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I was actually having a pretty good day until just now :/
#i reread and made notes for two solid hours! 15k of words!#i went for a walk and got ransom a toy and stocked up on chocolate (my excuse is that sometimes when i'm feeling awful eating a bit of#chocolate helps lol and this stuff was 50% off) and generally had a good walk!#and i had a bath. first bath of the season! and i read like hafl of out of hte silent planet while i was bathing and it was wonderful!#mum made the BEST ginger pudding today!#so like. i've had a great day today!#so many blessings!#and now i just feel awful because i ate something and i wanna throw up and i mustn't#been struggling more with dealin w eating lately too at times and in the last week have been deviating from what the dietitian's been#encouraging me (variety) bc i couldn't deal with it#but today was a good day! a great day! and now i feel terrible for no apparent reason#yay me :/#puddleglum hours#personal#incidentally am SO grateful for the job that requires me to wear short sleeves bc i know that by now i would've harmed deep enough to scar#on my arms as well if i hadn't had the knowledge that the next day id have to be at work w that. the reason this is coming up rn is#bc SURPRISE i rlly wanna harm#and i CAN'T my mother found my knife. honestly even having it htere whether or not i used it felt like it gave me an option even if i#didn't take it. it was a comfort. and now it feels awful not having it esp as idk when i'll get it back and also even worse my parents#litcherally gave me that knife for my last birthday. i don't know how mum feels about that#but yeah i just. i want to do smth drastic so bad#and i CAN'T#tw sh#i don't even know why#ugh
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@ofwrxth jakob x ines - arbor manor
Ines's excitement sticks, breath still uneven from the mad dash through the hotel, Jakob right behind her. She knows, without a doubt, that he held back on purpose, never overtaking her, just so she could be the one to choose the movie. That small gesture, one of many she’s noticed, makes something flutter inside her chest, how he's more considerate than she ever expected. When they finally burst into the room, the sight that greets them momentarily diverts them from the real reason why they were both rushing. Ines feels her steps falter as her eyes sweep over the space, warmth greets her in the form of a clean, dry t-shirt folded neatly on the bed, ready for her to slip into beneath the plush robe. But it's the mountain of food that really stops her in her tracks. More food than she’s ever seen laid out in one place, all for the two of them. Plates piled high with colorful, rich dishes that smell divine.
It's a quiet moment of awe for her, another flicker of that strange feeling like she's known Jakob much longer than she actually has. The way they naturally settle on the bed together, legs sprawled over each other without thought, as if they've been doing this for years. The bed itself is massive, the biggest she's ever seen, but it shrinks around them as they snack and talk, their limbs tangled together in a way that feels both intimate and effortless. She doesn't even realize that one of her feet has been resting on his leg for most of the evening, anchoring them together without either of them acknowledging it.
Her final bite of cake makes her huff softly, the crumbs brushing off the edge of her robe. With a mischievous grin, she flicks them toward Jakob. "I think I ate too much." she confesses with a laugh, but straightens up quickly with a story on her lips, also ready to defend herself before he can point out that she devoured two of the small cakes before even touching the real food, and then two more. "You wanna know something weird about me?" she asks suddenly, the playful spark in her eyes shifting to something a bit more conspiratorial. "It's like, really hard for me to be sick." she chuckles, her grin back as her eyes momentarily flick between Jakob's. "Okay, so, there's context. Obviously. My cousin has lived with us since we were kids." she begins, brushing her hands clean and shifting slightly, her leg sliding around Jakob's further. "He’s…well, he's weird. And he literally terrorizes me. And he'd do this thing-"
Her laugh comes again, quickly between her words. "He'd grab me by the ankles and spin me around. Always after we ate, too, like he thought making me sick would scare me into telling him." the memory makes her snort. "But now, because of all that, I have a really hard time throwing up. Like, I adapted. I evolved." Ines grins, a hand absently finding it's way to Jakob's mess of hair, pushing it gently back from his face as she chuckles, once again pulled in as she studies him. "I guess it's a party trick? A weird one, though. Because, it's kinda hard to prove."
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I was raised by insects.
When I was born up until the divorce, I didn't spend as much time with my parents as I probably ought to. My dad was often drunk and my mom was always away at work, and when together, they argued and fought often. I played with bugs, drank soda, chewed on myself, and ate candy as I fell hungry being unable to cook for myself. I spent most of my time crouched and digging in the dirt. Plucking up grubs and worms, shaking off ants. Watching spiders and millipedes crawl away, in awe of their many legs. Stroking gently upon the backs of soft, dark caterpillars. Worms were my favorite to catch. Slimy, squirming dirt eaters with no legs at all. I often kept them and they often died. Many friends of mine enjoyed splitting them in half to watch both parted sides wiggle. I hated it because I loved worms and I never did it myself, but I also didn't always stop them. Sometimes I liked to watch too. Something was fascinating and magnetizing about the way a worm squirmed in pain when you split it. How both sides wiggled aimlessly. I believe this is the cause of me. Why I've been increasingly drawn to the morbid over the years. I think that's where it started.
Also the trauma of accidentally killing my pet mouse by putting it and my brothers mouse into a container and shaking it when I was 6 because I thought they would find it fun-
Ughhhhhhhhhhhh I fucking hate this
She had a heart attack after I released her and the other mouse, who ended up fine and just did...hyper mouse things because he was hyper??...but I really really don't wanna talk about it beyond that because it made me really sad and upset and I felt horrible about it. I don't know what the fuck I thought would happen when I did that tbh. God, I feel so horrible about it still 14 years later...I just needed to get it off my chest because I've only told therapists about it. I lied when my parents found her and asked if I knew how she died. I even, hid the container. I never told them and Ive cried about it so many times. I know this wasn't supposed to be what this post was about but fuck, it makes me feel awful.
Anyways, I'm gonna go throw up now
#childhood#my childhood#single digit years#bugs#worms#tw#bug death#killing worms#pet death#dead pet#accident#guilt#killing of pet#it haunts me#still#confession#dark secrets#divorce#drinking#parental absence#hunger#im so so so sorry#vent#tw vent
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Life can wait
You and Jack have just started recently dating you were in Atlanta in your shared house with Jack while he was on tour. You guys missed one another so much it honestly hurt sometimes sure you both had FaceTime and could call and text each other but it wasn’t the same as seeing him in person.
You just got back from school and went into the kitchen to make something to eat when you got a FaceTime call from Jack you smiled fixing your hair a bit then answered his call.
“Hey my pretty baby how are you today ?” Jack questioned looking into the screen at you. His eyes sparkled whenever he talked to you as well did yours.
“It’s was okay today I just really miss you Jack is all” you mumbled frowning as you spoke. Jack felt guilty even though he knew it wasn’t his fault he still felt like he wasn’t doing enough for you.
“I’m sorry baby but how was your day ?” Jack asked sitting up in the hotel bed so he can get a good look at you and to pay attention to you more.
“Oh it was crazy my friends roommate ended up losing a bet and I guess she had to end up running around on campus in nothing but her bra and panties !!” You explained giggling at the video your friend showed you. Jack smiled he loved how express if you got when you told stories he watched as you rolled your eyes throwing your hands up he truly fucking was lucky he thought.
“Damn that’s rough. I’m glad you’re enjoying yourself baby and making new friends. I’m proud of you because I know it hasn’t been easy getting to we’re you’re at right now.”
“Oh stop it, I don’t wanna start crying right now. I miss you” you explained pouting slightly.
“I miss you too my sweet girl, I wish you were here right now.” Jack frowned and you sighed you truly did miss him.
“I know me too babe but once you come back from tour everything will be good again” you smiled trying your best to put on a good act for Jack but he knew better.
“I know baby it just feels so forever away I still have 4 weeks left of tour and I just wanna be with you so bad.” Jack said God he just wanted to pick you up and spin you around and laugh along as you giggled he just wanted to kiss your lips so bad he just wanted to feel you again.
“Can you remind me when your spring break starts again baby ?”
“Uh on the 25th of this month why ?” You questioned looking down at your phone in confusion.
“I’ll be performing at the house of blues in New York and I wanted to fly you down because I got the day off on the 24th and just wanted to see my girl.” Jack said and you grinned nodding your head eagerly.
“I’d love that Jack I really would” you said and just like that you found yourself in New York a few weeks later. It was just how you pictured it charming but chaotic at the same time.
You and Jack spent the entire day roaming the streets of New York while talking about anything and everything you could think of.
Ever since you both got together Jack has always planned his days around you. You came first in his life now even though you hated when he said that but it was the truth you were his sweet angel and he’d do anything to make you happy.
Once you guys arrived to the hotel room you sat in the bed in awe at the amazing view of New York below when suddenly you felt Jack’s hands snaking around your waist he rested his head ontop of yours.
“What’s going on in that pretty little mind ?” Jack asked as he looked out the window as well.
“Nothing I just wish we could’ve explored a bit more.” You said and turned around to face Jack who smiled once he saw your face.
“Well mamas the world is ours and we always got tomorrow after the show if you aren’t tired that is. Now let’s order something to eat babes” jack said and you nodded rubbing your stomach just now realizing how hungry you were.
After you both ate Jack asked you what your favorite part of the day was.
“Well I think it was just spending time with you Jack I love when we get time together and besides that I think it was when you tried to shove that whole greasy pizza down your throat you’re crazy Jack.” You giggled throwing your hands in the air. Jack couldn’t help but smile watching as you talked more about the day. He loved how when you smiled your dimples showed and how your eyes always closed when you laughed too hard. You stopped once you noticed him looking you blushed and looked away.
“Am I talking to much ?” You said feeling embarrassed now he smacked his teeth and grabbed your chin gently pulling your face towards him.
“First of all don’t shy away from me baby ever and I’m just admiring you I love you Y/N” Jack said and your eyes widened you guys never told each other you loved one another yet.
“Fuck I’m sorry Y/N I’m fucking dum-“ jack said but was cut off.
“I love you too Jack I just wasn’t sure if you were ready to say it to each other yet but I’m glad you said it.” You said smiling as Jack sighed in relief and pulled you closer into him.
“Well I love you so fucking much Y/N more than you love me.” Jack said laying down and pulling you onto his chest you giggled.
“Uh no I don’t think so Jack I love you way more” you giggled and that’s how the entire night went the both of you debating who loved who more and just spending the night talking about whatever.
( honestly wanna thank @halfmoondaze for this one she’s so fucking talented I love this collab I did with her 🤍 I hope everyone enjoys it as much as we did when writing it )
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What if Mc was a person who don't take shit from anyone, demon human or Angel, and just was this small sassy piece of dynamite? How’d everyone react?
MC who takes no shit - brothers + undateables
Satans pact and chapter 16 spoilers
Lucifer:
So you've chosen death
This man can't even handle the smallest sign of defiance
an actual bitch boy
"You are here because you were picked to attend, you were listed to be under my care, this is MY house! You follow MY rules-"
"hold that for a second, I'm calling Dia."
He's so easy to rile up
You feed off his quick temper, he makes it too easy
But he deserves it
Too many times he thinks he can just control you and his brothers
You've cut Mammon down from the ceiling, when faced to Lucifer you just handed him the rope
"If you want someone to hang so much, do it yourself, old man, it is your fault after all - if you didn't leave your cursed valuables lying around Mammon would of never tried to steal them and get himself cursed."
Mammon:
He both scared of you and in awe of you
He's surprise you're still alive at this point
Of course you're alive, the great Mammon is looking after you
You have definitely called him out for being a tsundere
"So, you wanna make out or do you wanna keep yammering on?"
"I- You can't just be saying that to demons!! Why would I wanna kiss some human-"
"Kay, I'm going to go see if Levi wants to-"
"WAIT! DON'T DO THAT!"
Whenever he steals something from you or the others, you go on a man hunt
"Sell your own stuff! You always have something new in there! or are you that scummy and bad with money you need to steal off others ?"
Please have some mercy with him
In general, finds your sassy attitude interesting, always wonders what the new comment or roast will be
Levithan:
Scared and in awe but times it by 10
Is mostly terrified because you make him upset
Didn't expect to be called a guilt tripping bitch
"You're busy? I get it, I mean - why would you ever want to spend time with someone like me? I'm just some nobody, a yucky otaku who no one wants to be around-"
"I get having a low self esteem but shitting on yourself at EVERY given chance and then go on to be about how yucky and worthless you are when I just wanna spend time with someone else?! You can fuck right off!"
He thinks you're a delinquent, has gotten you a cool jacket so you can put it over your shoulders
You can pat him on the back for at least being able to stand up for himself, he's always ready to brawl and never shys away from calling his brothers out
Always lets you wear his headset and just watches as you cuss and sass any petty player
Satan:
It seems you keep choosing death
You wanna get sassy and back talk the literal embodiment of wrath????!
So - do you want be buried or cremated?
You take none of his shit
He respects it just as much as he hates It
We all know he has good control over his anger but there's a limit on how much of your attitude he can stand
"You're so petty, do you have to be a smart-ass about everything?"
"that's rich coming from the guy who threatened to cut off my limbs because I wouldn't make a pact wth him."
When he doesn't respond you just nod to yourself, checking your nails
"Yeah that's what I thought."
If he needs to come up with a good come back he always asks you
Sits back and watches you argue with Lucifer
Asmodeus:
He loves it until you call him out
Didn't expect to get psychologically profiled
"At first I thought you were just a narcissist but now I see you're just a Insecure man who placed his value on his looks and how people perceive him-"
" You can't seem to handle any type of bad press about you-"
"Oh? Did you make yourself look bad then blame it on someone else because they just wanted to do what they please? Oh boo hoo!"
You could end this man's career with a single word
But, if you're 'no shit' attitude is targeted to someone else? He's all over it
Will sigh dreamily and watch you chew Someone out
Unless you get super roasty and rude - he encourages you to talk to him with an attitude
"You're so hot when you talk like that~"
Knows you aren't all sass, he definitely enjoys your more softer side
Will invite you to a sleep over so you two can gossip and rant over a bottle of wine and do a mini spar
Beezlebub:
What prompted you to be this sassy? He's baby!
I mean, he did throw a fit when you ate his custard and destroyed your room
Sure, constant hunger is painful but he can survive without one custard
Yeah- he can be up for roasting and being chased out
"You've told me you literally want to eat me! How is that comforting?! You're hunger tantrums are already bad enough but now I know I could be on the menu?"
"No thanks! Do the hokey pokey and turn your goofy ass around!"
Has a habit of being your stool, he doesn't mind really, finds it pretty adorable actually
You're so small compared to demons so when a gym jock is being rude about you or Beel
You just snap your fingers and he'll sit down, hunch over and put his hands over his head
You'll just step on his palms (you take off your shoes angrily whilst telling the jock demon to not move an inch) and just go off
He understands where alot of your cusses come from, he agrees with you and feels guilty on his behaviour
Really likes it when you stand up for him; normally no one does that because he's such a big guy
Belphie does it but things can be abit disheartening when your twin Is the only one rushing to help you
Belphegor:
You know what? Understandable, please, fire away
Just keep making jokes and references to all the bad things he's done
He needs to be put in his place
The dude has literally killed you! If you weren't going to give him an earful when you recovered then what was the point?!
This man is one of many bastards in this school
Either watches you go off on people or sleeps mid arguement to stop hearing you call him out
"I'm innocent, I haven't done a single thing wrong in my life."
"wELL-"
He will always respect you for looking out for his twin, when he can't do anything he always looks to you to step in
Has held things out of your reach just to watch you get mad
UNDATEABLES↓
Diavolo:
You've chosen a fate worse than death at the cost of sassing a pure man
He gets upset but is very understanding, it's his companions who will handle your fate
I honestly, CANNOT, think of a reason you'd want to be sassy or rude to him
If it's just in general and not meant to offend him; he thinks it's very attractive
You've got a silver tongue and able to make a comment without much thought
Very impressive
His type is Lucifer very simple
You'd call him out for letting dangerous behaviour happen at the school and putting loads of faith into Lucifer
Perhaps point out how reckless inviting humans to a demon realm - who could easily be killed if they don't have an escort with them at all times
But other than that? He's safe
Barbatos:
He is your executioner
He can handle a jab
But he will remind you he was the one who saved you if you get too out spoken with him
that only gets him more cussed out though
"So you're aware of pretty much every event that happens, Right?"
"You could say that."
"Then shouldn't you use those abilities to then help anyone and stop all sorts of tragedies?"
"My Lord has stopped me from using my powers freely."
OKAY THAT'S SOMETHING YOU CAN CUSS DIA OUT ON
In general, you just make comments about how vague he is
He's too mysterious that it's just ridiculous
You want to get to know him but he just gives you that smug look and amused laughter
Solomon:
Can you really be blamed for being Sus of him?
He's so suspicious, for what?! For what reason?!
He doesn't like being called old? Depending how disrepectful you wanna be, you like to use the nickname "Grandpa Solo"
"I'm surprised you aren't actually some evil Wizard trying to get the brothers pacts so you can be the most powerful human alive and take over the Devildom."
"Who says I'm not?"
He's witty and smug
You're sassy and explosive
You're a duo that should be feared
The two powerful humans banding together? I'm sure there's a website on the two of you with theories of your evil plans
Simeon:
Finds your attitude delightful!
