thing to leo. you are quite literally erasing aspects of reality to make him the bottom bitch to whatever man is convenient at the moment.

and its like yeah ppl call their faves cringe nicknames to play around. and yeah people get excited about projects. and yeah some ppl joke abt x and y fucking around bc theyre acting too friendly but others have every right not to like it. EXPECIALLY when you have nothing to say except for some infantilizing yet sexual???? shit ppl are gonna be weirded out. as a hater im so glad exols got on that ass bc bitch you're WEIRD. gun to her head you ask anything abt leo you not gone get nothing but 'he's a baby' 😭😭😭😭😭 'whats your fave song' 'he's a baby' cmon now

[nouies]

hiii, lou! 💘

what exactly do you do for work, if you don't mind me asking? 😶

being in the fandom is such an experience. everyday new drama or something old is brought to attack other people. i wish everyone was minding their own business and just have fun. 🐷

you are so sweet! i would love to work with you, too. i really love your writing style and ideas. 😋

exactly! maybe that was my purpose in life, even though at the moment i think it's not. 🌸

this is actually a great idea. louis seems like someone who tries a lot of outfits, before picking the one he really likes. and that way you will bless his friends, because who wouldn't be happy to receive louis selfie. oh, and you will play dirty? getting him for yourself. i like your way of thinking. 😌

i wish my valentine has reached me out. i know they are not required to do it, but it's nice to know someone wants to know you better. 🌷

my question for the day: sunset or sunrise? which one do you prefer? 😊

hope you have a lovely sunday,

- your secret valentine 🎀

hi love! 💓

i’m a secondary school teacher, for maths and physics. 🤗

you’re right, there’s a lot going on but tbh i’ve been here for so long that i try to only focus on the good things. if there’s a person that says something negative (especially towards content creators), i block them and mute them, i don’t need that negative when i’m trying to enjoy what i like.

thank you so much! it would be an honour. 🫂

hdkdhdjd i need to look for myself! and i really want him to bring afhf here.

i’m sorry abt your valentine but i’m sure that they’re creating the best gift for you! 💝

tbh i honestly don’t have a favourite out of those two but i’d say sunrise just bc i like mornings and when birds start singing :)

what abt you? do you have a favourite part of the day?

have a great sunday, and thank you again for your messages! 💕💕💕💕

[neilperryismine]

dps rewatch thoughts: part 2

(just my random + film student thoughts)

“…and not when I had come to die, discover that I had not lived.” *silence*

“Meeks put your coat down. Picnic blanket. Right here.” “Yes, sir.”

“Wait a minute, who gave us half a roll!” “*mumbled* I’m eating the other half” “come on” “you want me to put it back?”

I love Meeks and Pitts

TODDS SO CUTE CLAPPING HIS HANDS😆

THEYRE DANCING

the cave meeting ends - bell (at midnight)

“Mr anderson are you a man or an amoeba” 😟

HOPKINS THATS HIS NAME

“Don’t believe me, come see for yourself” neil and charlie jump out of their seats and go up first without hesitation. the others wait and Meeks looks at them, hesitating. 👬

They get on the desk first, and while charlie looks around and admires the view, neil looks forward and then jumps straight down. He looked at the world from a different perspective, but only one.

RADIO FREE AMERICA🗣️🗣️🗣️

Stick fencing!!!!

LETS HAVE A PARTY WOOO LETS HAVE A PARTY👯‍♀️

unhappy anderperry…

“You look as stirred up as a cesspool”

“I appreciate this concern…”🧐

“I can take care of myself just fine” “no.” so you want to care of him??!!!!!

“what do you mean ‘no’?” “no❤️😊”

“we are dreaming…poetry…I’m being chased by WALT WITMAN”😊

Meeks during football/poetry: 😶🤓

“Charlie I got the part! I’m going to play puck!”

“Nyah!”��️

Neil’s happy stims😊

“I sound my barbaric yawp over the rooftops of the world. W. W.”

“Truth is like, like a blanket that always leaves your feet cold. You push it, stretch it, it'll never be enough. You kick at it, beat it, it'll never cover any of us. From the moment we enter crying to the moment we leave dying, it will just cover your face as you wail and cry and scream.“ wow.

