#and then I said I have some thing else to telll you

[kart0]

Why is breaking up with your therapist so hard ? This is very long btw I'm sorry

I've been meaning to stop therapy for quite some time now. I mean, at least change therapists cuz I feel like all progress I could do with her, I did, so now there's nothing else to do. We've been ending the sessions earlier cuz I honestly don't talk about how I feel much. I just tell her how my week was and what I did.

The thing is, I love talking. All the time. But I hate when the person I'm talking to doesn't pay attention to what I'm saying. And around 10 years ago I realized, people like to talk more than listen. I figured out pretty quickly that there's the one who talks, and there's the one who listens. And that's ok. So I ended up taking a listener side, even though I LOVE talking. That's ok, I can be less selfish, and more empathetic right ? I can be a good listener. I can do this thing, I can be better. When I had no filter, I used to just yap around and annoy everyone so this is very good right ? I felt very mature when I stopped talking.

But whenever I have the opportunity to talk, oh man I WILL TALK. Obviously ! I'm not THAT stupid to pass this chance that I rarely get.

Anyways, it just happens that a lot of things happened this week, I hung out a lot with friends, went to the cinema twice, and ugh more stuff that I'm lazy to write but I did a lot. At least for an introvert like me.

And when I talk to my therapist, I don't really say out loud my opinions and thoughts, only if is necessary, or if she asks. But for this week I needed to give her a lot of context, and I wanted to tell her my opinions about everything. I have very strong opinions and I am very critical. And I like to think I'm a very passionated individual as well.

And honestly ? I just needed to vent. I haven't properly talked to anyone what's been happening (nothing bad I promise) so obviously I'm gonna talk a lot. I have been keeping these thoughts inside for quite some time now.

And the first thing she says "oh you're definitely maniac aren't you ?"

UGHHHHHHH no !!!! I am TELLLING YOU and trying my best to give you context of why I'm feeling the way I feel. I want you to understand my point of view. I never, ever, say my opinion to anyone. And the one person I felt like it was supposed to be safe to tell... Ugh. You're supposed to listen to me. At least you !

I haven't told her about my new diagnosis. I haven't told about my MISDIAGNOSIS. I haven't told her a lot of things. And she's saying that. Confirming the misdiagnosis. It makes me feel...bad. I'm not 100% sure I was misdiagnosed, and I'm not 100% sure of the new diagnosis. I'm not sure about anything really but her poking on this insecurity... Dang. It's not her fault tho, she doesn't know, I haven't told her...but...maybe she could consider that... Maybe I have ADHD instead of bipolar.... I. I don't know. And when I believed I was bipolar, and would say "I think I'm maniac" she would doubt me.

And I just had to pretend to agree like yeah I guess you're right.

When I just. I just wanted to talk. I just needed to talk I really really needed to. It's been bothering me and. I. Ugh. I got a reminder of why I don't do that.

Even though I know, I just. I just love talking but I don't have the opportunity to always do. And I am scared of what you think of me, I don't want you to reprimand me. I don't want you to think less of me more than you do. So I just don't say how I'm feeling, I just say what I do.

But this one time, this one time I try to talk how I feel, and you say this shit ?

It's the confirmation of why I do what I do and prefer to keep things from you.

It's honestly upsetting. I don't feel free to speak about how I actually feel, and what I think. I told my sister and she said ( she's a therapist as well ) that my therapist might be pathologizing my behaviour. And I think she's right.

I've been controlling myself and acting a certain way. Play pretending. If I'm too happy, and energized, and talking a lot, I'm maniac. If I'm quiet and crying, and uninterested I'm depressed. If I don't show any emotions, and agree to everything she says, even tho it bothers me, I am stable, and fine.

It's just. I think I'm tired. I don't want to talk to her anymore.

But I don't have friends ( friends aren't your therapists btw - but they can listen to u and support u ) and my mom never pays attention, and my sister is very busy and tired and I don't want to bother her. I just. If I stop talking to her I feel like I'm gonna get depressed again.

But... I already don't talk a lot how I feel so if I stop talking to her, what difference will it make ?

I can't put into words, I'm not brave enough to open up how this makes me feel because she won't take me seriously. She's going to ask questions that I don't have the answers for. Why do you want to quit ? Don't you think you need this ? Isn't this helping you ? What is your plan if you stop ?

I don't know. I..I don't know, I don't have a plan but I just. I. I don't know.

She has been praising me on how well I've been doing, and how stable I have been. She said "thankfully you have found a good psychiatrist, and you found the right meds for you. You have to stick to the plan" when I haven't been taking these meds for around two months. And I've been feeling BETTER. I'm better now because I'm not taking anything.

I feel like a fraud. I can't tell her. I don't want her to think I'm a bad person, or stupid, for stopping them. I don't want her to give me the talk of how stupid, and dangerous, and immature it was of me to do things in secret.

I know that. I knew all the risks, I have researched, a lot. I didn't just cut them off and stopped. It was something I did slowly. I tested the waters. I did the best I could.

I did what I thought it was best for me, I had a hypothesis, and I tried it, and I was correct. I am not that dumb ok.

I looked for a different doctor, I looked for a FOURTH, PROFESSIONAL, opinion.

I just don't know how to explain. I did everything I could. I haven't told you because I know how you're going to react. And I am terrified.

I want to tell her how this new psychiatrist told me how smart and intelligent I am. How I managed to compensate the tests on my evaluation, because I was that smart. I want to say it made me so, incredibly happy. I like to think I'm smart but. I'm very insecure.... And . Like. I have so much potential. And this doctor was so nice and. It made me feel so good. I can't express on words here how. How relieving it felt. Ok, I'm not dumb. Ok. Ok maybe I'm smart. I felt proud.

But I can't say this. I have been keeping to myself because I feel that if I tell ANYONE, they will think I'm just looking for praise, or I want validation, or I just want to rub in their faces. No. I'm not like that. I just. It felt good, for the first time, someone believing in me.

My parents, specially my dad, always treated me as if I were stupid. I'm not. They would always compare me to my sister. She's very academic smart. And she's very hardworking. I'm lazy and totally different. I'm not her. And I always, always, felt stupid. An idiot. Look at him he's so dumb he can't to anything.

I wonder how different things would have gone if I had their support. Because well. They think I'm stupid anyways. It didn't matter how hard I tried, I, would, will, always. Always. Be stupid. So I just stopped trying. I didn't study, and I never tried my best. And still. I did well in school.

I got into public unis. Without studying, at all. Even after two years after high school. I did that. In Brazil we can only get into public universities by taking entrance exams.

I got in.

I felt so. Disappointed. When my sister got into her public uni. My parents were so excited we all went to a restaurant to celebrate.

When I got into one. They didn't even say congratulations. It's was on a different state. Far from my hometown.

They didn't let me go.

Isn't that funny tho ? I know they didn't want me to go because they truly, love me. And didn't want me far, and would miss me. And, they also thought I wasn't mature enough, and wouldn't be able to take care of myself. They were right tho lol I am very bad at taking care of myself.

Ugh, I digress. Sorry. I got a little too emotional here.

But I wanted to explain why it mattered so much to me, what the doctor said. I did well, despite everything, because I am just that smart. It's a slap in my parents faces. Even though I always had a harder time grasping school subjects. I was able to.

I don't want to belittle my sister's achievements obviously. I just. I had a harder time and that's ok. She knows that. She would try to tutor me, and I would ask for help.

Ughhhhhhhhhhh I wanna dieeeeeeee ( not really )

Anyways, back to breaking up with my therapist:

The thing that validates my experience is...

I always feel a sense of dread and anxiety when I see that our session day is coming closer. And I always feel relieved right after we finish, cuz thank God now I have one week til the next one.

Lol

Anyways I'll let u guys know, I just need to build up a little more courage to break up with her. Wish me luck I guess

[burnedwriter]

‘’i need to tell you something’’

warning:a little bit of angst but nothing major,fluff,mention of death,!gender neutral reader,confession

A/n:might be my second to last fic before i take a small break,dont worry i wont stop writng just taking some rest.

You were all sitting at the table waiting for Charlie and Erin to come back for dinner as they were trying to find a pack of cigarets for him,as he nearly turned the whole hotel upsidedown bc he couldnt find them.

‘‘you have to telll him’‘kate spoke looking at you

‘‘this is one of the few times i agree with kate but she’s right’‘Jamie jumped in the conversation

‘‘see even Jamie agrees with me’‘she said

You felt your heart beating faster just by thinking about the idea of confessing your feeling to charlie,let alone actually go along with it.You were the shyest member in the crew even more than Erin,you will usually listen to music while reaserching for the next person that the docu-series would focus on and have a minimal interaction with the rest of the crew.

‘‘i dont think he even likes me at all ,i mean have yall seen how much he cares about his job!,he might as well be married to it’‘you exclamed disappointed,

‘‘bullshit,you are the only person that he has been nice to and that for sure says something’‘Jamie insisted,lifting her hands in the air

‘‘What are we talking about exactly?’‘Mark asked confused by listening to the whole conversation

‘‘nothing!’‘you replied nervously trying not to look suspicious.

The three of you continued to gossip before Charlie and Erin walked in the dining room,cutting your conversation short as they sit down at their assigned seats

‘‘there was a pack of cigarets in the bar but just like anything in this place is ancient’‘Charlie complained

‘‘im sure you will find some cigarettes Charlie’‘you reasured him not wanting to hear more of his complains.

‘’i like your optimish’’he complimented,making you turn your head away as a small blush started to creep up.

All of you continued to talk to eachother waiting for mr Du’met to arrive but as some time passed he never showed up.Charlie took this opportunity as a means to start filming behind his back,sending the crew on their way

‘‘Y/n,i want you to stay here for a bit i need to tell you something’‘Charlie commanded you,seeing you as you were about to  leave.Now with the crew gone you were left alone with charlie at the dining table.

‘‘i wanted to say thank you for you amazing contribution to the team,without you and your reshearch we would probably wouldnt be here where we are right now,cheers’‘he said taking a sip from his glass

‘‘I should be thanking you charlie without you i would probably be still unemployed and who knows what else what could have happened ‘‘you thanked him taking a sip from your own glass of wine

‘’there is one other thing that wanted to tell y...’‘he sounded hesitant but before he could finish his sentence Jamie burst  into the room,interapting him.

‘‘sorry that im interapting you two but Kate  needs you right now Y/n’‘Jamie called out to you asking you to help them

‘‘im sorry,i have to go help them for a bit’‘you said dissapointed ,getting up from your chair and went towards jamie

‘’its fine,i will talk to you later’‘he said dissapointed leaking through his voice.Seeing the doors closing leaving him all alone at the dining room.

That was the last time you ever saw him ever again before all hell broke loose.You tried to convince yourself he wasnt dead and that was an illusion from du’met to break everyones spirits but the more you thought of the scene that you saw unfold infront of you,the more it made your heart cramble into pieces realizing that the person you love got killed right infront of your very own eyes.

After what felt like an eternity and escaping many traps,you made it out alive.Now you and Erin were close to the light house,hoping that Kate and Jamie survived since you two got seperated from them,when all of a sudden you see Mark trying to climb up the little hill asking for your help but who you didnt expect was Charlie who was right behind him.

‘‘oh my god Charlie you are still alive’‘running towards him,taking him into a tight hug

‘‘you are crashing me’‘Charlie said in pain as you squeezed him

‘‘i think we should leave these two alone,right erin’‘Mark hinted nugging her with his elbow

‘’oh! right’’Erin responded as she walked away with him

Now the both of you were left alone once again,you thought it was the perfect time to confess your feeling,you didnt know if you were going to die so you had to get it off your chest before that happens.

‘‘i know its probably the wrong time to say it but.....i....love you’‘you confessed looking up at him,tip toeing as you went in to kiss him,expecting him to pull away from you instead he wrapped your waist closing the distance between the two of you,deepening the kiss before pulling away for air.

‘‘im so s-sorry,i didnt know what i was thinking’‘stumbling over your own words too embarassed by your own actions.

‘‘no need to apologise when i feel the same about you’‘holding your hands gently,as he confessed his own feelings.

