#and the other person just being like wait wut?

[mugglebrn]

it'll never not crack me up that our fav lil rule-lover here has not only broken so many rules but also committed crimes

[bunnakit]

my stand in ep 4 thoughts, feelings, etc

WOW WA WE WAA THAT SURE WAS AN EPISODE HUH - happy to report i went back through the episode slowly this week and took notes and really tried to gather everything i wanted to say (but i will inevitably forget something)

🌸 ok disclaimers because i have a lot of them for this particular episode 🌸

i'm just a silly guy on the internet, i'm not an expert in mental health, psychology, body language, whatever. most days i can't even take care of myself. i'm just saying things recreationally.

PLEASE do not put novel spoilers in my replies, reblogs, or tags without a warning notice. i've got an itchy blocking finger for it these days.

i am treating ming and joe and everyone involved in this show as if they were real life human beings. ming was not born some mustache twirling villain sent from hell to make joe miserable. joe is not some pure angel descended from the clouds to do no wrong. everyone in this show exhibits very human behavior and that can be distressing under certain circumstances. i'm just going to comment on them as humans. i'm not interested in a round table discussion on why a character is irredeemable, the scum of the earth, etc. i'm just putting my thoughts out there and you can take them or leave them.

🌸 alright yucky disclaimer time over 🌸

the episode really just picks us back up where everything left off - and yet joe still made ming breakfast, and ming isn't stupid (well right now at least,) he knows something is off.

i am confused why tong needs to get married on this specific day. and like bro how fast are you getting married? relax. the whole thing is just unstoppable force (trajectory of this producers career) meets immovable object (tong's fuckass stubbornness) and the collateral damage is massive.

and then there's the question of did joe ever want to play a lead? or did he let his impulsiveness and hurt put a target on his back? (only emphasized by the fact that everyone assumed joe would turn down the role)

i DO apologize for all my doubt surrounding wut. he, ja, and may are the only people in this show with any god damn sense. maybe jojo and yim. we'll see.

getting into the confrontation at joe's work, i really don't think it's that surprising when we keep in mind ming genuinely has no fucking clue what is going on. all he knows is joe woke up, was acting weird, didn't come home, and then told him to pack up his shit and leave with ZERO explanation. like, joe's completely in the right, but i'd also be confused as fuck. (i wouldn't go to someone's work about it but, y'know, we know ming acts in extremes.)

and to me this is where it really became obvious that joe has always been able to overpower ming, to get away from him, as we have seen joe's physical prowess, we've seen what he's capable of, but he never uses his body to move ming away from him - that's not who joe is, he's not someone that would put his hands on another person like that. it's just another way ming and joe are the direct antithesis of each other.

it's my thought that the argument escalates because ming is used to getting everything he wants - except for tong, and now joe. when joe begins to push him away and deny him his substitution for tong i think ming lashes out in his hurt with a thought of "it's happening again, why doesn't anyone want me?"

i will say while i do believe sol has good intentions for the most part his white knighting is getting a little irksome. while convenient, it just shows how much he's still hovering and laying in wait for a chance with joe - he, too, is not respecting joe's wishes. no is a complete sentence, sol.

and then things continue back at home and joe finally, finally throws ming's words back at him: if i'm so terrible to be with, if you're so great, why are you wasting your time with me?

and ming doesn't have an answer. what ming DOES have is another back embrace, arms wrapped around joe as he asks "don't you love me anymore?" but is he asking joe or tong?

"although i'm not as good as tong" even now joe's rampant self worth issues are still at play but at least he finally knows he's worth more than whatever this is.

then the phone rings and to me, ming looks skittish. he looks shaken. he's never seen joe so angry and he's scared and as the call progresses that fear morphs into rage when sol calls joe. and the thing is, regardless of who played the main role, ming was never going to be happy. it was either going to be joe or tong playing opposite sol and neither of those things would have been acceptable.

and then i said, out loud, in my quiet office: OH! and promptly lost my shit in the group chat.

ming doesn't look wholly present after his act of violence. his face is vacant, like he isn't completely seeing or grasping what he's just done. i get the impression that ming isn't mentally well; stress and fear and anger have a way of making people do really fucking stupid things and as these things happen you risk falling into the sunk cost fallacy - you've already gone this far, you can't stop now - which all aligns with the obsessive behavior we've seen from ming in the past.

as joe wakes up and they talk once again joe doesn't blame ming, he blames himself for not seeing the writing on the walls even though it was written in invisible ink.

"all these times we were together did you ever love me?"

"you can't tell?"

again, so much of the blame and emotional responsibility of their situationship is put on joe and ming refuses to communicate any of his feelings, perhaps because he doesn't know how to after repressing everything for so long.

WE DIDN'T GET HOT KINKY CHAINED UP SEX THOUGH, WHY DOES GOD HATE ME SPECIFICALLY

but the way joe looks at ming as they linger there in the wake of joe's request looks like a goodbye, the way his eyes soak in every detail of ming's face. despite all of this and the nightmare it has turned into he did love ming, perhaps still does, and he does have some of those good memories he was so desperate to keep.

though like.. joe.... maybe we could consider a different career path??? instead of just jumping to risking our lives? like sure food service sucks, cashiering sucks, etc. but you aren't in danger of falling off any cliffs, you know? and let's be real, he could just go into modeling with those looks.

it's my impression that when ming calls joe he looks haggard, like he's lost numerous nights of sleep (and we really don't know how much time has passed) but either way it does seem like he's at least done some amount of reflecting. his voice comes across soft, subdued, and sincere.

and after everything, back in the present, we see ming. he's still in the apartment, desperately calling joe's name all these years later, still unable to sleep and waiting for joe to come home just like he asked him to years ago.

maybe ming never wanted to enter the entertainment industry before, but he has now. perhaps it was never for the attention or the money, maybe he chose to promote those watches because it was a reminder of the gift from joe. and maybe this job, in this specific industry, is the closest he can feel to joe now. and maybe with new influence and connections ming can find out why he was never able to tell joe he loved him before he lost him.

WHO KNOWS, NOT ME, CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT THO

[wholelottatransbians]

Green Valley chat: how the hell New order works Edition (including Miss direction trolling the gils and boys, soehow Midnight mass is helping her)

Bnuuy: That's it. Bnuuy: I'm calling this. Bnuuy: Miss-Direction. Do something about them. Frills_and_Violence: I'm telling you, line of sight makes the most sense here! TheCoolerBnuuy: No No No. Obviously it's contact based! Why would it be line of sight? Miss-Direction: What are you talking about- Miss-Direction: Oh. Miss-Direction: Someone explain now. Bnuuy: They were trying to figure out how New Order is supposed to work. It being classified and stuff. Gadgteer: It's been 3 hours. Tanuki: Put us out of our misery. FashionVictim: Pls. Miss-Direction: Oh, that's it? Miss-Direction: Well, you are partially right. It's touch based. TheCoolerBnuuy: Ha, suck it! Miss-Direction: But it's more like... adjusting the sliders in a video game. Frills_and_Violence: ...wut? Miss-Direction: Yeah. I think she said it's a stockpile? She just has to hold her hand in the same spot the whole time to send New Order energy to the other person. Miss-Direction: Also she needs to hum the national anthem. She doesn't know why, she just does. TheCoolerBnuuy:... TheCoolerBnuuy: You're fucking with me. Miss-Direction: Of course I'm not, what could I possibly have to gain from that? Frills_and_Violence: We need a second opinion. Frills_and_Violence: DreamChild, You ever go in Star and Stripe's head? DreamChild (she/they): Just once, got the general rundown of her Quirk. TheCoolerBnuuy: And? DreamChild (she/they): Vocal component. Basically she says "America Says" and the other person has to obey her command. FashionVictim: ...Okay, I'll bite. What happens if they don't obey? DreamChild (she/they): Their clothes explode off. Like that old cooking anime. TheCoolerBnuuy:... TheCoolerBnuuy: Fuck it, I give up. I'm going to bed. Frills_and_Violence: Same for me, I guess.

Miss-Direction: That was beautiful. DreamChild (she/they): Agreed. We should do this again some time. Gadgeteer: Wait, do you two actually know how her Quirk works? DreamChild (she/they): Of course. Miss-Direction: First one I studied. Tanuki: Can you tell us? Miss-Direction: Now now, what would be the fun in that? Bnuuy: Fair enough, I guess.

[luckhissoul]

✩ — 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐒.

▸     IS  YOUR  MUSE  TALL  /  SHORT  /  AVERAGE? tall. he's 6 ft.

▸      ARE  THEY  OKAY  WITH  THEIR  HEIGHT ? yes, he's chill with it. his aiel girlfriend told him he was short and he was very offended. but she was like 6'3 so that doesn't count.

▸      WHAT’S    THEIR    HAIR    LIKE? short dark hair, messy, slightly longer in the back

▸     DO    THEY    SPEND    A    LOT    OF    TIME    ON    THEIR    HAIR    /    GROOMING? yes, but he leaves it messy so no one will know the care that goes into his hair grooming process. lol but only when he has the time

▸      DOES  YOUR  MUSE  CARE  ABOUT  THEIR  APPEARANCE  /  WHAT  OTHERS  THINK ? he does. he likes the idea of leaving an impression based on his appearance. he likes making a statement with his clothes. drawing attention to himself.

✩ — 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒.

▸     INDOORS  OR  OUTDOORS? outdoors.

▸     RAIN  OR  SUNSHINE? sunshine

▸     FOREST  OR  BEACH? beach.

▸     PRECIOUS  METALS  OR  GEMS? both because GOLD.

▸     FLOWERS  OR  PERFUMES? perfumes.

▸     PERSONALITY  OR  APPEARANCE? both..

▸     BEING  ALONE  OR  BEING  IN  A  CROWD? he does like having alone time but he prefers being in a crowd, common rooms, groups of people - small or big. he's got some trust issues but he's always up for being around people.

▸     ORDER  OR  ANARCHY? order if the the top of the power structure is rand lol.

▸     PAINFUL  TRUTHS  OR  WHITE  LIES? to hear? painful truths. to tell? white lies. depending on the situation. but he finds that people take that easier. or how about a mix up where he'll do painful lies --- wait wut

▸     SCIENCE  OR  MAGIC? erg he's very uncomfortable around magic. he'll go for science but like from an engineering stand point more than anything, like weaponry and the like. scares the hell out of him but - he has more control over it. structurally at least.

▸      PEACE  OR  CONFLICT? peace but he's never gonna get any of that... he wouldn't even know what to do with it tbh

▸     NIGHT  OR  DAY? night, more fun.

▸     DUSK  OR  DAWN? dusk.

▸     WARMTH    OR    COLD ? warm although he does like the snow.

▸     MANY  ACQUAINTANCES  OR  A  FEW  CLOSE  FRIENDS? he has both. and depending on the day the preference on this changes up

▸     READING    OR    PLAYING    A    GAME? playing a game., he hates reading. plz don't make him do it. but he LOVES games. even mind games ??? help

✩ — 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐄.

▸      WHAT    ARE    SOME    OF    YOUR    MUSE’S    BAD    HABITS? gambling, drinking, promiscuity, reckless behavior, those knife fights lol - okay he just wanted some attention let a man live -, which could be the next one like sir ---, complaining lol, quick to judge, weird toxic women lol

▸      HAS  YOUR  MUSE  LOST  ANYONE  CLOSE  TO  THEM?  HOW  HAS  IT  AFFECTED   THEM? yes, men under his command, his dark friend girlfriend, his friend, noal. survivors guilt, anger, a lot of reflective thinking about it but never really talking about it. over protective over women - to the point of annoyance- after his girlfriend.

▸      WHAT  ARE  SOME  FOND  MEMORIES  YOUR  MUSE  HAS? most of his memories as a kid are ones that he's fond of. he had a good childhood. he was a terror though lol but he had fun doing it. fml the few memories he still has of back home, his family, and things like that. he lost most of them though or they blur more and more over time.

▸     IS  IT  EASY  FOR  YOUR  MUSE  TO  KILL? i wouldn't exactly say it's EASY. but he's done it more than he cares to count. some instances just stick with him, things he can't shake and others are more of a general, the whole ptsd from war and then there's the one on one killing that depending does leave a mark.

▸      WHAT’S  IT  LIKE  WHEN  YOUR  MUSE  BREAKS  DOWN? Mat doesn't exactly break down. he keeps his emotions hidden for the most part. even from himself. he lives very fast that his reactions and such to things often go over his head. he'll act out with drinking, gambling, getting into fights, sleeping around, uncontrolled laughter, isolating himself for a bit, just turning completely of like just sitting there by himself not talking or moving for an extended period of time. things like that. but he never processes any reactions as anything. he can be very unaware of what's going on inside of himself. he tends to arrange his thoughts more in what he's going to do next as opposed to breaking down.

