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Also speaking of my son Dism scrolling through windows help forums is so fun because yay :) that's my son :)
#this is my son the Diagnostic Image Servicing and Management tool and if anything happened to him i would kill everyone in this room#and then myself :P#not that Dism was actually named after that though. The origins are worse actually.#Originally I planned to take that knowledge to the grave but now it's between me and my wife :3#I'm not sure if it gets worse or better with the fact he was named after another person's oc in addition to where I found the name first!#And before you ask no they're NOTHING alike#ones a mysterious dick antagonist with a throne and white hair and the other is sweet bean protagonist with insecurities and a hero complex#it's honestly impressive how little they share in common!#but aaa it's not all fun. reading the community posts on that channel is a. concerning experience.#and it feels a little bad when my project has brought me happiness and camaraderie#but this other passion project appears to have done. the opposite.#not that I can control any of that or that I put any stake in it. But I can lament#and hope not to repeat the same mistakes if I ever elevate YHNN to something beyond itself#sorry that got a bit depressing. but that's how fast my brain thinks!#It's also why distraction measures are good before i start having a meltdown#if you can catch me before my brain goes down that thought process and path that is :P#just pav things
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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that's right babygirls i still have more JKAWLKLSDF
i always thought it'd be fun if ladybug had wings so i gave her some bc yes
#miraculous ladybug#mlb#miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir#ladybug#chat noir#adrien agreste#plagg#my art#bloodily pulling myself out of art block and art burnout still#so im trying diff ways of like sketching and such from what i usually do#been p effective thus far SDFSD tryina cut down on what i find most tedious#scheduled#i hope tumblr doesn't delay it i set it for 9 pm DSFKLSD
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Sophocles, from "Electra: A Tragedy," translated by Anne Carson
#lit#sophocles#anne carson#electra#words#sometimes i shock myself...#fragments#selections#ancient greek tragedy#p
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madoka magica x 2001: a space odyssey
#trying to let myself be weirder this year#this wasnt my idea tho my friend joey put it into my head and i couldnt stop thinking about it#puella magi madoka magica#madoka magica#pmmm#2001 a space odyssey#madoka kaname#homura akemi#sayaka miki#crossover#art tag#:P
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ocean blue how do you do
#ninjago#nya jiang#nya smith#nya ninjago#jay walker#jay ninjago#jaya#ninjago jaya#jaya ninjago#stormshipping#lego ninjago#aphid artisms#seabound#ninjago nya#ninjago jay#ok yay#wow so crazy#underwater so wonderful#you may be asking how jay is breathing down there#well ill tell you this#hes not#:p#i love this season so much ugh#nrg nya my roman empire#also i gave up with the fish holyyyy cannoli#i suck at drawng fish#i used myself and a stock image as reference lel#this is so much better than the last time i drew sea nya bc omg…#i looked at that piece again and im loling so hard oh my god#anyways hiiii 6 months improvement i suppose
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caitvi in act 2: reunion, cute banter, extremely good double-cross subplot, will probably get back together
jayvik in act 2:
#WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNNMN#IM GONNA THROW UP#honestly nobody look i’m still processing. i have no idea what to say#i NEED to know what happened to jayce in that wild rune. who did he promise all this to???#but uhh honourable mention to the cog callback from act 1 i guess. i’m gonna go drown myself#p#arcane#arcane s2 spoilers#jayvik
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I said "do you think you'll kill for me one day?"
(Yes, of course I will, my darling)
― yandere!cod men x reader ― ε price, ghost, soap, gaz, roach, makarov, alejandro, rudy, phillip graves, keegan, könig, horangi, nikto з suggestive?
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ଘ You're no plaything for Price. He doesn't just like you, he adores you. Cups your pretty face in his hands; delicately. His rugged and rough hands become gentle as soon as he comes into contact with your skin, treating it as if it were finely-grained porcelain. He treats you the exact opposite of how he treats anyone else. Whilst he leaves everyone else covered from head to toe in blood for coming near you, you're covered from head to toe in the most expensive items you wish for. But, he doesn't want you to forget that his money doesn't represent his love for you, it does not begin to cover not even half of what it should. He'll be sure to remind you not to be spoiled rotten. He's fond of you and while he's interested in you, you should listen and obey to what he advices you. He is more experienced after all.
