#and now i just dumped another friendship
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#jo.doc#i think its interesting how february is one of my favorite months bc like#its the month i stopped being friends with tc#its the month of valentines day#its the month where m*cky falsely accused me of being a lolicon#to the point where it failed so badly she deleted p much everything#(she has tried to ruffle my feathers but like ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ sorry im medicated married and have an excellent support group. you will never hurt#anyone again#and now i just dumped another friendship#and i feel like as hard of a decision i made it was for the best. it only gets easier every time. im glad i am at a point#where i can stand up for myself. the truest form of self love for me tbh#i dont come on tumblr often but its like wow#ive come so far#jordin.doc#to think i used to be this scared abused young adult#and now ive survived#i wished to have my woes only be like mundane and not catastrophic#and i got what i wished for#im married. im in a home that feels warm and safe to take naps in#and cook whatever i want#this is what living is like.
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how do you cut someone off
#like without drifting apart gradually bc tbh i dont wanna be close friends anymore#i feel constantly misunderstood and perpetually weighed down in this person's presence#we're close friends but i dont even like her anymore#and i feel BAD about it but i just cant stand their ass! everything feels like a competition with them. everything feels miserable.#it's definitely partially my own fault bc i do a lot of comparing due to our laundry list of similarities#but it's partially their fault bc shes always adding fuel to the fire#like we can never just agree on things#and whenever i try to balance myself and stop being so competitive here she comes with her damn#need to make even more comparisons between us#also like. they cannot just shut up about how hard life is#Trust me i know! i take 3 pills daily for psychological issues. i have been since i was 18#like they always have to talk about how haaaaard having ADHD is how difficult their life is like#it's one thing to open up to your friends and vent every so often and another to make your illness your entire personality#i rant about all my issues in depth on tumblr BECAUSE i know better than to dump all that onto my friends who are already struggling#im not saying it's Trauma Dumping to talk abt ur problems but holy shit in moderation#like i dont have the mental or emotional capacity for this!!!!#that might sound really mean and god forbid extremely individualistic but it's truly because#im trying to HEAL im trying to RECOVER#and with someone constantly messaging me about their ailments and symptoms and struggles! well it makes me feel like we're both bound to be#stuck foreverrrr#also apart from that i dont enjoy their company. they used to be interesting and now they're just negative half the time if not more and#constantly playing the devils advocate for seemingly no real reason#im not perfect either in fact i can be a real asshole in friendship im aware. but this one particular friend has been pissing me off for#over a year and that has to mean something#like why now and why for this long?#if it really is a Me Problem then okay! like i fucking suck im horrible or whatever lets not be friends so that she can be happier!#idgaf anymore maybe im the bad guy but either way we're better off apart#z.post
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#the doctor gets a break (several! in fact!)#and the master just suffers constantly#đđđ#dw spoilers
@jewishjanetandco I love the Doctor with all my heart but THANK YOU, sometimes I feel like the only person who is sad (and a little angry) about this. <3
#ooc#dash commentary#dw spoilers#why didn't she help him#she didn't have to even reconcile their friendship she just had to acknowledge his pain without a 'but'#take him and patch him up and dump him somewhere#instead yet another sanctimonious speech when he was in the middle of a psychiatric breakdown and dying on the ground like?#did you not learn from being 12????#it's literally her fault the Toymaker found a vulnerable moment to kidnap and torture the Master#Chibnall WHY#anyway i know we're all focusing on fifteen now and that's valid but like#choices are important and reverberate for a long time#media crit cw#yes i know i'll shut up about it now#i'll forever think thirteen's exit was rushed
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Itâs Time You Switch
Ê pairing: Paige Bueckers x reader
Ê word count: 4.4k words
Ê prompt: âFuck your boyfriend, he a bitch. I think itâs time you switch.â
Ê warnings: RPF!! , smut!!, voyeurism, dirty talk?, face riding, fingering, oral reader!receiving, basically porn with little plot
Ê rimunagenius speaks: in which Paige turns straight girls ;) i have not written smut since my wattpad era so im sooo insanely rusty but i also have never felt the touch of a woman romantically sooo idek if this will be any goodâŠsuggestions are welcome to make it better!! and for future works!!
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"I don't know what I did to him, though. That's what I can't let go. He's being so dry and cold." You told the team as you did dynamic warm up before practice started.
Coach G just shook his head, listening to all your guy problems. This was just another boy for him to hate on campus. At this rate, the whole male and female population at UConn was on his shit list.
"I say, you dump him." KK said, patting your back mid walking lunge. "He's been doing this for months now, it's time to drop him, girl boo.â You told KK a lot of things. She was just a freshman but she become a quick and good friend.
You met her in a class you had been taking and started talking, soon finding out you were both on the same team. It shocked her, but after finding out you stayed off social media, the press release of her committing was new news. You were a senior and she was a freshman, but this friendship was like you two knew eachother forever.
"Yeah, I agree with K." Paige said, from the other side of you. A soft, comforting smile on her face.
"You know what could fix this? A girls night." Aaliyah smiled, her eyebrows wiggling suggesting you guys go out.
"I know you're not planning to go out, get drunk on the night before a game." Coach yelled from his seat on the bench.
"But Coach, c'mon! My girls feeling sad." Paige feigned a pout, grabbing your shoulders and pointing your face, you pouting your lips and batting your lashes.
"Nah, it's okay. I don't really want to go out anyways. Staying in is the move." You sighed, the stretching finished.
You talked about it all practiceâsad about it all practice. After, Paige suggested you come over to her place, a sleepover. You begrudgingly agreed. Telling her she needed to take you home to get some clothes; Paige shutting it down because you could borrow hers.
That was the first mistake. It didn't feel like a mistake in the end but that was the first step to a very confusing day afterwards. The second, sharing a bed with the blonde.
You both decided to lay in her bed, get fat on snacks, and watch all the movies you could before getting sleepy and tapping out for the night. I guess Paige had another tapping in mind.
"You know he doesn't deserve you so why do you stay with him?" Paige disregarded the movie, turning her head slightly to look at you.
"He does deserve me, he's just struggling, I guess." You shrugged your shoulders, dwelling on the fact that you couldn't figure out what he was actually struggling with.
"Fuck your boyfriend. He's a bitch for the way he's acting with a pretty girl like you." Paige got passionate about defending her friends. Especially when someone in their life wasn't treating them right. She was more of a protector. A fierce one.
"Paige, that's a little mean."
"It's true. It's time you switched. I'm telling you, girls are so much less complicated. They're easier to read and better at communicating." Paige smirked to you, knowing you wouldn't shoot for it.
"Please, if I knew how, I would." You rolled your eyes, looking down, shoving a potato chip in your mouth.
Paige's eyes went wide. There's no way you were actually serious. You looked like the straightest of straight girls, a very attractive one. Which is why she thought it sucked you didn't swing that way. "No way, are you serious?" She laughed.
"Yeah, but I dont even think I like girls like that." You furrowed your brows. You never actually thought about it. You had no idea if the "girl crushes" you had were actually crushes.
"What does that mean?"
"Like, I've seen girls and thought they were super attractive. I'd wonder what it'd be like to kiss them, and I used to say iâd treat them better than their actual boyfriends, but I didn't think that far." That set it off for Paige. That's how it started. First you thought about what it'd be like to kiss a girl, then to date, and then to fuck.
"Have you ever thought about dating them?" Paige already knew where this was going.
"Yeah sort of. But I was always with him that it was whatever." You looked to Paige.
"Well it's time you switch." She smiled smugly at you, shrugging her shoulders. "I'm down to show you how." That was the most forward Paige had ever been with a girl. She knew it was swaying you, the contemplation clouding your vision, deep in thought.
"What do you mean 'show me'? Like how to fuck?" Your brows furrowed as you questioned the blonde beside you.
"That's exactly what I mean..." Paige's eyes watched yours, waiting for the green light.
"Okay." Suddenly the air in your lungs disappeared when Paige grabbed your face and kissed you deeply. She wanted this for so long. You and her had been bestfriends all throughout your childhood. She had even told Geno he couldn't give her an offer without giving you one. Your skills in basketball were exceptional, your work ethic and athleticism and ability to work with people around you. You and Paige made a great team.
She had admired everything about you for as long as she could remember. She was just waiting on you. You moaned into the kiss, opening your legs so she could slot her body between yours, achieving the best angle to kiss you.
Something in you felt like this was all muscle memory. Like you two have done this before. Her hands moved to your hips, her grip firm but so soft. You two kicking the snacks off the bed, not caring about the mess that was to be made.
"Imma take your clothes off...that okay?" Paige's lips trailed down the collumn of your neck, moaning at the sensation your body sparked throughout her body.
"Yeah, okay. Please." Instantaneously Paige's fingers dropped the the waistband of your pajama shorts, and the waistband of your underwear. The feeling of lace pulling a groan from the blondes throat. Ridding you of your pants and underwear, her hand grabbed the hem of your shirtâher shirt, sliding it up.
You sat up, pulling it off, panting softly. You couldn't believe this was happening. The least you expected from this sleepover was hooking up with your bestfriend, in her bed, on a friday night. You then grabbed Paige's face, needing her lips on yours like you were a woman starved.
Paige was a sweetheart; a golden retriever, kind, and good person...but when it came to her game, on and off the court, she was literally a cocky fuck boy who could prove they could get into your pants. She was a respectful woman, one of the best even, but the second mutual interest was involved; game over.
While making out, her hand cupping your breast over the padding of your bra, the only clothing you seemed to have on left, she bit your bottom lip, slightly tugging on it with her teeth. Your back arched, moaning at the sensation she was able to wash your body in, she quickly unclasped your bra, sliding the straps off when you were flat on your back.
Having the soft skin of yours exposed, she slowed her movements, dodging your face when you tried to kiss her again. "Show me how he got you off." The sentence shocked you.
"Huh?" You looked at her, her eyes having the same challenging look. She knew she'd do ten times better than he ever could. Plus, it helped that her anatomy and your anatomy were the same...meaning, she knew where everything was.
"You heard me, show me what he did for you, so I can show you that I can do it better." Her long hair falling on her shoulders, she slid her Huskies t-shirt off, leaving her in a black sports bra.
You shifted on the bed, nervous but willing. She already had you naked, you were already so wet so you knew when you try and fail to get yourself off like how your ex did, she'd make it better. Paige always made it better.
You reached your hand down, sliding your fingers through your soaking wet cunt, gathering as much as your slick as possible, gasping softly. The feeling of your fingers ghosting your clit, you remembered that you were supposed to be doing this how he did, so you disregarded the spot your body ached and pleaded for physical contact, and jumped straight to inserting two fingers.
You looked at Paige, a look in her eyes you've never seen before. "Wait, he didn't evenâ?" She was confused but really focused nonetheless. You knew she wasn't really paying attention to what you were doing, she was; she was literally getting soaked at watching you play with yourself, but she just couldn't take her eyes off your pretty pussy. She would never be your 'friend' again after tonight.
You shook your head at her question and continued in fingering your self, curling your fingers at the right spots, maintaining the even yet somewhat hasty pace. Your panting started to get louder, your eyes fluttering closed every now and again. Slowly coaxing yourself to your high, you spread your legs wider, reaching your hand out, signaling Paige you wanted her to grab your hand.