▸      IS  YOUR  MUSE  CAPABLE  OF  TRUSTING  SOMEONE  WITH  THEIR  LIFE? there are a select few that he would trust with his life. oh and the band -- so there are actually over thirty thousand people he trusts with his life lmao

▸      WHAT’S  YOUR  MUSE  LIKE  WHEN  THEY’RE  IN  LOVE? he has different of stages. when he acts very showy, trying to dote on them, win them over, see what they like and if he can give that to them, constant attention, gifts, getting to know them, trying to win them over. but in contrast since he's not exactly very attuned to his feelings if things get emotional / intense he'll try to be indifferent, a little aggressive even. the physical, "courting" aspect would be super easy, he takes to it like a game. but emotional things are tougher so he tends to shut down, push away but all the while wanting the person to stay, needing to be loved but not wanting to ask for it. he's complicated and tends to let that bleed into relationships. it's easier for him to be in a relationship that remains a challenge or a game. not exactly the healthy option but he's not here for the healthy options. but regardless he'd be extremely loyal and devoted to the person.

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Build Up Episode 2: Decalcomanie

Welcome back to another recap in my Build Up recap series! In the previous one, I covered Sum (Breath). In this one, I’ll cover Decalcomanie, a song originally performed by Mamamoo. This will be an interesting one, so let’s go!

Ok, before we dive in, I thought I might tell you a bit about the song itself! It was released by Mamamoo in October of 2016. It was a huge hit, kind of part of their launch from lesser known girl group to big time. It was part of the 1-2-3-4 hit string of Um Oh Ah Yeh, You’re the Best, Decalcomanie, and Yes I Am. 

So decalcomanie (French term, decalcomania in English) is a technique by which engravings and prints may be transferred to pottery or other materials. What does that mean? Well, would it help if I pointed out that a shortened version of the word is “decal”? Basically, it’s kind of like screen printing, or stencils, or iron on transfers -- in that vein. You might be wondering, “Ok, so… wut?” Especially if you’ve noticed that there are lots of other kpop songs with the word in it. What’s that all about?

Well, basically, in Korea, the word decalcomanie has come to mean the idea of a mirror image or doppleganger. The song by Mamamoo is about this idea of two people who are coming together like two faces on either side of a mirror -- finding a connection that’s impossible to break. In other words, it’s about sex. Ok, great, that’s solved. 

And, fun fact, apparently Mamamoo avoid singing this song when they can because it’s so hard to sing.

Fun Korean word of the day: 위험한, wiheomhan (sound like “wee-oh-may” when they say it fast), which means dangerous. You hear it many, many times in Decalcomanie, but you’ll also hear it in a million other kpop songs. Heartburn by Sunmi, Venom by Stray Kids, Wee-oo wee-ooh by Pristin, Overdose by EXO, and a lot more. Plus there’s some EXO song where Chanyeol goes “Danger, wiheomhan” and I can’t remember which one it is. Brain is broken. Ok! That’s enough of that.

Let’s get back to the episode. 

We see that the guys are super nervous, because they have to sing the song in front of the original singer. 

Dahee says that this is her personal favorite song. When the song is revealed, the other judges applaud for Solar, I guess for being part of this song in the first place.

She’s excited that her song is being used.

Solar tries to put on a serious face, but I think she’s just happy about it.

The guys approach!

LTR: Bitsaeon from M.O.N.T., Ji Yeon Woo, Sunyoul from Up10tion, and Choi Su Hwan

Bitsaeon introduces himself as a chameleon who can do any genre. 

Yeonwoo seems pretty nervous, then introduces himself as a trainee from RBW, which is Solar’s agency. Solar says she didn’t know he was going to be on the show, but she has actually evaluated him before because she does the evaluations at her agency. They aks him how it went, and he says she was scary, telling him he wasn’t good enough. 

Suhwan says he wants to be remembered as an outstanding singer. Vocal Coach Guy (VCG) says that he remembers Suhwan from Produce 101, and that he’s very good. Suhwan is so happy. 

Then Sunyoul says “I want to be a beautiful melody on stage. I’m the main vocal of Up10tion, Sunyoul.” You’re already a beautiful melody, Sunyoul. The judges know his voice and approve of it. 

We flash back to the first episode and see 8th place Sunyoul running immediately to Decalcomanie. He says he feels confident with his high notes. This is as good a time as any to remind you that Sunyoul sang multiple songs on King of Masked Singer dressed as a woman, and convinced his listeners that he was female. That’s the kind of voice he has! 

So Sunyoul joined first, then 14th placed Bitsaeon and 19th placed Ji Yeonwoo (in the suspenders) joined while all options were still open. Bitseaon said he wanted a song with ryhtm and groove, and like, same. When Yeonwoo joins, they ask him, “wait, aren’t you at RBW?” and he’s like, yeah, but it wasn’t so much that he wanted to sing a song by his sunbaes as that he wanted a faster, less depressing song.

Suhwan was in 33rd place, and when he joined, four of the songs (Ditto, Tomboy, Shall I Love You Again, and Beautiful) were all closed. But Decalcomanie was his top choice, so he could show his high notes, even though he wasn’t sure he wanted to be compared to Sunyoul. 

Suhwan tries to laugh about it with Sunyoul, but kind of can’t. 

They do the part distribution, and there’s a part no one wants. Sunyoul thinks that Yeonwoo, the trainee, might do well with that part, and then says “but you can be honest about what you want.” 

Yeonwoo voice-overs, “There were a lot of cameras….”

. … and they show us this amazing shot. There are in fact a LOT of cameras and people watching and listening. “It was my first time on TV,” Yeonwoo explains, so I was extremely nervous. People I’m working with have years of experience. I was discouraged.”  (Side note: My spy network had told me that Yeonwoo had gone on another show called Wild Idol, so I wonder what’s going on with that.)

Sunyoul seems cognizant of all this, and the age gap between the rest of them and Yeonwoo. I’m not sure how old Yeonwoo is, but Bitseon is 28, Sunyoul is 27, and Suhwan is 22. “This is his first survival show,” Sunyoul says. “I was worried that he might be hesitating to speak up.” Aww! Sunyoul! Sweet Sunyoul!! 

We see a brief montage of the others helping Yeonwoo a bit, showing him how the in-ear monitors work, and offering him shoulder squeezes. He interviews that he’s feeling a lot better from all the support from the others.

And the performance begins! 

Here’s the link to the version without all the reactions. 

The guys approach!

LTR: Bitsaeon from M.O.N.T., Ji Yeon Woo, Sunyoul from Up10tion, and Choi Su Hwan

My thoughts:

First off, this is a cool arrangement. It’s really fun to listen to. And who doesn’t like this song? It’s just so catchy. As for the performances, well, mostly pretty great -- good enough to end up on my playlist. But no one here made me go “ahhhh” the way I did when Taehwan, or Neon, or any member of Breath sang. It was all really really good, just not extraordinary for me. I hope you understand what I mean. 

Next thing I have to note is that my opinion of the performance seems to be very different from the judges’, so in editing this write up, I’ve had to think about things I’ve missed, opinions I might change, and in the end I have to stick to my guns and disagree with the judges. You’ve been warned!

Poor Yeonwoo forgot the words right at the beginning. Oh noooooo. He sounded sooo nervous, but pretty nice, and I was cheering for him, and then I heard a “nanana” where there should have been other sounds. Oh nooooooooooooooooooooo. Thank dog, he did a lot better later, but he never seemed to totally relax and get back into the song, except for the part where he was trading “I feel good!”s with Bitsaeon.  I think the guys really didn’t know who the judges would be, so when Yeonwoo found out it would be Solar, he panicked a little. Poor guy. I bet he did it perfectly in practice dozens of times. I really liked his teaser performance, and I think he has a ton of talent, so I hope he can figure out how to get over his nerves. Even nervous and unsure, I could see glimmers of his talent and technique, and I overall enjoyed his performance.

Man, I love Bitsaeon. I love his fuzzy sweaters, I love his energy and swag, I loved his “Whoo!!” at the beginning and his “yeah yeah yeahs” at the end, and I love his voice in general. He has impeccable pitch and a big open sound that manages to be both clean and textured at the same time. I was surprised that the rap part was included, but he did a good job with that too. 

On the negative end, he was a tiny bit ahead of the beat in his first chorus, but I didn’t notice that problem later in the song. Also, his highest harmonies were a little thin and nasal, and he had to go into his falsetto and I’m not quite sure if that was his plan. 

Choi Suhwan sounded so great for the first section he sang. He has just the right amount of vibrato to give texture to his voice, and a nice natural color. If I judged his whole performance by those four lines, I’d give him the win. Also, he carried a lot of the rapping and he did really great with that, bringing a Moonbyul-esque tone to it. 

Then partway through he started to sound more and more strained, almost like he had to swallow or clear his throat or something, or like he was getting a bit hoarse. It made my throat hurt listening to how strained he was. He still hit that great high note in the “wiheomhan, wiheomhan , WEEheomhan” part, perfectly on pitch. He wasn’t as nasal sounding as he was in some other performances of his, but the problems I noticed with his upper mix were still there. He still sounded good, though, overall. All four of them did, for the most part. 

Sunyoul’s voice is really lovely, with varied dynamics and little growls for texture, and I loved the energy he brought. He even did a little of the choreo, almost like it was reflexive. Sunyoul himself is so cute and loveable that I wish I loved his voice a little bit more than I do. It’s just a tiny bit too high pitched naturally to tickle my ears. But I adore Sunyoul. I don’t understand how their agency fucked Up10tion over so badly, when it seems like they have so many talented and lovable members who only seem to get noticed when they go on reality shows. 

In terms of what the four of them brought to the arrangement, I think other teams did a bit more to arrange their songs, but what these guys did was good. Something I liked about their harmony is that they sort of took turns taking the lead with it, so when they were in harmony sometimes Bitsaeon’s voice would come through strongest, or sometimes Yeonwoo, etc. That’s a subtle thing to work through and they did it! But the harmonies weren’t quite as complex or interesting as some done by the other teams. They were still good, just not anything that made me say, “oh, hmm, that was cool.” 

Also, I liked that they did the rap as rap. I think not enough people view rapping as a vocal skill, and of course it is. There’s a musicality to rap, where you find the right tone to rap on. It’s almost like you’re using your voice as a drum instead of a piano, but drums and pianos are both instruments, if you feel me. Oh, and I was wondering if they rewrote the rap at all, but no, they didn’t, it’s the original rap. The only change was instead of “Mamamoo is coming back for you” it’s “Build up is coming back for you.” (That’s perfectly fine, it’s not a rap competition, but I was curious.) 

If I had to pick a top tier member, I think it’d be Sunyoul. I’d almost say Bitsaeon, but I think his problems with the tempo might disqualify him. Sunyoul sang well, performed well, and led the group, and I think he deserved top tier. 

The MNET edit starts with Dahee reacting to the “whoo, let’s go!”

When Yeonwoo forgets the words…

… of course it deserves an instant replay. In the MNET edit, we can clearly see Sunyoul looking over to Yeonwoo to nod at him after the mistake, as if to say it’s ok, keep going. Sweet Sunyoul! 

Raise your hand if you love Sunyoul! Ok you can lower it again, you need it to scroll.

Link to the judging.

The judges applaud, but they also say “Aigoo!”  Backstage, the guys are still sad on Yeonwoo’s behalf. He has a nice voice, so it’s a real bummer that he forgot the words. 

Solar leads off the critique, saying the song isn’t easy to sing. As an expert on this song, she was a bit disappointed with their version. And Yeonwoo forgot the words.

“Here it doesn’t matter how experienced you are,” Solar says. “You need to do well now in this moment. What you do affects other people. You should take this opportunity to improve yourself.” 

Eunkwang jumps onto the dogpile saying, “You shouldn’t have given up. It sounds like you gave up. From now on you should train yourself to get your act together even after making a mistake.”

Just to pour a little salt on the wound, Solar mentions that the words he forgot were in the section of the song that Solar usually sings!  

“Oh god, it wasn’t just Solar’s song, it was Solar’s part, I am actually in hell, what if I could just implode into a puff of smoke and blow away to another galaxy?” -- Yeonwoo, probably

“OMG, he messed up Solar’s part? Oh god, the pain, the pain, the cringe, the cringe, I am so so so glad I am not Yeonwoo.” -- Everyone, probably 

Some of the guys backstage are like, “He’s not going to be able to sleep tonight,” and truer words were never spoken. 