ଘ Compare what Simon's scars and bruises are to your unscathed body. Let his hands roam over your body, taking in all he works for. Let them wander and familiarize with what he's toying with. His breath on your skin as it quickens, losing his train of thoughts as he fondles you. He's convinced you're meant only for him. No one else should touch you this way, no one could do it like he does. And please return it! Cradle his head in your lap, so the sizzling subsides and he feels alive. Let him know he's the best, the one. Let him lean in and capture those soft, plump lips in a passionate kiss. Don't pull away, don't deny him his heaven. And don't you dare let anyone else trail your body with their eyes like he does. Why, he'll feel as if they're already doing what their mind desires. He's screwed up in his mind but he'll move heaven and earth for those thighs to wrap around his waist at night spilling the warmth between them. Make him feel warm and welcome, give him the world he burns everyone else for. He sacrifices others at the feet of your altar.
ଘ Johnny's smug smile can fade rather quickly with one sensual move from you, watch him get lost as his breath is winded and his body is overtaken with an all-consuming fire of passion. Oh, he can't even fathom the idea of anyone before or after him experiencing such things. He'll be paralyzed the moment you sit on his lap and putting your hand to his chest, let it trail over his heart which at the moment beats wildly. It's a sensation he experiences when plunging a knife deep within someone else's chest, he reckons the feeling is almost the same. He thinks his victims rather lucky they die this way. How many other people can experience that fleeting, overwhelming feeling?
ଘ Kyle's hand kisses are done with such reverent trembling and respect that he'll have your skin tingling with warm sensations as if the late evening sun was seeping into your skin. Let his and your body blend together like the watercolors on an artist's canvas does. Bask in his affection like you'll sunbathe on the beach. Take in all the good he brings you, accept every touch of his that starts with a secure embrace and ends with the colliding of your bodies. The cold with which he lashes out for others has no place with the gentleness he entreats you with. Keep your eyes on his, locked in his steady gaze immerses himself in fantasies. He feels dizzy as if his world was spinning, losing himself in the sensations. And after the elation, let him shower you in praises, caresses and gifts. Let him buy you two rings for each finger, how many could you want to show off having a caring partner when you slide his card at the register? Make your hands look pretty whilst his are leaving a trail of crimson blood after him.
ଘ Roach couldn't ever hurt anyone else, he didn't know what he was capable of until the importance of you came all too clear. You're something that shouldn't belong to anyone else in the world. It's a quick descent down the spiral of violent devotion. His soft gaze usually filled with admiration and sentiment for you hardens, his pupils dilating as fear takes over. He's only acting on behalf of all his anguish, you haven't the heart to condemn him. He's shown you what your heart is worth, couldn't you give him some sort of heaven? He will do very well at whatever it is you ask of him, just wait while he shows you. There isn't anyone else like him he says over and over as if a prayer or spell he could make come true.
ଘ Makarov does not care whether he deserves you or not. Unlike the others who will commit unspeakable acts out of guilt and use their "pure" intentions to purify their actions, Makarov is selfish and relentless in what he wants. He does not flinch at your attempts of control, it's lost the moment he takes you in. He's determined to taste everything you have to offer, whether it's willingly or not. But he does like things to be served on a platter for him, he also has no problem taking it himself. Let the hand on the back of your neck guide you in the direction you are to walk, be docile and you'll surely receive tenderness. He can never deny that he loves the way your lashes flutter as you look through them up at him as he pats your head for being so good. Overtime you might notice small details showing his exterior cracking and revealing the soft, white underbelly of affection. He feels as if his chest caves in from your actions, the subtle red at the tip of his ears. Keep pulling at his neck collar, he'll like that fake sense of control you have.
ଘ You wouldn't ever catch a glimpse of Alejandro's manipulative strategies until he finds someone threatening. Is it wrong you're not seeing enough of other people? His biggest fear is you falling for someone else, the danger of you getting too close to someone is palpable for him. The intimacy you two share is from the harvest he's worked so hard for. He's been slaving away for so long to just let someone else lay a hand on you. He kneads you into what he desires, anything to feel the beating heart in your chest which pumps only for him. He'll keep polishing you until he gets down to the bare essence of you, which he can only dream to capture. The rhythm he wants to feel rushing through his veins, circling throughout his body.
ଘ Rudy's tenderness blinds you as he takes you to what you can only describe to be paradise. With the shining of luxury, all new and just for you he says. He'll press a million sweet kisses on your face before dropping that a most bothersome person will no longer be graced by your presence ever again. To him it's like a quiet act of love, to you, it's unimaginable. Don't worry your head will all the details, isn't it better to have no worries? He's all smooth indulgence telling you to keep looking at the adorned future he has ahead for you, telling you not to pay attention to the blood that stains the walls of the hallways you walk. He would lay out a new, fancy red carpet over the corpses for you to step over and continue in this fabricated dream.
