#and now i'm just... fucking depressed

[wildfairies]

oof. it's been a long time since i felt this depressed this many days in a row.

[seance]

You don't belong here. You don't know anything about us.

[mattodore]

birthday boy 🎂

[cecoeur]

How do you sleep at night? No one to hide behind Betrayed every alibi you had You had every chance to make amends instead you got drunk on bitterness And you still claim that you're innocent, it's sad

[dendroaspis-viridis]

I'm begging you, BioWare... Learn from the mistakes of Baldur's Gates past...

[lotus-pear]

do you ever think about the tragic fact that odasaku's dying words to dazai were to become a good man, to be on the side that saves people.....which leads to the creation of the beast universe as dazai, in his grief and denial, finds the book and alters reality with the mentality "then....that means saving you too, right?"

[hurtcomforted]

imagine that, in the first avenger, before pre-serum steve's training montage, we get a flashback with sarah rogers to explain his perseverance. imagine that when he goes to save bucky and after losing him, we get flashbacks to them as kids.

imagine that, in civil war, instead of (or along with if that's what it takes) more of tony's daddy issues we also get to see little steve with sarah to also understand him better.

imagine we get more of steve's backstory.

[that-disabled-princess]

I remember seeing a post about how being aromantic is akin to being allergic to corn, and like... yeah. Being romance-repulsed, loveless, and aplatonic in addition to being aromantic is like being allergic to olives and corn. And also their common substitutes. Olive oil and cornstarch are used in everything. There is no escape.

You tell someone you can't have a food because olive oil was used, and it's "oh, but surely you aren't allergic to olive oil! That's not a real thing."

You can't have a food because there's cornstarch in it and it's, "oh, but it's such a small amount of corn, surely you'll be fine. I know you can't have corn, but a tiny amount of cornstarch?"

You tell someone that, actually, you are also allergic to a common substitute, and it's "so you just can't eat at all? that's so sad!" or "then what CAN you eat? it's so sad you have such a dislike for food."

"Surely, you aren't actually repulsed by romance! That's so sad! And also, you made that up!"

"I know you're aromantic, but you can't actually be uncomfortable with people using the word 'love' as a blanket for emotions, can you?"

"So you don't feel love for your friends AT ALL? You just don't feel AT ALL? How sad!"

It's exhausting.

[demon-of-the-ancient-world]

Interesting Dune thing I caught while doing a re-skim of the first book: Jessica doesn't initially know that the Bene Gesserit have been at work on Arrakis until they get there and she meets Shadout Mapes.

Now, I don't know if this is canon exactly but I've always interpreted Jessica as being somewhat bitter about her BG education. While she always sticks closely to it because obviously, it's basically all she was raised on, it feels to me kind of like her marriage to Leto was more a means of getting away from that than a means towards gaining power for herself on the BG's behalf. Her having a son, while done for her love of Leto, was also something of a rebellion - even if she wasn't intending to create the KH, surely she knew it was a possibility deep down. At the very least she knew it was an act of defiance against them. But it still seems to me like she wanted nothing to do with the BG shit and just have her family and illegal son in peace.

So imagine her knowing her family is going to this hostile planet in a journey that's potentially/probably a trap devised by their enemies to begin with, and then on top of that her weird illegal son might actually be the super being she didn't want him to be-- and then oh fuck that fake religion she's sort of involved with is here too and her weird illegal super being son is also maybe their messiah. There's no escape.

[statementlou]

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[mactiir]

The very funny thing about having finally recovered from depression after being depressed for literally decades is. Even though I'm no longer depressed. My kneejerk initial reaction when I get overwhelmed is like "fuck it time to die" and then, because I have spent a lot of time and intention and money on therapy, my IMMEDIATE next thought is "no you won't babe, eat some broccoli. Go for a run. Go see ur friends" and the moment I've done any combination of those things I'm like singing showtunes about how good life is. Like ok brain i understand you spent the last fifteen years in a critical state but maybe we can do the broccoli first next time. Vegetables before defaulting to Habitual Symptoms please.

[put-a-keep-are-you-foo-dell]

I'm actually extremely sad Jey lost his title, he didn't need to lose to go back to the boodline story

I can't get around how they are treating him after so many years of company, top selling merch, so loved by us, and this disrespect

[tethrras]

deciding to headcanon that the lighthouse makes people feel Calm and Docile and Relaxed to excuse the fact that more of the companions aren't as mad as lucanis that ANY of this is happening

[i-promise-i-am-not-on-drugs]

Me if I see someone portraying Mike as "dumb" once again today:

No but in all seriousness, I really can't with that anymore. Yes I know it's canon that he has bad to awful grades (in season 4 at least), but y'all. He had more important things to deal with.

Like, maybe, his literal best friend since he's 5 years old and his first girlfriend moving out of town. (I'm not even going to talk about everything he has going on about his sexuality and figuring out who he is, and also, by the way , if you forgot about it, his fucking depression--)

Do you guys not remember ST1? Or ST2?? Did y'all forget how much of a science and english nerd he his, how fucking incredibly smart all of the party is??? That's literally one of the main reasons why they were bullied in the first place???? Hello??

Mike's smart as fuck. Stop treating him like a literal idiot who can't even count to ten just because he's oblivious to Will's feelings for him (which, oh how surprising, is probably because he has no idea that Will is gay and most likely doesn't believe himself worthy of his love) and because of that stupid C in Spanish. C isn't even such a bad grad, especially for a teenager who's dealing with fucking supernatural shit, and confusing feeling, AND depression. Because YES, Mike is depressed, and NO, I will not argue with anyone about it because if you can't see it then we're clearly not watching the same show.

Anyway.

All of this to say, please, for the love of the universe, stop making Mike an idiot. I might actually cry if I see more of this bullshit.

Thank you for reading my rant, hope you're having a fucking nice time.

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Fuck I hate being an adult. I need a more adult adult to help with the volatile emotional situation.

[oopsallmabari]

....why are the youtube comments so mad lol don't y'all like to have fun. don't we like to have fun here