Then Eunkwang tells Bitsaeon about his rhythm/tempo issue, which is fair. 

Solar praises Suhwan for starting off the song so well, which is fair. Those first few lines were really great. 

Baekho praises Sunyoul, which is also fair and accurate. Thank you, Baekho, for staying my unproblematic fave! Others join in praising Sunyoul.

The judges reveal their votes:

Baekho, my darling, chooses Sunyoul, but everyone else chooses Choi Suhwan. VCG says his voice would suit all genres and he thanks them. But then..

… then Eunkwang has to make Suhwan feel awful by saying that his jacket is too short. I think it’s meant to be cropped, but he’s got a short torso, so instead of looking cropped, it looks just a bit too short. So now even though Suhwan won, he gets to feel terrible. Thanks, Eunkwang. Thunkwang. 

I stand by what I said -- I still think that Suhwan’s later singing in this song wasn’t as fabulous as those first four lines. But I don’t hate that he won. Like everyone on the show, he is a really good singer. 

As the boys walk off stage together, they try to comfort Yeonwoo, and you can hear Sunyoul promising to buy Yeonwoo some chicken.

Protect Sunyoul at all costs, fam.

Ok, one more song to go! I’ll see you in the next one, my loves, and thanks as always for reading!

[monstrouscrew]

Malevolent episode 39, live commentary backup.

spoiler: we liked it.

note: we won't be sharing our emotions about the finale with others online. got work to do and dreamscapes to walk.

we have our plush Arthur to scream into its soft and warm, huggable presence.

онсказалпоехали и жмякнул play

Jjjjjjjjaune. these gorram topics. нихера разговорчики пошли, woke tumblr vocabulary.

also i feel uncomfortable when i hear the word "relationship". a truly unspeakable horror.

Arthur's "..yes, yes." at Jjjjaune's "a way to separate us". don't you want it, human?...

ARTHUR OH MY GOODNESS. a model chaotic neutral. 🤣🤣🤣 poor Jjaune. you've got voices, yeeeeah.

dear Arthur Lester. don't fuck this up, please. be a good medium. be a vessel. for a few minutes. also, Noel, that's the time for using the names first ><

yes, got that joke about Karen xD

all the italktobothofyou stuff...

on the one side, we're a bit envious. because we know the fact that we are the crew is either not taken seriously or is seen as a mental disorder. or... the human fields, we don't trust others after that.

okay, Arthur fucks up being a good vessel, too. personality is a curse.

Noel has seen some real shite, yeah... Maybe we'll draw him. we like his manner of speaking. of course he'll die eventually, of course.

Jjjaune, ffs, WHY DON'T YA PRESS THESE FUCKING BUTTONS

also Jjaune: "aren't you just a cute wet cat who haven't beaten a man when you was a P.I.?"

Arthur can be scary. he can. (i wish i could be like that, not just "cute uncanny valley")

well, fuck you, Percy :DD dammit, now I'm also wondering what happened.

...

the part about that speck of dust was good. the ending, though... godmother coming to those in need. and a man who doesn't see the stars anymore.

Jjaune NOW YOU FORGET NOEL????? what is this shit. wut.

booooys. to take this object as far from the humans as possible you'll have to travel far beyond the path of reason. you know what the hell it means.

Marie is such a nice old woman :) and... Arthur isn't a good man. yet... it's warm to have it imagined.

a letter from Oscar. whoops.

also.

wait NOEL what's up.

(okay may they throw this letter away or just lose it)

ohhh we see.

our golden majesty is a theatre kid, of course 🙃

what do we know about Ancient Egypt and the rocks falling from the sky?

enough to appreciate this episode. sometimes deep space delays are very useful :)

[otakween]

Digimon World: Digital Card Battle (1999) - 6 hours in

Back to the PSX for another Japan-only game! I'm already in love with this one. Not only do I get to revisit the super charming Digimon World 1 world, but this time around the gameplay isn't batshit and the writing is coherent. Hurray! So far, the Japanese has been pretty easy and the card game was easy to pickup, so I'm feeling optimistic about getting through this one without much difficulty.

This is definitely going to take me longer than the v-pet style games I've been playing, but I'm actually kind of relieved to have one game I can stick with for awhile. Learning a new game's mechanics every week can get tiring.

Notes:

-That opening CG was pretty rough looking not gonna lie. Greymon looked okay, but they had not perfected furry characters yet in 1999

-Very confusing how this game fits into Digimon World 1. This time we get Babamon instead of Jijimon, but Mameo's still the protagonist. I like to think this is an alternate, wholesome timeline where everything's the same but there's no violence, just card games lol. It's kind of a cool extension of the other game because in DW1 you could buy trading cards (I had to collect them all to get a medal), but they didn't really serve a purpose other than maybe to sell them.

-Babamon's intro was weirdly meta. She asks you for your IRL name and then is like "well, no matter what you really look like, you're gonna be piloting this anime boy for awhile." And then you name Mameo. Like wut? Is my real name every going to be used?? Oh well...

-I picked the "balanced" starter deck, mostly because I didn't really understand the descriptions for the other ones lol. I think one was good at offense and the other was good at defense? Reminded me of Kingdom Hearts when they ask you to choose between magic, defense, and attack power.

-I love the visual novel-esque style of this game! Mameo's character portrait is very expressive and the digimon all have a lot of personality. It's similar to Animal Crossing where they have unique speech styles based on their species. It's super cute. I like how the child-levels are child-like (have messy handwriting, don't understand big concepts etc.).

-Very cool to revisit this setting in Japanese and in a stress-free way! I don't have to worry about my digimon pooping on the ground or being ambushed by a digimon that's too strong. Without these worries I can focus on appreciating the background art and music. I also really like that I have an overworld map now instead of having to walk everywhere (normally I like that kind of exploration, but not when I'm stressed about my digimon's needs).

-I am not an experienced TCG player at all. In fact, I think this is my first legit TCG-based video game. The Betamon tutorial was very gentle and well done which totally alleviated my worries. I like how simplistic the rules are and the card game has a good balance between luck and skill. Also, if you lose, the game doesn't penalize you much.

-I will say that battles last a very long time. I don't mind this, because they're fun, but I only really have stamina for two a day because of this. I think if I did any more than that I'd get burned out by the repetitiveness. I do like that some locations don't trigger any battles at all, so there's visual novel-like bits in-between to give you a break while still progressing.

-I can't find it on YouTube but the soundtrack that plays when the Goburimon bros show up was great, awesome comedic relief.

-Ran into some pretty obscure Japanese slang with the Goburimon telling me to "wash my ass" lol. Apparently it comes from the expression "wash your neck and wait" which insinuates "you better prepare your neck cuz I'm gonna decapitate you." So I guess "wash your ass" means like "prepare your ass cuz I'm about to beat it!" That's some creative smack talk there.

-From what I can tell, the plot is basically the same so far. The digimon are acting strange/have lost their memories due to "bug cards." The new thing is that I have to go find 7 "leaders" who have special cards that act as keys to Infinity Mountain. It sounds like those leaders are all familiar faces from DW1, so that's fun.

[coulsonlives]

Every time I see rp blogs for certain fandoms now, it just makes me even happier I jumped ship from the rpc.

I'm cool w cringe, and I'm cool w roleplayers being ~fancy~ in their pinned posts with 'a study in: (long list of flowery, cheesy aesthetic sentences)'. But what I cant deal with is how literally every time, they never even rp, post headcanons, or have muse info that comes close to exploring those things. The most they post is a one liner about a fart joke or something and the next thing you know, it's been a year and they've made six other blogs with the same kind of pinned post, and you give up bc nothing's actually happened, despite their fancy pinned posts and the promises how they're gonna 'study' certain things

It feels like a huge bait and switch!! And then of course, when you unfollow them bc you didn't actually see any rping, including rping about those 'studied' topics, they act like you're the biggest jerk in the history of the world just for having different expectations (that THEY led you to have). They storm into your inbox and be like, 'it's just tumblr rp wtf you're so high maintenance' and you sit there like lol wut, firstly, I just unfollowed you and you're the one who came after me, second, there's a big difference between expecting to see writing on an rp blog even one time, and being 'high maintenance', lemme know when you figure out what's 'high maintenance' about me patiently waiting months and months for you to post anything ic and just leaving. You might not wanna write anything, but i do, and i kinda, yknow, need to write in order to have fun in a writing hobby, how am I gonna have fun sitting on my hands for months

Now imma put a target on my back for a second, but I gotta say it: these people aren't running rp blogs, they're running fandom blogs. They love the characters, they don't love writing. They're here to talk about characters or set up a lil collection of gifs and aesthetic posts, but not actually make content or writing of their own. I see 'rp blogs' where literally all their posts are rb'd headcanons from other blogs and zero writing or even input on those headcanons! There's nothing wrong with being a fandom blog or only reblogging things, but it's a problem when people falsly advertise themselves as rpers (in a community full of people who actually wanna rp!) bc they can't examine what they actually want out of a character for 2 secs and set their personal record straight. Don't get mad when rpers unfollow or don't wanna interact when you literally don't rp

[littleapocalypsekitten]

So, I just had someone review some dumb crossover fanfiction I did... oh, probably 10 years ago or so just to inform me that they thought that my fic was “too edgy” and “seemed to be edgy just for the sake of being edgy and it rubbed them the wrong way.”  And...that’s all they said.  They were the same person who’d given another review consisting only of “Wut?”   I replied “Then stop reading it.”   (I didn’t see what chapter they’d gotten up to, I think it was a review on one of the mid-chapters).   I mean, it’s not like there aren’t other Super Smash Bros. / Hunger Games crossovers out there - and, well, if you’re going into a Super Smash Bros. / Hunger Games crossover you ought to know what you’re getting into.  It’s going to be much less like canon Smash Bros. and much more... cracky bullshit.  (Even if the fic is on the more dramatic end of cracky bullshit).    Well, now I know why whenever people comment on fics anymore, especially old ones, it tends to be generally positive / that people don’t do flames anymore because I think most people realize that fanfic authors just laugh at those. Oh, trying to hurt my fee-fees by telling me that I’m “too edgy” on a decade old fic?  I mean, this is just a hobby to us, we aren’t getting paid for it, most of us don’t even have betas / editors, it’s a thing we do for our own entertainment and (hopefully) the entertainment of others. (I actually remember telling myself “I can’t believe I’m writing this” when I wrote the damn thing.  I then proceeded later to write a Super Smash Bros. zombie apocalypse story that’s EVEN WORSE with the overwrought drama and stupid, stupid horror).  Crit is good if fics are recent / current and authors will generally take criticism on those but... something that was posted over 5 years ago?   It’s like... there is a difference.  I was reading a Trigun / Trigun Stampede fic recently.  It’s new / ongoing and I liked the idea of the fic, the premise had me hooked, but something in the first chapter bothered me as out of character.  It was something that I thought the author could make work - and they explained in a reply that it tied into plans of theirs and they needed something to happen for plot-reasons, but I pointed out how it struck me the wrong way just a little bit and how the plot-necessary thing could have happened in a different way, but said that I didn’t want to tell them how to write their fic and was waiting to see what they were going to do with it, that how they did things was genuinely interesting and morally complex and I wanted to see how it played out.   They up and said “No! Your idea is better! I’ll rewrite that bit in the chapter!”  And they did.  This was a conversation on a current / on-going fic and wasn’t me dismissing the fic entirely, just a friendly concrit (I wasn’t even expecting a change, it’s just...apparently, I helped)?     But... you know, if it had been a 10 year old some odd thing that the author was long finished with / had long abandoned, there would have been no point.  I would have been left to see what the author had done with it after the fact rather than real time and if I didn’t like the entire thing, I would have clicked away and not bothered reading it - and not bothered an author who had moved on, a decade hence.  I really think that certain...dudes?  Just like to discover things years after they’re posted and send little zings to authors who are long de-attached from things just to puff themselves up?  I don’t know.   

[tryst-art-archive]

Khra-nicles: Narrators Scrap

Condescending minutes slipped by in the conga line of time. I fidgeted unhappily; they were making me wait just for the sake of being rude; they always did.  They’d be hoping I would think and brood and make myself nervous. The fact that it was working only served to irk me.