She placed her hand in yours and she was immediately pulled on top of you, your mouth finding hers. Your hand never wavered in the work you were doing on yourself, which is why Paige swallowed the loud moan induced by your orgasm, as you slowly started to slow the rhythm of your fingers, riding out the small orgasm.
You don't know why you did it, you only were conscious of it after you had placed the fingers that were previously inside of you, into her mouth. Your jaw slack, jus a tiny bit, watching and feeling her lick your fingers, swallowing any trace of your she can hope to find. You couldnât believe you were behaving like this. So dirty but so willing.
Paige moaned at the action, not trying to deny that what you had done could've made her come alone. She started to drag her lips from yours, to the corner of your lips, to your cheek, all the way to and down your neck, sloppy and lazy but sensual kisses were left in her wake.
She wouldn't dare leave any marks behind, your guys' team would calculate what went down her tonight. So she settled for non-visible hickeys. When her lips met your breasts, she took her sweet time with both. Her tongue swirling around your taught nipple, her free hand kneeding the other.
Your back was already arching off the bed, hands tugging at the sheets below you. The soft cries leaving your lips egging her on.
She moved across the other breast, a trail of purple and red trailing the way, her hand switched places. You couldn't take this...you needed her somewhere else. You loved this but holy was she dragging it out.
Before you could even askâbeg, her to move where you were so desperately wanting her, her hand was already spreading your leg open, lips following a foreign, yet so familiar path, all the way down to the curve of your thighs.
She started slowly, opting to tease you, but also educate you like she promised. You understood the significance of foreplay, hell you craved it in your evidently clear soon to be previous relationship, but you couldn't take the ache your pussy had for Paige. It's like it knew you needed her all along. It didn't help that you hated the prolonged attention, but also loved it. Watching her worship your body was something so unexplainably attractive.
The way she slowly placed soft kisses from your knees, massaging the soft skin of your calf's along the way, all the way up your thigh. The closer her lips got to your center, the more antsy you became. You needed her mouth to connect already. You couldn't take it anymore.
"Oh, my god. Paige...please." You sighed, your panting growing more and more viscous.
"Please what, gorgeous?" Her lips ghosted over your wet folds as she moved to the other leg, now blatantly teasing the fuck out of you, while she smiled and kissed every expanse she could.
"Please just eat my pussy already. I can't take it." You almost cried begging her to finally do something. She had you masturbate infront of her for christ sake.
"Whatever you want." She looked into your eyes, her pupils blown, a blissed out smile and haze on her face. Almost immediately after, her face disappeared in between your legs. Paige licked a stripe up your soaking cunt, from the entrance all the way to the most sensitive nerve ending.
The sound that escaped your mouth was borderline pornographic as the built up arousal finally was being tended to. The feeling of her slick tongue running one more stripe through your folds before swirling around your clit was something you absolutely could not imagine. Your mind in a foggy mess.
"You taste so sweet, baby." The name leaving her mouth ignited fuzziness that you felt in your toes all the way to your scalp. Her voice hoarse, mouth glistening from you, you could never get this sight out of your head; nor did you want to.
"Ohhhh, my god." It came out like a pure cry. The choked moans mixed with tears and strained sobs, elicited a newfound hunger in Paige.
Her mouth doing double time, her tongue swirling and licking perfectly paced, her lips sucking and kissing all the right places at the right time, started to build up the coil in your belly. The feeling growing more and more intense the more she praised you from between your legs. "You're doing so good for me, baby." You couldn't even breathe.
The coil snapping, the tension in your belly now releasing, a gushing mess now painted Paige's gorgeous face, your mouth agape.
You couldn't help but scream...almost. Your moan so loud, Paige covered your mouth with her hand. "Shh, don't want the neighbors to hear." Paige panted softly in your ear, before cracking the signature smirk.
The smugness she had while she saw the aftermath of what seemed to be the best orgasm you have ever had in your life. Your breathing still shallow, your chest heaving, the pattern of the way it rises and falls mesmerizes Paige. Her ego being fed tremendously watching the way you fell apart just by her going down on you.
She couldn't help but want to brag to your ex that he couldn't even make you feel half of what she just did. The accomplishment of getting you to look like this in her bed, your breath fanning over her face as she hovered over you, the accomplishment in having you like this, with her in her bed, was truly a miracle.
Paige loved it. She could go this whole night just fulfilling your needs, showing you everything you missed out on in your pointless one sided relationship. She intended to.
"Oh, my god. That wasâ" You stopped, your breath finally returning. "That was fucking amazing." You looked at the blonde who seemed to be content watching you fall apart.
The smugness on her face but the adoration of you being here, pure evidence that she was enjoying every second of it. "It was. Didn't know you were a screamer." The cocky Paige returned, forgetting keeping the moment remotely intimate. You smacked her arm that rested next to your body, and grabbed her face and kissed her.
You caught her off guard, her mouth open due to a small gasp, and took that as your chance to slide your tongue in her mouth. You two made out like horny teenagers. You two weren't that far from being teenagers, that was only a couple years ago, but you two made eachother feel like two young kids, absolutely enamored with the idea of each other that you couldn't get off of eachother.
You two made out, you slowly turning yourself so you could be on top. Paige knew what you were trying to do, allowing you to take control for now. You oulled apart, looking down at her, picturing this, saving it for the foreseeable future. Chasing your lips, Paige grabbed your face, pulling you into a deepening kiss. You two literally couldn't get enough of eachother.
Before you could even get the rest of Paige's clothes off, she grabbed your hips that were resting on hers, and pulled them forcefully over towards her chest. You gasped and yelped, suprised at the sudden force she was using. Hesitant to follow, you saw her hungry gaze go between your eyes and your nowâagain, soaking cunt.
There was no way. "Paige, no. Don't even think about it." You warned, a small intimidating look. It normally had an affect on Paige on the court, knowing when she saw it, you talked a big game and backed it up. But right now, in the bedroom, you were hers and she had the control.
Tonight was to show you what you were missing out on, and how to get a girl going. There was no way she'd let you have the control, no matter how much she wanted it. She'd save that for another night. Maybe she was getting too ahead of herself, but there was going to be another night with you.
"What are you talking about?" The smugness returned, along with a feigned clueless look. You couldn't take her serious with the fact that your thighs were damn near putting her in a chokehold, her hands inching you closer and closer to where she wanted you...where she wanted you to sit, preferably.
"Paige, i'm not about to sit on your face." You tried scooting back, forgetting that Paige was actually stronger than you. The ferocity in which she pulled your hips, your pussy ghosting her lips at the force and aim in which she yanked you, a small gasp escaped your sealed lips.
You yanked your hips back, giving her a pointed look. "I was trying to literally fuck you, not trying to sit on your face. Let me make you feel good, baby." Paige knew she could get away with calling you baby, you probably weren't thinking much of it when she said it. But Paige said it with conviction, just the way you did right now.
The name only egged her on when you used it in this context. The only context Paige wanted to hear it in. "Your making me feel good by letting me make you feel good. I promise i'm fine, I just want you to sit this pretty pussy on my face. Will you let me?" Her eyes sincere, the smirk playing on her lips slowly convincing you by the second.
"You promise?" You whispered, suddenly conforming to the blonde underneath you. Something about the way she talked easily convinced you.
"Yeah. Promise." You stared down at her, unsure. Not wanting to crush her, your thighs being pretty full, the muscle you've built over the years, and just the general size being something you've been insecure about since you were a little girl. She knew that.
That's why when she saw the look on your face, she kissed your thighs. In whatever spot she could reach. She gave you a reassuring nod, smile on her face. Albeit you didn't know what kindâcocky or comforting. Either way, when she said what she did, you immediately obeyed.
"Sit on my face." You then moved both knees eye level with Paige, falling back slightly, your pussy ghosting her lips again. The second you put your full weight on her face, her mouth got to work.
The sensation and new angle elicited some explicit sounds. 'Didn't know you were a screamer' kept replaying in your head when you tried to quiet down the moans only Piage seemed to be able to pull from you, escaped your lips.
Her hands cupped your ass, pressing your body down impossibly closer and harder into her face. She seemed to be pushing so hard, you were scared you were going to suffocate her. Her tongue teased your entrance, swiftly ghosting in and out of it, before lapping at your folds and clit perfectly.
She ate you like a woman starved. Like if this was her last meal. You had enjoyed every second of this exchange. You reached your hand down slowly, softly moving your hand in slow circles on your clit, overstimulating yourself.
Paige took notice of your fingers now getting to work, a gravely groan reverberating into your wet pussy as she looked up at you, and quickly closing her eyes in bliss. She decided that since you wanted to touch yourself, she'd slide a finger or two into you. To really get you going. Wasnât the most ideal positioning but she was going to make it work.
Her head bobbed subtly, effectively getting her tongue into the small space where her fingers were about to make an appearance. Inserting one finger, Paige watched, felt, and listened to the way your body reacted to her movements.
Using each reaction to her advantage. The small gasp you let out when she inserted herself into you, the way your breathing reluctantly changed pace, so she inserted another, noticing how your breath picked up. That's when she curled her fingers methodically to the pace she set for herself, matching the pace you set while you continued rubbing circles in your clit.
It didn't take long for Paige to brung you closer to the edge while her tongue picked up the slack for your fingers. You stopped your movements and let her do the work, she could tell it was good by the volume your pants and moans were sounding. She was working overtime while you ran your hand over her hair, eventually looking for another anchor to grip to while you violently come undone by your best friend. "Oh, my god. Right there. Don't stop." You panted, your jaw dropped.
Your legs started to shake, Paige's pace relentless while she finger fucked you in her bed, while she simultaneously ate you out. This wasn't the way you expected to spend your night, and neither did Paige, but holy fuck was it worth it.
"Don't you dare stopâOh!" The coil snapped once again, a guttural cry and moan left your lips. You swore that any person who was passing by Paige's apartment would've thought you were filming porn. The moans you moaned were insane and absolutely the biggest turn on for Paige. She wouldn't lie and say she didn't already get off on just hearing you.
Yeah, she worked at you, and saw your oh so pretty parts, but listening to the affect she had on you, the comparison made between her and your ex and the ego boost that came with it, were just the perfect amount to get her off on just pleasuring you for the last two hours.
Your breath uneven, slowly moving your legs away from her face, your chest still heaving. She chuckled softly, before looking over to you, while you laid yourself next to her. "That's how it's done, baby." Paige held her hand up, trying to signal a high five.
You looked at her blankly, her seeing the absolute fucked our face you had, and then pulled you closer to her. Your body resting against hers; the stark contrast of your overheated body, compared to her cold and cool body.
The contrast easing the overwhelmed feeling you harbored just a little easier. "You did so good for me, baby. You looked so hot while I made you come. Couldn't believe it." You smacked her chest, feeling a little cringed that she had to see you and all the faces you could've made while you had the most earth shattering orgasms.
"Paige. Oh my god, stop." You laughed, she did too, You two laid there for a minute before she broke the silence.
"You're not going back to him, right?" Her voice now withdrawn from the cockiness and confident undertones, and just pure nerves and concern. She hoped you'd say no. That you'd choose to stay with her, and tell her he was just there until you realized your feelings for her were the same as the ones she's had for you all these years.
"No, I'm breaking up with him tomorrow. You think i'd go back to him, when he couldn't do half the shit you did with your tongue alone? Yeah, right." You looked up at Paige, your bestfriend. You couldn't believe this is what your relationship evolved to in a matter of two hours.
