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#me#cancel ranting to the sole two group chats i have w friends bc i think im reaching the annoying theshold#im so fuckign tired#i woke up at 7am uesterday#and spent the whole day awake#then accidentlalg slept at 2am earlier and woke up at three#then i literag had to fly home aat the very mucb full airport#then somehow i did not get a wink of sleep.#ate some dumplings then tried to sleep again after a shower#fucking ineffective#then here uam 1:23 am the next next day from when i started#im so tired but im not sleepy and indont want to move but i need to do so much
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Why can't we have a batman is the spirit of Gotham au?
He already is, in meta, in character, in theming. Him and the joker. He is so very built upon what Gotham is made of, and Gotham builds from what he needs in turn, the setting of his story.
What if that is the reason he can take damage that would permanently ruin a physical career and come back? What if that's how he's managed to maintain his no-kill streak to such an extent? What if that's how he manages to maintain such high maintenance and all consuming identities?
For the heart and soul of a city containing all extremes, the richest nobility and the lowest of the poor, the cruellest villains and the most compassionate heroes, orphaned children and ancient lineages, a city rooted in fear and madness and grit-teeth determination and hard won kindness, what better choice could you find than Bruce Wayne?
But what if he wasn't alone in that? What if Gotham has sunk to such a low because its spirit is damaged and corrupted?
For the heart and soul of the cruellest city in the dc universe, the most unrelenting and uncaring, the one that practically laughs at your pain and suffering as you try to make it through another day, what better choice than the Joker?
#Batman v joker is yin yang up down left right it's the oroborus#Like it's possibly one of the most famous arch enemies of modern day lmao#Something something what if there was an actual reason b couldn't kill joker?? Like if joker died it'd kill him too.#Unbalance the incredibly fragile equilibrium b has spent decades fighting for#Like those threatre masks. Love theatre mask symbolism. But the batman is the smiling one and the joker is the frowning one#Its apathy vs compassion. Someone made a really good post about it a while ago but I can't find it ToT#But yeah imagine if b found out about the whole city spirit thing and freaked out it until he found out it was him.#Like full on possessive trawls through research and 'no I'm fine' to everyone watching and lying awake fuming and then it's all fine#Except now he can have an existential crisis because he never realised lmao. Idk maybe the waynes were infertile and he was a surprise baby#Maybe there's no hint he wasn't entirely human until he had the option opened to him.#Like he just thought all his weirdnesses were just from one of the various things he never got official diagnoses for#Which he still is! Some things were just supernatural lol#The kids are laughing at him but they've got the Gotham spirit of the protection which is how they're all (mostly) still alive lmao#Batman#Bruce Wayne#Cryptid batman#Gotham spirit au#Fic idea#Story idea#Batfam#Batfamily#Dc comics#Gotham#Dc city spirits
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need to sleep because i've now been awake for more than 36 hours but every time i close my eyes i just see cleo choking on her own vomit
#i spent the last ten hours of her life by her side i stayed awake all night which i didnt even know i was capable of but i was full of#adrenaline the whole time so i wasnt even tired.#im starting to feel the effects of no sleep or food or water for 36 hours now so i might try to sleep soon but .#her death was really traumatic :( her body couldnt handle the norepinephrine that they were using to try to raise her blood pressure#and she started moaning in pain because her heart was stopping and she vomited and aspirated#i cant unhear the noises she was making#ive been crying nonstop all day and i feel like im dying like my brain and body feel like they are shutting doing because they dont know#how to comprehend the grief i am experiencing#she was my whole world. my whole world. the single most important thing in my life#i cant believe shes gone i keep seeing her out of the corner of my eye#i just keep saying this isnt real this isnt happening#but she's gone forever#jemposting
