#and the whims tell me to do this

[sillystappen]

I have slept. 3 hours. Because. I spent. All of last night. Writing fucking maxiel smut. In a discord server.

✨ priorities ✨

[bixels]

As cameras becomes more normalized (Sarah Bernhardt encouraging it, grifters on the rise, young artists using it), I wanna express how I will never turn to it because it fundamentally bores me to my core. There is no reason for me to want to use cameras because I will never want to give up my autonomy in creating art. I never want to become reliant on an inhuman object for expression, least of all if that object is created and controlled by manufacturing companies. I paint not because I want a painting but because I love the process of painting. So even in a future where everyone’s accepted it, I’m never gonna sway on this.

if i have to explain to you that using a camera to take a picture is not the same as using generative ai to generate an image then you are a fucking moron.

[crabsnpersimmons]

(slowly cleaning out all the art i drafted but never posted)

sometimes the only way to recharge after a long day

is drawing your current blue trauma boi* in the outfit of your previous blue trauma boi**

*Moon, from my hairdresser AU "New 'Do, Same You" AU

**Red Clad Dewey from Another Eden

[simplydnp]

they really said 'happily phoreverafter' and fucked off... good for them

[thelaurenshippen]

the way that silver said "I will stand here with you an hour, a day, a year" to flint and "I will wait a day, a month, a year, forever" to madi....I'm sick to my stomach. who is doing unhinged devotion like this man

[journey-to-the-attic]

there's a moment in lesson 45 of nightbringer where mc falls off a thing (again?? is this foreshadowing?? i'm going to rule-of-three this and wait to see if it happens again) and satan tries and fails to grab their hand to catch them, but now i'm imagining the same thing happening with satan and ik except he does succeed, but it's her right hand and the prosthetic just POP comes straight off

[divine-motion]

i'm the only motherfucker who understands armored core 6 fully and completely actually

[toddtakefive]

thinking about todd and his resolve toward… not quite isolation, but being alone in a room full of people again. he goes along to the study room to sit on his own and do his homework, he sits at the poets table and follows along with what’s being said while keeping quiet, he goes to the meetings at all but doesn’t necessarily contribute (in fact, if you watch him when cameron is telling the story ‘from camp in sixth grade’, you can see that he recognizes it before any of the other poets but doesn’t voice it until they all have). he’s not alone, necessarily, if you want to get technical about it, he’s just lonely, and he’s generally okay with that. he doesn’t have friends and that’s fine, he doesn’t participate in class and that’s fine, he doesn’t have a relationship with his family and that’s fine—he could live without any real connection and he’d have been, more or less, fine.

the thing about when he says “i can take care of myself just fine!” is that he isn’t really wrong, you can infer that he’s been doing it his entire life anyway, it’s that ‘taking care of yourself’ isn’t the same thing as really living or being happy. todd’s an introvert, certainly, and even as he gets closer to the group he defaults to sitting quietly in the background, but he’s also denying himself community out of fear not introversion. todd isn’t friendless because he’s an introvert, although that definitely plays a part, he’s friendless because he pushes anyone that might want his company away. if anyone has every wanted for his attention in the first place. (neil’s unwavering interest in him is unique (even when it comes to the rest of the poets, who are fine with todd coming along and joining the group, but aren’t really hellbent on him being there in the beginning) and his refusal to accept it is a direct result of being so lonely growing up.)

there’s obviously something to be said about the implications of his parents neglect, and the more than likely fact that he grew up friendless, and how those both play a part in in him being so skilled at dodging social interaction/being so avoidant of it, but by the time we see him in the movie he’s all but accepted his fate as being alone his entire life. he’s already accepted being the family disappointment, and he’s already accepted he’ll never amount to anything, and he obviously doesn’t like it, but he’d have managed living with that knowledge without the confirmation that it was all wrong. would he have been miserable? almost certainly. but he’d have managed. he’d done it for that long already, anyhow.

[kangaracha]

return of the list

DID YOU FINISH THE MARCH LIST?

queue the rest of daybreak? (nearly. it runs out of posts next week. i should probably get on that)

queenmaker ch 27-35 (i wrote 27-34, so CLOSE)

queenmaker - writing (let me cross it off okay)

nevermore - started yellow wood arc

WHAT'S NEXT BABEY

queue the rest of daybreak seriously this time all of it get it done

queenmaker ch 35-42

railway fic

unfair fic

cinema fic

what the water brought (original), 1k per day

nevermore - yellow wood arc

BONUS POINTS

tgbyb - planned chapters

leave - part 2

FNF fic - 8/10 chapters

tsotl - edit

hymn of babylon (original)

all that is good/holy (original) - prologue

she of the garden (original)

[petiolata]

Wish my sister was awake so i could see if i could plead my case for her to go pick up a coffee for me 😴

[isfjmel-phleg]

I text the irl friends yesterday morning to ask if we were getting together today, and I make it clear this time that I want to know early whether I need to clean my house after I get home from work yesterday, because it's my turn to host.

