#and then in the middle of that i wont be working for them for a week because i have to go work my on campus job
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super disorganized sketch page because i do what i want
#my art#not sure if i wanna tag these... hrm#i wonder if alt text shows up in search results.... shudders#well anyway. i wanna ramble about these!!#for willy mafton: i've been working on designing more of the human cast. mainly all the big name important ones#it's been a slow process + a little challenging but i like getting the chance to practice drawing faces! :]#in regards to His design specifically.. it's very much based off of his movie apperance#but with a reference to that Classic sprite thrown in#bc i thought making him a little cartoony and inhuman would fit him :] but idk im not an expert on his character or anything#about the rabbit lady: i forgot how i had that idea initially but it ended up looking so fucking cool tbh#im always a fan of making her design less of a feminine eye candy type of design and more of a Spooky Murderer type >:3c#it also gave me the idea to try making some similar designs for the glams...#but if i do that im not gonna be giving them that vintage rubber mask look... since they're meant to be super flashy and high tech looking#so i was thinking they could have faces with more of a silicone texture.. and that have a style based more off of their in game art work :]#so they'd be like giant dolls with weird moving faces rather than having a vintage animatronic look#also that van in the bottom middle is 100% a homage to a specific user i wont be mentioning but iykyk HFJZJFJF#ANYWAY the 🌞🌜 stuff: dont be weird about it please HFJZJG#im aware that these tags are very easy to ignore but like. genuinely pls dont be weird about them#dont romanticize it. its not meant to be ''y/ndere'' or anything like that#its actually a bit personal to me so like... interpret it as you like but be aware its not meant to be a happy or positive thing#anyway i think thats all i have to say... i've been trying to branch out a tiny bit regarding the things i draw#it's always nice to challenge yourself even if its tough... especially if its tough!!#i mainly draw just for my own sake but i hope ppl see something they like here#these tags got so fucking long oops... i'll stop now JFKZJFKSJGKSJG
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anyone else out here a middle child saddled with eldest daughter responsibilities?
#a bumper sticker that says 'middle-child neglect and eldest-child duties'#i want to believe it started when my older sister moved out but. lets be real. it's always been me.#i am genuinely acting care-giver to my chronically ill younger sister while my dad watches basketball on the couch#and my mom doesnt get out of bed.#like. my mom is pretty sick too and works all day and does most of the housekeeping too#so i dont blame her at all.#i mean i guess my dad works all day but. for real king you can't get up off the couch to support your daughter crying and heaving#no that falls to me. yeah yeah I'll get her a drink and make sure she takes her meds.#what's that? yeah I'll rub her back and run a cloth under the sink and bring her something to eat too.#oh? yes fine I wont take a gummy so i wont sleep because she's in a flare up and needs them more than me#to be clear!! I'm not blaming her either like clearly she feels like shit and she feels guilty all the time#i just. some amount of help from anyone else. or at least maybe. idk A DAY I can rest when i feel like shit#but oh- no- she's coughing up bile again. yep I'll come bring a bucket.
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i thjnk that in the end what bothers me about a lot of ragbros reconciliation fan content is that it seems to treat their making up as a single event. as if they just need to have one heartfelt conversation and apologize and hug each other and then they will be officially reconciliated. as if they wouldn't need to rebuild their relationship slowly! (as if they haven't already started to, albeit tentatively). as if they wouldn't need to first let go of old grievances, both the big ones and the little ones. let go of the guilt they place on both themselves and on each other. it cannot possibly happen in one night! it's learning to talk to each other again until it isn't awkward anymore. until the smallest annoyances stop bringing back all the bitterness to the surface. it's learning to open up to each other again! this time with no awful secrets between them! it's discussing those secrets! discussing their shared grief and making an effort to understand the sorrows they do not share. i cannot stress enough how much i want you to understand it needs to be a very painful very saddening but also very hopeful and maybe cathartic process
#this is perhaps overly long and convoluted but you know how i am. i have kaeya diluc disease#brothers tag#kaeyaposting#diluc#ragbros#kaeya#my posts#like!!! do you even get it!!!#also content where they are in the middle of that process is so dear to me#when it's still strained and feels like treading on thin ice#but theyre working on it and theyre getting somewhere#and maybe there's this underlying feeling in both of them where it's like they are saying ''please. can we go back to how we used to be?''#and the answer is no. they cant#it wont ever be like when they were kids#but it can be better!! better than how things are now than how things were after that night#better even than how it was when they were young. it would be truer now i think#less of a weight hanging over kaeyas shoulder#bites my fist im so normal
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bell I do have a crochet question for you. how do you get better at freehanding things? is it just experience? bc I've been crocheting for a few years now but I still sweat if I can't find a pattern for what I want to make 😭
so my initial answer is just fuck around and find out-- as in just start making stuff, sometimes don't even try for a specific shape, just do stuff and see what shapes you make and get a feel for how increasing and decreasing impact a work, how to incorporate larger stitches (i.e. switch from sc to dc to make one side of the round taller), all that kind of stuff. and maybe try and make something purely based off an image-- as in, no pattern, no fucking clue how to go about it, just go at it and see what you get. it won't always be pretty, but it'll teach you! and practice helps immensely, so you can even just work on things you do have patterns for/know how to make and that will teach you how shapes come together and how to sculpt something (bc that's what amigurumi is, really, just figuring out how to sculpt something with loop & hook-- imo, it's what makes crochet pretty different to other fiber arts, although you can do 3-D stuff with them as well) into what you want.