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#like the clown i am i spent half the night awake trying to come up with a way to make the olli/allu modern-day royalty AU work out#my first idea was to try and make it similar to my college AU with POV chapters and shit#but i quickly realised it wouldn't work out for the same reason i'm still struggling with the gran hotel AU:#unlike with the college AU i don't have a clear character arch for everyone#e.g. i can't for the life of me think of a way to link the joel/niko side plot to the main plot to make it make sense#and idk what joonas' role would be other than to occasionally hook up with olli and fangirl about aleksi and pine for joel#soooooo it thought i could instead make it a series of shorter stories? if anyone out there is seriosly interested in reading this AU? 👉👈#like. the first one would obviously have to be a little longer since it's the establishment for the whole AU#so far i have an outline for a 6-chapter story from olli's and allu's povs. basically just them getting together#and the rest of what i have planned for the AU would be standalones or shorter establishments?#because if i were to include EVERYTHING in one fic it would most likely end up being +20 chapters lol#and no way in hell would i have the patience for that 💀#that way i could just time-jump to the scenes i want to write the most lol#instead of having to try and weave them together to form a longer coherent plot#i mean i looooooooove slow burn and all that but i don't want to overwhelm myself by starting to write something#only to realise 32k words later that i have no idea where i'm going with it D:#(my ski jumping rpf fic says hi 🙃)#but by writing individual shorter stories it would be much easier for me to handle the plot while also advancing it#because the storyline in my head is so extensive that i feel like i can't fit it all in just one fic#at least in a way that i would be satisfied with 😭#i can make them get together in 6 chapters with no trouble#but for them to actually form a secure relationship and get messed up in all that tabloid drama and face the prejudice of the royal family#until eventually getting their happy ending? yeah nope. gonna need at least 20 chapters for that lmao#and if i wanted to advance all the sideplots on top of all that? yeah nope 😵#with individual stories i could just write all the joonas/tommi and niko/joel (and unrequited j/j) as spin-offs! yay problem solved! 😇#pls don't get your hopes up though lol i may love planning fics but writing is another story entirely 😂#but yeah. watch this space?#or maybe i'll just continue writing random pointless olli/allu standalones whenever i get a burst of inspiration. we'll see 👀
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Song of the Day: May 29
“Evil Like Me” by Kristin Chenoweth & Dove Cameron for Disney's Descendants OS
#song of the day#time is fake! sometimes I'm awake and it's logical to assume that sometimes I'm asleep! and the days must pass but do I ever know?? nope#fuck I spent all day thinking today was the last day of the month and then it turns out it's not even Thursday#sang 'Evil Like Me' with Duncan at the dinner table while I ate the cabbage and I made this cabbage after the work not-a-bbq so#almost definitely that was today!#I fell asleep standing up in the shower again but the drain has been draining very slowly so when I woke up there was water above my ankles#if I flood our house with the water from my shower while I am actively standing in it and I don't notice because it's the only time I sleep#I'm going to shrink myself down and move in with the mice colonizing our neighbor's boat trailer#the mice will never know my shame. Duncan will put cheese sandwiches out in the alley for us and it will be more than I deserve#this is a really good song. very fun lyrical nonsense and also very fun musically to sing. love the idea of Kristin Chenoweth Maleficent#'I have tried my whole life long / to do the worst I can / clawed my way to victory / built my master plan#now the time has come my dear / for you to take your place / promise me you'll try to be / an absolute disgrace'#Nick really doesn't like this song for some unspecified reason--we've asked but he just gets kind of mad? like it should be obvious?#I think maybe he thinks they're making fun of people who sing about like. doing crimes? being bad???????????????#like honestly what could be more punk she's literally Maleficent but go off I guess#I dunno but if I were going to be mad about a Descendants song that I occasionally roam the house over-selling#it wouldn't be a Broadway-star-supported certified banger like 'Evil Like Me'#it'd be goofyass 'Rotten to the Core' where I'm playing four parts simultaneously and pitching my voice up and down like a rollercoaster#love that fucking song it's so dumb and it's so much fun and I get to stomp on the chorus bits
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So I have not been succeeding a ton on my plan to get back into writing this month…
#tries to fall asleep#fails#briefly nods off then has the most awful graphic nightmare#stays awake for two more hours just to not have nightmares#finally falls asleep at 6am out of sheer exhaustion#wakes up every forty minutes or so#feels simultaneously unable to sleep but also too tired to get up#gets up because it is time for work#feels like I lost a whole month because I spent most of its days in bed#people who suffer insomnia permanently!!! you are incredible and I see you <3#this sucks and I have no idea how you live with it all the time#hope it goes away soonnnnnn#(this post is mostly just an explanation for why I didnt write those fics I said I would write (whoops)#but honestly it turned into a ramble im too tired to edit at this point#not to cause any alarm or anything though! I will be okay :)#I plan to sleep So Hard this weekend hehehe
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freshly-moved kitty photo dump and update!