ଘ Phillip knows exactly how to get the best out of you. Can you blame a man for knowing how to get what he wants from you? Let him tease and tug for he knows what every maneuver of his does. The hands that massage your skin don't get dirty, he'll always have others ready and willing to carry out whatever order he gives. It's what he's accustomed to and how he intends to keep it. But the droplets of blood that splatter do not miss his skin. The stain is still there, still under the skin of the thumb he pushes inside of you, feeling around for that bliss. Let his protectiveness clothe your body, he's already blurring the lines between obsessiveness and possessiveness.
ଘ Keegan's eyes will have you coming to a stumbling halt. Asking for something only you know how to give so good. Those erratic eyes that are unpredictable as they are deep, representing the deep dive you have to be holding your breath for. Are you ready to indulge? Because the impact will have you gasping for air, and when you try to take one you'll only swallow a mouthful of carnal desire. He ignites such a heat it's scalding to the touch, you don't know what's happening it's like you lose control. It happens so fast that when it's all over you'll let his lips, from which hot breaths slip through, kiss all over your sweat glistened body. His eyes might be softer and hold it for a while until he's back to the merciless, cold gaze which freezes everyone's else blood, feeling it lump within their veins.
ଘ Let König go on his fast rampages. They're over quick anyways. And afterwards, when he comes back, cradle his head between your thighs his tongue tangling as he stutters out promises to buy you what you wish if only you let him lap at your sweetness until his thoughts are left to reckless abandonment. Let him get what he can't get anywhere else. Call him handsome as your bury your fingers into his hair, your fingertips trailing his jaw and down his neck to where his adam's apple bobs as he swallows hard. Place kisses on his cheek until he turns his head in one swift motion and captures your lips in a desperate kiss. He wants it all, wants all of you all at once it makes him messy, shaky and weak. But he just wants someone to hold him, rubbing his ears and whispering words of affirmation in his ear.
ଘ Horangi could care less what other's want from him. You're in his viewpoint and he's determined to apply as much pressure as possible to make you bend. The reason he justifies himself with is the lullaby he's lulled to sleep with. Everyone else wants something from him, why shouldn't you? Everyone else is just in the way, he says over and over again, trying to make you focus on his lips instead of the bodies on the floor. With what he's done, he expects a standing ovation from you, nothing but complete adoration and servitude. He's a man who chases after impulses, who knows how long until this candle runs out. For now, ignore the brusque hand and acknowledge the underlying intents. He'll keep this lecherous momentum going until you're feeling faint from the mere touch of his hand.
ଘ Resignation is a trait Nikto works hard to work out of you. Surely, you ought to trust him after all he's done for you. In his mind, he's dedicated such gentle caring to you, you should be grateful. Don't be afraid to take directly out of his hand, he prefers you lose that skepticism. And when you do start to gentle, oh he can never get enough of it. His fingers grazing and gliding over your body at any and every chance he can get. Let him delve deeper into you, it's only natural for him to want to know you better. Every quiver of yours, he feels through the epidermis of his skin. He just knows you that well. His jerking movements shouldn't startle you by now. Maybe if you were more open, you would be telling him what you want. Give him some sort of sign before that spark ignites an unyielding fire. Because to him, that trembling is a sign of a smoldering fierceness waiting to break through.
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#lol i woke up drooling all over myself at 3am to write this#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader#simon x reader#ghost cod#price x reader#captain john price#soap x reader#johnny soap mactavish#gaz x reader#kyle gaz garrick#roach x reader#gary roach sanderson#cod makarov#makarov x reader#vladimir makarov#alejandro x reader#alejandro vargas#rudy x reader#rodolfo parra#phillip graves x reader#phillip graves cod#keegan russ x reader#keegan x reader#keegan p russ#konig x reader#konig x you#konig cod#kim horangi hong jin#horangi x reader
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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FoM (fields of memes (pt1))
#aka i fuck around w rendering n coloring all day long :P#or just expel the ideas that have haunted me for a week#ive got a lot more of em help#fields of mistria#fom march#fom hayden#fom valen#fom holt#fom dell#my art#guys the fixation sure do be hyper or whatever#i need to like. slow down a little before i run myself into the ground 😭#dragging my ass away from my desk to watch jjba is what ive been trying#anyways do you like my shoe hcs for holt n dell :3c
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Miguel is the plan guy in this triad (however useless it is with a chaos incarnate in it) and he'll make sure of it one bad fashion statement at a time.