"Really!?"you said shocked,your heart beating fast from tge anticipation as you didnt expect this type of answer

‘’i wished we would have some proper time but the others are probably waiting for us,let’s get out of here and have a proper date when we get back home,hows that sounds?’’He whispered his face inches away from yours

‘‘it sounds amazing,now lets get out of here together’‘you said holding eachothers hands as you headed for the light house as you hoped to make it out safely not knowing what horrors still awaits you

[zeciex]

I'm a bit petty with this but I'm glad she didn't marry Cregan or another man who's all nice, chivalrous and supports her mother's claim. That would've been soooo boring, free of drama and real angst and I love toxic shit lmao. This is a personal preference so absolutely no offense to those who enjoy those type of stories, but I generally feel like most of the times where the OFC is married, betrothed or has a side romance with Cregan or another man like him, at least half of the readers turn immediately into Aemond antis. And I don't blame them, with Aemond being Aemond and doing stupid Aemond things and fighting for his side in the war it's hard for a lot of readers, especially when most are team black, not to be like "yeah he doesn't deserve her if he does all this and won't swear allegiance to his half-sister to prove his love for OFC"…which I do get it but like we said previously, he can't betray his family for love just like the OFC can't do it either. Also, after reading dozens of chapters where a clear connection has been established between Aemond and the main female character, one that is clearly based on true love, I really can't bring myself to root for another endgame ship; anything else that is not with Aemond always seems rather forced since it will all be based on duty and all that. Plus I really like the trope in which two persons from two opposing sides do manage to end up together despite all the forces that try to keep them separated. Not to mention that with Cregan specifically, I just don't think he wouldn't keep his father's oath if he didn't get to marry a daughter of Rhaenyra…seems a bit dishonorable for a Stark if you get what I mean and using him as a plot device in a Aemond/OC story when the sole purpose is to make Aemond jealous and feel some pain that someone else is or may be sleeping with the woman he loves is a bit cheap.

Agreed about the girlboss thing. Sometimes I do like the trope and I imagine it's hard not to write a girlboss when your OFC rides a dragon but with Aemond/OFC stories specifically it's a bit overdone at this point. Besides having almost no bad character traits and never suffering any major consequences for their bad decisions, a lot of the times these types of characters also read a bit too modern for a Westerosi woman (even for a Targ princess) while Aemond and most other men still retain a majority of the characteristics medieval men have.

I wonder what decision Daenera will make that is dark and with the intent of securing/freeing herself…it most likely involves killing someone who may be innocent. I suspect she won't manage to free herself though since judging by most of your past comments it seems like she'll be with Aemond during the war? Or maybe she'll reunite briefly with her parents when King's Landing falls but then she'll go back to Aemond when he's occupying Harrenhal to kill him and Alys when hearing about the rumors? Although I've always imagined the next time she'll be seeing any of her parents would be, in the case of her father, before Aemond and Daemon's final battle. It will be a long time but I also can't wait when both of them eventually decide to choose each other. Being loyal to one's side until the bitter end, I'm afraid it would be a death sentence and neither of them will do anything that would get the other one killed so their side can win the war. While some things and crimes will never be forgiven like Luke's and their child's death, the only way both can survive is to choose themselves and be united against those whose actions led to the whole mess they'll be facing in the first place. I also imagine that if she gets pregnant again, they'll take into account their future child's life when making the decision to choose each other and be even more motivated to do so. I also hope Daemon lives to witness her getting pregnant AGAIN with Aemond's child so he can telll her "don't worry I'll get rid of this one too"

Ohh I'm excited about the latest preview!! Alicent will try to force Aemond to marry whoever she wants until the end isn't she? Too bad Aemond won't listen to her this time! Even though I'll be hurt seeing Daenera forced into the (official) marriage with him, I'm also glad he took the opportunity to marry her. I feel like it was always going to be the only chance he was going to have so yeah…

I hear about the stories other people write a lot, but I don't read them since I have paranoia that I will accidentally plagarise it lol But I always go with 'to each their own'. I also prefer my stories where two people who should be enemies and should hate each other, fall in love. I love stories when there's a brutality to their love, when it has teeth and claws--but that there's also this deep seeded love that can't be dismissed. I love stories where no matter how flawed and awful a character is, that there's something to love about them anyway. And that is why I'm writing this. I also chose Baratheon because it would be DRAMA! If she had married Cregan it would all have been tame and just... I wouldn't work. It might have worked with a Lannister, but since they're pro Green, they likely wouldn't support Rhaenyra anyway. Boris Baratheon provided me with the drama and angst I wanted, and it was a plotline that could easily fit into the story -- and his death will also have consequences.

Daenera will have her own girlboss moments, as she's always had. But actions have consequences (for the most part, I do need some level of freedom) and I want to keep to that. Aemond burned Dae= she poisons his sword He exposes her scandalous letter = she sets him up with a whore Aemond helps Boris beat Aran=Boris wants Dae as wife/he basically introduced them lol Daenera fucked aemond = She needed to be married off Daenera stars an affair with aemond = she gets beaten up and is threatened to become a brood mare = she kills him Boris dies = loss of an alliance And so forth. Some consequences are bigger than others, and some are a domino effect. I also fear that if I keep her the same throughout the story, it will go stagnant, so having her lose power and fight to regain it will battle that stagnancy.

I wont reveal anything more, but the act is dark, and it is a way of securing/freeing herself, though she will remain with Aemond and in King's Landing. I am not entierly sure where she'll be, but I am leaning towards her going to Harrenhal before King's Landing falls. And she'll only meet Daemon again to confront him. With Rhaenyra it will be far longer, and Im not to sure when they will meet again.

"I also hope Daemon lives to witness her getting pregnant AGAIN with Aemond's child so he can telll her "don't worry I'll get rid of this one too" Are you kitting me?! This is great! lol I hope by the point that they choose each other, that by doing so they will each work to win the crown, and weave their way into it. It will take great machinations, but I'd like to see them (and especially Daenera) in a crown. But I am not entirely set on the ending just yet, though I really do hope it will end with them on the throne.

Oh, Alicent does NOT want Aemond to marry Daenera. She thinks that it will only bring him ruin and destruction, and with her knowing about the affair, she'd try and force his hand.... though, we know Aemond, he will drag his feet and push it as far off as it can get, and then everything happens and he's like 'this is my opportunity! Aegon gets a crown, I get Daenera its a winwin' and Alicent will have brain bleed trying to wring that idea out of his head. But a marriage with Daenera is sound. Politically it makes sense.

[tiedshoelace]

Happy pride month I’m transgender

[bellshazes]

proof that bdubs and etho watch each other's episodes, spanning the better part of a decade. inspired by bdubs repeatedly addressing etho directly as if no one else would be watching, driving me slowly insane.

bdubs: you know whenever etho does something, i'm always like "Yup, that's amazing that's how I wanna do it." it's been that for years, ever since, uh, ever since I started playing minecraft, it's always been like that. if etho does it, I wanna do it.

bdubs: tango stopped by earlierand he said oh [running together, mocking] isn't this the exact same thing etho made?" I've seen etho's, but I didn't go into the guts. these are my guts. mkay?

bdubs: Etho saves the day again - I think I seen Etho do that in a video or something. um, cool, just make a little wick from some fire and, boom, off you go.

bdubs: somebody in Etho's episode said, "Hey, Etho, you should connect all of your places and have a main road, and call it a King's Road," and bladablahdah.

Etho: I was watching BdoubleO's let's play today and he gave me inspiration for this project.

Etho: How amazing would it be - you know the classic story trope where all the guys wanna get the pretty girl and they fight over her? What if all the stores on Hermticraft start fighting over me? [laughs] They all want me to get, to become their amazing customer you know? Spend all my money at their place and they start offering memberships and freebies, low prices. Oh, that would be a dream come true.

Bdubs: Oh, yes. Now that - imagine, imagine you're going shopping somewhere and they have a big sign with your face on it, and big balloons with your head on it. Wouldn't that make you feel just special? And you got all these coupons, and money that you can spend?

Bdubs: you guys know the lovely Ethoslab? Ethoslaaaaaab... dot com! He's got, you know, a single player let's play where you know he brags all the time about, "Oh, I got all these resources and [unintelligible] and the best farms," and all that stuff. Well I watch, I tune in from time to time and I watch an Ethoslab video, and he's always saying, if you aren't using TNT to do this and that, you're a sucker.

Bdubs: You should watch - Etho's got some good tips! He might be mean about it, you know, his tips and tellling you you're a sucker and whatnot, but after you obey him, you're not a sucker!

Bdubs: You know I saw an Etho video where he was riding a boat, and he was talking about how fragile boats are. And boy, is he right.

Bdubs: hey, hey, hey, hey! Fletch - farmer! ETHO! [crazed laughter] Have I had him for a long time? Etho, I got a freakin' farmer, dude! Holy crap! Etho's been wanting a farmer for ever, and I just ran - randomly snag one? They're very rare apparently, and they're very valuable. There's something good about them, I think it's the pumpkin trade or something? I don't know. Uh.. man, isn't that the worst? Etho's been wanting a farmer so bad and I just, [unintelligible noises] have a farmer no problem. Terrible. He deserves it more than me.

Bdubs: Etho if you're watching, I love the water - the water gateway.

Etho: I've been watching his episodes to see what happens with this, and I don't think anyone's made a request of him yet, so I wanna put in a request.

Etho: I'm nervous about this because I don't know if this is an actual farm, or if he's pranking me. [laughs] We'll find out very soon. Okay, I think that's it there. Are you ready guys, for the Bdubs sugarcane farm! From master redstone Bdubs. Here we go... oh, wow! Woah!

Bdubs: If everybody leaves, it'll be me and Etho over here, pranking each other back and forth.

[animeyanderelover]

Hi! Can I request headcanons of levi (or if you don't write for aot then choose a random character) of how he would act if the woman he loves is already dating someone else? (Reader can be gn)

I definitely write for Attack on Titan. I love this Anime!

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessiveness, obsessiveness, manipulation, sabotage, stalking, death

s/o is already dating someone else

⚔️Levi is without a doubt in my mind one of the most possessive ones in Attack on Titan. He would find this unpleasant turn of events fairly early on out since he already started his research about you and also asked people like your neighbors questions about you. But they just gave him a pitiful look and told him you were already dating someone else. Happily.

⚔️Levi hates very few things more than having his future partner ripped away from his arms before he even had the chance to court or kidnap them. A lot of things were going on in him at that moment, his feelings exploding inside of him. But he couldn’t risk losing it in front of your neighbors. So he just thanked them for the information and walked away. He needed to let off some steam so the option was either training with his cadets or destroying something. Hopefully he went with the latter because if not whoever he trained with was bruised and broken after the small training session.

⚔️Levi wanted to see for himself if you were so happy like he was told you were. He knew where you worked and came the very next day to that place, sitting somewhere near and waiting for your partner to arrive. And ugh, did he hate that smile that you gave your girlfriend/boyfriend the moment you saw them, embracing them in a warm hug and giving them a quick peck on the lips. It took Levi some self-control to not storm towards the two of you and rip you apart before punishing that bitch/bastard for daring to touch you like this. He felt like barfing when seeing how they touched you. The only thing he could do for now was heavily glaring. And if looks could have killed they would have already died over a hundred very agonizing deaths. His glare was so intense that other people had already started to give him weird looks.

⚔️Levi instantly started informing himself about that bitch/bastard, not wanting to miss a single thing about them that could help him to make the both of you break up. He also informed himself about your relationship. How long had the both of you known each other before you became a thing? How long had you been dating? Had there ever been a time where the both of you had a huge argument and if yes about what? He kept everything he found out in mind, everything the citizens or the documents told him. At the same time he started on forming for now a friendship with you, bumping often into you and starting some conversations with you. He knew after all what you were interested in.

⚔️Levi started to slowly slip here and there some comments in about your partner. He had seen them recently checking other women/men out, did you know that? Or that he had seen them recently hanging out with someone else. You had faith in your partner, but the person tellling you this was Captain Levi, humanity’s strongest soldier.

⚔️Levi had a plan and was following it. After he had raised those small suspicions he started keeping your boyfriend/girlfriend busy, especially on the days where he knew you had a date. He made sure that they wouldn’t be able to make it until hours later and guess who always popped up in the places where you were waiting for them to arrive? Levi! He played innocently, asking you confused what you were doing here all by yourself? And when you told him on the verge of tears that your so called “boyfriend/girlfriend” had let you wait for nearly an hour now and people had already started to give you pitiful looks Levi expressed his shock and confusion and offered to be your company for now. And in that moment you just needed someone to talk to. And this happened more than once.

