#and one Official Art cause im tired

[liliennacht]

Lockets and those we hold in our hearts

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Me when. Me when new atsuover ar t

she is SO <3333333

[softle0]

Hi Laura! Have you found good builds for Ciudad Enamorada? Like in youtube or the gallery? Im tired of big ass haciendas reminding me that i could never afford one irl

LMAO Ik right 😭 I wish I had an hacienda too lmaoo. Honestly I haven’t found a looot and as I’m a builder myself I always try to build almost all my builds. Honestly the most trashy and accurate builds you’re gonna get are from me hehe 😛😛 cause I’m all about realism in my game! I wish I could post my builds soon but my psu is currently dying so I haven’t been able to play at all 😭😭 and I’m also in the process of moving from cities so it’s been hard!!

HOWEVERR I can recommend you a couple of builders:

From YouTube, the art deco casita by Nina Schmidt is sooo beautiful, the interior is very chick but the build overall is so good.

AC Sims is an Argentinian simmer and her videos are in Portuguese and Spanish but they’re soooo worth it and veryyy realistic I can’t wait to see more of her!

Fritosaurio is doing some emblematic builds from Mexico City, they’re sooooo beautiful. I think you can find his gallery id like that, if not find him on X or YT. He’s also one of the official builders in the new ep! And he also lives in Mexico city so we know our sh*t 😜

Creeksims is also doing good stuff, as well as rivercute25, very accurate builds. Wolfcrisp42, fellow Mexican is also doing great stuff. All of them can be found on X too.

Those are the ones I can think of right now! I’ll try to share more good and realistic builds recs soon!!

[kydrogendragon]

Can I also ask about Blind Date?

Of course!! This one I think will be cute. It was a Valentine's day prompt I hadn't gotten to but had a decent plan of attack for. So here's my notes on since since I don't have any official snippets.

Human!AU. Divorced Dad!Dream w/ Widowed Prof!Hob. Jo's Hob's mate who's drinking buddies with Matthew. Anyways, Dream's been going on a bender, fucking anything that moves and Matthew's tired of picking up the pieces afterwards and Jo's tired of seeing Hob look so sad everything they pass a happy couple so they decide to pit these two together. Dream and Hob do not know this is a blind date. They assume they're meeting their respective friend for dinner to celebrate something (each has their own excuse). Hob gets there first, waiting politely at the table, scrolling on his phone when Dream walks up looking confused. Hob is star eyed at the very very pretty man giving him a thoughout look-over. "You are not who I expected Matthew to choose in a partner." "What?" "Primarily being the fact that you do not look like your name is Johanna." "I'm sorry, I'm so confused. You know Jo?" Matt told Dream he wanted to introduce him to his new girl and also celebrate his newest art sale. Hob, meanwhile, was told to meet Jo cause she'd been craving this place's rolls and was tired to fish and chips. "I think there might be some sort of miscommunication. Here, please, stay, I'll call Jo and she if she knows what's up." Jo tells him to enjoy this and to talk to the guy. Better than moping around. "Right so… apaprently we've both been played. Jo's not coming and im guessing your mate isn't either. Sounds like our two friends have been conspiring behind our backs." "I see…" "I know this isnt what either of us expected for the night." "No…. but at least they chose a spot with good wine." "Cheers to that." So they stay and talk and later, when they end up toppling into Hob's flat after dinner after far too many glasses of wine, well, let's just say neither of them are too mad about it. Especially when Hob wakes Dream up with the smell of breakfast and fresh coffee.

The WIP Title Game

[rassberrylips]

Matchmaking - Hayden Characters!

i love autumn clothes but i hate the cold, i like thunderstorms with lightning and music such as the smiths, elvis, Imogen heap, lana etc i’m more of an introvert, when I’m comfortable around people i tend to ramble on and on, my favourite colours are a rich chocolate brown and light pink. I love art but i can’t draw and i love history and old hollywood

your match is ... james kelly !!

♡ i feel like he would be into old-timey stuff like you (elvis, old hollywood, etc..)

♡ when he first saw you at work, you were such a contrast to his sweaty garage. all light pinks, frilly skirts, done-up hair, and shiny glossed lips

♡ you came in to the garage to ask about your engine coolant, you needed to refill it but you couldn't find the right type which led james to inspect your car and also find something wrong with the engine

♡ after he did an over all inspection your conversation went a little like this ...

♡ "so how bad is it?" "its not that bad just a little problem with ur engine and i have some of your coolant in the back" "oh thank god" "but im kindof backed up 'cause one of the other guys quit so its gonna take a few days to get to it" "oh..." "actually i can get yours done by the end of the day, come by around eight" "great thank you !!"

♡ james may have put off a tire change or two for tomorrow 'cause it'll be worth it if he gets to see your face again and you in that outfit

♡ when 8 o'clock rolled around he was working on another car, radio blasting so he didn't hear you come in

♡ "i love this song!" james dropped his tools to the ground and shot up "you like elvis" "love him" "no offense but you look a little young to know elvis" this was james' way to figure out how old you were and if he had a chance "im only 24 but you don't seem that old either?" james let out a airy chuckle, "you got me im 33" okay not such a bad difference he thought

♡ after james handed you your keys he decided to take his chance ... "hey do you wanna grab dinner?" "sure!"

♡ you guys ate at a small italian place in town and had a great night. you talked about elvis and other music you liked, he explained how to change a tire and you gave a brief explanation of the fall of rome

♡ at the end of the night he drove you back to the auto shop to grab your car and you kissed him. after you left your perfume lingered, your lipgloss left a shine on his lips, and your presence filled a hole in his heart

♡ for your third date james was working on an old car from the 50s, he took you out for a joyride and blasted elvis (you were allowed one lana song)

♡ lets say the car required a little extra cleaning the next morning before it was returned ;)

♡ you guys were now officially dating !! yippee !

♡ nights are spent at his place cooking in the dimply lit kitchen and at yours watching old films in your cozy living room

♡ you guys are so cutie pie !!

♡ you visit him at work with take out for you to share, baked goods for the whole shop during lunch break, and another good just for him 🤫

♡ once you're dating he has to be touching you at all times

a glimpse into your relationship ...

a/n: hope you liked it girl 💋🫶 ... also with this post im manifesting my boyfriend and @hhtpsjennaaa's

[winderlylandchime]

Hello. We are now officially in the cheating phase. And a lot happened over few days: 1/2 2x18: ‘oh look, Blondie is back..are we finally done with the dramatics? Brian..i mean it’s not like this isn’t a new thing but damn this isn’t gonna help, is it? Boys, come on just kiss and make up.��� He just sighed and flopped back on the couch because Ben and Mikey came up but he is a little worried about Ben. ‘YOU HOPED HE WOULD SURPRISE YOU BUT YOU DIDNT EVEN TELL HIM YOURE GOING?! JUSTIN COME ON COMMON SENSE!!! Daphne knock some sense into him! WHY IS THERE VIOLIN MUSIC WHY?!?! NO NO NO NO NOOOO. GET FUCKED MY DUDE! Justin come on!! This is pure bullshit, wipe that fucking smile off your face, this shit isn’t even impressive, blah blah blah blah how do you not puke when you say these things’ Ethan says his “pretty good, I’m a genius” line to which my brother scoffed and went ‘my man, your IQ wouldn’t even register as an earthquake so humble yourself..oh they’ve been telling you that since you were 6? WELL GET FUCKED because I am here to deliver some news for you, you ain’t shit!’ He just paused the tv and is hysterically laughing ‘First off my man, back the fuck up, nobody needs to feel your breath while you talk and second of all *in a mocking voice* it comes through you? Justin come the fuck on, you can’t seriously fall for this bullshit. (Ethan points to the garbage truck) oh look, your ride is here, now hop on and fuck off.’ He is currently livid about George and Emmett but he is also angry at Ethan and he can’t decide which one to focus on. ‘Ben, no offense but I don’t have the time for you. I gotta knock some sense into Justin…He has a tummy ach- oh there goes Ben, fuck!’ ‘HE MADE HIM CARRY A GARBAGE COUCH TO THE TOP FLOOR? Justin, push him down the stairs. Where the fuck is Brian because i am sick of this shit. Justin, i know a way cooler place..one that doesn’t have a couch infested by bugs..i hate his accent when he pronounces fancy shit. Like we get it dude you jerk off to your violin, NOW GET OFF MY TV!..Justin stop talking shit about Brian. This isn’t cute, he NEVER speaks badly about you. That’s right fucker! They LIVE TOGETHER!…oh this goatee fucker is jealous of Brian’s job and loft and everything else. Good. Eat shit. *mocks Ethan again* how about you practice practice practice fucking off because I’m tired tired tired *pauses the tv and looks at me* just so you know, i wanted to tell him to jump off a bridge but decided not to cause that might be a bit much for now. NO JUSTIN YOU WILL NOT SEE HIM AROUND BECAUSE WE HAVE RULES AND BRIAN AND RULES THAT YOU MADE. Did he invite Brian to that art thingy? He better! I need Brian to see him and laugh in his face!’ ‘AHHH BRIAN AND JUSTIN! Justin, baby, clearly his work is stressful right now and you can tell. Stop being insulted cause your grown man with a job has a job to worry about. Also your day was full of that fucker so maybe shush! Justin…did you think about Brian when you were carrying that ugly couch? *another pause* What’s with the moping? I get that he was sad cause of Vermont which btw, he acted dumb on that one so that is fully his own fault. But this *waves his hand at Justin on tv* is bullshit. I raised you better than that. OH I WONDER WHY YOUR TRIP WASNT FUN WITHOUT HIM? You are so dumb, i love you so much Blondie but you’re so dumb. SO YOU DIDNT THINK HED CARE THAT YOU LEFT BUT YOU TOLD DAPHNE THAT YOU WAITED FOR HIM?! HOW ABOUT TALKING? You are running in circles and I am LOSING MY FUCKING MIND. Of course he missed you, stop being a little bitch. OH DAMN..WHILE THEY STAND?! OH COME ON BEN WHAT A FUCKING COCKBLOCK’ He now paused the tv and went outside for a cigarette. This man is about to hit midlife crisis and we aren’t even 20 minutes in. ‘Okay Michael, what are we measuring here? Everyone needs someone. Oh look its the art thingy!! Where is Brian? OH FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY IN THE HELL ARE YOU HERE?! I take it back, go jump off a bridge IM EXHAUSTED-Daphne, my girl! Please, I am begging you, please don’t like him! Pleaseeeee!’