all three of us have been pretty stressed since thursday, but these two are starting to be out and about a little more. on friday, they spent the entire day hiding under my bed, which was expected and understandable since i was still moving things that day. JJ spent a lot of Saturday hiding as well, but Anka has been living up to his name, not hiding quite as much and tentatively exploring! i was actually more worried about him than JJ since he hadn't moved before and is actually super shy around any people other than me. but I think he's adjusting well. JJ also has spent most of today out and about, so i think he's adjusting as well.
this apartment comes with more neighbor noisiness than the old one though, which has been interesting for all of us. and Anka has been cuddling in the bed, which is unusual for him, while JJ has NOT been cuddling, which is unusual for him. but I think that's just a time thing. they both spent some time chilling on the couch with me, so I think we'll be okay :)
#there's a dog next door who.... he doesn't bark like a lot but he had been barking occasionally#which the cats don't like#me either#and i now have neighbors directly overhead which. is interesting. i feel bad for my downstairs neighbor at the old apartment :')#i know I'm not the lightest on my feet and i would be awake at ass oclock bc of my job#i did try to be quiet at least. usually.#anyway#i so have so much to unpack :') i don't want to ugh#but i need to#i need to figure out what's happening in my den#do some laundry. build the other bookshelf.#clean up#but that's for tomorrow abram#today Abram spent the whole day on the couch#anka the banshee#sir jj the cat#shh ac
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I need to sleep but I just pieced together the fact that I hold a bunch of our really severe medical trauma for some reason (I've known this for a while but never fully registered it) and that probably explains why the thought of going back to the hospital on Friday has been giving me some of the worst panic attacks I've had in the entire time I've been in the system
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#I am doing... really fucking bad. I've spent roughly the last hour having panic attacks#and Lucy's had to co-front multiple times just to stop me screaming without realising it at 3am#I genuinely don't know what to do about this because a lot of the stuff that's happened today is also really triggering#and even if I distract myself our whole body hurts and our arm is sore from doing multiple blood draws so I just get reminded again#I need to sleep both because I'm exhausted and because I need to be awake in the day for the next couple of days#and then I remember why I need to be awake in the day and I have another panic attack
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I think. That if you live with people. Especially people who cannot close the door at night (bc the cat needs to be able to access her litter box and water) and you NEED NEED NEED WILL DIIIIIE WITHOOOOOUT the tv playing in the LIVING ROOM to help you go to sleep. Well I think you should just go without. Or put on some fucking headphones attached to your laptop. You asshole
#like sorry but you're keeping the only person here with a job awake all fucking night#because we have to hear your laugh tracks and explosions and have our room light up every five minutes#like you're really incapable of ceding even a little bit to other people huh#like I dont even get food bc I wont Invade Ur Space near the kitchen but Ill have 2 stay up all night bc u happen 2 sleep in insane#conditions like. Kay. die#'oh she has an even harder time sleeping without her edibles' well maybe she should have gotten a job when she promised she would! to pay#for her fucking edibles!!#the woman has been like 'wuh wuh you don't contribute' WHO T HE FUCK HAS BEEN BUYING GROCERIES THIS WHOLE TIME DL. HUH. WHO.#DID U THINK LIZA WAS PULLING THEM OUT OF HER ASS AFTER SHE SPENT ALL HER MONEY ON RENT#I spend all day cooped up in my room so you can't complain abt me but even then you're inescapable#I don't exist at all so you can exist like an asshole. cool#<I mean we literally have to make ourselves disappear from the apartment bc SHE REFUSES TO PUT US ON THE LEASE#WE'RE LITERALLY NOT ALLOWED TO EXIST#GOD FOR FUCKING BID WE WANT TO ACTUALLY ENGAGE IN OUR RELATIONSHIP OR *GASP* HAVE SEX
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ohghhhh where the hgell am i