Neil: 😍

TODD JUMPS INTO NEILS ARMS

NEIL HAPPY JUMPING

Knox falls over twice🤦🏼‍♀️

“That-a-boy pittsie. Inhale. Deeply.” 💀

“Your parents collect pipes? Oh! That’s really interesting!”

“Duh it’s a lamp Meeks!”

“This is the god of the cave” *looks and smiles at todd*

“Poetrusic by Charles Dalton”

“Laughing, crying, tumbling, mumbling. Gotta do more. Gotta be more. Chaos screaming. Chaos dreaming. Gotta do more. Gotta be more.

“The saxophone is more…sonorous.”

“If I don’t have chris I’m gonna k*ll myself” *cut to neil*😭

“Knoxious you gotta calm down”

CHARLIES BERET

“Carpe diem…even if it k*lls me” KNOX😭

NEIL AND TODD EYE CONTACT AND LAUGH AHHH (AND MEEKS NOTICES)

Todd’s hair💀

Scarf flip😭

“Exercising the right not to walk” - Charlie’s ahead of the others.

“It’s your birthday, happy birthday!”

“It’s rather aerodynamic isn’t it”

“Oh my!”

I LOVE THE DESK SET SCENE

THE POETS IN THE CAVE SCENE:🧍‍♂️😳 no one can tell me they’re straight after that

Pitts hits his head again

The whole film is getting darker

Uh oh…the party scene

ANDERPERRY GLANCES👀

“Me and Pitts are working on a hi-fi system” “I might be going to Yale…uh but I might not”

Charlie is so enjoying watching the awkwardness of them trying to interact with Gloria and Tina

“I published an article in the school paper in the name of the dead poets. Demanding girls be admitted to Welton. So we can all stop beating off.” WHAT

“Alright but you still shouldn’t have done it CHARLIE” woah angsty neil

Neil staring at todd and then pretending he wasn’t!!!!

Meeks jumper alert!!

“Sucking the marrow out of live doesn’t mean chocking on the bone.”

Stick talking spotted!!

[heejayy]

So for my request, can you write a oneshot featuring Todo and a fem reader in an Aladdin AU please? I imagine the reader as a princess with Todo as her palace bodyguard. The fic would involve the reader trying to help Todo with his crush only to develop feelings for the guy. What do you think?

Your Majesty || Aoi Todo

Warning • none?

Genres •Alladin Au! fluff, a little angst

Pairing • Todo x reader

a/n: cried while making this. And not because it’s sad it’s because it got deleted and I had start over 😶

————————————

After your handmaidens got you ready for bed you sent them off for the night- well more like rushed them off. You were waiting for everyone to leave so you could let Todo in.

“Psst Todo they’re gone” you whispered out your bedroom door. He slipped in but not without knocking a few things over.

“Sorry” he whispered placing back in the rightful spots. You couldn’t help but laugh at the big goof. No matter how hard he tried he couldn’t do anything too gracefully, but who could when you’re 6’3.

“Get the game ready while I go close your balcony doors” you nodded stepping over your pet fox resting by your bedside. You grabbed the monopoly box and skipped over to where Todo stood.

“shall we your majesty” he bowed pointing towards the Persian rug offering you a seat.

“You know I hate when you call me that, we’ve been friends for a while now.” He shakes his head disagreeing

“You’re the crown princess and I’m just your bodyguard, if anyone heard me not using your correct honorifics they’ll have my head”

You frowned “Todo you’re more than just my bodyguard, you’re my dear friend” you smiled pinching his cheek. His face instantly turned a bright shade of red.

“How was your day your maj-“ you whipped your head towards him giving him a glare. Todo noticed and rolled his eyes “how was your day y/n?”

You smiled “good, yours?”

“I met Malia in the royal gardens” your ears perked up at the mention of Malia. She was one of your handmaidens, but you didn’t see her at all today due to her being assigned elsewhere.

“Oh, is that the girl you have a crush on?” You asked fully knowing the answer.

“Yes, she’s a lovely girl” you nodded looking at the rug tracing the designs.

“Do you remember that old tale in the children’s story book about a princess, that poor guy and her magic carpet?”

“The one with the unrealistic genie… no why?” You glared at him rolling your eyes “Don’t act funny, but anyways I was just thinking how lovely it would be if we could fly anywhere in the world on this very carpet and have a magic lamp to make wishes.”

“That’s impossible stop reading fairy tales” he teased.

“You just have no imagination do you?!” He shrugged fully aware he was annoying you.

