#and of course my shitty body
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I just spent about a week babysitting my niece and I'm EXHAUSTED and in a ton of pain, but I miss her already LMAO
#i took a pic of her holding my hand and smiling at me and i cant stop looking at it and wanting to cry LOL#she's such a sweetheart and i think she really loves me 🥺🥺🥺 we're buddies 🥺🥺🥺#but my god do i hurt lmao#between my brother's house having too many stairs and me having to use an air mattress#and her being 15 lbs now and having to rock her to get her to sleep#and of course my shitty body#i am DEAD#i will be spending the next few days dead and recovering LMAO#becca babbles
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I know we as a society have about a hundred million bigger fish to fry right now but I hope at some point within my lifetime we get around to fixing the absolute hellscape that is the women's clothes sizing system
#ruth o'brien i am in your walls#shitty ass data that is Still screwing us over today#that and vanity sizing.#What size am I? Beats me. In this top I'm a small. In those pants I'm a medium.#take both sizes to the dressing room for a higher chance of success and sometimes NEITHER of them fit#there is no standard. literally none. it varies from brand to brand.#and of course the lack of body inclusivity is a huge problem also. I'm just mad abt my personal shopping frustrations
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character belongs to @cecameron
#wimp witch#wimpwitch#wimp witch wink#wink#wink wimp witch#indie comics#indie comic#fanart#fan art#he deserves it#hes just like me frfr#iv been thinking about this character a lot#idk what the artist does with him in the future but MAN a shitty insecure dude who chances bodies like 3 times in the course of the comic???#shooting him with my transgender gun i hope he finds swlf love :) and a good fuck :)
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'live up to your name' au where og knight of blood and iron javier gets "killed" in the middle of the plot but instead of dying he's transported to modern south korea, waking up in a random alleyway with no injuries whatsoever. and because he's a protagonist no matter what universe he is in, despite being deeply disoriented and confused when he sees a group of thugs harassing a guy he steps in and chases them off with no problem and barely any mention of cutting off limbs. and then after making sure the guy is okay he very sheepishly asks him if he could please help him because he was lost and had no idea of where he was or how he got there
and kim suho who just saw a gorgeous but obviously foreign stranger in awesome cosplay chase off his would be muggers with what looked like a real ass sword and is currently high and smitten in "oh thank god i didn't get my week's work salary stolen" endorphins and is about to have the weirdest week of his life innocently says "yes of course"
#i talk a lot <3#tged#the greatest estate developer#og javier asrahan#kim suho#listen i just need javier to be the fish out of water in modern south korea so badly my heart aches for it#of course as time goes on suho goes from believing javier is just a very in-character cosplayer to thinking he just found someone#having a very bad mental breakdown lol#but the guy Did save him and he thinks it would be a shitty move on his part to leave him to his own devices when he's clearly not well#so despite this being more than what he signed up for he decides to keep trying help him even if his help does switch from trying to locate#his hotel and maybe a group of friends if they're lucky to trying to corral him into going to a hospital or a police station where they can#find who this guy really is and why the fuck does he believe he's javier asrahan protagonist of his latest favorite novel#of course that all goes out of the window when by pure chance and a healthy dose of bad luck suho almost gets run over by dear truck-kun#and when javier shields him with his own body they find themselves back in lorasia. in the middle of the plot. the very tragic#very action filled very dangerous plot#still figuring out the later details but it would definitely involve a couple more switches between universes#and the subsequent adapting to a different world than your own shenanigans
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Totally fucked up the order, so am now attempting to recreate it from the pictures that i took of each warp on the board, with the hopes that the 3rd warp will at least be well behaved. If it isnt im gonna need to do another round of towels (or maybe just a test warp) bc i cant be doing this on the blanket commission. Am very very aware of how tangled this warp will be. Only potential saving grace is that imo cotton doesnt tangle anywhere near as badly as wool, so hopefully it wont be too horribly bad.
It is going, though. About halfway done dressing the heddles. Next will be sleying the reed. Hoping to get all the warping done by tomorrow.
#plagued by my fucked up meatsuit as always#left hip is dislocated seemingly for the next long while bc when i dont use the crutches i have to walk with my right foot on tip toes#to avoid putting weight on the puncture wound#and my hip does not like this height difference very much#left knee all sorts of befucked bc when i do use the crutches its taking the weight of me essentially crashing from step to step#right foot is very swollen and painful. basically just cant move around w/o lots of pain#also have a migraine and the meds are making me so so sick as always#usually i pace to make myself feel better but of course i cannot#on top of this i also have a cold#no energy whole body is pain and nausea and cant go anywhere without blinding agony#definitely won some kind of shitty lottery#and yet i weave ! or at least i warp. badly#weaving#chronic illness#injury
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"Why does misandry exist :(((( poor men omg they're human too they deserve happiness-" literally shut the fuck up. I'll believe misandry is real the day you can show me a feral child as well known and famous as Genie who was made that way by a woman.