              At length, the tall members of the Narrator’s Council slipped into the Audience Chamber, moving with a faint rush as of the wind through reeds. Surrounded by Dragonfolk eyes with their unnamable quality of Knowing, I rose from my chair and stared coolly down at them, my own Knowing eyes staring back, but from a Raethiann face.

              Well, “staring down” isn’t quite right. Sitting, they were at my eye level. Standing, they towered above me; I’m unusually short for a Narrator.

              The moderator of the Council, Mevit (whose name was half decent as far as Dragonfolk names go), presently opened the meeting with the traditional phrase: “I Know.” I shuddered inside at the sentence (spoken in the language of the Dragonfolk, of course); I had always been highly atypical of the Dragonfolk and had always been righteously proud of the fact. My long removal from the Verde Islands to the land of animal-men, Raeth, had further deteriorated the Dragonfolk thread in me. The Raethian “mellowness” (as they say in P’tak) had seeped into me and though I was pretentious for a Raethian, I was unduly casual for a Dragonfolk woman. The occasional trips to the human continent, Nassab, had striped away various Dragonfolk sensibilities, leaving me strange to humans, Raethians, and the Dragonfolk alike.

              But I hardly minded any of that; what bothered me now was the complacency in that single “I know.” There were undertones there. Tones of “I KNOW because I have been CHOSEN and you, who are so much more foolish than I, could never hope to KNOW AS I KNOW. I humbly request that you do not attempt to fool thineself.”

              “Rhawen Evergreen Fox,” Mevit said, saying the name like it was something foul. “Do you know why we have called you here?”

              “Not for tea and biscuits, I expect,” I replied, unamused. Vihemeth frowned at me, looking more like a person deserving such a godawful name in doing so. He’d just love it if I behaved myself and did as I was told, I thought. He’s a good man, but he’s still Dragonfolk in the end.

              Mevit had said something, but I’d missed it, calling attention to my ignorance with a distinctive “Wut?”

              It was hard not to laugh at Mevit when he was angry. “We have called you here,” he said slowly, “to discuss your latest Tale regarding one Kriamiss Orientere.”

              “Ah, yes. And I think it’ll be a good one, too. Perhaps you’d like to read what I have down so far?”  Oh, sarcasm! Truly, you are my friend.

              “That is unnecessary; we here have no desire to read code-breaking drivel.”

              “Oh,” I said. But what ran through my mind was righteous anger; such an insult! Me! A nearly-omniscient Narrator, charged (amongst others) with recording the great histories of the world, write drivel? Oh, there would be hell to pay.

              “‘Oh’, indeed.” Mevit glared over steepled fingers, trying too look menacing but really trying to hard for it to be effective. “Rhawen E. Fox, you are charged with the heinous crime of placing yourself in your own Tale and interfering with its natural flow.”

              “And for wearing that horrid form!” Glaivde added in her shrill voice. She had recently spent some time with a noble family on Nassab and wore a human form; she appeared as exactly the sort of wrinkled old woman to own such a nails-on-the-chalkboard voice. The stereotyping was rather comical.

              Ignoring Glaivde, I responded with my best scolding mother voice. “Why, Mevit, I’m surprised at you. How can you presume to know what the Creators intend for a Tale?” (Much to my pleasure, Vihemeth looked a bit like he was going to blow a gasket; how I do love vexing him.)

              I was rewarded with an affronted gasp on all sides; Mevit’s was followed by the spluttered statement, “W-we are omniscient, Rhawen, and—“

              “Nearly omniscient, Mevit,” I corrected. “And you forget that I share that same omniscience with you and the rest of those noble Narrators here gathered. If any Creator wished our omniscience to know their designs, I would know them as sure as you would. No Creator has condemned my action, though I have broken the rules and done so consciously.” Murmured disgust drifted through the room. Consciously neglecting the Narrator’s code?! Preposterous! Unthinkable!

              “Blasphemy!” was the particular adjective to fly from Glaivde. It summed up their mood nicely.

              Vihemeth rose, hands on table, leering over me. “What nonsense are you suggesting, Rhawen?” It was, perhaps, incredibly lucky that his posture prevented the others from getting a clear look at his face, for behind that queer Dragon quality in his eyes, his everlasting sympathy for me was plain to see and all the political maneuvering in the world would not have saved his reputation – that one thing that seemed to save me, again and again, from losing the station of Narrator, my reason for being.

              I dropped my eyes from his and looked toward Mivet instead. “I merely suggest that the rules be broken this once. After all, I have already taken up the Tale and must see it through to the end.”

              “That is as may be. We cannot argue the necessity of completing a Tale.” Mevit exchanged nods with his fellows. “However,” he said now, the old hatred flaring, “that still begs the question: what is to become of you and your Tale afterward? You have broken the rules, Rhawen. The impartiality of the Tale is tainted by your personal involvement, and the old rule that we never write of ourselves broken.”

              In a fit of frustration, Vihemeth threw out, “At least you haven’t written of one of our Council meetings!”

              A small smile slipped onto my face, just for Vihemeth to see, and he looked suddenly terribly afraid, breathing, “Oh, you wouldn’t… would you? No, Rhawen, don’t—“

              But I turned away from him; Mevit was jabbering again.

              “I believe it would be wise for us to revoke your right to Narrate and destroy the Tale in question upon its completion.”

              A stony cold silence entered the room; this was a radical move. Not unheard of, but still terribly harsh.

              Presently, the unthinkable happened; Glaivde spoke in my defense.

              “Mevit,” she began timidly. “Are you certain of the wisdom of this? Her crime is steep, indeed, but to both prevent her further Writing and destroy the Tale… well. That’s just… cruel, isn’t it?”

              Mevit began softly, gaining volume and passion as he spoke. “Need I remind you, Glaivde, that Rhawen has been a thorn in our side for many years now, constantly pushing against the limitations specified by the Narrator’s Code, constantly just being out of our judicial grasp. Well, not today.”

              “You look like Maroc.” The tyrant’s name slipped out of my mouth before I could stop it, and the silence that settled was the silence before the ice cracks and the frozen waters swallow you whole.

              “I am no tyrant, Rhawen.” It was a quiet phrase. Deadly quiet.

              Words tumbled out, unchecked and unstoppable. “No. At least, not in name. This Council eats from your hand, though. Surely you know that much. Surely you’ve learned to use it. And this is why you want me gone, isn’t it? It isn’t about the Narrators’ ideals or any thing else like them.” I could feel the horrified stares of my fellow Narrators. They knew all this, had known all this, but here I was, in ill graces, committing virtual or literal suicide by saying the things that were better left unsaid.

              Mevit and I stared at each other for a long time. At length, he said, “Go. You and your Tale are safe.” There was a tacit “for the time being,” understood by all.

              I bowed, and left the room. I could hear the clamor of their voices as I walked down the hall.

[feuqueerfire]

My Stand-In Eps 1 - 10 Live Blogging

Whelp, I have succumbed to curiosity and am also afraid of being spoiled for the ending (idek if there are supposed to be "spoilers" but yknow), so I'm starting a second on-air show even though I'm already watching Wandee. I'm watching it because everybody's seemingly obsessed with it but am also sooo nervous that this show will stumble in the last quarter the way so many shows/BLs tend to. Please let them stick the landing.

Seems like it's about somebody dying and the mother resurrecting him only he came back Wrong (because the wrong person came back in the body)? I know people hate Ming for taking advantage of Joe but also are annoyed with Joe for not standing up to Ming and also something about sneezing... Also it's adapted from a Chinese novel I think? Interesting how many Chineve BL novels are being adapted in other countries now

Ep 1 (June 25/26)

Watched a bunch of intense shows in a row (A Shop for Killers, The Worst of Evil, Infernal Affairs) and was gonna do a sweeter show with Lovely Runner but I'm gonna save that for my train rides, so I decided to start this instead.

omg wait I saw a post that said in the book apparently Ming's supposed to early 20s and Joe was late 20s (well I think the post was smth like Joe how are you a 29(?) year old getting manipulated by a 21 (?) year old lol) but because Up's older, I thought they aged him up. However, they at least kept the younger-older correct because Ming calls Joe P'Joe... <3

I Know Joe dies but that was still like... oh.

oh WAIT! I misunderstood... I thought a different guy took over Joe's body and I was like hm, I wonder if we'll ever see this original Joe again but our Joe went into a different man's body okayyyyy that makes sense. It also makes the sneezing during sex alerting Ming of Joe (or something??? idk) make more sense bc i was like huh?

and the other guy's name is Joe too

Wut - a guy who Joe knows kinda

omg Joe's original body is still not found after falling off that mountain, it's been 2 years for him too

seems like Wut knows Ming too but does Not like him

Wut says Joe reminds him of Joe (the one he knows. whom Joe really is.)

Ah, Joe's real mother died long time ago, so he's making the best of having the other Joe's mother with him

Joe decides to be a stand-in in the other Joe's life ahh. Joe is so used to being a stand-in that he will not just exist that way in the life he leads

ah, mention of Tong who I think people really hate? He's a superstar and Joe used to stand-in for him

lol, Joe accidentally mentioning liking P'Jojo's wife chicken feet cooking.

Joe and Ming first meeting in an elevator despite Joe trying to avoid Ming

oh, Ming held onto Joe and asked if they'd met before and Joe says he must've mistook him for somebody else which is funny because the first time they met, Ming mistook Joe for Tong and backhugged him or whatever, it seems like

also they'd met 3 years ago = a year before Joe's accident ig

3 years ago - OG Joe and Ming

yknow what I should go to sleep rn

okay i am back

lol Ming thinking Joe (Tong's stand-in) was Tong. but also that means Ming and Tong were a thing? or smth like that?

oh Mek plays P'Tong

Ming just came back from studying abroad

Tong shooting down Ming even though Ming came just to see him

is May Ming's older sister that he was thinking of seeing? and why'd he get mad hmm are Tong and May a thing/going to be a thing?

Ming ignoring Joe and giving curt responses until he's even more mad/upset at Tong and then he's like "let's go to your place" lol

fumbling Joe lmfao

lol I'd seen the jokes about Ming and Joe both wanting to top. I didn't realize it was original guys though I don't think. I'd thought 1) it was in the present timeline 2) a different Joe is in OG Joe's body and that's why 3) Joe and Ming are in a relationship, thus having sex, and their sexual dynamics/positions was already established and the new Joe didn't know.

but no, it's Our Joe during their first night together

"Wait, you're a top?" *THUNDER* *SUSPENSEFUL AND EVIL MUSIC*

this is so funny, they fr stopped having sex and put their clothes back on instead of just doing handjobs/blowjobs/other possibilities if neither wanted to bottom lmfaoo

owghh, I think Joe and Ming are cute, which is bad because I know Ming's gonna be a pos later and people also get frustrated with Joe

"Even if you're not fucked, you're full" about Ming eating plss

y'all were about to fuck but can't even just sleep in the same bed?

WAIT he just learned Ming's name lmfao I couldn't figure out which 2nd person pronouns he's using for Ming but he's been using Phi as 1st person pronoun

he's never tried bottoming or tried having sex?

does Ming want to get serious with Tong?

oh they fr don't have sex that night

did Ming wash the dishes and disappear?

big empty house. Ming rich as fuck

right, so Tong and May are indeed together. now Ming you gotta get over your sister's boyfriend lol i can't believe he's playing pretend dates with his sister's bf. does Ming hate his sister or smth

ah, Tong and Joe look similar from the back

drunk Ming calling Joe to come for dinner (after Tong had left) and also not telling Joe where he got his number

oh, Joe cannot win against this man

I was nervous for a sec that drunk Ming thought Joe was Tong but nah, he knows that it's Joe and that he's a virgin lol

damn, they really had sex? idk how drunk af Ming did it

"Then, I felt like I was in a dream. Not knowing that it was a nightmare" aw Joe

Ming caused Joe to die...??? is this about the phone call where Ming was maybe crying that Joe received right before his stunt or what

also ep 9 recently came out and I think Ming confesses to Joe or something because I keep seeing glimpses of a clip/gif and saw a little bit of the subs on it but keep scrolling quick

What an intriguing first episode, I'm looking forward to the rest. I didn't know half the episode would be in the 3 years ago timeline, is that how it is for most episodes or just this one to set the scene and next eps have fewer flashbacks.

Joe being a stand-in for Tong physically in acting and emotionally as Ming's boyfriend/lover/whatever they become. Also, isn't it insane that Joe just went back to work at the company that killed him lol

Ep 2 (June 26)

Ming was so drunk that he can’t even remember?!

loll this where the recognized by sneezing during sex thing comes in ig?

ah, Ming wants to tag along to the set to see Tong. I wonder how much Joe realizes Ming’s feelings for acting like after all the first time they met, Ming mistakenly hugged him thinking he’s Tong…

oof, Ming saying and emphasizing that he wants last night to be hidden

Tong is irritating

Does Ming feel jealous/irritated seeing Joe with the female costar?