#'huh i should continue reading that really long pmd fic. it was pretty good--'#*hard cut to static and ringing noises fading out as i awake from blacking out a good 4 hours or more later*#ive had the same song on loop for the past 3 hours and i think ive just regained conciousness. whats going on.#THIS ISNT EVEN THE FIRST TIME ITS HAPPENED FOR THIS SPECIFIC FIC TOO#I SPENT A WHOLE DAY STRAIGHT READING ARC 1.#(for context i just read 20 chapters of arc 2)#and at the end it was like waking up from being possessed or something#like yeah the fic was good but why the hell did i do that. that was like 12 whole hours.#its pmd warped skies on ao3 btw. very good. i have a vague feeling ive read it before but i think im just starting to hallucinate.#i need to go the fuck to bed goodnight
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#okay spent the whole day with no one but myself it was weird and hard i hate.#i gotta become more detached from my loved ones i did spend most of the day in bed but not even sleeping?#i was just like ‘’i’m awake but i wish i wasn’t………’’#’’what is this feeling like i’m up and conscious but don’t want to do my things……’’#like you fucking idiot Please get medicated#i also cooked a very good meal and then spent the last 2 hours wondering if i should invite my bf over for dinner#except everytime i checked discord he was still gaming with the bros which ive learned is an important thing they need to do so i gave up#it’s so wild when i was single and made a good meal i was so fine eating it alone and now i just want to Share……..#this is so gay lol#anyways i caffienated but am resisting the urge to go out and am now Working instead if you can believe it#its true what they say#sometimes ‘self care’ is face masks and bubble baths but sometimes#it is about getting in the RING and finally doing the tasks you’re putting off that give u anxiety#i gotta catch up on my stupid emails and spreadsheets job so i can be at a bit more peace#pretending not to see my friends’ texts asking me if i want to come over haha !!
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Sukuna assimilating to you
Synopsis: After discovering that Sukuna has been wide awake every time you nap together, you become embarrassed around him.
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It is a scientific fact that when we are around people we love and trust, while in a healthy relationship, the release of oxytocin makes us sleepy.
Sukuna does not need sleep. He is the king of curses, able to continuously use his technique without ever becoming exhausted. When you first suggested that his chambers were "perfect for napping", he had simply raised a brow and considered what that could possibly mean.
You are like a weak creature to him. A kitten or perhaps a rabbit. And since you are never safer than when you are in his presence, you frequently find yourself growing sleepy when you are around him.
Throughout your strange relationship with the king, something that you loved most, is that there never needs to be words exchanged between the two of you. You were both contented to sit in silence. Frequently dozing off together, or so you thought.
You caught on eventually, that he was always awake before you. That his breathing pattern never really changed. That his face never relaxed more than it would if he had simply been sitting with his eyes closed.
One morning, after having stayed the night sleeping, you mumbled to him, "How is it you're always awake before I?"
He rose a brow at you, his upper set of eyes were looking into yours, the lower staring at how you lay across his bed sheets.
"I do not know your meaning." He grumbled out.
You huffed, rolling your eyes. "You never sleep in longer than I do, one day I would like to wake up before you."
"I never sleep at all." He stated before you had even really finished your sentace.
"What?" Your breathy outburst echoed slightly in his bed chamber, "What do you mean you don't sleep?"
"I do not require such things." He turned his torso now toward you, all four eyes studying your face, you had quickly sprung up, seemingly miffed.
"So... so all this time, you've just been... laying there while I've been sleeping?"
"I suppose I have, I do not see how this matters in the slightest." "It matters because I've been... It's just been a big waste of time for you. Sukuna you should have said something." You're upset, he can tell. Your face is scrunched up, your blood is pounding in your veins. Sukuna, however, does not know what to say in this situation.
In all honesty, he figured you knew and were just including him. Did you really think he was that weak? Or could you simply not conceive of a restless existence? Whatever the answer, he had no response for you, expecting a shrug of the shoulders- you he would discover, would not so easily let go of things.