"Soo, that means..." Paige was hopeful. She just wanted you to say what she's been wanting to say for years.
"Let's date. I love you, you obviously love me," She looked away, embarrassed, and playfully pushed you away. You grabbed her arm, pulling her back so she could look you in the eyes. "Do you want to be my girlfriend? Serious."
"Serious. I'll be your girlfriend. Finally." Paige kissed you, slowly. Melting into eachother, the weight of the new relationship status now sinking in. You two were ecstatic.
You decided to clean up, showering, again, her inevitably joining you. When you both settled and were ready for bed. Too tired and fucked out to continue the movieârestart the movieâyou two had started a while ago, it was quiet and dark in the room when Paige suddenly whispered, "I knew you weren't straight."
"Paige, got to sleep! Oh my god." You chuckled before smacking her with the pillow under your head.
"Jeez! Sorry! But I called it."
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make you cry | part one
part two: beomgyu's ending | part three: hyuka's ending
pairing: beomgyu x you, huening kai x you in alternate ending
summary: beomgyu is your manwhore best friend who you've been secretly in love with for years. one night, he asks you to blur the lines between friendship and physical intimacy for his own convenience.
genre: ANGST, romance, smut (mdni), fwb
warnings: smut (mdni), unprotected sex, creampie, dom!gyu, eventual sub!gyu, fingering (vaginal), dacryphilia, dirty talk, praise, if i missed anything lmk!
word count: 4.2k
notes: hi friends! i'm not completely satisfied with this, but i'd rather it be done than sitting in my drafts. pls don't be mean ;_;
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being in love with your best friend is not for the faint of heart, you think. in some cases, itâs the easiest thing in the world, but beomgyu makes it difficult. heâs not a bad guy, at least not deep down, but as you watch him break the heart of another notch in his belt, you canât help but shiver at the fact that heâd very easily do the same to you if you gave him that chance. not that you ever will, that is, but the thought still remains.
you met in grade school. for you, it was a classic case of love at first sight. you had just fallen off the swingset and the teacher had yet to notice you, so you were crying alone when he came up to you with a dinosaur bandaid in tow. he looked like an angel with the sun encircling him, and even as a child, you thought he was the most beautiful thing youâd ever seen as he held his little hand out for you to grasp. you had no chance to steel your heart when he asked you if you wanted to be friends, and after that, the rest is history.Â
that was years ago, but the image of him holding out his hand is engraved in your bones. you think about it even now as you watch him make the poor, unfortunate girl in front of you bawl like a baby. she asks him why he's doing this, what she did wrong, how she can fix it to make him stay. but he's dead set on breaking her heart tonight. and you'll be the one who takes his tipsy ass home after he's done ruining this girlâs perception of love. youâre nothing more than a glorified lackey and enabler, but that's just how it is.
âgod, i donât know why they can never just let go. they always have to make it so hard,â he grumbles in the passengerâs seat of your car. he seems more annoyed than genuinely upset and you canât help but to feel for the girl who he just unceremoniously dumped in the middle of a house party, so you speak up for once.
âitâs not her fault, beoms. she just really likes you,â you reason. not that it matters, anyway, but you feel better after speaking your mind.
âso itâs my fault? i just donât get it. i told her no strings attached from the beginning. the fact that she took it seriously is her own problem.â well, nevermind about feeling better. you feel even worse for her now.
âitâs hard not to get attached to you,â you mumble.
âwhat?â he asks, not even really paying attention to what youâre saying, but still asking for the sake of being (what he thinks is) polite.
âno, itâs nothing,â you reply quickly.
âmmm,â he nods, completely preoccupied with his own issues to really give a fuck about what you have to say. then, as if by a stroke of genius, he says his next words without much thought.
âi just thought of something! you would never act like that with me, would you?â you canât help but scowl. of course youâd act like that. youâre a normal human being with normal feelings. youâve already fallen for beomgyu without the physical intimacy, so you canât imagine how youâd act if you actually had sex with him. but you canât tell him that, or else heâd start suspecting something.
âi guess not,â you sigh.Â
âthen why donât we hook up instead?â he asks, genuinely earnest.Â
âno,â you say simply.
âwhy not?â he frowns, somewhat offended.
âiâm not interested,â you shrug. you donât realize that your indifference has the opposite effect on beomgyu. what he perceives as your disgust only interests him more.
âcâmon, iâd definitely show you a good time,â he argues.
âiâm fine, thanks.âÂ
âno, youâre not fine. you havenât slept with anybody in months. not since whatâs-his-name, right? itâs the perfect deal. iâll give you the time of your life and iâll get to fuck without any feelings involved.â you try your hardest not to say itâs too late for that. those words will never leave your mouth, though. or else heâd drop you like a hot potato.
âi said no and i mean no. besides, i kind of like somebody right now.â youâre not lying, really. you truly do like, even love, somebody right now, and heâs sitting right next to you.
âwho is he?â he asks. âactually, your taste in men is so shit, i don't even wanna know.â usually, that would hurt your feelings, but this whole situation is so fucked up you canât even find it in you to stifle your laugh.Â
âtrue.â he cocks an eyebrow at your answer. you should, in theory, vehemently deny this. just how shitty is this guy for you to not even put up a fight?Â
âokay, i lied. now i really wanna know. who is he? yeonjun?â he asks. you giggle even more.
âno. yeonjun is sweet, but no. and iâm not telling you, so you should give up.âÂ
âyou think yeonjun is sweet in comparison? damn, this guy must be fucking scum,â he laughs. you canât help but shake your head with an airy laugh of your own. yeah, heâs so awful he even makes yeonjun look sweet. at least it seems like yeonjun has a conscience when he fucks somebody over. beomgyu, for the most part, has none.
âheâs not all bad,â you say softly, still smiling and resting your head on the headrest of your car.Â
âbut still bad,â he argues.Â
âmhmm,â you hum. âstill bad.â
-
beomgyu doesnât mention hooking up again after that, and for that you are thankful, you think. is there a part of you that regrets not saying yes? in a way, you do. who wouldnât want to be even closer to the one they love? but you know the closeness would be a lie. even if you were in closer proximity physically, heâd still be far away emotionally. too far to ever catch him. and so you sit at the counter of this shitty bar and watch him try to woo one of the prettiest girls youâve ever seen, and by the looks of it, itâs working. you smile bitterly and down another shot, making your stomach feel hotter and hotter. you know that by the end of the night, youâll feel sick, but youâd rather be physically sick and drunk rather than emotionally sick and sober.Â
âyou okay?â kai asks, sliding into the seat next to yours and cutting into your daze with ease.Â
âarenât i always?â you answer with a wry smile.
âitâs that bad, huh?â he asks. beomgyu is your best friend, sure, but kai is the only person in the world who knows about your feelings for him. he also feels like the only person in the world who would understand them.Â
âyeah, it is,â you mumble, downing yet another drink as you watch beomgyu grinding on the girl salaciously.Â
âwanna get out of here?â he asks sympathetically. you should say no. beomgyu will be angry that you left him, even if heâd ditch you in a heartbeat to get laid. but now, as you watch him shoving his tongue in the red-lipped mouth of the girl who will now be the impossible standard youâll hold yourself to from hereon out, you canât bring yourself to care.
âi do,â you smile, for real this time, and his grin matches yours.
youâre so drunk, you barely remember how you got home, but youâre here and so is hyuka. you donât cry, even if he kind of wishes you would just so you could let it all out. you laugh, even, as he tells his dorky jokes and beats your ass in mario kart. things are going so well, you donât even hear the pounding on your door until kai says something about it.
âiâll get it,â he says soothingly when you unsteadily try to stand up.
âthanks, hyuka,â you smile. and that smile stays planted on your face until you see whoâs at the door. beomgyu. and by the looks of it, heâs pissed.
âwhat the fuck is your problem?! how could you just leave me there alone?â he asks as soon as heâs let in. your face sinks and all prior happiness is washed away in an instant.
âyou werenât alone,â kai cuts in defensively. âshe was alone until i came and got her.â beomgyu is actually a little embarrassed by this blatant callout, but heâd sooner die than admit it.
âwell, she shouldâve said something, at least,â he counters, face still hot and voice still as loud as ever.
âi thought you were going home with that girl,â you reply meekly.Â
âand you couldnât just ask?!â he snaps.Â
âyouâre being an asshole,â kai argues. ânobody wants to watch you tonguing down some random girl, and sheâs not your babysitter.â the room is deathly quiet after this. beomgyu is fishing for words, but heâs too drunk to quite think of any at the moment. he wishes he were sober so he could put kai in his place, but the words never come. all he knows is heâs pissed beyond anything he can properly articulate and itâs driving him crazy.Â
âyouâre drunk,â kai adds sternly. âgo home.âÂ
âhyuka, it's okay,â you say gently. âhe's too drunk for that. he can crash on the couch.â beomgyu doesn't know why, but he scowls at the nickname.
âbut ââ
âit's okay,â you repeat. kaiâs face looks torn.Â
âalright, then i'll head out,â he relents after a few seconds. âthe both of you just need some sleep,â he says with a sharp glance towards beomgyu, who is still fuming, by the way.
âthank you,â you say with a terse smile. he returns it with a smile of his own and shuts the door behind him. beomgyu watches the entire interaction and somehow feels even worse.
âwhat the fuck was that? is he the guy youâre hung up on or something?âÂ
âno!â you exclaim incredulously. âhyuka is a nice guy, and heâs just⊠helping me with some things right now.â youâre not the most eloquent person on a good day, much less while drunk, so thatâs all you can really say at the moment.
âwhat âthingsâ could he possibly be helping you with?â he snaps before realization dawns on him. âyou told him about that guy, didnât you?! you can tell him but you canât tell me?âÂ
âhe⊠he just understands,â you say. you knew beomgyu wouldnât just let this shit go and be done with it. heâs like a child finding out his dog likes somebody better than he likes him, and itâs exhausting.
âare you sleeping with him?âÂ
âwhat, no!â Â you say firmly.Â
âyou are, arenât you?â he sneers. âyou wonât let me touch you, but youâre letting him?âÂ
âis it so hard to believe that a man just wants to be my friend without wanting to fuck me?â truthfully, yes. youâre good looking and his experience tells him that men always harbor those intentions. well, he does, at least. and for some reason, as he looks at you in your big t-shirt and sweatpants, those intentions are brewing even more.Â
âbeomgyu?â you ask tentatively. his eyes are so intense it seems like heâs even more pissed off, somehow. your innocent look stokes the flames of whatâs already been burning for you.
as if heâs possessed, he stalks his way over to you, grabs your face before you can even react, and plants a bruising kiss on your soft lips. you gasp when he meanly takes your bottom lip between his teeth and he canât help but chuckle. the kiss is cruel for so many reasons, but youâd be lying if you said it didnât knock you off of your feet. youâre usually so restrained around him for reasons only you and kai know, but you feel your inhibitions melt as his tongue enters your mouth. he tastes like alcohol, but then, so do you, and he doesnât seem to mind. in fact, if his hungry kiss in any indication, he seems to love it.Â
one of his hands travel under your big hoodie and he tweaks your already hardened nipple between his fingers.Â
âdoes that feel good, baby?â he asks lowly, and you feel yourself becoming even more wet. you're too embarrassed to respond, but judging from his tone, he already knows your answer.Â
his kisses are unrelenting and fierce, no gentleness or care to be seen, but youâre so sweet he canât control himself. heâs been wanting to do this ever since he hit puberty, but youâve never seemed interested in him for reasons he canât understand. but now, you seem more than interested as you let him lead you to your bedroom. he lays you down on your bed and takes off your sweatpants. when he sees you, naked and glistening just from a few touches, he licks his lips in anticipation.
