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So I've been trying out some weed/CBD lately and I cannot overstate the effect it's had on my mental health for the better
I'm a naturally very anxious person. Add on being AuDHD in a NT world and it's infinitely worse.
And sometimes I forget just how anxious I really am.
I got high a few weeks ago. And at first I was really anxious about it. I had some health issues that have left me really wary of mind altering substances and it's made me avoid drinking or getting high for a few years now.
But it was like someone hit a reset button on my brain. For those few hours I wasn't anxious. At all. It was like I could breathe again.
I talked with my therapist about it and she was incredibly supportive. Even going so far as to make a few recommendations for things I could try on a regular basis.
Guys. I want to draw again. I haven't wanted to draw in MONTHS. I want to read again. I am 200 pages into The Ballad of Snongbirds and Snakes and its just been 8 hours of me reading.
I feel like I can live again. Like I can take a break from all the anxious overwhelming thoughts for a few hours a week and it's a long enough break that it gives my brain room to rest. Truly rest.
I didn't realize how much of a zombie I had become. I didn't realize how much the CONSTANT anxiety and stress was getting to me.
It's such a wonderful feeling to have interests again. To have the energy and drive to engage with those interests.
#clearly not sponsored just really emotional about having parts of my life back#also before anyone asks i have some bad history with anti anxiety medication#and thats why im not on any#personal
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Great news for uninsured adults in the USA who want a COVID-19 booster! It now appears that ALL CVS locations are now active participants in the Bridge Access Program. The Bridge Access Program gives out free Covid-19 vaccinations to 18+ adults who otherwise can't afford one, so if you have a CVS near you, please go get one! For others who don't have a CVS near them, please go to vaccines.gov, click on "Find Covid-19 vaccines", fill out which vaccines you prefer (you can mix different vaccines if you have to so i reccomend just marking all of them for the age groups you need), and when the next page loads mark the "Bridge Access Program Participant" option to see only locations that are Bridge Access Program participants. Hopefully, other places that aren't CVS will start participating soon, so just check back every so often to see if there are any updates. The CDC Bridge Access Program website also has more details on what locations will be participating, but only CVS is appearing as an active participant on the vaccines.gov location finder at the moment.
#covid19#covid#coronavirus#vaccines#covid vaccine#bridge access program#CDC#signal boost#please share#coronavirus vaccine#covid19 vaccine#covid 19 vaccine#novavax#moderna#pfizer#also interesting side note but i havent been able to find any vaccine other than novavax near me#perhaps this is just a regional thing or maybe novavax is cheaper to make so those are the most common?#anyway thats why i made sure to tell people its okay to mix up because im going to have to bc i got moderna every other time lol#mayyybe other vaccines will become available in the future??? but ive had close family catch covid left and right so im not waiting#also does anyone know why the bridge program only bridges access to 18 or older individuals?#like i knew the gov didnt care about children but god damn lmao
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Danny Is An Alternate Version Of Ra's Al Ghul And Flash Already Called Dibs On Adopting Him
Danny In All His Sleep Deprived Slightly Scuffed Up From A Fight Glory Is On His Way To Clockworks Tower To Hopefully Get A Nap And Maybe Some Homework Done When A Natural Portal Opens Up In Front Of Him And Proceeds To Unceremoniously Drop Him In The DC Verse Just Outside Of Central City Before Promptly Closing Leaving A Tired Danny Behind In A Run Down Abandoned Parking Lot.
It's Times Like This When Danny Regrets Putting Off Learning How To Make His Own Portals, Cause Now He Is Very Much Stuck For The Foreseeable Future And He Has No Idea Where Or When He Is. Luckily For Him However Central City Isn't Too Far Away, Unlucky For Him However Is That Once In The City He Realizes This Isn't His Dimension. He's Pretty Sure He'd Remember Something Called The Justice League.
So What Do You Do When Supernatural Bullshit Fails You? You Fall Back On Your Mad Scientist Roots And You Make A Portal Gun. So That's Exactly What Danny Plans To Do.
Unfortunately Staying Alive And Building Questionably Safe Portal Technology Requires Money And Supplies, So He Ends Up Wandering From City To City Doing Odd Jobs/Fixing Up Busted Tech For Cash Or Unwanted Electronics For His "Operation: Get Home" Needs. This Obviously Ends In A Few Superhero Encounter Shenanigans.
Though He Always Ends Up Back Near Central City, Both On The Off Chance The Natural Portal Will Open Up Again And Because Out Of All The Superheroes That Apparently Exist In This Universe The Speedsters Are His Favorite (Red Robin Is Solidly His Second Favorite Ever Since The Gotham Vigilante Gave Him A Large Coffee Filled With Enough Caffeine To Kill A Man).