my other answer is i've been crocheting for thirteen years and i consider myself pretty damn good at it and i still whine and cry when i can't find a pattern for what i want 😭 i think getting really good at tracking stuff down and also sometimes just resigning yourself to having to buy a pattern is really the answer. also, tbh, you can look at how someone else made it and try and replicate that without a pattern-- if you sell stuff, i recommend you still credit the original designer, since you are basing it off their work, but looking at how someone else made something and trying to do the same thing is how a lot of artists build technique. again, don't rip them off entirely, but going "how tf did they make this?" and trying to do something similar can help you learn more about how pieces are put together.
also ravelry, pinterest (if you know how to use it properly and are willing to deal with the spam/clickbait fake pins... bane of my existence), various pattern databases, and, tbh, just rando people's blogs are your best friend. i have a few amigurumi artists where when i'm just absolutely lost, i go on their sites and search up what i'm trying to make to see if they've done it before, and sometimes they have! elisa's crochet has really cute stuff, as does ami amour, and you can find way more people through instagram (the one and only time i will recommend going on that site)
#asks#anons#crochet talk#really truly genuinely fuck around and find out though. make weird stuff and see how it turns out and tbh. finish it even if it sucks#you never know maybe your niece would really love a lopsided freak little lobster creature with no eyes! whos to say#i freehanded a random little multilegged creature and gave it to the kids at my mom's work and they LOVE it#it looks like an scp but they're obsessed#also im in the middle of pepitos mask like i keep saying#and figuring out how to get it to the shapes i want is really fun#maybe ill do like a process discussion post along with the pattern whenever i write it up#also im thinking about making a ko-fi in case people want to throw a few bucks my way for the patterns#the commie in me wont actually let me put them behind a full paywall#but if people want to give me money for them that would be neat#anyway long rambling aside. practice practice practice#that is really the key to every skill
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a very quick little azemet to remind people i exist. hey, i exist! :3
(azem is helios, he/him)
#hades is still in the middle of his Welcome Home Beloved I Have Complaints About Work And You Will Hear Them speech but. it wont last long#azemet#ffxiv#emet selch#azem#ff14#ffxiv art#endwalker spoilers
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the eternal question of if the fictional universe that is heavily analogous to the real world should have actual media from the real world or similarly named thinly veiled references
#this is about if pokemon would exist in the catworldverse. the issue is furbies already do and it woukd be a lot to retcon the existence of#them into a thing thats obviously a furby reference but isnt actually a furby. idk my explaination for that is that humans left furbies#there and the cats just sort of rediscovered them and brought them back to life#would media be the same? this is going to be something ill have to work out. the overall 2000s internet vibes means that media will play a#huge part of the setting. i feel likei have to justify the existence of everything in the lore but it might be easier to just say fuck it#and go the sparklecare way of having everything that exists in the real world but with a silly name but idk my brain wont let me do that#without justifying it somehow. like. WHY is it that thousands of years later these highly evolved cats are living in a world almost exactly#like the earth 2011? i think finding the balance of realism vs. cartoon absurdity is hard to pin down#as of now im going on the idea that out of some sort of religious reverence since the humans of the 2000s created them the cats just#emulate their culture. like how every western european country wanted to be greece and rome sooo bad in the middle ages#meowing
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It's that time of he hyperfixation where I start wanting to make a crossover fanfiction with Firewatch
#yes this is about#disco elysium#because when isnt it about this beautiful godforsaken game#some peoples comfort au is coffee shop au#and i respect that#but to me its firewatch au#isolate two people in the middle of the forest and give them plenty of alone time#also it probably doesnt help that ive started applying to work in a national park this summer#oh well#will they wont they but with my own fucking writing
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I am once again begging online shop payment processing companies to allow me to enter a separate name for shipping and separate name for billing!!