Oh dear sweet anon, we're really in it now. Thoughts and prayers to you and your brother.

(Ethan points to the garbage truck) oh look, your ride is here, now hop on and fuck off. HA! Your brother is right.

how about you practice practice practice fucking off because I’m tired tired tired *pauses the tv and looks at me* just so you know, i wanted to tell him to jump off a bridge but decided not to cause that might be a bit much for now I LOVE how careful your brother is with his insults.

HOW ABOUT TALKING? <- every fan of this show ever

Oh boy oh boy. I know it only goes downhill from here...

[tehawesomelyjuanthegreater]

My apologize for cancel comms idea cause reasons unaccepted

I Had to cancel the comms idea to a few folks that I was going to do. This past Friday I was going to do the commission for next month until I got removed and left behind and betrayed, at in discord-when I didn't do anything wrong...  I was going to do this process for next month what seemed going to do officially, but I was literally removed as to friend and betrayed-unknown why it did that.... with things was like that, it happens before with a folk on amino folk on discord who simply removed me the same vibe before when I said yes I will do cash app - what it seems to me that it officially not accept-able and very unpolite move to do their own customer when doing commission (that part with amino folk, a friend she left me behind on August 2024) - this happens to another russian folk who help me out how to do commission paid and did that, she left me behind eariler this year---- as it seem that stated  

Unpolite movement and attempted actions... 

In the pastime I have literally gotten tired a little bit of a folk from Amazon that left me behind when this past October 2024, where a folk left me behind, gave a message very upsetting that she had been replaced, and she left the VA group that I was in..... 

There has been multiple minds out of frustration and I was strictly disappointed when I things. At firstly I did not appreciate 1 folk when I was gonna to do the commission-she said the "huh" quotes, and it got me annoyed about that, confirmed cancel the idea who refused to follow me on social, and another person who was waiting impatience for the commission - didn't bother to join up my discord server group, confirmed removed that idea other one was canceled........  

To be honest, I have a tough spot during October 2024 with real life matter that I care more than online nonsense, while online scene has become more declincing more that ever........ even with the social media is dying big time from what I witness, now come to the art status with commission instead art trade and request, same vibe... 

There have been truthful and actual real people who understood that they are doing paid commissions, the real them, also doing paid art to them when, indeed for the sake of my help, that I'm doing following that I'm currently straightening up things .... There are folks who are in need, there folks like me that are in need, no joke about it and no an official excuse.....   Although I have been doing my mission completely, it is to help the art community put a stop on AI and I to been doing it for real, not false as it seems NO.

With things are considered what yet to be made, set as stone officially-it is what it is, they don't deserve anything better to a whole... let not forget that I'm only me and as a human. But it seems today standard humans has been excuses completely due to decline on popularity and doesn't seem to care, even I have feeling... as so I have been growning out tiredly the same repeats on that... it seems me as a customer who helping the art community to do paid commission is trying to so hard to help out the art community and save it, help the artist and my help for my following, it doesn't seem that folks that I have to cancel don't understand how I feel and treat not poorly bad, but poorly spoken....  

I had to apologize for canceling the ideas commission... but I'm keeping other ideas that I'm going to pay them for next time.

Online has been going downhill every day... Could blame my past on how things have decreased from the past 15–18 years, that exactly the response what spread the virus goes... 

I have plans for what I need to do in my following. I know there are people who need help if they're planning to do a following or doing a career officially........ 

The more hurt I am, more seriously disappointed and frustrated and annoyed. I am used to this and fighting tiring, it is tiring-some... 

Im understanding this officially that Im nothing special, but the more it get to think like from others, you wont be finding no one elses better on present day since online has been decline... ah well..

Well till then..

Happy Thanksgiving and happy holiday!

[seangelfish]

I LOVE WHEN THE SEEMINGLY FEW ICHIRO FANS COME TOGETHER AHHHHH hes just a guy tbh but i love him and hes so protective of his bros its so sweet <33

HAVE YOU SEEN THE ENSTARS CHECKMATE ANIME (?) YET ?? its getting me in my feels its so not fair but theyre all so pretty RAGHGUGG but i do cry daily over it 🥲🥲 that recent natsume fic,, WOAH 😮‍💨😮‍💨

also

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE POST YOU ART IM SO SERIOUS 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 literally begging i for one would absolutely love to see it AND IM SURE EVERYONE ELSE WOULD TOO ‼️

- tired ainon (i also think we 🤨🫵 might be in the same time zone HELP ??? cause it was the same time for me last night )

I've only seen clips of Checkmate!! I haven't found actual subs yet, so I'm just going to wait it out until it's officially subbed in English 😭 but I love what I've seen so far! Arashi is so cute and pretty, Leo's hilarious, and Ritsu <333

I always get so embarrassed when I post smut fics on here as if I didn't write smut before 😭😭😭 but hehe, glad you liked it~

YESSS, I'M GOING TO TRY TO!!! I yume with a lot of characters, but Kanata (Yatonokami) is the only character I have ever drawn me/my oc with (>/////< " ) It's so much fun being an artist and a yume... and a writer, I suppose...! ꉂ (´∀｀)ʱªʱªʱª

If you're British/European, then we might have the same timezone LMAO

[teeto-peteto]

Out of curiosity, and I apologise for any inconvenience, but what is it about Pyke that makes you so endeared with him?

okay at the point im writing this its 16:45 pm, im european and im going on and off writing between games, drawing etc. this is probably and im not joking the longest, hugest post i have ever written not only on tumblr but in any social media in general. I had to take notes to reorganize my thoughts cause trust me, there's a lot of things to unpack.

Short answer: cringely grabs the microphone while blushing ...i ...i like him...

Long ass fucking answer omw to make the longest tumblr post in history: My relationship with Pyke as a character its, somewhat, funny. Pyke was released after Zoe, and Kai'sa, and Neeko was released after him. In 2018 there was this ''drama'' around League Of Legends fandom where people was tired of, what they call, 'Disney style characters' like Zoe. Kai'Sa release didnt help the ''drama'' as how the character was designed and put together. I didnt mind much about the 'Disney style' drama cause, everything that has sparkles and glitter on i love it. Then this motherfucker came into picture. His new champion teaser popped on League Of Legends youtube channel and in the game client, and of course, i had to peek my eye.

Im saying this now, and I am being completely honest:

I hated his guts, i despised him.