And how humiliated you were. How many HOURS had you spent sleeping with him, within his grasp, in his space for him to have been conscious the whole time? You tried thinking back, attempting to recall a time you had requested a nap when he was uninterested.
He had never uttered a word about it. Never turned you down. Sukuna was not a kind king, he rarely ever did things that were not out of necessity, and he certainly did not do things he didn't like. That, at least, was consolation. You knew he had not been suffering for your sake, but even so, it was embarrassing.
Sukuna, still, could not understand your sheepishness about the subject. He did not care to explain that time works differently for him, that his mind is not so simple as yours and does not require entertainment all the time, that he could sit still for years and not be bothered, and frequently did before you came along.
He assumed you would get over it quickly. In your time as well as his. But days passed and he rarely saw you. You took your dinner with other people of the palace and spoke with him in the most cordial manner. One night, he informed Uraume that they needed to prepare a dish suited for you, something that would entice you, and serve it to him.
He figured this would bring you crawling back to him, tail between your legs. Yet, you did not budge.
Odd.
You were wallowing. You knew it. He did not care to spend time, what? Watching you sleep? Of course, he wouldn't, but it hurt your pride, to know you had been taking up such huge chunks of time lazing about in his presence. Well, not anymore. You slept in your chamber and your chamber alone. Gone were the days of blankets on the engawa, gone were the days of resting beneath the kotatsu while laying your head in his lap, gone were the days of sharing his bed.
If ever he wished for someone to share his bed, he had a whole cast of concubines, though you knew they were never of any use to him, they were mostly just house staff with a fancy title.
The evening he finally decided enough was enough, you were in the washhouse doing laundry.
Your back was arched over a bin full of soapy water. Your hands working tirelessly on some cloth.
"Have you not circumvented me enough?" He spoke in a low and slow tone.
"Lord Sukuna." You bowed, clothing in your hands, suds up your forearms, you bent your neck as to not look at him.
"You will reply now." He raised a brow, watching your hands quietly splash in the washbin.
"Was there something you would like me to assist to?" You questioned. Your head was full of possible reasons for what the king meant by seeking you out personally.
"Do you believe that by not sleeping in my presence I would come to believe you do not require rest?" He spoke in an unserious tone, eyes unblinking.
"No, my lord." Now what was he playing at? Of course that wasn't your intention.
"Then you hide yourself from me because you no longer have time for your king, I suppose." He mused.
Oh, for heaven's sake, "No, my lord."
"I see," He bent down to look you dead in the eyes, "So, you must no longer crave my occupancy of your space. You must not desire my hand running through your hair? I suppose you have tired of staying in my chambers?" His tone remained deep but his eyes were dead serious now.
"I-" You began, but suddenly you felt the urge to cough, swallowing you tried again, "I wished not to preoccupy so much of your time."
"And you made this decision without enlightening your king."
You said nothing.
"You will eat with me tonight, you shall stay in my chambers henceforth." He rose in record speed, turning without a second glance your way, maids were staring wide-eyed at the king of curses as he halted at the entrance of the washhouse. You could not see, but there was finality in his voice.
"I wish not to waste-" You were cut off by Sukunas voice, his broad back still facing you.
"Your wishes do not interest me now, so it seems. It is my wish for you to spend your time with me." His steps resounded through the compound, your face slack.
The maids smirked, and with shocked faces, side-eyed one another. A couple entered the washhouse giving you big open-mouthed smiles, and patted your shoulder as they passed.
That night Uraume made something you would go on to beg them to make for years to come. And when Sukuna pulled you prone from your seated position on his bed, he took a firm fingertip and stroked the space between your eyes, one of his enormous hands encircling your skull and massaging your temples with his thumb and ring fingers. He traced the bridge of your nose to your forehead, the way you would stroke a cat.
Perhaps he thought this would induce drowsiness but all it did was make you feel all floaty inside at his silliness.
And for the first time since that night, you slept alongside him. Within his embrace, and when you awoke, Sukuna's eyes were closed.