Didn't want his kindness to annoy you but it did, sometimes it is a crime to be Too nice
His favoured company are all sassy bastards so it only makes sense he likes you very much
"You gave them bangles that made them into SAINTS! that's fucking weird! And you had them turn into angels despite the fact they have truama from heaven!"
as mischievous as Simeon can be
His angelic nature really does pop out alot
"aren't you tired of being nice? Don't you want to go ape-shit?"
"Of course not, there's no need but thank you for worrying about me, I know I can seem force and strange to you but I really do enjoy being kind to others."
"disgusting."
Almost fought him during the TSL event; you didn't expect him to do a 360 and become super strict
Despite your hard shell you care alot about the people you're close with and can't stand to see them upset
Luke:
It appears you're trying to throw hands with a 10 year old
He does seem demonphobic
Why are you always denying your true feeling??!! Just admit you like demons!
You try not to swear and be outwardly rude Infront of him
But sometimes this little boy really tests your patience
"Okay species-ist."
Is your main response when he's being a tsundere
He's the one who's the safest from your attitude
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Under Pastel Skies - 11
Sugar daddy!Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: Modern!AU Bucky doesn’t need anyone, especially not a sugar baby. He isn’t that desperate… but she smiles so sweetly and she’s endearingly awkward, and he’s so lonely. She’s an artist, a painter, the type of person who always puts others before herself. Throwing caution to the wind Bucky offers her a place to live, a place where she can finally paint whatever her heart desires. He doesn’t need much in return; a friend, a muse.
Word Count: 6,696
Warnings: Unprotected Sex (non explicit)
A/N: And finally... Just a word before, and it’s important, I wanted to put the explicit between two ‘*’ but I settled for one at the end because explicit means different things to different people. So whenever it starts to get too steamy for you, skip to the *. Thank you for reading, I appreciate your support!
Wannabe sugar daddies, don’t interact with this post.
Bucky moved behind the kitchen counter when he heard the door close. You and your guests were in the hallway where you took their coats and asked them to remove their shoes. He took a deep breath to calm himself. He had to stay calm, you depended on him tonight.
“It smells nice in here. What did y-”
Bucky straightened himself up and tried to keep a casual, friendly smile on his face as he came face-to-face with Okoye. He had seen enough pictures of your siblings to recognize them.
She looked surprised to find someone else there. He raised his hand and waved, and she frowned at him in confusion. The rest of the guests stopped short when they saw him waving like a dork. You pushed through them and came to his side.
“Guys, this is my friend, Bucky,” you said. “He’s the one who invited you.”
“Thanks for the invite. I hope you like wine,” Scott said, extending his hand as he walked over to Bucky.
“I sure do.”
Then he shook Wanda and Okoye’s hands, telling them how good it was to finally meet them. Your sisters introduced him to their partners, W’Kabi and Edwin who preferred to be called ‘Viz’.
You led them to the living room while Bucky prepared the drinks. W’Kabi decided to stay behind and help Bucky carry the drinks to the living room. He praised Bucky for having such a nice home.
The conversation seemed to flow easily between your siblings, though as Bucky arrived with your drink, he couldn’t help but notice that you were not participating. You took the glass from his hand, smiled then went back to staring at the coffee table. He sat next to you and rubbed soothing strokes on your arm before he reached for his drink.
Okoye was telling everyone that she had decided to return to New York after King T’Chaka’s passing. His son carried the mantle of the Black Panther, surrounding himself with his father’s Dora Milaje, but Okoye wanted to live closer to her own family.
She was a Dora Milaje, loyal to her king, but she was also a sister, loyal to her family. She felt like there were no good choices, and it ate away at her until her king found a solution to her problem. His little sister, Shuri, was starting her own business in the United States and needed her own bodyguards. Okoye accepted and W’Kabi followed her.
Scott didn’t share much. He showed everyone pictures of his little girl, Cassie, and said he was now working at Baskin-Robbins.
Wanda was evasive about her life and whereabouts. She told everyone that she’d been backpacking across Europe and met Viz, a wealthy businessman, on a beautiful sunny day in Berlin. They’d been attached at the hip ever since.
“And of course, you’re all invited to the wedding,” Wanda said while Okoye admired the ring. “It’s going to be a small wedding. I just need my family.”
“Excuse-me,” you said, standing up abruptly. “I think something’s burning.”
Bucky watched you disappear into the kitchen. He glanced at the group again, no one was paying attention so he followed you into the kitchen.
He found you leaning back against the counter, your arms crossed over your chest, staring into nothing. He walked over to you and pulled you into a one-armed hug that you accepted with a pleased sigh.
“I don’t think I can do this,” you said, your voice muffled against his shirt.
“Is it a code ‘flamingo’?”
“No,” you chuckled, pulling away. You took a deep breath and leaned back against the counter again. “It’s just...”
You huffed, unable to find the words and grabbed him by the waist, seeking his warmth again. Bucky let out a surprised laugh as you squeezed him tightly. He wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pressed you against his chest.
“I know it’s hard,” he said, kissing the crown of your head. “It’ll be over soon, angel.”
Bucky rocked you side to side in a slow, soothing rhythm until you were practically melting against him. He felt you take a deep breath, your nose buried in his chest. He didn’t want the moment to end, but you’d been gone for several minutes now, and the others would barge in the kitchen soon.
He pressed a long kiss to your forehead and gently pushed you away, his arm falling to your waist. You smoothed out the wrinkles you had made in his shirt without looking him in the eye.
He could tell you were thinking about something but before he could ask what was on your mind, you kissed the slight cleft in his chin and quickly moved away from him.
He smiled to himself, his heart beating a little faster.
You were transferring the dinner rolls from the pan to the basket when Scott poked his head into the kitchen. Bucky was still smiling to himself like a lovesick idiot.
“Everything okay?” Scott asked, taking a step closer to you. You turned to him and nodded. “It’s kinda weird, isn’t it?”
“What?”
“Seeing each other again after all this time.” He leaned his forearm on the counter next to you and smelled the bread. “Baby Wanda’s getting married. Did you know they flew me first class? And the hotel is incredible. I feel like a prince.”
“Viz seems very nice.”
“I can’t believe Wanda backpacked through Europe,” Scott scoffed. “She hates camping.”
“Yeah, I know.”
Bucky watched as Scott leaned closer and whispered in your ear. “Listen, I wanted to thank you for everything you did for me and for Cassie-” Bucky quietly left the two of you alone. It was a private conversation and he didn’t want to impose himself.
He finished setting the table, and soon everyone joined in. Bucky was sitting with his back to the kitchen, W’Kabi sitting next to him. You took a seat across from him, Wanda sitting next to you. Okoye sat next to Wanda, facing Scott, and Viz took a seat at the end of the table.
The food was good, and everyone complimented Bucky on his cooking skills. He said that you had helped him a lot, but you refused to take credit for chopping up a bunch of vegetables. You gushed about his cooking skills and his delicious recipes. It made them salivate just thinking about it.
“And your house is amazing,” Scott said with a dreamy look on his face. “A place like that...” he sighed, “that must have cost you an arm and a leg.” The whole room fell silent, and something that sounded like a foot hitting a shin made the table jump. “Ouch, why did yo- oh.”
Okoye was looking at him with the widest pair of eyes Bucky had ever seen. She looked furious and exasperated at the same time. The others stared at their plates as the uncomfortable silence grew.
Bucky glanced at you, not surprised to find you smirking. You knew he lived for moments like these, and you knew he already had the perfect comeback. As he watched you bit your lip, trying to contain a little giggle, he couldn’t help but love you even more.
“It was the original price but I’m a good negotiator,” Bucky said. “Only cost me an arm.”
W’Kabi was the first to laugh at his joke, then the whole table broke into fits of laughter. Scott looked equally amused and relieved.
“I’m so sorry, I didn’t-”
“No problem,” Bucky cut him off.
“Can’t take you anywhere,” Okoye said with a smile and a shake of her head. She turned to Bucky as everyone calmed down. “So, Bucky, strange name, uh? What do you do for a living?”
“My name is James, Bucky’s just a nickname.” He wiped his mouth and set the napkin down. “I’m a writer.”
“A pretty good one, judging by your apartment.”
“I’m all right.” He shrugged. “Literally.” Scott snickered at the joke.
“He’s too modest,” you said. “His books are best sellers. They’re autobiographical, he’s very sincere and honest and funny. He has a way of making you laugh about things that are pretty awful.”
“Yeah, we saw that,” Wanda said with a grin. “Are you working on anything at the moment?”
Bucky shifted a little in his seat. “Yeah, it’s uh,” he cleared his throat. “It’s a very important one. I don’t really want to talk about it. Don’t wanna jinx it.”
He wasn’t going to tell your family that he was writing a book about how he fell in love with you. That’d be pretty awkward.
“I understand,” Okoye nodded, then looked at you. “You’ve been really quiet tonight.” You shrugged. “I thought you were still living with Natasha. Do you still work at the hotel? Where is it again? Chelsea? That’s one hell of a commute from Brooklyn.”
“I wasn’t exactly living with Natasha,” you said. “I was crashing on her sofa. And no, I quit six months ago. I’m a full time artist now.”
“That’s great,” Scott said, raising his glass toward you in a silent toast. “How’s that working out for you?”
“Not too bad. Bucky’s friend is a professional photographer. He helped me set up my website. The pictures he took are amazing. I sold a few pieces online but I’m struggling to find gallery representation.”
“Hey, as long as it pays the bills.”
“I don’t really have to worry about bills these days.”
“What do you mean?”
The room got quiet again, and Bucky could feel the tension in the air, buzzing like static electricity. All eyes were suddenly on you, waiting for an explanation. Bucky knew you were not going to lie to them. He locked eyes with you, and braced himself for impact.
You set your fork down and folded your hands in your lap.
“Well, Bucky and I have an arrangement.”
“I don’t like where this is going,” Scott cut you off.
“I’m not going to beat around the bush and I’m not going to use pretty words to make it sounds more appealing,” you continued as if you hadn’t heard him. “He’s my sugar daddy.”
“You’re joking. Please, tell me you’re joking.”
“Nope,” you replied smugly, popping the ‘p’.
A chorus of voices rose in protest. Okoye and Scott were shouting while the others kept glancing around wondering what had just happened. Wanda was strangely quiet next to you.
“Oh, shut up!” you shouted. “You left me alone. All of you. We were all grieving our brother but it doesn’t give you the right to fuck off when things get tough. Do you know how fucking terrifying it was when mom started to lose her memories? Or when the police drove her home at three in the morning after one of her spells? No, you don’t know because you weren’t there.”
Bucky had never seen you so upset before, and he didn’t quite know what to do but he felt like you needed to get it off your chest.
“I didn’t have friends or boyfriends. I went to class, then got home, hoping mom hadn’t set the house on fire. I took the first decent job I could find because she needed a new home and professional help. Without Natasha I would have been homeless.” You turned to Bucky. “I’m so sorry, I’ve ruined dinner. You’ve worked so hard.”
“It’s okay,” he replied immediately. “I’m with you.”
“God, you’re so nice,” you sighed, then turned to your siblings. “See? That’s the kind of person he is. I was lonely and lost, and I found him and he’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. He’s kind and sweet, he’s selfless and generous, and you have no right to criticize our relationship.”
Bucky stared at you, his mouth hanging open a little. Slowly he shook himself out of his trance and reached for your hand on the table. He had no idea you thought so highly of him.
“We needed each other,” you continued. “And I don’t care what you think.”
Dinner was officially ruined but Bucky didn’t care. He smiled at you, soft and reassuring, and let go of your hand when you smiled back. He was proud of you for speaking up, for standing up for yourself.
Bucky noticed Wanda and Viz exchanging looks.
“Okay so, since we’re sharing truth bombs,” Wanda said, shifting a bit in her seat. “I wasn’t really traveling through Europe. I went to Sokovia and after that, everything’s kind of a blur. I did things I’m not proud of. I wanted to forget,” she paused and sighed, “everything. I hit rock bottom, pretty hard, and checked myself into a psychiatric hospital. That’s where I met Viz. He helped me send you those postcards. I screwed up, real bad, but I couldn’t tell you guys the truth. I’m not really proud of myself.”
“I got fired from Baskin-Robbins for yelling at a costumer.”
“Okay!” Okoye exclaimed in her big sister voice. “Enough truth bombs.” She pointed at you. “I’m sorry you had to do this alone, it wasn’t right but we’re here now and we won’t let you down. As for the sugar daddy thing... well you’re a grown woman, you can do whatever you want. Bucky seems like a nice guy.” She turned to Wanda. “We are all dealing with our pain in our own way. I’m not judging you. We’re here for you, Wanda.”
“I know,” Wanda said, sniffing.
“And Scott, stop yelling at people.”
“Yeah, good idea.”
Bucky turned to W’Kabi and Viz who looked proud of their girls, albeit a little uncomfortable with the whole situation. Someone started chuckling, he couldn’t tell who it was, but suddenly the whole table broke into a fit of laughter.
“How about some dessert,” he said. “Then you guys can fill me in on some childhood secrets.”
As he walked away from the table, he heard you warn your siblings to keep their mouths shut. They laughed in response, which made Bucky smile. Surely it’d take more than one outburst at a family dinner to fix your broken bond but it was a good start.
During dessert, he learned that everyone called you ‘Splotchy’ because you painted on the living room walls as a child. He learned that you always wanted to play board games with Okoye. Your favourite one was Mystery Date.
“She had a crush on Tyler, the beach date.”
“No, that’s not true, don’t listen to them.”
When they finally left, you spent a few extra moments hugging everyone. Promises were made, and Bucky couldn’t help but smile as he watched you wave goodbye to your siblings.
It was just the two of you again, and the mountain of dirty dishes and silverware. He told you not to worry about the dishes, but you knew if he went to bed he wouldn't be able to sleep, not when the kitchen was such a mess so you cleaned together.
He loved these moments with you. There was something very peaceful about the night; the dark skies, the soft lights, the quiet apartment, knowing people all around town where getting ready for bed. It used to make him feel tiny and isolated but now, with you, the night didn’t seem so frightening anymore.
A few weeks went by, and things were changing a bit. You spent your Saturday mornings with your sisters, bonding, and facetimed with Scott at least once a week.
Bucky also noticed a subtle change in Sam’s behaviour. He seemed happier and he wondered if his friend had already forgotten Natasha.
It was almost June, and the building’s swimming pool reopened as the weather got warmer. Despite living there for several years, he had never gone near that swimming pool until you dragged him out one scorching afternoon.
The rooftop was surprisingly calm, apart for the group of children playing in the pool. There were people sunbathing around the pool, enjoying a good book, socializing. You dropped your bag on the floor and laid out your towel on the reclining chair.
Bucky had never seen you in a bathing suit before and it caught him completely off guard, but what made him literally growl was seeing the little pendant of your necklace rest against your skin. He didn’t know why but it awoke something in him.
You both slathered on sunscreen before you went for a swim. Bucky recognized a few neighbours, and while they all knew he only had one arm, they had never seen him shirtless before. Bucky didn’t mind their inquisitiveness, as long as you were beside him.
“Do you think the kids peed in the water?” you asked as you rested against the edge of the pool.
“Probably,” Bucky cringed. “When I was a kid, my mom told me that there were chemicals that turned the water a different color when someone pees.”
“Ew,” you laughed.
After a while, he lay out in the sun, enjoying the feel of the sun on his skin. He could still hear you playing water polo with the kids when a shadow passed over him. With a frown, he pushed his sunglasses up onto his forehead.
“It’s nice to see you, James,” his neighbour beamed, taking a seat on your unoccupied chair. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you out here.”
“Hi.” He wasn’t surprised when his voice came out hoarse since he had been on the verge of falling asleep. With the grace of a walrus, he propped himself into a sitting position. “Yes, well, swimming pools are more fun when you’re not alone.”
His neighbour turned to look at you. “Congratulations, by the way. I didn’t know you were seeing someone. Must have been serious if you two moved in together. How long has it been since she moved in? Six months?”
“Seven.”
He knew he should have corrected her, you weren’t his girlfriend, but it felt good. It was just a harmless little lie.
“Does she make you happy?”
“I’m the happiest man on earth,” he replied with a bright smile, then slid his sunglasses back on his face.
His neighbour chuckled quietly. “I can see that!”
When you returned to your seat, his neighbour was gone. You hummed to yourself as you settled into your seat, big droplets of water running down your body. Bucky tilted his head down and peered at you over the top of his sunglasses.
“Where did you get that popsicle?”
“Jealous?” You licked your treat without looking at him. “The kids’ mom gave me one as a thank you for looking after her kids.”
“That looks good.”
“So good.”
“Mind sharing it with me?”
You pursed your lips thoughtfully, then held out your popsicle. As Bucky leaned closer, you pulled it away and jumped to your feet. The look he gave you was one of pure betrayal.
“Oh, angel, you should have never done that.”
He grinned to himself when he saw a shiver run through you. When he stood up, you took a step back. He strutted toward you, his grin predatory. The floor was slippery so you couldn’t go very far.
“Are you ready to share now?”
“No!”
The popsicle melted down your hand, creating a mess. You turned your arm and licked the drops of popsicle juice from the inside of your wrist. It distracted you long enough for Bucky to wrap his arm around your waist, pulling you against him. You squealed and grabbed him around the neck to keep from falling while also trying not to smush the popsicle against his chest.
You waved the treat in front of his face and he tried to bite off the tip of your popsicle. It made you laugh, your body sagging against him. His face was close to yours. He was so close he could smell the artificial orange scent of your popsicle.