I didnt like him, at all. Not that i was 100% only sparkle champions, but i hated him. I didnt understand him, i didnt get the design, and i again thought that Riot was pulling again on male champions being shirtless and just talking about war and fist fighting while being edgy. I vividly remember one of my friends asking my thoughts on him after the trailer was out, and i told him that i didnt like Pyke at all, i actually did hate him. But...

I literally changed my opinion in just days

I dont know what part of my brain activated or deactivated, but i blankly stared at this guys trailer and the leaked splashart and... i changed my mind. He went from a champion i was not interested on at all to stiking my chords like no other champion has ever done. I started liking him without a reason at first, unable to pinpoint why i suddendly changed my mind. I waited for his official release, and oddly enough, i started playing him. Im not used to play male characters cause its not my comfort zone but... Pyke felt... different somewhat? Im not even used to play engage/hook characters but i felt like playing him.

When his release was out in 2018, i was already on my first year of Art school, and i vividly remember being on the computer schoolroom for homework with my class and I started reading his lore in the computer screen trying not to get catched. I snucked out of classes to go to the bathroom and read his lore and short story, see fanart and the tldrs of his designs... I was literally behaving like a little girl when she sees a cute guy, and, techically speaking, its what was kinda happening. I had the shortest 'enemies to lovers' arc in history cause i hated him for, maybe, less than a week.

Lets talk about lore!! Yipiee!!

Focusing on League's original lore, we can see a glimpse of who Pyke was before becoming an undead. My views on his character are a mix of my personal thoughts of him and the canon lore. Seeing this little glimpse of the man he was before that he never wants to talk about again is, interesting. It makes my mind wonder. Did he believe that he was being underpaid and exploited as a butcher? Did he think that captains and rich/powerful people abuse their power? Did he ever raise his voice? Was he prideful, and its why he doesnt want to talk about his past self? Or was he just too naive to know and its ashamed of it? Pyke is the type of person who is not talkative, but that is very reflexive. As the other side of the coin, Illaoi is also very reflexive but clearly expresses her thoughts without filter. The fact that he was also a buhru makes my head spin. It makes me wonder, why didnt he stay with them? Why didnt he look for a job within the buhru, instead looking for it on the city? What was the relationship with her buhru mom? What happened to his dad? Was he around, present at all? How many time has passed? What is Pyke's actual age?

Pyke's tragedy is, to a very lower extend, relatable. Its easy to identify with him. Everyone's got their lifeline cut sometime. But what is truly interesting for me and always has me craving to hug this man is the extent of his trauma.

In 'And then, teeth', Pyke has flashbacks of his death after killing Mazier and staring at her body. He can remember how dark it was, how slimy it felt, how he couldnt see well because of the sweat covering his eyes. How he tried, with all his forces, to escape to no avail. Pyke also seems, somewhat, lucid at times. Allow me to explain. Pyke is still him, that is clear. Yes, he hears voices, and they are always there, but he is still his own person. He is able to remember things from the past, he's able to act by his own, to think by his own, but the voices are always there. When i say 'lucid', i mean when he's either killing, or interacting with the list. In this short story, Pyke stares at the list, after killing Mazier, unable to believe that he actually did kill his whole crew, but suddendly comes to a normal, realization, 'Where did i get the ink?'.

Before killing Bekke, he says that he was there, watching him die, smiling. Makes you wonder if he's actually talking with rage and bloodthirst, or, if he's actually talking seriously. What if, he was talking seriously, but not being literal? We know Bekke wasnt there, he is not even from Bilgewater. But what if Pyke actually meant that, every single captain, every single person with power, constantly watch him die? constantly watching the people working for them dying, only for the powerful ones to become richer? Is he actually completely doomed at this point, is it a mix of both the voices and his own thoughts? Or is he just... him?

People that isnt much interested in his lore often thinks hes a mindless killer. Not that in mad, i think its stupid being mad about it. But to say that it's a false state, its valid. Pyke would never, ever lay a finger on someone he knows its fully innocent BEFORE killing his whole crew. 'But what if Bekke, for example, was just innocent? Maybe he was powerful but a good man?' I think thats to very own interpretation. What can i say, i hate rich people ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ im good with my man killin them all, slay. To some extent hes kind of a Robin Hood but bloodier you know? In the end he steals from the rich to share the gold with others. Gold that he wished he had back when he was an underpaid butcher.

Back to Pyke's trauma again cause i got lost on my own notes, its interesting how he behaves. As someone as introverted, and after becoming an undead, you might believe that Pyke now doesnt trust ANYONE. He doesnt leave his guard down, never trusting never believing anything. But... its completely the opposite. Its clearer on his in-game interactions. 'I needed help back there' and 'I work better with a crew'... waahhhh. But you know where this becomes even more clearer?

Ruined King baby

I want to marry him. I want to marry Pyke in general but Ruined King Pyke hes a baby and i need him i want to pat his head and tell him everything is going to be fine AUGH. How he settled up with a bunch of random people, allow me to say, after one of them wooped his ass, and with a captain, clearly a target for him, and he was OKAY with it. What a king. Slay.

Illaoi removed his voices, thanks queen. And you know what we see? Pyke behaving like a more troubeled person than a violent one... It blew my mind. The fact that he sharpens and cleans his knives and harpoon because he's stressed, the fact that he talks passive aggresive with Illaoi even if he's thankful. The fact that he likes Sarah enough not to kill her, and that he trusts her. He's able to trust a captain, even after what happened to him. It broke me. It broke me seeing his relationship with Ahri, how she was sorry, how she just murmured 'thanks' and then stood quiet when Ahri said to Sarah that he was, probably, never going to be able to explain the complexity of his trauma and his feelings. Seeing him having nice conversations with Braum and Yasuo... seeing him feel, welcomed... you actually feel good for him, if you have been stuck with him in your mind like me for years you actually feel happy for him. Pyke has friends. It makes you also wonder about the end... Why did he go? Why did he never say goodbye? Its true he said that once he was done with Viego, he was out, thats his only achievement. But... in the end, we see him go with Braum, Ahri, Yasuo and Illaoi to the tavern... Did he change his mind in the way? Did he just randomly turned the opposite direction? What the hell hapenned i need to know. This game made me cry. Not with the end. This game made me cry everytime this guy opened his mouth. Because he's relatable at some extent. And knowing that at some time later, if Sentinels of Light was canon and better written... Pyke would have been betrayed. Again. By Sarah. Someone he trusted blindly again. Can you imagine? How could have that developed? Would Pyke ever be able to trust again? Would he return to his patterns or would he just promise himself not to ever trust again?

Something i really liked about Ruined king lays on the early hours of the game, when we first see Pyke when we play as Illaoi. She calls him a monster, an abomination. But Pyke refuses to fight, even if he considers it an interesting battle, he refuses, because he has no reason, confirming that Pyke's kills are always selective and he would never hurt an innocent, even if you treat him poorly. I have talked a lot about Ruined King so ill try not to over repeat myself. Lets talk about

Design queen slay yass pop off

I just think he's neat! Look at that guy!! They made a marbelous job. Referring to all his models and concepts of course. Its the creepy but cool looking bandana with the teeth that gives him that eery, but also dinstictive colour focus on his design. The bone jaws around his shoulders reminding us about his death, the ripped cape, the fish teeth and teeth knives hanging from his belt giving him this 'shark' style everyone likes to explore on him... the gloves, the nails in a lot of concepts and promotional arts, the now grey-ish tribal tattoos representing his past as a buhru... The list hanging from his side, the boots with spikes to work... Something i like of him in League is the CTRL-5 animation where you can change his harpoon to how it probably looked when he was alive to the eery, phantasmagoric and murky looking one. Its an amazing touch. I love his design and i love that they didnt go for the typical 'drowned pirate spirit'. He looks so neat. The scars, the eyes... the ropes hanging around, the baits hanging from his cape... waahhh

Point number 2343939

............he's pretty..............

im going to hell and its his fault. What can i say? I like him.

Moving onto a more serious, and now probably more directly answering your question. Why am i so attached to him?

Yes, i do like his lore, and i have a bunch of questions i love to fill the blanks myself with own headcanons, i do like his design a lot aswell and i loved him on Ruined King, and i love playing him on league.

