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f1owermoon · 1 month
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thinking abt the ways ive heard people describe me and going 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹💘💘💘💘💘🫶🫶🫶🫶
#i was in group therapy for a while and we had to do an exercise where we had to describe ourselves and then ask someone close to describe us#and the therapist also asked us to describe each other#i said i was sweet (i dont really THINK of myself as sweet but other people often tell me i am so i was like sure lets go w it)#and then one of the ladies who was there was like no youre not sweet youre SUPER sweet and i was like oh??????????#and then another girl was like: she's like a cloud. it was so cute LMFAO#it was the same girl who said she thought my voice was so sweet and soft sometimes she couldn't focus on what i was saying when i talked#and i dunno. everyone else in that group was a bit older than me and the therapist was like well#besides being a good person i think youre really intelligent and articulate for your age and i was like well.....im not that young LMFAO#idk its just weird to think about all the positive ways in which others perceive you yk?#like ive never EVER thought of myself as intelligent. if anything quite the opposite#even here i remember getting a couple of anonymous asks from ppl telling me that they thought i was cool or funny#or that they liked my sense of humor and i was like me???????? cool????????? funny???????????? no way dude#then there's been others from people telling me i was cute or sweet which is what i often hear from others but yeah#ive never considered myself particularly cute or sweet?????? i think im just a decent person lmao#anyway. much to think about.....#sorry for the rant if youve read everything you deserve a kiss (with tongue???? jk. unless??) 💋#raquel speaks
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emerald-cloud23 · 6 months
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Ninjago: Dragons Rising 2 LIVE REACTIONS:
Spoilers beneath the cut - this is super looong btw
[Monday, march 25th] (Ep. 1 ↓)
The intro goes crazyyyy
RAS AND JORDANA ARE AT THE SHADOW DOJOO-
I DIDNT EXPECT THE NINJA FAN CLIP TO BE IN THE SHOW-
SORAAA I LOVE YOUR POWERSS, HER AND ARIN HAVE BEEN TRAINING AHHDGFBFB-
RIYU LOOKS SO SILLYY- and apparently needs to train how to fly lMFAO TJE BIG GUY CAN'T FLY??
FROHICKYYY AYY HELLOOOO-
A LETTER FROM KREEL??? TO SORA AND ARIN? HUH?
THEYRE PUTTING LLOYD THROUGH IT FR
-WAKES UP ON THE TRAINING GROUND
-SLEEP WALKS LIKE A ZOMBIE
-PUTS TEA HE WANTS TO DRINK INTO A FLOWER POT (WITH A PLABT IN IT)
-OO COOL VISION
-WAKES UP AND SPINJITZUS AGAINST A WALL
Arin comforting Lloyd with a master Wu impression,, omfg
And the Wu ghost again- fr, I hope Wu is, like, dead or smth or at least gone for a while
Arin watching some youtuber, Sora telling him it's stupid & then watching that same guy herself to solve smth? lmfao
BIG SILLY TEEN RIYUUU AND SORA AND ARIN SNEAKY MISSION
Ooooh noo, Arin,, don't be jealous of Sora now because of her havjng po- wAIT A SECONS WHO-
cINDER?! HELLPOOO?!! HII?! NEW SMOKE MASTER ON SCREEEEEEEN AND A CONFRONTATION BY SORA, ARIN AND RIYU
OhH THE WOLF MASKS ARE HERE
YESSS FIRST FIGHT OF THE SHOOOW
LLOYF INTERRUPTS THE FIGHTHH AND GETS A VIDOON AND AND THE GONG AND OOOOO HE PANICS HE P A N I C S !!! I'm so sorry Lloyd btw
RINGING THE GOOONG WHEE I'M SURE NOTHING WILL GO WRONGGG-
(Ep. 2 ↓)
Ourgh. Ok. It has a "previously on Ninjago"
CLOUD KINGDOM AAA I JUST REWATCHED THE EP IN S5 WITH THEM
OHHH THEYRE TALKING ABOUT EUPHRASIA AND HER POWERS AND HOW THEYRE NOW ABLE TO DO MORE THAN WRITING AND WANTING TO DO FUN THINGS. Oh they have silly fun ideas. Like bagels ahaha
Imagine every pen in your class stops working at the same timr lMFAOOO hello another dark prophecy
CINDER AND WOLF MASKS IN THE CLOUD KINGDOM, SOMEONE RING THE ALARM BELLS. OR GET EUPHRASIA HOW THEIR MASTER WRITER SAID
PErcival, what are you doing on a rock outside of imperium with a motivational speec- EUPHRASIAAAAA
OH lloyd unpacks his visions to the others,, wait hr took frohickys f- hE DRANK THE FLY TEA. HE. DRANK. THE. TEAAAA. why, lloyd.
OHHH "WHRRE THERE'S AN ELEMENTAL MASTER OF SMOKE THERE'S AN ELEMENTAL MASTER OF FIRE" SOO A HINT AS S4 ASH VS KAI??
Green merlopian. I lobw u. U look so cool. The hammer came from u?? You're cool. I like your personality and color. Favorite side character now.
And arin is too trusting? Kinda expected
LLOYD WANTS A GRAPPLING HOOK OF HIS OWN !!
NOOO FAVORITE GREEN SIDE CHARACTER WORKD EIGH PURPLE SERPENTINE. IS IT THE ONE FROM THE ADMINISTRATION??
Sora dID GRAFFITI?!!!??!??! And theyre joking it looks like noodles and not a cat lMFAAAOO
OHH THE SERPENTINE oh it's pink not purple so it's not the one from the administration? Aww butterflies. You're really not intimidating and cute. I like you too. oH SHE KNOWS ABOUT THE GONG- AND HAMMER. "WOULD I LIE? YES, DEFINITELY. BUT NOT RIGHT NOW"
OHHH THE WOLF MASK + HITTING THE GONG WITH THE HAMMER = UHH SHATTERSPIN I ASSUME? SHE SAID IT DESTROYS THE GOOD IN YOU
Perciii at the monasteryy aND EUPHRASIA WITHOUT THE HOOOOOD YOU LOOK SOO GOOD
Aww she fought for her home against ras, cinder, jordana aND THE WOLF MASKS AND THE GONG THEY HAD WITH THEM
SHE HAS A CRUTCH AND BANDAGED LEGG- oh girl i am starting to like u too oh noo so many new characters i like
ARIN WANTING YO YRADE HIS GRAPPLING HOOK FOR ELEMENTAL POWRTS IM SO SORRY OH THEYRE IN CLOUD KINGDOM i was so busy writing this i didnt notice it
"An evil language" i love you robo zane- i think this is that ancient thexorian needed for the ritual
oH THE WAY KAI GOT THAT WOLF MASK
btw wyldfyre has knly spoken once so far- she's eerily quiet. she only spoke about the tea. That's one lin- oh nvm she just spoke again. I wonder when she gets her new outfit
LLOYD PANICKING AGAIN UPON SEEING THE WOLF MASKS BECAUSE VIDION BUT THEN FIGHTS
oh hi jordana, sora still doesn't know who you are aHAHAHHAAHHAHAH i love this dynamic
WOLFS GOT A POWER UP
AWW NYA CALMING LLOYD AND TAKING HIS HAND
AHH KAI MEMTIONED HIS FIGHT EIDH ASH AND THAT EAS SUCH A COOL SHORT FIGHT BETWEEN THEM EHEH OH ILY KAI IT WAS COOL HOW U KNOCKED HIM DOWN
oooo is that shatterspin now? OH IT IS IT ISSS !!!!!
OH GEEZ CINDER DID YOU DESTROY XANE? WHY WAS HE CACKLING WITH ELECTRICITY?!
Rip wyldfyres leg
OH HE DID BREAK ZANE A LITTLE
LLOYD DRAGGING ARIN ALONG AS THEY FLEE- AWW
KAI FLYING THE BOUNTY. DID HE EVER?? I DONT CAAARE I LIKE THIS
also the armor that cinder now has looks cool as fuuuck
OH THE FORBIDDEN FIVEE
[Tuesday, march 26th] (Ep. 3 ↓)
Cinder is like me in a Zelda game when there's pots around
And Kai is like me in a Zelda game when there's boxes around
OOOOH SORA MAKING THE NEW HOOKS
Oh, Lloyd- I feel so bad f- OOOO THE LITTLE DRAGONS- ARE THOSE THE OTHER FORMS OF THE SOURCE DRAGONS????
IS THE LIGHTNING SYMBOL ONE THE ONE FROM IMPERIUM? I CAN'T TELL I DIDN'T WATCH S1 IN GERMAN
"Who claims him?" eXCUSE ME?! THEY'LL, LIKE, CLAIM LLOYD?!
Egalt looks.. weird. Without the hat. And the dragons had an.. interesting conversation about him.
Ohh, poor Wyldfyr- KAI CHECKING IN ON HER IN THR MIDDLE OF THR NIGHT WAAAAAHHH IM NOT CRYING THATS TOTALLY NOT ADORABLE
and and her denying she's in pain,, ough. Don't lie, Kai, don't lie, do- god damn it, you lied to her. That mission is not gonna be boring, I assume
CLIMBER SUIIIITSSS !!!!
Oo jordana has a cool orb,,
AND HER AND CINDER NOT GETTING ALONG BECAUSE THEY WANNA BE MORE IMPORTANT TO RAS THAN THE OTHRT ONE AHAHa-
Oh. Okay. Just destroying Cloud Kingdom now, are we?
Man. Lloyd falling asleep on the steering wheel of the Bounty... I worry for him this season.
Eheh- hello, wyldfyre. Angry Kai is backkk. And Sora annoyed. And Lloyd also angry- bwahahah
God, Lloyd's uncertainty,, wHY DO THEY TORTURE YOUUU?
Awgh- cute childhood story from Sora :'(
Geez, the Bounty bARELY fit through there, didn't it?
Oh. Oh, that's like a ship graveyard down there.
OOOOH, COOL ELEMENTAL GRAPPLING HOOKS
RIYU ID OFFENDED BECAISE KAI SAID HE CAN'T FLY AHAHAHHDHDHFN
Oh shiiit, the cLIMBER MECH IS FUVKING COOL-
BROTHER KAI TO THE RESCUEE- sort of
Lmfao. The way the mech looks when looking out of the hole-
"Technical difficulties" with Kai's powers pFFFT-
OhH NO ARIN PARENTS VISION- AND SORA WITH RAS AND BESTRIX- LLOYD AND WUUU VISION OH NOO HE'S SO HAPPY IT'S NOT GONNA BE HAPPY IS IT?!?! OH NOOO. NOO! RAS IS THRRE TOO! AND JAY IN NYA'S VISION NOT REMEMBERING,, AAAH oh but at least she recognizes it's not rea- WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT THING?!!!!
AWWW RIYU COMFORTS WYLDFYREEEE
"The real Jay would never forget me" Nya, I feel bad about what might be real and what not with your relationship.
Rip Kai. He died jumping into clouds- KIDDINGGG HE'S FINEE AND ALIIIIVE
oh hello, hatless egalt
[Wednesday, march 27th] (Ep. 4 ↓)
Starting with a photo of Cole and thr others in the land of lost things (like a family photo and a s1 recap)
COLE COOKED FOR THEMMM AND THEYRE HAVING DINNER TOGETHER SJDJNFNG THERES A WHITE ROSE ON THE TABLE OUGHH THEIR FAMILY PHOTO
OOH HE ACTIVATED THE GA- THEYRR CALLING EACH OTHER FAMILYYYYYY
CLOUD KINGDOM NOO ITS OVERRUN BY RUN AND NOW THEYRE IN THE LAND OF LOST THINGSS
HEY YOU CANT CUT SO DRAMATICALLY AWAY FROM THEM TO EGALT
Gee, he's angy-angy and not wanting to talk
Riyu helping the injured Wyldfyre is adorable and a duo I didn't know I needed
God i love these action shots
Oooo female dragon from that clip !! I like her lanterns on her horns
"You're not the sharpest shuriken in the toolbox" OUCH EGALT, DON'T DO LLOYD DIRTY LIKE THAT
YAAA BACK IN THE LOLT WITH THE FINDERS
"They flew this far just to kick Geo?" I love you Bonzle
Geo building weapons lmaooo
NOO DONT TAKE BONZLEE
COLE COLE COLE HE'S BACK HE'S BACKKKKK AAAAAAAAAHDHHFJGNNGNG
idk so far i don't like egalt if I'm honest- "dragons are the best ninja" and he thinks they're lying over shatterspin being used
At least rontu seems to believe them more
YAYAYAY COLE FIGHTIIING
awww the bonzle-geo hug,,
"We missed your breakfast" aND THEN THEY ROAST GEO'S BREAKFAST OOOH FRITZ AND SPITZ ARE SO ADORABLEE
Cole casually makes Geo a seat out of earth while talking ajjdjfn
I think the thing Doc said about Skullkin getting powers through the bloodmoon could be real, idk this really feels like it-
Jordana being hesitant- a little, but still nice to see
ARIN KNOWS WHAT RAS' BREATH SMELLS LIKE?! YIIIKES-
EGALT IS SO MEAN. JUST TEACH THEM AND LET THEM SAVE THE WORLD, OLD MAN. YOU'RE WORSE THAN WU IN THE EARLY SEASONS SOMETIMES
GRAAH EGALT-
AYYY THEY REPAIRED THE PORTAL GATE NOW GO THROUGH ITT
AAAAA YASS THEY'RE AT THE MONASTERYY EITH XANE AND FROHICKYYY
ZANE HAS A FROHICKY PLUSH !!!!
What. That was. an abrupt end. Are you serious. THE WOLF MASKS JUST CAME THROUGH THE GATE AND YOU END IT THERE?! WHAT THE FUUUCK WHYYYYYYYYYY !!!
[Thursday, march 28th] (Ep. 5 ↓)
Okay, I'm still mad about how the cut yesterday's episode off at the end. That cliffhanger wasn't cool-
Zane, how are lanterns hung at the top of the gate blocking the door?
OOOO WU GHOST IS THERE TOO- DID HE CLOSE THE PORTAL? LOOKS LIKE IT!
Zane why do keep carrying the plush?
OOO BONZLE HAS A SECR- SHE'S WHAT NOW?! SHE'S NOT A SKELETON???????!!?!?!?????%!&;;%;%
AYYY NINJA BATTLE TRAINING BY THE DRAGONS- oh it's that clip they posted
RONTU IS SOOO KIND TO WYLDFYRE I LOVE IT
OO WYLDFYRE WAS OFFICIALLY TOLD WHAT HER ELEMENT IS
Oh bonzle i like your story. SHE EVEN PREPARED A LITTLE PAPER THEATER THINGY AND REHEARSED IT
OOOOOOOO SHE KNOOOWS ABOUT THE FORBIDDEN FIVE
two of the dragons look like egalt and rontu!!!
BONZLE IS A FORGOTTEN SPELL SJNDNGBBGBGN SHE LEARNED HOW TO FEEL AND LIVED FOR CENTURIES?! OO THE DRAGON STONE SHR- SHE KNEW WU!!!!!!?#!!%;5;
Riyu is so silly and expressive, he can't really jump and can't fly or talk or.. Spinjitzu like Rontu
WAIT THE FSM TAUGHT DRAGONS HOW TO SPINJITZU?! AEAEAEEAEGRH
SYNCHRONIZED MOVEMENTS WAAA I LOVE STUFF LIKE THIS
"Little fire-man" eheheheh new Kai nickname unlocked
Wu was the first to see Bonzle? Agrhjgngn Bonzle and loneliness- wU TALKING ABOUT HOW HE AND GARMADON WERE HAVING FU- HE'S TEACHING PEOPLE?! WHO??? OUR BELOVED NINJA??????? THEIR PARENTS?? WHY DON'T YOU SAYYYY?!
Omg he- he encouraged her to take a physical form of her own
Geez, what the? Wyldfyre, you're not good at disguises. WHERE'D SHD GET THE SUNGLASSES FROM??
SPINJITZU IN A BAYBLADE ARENAAAA
Wow, Egalt is soo disappointed in them. COME ON, DON'T BE SO HARSH ON ARIN
COLE AND GEO ARE SOO CUTE EHEN SHE SAYS THEYRE HER FAMILY WITH FRITZ AND SPITZ OMFGGG WAAH I WANNA CRYY COLE AND GEO SHIPPERS THIS SCENE HAS FOOD FOR YOUUU THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER SOOO SWEETLYYYYY AND AND HELD EACH OTHERS HANDS
cinder destroying more pots and jordana looking in that orb to search for bonz- wHAT THE FUCKKK JUST HAPPENED TO RAS?!! WHY DID- WHO- WAS THAT A SOURCE DRAGON OR SOMETHING?! WHY DID HIS MASTER SOUND LIKE ELECTRICITY?? LIKE- LIKE LIGHTNING, KINDA?? AM I STUPIID????
[Tuesday, april 2nd] (Ep. 6 ↓)
AaAEEE IT CONTINUES ! THOSE HOOKS ARE FUCKING COOL.
HII COLE, ZANE AND GANGG
AWWW FOREHEAD TOUCHING WITH COLE AND BONZLE omfg i got tears in my eyes
FRITZ AND SPITZ DISAPPEARED SO QUICKLY INTO THE UNDERGROUND BASE
OHHH COLE RAN OFF TO GET HID ELEMENTAL MECH TO HELP THEM EHHSHDHNFNGN NOW HE HAS THE MECH DISK WITH HIM TOO !!! BSBDBNF
Awwgh- arin and lloyd comfort aND MASTER WU IMPRESSION
.. Arin wants Lloyd's.. confidence? Poor baby is so unsure and that brief silence and close up of his face spoke worlds about his past experiences
KAI AND NYA SIBLING BONDING !!!! Oh this looks cool,, i love these siblings
AW WYLDFYRE TALKING TO A STONE-
DETECTIVE ZANE RETURNS
OHH IT'S THE GREEN MERLOPIAN GUY FROM BEFORE! THE GUY CINDER STOLE THE HAMMER FROM!!