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Honestly, I always thought that being able to recover from a fever within only 3 days or something was a thing for healthy people since their bodies recover faster cuz it always take me 5 days or more to recover from a fever but turns out that I just REALLY SUCK AT RESTING. Cuz day 2 of being sick and I already feel waaay better like whoa... never thought something like this would happen to me.
#aria rants#my fever returned for a bit but medicine helped and my cold is slowly going away too like! already??? its day 2!#technically day 3 cuz its 12 am now but still! ALREADY??? WHOA! all it took was... learning im a system and gaining headmates...#cuz honestly if its just me i wouldnt have spent a whole day in bed sleeping and resting. id be stubborn and still go bout my day#as if i dont feel horrendously sick and proceed to make myself more sick cuz of that but turns out resting for a whole day WORKS! WHOA!#and like-- rn i wanna stay awake some more cuz i wanna get back sooome hours from when i just slept the day away#yesterday but aly and vita wont let me... i wanna stay awake till 2 or 3 but they wont let me... tbf i still feel slightly sick#and im still in the process of recovering like-- im not Fully Recovered yet and im alrdy falling back into unhealthy stuff#so fair... i should still keep resting until im fully recovered... so yea ill be sleeping early tonight yall!
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Being a night person sucks because the world isn't made to operate at night 🥲
#i spent the whole day tired#just fully woke up. need to be in bed in 2 hours at most#as a kid my parents would struggle to make me sleep before midnight. as a baby id literally pull a vampire#(stay the whole day sleeping and the nugt awake)#it's in my blood!!! pls#no matter how much i sleep i never feel good waking up before like 9
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trying to redo my phone homescreen. its going bad.
#also my sleep is messed up. i spent the whole day exhausted and i feel more awake now at 11pm than i did for most of the day#sigh
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Alastor x Reader - Sleeping On His Lap
Here is my attempt at a Alastor x reader fanfiction. Took me awhile to kinda get into his character so please don't be mad if Alastor seems a bit off. Enjoy!
Sigh, it was another eventful day at the Happy Hotel, or Hazbin Hotel as it was now called as a certain deer demon decided to change the name. You had spent all day doing certain tasks around the hotel such as helping Charlie create posters for the hotel, clean the rooms with Nifty, break up the brawl between Vaggie and Angel Dust as he had pissed her off one too many times and organize the bar for Husk as he was passed out drunk. You could have refused to do these things, but you enjoyed helping people, so it made it all worth it.
You had started working at the hotel after you had saw Charlie singing on the 666 news about the hotel and redeeming demons, only for her idea to be made a laughing stock upon everyone who watched the broadcast. You actually had mixed feelings about the whole redeeming thing, seeing as you weren't sure if someone like you could be sent to heaven, despite not being a very big criminal during your time when you were alive, but apparently doing a little shoplifting is enough to send you a one way ticket to hell. Charlie's words did inspire you a little bit, so even if you felt that you couldn't be redeemed, others probably had a better chance, so you decided to head to the hotel and ask for a job after the broadcast was cut off from the brawl with Charlie and Katie Killjoy. You were hired in a split second and immediately pulled into a bear hug by Charlie, and then introduced you to the others.
Back to the present, you began to feel extremely exhausted from moving around everywhere, so you headed over to one of the rooms with the long couches so you could take a rest. Heading into one of the rooms, you peeped around and saw that no one was there, which made it better as you really needed some peace and quiet. Heaving a deep sigh, you sat down on the couch, turning and falling back, as you laid your body down, with your head facing the front of the couch. "What a long day", thinking to yourself as your eyes slowly began to close and you were lulled into a deep sleep.