“Out of curiosity what would you wish for?” He asked moving his playing piece.

“To have a normal life and fall in love.”

———————————————-

“Ha! Go to jail!” You laughed as Todo moved his playing piece to jail.

“Cheater” he huffed crossing his buff arms making his uniform tighten around them. You swallowed looking away hoping he didn’t notice you gawking at him.

“So Todo…do you like Malia?” He gazed up at you, “well she’s pretty and has a nice personality, but- I don’t know” it might sound mean but hearing that gave you a slight relief.

“Oh, well just talk to her it shouldn’t be that hard” he scoffed.

“Oh really?” You nodded knowing fully k

“Whatever…anyways are you interested in anyone?” You gulped.

“Um no?-” he nodded. You two sat in silence for a while until he spoke again.

“It’s getting late and I should get back to my position before my replacement comes” you nodded watching him as he cleaned up the game.

“I’ll see you tomorrow your majesty” you watched him as his veiny hand reached for the gold door handle. You wanted to call out for him, but you stayed silent. You walked over to your bed cutting off the lamp as you got into bed.

You didn’t get a wink of rest that night due to overthinking. You watched the sun rise from your open balcony door over your beautiful kingdom, one that will be yours be yours.

“Good morning princess y/n it’s time to- oh you’re already awake?” Malia said surprised as she walked in.

“Did you sleep well?” She asked while pulling back your curtains, you shook your head ‘yes’ lying squinting your eyes as the sun came pouring in.

————————————

You absent mindedly walked the halls of your beautifully decorated palace. No where specific you were headed you just wanted to walk.

“Your majesty where are we going?” Malia asked trailing behind you.

“No where” you shrugged as you rounded the corner, you spotted Todo talking to another guard. You two made instant eye contact as if he could sense you.

“You’re dismissed” you told Malia trying to put her off on Todo, “but your majesty-“

“Dismissed” you said more sternly, she bowed and back away.

You wondered around longer making your way to the garden maze as you spotted your fox.

“Leo!” You gasped smiling as he ran up to you. You got down on your knees to pet him “that’s my baby!”

“I found him chasing a butterfly” you looked up slightly startled.

“Oh, good evening Todo” he bowed.

“Where’s Malia?” You asked innocently. He chuckled responding with “in the kitchen.” You nodded picking up Leo making an effort to walk around him.

“I know what you’re doing” he spoke following you around the garden. “What are you talking about?” He sped up his pace walking in front of you cutting you off.

“Todo if you don’t mind I’m walking, you’re welcome to join me-“

“Cut it out” he laughed “you’re trying to set me up with Malia” You shrugged “I thought you liked her?” You said tilting your head now genuinely confused.

“I do- I did- she’s ok but i- I don’t know!” He exclaimed flailing his arms, Todo has always been dramatic especially when he’s conflicted. You watched him in distress as he paced the around. “She’s gorgeous, has a nice smile, tall and has a nice body…”

“Todo I don’t want you with Malia” you blurted out cutting him off. He stopped pacing turning his muscular frame to you.

“What do you mean?” You rolled your eyes.

“You big dope I- I like you” you confessed biting the inside of your cheek twirling your gold bangles on your wrist as you held Leo. He was silent for a while and you couldn’t read his expression which made your heart drop to your stomach. Maybe you made a stupid mistake, you shouldn’t have confessed that was idiotic of you. You held Leo closer to your chest trying to gain a sense of comfort. You wanted to run away but your body wouldn’t allow you.

“Y/n” he called your name gaining your attention. You loved when Todo said your name, given there has only been a few times when he does it makes it feel special.

“Yes?“ you answer.

“You like me?” You nodded.

“Well I- it would never work! We’re too different I’m your body guard I have nothing to my name, while you are the crown princess, heir to the throne, the most beloved princess in the nation. I’m sure your father already has someone for you to marry-“

“I don’t want be with anyone else but you!” Todo was taken back at your outburst. You’ve never raised your voice in such an angry manner before.

“I love my father but he can’t control me or my feelings, I want you Todo.” A smile appeared on Todo’s lips “don’t worry you’ve always had me y/n.” He cupped your cheeks and kissed you, you smiled into the kiss feeling butterflies erupt in your belly. You might not have gotten your magic carpet ride but you feel like your wish has come true.