Oh no cole looks so damn disgusted by the toothbrush,, aND BONZLE DANCES
THE GUY HAD A MAP IN HIS MOUTH?! WHAT. AND WHO IS HE TALKING TO NOW??
Omg. Climber cole and zane. They look so good. Cole ily you're so pretty
CLUMSY RIYU EHEHEH
Aww comforting rontu,, self doubt sora is back again- just like arin has his doubts about himself this season.. Huh.
OOOOH EGALT LOST A PRETTY SCALE
Cole talking about the finders being his family, zane giving him a look and he corrects himself to calling them his second family,, aND ZANE SMILES
Arin literally just broke a thick branch by throwing a rock at it. Without transferring spinjitzu to it, plus he hit egalt in the face (sorry but i feel like he deserved it)
NOOO DORAMA'S PUPPET FROM S1 EP.3 IN A DESERT WITH A POISON CLOUD.
Oh no they're capture- that's imperium technology, isn't it.
hE INJURED EGALTS EYE AND HE ISN'T SURE IF HE'LL SEE WITH IT AGAIN?!? ARIN WTF.
God, Dorama is so dramatic. Quite literally. OH HE'S FRIENDS WITH THE SHADY GREEN MERLOPIAN I LIKE (WHOSE NAME I CANNOT FIGURE OUT HOW TO SPELL SO I'LL JUST AVOID IT)
NOOO DON'T DO FIRE IN THERE WITH JIRO- AWW, COLE NEVER WANTED TO BE A PERFORMER OR ROAST CHICKEN AHAHHAHAH
Oh my god, Cole just FLATTENED that drone wITH HIS SHOULDER/BACK IN THE MIDDLE OF JUMPING.
YAYAYAYY COLE'S MECH VS DORAMA'S PUPPET
YEAAAAHHH KILL THAT PUPPET BY DESTROYING THE SET!!
Oh that stranger was so kind to cole, oh i like him
Ooooooo weird colored cloud and portal and the mONASTERY OF SPINJITZU?? WHAT. No that has to be a fake. Or something.
[Wednesday, april 3rd] (Ep. 7 ↓)
Mysterium is soo pretty tbh
AHAHAHHA BONZLE JUST INSULTED THE MONASTERY AND COLE LOOKED SO DAMN SAAAD
ooo more monastery mysteries because of where zane woke up
AWW COLE AND JAY ANGER FLASHBACK HEHDBFBNG honestly, that's cute- aWW HE WANTS JAY BACK
OOOOO WIZARD WOMAN PRETTYYYY
.. Gandala? Did I catch that name right?
OOH ARIN DESTROYING COLUMNS OR WHATEVER THEY'RE CALLED
ooooooo sad arin and happy sora trying to motivate/cheer him up :((
EHEHHE WYLDFYRE BOTHERING EGALT EHEH tbh i like this
PFFFT- MOUNT EGALT?!
ooo the pretty scale was an indicator for illness? :(
OH WHAT? SLOW SLUG MERCHANTS MENTIONED??
OH COLE LOOKS SO UNCOMFORTABLE AT THE THOUGHT OF BECOMING A (groovy) SLUG FOR WIZARD LADY
Awwgh bonzle and gandala hug,, awgh.
LLOYD AND RONTU COMFORT :'(
Oh- the visions are,, they're because of his connection to the source dragon?
OH NOO VISIONN OHH SILHOUETTE OF THE FORBIDDEN FIVE i love how everyone (kai, nya, arin, sora, egalt (wyldfyre? im sorry i was busy sneezing from hayfever)) came running to him when he screamed
"The forbidden five can't return" blah blah "only during a bloodmoon" blah blah "the instructions have been destroyed" blah blah- LIES!! IT'LL BE REAL. probably. at least according to the visions.
Jiro is the fastest dragon, huh?
OOHHHH THE ADMINISTRATION PEOPLE WHO FOLLOWED LLOYD AND ARIN AND ZANE IN THE ADMINISTRATION
HHAAHHAHAH KAI TRIPPED OVER A ROCK WHILE SPINJITZU-ING
The hotheaded kai returnsss
OUGH SIBLING TRAININGG COMING IN?
KAI IS THE BEST ONE ACCORDING TO NYAAA-
AHHHHH CHILDHOOD FLASHBACK !!! WHILE TRAINING!!
H- hOLY SHIT THAT LOOKED COOL !!!!!!!!! OH MY GOOOD KAII !!! AND EVERYONE CAME TO CONGRATULATE HIM!!
OHNOO THE BLOODMOON IS RISING!!
WAIT WHAT. THEY'RE TURNING TO STONE AND ONLY KAI CAN DO THIS NEW TECHNIQUE NOW?? CRAP. THIS IS GETTING CRITICAL ON ALL SIDES OF THE POSSIBILITIES IN THE WORLD
god the administration people are bo- nOO THEY'RE TAKING JIRO! YAY ZANE TO KNOWING ABOUT THEIR FORMULAS OR WHATEVER IT'S CALLED
WIZARD WOMAN HAD A CAT IN HER HAT AND A BUNCH OF OTHER STUFF?!
Pushing the paper back and forth under the door is srsly funny
OH NOW THE DOORS BROKEN DOWN AND NOW COLE IS TAKING ON 3 OF THE ARIN & LLOYD MECHS AT ONCE
AGENT JAY WALKER?!?!!!! WHAAAAT A SURPRISE!! HE HAS A GUN!! HE- HE POINTS A GGUN AT BONZLE!!!!
[Thursday, april 4th] (Ep. 8 ↓)
First of all, I know it came out on us netflix today. I'm avoiding tumblr, twitter and insta until the last two eps aired tomorrow. Which won't matter to you but it does to me. Alright, now into the ep.
The bloodmoon is actually pretty tbh
Wyldfyre is in denial over Rontu and Egalt being stone now lol
You know, Kai is right- he only managed to do the rising dragon strike once. That doesn't mean he knows how to use it
GAWDD LLOYD- I JUST WANNA HUG YOU
"The equipment known as Zane" AHAHAH
By the way, why has Galandarias orb thingy have so many cracks? I don't think that's good, to be honest. oH IT'S EVEN TAPED TOGETHER
Hi Jay
God, he's so boreddd by his job
OOO THAT'S FUNKY, SPRITE- Wait, he knew about his powers??
Rip Zane. Will there ever be a season where you don't get deactivated?
O- wait, SELF DESTRUCTION?! Oh, at least Zane was smart enough to leave the mech before they exploded
Wait, what. What happened to Jay?? And Sprite?
CLOUD KINGDOM, HIII
HIII WOLF MASKS YOU LOOK SO COOL IN 3D- I DON'T THINK I EVER MENTIONED THAT
So.. Jordana knows magic? To control the orb? Cool. No, genuinely- I'm impressed
RIP BOUNTYY- WILL YOU EVER NOT BE DESTROYED IN A SEASON? RIP ARIN AND RIYU AND LLOYD AND NYA
Oh that's not a good spot to crash. Poor Kai id left to take care of the two new girls
God, Lloyd, maybe stop saying you're safe or you'll probably crash through the ground one day too
I wouldn't call that flying but whatever floats your boat, Arin
SORA AND WYLDFYRE MINI BONDING-
Rip Bounty fr this time
Oh what a cute mushroom
Ohhh it's equally cute on the inside
That box was in Lloyd's visions, right? So this doesn't feel like a good idea
THE BOX IS COMFY?! Doesn't look like it
Ah, yes. I know that. It's so hard to do things while being watched
I KNEW IT'S A BAD IDEA WITH THE BOX
OH GREAT, IMPERIUM TECH. Jordana is actually starting to do things now? About time. We're pretty much close to the end of the first half of the season now so.. Yeah
Why does Arin immediately think the others died??
[Friday, april 5th] (Ep. 9 ↓)
The environments are beautiful
OHH TINY RAS STUCK IN A HOLE
Oh? Was that when he met his master??
Cool, telling Cinder to commit property damage
WYLDFYRE RIP- oh nvm, kai caught her
Did I already mention that I love the Climber Mech?
VISIOOON TIMEEE you poor, poor baby, lloyd-
OH THAT'S ARINS CAR BUGGY THING, WHATEVER IT'S CALLED
Coooole, what did you doo? WHY IS THE MUSHROOM SHAKING?!
Okay, trapped exists. Alright..
She doesn't appear to be the smartest wizard
OH, NOW RIYU CAN FLY? BUT NOT WHEN THEY FELL EARLIER?! Alriiight..
YASS FIGHT SCENE !!
"Don't tell Lloyd" god, she's still as motivated for training as she was in s1, huh? Lmfaooo
OOO JORDANA IS EVIL BUT STILL USES A SEATBELT. VERY RESPONSIBLE OF HER
HAH! GET SMACKED INTO THE WALL
"Why are you in that box?" → "What's your elemental power? The power to not understand sarcasm?" I LOVE YOU BONZLE
OMG RIYU ON THE ROOF OF THE CAR
AND ARIN BEING A HORRIBLE DRIVER AHAHHA
They look silly in those outfits ahah but something looks off about Kai's hair,,
... I would really not trust that wizard lady. Those are some weird objects and she's just tHROWING THEM ON ZANE AND COLE WITHOUT A CARE IN THE WORLD-
omg he just turned into a cute little pupp- "At least you're adorable" → "I'm always adorable" ily cole you're my fav for a reason, i can't disagree
Ah, Kai's hair is sHORTER NOW! THAT'S WHY IT'S LOOKING SO OFF
EUPHRASIAAA HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN A BIT
EHEHEH CINDER AND JORDANA BICKERING
OOOOOOHH HE'S PLAYING INTO ARIN'S DOUBTS, THAT'S NOT COOL!!
Smth tells me that weren't actually his parents but maybe Nya and Lloyd-
(Ep. 10 ↓)
AHAHHA I WAS RIIGHT- IT'S LLOYD AND NYA-
Cinder looks so smug
Oh no, this isn't gonna go well.
Cole. Cole, you're the EARTH NINJA. JUST USE YOUR EARTH POWERS MAYBE TO ADD MORE LAND TO THE CLOUD KINGDOM OR SOMETHING???
EHEHEHEHEH WYLDFYRE PUT HIS HAIR ON FIRE
HAH! HERE'S YOUR PAYBACK, CINDER!! GET TRAPPED, IDIOT!
O- rip bonzle :(
NOO, KAI
YAAAY, NYA, LLOYD AND ARIN AND RIYU ARRIVED JUST IN TIME
Hehe how they're playing with Cinder for the mask
YAAAA KAI AND THE RISING DRAGON STRIKE !!!!
NoOOOO, KAIII-
Ew, I don't like the way you look for some reason
Euphrasia, I don't think you can do much with your power- wait what, was that her or Zane and Cole?
OOO MORE SIBLING FLASHBACKS AND NYA CAN DO THE RISING DRAGON STRIKE-
Vision of the fire source dragon symbol? And Lloyd's sword being broken?
NONONONO, WE'RE NOT GONNAA SEAL KAI IN THERE UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES !!!!
SORA HELPING ARIN AWW-
NooOOOO KAI- IS- IS HE LOST NOW?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wait, what? Where's the dojo now?? Oo, Jordana in the background- oh no- What happened to her????
OHHH THE TOURNAMENT WAS MENTIONED
LLOYD AND COLE HUG WAAAAAAAAHHH I'M CRYINGGGG
NOOO KAII IS GOOONE FOR REAL???!
No, it's not me with tears in my eyes, it's you !!
KAAAAAIIII- HIS SHOULDER PADS MOVE
OoOOO KAI AND BONZLE BONDING NOW?
... No, I'm definitely having teary eyes now. HE'S JUST STUCK THERE NOW. AT LEAST NOT ALONE BUT THE OTHER 4 OF THE FORBIDDEN 5 ARE THERE TOO, RIGHT?
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PART 5!!! WAS!!!! EVERYTHING!!!!!
Reader really was going through it in the beginning, poor girlie 😭😭ALSO I'm starting the "A New Love For Myrtle 1944" petition. Sing to make this woman happy again. We didn't spend much time with her, but hers is a sad story in need of a happy ending. Every signature counts.
I love that she's knitting now and I love that she's sending it all to Bucky ❤️❤️ You just know that those are his most prized possessions ❤️
And eeeew, where was my Miller trigger warning?? 😭 She's so mean 😭 Like, I get she's a product of her time and I'm judging her with a modern mindset, but YEAH I'M JUDGING HER!! People are dying! Let them be happy! Chase your own bliss, girl! Leave them youngsters alone!
OMG, Bucky's POV is all I ever wanted. Loved being inside that man's head. He is a mess lmfao. But I can only imagine what he was like the first few days since he can't remember himself. Buck was blessed with an endless amount of patience because we all know Bucky talked about that 1-minute at most phone call the entire time.
AND HIS REACTION TO GETTING THAT FIRST LETTER AND THE PARCEL WAS SO CUTE, LIKE MY HEART!!!
Their letters? 10/10. Soooo perfect, it felt like I was prying into other people's private conversations. And I love the little details she adds just for him, like the Yankees winning the whatever it's called (sorry, baseball confuses me severely).
And honestly, the TEASING the boys must be putting Bucky through between letters 😂😂 And he's on cloud nine, he doesn't even care. And I bet Buck is thrilled for him too ❤️ I love them besties, your honor.
AND YAY TO BABY EGAN ON BOARD!!! Coming soon to a hospital far, far, far away from Bucky 😔✊
Despite the little joke I sent in another ask, I get her reasoning for not telling him, but man's not stupid. He's gonna figure out pretty fast he's about to become a father if he hasn't already. What's left for us to find out is if he's going to write to her, saying like "the jig is up. Can we name them after my plane? Not the one that went down, that wasn't even mine" or if he's going to wait for her to bring it up.
At any rate, pretty sure he'll miss the birth since, as he said in the last episode, he's been in the stalag for like eight months already. Hopefully he will learn how to astral project by then 🙏🏻
History question to wrap this up: could POWs send things out of the camp to the people they were corresponding with? Can't imagine they'd want to part with anything, but I wouldn't put it past him to send her something for the baby as a way of saying "I know" instead of having any of them writing about it.
Beatriz you have blessed my inbox yet again
Firstly - I adore how you connected with Myrtle. She’s a complicated, wounded woman who thought she did what was right. I don’t think she anticipated the reader’s poor reaction to it all, honestly…but there’s no shortage of eligible men if she can allow her heart to take another chance.
The knitting! Yes! Inspired by the weird little hat that Bucky was wearing at the start of episode 7, I was thinking it would be a lovely connection and per Red Cross rules very much allowed! You bet he takes very good care of his winter accessories.
But Captain Miller - a woman with very different priorities from the reader and very rigid morals. Interfering and scheming, she is always looking for the next promotion so it is utterly bewildering to her that the reader resented one and then proceeded to ruin her well-laid plans. Good riddance to her.
I honestly hemmed and hawed about including a Bucky POV here but it was demanded by my brain and therefore we got several into his rapidly fracturing psyche. Bless Buck and his patience for the delirious ramblings of head wound Bucky 😬
Beneath any teasing from the boys, there is surely a lot of jealousy - the reader’s letters come faster, and she seems to send more? And the knitting…But they’re also glad because it’s dulling the edges of Bucky’s caged-animal behaviour…or it was 🤦‍♀️
Baby Egan 🥹
Baby Egan to be born stateside and definitely not named after Bucky’s planes because they were - Just A Snappin’, Mugwump, and Mlle Zig Zig. Don’t seem to roll off the tongue 🤣🤣🤣
His reaction is going to be very interesting, wish me luck as I do my very best to bring this all to a close in just one more part 😬😬😬
History answer - as far as I can tell POWs we’re only entitled to send letters, but I will do more digging!!
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softly
mitsuri x reader
wc: 2.1k
warnings: slightly suggestive in one part, i think there’s a curse word? but i forgor
a/n: recently i’ve been having a mitsuri obsession, i got her sword and decided to do a cosplay, but then it didnt fit so i had to return it and im yet to buy a different one 0_0. i also made a shit ton of stickers of her and those pink manga pictures of her. so heres a little lesbian moment bc i love her. /hj
also: this is inspired by the song softly by clairo bc i think the song fits mitsuri rlly well but this one shot turned out rlly bad so i think i’m gonna rewrite it later kahwhwvheaikwhwi. anyways i hope you enjoy ig?? lmfao
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the hashira meeting went well, oyataka-sama was pleased at the accomplishments of the all the pillars, and the growing ranks of the demon slayers.
the weather was lovely with silver clouds blanketing the sky, only allowing a few rays of sunlight to slip through them. the morning air was crisp and the temperature was cool.
you had only joined the hashira recently. being new to the group, you didn’t know any of them.
you still had feelings of inferiority, kindled from your past, thinking that you may have been the wrong choice to fill a hashira spot. so the fact that some of them scared you was not helping.
you were always shy around new people, but you would always find a way to make friends with them. but these people were different. you thought that maybe you’d never be able to make friends with them.
But there was one who didn’t scare you. In fact, she made you feel welcomed, and whenever you were with her, those feelings of inferiority and fear vanished and were replaced with warm and fuzzy ones.
her name is mitsuri kanroji.
being around her was filled with a feeling of pure bliss. she made you smile and laugh and just feel happy. a feeling you haven’t had in a long time.
you often got paired for missions together since your breathing styles complemented one another and you worked very well together. also because oyataka-sama noticed your growing fondness for her. and hers for you.
it’s funny because oyataka-sama noticed that you were in love before you even did. and that was part of the reason he so often paired you both on missions together.
however, you soon began to realize it yourself.