Your laughter died down and your breath caught in your throat when you saw the way he was looking at you. Without thinking, he went for it. He felt your fingers flex against his skin, urging him closer.
His lips were barely a breath away from yours when one of the kids repeatedly slapped your thigh, obviously oblivious to what the two grownups were about to do.
“Come back! We haven’t finished the game,” the kid whined. “Come on!”
Reluctantly, you let go of Bucky and took a step back. Your exhale came out shaky, and in your almost-kiss-induced trance you handed him the popsicle without saying anything before you followed the kid.
You turned back to look at him, one hand sprawled across your stomach, the other across your chest. He knew you were feeling it too: the butterflies, the racing heartbeat, that pleasant heat going through your body.
The difference between like and love.
A week later, he came home to an empty apartment. He climbed the stairs to your studio but you weren’t there. Instead, he found a canvas stretched out smooth and tight on the floor, and several bowls of paint arranged in a semi-circle around it.
He knew you were home, you wouldn’t leave without your phone or bag. Out of curiosity, he went up on the roof and let out a relieved breath when he found you.
You were sitting on the edge of the rooftop with your knees up to your chin and your arms wrapped loosely around your shins. You looked so beautiful in the golden hue of the setting sun.
He stood there, watching you as if he was looking at a painting in a museum. Entranced. You hadn’t noticed him yet, and a quick glance around the roof told him you were alone.
Slowly, he made his way to you and took in your appearance: a short sleeve white shirt and a pair of denim overalls. The shirt was surprisingly spotless but the overalls were covered in dried paint splatters of different colours.
“I looked everywhere for you,” he spoke softly, trying not to disturb you.
“Did you?”
You straightened up a little but kept your eyes trained on the horizon. Bucky sat close to your feet and let his hand slip under the hem of your jeans to close around your ankle. A sigh slipped past your lips, and he let his fingertips linger for a moment on your smooth skin.
He knew you had a meeting today, and judging by the resigned look on your face, it didn’t go well.
“What’s on your mind, angel?” he said, caressing the top of your foot.
“I was thinking about the night we met. God, I was so nervous,” you said, laughing softly. “I told you that agreeing to meet you was like choosing between a pack of wolves and jumping off a cliff.”
“I remember,” he chuckled.
“I never told you how glad I am that I jumped off that cliff,” you said. “I’d never jumped head first into something, not knowing what was going to happen. Now I think I’m addicted to it. Before I met you, I was living for others. Everything single decision was thoroughly analysed. There was no mystery, fun, or impulsiveness. I put my entire life on hold, and now I see that I can’t do that anymore.”
“What are you going to do?”
You paused, searching for the right words. “I don’t know if I want to turn my passion into a career. Painting is my safe-place, and right now it’s giving me so much anxiety. I haven’t had the inspiration to paint in weeks.” You looked at him and pressed your lips together tightly. “And, if I don’t want to become a full time artist, then I guess our deal is off.”
Bucky stared at you, mouth agape. He really hadn’t seen it coming.
“Please, don’t be angry,” you pleaded. “I don’t want to stop seeing you. When he didn’t answer, you leaned forward and touched his face.
“I could never be angry with you, angel,” he said, kissing the inside of your palm. “I understand, and I’ll help you however I can.”
“I’m not sure yet. I’m still thinking about it.” You looked away from him and stared at the sky. “Do you know that feeling when you stand in a high place and you think about jumping? You don’t want to jump and you don’t do it, but there’s that urge.”
“I think I do.”
“It’s called ‘call of the void’. People say that it’s an affirmation of our will to live. That knowing we’re going to die one day makes us appreciate life even more.” You looked at him. “I want to jump but I can’t. I’m scared.” You lowered your voice. “I don’t want to ruin what we have.”
“You’re scaring me a little. You can’t talk about jumping when we’re sitting on the edge of the roof.”
You chuckled under your breath. “It’s a metaphor.”
“Let’s go home. We’ll make dinner together, put on some music and pretend we’re in a movie.” He got to his feet and held out his hand to you. “Please.”
You took his hand and let him lead you to the staircase.
Once you were inside the apartment, he removed his shoes and you removed yours. Silence settled between the two of you as you entered the kitchen. Bucky moved behind the counter while you stood close to the dining table.
When he chanced a glance at you, he saw you staring into nothing while you played with the charm on your necklace, rolling it back and forth on its chain. You often did that when you were daydreaming.
Bucky walked over to you and placed his hand on top of yours, halting your movements. You let go of the pendant and held his hand instead. He ran his thumb soothingly over your fingers.
“Tell me what you’re thinking,” he spoke softly.
“If I say it, it’s going to change everything.”
He pressed your joined hands against his chest, over his heart. “No, it’ll make it real.”
He let go of your hand and cupped the side of your face. You leaned closer until you were only inches apart. His thumb traced your cheekbone, then moved to trace the outline of your bottom lip.
He let you come to him, let you take that first step, and when your lips brushed against his, he closed his eyes and sighed. He kissed your parted lips; once, twice, three times, tiny little kisses against your trembling lips.
His kiss grew bolder, turning into something so intimate, so passionate and intense that tears gathered in his eyes. He pressed his mouth more firmly against yours, his large hand still cupping the side of your face. His bad shoulder jutted forward as if his missing arm wanted to touch you.
He let out a groan, frustrated that he only had one hand to finally explore your skin. Sensing his inner turmoil, you held onto his bad shoulder and pulled him against you.
His tongue swept into your mouth, moving in a slow and deliberate rhythm. A growl escaped him and he deepened the kiss, tasting, sliding, retreating and entering again. He poured everything he had into the kiss.
“Bucky,” you moaned after your broke the kiss, breathless.
Hearing his name fall from your lips, your voice hoarse with desire, sparked something inside him. He swiped his thumb over your bottom lip, feeling the softness and collecting the moisture that had gathered there.
“You’re so beautiful,” he said, looking positively entranced. “My pretty angel.”
You pulled him in for another kiss and wrapped your arms around his neck, your slightly cold hands felt amazing against his heated skin. He pressed himself against you, letting you feel the rise and fall of his chest, the desperation in the jerky thrust of his hips.
He needed more but he wasn’t going to force you into anything. He was more than happy to stand here and kiss you for hours. He cupped the back of your neck and rubbed the sensitive skin behind your ear with his thumb.
“I’m yours,” he spoke against your lips, his eyes screwed shut.
You pulled back to look him in the eye, searching his face. He opened his eyes and you saw nothing but honesty in the depth of his eyes.
You untangled yourself from him and took his hand. Slowly, you took a step back, then another, his hand still in yours. His eyebrows lifted slightly when you bit your bottom lip and gave him a coy look.
He nearly growled again, the wolf inside him eager to touch you, feel you, claim you. He stood taller, his chest puffed out and breathing fast.
You led him up the stairs to the second floor and turned on the light in the corridor. You slowly made your way down the corridor with him behind you.
But instead of turning left towards his bedroom, you turned right into your studio, and it changed everything. Your studio was your sanctuary, your safe place, and knowing that you were about to bare your soul and body to him tamed his inner wolf.
You hesitated at the threshold of the room and glanced over your shoulder to look at him. Bucky squeezed your hand to encourage you.
“I bought some body paint on my way home,” you said, letting go of his hand to step into the room. “I wanted to try something different, something more personal. I wanted to use my body to express my emotions, to create something raw and messy. My interpretation of somatic art therapy.”
You moved around the darkened room; bent down to adjust the canvas on the floor and made sure the bowls of paint were still full.
“I sat there and thought of my mom and Pietro,” you continued, barefoot on the canvas. “I only feel sadness and anger, and I don’t want to create something that makes me feel sad. And I realized the only thing that keeps me inspired is hope.”
Turning to face him, you held your hand out, palm up, and his eyes widened at your silent request. Without thinking twice, he joined you on the canvas. It was both soft and scratchy under his feet.
Bucky watched as you unbuckled the right strap of your overalls and slipped the second strap off your shoulder. You tugged your jeans down your legs and tossed them aside, leaving you in your underwear and white shirt.
Swallowing thickly, Bucky let his eyes travel up and down your body. He had seen you in your bathing suit before but this was different. Then he reached behind his neck and pulled his shirt over his head, baring his strong chest, hard abdomen and marred skin.
The room was dark; the pastel sky, visible from your studio thanks to the floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room, didn’t provide much light. The light was still on in the corridor, casting a faint golden glow over the room.
You took a step forward to examine his scars more carefully and Bucky took that opportunity to kiss you again, slowly, intimately. He peppered kisses along your jaw and down your neck, then went down on his knees in front of you and continued his journey down your body, pressing soft kisses to your stomach.
He accidentally knocked over two bowls of paint; the dark colours spilled out onto the canvas, chasing each other. His kisses made you light up with desire, your moans music to his ears as your hands came down on the back of his head.
When it all became too much, you gently pushed him into a lying position and helped him out of his jeans. His belt buckle made a faint clink when you pulled it open, and Bucky swore out loud when you planted a wet open-mouthed kiss right below his navel.
In the back of his mind, he knew he wasn’t going to survive the night. He let his head fall back against the canvas and closed his eyes shut. Your talented mouth sent sharp jolts of pleasure through him, making it difficult to breathe.
He could feel the paint stick to his back, creating the shape of his upper body on the canvas. It was strangely exciting.
He moaned, arching his back, and slammed his fist down on the canvas. His fist landed in one of the bowls of paint. It splashed paint everywhere. He looked down at you and saw tiny flecks of paint splayed like freckles on one side of your face.
It made you both giggle. As he pushed himself up into a sitting position, Bucky left a print of his forearm on the canvas. You climbed into his lap, straddling him, then removed your shirt and bra. You wrapped your legs around him, one hand on his upper arm, the other hugging his neck.
Bucky was sitting on the canvas with his legs outstretched and slightly bent at the knees. He held you against his chest, rocking back and forth, his arm around the small of your back. You sighed together, sharing the same breath.
“You have the prettiest nose.” You let your index finger run down the length of his nose, your finger wet with paint. “So pretty.”
Laughing softly, he brushed his nose against yours and kissed you. He changed the angle of his thrusts, catching you by surprise.
“Does that feel good, angel?” he asked, lightly biting your jaw. You answered with a short cry. “Look at me.” You slowly opened your eyes, your movements faltered a little. “You’re so beautiful like this. You drive me crazy, y’know that?”
“Bucky,” you cried out.
He felt you shiver when he moved his hand from your back to your face. He cupped the side of your face and you immediately pressed yourself closer to him, craving the warmth of his touch.
He stopped your movements and looked you in the eye. “I’d do anything for you. Anything. You’re my one and only.”
He laid you down as gently and safely as he could, and once you were lying flat on your back, he sprawled between your thighs. He supported his weight on his forearm, careful not to crush you. Your hands slid up his sides, and as your thumb traced over his ribcage, a violent shiver went through his body.
He had never seen anything more beautiful than watching you come apart; your eyebrows furrowed, your lips parted in a silent ‘o’, the way your body shook in little spams. Absolutely stunning.
Exhausted, he collapsed on top of you and hid his face in the crook of your neck. You wrapped your arms around him and slowly caressed his back.
After he kissed his way down the side of your neck, he straightened himself up into a kneeling position and looked down at you. Your naked body was on display, covered in paint and glistening under the moonlight. He wished he could take a picture, immortalize this memory.
*
He helped you up, and after another passionate kiss he led you to his bathroom, the two of you leaving colourful footprints all over the clean floor.
The bathroom's bright fluorescent light was harsh and unforgiving as you looked at each other in the mirror. Yet you were both glowing, streaks and dots of paint covering your bodies. Bucky turned on the water and waited for it to get hot.
He wrapped his arm around you from behind and rested his chin on your shoulder. “We look like we blew up a rainbow,” he said, smiling wide when it made you chuckle.
In the shower, you took turns washing each other, laughing and kissing until the water turned cold. You pushed his hair out of his eyes and smiled sweetly at him.
“We’re going to catch a cold if we stay here.”
“Mhh,” he replied, kissing your temple. “You’re right. There are clean towels on the shelf. Go, I’ll be right behind you, I still need to take care of my scar.”
“Can I help you?”
Asking for help wasn’t something he was comfortable with, especially after years of being babied by his ex-girlfriend, friends and family. After his accident, he couldn’t do anything on his own. He had to rely on others and it made him feel like a burden, like he was incapable of taking care of himself.
He knew it was all in his head but he couldn’t help it.
“It’s not exactly sexy,” he said.
“I don’t care. I want to help. Tell me what to do and I’ll do it.”
Patiently he guided you step by step through the process of cleaning his stump. You inspected his skin thoroughly, looking for irritation or any signs of infection, then washed it with a mild soap.
He had to admit that watching the woman he loved take such good care of his scar made his stomach fill with butterflies. You looked so focused, so attentive, that he could help but smile and try to kiss you.
“Bucky,” you complained, turning your head away, avoiding his kiss. “This is serious business, stop fooling around.”
He almost said it. I love you. But something was holding him back. He didn’t know what would happen next and it scared him. He didn’t want this to be a one-time thing, but he also realized that things were moving too fast.
“Okay, now you’re shivering,” he said, holding you close, trying to share his body heat with you. “Let’s get out of here.”
He wrapped you in a fluffy bathrobe and patted you dry. Then you carefully dried his scar and applied corticosteroid cream to his shoulder, massaging it gently into his skin. He slipped on his robe and you loosely tied the belt at his waist.
“We should talk about what just happened,” you said, playing with the belt. “What does it mean? What are we going to do? Can we-mph”
He cut you off with a kiss, long and hard and filled with passion. You smiled against his lips and finally pulled away.
“Is that how you’re going to shut me up from now on?” you asked with a grin.
“We’ll talk,” he said, pressing his forehead against yours. “But not tonight.”
“When then?”
“Tomorrow, I promise.”
You looked down at your hands on his belt and nodded. He tilted your head up and lowered his mouth to yours.
“Don’t avoid me tomorrow. Please.”
Your words felt like a knife in his heart, and it left him momentarily speechless. He took one of your hands and pressed it against his heart. “No matter what we decide to do, you’re my angel and I’m yours.”
You shared a long, silent hug before you both decided to call it a night. Once he saw the footprints in the corridor, Bucky felt the urge to clean them. He tried to resist but he knew if he didn't clean he wouldn't be able to sleep.
You understood –you always understood. That’s why he felt so comfortable with you.
Once it was clean, he joined you in the kitchen and made you breakfast for dinner, opening the cupboard and pulling out a couple boxes of cereal you didn’t even know he had.
He told you that he was keeping them for a special occasion. He remembered you telling him that it was your favourite meal as a kid, watching TV with your siblings every Sunday night, eating cereals.
“I can’t believe you remembered that,” you said, tears in your eyes.
The two of you sat on your bed, sharing random thoughts and spoonfuls of cereal. You giggled as milk dribbled down his chin and stained his robe. You wiped at the spot on his chin with your thumb and gave him a chaste kiss.
Your lips tasted sweet. Bucky pulled you in for another kiss, discarding the dirty dishes on your bedside table. You helped each other undress, then slid under the covers where you laid your head on Bucky’s chest.
“Bucky,” your voice cut through the quiet. “Do you mind-”
“Don’t worry, my angel, I’ll wait until you fall asleep.”
“Thank you.”