JJK Masterlist

©heejayy 2022 — any reposts or translations of my works are strictly prohibited unless granted permission

[sukunasbabymama]

Dating Manjiro “Mikey” Sano.

⌗ Warnings: none, other than the fact that is long(?

⌗ A/N: Let’s see my attempt at doing headcanons.

Let me start this by saying that you need to be a really independent person.

Baby still sleeps WITH HIS BLANKET, he can’t be with someone more dependent than him.

Now that we have clarified that let’s get into it.

You probably met each other at his grandpa’s dojo.

And you beat his ass, he was there all 😶 while you were all 🥱 and Baji and Emma were 🤣 in a corner.

After that, he kept going to the dojo to challenge you to fight but you would laugh in his face.

Years later y’all were in an established relationship, and let me tell you how the confessions went.

He was walking you home with Draken, he does that every day.

And, suddenly he looked at you and went “Did Kenchin taught you how to put up with me?” You looked at him like 🤨

“If anything, I was the one that educated him on your childish ass,” you said and Draken smile, you did. “I was here first, dummy”

“Oh, that’s true,” he said and then added. “Then you should date me”

“Why?”

“Because you are a professional on Mikey’s subject”

“That’s not the flex you think it is,” you said giving him a judgmental stare. “You don’t like me.”

“But I do.”

“Then we can try”

Draken was behind both of you with a terrified expression, is that it?

But y’all didn’t need a whole production in y’all confessions, that’s just how y’all were.

Now, onto the dynamics.

We know he sleeps everywhere as soon as he eats but when it’s with you he doesn’t like it that much. With him always busy with gang stuff and you focused on your school life he thinks he needs to cherish the moments y’all have together.

As he should.

He’s jealous as fuck, but it’s not a “you can’t talk to nobody but me” but rather a “they’re mine!! when did you meet them? I MET THEM WHEN I WAS 4😌”

And you’re there with second-hand embarrassment like 🧍🏾‍♀️

He trusts your judgment so much that instead of asking you for advice for the gang in meetings, he would straight up ask you to take the decision.

Because of this, arguments are actually pretty often, but not big enough to give each other the silent treatment or something. You would argue with him for as long as it takes if it means he would get through his thick ass head that he doesn’t need to fight a certain gang.

Yes, arguments would be about his decisions for the gang because that’s the only thing he would argue about if he already decides what to do before talking to you, with anything else he would let you make decisions for him.

Your parents love him and accept him because he is soft and they want to take care of him too, and when he goes to your house he doesn’t talk to you at all lmao.

Catch him in the garage talking with your dad about his bike, they bonded while fixing it. That’s actually how your dad accepted Draken too when he tagged along one day.

On other occasions, he would be in the kitchen just tasting everything your mom baked.

“Can y’all give me my boyfriend back?🧍🏾‍♀️”

“But I’m having fun, Y/N” He would say, BITCH?—

Because of your parents loving his dumb ass, they would let him take you out at night and stuff, they trust that he would take you back safe and sound. And he does every time.

So, ride dates are common. Riding around the city and if you tell him about this restaurant that your friend told you about he would take you without a second thought.

Nap dates are common too, his dramatic ass keeps saying that he sleeps better when you’re around.

You’re the only person that makes him cope with any problem in a healthy way, on those same nap dates.

He would lay on your chest and let you play with his hair while you tell him that is totally okay to feel bad sometimes, if he just nods you take his face in your hands.

“My love, you know I’m here, right?”

“Yes”

“And you know you can lend some of your burdens on me, right?”

“Yes”

“Then do it, stop hiding your feelings baby”

He hates when you and Baji are together because he would become the center of all the jokes.

One time he almost whooped Baji’s ass when he told all the captains that the invincible Mikey got his ass handed to him by his partner.

But then you start adding your two cents so he went to his REAL ride or die: his Kenchin.😤

But getting into this topic, you’re pretty good friends with all the captains and some of their vice-captains since sometimes you would go to official meetings, founder meetings, and just high members meetings.

He always lets you know exactly when and where fights are gonna be because after the decisions you take you don’t get that deep to know the details.

He would go to your house after the fight, sometimes with a couple of bruises on his face and other times with just his knuckles and feet bruised. You sit him and tend his wounds while asking for the details.

“Did Y’all win?”