⚔️Your trust was greatly damaged, you became tired of the same excuses from them everyday and every time they promised to make it up to you it ended with you sitting alone until Levi came in and saved you from the whispers of other people. Levi was there for you and whenever you were deeply upset he was your shoulder to cry on. Not only that, but your neighbors told you that he often asked them about your well-being, leaving small cheer up notes and presents to make you feel better. Your neighbors knew about all the recent events and being worried over you asked you if it wouldn’t be the best for the both of you to break up. It obviously didn’t work anymore between the two of you.

⚔️This thought had crossed your mind as well, but you still clawed onto the last shred of hope you had. Your neighbors gave you the advice that there were plenty of potential partners to choose from, people that would be better for you than that fool who didn’t know how to treat you properly, for example a special young man who always came over to make sure you were fine. It worked accordingly to Levi’s plan. All he needed to do now was crushing the last bit of trust you had in that jerk. Shortly after rumors started to pop up, people telling each other that your partner had been cheating on you and being involved with some less legal business. And that was enough to make you snap. All people in your district had known that they had more than often not been there on your dates and had just let you down. He had often said he had been sent somewhere else from some unknown person, but no one believed him. Instead there were rumors he had secretly met with other women/men. In the end they were looked down by everyone.

⚔️You were greatly upset, feeling hurt that the love you had given them had meant nothing to them. You cried for the first few days, too many emotions screaming inside of you. And that’s when your knight in shining armor appeared. Levi comforted you during that time, trying to cheer you up and taking you outside to get your mind off them. And people noticed that with a smile on their face. Levi had successfully charmed his way into the people’s hearts with which you lived in this district and after the recent events everyone wished for you to be happy again. And wouldn’t Levi be just a perfect boyfriend? Wherever you went people talked about how much Levi always cared and that you were truly blessed to have someone like him.

⚔️It honestly wouldn’t take long for Levi to successfully woo you in such a scenario. Not only has he built up your trust in him beforehand, he has also the people in your close surroundings wrapped around his fingers. Levi knows what you like and are interested in and will use all the information she has collected about you. If that person should ever come anywhere near you again he’ll threaten and blackmail them to better stay away. And no one would believe your ex if they would tell anyone about this.

⚔️The story might be different if your partner is a part of the scouts. Then there is a good chance that Levi will make sure that their next mission will be their last. He would still make sure that your trust would be already cracked beforehand so you won’t have a too hard time to move on. In either case Levi will win. He decided that you’ll be his so you’re going to be his.

[kookie-doughs]

Beta Tester

Kozume Kenma X Reader

-YN LN is a popular mangaka

Chapter 16: Stage

Seeing you running towards him made Kenma frown.

"Kenma!" You waved. "Thank you for not leaving yet!"

Ignoring you he continued to walk towards the direction of the stage.

You pouted and crossed your arms. "You know... As sorry as I am for that kiss I really don't regret it."

Jogging up in front of him with a shit eating grin, you positioned yourself in front of him where he'd have no choice but to look at you while you looked at him. His ears were slightly red without a doubt but who were you kidding yours were too.

Kenma cleared his throat, "Good for you then. Now get out of the way so I could get out of here. "

"And honestly I liked that kiss." You continued determined to see him flustered again. "Your lips were soft and I bet my ass you're a great kisser. I rate you 10/10 would do it again."

With a glare he looked at you straight in the eyes, "So do it pussy." Then went ahead before you could see the red settling on his face.

"I- Wh- Excuse me- Wh- Huh? K-Ken- Kenma!!" You squeaked as you chased after him.

"I said what I said."

You finally caught up to him when he was about to climb the stairs towards the stage. Luckily(?) you also have to go up with him.

"Ehh... Where's the flustered Kenma? I wanted to see you all blushy and panicked. You looked so adorable. I don't want hot daddy Dom Kenma. I want cute baby sub Kenma..."

As he was halfway up the stairs your height gap grew and he was way over you. He just looked down on you, leaning closer the gap barely existent he smirked.

"Too bad." Then turned away.

There were a handful of people who saw the scene. Which made you more embarrassed. Holy shit you acted all alpha online only to be dominated by a hermit named Kozume Kenma.

Boy were you happy. You'd happily submit to him.

"Let us all welcome the two people who made the game possible! YN LN and Kozume Kenma!!"

You might be confused why you two were the ones going and why you were introduced like that.

As you are the creator of Puri-Puri you of course are the reason why this game existed.

But Kenma came here as he's the biggest investor, the face of the game and no one else wanted to go. So yeah...

As you two came up the stage you were just wishing the blush from the scene a few moments ago. The cameras flashed and claps were heard.

"Shit the media is here..." You mumbled.

"Your surprised, why?" Kenma gave you an amused and disappointed look. No idea how he managed to do that but he did.

"Shut the fuck up. I just got a feeling the questions won't be about the game thanks to the media."

"So you do think sometimes..."

"You want me to hit you?"

A clearing of throat behind you stopped your argument. It was Akaashi handing you both microphones to be clipped on you [I'm sorry I dont know what they're called] .

"Good luck, don't do and say anything stupid. And remember this is the release of PPM's demo." He reminded and got off the stage.

"Good evening to you all! I hope you've been having a great time!" I started.

"We'd like to thank you again for attending the release of PPM's demo."

"Now of course the game is yet to be played but from the trailer that was shown, I hope you had enjoyed it since the game is going to be much better than the trailer!"

"I'm sure you all must've questions as well. That's why Me and your idi-- dear author will answer."

"You definitely were about to call me idiot." You frowned at him.

He smirked and shrugged. "I have not a slightest idea what you mean."

"You're the worst."

Ignoring you... Again. He motioned at one of the reporters to probably ask their question.

"Ms. LN, as the initial plot of the Puri-Puri Magika is about [REDACTED], and the trailer we saw have quite a large difference from one another only having the universe in similarty. Is it just the universe of the similar one to the manga? "

"Of course the plot would be different. It disappoints me quite a bit that none of you realized how they're connected aside from the universe. Well, I don't really want to spoil you but if you actually read the Manga and saw the trailer," You gave a proud smirk. "Everyone that was a fan of PPM in the team were ecstatic. They were all just-" You mimicked a mind blown. "They were so excited about the game and a those."

"Thank you Ms. LN."

"Next please."

"Mr. Kozume," the next one called. "You were neither a fan of YN, nor PPM, why did you decide to not only beta test the game but sponsor and invest big sum of money on the game."

"We--"

"No wait ! I want to answer some of those questions!" You cut off cackling. "The one about him investing and him beta testing! It's actually an annoying and Hella funny story."

"No I was a--"

"Shut up you'll probably lie."

"Shut up." Kenma now had his ears red. "Don't you--"

"He was the biggest asshole back then!"

"Stop talking."

"He fucking beta tested despite not knowing shit about PPM because it was the biggest game. And he just banwagoned  on it like a bitch he was."

"I did not. I had some clues about you Manga."

"You did not know shit about PPM cut yo bullshit. You didn't even know who the MC was!"

"Shut up."

"That's why he beta tested! Now the reason why he invested is really hilarious!"

"I really hate this story..."

"This was the reason why Kenma became Bae too! We didn't know shit about how to contact Kenma, we only had his email address and his social media. Keep that in mind. "

"So since he didn't know shit about PPM he really couldn't care about the plot and just looked for bugs and shit. He wasn't even aware of the bugs in the plot since he didn't know which what was supposed to be part of the plot and not. This bitch ass decided there wasn't any bugs anymore so we went with that. But then we had to play it and saw a shit ton of bugs."

"I said there were some bugs don't make me seems so stupid."

"You didn't even inform us about the glitch at the time skip part! That could've ruined the entire thing! Anywayz, so we had to code the game again. So we emailed him that there were way too many bugs other than what he told us so the next testing would be later. But the asshole never replied. And since I was the one entasked to guide this bitch ass, I  had to flood his email! And he didn't respond! Not once! It had been DAYS! I send him at least 20 emails everyday! I have up on the 3-4th day and DMed him on Twitter."

"I really hate this part."

"No. No. This is the best part. Do y'all remember that one trending #KodzuGone started by Tenma? It's because, this asshole never responded to our emails so I DMed him all the shit important shit in the emails. Then this bitch fucking blocked me! I fucking rante to Tenma and he canceled Kenma like he deserved to! I was panicking about it since Mr. Suzumiya told me that Kenma could be a potential investor if he wanted. And I needed cash... "

"Do not call me that publicly. You are disgusting."

"He went full sugar daddy on me!" You cackled. "His entire squad had betrayed him! They were canceling him so he just fucking slid into my DMs apologizing about the shit he did and I told him, bitch I'm coming over there and see you play this fucking game or I will not stop this canceling and make it worse. So he was forced to telll me his address and I'm not sure if yall saw the live but it was hot shit. The next day he bought all the copies of PPM at this one store and gave them to me and then he invested shit ton of money on my on going works, bought me a new tablet, paid my Keiji bills, and many other shit. Yall would die to have him as sugar daddy I'm telling you. Ya don't even have to give him sugar for the treats. "

"That was the biggest mistake I made."

"Awwe, but thanks to that we're closer than ever. "

"Exactly my point."

"Thank you for answering Ms. LN."

"I hate you so much." Kenma sighed pinching the bridge of his nose.

"No you don't. Admit it you love me."

"I really don't. Next question please."

"A-Ah, my initial question was actually answered in the previous question. It about your live. Now my question is, Ms LN and Mr. Kozume, is your relationship really a platonic one or a romantic one? "

"Okay, babe," You chuckled. "my man won't even let me breathe the same air he does. Ya think we're dating?"

"Well your right."

"What?"

"Excuse me?"

"Huh?! " You exclaimed a little louder than you thought since the mic made a loud noise.

"The relationship we have is both platonic and romantic. As labels aren't placed we share a romantic relationship." Kenma smirked.

You looked at him and the crowd with a clear eminent blush. "I-I I- Wh-"

Pulling you closer to him and turning around so the crowd won't see you both. He lowered the mic to prevent them from hearing.

"I wanted to see you all blushy and panicked . You look adorable." He whispered to your ear before facing the crowd again who were now going crazy over what Kenma had just confirmed.

"Y-You're an asshole..."

"Yeah, an asshole who..." lowering his mic again he leaned to your ear. "Still has your favorite onsie at his place. You really shouldn't have left it at my place. I'm so tempted to burn it."

"You leave my onsie alone! I will drown your consoles."

"With that threat, you're suddenly stripped of your house visit privileges."

"W-Why would you say we're dating?!"

"I didn't. I just said we both share a romantic and platonic relationship with no labels. I technically didn't lie too."

"Why did you do this?"

"Aside from wanting to see you all flustered? I'm probably drunk." Kenma smiled and turned to the crowd again. "Next question please."

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I'm sorry lately there's been to many words and less pictures it's just that... Idk

Lol I'm sorry this was supposed to be smau but there's been too many words

Ooc Kenma is shit so I made him drunk

-kookie-doughs

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[writeradamanteve]

So in case you were still interested in My Former Boss The Art Thief stories...

He told me one day that he’d sold a painting to a gentleman who was able to pay him in cash for part of the value, the rest of which was paid in boxes and boxes of color fans. Yes, like over two thousand of those. He asked me to find someone who would buy that shit in bulk so he could recoup the value of this so-called painting.

My face, you can imagine, was like

I guess at this point, I know that the painting story was bullshit in that he sold someone else’s painting, took what money he could get, and that he probably got this load from some other shady jackass, but at the time, all I was thinking was he had to have been stupid to accept this payment in kind.

So I go online, look for possible buyers, and in the end, the only thing I could find was the fact that people bought this shit individually, but enthusiastically. So I tell him I can put this up for sale on craigslist or something and market it online. We ship them out one at a time and he can make a boatload of profit. These things sold for over $150 a piece, and we can sell them at $50 and people would go crazy over them.