Go on. Don't google your answer. You don't know any, right?
#i say this with my whole body#MEN AINT SHIT#they deserve every bit of whatever they get#shitty mental health lonliness whatever it is#bc of COURSE it was a man who isolated that child#beat her and treated her like an animal#until she was THIRTEEN#misandry is ok and fun and we need more of it#men die faster challenge#radfem safe#radfems do touch#radfems do interact#radfem#radfems please touch
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#brother i am convinced i was not built to be alive#i was supposed to die at 16 of appendicitis the way god intended#everything is so stressful and i have an anxiety disorder and high blood pressure and zero support from anyone in my life#just me and my shitty trembling body against the world#ive been shaking and my hearts been racing and my vision has been blurry all day#im the only motherfucker here who bothers to clean or do anything to improve our living situation#ive been battling this flea infestation alone for months now#trying to get everyone to play ball long enough to flea bomb the house today was life on insane mode i am convinced#i had to bribe everyone into leaving by 11am by handing over my bank card so they could buy snacks while i went to my dr appointment#of course all the cleaning pre-bombing was done by me#i asked my sister to tidy her room and she did not so like whatever. if the flea bomb dodnt work in there like what do i even do#she actually waited until id cleaned every other fucking room in the house and then made MORE mess in those rooms#i asked my mother to do 2 things#she did neither of course <3#im so tired and in pain#and im pretty sure we are still going to have fleas anyway#im just one disabled man#i cant keep house for 5 other grown adults#what do i even pay my parents housekeeping for anyway?#dogbunni diary log
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Literally every medical expert ever: NEVER EAT RIGHT BEFORE GOING TO BED!!! If you eat anything right before going to sleep your organs will EXPLODE and you will DIE!!!
My body if I don’t eat anything within two hours before trying to go to sleep: oh? Fuck me? Well fuck you too I’m going to create a new kind of hunger so fucked up that you will never sleep again you miserable wench
#yeah so I just got one singular hour of sleep because I went to bed without eating 🙃#I mean I had dinner of course but#I swear to GOD if I don’t have a piece of toast or cereal or something before going to bed#my body turns into an angry toddler that wants me dead#but nooooo if I eat in front of my mom late at night she’ll make a bunch of shitty comments#and if I get upset she’s like ‘I’m just trying to help!!! 🥺’#so now I’m running on one hour of sleep and I have a bunch of shit going on today. fun.#time to drink a shit ton of coffee and hope for the best#just me things#text post#delete later
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imagine posting on the same platform that The Actors post on. disgusting
#those men are NOT welcome in my house#with its myriad portraits and sculptures of their naked bodies#I’m not trying to swat away their shitty tweets while I’m in the middle of ******* ***#< metaphorically of course
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Who was gonna tell me that reading is fun sometimes
#I will bring shame to my eight year old self NO MORE!!!! I LIKE READING AGAIN!! YIPPEE!!!#I think I seriously enjoy reading about the brain and body and trauma like it’s so strange to spend two hours laying in bed with a book but#it’s so nice#I really enjoyed science growing up even into high school I just didn’t have the patience or motivation to finish essays#and my freshman year science teacher got fired halfway thru the year after they found out she didn’t have a teaching license and then my#class got split up into an advanced science teachers class who was way ahead of everything we had learned and then I hated the class and#science in general then in sophomore year I had another shitty teacher who didn’t care about teaching and I literally would find recourses#and send them to the teacher to put on the projector and then I would talk thru the resource that’s fucking real I literally had class#periods where I TAUGHT my sophomore year science class. GAHHHH I still get so bad at that fucking teacher I don’t even remember her name but#she pissed me off so bad cause she paired me with the two guys who always made fun of me just bc I was smart and they were annoying. anyways#depression and adhd and boredom happened and I almost failed that class but still passed in the end and then in junior year during covid#I was taking a biology class and an anatomy class that was supposed to be seniors (seniors did the advanced class and they offered regular#class to select juniors) and I ended up being the ONLY junior who wasn’t doing the advanced course. like. everyone else got assignments and#I had to ask hey what’s the easy version of that assignment cause I’m technically in the easy class even tho we’re in the same class period#and then Covid and I stopped caring at all about anhthing and then dropped out of school and moved down the entire coast so yknow.#I never stood a chance at being good at science but I’m realizing I might actually be passionate about it cause I have been since I was#little I just kind of ignored it and forgot but like. for one birthday I got a telescope and for one Christmas I got a microscope. like it’s#well known to everyone but me that I like science apparently oh my god what’s wrong with my brain !!!! anyways.#I like science now it’s weird to feel passionate about learning I haven’t done that in a long time#oh my god when I took my GED test my highest score was in SCIENCE AND NOT ENGLISH#THIS IS ALL SO OBVIOUS I LOVE SCIENCE WHY AM I NOT DOING SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE RELATED TO SCIENCE