“U-uh yes, but some of the guys are a little bit bruised”

“Weak asses” you giggle and let him tell you what was the final decision or if the gangs merged or anything. You love some good tea from your boyfriend.

Because of his habit of suppressing his feelings, he doesn’t say “I love you” often, but he shows you with little actions that he doesn’t even know it’s telling you everything you need to know.

The way he pats your head even in public with other members around, the way he would always give you a full smile with closed eyes and everything, how he sometimes stop everything he’s doing just to look at you with a little smile on his face. He’s so whipped pls

And sometimes, when he thinks you’re sleeping in his chest he would say the word out loud.

“All I want to do all day is making you happy, the boys, Emma and you are everything to me” he would say while caressing your back. “I love you so much, I love you with all I have, Y/N”

The relationship is pretty chill because of your mature and independent persona, and he loves you so much pls give him the world and take care of his mental health.

And beat his ass sometimes because what the fuck is a dark impulse bitch I’ll dog walk you.

I love him so much he deserve so much better I WILL FIGHT FOR HIM!!

[how-the-feathers-have-fallen]

sincerest apologies

"Brendon Urie is perfect and doesn't feel it

Ryan Ross is imperfect and knows it"

WTF DOES THIS MEAN 😭😭😭

"Meanwhile, across town, Ryan Ross was on top of the world. His eyeliner turned out perfectly symmetrical, his favourite restaurant had brought back free breakfast, and he had his first major solo gig since leaving Brendon." Soooo true. Manifesting Ryan being on the top of the world irl 🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯.

"Always on key, swapped instruments effortlessly, he even knew exactly what to play." ...... me reading this in 2022 like 'oh baby '

"Brendon didn’t stay long, only enough to see the body of Spencer Smith, nearly faint at the amount of blood, and call the police." You fridge Spencer?! You fridge Spencer like a dispensable character?! Oh death for Lexi! Death to Lexi for a thousand years!!!! /j

"Brendon sneaks out the back door, feels nasty, and goes home anyway." He just abandoned Spencer's body?????! Isn't he covered in his blood? Nevermind this seems in character for him.

"And you really can’t blame him for fainting, either." Damsel in distress Ryan Ross????

"There he was, sickly and passed out, but every bit Ryan Ross." WTF DOES THIS MEAN 😭😭😭

"Brendon, bless his heart, knew nothing about fainting spells." No Lexi, curse! Curse his heart! Curse it with heart attack on the toilet!

"Finally, just before he tried the oregano, Brendon tried the fairytale method, and pushed his lips up against Ryan’s." Girl not the oregano 😭😭😭. Also the OG version of Sleeping Beauty and Snow White are both a lot darker just like Ryden.

Help what is a Dimbo??!

“You didn’t have to stick around!”

“You didn’t have to leave!”

Oh why does that ^ hit???

“So that’s what this is about? You want me back? You think I want you back? Well, I don’t. I can do this on my own.” Ya bestie! Stand your ground!!!!

They’re dead, Ryan.”

“Maybe to you,”

“No, they’re physically dead."

Hsjskskshsks okay THAT was hilarious

"Bren..." goodbye I'm taking the strip pole to hell right now

“Fine. But… will you play with me?” girl you though he was here to kill you like 2 minutes ago

*me downing under the weight of Brendon's speeding tickets* this is fine :))))))))

"It was almost a surprise when they drove back and discovered Ryan’s home in flames." 😶😦 what??? Who tf was trying to kill them? Omg was it Pete Wentz?????!

[noimserioustho]

11/30

Things I dont say. 

I can see my therapist on her phone. Lmao. Looking at her messages. It reflects on her glasses. 

I liked that she was snacking while meeting with me, I dont like that silly professionalism that says people cant eat lol. 

I didnt tell her I saw her on her phone, I asked if she was ok. She said yah, I told her she looked stressed. Maybe she looked bored idk lol. She said no, but maybe a lil morgane coming. I said oh sorry. Then talked about how I wish it were easier to say things. Like how I could see her on her phone. Lol. But I told her how my brain says no, no need to say that, even when it's on the top of my tongue. Lol. 

I do wish I would sometimes though. 

I did bring up my constant need for validation though! #giftedkidburnout.

Lol. 

I dont like thinking about people thinking they're right when I quit. /Leave. I dont want to prove them right. I'm more anxious about them then letting people down. Lol. 