He looked at me like I was crazy and tells me, “Forget that! I’m not selling this piece by piece. Let me ask around.” So I shrug and let him.

Weeks, and then a couple of months go by and nothing. And I’m thinking he’s just a lazy asshole who isn’t going to do anything. At this point, he’s already stiffed me my salary twice, so I go to him and telll him I’ll buy a box from him and I’ll sell it individually. I asked him how much for a box and he told me $70 for the box. So I take it, sell it for $30 each and I make a PROFIT. I told him about this and he laughs and says to me, “Do you want to buy more boxes?”

I realize that this was his way of offloading this shit in bulk, but I’m not afraid of hard work, so I agree. I take more boxes. Keep in mind that I take the train to and from Queens and these boxes are at least 20 lbs each. I can only take two at a time, but I do that shit until he stiffs me one last time with my salary and I finally, absolutely quit.

Months pass and I remember him fondly. I call him and ask him how he’s doing and he invites me and my spouse for lunch—he said he’ll cook goat curry for us. I am a sucker for food, so since it was Christmas, we got him a shirt and cologne, wrap it, and go to his place. Don’t even ask me why I’m nice to this dude who wouldn’t pay me my wages. He was a nice guy and I thought he’s got a shittier life than I do. So we go and have lunch with him, talk about the paintings and sculptures. I realized he has moved into his gallery’s second floor. He is now living here.

After lunch and on our way out of the building, I see the boxes of color fans again and he hasn’t done a thing about it, so I ask him if I could buy some more of them—I can only grab about four, since that was as much cash as we had on us then.

He goes, “Get them all.”

And I go, “Brian, I don’t even have that money to spare.”

He said, “Don’t pay me. Take ‘em all for free. It’s junk.”

And I couldn’t believe it. I told him we can only fit so much in the trunk of our car so we’d have to come back for the rest and he tells us to come back in two weeks and we’d have lunch again.

You better believe the spouse and I hauled that shit. We went back for it two more times. We piled it high in our closet and it took up so much space that it was a fire hazard of sorts, but we were gonna sell that shit.

Friends, my spouse and I amassed $40,000 from selling that individually. It took us 5 years to sell all of it off, but it was easiest money we ever made. We actually still have a box of returns, but I think we decided not to resell those for sentimental reasons.

The last time we went to see Brian was in 2009, and that’s when he gave me the bronze eagle.

The next time I checked up on him, he was in jail.

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 02.11.20 lb

this fucking episode my dudes. i just went through it like...

business maharani is doing some more bitchification of bhaabi, ki dekho phir nikal gayi aapke peeche. even used the same lameass mandir excuse, the idiot, instead of coming up with something new.  

hubs like riddhima is a major pain in the ass, but she's MY PAIN IN THE ASS, where isss sheeee, why isn't she back yet???????? is she ok????????????

ishani getting a call about someone in the hospital and......

bitch, it's her friend who's in the hospital. why the fuck would anyone call ISHANI of all people if riddhima was in the hospital????

lo aa gayi.

gujarat registration gaadi waale bhaiyya was a careful driver. unlike literally everyone else on tellywood. good for him.

concern!maxxxxxxxxxxx about her haalat.

asks about her bleeding hand and she's like i'll tell you if you tell me about how YOUR hand got hurt. noice.

again, rrahul's not putting on the vansh voice in this scene and it's 300% more watchable. for the love of god stop directing him in a way that impedes his performance!!!!!!! LET THE MAN MOVE HIS FACE AND TALK IN HIS NORMAL VOICE!!!!!!!!!!!

cliche dialogue about “shareer ke ghaav jaldi bhar jaate hain par dil ke ghaav..........”

this asshole is like yeah who would know that better than me???? BITCH WHAT IS THIS, THE TRAUMA OLYMPICS???

she's thinking ki yeah, i'm not gonna fall for your fakeass parwaah anymore. good. i like. she needed this stupidass illusion of her's broken longggggggggg back.

ohohohohoho ib waala mangalsutra breaking and slipping off trope idhar bhi hai.

“tooti hui cheezein kabhi kabhi dobara nahi judti.”

dialogue maarke chali gayi, lol.

but notice she's the one who caught it anyway. which makes me think she's gonna choose him/this relationship YET AGAIN. *deeeeeeeepest sigh in the world that sucks up all the oxygen in the atmosphere*

“jaise mera dil.”

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH.

“lekin ab waqt aa gaya hai bohut se cheezon ko sahi karne ka.”

again, he looks menacing and all, but is probably just talking about making sure all the paperwork is up to date for upcoming end of year audits. he's a very rich accountant, remember???

ragini's medical reports have come.

lol being married to ishani is taking yearssssssss off angre's lifespan. roz naya tension, naya drama.

also, angre refers to vansh as "vansh bhai" when talking about him to ishani, but calls him "boss" when referring directly. interesting. veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy interesting. you guys need to sort out that relationship, my dudes. it's the only stable, healthy one in this whole damn show.

ishani is like you're his right hand, what the hell are you doing about riddhima spying on him and getting all up in his business???????? dang, this might be the first conversation they're having about their only common interest: vansh's well being.

also i notice ki shivaay ke saare shirts angre ko diye gaye hain. huh, the shirts must have a kanji eyed wearer clause in their contract.

“mujhe shakti dijiye ke main apne emotions se upar uthke sahi ke saath khadi rahoon.”

damn, first time i've had a lil respect for riddhima. i mean, i know ultimately it's all gonna go to shit, but she's trying.

lmao a dhaarmik aarti version of the title track is playing. a version for every situation!

“main ragini ko bacha ke rahoongi. yeh mera aapse, ragini se, aur apne aap se vaada hai.”

YESSSSSSSSSSS BITCH, SISTERS OVER MURDEROUS MISTERS!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG WHY WON'T Y'ALL JUST DRESS HIM LIKE THIS, LIKE ARNAV, WITH THE SHIRT AND SWEATER COMBOOOOOOOOOOOOO. PLS GODDDDDDDDDDDD STOP DRESSING HIM WITH THAT STUPID SCARF WAALA BLAZERRRRRRRRRRRRR I BEG OF YOUUUUUUUUUU

he's talking to some shadow (def a woman) about how they're his humraaz about the whole ragini issue and nothing is hidden from them and how everything is going as they planned and the story will end soon.

it might be siya but omg i hope to goddddddddddddd it's ishani. i really really reallly want it to be ishani and see the hot demon siblings do some scheming and planning together. the sibs that conspire together, stay together!!!!!!!!!

menacing growling about riddhima and how he needs shadow chick's help in "handling" her, so that she doesn’t leave the house.

“chaahe VR mansion uske liye jail bann jaaye, i don't care.” cool, real healthy. also copied from this week's naagin 5. i'm telling you, these two shows be copying their homework off each other.

vansh leaning real hard on how he trusting shadow chick. hmmmm. reallyyyy hope it's ishani. though can’t say i wouldn’t be delighted if siya also turns out to be just as fucking twisted as him.

ofc ms. snoopy here has come to snoop. SIS TUM THAK NAHI JAATI KYA ISS SAB SE. MUJHE TOH DEKHTE HI THAKAAN HO GAYI HAI AND I NEEDS ME SOME GLUCON D.

“ragini riddhima se jeete-jee milna toh door, usse dekh bhi na sake.”

uh a little too late for that my man, lol. your girls already had a catchup session this afternoon. they're going for brunch and manis next weekend!

oh ho, she knows that angre's gone out. so this is def someone else in the house. DAMN, I'M REALLY INVESTED IN THIS SHADOW NOW.

yaaar, kya haalat bana rakhi hai shivaay ke room ki. best room hota tha iss set ka, aur isko bas ek random space banaa rakha hai.

ASLKFJSLDKJFLSDKJFLDKSF

this fucker crazyyyyy. like fulllll on flipping cray cray!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow ok he's shaking from rage. more unhinged than i've ever seen him. which is really something. something scary as fuckkkkkkkk.

kudos to riddhima for just being like same old, same old, instead of being scared. i'm really liking i-give-no-fucks-riddhima.

DUDE. THIS FUCKER HAS COMPLETELY LOST IT.

also knife play copied from shivaay. this dude like a much much worse version of shivaay. never thought that would be possible, but never say never with ITV and the year 2020.

ok i don't like this angry version of him that's outta control, all shaking and growling and panting. not only is it really bad acting, it's hard to take seriously as menacing. ppl are always scarier when they're ice fucking cool with their anger.

blah blah blah some more growled warnings and riddhima and i are just here like............. “ok and????”

she's not even allowed to leave the room.

oooooh brave sis questioning him back and provokingggggggggg himmmmmmmmmm. got a death wish, this one, but i like her like this. i was sick of her just collapsing all over the place weeping. thaaaaaank god she found her longlost backbone.

“tum jaise haiwaan ki baat kabhi nahi maanungi.”

sarcastic slow clapping and slightly turned on by this show of dheentness.

“chalo aaj tumhari bahaaduri ko celebrate karte hain.”

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

“piyo, zeher nahi milaaya hai ismein.”

OK NOW THAT YOU SAID THAT I'M DEFINITELY THINKING THAT YOU HAVE.

omg ridhhimaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you idiottttttt.

ok he's def put something in it. his face almost looking pitying as he takes the glass back.

“jaao. jahaan jaana hai jaao. nahi rokunga tumhe.”

ohhhhhhhhhh boy.

dslkfjsdlfkjdslkfjdslkjflkd her legs don't work no moreeeeeeeee.

THIS FUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. JESUS CHRIST THIS CRAZY ASS FUCKING D;SLFKJ;SLDKFJ;LDSKJF;LDKJ

EVEN THE CHANNEL PUTTING BIG BOLD DISCLAIMER OVER THE SCENE LIKE THIS SHIT IS SERIOUSLY UNHINGED AND FICTIONAL THE CHANNEL ABSOLUTELY DOES NOT CONDONE THIS FUCKING MADNESSSSSSSSS

I CANNOT STOP SCREAMING THIS FUCKERRRRRRR IS OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK IS THIS THIS SHIT IS MAKING 4 LIONS MEN LOOK LIKE SOFT CUDDLY LIL SOFTBOIS I AM LITERALLY GOING OUTTA MY MIND WITH RAGE AND ANGUISH WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

i need a break. i seriously need a break to go cuddle my cat coz my god this deranged fucking showwwwwwwwwww.

ok cuddle break done. i’m not feeling any better but at least the tears of blood have stopped flowing from my eyes?

all i gots to say at this point is that CHEELANSHU SINGHANIA FROM NAAGIN 5 WOULD NEVER DO THIS. ONCE AGAIN SANKIIII CHEEL BOY >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> HUMAN MEN.

“haiwaan hoon main. rakshas hoon. aur rakshas kuch bhi kar sakta hai.”

electric chair for you, dude. ELECTRIC FUCKING CHAIR, GREEN MILE STYLE.

he literally gave her a paralytic.

“isse ek luxury relaxing spa treatment ki tarah enjoy karna.”

OMG I WISH I HAD SOMEONE MAKE ME SLIP INTO A PARALYTIC COMAAAAAAAAAA WHAT ELSE COULD A GIRL WANT FROM PRINCE CHARMING UWU TRUE WUVVVVVVVVV

omg inn paplu taplu ka chip waala naatak abhi bhi chal raha hai BIGGER THINGS HAVE HAPPENED IN THE HOUSE YOU IDIOTS KEEP THE FUCK UP LITERALLY NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR SADAA HUA MEMORY CARD ANYMOREEEEEEEEEE

anyway they decide to put it in the bank locker. omg why though, under the mattress was suchhhhhhh a safe and secure spot!!! badal kyun rahe ho tum log?!?!?!!?!?

“good morning.”

sis, lower half is paralysed. haath abhi bhi kaam kar rahein haina??? PICK UP WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU CAN GET YOUR HANDS ON AND HURL IT AT HIS FUCKING HEADDDDDDDDDDD

“don't worry, bas kuch der ki baat hai. uske baad tum apne pairon pe khadi ho sakti ho. main tumhari help kar deta hoon.”

TELLL HIM SIS. TELL HIM TO STAY THE FUCK AWAY AND NEVER EVER COME WITHIN A 3 DISTRICT RADIUS OF YOU. 