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you were about to leave for another mission with mitsuri when you heard a knock on the front door or your estate.
“one sec!” you called out to whoever was knocking.
buttoning the last button of your jacket and slipping your haori over your shoulders on your way to the door. you opened it to the pleasant surprise of a certain pink sakura haired girl.
“hi y/n!!” she said with much enthusiasm.
smiling, you replied, “hi kanroji! would you like to come in? i still need to do one last thing then we can leave,”
“yes please!”
she was already dressed in her corps uniform. the female uniform for the demon slayers was quite slutty and revealing, but cute nonetheless. you always thought it looked better on her than you, which you had told her many times. but she insisted your breasts were perfect and looked great in it. but seriously who the hell designed them?
you grabbed your katana and offered her tea since you technically didn’t have to leave for another half hour.
“why did you come so early, kanroji?” you asked.
“oh, um well,… i guess i just wanted to spend as much time as possible with you.” she replied sheepishly.
you giggled, “alright. well you’re going to have to put up with my company for the next few days.”
“don’t make it sound like a burden! it’s such a treat to be with you!” she huffed with a cute little pout.
“aww, thank you knaroji, well i’m glad you feel that way.”
the time flew by as you chatted for a bit and it was nearing the time you were supposed to set out for the travel to your destination.
the mission was to locate and eliminate one lower rank kizuki who was terrorizing a small village along with another strong demon.
the two of you traveled for about two days before reaching the village.
as you walked along the main road you noticed that bloodstains on the dirt path, broken tatami mats and shredded screen doors littered the town. the atmosphere was grim.
“whoa,… these demons have really done some damage,” you said.
“yeah they really have,” mitsuri whispered.
it was still midday so you both decided to inquire about the demons and gather more information on them from the villagers so you could be better prepared for your fight.
after piecing together some facts from what the locals had said you came to the conclusion that the lower kizuki was mainly giving orders to the lesser demon, but occasionally stepping in to finish the job.
the sun had just set and you and mitsuri were waiting for the lesser demon to arrive.
“um, y/n, what if they both show up?” mitsuri said with a hint of worry in her words.
after being on several missions with mitsuri you understood that before almost every fight she gets nervous, as if she were doubting her abilities, just like you.
“well, the original plan was to take both of them at the same time, so i guess we would just go with that,” you said trying to sound comforting.
“okay..”
after a while of waiting, you heard footsteps exiting the woods from west of the villiage. from where you were sitting towards the south end of town.
but there were more footsteps. both of the demons were here.
mitsuri noticed them too “y/n!” she let out one of her little gasps.
you cupped your hand over her mouth to quiet her. “shh, i know,” having your hand on her soft lips sent butterflies to your stomach. you didn’t know why but it did.
you didn’t see it because your gaze was focused on the place where the sound of footsteps was strongest, but a shade of pink spread across mitsuri’s cheeks at the feeling of your light touch.
“what should we do?!” she whispered loudly after you removed your hand.
“i’ll take the kizuki, you can get the other. is that okay with you?” you said looking into her eyes. her pretty, pretty eyes.
“mhm” she gulped and nodded
you were about to run over to it when she grabbed your arm.
“um y/n…” she said gazing upon the dirt, unable to look you in the eyes because of the shade of pink dusting her cheeks growing deeper. “be careful”
your eyes widened then softened as a small smile appeared on your face, “of course”
then you sped off towards the demons with mitsuri following close behind.
once you reached the demons, you examined each of their eyes spotting a ‘lower 4’ on one of the demons eyes.
you jumped, flipping in midair to bring your heel pummeling down, right onto the demon’s nose.
“kanroji, take the other one!” you shouted over the sound of clashing katanas and fists.
“got it!”
a few minutes later mitsuri had finished off her demon and was headed over to you when she heard a yelp and a crash that followed immediately after.
you had been punched with such force that the blow sent you flying and you slammed into the wall of a nearby house. you tried to get up only for your muscles to give out and you crumpled to the ground again.
laying on your side on the dirt you heard a whoosh from above. a blur of pink, green, and white flashed before you.
“eek! you’re scary!” mitsuri yelped as she finished off the suprised demon, slicing his head clean off with her flexible katana.
she calmed herself a little before looking over to see you now say up against the same wall you were smashed into.
“aaaaaaaaaa y/n are you okay?! i told you to be careful!” she started sobbing as she ran over to your form.
she got to you, sat down, and started violently shaking you. “y/n! y/n! y/nnnnn! waaaaahhhhhh” she wailed and she continued shaking you to try and wake you up.
unknown to her, you were very much conscious, you just had your eyes closed and didn’t have the energy to respond. you felt bad to leave her there crying and worried but you couldn’t really do anything else.
she was so worried and concerned. and when you didn’t respond she hugged you close to where your head was pressed up into her cleavage and you blushed.
she leaned down to press a kiss to your forehead which caused your heart to flutter and your eyes to open.
your head suddenly stopped spinning and you felt fine. you were just tired and still ached from being thrown against the wall.
you looked up at her to say “hey hey i’m okay! really i’m fine!”
“oh! y/n you’re awake! um are you sure you’re okay?” mitsuri asked.
“yes, i’m fine, thank you.”
“okay but we should still go to the butterfly estate just to make sure.”
“of course.” you said to reassure her, “oh, mitsuri, one of your braids fell out. can i re-do it?”
“yes, please!” she exclaimed happily.
she always loved when you braided her hair, which you did often since her braids would come undone a lot. occasionally the reason for them coming loose was the way you purposely tied them wrong so they would fall out and you could braid them again. and sometimes it was because she intentionally let them loose.
she sat in front of you next to the wall you had been punched into.
your fingered sifted through the soft strands of her sakura and lime colored hair as you thought about your feelings.
being a demon slayer meant that there may not be a tomorrow. you could die at any time. after tonight’s events you thought it might just be better to tell her than to continue to keep it a secret.
“is it alright, to feel this way so early?” you started, whispering.
“hmm?” mitsuri questioned, the feeling of you braiding her hair sending her into pure heaven.
“all the sweet nothings, falling in love overnight.” you continued, your voice still soft.
“y/n?” mitsuri asked, confused.
“didn’t mean to get so close, and i know that i should probably go,”
you dropped the braid you were working on, jumped up and walked over to sit in front of her.
you reached your hand out to place it on her cheek “but i got this feeling, tell me girl i gotta know,”
mitsuri face was more pink than her hair now, “i… um… know what?…”
now it was your turn to be sheepish, you couldn’t believe you had gathered the courage to pull a stunt like that. and now you’re stuck because all that confidence is gone. but you knew you had to continue.
“t-touch you softly i…” you said, then you gave up.
you were never one who was good with words, so you decided to convey what you were going to say through actions.
you leaned forward until your breath was intertwining with mitsuri’s, centimeters apart, you closed the gap. planting your soft lips onto her plush ones. gently enough to not be aggressive, but passionate enough to express your emotions.
you were trying to say ‘i love you. do you love me too?’ through the kiss
you got your answer when mitsuri’s bright eyes fluttered shut and this time, she leaned into you asking for a kiss which you gladly gave her. this kiss replied with ‘yes, i do love you.’
when you pulled away, you both were smiling like idiots and giggling and had only just fallen deeper in love with one another.
still giggling, she jumped onto you to hug you out of pure joy.
“ow ow, mitsuri that hurts,” you said as you chuckled, not really focusing much on the pain really, but her instead.
“oh no! i’m so sorry!!” she said and was about to get up when you pulled her back down to hug her once more to stay there for a little while.
after gathering your supplies you began your journey back to headquarters and your estates.
“wow, i’m really going to need a shower when we get back.” you said noticing the dirt all over you while walking.
“oh my gosh, me too.” mitsuri agreed.
“hmmm, maybe we should just take one together. you know, to save water and everything,” you said teasingly, but with a hint of truth in your tone.
mitsuri stopped in her tracks and blushed furiously at the thought of you with no clothes on. and the thought of both of you naked together.
“only if you want of course,” you added, continuing walking.
she snapped out of it and yelled “wait up!!” while you both giggled as you walked home together in the dim light of the sunrise.
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agagagga this is so rushed i’m sorry. it’s cringe and basic af. i think i’m gonna rewrite it but i wanted to at least post something for now. arrrr sorry again for the ass writing rn. hope you guys enjoyed at least a little bit. <3
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no place like home | hq boys with their kids! 
characters: schweiden adlers boys with their kids - kageyama, ushijima, hoshiumi! 
wc: 1.2k words, pure fluff!
summary: part two of home sweet home where we now take a look at how the three men from schweiden adlers spend time with their little ones.  
a/n: a second part that no one asked but i wanted to do cos i’ve been feeling soft and having baby fever again lmfao hehe oh and i hope everyone’s enjoying a happy holidays! 
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KAGEYAMA TOBIO Unlike most parents, Kageyama's job as a professional volleyball player didn't allow him the luxury of doing what most moms and dads do with their kids. It's not as if he's neglected his parental responsibilities, he's the type to spoil his four-year-old Kaito with gifts and toys, he was just unfortunate to not have enough time to spend with him.
But on a particular day off, the stars seemed to have aligned when you asked him to pick up Kaito from daycare. Kageyama looked forward to this opportunity and he had planned an afternoon for a long overdue father-and-son bonding. However, due to his celebrity athlete status, Kageyama was mindful of being swarmed by fans so he took it to mind to wear his best disguise (see: black cap, black shades, white shirt and jeans, finished with a denim jacket).
As soon as he's parked across the daycare center, Kageyama immediately earned the attention of the moms who were also waiting for their children. It didn't help that when he stepped out of the car, they all swooned over him and recognized that he was the star setter from Schweiden Adlers. And when the bell rang and footsteps came running from the building, all the kids also stood in awe as they noticed the familiar tall person who they looked up to and only watched in the TVs. But to Kageyama, the one attention that only mattered was that of his son's.
"Kaito, over here!" He waved over the little boy, and seeing his father's presence in the crowd, Kaito sped off to where Kageyama was. He welcomed the young boy with open arms, peppering his cute face with kisses and lifting him up from the ground. The audience that have gathered were starstruck to see the usual stoic player break his facade and become a doting father to his adorable mini-me.
"You made it, Papa! I thought Mama was joking when she said you will fetch me after school," the child said through his fits of giggles.
Kageyama pressed his forehead to his son's and whispered, "I never break my promises." He put Kaito down and held his hand as they began walking to their car, saying goodbye to his classmates. "Now, let's go get some ice cream!"
USHIJIMA WAKATOSHI   It was the first summer festival that you wouldn't be attending  with your family, and your five-year-old daughter, Isuzu, was extremely heartbroken. What she didn't know was that you've made Ushijima promise that he would still bring her to the festival and catch the fireworks show.
So there they were standing at the entrance to the festival, your husband and daughter are clad in matching yukatas that you prepared. Ushijima was wearing a midnight blue yukata that was adorned with white stripes and strapped to his waist with a white sash. Meanwhile, your little girl was donning a pink yukata with blooming flower patterns. For her finishing touch, Ushijima tied her hair up in a bun and used a beautiful kanzashi that he gifted to you to tie it up. Before they left home, he sent you a photo and bragged about his hair tying skills.
The father-and-daughter duo leisurely strolled around the venue, checking out booths and trying different food stalls. The people around them gushed over how Ushijima was wrapped around his daughter's fingers, complying to her requests and winning her stuffed toys from games. And when the announcement about the fireworks show blared through the speakers, they joined the crowd to the viewing area.
Ushijma noticed how Isuzu was jittery from the spectators that have gathered in the viewing deck. He bent down and wiped the tears that were forming on her eyes, "Princess, don't cry. I'm here." Isuzu only clung tighter to her father, and it was then that he decided to offer his back to her.
"Come, wrap your arms around me and hop on. I'll lift you closer to the skies." The young girl stopped her crying and smiled a little, moving to his back and encircling her arms around her father's strong shoulders. Ushijima helped her adjust and secured her on his shoulders, making Isuzu gasp as she was now safe and towering over the crowd.
Her eyes flitted above as she heard the sounds of fireworks and enjoyed the colorful sparks that were painting the evening skies. Ushijima reveled in how his daughter was looking at the clouds in awe, clapping and laughing along with each bright explosion. But what he would treasure the most was how his precious Isuzu was glowing under the fireworks light.
HOSHIUMI KORAI The Hoshiumi household was a lively and loud one. Chaos often ensued with the twins, Mako and Kohei, and the youngest girl Nanami, as they were currently at that age where they always seemed to be full of energy and liked to run around the house. And Korai was the type of dad who would join in on the fun and play with his beloved children.
Moments of peace and quiet would be found at night when the kids are tucked in bed and getting ready to drift off to dreamland. However, they wouldn't be able to have a proper good night sleep without their father reading them a bedtime story.
It was another night when you returned home late and opened the door to dark, silent house. A sliver of light can be seen coming from the kids' door upstairs and you assume that it was bedtime for them. You tiptoed carefully and was nearing their room when you heard the gentle voice of Hoshiumi reading a passage from The Little Red Riding Hood. You leaned on the door and watched your boys and little girl enjoying a classic tale.
When Hoshiumi finished reading, he turned to the kids and saw the twins passed out and snoring. But his princess seemed to be wide awake, and terrified at the thought of the wolf eating Little Red Riding Hood. "Papa, will a wolf come and eat you and Mama?" She asked with her trembling voice.
You and Hoshiumi chuckled at her question, but your husband put the book down and scooted closer to Nanami. He hugged her, patting her head so slowly as he assured, "If you become a good girl and listen to Mama and Papa's warnings, then no wolf will come to eat us." He kissed the top of her head, "Now, go sleep. I'll be here, I'll never leave your side."
The little girl seemed to relax in his hold and Hoshiumi turned towards you at the door. He sent you a sweet smile, "I'm sorry, love. You'll have to sleep alone in bed tonight." You shaked your head but sent him a flying kiss as you closed the door to the kids' room, smiling at the thought that Hoshiumi always seemed to be the perfect father to your kids.
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heathneycanon · 4 years
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reasons why phobia factor fucking slaps
ok this lowkey just turned into me rambling abt phobia factor while i rewatched it. putting it under a read more bc it’s super long lmao
like, the entire first five minutes are the campers being friendly to each other?? and vulnerable, to a degree??? you know i love that shit
courtney and trent?? talk to each other?? like. okay they’re never in the same frame together unfortunately, but they do have like, two whole back and forth conversations.
also in that campfire scene at the beginning, cody and trent are sitting next to each other and there are some. good screencaps
“exSQUEEZE me?!” like cody. ur such a dork omfg
duncan vulnerability hours
lindsay asks what a standee is and trent explains it and doesn’t mock her/isn’t annoyed with her at all, in contrast to a lot of the other campers interacting with lindsay. i love them as friends SO much u all have no idea
harold’s little scene with the ninjas. i love him sm. why does he have nunchucks with him when he goes to the bathroom??
leshawna is afraid of spiders and she runs away screaming from. chef wearing a spider suit??? like i don’t love spiders but if a man i knew wearing a spider costume was calmly walking toward me i wouldn’t react the same way as i would to a real spider. anyway i think this is hilarious.
season one heather vulnerability hours.....
i mean, i really wish they’d actually shown her talking abt her fear at the campfire, rather than just having it told by gwen in the confessional, but i get why they did that. regardless that one scene right before the sumo wrestler charges at her where she’s literally shaking.... i want to give her a hug
side note i hope the sumo wrestler is okay he hit his head quite a few times
ok so. trent accidentally leaving gwen buried underground because he’s getting chased by a mime isn’t like. a sweet gwent moment. but it is one of their interactions that i remember most vividly from tdi lmfao
what is a cute gwent moment is trent like. kneeling next to her while chris is burying her. and the face he makes at chris when he jokes abt not digging her up..... i love them sm
also gwen sounds so fucking dramatic when they close the box she’s in like. “goodbye cruel world” gwen ur being buried for 5 minutes ur not dying sdfjlafskj i love her
duncan hyping dj up before he picks up the snake is so cute?? like he’s clapping for him and he’s got what i call “adorable duncan face” which is where his eyes are full circles and he’s smiling. i can remember him making this face at courtney, dj, and alejandro throughout the series and it’s just. ugh loving soft duncan hours
“ah! it blinked” “it means she likes you” sadie where are u getting this information
okay so i googled if this was true and the result i got was “snakes can’t blink” so first of all i have no clue where sadie pulled that fact from and i have even less of an idea of where chris got that fucking. blinking snake from. is that even a snake??
when dj picks up the snake and they all hype him up?????? i love the killer bass so much it’s unreal
more cute gwent moments... gwen and trent talking on the walkie talkies.. they’re so cute
when the mime pops up behind trent and he does that little scream.... it’s loving trent hours u guys
trent is so bothered by a mime literally just. being a mime. me too trent. me too.
duncan and the celine dion music store standee.... everything abt that scene
"DUDE SHE’S MADE OF CARDBOARD” tyler i love you
courtney genuinely saying that it’s okay if he can’t do it (when she was being harsh to dj about the snake earlier..... duncney is so good in tdi u guys)
and then theY HOLD HANDS GUYSSSS IM SOFT FOR THEM
and THAT is what gives duncan the encouragement he needs to go for it?? they’re so good.
