#and scared and want to cry all the time

[fooltofancy]

medtronic your website continues to be the most unusable piece of shit on the goddamn planet, please stop making me call you on the fucking phone to fix something which should be easily updated online. i'm begging. i'm begging.

[lil-lemon-snails]

decided to draw some of your guys' tags from my harlequin sun and moon post!!! These guys are so much fun and you're all so funny >w<

[lucabyte]

Different standards

[licorishh]

so uhhh happy valentine's day i suppose !!

shoves this in your face and runs away

so. uh. yyyyyeah. when i said i liked all interpretations of their dynamic equally i uh. i lied. and to be totally and completely and 100% honest with you it speaks volumes to the state of the internet that i have been legitimately afraid to say that like i've genuinely been debating and turning it over in my head and arguing with myself about it for days because i don't want people frickin' YELLING at me and telling me to off myself because i like a dadgum fictional ship but it's valentine's and my friend has been hyping up the crap outta me so i'm past the point of having a reasonable excuse to chicken out (and i know myself and if i don't do it today then i likely won't do it at all)

anyway words actually cannot express how obsessed i am with post-o66 aus in which they stay together (largely because i so completely refuse to believe they'd be willing to split up after THAT, ESPECIALLY that soon) so yeah shoutout to the softest fluffiest gut-punch-iest pair in the galaxy to whom everything bad has happened but who stay silly despite the horrors

[dykedvonte]

I genuinely don't think Curly would be as caring for Jimmy as some people depict him in aus where Jimmy gets stuck and burned rather than Curly.

I feel like the realization would truly hit in that moment of what Jimmy did and how bad it was as Curly desperately tries to get him out of the cockpit. He's trying to break in to save Jimmy, but is he? All the thoughts in his head; Jimmy's trying to kill them all, Jimmy's trapped in the cockpit, Jimmy raped Anya, Jimmy's going to die trapped in the cockpit, Jimmy trying to kill them all because of what he did to Anya, and sort of a final Jimmy did this. Is he trying to save him or trying to figure out why? Trying to finally make him take accountability? You can't hold trial for a dead man. Does he want Jimmy to die? Not really, but it'd be easier than figuring out where they go after this. After they drag him out and get his set up in medical and Jimmy refuses to look at anyone but him.

He's the only one who is truly willing to care for Jimmy. I don't think he's keeping him alive for the same reasons, just he can't bring himself to put him down. He wants answers, he wants to be mad. This is the first time he can talk to Jimmy and not have anything spun back at him but he can't get a response. He's never really been able to but for the first time Jimmy actually has to listen and he'll never know if he's actually listening to him this time. It reminds him too much of not understanding Anya. Anya has to care for him and he doesn't want her too, she shouldn't have to but they can't just let him die, can they? Should they? It's easier than hearing him in pain but that's a reminder he did this... even if Curly allowed it to happen.

No one seems to have thoughts on it but him and Anya. They know the reason he crashed the ship but they don't get the logic. Anya does actually, but Curly has to admit he does to. Has to admit he's always known Jimmy's logic behind things, things that need to be "fixed" but he's always taken responsibility and fixed it himself. The first time he really let Jimmy take responsibility and he couldn't, he can't fix anything and Curly know he can't either. He looks at Jimmy and sees every mistake but now he's wondering how many of Jimmy's he's been tacking on to his own. How different are they?

What should he had done to stop it? Maybe this should've happened to him...

Curly doesn't like those thoughts and how they only come when he's stuck with Jimmy, like he's always done to himself. He's way too gentle when he gives Jimmy his pills, too mindful of teeth that always gave him hollow smiles. A tongue that always told half truths, while he held his own. He holds his jaw too kindly and thinks about all the times he's clenched his and smiled for his friends sake. For Jimmy's sake. Jimmy still swallows the pills and struggles, whines like it's not his fault.

He hoped it hurt.

And he's a little scared that he's a little too okay thinking that.

[the-bitter-ocean]

(ACT 5 SPOILERS) Ageswap MDP Moments (RUH ROH)

[awomanunkind]

the messy hair hanging around the headphones oh my god just kill me now

[awkward-fink]

In times of sickness - Simon "Ghost" Riley

You stare at your mobile phone and the message that your boyfriend had send you not too long ago. ‘Ordered groceries online. Be on standby. Coming home soon.’ Why had he ordered groceries online if you could have gone shopping easily in the supermarket down the street? Furrowing your brows you open the shared website login for the online order of groceries, and you could see the list was quite extensive on first glance! Spinach, Gnocchi, garlic, mustard and so much more.

And then you saw it, chicken thighs, root vegetables for soup base and little noodles in star shapes to go into the soup. And bone-marrow and rusk. Ah. Your boyfriend had ordered so that neither of you two would have to go shopping this weekend. Or a few days following. And your silent man was obviously sick. He never bought soup base and chicken thighs if he wasn’t sick, soup in general was not one of Simon’s favorite foods. ‘Sick People food only, Luvie’ he had once told you in no-nonsense tones.

And now he was sick. And that man, that stoic man, never even told you he was feeling unwell, he would hide it until he couldn’t anymore. You smile to yourself, readying the kitchen for the coming groceries and the task of cooking the best chicken soup you could produce! All for that silently suffering man.