“phir se zidd. tumhara naam riddhima nahi, ziddhima hona chahiye tha.”

ok can't deny i lol'd at that.

OK NO BACK TO HATING HIM. PUNS WILL GET YOU NOWHERE WITH ME, YOU BLOODY PSYCHOPATH.

“abhi toh bas ek chota dose diya hai jiska asar sirf 10 ghante rehta hai.”

oh how sweet. such a considerate husband. Star Parivaar Pati of The Year you are. haan behen, aur rakho aise pati ke liye karwachauth.

“agar baat nahi maaani, toh agla dose double hoga.”

seriously though, where can i get one of these? all i want is to be put in a coma so that i don't have to be conscious anymore. esp with the USA election today............ give me a 5x dose, daddy.

YEAH RIGHT LIKE SHE'S EVER GONNA CONSUME ANYTHING YOU OFFER HER EVER AGAIN LOL

“tum chaahe kitni bhi koshish karlo vansh, main tumhe ragini ko nuksaan pohunchaane nahi dungi.”

determination toh behen ka top classssssssssssss hai. where do ppl get such mental will from? i face the slightest inconvenience and i need a 6 hour nap to cope.

LMAO VANSH YOU DUMBASS YOU LEFT HER WITH HER PHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. YOU KNOW SHE'S A SPY AND HAS SOMEONE ON THE OUTSIDE. YOU WANTED HER NOT TO GET TO RAGINI BUT NOW SHE CAN JUST CALL WHOEVER SHE’S WORKING WITH TO GET RAGINI THE HELP. GOD, BEWAKOOFON KI TOLI HAI YEH SHOWWWWWWWW.

ab yaad aayi kabir ki. my god, he seems like such a mellow weirdo now compared to vansh, just into some casual costume-changing and quasi fratricide. almost a tolerable level of deranged compared to this other fucking madman.

sent a voice note to him.

SHE HEARD SOMEONE COMING AND FLUNG THE PHONE ACROSS THE ROOM INTO A PILE OF CLOTHES. OH HO WHYYYYYYYYYYYY, YOU COULD HAVE LITERALLY JUST HID IT BACK UNDER THE PILLOWS WHERE YOU FOUND IT!?!?!??!?!?!?

“hi riddhima! tumhe iss haal mein dekh kar, dil ko bohut sukoon mil raha hai.”

asldkfsjflkjdslfkjdl i honestly love her the most. she's so fucking petty and hilarious.

ishani is like thank god bhai has seen fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinally seen your real face.

“sirf vansh ne hi nahi, inn sab mein maine bhi vansh ka asli chehra dekh liya hai.”

“kya matlab hai tumhara?!?!!”

ok, i'm thinking ishani is shadow girl. from day 1, she’s wanted riddhima to see vansh in a certain way; as someone dangerous, the way he projects himself. (as opposed to dadi and siya who want her to see his soft side.) this statement from riddhima makes her wary that did she get close to the actual truth. INTERESTING. VERYYYYYYYYY INTERESTINGGGGG.

she's now grumbling about how vansh treats her much better than she actually deserves. I REALLY WANT MORE INSIGHT INTO THIS BROTHER SISTER RELATIONSHIP THEY HAVE IT'S SO INTRIGUINGGGGGGGG

le, kapde chale gaye laundry. phone ke saath.

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precap: kabir listened to the voice note and now him and mummy are in panic about ragini disclosing the truth about 3 years ago. RE DEVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. OFC THESE TWO WERE INVOLVED IN THAT KAAND TOO. LITERALLY EVERY ONE IN THIS SHOW IS A DERANGED MENACE TO SOCIETY.

kabir coming to meet riddhima.

but ofc.

ugh she turned back saying “K.........” and he's like there's literally no one in this house whose name starts with K.

*facepalms for allllll eternity till my godforsaken face itself falls off.*

i think i’ll go watch s2 of mirzapur now. i need something ~~~light and fluffffffffffy~~~ to take my mind off whatever the FUCK this was.

[tea-mew96]

Analysis: TFP Optimus Prime and a Discussion on Revenge

Disclaimer:  This post is going to be a long vent about my frustrations with TFP Optimus Prime, specifically with the advice he gives to Arcee and the audience in regards to revenge. So if you’re someone who does likes him or hold similar views to him, you are probably not going to like or agree with what I’ll say in this post and that’s completely ok. The whole point of this post is to provide another perspective and open discussion with me and anyone else about this (But do so respectfully, please).

Also, there are going to be spoilers for Transformers Prime in this, so skip this post for now if you don’t want the show to be spoiled for you.

So without further ado, let me explain why TFP Optimus Prime’s stance on revenge is wrong.

For those who aren’t familiar with Transformers Prime or don’t remember everything, one of the biggest subplots of the show was Arcee and the loss of her partners, Cliffjumper and Tailgate. Throughout most of Season 1 and Season 2, Arcee is on the hunt to find out who killed Cliffjumper and to get revenge for Tailgate by going after Arachnid. 

Everything with this arc was going ok...until Season 1 Episode 20, Partners.

During this episode, Arcee ends up following Arachnid, much to Optimus’ distaste. After Optimus saves Arcee from Arachnid, he tells her that seeking revenge for Tailgate is a bad idea. Later on in the episode, Starscream lets slip that he was the one who killed Cliffjumper, and Arcee reacts accordingly by attacking him. She almost kills him, but is stopped when she realizes Bumblebee is watching them and she lets Starscream go. The episode ends with Arcee saying that she thought settling scores would allow her to move on but that her actions instead lead to the Autobots losing an ally. Optimus comments that wisdom is gained, not automatically earned. This arc continues in Season 2 Episode Episode 10 Armada, where Arcee ends up trapping Arachnid in a stasis pod, ultimately ending their rivalry. The pod is taken back to base, where Ratchet says Arachnid “deserves worse”. Arcee responds that she “intended worse, more times than you know” and Optimus responds that Arcee is “stronger” for her choice.

These series of events are what ruined both Optimus as a character and Arcee’s arc for me.

Optimus tells Arcee that seeking revenge is bad and that she’s a “stronger person” for giving Arachnid a fairly merciful fate of being put in stasis. There’s one problem, though: he’s wrong. And apparently no one on the writing team knew that.

What Optimus ends up implying is that Arcee’s anger at both Arachnid and Starscream is not justified, that being mad at them for hurting her makes her a “bad person” and wanting them to suffer consequences for it is not the right path to take. Except none of that is true.

I think it’s fair to say that Arcee is victim of murder, and has a lot of trauma and emotional damage because of it. She has lost two partners that she clearly cared for and were close to, with one of them (Tailgate) dying right in front of her optics. She displays signs of depression throughout the series, and if the flashbacks in Season 1 Episode 12 Predatory are any indication, Arcee probably has a good case of PTSD too. 

The thing about people who have been severely hurt and traumatized by others like this is that they need closure, and there are many ways that this can be accomplished. Forgiveness is only one way. Sometimes closure comes in the form of having the aggressors be given jail time or the death penalty. Sometimes with bullying, a victim will find peace by seeing the bully getting in trouble with the teacher and being suspended. Some find peace through therapy. Sometimes, people can only find peace by taking matters into their own hands and punishing the aggressors themselves (victims fighting back against their bullies and the story of Gary Plauche are good examples of this one). The point is that victims and their friends/family members affected by murder, rape, bullying, or any other hurtful acts is that they don’t have to forgive the ones who committed the crime, nor are they required to. In fact, many people don’t.

This is something that Optimus Prime simply doesn’t understand, and many adults don’t either.

I want you to take a quick read at these statements that people often give as solutions to bullying:

“Don’t react, just ignore them. They’ll go away.” “Don’t fight back, that’s stooping to their level” “Tell them to stop saying/doing those things, they’ll listen”

On the surface, all of these statements sound correct because these are all very tame, non-violent solutions. They’re all moral high ground statements. But almost any victim of bullying can tell you that none of this advice ever actually helped, and if you ever told a teacher someone was bullying you, you at best got ineffective solutions/similar advice to the above and at worst did nothing about it.

Optimus Prime’s statements about not seeking revenge come from the exact place that the above quotes come from: a place of wanting to appear moral and above-it-all but having none of the experience or knowledge to actually back it up. 

Optimus wasn’t as close to Cliffjumper as Arcee was. Optimus didn’t see Tailgate’s gruesome death first-hand. He may be older, but being old doesn’t automatically make you right. And I find it ironic how Optimus states that wisdom is earned at a cost yet he’s the one who is clearly is struggling with that concept when it comes to Arcee.

It upsets me to no end how Optimus is contantly tellling Arcee that she’s the one who has to be the more moral, bigger, stronger person. But Starscream and Arachnid? You know, the ones who caused all of Arcee’s anguish to begin with? Naw. Arachnid can continue to tease Arcee by asking if she’s lost any more partners and Starscream can pretend to feel bad about killing Cliffjumper and then immediately brag about it the next day. Yeah, those two don’t need to change. ARCEE DOES. CUZ REVENGE BAD. 

Remember how Arcee said she intended a worse fate for Arachnid and Optimus praises her for it? While the show treats that as “closure” and the end to that rivalry, I’m not convinced. For the longest time, Arcee wanted Arachnid dead. So for her to all of a sudden switch to being merciful to Arachnid seems off to me. And thus I began to wonder: Did Arcee decide to not kill Arachnid because she had a genuine change in morals, or did she do it in order to make Optimus Prime happy? Or in other words, is this a genuine change of character or this just the writers’ last-ditch attempt at pushing the “no revenge” narrative into the audience’s face? I don’t know for sure (although I’m pushing for latter in both questions) and the show doesn’t address this. And this is bad because depending on this answer, this could mean that this arc was never truly finished. If Arcee still didn’t believe or feel that having Arachnid in stasis was good enough closure, than the story isn’t fucking over. But no one of the writing team thought this far. No one was willing to put this kind of depth into the show.

Furthermore, I’d argue that this constant talk about Arcee being a “better person” is causing her to be critical of herself over things that aren’t really her fault or that she wouldn’t be able to predict the outcome of.

One is Arcee blaming herself for Smokescreen’s “death” in Season 2 Episode 21 Alpha/Omega. The other is Arcee regretting her attack on Starscream and losing a potential ally. But the reality is that Starscream is extremely fickle and having him join the Autobots wasn’t guaranteed to end in success to begin with. Even if Starscream did join the Autobots, there’s no promise that he would side with them forever. Almost all of his decisions are based off his own goals, and many times that can go against the ideas/goals of the group he’s in. Actually, Starscream does end up betraying the Autobot’s trust anyway in Season 2 Episode 23 Inside Job where Starscream uses the Autobots’ (ok, most Optimus Prime’s) trust to steal the Omega Keys and use them in order to gain Megatron’s favor again. Unsurprisingly, trauma victims in the real world also blame themselves for what happened to them too.

There’s many things about TFP Optimus Prime I can forgive. Boring characterization? Fine. An intriguing characterstic (lack of outward emotion) that has potential to be interesting but the writers never decided to explore it? Whatever. But I draw the line at shitty advice presented as a good lesson, especially when your audience is young kids who don’t know better and may need desperate help.

Kids get bullied and abused. Kids need to be told that fighting back against bullies and abusers who have hurt them doesn’t make them a bad person because the “lessons” and “solutions” that many schools and adults teach or tell rarely work. And telling them otherwise because it sounds right isn’t going to help. If anything, it’s only going to hurt those kids in the long run.

TL;DR Arcee is a good girl who deserves hugs and therapy, and Optimus Prime is a self-righteous moron who deserves to be thrown into a smelting pit.

[legendaryrunawaybear]

Forgive Me Now? - Part 1

Ethan x Reader                                                                                       Warnings: Language                                                                                         Hope You Enjoy!

It was Callux’s birthday and we had all agreed to take part in it. Talia, Harry and Calfreezy were in charge of planning the whole thing cos Talia was experienced in party planning and Harry and Cal were his flatmates so they knew him well. Josh and Tobi were in charge of the money budget and renting the yacht. JJ and Simon had to surprise him by taking him to the yacht. Vik and Freya were in charge of decoration cos they both were perfectionist so it would obviously turn out well. And that leaves me and Ethan in charge of the cake. It would have been ideal cos we were dating, but of course something bad was to happen to make it awkward. The day we were supposed to get the cake, I was pissed at him. GREAT! Just great!