his “okay, okay” right before going for it... duncan’s voice acting is so good in this episode omfg
THE MUSIC THAT PLAYS WHEN HE HUGS THE STANDEE AND THEN EVERYONE CHEERING ITS SUCH A GOOD SCENE
THE DUNCNEY HUG
“duncan, you’re awesome!” and the look of shock on his face at both the fact that he did it and that courtney’s hugging him...... have i mentioned i love duncney yet?? bc i do
i can’t believe i used to dislike duncney omfg
then when courtney realizes that she’s hugging him and steps back jafksdfjlsa she’s so cute
and then the rest of the bass come over and hype duncan up more like. i love how supportive they all are in this episode!!
trent is so excited when he finally gets the mime to leave him alone fakjldjfl like he didn’t have to ROAST the dude. but he did.
chris somehow owns a remote control hail cloud?
lindsay getting excited about the “baby cloud” and calling it over?? she’s so cute omfg
trent fucking. hates geoff. gwent has geoffphobia in tdi ig
when they dig up gwen and she throws the walkie talkie at his head but he doesn’t stop smiling..... your honor i love them
owen and izzy getting out of the plane and kissing the ground together..... adorable.
cody with a fucking. watermelon on his head and covered in trash scares bridgette out of the woods. that will never not be funny to me
THAT ONE FUCKING SCENE. WHERE SADIE AND LINDSAY HYPE EACH OTHER UP. THAT MAY BE ONE OF MY FAVORITE SCENES IN THE ENTIRE SERIES. I LOVE THEM SM
the only bad thing abt this ep- tyler should have gotten the fucking point. he completed the challenge. i love courtney, but realistically, she should have gone home this ep and tyler should have stayed.
bridgette hyping tyler up...... im soft they should be friends
“quit being such a girl” courtney im sorry but the only reason you’re still in the game rn is because ezekiel made sexist comments in episode one. what are u saying lmfao
tyler and heather’s reactions to their fears rly make me think. bc like. most of the other campers have a more outward, loud reaction, maybe scream and run away. a couple are just a little wigged out. gwen gets a little snippy and is clearly super freaked out as well. but tyler and heather just. completely shut down. like, curled up in a ball, nonverbal, and shaking. makes u think.
why did cody need a calculator to figure out that the score was 7/3....... cody is canon lgbt+ bc he can’t do basic math without a calculator confirmed
also regardless of how little sense that made. at least that screencap gave us commie cody
when gwen starts trying to psych courtney out and heather like. gasps and looks shocked..... i like to think that heather feels a little bad for courtney here. heathney real.
duncan and bridgette hyping courtney up..... i love the killer bass so much omfg
courtney looks so sad when she walks away from the jelly.......
and then in the confessional right after?? she’s like. crying a little bit :( and she’s beating herself up abt it like..... :( courtney no
LITERALLY she’s like “how could i be so weak” “i deserve to go home” “you’re pathetic” (to herself) and then tells herself to show some confidence and then. she just starts crying again. and then slaps herself?? GOD I FUCKING LOVE COURTNEY SHE’S SO HARD ON HERSELF
owen just. hangin out in the tub of jelly. i love u, u wild dude. fuckin sit in that green jelly. loving owen hours
the little look that courtney and tyler give each other when they’re the last two without marshmallows..... half solidarity half “i don’t want to be the one going home”. i love them sm :(
i KNOW i said this earlier but. tyler should NOT have gone home this episode!!!!!! only bad thing abt this ep
all the fuckin chicken puns are a little bit funny tho
“he won’t be flying high tonight” bridgette chickens can’t fly
when courtney goes “okay, that’s enough” like. tyler’s not even there at this point but she’s defending him. maybe it’s because she still feels she should have gone home instead? maybe it’s because of that little bit of solidarity she felt for him when they were the final two without a marshmallow? maybe i’m reading too much into this? but idk. i think it’s sweet
okay no i have another complaint. what the fuck was the whole boat ride for tyler?? like when sadie gets eliminated the surprise she gets is that katie is on the boat. when tyler is on the boat, CRYING, after literally none of his teammates came to see him off, after he LITERALLY COMPLETED THE CHALLENGE BUT DIDN’T GET CREDIT FOR IT. the fucking. CHICKENS POP OUT?????? tyler deserved better
also some of the challenges were a lot easier, or at the very least, harder to fail than others this ep. i love it but come on. lindsay and sadie vs like. gwen vs owen and izzy vs dj. there were very different time limits, actual fright level, ability to back out once they were doing the challenge.... not a fair challenge
also uhm. if we’re being technical tyler and heather had the exact same reaction to their fears, so why did heather get a point and tyler didn’t? if the chicken had run at him, would he have won? smh
i do love this episode so much but. i had a couple complaints
okay finally lindsay’s little confessional to tyler where she blows him a kiss.... they’re so adorable lyler rights!!
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miekasa · 3 years
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do share your thoughts on the SnK final chapter and ending if you read it! <3
OKAY!! Here are just some of my thoughts, none of which are uniform lmaooo and are subject to change if I think about it long enough <22 lots of stuff I haven’t completely figured out or reconciled with yet, but here we go 
Eren’s death
I wanted him to die, and one way or another, he was destined to die; so this is kind of the ending I asked for. 
I wanted him to die for a few reasons, most of which revolve around my desire for him to finally rest and not have to shoulder all the burdens that have been put on him for any longer. So, his death definitely did that for me, and I wouldn’t change it. 
BUT it was heartbreaking to see that, for once, he genuinely did not want to die, and wanted to have time to spend with Mikasa after everything. Eren has asked to die multiple times in the past, and his death was inevitable at some point in time; so to see that in his final moments, he finally said/realized he didn’t want to go made it so bittersweet. 
The thing I’m happiest about the most is that he achieved his original goal: to kill all the titans. As a titan himself, he was always a part of that plan, so, again I’m okay with his death. But it’s a twisted, beautiful sort of tragedy that in wanting to kill himself to achieve his dream, he found a sense of personhood that made him think life was worth living [even if his goal wasn’t achieved]. 
Another important reason I believed he needed to/should have died is because I didn’t want him to have to suffer at the hands of any other government or empire again. Even if none of the shit with Marley or the other nations happened, and he found away to “free” everyone without murder, the government of Paradis wouldn’t have trusted him. They never really did. 
Eren has been locked up and/or under constant supervision since he was 15. And when he wasn’t, it’s because he was kidnapped and somebody else was preying on his death. Even when he desperately pleaded to help and showed that he wanted to use his titan to help, he was treated like a criminal, and less than human.
You can’t... you can’t treat a kid like that and expect him to turn out normal 😭😭 or to not want to go to extremes, or to become a pacifist, or to spinelessly hand over his own life and ambitions. (Honestly... think he should have started with murking a few people in Wall Sina, but whatever 🙄)
This is all to say, that if he continued to live, free of the 13 year curse, he wouldn’t have been free in any nation. He probably would have been executed, or at the very least, locked up until he died. So, I’m happy that he was able to die at his own hand (and Mikasa’s, too). 
Eren’s character
I obviously still love his character, and I don’t think his actions in the final season ruined him for way. There’s a lot to come to terms with, but I like that about him. I’ll work through all the details one day, and I’m okay with that. In fact, I don’t think Eren even ever got the chance to figure himself out independent of his titan.
His secret keeping was questionable, but not out of character. He’s always ruminated until he figures something out, or gets stuck and needs help—he’s always had the whole thing about doing everything on his own. 
Until that one conversation with him, Mikasa, and Armin after the fight with Jean in s3. I’d always read that as him beginning to understand that he didn’t have to everything on his own, and that he was going to be relying on his friends from thereon out. But, sometimes, I feel like that realization got erased...? I don’t know, maybe the more I think about it, the more it’ll make sense, but that’s one part I’m still working through. 
The only other thing I didn’t understand is how he got so smart LMAOOO. His plan and actions required quite a bit of thought, foresight, and sacrifice that he’s never really shown before; at least not to this degree. Like I said though, if you factor in how his was treated, and how his life always had an expiration date, it begins to make sense why he was so quick and insistent to act, so it’s not completely out of left field for me—and I could even make the argument that he wasn’t really that smart and was just as impulsive (ish) and hot-headed as he’s always been; but like I said, I’m still figuring it out. Not sure what it was that awakened his braincells but I’ll get there LMAOOO
Eren + Mikasa
Fuck y’all I like Eremika goodnight. I can’t help it, I’m a simple bitch: I see childhood friends to lovers, and I fold. You should too smh.
I... don’t think the little cottagecore timeline from 138 was out of character for either of them. I see the arguments that it was, and that’s cool, but I see it as something very real and plausible. 
Eren showed that he did all of this to ensure that even if he couldn’t bring peace to the whole world, at the very least, he could do his best to make sure his friends live long, happy lives. An alternate way for that would have been to give Mikasa the opportunity to spend his remaining years with him. 
Eren has always done his best Mikasa and Armin, even if his methods seemed harsh or apathetic. The way I see it, running away with Mikasa in his final year is not only becoming and telling of the kind of friend/person his is, but it would have been his way to atone for being an idiot and not acting upon his feelings [in a more traditional sense] earlier.
He knew either way it was too late, but he also knew that he owed her—and himself—even a piece of peace before it all ended, whichever way it was going to end. And I think that’s a part of Eren’s character that’s often overlooked. 
Mikasa’s ending
I think that Eren ultimately killed himself, but it’s undeniable that Mikasa helped, and I’m glad she did. If Eren was going to die by anybody’s hands, I wanted it to be Mikasa’s or Levi’s. 
I think Levi would have been symbolic, given his speech in the courtroom in s1, about how killing Eren is the best he could do, and that there was no in-between. But I’m happy with Mikasa doing it too, because, in a way, I think she ended up being able to do the one thing Levi didn’t have the physical strength left to do. I also like it as far as Mikasa’s relationship with Levi goes; she kind of becomes him in this complicated way, and it shows how far they’ve come in terms of trust. They’re a pretty good team. 
I don’t see why anyone would give her shit for sitting at Eren’s gravestone. It had been only three years since he died, and regardless of the amount of time that had passed, if it was the anniversary of his death, that’s a perfectly normal thing to do...? So many people hate her for being in love Eren and I don’t get it. She’s just mourning, and she’s well within her rights to do so. 
Actually, I think that Mikasa being shown to have loved and mourned for Eren so outwardly were the most profound displays of bravery in this whole series. 
It takes so much courage to love, especially in her world, but Mikasa has never shied away from it. I would even go so far as to argue that she is the character with the strongest sense of self and self-worth. I don’t think people realize how much it takes to know anything about yourself that assuredly—so many characters are left with unanswered questions about their world, themselves, and their place in it—but Mikasa has always known that she loves Eren. 
That’s an insanely hard thing to know and to do. And she wasn’t blind about it either, nor did she believe her love was unconditional (and if she gets shit for having hope for Eren, then so should Armin, but we know why he doesn’t get the same heat for it). She heard out the concerns of her friends, she let go of the scarf, and she killed him in the end. 
I would have liked to see her talk to Kiyoomi again, and perhaps see her being associated with that nation/country/whatever it was. But she’s still thee baddest bitch and the best girl. 
Levi
WE IN THIS BITCH!! WE ABSOLUTELY IN THIS BITCH!! 
ROUND OF APPLAUSE LADIES AND GAYS AND THEYS FOR THE MAN, THE MYTH, THE LEGEND HIMSELF!! 
If he died, I would have rioted. On god. 
This is the EXACT ending I wanted for him. I’m so happy that he gets time to rest knowing that none of his decision were in vain; and that he shouldn’t regret anything he did.
l know the wheelchair was literal in the sense that he was injured, but I also think it’s metaphorical in that he no longer has to standing on his own two feet, and carry everyone on his back. For once, for fucking once, he can literally sit back and read a fucking book in peace. 
Also Gabi and Falco taking care of him is so fucking cute, I loved that so, so, so much. 
Others
I don’t think Hange needed to die, goodbye. I get why they did, and I’m glad they went out in a way they wanted do, but that doesn’t mean I’m happy about it BYE. 
Pieck is far too sexy for her titan to have been that ghastly. Porco, too. Speaking of Porcupine, I fucking love him. I didn’t think I would like him this much, but I do, and now I miss him. 
When did Connie get so s*xy
I stand by the belief that this wouldn’t have happened with Erwin around—and for the worse. Yes, I think Hange waited longer than they should have to act; but I understand they were overwhelmed, and had a lot of responsibility, and regret, clouding over them. 
That being said, I think Erwin would have been 10x worse LMFAO with all his secret keeping and mystery. With all the shit going on, all the information being revealed to Paradis, and with Eren’s own secret keeping, I don’t think Erwin’s character and way of planning would have been conducive the new environment. RIP tho Erwin, you a legend for the shit you did, big ups on that my guy. 
I... guys, I like Reiner. Like, a lot. What goes on. 
I still hate H*storia and I think she caused a lot of problems that could have been resolved relatively quickly if she left 😐😐  yeah, yeah, girl power or whatever, but I don’t like it. I don’t like her. Bye. 
I have more thoughts on Marley and the other nations, but that’s a whole separate rant that I will spare you from for now 
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hello! could you possibly do a scenario where tsukki has a secret passion for dancing, n one of his favs genres to listen to is like 80's music ?? i prefer it to be like raining n dark, just you two. i want tsukki n the girl to be like rly good friends, but tuskki lowkey likes her jus a bit n the girl is like totes in love with him, but they dont rly know about each other, until they like kiss after the songs stops. wkhsjdbf idk if this is too much but i love your writing sm!! thank you. 🥺❤
Okay that’s super cute so don’t worry lool
80s and indie music are SUPERIOR NO ONE TELL ME OTHERWISE.
I was looking through my playlist bc I have 80s songs but then I realised IT’S ALL ROCK LMFAO SO I HAD TO STEAL SONGS FROM MY FRIENDS JAHAHAH
Like I can’t make them dance to ACDC or like Guns n’ Roses wtf are they gonna do air guitars?
But then I realised I literally have a song called we can get together sooo👀👀👀👀
And I genuinely love it so much SOOOO👀👀
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Earphones// Tsukishima Kei x Reader
Word count: 2000+
Warnings: None lol I’m not even gonna warn for swearing anymore if it’s just swearing then none
Summary: You randomly discover Tsukishima’s knack for dancing.
You always saw him as a calm, or sly person. He was witty, mean, sarcastic, an asshole in every way possible. He was that one person that would call everyone out for looking stupid while dancing at a party, or the one that would remind couples on Valentine's day that it was to celebrate the death of a tortured and beheaded saint. He was pretty much the most no-bullshit person you’ve ever met. It was as if he simply didn’t understand the meaning of enjoyment, and thrived to seek out every opportunity to ruin it for others as well. He rarely went to social events, never showed up at parties, and you don’t think you’ve ever seen him smile genuinely. Ever. 
Yet tonight, you witnessed something you never thought would happen.
You see, every night, you would take a good old stroll around your neighbourhood. Tonight was no different, except it was pouring, the constant pitter patter of your umbrella clouding out any other sound that was coherent. Sometimes you might run into street vendors, other times you would get a bowl of ramen to fulfil your midnight hunger.
Walking along the street to your favourite convenience store, instead of an eerily empty park, what you saw was Tsukishima Kei, the one person you were somehow close to, sitting in a park, with no headphones on. What a shocker.
Ever since you gave him those iconic white headphones, he has never gone anywhere without them. It was as if those headphones were a staple of your friendship, or more so, how much he meant to you. Just saying, those things were expensive. Like eighteen thousand yen expensive. You knew how much Tsukishima enjoyed listening to music, especially whilst doing work. You saved up for months, just to scrape together enough money to get him a brand new pair of headphones to replace his broken ones that only worked in one ear and had shitty quality. You would never admit it, but something in your heart clenched at the sight of the absence of those headphones you spent so much on. Many might have thought you were just sensitive, but they didn’t understand. In fact, no one would understand how insanely in love you were with him. 
“Hey, beanstalk.”
The blond looked up from his phone, his legs crossed on the bench.
“Well, would you look who’s here. It’s the infamous shorty.”
You approached his hunched-over figure, taking a seat next to him on the bench. “So, why are you here? It’s pretty late already.” Shoving your earphones into your ear, you hastily scrolled through your playlist, trying to hold off the urge to ask where his headphones were. “Lost my umbrella while going home from practise, it’s raining cats and dogs, I’m not looking to get soaked while going home, so I’m waiting for the rain to stop. Thank God I brought an extra sweater, my uniform is all wet and gross.” Chuckling, you punched him playfully, muttering a quick “Idiot,” before picking a song. You were very low-key about your feelings towards him. God knows how he would react if you ever told him. He would probably ignore you for the rest of your high school lives. Even worse, he might make fun of you for being childish and emotional. Just the thought of it sent shivers up your spine and a dark feeling towards your chest. Shaking your head, you tried your best to drown yourself in the terrifyingly loud music that was blasting through your earphones. From next to you, Tsukishima could hear every single note that was playing from the internal speakers. He scooted closer to you, much to your embarrassment. You grabbed your phone, pretending to scroll through it when in reality, you were just trying to hide the burning blush that was now painted on your cheeks. He paid attention to every little sound that came out of those tiny little earbuds, as if trying to figure out what song you were listening to was a fun game. Noticing the sudden absence of music in your left ear, you heard a tiny, almost breathy chuckle, followed by a pull on the earphone jack. “Pulp, hm? Nice taste you got there.” your eyes widened in surprise, mouth curling up into a wide smile. “Ahhh, never thought the great Tsukishima Kei would know them.” The blond smirked, shoving the rubber tip into his ear. “What do you mean? I have a playlist dedicated to this kind of stuff. 80s music will forever be superior.” You rolled your eyes, not falling for his shit. “Nonono, no way. Hand it over, I need to see for myself. I’m convinced you’re listening to raptor mating calls on a daily basis.” The blond shrugged, dropping his phone onto your lap. “See for yourself.” Opening up his Spotify, you were bombarded with a huge selection of his playlists. “Right there shorty, that’s the one you’re looking for?” Pointing his nimble finger at a specific one that was labeled “Old Stuff,” you scrolled through every single song, not believing what you’re seeing. “Holy shit, and I thought you would be into indie or EDM or something like that. This is some new information that I have to process.” Snatching his phone back, he wiped the screen with his sweater, turning it off. “That’s enough snooping for today. Come back at snooping hours again.”