Maybe you should preheat the barrel sauna he built you last summer as well, put some herbal liquid into the water to steam with, could help with a running nose.

Hours later, groceries are put away and the soup is simmering on the stove, the front door opens and your boyfriend trudges into your shared house with heavy steps and slightly drooping shoulders. Those were the only signs that he wasn’t feeling well, and the soft coughs from behind his medicinal mask as he bent down to unlace his boots. “Luvie, ‘m back.” His deep, grumbly voice calls out and you stand ready at the kitchen door, a glass with a ginger-carrot-shot in hand, and a loving and caring smile on your face.

“Hey there, Si. I see you are not feeling well, I made you some soup and a few fruit shots for your immune system. And the barrel sauna is heated for us both. How does that sound?”

“Sounds heavenly. How ever did you know?” “I have my ways.”

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Simon “Ghost” Riley does not do illness and being sick

There is no time for this, never and nowhere and being sick puts a damper on this man’s plans

He will hide being sick, because if he doesn’t acknowledge it, it doesn’t really happen, right?

Wants it hot and steamy to get every little bacterium out of his body again, so he built a barrel sauna for you both

Will ONLY eat soup if he is ill

Heard once that spicy food is the way to go when sick, so he has a secret stash of Buldak Ramen on base and even hidden in the most uppermost cupboard at home. If the nose aint running after one bite, it’s the wrong kind of helpful spicy

Doesn’t want to get you sick as well, but cant sleep without you on top of him, your weight being a security blanket for his weary mind and body

He will fall asleep alone, with you beside him and will wake up with you nestled on top, his face buried in your hair and his arms around your waist holding you tight

[pardonmystardust]

Y'all is it ever really possible to outgrow this suffocating terminal timidity? Has anyone done it? Part of it is being a tranny, part of it is just learned instincts from a parenting style based on fear but I can't keep acting this small forever

[agalychnisspranneusroseus]

RiAAU Sasha's complicated relationship with her adoptive parents, Percy and Braddock, stems from an awkward mixture of unconditional love, resentment over their inability to protect her from Grime in her childhood, and their fear of what she's become.

[pardonmydelays]

all jokes aside, our show is in sixteen days and i've never been more anxious about anything in my entire life

[deoidesign]

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[friendlynaborhooddisapointment]

ik this isnt my usual type of post, but i wanted to share this. i feel asleep in the middle of the day today (Easter sunday) and had this dream.

i was in the metro with my mom to get some food, because i had just dropped out of a prestigious college (in the dream) and was very upset (the collage was difficult and stressful and i hated almost everyone there, just not a fun time, also i got mold on my feet there?). we were going to talk about it over food.

at one of the stops, someone pushes a piano into the metro and they start playing. it was verying impressive and beautiful. when they stop, someone else plays it, it was also very good. this continues, different people i wouldn't have looked twice at in public come to the piano and play beautiful music. it was all different types of music, but it was all good.

stilling right next to us was my great grandfather, he died 5 years ago (2020). me and my mom are talking to him like we all walked into the metro together (we did not) and was not a strange thing to happen. he starts falling asleep, we try to keep him awake and one of the things my mom does is read the newspaper to him. when he hears that someone is reading to him, he wakes up and takes the paper. he tells her "don't read to me! i can read well enough on my own".

he continues reading the paper out loud. while reading, my great grandfather skips a word, and my mom points it out. he says that the words all move around when he reads, but reading in french (the language the newspaper was in) is better then reading in armenian (our mother-tongue) since armenian letters all look the same and the words are easier to mix up if you are not paying attention. he says thats why french is his favorite language. i tell him i have a simular issue, and he smiles.

the newspaper disappears and my mom tells me to massage his hands since his arthritis is acting up, so i massage his hands. hes listening to the music now and tells me he used to play the guitar. he also shows me a picture he drew of the back of an electric guitar with the serial number and screws and everything. and also shows me the tattoo he has of the serial number of the guitar on his upper arm right next to a tattoo of the back panel scews of a guitar. i get the distinct feeling that he learned it in heaven, and also got the tattoo there. im not a very religious person so im suprised that i was thinking that. i guess i assumed when he came down to visit me in the metro he was an old man again? idk

anyway he tells me that he cant play the guitar anymore because his hands don't work like they used to. i tell him i i've been wanting to learn the guitar, but i hadn't gotten around to it.

he tells me that i can't give up when something is hard, and that if i do, i wont ever do anything. and that will make me a very sad person.

he doesn't say this, but i know hes not talking about becoming a pittiful person, hes talking about becoming a person who is very unsatisfied with their life and incredibly sad. who has gotten to the point where looking for their happiness doesn't even register as a solution to become happier.

after he tells me this, he becomes very tired. My mom tells me to let him sleep since he is tired and should rest. he falls asleep very quickly and i wake up.

[moonliteve]

tfw you're sent to stop a doomsday cult but you are not immune to four very charming and sexy people

[aiscapades]

girl i had huge crush on in school who was a very good friend to me she's so smart and wonderful and kind just told me she's proud of me for inquiring about a breast reduction i literally started crying what the absolute fuck I'm so gay and so deprived of love in my daily life what the fuck kck .?? HELLO??