âall this from a few kisses?â he teases, rubbing his fingers up and down your slit. you can do nothing but gasp in response as he pushes one of his long, calloused fingers into your heat.
âs-so tight, itâs sucking me in,â he moans. âi canât wait to see how you feel around my cock.â he adds a second finger and curls, hitting your sweet spot. all you can do is moan as he takes his thumb and rolls your clit. he watches your body rise and fall with the pleasure and it fascinates him like nothing heâs ever seen. your eyes are screwed shut, but he canât help but prod and tease to see the different facial expressions you show him. before long, heâs pounding into you. the sound of squelches mixed with your moans only goads him further and further until youâre clenching down mercilessly on his fingers.
âaww, does that feel good, baby?â he coos. âwanna feel even better?â post-release clarity should hit you right about now, but youâre only more eager when he removes his clothes. his lengthy cock, angry and reddened, springs up and slaps his stomach. you whimper at the sight and he smirks at how needy you are.
he hovers over you and slowly, agonizingly slowly, he begins to rub his stiffened length up and down your slit.Â
âgyu, you need a condom ââ you begin to protest.
âwhy? iâm clean. and i donât fuck just anyone raw,â he argues as the head of his cock comes dangerously close to hooking on your entrance. youâve never been able to say no to him for any meaningful amount of time, so relenting isnât out of the ordinary for you. but more than that, his words, though unromantic, spark a bit of hope in your heart. youâre special, you think.Â
âdo you trust me?â he asks.Â
no. not at all.
âof course.â and he pushes in. his arrogance falters as you take him in, inch by throbbing inch. itâs a tight fit, and the way you clench around the tip of his cock only drives him further and further into madness. how can you feel so good? how can this feel so perfect?Â
your poor pussy is equal parts trying to suck him in and trying to resist so the intrusion is forced out. to him, it feels like heaven.Â
ât-tight!â he hisses. ârelax, baby, or youâre gonna break me.â for some reason, his words comfort you, allowing him smooth entry until heâs completely sheathed in you. you both moan when he completely bottoms out, balls hitting your ass in the most lewd way. his precum mixed with the result of your release seep into the bedsheets. he stays there for just a moment, pushing your hair out of your face, and his next words are uncommonly tender.
âyou look so pretty like this,â he muses, and you donât even have time to blush before heâs unsteadily pulling out, pussy pulling him back in like it never wants him to leave, then thrusting back in again.Â
âoh m-my god,â he says as he begins to ram into you. âso good, baby. youâre taking me so well.âÂ
âb-big!â is all you can manage to say as he continues to fuck you open.
âoh baby, are you going dumb on my cock? canât even manage to get the words out, can you? itâs okay, donât think. iâll take care. of. you,â he says, punctuating each word with his mean thrusts.Â
youâre crying now, the pleasure too great to stifle your tears. beomgyu thinks you look absolutely lovely like this, lovelier than anyone heâs ever seen, especially when he looks at where you two are joined and watches himself enter and exit your puffy pussy. each gasp, each breathy whine you emit makes him feel crazier and crazier. he aches so much, he has no choice but to continue pounding into you until he's relieved. so he does. heâs gripping the plush of your thighs like he might die if he doesnât have something to hold onto.Â
he leans over to give you a nasty kiss, all tongue and teeth. when he parts from you, a lewd string of saliva falls from your mouths and he canât control the chuckle that escapes him when he sees your pupils are blown out as you flounder for his lips again.Â
âlook, baby. look at how good iâm fucking you.â you look down and see how his cock protrudes from your tummy as he rams in and out of you. ânobody else has fucked you right, but donât worry, iâll make sure to fix that.â your pussy involuntarily clenches at his filthy words and itâs enough to make you come.
âc-coming!â you manage to choke out as you spasm around him, back arching deliciously. he follows soon after, thrusts becoming uneven before you feel his cum shooting inside of you.
-
fucking beomgyu comes naturally, and often. he canât seem to keep his hands off of you. hooking up becomes almost a daily affair, but youâre so hungry for him you canât bring yourself to protest. you fuck in his car, on his couch, over the fucking kitchen counter, even. all plans to go out with anyone else are immediately dashed in favor of being with him, instead. you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper in love with him, and even if you know, know, know itâs fruitless, you canât help but relent when he looks at you like a man starved.Â
âthis canât be good for you,â kai tells you one evening in the comfort of your apartment. itâs a rare occurrence to have a free night from beomgyuâs clutches. kai hasnât seen you in weeks because youâve been too âbusyâ with beomgyu.Â
âwell, i know,â you sigh, too tired to argue with him.Â
âif you know, then why do you do it?â he asks tentatively. you canât help but give him a look.Â
âyou know why,â you say.Â
âhe's just messing with your head. you know this can't end well.â you flinch at the word âendâ. you know it, he knows it, beomgyu surely fucking knows it, but you canât help but give in every time. âwhat are you gonna do when he inevitably fucks you over? and he will, just like always.â
âi⊠iâll deal with it when the time comes,â you protest. he sees your defeated expression and lightly tilts your head so itâs resting on his shoulder. your retribution for your actions was always well on its way, but you didnât know it would come so soon.Â
you hear a key turning in the door. thereâs only one person in the world youâve given a spare to, so you arenât surprised in the slightest when beomgyu walks in with that signature smirk on his face. he scowls a bit when heâs greeted with the scene of you and kai sitting so intimately.
âam i interrupting something?â he scoffs as you raise your head from kaiâs shoulder.
âno,â kai replies before you can even fix your lips to respond. to your mild surprise, he doesn't push any further.
âwhatever,â he shrugs, plopping down next to the two of you and pulling out his phone.
âwanna see this girl whose number i got today?â he asks casually, swiping through his phone eagerly. so that's why he didn't wanna meet up. your heart feels like a holeâs been blown straight through it. you and kai share a deep look, which beomgyu completely misses as he pulls up a picture of a beautiful looking girl.Â
âthis is her,â he says with a triumphant smirk. you donât â canât â respond. you just have a blank look on your face.
âwhat?â he asks petulantly. âsheâs really pretty, look!â he insists, pulling up another picture. âsheâs one of the hottest girls iâve seen in a minute.â
any last shred of hope or dignity you have is strangled in its crib at his careless words. your eyes are hot and your stomach hurts so much you feel like youâre going to vomit. kai notices your discomfort and decides to put a stop to this once and for all.
âalright, thatâs enough,â kai snaps. ânobody wants to see that shit.â
âwhatâs your fucking problem?â beomgyu retorts.
âmy problem is that youâre a fucking moron. grow up.â beomgyuâs not one to get physical, at least not in a violent sense, but heâs on the precipice of breaking that streak at kaiâs harsh words.
âstop, hyuka. itâs okay,â you say softly. beomgyu is so furious, he almost forgot youâre here, but he's genuinely confused by kaiâs words.
âwhat's okay? what is it that you're not telling me?â beomgyu asks.Â
âit's not okay, actually. heâs fucking you but he comes around and pulls this shit right in front of you?! she wonât say it, but i will.âÂ
âkai, donât ââÂ
âshe doesnât care! no strings attached, thatâs always been the deal.â
âyou may be stupid as fuck, but surely youâre not that stupid,â kai sneers. âso if you say you donât already know, youâre just a fucking liar.â beomgyu pauses at this. is he saying what he thinks heâs saying? surely you didnât catch feelings, right? but one look at your face, and he knows kai is telling the truth.Â
but why? and when?
âsince when did youâŠâ
âsince always,â you say quietly.Â
âoh, fuck. look, i ââ
âitâs okay. i already know,â you cut in. and you do already know, but you canât bear to hear him say it. beomgyu, in all his glory, processes this and instead of regret, all he feels is anger.
âiâm the piece of shit guy you canât get over? are you fucking serious?â
âhyuka, you should go,â you say instead of letting him watch the melodrama unfolding before him. kai looks uncertainly between the both of you before relenting.Â
âcall me later, okay?â he says, wiping tears from your eyes that you didnât realize had fallen.
âokay,â you reply with a sad smile. he sends beomgyu one last scathing look before gathering his shit and slamming the door behind him.Â
âyou tricked me!â beomgyu exclaims as soon as the door shuts. âi wouldâve never fucked you if i knew youâd be like this.â just like everyone else. he doesnât need to voice the last part, but you already know he wants to say it, which just hurts you even more.
âdid you really not know, or were you just pretending not to know âcause itâd be inconvenient for you?â that shuts him up. kai was right, heâd be stupid not to know. maybe not at first, but surely along the way. surely when youâd look at him so longingly after sleeping with him, or the way youâd look so sad when he didn't stay after sex.
âlisten, iâm so sorry that youâre scared, or angry, or whatever it is youâre feeling. i really am. but are you so selfish that you really think nobody else is afraid to have their heart broken? and do you think that means youâre allowed to hurt everyone else instead?â you ask quietly. every new word pierces his heart like nothing he's ever felt before. he wants to say something, but for the life of him, he canât think of anything quite fitting.Â
âi think you should leave,â you say after what feels like an eternity of silence. he looks at you with watery eyes and you almost feel guilty, but youâre through with feeling things for him that heâd never have the courtesy to feel for you. âgo,â you repeat defeatedly, striding to the door and holding it open for him and he feels more and more like a rat you want to chase out of your home.
he looks like he wants to say something, but one look at you tells him youâre done listening. with heavy feet and an even heavier heart, he heads through the doorway, pausing only before heâs about to cross the threshold. he has a sinking feeling in his gut that tells him this is probably the last time heâll be here.Â
âare we still friends after this?â he asks lowly, eyes wide and more desperate than youâve ever seen them.Â
âno,â you say simply, and shut the door.
notes: not a ton of smut in this part, but i think the next part will have more i fear.
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All I Want for Christmas is a Cowboy
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SUMMARY: When a night of playful banter and teasing turns into something far more intimate, you find yourself crossing every line you swore you wouldn't with Jake Seresin - the cocky, infuriatingly charming pilot who's always had a way of getting under your skin. Between stolen kisses, soft confessions, and moments that blur the line between lust and something deeper, it becomes clear that this isn't just a one-time thing. But as Jake's Stetson wearing, sweet talking side leaves you breathless, you'll have to decide if you're ready to risk your heart for the man who's never been one to play it safe.
A/N: This is a combination of my love for Megan Moroney and her song "All I Want for Christmas is a Cowboy" as well as a request that I received in November for the prompt "One kiss won't ruin the friendship, right?" and "Can I sleep with you tonight?" Hopefully whoever requested the prompts enjoys this! Thank you all for your patience with me as I write and get through the requests that I have.
WARNINGS: 18+ MINORS DNI. Smut (PinV. Mentions of biting/marking. Fingering.)
WORD COUNT: 12.4k (I'm ovulating and rewatched TGM a few days ago and fell back in love with Jake. Please don't judge me.)