Part 12
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How would the brothers and undatables react to MC getting appendicitis? (Bonus points if the symptoms start shortly after eating Solomon’s cooking, so they don’t immediately realize how serious it is until the next day when everyone else is recovered but MC has only gotten worse)
Alright I’ve done my research on this, I think I can do it well and if not… enjoy the HC’s of the brothers taking care of a sick MC 🤣
Brothers + Dateables Reaction to MC Getting Appendicitis
WARNING: Mentions of Vomit
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Lucifer
You’d mentioned you had stomach pains after you ate Solomon’s food beforehand so he didn’t think much of your pain since they were all in a lot of pain after eating it too
But after your symptoms didn’t stop and you continued to have dizzy spells and bad nausea, he knew something was wrong
He knew a few human illnesses so he checked you over, examining your stomach only to hear you cry out in pain when your appendix area was touched
Immediately knew what was wrong and went out to get you medication, deciding against going to the hospital and instead treating you with some of his special treating potions
Took care of you while you were ill, getting you whatever you needed and making sure you were comfortable
You got lots of affection from his soft side during this time and Solomon got a nasty scolding
Mammon
He already knew about your stomach pains since he was having them pretty bad too
But after a few days, yours didn’t stop, you continuously threw up and clutched your stomach and even he knew something was wrong
Went to Lucifer for help, clinging to you like you were on deaths door as you keeled over in pain
While you were recovering, he was the sole person who took care of you, feeding you your meds and making sure not to touch your stomach. He knew not to now as last time he did, you almost cried out in pain and he’s honestly traumatised
To say he was cuddly would be an understatement, he held your hand constantly and rarely slept just in case you woke up in agony
Was very overprotective even after you recovered, especially around food that Solomon made
Leviathan
When you came into his room and told him you had a stomach ache after eating Solomon’s food, he couldn’t stay serious as he was real thankful it wasn’t him who ate it
But after a while and you were still curled up on his floor, writhing in pain, he began to panic and ran to your side so fast
He did his research and proceeded to prod a few areas of your stomach until he hits your appendix and you cry out and he immediately knew that this could be more serious than a stomach ache
After taking you to the hospital to get medication, he took care of you in his room all by himself. He didn’t care about the events he was missing on his games as long as you would be ok
Gave you gentle little hugs throughout the day and reminded you to take your meds; attempting to calm you down when the pain got too intense
Scolds you to be more careful next time because he doesn’t wanna lose you and definitely goes to have a word with Solomon after
Satan
He understood how you felt when you told him you had stomach pains as his was pretty bad too
But after observing you and the pain just didn’t stop and you started to throw up and cry out in pain when you do so much as breathe, he got very worried
He researched what could be wrong and then took you to the hospital for you to be examined, taking home your meds so he could take care of you
He supported you during your time of illness, making sure you were comfy in his bed and that you felt as little pain as possible since he hated seeing you in pain so much
He helped you take your medicine and even brought you to the toilet if you felt pretty nauseous, cuddling and shushing you afterwards to comfort you while reading you a book
He absolutely will never let you near any of Solomon’s food again and now has a habit of poking your appendix to make sure you were still ok
Asmodeus
He heard off Satan that Solomon came round with his cooking so wasn’t too surprised when you came in to his room clutching your stomach and telling him about the pain
He didn’t think much of it until a few hours later and you begin to gag and fall to your knees in agony, rushing to your side to check you were alright and then guiding you to the bathroom
Decides to confide in Lucifer about your issues and the two of them take you to the hospital to help and pick up some medication
He coddles you while you get better, taking full care of you so you can recover and get back to normal
Though he’s not too keen of the smell of your vomit, he takes you wherever you need and cleans you up completely, giving you lots of hugs and affection to cheer you up
So glad after you finish recovering and he can get back to his normal routine, but not after telling off Solomon for making you poorly
Beelzebub
He’s not gonna lie, he has stomach pains too so the two of you just look after each other for the day
But when your pains didn’t go away, and you couldn’t eat without feeling immense pain and sickness, he got majorly worried for you
Went to Lucifer for help and decided to take you to the hospital, his hand holding yours the entire way there to comfort you whilst he grabbed your medication
Proceeded to take good care of you while you were sick by helping you take your meds and bringing up food when your appetite finally came back
Gave you lots of hugs, making sure not to touch your stomach and making sure you were comfortable and in no pain while in his embrace
So happy when you begin to recover fully, immediately wrapping his arms around you and squeezing you tight and obviously dragging you far away from Solomon’s food offers
Belphegor
You woke him up to tell him your stomach hurt and he wasn’t too surprised since Beel came in earlier to tell him the same thing
He decided cuddling would help and held you to his chest, gradually drifting off with you in his arms, his hands placed on your stomach to attempt to soothe the pain
He was awoken by your cries of pain, his arms wrapped around your appendix area tightly. He let go and checked you over frantically, inspecting the area that hurt until he slowly figured out what was wrong
Took you to the hospital to examine you further and grabbed some meds to fix you
Spent the next few days looking after you in the attic, feeding you medicine and pieces of food throughout the day and holding you gently in his arms
Wouldn’t let you leave until he could successfully wrap his arms around your stomach without you whining in pain and thoroughly scolded Solomon the next day
Diavolo
He heard about the incident with Solomon’s cooking and decided to come over and take care of you since the brothers were slightly busy and needed some assistance
He made sure not to touch you in places that may hurt and followed the rules provided by Lucifer in order to properly take care of you
He completely just coddled you the entire week and treated you like royalty, taking you to the bathroom when you needed it and held your hand softly
Gave you medicine when you needed it and made sure you were comfy, hugs were given when asked for too
Brought over some of Barbatos’ best cakes to cheer you up and so you could forget about the horrors of Solomon’s food
Ended up forcing Solomon to take a baking lesson with Barbatos
Barbatos
He ended up changing his entire schedule so he could take care of you when he found out you were ill
He did extra research on how to help or soothe any pain you may be feeling and even brought heating pads with him that he gently placed on your stomach
Gave you medicine when you needed it and never let you forget it, also taking you to the bathroom or on walks to stretch your legs when you asked him to
When you felt up to it, he fed you some of his best cakes and shared some hot tea with you, holding you calmly in his arms
He wasn’t much for revealing his soft side but he didn’t hesitate to show how much he cared for you during the week he looked after you by giving you lots of affirmation and cheek caresses
No doubt gave Solomon a telling off and a few lessons on how to cook correctly
Solomon
When you told him about your stomach pains after eating his food, he honestly felt quite guilty and promised he’d make it up to you somehow
But after a few hours and you were still in agony, he got particularly worried and decide to examine you slightly, moving his hands over your stomach until he reached your appendix and you breathed out a pained yelp
Decided to treat you himself since he had a pretty good idea on what was wrong and immediately got to making potions to soothe your pain and treat your condition
While you were recovering, he helped keep your mood high by giving you words of affirmation and making sure you were comfortable in bed. He also found out making you laugh hurt you quite a bit so he tried to refrain from that
Held you in his arms for a while, apologising for the trouble he’s caused you
Never really offered you food after that unless it was cleared as edible by Beelzebub
Simeon + Luke
The two of them came over to look after you because Luke was practically freaking out as soon as he heard you were sick and was desperate to help you get better, no matter what it took
Simeon brought some of his best sandwiches from his cafe to make up for the awful sandwiches Solomon gave you earlier
Luke made sure you took your medicine after being put in charge of that duty from Simeon
Simeon reassured you that you’d be ok in his care throughout the week and caressed your cheek and arms multiple times a day
When Luke wasn’t in the room, he’d climb into bed with you and cuddle up to your side, resting your head on his shoulder and comforting you the best he could
The two of them took you on walks in the nearby garden when you asked them to and supported you if you felt you needed to throw up, thought Luke didn’t want to watch you while that happened
Luke was practically yelling at Solomon for making you ill, Simeon holding him back when Solomon ended up making jokes about how much of a chihuahua he was being
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Everything happens for a reason
Pairing: Bucky x reader (Former Steve x reader)
Warnings: cheating, angst, pregnancy, semi-public sex, Steve’s an ass in this one,
Words: 5213
A/N: Well this escalated quickly! When you have too much time at work stuff like this happens :D!
I have no idea how they do a c-section or any medical terms of that field other than the stuff I’ve seen on Grey’s Anatomy so forgive me when the birth is wrongly described.
“Babe? You home?” you called out to your fiance excited to tell him the news. No response, so you ventured further into the dark hallway.
You could see light coming from under the bedroom door. Thinking nothing of it because it was already relatively late, you walked to the room and opened the door.
You had not expected the sight before you though. You’re husband to be in the throes of passion with not one but two women.
Shocked, you slammed the door shut again which caused the threesome to startle.
“Honey? Why are you home already? I thought you were gonna go for a drink with your friends.” he called out to you while ripping the door open again…..
“That’s your excuse to cheat on me? That I was not going to see it? WHAT THE FUCK STEVE! We wanted to get married!” you screamed at him and then threw the engagement ring towards his head.
You stormed past him into the bedroom, grabbed some clothes and necessities from your closet and stuffed them into a suitcase. He tried to reason with you, that he wanted to feel free one last time and could pass up the opportunity of a threesome. Like that was actually an excuse.
Everything he said was ignored and so 5 minutes later you sat in your car and that was when the dam broke. You wanted to cry and yell at the same time. How could you have been so stupid as to think someone as honorable and good looking as Steve Rogers was not gonna follow the temptation of so many willing women at some point? You wiped your tears away and contemplated where you could be going for the night.
After thinking for a while you had figured out that most of your friends were also Steve’s you didn’t know if they were going to take his side or yours.
Natasha was not the right idea, she would probably break into his house and kill him in his sleep if she found out he cheated on you like that. And maybe you were in the right mindset to let her do it right now. Wanda and Vision were out of town and Tony would only tell you “I told you so”. That left only one other person in the world you liked enough to see right now. Bucky Barnes. So without further notice you drove to his apartment complex and rang his doorbell at 1am with a packed suitcase in your hand.
“Yes.” you heard a groggy voice through the speakers at the entrance.
“Ehm, hi Bucky. It’s Y/N. Something happened, can I come up?” you were already close to tears again. He must have noticed so he was immediately wide awake and buzzed the door open.
You took the elevator up to the 4th floor and he was already standing in the doorway to his flat only in boxer shorts and a t-shirt.
“Hey, doll. What happened? You look worse for wear.” he looked concerned and let you inside.
“I feel awful for disturbing you in the middle of the night. But I didn’t know where else to go.” you fell into his embrace after he had opened his arms.
“It’s okay darling. Now tell me what happened please.” he inquired.
“Of course. Where do I start?” you frantically searched for words.
“Best if you start at the beginning.” he smiled encouragingly.
“Yes, sure. So tonight I wanted to go for a drink with a few girls from work but didn’t feel alright after work so I rainchecked last minute and went home. But when I stepped into our bedroom, oh Bucky it was terrible, Steve wasn’t alone. There were two naked girls in bed with him.” you had fat tears streaming down your cheeks.
“Impossible. Steve is not a cheater. You sure you saw that right?” The doubt in his voice made you angry.
“I know what I saw Buck!” you got defensive.
“Okay, I believe you. It’s just that I never saw Steve disrespecting someone like that. I’m so sorry for you doll.” he looked genuinely affected by the whole situation and he could understand how Steve could hurt you like this.
“But that’s not the worst part yet… The reason I didn’t feel great and didn’t go out with my friends is… I’m pregnant Bucky and Steve doesn’t know.” you looked downwards.
“Fuck! That is getting more and more complicated. But congratulations doll. You will be a great mom.” he hugged you close. “How about I’ll make you a cup of tea and then you try to sleep a bit.” he suggested.
“Alright. Thank you Bucky. You are my best friend.” he smiled sadly at that statement. He wished you were more than just friends. Maybe now he would have a chance somehow.
Before he could get up though his phone rang.
“It’s him Y/N. You want me to ignore him?”
“No, then he knows I’m here for sure. Tell him you haven’t seen me.”
“Okay, will do.”
“Steve? Do you know how late it is?” Bucky asked with his best impression of a just out of bed voice.
“I’m sorry pal but I need to find Y/N. I did something stupid and she left. Do you know where she is?” you could hear Steve through Bucky’s much too loud phone.
“I’m sorry Steve. I haven’t heard from her. You just woke me up.” he lied.
“Damn! I need to make this up to her. I’m so sorry. If she comes to you, could you tell her I need to speak with her, please? I love her too much to lose her.” you swallowed more tears threatening to escape.
“Sure, buddy. You wanna tell me what happened?” Bucky feigned cluelessness.
“Maybe later Buck. I have to call the rest of our friends.”
“Alright, but don’t do anything stupid.” Bucky said and Steve hung up.
“You heard him, didn’t you?” he asked you.
“Hmm.” you confirmed.
After you had drank your tea he left you the bed and slept on the couch. When you snuggled into the covers they smelled so delicously like Bucky. A mix of soap, coffee and something uniquely Bucky. For one split moment you had thought about asking him to sleep next to you but that would have probably sent mixed signals and you didn’t know what you wanted at the moment.
You woke up feeling cold. Shivering slightly you opened your eyes and noticed that the blanket had fallen off your body onto the floor. Sitting up you rubbed the sleep out of your eyes and the realization of what had happened struck you a moment later.
“Chin up! You are a queen! Don’t let that idiot make you cry again. He’s not worth it!” you told yourself and got up to get some food.
“Good morning, Bucky.” you greeted him while he was standing at the stove making scrambled eggs and bacon.
“Good morning to you too. How did you sleep? And do you want some breakfast?” he asked cheerily.
“I slept like a baby and hell yes I’m so hungry.” confirming his suspicions.
Bucky and you ate together in comfortable silence. Until he spoke up: “So Y/N you know you can stay here however long you like and I don’t mind kicking Stevies ass for what he’s done to you but you should at least tell him that you are with me. I can’t lie to him forever.” he really had a point.
“I know. Thanks again for taking in a stray in the middle of the night. And I know I will have to talk to him eventually. He hurt me so bad but I’m more afraid I will give in again when I see his puppy dog eyes although I can’t trust him anymore.” you looked so lost. Bucky wanted to wrap you up in a blanket and never let you go again.
That week you called in sick. You couldn’t stand the people at work.
And when you came back on monday, guess who was standing outside our office building with a exagerrated flower buquet.
“I’m sorry babe. I shouldn’t have done that to you. You are the best thing that has happened to me. Please don’t leave me.” he begged. You had to admit seeing Captain America beg was a sight for sore eyes.
“Hello Steve. You are correct you shouldn’t have cheated on me and I am deeply disappointed in you. Thank you for apologizing but I won’t come back to you. You have broken my trust and I can’t just give it back to you. I will be over in the next few weeks to get the rest of my stuff out of your apartment and leave my keys. Now I have to go work. Bye Steve. Oh, by the way, you will have to call all our friends and family that the wedding is off. I’m not doing that.” and with those words you turned away from him and clapped yourself menatlly on the shoulder at how confident and sovereign you had handelt that situation.
If you had thought the deal was over there you had definitely celebrated to early.
Of course Steve found out you had been staying with Bucky all along and was mad as hell.
He suddeny stood inside the apartment, however he got in there, and started throwing insults at Bucky and especially you.
“Here you are you little slut! Have already replaced me, hm. How long has this been going on? You preach something of trust and here you are fucking my best friend behind my back! I should have known.” he raged.
“Calm down you idiot. There is nothing going on between Buck and me. He has just been a friend when I was hurt needed one.” you yelled back enraged at the accusations.
“Who do you wanna tell that, Y/N. Do you think I haven’t seen the way you two look at each other?” he was still so angry. You had nevern seen him this full of rage.
“So what it is none of your business anymore anyways.” you knew you couldn’t bring him to believe you anyway. He needed to find a different cause of why you wouldn’t come back to him than the simple reason that he had cheated. He wanted to blame you, not himself.
“Could you please leave now? I don’t feel so good.” you suddenly felt your lunch coming back up to greet you and ran to the bathroom.
The men heard you puking. One knowing the reason the other not.
“What’s going on with her? She sick?” Steve asked Bucky.
That was your clue to burst through the bathroom door.
“I’m pregnat you ass! You cheated on your pregnant fiance!” you yelled and stormed into Bucky’S bedroom, jamming the door shut behind you.
Steve looked aghast at Bucky “did you know?”
“She told me the night she came to me. She had wanted to tell you then. That’s why she didn’t go out with her collegues.”
“Fuck! I destroyed everything, haven’t I?” he asked Bucky in defeat.
“Give her time. She probably won’t want to marry you, maybe not even be your girlfriend again but maybe she will at least let you see your kid.” Bucky stated matter of factly.
“But I wan’t more Bucky. I want her.” he whined.
“Well, you had everything, pal. But you destroyed it. I better go talk to her. You should really leave her alone for a while.” he clapped Steve on the shoulder, maybe a bit harder than necessary and went after you.
“Y/N? He’s gone.” Bucky carefully stuck his head into the room. You were lying on the bed, on your back staring at the ceiling.
“Good.” you muttered. “I couldn’t stand him anymore. I’m afraid Bucky.” you confessed. “I can’t raise a baby on my own and I don’t know if I want Steve involved.”
“I can understand your worry but I don’t see any reason. You are so caring and selfless you will be a great mom. And if you let me I can help you. Kids seem to like me apparently.” he encouraged you and smiled.
“Thank you, Buck. I definitely will need your help. I am going to be a single mom and that’s completely okay.” you smiled at him.
“That’s what I wanna hear. Now, you hungry after everything just came out?”
“Yes. I’d like Pizza please.”
“Alright, princess I will order some.” he stroked your cheek and got up to get the delivery running.
“So he actually cheated on you? I would have never expected that from Steve. He always seems like a gentleman. Unbelievable.” Wanda exclaimed.
“Yeah. Absolutely insane. But congrats on the pregnancy though. You will be a rockin’ mama.” Nat hugged you. “And we will help you with whatever you need.”
“Thanks, girls. You are amazing. You know I want you to be godmothers, right?” you asked.
“Hell yes. We’re in.” Nat squealed and you never heard her squeal.
Weeks ticked by and you really searched for an affordable apartment somewhere close to your workplace. That was harder than you anticipated though.
After 3 months of moving in with Bucky you had still no place of your own and you constantly thought you were overstaying your welcome.
“How are you two doing today?” Bucky asked you as he came home.
“We are fine. Had a lot to eat and listened to some music. By the way my OB was able to find out what we are having. You wanna know?” over the past months Bucky had become more a father to the baby than Steve had been. Steve rarely called or wanted to now anything about you or his baby. Bucky seemed more than content to take up the role of its father.
“Hell yes I wanna know. Tell me!” he ordered exited.
“Alright, drumroll…. It’s a…. girl.” you announced.
“Oh, wow. Great. A mini you not a mini Steve.” he laughed and you had to laugh too.
“Buck?” you asked suddenly.
“Hm?”
“I want you to be in this girls life. As more than just her mommys friend. More as a rolemodel. A…” you stopped to think about your next words carfully. “More like a dad.” and out it was. Now you only had to wait for his reaction.
“You want me to be her father? Hmm. On the one hand I would love to. I feel so close to her already but on the other hand I don’t want to affront Steve. Even after everything he is my friend. Can we talk about what there is between us first? Maybe if we have that settled all will slip in place.” he suggested.
“Maybe you are right. What is there between us in your opinion?”