It's the same address, I'm just trans and have not legally changed my personal name, but I still prefer to receive mail as my preferred name! Like it's literally my professional name, I do business as my preferred name.
Annoying as fuck, and I don't want to chance my bank rejecting the payment (though I'm sure someone at my bank has put a note to allow it on my account by now, since I've contacted them a couple times before when I realized too late that the billing section didn't let me input another "address/name" section, and they said the payment was fine in those cases.)
Anyway, legal name changes should be free and non-advertised for everyone. Tbh, you should get a free name change every time you file your taxes on time as an incentive for good citizen behaviour. Once I am elected pres-
#i think the one i just used didnt even have a separate billing address option which makes no sense#guess they dont want anyone giving any gifts making the buyer pay twice for shipping like that#maybe it was a fault of the mobile browser but i highly doubt it since many desktop sites look like mobile browsers these days#just so fucking frustrating. what if i lived somewhere where my legal name would out me? (im in the closet rn so doesnt matter)#i dont want to fucking see my legal name. im already forced to see it everywhere else.#i dont wanna ruin my mood on a day when im supposed to be getting a package which should be a happy thing yknow#vent#transphobia#speaking of like i would change my name but i dont want to and cant afford the fucking ridiculous price for it#and i dont wanna advertise it in a newspaper either! shits expensive as fuck on top of the hundreds to file the court paperwork!#i already tried to do it once with money in hand and the receptionist told me that even tho it was for gender identity i could not...#...avoid the newspaper thing unless i also changed my legal gender marker. and i had to back out bc i have reproductive health problems#i dont want a gender marker change to fuck with my getting healthcare#(i did change the gender letter on my ID card later tho which only took a signature on a paper no hassle with anything)#it really really fucking sucks how all these little things add up all the time#especially when im closeted while living w family who wont even use my preferred name#the real kicker is that. both my dad and his dad used preferred names. my dad used his middle name#and i use part of my middle name. yet my dad even in death still gets the dignity of being called his preferred name and i dont#sexism at its finest#reasons why i dont even hint at being trans around my moms side bc i already got bullied by them for wanting to use my middle name#ive literally been asking them to call me my mid name since i was 12. and theyve been acting like im trying to be someone else#its the same middle name on my birth certificate they gave me. i dont understand why they wouldnt want me to use it#but yeah i stay closeted bc i dont wanna deal with the name drama amplified exponentially for gender#prob get kicked out too cuz theyre queerphobic as fuck and i cant work rn and dont have a car#id have to just go full feral and live in the woods with the lizards where i belong#Cori.exe#Post.exe#fuck lol just looked it up and u cant change ur first name if u get married. i cant avoid the fucking fee man. let me be cori#literally why is it cheaper to get married than change ur first name! bullshit! marriage has so much more legal implications#transphobic queerphobic aromanticphobic privacyphobic poorphobic shit ass fucking state ive literally been cori most of my life ffs cmon
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i didnt get the job and im mostly ok as long as another coworker didnt get it instead. like it has to be someone from outside of the company or im QUITTING
#im not quitting btw if i could afford to quit i would simply quit right now lol#sooooooooooo annoying but also a reminder that companies dont care about people.#not that i needed one though so why was this necessary#and they made me work when i was sick i need them to die fr#this marks a change btw. im already not doing extra hours but now im gonna do that harder. i dont know how but i will#idk if i mentioned this before but they gave me a raise#nd when they did that i was like. why would they give me a raise when im in the middle of applying to a new position. that was my first hint#so yeah im not even happy about the raise tbh?#like is that allowed can i tell you to stick your raise up your ass?#and like it's a good raise but also im worth wayyyyyyyyy more than that#🙄🙄🙄🙄#im just too proud like i GENUINELY wanna quit now lol but i wont!#because again. who else is offering salaries like this absolutely no one#and they must know it 🤣🤣
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so sick and tired of technology why does everything i own keep breaking !!!!??!
