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his grey hair makes me insane
#bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#my screenshots#i was just troubleshooting for my friend#and his greys smacked me in the face#and now i'm dead#on the floor
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Giulio Berruti and Melanie Zanetti in Gabriel's Redemption (2023)
#gabriel's redemption#gabriel emerson#julia mitchell#giulio berruti#melanie zanetti#sylvain reynard#books#movies#OMG#and now i'm dead#of cuteness
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did so many things today, i'm proud of myself but also i'm ready for death
#cytherea.txt#did a whole bunch of errands i've been meaning to do for ages that took all day#and then to top it all off i decided to put together a flat pack because i wanted to keep my momentum going!!!#and now i'm DEAD
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A Very Darren Crissmas at Wind Creek Event Center | December 17th, 2022 | 📸 by Kimberly F. Shay
#Darren Criss#avdc @ wind creek event center#pretty eyes#those eyes can kill#and now i'm dead#please do not repost
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the way i was like GIRL WHAT THE HELL but also that emotional outburst is totally something i'd do. 😂
And You By My Side
Hi friends, we got a bit of a mix in this one: heavy smut, nsfw, fluff and angst. You know the rules.18+. Language, adult themes. I hope you enjoy! Please leave some comments, I’m fed by them!
6.2k words. Rooster x Reader. Rooster sails out and Reader is certainly going through it without him. Lots of swears, but it’s the Navy, goddammit!
Hearing the light rapping at your front door, you grinned, giddy to see Rooster. He’d been training and packing today, shipping out tomorrow. Skipping through the apartment, you opened the door to him, his back to you, looking at the ocean. He turned to face you, a soft smile gracing his features. “Hi.”
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If you've ever told a person who's had to be bedbound for a period of time that you wish you could "just stay in bed", DO IT.
Stay in bed. For days. But don't get up if someone needs you to, or you get bored, or you get antsy. Don't do anything other than rest. Just lie in your bed, whether you need to get stuff done around the house or socialize or anything else "productive". You'll have to cancel on people, you'll disappoint them, they won't understand.
And if you're thinking, "well, i CAN'T just be in bed. There's stuff that has to be done - I have plans", maybe ask yourself why you assumed a disabled person doesn't have plans or things to do or desires.
#Disability#Bedbound#Housebound#Actually disabled#Chronic illness#Long covid#Chronic fatigue#Inspired by my boss asking what I did over the weekend and I said I couldn't get out of bed and he said that sounds nice actually#I'm literally only able to work bc I am in bed at all times I'm not at work and it's still so hard and painful#I can't get my own groceries or cook my own meals or socialize or eat at restaurants or go to movies or take care of my own pets#If I didn't have a loving generous caring spouse I'd be dead by now
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old-ish wip from 2022
#went through hell and back with my dead confidence last year#but i'm FINALLY ready to start over (or so i hope)#helluva boss#stolitz#stolas#blitzo#my art#also a lil' personal update: i'm going by he/they now :)
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i love how editing makes you notice tiny things you hadn't before
like i've watched this show too many time to count now but somehow i'm only now picking up on these bits from the charles vs night nurse scene in ep4
when the night nurse throws crystal away, niko immediately runs over and helps her up
then when they get back to the group, niko stands in front of her, mirroring charles standing in front of edwin
protective niko <333
#“i'm not the bravest” YES YOU ARE ML 😭#palasaki my beloveds#i love them i love them i love them#dead boy detectives#dbda#dbda netflix#niko sasaki#crystal palace#palasaki#idk if i'm just blind or always focus solely on charles in this scene but somehow i'm only noticing these shots now :((#my dbda posts
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just reread this while looking for a post jesus fuck i'm heartless
while I like to think that the scenes of maverick mourning ice are just not shown in the movie, i want to make everyone's day miserable today: what if maverick was still so preoccupied with goose and rooster that he never… noticed ice. mav never fully realized ice was the one pulling all the strings to keep him in the navy. when people told mav he had a guardian angel, he always assumed it was goose, and that ice just was a supportive friend but he never did anything behind the scenes for mav, because after all the rejection and loss mav went through, mav was still in denial; why would someone care about him enough?
he never realized who was actually his guardian angel. therefore, mav never really gave ice the appreciation he deserved. mav never realized how much ice loved him…until it was too late.
and ice? oh, he knew. he knew he would never get the fairytale ending of his dreams. he wanted maverick to bond with rooster so, unlike him, mav would have someone to “mourn him when he burns up”. sure, ice at least had sarah, but it was not the same. maverick was the one he loved so fiercely, but mav was just out of ice’s reach.
ice knew that he would die alone, his contributions to mav’s life still unknown to mav. so, when the time came, he wasn't scared; he wasn't angry. he was just sad. sad because destiny did not smile on him and his lover. he wished mav could've noticed. he wished mav could've really been his wingman. but what was done is done, and fate had already woven it’s deadly threads.
ice decided to pick up his phone. with a shaky breath, he decided to give himself one last shot. he would not hide in the shadows any longer. he typed in maverick’s name on his phone. he sent his wingman one last text:
i love you.
as ice closed his eyes for the last time, in his room, alone, his final thought was of what could've been. oh, what ice would've given to have mav by his side at his last moments. a tear rolled down his cheek, and ice took his final breath, letting himself lose the battle against cancer.
after all, ice saw no reason to staying alive if mav wasn’t alongside him.