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hhhhhh I need to properly reread Percy jackson again. This post brought to you by the fact I was about to make a post about a scene I very vividly remember of Will Solace trying to convince Pollux not to keep fighting with his good arm broken before Percy manages to convince him not to bc he promised Dionysus, then thought to myself "huh maybe I should fact check that- I mean I did also convince myself that Travis stoll died in this battle when he actually just went to college." And guess what? That scene ✨️didn't happen.✨️ Pollux was trying to convince Percy to let him rejoin the fight very half heartedly, while propped against a tree, and Percy was just like "hmmmm... no"
#Can you blame me tho.#SO much was going on in that book. It was literally JUST that battle and over the course of like 3 days#Here's some I found while skimming my copy of tlo for the scene in question:#Nico trying to rescue/ speak to his mum ft. Hades being a really shitty person (& shittier father)#Rachel's family helicopter almost crashing#Percy having a conversation with may castellan#Luke very belatedly realising “hm maybe I shouldn't give complete control of my body and mind to kronos”#This one random half-asleep demigod Percy runs into at one point that might’ve been Clovis? The demigod was said to be 12 tho-#So maybe his brother?#Prometheus shows up and gives Percy Pandora's jar#Percy getting thrown in prison by Hades and STRANGLES NICO FOR BRINGING HIM TO THE UNDERWORLD????#nico sends the guards to sleep tho so yay dream powers from his dad#And then Achilles's ghost shows up and basically just goes “are you fucking stupid or something. Why would you want my curse”#Chiron brings the party ponies to fight (they got drunk on rootbeer instead)#I think literally the only things from this book I accurately remembered were#1. Michael Yew convinces Percy to destroy a bridge while he's still on it#2. Annabeth moves to protect Percy's weak spot before she even knew where it was#3. One of Silenus's brothers dies and grover gets to be part of the council#4. Silena regrets being a spy and steals clarisse's armour to fight a drakon#5. Clarisse is PISSED that she did something so stupid and kills the drakon with her father's blessing#6. The fact Percy and Luke actually managed to converse during the Final Battle tm and Luke told Percy his weak spot#7. Ethan is a character who existed and then died. He was the son of Nemesis#Hm actually that's a lot more than I thought#But again there are Things happening in this book and there are Many Of Them and most of them are pretty fucked up actually.#anyway#pjo#Something something how is this a kids book etc
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I'm so. Angry.
#day musings#Stupidfucking.#I knew better than to put it out into the world#“Want to stay home” now I have to#rant#personal rant#And it's not.#It's not even about /them/#I mean. Yeah. Would it be nice to see my jf#of course#But I wanted to see my friends#I wanted to hangout on a longish car ride#One friend is leaving the state this week for gods knows how long#It's been a shitty fucking week and I wanted to be with my friends#and I don't get to now#Because of a stupid fucking fever#So I am upset and angry#so fucking angry at my stupid body#and myself for clearly doing something yesterday#that meant a fever today
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y'know, I'm chill with other people smoking/vaping/etc. it's absolutely not good for you, but bodily autonomy is a thing for a reason, we all only live once, some people find that it helps with other issues etc. etc. it's like doing just about anything that's bad for you, which is, you know, a lot of things. not getting enough sleep is bad. eating too much processed food is bad. hell, just sitting on our phones all the time is awful for us.
what absolutely pisses me off--what makes me want to shake people by the shoulders--is everyone who does it in an indoor space where others live without asking if it's okay. because here's the thing: when you smoke by yourself, you consent to all the stuff it'll do to you.
but. everyone else? did not consent to the culprit fucking up their body. it's the equivalent of punching them repeatedly in the jaw. except that is, at least, blatant, immediate pain. secondhand/thirdhand smoke and vape? that is fucking insidious. that's carcinogens, and chemicals that sit and build up inside your body, slowly but surely screwing you over. it may be decades until the consequences unfold. or it might only be a few months, if you're sensitive to it. might make everyone in the house feel sick within a day or two, if they're sensitive at all. and, of course, there's everyone with asthma and other chronic conditions for whom this becomes even worse, for whom it does not merely irritate but suffocates.