It was at that moment, did the song decide to change. 
“Yeah, no. We’re skipping this shit.” You acted sad, fake pouting and huffing out. “But Tsukishima! All Star is God’s work, you can’t just skip it! Here, I’ll sing it for you!” The blond tried to look at you in disgust, but the smile he was holding back was clear as day, biting his lip as he tried not to laugh at your silly antics. “Oh God (Y/N) please no-” 
Too late.
“SomeBODY ONCE TOLD ME THE WORRRLD WAS GONNA ROLL ME, I AIN’T THE SHARPEST TOOL IN THE SHEDDDD.”
“Absolutely not.” Laughing softly, Tsukishima managed to heave out.
Grabbing your phone and shoving it in front of your face, he unlocked it with ease, navigating his way through the five pages of otome games to find your Spotify. “Jesus Christ, never knew you were this desperate for a man.” The tips of his ears were red, one thought circling his mind. 
If she really wanted a boyfriend, would she pick him? 
Grabbing his arm, you begged for him to let you continue jamming to All Star. You were shaking him, trying to grab your phone, but nothing worked. “Nooo! Kei! Nooooo lemme listen to the Shrek sex anthem!” 
“No.” 
Scrolling through your usual playlist, his eyes landed on one particular song. “Hm? What’s this? You listen to Icehouse? Nice taste you got there.” Your grip on his arm loosened up as you looked up at him in shock. “You know them too! Yes! They’re very much adequate.” You stared in awe as the blond smiled from ear to ear, picking a song much to your dismay. “Yesss I love this song with my whole heart. My dinosaurs make way for this.” Hearing the similar synth, you instantly knew what he had picked. “Seriously? You like this song? It’s like cheesy as shit! This is so out of character for you oh my God Kei.” Tsukishima rolled his eyes, completely done with you. “It’s a good song, don’t come at me. Plus, if you think it’s so cheesy, then just delete it.” You frowned. You liked that it was cheesy. You always imagined someone singing it to you, most of the time this imaginary person being Tsukishima. “I like this song too, it’s fine.” The two of you sat in comfortable silence, your earphone jack being the only thing connecting you guys. The park felt weird. You felt weird. This whole situation was weirdly unreal. It was as if the two of you were stuck in a parallel universe, where you and Tsukishima were the only people that existed in that timeline. The silence was thick in the starry night sky, the streetlamps occasionally flickering as the song continued to play. Humming along to the addicting tune, you don’t even realise your body that’s starting to rock, arms swaying from side to side to the rhythm of the chorus. 
“We can get together,“
“Get up.”
A hand comes into your sight, willing for you to take it as you feel another tug on your earphones.
“What?”
“You wanna dance, don’t you?”
Never in a million years, would the thought of Tsukishima being able to dance even cross your mind.
 “What? It’s raining, I thought you said you didn’t wanna get soaked-”
“Just take my hand and dance with me.”
Hesitating a bit as you looked up at the blond, you raised a brow, grinning playfully as you let your hand fall into his, pulling yourself up and letting him take your other hand. You felt the cold droplets of water fall onto your skin and rolling off, the fabric of your shirt going damp.
“Just take one step forward,” he instructed, motioning for you to follow along with his dance moves. “Then take another step backwards. Everything else will come into place soon enough.” Lacing your fingers with his, the two of you danced in perfect sync, having the time of your lives. “I am learning so, so much about you right now and I’m all for it. Why’d you never tell me you could dance?” Tsukishima’s cheeks went a light pink, looking away bashfully. “It’s embarrassing.” Chuckling, you twirled yourself around, pulling on his arm as you forced his attention back onto you. “It’s not. I think it’s super cool. Do this with a girl and they’ll be head over heels for you in no time.” You mentally facepalmed yourself for saying that. His blush went from a light pink, to a dark red in no time, saturating his cheeks like paint. “Let’s test that theory out.” Mumbling to himself, he continued to guide you, twirling you around and hoisting you up at times.
“Baby we can get together, we can get together.”
The two of you were just jamming along now, not caring about your wet hair and soaked clothes. Tsukishima’s hair was now a damp mess, sticking to his forehead as he whipped his head from side to side, laughing as water droplets flew off his blond strands. Your hair was no better than his, (H/C) strands reflecting the light from the streetlamps as they hit your face with every sway of your head. The earphones were falling off at this point, but it didn’t matter. The two of you already memorised the entire song beforehand. All you wanted was to enjoy the short moment. Grabbing his wet hand again, you randomly started jumping to the beat, letting the blond follow along.
“Later sometime, you can buckle my shoes, you can pick up my sticks, why don't you open that door.”
You gasped in surprise as you felt a large hand spin you around one last time, before dipping you dangerously close to the floor, rainwater rolling off your face. The song came to an end with its final guitar chord, the reverb still ringing in the background. “So, what’d you think?” Tsukishima leaned down, his face dangerously close to yours. Feeling a Cheshire grin form on your face as your tried to raise your head up, you gave his nose a boop with your own, before falling back onto his hand. “That was amazing.” Giving you a cheeky grin, you could feel his breath on your face as he sighed contentedly. His breath smelled like mints, you couldn’t help but wonder how lips would taste too. “You good now, or do you wanna go home? I think the rain just stopped.
Still in that intimate position, you decided to finally ask him.
“Where are the headphones?”
“I didn’t want to get them wet, they’re too important to me. They’re in my bag.”
And that’s when your body decided to act on its own.
Your mind couldn’t even register what you were doing as you pressed a long, soft kiss on Tsukishima’s lips, feeling the heat radiating off of him.
“Now I’m good. Wanna go home?”
“Did you just-”
“Yes.”
Pushing you back up to a comfortable position, he stared at you for another ten seconds, face burning crimson as his mouth opened and shut repeatedly, trying to process what you just did. Finally snapping out of his thoughts, he awkwardly leaned towards you, before pulling himself back. After doing that a few times over, you were properly confused. Grabbing your shoulders, he pressed a firm kiss to your forehead, before grabbing his bag from the bench he was sitting on, pulling his headphones out and hanging them on his neck, handing you the earphones.
“Wanna do this again tomorrow shorty?”
“11pm sharp, don’t be late, and I expect another kiss.”
“Whatever you say cutie.”
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knicole0527 · 4 years
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How Did I Fall For Unwritten History?
So I’m in a whole relationship right? Like a whole fat ass relationship. Like me plus her equals nobody else . Its kinda dope and kinda like coccaine . If she was a drug I’d take it . She grounds me . She makes love to my mind , heart , and then my body . Her way of words sometimes makes me feel stupid because she uses words I cant imagine using . My vocabulary aint that big . But ask me about math or science ? I’m definitely ya girl . She was my missing piece . If that makes any sense at all . We definitely have our rollercoasters but I’ll killl anyone over her and I stand on that . Best part its with who I chose and not who my parents chose or approved of. I actually dont care whether they approve of me or not. Mom didnt want kids anyways. As she put it, she likes “ a return to sender kid “ I know she used to joke about it but I later found it to be true. So at this point either you like my happiness or you dont. But anyways, So we met the first time at work, Afni Call Center to be exact. She was a bet. By bet I mean with green money with coworkers. So I bet that I would get smashed by this girl and they would each owe me 50 bucks. I mean who can turn down money. Plus she was kinda cute and I know she was watching my little booty when I would walk away . I was 80 pounds lighter when we first met .
But here lately things have gone to shit . I can admit I fucked up . Well in the beginning . I cheated . She found out . But I was honestly gone tell her everything but she found out I broke her heart all that and then some . Since I put all my business out there . Only reason why I cheated was because I wanted a kid . I wanted her for sure but I wanted a kid . As time passed us by I realized she doesn’t want kids at all . So I had to make a decision , kids or stick around for my one true love in my adult life . So I looked her in the face , I probably had tears In my eyes and told her I chose her . She looked at me with confusion for a little and I dont think she anted me to flat out give up kids. But I was gone doe what I had to do to keep her by my side .
Now before we get to me cheating . I had an apartment on Old Morgantown Road . I loved that damn space man . Hard wood flooring . Storage unit . I had a w/d hook up . I had a good apartment and I could afford it and be able to live my best life . Rent was 475 a month . Utilities and water ran me about 80 . So I was well within my budget . But my dumb ass got involved with this man who I thought I could change . I was trying to hear from nobody about nothing . I wasnt trying to hear that he was cheating because I felt like I gave him no reason to cheat . I was giving him everything and then some . Hell I let his stupid ass cousin stay on my couch . So they were living rent free right , I know stupid Kendra always doing dumb shit . I should have opened my eyes but I didn’t .
Well he and I are definitely no longer together . He got my little cousin pregnant . I dont know whats worse . That she knew he was still living with me . That she knew we was kin . That he knew we was still together , fucking and living together and I never ask for a dollar . Or that my bosses had to call me in the office with another one of my cousins and sit me down to tell and show me that he was cheating and she was pregnant . It even shocked me that she tried to question me about my niggas car . Like girl he and I live together so yes maam I’m gone drive his car . and she was in shock to see me in the drivers seat . huh . Aint that funny how it all played out though ? But you know , karma got took his dick for a minute . He got the worst news of his life . His heart was just as shattered as mine . His trust was screwed if not worse than mine . He found out that while he was too busy cheating on me , she was getting knocked down by his cousin . LMFAO SERIOUSLY . He did all that cheating and got that girl pregnant and ended up getting played himself . So while I was his woman , he had a side bitch who had a side nigga , but THE SIDE NIGGA HAD A SIDE BITCH . I hadnt had sex with him in a while because things started getting to me and I was becoming very suspicious so I was still going to get checked anyways . But yea . What a fckd up love hexagon . Crazy how we all worked together . But when I reached my snapping point . I became a little on the ratchet side and called his mom and told her come get her sons belongings because he was homeless again . My cousin didnt have her own spot so somebody had to come take care of him because by that time I was done pretending .
Shit got bad for me mentally . I had me fckd up . I lost my job and went broke because I drank and popped it away . I know definitely wasn’t the right thing but I just wanted to feel numb to everything . I didnt really care how I got high just as long as I as high I was okay and at peace .
Alot of time went by and my past came back . She made me feel safe . And she saw me ; like the actual me . She knew something was up . Hell I gained 50 pounds since the last time we seen each other . But when she came back . I dont know if I was more so excited to see her or trying to fuck her right there on the floor at work . I walked in the door and the moment I seen her ... I didnt care who I was talking to , I think Wanda , I’m sorry boo but I seen my old boo and just had to do it . I could not help myself I had to hug her before I did anything else . I had a little more weight on me too because during our last encounter , hmm hmm , I was a bit smaller and hadnt grown boobs yet . So when she seen me running 90 mph to her ; baby girl was in for a shock .
Time went by and we started seeing each other a little more outside of work . Then she started to spend the night . But when she started doing that , I think I made things a little complicated for her at her moms . I had no intentions of doing so but it kinda got weird because she wasnt coming home very much any more . But yall , when I had her all to myself . Do you know how many times I undressed this girl with my eyes . I mean she standing there fully clothed and I seen EVERY INCH of her thru them clothes . It was bad yall . lol . She kinda eventually sorda moved in ; even though I thought she had already moved in . Time went by and things were okay ya know . We were just in the “ talking “ phase and just filling each other out . She started to grow on me a little more than I planned . and then I wanna say it was my birthday or after ? Baby girl was so drunk . She , our mutual friend , and I went to go grab food and drinks . Weeellllllll , I trapped her into drinking and drinking and drinking . We got home ? and she drank and and got funnier as the night went on . I remember that day like it was yesterday and the videos I have are absolutely the funniest videos I have ever recorded . “ butt clouds “ and the car honk that about gave her a damn heart attack .
Anywho times have went on . We decided to go to hilltop and live there . Who would have thought we would live together because I was stern on not wanting to live with her . It was weird living there . Always wondering if or when we were going to get a roommate . Then ? Thats the first time I ever broke a heart . See , she was always wanting to like distinguish a title. Meanwhile I am petrified of titles and labels and shit . Plus I have labeled myself for so long I didnt want to put a label on she and I . So I waited and waited and waited and decided to test waters . By testing waters meaning , I caught baby fever BAD . LIKE BAD BAD . I wanted a kid so bad I didnt think about talking to her first , I was just hoping one day I could be like , surprise baby we are having a baby ; butttttt I was gonna tell her how I got pregnant IF if actually happened . But she kinda beat me to it . She seen the messages on her tablet and as you know it went to shit from there . I broke her heart . I wasnt sure if or when she would or could ever forgive me . ( its JAn232021 ) and I know she still hasn’t forgiven me for anything . Not sure if she will ever get past it enough to love me love me .
We made it official , May 2019. By that time the only things that mattered to me were building a life with her. Come August 2020 . We got a place together and as time went on, I knew something was wrong but I would rather ignore it than have to go to the doctor because that just aint my cup of tea. I hate doctors.. they always wanna diagnose people with shit. I just didn’t wanna be one of those people so I held out as long as I could before it got to the point of being unbearable . I lost yet another good job . At first they thought it was covid and it wasnt . I tested negative for covid . Then I had like 5 appointments that following week . I was put on all types of stuff . I was throwing up everything . I was crying non stop . I was doing things not in my normal regimen . Thats when things fell harder on her . Harder as in bills , and stress and everything . I became that burden . I became the thing in the relationship that puts everything on the line . I became the complete failure in the relationship .
I wasn’t able to help like I planned . in fact my checks were so small that every pay day because I had all my bills and people I owed money to on auto pay and I kept making promises, put me in the negatives . I was in the negatives for 3 to 4 months . So imagine being the one in the relationship who didnt feel welcome . Who didnt feel like I deserved the love and things like that . All I wanted to do was help out and I couldn’t . Made me want to pack up and wait until I knew she was gone so I could leave . I didn’t know what to do . But I knew I was pretty much of no use . I knew that she resented me . I knew it pushed things back so far it may never come back to normal .
But now , Im better than I was still struggling though .  But I have this amazing job . I have a job where I can do my part and not hurt . I have a job where I can finally help out now . But its not enough . I’m not enough . The love is not enough anymore . I have became disposable . I have become the one who broke and shattered her heart and trust in her adult love life . How do I come back from it ? How do I rescue something that may have already died ? Am I worth it ? Am I better off without ? Do I deserve her ? She deserves the world and I want to give it to her I do .
But idk , maybe my mom was right . just maybe the only things I’m good at are singing and laying on my back . Havent accomplished shit yet . Got banned from a job because I tried to put my hands on someone . Got fired from 3 good fucking jobs because of my health .
Im crashing at this point . My future is on edge . I am on edge . this is not cool dude . But I will play the hand I’m dealt . Maybe I will win and marry the woMAN of my dreams . Or maybe I will just fck it up once again . We Will See .
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song rankings january - april 2020
only for my bias groups - loona, ateez, gwsn, and h&d - who are the only ones to have a comeback this year :^)
also to note - loona’s mini has 6 tracks, gwsn’s has 4, ateez’s has 5, and h&d’s has 7, not including the intstrumental tracks.
bsides:
1.) gwsn - tweaks ~ heavy clouds but no rain
2.) loona - day & night 
these songs are very close in my mind. there’s something almost remeniscent of future funk, which a kinda deep bass that i’ve been extremely fond of recently
3.) loona - oh 
4.) gwsn - after the bloom (alone)
these two songs are also basically on the same tier, the only reason why oh is #3 is because yeah gaja 1 2 is so iconic. the rap in after the bloom has major potential to go viral too (it’s literally so so so good pls listen) if groos start the trend but i don’t see it happening yet, idk. 
5.) h&d - empty handed 
a chill bop. dohyon has a lot more lines in this one, which is nice (im a hangyul stan btw)
i also feel like the vibes suit hangyul’s voice more. he’s being pushed as a main vocalist when that’s not really his strength, but this song fits his range a bit better than their title tracks have.
6.) h&d - toward tomorrow
very similar to empty handed, just more vocally driven? it almost feels like they’re two versions of the same song. but whatever, i like it.
7.) ateez - horizon
8.) loona - ddd 
the raps in these two are very different but i love them both sm TT. horizon is just art (hongjoong is deadass one of my favorite male rappers in kpop, like #1 or #2) almost but not quite on the level of after the bloom and ddd’s rap is just cute and catchy af, one of my favorite loona raps in general. horizon’s whole flow as a song is just really nice as well.
9.) ateez - precious
precious’ bgm is just weird af, kind of like h&d’s intro now that I think about it? but i like it, whatever. it’s kinda weird because it has the feeling of being a really artsy song kinda stuck in a pop mode? idk
i also like the feeling that they infuse this song with. like it’s very...idk if motivating is the right word? but this song evokes some sorta weird hopeful emotion that ateez often strays towards that i’m pretty fond of
10.) h&d - good night 
she’s cute, not much to report tbh. dohyon also has more lines in this and this concept suits him more than soul, which is nice.
11.) h&d - unfamiliar*
i fully expected to hate this song and i kinda did when it came out but as i relisten i’m coming to appreciate it. it’s not something i’ll listen to a ton 
12.) h&d - make me a different person 
it’s pretty chill, a little more...i’m not sure what the word is. it’s definitely not trop house but the beat is certainly...bouncy. idk. i have to be in the mood to really enjoy that tbh.
the other weird thing is that the song- and almsot all of their songs now that i think about it- sound super melancholy in tone? but the beat is so bouncy, it’s confusing lol. and not in the kinda tongue in cheek sad lyrics happy beat kinda way, just...the melody or their voices are very...emotional? that’s maybe too much, but i’m having trouble describing it lol.
below here is the slow songs section and im a slow songs anti, sorry
13.) loona - number 1 
she’s alright.