Unbeknownst To Danny However Is That Every Hero/Vigilante He Has Encountered Has Come To At Least One Of The Following Conclusions; 1. Run Away Meta Who Is In Desperate Need Of A Good Meal/Adoption Bait. 2. Possibly Red Robin/Tim Drake Clone 3. A Good Kid But Could Possibly Be A Future Rouge If Left Unsupervised. 4. Did Bats Get A New Kid And Why Is He Here?
All Flash Knows Is That He Saw The Kid First And Therefore Has Dibs. Suck It Bruce.
Fast-forward A Few Months And Danny Gets Hurt During A Rogue Attack While Trying To Help Some Civilians Get To Safety (Old Hero Habits Die Hard (Ha Die Hard) And All That Jazz) And He Nopes Out Once Everyone Is Safe And When The Paramedics Are Busy With Other People Unaware He Left A Blood Sample Behind.
One DNA Test Brought To You By Paranoid Bat Concerns Of A Possible Red Robin Clone Later And They Find Out That Dannys DNA Matches One Ra's Al Ghul.
They Now Think Danny Is An Escaped Ra's Al Ghul Clone.
Memes For The Vibes:
#captain's posts#this has been haunting me#the flash/any of the speedsters:*exist*#danny:*can feel the speedforce on them* i like your vibe funny man#basically danny is actually an alternate version of Ra's Al Ghul and gets chucked into the dc vesrse#because natural portals are bitches hijinks ensue#and while i do love batfam adopting danny i think its very funny for flash to just yoink him while the big bad bat isn't looking#i desperately need him and tim to be besties tho specifically before they find out danny is an alternate Ra's Al Ghul#danny:*sitting in a park and tinkering with some circuitry* oh hey flash :)#flash: hey kid! great news i might be adopting a kid soon!#danny: oh really? thats cool-#flash:*holding out adoption papers and doing his best puppy eyes* its you. sign here.#danny:*vague memory of clockwork complaining about speedster pops into his mind* hmmm#danny:*deciding to be a little shit cause what else do you do when you're almost a year into being stuck in an alternate dimension* >=)#danny: sure why not? soooo full name or what?#flash:*didn't expect to get this far* uh-#i also really like danny being clockworks apprentice/time line clean upper so danny just remembers cw bitchin about the speedsters#also cause im a sucker for tim x danny...#tim:*having a crisis cause the cute meta kid he befriended/has a crush on may or may not be a vlone of Ra's Al Ghul* aaaaasaaaaaaaasaaaaaaa#dick: you okay buddy?#tim:*aggressively points at the dna match of danny to Ra's Al Ghul on the bat computer* AAAAAAAAAAAAAA#dick: Oh-#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc
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the madness frustration loneliness of the dissonance of a mismatch of the rotten heart to the rest
allosexual aromantic swag happy pride *peaces out*
#my art#alloaro#aromantism#happy pride#my animation#if this isnt fucking obvious is a personal post about MY EXPERIENCES#i love being aro more than any other part of my identity tbh but bro#this shit is crazy wack when you dont got the asexuality to match it made me into a fucking specimen#and i love picking apart my own brain#also bi aro ppl are so crazy rare and for what. i dont get why allo aro ppl are so rare. WHY ARE WE SO RARE? WHY.#like the opposite many more alloro ace ppl exist than split attraction ppl of my flavor and thats Wack. its wack. i dont get it.#its not like its complicated (okay maybe it is but also it isnt its simple to Me) so whats the populations problem.#gif#anyways. i wanted to animate this personal piece bc im a fucking weirdo i guess
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Patience and responsibility....that's a promise....right?
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--Full Series--
An exorcism? In my family-friendly Deltarune? It's more likely than you may think. The backgrounds here were very interesting! Much more complex than how I usually do them (especially that computer).
Player POV:
Feral energy.
#Syke! Chara has no idea how to do sh*t with Exorcisms#in a society where it's literally seen as a blessing of some kind. It is seen as unethical! Your hurting the silly little guy :(#Why is Azzy so hesitant with this festival??#WHAT THE HECK IS THE ANGELS LANDING DAY??? Azzy get over here-#without a soul?.....I dont know any creatures like that....plants maybe?#That is totally a knock off Mario cart and not a png I found online. DO NOT LOOK INTO THIS#Salt!? owo hehehe#I was very iffy on how much light I wanted here. I kept layering the darkness lmaoo. They kept the lights low in case Toriel woke up.#can you spot the everyman? ;)#hmm your not supposed to be able to read the computer....but I may make an update so people can actually see it?? I hate to leave it grainy#but im a little tired so thats maybe for tomorrow!#thank you all again for waiting so long!#deltarune chara timeline#deltarune chara timeline comic#bread#art#my art#chara#asriel#kris#susie
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your movie charles art gives me cuteness aggression
obsessed with getting these asks back to back and yet they both hold some truth i think ...... thank you very much everyone ....