back when we didn't know how bad cigarettes could fuck us up--back then, there was an excuse. but now? now everyone knows what this shit does. hell, plenty of us have family members who died of lung cancer. so there is no excuse, now. now, you know you're hurting people when you do it, that every poisonous puff is worming its way oh so slowly into everyone else's cells, bodies, lungs, blood.
some people struggle with addiction. I'm not targeting that. sometimes you know how bad a thing is, and you do everything you can to stop, and you just can't. (doesn't make you less culpable--but it isn't all carelessness, at that point.) I'm not talking about them. I'm talking about all the damn generation Z people (my peers) I run into lately who display a ridiculous lack of caring for others' health. and you know, I'm just... impressed, really. at how anyone can justify that to themself. at how you could possibly call yourself a good person and still do that.
our generation grew up with endless, endless messages explaining exactly what cigarettes do to us, exactly why we needed to avoid secondhand smoke like the plague it is. I know kids of smokers who deal with the ramifications of it even now. how the hell, how the living bloody hell, could you possibly learn all of that, know people who went through that, and still justify exposing other people without a care in the damn world?
#synapse talks#synapse rants#tl;dr my neighbors and possibly one of my housemates are careless assholes who are directly violating the lease#and I am really REALLY pissed off that people just clearly DO NOT GIVE A SHIT about how their actions affect others#also! that DECADES of education still have not hammered through people's thick fucking skulls how deadly smoking is.#and again I reiterate: it's fine when you make the choice for yourself (mostly). but you. do. NOT. get to do that for others.#you can crash your own car if you want. you DO not get to run over everyone else along the fucking way.#(also there's the minor detail that in the USA! the more medical problems people have from smoking! the more insurance pays out!#and the more insurance pays out! the HIGHER THE RATES GO FOR EVERYONE ELSE!#so actually people intentionally doing things that are bad for their bodies DOES harm everyone else directly. but to be fair here#that's a. capitalism for you (although it still applies re: damaging the economy in any society because you're spending resources#on healthcare for something that was fully preventable)#and b. again: we're all making choices that fuck up our bodies all the time so it's nothing new really. just. this one is#particularly preventable. but between shitty companies pushing addictive substances and culture and peer pressure#and of course self-medicating--that is a much deeper problem that doesn't just involve people's individual one-off choices.)
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God I had the weirdest sex dream last night. It was largely like.. body horror and squick during the sex itself? Lots of unsavory body fluids and flashbacks of lowkey traumatic experiences I had many many years ago (I say lowkey bc the experiences were consensual, just very unfun)
But the biggest thing is that my dream self was a trans man during all this, and ppl were treating me as such. Usually ppl treat me like Woman Lite in my dreams, so uhhhhh I guess thats something huh. Woke up feeling grossed out but kinda gender affirmed lmao
#my dreams are always really shitty in one way or another#so the body horror is just. par for the course
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"how do you just know this" is a question I get asked a lot, because I tend to be someone who can contribute unusual facts or insight on whatever topic a casual conversation turns to, and I never know how to answer because "I pay attention" sounds rude and isn't super actionable. but that is really it, I just take an active interest when I encounter something curious or unusual.
like recently one of my friends linked me a funny paragraph from a very badly written erotic novel. it was so bad that I thought "I wonder if this is real", so we looked up the book it was from and learned it was a vintage horny housewife type story by someone who wrote a lot of shitty cheap porn back in the 80s, all of which now seems to be completely out of print.
in the course of googling the author, I discovered that one of their works had been cited in a 2004 court case over a prisoner's right to keep erotic novels in his personal library after the prison confiscated them. a bit more googling turned up the case details in a legal database. the guy had received the books by mail and kept them, among others, in his cell. the prison seized them, citing a policy against prisoners having pornography. his lawyers argued that 1. erotic novels are distinct from pornography because they have artistic and expressive content beyond the depiction of sex acts, and 2. since he received them by mail they are therefore protected under his constitutional right to freely access non-disruptive information from outside the prison. I don't know if he got his books back, but he won his case.
then we googled the defendant and found out he was in prison for helping a woman to drug and murder his boss (who she lived with), mutilate the body with acid and dump him in a ravine.
anyway my point is, take an interest. that's how you learn weird stuff.
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they should invent having a body in your 30s that doesnt hurt all the time
#it's always something. i cannot get a break#this has less to do with the fact that im in my 30s. i just have a shitty body that doesnt work right 👍#and of course the us healthcare system is a joke a sham a racket etc. im stuck trying to figure it out on my own#ive seen 4 different doctors in the last 6 months and have gotten absolutely nowhere. so thats cool#chronic pain//
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