14.) gwsn - the aerialist (wonderboy)
the fact that this is their lead bside is like a kick in the jaw i’m personally offended
15.) ateez - star 1117
...not their best, by far.
*unfamiliar was technically a title track but it wasn’t the title for this album so i’m counting it as a bside lol
title tracks:
honestly i’m not a *huge* fan of the title tracks on any of these albums in comparison to others by the same group (for loona, ateez, and gwsn)
ateez - answer > loona - so what > gwsn - bazooka > h&d - soul
intros and outros: 
h&d - intro = loona - # > ateez - outro: long journey
of all of these songs ateez’s outro: long journey and star 1117 are the only songs not to be added to my library (and therefore not downloaded). i haven’t figured out h&d yet (so none downloaded atm), but i have all of these songs downloaded except for the aforementioned ateez songs and gwsn’s the aerialist (wonderboy). off the top of my head i’ll probably download the whole h&d album (maybe except soul, idk).
choreo
tl;dr - idk my ranking but soul is last
ateez - answer
im deadass afraid to watch ateez’s choreo because anze (their choreographer) does such an amazing job (my favorites are wonderland and wave) but ateez/kq tend to change the tone or take away my favorite parts of the anze choreo so for my sanity i really can’t watch atz’s choreo. anyways im sure answer is great lmfao
gwsn - bazooka
bazooka is simple and wayyy less intricate than their other title track choreos but i for one appreciate a solid point dance when i see one. the bazooka move is simple, iconic, and very representative of the lyrics so i appreciate it a lot. i’ve missed the iconic and iconographic choreo that kpop used to be famous for
h&d - soul
my main gripe with h&d in general is that hangyul and dohyon are s u c h a weird duo. even though i liked their album wayyyyy way wayyyyy more than i expected i don’t think that they’re very marketable as a kpop duo. duos in general just aren’t great, profit really rolls in at around 5 members, unless you’re 1.) blackpink, or 2.) a subunit of a larger group, and h&d are neither. 
another huge complaint (which is basically the same as the first): h&d had like, 60 backup dancers in the mv i swear. are you telling me that not a single one of them can carry a tune??? not a single one. out of 60. there were some cute ones that i noticed in the stage performance. you couldn’t even eke out a sub rapper mbk, seriously?
also it’s very clear that they’re pushing hangyul as a visual, main vocal, main dancer, which is fine ish except there aren’t really enough rap breaks in the song for dohyon to shine like, at all? and he’s kinda always behind hangyul and it’s really noticeable bc there’s only two of them (and their army of back up dancers).
icb i used to be a lowkey dohyon anti and mbk’s treatment has me doing all this. jesus
loona - so what
i’m gonna keep it all the way real. so what feels (and looks, to me) complicated for the sake of being complicated. the girls worked so hard to learn and perform this choreo but to what end? there’s no iconic point dance, and orbits and experienced dancers will find it impressive but it’s not really accessible to the gp?
butterfly hit that balance between complex and iconographic, but i’m not sure about iconic.
//btw, this is my metric for iconic: if you and a bunch of friends who like the same group were told to do a dance move or strike a pose based solely on the title of the song (obviously assuming that everyone has watched the livestages and is a fan, etc) would you all do the same thing? that’s the beauty of the point dance: if a song has a clear point dance, you probably will. whether this is a strength that every kpop song needs is debatable, but it’s definitely important to me, with few exceptions.
there’s probably more i could go into about mv and styling but i think i’ll stop here for now xx
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More Than Human: Chapter 6 Liveblog!
IT’S THE BEACH CHAPTER ASKHDFGHJKL!!!!!!!!!
The Professor going all overprotective!Dad I’M CACKLING. IF ONLY YOU KNEW PROFESSOR HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. This is a running gag throughout the story AND I LOVE IT!
What the hell is beach blanket bingo? O.o
Awww Bubbles is still waving back that cutie
....and then jumping right into bikini mode BAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Be more obvious Blossom. I dare you.
Butch snorted. “Naw, he’s here. Wandering around the beach, all ‘dark and lonely as a cloud,’ or some shit like that.” BUTCH QUOTING A WILLIAM WORDSWORTH POEM LIKE W H A T HOW THO
A small part of me wants to know what the Greens were drawing in the sand. A very small part.
The wind whipped Brick’s open shirt around him as he walked. LMFAO you can totally tell how much fun SBJ had writing this chapter hehehehe.
Flirting face? That was flirting?? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA      
Warning: A polite Butch makes another appearance.       
Oh my god stay away from the food Blossom no one needs food poisoning or the fire department.
Poor Boomer drooling all over the burgers hahahaha
Brick issued her a weird look. She rolled her eyes and stood up, and in a blur of blue Brick was at the grill with the tongs in his hand. He blinked. “What the-” “Get grillin’,” Bubbles chirped, guiding his hand to flip over the patties. Boomer looked distraught at the physical contact. “Hey! First you take my burger duties and now you take my girl?” "I didn’t think I was anybody’s girl,” Bubbles said innocently. “You can have her,” Brick muttered under his breath. All the same, he didn’t bat her hand away. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I love how Bubbles just does not care what Brick thinks or wants she just takes control and forces him to follow suit. Bubbles/Brick 5ever <3        
All the little Bubbles/Brick moments *_* MY HEART IS SINGING         
“Of course you have a choice,” Brick scoffed. “You choose to be a dirty hippie and not eat meat.” Bubbles pouted. “I’m not dirty.” “Wouldn’t object to it,” Boomer said under his breath. "Was that a sex joke?” Blossom asked, narrowing her eyes at him. “Did you just make a sex joke at my sister?” I’m lmfao @ Bubbles being bothered because of the dirty part and not caring about the rest xD Also, protective!Blossom yayyyy :D
All the guys waiting for the moment        
Even BRICK is ogling Buttercup like HAH! 
“Dude.” He gasped. “Buttercup, your arms are so cut I’m not even staring at your tits.” BEST. PICKUP. LINE. IN. THE. HISTORY. OF. EVER. 
Blossom having to literally get banned from home ec tho xD      
I will always always always LOVE how expertly SBJ combines humor with well-placed exaggeration. It’s so fucking hard to get comedy right on paper but this whole story is COMEDY GOLD…especially this chapter.    
A bit O.o and not totally convinced Blossom could ever beat Buttercup in a sport tbh.   
And the tables have turned AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA     
A SHIRTLESS BRICK FINALLY APPEARS HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD       
“Hey!” Boomer cried. “I don’t have a shirt on, either!” “Good for you.” Bubbles said cheerfully. Boomer didn’t seem comforted by this. Poor Boomer xD 
Brick gaped at her. “You owe me a new shirt!” “We can go get one now.” Buttercup said without skipping a beat. “Want to?” So Buttercup and Butch have more in common than you’d think xD   
Buttercup perked up. “Yes, volleyball. Some hot, sweaty volleyball. Doesn’t that sound refreshing?” Something clicked in Butch’s brain. “Hey! Cut that out!” “What? I’m just saying-” “You’re not allowed to find my brother hot!” "Excuse me?” Blossom lowered her hat and glared. “Who are you to cast stones?” Very valid point, Blossom. Also, LOL @ that “something” that suddenly clicked in Butch’s brain.
“Buttercup!” Butch snapped. “His fucking face is up here!” “Yeah, that’s cool.” she said distractedly, not staring at his face at all. “Faces are cool. I’ve got one of those.” LMFAO YEA FACES ARE COOL BUT ABS ARE BEAUTIFUL SO SHHHH. And Butch being so obviously pissed off the second Buttercup started showing her blatant lust over Brick is everythinggggg :D
Holy shit Brick’s gonna blow a fuse after this fight’s over
I know Brick wants the fighter destroyed because of the data it could collect on him and his brothers but is he also trying to...protect the girls?
Blossom’s suspicious
....or not
“Butch, fire,” he said, and in a blast of green there was nothing but ash between Blossom’s hands. Butch is Brick’s to-go-to guy.
So Brick can basically do anything and everything right? Sure...
Damn that was...harsh. Who the fuck is Darius? And why do I already miss the previous JS even though he was never really physically introduced in the story?
Leave it to Brick to be the only one who’s miserable that they’re staying xD
Bubbles/Buttercup sisterly moment awwww <3
D’awww @ Buttercup and Bubbles already missing the boys.
He took her to fucking Hawaii. To talk. On their surfboards. In the middle of the ocean. AT FUCKING SUNSET. BE STILL MY BEATING HEART BECAUSE THIS SCENE IS EVERYTHING.
LOL @ the total inner PANIC!! mode Buttercup goes into when she thinks Butch wants to tell her he likes her. Been there girl. I feel ya.
Can we all just take a moment to appreciate how Butch is the first of the boys to tell their counterpart that they work for Evil Corp? THAT’S how much he trusts her. BABIES.
“So what are you going to do about it?” he asked, his gaze as dark as the night sky. Now there was light in them, though. Funny how his eyes wouldn’t reflect sunlight, but moonlight lit them up something fierce. Funny how you keep noticing his eyes, Buttercup :’) *whistles innocently*
Blues are too cute walking on the beach holding hands *_*
“That’s really cool.” “Yeah?” Butch’s voice drifted along the water, gentler than the waves that rocked them. Their hands floated close enough to touch, but neither reached for the other. GENTLER THAN THE WAVES AND CLOSE ENOUGH TO TOUCH I AM SCREAMING OH MY GODDDDD!!!!!!
"Hey, you can’t tell anybody else,” he suddenly said. "What do you think I am, stupid?” she scoffed. “Don’t worry about it. I got you.” He raised himself up on his elbows to stare at her. She kept her eyes on the sky, and, after a while, he laid back down. A second later he kicked her board over, sending her rolling into the water, and he laughed as she sputtered and snarled and dragged him in after her. Her “I got you” is so genuine and trusting that it actually makes Butch stop and stare. STOP AND STARE. And the next thing he does? In typical Butch fashion, he ruins the moment by doing something dumb. That’s not because he’s Butch and that’s what he does but it’s because it’s Butch and he’s shocked that she isn’t beating his ass or flying off to tell her sisters and she actually just gets him and it’s nice. That’s why he ruins the moment. Because it’s nice and he’s not used to having nice things or nice moments or normal (kinda) functioning relationships with anyone. I AM EATING THIS UP LIKE CANDY OKAY.
Yup, Blossom is definitely suspicious.
GO RUIN YOUR LIFE AND READ THIS FLAWLESS FIC ASAP. You won’t regret it!
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compilation post of whichever bbc america employee who wrote the captain’s blogs being an ally and a hero via treating janto as more than just a sex joke, being genuinely warm and funny, and mentioning ianto super fondly in nearly every single entry (especially s2) because jack is in love with him despite what everyone else would have you believe. but i, a gay, know, and so does bbc america social media staffer circa 2007-2008.
some may call this “fringe canon.” i call it “some of the only specks of canon that respect the show’s canon gay relationship as the loving and affectionate relationship that it is.”
text pulled from ianto’s desktop, which is a fun read despite the defunct photobucket embeds - i only included captain’s blog stuff, but there’s a couple more janto tidbits in there. none as nice as these, though. under a cut because it is Long.
season 1
(one really cool thing the writer did for early season one is have jack note unexplained energy surges in the lower levels of the hub - handy foreshadowing for cyberwoman)
1x03 (ghost machine - alien tech leads to murder mystery):
Other issues: According to Ianto, Splott is pronounced "Sploe". I think Ianto may have been lying.
Upcoming issues: Energy surges in the lower areas of the hub still unexplained; there have been several more in the past week. Ianto volunteered to investigate, but has not discovered an explanation yet.
1x04 (cyberwoman - the episode where ianto’s secrets are revealed and we all have a Bad Time):
Other Staff issues: Ianto Jones temporarily suspended from active duty, to return at my discretion. His love for Lisa clouded his judgment, and he made some serious mistakes - but I have to wonder if I would have done the same thing in his situation. Ianto's personal needs and emotional state have been overlooked; I should not have missed something like this. During his suspension, I will try to spend more time with him. Hopefully we can establish a closer working relationship.
1x05 (small worlds - the one where the “fairies” abduct the little girl and jack has to let them, which makes everyone else very mad at him):
Staff: Ianto Jones' first week back after his suspension four weeks ago. I have tried to put him at ease, and have briefed the team to be as sympathetic as possible. Obviously there is a level of resentment remaining, but they are trying.
Other Staff issues: After what happened with Jasmine, nobody is talking to me (except Ianto). They'll come around. Everyone comes around.
1x06 (countrycide - the one with the cannibals and we all have a Bad Time):
Staff: Brought Ianto Jones along to get him out of the Hub, out of the city, get some relaxing time in the country with the team. May not have been the best decision I made this year.
1x07 (greeks bearing gifts - mindreading and predatory lesbian, the episode):
Other Staff issues: Ianto is still suffering, but putting on a brave face. Will try talking to him over dinner, outside the Hub, see if there's anything more I can do for him.
1x08 (they keep killing suzie - the episode that ends with ianto hitting on jack with a stopwatch):
Other Staff issues: Ianto and I stayed back to go over the case files and reorganize the safe. Internal security cameras were temporarily shut down to run diagnostic tests, so there was no monitoring of the Hub for approximately four hours - but there were no security breaches to report. Everything went very smoothly.
Upcoming issues: Need to requisition a new stopwatch. Old one damaged while moving a desk.
1x09 (random shoes - outsider pov, the episode):
Staff: Things seem to be calming down with everyone. Ianto is coping well; I'm pleased with his progress.
1x11 (combat - owen has manpain and fights weevils. whatever):
Other Staff issues: Ianto surprisingly proficient at the good cop/bad cop routine. Although obviously, he's the good cop. He's too cute to be the bad cop.
1x12 (captain jack harkness - jack and tosh are stuck back in time during the cardiff blitz and owen and ianto fight about what to do about it):
Other Staff issues: Ianto tried to stop Owen opening the Rift, and actually shot him in the shoulder. Everyone except Owen is finding this very amusing.
season 2
2x01 (kiss kiss bang bang - jack returns from his doctor who appearance, deals with his terrible ex spike from buffy, and asks ianto out on a proper date):
Other Staff issues: Gwen is now engaged. I'm happy for her, but I'm concerned about what it might mean - can she stay here, still keeping everything from Rhys? I worry that we're going to lose her. And I worry about Ianto. I think he took it harder than anyone when I ran off. It's going to take me a while to make things up to him. He is a decent, good man, and I'm lucky I met him.
2x02 (sleeper agent - the episode with sleeper agents):
Other security issues: Gwen taken hostage again. I’m beginning to think she’s jinxed. And why am I never taken hostage? I could be a good hostage. I never get any of that Stockholm Syndrome action. And according to Ianto, my bad cop routine needs some work.
Other Staff issues: I’m in trouble with Ianto for duct-taping a CB aerial to the SUV. Apparently the tape made the wing mirror “disconcertingly sticky”. Still, nothing a bit of warm, soapy water can’t fix.
2x03 (a man out of time - tosh’s cryo-boyfriend they unfreeze once every year. also, jack and ianto Have A Talk and then make out):
Other Staff issues: Ianto and I made some progress, talked things through. What happened with Tommy got to us all. I know it got to Gerald and Harriet, too, back then, considering what they went through to try and make up for it – but that’s another story for another day.
2x04 (meat - the episode with the whale and rhys finding out. some of the team gets taken hostage and ianto tazes a bad guy in the head and growls out “pray they survive.” or something and it’s VERY GOOD TELEVISION):
Staff: Ianto turned into a fighting, kicking, stun-gun machine, it was very exciting. I must get put in danger more often.
2x05 (adam - an alien infiltrates their memories and inserts himself into the team, and his plot is foiled by ianto reading his diary and finding inconsistencies because he’s Very Clever):
Other security issues: The only thing out of place was Ianto’s diary, which I found in my office. Naturally, I gave it back to him immediately after reading through it. Several interesting factual errors in there - and I thought he would know how to convert inches to centimetres. You think you know someone...
2x06 (reset - martha visits and owen ‘dies’):
Security: Must speak to Ianto about using names from ‘’Sex and the City’’ on fake IDs. Last week he sent me into an alien smuggling operation as ‘’Mr Big’’, without telling me. Wish I knew how he kept a straight face. I’d give him a stern talking-to, but I think he enjoys that too much.
(right after this is a very solemn paragraph about owen dying lmfao)
2x07 (dead man walking - jack resurrects owen and owen has manpain about it):
Other Staff issues: In big trouble with Ianto for risking everything to go and get the second glove. I should have told him before I went, but he’d probably have cuffed me to the chair to stop me. And I’ve fallen for that one way too many times.
2x08 (a day in the death - owen continues to have manpain):
Other Staff issues: Now that we have all tried, it is clear that only Ianto knows how to operate that damn coffee maker. I suspect it contains alien technology.
2x09 (something borrowed - gwen gets married, but not before playing host to shapeshifting pregnancy alien):
Security: ... Female Nostrovite proved to be extremely resilient to bullets, so I had to get my massive weapon out and take care of business. Ianto is still quietly chuckling about that now, days later. Gwen’s mother taken hostage. Must run in the family.
2x10 (from out of the rain - the terribly written ianto-’centric’ episode about circus film reel ghosts):
Alien activity: ... We only managed to save one of them, but that’s better than nothing. Sometimes in this job, one is enough. I can still see the faces of the people we lost - they weren’t part of this, they were just living their lives, until they were taken. Ianto took it badly, this one really got to him.