But, Pyke suddendly became a recurrent thought on my mind. I wasnt on a very good moment back in 2018. I felt undesirable, in all aspects, my group of friends wasnt the best back in the day and i was often ignored when i vented about trauma. I then suddendly saw a character that i could relate to, but that was also strong willed, and stood up for himself. I realized that, maybe i just wanted someone to protect me. Its a thought that sucks, not being able to protect yourself and seeking others to hide behind. But... he was there on my mind in my darkest places, and honestly? he hasnt left not even a single day. Made me thought that, maybe he would actually listen through my problems, maybe he would have stood up for me and protected me, maybe he would take the care i desperately craved for real people to give me. Sometime's hes the only reason i decide to get up from bed and do anything, i dont have it the roughest but i struggle emotionally with a lot. He's like, my emotional support, ironically, he's a support champion, haha, funny.

I then started interacting and seeing people who also formed these bonds with fictional characters, and suddendly i didnt feel that weird. He makes me feel like a little kid in love, and... it helps me heal. It keeps my mind busy, and i like him a lot enough not to get tired from thinking about him. Skins and AU's are helpful cause i can also explore other contexts of him, other things i didnt ask myself yet...

Getting sappy, i love everything about him. And it makes me happy seeing people that also love everything about him. I love it. I love him. And its been 5 hard years, but that also contains a lot of healing thanks to a random character from league of legends.

Woah! Its 4:06 am! thats a while haha. I missed a lot, my mind was fuzzy. Well, i have to go back to my day dreaming <3

[ask-the-friendly-ink-demon]

[Bond Instinct Form’s Reveal (rushed drawing)] so..... here’s an idea..... so in the au my bendy and henry are always helping eachother out... and as they grew more and more closer as ‘father’ and ‘son’ and as their bond gets more and more better. what if they have some accessable powers? the first time that came into my mind was modern having an mega evolution almost form of modern that can be only triggered if henry and bendy’s bond are at a certain point. this form fully appears in part 1 of chapter 5 where alpha and the inked wolf stage of sammy’s ink appeared to try and one last time stop the gang from reaching the elevator. though after an battle modern gets really really REALLY exhausted from the form’s powers as it takes up too much energy, he can turn into this mega form depending on which form he is in. each form of this will look the same in their own mega form of the bond instinct. i will try to put headshots of the different varients of the bond instinct

[a-v-j]

RULES FOR NEW COMERS(or everyone really in general)

Most especially if it’s a newly-made account and/or empty blogs or obviously recently filled with with likes from my work to not look empty

*Don’t ask me for requests or free drawings, i only do that for my friends(or announced events)(requests are currently closed, commissions open tho)

*Make good first impression(dont just compliment me that won’t work)(whether if it’s dm or ask), otherwise you’ll be labeled as troll alt acc and will be blocked after 3 violations(no notices, no warning). Automatic block for those who intentionally violate rules

*Know my work first before trying to befriend me(genuine interest in my work=genuine interest in me)

*Know im not always nice but will try to keep things friendly as much as possible

*It’s ok to make a mistake, but don’t make the same mistake twice

*Take note i occasionally make 18+ skeleton materials so when you happen to bump into one and it’s totally not your cup of tea, know that it’s on you for not reading this pinned post

*I’m very keen in details, so better get names right if you want me to have a good impression on you

*Don’t do “what’s everyone’s reaction to this” “what do you think of my oc” in my Ask box. Ask one to two characters only because like you, i get tired drawing too. Unless the question including multiple characters of mine is answerable with words then ok

*Note that i answer asks in three ways; with words only(occasional old art for visuals), drawings(static or animated) or not answering at all. So in such case i dont answer immediately with words, then your ask might be answered with a drawing(or with a gif if it’s taking longer, no promises) or has been ignored due to technical difficulties that i don’t want to answer it.

*Do not submit to me your oc that isnt even related to my characters, im not gonna be some advertisement ad to showcase your stuff in my blog even if that’s not your intention and im not an art teacher who you be submitting your art to. Im sorry, i just can’t give any genuine opinion on things i didnt make or not interested in(it requires me to think harder than i should and I don’t want that) but im not saying your art is bad or anything

*Jesus, one ask from one person at a time. If curiosity gets the best of ya, compile it in one ask. Youre giving me quite a workout, kid

*If you get blocked, im sorry, but you didnt read the rules

*Do not ask me for my favorite things because my head usually doesnt keep record of what they are, I would try answer my friends of course

*When sending an ask addressed to a character, make sure they are residents of Avjverse. See the full list here**. Asking a character i don't have will result in a block under the belief youre just deliberately doing it on purpose to spite me. So read for your own sake

**note: not everyone in this list are available for Asks

*If youre a new acc, DNI, especially as an ask. Your acc must have been 2 weeks active or had been filled with posts. I have issues with previous trollers opening new acc and trying to befriend and exploit me so take in mind it's not to personally attack you i just dont want more bs coming from these people. If youre unable to post anything in your blog make sure your ask or dm to me is within rules so I'd have a good impression on you. It's hard to trust new accounts, im sorry

*DONT send an ask twice because either it's in queue to have a drawing or I DO NOT want to answer it. DONT DM me saying to answer your ask

*Any roleplay fanblogs not run/authorized by me that includes my characters, do not claim youre official 'cause that's a dick move, bro but any one's free to open one. I discourage any acts that could potentially ruin any of my character's image. Refer to this blog for the canon stuff

*No, i do not support Anti_ErrorxErrisk. For Anti, Errisk is A CHILD. So dont creep him up or make him a creep please, make sure Errisk in your version of the ship is of legal age.

*Yes, its totally fine with me to draw fanart of my characters (and to tag me lol) There's no need to ask permission. But i do discourage any fanart that is intended to cause bad image to my characters, any acts relating to hate, racism and assholism. Im against that. Im ok with fanarts with ships(my character x oc/another Avjverse/nonavjverse character). As long as you dont claim it to be the official one and/or canon, im ok with it. If i say i dont like a certain ship, you can still make fanart just dont tag me.

*Dont initiate RP that is meant to be long and reblogged in the asks, i dont do that. Well, occasionally with friends only, and most likely not in tumblr

*Note i block accounts that had been deemed enough to be hot listed

*I prefer not to be tagged in a post where someone is requesting to draw my characters, solo or in group. I had this notorious troll who was very rude and theyre adamant in requesting many people to draw my characters which i honestly dont want them to since they have zero respect for my characters at all and theyre also notorious in changing acc names as well as creating new ones, their usual intro is "hi, im new here" when they're actually not. I just don't want to be in the same post as they are so i request to not be tagged in such situation.

*dont start with "hi i love your art/your oc, can you draw <request>", it's registered in my brain negatively, leads me to think you're only complimenting me/my art/my characters because you want something from me. My brain will hotlist you, even if you were of good intention

*know that AVJ is unpredictable and the way our head functions varies from moment to moment. We're working on our part and it would be a nice if you also take part on yours

A mini guide on how to get around AVJ, brought to you by 10:12,07/01/22 AVJ and et al

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How Reckless (Intruality) ═SOULMATE AU═ || Sanders Sides Big Bang 2022

By Artist_Hope; beta read by @edupunkn00b and @kaythegay2022; art by @dystopiagnome and @im-an-anxious-wreck

Chapter Art by @im-an-anxious-wreck: Virgil, Patton and Logan hanging out in Remy's cafe

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4

AO3 Link!!

Chapter: 3/4

Chapter word count: 2232

Dik-dik

Patton groaned, very tired. It'd been around a week since Logan and Virgil suggested he get some assistance. Throughout that week, his mom had asked for a lot of help with her garden, so he'd been going back and forth to the store and his mom's place. Not to mention he did seek help with how to get rid of his connection. But while he’d looked into it, he didn't have much help besides things that couldn't be done without Remus there as well.

Sitting at the table in front of the Bellbook Cafe, Patton watched Virgil and Logan go back and forth about whatever a dik-dik was.

"I'm telling you, it's got a stupid name, Logan. I don't care if it's the sound it makes," Virgil huffed. "It's lazy naming."

"It makes a sound like its name?" Patton asked.

"Yes, Patton. The dik-dik females make a sound similar to how a human says its name. It's quite fascinating," Logan hummed a little. "But fine, Virgil, what do you wish to discuss?"

Virgil smirked as if he'd been waiting for this. "Grolar bears."

"Don't you mean Pizzly bears?" Logan asked, causing a groan from his twin. Patton laughed a little.

"Pizzly sounds stupid. Come on, they look more like polar bears than grizzlies anyway," Virgil exclaimed!

"Yes, however, if you look them up, most official sources call them Pizzly," Logan said. “Therefore, it makes more sense to call them pizzlies. It’s only logical.”