**2 Hours Later**
As you were sleeping, you felt the sensation of someone petting your head, the soothing feeling had awoken you a bit, but you quickly fell back asleep at the warm touch. You could feel that you were holding something in your dreams, and you assumed it was one of the pillows on the couch, so you brought it closer to your face and nuzzled it. "Mm, smells nice ", as the scent from the pillow was making you more relaxed, as it reminded you of a being in the middle of a deep forest. After sleeping for 30 more minutes, you slowly began to open your eyes, and try to make out what was in front of you. Expecting to see a pillow, you saw red stripes in front of you, "Huh?" As you were still trying to make out what was in front of you, a loud voice interrupted your thoughts: "Ah, awake now are we?", said a static voice above you. Eyes opening wide, you looked up from your position and saw Alastor staring down at you with his trademark smile. Slowly, you began to piece together that you were laying on his lap, and nuzzled into his chest as you were sleeping. "AHHHH", jumping up from your position, you rolled off his lap, and your body fell to the ground as you stared at Alastor in shock, as he continued to look at you with his glowing eyes, amused at your reaction. "Um, h-how long was I sleeping on your lap?", you softly asked, as your face was red, but your eyes were showing fear, as you remembered that Alastor did not like to be touch, and you happened to hug him in your sleep. "HAHA, For quite a while, darling. It was a very busy day, I assume?", Alastor said as he placed his arm on the armrest of the couch, and his hand against his cheek, smiling even wider.
Nodding your head, you slowly got up from your position, and started apologizing to Alastor, eyes aiming towards the ground and fingers twiddling together. Alastor raised an eyebrow and wondered why you were apologizing, to which you answered that you had hugged him in your sleep, and that he made it very aware that he did not enjoy physical contact from someone unless he initiated it, feeling extremely bad if you made him uncomfortable. Listening to you, Alastor's smile relaxed to a small grin as he looked at you with gentle eyes. He did admit that he was not use to being touch by others, and was quite surprised from the sleep hug, but he didn't detest it as much coming from you, which boggled his mind completely. It must be due to your kind and innocent nature that made him react different around you, as he was used to more of the common riff raff being terrified of him or trying to battle in a turf war, but how you were with him, made his black heart melt.
Feeling that Alastor was upset as he didn't respond to your apology, you quickly excused yourself and began to head over to the door to leave. A loud SNAP was heard and before you knew it, you had been teleported back on to the couch, this time being seated on Alastors lap. "A-Al, what are you doing?!", your face began to become as red as his hair, while your eyes stared at Alastor in shock. Smiling at you, Alastor moved his hand to your chin and tilted your face up: "There is no need to apologize, darling. If I had been upset about you hugging me, you possibly w̩͉͍̱̍̂̉̊o̫̼̐̎̋͜u͚͌l̳̓d̠͉̗͋̔͞'̼̳̣̼͊̏̾̾t͜͝ ͕̱͐͠ḇ̅e̙͗ ͍͓͔̱͍͛̔͌͘͞a̝̜̘̎́͒ḽ͒í̱̙̈́v̧̌e̠͠ ̢̹̜́́̈̀ͅr̲͇̳̅̽͌i̩͈̒̅ĝ̲̦̎ẖ̛̳̲͙̀͌̽͘ͅt͉̅ ͖̞͍̞́̋͛͛ň͚̫̦́͂̿͟o̱͌w̡̕" he said, as his eyes flashed for a second into radio dials. "However! I am not opposed to be touched by you. So no need to apologize, my dear.", Alastor said as he continued to smile at you widely, but his glowing eyes were looking at you softly, letting you know that he was not angry with you. Feeling shy, you turned your head away from Alastor, muttering a soft okay, as your heart was beating rapidly. "Smile my dear!" Alastor said as he moved his hand from your chin to your cheek, to have you look at him again. Baring through the embarrassing situation, you gave Al a small smile, which pleased him. "You always over do it, darling. While Charlie and I appreciate your efforts at helping the hotel, it does no good to work yourself to the point of fatigue. If you are ever feeling exhausted and need a break, don't be hesitant to come find me, as my radio tower is open to you. Understand, my dear?" said Alastor, as he leaned closer towards you, making you flustered again.
Nodding your head was enough to let Alastor knew you understood as he chuckled, while sliding you off his lap, and as he stood up from the couch. "Now then, we should probably head back to the lobby before the others get worried about our lack of presence.", He said, as he straighten his coat out, while turning towards you, extending his hand out for you to take it. "Yeah we should", as you grabbed his hand, and made your way with him back to the lobby. You were still trying to process what just happened between you and Alastor, but you feel like you both have become much closer then before, and you didn't mind it one bit.
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