TAG LIST: IN COMMENTS
The Hard Deck was alive with the hum of Christmas cheer. Twinkling string lights wrapped around wooden beams, and a small but charmingly crooked Christmas tree stood in the corner, decorated with red ornaments and what looked suspiciously like aviator sunglasses. The jukebox was cycling through a mix of classic rock and Christmas hits, creating an oddly festive but fitting soundtrack for the evening.
You sat at a table near the back, surrounded by familiar facesâyour chosen family. Natasha sat to your left, nursing a whiskey sour and laughing at something Bob had just said. Reuben and Mickey were on your right, engaged in a heated debate about the best holiday movies. Bradley leaned back in his chair across from you, his mustache twitching with amusement as he chimed in occasionally, and Javy was at the bar grabbing the next round.
It had been monthsâmaybe a yearâsince youâd met the Dagger Squad through a mutual friend, but somehow, they had adopted you like one of their own. Now, invites to their gatherings were automatic, and evenings like this one were the norm.
Phoenix nudged your arm, pulling you out of your thoughts. âAlright, enough sitting on the sidelines. Weâve decided itâs time for a little holiday intervention.â
You raised a brow, taking a sip of your drink. âHoliday intervention?â
âYouâve been single for far too long,â she declared, gesturing dramatically with her drink. âItâs time we find you someone.â
Reuben snorted. âThis again?â
âYes, this again,â Phoenix shot back. âI mean, look at her.â She motioned to you with a flourish. âShe's smart, funny, gorgeousââ
âDonât forget stubborn,â Bob added with a grin.
âExactly,â Phoenix said, unbothered. âWeâre not letting you ring in another New Year without at least some action.â
You rolled your eyes, a laugh slipping out despite yourself. âI appreciate your concern, but Iâm good, really.â
âUh-huh,â Natasha said, unconvinced. âYou know, we could always ask Jakeââ
âAsk me what?â The smooth, teasing drawl interrupted her, and you didnât even have to look to know who it was.
Jake âHangmanâ Seresin strolled up to the table, pool cue slung over one shoulder, that infuriatingly perfect smirk already in place.
Natasha didnât miss a beat. âWeâre trying to set her up with someone. Know any decent guys who are single?â
A flicker of somethingâsurprise, maybe?âpassed over Jakeâs face before he quickly masked it with an exaggerated scoff.
âDecent guys? Here? Good luck.â He leaned on the back of an empty chair, his green eyes flicking to yours for just a moment before he addressed Natasha again. âBesides, she doesnât need a setup. Sheâs clearly too good for anyone in this dump.â
âIâm fine,â you insisted, taking a sip of your drink. âSeriously. I donât need a relationship right now.â
Natashaâs eyebrows shot up. âDonât need or donât want?â
âBoth.â The lie rolled off your tongue easily, but the weight of the unspoken truth settled in your chest. It wasnât that you didnât want a relationship. You just didnât want one with anyone who wasnât Jake Seresin. Not that youâd ever admit that out loud.
âSure,â Natasha drawled, clearly unconvinced.Â
âWhat about that guy over there?â Paybackâs girlfriend suggested, nodding toward a tall man leaning against the bar. He was handsome, you supposed, but his eager smile didnât stir anything in you.
âNo, I donât think so,â you said quickly.
âOkay fine, letâs figure out what youâre looking for. What is your type?â Natasha pressed, leaning in with a grin that told you she wasnât going to drop this anytime soon.
âI donât have a type.â
âEveryone has a type,â Mickey chimed in, his tone far too amused for your liking. âDark hair? Light hair?â
âLight hair,â you muttered before you could stop yourself.
âTall or short?â Natasha asked, clearly enjoying herself.
âTall.â
âHow tall?â
âI donât know,â you said, your voice rising slightly in exasperation. âSix feet? Six-one, maybe?â
Natasha grinned, a mischievous glint in her eye. âAnything else? Beard? No beard? Tattoos? Come on, give us something!â
You hesitated, suddenly very aware of Jake still leaning casually nearby, listening to every word. âI donât know. Tall. Hot. In a Stetson?â
The table burst into laughter, but Jake rolled his eyes, shaking his head. âYeah, good luck finding a cowboy here. Closest youâll get is someone in boots and a flannel at line-dancing night.â
His tone was teasing, but there was an edge to it, something you couldnât quite place. Before you could overthink it, Natasha leaned in, her voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. âYou know, heâs not wrong, but maybe you should branch out. Broaden your horizons a little.â
You shook your head, brushing her off with a laugh. âIâm fine, really. No setups needed.â
âYeah, yeah,â Phoenix said, clearly not convinced. âWeâll see.â
Jakeâs smirk returned as he straightened up, his gaze lingering on you for a moment longer than usual before he turned to head back to the pool table.
âGood luck, ladies,â he called over his shoulder.
You watched him go, trying not to let your eyes linger too long. If only they knew the cowboy you wanted wasnât some hypothetical strangerâit was the one person you couldnât have. Not that it mattered, you reminded yourself. Jake Seresin didnât do relationships. And you? You didnât do casual. It was better this way. At least, thatâs what you kept telling yourself.
The night carried on, the crowd at The Hard Deck growing as more people trickled in, filling the space with laughter and music. You were mid-conversation with Phoenix and one of the guys' girlfriends, your drink in hand, when the first guy approached.
He wasnât bad-lookingâdark hair, decent smileâbut you could tell right away he wasnât your type. And the way he glanced over at Natasha before walking up only confirmed your suspicions.
âHey,â he started, a little too confident. âCan I buy you another drink?â
You smiled politely, shaking your head. âThanks, but Iâm good.â
He lingered for a second longer than necessary, clearly waiting for you to change your mind. When you didnât, he shrugged, muttered something under his breath, and walked away.
The moment he was out of earshot, Phoenix grinned. âWhat was wrong with that one?â
You gave her a look. âHe wasnât my type.â
âYouâve got to stop using that excuse,â she teased. âWeâre just trying to help you out.â
âI donât need help,â you said firmly, though your tone stayed light. âIâm not looking for anything right now.â
The other woman smirked knowingly. âSure youâre not.â
Over the next hour, two more guys approached you. Each time, you managed to slip away gracefully, making it clear you werenât interested without causing a scene. Still, you couldnât shake the feeling that Natashaâor maybe one of the other girlfriendsâwas behind it.
By the third attempt, you shot Phoenix a pointed look. âSeriously?â
âWhat?â she said innocently, but her smile gave her away.
You sighed, shaking your head. âYouâre relentless, you know that?â
âItâs because I care,â she said sweetly, raising her glass in mock toast.
Jake chose that moment to stroll over, his timing impeccable as always. âEverything okay over here?â
Phoenix grinned. âOh, everythingâs great. Just trying to find her the perfect man.â
Jake raised a brow, glancing between the two of you. âPerfect man, huh? Sounds like a tall order. I thought we were just going for someone to take her home tonight.â
You rolled your eyes, but before you could respond, he nodded toward your now-empty glass. âNeed a refill?â
You hesitated for half a second before nodding. âYeah. Just my usual, thanks.â
Jake gave a quick two-finger salute before heading toward the bar.
Phoenix watched him go, her expression unreadable for a moment before she turned back to you, her grin returning. âWow. Hangman buying you a drink? Thatâs new.â
You laughed, shaking your head. âItâs not like that. Heâs just being nice.â
âUh-huh,â she said, clearly unconvinced.
One of the guys at the table chimed in, smirking. âYeah, heâs real nice, isnât he? You know heâs from Texas. Could probably pull off that cowboy look youâve been fantasizing about.â
âOh, come on,â you said, rolling your eyes again. âItâs Jake. Heâs not trying to get in my pants.â
âThatâs what they all say,â Bob joked, earning a round of laughter from the group.
Jake returned a moment later, handing you your drink with a small, knowing smile. âHere you go.â
âThanks,â you said, brushing off the teasing from the others as you took a sip.
You couldnât help but notice the way Jakeâs gaze lingered on you for a fraction of a second longer than necessary before he turned back toward the pool table. And despite everything, you couldnât stop your heart from skipping a beat.
The hours slipped by, the bar gradually thinning out as the night wore on. Youâd lost count of how many rounds of pool Jake had won or how many times Phoenix had tried to steer a random guy in your direction.Â
Despite it all, youâd actually had fun, laughing and teasing the squad like always. But now, your head felt a little too light, and your body a little too warm from the alcohol.
You glanced at your phone, noting the time. âAlright, I think Iâm calling it,â you announced, sliding off your barstool.
Most of the group groaned in protest, but you waved them off. âSome of us have to be functioning humans tomorrow.â
âYou sure youâre good?â Natasha asked, her sharp gaze flicking over you like she was scanning for cracks.
âYeah, yeah,â you assured her, pulling on your jacket. âIâm fine. Just tired.â
But as you turned toward the door, your balance wavered slightly, the ground tilting just enough to make you grab the back of your stool for support. No one else seemed to notice, but Jake did.
You didnât even realize heâd followed you outside until you felt the cool night air and heard his voice behind you. âYou sure youâre good to get home?â
Startled, you turned to face him, pulling your jacket tighter around yourself. âYeah, Iâm fine. Iâm getting an Uber.â
Jakeâs expression darkened slightly, his hands settling on his hips. âAn Uber? Youâre telling me youâre gonna get into a car with some random guy you donât know and let him take you home?â
You raised a brow, amused by his sudden concern. âYes, Jake. Thatâs how Uber works.â
He didnât laugh. Instead, he studied you for a moment, his jaw working like he was turning over a decision in his head.Â
âI donât like it,â he said finally. âCome on, let me drive you home.â
You crossed your arms, giving him a skeptical look. âPlease tell me they didnât convince you to try and ask me out too.â
Jake let out a sharp laugh, shaking his head. âNo. This isnât a setup. Iâm just being your friend.â
You squinted at him, trying to gauge his sincerity. âYou sure about that?â
âPromise,â he said, holding up his hands like he was swearing an oath. âScoutâs honor.â
You hesitated, the stubborn part of you tempted to insist you didnât need help. But the truth was, the idea of being in a car with Jake felt a hell of a lot saferâand less awkwardâthan riding home with a stranger.
âAlright,â you relented, sighing. âBut if this is some elaborate scheme to get me to admit I like you or something, Iâm going to be really annoyed.â
Jake grinned, gesturing toward the parking lot. âCome on, sweetheart. Letâs get you home before you overthink this to death.â
The drive home was quiet at first, Jakeâs truck rumbling softly as it cut through the stillness of the night. You leaned back in the passenger seat, the cool air from the open window doing wonders to clear your head. Jake glanced at you occasionally, his hands loose on the wheel but his focus unwavering.
âYou gonna tell me what that was all about back there?â he asked finally, breaking the silence.
You turned to him, your brows furrowing. âWhat what was all about?â
âNatasha and the girls,â he clarified. âTrying to set you up like itâs a speed dating event.â
You groaned, letting your head fall back against the seat. âOh, that. Yeah, I donât know what got into them. Theyâre convinced Iâve been single for too long.â
Jake smirked. âAnd what? You just let them keep at it?â
âI didnât exactly have a choice,â you said with a laugh. âTrust me, I tried shutting it down, but Nat can be very persuasive. Plus, I think she roped in some of the girlfriends for backup.â
He nodded, his gaze flicking between you and the road. âSo... are you looking?â
You blinked at him, caught off guard by the question. âLooking?â
âFor someone,â he said casually, though there was a hint of something else in his toneâcuriosity, maybe.