Joe watching Ming and Tong and the shots/directing for it is so good, the way he's watching them through a mirror + him blurred in the foreground while we focus on their convo in the background.

Did Ming just pointedly look at Joe to see his reaction to him feeding Tong

why is Ming jealous and confronting Joe about it, I'm dead. Ming's the one who wanted to keep this a secret and it's not like they're dating or exclusive

lol Ming acting like it's Ridiculous to suggest he'd like Tong

also Tong must know that Ming likes him right? And he indulges him occasionally just to keep stringing him along? Is he using May as a beard and actually likes men/Ming specifically or does he just like the attention and actually likes May?

oh, Ming's mother is in the picture, so the house is not empty

the girl talking about their parents arranging marriages

pls Joe trying out the "send them funny messages" to flirt but it's a joke about him being a stand-in lol

this girl is so real (even as she fakes with the adults lol)

Ming appearing made Joe lose concentration and fall when he was talking about how focus is important for their job...

so much mirror stuff

Ming really just want Jor turned around all the time, facing his back that apparently looks like Tong's... ah...

How are they having sudden penetrative sex in a gym bathroom with no condoms, no lube, nothing omg

the sneeze lol

"Ming, do you like doing it from behind?" I can only sigh

Joe being touched by Ming's little actions but it's like girl... he's gonna end up skewering you

Joe being nice while interacting with the gym goes today bc he's in a good mood and got laid lmfao

I've heard about Sol and something about offering Joe money that he didn't take because he took up Ming's offer instead or something

Ming's jealousy and possessiveness

Drunk Joe getting excited and hugging Ming in front of Sol

Ming keeping up the "I'll take good care of him" pretense only to have Joe sleep on the floor in a pile is so

"What's in your to make me jealous?" oh, let's kill Ming

"Don't be so full of yourself. You are just a stand-in" ohhh we actually have to kill Ming what the hell

and yet after all those cruel words, Ming's eating ramen the way Joe cooked it and even turned down his sister May's offer to invite Tong to hang out with them.

what does that mean? What's May like right now? and what does Ming almost drowning as a child have to do with anything? or actually is that the reason she's apparently always ill or smth?

Joe's turning down Sol which is fair enough if he doesn't like him (I like them together though lol) but Joe's talking about how he now knows what love reall is and it's like... from where did you learn this? How do you know that? Certainly not from the few days you've spent with that fucker Ming

ah Joe how can you be in love with Ming omgggg

And Ming overhearing all this like aghh

poor fucking Joe, he's been alone since he was a kid and wants somebody so bad so that he's not lonely anymore. alas, he has fallen for Ming who can apparently do such touching stuff but...

okay, Joe can't mess around with other people... what about Ming?

well this time Ming begrudgingly admitted his jealousy

they are so cute when they're having fun together

Joe kinda reminds me of Tol from Triage and Cha Yeo Woon from Love for Love's Sake (those two also remind me of each other) because they're so tall and big/buff but so wide-eyed and vulnerable

Ep 3 (June 26)

these voiceovers are always so ominous lol

"Who says I'm your faen?"

Joe is always sooooo kicked puppy like he gets so excited and smiley -> Ming treats him bad -> smile drops but he doesn't defend himself, looks away with a sad expression

Ming finds Joe cute and endearing but makes himself stop smiling... girl if you like him, just like him!!!

damn, what's this Akkroyata (?) group that sells houses. is it his family related?

Joe please don't get into fucking crypto

foreign production film that needs a stuntman but the guy warns that it's unlicensed + money laundering scheme + nobody's responsible if a stuntman dies... right before this Joe was talking about needing extra money... and in the ep 1 incident scene, the crew were speaking in English... whelp.

let's just let Joe be the male lead at this rate bc wtf is this. fuckass Tong

ah, lose-lose situation if he does badly, they'll hate him. if he does too well, they'll hate him. once again fuck Tong

I guess Joe's been alone for so long that it doesn't occur to him to know where Ming's from/who his family is

ah, Joe's stand-in dance scene isn't gonna be used because it looks very bad to have him replace Tong in a scene like this

I hate to see it because they really are so cute when they're cute...

Joe gets so excited when Ming is nice to him lmfao it's pitiful

literally everybody leaves the table and abandons Joe when Tong comes... this is literally Tong's own fucking fault bruh

"Ming and I are together now." Does Ming know that?

Sol why didn't you come back just a month earlier?!?!?!? we could've had a whole different story right now

the mess just grows. Ming sees Tong and Joe hugging -> drags him to the bathroom to aggressively makeout -> Tong sees them making out

Joe as a side character. Sol's right-hand-man... hope Ming won't lose his shit

let's kill Tong

Joe knows nothing about Ming's crush on Tong, his rich family

Joe now knows Ming's background but doesn't wanna ask him directly

this watch... the box is similar to that watch box from ep 1. is the watch similar too?

Ming's approval literally makes Joe so happy, it's truly so .

Sol to save the day lol

May clocked Ming and Joe and seems supportive

Tong's gonna propose

that big screen of Ming staring at Tong looking cool in the movie but uh, it's his back in an action scene, isn't it likely it was Joe?

Ming crying omg

first movie, so it probably was Tong and not Joe stand-in cuz idk if he was there from the very start

so weird to see Ming seemingly more innocent and uh not necessarily evil in these flashbacks when he first met Tong

ouch, being the reason you meet your favourite actor and bring your sister along but then see them hitting it off and kissing and such.

the name-engraved couple mugs were Ming's gift for Joe. so cute

"This is the best Christman in my life." despite the little spectacle in the middle ig

excited Joe because Ming back-hugged him only TO CALL HIM P'TONG ahh

Joe realizing everything all at once about him looking like Tong from the back, Ming mistaking him for Tong, only having sex facing backward, the fact that he's Tong's stand-in even to Ming...

Whelp, there go the cups

Ep 4 (June 27)

This is supposed to be the last full-flashback episode I think? I think I'm okay with the multiple episodes of the flashbacks because I'm binging it but I might've been wanting the current timeline more and more if I was watching it weekly

oof, cold Joe but not yet bringing up last night because he needs to get to work

this Director Pao is such a pain too. he keeps hiring Tong because of his followers despite knowing he doesn't do his damn job and keeps using Joe as leverage, not caring that it puts Joe in a terrible position. let's kick Pao too

Joe please... you cannot show or persuade P'Tong's fanclub in any way. just keep being a side character and move up to main role later on, especially because you literally have Wut supporting you and kinda looking out for you. don't take Tong's role because you can't stand that Ming's using you as Tong's replacement. eughh

JOE SAY NO. how can you suddenly have so much conviction when you're a doormat with Ming, goddamn. like you know the guy literally didn't actually want to give you the role and wanted you to say no and if you now take the role and fuck up, you're cooked

at least Joe told Ming to get out of his house but it's not like Ming's gonna just let it go like this... Joe didn't give any reason

aw fuck, confrontation.

Ming being like you can't order me around. i however will order you around

what is this Sol and Ming fight, please

and Joe also hurt his back omg... how are those two the one trying to fight but he's the one who keeps being hit

Ming being teary-eyed during their convo at home.

Joe saying he still has his dignity... well glad you're acting like it

and immediately Ming is on Tong's side... what the hell is wrong with this guy

Ming truly just hit Joe at the back of the head with a bat. oh

unconscious and in-chains?!?!

Ming saying he's gonna keep Joe here with him forever... ah, toxic tops in BL manhwa/danmei/etc, I see you now. because usually in Thai live-action BLs, even the red flag characters don't usually do this (VegasPete are an exception that proves the rule)

wow, how interesting that Tong shows up at the exact right time, almost like he orchestrated this. At least Wut questioned it

Ming's so possessive over Joe

Ming coaxing Joe + them having a heart-to-heart and getting it on while we can literally hear Joe's chain jangling lmfaooo

Joe wants to be behind Ming? Girl, will you guys never have sex facing each other? this better be a trick to handcuff Ming and run away because having sex at a time like this after everything that just happened is wild. but also does this mean Ming was gonna bottom?

okay good

what a wild scene that was, like truly

you don't know if Tong was involved? girl he did this right after Tong called Ming, so you could at least mention that

Joe's now black-listed, fuck

aw man, Joe really feels like he has no choice but the unsafe international production stuntman

Ming and Wut fighting about where Joe is because they don't know his location...

the title of the scene or whatever on the board being Dead Cliff...

Ming calling and saying if Joe comes back he won't be a stand-in anymore etc and the battery running out aghhh I know he's literally about to fall off this damn cliff and I'm still like... well maybe he can escape somehow

2 years later, Ming is working as a model (under Wut/in Wut's team?)

everybody going up and up in their careers while Joe is dead and it's pushed under the rug...

also that watch that Ming is advertising... is it similar to the one Joe had given him?

Google -> Googoo

Joe trying to sneak into his (original) home but suddenly all the lights are on and Ming is cooking inside and eating out of the bowl that Joe had bought him... just like Joe's wishes. and also Joe was like everybody's gonna forget about me soon but I guess Ming will not

oh Ming is insane. he's recreating the "I'll cook and wait for you every day" promise and thinks his P'Joe has returned to him when he hears a creek outside. tbf it is indeed P'Joe (in a different body) but whelp

So did Ming and Joe legit date for a whole year before the accident? I thought it was like... a month lmao

What does the show want us to feel right now? like Ming literally was responsible for getting Joe black-listed in the industry which led him to take the unlicensed stuntman job which led to his death. and he did so by kidnapping and handcuffing Joe. how horrid, how can this be our endgame. But they still show us how Ming has seemingly realized his feelings for Joe for real and holds on to his thoughts and is maybe becoming a reformed person maybeee (idk, he might continue being a pos in the next episodes) and like the last part of the episode is just sad. Also, even for the kidnapping stuff, it was like Ming was more mad that Joe might be leaving him for Sol and the possessive/insecurity/jealousy was because of that, not Only because he was doing Tong's bidding. Anyway, I'm open to getting more mad and hating Ming more, I'm open to a path to redemption even though he's trash

Also, are we ever gonna get Joe's original body back? Because they've Got to have sex face-to-face and Ming seeing Joe's original face, right???

Ep 5 (June 27)

debt collectors for Joe's new fake-mother... this is where the money thing comes in I guess because I remember people being mad at Joe for borrowing money from Ming

girl's gonna get into doing stunts again in this new body that has never done stunts and just woke up from a 2-year coma?

me too, I'm shocked that our Joe who hadn't moved a muscle for 2 years until a month ago is now doing stunts with ease

but why couldn't Joe just go into modelling since new Joe used to do it apparently? easier on the body and I don't assume stunt money is more than modelling?

Ming going to see a fortune teller who has been telling him that Joe is neither alive nor dead...

how can this new body of this random-ass Joe also look like Tong from the back lmfaoo they're never gonna let Joe escape being Tong's stand-in

Joe keeps putting his foot in this mouth around Wut by revealing too much. Ming's onto him but I wonder if Wut would also wonder...

Wut was an asshole for how he kept being mad at Joe last ep (even being like you're no longer my bro if you take that job instead of helping him some other way) but he has quite good instincts, first with being like Tong probably has a hand in Joe not getting to the press conference + now being like ...what are you hiding new-Joe?

Ming wants Joe for an ad and I guess Joe wants access to his debit card at his own house where Ming lives

idk what to make of Ming's assistant

all of Joe's poses being fighting poses loll

Joe still being taken by Ming's beauty and being like ig some feelings passed onto this body as well but overhearing that Ming literally only smiles when he's shooting movies with his BIL Tong

girl I'm so mad, Joe's modelling but we're the ones who are getting to see this face and body, in actuality it's not even this original body that's being captured aghhhh what a beauty and they don't even get to see it

I've seen this gif of Ming begging Joe lol "what's wrong? you're not as good as earlier"

Ming's hobby is putting Joe in Situations

seeing the body of new Joe in the mirror made me mad again T.T not to say he's not attractive or whatever but the original Joe is too good, why wasn't he a fucking model back then man

not this fucking trombone-looking jug again

lol, Joe's getting Ming and Jim drunk

oh. "watch your mouth when you talk about P'Joe. Other people like you because of that name, remember that." On the one hand, it's like okay Joe now knows that Ming was looking for Joe in this new body but on the other hand, Joe is truly a stand-in for himself now. Joe in new-body where everybody looks for the Joe old-body

also i guess maybe Joe purposefully was behaving in a way that Ming wouldn't like? like being so eager and serving them drinks etc

Joe stole Jim's phone (well, borrowed) and is gonna break in to his own old house lol

Sol came back again

Joe's reminiscing over their shared past that Ming has kept around but it's making me nervous that he's gonna get caught, esp cuz we're nearing the end of the episode - perfect cliffhanger

Sol is here?!