We were on the bus on the way to Westfield and we were sitting across from each other. I was texting some people when I could feel his eyes on me. I thought it was nothing and starting going through my socials. 5 minutes later I couldn’t help but still think he was staring at me. Kind of weird but flattering in a way I guess? “Take a picture, it’ll last longer” I said to him with a subtle smirk still looking at my phone. He chuckled at turned to the window to look outside. I went on my phone to text him. “Fucking Creep...” I wrote. “ Can’t help it, I mean look at you😉” he wrote back. “Fuck off😂” For a moment I forgot that I’m mad at him. It was a petty reason really. He ate all my food. And NOBODY touches my food. I turned off my phone and put in in my bag. Then I started to look at him, admiring every feature. I couldn’t believe he was my boyfriend. I mean look at him. How could someone like him like someone like me? He turned away from the bus window and looked at me. He chuckled realising that I was staring at him, but honestly I didn’t even remember that I was mad at him at all at this point. He started staring back. We were staring into each others eyes with soft smiles. 10 minutes had past and we were still staring. *snap*  We both were startled and looked around. It was a girl. She was wearing SDMN merch. Soooooo she was a fan. Great. Me and Ethan still haven’t made our relationship public and we were planning to do it soon, but not like this. Suddenly, Ethan’s phone starts blowing up. Then mine. It was a bunch of fans. They started speculating that we were together. Then I get texts from friends.

Talia: Omg you two look tooo cuteeeeee. But did you tell everyone you’re dating yet I thought you were gonna wait??🤔

Iona: YOU DID NOT TELLL MEEE YOUR DATING ONE OF THE SIDEMENNNNNN!!!!!

Freya: Heyyyyyyy. Are you okay cos I know you didn’t want people to know...

“Oh my God” I said to myself quietly. Ethan got up and sat himself next to me placing his hand on my thigh. “It’s gonna be okay, when we get to Westfield, we’ll go live on Instagram and tell them everything.” He said to me reassuringly giving me a soft but affectionate smile. I smiled back at him and rested my head on his shoulder. “I love you y/n” he mumbled to himself as I lightly dozed off. 10 minutes had passed and we finally arrived.

We walked inside the giant shopping centre and opened Ethan's phone to go live. We told them everything. I felt relief. We went to Lola's cupcakes and waited to pick up his cake. Ethan was still on the live talking to fans. “Yo! Y/n! They want you here!” he said coming out of JD walking towards me. I popped into the camera, “Hey guys!”. I took his phone from him and started to talk to everyone. “Oh shittt…”, I said just remembering something. “  Babe what’s wrong?” I shot him a death glare. “I remember what happened prick.” He laughed and took the phone from as I pouted and turned to cake stand waiting until they finished the cake. “So basically” he said to his fans, “ I ate all her food and she was pissed at me but forgot and I guess she remembered again!” he said looking at me and smiling. He turned the camera at me to show me death staring him and turned it back to his self just to do his cute iconic laugh and show his red face. Wait. I’m supposed to be pissed at him and I’m calling him cute! Oh my god this boy is gonna be the death of me!

Thanks for reading part 2 coming out VERY soon(probably in 15 minutes cos I have nothing else to do lmao) 

Literally some of the only writers I ADORE

@sidemenyesplease @episkygrant

[feisty-fae]

If you still do the flower ask thingys.. 👉👈 𝘼𝙡𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙜𝙤 :)

HoooH boY hEre we gO-

Alisons: Sexuality?

I sexually identify as a can of beans

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

Cis female she/her

Amaryllis: Birthday?

27 September

Anemone: Favorite flower?

All flowers pretty,, but stargazer lily, rose, dahlia and cherry blossoms

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

I don't watch tv but I'll list some other stuff i like to watch:mha, beastars and aggretsuko

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

Idk depends on scenario??

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

"Kanye West he likes, fingers in his ass."

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

Any Milkshakes or smoothies (mostly banana and strawberry for milkshake and p much anything for smoothie)

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I've never had kith

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

Well you see yes but actually no

Baneberries: Favorite song?

I listen to a lot but to keep it short:baby in the kitchen, in my mouth and friends slowed (chase atlantic)

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

We p chill fam

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

Irl bestie,, shes not on tumblr lol

Begonia: Favorite color?

PinKKK

But i like most colours

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

Cats,,,,

FoxES,

ANYTHING CUDDLY AND CUTE

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

Night

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

I'd be like a doggo bc it would be the most fun i think-

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

I wanted to be a vet but then when my granny asked me "but whos gonna clean up the animal poop?" I was like "eWW pO0pP!" and then decided that mayb i shouldn't be a vet

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

They're either really kind and sweet

Or literal demons from hell

Legit no inbetween

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

I'm afraid of lot of things-

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

I was one dumbass bitcg-

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?

Idk eat pizza and cry or smth ajakamkw

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

Single

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

NEW YORKKK, CONCRETE JUNGLE WHERE DREAMS ARE MADE OFFF THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN'T DO NOW YOU'RE IN NEW YOOORKKK

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

When someone hugs me or just generally spends time with me

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?

Nop

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?

I used to have piercings when i was a bab but eHh haven't worn them since and i dont think my ear holes are big enough now-

California Poppy: Height?

4'10 grrr I'm the omega midget and I'll devour ur ankles

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

Nop

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?

Pant, pink top and black hoodie

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

I think i have??

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?

My mom and my dad

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

I never kith

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

I dont have one so imma say sans bc it always looks out of place and makes me laugh-

Columbine: Are you tired?

No

I feel like screaming and jumping around my room like a crackhead

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

Nothing in particular ig

Coneflower: Dream job?

Smth kinda fun and art or design related hopefully,,,,

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

Introvert but i also get lonley easily

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

Nop,,,,

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

I would get run over by 5 monster trucks, jump off a plane, get mauled by 10 bears, get trampled on by a stampede, get brutally tortured for 12 hours straight, yeet myself into the Grand Canyon and then break all my bones with my bare hands if they weren't broken already

Ok basically i care a lot

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

I had this st bernard plush called Sparky and this lion named Sammy,,

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Libra

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

My memory is legit so bad it's probably concerning uHHH

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

Mayb art??

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?

Ehhh i might reason with them and then if they still disagreed I'd just keep the relationship a secret

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

My parents

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

Ehhh arT

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

EhhHh everything that isn't art-

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

Oh boy here comes my shitty memory-

Hmmm

Idk but I'm mostly happy that I've been more social and stuff and i feel like im kinda coming out of my shell a bit

Not sure what to say for other 2 bc nothing in particular has really happend?

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

Ehhh oK??

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

Mayhapsn't

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

I hope to pass all my exams and get an okish job mayb

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

1.fRIENBS ILY MY HABIBIS

2. Fammm

3. eHhh yummy food,,

4. Drawing and uhhh art

5. EPIC MUTUALS

6. Ok idk what else aside from like serious stuff like house and etc.-

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

Drawing, crying, venting to a friend/parent

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

Hugssss,kith,cuddle, *draws u stuff*

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

MmmmmMy aRRt?

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

Wake up

Don't go to school

Vibe with friends

Sleeb

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?

MmMmMM aRT-

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

Ehh 8yrs? We met in hell school

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

Friendos

Mom

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

6..?? Aa idk theres some people that idk if they'd consider me a friend or not,,

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

Idk any compliment is best compliment for me,,

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

Ew yucky gröss

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

m y a r t

Also my hair bc its soft and wavy,,

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself?

Everything else-

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

Climb trees and do dumb shit

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

Same irl bestie i mentioned before

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

MmmmmmMMM,,,

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?

MMMmMMmMMMMmmmMMm,,,,,,

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

Well I chose Fae bc i thought it sounded pretty

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

Idk what to rlly say lmao

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

Kinda the same but i had toys everywhere-

Also when i was like 5 i had this legit fucking cursed thomas the tank engine shaped bed that i actually found a pic of but it's FUCKING HORRIFYING SO I PROBS WONT SHOW HERE-

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?

EW BEING A TEENAGER SUCKS ASS HOW DO I UNDO????

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

Hi mom ily ur epic

Onions: Tell about your dad.

Hi dad ily ur epic

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

Omg i miss my grannies sm bc i couldn't see em this year bc nasty pandemic

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

Haha shit memory gor brrRR-

I don't really remember too many specific parties but when i was like 7-10 i had these epic parties in those birthday places with the giant play areas

I kinda wish i wasn't too old to go to them sobs

Peony: What was your first job?

I haven't had a job yet

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

Hmmmm idk? I haven't really thought abt that but i don't really mind i just wanna find someone to vibe with,,

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

I cri

Pink: Where is home?

Home is home home

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?

Now where do i start...

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

I look up to people that are kind, caring, brave, funny, cool or stronger than me ig?

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

Basically my current life minus school, stress,pandemic and responsibilities lmao

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

I used to believe in ghosts after i thought i encountered one

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

Hermmmst

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

Peoples laughsss also music

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

Bro i dont have one,, my aphantasia makes it hard for me to remember stuff-

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

A

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?

I wantttt better chargersss thattt donttt telll meee thatt myyy tablett will finishh chargingg innn 1 dayy andd 7 hoursss

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

Kinda difficult but im opening up more

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

fRIENDS,,,,,wAh

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

8 hrs

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

Idk ig i kinda have to go to school and do stuff

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

Non existant

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

My black and white stripy top, and all my hoodiess

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.

I don't think i have just one aesthetic bc im drawn to so many different aesthetics at the same time-

Like vintage, neon, dark, spoopy, pastel, cute, etc etc

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

OMG I LEGIT JUST SCREAM AT ANYTHING ANYONE GIVES ME-

IF SOMEONE GOES OUT OF THEIR WAY TO MAKE ME SMTH I CRY,,

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

🤏

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

I haven't been reading anythinggg

But i should really finish reading Percy Jackson bc it do be picking up dust-

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

Everywhere

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

Mmm yummy 👅

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

I am currently living and breathing yes

[sometimesrosy]

6.09 What You Take With You rewatch

I meant to do this rewatch after I was done, but I just saw the scene where Gabriel gave Octavia the toxin and it was intense.

Gabriel said it helped him and Russell find their purpose, Russell’s to turn them into gods and Gabriel’s to stop them. Octavia begged, “what’s mine?” So I actually think that’s really important for her and next season.

Then she had a green box and a red box to choose from and I think the green box had Bellamy calling her name and then a woman, and I think it was Clarke, though I’m not sure. But she ran to the one with the man screaming and ended up in the fighting pits, where we flashed through killing Pike and eating person meat the first time and wonkru or the enemy of wonkru and wiping her face with blood and bellamy’s gagged and bound. Then Pike comes out and he is just fantastic. FANTASTIC. (I love him, Michael Beach too.) And he’s his teacher persona and apparently a good teacher, because he pushes her through her weakness to face herself. The insistence that forgiveness is for small things and tells her to go deeper. When she realizes she wants redemption it feels like it’s a break through but it’s not enough. And he said you took my redemption from me. And she asks what if I don’t deserve a redemption and he said it’s not about deserve. Great. Oh the part he said where who you are consists of what you have done and what has happened to you. That the future goes through the past (I think that’s foreshadowing about next season and something to do with time jumping.) Just lovely. All her real work happens with Pike. And then entire time I was remembering that he’s not really there, it’s Octavia. It’s her understanding of her life going through the moment where she CHOSE to go dark when she murdered Pike. She didn’t have to after losing Lincoln it was her choice.

And then Blodreina comes out and tries to kill Pike for his crimes and she repeats the lines that Pike said before he executed Lincoln. So it’s a replay of Lincoln’s execution with Pike now in Lincoln’s place which means Octavia herself as blodreina is the one killing Lincoln, but Octavia stops Blodreina. This was the moment when she began her journey back to herself. Then she and blodreina fought and she wins, “blodreina no more.” 

Then she wakes up with Gabriel and decides what she has to do now is earn her redemption. But then they hear Clarke’s voice on the radio tellling Gabriel that Josephine in in her head and she’s coming to him. And she says my people are in trouble I have to go. Protective, no longer punitive. 