You hesitated, trying to find the right words. âNot really,â you admitted. âI mean, itâs not that Iâm against the idea, but Iâm not actively looking for anyone either. And definitely not the way theyâre going about it.â
Jake chuckled, his smile pulling up on one side. âFair enough.â
He was quiet for a moment, the hum of the truck filling the space between you. Then, almost hesitantly, he said, âYou know, I think Coyote might know a guy on one of the boatsâheâs from Kansas or something. Probably got that farmer-cowboy look youâre into.â
You couldnât help but smile, his attempt at helpfulness both endearing and a little amusing. âThatâs sweet, Jake, but I really donât think Iâm looking for a farmer or a cowboyâor anyone, for that matter.â
Jake glanced at you briefly, his lips curving into a small smile. âYeah, I figured as much.â
âWhyâd you bring it up, then?â you asked, tilting your head to study him.
He shrugged, his eyes on the road. âJust thought you might like to know your options.â
âThanks,â you said softly, your smile lingering. âBut I think Iâm okay with where I am right now. I'll find someone eventually.â
Jake nodded, the conversation settling into a comfortable lull as he turned onto your street.
The glow of the streetlights flickered against the windows of Jakeâs truck as he slowed to a stop in front of your apartment building. You unbuckled your seatbelt, your phone buzzing against your thigh just as you reached for the door handle.
Pulling it out, you glanced at the screen. A message from your roommate lit up the display: Just a heads-upâIâve got company tonight. Might want to keep the earbuds handy đ
You groaned audibly, letting your head fall back against the seat with a dramatic thud.
Jake shot you a curious glance, his brow lifting. âWhatâs wrong?â
You waved your phone in his direction with a weary sigh. âRoommateâs got a guy over. And from the sound of it, Iâm going to need noise-canceling headphones or a place to sleep that isnât directly next to her room.â
Jake chuckled, his teeth flashing in the dim light. âSounds like itâs going to be a rough night for you, huh?â
âYou have no idea,â you muttered, reaching for the door again.
Before you could hop out, Jakeâs voice stopped you. âYou donât have to go in, you know.â
You turned to him, your hand frozen on the handle. âWhat do you mean?â
He shrugged, his gaze soft but steady as it met yours. âI mean, if you donât feel like dealing with... that,â he gestured vaguely toward your phone, âyou can come crash at my place. Itâs quiet, and Iâve got a couch you can take over if youâre not ready to head home yet.â
You hesitated, your fingers idly tracing the edge of your phone. Spending more time with Jake wasnât exactly going to help your unspoken crush, but the alternativeâtrying to sleep through your roommateâs extracurricular activitiesâwas far less appealing.
âAre you sure?â you asked, your voice laced with doubt. âI donât want to impose or anything.â
Jake rolled his eyes, a crooked smile pulling at his lips. âYou wouldnât be. Besides, what kind of friend would I be if I let you suffer through that?â
The word friend grounded you, loosening the knot of uncertainty in your chest. You smiled softly, nodding your agreement. âAlright, Seresin. But if you donât have coffee in the morning, Iâm going to rethink our so-called friendship.â
Jake laughed, the sound warm and low as he shifted the truck back into drive. âDonât worry, darlinâ. Iâll even make you breakfast if youâre lucky.â
Jake unlocked the door to his apartment and stepped aside to let you in first. The place was clean but lived-inâsoft lighting, a comfortable couch, a TV mounted on the wall, and just a few hints of his personality scattered throughout: a Navy ball cap tossed on the entryway table, framed photos of his family, and what looked like a pair of cowboy boots sitting by the door.
âMake yourself at home,â he said, flicking on the lights and heading toward the kitchen. âWant a beer?â
You nodded, shrugging off your jacket and folding it over the back of a chair before settling onto the couch. âThanks, Jake.â
He returned a moment later, two beers in hand. Passing one to you, he dropped onto the couch beside you, his long legs stretched out in front of him. You took a sip, the cold drink soothing against the warmth still lingering on your cheeks from the nightâs events.
Jake leaned back, his arm casually draping over the back of the couch. âSo,â he started, his tone playful, âwhat was that whole âtall, hot, in a Stetsonâ thing earlier really about? Got a cowboy crush I donât know about?â
You laughed, shaking your head. âItâs just a preference.â
He tilted his head, a mischievous grin tugging at the corners of his mouth. âUh-huh. You sure about that? Because it kind of sounded like you were describing someone I know.â
Your brow furrowed as you turned to look at him, confused. âWhat are you talking about?â
Jakeâs grin widened. âTall? Blonde? Hot? I mean, you might as well have just said my name.â
You rolled your eyes, but you could feel the heat creeping up your neck. âOh, please. Youâre so full of yourself, Seresin.â
Jakeâs gaze flicked to your face, his sharp eyes catching the faint blush blooming across your cheeks. His grin softened into something more thoughtful. âWait a second,â he said, leaning forward slightly. âYouâre blushing.â
âNo, Iâm not,â you said quickly, shaking your head and avoiding his gaze.
âOh, you definitely are,â he teased, his voice low and amused. âTell meâdo you have a little crush on me?â
You scoffed, your heart racing as you tried to deflect. âWhat are we, in middle school?â
Jake chuckled, but his expression didnât shift. He studied you for a moment, the playful glint in his eyes fading into something quieter, more serious. âYou didnât answer the question.â
You opened your mouth to respond, but before you could come up with a denial, Jake leaned in closer, the space between you narrowing. His lips hovered close to yours, close enough that you could feel his breath ghosting against your skin.
âJake,â you murmured, your voice barely audible over the pounding in your chest, âwhat are you doing?â
His eyes locked with yours, intense and unwavering. âIâm kissing you,â he said, his voice low and steady, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. âUnless you tell me to stop.â
âJakeâŠweâŠwe canât.â
âYou know,â he murmured, his voice soft but firm, âone kiss probably wonât ruin the friendship, right?â
Your breath caught, but you didnât move away. Instead, you sat there, frozen as the space between you vanished. When his lips finally touched yours, it was soft at firstâalmost tentative, like he was giving you the chance to change your mind.
But you didnât.
Jakeâs hand came up, his fingers brushing along your jaw before cupping your face. His touch was firm yet gentle, anchoring you in place as the kiss deepened. His lips moved against yours, confident and unhurried, like heâd been waiting for this moment and was determined to savor every second of it.
Your hand found its way to his chest, the firm muscle beneath his shirt making your pulse race even faster. You felt him exhale, a soft, pleased sound escaping him as your fingers curled into the fabric. Without even thinking, you shifted closer, your body leaning into his as the kiss grew more heated.
Jake pulled back for the briefest moment, just enough to catch his breath, his thumb brushing across your cheek as he looked at you. His eyes were darker now, filled with something that made your stomach flip.Â
âYouâre killing me, darlinâ,â he murmured, his Texas drawl thicker than usual.
You didnât give yourself time to overthink it. Fueled by a mixture of nerves and adrenaline, you swung a leg over his, settling yourself onto his lap. Jake froze for half a heartbeat before his hands found your waist, his grip firm and grounding.
You reached up, your fingers threading your fingers into the hair at the back of his head, your nails grazing lightly against his scalp as you leaned in and kissed him again. Jake groaned softly, the sound rumbling through his chest as his hands tightened on your waist, pulling you closer.
The kiss turned fervent, all soft restraint melting away as your bodies pressed together. Jakeâs lips were hot and insistent, his teeth grazing your bottom lip before he tilted his head, deepening the kiss further. Your fingers fisted in his hair, his skin warm beneath your touch as his hands began to roam, sliding from your waist to your hips, holding you securely in his lap.
Your heart was racing, your senses overwhelmed by the feel of him, the way he kissed you like he couldnât get enough. Every brush of his lips, every press of his hands against you, made you feel like you were burning from the inside out.
When you finally pulled back, gasping for air, Jakeâs forehead rested against yours, his breathing uneven. His hands stayed on your hips, his thumbs brushing idly against the fabric of your shirt.Â
You then reached down and started to tug at the hem of your shirt, but he reach out and caught your wrists, halting you.
âWhoa, hold up,â he said, his voice low but firm.
You pulled back slightly, confused, your gaze searching his. His hands stayed on your wrists, gentle but unyielding.Â
âWhat?â you asked, blinking at him as your pulse raced.
Jakeâs lips twitched into a small smile, but his expression was serious. âIâm not doing this. Not yet.â
You frowned, sitting back on his lap, your legs still straddling him. âYouâre not doing what?â
âThis,â he said, gesturing vaguely between the two of you. âI want to buy you dinner first.â
You stared at him, completely dumbfounded. âDinner? Like a date?â
Jake nodded, his hands resting lightly on your hips now.
It took a moment for the words to sink in, and when they did, you couldnât stop the incredulous laugh that escaped you. âJake, you donât do dates. Or dinners. Or follow any kind of rules when it comes to sleeping with women. Whatâs changed.â
Jake chuckled, but there was a sincerity in his gaze that made your stomach flutter. âYouâre not just some hookup for me,â he admitted, his voice soft. âI want to do this right with you.â
Your mouth opened to respond, but no words came out. You werenât used to seeing Jake like thisâso earnest, so serious. The guy who flirted shamelessly, who rarely stuck around for more than a night, was now telling you he wanted to take you on a proper date before anything happened between you.
âYou know,â you said after a beat, your tone teasing but your heart pounding, âyou did technically buy me a round earlier at the bar.â
Jake shook his head, a small smirk playing on his lips. âNice try, darlinâ. A beer doesnât count as dinner.â
You sighed dramatically, leaning back slightly and crossing your arms over your chest. âJake, itâs late. Itâs literally Christmas Eve. Nowhere that you would deem worthy of our first date is going to be open.â
Jake laughed, his hands still resting on your hips. âGuess weâll have to wait then.â
âOr,â you said, sitting up straighter, an idea forming in your mind, âyou can give me your phone.â
Jake raised an eyebrow, clearly skeptical. âWhy?â
âJust trust me,â you said, holding out your hand.
He hesitated for a moment before sighing and reaching into his pocket to hand it over. You unlocked the screen, your fingers moving quickly as you opened the Uber Eats app.
Jake leaned forward slightly, peering over your shoulder. âWhat are you doing?â
âOrdering dinner,â you said simply, scrolling through the options for one of the few places still open this late on Christmas Eve.
Jake watched as you added something to the cart, then handed the phone back to him. âGo ahead, pick something for yourself.â
Still looking slightly bewildered, Jake glanced down at the screen, his brow furrowing as he scanned the menu. âYouâre serious?â
âDead serious,â you said, smirking at him.Â
Jake sighed, clearly still confused, but he added an item to the order and placed it. As soon as the confirmation screen popped up, he turned to you, shaking his head. âAll right, now youâve got to tell meâwhat was the point of all that?â
You grinned, leaning forward slightly so your face was inches from his. âBecause now youâve technically bought me dinner,â you said, your tone teasing but your eyes locked on his.