#forgot i wrote this#and now i'm dead#deceased#wtf is this#why did i write this#it's so good#but so awful#angst#icemav fic#icemav#misc#pilotsandgays
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Thinking about DP x DC Jason Todd being a revenant again. Here's my scenario. Jason gets called that by some ghost. He's like "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" He's heard the term before but he doesn't know any actual lore. He googles it. He scrolls past the Leonardo DiCaprio bear movie. He opens the wiki. Sees the words "animated corpse" and gets a chill diwn his spine. He starts reading the first section.
He closes Wikipedia.
That night he has a nightmare that his family buried him, again, this time with precautions. He wakes up in his own grave, full of stones, too heavy to move, to scream.
#CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS#like reading this section in the context of jason is SO HORRIFYING#the idea of someone knowing it was possible for him to come back. to wake up down there. and wanting to keep him there#stay dead. we want you dead. you're too troublesome alive. you're meant to be down there.#so anyways. jason internalizing all this shit and feeling uncomfortable in his own body because he's thinking of it as a corpse#and of himself as haunting a place he doesn't belong#and then meeting danny and danny says 'wow you're a revenant aren't you! The dead so restless they can't bear to stay in their graves'#and he smiles. 'You're amazing. Your will is so strong'#and the Ghost King tells Jason 'You're alive but that doesn't mean you aren't one of mine. I will come for you'#and batman says 'we will keep you safe from that entity and his threats. you don't belong to him'#and jason says 'he didn't mean i was his possession. he said i was his responsibility. he said he would help me if i ever needed him'#and bruce sees the faraway look in his son's eyes and doesn't know what to say#okay I'm done#for now#dp x dc#dpxdc#revenant jason todd#danny phantom#dc#batfam#jason todd#my rambles#my writing
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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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I feel like I've complained about Tim's email situation in Gotham Knights before (edit: I have), but the truth of it is just so funny.
He's signed up for so many podcasts, video game streamers, and random news alerts; it's just a constant barrage of data going straight into his constantly whirring brain. Hell, he even floats the idea of the Batfamily having their own podcast as a way to correct misinformation about them (which Jason shoots down instantly), and it's made me realize something.
Timothy Drake would be a YouTuber.
In this universe specifically, Timothy Jackson Drake, the heir to Drake Industries and the foster son of the late Bruce Wayne would be a YouTuber.
Think about it. It'd be the perfect cover. Who would ever suspect that some 16-year-old nepo baby with a YouTube channel could ever be Red Robin? You'd have to be mad. I mean, look at him.
Red Robin just dropped out of literal thin air and garotted someone four times his size, and you expect anyone to believe that's the same kid who does 24-hour Minecraft charity streams and occasionally drops 6-hour video essays (his last one was on Lex Luthor's illegal bit mining operation on the moon)?
That kid?
You think that kid is Red Robin?
Ch'yah, okay, sure. And the Joker is funny 🤡.
#gotham knights game#I'm now incorporating this into all my Tim headcanons across the multiverse#twice a week as part of maintaining his Normal Teenager Identity#he streams random shit on YouTube/Twitch#he's got the full gamer set up in the background#LED lights around the ceiling and walls#rainbow keyboard/headset#mini fridge filled with Monster Energy Drinks#(other streamers have 'take a shot' prompts in chat. his audience has 'drink water before you die')#whenever he hosts a charity stream Bruce makes an appearance in chat via the official Wayne Enterprises account#and promises to match whatever they raise#and then hangs about for a bit to cheer Tim on#he's the epitome of 'are ya winning son?' meme#meanwhile off screen#Tim's keeping an eye on a seperate monitor#and helping Babs run remote ops#if his stream suddenly dies (which is does fairly often) he blames it on the Manor having shitty wifi#and that tracks#it's an old house#it's probably FILLED with lead and dead signal spots#in reality Tim killed the stream because Red Robin is needed#and no one will ever know
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Can't believe Nickelodeon ate with a decent reboot AND a new sexyman on top of that
#Anxiety's been going hard but at least the energy I find myself gathering is going to the right places <333#Anyway aged up tumblr sexyman Poof was on the 2024 bingo card chat..#digital art#fanart#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#fairly oddparents fanart#fop peri#Art Fight is dead to me all efforts doing to FOP fanart now#I'm still a slow tho SHAKING MYSELF TO HURRY THE HELL UP#Two weeks fixation on him and only 2 and a half doodles wagh
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Hey, don't cry. Ghost yuri, okay?
(Now that you know the girls, they need to meet the boys!)
#payneland#edwin x charles#dead boy detectives#dbda#fem payneland#although technically as everyone is the opposite gender their last names should be different#OKAY you know the drill u get fanart and i get to ramble about it#Edith wears pants now#this pains me because i love drawing skirts but after she escaped hell#she met charlotte who made an offhand comment about how it's easier to move with pants#and edith who just spent 70 years running in hell went wait a tick#she feels safer that way is what i'm saying#interesting because as you can see she wore a skirt to confess and we know how THAT went but anyway#charlotte's mom was abusive of course#and she forced her to practice ballet despite charlotte being interested in a lot of other sports#she did fairly well at ballet but this means no cricket bat :(#i know we all love butch fem charles but as he's mostly gender conforming i decided to not do that#no reason for the bracelets but as i wanted to give her a choker i thought they would combine with the earrings#crystal is still crystal because his parents are weird artists who like stupid names#niko though... i don't know what to name him#dead girl detectives
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you think there’s a film executive out there somewhere sitting in a dimly lit room with a cigarette between his teeth staring at the goncharov tweet his niece sent him thinking like...”what if we just..what if we just fuckin did it”
#someone's going to make a goncharov fan film and it will kill the meme stone dead#sorry i'm gonch posting now#this will be the only one i promise#goncharov
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