I think people who were more into the body-snatching aspect nad how that'd affect the story would be disappointed because they kinda ignore it but I'd pretty much only heard about the relationship drama and toxic Ming, so I didn't expect there to be too much anyway.

Ep 6 (June 28)

good he managed to use his stunt skills to escape

is the mother not gonna make it

Sol and Ming arguing about the thief in Joe’s home

Ming truly the only one who believes Joe is still alive and will return. he sounds crazy and seems pitiful maybe if you can still pity him

oughhh medical bills

man, I've Got to let Joe's ability to do hard stunts in this new body go because they're not gonna address it and it's gonna continuously come up

Joe's plan is always to just get the people drunk lmfao

oof, drunk ming mistaking joe for uh joe

idk why joe thinks ming only likes tong. the real thing he should be telling himself is it doesn't matter if ming loves him or not, he still shouldn't go back to ming

anybody could find the key lol

Sol older than new joe

and Sol is offering Joe money too bt I know he'll turn it down here too

Ming suddenly kissing Joe to remember why he did it last night

bruh, Ming wants Joe to move in/stay with him? Joe standing in for Joe fr, Ming what the hell is wrong with you

girl, Joe thinks Ming's asking him to stand in for Tong as the person he likes?

what am I supposed to think of Ming's assistant fr

5 million baht and a house for his mother for staying with Ming for 1 year. well at least Joe's making the most of this deal

damn, this is lowkey prostitution

People were upset and done with Joe for going back to Ming and taking that money instead of P'Wut or Sol's but like... I kinda get him lmfao like he needs A Lot of money and like... kinda forever now because of not only his own 3 million hospital bills but also his mother's weekly dialysis. He cannot rely on people he likes and respects who are good people for that, especially because P'Wut's like not Super Rich and has his own family and while Sol's rich and doesn't seem to have a family to take care of, Sol doesn't even know that this new Joe is old Joe. So I get why he'd be like Ming, you're one rich motherfucker and also not a good person, I don't feel guilty taking money from you. and idk maybe he just likes being treated like shit or keeps consistently going back to it because of familiarity. Also it's kinda like Ming owes his anyway; although it's not like Ming's giving him the money for free.

Ep 7 (June 28)

fuck i wanna watch the ep but i’m going outside and also underground so i can’t watch it during my commute either agh. whelp im gonna try to watch justttt a bit before leaving bc i gotta charge my phone anyway. And actually instead of starting the next ep I should be reblogging ep 6 posts but i went to nap instead of doing that and now I wanna watch the next ep, not go through archives.

Who is Tharn?

gonna mourn that the people aren't seeing Poon's face one more time

i'm watching this aghast

and baffled

i don't even know what to write

Ming is actually so fucked up I cant believe he's trying to play house with replacement Joee. I'm into it

this kpop idol doing an MV where he has a bf lol seems like it's a thai release but still

not Sol apparently remembering Joe's back in the darkness and correctly deducing it's Joe's from the music video shot

not Sol and Ming having a dick measuring contest over old-Joe-in-new-Joe's-body-who-they-don't-know-is-actually-old-Joe

controlling ass Ming, chill outttt

"A new life... but why do I feel like everything is going back to the way it was?" I too want to ask this

girl, this is the sequel to the movie that caused everything?

I can't tell if Tharn himself will be a problem (like he seems arrogant kinda but noting a dangerous way like Tong or Ming) but Ming will probably cause problems if he finds out lol

did Tharn have anything to do with what caused Joe's coma?

Joe's mother also doesn't like Tharn hm

okay, I was like wtf Joe's asking if he used to date a man but he doesn't know if old-Joe was even out to his mother (I didn't even know if he liked men until this episode lol) and then was like uh i guess we're assuming she's okay with it but turns out she actually wasn't okay with it when she found out 2 years ago

Joe and other Joe both have shitty taste in men, whelp

wow, who would have guessed that the Joes had accidents on the same day

Ming believing in the connection between the 2 Joes and being like did you dream about anybody during the coma lol girl you are correct but it's not something you can ask directly

Ming kept the watch close to him, as expected

okay I have GOT to go but ahh I wish I could watch more.

I'm back and there were guests at home as well, so I couldn't watch it until now, at 11:22pm.

fucking Tong stop meddlingggg. wanting Tharn to mess with Joe so that Ming's not occupied with Joe. Tong wants Ming to invest in a movie and instead Ming's attention is on Joe? not under Tong's watch

Ming's so spoiled and entitled. yeah spend the night with me even though we're all at this place for work and you don't what the other cast and crew to find out; i don't care, so it doesn't matter

oh waitttttt this movie isn't the sequel to the movie that Tong kicked Joe out of? It's the original first movie where Ming fell in love with Tong's back (which was stand-in Joe)? because Joe knows where the crane is supposed to be...

okay, I rewatched the scene (18mins in) where they discussed what the movie would be and it clearly said it's the sequel to Tong's first movie lmfao idk why I missed some parts in this convo, I was distracted rip. and Wut had come in with the stand-in (our original Joe) back then too. makes more sense too because I've seen people from ep 6 mention that in the preview for ep 7, ming finds out about it being joe's back - that makes more sense if we're doing sequel to the original movie

Joe can't catch a break fr. Tharn get off this man

There was no way Ming wasn't gonna end up coming into the room and seeing them. At least it seems like he saw that Joe wasn't the one initiating anything or even reciprocating

not that it helps anything with Ming, he's too much of an asshole

bro Ming is scary as fuck sometimes

the dog comparisons T.T not even in a fun way T.T

MING GET OFF OF JOE

yess okay joe going apeshit and letting anger get the best of him

Ming standing up to Tong and telling him to never talk about Joe again and saying Joe ended up that way because of the 2 of them. never seen this before. hope it doesn't make Tong mad and take even more drastic action

Ming trying to act normally the next day and even saying thank you (not "sorry" though) like. the audacity

ah, Joe was not credited as the stuntman for the first movie but they're giving new Joe credit for this second movie

okay tbh the background for this is nice because I didn't even think that there was a secret that Tong didn't play the scene, I just thought maybe people knew but Ming specifically was dumb lol or just didn't think to check that it might not be Tong. but nah, they had Joe give up the credit to be the fulltime stuntman

Ming in tears while thinking about Joe's conflict as being the stand-in (and the times Ming himself negged him) smh it's so hard to like this man when he's sooooo shitty

not Ming going into the scene randomly in front of all these people

ough, Ming backhugging Joe thinking he's Tong in ep 1 and now hugging new-Joe as he apologizes to old-Joe (who is in new-Joe's body)

the entire cast and crew being confused is killing me, I can't even enjoy this scene of Ming crying and apologizing and begging Joe to come back

I want to go straight into ep 8 (well it's 1:30am so I can't) but I gotta first go through the ep 6 and 7 posts on tumblr.

Ep 8 (June 29)

3 episodes left before I'm all caught up T.T then I'll have to wait for eps 11 and 12 rip.

okay we're not seeing the aftermath of last week's scene which is good for me because I would not be able to withstand the embarrassment

Tong making Joe do these tough scenes again and again let's kill him

"I have (again) become the emotional garbage dump of the two people who made me die" fucking hell

Ming being like oh? Joe's been like a whole new, different person since he woke up from his coma?

Sol knowing that the guy in the video is the thief + it reminds him of new-Joe's back but saying this guy isn't the guy... hm

Joe told Wut that he's Khun Ming's dek

Wut confronting Joe about why he knows and acts so much like original Joe. Joe's second confrontation in just a few hours lmfao

but also I think Wut's acting here maybe was lacking and idk how he should've played it but it felt a bit stiff? cartoony? idk

oh, Sol and Wut believe the thief was new Joe

I was wondering when we'd get the instant noodles making test

Ming stresses me out so much in terms of like what he's gonna do. i know they're gonna have sex and Joe's gonna sneeze though lmfao but I suspect that'll be like the very last scene

Joe going to see his original parents' graves with his new, unrecognizable body is so sad

omg i was wondering if somebody was gonna see Joe but I was thinking oh what if Ming's assistant sees him but Sol and Wut straight up caught him red-handed

was having lunch, so didn't type much but I did have thoughts lol

oh, that guy is Mike - Ming's brother. I saw a meme that had like Ming's brother and father texing him to kill himself (based on ep 10 i think lol) so i guess he's gonna continue being trouble

what's up with the car? is it original Joe's or something?

Ming is recreating his first night with original Joe

bruh, Joe is eager as hell too. haven't seen him be this reciprocative to Ming's advances since he woke up

Ming was so dumb for having Joe's original body with Poon's face and not looking at him while having sex like you foooool. what a face

this is going on for so long

The Sneeze

damn, they found Joe's body? i wonder if the dormant joe is in our original joe body

the orgasm sneeze coming back tohelp Ming truly solidify his belief about new Joe is really and truly incredible

Ep 9 (June 29)

I'm so nervous that I only have 2 episodes left and then I'll have to watch it weekly T.T and omg I won't even be able to watch it as it airs on the last Friday because I'll be at work in person. At least these last few eps are like 55-1h long rather than 48 mins like som of the earlier eps, I'll take the 10 minute increase

how horrid and tragic

does Wut think Ming loves Joe? ah, yea

man, this is so sad. how horrifying must it be to be stuck in a different body and have your original one be dead and decomposed and bones?

Joe attending his own funeral mannnn this is so fucked up

ohh Joe getting mad and physically trying to fight Ming at the funeral like "why are you crying now?" this is so saddd (even though this is suchhh a giveaway)

Joe: "I'll never forgive him, ever." I wish I could believe you joe

Isn't Ming being audacious and saying he's gonna burn all of Joe's belongings so that no memories are left... a bait to get Joe to get angry and prove that he cares too much because he's indeed old Joe?

why does Ming seem so insincere during this trap meeting

Sol's too brave, he overreaches too much. I liked him earlier on but after he and Ming fought while Joe was being hurt (in Joe's original body) I started being more critical of him and now it's not that I think he's bad or anything but I don't want Joe to end up with him

but nobody has more audacity than Ming, my god. get outtt

public stuff is soooooooo

the MC is crazy good at her job for recovering from that, woah

Ming already back to lowkey threatening Joe

this Sol and Ming public fight god shut upppp

what the hell, why is the boss man basically pimping Joe out to Ming.

okay also it's so silly that Ming loves Tong's back from that 1 movie and was angsty about it for like 4-5 years and used Joe as a replacement like lmfao who does that, how are you falling for somebody from their back and then not forming more opinions about them

ah, the back hug makes another appearence

This show ending last episode on the orgasm sneeze (+ phone call) to literally tragedy of Joe's body and funeral this ep is just so T.T

Ep 10 (June 30)

One last ep before I gotta wait T.T We're in the last quarter of the show too. I could watch it now (June 29 night) but hmmm I think I'll save it for tomorrow, just so that I have 1 day less of waiting for ep 11.

Also Ming has just never gotten to see Poon-Joe’s face during sex and now literally never will???? fuckkkkk dumbass Ming you fool

Watching a bit in bed before going to sleep and in the dark, on my small screen, it’s so intimate, it makes me feel even more connected to the characters and the narrative, more so than on my laptop at my desk

And by a bit, I meant 30 minutes. I like watching shows on my laptop and then my iPad and usually not so much my phone because the screen is so small but it made me feel their closeness somehow.

Anyway, I'm nervous to watch the rest of the episode because I think some shit goes down

Ming is so cute in the burrito blanket, you'd never guess all the criminal and horrid shit he's done

Joe's mom not letting up with the teasing lol but also valid questions, even if uncomfortable

1 week for Tong to get hundreds of millions of baht?

are there no movies in existence where Tong doesn't have the lead role? Joe shouldn't need to kick out Tong to get his footing. In fact, he should start as a side character indeed but in a movie without fuckass Tong bruh

the movie they want Joe to lead is called My Stand-In?