Staff: Have convinced Ianto to take me to a normal cinema, to see an actual movie. He’s also curious to know if I still have my old circus outfit. If I can find it, I think a private show is in order.
2x11 (adrift - gwen pursues a mystery about the people the rift takes and then puts back traumatized, even though jack resists. ianto is the one who gives her the info she needs. she also walks in on them naked in the greenhouse. wild):
Staff: Gwen would never have found the facility if Ianto hadn’t helped her. He was wrong to do that. But, of course, he was actually right in the end. There’s no way Gwen would have let it go. I should have trusted her with the information, but I knew what it would do to her. Sometimes, the only way to realise that you shouldn’t look behind that door is to actually go and look. Gwen learned that. Nikki learned that. We all did.
Other Staff issues: Seeing Gwen experience it for the first time took me right back to when I first heard that terrible scream. After Gwen had gone home, I just held on to Ianto for a couple of hours, as tightly as I could.
2x12 (fragments - a bomb explodes and everyone gets a flashback to how they joined torchwood 3 as jack and gwen rescue them from the rubble):
Staff: Everyone came out of the explosion pretty beaten up, but no major damage. We got lucky. And so did John. Because if he’d killed anyone - if he had hurt Ianto - I would have slowly ripped him limb from limb.
Other Staff issues: Although I have to say, Ianto does look good all messed up and dirty.
2x13 (exit wounds - jack’s brother comes back and blows up half of cardiff and kills owen and tosh):
Other Staff issues: The one glimmer of hope in all this? I still have Ianto and Gwen. Whatever the future throws at us, whatever madness the Rift vomits out next, whatever we have to face - Torchwood will be ready.
Capt. Jack Harkness.
Ianto, I know you’re reading this over my shoulder, pretending to fix that damn shelf. So get over here and take me out somewhere.
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dokyungsu · 7 years
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💘💘💘 HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL MY MUTUALS 💘💘💘 WROW REN LOVES YOU???? 💘💘💘 HELL YEA SHE DOES !!!!!💘💘💘
i had this in drafts for so long bc i wanted to post it on valentines like di cheesy person that i am so this is kind of like my version of sending u guys a love letter of some sort,,, flowers n chocolates all that… bc i obviously can’t send u guys flowers n chocolates irl 😣😣😣 anyways aasdjhakdkjh this is gonna be long so ima put a read more right here ♥
@zyxgf​ aka jackieMISS JACKIE!?!?!? uhm i say this all di time but she’s my baby girl 🤢🤢 she’s given me nothing but love n affection and laffs for di whole time we’ve been mutuals,,, 💗💓💕💖💞💗💓💕💖💞 she’s so funni n a relateable kween. giffing kween. kween of being cute… superior xingmi n exo m stan wrow… i’m always excited to see if she’s tagged me in stuff (laysoo) or if she’s messaged me or has made posts abt me or has sent me asks…. like she’s rly one of di reasons i love being here :((((( she’s so cute ohhhh my god..  also she sends me death threats abt yixing pls dw jackie i won’t steal ur man… i’ll steal U from ur man.. 😣😣😣 i’ll make him lose his balance n sweep u away 👀👀👀 i also lowkey wished we talked but ajsdbkjashdkj 
@exoistheuniverse aka ali (formerly sooweetlies a god-tier url wow)ALI IS THE SOFTEST MUTUAL EVER !!!!!!!! AND ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE KSOO-LS :(((( everytime i think of her i think about cotton candy and clouds and penguins and ksoo :((( … she’s so talented have y’ALL SEEN HER EDITS??? AND GIFS?? AND HER CUTE KSOO ICONS !!!! when will i ever… her voice is also di cutest… she always sends me love asks and asdhkas honestly how can i ask for more when she gives me di Most… pls i have a lot of love in my hort for her i always wish her the best n hope that she’s always happy 😣😣😣
@pcys-l aka rimi (formerly loeysoul i mean its true loey is in her soul)RIMI di LOve of my LIFE!!!!!! the first ever mutual i talked to because we both cried abt bruise 🤕🤕 meme queen, is Nasty in her tags abt pcy 🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️ THINKS I’M UNLOYAL WHEN I’M NOT but she makes me happy n holds a special place in my hort.. I LOVE RIMI SO MUCH SHE DESORVS DI WHOLE WORLD SHE’S SO FUNNI AND HAVE MADE ME LAFF COUNTLESS OF TIMES AND I’m happy i got to be mutuals w u :(((
@yiffxing aka gabbyPREDDIEST FURRY QUEEN !! YIXING’S SEKSI SHEEP BACK-UP DANCERS R SHAKING !!! even tho we’ve only started talking uhhhh she’s rly di sweetest person ik 🤕🤕🤕 is trash for ksoo but i’ll let her off bc i luv her :\ the person who’ll date will b di luckiest bc uhhh she’s a whole package… fun fact: i was intimidated by gabby at first bc she was too beautiful n i thought i couldn’t b friends w her but 😣😣 I SEND HER LOVE MSGS EVERY CHANCE I GET💗💗💗💗💗💗
@kiungsoo aka livLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven’t seen her on my dash in a while bc she’s on q but i miss her :((( she a fellow twenty-four enthusiast so if u wanna slander miss twenty four u gotta go thru US !! 😤😤😤 she’s also another talented mutual :(( y’all seen her countdown bday posts for ksoo?? go check it out binch!!! go d i love liv 😩😩😩 i hope school and studying is going well for u i wish u all di best i love u 💗
@suhopps aka sunnie my SUNNIEshine (i’ve appointed u that nickname there’s lideralee no escape from it) we talked heaps before but everyone who’s… mutuals w me.. like basically everyone in this list knows i am The Worst at keeping convos 😰😰 but sunnie is so so so so sweet and soft and i love when i talk with you :((( we have so many things in common lmfao and she’s such a dramatic gay but i love it !! i always wish for your happiness and i believe that u can overcome any hardships you’re facing right now,,, i love u sunnie!!!! take care always 😙💘
@sophrosynes​ aka robertaI LOVE ROBERTA SO MUCH !!!!!!! I KNOW WE DON’T TALK BUT I HOPE U KNOW THAT I THINK ABT U AND HOPE THAT UR ALWAYS WELL :((( miss sophrosynes was my very first anon and honestly… she’s so thoughtful and considerate and nothing full of love and g od d dd she has a face to match her beautiful hort :(( thank u for sending me love always 💗💓💕💖💞 id die for u.. 
@kokobaekhyun aka jasmineY’ALL JASMINE’S A WILDT ONE Y’ALL SEEN HER TAGs??? when i thought no one can match rimi in being the Nastiest but.. ANYWAYS i love her either way 🤕🤕🤕 when she’s in soft mode it’s wholesome rly…. WE BONDED OVER MULLET!BBH BC IT’S GOD TIER AND WILL NEVER BE TOPPED anyways yea… love jas… she’s so funny n fun to talk to 😩💘 also if ur in a mood to talk about hard bbh she’S THE GIRL UR LOOKING FOR she’s always in the mood u won’t be disappointed KAJSHDjkas 
@my1ady aka arelyUHMMM NOT TO START BUT SHE’S MY BIGGEST FAN :(((((( WHEN SHE TAGS ME IN STUFF??? AND HER TAGS?? heart n*t :\ I LOVE HER SO MUCH THE LOVE SHE GIVES ME???? i don’t deserve… 😞😞😞 my anons asked abt her a lot lmfao idk why adkjahskj ONE OF MY FAVORITE XINGMIS HONESTLY!! HAS A GOD TIER URL WROW… my_lady_by_exo-m.mp3 amazing.. and uh loves my man so that’s a bonus… we share mans 🤕🤕🤕 love u arely.. 💗💗💗
@byunchen aka melqueen of making me want to d*e bc of soft n sweet bbh/exo imagines :(( also queen of making me want to KERMIT SUE OF SIDE BC OF THE NSFW BBH POSTS SHE MAKES I H*TE akjdhaskdjh SHE RLY BRINGS OUT THE BBH-L IN ME :\  ALSO MY FELLOW TRIPLE STAN??? VALID ! she’s full of nothing but love and AHHHHHHH I LOVE U MEL !!!!!!!! 💗💓💕💖💞
@exosvisual aka cindySHE ONE OF DI LOVELIEST XINGMIS IVE EVER MET PLEASE !!!! we cry about idol producer trainees together but mainly how hot and yixing distracting looks in all of di goddamn idol p episodes :\ I LOVE HER so much she’s rly so sweet and i’m rly glad i got to meet her :(( and also may i add that she’s… rly beautiful  😭😭😭 💗💓💕💖💞
@byunparks aka maddyMADDY WHO I BONDED WITH DURING THE 3 NIGHTS OF ELYXION !?!?!!?!!!! NEVER FUCKING FORGET !!!!! SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE I WAS TALKING AND UH we were both crying and truly losing our minds pls… i haven’t interacted with her much nowadays but she’s one of di best bbh-Ls i know n i love her… thank u for making me happy so i also wish for you happiness ily 🤧💖💖💖
@byunbread aka veraQUEEN VEWWA WHOMST I WUV SO MUCH :((((( not to b dramatic but she’s lideralee one of di best bbh blogs out there… (also random fact; she’s 179cm like… i’m so sorry baekhyun sweetie akshdakjsHDAAKJHDKJA) also uhhh queen of being di most beautiful ??? i’m not kidding :\ altho we’ve only interacted through posts and what not i rly love seeing her on my dash 🤧🤧🤧 i wish you di best for ur studies i wuv u vewwa 💕💕💕
@stanbaek aka ashleyASHLEY !!!!! A-SHE!!!-LY!!! uhm she’s is sososo sweet and her love for bbh is so so wholesome and beautiful and there’s A LOT of it :((( HER BBH BLOG CONTENT IS AMAZING AHH!!! we’ve talked a few times and she’s rly so sweet please.. 😞😞😞 honey i hope you know that you deserve to be happy 🤧🤧 i wish that you’ll always have strength when you experience days that are difficult to go through, i told u that i believe in u okay!!! i love you and i mean it 💞💞💞
@littlechefsoo aka courtneyONE OF MY FAVORTIE KSOO-LS AHH!!!!! i think courtney has been one of my oldest mutuals since i came on tumblr and she’s always been such a lovely person :(( her love for ksoo??? WHOLESOME…. i love it whenever she tags me in di tag games and even tho we’ve only interacted/talked a few times i love her 😣😣💗💗 also have y’all seen her ‘do it for him’ post and the pics were filled with suho’s tiddies from gayo daejun???? YEA MOOD. i love my fellow kyungmyeon-Ls 💖💖💖
@kyungsooslatinagf aka jossyJOSSY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!??!?! i love reading her tags when she reblogs from me pls kashdkahs also another one of my all-time favorite ksoo-Ls ♥♥♥ she’s one of di few people who came to check up on me during… a hard time so thank you for that :(( a fellow shawol-L and honestly miss jossy is beautiful my gosh 😩💘 we’re both tauruses so i think we have a lot in common lmao i wanna b able to interact n talk w u more miss jossy ily 🤧🤧💖💖
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Hello world, this is me. Recently, I've been dealing with quiet a bit of depression in this head of mine. Depression I know I can beat and get out of, eventually. But for now.. I'm just really in a dark place. I fell into this crazy deep hole in my head when I was told by a friend an ex of mine had passed away. My ex was my first "boyfriend" he was the first person I told my secrets too and held extremely close to my heart. He actually even took my virginity lmfao so he was really my first everything. But most importantly, he was my first love, my first best friend who I knew actually gave a damn. He was even the first boy I took home to meet my family. We were young when we met. We actually met at a friends birthday. I thought he was cute, but, I was an awkward child and he was the cute goofy kid. A few girls were all over him, talking to him, sitting on his lap, sharing drinks. I didn't want to step up and speak to him, I wanted to observe him. Something happened. I was sitting with my friend Brandi and a boy we were both friends with Kyle, joking around making sex jokes and Kyle drawing penis drawings on everything. I remember he saw Kyle's drawing on a ballon and saw us cracking up. He came over and sat down with the birthday girl at our table. Before I knew it, he was right in front of where I was sitting at the table. Then before I knew it he was sitting next to me, and we were chatting away. Giggling about dumb thing and how others were acting. He was such a big ball of energy I was so attracted to him. This was a birthday party I didn't even want to go to. I felt awkward the whole time. I didn't know anyone. It wasn't till I met him and I spoke with him that I didn't want to leave. After that.. he was gone. I didn't see him again. I went on in life thinking about that kid but never asking anyone about him. I finished out that school year and went on to get a summer job. I was a "locker girl" at a water park. It was my first job. I basically was a cashier who sold lockers only really. My job was definitely for the loner kids. I worked alone. Barely spoked to others. Doodled most of my day away. But it was my first job so I was very content. One day I was just clocking in and released the girl from the morning shift. I got settled and was looking out on the grounds, people watching which was my norm. I swear I saw an orb of gold come down the stair surrounding this person. He was smiling ear to ear joking with another life guard. He had bright blue eyes that were so piercing I almost thought I was making this person up. He literally had sky blue eyes and a smile that was so white they looked like the clouds in the sky. The gold orb was like the sun's rays. I was in awe. I was so confused when this angel like person stop at the end of the stairs and started walking my way. Right when I stopped appreciating "the view," and right before it was directly infront of me I was hit with what felt like an 18 wheeler. In my head I was like "holy shit.. that's.. that's him." He came over smiling, biting his life guard red whistle, trying to be all smooth. "Hey don't I know you from?". Is all I heard. I was shook. I giggled and said "yeah that's me!" Smooth right? I quickly fixed myself from falling off my chair without loosing eye contact. We chatted a little. I ended up being filled with so much anxiety speaking to him that playing with my pen was the only thing that made me feel okay. The only negative part of that, was when it flew out of my hand hitting him not only once, but twice! He was nervously giggling which made me actually feel a little bit better knowing I wasn't the only one nervous. A few conversions later we exchanged numbers. I remember being the ballsy one saying "we should hang out sometime." He agreed immediately. That sometime to him, was that day after our work shift. I wasn't going to say no even with my butterflies making me feel awkward but excited. We ending up going to Ventnor City beach in New Jersey. I actually even know where we sat in the sand exactly. It was sundown. We threw down towels and just sat there and spoke to each other about literally anything that came to mind. He didn't try any moves. I didn't know if he even liked me or if this was an awkward friend hang out. When the sun went completely down leaving the sky black we decided we should get going. We were there for 3 or 4 hours just talking. When we were walking back my hand hit his (completely by mistake) I looked at him completely embarrassed, thankful we were in a dark area so he couldn't see my face bright red, and just giggled. The next thing I know he went to hold my hand. It was weird. My butterflies had left my stomach. They were all over my body. I felt like my heart was skipping beats. Swallowing my saliva felt like an obstacle. My whole body was just happy and it was happy with him. He hugged me goodbye and said he would see me later and went home. He texted me later that night telling me "you looked so beautiful tonight." We ended up starting to date soon after. He was already way advanced in relationships than I was. He didn't push anything though. It took two weeks for us to even kiss, and when we did, we had people cheer (we were at a party, we thought we snuck off enough). All my friends loved him. He fit right in my life perfectly and vice versa. We hung out every second and talked to each other constantly. Life was beautiful. I fell head over heels with this angel, that literally in my eyes, walked down the stairs of Gillian's water park straight into my heart. School started again, it was our junior year. We happened to have one class together. Mrs Ninfa, she taught history. It was his favorite class to write notes and doodle in. We sat next to each other talking threw the whole class. We were the class love birds in that class, it actually became a very funny joke, but we worked it! It was in that class I got my first detention. We were passing notes. He had a rough morning at home. He didn't come from the very best up bringing. Writing to me was an outlet for him to write me notes explaining things for me to understand. We were both very young, so, opening up threw notes helped him and that's what we did. One day Mrs. Ninfa saw him place a note on my desk. She said "give that too me right now." So I did. She said "I'm reading this to the class or you can both take detention right now." Of course knowing what his notes usually contained we both agreed to detention. We both went to detention and then spent the rest of the day together. We didn't really care about the detention. We got caught, so, that just taught us to be faster. We didn't stop writing notes and drawing each other doodles. We dated for a year straight and then had a rough couple months after the break up together. We had flaws in our relationship. He cheated on me and him being my first relationship I had completely lost trust. Being immature and young I thought "u cheat, I cheat, we're even." At the end I cheated and told him immediately. When I say immediately I mean it happened and I said "I have to text my boyfriend" I couldn't believe I had done that. Yes, he did cheat first and I did try to fix the relationship after but I felt such hurt and betrayal from him I couldn't. Even with the cheating he wanted to stay together. I said no. In my eyes you broke my heart, and now I broke yours, we needed to be apart. I was foolish and ran into a relationship with the boy I cheated on him with. I remember texting him while dating this boy and him saying "whenever you want to get back together, we can get back together" it's almost like he knew I regretted being with this new person. The new relationship of course failed. It was a joke of a relationship. I ran into a "bad boy" and started dating him basically right after. He found out who I was dating and reached out again saying the same thing. I told him we could be friends but to not bring that up. We ended up speaking a lot. He actually got into a new relationship. I wasn't hurt by this new relationship he was in but in the back of my head I did think "well what did you mean by whenever I wanted?" He looked happy again. I thought "Kelsey pull back from him.. let him grow and be happy" so, I did. Which now and even then I regretted. The relationship I was in was an abusive relationship. I didn't tell anyone about it. I hid it very well. There were times I wanted to reach out but the love I had for him told me "let him be happy, let him grow without you" so I kept it from my best friend in the dark. When things got real bad in this relationship his name kept popping up. At prom someone said his name to me. My heart jumped and I started searching for him. He wasn't there. At graduation, the girl in front of me went to his new school. She actually said "aren't you his girlfriend?" Even though I was not, she said he always talked about me like I was. I thought and actually hoped I'd run into him somehow. But I never did. The abusive relationship I was in turned into a very toxic abusive end. Cops were involved, a restraining order was issued, and I was lost. I was scared. I didn't want to leave my house in fear. I wanted to reach out but I didn't. It wasn't until I was in a new relationship that I reached out. He liked one of my Instagram posts so I was like "okay so he doesn't hate me." At this point he was dating the same girl for a while now. We spoke for a bit. He told me the good thing and I followed with only the good things. He didn't know about the abuse I was recently in for a very long time and I didn't know the bad happening in his life. We didn't focus on that. We didn't want each other knowing the bad. Threw out the years (8 years total after the relationship) we spoke at random times. Catching up on strictly the good. I spoke to him a month ago. I was laughing at the love notes I kept of his. He laughed and said he remembered writing them. It made me think "wow you really did love me if you can remember almost 10 years ago writing this." We kept it short which was unusual but now he was in a new relationship and I was in a serious relationship and was/am engaged so I wasn't going to continue or push not knowing how this one worked. I wish I did. I wish I told him what I want to now. I kept my pain and my hurt from him after our relationship and so did he from me. We left that conversion as our last. Our last conversion was reminiscing on our love notes, on our love, on us. It's weird I can still hear his voice. I keep having dreams of him. It hurts breaking up with your first love but having them pass away so young hurts even worse. His family told me after we broke up he continued to talk about me like I put the stars in his sky. I tried so hard not to cry at his service. It wasn't until I got home and was alone that I cried my eyes out. You passing was like getting hit again by that 18 wheeler. Just this time I wasn't meeting you, I was saying goodbye to you. I don't even think I said goodbye. I still feel like you're with me. I still message you on Snapchat as if you're going to answer. Sometimes I write you how I feel so you can read it even though you can't. I apologize a lot. I sort of blame myself for not being open to you knowing if I was you would have done the same. I know you loved me and I know we were two immature kids when we were together but what we had was real. "It's kinda cool knowing your first love actually loved you, huh?" - Was said to me at the service. I swear it felt like a stab in the heart hearing that and everytime I think of that I cry. To my real life angel. I'm sorry for all the pain you felt on this earth while you were here. I wish I could have done more. You were and are so loved. You changed my life in such a positive way you could never understand. I love you forever, Tyler E. Dale. 💙
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The Story of How I Fell In Love With Unwritten History
So I’m in a whole relationship right? Like a whole fat ass relationship. Like me plus her equals nobody else . Its kinda dope and kinda like coccaine . If that makes any sense at all . We definitely have our rollercoasters but I’ll killl anyone over her and I stand on that . Best part its with who I chose and not who my parents chose or approved of. I actually dont care whether they approve of me or not. Mom didnt want kids anyways. As she put it, she likes “ a return to sender kid “ I know she used to joke about it but I later found it to be true. So at this point either you like my happiness or you dont. But anyways, So we met the first time at work, Afni Call Center to be exact. She was a bet. By bet I mean with green money with coworkers. So I bet that I would get smashed by this girl and they would each owe me 50 bucks. I mean who can turn down money. Plus she was kinda cute and I know she was watching my little booty when I would walk away . I was 80 pounds lighter when we first met . 