Friend 1 says she's not feeling well, and she'll get back to us.

She gets back to us several hours later and says she'll have to pass.

I say that's fine and it's actually better for me if we try next week (when I'd have more time the previous day to get ready).

So I go home after work and don't clean, because I'm mentally exhausted by this long work week and why should I if I don't immediately have to?

Friend 1 texts again this morning to say that she feels much better today and she won't be available to meet for the next couple of weeks.

I take this to mean that she wants to get together after all. I say that I didn't do any cleaning yesterday but I might be able to manage if given enough time after church, and I specifically ask what they want to do.

No reply from Friend 1.

Friend 2, whom I go to church with, tells me she can make it, but we're waiting for Friend 1's confirmation. I suggest that Friend 2 announce her availability through the group chat in hopes of a reply.

Friend 1 finally replies to say that she just saw this and she's doing laundry and cleaning that she couldn't get to yesterday.

This does not answer my question.

I ask again, specifically, are we getting together and if so, roughly what time.

Still waiting.

...am I doing something wrong? Am I not being specific enough? I'm ready to host (had to clean very fast after church), but I really would appreciate it if I knew for sure what I'm doing with my day today. I feel like I'm on call and can't start anything. This is not the first time that something like this has happened, and while I know my friends don't mean to be inconsiderate, I do feel frustrated. I've talked about this a little with Friend 1 before, but--well, here we are.

UPDATE: finally got a definite no. But I really need to have a talk with people about helpful communication.

[bugeyedfreaks]

Was lurking around the internet and stumbled across something someone said about how the RRB could be redeemed, as several characters in the series that have exhibited bad boy behavior (i.e. Harry Pitt with his smooching, Mitch with his hamster abuse) were redeemed in the end of their respective episodes. So, by that logic, the RRB could be redeemed as well.

...guys... need I remind you that the RRB were literally designed to be evil and they never exhibited the potential for redemption in any of their episodes. If they could, it would have happened. Ice cold toilet water flows through their veins. They are built different.

[ki1ldeer]

I lied.

LARIMAR!!!!! Fusion of two gems who are actually just an AU of my two main OCs I made for an OC-tober thing I did in 2021 (I have never again done oc-tober)

[taradactyls]

Trying to Tread Water: Chapter Thirty

The Elizabeth/Darcy Marriage of Convenience fic no one asked for

Chapter Thirty: Elizabeth's first ball in town - and the first official dance she is attending as Mrs Darcy - has arrived. As have the Darcy family's collection of jewellery, which Mr Darcy sent for. Of course, despite that their marriage was made to secure her safety, his love for Elizabeth means he wants none but her to wear them. They stay close to each other during the ball, and he cannot keep his eyes off her. Especially when they dance.

Read on Ao3 here

First reviews of Chapter Thirty: "Honestly when I get the email this story has updated I get very excited and it’s a proper treat! I made a coffee and sat down to read it as soon as possible." "Loved this update! Oh man the vibes during that dance were just perfect." "I'm literally so unreasonably happy that they had a nice night out😭😭 grinning in public like a lunatic rn..." "I really loved the ball in its entirety, honestly. The descriptions of the room and atmosphere, and especially the last dance, all speaks to your writing prowess. 12/10, would recommend." "This story is my absolute favorite notification and I seriously enjoy reading it so much! The characters, the world building, just so incredibly well done!"

Story updates on Ao3 fortnightly, with Chapter Thirty-One coming out on the 17th May.

Story tags: Elizabeth/Darcy, Marriage of Convenience, Unrequited Love, Not Really Unrequited Love, Slow Burn, Pining, Pining Despite Being Married, Mr Darcy thinks his worst enemy is Wickham but maybe it's himself.

[theinfinitedivides]

LBF Sting stan oh i'm living. oh i'm experiencing new facets of life i am being vindicated every day for my music choices as we speak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[higherhell]

Thinking about making a little discord server to do like an Atsushi request stream in sometime. Like I'd post the invite link here I guess and then people could join and post pics of whatever Atsushi look they want to see me draw in the chat and I'd sketch it in stream... Or I guess it wouldn't have to just be Acchan. Could be anyone I suppose I'm just more likely to be invested if it's an artist I am already familiar with I reckon. idk I've been theoretically wanting to do more fanart but lately outside of my original work I've been in a state where my head is so empty for ideas or there are too many options you know. And I've been enjoying just showing up in stream unannounced to doodle and letting people tune in if they want so I feel like it might help be the ignition I need for fanart...twitch or whatever would make more sense for this kind of thing I guess but twitch has like the scariest UI on earth to me, my brain does not like it one bit. lol And discord makes streaming a csp window so ridiculously easy...plus feels less exposed... well....anyway. Thinking out loud as I am wont to do.