Patton sighed as he watched the two go back and forth between if it was “grolar” or “pizzly”, both eventually getting off actual facts to support their argument to opinions. It was a familiar thing now and though it was weird, it brought comfort to Patton. He’d zoned out again (at least he was aware this time) before hearing a sharp call of his name and looking at Virgil and Logan.

“Which do you think is right?”

Patton thought for a moment. “W-Well… Isn’t it sorta interchangeable? Like, use grolar for if it’s one species as a mom and pizzly if it’s the other? Or just sorta both right?” That seemed to calm the debate for now. He watched the twins in front of him talk a little more as he stared between them and his cup. He hardly noticed the conversation end and his friends stare back.

Logan sipped his tea. “You’ve been strangely quiet today, Patton. Is everything alright?”

Patton looked down at his empty cup of hot cocoa, tapping the mug. “I-” He got distracted by more cocoa being poured into his cup.

“I told you bitches to not have weird debates here,” Remy said, glaring lightly at the twins in front of Patton. He moved the large container of hot cocoa up to stop pouring at the right time, before decorating the drink with whipped cream and a small caramel drizzle. “You’ll scare my customers away.

“Sorry, Rem… Got carried away,” Virgil muttered, pulling his hood over his eyes.

Remy was a friend of both families at this point. He’d always looked after them all, usually with good advice (which he clearly stole from his fiancee) for issues they had. Sort of like a second dad. And as the owner of the Bellbook Cafe, the three were often invited over to try new recipes or to just hang out. And, even though whatever his soulmate wrote on their skin showed up on his, Remy wore short-sleeves and even shorter shorts.

“Thank you for the refill, Remy,” Patton smiled as he hummed. “This new flavour you’re trying out is really good.”

Remy gave a boastful smile. “I’d seen two different flavours making their rounds and just had to give it my spin. French vanilla and butterscotch with melted pure dark chocolate bars made on a bain-marie.”

“Sounds unnecessarily fancy, even for you, Remy,” Logan noted. “What warrants the use of a bain-marie?”

Remy laughed. “Finally getting a fancy name brand one, Logan,” he said.

Patton leaned into Virgil. "What's a bain-marie?"

Virgil smiled. "A special tool used to melt things in cooking. Mostly chocolate or bars of things."

Patton nodded, smiling and watching a little message appear on Remy’s arm. “I think Emile wrote you something, Remy.” Remy smiled and looked at his arm, chuckling.

“He’s so sappy, it’s adorable.” Remy hummed a little, taking a pen and writing a note back on his arm under the one Emile wrote. Patton tilted his head a little.

“Wait… If you two accepted each other as Soulmates, how come your connection isn’t gone? I thought it left the second you do that in person?” Patton asked.

“Ah—It can. And normally does for more pesky ones, like Virgil’s and yours. Logan’s and the one I have aren’t really hindering, so they don’t disappear,” Remy explained. “I mean, I guess if Emile wrote really dark and sexual and weird things to make me lose a job interview or prevent me from being social, it would be hindering….” The man shrugged. “But even then. It wouldn’t stop me from doing much. Unlike Virgil’s, one that is essentially gained colour-blindness, which greatly limits creative-based jobs or even promotional jobs. Or your’s, which could end up killing two people in the worst scenario.”

Patton frowned a little. Because I really need reminding that I could die if he isn’t careful, Patton thought. “Actually, Remus hasn’t gotten super hurt in a while. I have a few new bruises, but nothing like cuts or worse… It’s kinda weird.”

Logan hummed. “Maybe he’s getting ready to move or go on vacation? It would explain why his recklessness lowered if he was inside his house more often than not,” Logan noted. “Which would also mean his job is where the danger, or most of the danger at the least, comes from.”

Patton wasn't sure. But he had to admit, not being in pain he didn't cause was nice.

Meanwhile, about a block and a half away from the cafe, a truck pulled into a parking spot. Inside the truck, Remus and his party, Roman and Janus, were going over their plans. "Roman, remember, we're looking for Remus' hot guy, not a random one for you to try and date."

Roman scoffed, putting a hand over his heart. "You wound me, Janus! I can contain my raging gay need to find a man so my brother can find his soulmate! I'm not a monster!" The red twin huffed. "Can you contain your bitch attitude for that?"

Remus shook his head a little. "Janus can't contain his bitch. It's like herding turtles without picking them up. Impossibly slow." The cop took a deep breath. "The Soulmate branch place in town said he's normally on this side since he doesn't drive himself or have a job… Though, they also did say it's not updated info… So let's ask around. Maybe we'll get lucky."

Janus nodded. "Fair enough. Be careful, you really can't risk pain off duty. We don't have enough to cover a hospital visit in this city." With a nod from all three, they got out of the truck. Remus paid the parking fee for around 3 hours, then set off to look.

Roman ran off, approaching a lot of people. Most didn't have a clue who the hell he was asking about. Some just knew who he was looking for from meeting the man while they were shopping or from school and had no idea about where he was now. Sighing, he moved quickly over to the area near the Bellbook Cafe, looking around. At first, he really didn’t notice anything off as he scanned through the outdoor crowd. After he didn’t really see anyone (or at least he didn’t think he did) that fit the description of the person they were looking for, he started to go inside. And, as is typical for him, the second he went inside, he noticed the change he had. Colour, and not just shades of blue and green. “I fucking found my soulmate. Holy shit.” The actor ran back outside, carefully looking to try and see everyone's eye colour.

Meanwhile, Janus seemed to be using what Roman liked to call “the slut but somehow friendly and not actually slutty appeal” to try and gather info. It was basically Janus just being a huge extrovert and being good at conversation. Back when Roman hated Janus' guts, he gave that title to Janus. But hey, whatever made Roman laugh. Besides, at this point, it was just a joke the two had. He’d been getting a fair amount of information when he successfully struck up a conversation, learning about the area Remus’ Soulmate lived in, what he normally did, hobbies and other smaller parts. Apparently, he really liked to garden. Anyway, after a few conversations, Janus learned that he was recently (as in within the last hour) seen at a locally owned cafe with two friends and that if he asked Remy, the owner, he had a pretty good chance of just being brought to the guy. So he, too, made his way to the Bellbook Cafe.

Out of the three, Remus had the oddest luck. He hadn't left the area of his truck for the most part, but he still somehow met two other Remus Dukes. Though it was helpful - apparently his soulmate went to them asking about his situation. One was on their way to surgery, so Remus just thanked them for the information they were able to give without running late. The other was on their way to a date but offered to help Remus at a later date if he still needed it. The two exchanged numbers and then the other was off to their date. Besides the two other Remus', he had no actual luck, ending up around the cafe block. He groaned a little, as he walked. And then he turned his head, seeing a kitten in an alley after and getting hella distracted.

At the cafe, Virgil sighed in comfort. "We so needed a day out as friends. Logan's super busy at the uni and I swear I'm covering like ten shifts at the art shop." He got up and stretched. "Speaking of, I have the night shift tonight. I might wanna start getting my shit together for that."

Patton frowned. "A last-minute schedule change…? We were gonna have a movie night-" The blonde whined. Virgil gave a sympathetic smile.

"I know, but this means some extra cash for your garden. I'm only doing a half shift anyway since the dude who normally handles the shift has a meeting he can't change the time or date of. I'm just covering him since he'll be late." Virgil grabbed his bag. "We should still have some time for the movie night after."

Patton nodded, giving a little pout. "Okay…" He turned to Remy. "You said you and Emile might be able to join this time, right? Since he has off tomorrow?"

Remy nodded. "Lemme shoot him a message to confirm, but yeah. Should be free." The cafe owner wrote a message on his arm, and then also texted Emile via his phone. Patton noticed he always did that if he wanted a for-sure answer from Emile, which he found kind of cute. A nice way to make sure his soulmate knew Remy messaged him.

Virgil started to leave, waving and not paying attention. Patton couldn't even warn him about the stranger he ran into, he was so distracted.

"Ow, dude!" Virgil huffed, rubbing his chest.

"I am so sorry, I'm visiting the area and I really don't know anything here-" the man in red explained, almost freezing when he saw Virgil glare at him. "Ah- Your eyes…"

Virgil rolled them. "What about them, jackass? It's not contacts, I'll tell ya that much." The stranger hesitated, probably due to the… Ah, cold… Attitude Virgil was giving him. But he turned Virgil's head towards his, blinking. "What the fuck are… You…"

Patton wasn't too sure what happened, but Virgil just ended up slowly looking around and then back to the stranger. "... Virgil Nyx."