I actually really enjoyed Octavia’s fight to come back from the damned. For all that she pissed me off in s5 and my frustrations with her in s3 and 4, watching her come back felt very satisfying. It was an earned redemption... or START on a redemption. Beginning with self awareness and facing who she was and what she’d done. It’s a SERIOUS redemption arc. For real. None of that cheap “oh I’ll give my life to save this chick I love because that makes up for the horror I’ve created.” (Yes I mean Kylo. VERY cheap and unearned fake redemption story. No arc whatsoever. Just bam! change of heart. It would have been O’s story in s5 if she martyred herself for her brother, but they didn’t do it. I can’t believe they didn’t do it, and instead chose the hard path. Also, that was such a cheeky move. Setting up the bad redemption and then yoinking it and making her work for it. THAT is a good plot twist. Very impressive imo.)

Now I’ll skip to the Bellamy/Josephine arc, and I tell ya, I’m gonna spend less time on that because I’ve looked at it so much, it’s kind of fun to watch the show without focusing on Bellarke and looking for clues. I don’t need clues anymore, I know what I know. ALTHOUGH I did notice some strains of the Bellarke theme when he tells Clarke that he won’t let her die. And I loved the part where they’re getting ready to cut off Josephine’s head and Eliza sharpens her eyes and tenses her jaw and boom she’s Clarke. No more california girl Jo accent with the vocal fry. Lol. Subtle. And she says “Wait! Gabriel loves her. He’ll be mad if you kill her.” And Bellamy is like “her?” and she takes down the whole troop of guards (really no one on sanctum is a decent fighter AT ALL,) and then she comes to him to get him loose but they’re already there. The “I won’t leave you” is super important for later, but I’ve talked about that so much. I just like how she runs off and Bellamy swings the key on his finger. The Key. Good stuff. 

But this is the part that I really enjoyed, putting aside the Bellarke that I have gone over a million times. Kane Abby and Raven. First of all. That actor did a REMARKABLE job of playing Kane. I actually forgot that he wasn’t Kane. Because he was! VERY impressive. Kane’s horror at bodysnatching and raising hosts like sheep was good. We need his honor. OR that’s what Abby thinks, while she’s ignoring Raven and probably would have ignored Bellamy and Clarke and everyone else horrified. 

I really like how, not only did Kane call out Simone for treating him like one of the sheep she raised to the slaughter, but he also reminded Abby that she told him she was making sure humanity deserved to survive... so in essence their story has come around full circle. He gained his redemption and worked on a better world while she lost her faith and fixated on only one person as her salvation. He rose, she fell, and left her to remember what she should have known. ALSO I noticed that Simone and Abby are parallels. Simone is another one of those evil scientists. A doctor who is okay with murdering innocents. Even if she and Russell did not approve of Josephine Oblations, eugenics and breeding program to create more nightbloods, she’s still a mirror Abby. I wonder if Jake would have been a parallel of Russell. Was Russell an engineer when they first landed? I don’t remember. Priya must have been the mechanic because she taught Ryker. Hm. Gabriel was the geneticist. Josephine the biologist? ANYway. 

I was so glad when they woke up Indra. So good to see her. And she was not horrified by primes. Seemed godlike to her. And not much different than the arkers OR the grounders. She acknowledged this. Kane wants to do better, so do Clarke and Bellamy and Raven. Kane’s death scene made me cry. It was a good death scene. He died doing what he thought was right, and taking humanity in a better direction. It was definitely more meaningful than Vinson biting his throat open or Octavia hollering at him to death. Wow. He had three death scenes. lol. Not funny. I did cry.

ANYWAY. That was a good episode. 

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[marinetteplztakeabreak]

An analysis of Kagami’s character in season 3

Warnings: discussion of anxiety and not good parenting

I hated Oni Chan when it first came out, because it seemed like it was really butchering Kagami’s character, but I just rewatched it and... all of her actions seem really justified.   Looking at her thought process has lead me to a way deeper understanding of Kagami’s character

(under the cut because this got fairly long)

So obviously she acts way over the top while she’s akumatized, that’s how akumas work, but the parts where she’s acting of her own free will? Everything she did made perfect sense.

To review, just before being akumatized, Kagami is practicing fencing with her mother.   She gets a message on her phone, and her mother makes her wait until after she’s done practicing to open it.   Kagami looks really disappointed in herself for getting in trouble with her mom.   This is speculation, but that is her mom’s only spoken line in the entire episode, so there’s a chance that the only comment Kagami’s mother made during her entire practice was being upset at Kagami for her phone, and that would force Kagami to fixate on the message throughout practice.   She clearly wants her mother’s approval, and the message was getting in the way of it. Even if it wasn’t the only thing she said, it’s been shown that Kagami takes any criticism from her mother really hard.

Also, this episode comes before Ikari Gozen.   Kagami’s still has basically no friends (except maybe Adrien) and desperately wants to be accepted. There was a reason that she picked up her phone immediately and tried to look at the message; Kagami isn’t the type to just forget her mom’s rule.   So either getting messages on her phone is so rare that it’s something she never really had to deal with before, which would make the message something really special to her, or she just desperately wants friends enough that her eagerness to see the message won out over her strict discipline enough to make her forget the rules.

And then, after all the mental buildup, Kagami finished practicing and opens the message. So, keep in mind, on top of what I already said, that Kagami’s going to be physically exhausted because she just finished a workout, and probably also frustrated because her mother definitely didn’t give her the validation she wanted.   She’s going to be sort of on a knife’s edge anyways.   And, judging by her brief smile as she put her phone away while her mother told her off, the message was probably something that she was looking forward to as a way to ignore all the other pain.

Then comes the part that everyone criticizes. In the course of about 30 seconds, she 1) opens the message to see that it’s a selfie of Lila kissing Adrien on the cheek, 2) sort of growls as she throws her phone across the feild, 3) opens up a notebook, gently touches a photograph of her and Adrien at fencing practice that was carefully tucked between the pages, 4) pulls out the rose Adrien gave her which is now pressed, 5) we see a brief flashback Adrien handing her the rose in Frozer, and then 6) she picks up her sword, 7) we see a few tears run down her face, and then 8) she gets akumatized.   That all seems super sudden and needlessly dramatic at first viewing, but let’s break it down.

No matter what, it’s going to hurt to see the picture of Adrien who’s apparently casually hanging out with some other girl in his room.   Kagami “never hesitates” and I think it’s safe to assume that she’s already asked if she could visit him multiple times and been turned down because he’s “never allowed to have friends over” or something, so this is going to feel like a slap in the face. She doesn’t have enough time to think everything through, but just the brief suggestion that her only friend might have been lying to her to avoid her because he didn’t actually want to see her is an enormous blow to her fragile self-confidence.   Just by merit of having Adrien as her only friend, she’s going to hear a whole lot of “sorry I can’t interact with you ever my dad doesn’t want me to have friends” and by merit of being Kagami she’s got some huge doubts and trust issues, so I can almost guarantee that the fear that he was actually lying to her and just disliked her had probably been bubbling for a while and wouldn’t take much to set it off. Especially in during a post-fencing practice adrenaline high, throwing her phone was a pretty understandable reaction.

Then, there’s the photograph and the rose. So Kagami obviously cares deeply about Adrien if she’s carrying those around with her, but it makes sense.   He gave her the rose like it was something deeply special, he’d probaly be expecting her to keep it safe, and it makes sense that she’d want to preserve it forever.   And keeping photographs with friends is a pretty normal thing.  

Now, we don’t know the exact details of Kagami’s home life, but from experience interacting with my friend’s parents, her mom strikes me as the type of parent who’s obsessed with control and doesn’t believe that their children deserve privacy.   and 90% of the time, that kind of parenting leads to children who try to hide everything they can from their parents and are really good at sneaking away (like, maybe, lying to their mother about participating in a harmless game?   Knowing enough about their car’s security to hack it without a second thought?   Sneaking away from a fancy event the first chance they get?   Only having one number in their entire phone because their mom won’t let them talk to others?   Impulsively lying to their mom about interests?   I could go on forever but yeah Kagami’s a very familiar type of person that I see in a lot of my classmates and it hurts my heart.)

So back to the photograph and the rose being kept on Kagami’s person at all times: it makes total sense.   She doesn’t have any privacy anywhere else.   She’s going to be afraid to talk to her mother about any of her interests anyway for fear of being ridiculed, and even more terrified when that interest is friendship.   Look at Ikari Gozen.   Kagami brings up Adrien in front of her mom for the first time on screen, she says his first and last name like she’s trying to be really formal and distance herself emotionally from him.   Then, her mother immediately insults Adrien and you can physically see Kagami regret what she had said and try to change the conversation by just agreeing with her mother.  She knows she won’t ever change her mother’s mind and she does her own thing regardless of what her mother says, but that doesn’t make her mother’s disapproval not sting.   Of course, in a world where she has to hide any interest she has if she doesn’t want it to be attacked, she’s going to keep the photograph and the rose away from anyone else’s prying eyes.

And then, I’ll admit, at first I made fun of her impulsive reaction: where she saw a selfie of Adrien with another girl and then immediately started petting a photo of herself with him, but this time I thought about all of this from Kagami’s point of view and I had a huge realization.

I headcanon Kagami as having both anxiety and autism, and it’s pretty well supported by the show anyways, which is a conversation for another time.   But specifically, having both means that they can feed each other a lot.   If you’re having an anxiety attack because you think your friends might hate you, it’s a lot harder to break out of it if you also know that you’re terrible at reading social cues, and it’s easy to become overwhelmed by the fear that people are just subtly telling you they hate you and you’re missing their cues.   And that would relate to Kagami’s situation incredibly well: she doesn’t have anyone else to validate her, and Adrien’s nice and all but it’d be really easy, especially in the clutches of an anxiey spiral, to think that maybe his “excuses” are actually his way of tellling her that he doesn’t like her, and that her own lack of social nuance is keeping her from seeing it.  

This is obviously not a good place to be mentally, but as someone who has been there and who has a therapist, the best advice I’ve ever gotten to deal with it has been to step back and look only at concrete things, because my brain will take anything open for interpretation and turn it into an attack on myself.  

And this is exactly what Kagami does.   I’d bet that this has happened several times before, because Kagami had been overwhelmed by so much emotion that she had growled and thrown her phone; I think she was acting on instinct when she pulled the notebook out.   And it makes sense that this would be Kagami’s impulsive response: she was just flooded with an unmanageable wave of fear and doubt that Adrien had been lying to her, and then she turned to the concrete evidence she had that he did care about her.   Remember, this isn’t just about romantic fantasies, this is about the only friend she’s ever made and her own fear that she can’t even trust herself to read interactions; it’s going to be really overwhelming.   So she pulls out the photo of herself with Adrien.   It’s real, it’s proof that Adrien was there with her and acknowledges that she exists and smiles at her like that.   In the midst of a breakdown, that photograph would be a huge means of grounding herself in reality.   And then she pulls out the rose, even more solid evidence that he cares about her.   No matter what else, he did give her this rose, it’s real and it’s here.  

So I can completely see why she that was her immediate reaction: the message triggered a specific panic attack that she’s had multiple times before, she freaked out, and then she turned to calm herself down the best she could.   It may have all turned out fine and deescalated quickly.   Except, the rose is connected to a very specific memory: a very sad Adrien told Kagami that he was in love with someone who didn’t like him back when he gave it to her.

Take a second to think about this all from Kagami’s point of view: she’s ridiculously emotionally unsteady at the moment, she’s thinking about a time when Adrien was left brokenhearted by some girl who he’s still waiting on, and then she gets a photo of a girl being all flirty with Adrien.   She knows Lila Rossi specifically, I don’t know how much she knows about her lies, but she seems to know her enough to know that she’s a manipulative jerk.   So any implication at all that this could be the girl who’s continuing to break Adrien’s heart, and who he’s still loyally waiting on?   Of course Kagami’s going to go absolutely mental.   She cares about Adrien enough to want to protect him from anyone who’d toy with his emotions for their own benefit. 

I don’t know exactly why she picks up her sword, whether she was going to blow off some more steam practicing or what, but it was a time when Kagami had every right to act rashly.    Same thing goes with the fact that she started crying in that moment.  She’s so so overwhelmed.   And then of course Hawkmoth akumatizes her.