#first my hdmi port on my laptop (rip second monitor)#and now the headphone jack on my ipod shuffle stopped working (in the middle of me downloading songs onto it ugh)#i have no idea how to fix it bc ofc apple wont do shit about it#im just so fucking pissed about this bc there was no reason for it to break after being fine for months !#my guess is the battery but idk how to solder so i wont be fixing that shit#maybe best buy can help since im gonna ask them about my hdmi once i get back from my study abroad#guess its not the end of the world im just stressed tf out and any bad thing happening is being magnified x10 in my brain sooo#nonsims#dl
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psychic and physical damage being taken this weekend but first we have to get through the 3 hour drive
#AUGH. ack. i hate having to take long trips to go to cons i wish we didnt live in such a fuck off place in the middle of texas#im already anticipating this con not being very fun not because of the con itself but because of the crowd of the con#im still bringing my stickers and comm art stuff in case someone is brave enough to ask for their waifu#i think i can also work on more sticker designs while im there bc im bringing my tablet just for personal fun lol. and my ds#anyways pray for my ass to not get harrassed like i know my partner will be there and will stick up for me but like#i know nerdy men. they will do whatever they can to try to impress you#especially if theyre older guys and youre cute and smaller than them *has the ick*#no cool guests at this con though so i wont have much to do outside of drawing for myself and being a salesperson#val.txt
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For my work secret santa I got a gift basket with wine, glasses, a candle, and a llama wine bottle holder thing, and when I thanked the girl who gave it to me she was so excited and told me how she looked so hard for a basket with the Llama because she knew I really liked them and it was just so sweet of her, but the thing is I've never actually had a strong opinion either way on llams. I have a couple scrub tops that have llamas on them (they're a popular pattern theme idk why) but I guess she got it in her head that they're my favorites (for the record my favorite animals are gorillas elephants and any kind of cat big or small)
And like first of all, I would now rather die than EVER let her know my ambivalence towards llamas, but also like...I think about that every time I see a llama now. I'm gonna go through the rest of my life remembering how this girl was so excited to get me something she thought I would like, and she also wrote a really nice card to go with it about me being a good friend, and not to sound like a fortune cookie but the thought does count and it was just so lovely and I'll never think of llamas the same way again bc I do love them now. Anyway love is transformative and also stored in the Llama wine bucket
#something something there are more people than you think that not only notice but care about you and see you as a friend#im pretty friendly with most of my coworkers but we dont necessarily hang out outside of work#and part of me still very much feels like im still the weird kid in the middle school cafeteria with no one to sit with but thats not true#most people are nice#and i do really try and help my newer coworkers especially bc i know how scary and stressful it is to be new#so i go out of my way to support them and let them know they can always ask me for help and i wont think theyre dumb for asking a question#and i guess it works! they do feel supported and like they can ask for help! i made a difference for someone!#and thats a good feeling even if ive got other crap going on or not going on rn#i did something good and made someone feel better and less scared while learning a difficult and stressful job#sort of that be the person you needed when you were younger kinda thing#and i think thats the 2024 goal to be the person i needed when i was younger and to be someone a young me would be impressed by#love and purpose are stored in the llama wine bucket
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woe the agony of having a funny idea for an oc comic with characters i haven't even designed at all yet let alone shared publicly
#the ''design'' process for me is more than just drawing them too#like all the info i jot down before that is sort of just concepts before i actually design them#its when i actually get to it that they become concrete#bc i have to think abt what makes sense for the design and what that may say abt them and ik it doesnt seem like much#but it legit helps me figure out ''who'' they are. their personality and how to best express it#so like. while i have the concepts for the characters they are no where near complete as characters or designs basically#and thats why it takes me forever to put out new sets. im usually actively working on character traits along w the design#ohhh but im so close to being done w this next set. i hope to be by next week at least#im in the middle of a character rn and then ill have one more left#i have a trick: i do them alphabetically so i dont just draw whichever designs im the most excited for first and then lose interest#that way by the time i finish all the ones i have more concrete ideas about ill be like half done#so i wont psych myself out of it lol
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Been working on making some AoT fanart since the finale but I keep getting sidetracked...
but I figured I'd share this WIP bc I've been trying to share more! ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔっ✨
#I struggled to pick a pose but I think I'm gonna go with the middle one#it was fun to try different dynamic poses and i might revisit them in the future#especially that top left one I really like that one#I got distracted with drawing her face tho to see if I could even draw Mikasa well with my style#I think she looks pretty 🥺#I was really inspired by that one scene when the wings are behind her so i wanted to recreate that#but also i wanted to make her scarf look like a beart bc ✨symbolism✨#anyways I hope I actually work on this more soon instead of letting it die in my WIP graveyard#I'm still crying about the finale though and i wont lie I even cried while doodling these#its the music that really gets me I've been listening to all the soundtracks and they arent helping me not be sad#I'm also on my 19th rewatch of AoT and I could still watch it 100 more times#sorry for rambling I have a lot to say all the time and no one really wants to listen so I just yell into the void lol#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin#aot#snk#snk fanart#aot fanart#mikasa ackerman#mikasa aot#attack on titan final season#aot final season#my art#WIP#Work in progress
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People are always like "but you shouldn't need it to be you/your daughter/your wife" or "you shouldn't need some metaphor to understand" or "why are we watering this down for people" - Listen:
If I've learned anything by the (weak, watered down, unfocused) leftist reaction to the current attempted genocide of trans people, it is that very few people will act or put themselves in danger unless it DIRECTLY affects them. ESPECIALLY other minorities who are not multiply marginalized (w the understanding that can bring) but Do have a lot to lose.