The stranger smiled brightly. "Roman Duke." The brunet, Roman, bowed a little. "Though I'd say I'm more your knight in shining armour."

Virgil seemed a little flustered as he responded. "Oh my god, your sappy, ew-" The emo laughed a little, turning to Logan and Patton. "So I just found my Soulmate- Yeesh. Patton, you look less banged up with only being able to see browns."

The blonde frowned. "Gee, thanks." He huffed. "I'm glad you found your Soulmate though!"

Virgil smiled, turning back to Roman. "I gotta grab some things from home, but, uh, you wanna come with? I can show you around before my shift at work?"

Roman smiled. "I'd love to get to know you through learning about your town!"

With a second goodbye, Virgil took off with his Soulmate, giggling like a school girl. Remy excused himself so he could get back to work, leaving Logan and Patton alone.

"Well, shall we get home?" Logan asked Patton.

"Yeah… This week was chaotic and I wanna get a nap if we're gonna have a late movie night." Patton grabbed his things, walking off faster than he really meant to. He wanted to get home fast so he could just hide from the living for a while, so he didn't quite pay attention to his surroundings.

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Western fandom went wrong right around the time children decided fictional characters were real people and had to be judged as people rather than tools to tell a story and that as such they should have human rights

205 notes - Posted February 10, 2022

#4

This year's pumpkin is Guilmon! :D

All in all about 3.5 hours to make, about 15 minutes tops to draw the outline right on the pumpkin, no test-sketching.

I've never drawn a guilmon before lol

(For some reason my art always improves when I carve pumpkins...?)

See the full post

252 notes - Posted October 30, 2022

#3

H E L P

THIS IS THE ICON OF THE OFFICIAL TUMBLR TWITTER ACCOUNT

953 notes - Posted June 19, 2022

#2

As of late March 2023, eShop for 3DS and WiiU will no longer allow purchases.

The good news is Pokémon Bank is going free to use once purchase goes offline--but you MUST download it prior to eShop going down.

2,112 notes - Posted February 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Something that fully healthy people don't really seem to understand about chronic health issues is what running on an energy deficit is like long-term.  It's more exhausting than you can possibly imagine if you haven't experienced it.

How does that work? Well, it's sort of like this. Everybody has a certain amount of energy. ��When you're healthy and well-rested, you feel pretty good.  There are artificial boosters that give you more energy, too.  You can do all sorts of stuff.

When you get tired, you can still do some stuff but you can't do as much and what you can do might suffer from lack of energy. Except that's essentially your every day existence with chronic health issues.  You go to sleep tired, and wake up tired--sometimes more tired!

Your energy levels rarely reach "full"--that is, there's few points where you are in a "well rested" state where you feel pretty good and have "normal" levels of energy.  You're *always* operating in "low battery" mode rather than being fully charged, and you drain *fast*.

This makes doing basic tasks much harder than need be--things that drain a little energy you notice a hell of a lot more when you're already dead tired than when you're well-rested.  Like how when your phone drops from 10% to 9% you notice more than from 100% to 99%.

You can do some stuff--but you have an upper limit of what you can do that's a lot lower than other people. And functioning while running against a deficit at all times means a *lot* of careful, conservative planning to husband your strength for when you need it most.

It means sometimes spending 30 minutes deliberating what you should buy when you reach the store because you're trying to guess "will I have the energy to prepare this food after shopping?  Will I later this week?"  You hedge your bets when you can.

It means skipping out on a lot of stuff you'd otherwise love to do because you just can't be sure you'll have the energy to do it without landing yourself in bed for the next 3 days by pushing yourself to collapse. It's depressing. And it's exhausting.

EDIT: This post is for people with physical AND mental health causes for their fatigue and exhaustion, by the way! I know there are posts that really are meant only for one or the other and it's rude to hijack them, but if you find this resonates with you then you're welcome to it regardless of the cause!

2,190 notes - Posted August 5, 2022

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Some random headcannons

(I ship erasermic so some of these relate to that)

I guess this also needs a warning: some more mature things if you squint hard enough

Also the ships in this are: erasermic, kiribaku, tododeku, and a tiny tiny bit of momojiro (sorry if I forgot one)

~ Mic is actually kinda sad and breaks down alot when hes alone because of the stress he goes through, aizawa is the only one he will break down infront of ~ ~ Aizawa secretly loves giving mic piggyback rides. Change. My. Mind. ~ ~ Bakugo is nicest and softest when he is sleepy, and more open with his feelings when he is tired (especially to kiri, I ship them too😭✋) ~ ~ When sero cooks or cleans he will put on spanish music and dance to it. ~ ~ Dabi is kinky™️ ~ ~ Dabi will tease e v e r y o n e ~ ~ Dabi makes up stories of how he got burnt, like: Twice: so- uh how did all this go down * gesturing to scars * Dabi: oh, while sneezing Twice: but how does tha- Dabi: *sneezes and uses his fire* Twice: oH- ~ ~ When 1-a all become pro heroes, deku will wear everyone's merch ~

~ When bakugo is working out, when he does push ups he will get kirishima to lay on him for "additional weight" (we see you bakugo👀👀) ~ ~ Shoto can make snowflakes with his quirk. I. Rest. My. Case. ~ ~ shoto likes dancing in the rain or snow, well not dance just like being with deku ~ ~ Shoto will make little things out of ice and give them to deku (all might figures👀👀) ~ ~ Occasionally in the dorms everyone in 1-a has a movie night ~ ~ Ojiros tail wags when hes happy ~ ~ This is cannon because I've seen the official art, but I hc that bakugo likes animals and animals love him cause he smells like caramel and his hands are warm ~ ~ One word for aoyama. S e l f i e s ~

~ Shoto didnt know how to ride a bike so when they all moved into the dorms 1-a taught him ~ ~ When bakugo walks into the dorms common area he says stuff like "it smells like bitch in here" and "ughhh if I stay in here to long the bitchyness might affect me" ~ ~ All the girls in 1-a: sleepovers™️ but every time mineta will try to get in lmao. It. Never. Works. ~ ~ Shotos birthday present to everyone is endeavors credit card number😂he will also go clothes shopping with all the girls just because he can use endeavors credit card ~ ~ Tokoyami is actually really good at drawing and loves writing poetry ~ ~ Bakugo is the oldest in 1-a which is cannon. I feel like he would be the type to brag that he's the oldest and would use it as an excuse to do what he wants ~ ~ The dekusquad and bakusquad have groupchats ~ ~ Bakusquad play video games together and eat pizza together all the time ~ ~ The dekusquad gc consists of iida talking about homework, positive memes, and todoroki not understanding anything happening on there ~ ~ Jirou has a music playlist for every situation. Every. Situation. ~ ~ The best jeanist said bakugo couldn't learn how to style hair so katsuki "I am the best at everything" bakugo learnt how to do hair and now all the girls and kirishima go to him and make him do their hair ~ ~ Kirishima needs his hair dyed red when his roots start showing, so bakugo dyes it for him ~ ~ 1-a loves playing games like truth and dare and never have I ever when they cant sleep or are just bored ~ ~ Bakugo sleeps at 8. pm which is cannon, but still wants to be the best at whatever they are doing, so he still goes if they are playing or watching something but always. Always. Falls asleep, and he falls asleep on kiri. ~ ~ Aizawa is actually really flexible and can jump around and move literally like a cat. ~ ~ Mic: finger guns™️ and I can imagine this Mic: *does finger guns at aizawa* Aizawa: pull the trigger. ~ ~ Everyone goes into bakugos room for advice. Like jirou would go in there at 3am and just be like : yo so I'm lesbian and momo is lesbian and she said she likes me but I'm not sure if she likes me.

