#and the tomorrow i have to do the next project

[ldydeath]

Missed You A Lot | Kwon Ji-yong (G-Dragon)

Summary: Jiyong is planning his return to the stage, but he can’t do it without you. Despite not speaking in years you still jump at the chance to see him when asks for help.

Warnings: none

Authors Note: this is my very first fic. I’m obviously very nervous to post this but I love this man so much I had to write something. If I decide to write more and you want to be tagged, let me know!

It had been two and a half years since you’d seen Jiyong in person. You’d spoken to him in quick texts between the release of Still Life and Seunghyun's withdrawal from the band, but with no real BigBang plans in progress you’d started focusing on new projects with other groups. You told yourself it was for the best to pull yourself away from him. Feelings had started to turn romantic and you couldn’t have that. You were friends and colleagues.

Which is why you’d been so shocked when he’d texted you two days prior, asking you to come help with his MAMA performance. You knew you couldn’t say no to him, no matter how much time had passed. And that’s how you found yourself in front of the studio the boys were rehearsing in, convincing yourself to go in.

“Get it together, it’s just Jiyong” you mumbled to yourself. He didn’t know you had developed feelings. There was no reason for this to be awkward. Taking a deep breath, you pushed the door open. Thankfully, the music was pumping and the guys were too focused on the steps to notice you enter.

Strolling over to where the rest of the team was standing you heard your name and turned to see Daesung waving at you. A smile spread across your lips as you waved back. Your eyes flickered over to Jiyong and you sucked in a breath. Somehow even with his head covered in a cap and a scarf covering half his face he was still the most attractive man in the room. His eyes locked with yours causing him to stumble. “That’s enough for today!” He called, the music coming to a stop.

Suddenly he was standing in front of you. “Hi” he smirked, fidgeting with his hands, unsure of what to do next. In a previous life he would’ve pulled you in for a hug, you two had always been close friends. You picked up on the hesitation and offered him a small smile back.

“Thanks for coming, I wasn’t sure if you would.” His eyes studied your face and you nodded. “Honestly? Neither was I.” You both couldn’t help but laugh at your honesty and deciding to be brave, you pulled him in for a hug. His arms wrapped tightly around you,his chin resting on top of your head. You could feel your heart beating faster, hoping that he couldn’t hear it.

“Come on, let’s get you to bed. Big day tomorrow, yeah? He nodded at your suggestion, pulling away from the hug and laced his fingers with yours. Jiyong had always been a physical touch type of friend, always needing someone to hold onto and you tried to convince yourself that was all this was.

Grabbing his stuff he led you out of the studio and to the awaiting car. The drive was silent, your hands still locked together. You spent most of the ride keeping your breathing calm. The car stopped at the hotel and you climbed out of the car. You, of course, had been given the suite next to him. “I’ll see you in the morning.” You smiled at him before heading into your room.

You weren’t sure how much time had passed when your phone buzzed. “Can you come over?” Your eyes skimmed his words and sighed. Jiyong didn’t ask for company often, he’s always been the type to lock himself away before and after a show. If he didn’t want to be alone, you weren’t going to make him sit there by himself. Sliding your feet into the pair of hotel slippers you made your way to the door connecting your rooms and knocked.

You barely had your arm away from the door when it swung open and his arms were around you, engulfing you in a tight hug. “I’ve missed.. I can’t.” He paused, pulling away from the hug to look at you. You could feel the desperation in his eyes. “I can’t do this anymore.”

“Do what? The show?” He shook his head, his hands going to scratch his pink hair. He was looking at you, a sad smile on his face. You reached up to grab his hand, stopping his excessive need to mess with his hair. “Jiyong, what’s going on in that head of yours?”

He shook his head before his lips suddenly came crashing down on yours. You let out a surprised gasp before returning the kiss. Your hand slid from his head to his face, pulling him closer as his arms held you tightly in place. “I’ve wanted this for so long” Jiyong confessed as he pulled away, his forehead resting against yours.

“Me too.” You grinned up at him. He pulled back, his signature toothy grin on his face. “Don’t disappear on me again.” He pleaded. His body finally relaxed now that he had you back with him. “I won’t.” You promised as you closed the door connecting the room, deciding the only place you needed to be was with him.