Jake stared at you for a moment, then threw his head back with a laugh. âYouâre unbelievable, you know that?â
âMaybe,â you said, your voice dropping to a softer, more serious tone. âBut now that youâve fulfilled your âdinner firstâ rule, are you going to fuck me or not?â
Jakeâs laughter died down, replaced by a look that made your stomach flip. His hands tightened slightly on your hips as his gaze darkened, his tongue darting out to wet his bottom lip.Â
âYouâre something else,â he murmured, his voice low and rough. âBut if weâre doing this, darlinâ, weâre doing it my way.â
You tilted your head, eyeing him curiously. âYour way, huh?â you teased, the corner of your lips quirking up. âAnd what exactly does your way mean?â
Jake didnât answer immediately. Instead, his hands tightened on your hips, and before you could even process what was happening, he stood up with you still straddling his lap.
âJake!â you yelped, your arms instinctively wrapping around his neck for balance as he stood effortlessly, holding you against him like you weighed nothing.
He grinned down at you, completely unfazed by your reaction, and started walking down the hallway. âFirst rule,â he drawled, his voice low and steady, âyour first time with me is not going to be on my couch.â
You blinked, heat rising to your cheeks as his words sank in. âOh,â you managed to say, your voice barely above a whisper.
Jake chuckled, the sound rumbling deep in his chest as he carried you with ease, the hallway narrowing around you. âYou deserve better than that, darlinâ,â he continued, his tone softening slightly. âSo, my way means Iâm going to take my time with you. Do it right, starting with getting you on a bed.â
You swallowed hard, your heart hammering in your chest. The way he was looking at youâlike you were the only thing that mattered in the worldâwas enough to leave you breathless.
When he reached the door at the end of the hall, Jake shifted you slightly in his arms so he could turn the handle, nudging the door open with his foot. The room beyond was dimly lit, the soft glow of a bedside lamp casting warm shadows across the space.
Jake stepped inside, kicking the door shut behind him with a soft thud. He finally set you down, your feet touching the plush carpet, but his hands didnât leave your waist.
You glanced around, your nerves and excitement battling for dominance. âSoâŠwhatâs the second rule?â you asked, trying to sound casual but failing miserably as your voice wavered.
Jakeâs lips quirked into a smirk as he leaned down, his face so close to yours that his breath fanned across your skin.Â
âThe second rule,â he murmured, his voice a low rasp, âis that Iâm going to make sure you enjoy every second of this.â
Your breath hitched, your hands sliding up his chest almost instinctively. âThatâsâŠa pretty good rule,â you managed to say, your voice barely above a whisper.
Jakeâs smirk widened as his hands slid from your waist to your hips, pulling you flush against him. âGood,â he said, his tone teasing but his eyes dark with intent. âBecause I donât break my own rules.â
With that, he leaned in, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that was slow and deliberate, a stark contrast to the heated kisses youâd shared earlier. His hands roamed your back, his touch firm but careful, like he was savoring every moment.
You melted into him, your arms looping around his neck as the kiss deepened. His tongue slid against yours, drawing a soft whimper from you that only seemed to spur him on.
His hands moved to the hem of your shirt, his fingers brushing against the bare skin of your waist. But instead of rushing to remove it quickly, he took his time, his touch reverent as he pushed the fabric up inch by inch.
You broke the kiss for just a moment, your breath coming in soft pants as you let him pull your shirt over your head. His gaze raked over you, his eyes darkening as he took you in.
âGoddamn,â Jake murmured, his voice husky. âYouâre beautiful.â
Heat flooded your cheeks, but before you could respond, he was kissing you again, his hands sliding up your back and pulling you closer.
Jakeâs lips broke away from yours, his breath warm against your skin as he pressed a soft kiss to the corner of your mouth. Slowly, he trailed his kisses along your jaw, the gentle scrape of his stubble sending shivers down your spine. His lips moved lower, finding the sensitive curve of your neck.
At first, the kisses were light, teasing. But then he began sucking and biting softly, testing different spots until he hit the one that made your head fall back with a soft gasp, your fingers tightening in the hair at the nape of his neck.
The sound you madeâthe small, unrestrained moan that escaped your lipsâhad Jake pausing for the briefest moment before he let out a low groan of his own, his mouth returning to the same spot with renewed focus. This time, he nipped a little harder, drawing another reaction out of you.
âJake,â you warned softly, your breath hitching as you tugged at his hair. âDonât leave a mark.â
You felt his lips curve into a smirk against your neck.Â
âWhy not?â he murmured, his voice low and teasing as his teeth grazed your skin. Before you could answer, he added in a quiet whisper, âI kinda like the idea of everyone knowing youâre my girl.â
That pulled your head up, and you gave him a look, arching a brow. âYour girl, huh?â
Jake didnât miss a beat, his green eyes locking onto yours as he leaned in close, his lips brushing just below your ear. âMy girl,â he repeated, his voice filled with a confidence that made your heart race.
You barely had time to process his words before his mouth was back on your skin, moving lower this time. He kissed along your collarbone, his lips pressing against every inch of exposed skin, leaving a trail of heat in their wake.
When he reached the strap of your bra, his fingers deftly reached around your back. With a practiced ease that had you smirking slightly, he unclasped it. He pulled back just enough to slide the straps down your arms, his hands warm and firm against your skin as he discarded the lacey fabric to the floor.
Jakeâs gaze dropped, and his lips parted slightly as his eyes roamed over you. For a moment, he said nothing, his expression somewhere between awe and hunger. Then, a slow grin spread across his face.
âThis is what you wore to the bar?â he asked, his voice playful but edged with disbelief.
You blushed, rolling your eyes even as you smiled. âItâs laundry day,â you mumbled. âAll the comfy stuff was in the wash.â
Jake chuckled, his hands sliding up your sides to rest just below your chest. âLaundry day, huh?âÂ
âYes, why? Do you have a problem with my choice of undergarments?â
âNot exactly,â he teased, his grin widening. âBut thatâŠis way too sexy for just a casual night out with friends.â
His thumb brushed just below the curve of your breast, sending a spark of warmth straight through you.
You rolled your eyes again, but the heat in your cheeks betrayed you. âItâs just a bra, Jake,â you muttered, though your voice wavered slightly.
He didnât respond, at least not with words. Instead, he leaned forward, his mouth finding the soft skin of your chest. His lips were warm and gentle, kissing along the swell of your breast before his tongue flicked against your skin.
Your breath hitched, and Jakeâs hands shifted to your hips, holding you firmly in place as he continued. He pressed open-mouthed kisses to your skin, his lips and tongue working in tandem to explore every inch. When he finally reached your nipple, his mouth closed around it, drawing a soft moan from you that only seemed to spur him on.
His hands tightened on your hips as his other hand slid up, cupping your other breast and giving it the same attention. Jake groaned softly against your skin, clearly enjoying himself, and the sound sent a shiver through you.
Jake pulled back for a moment, just enough to glance up at you with a wicked grin. âYouâve been holding out on me,â he teased, his voice low and rough. âDidnât know you were hiding these under all those sweaters and jackets.â
You let out a breathless laugh, your fingers sliding into his hair. âShut up, Jake,â you muttered, pulling him back to you.
He laughed softly but didnât argue, his mouth returning to your chest with renewed enthusiasm. Jake Seresin might have had a reputation for being cocky and playful, but in this moment, he was focused, almost reverent, as if he couldnât get enough of you.
Jake's lips were still warm against your skin, his tongue flicking over the same sensitive spot on your chest that had you squirming against him, when a sudden thought crossed your mind. You realized how uneven the situation wasâyour bra was already on the floor, and yet here he was, still fully dressed.
Not one to let such an imbalance slide, you tugged at the hem of his shirt. Jake pulled back, his green eyes flicking to yours in question, his mouth curving into a smug smile when he caught on.
You rolled your eyes but didnât respond, simply giving the fabric another tug. Jake let out a quiet laugh, sitting up slightly so he could pull the shirt over his head. The movement was so fluid, so effortless, that it was almost infuriating. And when he tossed the shirt aside, your mouth went dry.
Your eyes trailed over him slowly, taking in the broad expanse of his chest, the defined lines of his abs, and the way his skin seemed to glow under the dim light of his apartment. Youâd known Jake Seresin was fitâanyone could tell just by looking at himâbut this? This was something else entirely.
Your hands moved instinctively, sliding over the hard planes of his chest, the warmth of his skin beneath your fingertips making your pulse race. You traced the subtle curve of his muscles, your thumb brushing over a faint scar just below his collarbone, and you couldnât help but let out a soft, disbelieving laugh.
Jake caught the sound, his brow lifting as he smirked. âWhatâs so funny, darlinâ?â
You shook your head, trying to find the words but failing. Instead, you blurted, âYouâre not real.â
That caught him off guard, and he chuckled, the sound deep and rumbling in his chest. âNot real, huh?â
You gestured vaguely at him, your hands hovering just above his abs. âNobody looks like this in real life. I mean⊠how? Do you, like, live in the gym or something?â
Jake laughed again, clearly amused by your reaction. He leaned back slightly, his hands resting on your thighs as he regarded you with a playful gleam in his eyes. âItâs all just good genetics, sweetheart,â he drawled, his smirk widening. âBut if you wanna keep admiring, donât let me stop you.â
You rolled your eyes, though you couldnât help the blush creeping into your cheeks. âCocky,â you muttered, though your hands betrayed you by continuing their exploration, tracing the ridges of his muscles like you were committing them to memory.
âConfident,â Jake corrected, leaning forward again so that his face was just inches from yours. âAnd besidesâŠâ His lips brushed lightly against your jaw, his voice dropping to a low whisper. âYouâre not exactly keeping your hands to yourself, darlinâ.â
You narrowed your eyes at him, your blush deepening as his teasing smirk only grew wider. His confidence was maddening, but it also sent a rush of heat through you that you couldnât ignore. Finally, you huffed and muttered, âYou talk too much.â
Jake tilted his head, his smirk softening into something more mischievous. âYeah? What are you gonna do about it?â
Without missing a beat, you leaned in close, your breath brushing against his lips as you whispered, âShut up and kiss me, Seresin.â
His eyes darkened at your words, the playful light in them replaced with something deeper, hungrier. He didnât hesitate. His hand slid up to cup the back of your neck as he closed the distance between you, his lips crashing against yours.
His hand at your neck tilted your head just enough to deepen the kiss, while his other hand tightened its grip on your waist, pulling you closer until there wasnât an inch of space left between your bodies.
You melted into him, your hands sliding up his chest and over his shoulders, your fingers tangling in the short hair at the back of his head. When he nipped at your bottom lip, your soft gasp gave him the perfect opening, and his tongue swept into your mouth, stealing whatever clever retort you might have had.
Jake broke the kiss just long enough to guide you backward. His strong hands shifted to your hips as he maneuvered you gently, lowering you onto the bed as if you weighed nothing. His lips found yours again before your head even hit the pillow, his body following as he braced himself over you, one forearm resting beside your head while his other hand remained at your waist.
The bed dipped slightly under your combined weight, and you felt the cool sheets against your back, a stark contrast to the heat radiating between you and Jake. His kisses grew slower, deeper, his mouth moving over yours in a way that made your toes curl. His free hand slid up your side, leaving a trail of fire in its wake as it found your cheek, tilting your face toward his for better access.
You couldnât think, couldnât speakâall you could do was feel. The warmth of his body, the intoxicating way he kissed you, the steady weight of him pressing you into the mattressâit was overwhelming in the best way.