That's not true for every person! Some people have a basic understanding of empathy and compassion. Some people have higher level critical thinking skills or kindness. But I hate to break it to you - all of those things (empathy compassion critical thinking even kindness) are SKILLS. They are not a given. They are rarely honed by accident. They are difficult and many times come at a cost to you to learn and practice.
People may not have these skills for a MILLION reasons, but many of them are linked to poverty and generational trauma, lack of funded public education, and living in a dystopian capitalistic society that prioritizes individualism and leaves barely any time or energy for thinking through complex ideologies unless you MAKE that time. None of those reasons are "they're just too dumb" or "they only have the capability for hate and evil."
There are people doing very bad, purposefully malicious, monstrous things - and they are still people. If we lose sight of that we lose sight of the lengths of dangers and kindness capable of EACH of us. Beyond those with real harmful intent, there are MANY MANY MANY more people who are letting themselves accept the wrong solutions to the same problems we all see. For example, many of them genuinely want to protect children! And they listened to the answers for how to do so given to them by church and state and friends.
THOSE are the people we need to make metaphors for, we need to connect with individually, we need to show how and why this will impact THEIR lives. In a perfect world where the entire American society wasn't run on "us v them" that wouldn't be necessary!!! But it is! Because they want to protect the people IN THEIR LIVES right now, not a theoretical kid somewhere else they can't imagine being anything like their own. They want to put food on the table and a roof above the heads of their family, and they have grasped onto ANYTHING that they think will let them keep providing that.
We need to show these people how easily their child could be the center of these debates. How limited a world their child will grow up in without access to information on different ways of being and existing. We need to show them how and why this will impact them, their daughters, their wives, because we need to break through that concrete wall of defensiveness, built and calcified by the words of politicians and leaders with malicious intent but hiding nothing but desperate fear. We need to make it personal, to make it real FOR THEM, to make it understandable without a college level degree of critical thinking analysis why and how this war will show up at their doorsteps too.
It's exhausting. It's hard!!! It's infuriating and invalidating and endless. But appealing to their humanity, in whatever means that must take, is the only way to thaw out those who may stand with us. Because if we stand alone, I know with every bone in my body we will fall alone as well.
#queer#trans#empathy#critical thinking#politics#who is your true enemy: those in silence or casting a single uninformed vote - or those telling them what to do and painting us as monsters#that doesnt mean you shouldnt be angry or betrayed or fearful or mistrusting it just... means falling into those things wont help ys#wont let anyone reach them#we have to reach those we can we HAVE to or we have nothing not even those we marched beside are standing with us#and if youre reading this like “whats rich peoples excuse they had good schooling and no poverty to run them into the dirt exhausted#umm rich people Are the Problem and also i dont know what their excuse is - being out of touch? not meeting real different humans?#being isolated in an echo chamber of beliefs in an environment led by and filled w the very monstrous sharks creating these laws#like idk try to get through to them too but idrc theres like 8% rich people thats the worlds worst minority#we need to get through to the poor working class masses and middle class WASPS with voices at the PTA meeting and the people Around Us
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did some good progress on my wizard robe today
#wind howls#it took me a while to look for a pattern. every single result was either costly or hp related and i wanted neither#in the end i threw caution to the wind and just kinda. made it up as i went#im happy to report that it went pretty well !#and i made a really good hood for my robe ! from scratch ! no pattern ! and its lined and hemmed#and im Very proud of it :3#i wont be able to work on it tomorrow... but ill be working on it this weekend. ill add the hems to the sleeves and robe before-#i connect the side seams. itll look clean hopefully.... but i do have to trim the bottom of the robe first. its far too long lol#ill also add a middle panel thats yellow bc thats my secondary color :) then ill make the wizard hat#and if i have time left... ill add constellations and stars all around the robe. ideally sewn. if not ill either not do it or paint them on#but i also have an animation to finish and hand in by monday so i really should work on that first. thats a priority#and after all. halloween is on tuesday and i only have class at 2 pm#so if i wake up early then i can add more details and whatnot. i got this. im happy !!
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