I’m almost done, but seriously, if you haven’t seen this episode in a while, please take a look at Kagami and Adrien’s interactions at the very end.   Kagami is so ridiculously happy when Adrien is nice to her, and in context of everything else, it’s almost sad.   But she very clearly does care about Adrien and wants to be able to trust him to make his own decisions.   

[bapydemonprincess]

FemSebaRin: So Soft

A Floundering Mey Rin finds herself smitten with the beautiful but cold Governess Sebastian. So how on earth is she supposed to thaw the other woman’s heart so she can win it over?? Perhaps the intervention of some little feline intruders can help...

Mey Rin caught herself staring at the Governess of the house again, while standing still and proper, highlighted by the sun shining in through the windows and over her profile, clapping her small dainty hands in time to her young mistress’ dance lessons.

How could such a beautiful lady be just a Governess?? She looked like she should be the head of a household! Ordering servants around, hosting parties with other elites. Oh, imagining Miss Sebastian in a gown on a ballroom FLOOR made Mey Rin nearly flop to the floor with overwhelm, and she had to hide away in the hall and flap a hand over her face to cool it down!

Oh, this was too much, yes it was!

How could she have come so far, from a ratty little assassin to a maid in a house under such a GORGEOUS lady, having to see her every day, hearing her firm voice every day-

“Shouldn’t you be off somewhere else cleaning, Mey Rin?”

YES! JUST LIKE THA-- AAAA! IT WAS HER!!

“OH- Oh, pa-pardon me Miss Sebastian, I was j-just passin’ by on me way to get- get u-um, a towel to wipe up a mess, yes indeed.” She hastily thought up.

“.. The closet is downstairs, Mey Rin. You know this by now.” Sebastian raised an eyebrow in confusion at the floundering maid. “Are you feeling unwell today at all?” And then she was moving in, hovering a gloved hand to Mey Rin’s forehead to clearly check for a temperature.

Instantly the maid zipped away. She was RUNNING. “NO NO, I-I’M SORRY, MISS!” She called back, “IT-IT WAS JUST A MISUNDERSTANDIN’, YES IT WAS!!! I WON’T INTERRUPT AGAIN, I SWEAR IT!!”

Oh, what am I going to DO??? Mey Rin shouted in her mind the whole way back down. She was clearly in over her head, and CLEARLY maybe the best thing was to get over this silly fantasy mindset. She was a MAID. Sebastian was the GOVERNESS. And not to mention.. THEY WERE BOTH LADIES!

Mey Rin felt melancholy overcome her, and knew all she could do was move on.. She did have chores to do after all. Life still went on, it wasn’t gonna stop just for one hopeless maid who wanted to impress and woo a gorgeous lady! Nope, it was clear she needed to toss such silly notions aside.

And so Mey Rin went on to spend the day taking out the laundry to dry, smiling at this blissful brief moment of sunshine and a cool wind. It certainly was better than the cold, windy cramped areas of the city!

And she could watch the young gardener Finny tend to the vegetables as best he could. He was always running around, making sure every plant was watered, had enough sun, ect. And he’d talk to them too! It was so sweet, and certainly helped keep the maid’s mind off bad things..

Until suddenly she could hear the boy audibly gasping!

“Oh no!” The boy cried, “What’re you doin’ out here, little kitty!” He was running off out of the dirt and over to a corner of the mansion. Mey Rin also put the basket of sheets down, placed her hand over her eyes to shield it from the sun, and took off her spectacles to get  proper look of what the boy was running to.

Indeed, it seemed like some kind of little kitten was making its way along the manor’s wall, just ambling along. Big blue eyes looking around curiously, and bright orange and white fur fluffed up making the little one look more like a big moving cotton ball!

“Oh dear!” Mey Rin cried and hurried over to join the gardener, who was about to pick the kitty up as he squatted down.

“Let me see them, oh my.. they are so young, why are they all alone!” She cried.

“Maybe their family is near by...” Hummed Finny thoughtfully as he let the maid handle picking them up, “Oh, I bet Miss Sebastian would know where they are!”

“Wh-whot??” Mey Rin asked incredulously, staring at him like he was talking another language, suddenly. “How would Miss Sebastian know that, Finny??”

“Cause I see Miss Sebastian carryin’ around kitties all the time! She especially brings them into the manor if it’s rainin’ out real bad!”

Mey Rin just stared on in absolute confusion. Miss Sebastian... and .. cats. The two things didn’t really add up in her mind! How could this be possible?? But, despite how happy-go-lucky Finnian could be, he certainly would never MAKE UP such a thing! He was definitely not that type of boy, no sir.

“Um, a-alright, so you think it’s alright to bright the kitty inside, Finny?”

“Sure! You bring them in, I’ll go on and get Miss Sebastian!”

“U-Um WAIT, FINNY!” Mey Rin started shaking in place; couldn’t take another step forward towards the back door to the kitchen.

“What?” Finny asked, blinking at the maid like he had no idea what could possibly go wrong in this situation.

“Just... j-just don’t telll her outright a-about the cats or... o-or me... j-just say it’s- it’s somethin’ important, yes, a-alright???”

Finny’s head tilted like a puppy at the maid’s peculiar request, but he smiled all the same. “Um, okay! I’ll be back in a minute!” Aaaand he was gone.

Mey Rin groaned, plopping down in the grass with the little kitten.

“Oh lord, what am I doing??” She lifted the cat to turn it’s little big-eyed kitty face toward her own and lifted her eyebrows pleadingly at it. “Do you think Miss Sebastian will.. be happy?? She already caught me misbehavin’ once today, I should probably not even be here right now! Oh, but.. i-if Miss Sebastian does like cats, then..” The little thing was trying to sniff at Mey Rin’s face now, and it tickled quite a bit. So the maid found herself giggling a little as she let the kitty do his. Oh, it was so soft, so precious, so... 

“Over there!” Finny’s voice called out again, and Mey Rin froze up once more, the jolt almost making her glasses slip off-- Oh, no, the cat managed to reach over and bat them off themselves. Mey Rin blinked at the view change, staring up at a bright eyed happy Finny, and a.. strangely surprised and big-eyed Sebastian Michaelis!

Both were over to the maid in second, and kneeling too in the grass instead of waiting for the maid to get up, which also struck the girl as baffling! Not Finny, of course, but just SEBASTIAN going ahead and kneeling down too, her big, soft long gown looking like it was liquid melting around her in the grass as she did.

“Oh dear, the poor thing. How long has it been out here like this, all alone?” Sebastian asked automatically, voice turning into the most tender, GENTLE tone Mey Rin had ever heard... and suddenly her face was BOILING AGAIN.

“I-I-I d-do-do-don’t.. I-I don’t... I... F-Finny...” Mey Rin stuttered out in the most obscure mess she swore she’d ever done, but for once Sebastian seemed unphased, just looking over at the gardener.

Finny had not a single trace of confusion or bafflement. He just kept smiling and nodded at whatever the hell Mey Rin had been trying to say that he clearly somehow understood.

“I saw the kitty at the corner of my eye! It was just walkin’ along the side of the building all alone! I haven’t seen any other kitties around, though, so...”

“Oh dear, well there’s nothing for it, I’ll just have to take care of her in her mother’s stead for now, until she’s old enough to go out again on her own without any risks!”

She was explaining this all so casually and so outright, while also smiling down at the kitten now in her arms.

Like.. like a new mother and her baby, almost.

Mey Rin continued to boil, while still unable to help reaching over to wiggle a finger at the kitty, and have it happily mew and try to grab her finger.

“She’s... lucky to have you then, Miss Sebastian, yes she is.” Mey Rin uttered without thinking, and sighed a little. Oh, this cat was too cute to bother getting too worked up over strange statements.

“Well, I do have you two to thank for finding her, so I think she’s more lucky for you two first and foremost..” 

Mey Rin was two busy grinning at the kitty and wiggling her finger some more to see anything that would happen next, so when she felt a soft quick press of lips to her cheek, Mey Rin completely locked up, hand still out in mid-air towards the kitty, and eyes just bulging behind her spectacles.

“Thank you, dear.” Sebastian simply said, then smiled to the boy next to her as well. “And thank you as well, Finny.” And she gave him a quick peck, too.

Minutes later when Sebastian had stood to walk back in with the cat and likely stow it away somewhere in her room, Finny finally tilted his head at Mey Rin.

She’d been stuck in that same position for quite a while...

“Mey??” He asked, and waved his hand in front of her face.

After another second or two, Mey Rin FINALLY made a loud wheezing noise, and promptly flopped over into the grass.

She stared up at the sky and sighed again, mumbling one thing over and over.

“So soft... so soft... so soft...”

“Aww, I wish I coulda got to hold the kitty, too.” Finny huffed.

[rangerdrabbles]

Psycho raiders 7

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Explosions went off behind Virgie, who, like TK once had done, was panting behind a tree. “Maybe I should’ve listened to TK.” She chuckled to herself and remembered the conversation they’d had.

-Flashback-

“I can take it.”

“No way-Andros said that one was one no one took on alone. Besides, it’s twice as big.”

“I’m telling you, I can take it.”

“What’re you trying to do, impress him?” TK snorted. “You’ve already gotten him in a better mood now that you’ve put the mute button on Ecliptor.

“I didn’t, though.”

TK frowned. “If you didn’t mute him, where did he go?”

She hesitated before pointing to her head.

“What? Are you insane? You’re already a psycho ranger, what do you think will happen with that guy’s voice in-”

“Nice to know you have so much faith in me. I’m going.”

“I can’t stop you, but I think you’re making a mistake.”

-End flashback-

Virgie zoomed off again once she sensed the krybots getting closer. Photon had gotten his hands on the blueprint for the Coalition’s Mars reactor, and Virgie had studied them before going in. Getting in hadn’t been the problem-she’d zoomed or teleported past anything in her way. 

Unfortunately, once the explosions went off, things got tricky. The krybots came out in waves, and teleporting was problematic when things were exploding. So she’d zoomed past a lot of them, electrocuting some and hitting others with porcupine quills. 

Virgie was running into a strange problem, though-she was getting tired. There were so many that she was getting *tired*, and morphing was risky not because of the situation with the grid, but because chances were Virgil could also be using his own Psycho Red powers.

So off Virgie dashed again, a bit slower this time. “This is problematic,” she muttered. She stopped again, and turned to unleash another wave of lightning-

-only to see the Red Raider himself coming from the sky, sending waves of lightning in his wake. Once he was done, there was nothing left, and the field was quiet.

“Well, that was convenient.” Virgie plopped down and fell backwards in an effort to catch her breath.

Andros’ footsteps could be heard as he neared her. He stood over her for a second, spiral saber over his shoulder, before offering a hand. “You’re in trouble.”

“I can explain.” She took the hand up and groaned. “Man, I’m tired.”

“What the hell were you thinking? I told you we were supposed to-”

“I thought I could take it.” Virgie grinned up at him tiredly.

Andros gave her an exasperated look. “Dammit Virgie, you aren’t expendable!”

“Wait, what?”

“I said, you’re not expendable. Stop treating yourself as if you are.”

That made her think. “Why, Mr Red Raider, that’s one of the nicest things a ranger has ever said to me.”

Andros let out another sigh, and rubbed a hand over his face. “Virgie, I’m being serious.”

“So am I.”

He was silent for a moment, then said, “TK told me about Ecliptor. You didn’t have to. I don’t want that for you or anyone else.”

She shrugged. “You’ve been halfway decent to us. I can still count the number of people who fall into that category on one hand. It’s the least I can do.” 

“Are you hurt?” His gaze flicked over her, as if checking her for injuries.”

“I’m just tired. I’ll be fine.” 

“Here, let me help you.” He offered her an arm, which she took. He made no comment about how heavily she was leaning on him.

“You never asked me if I was hurt.” TK was standing nearby, watching with amusement.

Andros spun around, still holding on to Virgie. “Dammit TK!”

TK laughed and held up his hands in mock surrender. “Am I interrupting?”

Andros just groaned. Beside him, Virgie grinned and gave his arm a pat. “C’mon Mr. Red Raider-let’s go home.”

“I’m tellling Virgil,” TK called, still laughing.

“Shut up, TK!” Andros snarled.

Virgie couldn’t help laughing.