“Look Y/N, I have always felt a connection between us. Although I would have never acted on it because you were Steve’s girl, it hurt everytime I saw you with him. And when you got engaged I seriously considered moving abroad so I wouldn’t have to see you building a life with him. If I could imagine myself as the man by your and your daughters side? Of course. There is nowhere I’d rather be. And we are practically living together already anyway.” his confession only superficially shocked you. You knew there had always been feelings from your side too. That’s why it had been so easy to confide in him. He took your silence as hesitation and became insecure “I mean if you don’t feel that way I will accept that. I swear I can be just a frien….” he wasn’t able to say more because you had already stopped his rambling with a bruising kiss.
“So you do feel it!” he observed.
“Of course I do you dummy. You have always been there for me. I’m sorry it took me so long to realize it was actually you who I should be with.” you apologized.
“The most important thing is that we have that figured out now.” he kissed you again and you melted into it.
“Yes, we do.” you smiled.
Another few months flew by and you had started to stay at home because you were constantly feeling dizzy or nauteous when you moved.
“Bucky come here. Now!” you yelled for your boyfriend one snowy december morning. Alarmed he stormed into the livingroon where you were parked in front of a movie with a cup of hot chocolate and a really big blanket over one of Bucky’s hoodies.
“What’s wrong? You okay?” panicked he jumped onto the couch next to you. “No nothing is wrong. Here- Give me your hand.” he gave you his right hand and you pressed it to the place on your belly were you had just felt her kick. When she did it again he almost jumped out of his skin. “Woah, what was that? Was that a kick?” he asked astonished.
“Of course Buck. What else was it supposed to be?” you laughed.
“She is strong. Damn so cool.”
“And she keeps kicking even more when she hears your voice. Maybe she likes it if you sang to her.” you smiled expectantly.
“Oh, no. No one wants to hear me sing. I have a terrible voice.” he refused.
“Steve told me differently. He said you were in church choir together as boys.” your smirked at him.
“He told you that.” he sighed.
“Oh, yes he did. So come on. Sing something for our daughter.”
“Our daughter?” he asked, you realized what you had said and blushed.
“I like the sound of that.” he grinned from ear to ear and that was the moment you were 100% sure that he was it for you.
“I love you so much.” he whispered and kissed first your protruding belly and then your mouth.
You were speechless. “I love you too Bucky.” you replied.
Your daughter grew everyday. Everytime you went to an ultrasound at your OB Bucky was by your side and although the doctor knew he wasn’t the babys biological dad she said that he was doing so much better than most fathers to be. He took so much pride in your baby girl that you almost burst with love for him.
After 9 months of carrying her it was finally time to let go. When the contractions started Bucky rushed you to a hospital and although he didn’t want to he called Steve. And Nat and Wanda of course.
The doctor and midwife did their exam of you and the baby quickly before figuring out that something was wrong.
“She is lying sideways. We can’t deliver her naturally. We need to get her by c-section or you will both die.” the OB made clear. You knew things like that could happen. You had mentally prepared for anything but now that it actually came to that you were more than afraid.
“Wo should stay with you? Only one person can.” the doctor informed you.
Steve, who had just entered the room and had heard everything of course assumed immediately that he was gonna be invited into the OR with you.
“I want Bucky to stay with me.” you whined. Steve got pretty angry and almost ripped the door off its hinges when he left. “Bucky I’m afraid.” you whispered to him. Uncaring of Steves abrupt departure.
“I will stay with you, doll. Through everything. You two will get through this.” he encouraged you.
“Thanks Buck. Let’s get this baby into the world.” you said.
“Good attitude.” the doctor approved.
They rushed you into the OR. Bucky never leaving you and holding your hand the whole time. During the procedure itself you were awake but you got a spinal anesthesia to numb everthing from your belly downwards.
“I will keep a pretty ugly scar Buck. Don’t you mind that?” you asked him a little drunk on meds.
“No sweetheart. I love you so much I don’t care about scars. You don’t care about mine either, do you? Scars are just proof of what you have gone through and survived. That’s what you always used to say. Isn’t it?” he quoted you.
“Yes maybe.”
“Plus it will always remind of our beautiful daughter. That’ll be worth it, don’t you think?” he asked.
“Yes, sure. I love you Buck.”
“I love you too and you are doing so great. Isn’t she doc?” he asked the OB.
“Oh, she’s doing great. Everything is perfect.” she answered but by the nervous facial expression she had on her face and the rushing nurses surrounding her Bucky knew that something was wrong.
Suddenly a baby cried. Relief flooded through Bucky. “Look there she is.” he pointed to your right and you rolled your head over and smiled. Then you passed out.
“Y/N? Y/N!!!” Bucky yelled. “What happened?” he asked the doc full of panic.
“She lost a lot of blood but we are giving her donations now. Go see your daughter and we will do everything we can to save her.” she explained to him. But Bucky would not be Bucky if he left your side.
They sewed you up and 3 hours later you awoke in a brightly lit room. Beeping machines by your head. You looked around, complketely confused until you saw the cutes thing you had ever laid eyes on. Your angel of a boyfriend was sitting next to your bed in an armchair, holding your baby daughter to his chest and singing softly to her.
You started weeping immediately. Still high on drugs and hormones.
“Baby what’s wrong? Are you in pain?” he asked worried.
“No, I am just so happy. You two really are a sight for sore eyes. I can’t contain the love in my heart.” you kept crying happy tears.
“Would you give me our baby?” you asked politely.
“Oh, of course honey.” he got up and placed the blanket wrapped burrito into your arms. When you saw her crystal blue eyes and slightly dirty blonde hair you had to hold back new tears.
“What should we call her?” Bucky asked you.
“I always loved Autumn as a girls name or maybe Freya. What do you like better?”
“I love them both. Double name? Or keep one for the next baby?” he suggested.
“You are already thinking about a second child?” you laughed. “Give me a bit of time to recover and then I would love to have another one with you.”
“Sure so Autumn or Freya?” he asked again.
“Let’s go with Freya. It’s such a unique name. And strong as hell. I think it suits her.” you chose.
“Great. I love it. And I love both of you.”
“Has anyone been in here yet?” you asked him.
“Not yet. I wanted you to see your daughter first before the others came barging in. Steve nearly broke down the door when I refused him to come inside. I handled him and security told him if he didn’t calm down he needed to leave and he wouldn’t be allowed back inside.” he broke down the events of the past few hours for you.
“That sounds so not like the Steve I know but seems like that is who he became. I think if you hand me a glass of water for my parched throat first you can let the others inside.” you instructed him.
After downing the entire bottle of liquid the whole party came trampling into the room. Steve pushed the rest rudely out of the way. But instead of asking how you were doing after losing so much blood he just grabbed your daughter out of your hands to look at her. It didn’t take 3 seconds before the infant was crying like crazy. Steve startled and immediately handed her back to you. “Why is she always crying? She’s definitely yours.” he commented. Bucky gotreally angry at that comment while you tried to calm your baby.
“I think you should go, pal. You are irritating her with your attitude.” Bucky suggested nicely.
“Who do you think you are? You are not her father. I am.” he turned beet red.
You finally had enough. Handing Freya over to Nat who took a step back, you sat up a little and faced Steve. “In the past 9 months Bucky has been more a father to her than you could ever be. He was there when I hung puking over the toilet bowl. He brought me the strangest snacks without asking twice about it. He always had the nicest words to say to me no matter how depressed I felt. And where the fucking hell were you that whole time?” you asked him angrily.
That made him stop still. “You left me!” he tried to defend himself weakly.
“GET OUT!” you yelled at him.
He obeyed because he knew he couldn’t say anything to make the situation better.
“Wow, that was intense.” Wanda commented.
“He needed to hear that.” you said.
“Yes, he did. And now to you and your daughter. She is adorable. What’s her name?” Nat changed the topic.
“Thank you Nat. Her name is Freya. I have always loved that name.” you answered.
“That’s a beautiful, strong name. Fitting!” Wanda commented.
“So when will you be able to get out of here?” Nat asked, still holding your baby.
“I don’t know. Haven’t spoken to a doctor yet.”
As if on cue the door opened and your OB entered.
She told you that everything was healing and that you needed to stay for another day and then you and your baby could go home.
Three weeks later you had already accustomed Freya to her crib. You went on walks everyday. Bucky always by your side. Protecting you both like a wolf protects his pack.
Six months ticked by like nothing. Suddenly Freya was already playing with her mobile which was hanging over her bed. She was very attentive. Crawling all over the apartment fast enough that you almost couldn’t catch up.
It was fulfilling to be a mom but also tiring. You needed a day off so as the nice godmothers that your friends were they took her from you for 24 hours. At first you slept in. You would have happily stayed in bed all day but Bucky had other plans.
So you took a shower and put on a nice dress but you forwent the high heels cause you still had swollen feet sometimes and couldn’t walk in them anyways.
“Where are we going Buck?” you smiled.
“You will see, doll.” was his cryptic answer.
He drove out of town until you reached the hills. Parking the car somewhere in the middle of nowhere you got out of the car and he pulled a picnic basket out of the trunk.
“A picnic? That’s so sweet.” you swooned.
“I thought that would be nice.” He seemed somehow really nervous.
When you had found a clearing he put everything down and you two sat and ate. Sandwiches, fruit, cheese, crackers, chocolate covered strawberries. Everything was so delicious. “Thank you for this Bucky. It’s the best date I have ever had.” you complimented.
“It is wonderful. And I would like to ask you something.” he turned so he was kneeling in front of you and pulled a box out of his jacket pocket. You clapped your hand in front of your mouth and tears sprang to your eyes.
“Y/N I have loved you for so long. We have a great life together, a wonderful daughter. I would like this to hold forever. Will you marry me?” he asked.
You threw yourself into his arms and he crumbled underneath you “YES! Of course I will marry you Bucky. I love you so much!” you confirmed.
He put the ring onto your finger and you kissed deeply. The kiss turned heated quickly. You, still lying on top of him, wriggled your hips. He turned you on so much you wanted him right that moment.
“Woa, hold on doll. You sure you want to do this here?” he mumbled against your lips.
“Don’t wanna wait any more. Waited too long.” you mumbled back.
His hands immediately went to the zipper on your back and pulled it down. You sat up so you could wriggle your arms free and pulled the dress over your head, leaving you in your panties and bra. “So beautiful.” he groaned and buried his face in your boobs, nipping and sucking hickies only he would be able to see later.
All the while you frantically ripped at his clothes, pushing the jacket off his shoulders and unbuttoning his shirt. Then you roamed your hands over his muscular chest intensely. Grinding down on his growing erection got you so wet. You hadn’t gotten any action in over a year and you knew he hadn’t either so this was likely going to be over way too soon. You had to savor any moment that it would last.
With his help you got him out of his jeans and you saw that he was not wearing any underwear. “Naughty boy. No underwear?” you commented, smirking.
“More comfy that way. Why don’t you make it even more comfortable and sit on my dick, doll?”
“With pleasure.” you moaned and sank down on his massive cock. “Fuck!” you groaned at the slight discomfort. You felt like an inexperienced virgin again. “Shit. Don’t stop.” he moaned lustfully.
You rocked your hips sensually and he met you with every thrust.
He hit all the amazing spots deep inside you and you felt your high approaching way too fast. “‘m so close, baby.” you moaned with your eyes closed. Just lost in the pleasure of every stroke inside you.
“Me too. Wanna come together. Open your eyes, darling.” he panted.
So you did as he had asked and when your eyes met his baby blues you lost it and came all over him. That in turn triggered his orgasm and he spilled inside you.
Breathing heavily you slid off of him and cuddled into his side while he pulled a blanket over you.
“That was so great.” he said.
“Hmm, and you know what? I’m still not on birth control again. Maybe… we’ll soon have a mini you running around.” you smirked.
“I would like that very much. Life is always better with a sibling.” he kissed your head.
Well and what can I say- 9 months later you gave birth to a healthy, dark haired baby boy which you named Ben. Your family became the most important thing in the world. You didn’t even want to think about a scenario where you hadn’t found out that Steve cheated on you. You were the happiest when you were with Bucky. That’s where you belonged.
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I Have Something to Tell You
Zuko has just started his reign as the new Fire Lord and everything seems to be falling into place.
That is until Y/N finds out she’s expecting and doesn’t know how to tell Zuko, afraid she’ll ruin the perfect bubble they’ve been living in.
It’s been five months since the end of the war and since Zuko became Fire Lord. Life was good, the four nations were in harmony under the protection of Aang and you and Zuko were stronger than ever.
Your family was welcomed back in to the Fire Nation so you had your home back, but you spent most of your time with Zuko at the palace.
There were so many close calls during your time with Team Avatar, which made you, and Zuko appreciate and value your relationship even more. Zuko would include you in his important meetings and valued your opinion, you were there for him when he’d question his capabilities to run the Fire Nation, he’d constantly visit your family and you’d wake up to each other every morning.
Everything was going smoothly until the day you found out you were expecting. You weren’t certain at first, you were late and felt sick in the mornings. Zuko was concerned, thinking it was something you ate so sent a doctor to your bed the third consecutive day you were throwing up. When the doctor told you that you were pregnant, you couldn’t talk or move for a good hour. When Zuko came back and saw your shocked state, he rushed to your side immediately. You told him it was food poisoning and had to be kept in bed the rest of the week. He placed a kiss on your forehead then went back to work.
After your week of “food poisoning” was over, you started to think of how to tell Zuko that he was going to be a father. You weren’t sure how he was going to react, as you knew he was still getting used to ruling over a whole nation. You hated keeping secrets from him but you wanted to wait till you were even used to the idea of being a mother. The situation made you distant from Zuko and he was starting to get frustrated with your cold demeanor.
“Hey, do you want to go for a walk after the state dinner tonight?” Zuko asked hopefully one afternoon. It was week two of your cold demeanor towards him and everyday was more stressful than the one before. “No.” you stated as you read by the window in Zuko’s bedroom.
“Figures.” He rolled his eyes as he turned away from you. “What?!” you snapped back, you didn’t know what it was, the hormones maybe, but other than distancing yourself from Zuko, you also found yourself snapping at him more often.
“Nothing.” He said through gritted teeth as he began to leave the room. “No, Zuko, say it!” you slammed your book shut and sat up from your lounging position.
“Nothing! I’m just not surprised with your attitude anymore!” he turned to face you and you could see the frustration in his face.
“Attitude?! Just because I don’t wanna go on walk doesn’t mean I have an attiude, Zuko!”
“It’s not that! You’ve been so—so—“
“So what?” you raised an eyebrow waiting for him to finish his sentence. “CRANKY!”
“Well if I’m so cranky then why would we even go on a walk together, then?” you were standing up now with your hands on your hips.
“Forget it!” Zuko huffed and left the room.
“Agh!” you collapsed on the couch. You hated yourself for acting this way towards him. He didn’t do anything and he certainly did not deserve your attitude. The whole thing was so confusing for you and the truth was, you were scared. You and Zuko were only seventeen and you just won the war. Bringing a baby into the mix now is a whole different ball game that you weren’t sure that either of you were ready for.
That evening at the state dinner, you sulked on a couch in the corner of the courtyard.
“Hi.” Zuko sighed as he sat next to you. “Hi.” You said back but didn’t look at him.
“How are you?”
“I’m bored.” You laid your head on the wall. “I know. Me too.”
“I’m hungry.” You sighed and looked up at him and he huffed then stood up to get you some food.
You were getting impatient until you heard a voice coming from the crowd. “Move! I have to bring food to my cranky girlfriend!”
“Really, Zuko?” you rolled your eyes as he handed you the plate of food. “What’s wrong now?”
“Telling everyone I’m your cranky girlfriend isn’t exactly chivalrous.” You snapped.
“I can’t do anything right with you anymore!” he was whispering so no one else would hear but there was strain in his voice. “I’m gonna go.” you didn’t want to look at him then made your way out to the balcony.
You were so angry with yourself for being this way. This wasn’t you and it made you think about what kind of mother you would be if you couldn’t even comprehend the thought of having a child. Of course you wanted a family with Zuko, but you never expected it would be this soon.
Suddenly, you felt a hand on your shoulder and you turned to see Katara. “Hey, are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m fine. Just needed some air.” You smiled but you could tell she didn’t believe you. “How are you and Zuko?” she asked.
“Uhm, we’re okay? Why do you ask?” you nervously stared at your feet as she looked at you with a concerned expression.
“Y/N, come on it’s me. You can tell me, I won’t judge I promise.”
“I’m fine! Really, me and Zuko are okay.” She rolled her eyes as you continued to lie. “I heard him talking to Aang, alright?”
“What did he say?”
“He thinks you’re going to leave him.” Your eyes shot wide open, “WHAT?!”
“Yes! That’s why I wanted to ask you first!” Katara raised her arms in relief, as she knew you were finally going to open up to her.
“Oh no, this is all my fault.” Burying your face in your hands, Katara placed her arm around you.
“I’m so awful to him! He’s been nothing but amazing towards me and I was the biggest jerk!” your face was still buried in your hands as Katara watched you with concern.
“What’s going on?”
“Katara...it’s just...” there were tears forming in your eyes as Katara pulled you in for a hug. “It’s okay, I’m sure whatever it is—“
“Katara I’m pregnant.” She froze as soon as the words came out of your mouth. Katara stood there frozen and just staring at your face, then at your stomach. “I know, that’s how I reacted too.” You turned to face the open air as she continued to stare at you with her mouth wide open.