Joe's name isn't here AGAIN?! we gotta kill some people (Tong)

and Tong specifically out here saying he did all the action scenes himself

lmfao Tong explicitly said in the interviews that he did those scenes and the fire one was the hardest, if he brought the name back, he'd have to admit he lied, right?

not surprised that Tong brought in Ming's mother. also, does she know that Tong's like hundreds of millions of baht in debt?

I actually will not be able to rest unless Tong gets his comeuppance

Ming seems so pathetic now since he can't fight his family/parents. i wonder if he can't somehow try to at least turn his mom against Tong so that he can't try to whisper in their ear while Ming tries to figure the Joe thing out

omg Ming's just straight up coming out to his father

I skimmed through the ep 11 preview and it seems so dramatic, goddamn.

Now I have to wait for like 5 more days for the next ep but the worse part is that I'll have to wait 7 days after ep 11 for ep 12 and then I'll be at in-person work, so won't even get to watch it until many hours after the finale is released.

Y'know ep 9 of Wandee was released yesterday and I haven't watched it but what I've heard about the treatment of SA irritated me, and I'm really hoping this show doesn't disappoint in its last 2 episodes. We're in the final home stretch and I've enjoyed what the show has to offer so far.

I wrote this in the middle of episode 7 and I think my thoughts are still similar: Seeing people say they want revenge is so interesting because I didn’t expect that from this drama, so I’m not disappointed. I’m treating it like Vegas/Pete where Vegas is Extremely Shitty and the show knows he’s Extremely Shitty (as is Ming). However, they give him some stuff that makes him pitiful (hedgehog and abuse from his father. For Ming, it’s missing Joe and playing house while hoping he comes back ig and whatever backstory they'll give him) and while Pete or Joe want to leave and resist, they can’t for long. Vegas doesn’t really get his comeuppance for the stuff he did to Pete (the random guy shooting him doesn't count for me because Pete didn't do it and it wasn't because of what Vegas did to Pete) but in the end, Pete goes back to him anyway and even takes care of him in the hospital. I expect that something similar will happen with Joe; he’s seriously soooo like soft and wants family and doesn’t seem to want revenge, he’ll probably just try to resist Ming but obviously won't be able to, both because he loves him and because Ming's persistent. I hope Ming does Some graveling though; I enjoyed Vegas begging. I know that most people want the before-relationship to be the intense/dramatic part and when they get together, things are solved and, often I’m also in that boat like don’t get with somebody who majorly fucked up before discussing and fixing the fuck up but in the Vegas-Pete and Ming-Joe case, these relationships are way too fucked and unhealthy to neatly patch things up and just Be Good from then on. What I enjoy for VegasPete is Post-canon fics where Vegas fucks up again or we see the toll that Vegas’ treatment has taken on Pete or how they try to figure out their relationship (and their sex life). I think maybe I’ll also be into post-canon MingJoe where Ming’s treatment has fucked Joe up and how they try to fix it or have a relationship because even if Ming changes, it's not like you can just... Forget.

Addition from ep 9: I literally need Tong fucked up so bad though omgggg I cannot STAND that man but I've heard that he doesn't really have anything happen to him in the novel + Mek said the director told him to think of Tong as a good person who is ambitious, so they probably won't give him the villain comeuppence treatment agh.

There are people who still dislike Ming and don't want Joe to end up with him but for me, I feel like me liking or not liking Ming doesn't have any bearing on whether I want Joe to end up with him. Joe fully knows what sort of man Ming is, the show and the audience also know - it's not like some other shows where the love interest is a creep, but we pretend it's romantic or that he's a green flag through and through (forever side-eyeing Prapai in the first few eps of the PaiSky arc and people's reaction to Prapai even though I'm a PaiSky fan). So if Joe wants to stay with Ming even after that, I'll be curious to see how it goes, you know.

I had liked Sol and Joe for a few episodes earlier on but stopped once I saw him fight Ming and not stop even as Joe kept getting hurt while trying to stop the two of them. Ming I know is shitty but if Sol also hurts Joe without caring (and also he's just way too pushy for me - another trait he shares with Ming), then why would I root for Joe to get with him (esp when he doesn't like him romantically) while Joe knows how shitty Ming is but still loves him? It's kind of like Love Mechanics where the characters and some of the audience were talking about how Nuea's a better match. I didn't think Nuea was as much of a stand-up guy as people were saying because he seemed a bit skeezy and very pushy to me (though I can't actually remember much because it's been like 2 years since I watched it). So, I didn't want Mark to choose Nuea or Joe to choose Sol because I don’t think these people are like Good even though they’re better people than Vee and Ming. Might as well get with the toxic man you love and give me a compelling story if the other man is also unlikeable.

Also, I want Joe to top Ming just once. I loved Ming being willing (after kidnapping Joe) and I don't need all my fictional gay relationships to be vers (and I don't necessarily think they would suddenly become vers if Joe tops once lol) but I think it could be interesting.

[mi-i-zori]

Okay but what if Johnny drags his sweetheart along the zoo to tell them all the fun facts, but they also do the same, dragging him along with excited gasps as they see an animal they really like.

So in the end, they spend hours in front of various enclosures, exchanging facts that become weirder and weirder each time (« did ye ken the male echidna’s penis has four heads ? » - « wut »), while the team either keeps losing them among the crowd or struggles to follows. Price and Kyle are pretty weirded out by some of the facts, while Simon just silently goes « huh. » each time.

At some point, they choose to wait for them at the end of the visit to finish their never-ending conversation - except they never do, because they keep going back and forth between each enclosure whenever one of them remembers a fact they didn’t tell the other back then. So they either drag them out of the zoo themselves, or wait for the staff to do it at the end of the day.

Even though being out of the zoo doesn’t mean Johnny and his pretty darling stop trading facts. Not at all.

I also got a thought for something like this with Roach (because this boy doesn’t get enough love even though he’s originally part of the team).

Gary really likes books - they’re silent, yet so full of wonders of all kinds they never fail to grab his attention.

And while he admires the cover of the next volume of one of his favourite series, the person standing next to him gently pokes at his elbow, not wasting a second after he looks at them to offer him a completely random yet really interesting fact about how the author came to write this.

His attention is now solely focused on them - even more when they seem to realise, with his hesitant yet enthusiastic gestures, that he prefers using sign language, thus immediately switching to the familiar gestures. His eyes light up even more, and the book is quickly forgotten as they exchange facts, theories and headcanons about the whole series.

Needless to say that, after this, the book dates never stops.

the squad goes to an aquarium for team building whatsoever and simon falls absolutely in love with this nerd who keeps spewing fish facts to their own group who, for the most part, are interested and intrigued.

he doesn’t even realize that he started shadowing them until one of the girls turned around, perfectly trimmed brow cocked up, and goes, “uhm sir, what the actual fuck are ye tryna do?”

“uh,” simon utters, unintelligible because yeah, what the actual fuck was he trying to do? “fish facts? i, uh, wan’ t’hear more, s’all.”

“oh!” you cheer, chuckling, vibrating from where you’re standing. “that’s great! we’re on our way to see the invertebrates — d’you wanna tag along?”

“sure,” simon murmurs, not really clocking into what you said, just that you are finally looking at him and simon is gone. taken away by the crinkles of your eyes and the creases when you smile, and the way your hand flaps in uncontainable excitement. “i’d love that.”

you hum, nodding, before turning around to go. only then does simon notice your friends’ knowing looks.

“what,” he bites out, blushing in embarrassment at being caught.

the one who’d confronted him just sighs like this is a common occurrence.

(meanwhile, simon’s friends are blowing up his inbox because they just fucking lost their tank of a best friend.)

[pesterloglog]

Jake English, Roxy Lalonde

Act 6, page 4586

golgothasTerror [GT] began pestering tipsyGnostalgic [TG]

GT: I still cant find dirk all i get is his jerkwad shades.

GT: Surprise sur freakin prise.

TG: jake enklish

TG: cant u see im fuck deep in all these stupid meowcats

GT: Oh.

GT: No?

GT: I cant see that actually.

TG: i m also

TG: fuck deep in busy

TG: what ist it

GT: Just seeing if you had heard from him yet.

GT: I would really like to speak with him today.

GT: You know like actually in person instead of through his aggravating liaison who is so far up his own ass with this hal 9000 schtick its ridonkulous.

GT: Is he avoiding me or something?

GT: I hope i didnt piss him off through some indiscernible slight. Gosh he can be sensitive.

TG: nah hes just

TG: biding his time i guess.....

GT: Huh.

GT: Well okey doke.

GT: Man i just had a crazy dream after getting coldcocked by his roughhouse droid.

TG: yeh theres been that goin around

GT: What?

TG: dreamin

TG: what was urs about

GT: Well i dont want to alarm you or anything...

GT: But it may just have featured none other than THE GIRL OF MY DREAMS????????

TG: WUT

GT: She had sharp funny horns and a nice blue dress and she may have been some sort of spidery vampire? I dunno. It was very brief but she waved to me.

TG: nonononoononno

TG: this wont do at all

GT: What wont?

TG: u slobberin over some alien dream girl

TG: fuck THAT im having enough a hard time keppin trach of the jakestakes as it is

GT: The jakestakes?

TG: the jakestakes

GT: Also who said she was an alien? I just thought she was some kind of pretty monster.

TG: listen bro i know u love adventures and dumb shit like that but you are forbidden from thinkin about her again

GT: Ok i mean this is a strange reaction roxy but ok.

GT: She was a figment of my imagination so what choice do i even have?

TG: exactically

TG: she was a fake girl so 4get it

TG: a fakey fakey fuke

TG: wait a minnit...

TG: has jane talked to u yet about anything?

GT: About anything? Yes i do imagine our last chat could fit that description.

TG: no

TG: i mean

TG: about anythin serious

TG: feelinswasy

TG: * wawys

TG: * waways

TG: * SHIT

TG: * about your emotions

GT: Not really.

TG: uuuuuugh

TG: i knew shed porcrastinate on this

GT: On what?

TG: can u just message her now

GT: Sure.

GT: But what are you talking about?

GT: Should i expect a serious exchange about feelings and whatnot?

TG: depenbs on the present magnitude of her tightassery

TG: someone needs 2 move you fuckers along an get some stuff out in the popen already

GT: Wait would this be about certain unrequited pinings you may have alluded to earlier?

TG: i didint say nothin and aint sayin anything to that effeft

GT: Indubitably. Miss zipper lips was it? Humorously misspelled of course.

TG: mmmmm!

TG: *zuip*

GT: I guess i cant help but wonder if that truly is the way she sees me or if it is just some wild ego stroking delusion on my part.

GT: I always get this sense that people sorta fancy me but who knows i could be just miles off the old rocker about that!

GT: Youre right i think its high time we cleared the air on some things even if there is a chance it gets all awkward and prickly.

GT: That is what being brave and adventurous is all about after all. It isnt just about summoning the courage to pilfer some priceless loot from trap laden catacomb. Or shooting at stuff with two guns at once.

GT: There are treacheries of the heart to consider!!!

TG: lol u f'n dork

TG: but yes do that

TG: shit i gotta go

TG: i think theres someone in here....

GT: Are you in danger?

tipsyGnostalgic [TG] ceased pestering golgothasTerror [GT]

GT: Hmm.

[crystallineirises]

Succession 4.3: Connor’s Wedding Liveblog

I’ve never done one of these before AYE

I turned my phone OFF for this. Not silent, OFF

HERE WE GO

“dramatic music playing” no shit you know what show this is

KERRY LOOKS FLY

yeah he likes you *eyebrow raise*

Those letters are pretty cool 

NO THE GERRI SLANDER OH SHIT

SO WILL YOU GIVE HER THE HEADS UP

NICER 

“you were close” WELP is that what the kids are calling it

GIVE. HER THE WORD. TODAY.