I think I failed. Like my whole life was to get a full time job right? And like wow, so all those 4ams and holding back tears at work and headaches and .. fuck. Everything else. Loneliness. This DEBTTT HAAAAhaahaahaa. Oof. That I havent even started paying!!! Heeheehahaicuevvakdocuwvakxog🙃🙃🙃😶🤷‍♀️🍾 

Walkup. Or whatever that word is for big ugh sigh. Lol. 

Ironic, bc all I do is try and avoid failure. Lolz. 

I think I want my own space. Like desk or office or whatever, I miss it and I want it. Like I saw Spencer's and instantly knew I missed it and wanted it. Not saying a job will be like that, haha, but that's what I want. 

And I'm craving so many tattoos rn. 

But also, hey, look at me, doing this job that has no grades or super specific measurable immediate accountable outcomes. Woo. Look at me, doing it without any clear, specific validation or direction or perfect answers. Yah some could and should be better. And yah, some are really good. 

I see why people just want to sit and smoke. Lol. 

I want to do that too but I get frustrated it had to get it all out and before someone starts talking hahah. 

It was hard to talk in therapy without smoking. Today and past few weeks. But hey look at me going to the gym. 

Guess I should go now. 

I'm really just thinking about trader Joe's afterwards. 

I feel like a ball of play dough bouncing around in a cement roller. 

I like imaging myself, all of us, as starts flying through space. And I am in a spiral, pulled by everyone's gravity and not my own, not forward. Well, forward, with time, but wasting my time going out to the sides towards others. And I could be going in a tighter spiral, absorbing and feeling those around me while going forward along side them. But I'm dizzy in these big circles. Spirals. And sometimes it's just my head spiraling, spiraling so much it just feels like I have to hold my forehead in my hands. Its just so heavy and so .. . Grounding. ? Yah. Safe? Idk. That only thing I can do. 

I want to exercise but I dont want to swim. Lol goddamn swimming. Like maybe if I could listen to music. Nooooo definitely if I could listen to music!! Then it would be a lottttt more fun and better and I'd do it all the time. 

Makes me sad thinking i might not go to trader Joe's hahaha. 

I think i need more sneakers, these black boots made my back hurt. 

I remember after I graduated high school, I was craving all these tattoos. I think I was craving some certainty, you know? Like something to physically remind myself and hold on to, like a manta but pretty on my hand or arm or whatever. I think now again I'm missing some mantras, some guidance. 

I want them all!! So I might wait, probs bc money. Aw sad. But what if it got them?? Like how fun, like a lil s/l somehow pretty on my left wrist to remind me to balance speaking and listening, and maybe on my right or somewhere a pretty brain and heart!! To balance my head and heart!! (Or IS that too CBT LOLLLLL). 

(I dont think avoiding the gym, i just think I'm enjoying something else rn?) 

And I want to design (YAH, I WANT TO DESIGN IT, YOU HEARD ME)  a beautiful vine of flowers, from bloom to full fields, from my right thumb up to my shoulder. Sunflowers and daisies and roses. So I guess I have to become a tattoo artist hahah. Oh noooo. That would be fun. 

Maybe I'll get a 

..

Oh no I looked away for a second,,,,, idr what. Hahaha 

Oops. 

I'm getting really cold now, that might make me get up. I want to exercise but not swim. Lol. 

Thursday? Thursday for sure. 

Maybe I'll go to trader Joe's anyways hahahah. 

Or just .. ugh that 

TONYS

Tony's for dumplings heehee. Defs my favorite food rn. I'm not going to think about the gym $ I am wasting. 

Lol nope nope. 

I am cold. Might just turn on the oven for more chicken nuggets!! 

Ahh babyyy is dreaming :') doing that cute lil squeaky thing he does. 

I am feeling better? I think? Unless I think about the gym haha. 

I love the idea of getting grace tattooed on my left arm. In a nice font, lowercase. After I start going by Simone all the time. 

Also ugh, I love Simone and Chris. Both of those. Also ugh, I still love Chris. I hate christian though hahahah. 

Ok cold cold. 

Was about to get up, but wow I typed a lot fast, right? I'm not manic, but whoa where did this come from? All these thoughts, not overwhelmed by feelings. It's nice haha. Just free flowing thoughts. Idk how or if this will help me speak and do things and interact with people, I think that was a goal I had, but this is nice. This is good