“OH MY GOD CONGRATULATIONS!” She suddenly pulled you into a tight hug.
“Katara it’s not that simple!” there were so many factors that would make having a baby complicated, how young you both were, Zuko just started his reign, and you not knowing the first thing about being a mother.
“Y/N, this is a good thing!” she squeezed your shoulders. “How? I mean...I don’t know how to feel about it yet...” you looked down.
“We’re only seventeen! Zuko just started his reign! I-I don’t know the first thing about being a mother!” you paced back and forth as Katara giggled.
“Why are you laughing?!”
“It’s just...Y/N you’re looking at all the bad things. Yes, we’re all still young but you both won’t have to do it alone. You have all of us! Can you imagine how loved your baby will be?” she smiled and you stopped pacing and looked at her. “Aang is going to flip! Sokka would spend every single day here if he could, and I know I would make the best godmother.” She winked and you laughed.
“But Zuko’s been so worried about how he is as the new Fire Lord...he has a so much on his mind and I’m so scared the baby will just add more stress for him...” you sighed and plopped down on one of the benches.
“He’s going to be happy no matter what. Zuko is going to be a great father and you’re going to be a great mother.” Katara sat next to you and put her arm around your shoulders. “I was so awful to him Katara...”
“It’s completely understandable, you were scared. Heck, I would probably be the same too! But you have to talk to him.”
“I know...thank you. It feels so good to finally tell someone!” you laughed in relief. You’ve been keeping this secret for so long it felt good to tell someone.
“Of course, I’ll always be here for you! But now you have to let Zuko be there for you too.” She smiled sweetly and you knew she was right. The both of you made your way back to the party laughing at the thought of Zuko changing diapers.
As soon as you entered, you spotted him in the middle of conversation with his generals. Your eyes locked on his and he quickly averted his gaze back to his own conversation.
“Good luck.” Katara smiled and left you with your thoughts.
The state dinner was over and you were making your way to Zuko’s bedroom. As you entered you leant by doorway and watched Zuko try to remove his ceremonial robes.
“Let me help you with that.” his body stiffened at the sound of your voice. “I’m fine.” He grumbled but continued to struggle. You sighed then walked over and helped him. “Zuko...I need to tell you something...” you fumbled with your fingers as you sat in front of him. Zuko stopped then sat down in front of you but he was avoiding looking in your direction. There was sadness in his eyes, which confused you at first, but then you remembered what Katara told you about how Zuko thought you were going to break up with him. “Zuko...I’m sorry.” You began and he didn’t react. “I’m sorry for being such a jerk to you these past few days...or weeks.” You rubbed the back of your head sheepishly. “Zuko can you please look at me?”
“Why should I? If you’re going to break up with me just do it.” he said bitterly. “Zuko, I’m not breaking up with you!” You grabbed his face with your palms and he was finally looking at you. His eyes were staring at you intently waiting for you to speak. “It’s just...” tears started to form in your eyes as you began to speak. “Are you okay? Did anyone hurt you?” Zuko suddenly looked at you with so much concern that your heart melted knowing that no matter how awful you were to him, he was still the sweetest to you.
“No, no, it’s not that it’s...” you stood up and started pacing back and forth and Zuko watched you in confusion. “The reason why I’ve been such a jerk to you is because....I didn’t know how to tell you and I also didn’t fully, I still don’t actually...uhm...the information hasn’t really sunk in for me either, so whenever I thought about telling you, I still didn’t believe it myself so I didn’t tell you!” the whole thing was making you nervous so you started to ramble. Zuko stared at you with his eyebrow up and head tilted so you knew he was confused.
“W-wait I don’t get it. The reason why you were a jerk to me is because you did something I wouldn’t like?” he asked looking at you with a little bit of fear in his expression. “I didn’t do anything...well I kind of did by not telling you when I should have but I didn’t tell you because I still don’t sort of believe it myself?” Zuko’s expression was still a confused one you didn’t blame him. “So you’re hiding something from me?” you nodded and he huffed. “Is there someone else?” he looked down to the floor. “NO! God no, Zuko there is no one out there for me but you.” you quickly grabbed his face again.
“Then what is it?”
You sighed and turned to face him directly. “Okay, I’m going to tell you what it is now.” You said slowly as if convincing yourself that you were actually going to do it. Zuko stared at you with big eyes in anticipation of what you were going to say. When you still didn’t say it Zuko shot up from his seat and started making his way out the door.
“Zuko!”
“Y/N if you’re just going to keep me guessing the whole night you might as well not tell me!” he stopped by the door but was refusing to face you.
“Zuko...please!”
“If you don’t trust me—“
“ZUKO I’M PREGNANT!” the words finally came out of your mouth as you waited for Zuko to react. He stopped in his steps and slowly turned to look at you. His eyes were huge in shock and his mouth open.
The both of you stared at each other without saying anything until you finally broke the silence. “I know I should have told you! I was just so scared...I mean I don’t know how to be a mother. I’m so sorry for taking out my worries on you by being a jerk and I know how stressed you’ve been being the new Fire Lord and I didn’t want to worry you even more. I’m so so—“ before you could finish, Zuko’s lips were on yours and you fell into each other.
“Y-you’re not mad?” you looked up at him. “I’m mad because you didn’t tell me.” He looked at you with a serious expression and you looked away. “But not about our baby.” He pulled your face to kiss you once more. “Why would I be mad about the start of our family?” he looked deep into your eyes. “I-I don’t know, I guess I thought you’d be scared about it but I guess it was just me.” You buried your face in his chest again.
“I’m so sorry you had to deal with this on your own. That must have been terrifying.” He whispered in your hair. “No, it’s my fault, I should have let you be there for me.” You smiled and he kissed you on the forehead. “We’re going to be a great family.” He said and at that moment, you couldn’t be happier.
The next day, the both of you decided to have the gang over for lunch to tell them the news. You told Zuko that Katara knew, he was a little upset at first that he wasn’t the first to know and you understood. You promised he’d be the first to know if anything ever happened with you again and he forgave you.
Zuko sat at the head of the table and you to his left. Uncle Iroh was seated to his right but you haven’t told him yet as well. Katara and Aang arrived first and Katara gave the both of you a knowing look. Sokka and Sukoi came next with Sokka telling everyone he had big news to share. Toph was last as usual saying she was busy throwing melons at strangers.
“Uhm, guys we have something to tell you.” Zuko smiled looking at you while squeezing your hand.
“Wait wait!” Sokka stood up and everyone stared at him. “I think we should start with the most important news first. Don’t we all agree? And I have an announcement!” Sokka started to prance around the table. You started to chuckle and Katara was glaring at him. “Yes, let Zuko talk!” she said with annoyance.
“But I don’t think whatever hot head over there is going to say is more exciting than mine!” Sokka glared back at his sister. “Sokka—“
“No it’s fine, go ahead.” Zuko smirked and you punched him in the shoulder playfully. “What’s your announcement, Sokka?”
“Glad you asked Y/N!” Katara rolled her eyes and slumped to her seat as Sokka grinned from ear to ear.
“I have been declared BOOMERANG MASTER!” Sokka declared while everyone stared at him with amusement. His proud expression quickly dropped and you started to giggle. “WHAT! I am!”
“Who even declared that, Sokka?” Toph teased. “THE BOOMERANG CLUB!” Sokka’s face turned red and the rest of the gang laughed. “There’s a boomerang club?” Aang asked and Sokka sat back down and Suki rubbed his back but she was laughing as well.
“Okay, if that doesn’t excite everyone then I DON’T KNOW WHAT WILL!” Sokka fumed which made everyone laugh harder.
“I’m pregnant.” You announced and Zuko was staring at everyone with a huge grin on his face. Katara was smiling as she already knew, Aang stopped mid drink, Toph yelped, Suki’s eyes were large with excitement and Sokka’s jaw dropped to the table.
“Y-you’re what?” Aang jumped up in excitement as Katara hugged you. “She’s pregnant. I’m going to be a father.” Zuko announced proudly. Aang rushed to hug the both of you while talking about how he’s going to teach your child how to go penguin sledding. Katara started asking you about baby names. Toph was already planning on making a crib for your baby. Sokka was still in shock while Suki whispered to him that she was excited about his boomerang master status.
“OH MY GOD!” Sokka burst out then rushed to hug the both of you telling you guys he’s going to give all the boomerangs he could find to your future baby. You were all so happy to tell the rest of the group and to see their excited reactions. You were looking for Zuko but then saw him hugging Uncle Iroh tightly and you saw tears in his eyes. That moment, you knew you were so lucky to have a child with the best father there could be.
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heyy sal ^-^ i know this seems a lil sudden but do u mind givin some comfort hcs or somethin with tsumu n an s/o wif overbearing family who's been feelin really shitty and unmotivated lately?? am sorry if this is a lil much but i have been feeling . Not good as of late ... and i really miss tsumu idk :( maybe a lil bit of hurt/comfort and cuddles and a night out 2 mcdonalds or something would be nice if ur up to it <3 ur writin is so amazing ilysm !!
hi lovely!! found it hehe,,, here’s your comfort fic! i hope you like it! mwah <3
miya atsumu is a great texter.
not just in the sense that his ability to hold conversations is immaculate, and not just because your messages between him are overflowing with extravagant voice notes and an endless amount of objectively unattractive up close photos of his face. it’s because he always, always, without a shadow of doubt, no matter the hour, day, week, month, replies within the second. you’d jokingly accused him of being addicted to his phone, until you realized, aside his brother, you were the only exception — that’s also because he has some ridiculous ringtone for your calls and messages, but you pretend to be oblivious of that fact.
as you grip your phone with shaky hands and stare at your screen through bleary eyes, you watch as your message gets delivered, then read almost immediately after.
can i please be with you right now?
a grey bubble appears, hovering at the bottom of your screen, three dots rolling evenly within it. it then disappears, and in its place a message materializes.
of course. should i pass by or leave my window open?
already, your chest feels lighter.
fifteen minutes later, he’s before you, donning a simple shirt and sweatpants, sneakers on his feet. his smile is bright when his eyes meet yours, and his arms are home when they come to wrap around you, pulling you in close, embracing you tightly. your own arms easily slip around his waist, the feel of him beneath the thin shirt grounding and steadying. you release a shaky breath just as he squeezes you reassuringly, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head.
“heya, gorgeous,” he softly greets you, leaning back slightly to take a look at you. hesitantly, slowly, your head lifts off of his chest, arms still wrapped around him. his smile visibly falters at the sight of you, it saddens and softens, but it doesn’t disappear. although a little forcefully, he urges his smile to widen, and brings a hand up to the string of your hoodie, tugging and teasing, “nice hoodie.”
against all odds, you scoff amusingly, rolling your eyes. “yeah, you’d think so,” you retort, and he laughs lightly.
gently, he twists you around to pull you to his side, an arm tossed around and over your shoulder. “so, what’re we thinkin’?” he wonders aloud. “convenience store ramen?” atsumu tilts his head towards you, and when your nose scrunches in disapproval, his does too in mimicry, and then he shakes his head. “convenience store ice cream?” he says it as if it’s a genius idea, a victorious grin on his face, until he’s met with another disapproving look.
“m’not really hungry, ‘tsumu,” you begin to argue, despite knowing how fruitless the attempt is.
“tha’s not what i’m askin’.” he feigns offense as he says this, before he tilts his head back, thoughtfully humming. you watch him in both slight amusement and endearment. he’s really cute, you think, with the slight pout to his lips and the messiness of his hair. it’s obvious that he’d just rolled out of bed after having taken a shower, if not for his hair then for the comforting smell you sense. he’s sturdy by your side, body easy and relaxed against you, leaning into your touch just as much as you lean into him. he hums again, speaking to himself in hushed tones, and you think again, he’s really, really cute.
“you’re really cute, ‘tsumu,” you voice, and atsumu stops his deep and thoughtful monologue about the importance of a decision like choosing where to eat at eleven pm. when he turns to face you, you offer him an easy smile, before urging him arm tighter around you again, and continuing your walk.
“ya think i’m cute?”
“well, i am dating—“
his arm falls from around you to his side, and he halts in his steps.
“cute?!”
you pause, turning to the side to fix him with a humored, confused stare. he’s wearing a shocked expression, eyes wide and mouth slightly parting. it makes you want to giggle. “is that a bad thing?” you wonder.
with a whine, atsumu deflates, his arms tossed to his side, hands slapping his thighs as if he were a toddler throwing a tantrum. “yer cute,” he begins to argue. “yer cute ‘n pretty n’ gorgeous ‘n very hot.”
you quirk an eyebrow. “thanks?”
“but i’m handsome, babe. devilishly han’some if you will. sexy. charming. hot—“
“thought i was hot?”
“m’not taking you to mcdonald’s anymore.”
you gasp, reaching out for his forearms and gripping them tightly. atsumu runs warm, always has and possibly always will, that it’s always a welcome feeling touching him. unless you were in the middle of summer beneath a thousand blankets, but that’s not your current concern. “how did you know i was craving nuggets?” you wonder, exasperated and in awe.
he lifts up a finger and tilts his chin back, as if prepared to make a very important note. “not only am i devilishly handsome—“
“‘tsumu.”
“you’re always craving nuggets, doll.”
a fair argument, you guess.
“— and i’m psychic.”
you smack his arm.
“finger. guns, babe. finger guns!”
you lift your hand up in motion of a gun, but instead, you flip your boyfriend off, sipping slowly through the staple yellow and white straw. condensation from the cup in your grip drips to your knuckles, slowly trailing down your hand.
your gesture is met with a deadpan expression before atsumu twists around away from you. he’s facing a bench in the middle of an empty public park, his phone propped up against the back of the bench and opened up on the camera app. in the small lower left corner of the screen is a small preview of a picture you’d just taken together: it’s cheesy and honestly a little cringe, with atsumu doing a ridiculous pose with finger guns, and a you with a hesitant peace sign. it’s what led you to this moment— he just really wants you to do some finger guns with him.
facing the phone, atsumu bends down and clicks on his screen, while you take another long sip. upon buying a ridiculous amount of fries, nuggets, and two burgers, the two of you had walked for a few moments, not so quietly because atsumu has the long lived habit of never knowing when to quite stop talking, until you’d reached the park. beneath a dying tree, the two of you sat and ate, watched the stars through the branches of the aged tree while atsumu explained you the ridiculous justification behind punching his brother earlier in the day during practice. after a while, he’d gotten the great idea of taking pictures together, despite the terrible lighting, obscure setting, and not the most fitting choice of outfits.
you’re slightly lost in thought, and honestly atsumu is a little too fast for his own good, that you don’t notice him barreling towards you until he’s right before you. you’re too late, and suddenly he’s kneeling, arms wrapping around your thighs, lifting you up high. he leaves you with no choice but to quickly wrap your arms around his neck, leaning in close until your cheek is pressed to his. he holds you tight to him and you barely see the flash turn off before you’re lifting yourself up again, staring down at him with a fake scowl.
“why would you do that?” you scold him, pinching at his arm as he drops you to your feet again.
he mumbles a small ouch at your pinch, rubbing at his sore arm as he defends himself, “well ya weren’t doing the finger guns!”
“finger guns are stupid.”
“yer face is stupid.”
“your face is stupid.”
“like hell it is.” rather stupidly, atsumu spreads his arms wide, showcasing himself. “i’ve got so much to offer.” to humble him, you reach out, hand splaying on his stomach and fingers wiggling. he’s quick to react, curling in on himself slightly and grasping your wrist tightly, fixing you with a warning, cold stare. “do not.”
you giggle wickedly, and wiggle your fingers again. atsumu shrieks, holding your wrist away from his stomach.
it’s a good thing you’ve got two hands.
it’s nearly two in the morning when he first yawns. unintentionally, guilt starts to creep up your spine, settling heavy on your shoulders and chest. atsumu notices, as he always does, but instead of mentioning it, he shuffles down on the bench, and leans slightly towards you until his head rests on your shoulder. with the feel of him against you once more, you will yourself to relax, and reach for the hand closest to you, intertwining your fingers with his.
“yer so fun,” he mumbles, and you feel the vibrations from his voice. as he sighs contently, you finally do properly relax, and shuffle low until your head rests above his.
“you are too,” you respond. “only when you’re not doing finger guns.”
he scoffs. “ya love me ‘n my finger guns.” he lifts up a hand, and clicks his tongue as he motions a gun. jokingly, you slap at his hand, pushing it away.
the wind whistles softly, calmly, and atsumu’s hair tickles your cheek.
“i don’t wanna go home,” you admit with a small voice, smaller than you’d wish.
atsumu presses himself closer to you, thumb tracing at the back of your hand. “we can jus’ stay here,” he offers. “sunrises are pretty.”
you hum thoughtlessly.
“we can watch it from my room too, if ya’d like.”
your heart stills, and you swallow thickly. “you sure?”
he nods. “you’ll always have a home with me.” it’s not an offer, but a fact.
twisting your head, you place a kiss to the top of his head, the familiar scent of his shampoo overwhelming your senses for a moment. “i do love you and your finger guns,” you whisper against his hair, reveling in the loud laugh that leaves his lips as you twist your head back to rest it against his again.
quietly, sincerely, you laugh with him.