*lively music*

Shiv in black is a mood

Tom is Joan Rivers this season i’m living

GREGGING

GREGLETS

GREGGIES

Willaaaaaaa a princess hoe is life ugh love her

I can’t believe the Togan girlies are winning i’m so thrilled for them

OH SHIT CYD TOO

Karolina watch your ass 

DAMN Karolina said fuck my work wife

THEME SONG

my comment about Gerri blowing these fools away with hat!pistol really would be justified 

DAMN I’m glad I switched to the Ted Lasso side as far as romantic ships for this season cause we ain’t winning over here

GOLF CART RICH BITCH

Omg is that Laurie

babygurl is STRESSED

TOM LOOKIN SINISTER

MARTYN

GERRI KNOWS

SHE CANT GO TO EUROPE RUDE

WHY

DICPICGATE

SHE IS FUMING

I’M GOOD

The I’M GOOD heard around the WORLD

OH NO THE TEARS 

OOOOOOH this was bruuuutaaaallll

This poor wedding planner lol that’s gonna be me in two weeks

BEING CUNTY

ARE YOU BEING A CUNT

Kendall looking sharp AF go bitch go

Sup Julie you’re an icon too 

Every assistant level person on this show is an icon

Gerri’s like let me get wasted it’s about go down go DOWN 

Roman why’s your hair so fucked lol i know we’ve talked about it but like wow

What if that was Gerri texting him pictures of her pussy lol

This bitch ain’t sick stop lol

Wait

Wut

OH 

OH FUCK

guess it’s not 9/11 part 2 guess it’s just an old man being an old man lol

Oh it’s Grey’s Anatomy all of a sudden

ON THE GROUND

ON THE FLOOR

TONIGHT WE GON GET IT ON THE FLOOR

his poor sad voice BABYGIRL

YOU DID A GOOD JOB

my heart feels all PANICKED

wow no one thought to start looking for Shiv Jess would never let this happen

SHIVY HONEY

this camera work is beautiful 

I CAN’T HAVE THAT

Sarah Snook’s shaking hands just won her an Emmy

Not to be rude but does this mean Gerri is saved

lovely good plane people

JESS my other baby girl

KEN GO INSIDE WE DON’T LIKE KEN BY WATER

OH wow pilots saying no 

“he’s flying the plane, son” LOL

we were really thinking we’d have to wait around all season for this NO BITCH THIS iS LIVE

Damn

*pours one out*

I just literally poured seltzer water on my carpet

Damn Kerry I sure hope you got that baby though 

GASP

CONNOR

the framing of this shot is gorgeous 

HENEVEREVENLIKEDMEEEEEEEEEEEE

i never got the CHANCE to make him proud of ME

Weddings are just really not good for these people

i wonder how fuckin rich they just got dude lol

oh Roman is the babiest babygirl bad day for Roman all around

And Gerri can’t even comfort him or NOTHIN 

SQUAD

Karolina is that bitch and i’m so about it put her high up in the Kerry/Jess administration

okay $100 bucks says Kerry murdered him

KAROLINA SAID GET OUT LEAVE RIGHT NOW 

Gerri > POTUS as it should be 

DELETE THE LOGISTICS

oh TOM I LOST MY PROTECTOR Togan was real AF for these three episodes

GASP Gerri 

Oh Karolina tryna make up now I don’t know about that 

“are you just with me for money” you...but...like...

Reagan’s with tweaks lol

How do they know already wow did Greg fuck that up 

THAT THE DANCE YOU LIKE SHIV STAY SWINGING

ooook oooooh they’re alone in a room 

Just kidding Roman’s outside now 

CONTROLLL TO GET WHAT I WANT 

GANG IS BACK 

OH HE WANTED HER TO HOLD HIM SO BADLY DAMN us Roman/Gerri babies is suffering 

These strings are going crazy hell yeah scoring

lol everyone with their handshakes

PRESS PRESS PRESS PRESS PRESS LOGANS DONT NEED MORE PRESS

WE INTEND TO BE THERE BAM

Roman said yeaaaah i know it’s stupid, i just gotta SEEEE it for MYSELFFF

[cheryllcher]

ok, real talk.

i watched strike back and just came back from crying my eyes out and wondering what the hell am i gonna do while waiting for season five cuz i hate this cliffhanger-like thing and the suspense it gives me. but:

this whole season has been about mari learning the ropes of being a guardian— a role that she’s been thrown into unceremoniously becuz fu’s identity was compromised. she had no one to guide her becuz a) no one knew her secret (at first) b) even if they knew they couldn’t teach her and of course c) the person who she looked up to as her mentor in all things miraculous and go to for advice has no recollection of anything as has to be treated like every other citizen

and so she’s left to build up more walls then she already did which ultimately failed (telling alya about being ladybug) — which helped cuz she had someone looking out for her behind (rena furtive)

but she also put more pressure on herself to be a guardian of her own too-high standards and pushed away her partner becuz of all the trauma she got from chat blanc that she couldnt talk to anyone about becuz no one would be able to relate and help her and it is clearly also affecting her and also becuz she wants to try to protect him as much as she can in her own way

so there’s a rift between them, as chat feels more and more isolated and unneeded by his partner and getting information hidden from him all the time even though they are partners

so they finally have that conversation when they were arguing. tho of course- not fully resolved as they were in the middle of a fight- but it’s getting the attention it needs

and here, bless adrien, even after ladybug hid so much from him and kept him wondering in the dark, and being betrayed by ladybug, he still tried to talk her out of her panic get helped her get into his bathroom so she can detransform and showed her that even though she’s right that can’t trust him cuz wut if he is felix?? to please just trust in him this one time becuz the miraculouses are in danger and there is no time.

and even after everything is lost and the future seems bleak becuz ladybug made a mistake a trusted the wrong person, and becuz of that mistake there is no one she can call on for help anymore and paris is in more danger, chat still stuck by her side + reassured her (esp after seeing her panic attack showing just how much she’s been suffering on her own and putting so much pressure on herself) that she is not alone in this fight just like she was as the guardian and doesnt blame her becuz ladybug is a person, and that they are going to fix the mistake together, as ladybug and chat noir

i just hope that ladybug will finally tell him everything and not hide anything anymore (including chat blanc) becuz now more than ever it is really just them against the world and they will be each other’s support and trust

[zoe-oneesama]

I wanna know your opinion on the new episodes that dropped (if you’ve watched them yet)

I personally feel Penalteam was way too rushed and Qilin was convoluted to hell and back

Let's start with things I liked:

Qilin:

Sabine is just amazing? Everywhere? It's so cool to see that Marinette inherited her quick thinking from Sabine, and it's nice to see the life of someone else for once.

Ladybug should've let Qilin maim a few cops. As a treat. Especially that meter maid on a power trip. I was nervous that Qilin would be a lesser version of Stormy Weather (just having wind powers) but it's cool that she can split the earth and levitate things as heavy as police vans without even moving from her spot.

Chat Noir really shined in his scenes, I'm proud of him.

The contrast of Qilin shaking off her akuma because Ladybug fulfilled a promise to Penalteam shaking off her akuma because they managed to make her hate soccer and her clone team is really funny to me (and again proves how cool Sabine is)

Penal Team:

The Pre-akuma soccer game was fun, and so was the banter. Cracks me up that Alix wanted a girl vs boy duel and Kim was like "but then we'll LOSE!" XD. And finding out Sabrina and Marc are soccer nerds, like, whoda thunk? (And Nathaniel dragging his feet is such a mood, like, no I DON'T want to kick a ball I want to DRAW plz)

Adrien doesn't know how to play soccer? Uhhhh (Furious Fu Flashbacks) guess he's just good at improv.

Bustier I-always-have-Chloe's-back got red carded first, yessss.

The sheer scale of doing a city wide soccer game with super heroes is just awesome to watch, like, yes, launch the ball half way across Paris to Ladybug.

I'm glad to know the remaining powers, they're pretty cool and I can see them being very useful in multiple situations.

The ability "Fetch" was cute, especially the way Miss Tracker played off her touching the ball with her...dog whistle? Guys this episode was recorded on a potato so I might've missed some details visually.

Again, it's very funny that after Roi Singe uses Uproar on Penalteam, they get so annoyed with each other that Chloe basically hands over the akuma object to make them all go away.

I like that being a hero makes Nathaniel want to join the team to play soccer and I like that Sabrina stands her ground when Chloe wants her to stop playing and join her on the bench.

Aaaand now the things that annoy me:

Qilin -

How you gonna have Sabine show off her being so rooted in her heritage but pretend she didn't teach Marinette even basic phrases in her language?

You put Lila in her art class WHY? She's not even DOING anything, you could've put ANYONE there! It's like the Adrien Rule where they shove her into places she's not needed and doesn't do anything so that we don't forget she exists!

Roger, dude, you KNOW she's not making up a daughter, you could at LEAST back her up on THAT. And thanks a lot Bus Driver Dude who SAW HER USE HER TICKETS, you don't want to say ANYTHING in her defense after she gave you free food? You're all trash.

Marinette shouldn't have taken responsibility for a up-himself meter maid on a power trip harassing her mom and shouldn't have offered to pay, that was the most shoved in, forced, last second "let's make this about Marinette's failings" thing and it wasn't NECESSARY. This episode really said ACAB but still made the victim of injustice apologize to the Cop.

Seeing the Charms now just makes me depressed, congrats Sabine, that'll be useless one episode from now.

PenalTeam -

Bustier really put together this team building exercise for the class that acts like a Hive Mind, like, this class is nearly always in sync because otherwise they'd be individuls

I know Chloe hates Ladybug now or whatever but no one around her is freaked out that she's openly talking about waiting for Shadowmoth to help her get her "revenge" now?? No one else hears this shit???? Hell, THAT could've been Sabrina's wake up call, cuz, wut?!

I hate Mega Akumas. They could've at least made it that Shadowmoth needed to sacrifice a protective Charm to make a Mega Akuma. With Chloe actively on his side, she could've just handed hers over at some point, that even would've solidified her ACTUALLY working with him.

Penalty (the akuma is named Penalty and her team is PenalTeam and it took me too long to put that together) casts this giant yellow net over the city as like "boundaries" and it puts a gross yellow filter over the episode which is why all the screenshots and leaks up to this point have looked like shit.

While it was meta smart to get Alix and Alya out of the way early to justify not giving Alix a miraculous in The Team episode and also not give away that Alya still has the Fox, it is sad that they also used this method to get rid of Viperion and Ryuko (who would've been OP against this akuma) and Pigella (who is pretty useless powerwise...but so was Polymouse, so, wut?). Just kinda thought if they were gonna summon the whole team, they'd USE the whole team.

I'm sad that the remaining heroes didn't get a debut episode to prove themselves as heroic. I said the same for Party Crasher back with Kim's debut, but at least he exchanged SOME DIALOGUE with Fu. Here, it comes across like they weren't chosen because they're good people who deserve it. Hell, half of them were all but told "I chose you cuz you're good at soccer lol."

Also sad we didn't get transformation sequences or kwami intros that played up their individual personalities. I was looking forward to learning a little about Orikko who even in MOB episodes doesn't get many lines.

Also to give all 4 new heroes the same "Oh I can't be a hero because of [x] reason" speech to make Ladybug give them a "pep talk" to speed run justify them getting Miraculouses instead of, idk, BUILDING THEM UP AS HEROES was ughhhhh.

It's just extra frustrating because "Simpleman" exists instead of valid hero episode.

Though I liked the powers, it felt very contrived the way they tried to justify Caprikid's because it barely played into defeating PenalTeam. They made a big deal of it, but they could've just lied or skipped to Roi Singe's uproar. Caprikid probably could've used a different episode to showcase his ability (Genesis) to create anything he wanted.

They had Ladybug decide not to pass the ball ONE TIME and tried to make the episode about calling her out for not being a TEAM PLAYER alkdjfakldfj WUT?! She's been using her fellow team mates ALL SEASON, it's the BACKBONE of her and Chat Noir's beef, and now you wanna pull an "Antibug" and just PRETEND the rest of the season doesn't exist?! She even coordinated perfectly with Alya at the bEGINNING OF THE EPISODE, JUST LIKE WHEN LADYBUG LISTENED PATIENTLY TO THE BULTER IN "ANTIBUG" YET WAS CHASTISED FOR NOT LISTENING TO OTHERS LAKJFLAF!

Minotaurox's ability (Resistance) repels PenalTeam away from him like opposing magnets when they get too close, but the commentator says that his power makes him "impervious to all other powers"? But that's not what happened? If they wanted to show THAT then PenalTeam should've been shown red carding or touching him with her cleats but nothing happens. That's just a niggle since the commentator has no way in universe to know what the fuck he's talking about. It's just weird the writers gave him lines that are straight up lies.

Rooster Bold's ability (Supplemation) is so OP and a literal game changer if used right. He can choose any power he wants (I initially thought that meant he could "borrow" powers from his teammates or the akuma) but no! He just SAYS "I choose the power to score a goal every time I shoot the ball". So if he just said "I choose the power to teleport misused Miraculouses with the snap of my fingers..."

I cannot believe they gave Lila her first lines of the season to TEAM UP WITH CHLOE with 10 SECONDS OF THE EPISODE LEFT LKAJFLADFJ!

I can’t believe I forgot to mention that Rooster Bold DOESN’T USE HIS KNIFE!