#semi-nsft ?? ig ??#xmen#xmen movies#xmen dofp#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#fr thank you - both of you :] !!!!! i do my best to make any and all iterations of charles xavier look lovable#not hard. for me anyway. i have this condition called Perpetual Heart Eyes and it worsens when i see/think of a chara i like#tho im mildly appalled by how much love my movie charles doodles get considering i only really draw him. when you guys mention him vjLAEAEJ#'appalled' is a weird word. Pleasantly Surprised is better i think#BUT AGAIN I DONT MEAN TO thats just how it happens. ig thats also why im happy to hear it. or read it LOL#LIKE I /HAVE/ DRAWN HIM ON MY OWN OF /COURSE/ just. def doesnt feel like that much ... hm ...#tho tbh maybe i do draw mostly in response to asks .... im not getting the hard data on that we're moving on it aint that serious#ANYWAYS. more movie charles to come. hopefully. idk if SOON but hopefully i still have some stuff i wanna draw with him#on that note @ second anon topping him wouldnt fix him or make things better really but itd be fun to watch probably
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stray thoughts
#doodle page to remind myself how my style works and how i draw these guys since its been a while#why so much mirabelle you may ask? because i like. her#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat mirabelle#mirasifloop#sifmiraloop#miraloop#mirasif#sifloop#theres like implied isiloops in here but im not tagging it bc its nothing. sorry but im putting isabeau in the crate . bye#lucabyteart#you may ask: do these have like any context?#and the answers are no not really ! and also even the ones that do ! thats your job to think on now. bye !
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U know I just think if you have a favorite character you also have to love the worst things about them bc it's integral to everything they do and makes the good they do more meaningful and makes them so sexy and cool
#drinks talk tag#maybe bc im a martin bitch and past a base reading of his character its impossible to ignore the worst things about him#but if i couldnt accept that he is annoying as fuck and also absolutely deranged there would be no point in calling him my favorite#to just say none of them have any culpability makes their arcs meaningless and thats boringggg#like why are we even telling a story if all it boils down to is there were a bunch of good ppl who had no agency and they all died the end
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beloved!!!
#neither of these characters r women >:3#mine#fan art#rote#fitz and the fool#fitzloved#realm of the elderlings#i was screaming reading golden fool let me tell you that. 'you thought i was bringing you flowers?' fitz what if i bit you#i am on . fools fate now. oh dear#after this im gonna. wait a long time before reading fitz and fool trilogy...good lord#also. u would not believe the amount of GRIEF. this drawing gave me. ive been staring at colour variations for like an hour#th pose is based off an Artus Scheiner drawing i saw n was like. thats fitzloved#i hvent read liveship traders i know i know. smite me down. listen. i dont care for boats i really dont.#i started reading it n was like i dont respect any of these people and then. stopped skdfbsdk#anyway. why is it 30 degrees. relax. its cooler next week thank god. this better b th last of th heat or im gna start biting
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so sick and tired of the “jedi are an evil and abusive cult that steals children” as if half the reason they weren’t protecting these children is bc sith were out killing them or TURNING THEM INTO SITH. they weren’t even STEALING children to begin with I thought we all knew that was Palpatine’s game not Yoda’s.
#i hate star wars fans i truly do#they wanna pick apart the jedi like of course there are mistakes and wrong doings#bUT THE SITH ARE RIGHT THERE#trying to build the narrative that anakin was abused by the jedi is absolutely crazy when his actions and thoughts were all his own#and GROOMED by palpatine#the only reason people want to pin them as bad people is because yoda could call out anakin’s bad behavior#that and they didnt promote him to master right away because oh im the chosen one i should be#like you need to PROVE you are the chosen one and that you WILL bring balance to the force and NOT DESTROY IT#THATS FHE WHOLE PROPHECY#AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY THEY WERE CAREFUL WITH ANAKIN???#and then the oh well they make you supress feelings#nO#THEY#DONT#they make you surpress attachments so that if it comes DOWN to it you will save the many and not just risk it all to save the ONE#disney has done damage to the star wars community i swear#saw a tik tok comment section where they said the council is like the christian church#lost my MIND#well the jedi fit cult criteria!!#wow! star wars fans find out WHAT A GROUP OF RELIGION IS#LITERALLY ANY GROUP OF RELIGION CAN BE CALLED A CULT NOT EVERY CULT IS BAD#im sorry i cant stand it anymore#star wars#star wars tcw#auxxrat yap#jedi council#jedi#star wars legends
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[ID: a doodle of old, Commission-era Five lounging in a bathtub with cucumbers over his eyes and a glass of wine in one hand and a bottle in the other. He has several scars, including one that starts at his collarbones and goes all the way down his torso. End ID.]