#miya atsumu x reader#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu comfort#miya atsumu comfort#atsumu comfort#atsumu x reader#sal's fluff tag <3
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#fic where kaner suddenly develops the ability to read minds #and then finds out the captain’s horny for him… just so you know, I would read totally read that if you’re so inclined 👀
You know what, I was gonna treat this as a prompt, had this whole bit typed out on how I don't know if I'll have the time or energy, but honestly... I dunno what the fuck I have to do with my evenings anyway, I love this far too much, so instead have the little (entirely unedited, sorry) excerpt I wrote before deciding that I wanna think about this some more and make a proper/full(er) length fic out of this.
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He grits his teeth and gets back onto his feet.
The onslaught of thoughts—they’re thoughts, and he’s not going crazy, because he shouldn’t have known where that puck went—continues as an assault. He’s glad they’re at the UC for practise because he wouldn’t have been able to deal with an audience on top of everything else.
Patrick suppresses the urge to cover his ears. He doubts it would work anyway. Instead he focuses on his breathing, tries to let the constant stream of hockeypuckshockeyskatespaininjurypuckpuckhockeystickwifehockeychildrenkeptmeupallnight bleed into the background, the way conversation does in a coffee shop.
It barely works, and staying upright remains difficult. He’s pretty sure it is because thoughts are interfering with his balance, twenty guys’ subconscious adjusting to twenty different weights all the fucking time.
He stumbles off the ice, makes it back to the bathrooms—sweet fucking silence—and promptly throws up.
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Jonny finds him there, sitting on the floor still in full gear.
He’s worried. Patrick would’ve been able to tell anyway, from his expression and disgruntled huff and the way he kneels beside Patrick, but he – senses it, now, too. He’s getting images of himself lying on the floor, passed out, maybe worse; all awful, enough to let his stomach churn again.
“I’m fine,” he tells Jonny.
“You’re—” Jonny starts, cutting himself off when Pat shakes his head. Sick, he senses, you puked, you can’t be okay. You’re never sick like this. Something’s wrong.
The intensity of Jon’s mind catches him off-guard, although perhaps it shouldn’t. Captain Serious, got his name for a reason, all that jazz. Patrick half-heartedly attempts a smile and wonders if he should tell Jonny.
Doctor? Hospital? Calm down, calm down, he needs you.
Tazer’s still staring at him. He’s looking a lot calmer than he’s letting on, Patrick realizes. Still, one person’s thoughts, even if they’re Jonny’s and probably count for three average hockey players, are much more manageable.
“I think I ate something wrong last night,” he tells Jonny. “I’ll be fine, I just need to head home and sleep it off?” Hopefully this is just some weird quirk, a fluke of the universe, something he can sleep off.
He’s fine? He’s fine, good, thank shit, gotta make sure he’s fine.
“Text me once you’re there, okay?” Jonny asks.
Patrick nods. “Don’t worry, I will.”
Jonny pats his back and gets up before reaching out to help Patrick up too. “I gotta get back to the guys. Feel better and see ya tomorrow.” Stay safe, I love you.
Patrick’s halfway through untying his skates before he wonders if that was weird—and then dismisses it, because Jonny is weird and probably thinks that way about everyone.
#1988 fic#antoewsnio#kaner#oh yeah the not knowing what to do w my evenings is part due to lockdown being over and uni being in person#which has the double effect of me doing more work during work hours and having more energy from yknow having actual in person contact#and also i am trying to drink less alcohol cause thattttt did not at all get a little out of control (just a lot)#aaaaaaanyway#gimme angsty bois#i also dunno yet if this'll end up in the final fic#quite probably not cause i tend to change heaps#anoon my book i close
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I'm up in the middle of the night thinking of thirsts and now I wanna make it your problem too 😤 Also the below is VERY NSFW cause I'm a FUCKING degenerate.
I've been brainstorming about things to write for Kinktober after I finish my current WIP (it's a JJK fic if you're interested 👀) and I really want to do something with exhibitionism and/or voyeurism and I can't get the thought of one of the HQ accidentally catching Reader masturbating. (I'll be using female pronouns for Reader)
Well, it starts off accidental. Like, let's say you two are mutual friends and mesh within the same friend group (I'm think Iwa for this one because of course, I love him, but it could be anyone!) and for the most part it's been pretty platonic. He has a small crush on you that you're unaware of but it's nothing too major and he thinks it'll pass, even if the others occasionally tease him about it.
And I like to imagine the lot of you plus some other friends - like a big, diverse group - decide to take a short vacation and pool some money together to rent a place since it'll be cheaper than booking a hotel stay. And let's be generous and assume you get your own room 😌 Yeah we're rich. Anyway-
Like in the middle of the night, maybe he has to use the bathroom or grab a drink but he hears something that almost sounds like a groan come from your room? His tired brain doesn't register that he should mind his own business but instead thinks you're in pain and he wants to make sure you're okay. The door is already ajar and when he goes to knock the door nudges open a bit and he sees you in the middle of the bed and he kinda just stares.
Cause you're in the middle of the queen-sized bed with one leg up in the air while you're thrusting a dildo in and out of your cunt at quick, steady speed. Thank god you don't see - or notice, you seem pretty distracted - him otherwise he might combust.
And immediately he wants to back away and pretend like he never saw anything, maybe rub one out real quick, and try to look you in the eye tomorrow.
But at the same time, like...you sounds so wet. He can hear the wet sounds of you fucking yourself from where he is and the soft moans and whimpers coming from your lips, and oh god you're talking dirty to yourself ("Please, Daddy," and "Gimme it," and "Keep going,") and to him that's so fucking hot.
So he just...watches. He licks his lips because the idea of you even bringing that with you spurs so many ideas in his mind and shakes what he thought he knew about you to his core. It wasn't like he didn't think you had sex or desires or anything like that but you seemed so...balanced? Put together? You had a good head on your shoulders and were an absolute sweetheart - it's what he likes most about you - and while it wasn't like he's never thought of you sexually before, but you seemed like the kind of person that's pretty vanilla in bed. He can see that he's mistaken.
He hears you twitch and moan and he feels like an awful pervert when he can feel how painfully hard he is when you cum, how messy and wet you sound as you bury your face in the covers to muffle yourself, and he stops to gather himself so he can creep back to bed without drawing attention to himself and jerk off.
And he...almost does. He's a couple of steps away while you're gathering yourself when he hears you whimper again. And shortly afterwards, a faint buzzing.
He stops. You're...going again? Really? Already? But he's already about to leave...this is an invasion of your privacy and he's a pervert and he should feel horrible for this but-
He stays behind to watch, this time with his cock out.
And the day afterwards he feels like the scum of the earth when he sees you so bright and cheery when you tell everyone you slept like a baby - and he thinks 'Yeah, after masturbating three times in a row-'
He tries to be normal throughout the day when one of your friends tells you about how stressed she's been and how she doesn't understand how well you're able to handle it and to share your secret. He sinks down in his chair and he tries not to get hard while you give some general advice, but then throw in, "Although sometimes I need...alternative methods to relax, y'know?"
And then you sharply call his name. And when he looks at you his blood goes cold. Because normally you're sweet, kind and generous and give whatever advice you can, so why are you looking at him like the cat that ate the canary-
"You'd know all about that, though, right? How do you relieve stress?"
You're smirk is sly - when did you look so predatory? - and he can't breathe because oh.
You knew.
(Also if this is too much for a thirst I totally apologize! I don't want to make you uncomfortable! 😫)
HOLY SHIT LILY THIS WAS GORGEOUS i loved every second of it. this was all just chef’s kiss mhm mhm now i’ll think about this all day <3
this is definitely akaashi, MEIAN, bokuto, the miya twins, tbh i can see sakusa here too, hoshiumi, THE SEIJOH FOUR (yes all of them) and kuroo
#[ the miya couch — lily 🐯 ]#[ minty’s a magpie — vixen hours ]#miscellaneous#we’re all degenerates here honey!#haikyuu smut#exhibitionism tw
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you’re okay
hey, it’s me, ya boy uh so, no self harm in this one! it’s briefly mentioned, but it’s called a ‘habit’ and it’s never really talked about again. the tl;dr for this since it’s long; Legend gets his period and Sky helps him out. enjoy!
Legend is not vibing with his own body right now.
It’s that time of the month every afab person dreads; he’s on his period. He’s just laying on the grass, curled up in a tight ball and hoping the cramps will leave him alone. Though...he will have another situation to deal with when the cramps are over, because he just sorta collapsed while walking and he is not having a fun time. Legend tried to even out his breathing, hoping he could relax enough to feel better. His plan flew out the window when he felt someone gently turn him onto his back, and when he looked up he saw Sky, a concerned expression on his face. “Legend? Are you alright?”Sky tried to sit him up, jumping slightly when Legend just curled up tighter. “Hurts.” “What hurts?”Since the night Legend told Sky about his...habit, Sky always wants him to elaborate when he mentions being in pain. Legend doesn’t blame him. “Mh. Got cramps, they’ll go away. Usually do.” Something seemed to click in Sky’s mind, and he looked to Wild. “We’re in your hyrule. Where’s the nearest inn? Or stable?” Wild paused, looking at his sheikah slate before placing it back on his hip and signing, ‘There's a stable nearby. Not too far away.’ “Great. Think you can make it?”Sky looked at Legend, who was still curled up on the floor. “Maybe.”Legend mumbled, shutting his eyes for a brief moment, before quietly getting up with Sky’s help. Sky didn’t say a thing, helping Legend walk along with the others as Wild led them to the stable.
They got a bed for Legend as soon as they got there. He was pretty pale, and they’re all wondering about what’s wrong. Sky, however, seems to know. He just isn’t telling them. Infact, Sky hasn’t left Legend’s side, shushing him when the pain got too much. “Sky, we need to make a stop at Hateno to get some stuff. You wanna come with?”Wars looked at the other man, who simply shook his head. “I’ll stay with Legend.” With a soft shrug, Wars and the rest of the chain headed out. “Legend...when were you gonna tell me?” “Wha..?” “Legend. Look at me.”Sky frowned, gently making Legend look at him. “I know what you’re going through. I went through the same thing.” “I...don’t think you really know-” Sky lowered his voice to a whisper. “You’re on your period, aren’t you?”Watching as his son’s Legend’s face paled, he continued. “It’s okay, Legend. I’ve been through it. All the way up til I could legally stop it. I know how to help, alright?” “...okay. Fuck. You were…?” “Born in the wrong body, yeah..”Sky hummed, then smiled. “But look. I managed to get the surgery and stuff like that. You’ll get through this, I promise. Do you trust me?” There was a short pause, then Legend nodded. “Yeah..” “Then trust me when I say you’ll be okay. How long do yours usually last?” “Um. They usually only last a couple days. Five. at most. It only hurts this bad on the first day, then it’s...bearable.”Legend mumbled, still watching Sky. “I’ll make sure they let you rest. I won’t tell ‘em a thing, alright Apple?” Apple? Did...Sky just call me Apple???Legend questioned silently, yet...he doesn’t mind the nickname, not at all. He likes it, actually, it’s fitting. “Alright. Thanks, Sky..” “No problem. Try and get some rest, I’ll wake you up when dinner’s made.”Sky smiled, once again removing his sailcloth. This time, he handed it to Legend, and smiled as he watched him slowly drift to sleep. Legend had a little bit more difficulty falling asleep, but he got there eventually..
When dinner came around, Sky hesitated to wake Legend. He looked so peaceful...but Legend needs to eat, so Sky shook him awake. “Apple, wake up.” “Mh. Huh?”Legend mumbled, blinking a couple times. “Dinner’s ready, you gotta eat.” “Do I have to..?” “Yes, Apple, you have to.” Sighing, Legend rolled off the bed, still gripping the sailcloth as he shakily stood up. “Ow..”He mumbled quietly. Sky walked out with Legend, letting Legend just kneel on the grass. “Hey vet. Are you feeling any better?”Twilight glanced at Legend. “Little bit. Not a lot, I still feel like death.”He sighed, thanking Sky quietly when Sky handed him a bowl of soup. It’s pumpkin soup, again, but luckily Legend doesn’t mind. “Wild wants to know if you ate somethin bad before you felt sick.”Hyrule hummed softly. “Cause...it was sudden, yeah? We don’t know what happened.” “It’s not because of that. It’s just…”He paused, then snorted quietly. “An ongoing health issue.” “Basically, he’ll survive.”Sky smiled faintly. “I’ll make sure of it!” “You two are pretty close lately.”Four noted quietly, his eyes having a tint of purple in them. “Any reason for that?” “He’s sick, Four. I get like this with all of you!”Sky smiled reassuringly. Legend seemed to tune out the rest of their conversation, staring at his soup quietly. He has little to no appetite right now..but Wild would be upset if he didn’t at least try to eat it. Even the thought of eating is making him feel sick. I��m gonna throw up if I try, I know it.
“-end? Legend, what's wrong?” Legend snapped back to reality, looking at Sky, who had a worried expression painted over his face. “You look like you’re gonna throw up, vet. Wild’s cooking that bad?”Wars snorted. Legend quickly shook his head, yet gently placed the bowl aside. “I don’t feel well. The smell of food makes me feel sick..” “Can you try?”Sky frowned, rubbing his back. “You don’t have to.” “I can’t. ‘M sorry, nothing against you Wild.” Wild shook his head, shooting him a smile with a sign of ‘it's okay, you're sick’, which...made Legend feel a little better. That night was pretty standard, apart from the fact Sky had refused to leave Legend. Sky let out a soft sigh as he watched Legend, watching as his expression shifted every few minutes. Sky remembers being just like this whenever he had his periods, they were always awful. He just...hopes Legend won’t actually throw up, because Sky can handle everything else, but he can’t stand the smell of vomit. Sky felt his eyes start drooping, and shot a glance outside. It’s really dark, and they’re in a stable so they shouldn’t get attacked...he can take a nap, right? Taking another look at Legend, Sky shifted in his chair til he was in a more comfortable position.
He’ll help Legend with whatever he needs, cause dammit, Legend needs someone in his life that can help him with this.
#lu legend#lu sky#linked universe#linked universe fic#dad sky!!#sky calls leggy Apple..#bc i said so.#afab legend#afab sky#tell me if i missed a tag#vio writes
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Hey guys! Here's an emotionally charged one shot I wrote last night randomly!
Please enjoy ♡
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Dear Gohan,
I'm writing this because I have to stop texting you. I have to stop. You won't reply. You can't text me from beyond the grave...but maybe you can read this.
Do you remember our first camping trip?
How old was I then? 8 or 9?
At first I was so excited to be out there, away from the city. My jaw fell to the floor as I saw a new world, like the ones in my books, untouched by the androids.
We talked by the river at sunset. You told me about your father and I can still remember that smile you had, forcing back tears. You changed the subject when you turned your head to look around and said we should go to sleep, but it wasn't that dark yet.
Remember when I was terrified of that snake in the bushes too? And when I went to sleep that day, I clinged tight as I could to you, scared of the noises of the various animals and insects near us?
You made me feel less frightened by talking to me and I got used to the noise.
When I woke up that morning, you were already awake, meditating by the river. I thought you hadn't noticed me there looking at you. I didn't understand what you were doing, and like the stupid kid I was, and still am sometimes, I tried to throw a rock at you, but your ki made it crumble.
I thought you'd be mad and I said sorry, but you still smiled. Then I asked what you were doing and if I could do it too.
Meditation is hard, I learned. Still is.
You made it look effortless.
When I meditate now, it usually fails.
I can't get it out of my head.
You and mom were probably the same.
Remembering everyone who died in such a way.
You know, its been 3 months, 23 days and 2 hours since you died.
Why do I feel nostalgic for times that weren't even so long ago?
Do you remember that morning?
My life changed forever and yours ended.
I'm not sure who has it worse.
We ate pancakes. My mother made them.
You talked about how your grandpa was and your mom too.
I hate that we didn't know what would happen later on.
I hate that we went out.
I hate that I never told you I loved you that day.
Are you filled with regret? Do you wish you hadn't knocked me out?
Would you still be here?
Would I be here?
I'm sorry. I keep asking like I'll get a response.
There's still that childish, stupid side of me that has hope you will reply to me. And I know I should always have hope because you taught me to, but I'm just so cynical these days.
This is good though. I'm getting these feelings out. I have to do it now. I'm deleting your number after I send this.
I have to let go.
It's for the best.
I still want to look back on our messages and stuff though, I don't care if it hurts.
But then am I really letting go?
I want to remember you the way you were before I found you dead.
I want to remember that warm smile and soft eyes. I wanna remember all the hugs you gave me, almost crushing me in those strong arms. I want the pats on my head and the "You know I really love you" and the times you'd sneakily lift me up from behind to tease me embedded into my memory. I want to remember you stifling your laughter when I'd do something embarrassing. I want to remember how you read to me, so quiet, yet so powerful, with a silly or serious voice to fit every character and how you'd lean over my desk when I'd ask for help in my school work. I don't want to ever forget the moments you were tough on me in training, in teaching me a lesson when I did something bad, nor when you were gentle with me and patient, running your fingers through my hair and pulling me close as I hid under the covers because I was scared from the sound of the thunder from outside.
And I so desperately want to forget the you I was faced with that day.
I was so light-headed I was sick, still coming down from my Super-Saiyan high.
Remember I made you sick from my cooking? It was awful, but you ate it anyway to spare my feelings. You weren't mad when it gave you food poisoning.
You were a far better cook than me.
I loved going to the orchard to pick apples with you. Next year, I'm going to make some pies in your honour, and hope that they are 10% as good as the ones you could make. I'll give one to your mother, but I'm somewhat reluctant because I don't want to
a) upset her by reminding her of you
Or
b) have to face her criticism on my atrocious cooking.