And even though bakugo will literally shout at them for being in his room at 3am they will still get advice😂~ ~ Kirishima is named after a mountain. Bakugos favourite activity is mountain climbing. Its cannon and ik it is I just thought I'd say that ~ ~ Shinso definitely uses his voice changer for memes. He would say things like "I'm katsuki bakugo and I'm a little bitch" with bakugos voice and "im aizawa and Im in love with a cockatoo" with aizawas voice. ~ ~ When denki is nervous random sparks of electricity come from his hands. ~ ~ If denki doesnt know how to do something he will search it up on wiki how. Change. My. Fucking. Mind. ~ ~ Shiggy genuinly doesnt know what moisturizer is ~ ~ Mic is amazing at playing any instrument ~ ~ Mic knows sign language and is fluent in alot of languages ~ ~ After toga stabs someone she mumbles things like "ughhh what a mood" "damn that one snatched my weave" and "we stan a queen" and once held up the knife like a beauty guru ~ ~ The girls constantly try to get uraraka to float m*neta into the sun ~ (yes I censored his name💀💀) ~ Tokoyami has good music taste ~ ~ The bakusquad (kaminari) tries to teach all might vine references ~ ~ Shoto l o v e s conspiracy videos ~ ~ Ojiro can purr ~ ~ Mina shares her clothes with everyone ~ ~ Shoto likes to watch the sun rise ~ ~ Omgggg I love this one. Aizawa listens to Mics radioshow when he grades papers and when he cant he will hum the music to himself ~ ~ Kaminari is memes™️ ~ ~ When mic says todorokis name he says it like the target vine (next competitor is- T T T T T T T T T TODOROKI SHOTOOOOOO *makes air horn noises*) ~ ~ The UA staff have prank wars (especially mic and literally anyone. Once poured pink cat shaped glitter on aizawa and it was 100% worth it) ~ Mic can harmonize with himself. Periodt. ~ ~ Tetsutetsu and shinso spend so much time at the 1-a dorms that one time bakugo cooked food for them too. ~

~ On that note, bakugo is obviously an amazing cook and when hes cooking for himself he will "accidentally make too much so you extras can have it" ~ ~ Shoto is literally turtlenecks™️ ~ ~ Mic literally has the worst sleep schedule like how is this man alive???? ~ ~ At night iida will run around the dorms saying goodnight to everyone and checking that they are all still in the dorms because he feels it’s his responsibility to look after everyone ~ ~ Shigirakis favourite thing to do is to just stand in the rain. He finds the rain soothing and calming to him because it’s one of the only things that he can’t destroy so it gives him peace of mind that he still human and isn’t the completely destructive monster everyone claims him to be. ~

Hope you liked them✌✌

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did anyone else feel like everything in uni was just.... too much to handle???? like do this internship! do this extra curricular program! and this one and this one and this one!!!! all to prove how involved you are!!! build all your soft skills and hard skills and professional brand/identity now!!! what are you doing????? dicking around like that????? you have no time to dick around!!!!! DO IT NOW??!!! WHERES YOUR LINKEDIN??? WHERE ARE YOUR AND WHAT ARE YOUR CAREER GOALS AND YOUR CAREER ROADMAP????!!! WHY DONT YOU CARE ABOUT ENTREPRENEURSHIP AND BEING INNOVATIVE???? OH BY THE WAY WHERE ARE YOUR ASSIGNMENTS ON TOP OF ALL THIS OTHER BS YOU’RE MEANT TO DO AND CARE ABOUT????!!!!!

like bro you’re causing me and probably everyone else to have mental breakdowns and feel like failures if they don’t do all these things all at once at uni. sorry i couldn’t manage an internship bc i only got my licence after i graduated???? sorry that i felt like those programs would take too much energy out of me???? sorry i forgot to turn in all those bs personal reflections you wanted me to have done for that extra curricular program that i signed up for where i never got hired for any of the positions i applied for anyway???? sorry i don’t give a fuck about my professional image and how to set up a personal brand i have no fucking energy left to give a flying fucking fuck about it. why the fuck does it even matter??? and fuck your entrepreneurship and innovation/hustle lifestyle bs spiels! why the fuck am i supposed to care about these????? when my mental health is so fucking depleted that i had a panic attack to the point of throwing up in the bathroom over making my linkedin account and being a “budding professional”???? why don’t my studies count as being involved on campus???? because they’re literally all i can fucking handle, just barely???? like how much fucking energy and time do you think i fucking have???? thanks for your fake ass mental health events that don’t really work either. just fuck why can’t i dick around like you’re really supposed to do at uni???? how the fuck else am i meant to relax if i’m always meant to be thinking about hustling and all that bullshit??? hello???? why will no one answer me???? fuck you.

like obvs i know people will react to this with comments such as: “that’s why and how you’re meant to learn time management at uni!!! look at all the cute study hacks on tiktok to help you ☺️!” and “that’s how you learn how to handle multiple workloads and deadlines and stuff!!” or “that’s how college/uni simulates the real world of employment!!! if you can’t deal with this at college/uni maybe you should’ve just dropped out and realised that you needed to toughen up princess!!!” or whatever else. but y’all. like it was chronic. i was always tired. always burnt out. i felt like i had no time to “find myself “ or whatever the trope or expectation of uni is supposed to be. instead i was just hammered, to what felt like death, with “be entrepreneurial and grind/hustle your way to the top every day!!!! only care about your professional image and brand! everyone has one! do 10 internships today to prove your eligibility/validity and motivation to employers so you get into a grad program!!! hustle hustle hustle! innovate innovate innovate! where are your start up ideas to fix the entire world in a day???? here’s all these never ending deadlines for 50+ extracurriculars that you HAVE to meet otherwise you won’t get the award for these programs officially to show employers!” etc etc etc. but it honestly felt like so, so, so much to do and i felt guilty because i felt like i had absolutely no interest in half of the ECs, let alone, even the “required marks” (because more than half of the ECs at my uni required at least a 75 or distinction average) to get into like mentor high school kids or idek do a business incubator program or whatever the bullshit EC program options were.

and that above is not even counting the reflections that you had to do to say “yeah i did this program and i felt it was good and i learnt A/B/C about myself through this program so it’s defs enhanced my employability skills” to even be considered to be taking part in the program. it was all too fucking much on too little time and i fucking hated it. and that’s besides the point that i was focussing solely on all the employability workshops for my “career” and got literally fucking nothing out of them. like why can’t uni just be a time to dick around and find yourself, instead of doing useless fucking employability circus bullshit and hearing time and time again about the “entrepreneurial mindset” and how to “never turn off your brain for innovation and the hustle to be ahead of everyone else???? hurry up and have a side hustle like tutoring to show just how much initiative you have!!!!!” like i just don’t understand how my advanced diploma, my undergrad arts degree, and my albeit short lived and failed attempt at my postgrad degree dont show ENOUGH initiative to employers. i fucking hate it.

and i also i understand that me complaining about this after the fact (and also while i was at uni from 2015-2018/doing postgrad in 2019) can be seen as “oh you were just too lazy to get yourself together and grow up! typical millennial/gen z! too selfish to grow up and be part of the big, bad adult world!” but y’all. there needs to be more down time for students and less of a push to be “entrepreneurial” and all that bullshit during uni/college; so you’re not pushed to your absolute limits at uni til you have a mental breakdown and drop out/defer for a semester or a year. and that’s besides the fact that even in my fucking 3 month breaks at the end of every year i was actually BUYING my texts or textbooks early and doing some of my readings (books) MONTHS ahead of time and MONTHS ahead of even knowing the revised sets of texts (because half the time i bought them so early that i hd no idea that the prof had taken like 4 diff books off some courses and replaced them w/ other books instead for example) so i really had no proper downtime anyway. like i was utterly run off of my feet and i was burnt the fuck out every fucking year of my undergrad degree and also my postgrad and also business college in 2014; which was at least 50+ page assignments every fucking week. like that should count as initiative to employers.... but apparently it fucking doesn’t??? im fucking sick of y’all what the actual fuck do you want????

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

Since You’ve Been Gone (i’ve been falling apart)

Ao3

Summary: It’s been a week. It’s been a week and Patton’s not sure how much longer he can take this. Content: Worry, mentions of sleep deprivation + nightmares, some crying, Roman and Patton betrayed me to lip-kiss so that happens once Pairing: Royality Notes: This is the amos minific for @art-chive who requested any ship with the prompt "I've been falling apart (without you)" // "You know i'll always be there to catch you". I hope this suffices!

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    Patton wasn’t doing okay. Patton hadn’t been doing okay for a few days- if he was being honest, Patton hadn’t been doing okay for a week.

    Because it was on Sunday that Roman had disappeared into the Imagination, off to fight some villain or find some figment, promising Patton he’d be back Monday. Patton wouldn’t even notice he’d been gone, Roman promised, to which Patton replied he always noticed when his prince was away. And Roman had laughed and kissed him and told him he’d be back soon.

    And now it was Monday. Not the Monday Roman had promised he’d come back, no- the Monday after that one.

    So Patton wasn’t doing okay.

    At first, he had been fine. Worried, but fine. It wasn’t exactly unlike Roman to be back a day or two late, so when Roman didn’t show up when he said he would, Patton had managed to convince himself all was fine. Roman was just running a little late, that was all.