#logan howlett#wade wilson#miguel o'hara#wolverine#deadpool#spiderman 2099#poolverine#deadfang#i still am in denial and refuse to name this ship :P#deadpool and wolverine#spiderverse#i had so much fun thinking up the dumbest futurey clothes#not very creative that ones but they send the message#and please appreciate all the backgrounds of wtf bar goers and random gizmos in lab I did#I;m so proud of myself to spend so much time on a silly comic :3#but hey the ship is progressing nicely :3#logan and migs can bond on being annoying
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dan and phil as reductress headlines 4/?
#wanted to post non-tour content for my no spoilers girlies!!#myself included lol#also sorry the tatinof ss is shit it's from a bootleg LOL#dan and phil#phan#dan howell#phil lester#daniel howell#amazingphil#dpgdaily#dnpr#emmascrap#d&p
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the finished version of my wip from the other day! :D
the lil guy...
plus an alt version with original colors --
I like how both of them turned out! ^^
#my art#sonic#sth#sonic the hedgehog#sonic fanart#sonic fandom#kitsunami#kitsunami the fennec#kit the fennec#sonic idw#sonic idw spoilers#idw sonic#idw sonic spoilers#comic redraw#i feel like im setting high expectations for myself with my recent drawings - but i really do like doing this more detailed lineart style#it takes forever but i think its worth it :D#maybe if i get motivated ill do a redraw of surge in that panel too#reeeally trying to improve my style - to get it more consistent#debatable if its working or not but thats the learning curve right?#:P
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Guys, can we all please just appreciate Danny's handwriting??? Like what—
He can become ghost whenever he wants, beat bad ghosts, beat his future self, save the planet from the giant meteorite AND have this neat and curvy handwriting at the same time???
How much time did it take him to write his name during the test??????
Okay, I understand that kids had to write like this in 00s, but please, let's just appreciate, not think about it any further
#danny fenton#danny phantom#his “Test” and “Danny Fenton” like >>>>#though i have no idea what the rest of his work is about#i had to write in cursive till like 5th grade myself#but then teachers just stopped care about handwritings :P
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Hey, not to sound rude but like. You REALLY missed the point of undertale if you skipped the dialogue.
ive gotten 3 confused asks already about that last post. it seems i have vastly miscalculated the trajectory of this joke.
how quickly a fandom forgets their champions 😔
#anon#calling myself a champion in jest#but also i was a p big deal in the early fandom i think#because i liked it a lot!#and contributed a lot
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[ masterlist of series the love prognosis by awrkive ]
legend
❀ ; fluff ♡ ; smut ✧ ; angst
main masterlist
↳ warnings are stated in the link of each chapter itself as well as on this navi page — all of my works are 18+ so minors, DNI !!
summary for as long as you can remember, you've always been a hopeless romantic. the girl who’s always dreamt of cheesy encounters with her soulmate, grand love declarations, and a cute little beach wedding to boot. but reality pretty much slaps you hard right on the face, because love, unfortunately, doesn’t come grand — it’s simple and it’s quiet, but it is quite painful, especially when the love that you’ve been seeking for all your adult life has just been right under your nose all this time.
tags medical!au, surgeon!jk, surgeon!(fem)reader, corporate lawyer!mingyu, rommates!au, f2l(?)
status; completed
moodboard • playlist • tlp!jk visual
tlp tag ( fic discourse ) • taglist ( CLOSED ) • tlp extras ( texts + social media shenanigans) • amm ( ask the characters anything )
drabble #3: in which jk meets oc for the first time
drabble #1: in which doyeon confesses to jk in med school
drabble #2: in which taehyung figures jk out
main story;
𓍯 the love prognosis
one: in which you give another romantic relationship a try again after four years
↳ genre & warnings: ❀ ; ♡ ; ✧ ; explicit sexual content: cunnilingus, dry humping, making out ; mature language ; alcohol consumption ; slight angst: arguments
two: in which everything is suddenly not the way they are anymore
↳ genre & warnings: ❀ ; ✧ ; mature content: making out ; mature language ; alcohol consumption ; angst
three: in which you navigate the possibility of a completely different relationship with your best friend, jeon jungkook
↳ genre & warnings: ❀ ; ♡ ; ✧ ; explicit sexual content: mature language ; alcohol consumption ; unprotected sex ; protected sex ; multiple sex positions ; multiple orgasms ; oral sex (f&m receiving) ; angst ; fluff
drabble #4: in which you find jungkook in loose plaid boxers incredibly hot ( ♡ )
[ faq about tlp story ]
ask #1: jk and mingyu undergrad days
ask #2: tlp timeline
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#fic: tlp#p; mlist#jungkook fanfic#made this mostly for myself cos i tend to forget about my tags and stuff 😭
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