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

this week was a little low on various things (steps, hours worked, tasks completed), but not crazy low, and also, It’s So Horrible Dark And Cold And Yucky All The Time And This Has Been True For So Long; we have truly entered the portion of the year where i am giving myself credit for every day passed without a weather-induced nervous breakdown. my main productivity takeaway this week is that i think i want to try out setting aside a day or two to hammer out a bunch of work, because in practice i do that anyway and it would be nice to do it not under the pressure of a deadline, lol. the messiness battle has been lost this week but i am prepped through tomorrow which means i am prepped through the weekend which means i can take tomorrow to clean up and then tuesday to burrow a little into work. really can’t stress how much of my prep schedule involves digitizing/making answer keys for the ACT, and will be for the next, like, two years? but eventually i will have so many tests banked… also the next development project has started so i think i am gonna hold on tutoring additions unless they’re extremely convenient for at least a little while (maybe until my SAT kid finishes, which i think/hope should be soonish… although i have a sibling picking up the SAT in may…)

i helped my mom with some doctor stuff and stayed on my best behavior the whole time. free store was nice, as was dinner with friends after (thai place a couple blocks from me that was… shockingly good… another day another W for Living In Queens), as was the surprise-ish birthday drinks for a friend. nosferatu was a miss for me but chatting about it in the lobby was fun. i texted a bunch of people about doing a birthday thing next week and didn’t go totally crazy while doing it, which may not sound impressive to you but is a major milestone for a person who lives under the internal psychological rule of drawing attention to yourself = breaking the law that god established for you personally. i finished severance [book, unrelated to the show] thank god and started topics of conversation, which is thus far not bad! i did finally redeem my three months of apple TV for severance [show] watching but have not begun because i am slowly working my way through say nothing [show, i read the book last year] which i feel ethically conflicted about but is outrageously compelling TV. i worked out five times, including one where my cardio was so fucked i had to pause almost every set, but then the next one was fine; off days happen i guess. i turned 37, a number i mostly associate with zadie smith’s nw. it is so horrible dark and cold but i can watch the sun set during my 5-6 mondays rather than arriving in the dark. 7 weeks till daylight savings!!

[livvyofthelake]

ok well good morning i guess. let’s slay the day or whatever

[heartorbit]

i just wanted to draw the ave mujica outfits .

[yeonjune]

Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM

[adozentothedawn]

I am finished. It is done. I have finished my next embroidery project. Behold....

A(s)loth

Based on the wonderful work of @solas-backpack-mug, thank you for giving me permission and for always having lovely comments on my progression!

This took me almost exactly two months to make. It was a lot of fun and I did learn a lot. I probably would do some things differently if I did it again, but I am proud of how it turned out, i think it looks great.

[somegrumpynerd]

Are you guys ever existing in your normal state and then you're suddenly overcome by the need to learn a new craft right now in this exact moment?

[clovercrafted]

Alright because I can’t decide…

[drysauce]

today was like a literal sine line

railways guy was nice and said my project is ok, even joked that even though i didn't manage to stick to regulations in one segment, irl solutions that are made are usually even worse so it's fine -> instantly better mood

then hell on earth called concrete project consultations and people telling me i shouldn't take a break and continue the grind because i will somehow pull through and if i take a break i'll regret it -> felt miserable and wanted to abandon all my project classes. also lost the 50/50 in reverse1999 so i got convinced that the world hates me

19:30 and the underground building consultations, felt hopeless but if i already got here i it would be a waste not to go. and the guy said that yeah looks good, explained what i didn't know and said i don't need to come to class tomorrow -> instant energy recharge and i feel great

and now i just remembered i have the dynamics test tomorrow so i can't go to sleep when i get home but i need to study 😔

[catinasink]

cant fucking wait for winter break tbh

[imaginepans]

Starlo but i made his eyes fuckin big and sparkly

was bored during class and decided to limit myself to one layer

took like 20 min

[casbitchh]

i emailed my boss saying he needs to talk to the people developing a satellite i’m working on (unpaid) bc they’re giving me too much work and it’s unsustainable please clap

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[cielosuerte]

so fucking busy the rest of the year. being alive is awesome :]

[bogkeep]

first week back at school and ahhhhhh everything is a little overwhelming currently

- my living space is full of boxes i have simply not had the energy to unpack at all.... hopefully this weekend (but i have also been invited to a Social Event so WE SHALL SEE)

- this school year is going to have So Much Important Stuff happening inbetween the many weeks of practice placement

- such as The Academic Text

- AND i need to finish the big project i was supposed to have finished ages ago

- our teacher this year speaks swedish with a very thick french accent and i speak norwegian with a dialect, we really struggle to understand one another but maybe hopefully that will change over time.... please...........

- i'm stressed about Stupid Bureaucracy Stuff

- and im so so sleepytired :(((

- and it's too humid and warm for comfort :(((((

AT LEAST I HAVE CUTE SOCKS

purchased in a distraught jetlag haze and subsidized by my travel insurance. they're my favourites now

[miodiodavinci]

laying down by a brook with one hand in the water like some kind of tragic prince , , , , , ,