    And then Tuesday had come and gone, Roman still nowhere to be found, and Patton was officially worried.

    The others had tried to help and distract him, with board games and movie nights and family dinners and any other activities they could find, but it only worked so much. They couldn’t stop Patton from constantly glancing towards Roman’s room, waiting for his prince to emerge, couldn’t stop Patton from getting distracted by his own thoughts of where Roman could be, couldn’t stop Patton from missing him no matter what they were doing.

    The days were hard enough, trying to stay in the moment and focus on Virgil and Logan and Janus instead of Roman and Roman’s room and Where Was Roman, but the nights were worse by a mile. His bed was empty and cold, and it was always his- normally, he and Roman would switch off who’s room they slept in night per night, but now, it was always Patton’s bed- always Patton’s Roman-less bed.

    And now… it was Monday. A week since Roman should have been home, a week since Patton should’ve been able to hug Roman and hold him and kiss him, a week since Patton had last been doing anything close to okay.

    Patton wasn’t sure where the others were, but he didn’t care either. He hadn’t cared about anything much since Saturday. He was tired, restless nights spent tossing and turning and looking for a warmth that wasn’t there until he woke up sweating and shaking from nightmares trying to tell him why that warmth was gone having drained him of what little energy he still had. He was tired and he was lonely and he just wanted Roman to be home.

    Right then, he was curled up in an armchair, sipping at tea that had long since gone cold. He had made it in an attempt to warm himself up, but it was the wrong type of warm and it did little good against the numbness in his chest. He knew he should move, go to his room and get some work done, but he didn’t want to move. It was easier to sit and wallow and think about how the chair was made for one but it was so much nicer to sit in with two.

    Before he could try and force himself to get up, however, Patton was drawn out of his thoughts by the sound of a door opening. He glanced back towards the hallway, but he couldn’t tell what door had opened. It was probably just one of the others.

    But it could also be-

    Flighty, useless, head-strong hope fluttered in his chest and Patton pushed himself out of the chair, dropping his cold tea on the coffee table as he headed towards the hallway. Despite the fact that he knew it was unlikely, he couldn’t help but entertain hope, entertain the thought that it was Roman, that it was Roman and he was okay and he was here and he was home and he was-

    Lost in his thoughts, Patton didn’t notice the book on the floor, likely left there by Logan or Janus. His foot caught on it and he tripped, unable to catch himself as he headed for the floor…

    ...but he never hit it.

    Instead, arms, warm arms, familiar warm arms caught him, wrapping underneath his own and giving him back the balance he had just lost. Above him, the owner of the arms chuckled, a sound that was still as musical as it was the first time Patton had heard it, even more so now. “I know that you’ve fallen for me, dearheart, but that doesn’t mean you have to do it literally.”

    Though by then Patton knew who it was that was holding him- he’d know his prince anywhere and anytime- he still jerked his head up, desperate to be sure, to know this wasn’t a trick or a dream or a nightmare. But it wasn’t, and Roman was there, smiling softly and charmingly and looking a little dirty and a little tired but he was there, he was really there and holding Patton and Patton was holding him and he was there.

    Patton threw himself at Roman as well as he could, arms wrapping around Roman’s chest and holding him as close as possible, burying his face against Roman’s neck and trying to take in as much of every single aspect of Roman as he could, as if letting go for even a second would cause him to vanish like a mirage. Roman returned the embrace barely a moment after Patton had initiated it, cradling Patton and allowing him to hold as close as he wanted.

    “Hey, sunshine, it’s okay.” Roman murmured softly, teasing tone replaced for one that was tender and caring. He started to move his hands over Patton’s back, trying to soothe him, and Patton realized he had started shaking. “I’m here, I’m okay, we’re okay.”

    “I’ve been falling apart.” Patton blurted out, meaning to make it a joke, a pun, a play on his fall, but he couldn’t do it, because it was true, he had been falling apart and he had been so worried and afraid and lonely without Roman and-

    “Oh, come now, Pat,” Roman said, tone light yet sincere, “you know I’ll always be there to catch you.”

    And despite the fact that Roman had clearly meant that to be comforting, Patton still started crying. Not because he was upset, of course, but because Roman was here and close and Roman was going to catch him every time he fell and really the only proper response to all the pent up fear and worry and sudden happiness was to sob into his beloved’s shoulder.

    “Oh, shh, it’s okay, love, you can cry, it’s okay, come on, let’s sit down, okay? I love you, it’s okay, you’re okay, shh.” Roman said, continuing to softly reassure Patton even as he moved them over to the couch. The minute they were seated, Patton shifted so that he was in Roman’s lap, still holding tight to Roman as he continued to cry and Roman continued to comfort him.

    Eventually, Patton sobs died off, and he pulled away from Roman’s shoulder. Roman smiled at him once more, all charm and soft edges. “Hey there, teddy bear.” Roman said, eliciting a small giggle from Patton. “How are you feeling?”

    Patton didn’t answer at first, instead choosing to hold Roman’s face in both his hands, cupping his cheeks and looking over his face as if he was trying to memorize it forever. “I missed you.” He said, simply, knowing that Roman would hear all the hidden meaning behind those simple three words without him having to explain them.

    Roman placed a hand over one of Patton’s. “I know, sweetheart.” He said apologetically. “I got caught up fighting some nightmares and lost my way. I didn’t mean to worry you so.”

    “You should’ve taken someone with you.” Patton said as he leaned forward, pressing a kiss against Roman’s forehead. “Virgil would’ve been willing to go if you told him you really needed his help.” He kissed both sides of Roman’s face. “Logan still has his spear from the last time he accidentally got caught up in the Imagination.” He moved his hands so he could kiss Roman’s cheeks too. “I would’ve come if you had let me.”

    “I know, I-” Roman laughed a little as Patton kissed his chin, “angel, you know I can’t think when you’re kissing me.”

    Patton kissed Roman’s nose. “I have a whole week’s worth of kisses to make up for.” Patton told him, pausing for a moment so that he could tuck a stray strand of Roman’s hair behind his ear, staring into Roman’s eyes while he was at it. “No offense, honey, but I’m not going to stop so that you can think.”

    “Oh, so cruel, lovebug.” Roman teased before he leaned forward, using the fact that Patton had been distracted by his eyes to steal himself a proper kiss. As soon as he realized what was happening, Patton returned the gesture, arms moving to wrap around the back of Roman’s neck as he kissed back, trying to make up for every kiss he had lost while Roman was away.

    “I’m sorry I was gone so long.” Roman said when they finally broke apart, Patton resting his forehead against Roman’s, still holding him close.

    “I know.” Patton told him, pressing a quick kiss to the corner of Roman’s lips. “And I forgive you. Just… don’t do it again?”

    Roman’s arms tightened where they were wrapped around Patton’s waist. “Never.” He promised, tone solemn, and Patton nodded, content as he turned his head and rested it against Roman’s shoulder, letting out a small yawn as he did so.

    “Good.” He said, snuggling against Roman, ignoring as his prince chuckled.

    “I think it’s bedtime, for you, my heart.” Roman said, shifting his hold on Patton so that he was cradling him against his chest as he stood. Patton didn’t have any protest, only snuggling in closer to Roman’s chest as he began to drift off, sleep finally willing to return peacefully to him now that Roman was safe and Patton was the right kind of warm. He didn’t even need to open his eyes to know Roman had taken them into his room, the familiarity of it not having faded in the week Roman had been gone.

    He did stir, however, when Roman placed him down on his bed and retreated. Almost immediately, Patton was sitting up blinking in the dark room and reaching out blindly for Roman. “Roman? Baby? Don’t leave me please-”

    Someone caught one of his hands, holding it in theirs, and Patton calmed, leaning towards Roman as he got into bed as well. “Hush, love, it’s alright, I just had to put your glasses away.”

    Patton nodded a bit but, in all honesty, he didn’t care why Roman had been gone for a moment, only caring that he was there now. He once more pressed against Roman’s chest as his prince laid them both down, holding Patton and allowing him to cuddle as close as he wanted.

    Although it was light, Patton could feel Roman plant a kiss against the top of his head, murmuring, “There you go, darling, it’s alright now. You can rest. I’ll still be here when you wake, I promise.”

    And knowing that was one promise nothing could stop Roman from keeping, Patton relaxed against him, falling asleep surrounded by the warmth he hoped he’d never have to miss again.