But here lately things have gone to shit . I can admit I fucked up . Well in the beginning . I cheated . She found out . But I was honestly gone tell her everything but she found out I broke her heart all that and then some . Since I put all my business out there . Only reason why I cheated was because I wanted a kid . I wanted her for sure but I wanted a kid . As time passed us by I realized she doesn’t want kids at all . So I had to make a decision , kids or stick around for my one true love in my adult life . So I looked her in the face , I probably had tears In my eyes and told her I chose her . She looked at me with confusion for a little and I dont think she anted me to flat out give up kids. But I was gone doe what I had to do to keep her by my side . 
Now before we get to me cheating . I had an apartment on Old Morgantown Road . I loved that damn space man . Hard wood flooring . Storage unit . I had a w/d hook up . I had a good apartment and I could afford it and be able to live my best life . Rent was 475 a month . Utilities and water ran me about 80 . So I was well within my budget . But my dumb ass got involved with this man who I thought I could change . I was trying to hear from nobody about nothing . I wasnt trying to hear that he was cheating because I felt like I gave him no reason to cheat . I was giving him everything and then some . Hell I let his stupid ass cousin stay on my couch . So they were living rent free right , I know stupid Kendra always doing dumb shit . I should have opened my eyes but I didn’t . 
Well he and I are definitely no longer together . He got my little cousin pregnant . I dont know whats worse . That she knew he was still living with me . That she knew we was kin . That he knew we was still together , fucking and living together and I never ask for a dollar . Or that my bosses had to call me in the office with another one of my cousins and sit me down to tell and show me that he was cheating and she was pregnant . It even shocked me that she tried to question me about my niggas car . Like girl he and I live together so yes maam I’m gone drive his car . and she was in shock to see me in the drivers seat . huh . Aint that funny how it all played out though ? But you know , karma got took his dick for a minute . He got the worst news of his life . His heart was just as shattered as mine . His trust was screwed if not worse than mine . He found out that while he was too busy cheating on me , she was getting knocked down by his cousin . LMFAO SERIOUSLY . He did all that cheating and got that girl pregnant and ended up getting played himself . So while I was his woman , he had a side bitch who had a side nigga , but THE SIDE NIGGA HAD A SIDE BITCH . I hadnt had sex with him in a while because things started getting to me and I was becoming very suspicious so I was still going to get checked anyways . But yea . What a fckd up love hexagon . Crazy how we all worked together . But when I reached my snapping point . I became a little on the ratchet side and called his mom and told her come get her sons belongings because he was homeless again . My cousin didnt have her own spot so somebody had to come take care of him because by that time I was done pretending . 
Shit got bad for me mentally . I had me fckd up . I lost my job and went broke because I drank and popped it away . I know definitely wasn’t the right thing but I just wanted to feel numb to everything . I didnt really care how I got high just as long as I as high I was okay and at peace . 
Alot of time went by and my past came back . She made me feel safe . And she saw me ; like the actual me . She knew something was up . Hell I gained 50 pounds since the last time we seen each other . But when she came back . I dont know if I was more so excited to see her or trying to fuck her right there on the floor at work . I walked in the door and the moment I seen her ... I didnt care who I was talking to , I think Wanda , I’m sorry boo but I seen my old boo and just had to do it . I could not help myself I had to hug her before I did anything else . I had a little more weight on me too because during our last encounter , hmm hmm , I was a bit smaller and hadnt grown boobs yet . So when she seen me running 90 mph to her ; baby girl was in for a shock . 
Time went by and we started seeing each other a little more outside of work . Then she started to spend the night . But when she started doing that , I think I made things a little complicated for her at her moms . I had no intentions of doing so but it kinda got weird because she wasnt coming home very much any more . But yall , when I had her all to myself . Do you know how many times I undressed this girl with my eyes . I mean she standing there fully clothed and I seen EVERY INCH of her thru them clothes . It was bad yall . lol . She kinda eventually sorda moved in ; even though I thought she had already moved in . Time went by and things were okay ya know . We were just in the “ talking “ phase and just filling eachother out . She started to grow on me a little more than I planned . and then I wanna say it was my birthday or after ? Baby girl was so drunk . She , our friend Ladaya , and I went to go grab food and drinks . Weeellllllll , I trapped her into drinking and drinking and drinking . We got home ? and she drank and and got funnier as the night went on . I remember that day like it was yesterday and the videos I have are absolutely the funniest videos I have ever recorded . “ butt clouds “ and the car honk that about gave her a damn heart attack . 
Anywho times have went on . We decided to go to hilltop and live there . Who would have thought we would live together because I was stern on not wanting to live with her . It was weird living there . Always wondering if or when we were going to get a roommate . Then ? Thats the first time I ever broke a heart . See , she was always wanting to like distinguish a title. Meanwhile I am petrified of titles and labels and shit . Plus I have labeled myself for so long I didnt want to put a label on she and I . So I waited and waited and waited and decided to test waters . By testing waters meaning , I caught baby fever BAD . LIKE BAD BAD . I wanted a kid so bad I didnt think about talking to her first , I was just hoping one day I could be like , surprise baby we are having a baby ; butttttt I was gonna tell her how I got pregnant IF if actually happened . But she kinda beat me to it . She seen the messages on her tablet and as you know it went to shit from there . I broke her heart . I wasnt sure if or when she would or could ever forgive me . ( its JAn232021 ) and I know she still hasn’t forgiven me for anything . Not sure if she will ever get past it enough to love me love me .
 We made it official , May 2019. By that time the only things that mattered to me were building a life with her. Come August 2020 . We got a place together and as time went on, I knew something was wrong but I would rather ignore it than have to go to the doctor because that just aint my cup of tea. I hate doctors.. they always wanna diagnose people with shit. I just didn’t wanna be one of those people so I held out as long as I could before it got to the point of being unbearable . I lost yet another good job . At first they thought it was covid and it wasnt . I tested negative for covid . Then I had like 5 appointments that following week . I was put on all types of stuff . I was throwing up everything . I was crying non stop . I was doing things not in my normal regimen . Thats when things fell harder on her . Harder as in bills , and stress and everything . I became that burden . I became the thing in the relationship that puts everything on the line . I became the complete faliure in the relationship . 
I wasn’t able to help like I planned . in fact my checks were so small that every pay day because I had all my bills and people I owed money to on auto pay and I kept amking promises, put me in the negatives . I was in the negatives for 3 to 4 months . So imagine being the one in the relationship who didnt feel welcome . Who didnt feel like I desrved the love and things like that . All I wanted to do was help out and I couldn’t . Made me want to pack up and wait until I knew she was gone so I could leave . I didn’t know what to do . But I knew I was pretty much of no use . I knew that she resented me . I knew it pushed things back so far it may never come back to normal . 
But now , Im better than I was still struggling though .  But I have this amazing job . I have a job where I can do my part and not hurt . I have a job where I can finally help out now . But its not enough . I’m not enough . The love is not enough anymore . I have became disposable . I have become the one who broke and shattered her heart and trust in her adult love life . How do I come back from it ? How do I rescue something that may have already died ? Am I worth it ? Am I better off without ? Do I deserve her ? She deserves the world and I want to give it to her I do .
But idk , maybe my mom was right . just maybe the only things I’m good at are singing and laying on my back . Havent accomplished shit yet . Got banned from a job because I tried to put my hands on someone . Got fired from 3 good fucking jobs because of my health . 
Im crashing at this point . My future is on edge . I am on edge . this is not cool dude . 
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A Pokemon double-feature!
First episode:
Satoshi does the opening! Shows some Pokemon.
BEANS. BUY ALL THE BEANS. Mallow buys some patterened ones for Steenee! Wow, Kiawe, how many are you buying?
Sophy is Concerned at the prospect of shopping. Because TPCi love a stereotype, all the girls are hyped about it, of course...
And Kiawe is OUT. Sophy bails as well, and Roto shows some sort of timer? Oh, apparently Alola Detectives is about to start, of course XD
Opening! Still no changes to like, Bounsweet, Lillie and the egg, stuff like that?
Many sparklies! Satoshi seems more interested in an island out in the distance. Same tbh. A woman tells him about it, and says there's plenty of Pokemon there! They can hire a kayak to get there!
Ditching shopping in order to kayak to an island. Fair enough! Nice day out on the ocean - Wingull, Corsola, nice breeze, curvature of the Earth...
And they made it! ...Immediately finding a Crabrawler boxing match? SATOSHI ARE YOU REALLY GOING TO TRY TO FIGHT THEM. ...No, they are going to run the fuck away XD
A CUTER FRIEND. HI CUTIEFLY. Pikachu sneezes, and back home, so does Roto? Huh XD Satoshi follows the Cutiefly, finding a gorgeous meadow full of them! Beautifly, Comfey, a ton of Alolan Exeggutor in a parade!
Aw, it's the opening! And Satoshi drinking directly from a pond that Pokemon are bathing in XD Satoshi and Pikachu dive in!
Pikachu yawns, but Satoshi has BEANS. A yellow one, of course! And a malasada for Satoshi.
Satoshi gets thoughtful, thinking of everyone he knows, while the Laverre music plays! <3 Aww, bbies. And they fall asleep then and there.
SUDDENLY SURROUNDED BY WIMPOD.
Ad break! Holy shit there's a NEW Pokemon Pan ad! lmfao really creepy-themed ad for a new Mimikyu card.
Hey! They stole the beans! Rude! Pikachu tackles the one with the bag and manages to get it back. Good job!
A mysterious sound? :o Pika is spooked, but Satoshi is curious. Something in a gap in the cliff, huh?
Gasp! It's a Wimpod, trapped or something! Satoshi SHONENS into action! ...Unsuccessfully. Pikachu licks his hurt hand, and it's time for another attempt! Pikachu races off somewhere, and Satoshi falls off... again.
Rowlet falls off the roof in their sleep.
Pikachu returns, and this time, with an A-Exeggutor! Good thinking! It lifts Satoshi up to the top of the cliff, and he clambers down to the trapped Wimpod! (The trapped and VERY ALARMED Wimpod, oh dear.) Pikachu IRON TAILs a hole in the cliff, and Wimpod is free!
Wimpod spots their family and swims off, then swims back to thank Satoshi, then returns <3 Cute!
Now, night has fallen - Satoshi gazes out at the sea, and spots a small, sparkling Pokemon - Tapu Lele! They scatter scales, and all of Satoshi's scratches and cuts heal up. Satoshi calls a thank you as they fly off.
Back at Kukui's place, Satoshi tells him about it. Roto pulls up their dex entry, and Satoshi stares at his hands in amazement. Next up, the entry for Wimpod, and then it's time for dinner (and for Rowlet to dive back into their favourite bag)!
A nice, sweet episode <3
Second episode:
Grocery shopping and suffering. Apparently, Roto is not quite strong enough to carry shopping bags! A donut rolls out and is caught by an older woman. She starts handing it back, when SUDDENLY A LITTEN.
Back to the bridge that Rowlet saw last time, but Satoshi never did! Rowlet shows no recognition :| Litten brings the donut to Stoutland, who's not looking so good :(
...Okay, he Fire Fanged that log pretty good XD Litten. Made a good attempt at it XD
Stoutland is coughing :(
Flashback time! The sandwich theft, meeting Stoutland, seeing Litten again.
Satoshi kneels and starts digging through his bag, and Litten, uh, Fire Fangs his head. Litten and Rowlet are going to spar, it seems!
Back at home, Roto shows Kukui the footage from earlier. Kukui seems concerned.
Next day, heading to (or home from?) school, OH HEY, ROCKETS OUT OF NOWHERE. ...Litten appears out of nowhere and Fire Fangs the shit out of them, running up to Satoshi and tugging at his pants leg. Pikachu tosses an Electro Ball at the Rockets, and escape in the resulting flash.
Satoshi's made it back to the Stoutland, who's now on the floor D: Satoshi tries to pick him up, which Meowth, following, observes.
At the Pokemon Centre. Stoutland is not doing well :( Watching on the other side of the glass, Litten yowls unhappily, leaping out of Satoshi's arms as soon as the door opens. Litten starts grooming Stoutland, while the nurse talks to Satoshi. Meowth continues watching, looking pensive.
Satoshi shows up at the Centre with food - only to find that Stoutland and Litten are gone! They race to the alleyway, only to get stopped by Meowth, who seems to... offer to show Satoshi where they are?
Ad break feat. Usain Bolt as a member of Team Skull. Okay XD
Back under the bridge. Litten continues looking after Stoutland, who wants to see them perfect their Fire Fang. Aww, almost, Litten! Litten snuggles up to Stoutland and goes to sleep.
One leaf left on the tree :(
Litten has a dream about Stoutland looking hale and hearty, and races towards him, only for him to fade away D: Waking up with a start, Stoutland is gone?!
Not at the old house. Not at the marketplace. SNOWBELLE CITY THEME D: Litten looks out at the rough seas, then returns to the alley just in time to see the last leaf fall off the tree and land on the now-broken couch. And then, to add insult to injury, it starts to rain.
Kukui and Satoshi show up with umbrellas, watching Litten howl in misery, before they jump up on the couch and fall into a miserable sleep.
Meanwhile at the Rocket base, Meowth is down in the dumps, and gets a hug from Bewear.
Back in town, Satoshi gets a bag of food from the old lady, offering them to Litten, who turns away.
A sad montage of sadness - set to Meowth's song, interestingly enough. Meowth goes to visit Litten, who still hasn't eaten anything. Eventually, Satoshi and his team return, trying to cheer up the sad Litten. The rain eventually stops, and the last leaf blows away. Litten chases after it, stopping when they see a rainbow spread across the sky, and, beneath it, Stoutland in the clouds.
Satoshi's stomach rumbles and Litten brings him one of the berries that Satoshi bought for them. They mock-argue about it until Pikachu falls over from sheer overstimulation. Satoshi chats to Litten, and Litten, er, scorches him XD Meowth watches on, and definitely smirks at the scorching, the li'l shit XD
Time for a battle!! Wanting to see if Satoshi is worthy as a trainer, huh? Looks like it worked - Satoshi hurls up a Pokeball, and Litten leaps into the air and smacks the button with their paw!
"NYABBY GETTO DAZE!"
MEOWTH TRIES NOT TO CRY. Litten meets their new team members, and they all dig in to the berries, under the rainbow - and Stoutland, in the clouds :')
I'M EMOTIONAL.
Next week - evil sandcastles, lots of ice, and Pikachu in a bubble!
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