i missed old five this season so bad. where was he!!! Where was my old man!!! I took it upon myself to answer with "in the bath, chilling" because he deserves it. old five people, you're welcome
#tua#the umbrella academy#im not tagging this spoilers im sorry i know i talked about season 4 in the caption#five hargreeves#my art#whats the courtesy tag#partial nudty#?????#idk man#another thing that i need to do because we didnt get it in s4 either is a five fight scene animatic#i made a promise to myself that i would make one if we didnt get a five fight scene AGAIN this season#and lo and behold...#like yall are you joking thats half the damn show now that he doesnt kill people!!#anyway i have no idea the what or the why or the where or when so if people have any suggestions im all ears#i just dont want the last time i watch five kill people to be the commission board from FOUR YEARS AGO
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Ammonite for a $5 Ko-fi supporter
#this is not any specific species because its hard to find concrete info on specific ones and theres 10000+ to choose from#also im not a pro paleoartist so if im wrong about what the consensus is for how the soft tissue looked thats why lol#art#my art#digital#digital art#clip studio#clip studio paint#csp#kofi#ko-fi#kofi doodles#kofi request#request#grayscale#black and white#doodle#painting#digital painting#ammonite#ammonoid#cephalopod#paleoart#extinct#lazert#lazer-t
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RED VELVET COSMIC: Midnight sun - When the stars align
#red velvet#redvelvetinc#femaleidolsedit#femaleidol#femadolsedit#kgoddesses#ggnet#rvedit#rv#99#09#edits#*e#im so pissed at sm#how can you fumble your bag once again#the use of ai bg and overediting wendy and joy#thats why im not posting the other pics bc joy looked crazy#and i removed those random ass women in the bg#at first this was the version i wanted. now? i dont think i want any of the photobook if they are crazy like this
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Oh no! Looks like the new farmhand had an accident.
I keep thinking of @m3atbuff3t toploaders and young strickpage was the result.
#strickpage#hangman adam page#swerve strickland#aew#wrestling#idk why swerve would be near a farm but thats not my job im just here drawing any silly idea that crosses my mind#poor hanger has to change his clothes :*( [is it obvious that there is no actual reason for his pants to be open? perhaps]#i might color this later#eggon
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thinking about orvs metatextual engagement with its genre and specifically how that interacts with its women again. kim dokja is a self insert for the reader - what he thinks is largely meant to represent what we think, especially in the beginning before sing shong really fleshes out his character. kim dokja sees the world through tropes, directly acknowledging the genre around him and the cliches we expect e.g. the overpowered mc, the scheming villain, the beautiful heroine.
but a major part of his arc is deconstructing this reductionist view of the world in a way that parallels the author's deconstruction of the genre, and that plays really well with the way orv writes women. yoo sangah is perhaps the best exanple - shes introduced as the heroine, a one-dimensional pretty girl who in any other novel would become kim dokja's love interest. but the authors allow her to be her own character, directly challenging the stereotype of the heroine and calling attention to the genre's typical lack of depth for such a character. i think this undercurrent plays in the background often but really comes to the forefront when yoo sangah reminds kim dokja of her putting pepper in their bosses' coffee, a memory kim dokja had supressed because it didn't fit with the pretty girl persona he made for her.
i interpret that moment as yoo sangah pushing her way out of the mold of heroine often found in these stories, demanding a depth be added to her character, asking kim dokja - and thus the reader - to see her in her entirety, to see the heroine archetype for what she could be. orv is at all times in conversation with its genre, and its simultaneous writing of female characters with agency and depth and acknowledgement of the tropes these women are expected to fulfill is undeniably a part of that. and its a part i enjoy. most of the time.
#ok trigger warning for discussion of sa in the tags#ive been thinking about this in context with my discomfort with sa in orv specifically#i think its sort of related to this i think sa happens in orv not because sing shong is at all interested#in exploring that topic or discussing its place in this genre#i think its one of those things that 'happens because it happens' if that makes sense#and like i dont blame sing shong for not wanting to explore that topic#but i think it does stand out to me#especially in contrast with orvs usual depth and it's willingness to engage with heavier topics#like its implied that if kim dokja wouldn't have saved her han sooyoung would have been sexually assaulted possibly to DEATH!!!#and its so brushed over she never expresses any real feelings about it#honestly im just rambling in here but like. yeah.#thats why we have tags babyyyytt#anyway. coughs.#orv#omniscient reader's viewpoint
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i dont even remember drawing this
#genshin impact#jean gunnhildr#barbara gunnhildr#myart#im goin thru my ext drive lookin at old stuff#im p sure i posted this but its not showin up in any tag so again#if i start reposting other things thats why lol
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