Hey, remember Videl?
I finally figured out why you wanted to hang with her so much.
You loved her.
She came to the funeral. I think she loved you too.
I'm sorry for being jealous of her. I didn't understand back then, I just thought she was trying to take my spot as your best friend.
Would you have married her?
I think so. I remember once, you told me you wanted a daughter. You wanted to name her Pan after the Princess in our favourite book. Your mother nagged you so much to get married and start a normal family, but I guess she forgot that we no longer live in a normal world.
I know you always wanted to be a scholar. It isn't your fault you got dragged into all this, but in some ways it was useful. Your sacrifice saved so many, including me, so never feel like it was all for nothing.
Am I angry you left? Yes. As much as I love you endlessly, there's still that little resentful part of me that longs for you to be with me so I wouldn't be left alone to feel the way I do.
You left me to hurt. My limbs are proof of that, as well as my eyes.
Yet, you left me with a gift too.
Not just Super Saiyan, but also to understand loss and what I'm fighting to protect.
I won't ever forget that.
In my dreams, I always try to save you and it never works.
I have these relentless nightmares of that day. Distortions of the real event, but close enough to hurt.
The closest thing I have to really saving you is to save the ordinary people that need my help against the androids.
I'll avenge you. I promise it. I'll bring peace, even if it takes my dying breath like it did to you.
Did dying hurt at all? I've been close...but, you looked somewhat at peace. Maybe it was just my imagination.
Yes, it must have been, they were brutal and you deserved none of it. I'm sorry you had to suffer. I'm also sorry for all the shit you had to put up with in your life, including me. Oh, and sorry for swearing.
If you really are reading this from beyond, I'm sorry for being awkward and writing all this out, I don't know why I'm crying either.
How do I even end something like this?
I'm not even talking to you, technically, so does it matter?
No, no, this is my last goodbye.
I know I said it was my last goodbye at the funeral, but it just couldn't be.
I doubt this will be my last either.
At some point I'll think about you again.
As if I'm not always thinking about you.
It's like...I could be doing anything and then it takes something small and I'm just there again, standing right over your corpse in the pouring rain and I feel dizzy and my heart goes at a million miles a minute.
I wish it would just stop.
Honestly, the sound of loud rain is enough for my anxiety to be triggered.
Ugh, here I am, going on about these things, I'm not even making any sense!
Look, all I wanna say is...
I love you so much, bro, really I do, Gohan.
There is nothing more I want right now than to hug you again and tell you that personally.
But I can't.
But just know that in this world or the next, I'm always gonna be grateful for having you as my master, big brother and best friend.
With love and hope,
Your little bro forever,
Trunks Briefs
#dbz#dragon ball z#dragon ball#trunks#future trunks#gohan#son gohan#trunks briefs#fanfiction#angst#dbz fanfiction#my fanfiction
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Dear daughter - chapter 7
Word count: 1,407
Warnings: swearing, descriptions of violence
Summary: You make new friends.
A/N: picture of fairy!Baji is a comission by lovely @princessoftherose
Taglist: @kiwifeii @ryusukeimdonee @dreamtogether2000 @dot0nix @cerelcereal
“Morning” Mikey yawned as he finally joined you in the kitchen, his hair still messy and he didn´t even bother to get dressed. He honestly looked as if he was still sleeping, it was quite the funny sight.
“Good morning, are you hungry?” you smiled and handed him a plate as he nodded.
“See? I told you he´s useless before he´s eaten” Draken laughed, you liked his laugh. You guessed it was because he didn´t really seem like a guy to laugh a lot. No, he was the guy where every little kid started crying even though he was harmless.
“Well, he´s gonna get a power up now! Eat up” you grinned and you two joined him at the table, you had some fruit, syrup, whipped cream and anything else you might need to decorate your pancakes.
Draken was very simple with it, he just ate them plain with some fruit, Mikey´s plate looked like a mess, he really maxed out on the sugar but you could just see the way his eyes lit up when he took that first bite.
“Those are amazing, (Y/N/N)!” he beamed at you, immediately back to his usual self. How the hell did he do that? Mikey really was a mystery to you.
You never knew what was going on inside that airhead of his, for now that was fine, but you were quite worried about him. It wasn´t normal being this happy all the time and then magically switching to a coldblooded individual when fighting.
You just hoped he wouldn´t break underneath the pressure.
After finishing up breakfast and cleaning Mikey finally got ready. But only because Draken reminded him that the others were already waiting for him and they´d be late for the meeting. You tagged along since they asked you to and honestly you were excited. Meeting the others and just sitting with them in such a meeting was always fun to you.
If that was how your mom felt when she started the gang? Must have been nice. You wondered if you would ever start something that made you feel that way too.
You were still so amazed at how nice everyone else was, they didn´t mind you being there with them, quite the contrary, they made you join the conversation and laughed with you, mostly making fun of the ridiculous way some of them fought.
“No, really! Baji´s move was so funny, it looked like he was flying but not in the cool way” Mikey laughed, nudging your shoulder a bit to make his point.
“Oi! It got the job done, okay? It´s not like everyone can control how they look when they beat somebody up” Baji pouted, yeah their last fight with another small gang didn´t really go that well.
He thought he looked cool but apparently he didn´t, but hey, at least he got creative with it and managed to take out three guys with it. He saw that as a win and didn´t care that it meant being the laughing stock this day.
Well, he did care. But he knew that it was all in good fun.
“Aw, I wish I could´ve seen that!” you laughed with them, just the imagination was so absurd to you, well, all of their stories were, they sounded like out of a movie but a bad one. Not bad in an unbelievable way but bad in a good trashy way with the most over the top special effects.
“He looked like a fairy princess, the way he was floating through the air” Draken commented, arms crossed and throwing his head back laughing. Fuck, they all almost cried, that was how hard they laughed.
It was the genuine laughter that made you feel warm and safe.
“Actually I think wings and a cute dress would suit you” Kazutora giggled along, he was more of the quiet type but certainly had his fun with the group. He reminded you of your own friends, the ones nobody else wanted to talk to, the ones eating alone in their break.
“Shut it!” Baji turned red from embarrassment.
“That´s so mean, guys! I wanna see his move too. Can you show me, Baji-hime?” you grinned, regretting it about fifty percent, you weren´t sure if it was your place to joke with them but the opportunity was too tempting to pass out on.
The regret completely vanished when Mikey and Draken burst out in laughter and even Baji had to chuckle.
“That was a good one, I´ll give you that. But if anything, you should be the princess” Baji remarked and stretched a bit.
“But you know what, since it´s you I´ll try to do it again” he smiled gently and you smiled at him brightly. You felt really honored that he´d do that for you. Baji was always so easy to talk to, you hoped you´d become friends some day, but to him you already were.
There was no need for you to be so unsure and insecure with them, everyone liked and accepted you, you might as well be part of the gang. Most of them saw you like they did Emma, as a sister.
Your eyes were glued to Baji as he told everyone to step back a bit, he then went out in a sprint and jumped in the air, pushing his legs off of a nearby rock to create momentum and then he…. flew.
You held your breath and followed him with your eyes, his jacket really looked like wings as he spun in the air and then kicked as hard as he could when he came back down, you could just imagine his enemies underneath him. And then he landed, casually pushing his hair out of his face and joining you again.
“Whoa! That was so cool!! If you were a fairy you´d be the most badass one for sure. You´re the kind of princess that doesn´t need saving” you cheered for him and yes maybe your reaction was a bit overdramatic but that was the first time you ever saw something like that. You didn´t know the magic of a real fight yet.
“Right? It was a fun day. I mean, I was just done beating up my part of the gang and I´m looking around, where is Baji? And the second I look up he´s flying over our heads, yelling like a madman and just fucking stomping on this guy… it was insane” Draken laughed as he retold his point of view, you couldn´t help but laugh along, you could just imagine his surprise.
It was that day that yours and Baji´s friendship deepened and truly started becoming more than just acquaintances, the girl that Mikey and Draken always bring along.
No, you were his little princess now. It was so funny how you were someone everyone just wanted to protect but at the same time you wanted to preserve all of their smiles, you wanted to protect them too.
“I wanna have cool moves like these too, can you teach me?��� you asked hopefully and the guys thought about it for a while.
You weren´t that inexperienced in fighting, after all your aunties taught you everything about self defense, but you wanted more. You wanted to train and get strong so that you could take down bigger guys that were mean too.
“You know what, I have an idea! We´re all gonna teach you something” Mikey proposed and you nodded along, you liked that idea a lot.
And so in the next months you went jogging and working out with your aunties, they also taught you more self defense and you learned Baji´s spinning trick, Mikey´s kicks and Draken´s punches. Mikey´s and Baji´s techniques were more complex and you had trouble with them but after some time you at least had the basics down.
“Thank you, guys!” you smiled. You would´ve never thought that you could still smile after your mom died but here you were and you could just feel her smiling down on you, you bet she was resting assured now that she saw what great friends you had, that you were safe and sound and happier than ever.
You weren´t sure you deserved this, after all you didn´t do anything, you were just there. But you would never take it for granted, you would work hard to maintain those friendships and make sure everyone knew how much they meant to you!
#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers writing#tokyo revengers imagines#tokyo revengers oneshot#tokyo revengers scenarios#tokyo revengers drabbles#tokyo revengers fic#tokyo revengers fluff#tokyo revengers fanfiction#tokyo revengers x reader#tokyo revengers x y/n#tokyo revengers x you
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Fic: Relief
Frankie “Catfish” Morales x female reader (cishet, no y/n, no kids, reader is on her period)
Warnings: Mutual hand jobs during period, blood is mentioned but not featured. Cramps described.
Summary: Frankie knows how to deal with cramps. Frankie's got you.
You exhale a sigh of relief when you step underneath the hot spray of water. Shuddering at the sudden heat of the shower, you tense up for a second before relaxing and turning your face up towards the stream. As you get used to the temperature, you turn up the heat a little more and carefully rub your lower back and stomach to spread out the warmth over the bloated, aching parts. You got your period this morning and have spent the day with a nagging ache radiating from your stupid fucking uterus. Towards the evening, the cramps worsened and you didn't eat much during dinner. Frankie had suggested you take a shower and an early night, let him worry about cleaning up, but you were loath to just let everything go because of something you've experienced once a month for over half your life. Besides, this wasn't even the worst your body could throw at you: you were still functioning. Uncomfortable, yes, but not bedridden and vomiting. After a few chores, however, you figured you had done enough for the day, and decided to take Frankie's advice.
The hot water relaxes you and for a long while, you just stand underneath the stream, eyes closed and one palm resting on your lower abdomen, relieved that the shower is taking the edge of the pain, but you're still feeling swollen and sore. Finally opening your eyes, you reach for the shampoo just as the door opens and Frankie comes in. He’s wearing only a t-shirt and boxer briefs, and proceeds to shed these quickly before getting into the shower booth with you.
”How’s you, gorgeous?” he murmurs into your ear, slipping his arms around you from behind.
A little flutter in the pit of your stomach brings forth a smile on your lips, and you put the shampoo bottle away.
”Surviving.”
”I know you’re in pain but fuck, I love it when your tits and ass swell up like this.”
He moves his large hands to your ass cheeks and squeezes, before trailing his fingers lightly up your sides and to your front, covering your breasts. He’s a lot more careful with them than with your ass; experience has taught him that if he’s too rough when they’re tender, he’ll get punched in the face. (For real: you were once taken by surprise by his well-meaning but slightly too rough grip, the sudden pain making you startle in a perfect backwards headbutt. He got a nose bleed and you felt awful, but he felt worse, not from pain but for having hurt you.)
”It’s not as bad as it was two days ago. I wouldn’t even have let you touch them,” you let him know, the flutter in your stomach intensifying when Frankie brushes his fingers over your stiff nipples.
”I know, and it’s torture. They were bigger two days ago. But I just have to make do...”
He trails kisses down your shoulder, one hand staying on your breast and the other wandering down between your legs, finding your clit. You exhale in a soft sigh.
”I’m bleeding a lot," you warn him with a low moan. ”And I’m sore, Frankie, I... I don’t want you in me.” You feel awful for telling him this because you usually always want him in you, but right now, you would just be uncomfortable. It's not the blood, it's the overall uneasiness.
”Don’t worry baby, I know what you need,” he whispers in a low growl, his breath hot on your ear. You feel him grow hard against your butt, so your lean back, pressing yourself against his dick, just as he starts to rub your clit gently with two fingers. Sparks run up and down your body as you let out another sigh before turning your head so you can reach his mouth. You find it, but also get hit full on in the face by the shower, so you giggle and wipe at your eyes. Frankie chuckles as he redirects both you and the shower head before pressing his lips to yours, kissing you like only he can, lightly but with commitment. You've never been with anyone who could kiss like Francisco Morales. Then again, you've never loved anyone as much as you love him, never wanted anyone like you want him. Never been safe enough with anyone to want them so much, so bad, so fully.
He pinches your nipple a little too hard, and you bite his lip in return. You both grunt and fall back.
”Sorry,” he smiles. You smile back.
”No you’re not...”
You reach behind yourself, find his dick, and start to stroke it. Frankie leans his forehead to the back of your head, breathing audibly, his hand working faster between your legs. You moan and find the wall with your free hand to support yourself. The dull ache of your cramps is now shadowed by the escalating pull in your groin and despite the hot water, your skin prickles over for a moment, your arousal manifesting in goosebumps that quickly disappear in the stream of hot water.
Frankie's breathing is shallow against your ear, echoing your own, both of you breathing more audibly, exhales turning into small, short moans as you take each other closer to the edge. You're finding it difficult to work Frankie's hard dick with your hand awkwardly reaching behind yourself, but he doesn’t seem to have any complaints. You think dimly that if this doesn’t work out, you can suck him off once you're undone. He’d like that. Or...
”Wanna cum on my ass, baby?” you invite him in a breathless whisper. ”Wanna cum on my round, soft ass?”
”Fuck,” Frankie groans, flipping a couple of wet, heavy strands of hair out of the way before kissing your neck and sucking into the skin. You hiss and do your best to jerk him off faster, but your hand is no longer functioning optimally as you're closing in on your orgasm. You don't want to grab him too hard, so you let go of him and braze yourself with both hands against the tile wall. Panting, you bite down on your lower lip and hold your breath –
– and release a low keen, a tiny shudder traveling through your body as the orgasm relaxes and tenses you up, simultaneously, wonderfully. Frankie doesn't give your clit a rest when he grabs his cock, taking over where you left off.
”Cum on my ass, baby,” you beckon him, breathless and still riding the waves of your orgasm, ”that’s it, cum on my ass...” You tense up again, your fingers clawing helplessly on the walls without finding a grip, and your legs shake as you mewl your way through another release.
Despite the flowing water from the shower, you feel the hot spurts of cum on your ass cheeks. Frankie curses in a strangled voice and releases your burning bundle of nerves, slapping both hands to your hips and pulling you to him, pressing a gasping, open-mouth kiss to your shoulder. You feel him tremble about as much as you yourself are and very carefully, you take your hands off the wall and put them over his. You lean back and feel his chest heave against your back. He murmurs in appreciation at the contact.
”Damn, baby.”
”Uh-huh.”
You turn around and wrap your arms around his neck, gazing into those wonderful brown eyes of his.
”You’re so good to me,” you say sincerely. Frankie smiles softly, sliding his hands down to your ass.
”It’s because your ass is awesome,” he grins before dipping down to kiss you. ”And because I love you.”
He helps wash your hair, something he's done plenty of times before but still makes you purr with pleasure. You return the favor and it gives you the same kind of gratification to see how much he appreciates it as well.
After the shower, when you're dry, warm, and dressed in pj's, you go to the kitchen to put your rice heat pack in the microwave. Your cramps have subsided considerably, but you still want to keep your belly warm.
"You hungry?" Frankie asks, rummaging through the fridge. "You hardly ate anything."
"I'll have a cup of tea. Eating makes me so gassy," you grimace. It doesn't matter what you eat during your first two days on your period: your stomach turns upside down.
”Okay, baby." Frankie goes to the cupboard where the coffee and tea are stored. "The pink box?"
"Thanks, yeah, that's the one." You accept the box of tea from him, and your big teacup. Frankie fills the kettle with water and turns it on, before leaning against the sink.
"Wouldn’t want you to fart in your sleep all night,” he teases you with a little smirk. ”I’d send you to the couch immediately.”
”Here we go,” you sigh theatrically as you move into his embrace. ”Total asshole as soon as your dick’s back in your pants.” You kiss his nose before giving it a little nip.
”I was so good to you only thirty minutes ago," he reminds you, feigning offense. You scoff, but you also can't help smiling widely. He's always so good to you, every day. You can't believe your luck.
The microwave pings and you pick out the pad and grab your tea. On your way to the living-room for an uneventful rest of the night on the couch in front of the tv, Frankie catches you in his arms. Pressing his sharp nose to your neck, he inhales deeply and hums in approval.
”Feeling better?”
”If I say yes, are you gonna be a smug asswipe about it?”
”You bet.”
"Then no, I feel like shit." Sweetly, you bat your eyelashes at him. "You're going to have to make at least a bit of an effort."
"I like a challenge."
He follows you to the couch and not even half an episode of Parks and Recreation later, you're admitting that you feel a lot better. Another two episodes, and you're asleep against his side.
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