Jake finally pulled back, just enough to look down at you, his lips red and swollen, his chest rising and falling with uneven breaths. His gaze was molten as it roamed over your face, lingering on your kiss-bruised lips before meeting your eyes.
âYouâre something else,â he murmured, his voice low and husky. His thumb brushed gently over your cheek, and his lips quirked into a softer, almost reverent smile. âYou know that?â
Your heart pounded in your chest as you stared up at him, the sincerity in his expression taking your breath away all over again. You swallowed hard, trying to find your voice, but all that came out was a whisper. âYouâre not so bad yourself.â
Jakeâs lips hovered above yours, his breath warm against your skin, but his hands began to move, dragging your focus away from the way his mouth made you feel and to the steady path his fingers were tracing. They slid down your sides with a deliberate slowness, his thumbs brushing teasingly over your hips before they stopped at the waistband of your jeans.
He shifted back just slightly, his hands working to pop the button open and tug the zipper down. His green eyes flicked up to meet yours, and the spark of mischief in them sent a jolt of anticipation straight through you. âLift your hips for me, sweetheart.â
You did as he asked, and he made quick work of guiding your jeans down your legs, his fingers grazing your skin in a way that left goosebumps in their wake. The denim hit the floor, and Jakeâs gaze swept over you, lingering when he noticed the lacy underwear that matched the bra heâd already discarded.
A slow smirk spread across his face, the kind that made your stomach flip and your cheeks flush. âNow this,â he said, his voice dripping with that signature cockiness, âis a sight I could get used to.â
His fingers hooked into the waistband of your underwear, and with one smooth motion, he slid them down your legs and discarded them on the floor beside your jeans. His hands returned to your thighs, his touch featherlight as he traced patterns over your skin.Â
âFrom now on,â he murmured, leaning in to press a kiss to the inside of your knee, âyou only wear these for me. Got it?â
You let out a soft laugh, shaking your head at the sheer audacity of the man in front of you. âAnd what makes you think this will be more than a one-time thing,â you challenged, raising an eyebrow.
Jake didnât even blink at your question. Instead, he leaned back slightly, resting his weight on his knees as his hands slid higher up your thighs. âBecause you donât do casual,â he said, his tone matter-of-fact. His hands stilled just shy of where you wanted them, his thumbs brushing agonizingly close to the heat pooling between your legs. âYou donât do one-night hookups.â
His words were confident, but then that cocky grin returned, and he leaned down just enough that his lips hovered above your skin. His thumb trailed teasingly over your inner thigh, not quite touching you where you needed him most, and it was maddening.
âAnd because,â he continued, his voice low and teasing, âIâve barely touched you, and youâre already trying to get more.â His thumb brushed a little closer this time, still not quite enough, and the sharp intake of breath you let out didnât escape his notice.
Your hips tilted up instinctively, desperate for more contact, but Jake pulled his hand back just slightly, his grin widening as he caught your movement.
âSee what I mean?â he teased, his voice dripping with that infuriating self-assurance. âOne nightâs not gonna be enough for you, sweetheart. You wonât be able to get enough of me.â
Jakeâs smirk deepened as he continued his slow, agonizing teasing, his fingers dancing closer and closer to where you needed him.
âPatience, sweetheart,â he drawled, his green eyes glinting with amusement as he leaned down to press a kiss to the curve of your hip. âGood things come to those who wait.â
Your head fell back against the pillows, a frustrated groan slipping from your lips. You felt like you were about to combust, every nerve ending on fire as Jake toyed with you like it was some kind of game. The worst part? He knew exactly what he was doing.
âJake,â you started, your voice laced with exasperation as you lifted your head to glare at him. âI swear to Godââ
Before you could finish your sentence, his fingers finally moved, pressing against you in just the right spot. The sudden surge of pleasure ripped the words right from your throat, replacing them with a sharp, breathy moan that had Jakeâs grin widening in satisfaction.
âThatâs more like it,â he murmured, his voice low and smug as his fingers began working in slow, deliberate circles, coaxing another soft sound from your lips. âKnew youâd sound pretty, but damn, sweetheart, I didnât think youâd sound this good.â
Your hands fisted the sheets beside you, your back arching slightly off the bed as the pressure built, wave after wave crashing over you with every precise movement of his hand. âJakeâŠâ His name came out like a plea, your voice trembling as you tried to catch your breath.
He leaned down, his lips brushing the shell of your ear as he whispered, âIâve got you, darlinâ. Just let me take care of you.â
His free hand slid up your side, his thumb brushing along your ribs in a soothing gesture that contrasted sharply with the fire he was setting off with every calculated touch. Your hips tilted toward him, desperate for more, and Jake was quick to oblige, his fingers pressing harder, moving faster, drawing out the kind of pleasure that had your head spinning and your thoughts unraveling.
The tension coiled tighter and tighter inside you, and just when you thought you couldnât take it anymore, Jake shifted slightly, his lips finding yours in a kiss that was every bit as intoxicating as the way his hands worked your body. It was messy and consuming, his tongue brushing against yours in a rhythm that matched the movements of his fingers, as if he was determined to pull every last sound from your lips.
When you finally broke apart, gasping for air, your forehead pressed against his, your fingers gripping his biceps for support. He didnât stop, though, his lips trailing down your jaw, over your neck, and back to the spot on your collarbone that had you shivering.
âYou doing okay there, sweetheart?â he teased, his breath warm against your skin as he chuckled softly. âSeem a little⊠speechless.â
Jakeâs fingers slowed just enough to pull you back from the edge, leaving you breathless and trembling beneath him. A frustrated whimper escaped your lips, and you opened your mouth to protest, but before you could, his lips were at your ear, his voice dropping to a husky whisper.
âTell me, sweetheart,â he murmured, the heat of his breath against your skin sending a shiver down your spine. âHave you ever thought about this before? About me? About my hands on you like this?â
Your heart skipped a beat at his words, and you could feel your face heat, your body betraying you as a rush of arousal coursed through you. Of course, youâd thought about it. Youâd thought about it far more times than you cared to admit, in moments youâd never expected and in ways that had left you wondering what it would feel like to have Jake Seresin in this exact position.
But you werenât about to tell him that.
âNo,â you managed to say, though the breathiness of your voice betrayed your attempt at indifference.
Jake chuckled low, the sound vibrating against your skin as he pressed a kiss just below your ear. His fingers started moving again, slow and deliberate, building that fire inside you all over again. âLiar,ïżœïżœ he whispered, his tone dripping with confidence.
Your breath hitched as his hand worked you over with maddening precision, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. âI think youâve thought about this a lot,â he continued, his voice soft but insistent, like a secret he was unraveling. âAbout me touching you like this. About me kissing you. About me making you fall apart.â
Your hips bucked against his hand involuntarily, a quiet gasp slipping from your lips. Jakeâs smirk was audible in his next words. âThatâs what I thought,â he murmured.
âJakeâŠâ you warned, though the word lacked any real heat, your voice shaking as he pushed you closer to the edge again.
âCome on, sweetheart,â he urged, his voice still low and intimate, as if the moment was just for the two of you. âTell me the truth. Youâve thought about it, havenât you?â
You bit your lip, refusing to give him the satisfaction of an answer, but your body told a different story, arching into his touch, chasing the release he kept pulling just out of reach.
âStill not talking, huh?â he teased, his lips ghosting over your neck. âThatâs okay. I think I already know the answer.â
You let out a frustrated groan, your head falling back against the pillow as Jakeâs fingers slowed again, denying you the release you so desperately craved.
âJake, I swear to Godââ
âSay the word,â he whispered, his voice dark and tempting. âSay you want this. Say you want me.â
Your resolve crumbled under the weight of his touch, your breath coming in shallow gasps as the teasing rhythm of his fingers sent waves of pleasure coursing through you. You couldnât take it anymore, the denial of release driving you mad.
âFine,â you blurted out, your voice a mix of desperation and surrender. âIâve thought about it. About you. Happy now?â
Jake froze for a moment, his smirk widening as he absorbed your confession, his ego clearly basking in your words. âDamn right I am,â he drawled, his tone as smug as ever. His fingers picked up their pace again, but this time with a newfound determination, his touch deliberate and calculated as he pushed you closer to the edge once more.
âHave you thought about my hands doing this?â he murmured, shifting his hand ever so slightly, his movements slow and precise as he watched your reaction.
Your body arched involuntarily, a strangled moan escaping your lips. You couldnât lie even if you wanted to.
He chuckled, his lips brushing against your neck as he continued. âOr maybe this?â He changed the angle of his touch again, his fingers finding just the right spot that had you gasping, your nails digging into his shoulders.
âJake,â you panted, your voice trembling with need, but he wasnât done yet.
âCome on, sweetheart,â he pressed, his tone both teasing and possessive.Â
âHow many nights have you thought about this? About me making you feel this good?â
You let out a whimper, the pressure inside you building to an unbearable intensity. âPlease, Jake,â you finally begged, your voice cracking as you tilted your hips toward his hand, desperate for the release he was holding just out of reach.
âPlease, what?â he whispered, his voice dark and enticing.
âPlease, justââ
Before you could finish, he gave you exactly what you needed, his fingers working you over with perfect precision, sending you hurtling over the edge. A cry tore from your lips as the tension snapped, your body trembling under the overwhelming wave of pleasure.
Jake didnât stop, his hand staying steady as he guided you through your release, murmuring soft praises in your ear.
âThatâs it, baby,â he said, his voice softer now, the teasing replaced with something more intimate, more sincere. âLet go. Iâve got you.â
Your hands clutched at him as you rode out the high, your breathing ragged and uneven as he slowed his movements, easing you back down. His free hand caressed your side, grounding you as you came back to yourself.
âYou okay, sweetheart?â
As the intensity slowly ebbed away, you opened your eyes to find Jake watching you. The cocky smirk you'd expected wasnât thereâinstead, he was looking at you with something softer, something that made your chest tighten. His hand brushed a strand of hair out of your face, his touch lingering for just a moment before pulling back. He gave you a small, almost shy smile, one that youâd never seen before.
âWhat?â you asked nervously, returning the smile as your heart pounded for an entirely different reason now.
Jake shook his head, the corners of his mouth lifting into something more tender than teasing. âYouâre beautiful,â he said quietly, almost like he didnât mean to say it out loud.
You blinked at him, caught completely off guard. He wasnât grinning or smirking or full of his usual bravadoâhe was just Jake, looking at you like you were the only thing in the room.
Heat rose to your cheeks, and you didnât know what to say. âOh,â you whispered, your voice soft as his words settled over you.
The moment stretched between you, and for the first time, Jake looked away, almost as if realizing how vulnerable heâd made himself. But instead of pulling back, he leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead, a gesture so tender it made your chest ache.
âLetâs get you some water,â he murmured, his voice low and warm. But as he moved to stand, his fingers brushed yours, lingering just long enough to make your heart flutter all over again.
And at that moment, you knewâthis wasnât just some casual hookup with him. You werenât sure what it was yet, but it was more.
Jake disappeared into the walk in closet, leaving you alone in his bedroom for a moment. When he returned, he had one of his shirts in handâsoft, worn, and smelling distinctly like him. He tossed it to you with a crooked smile.
âFigured youâd be more comfortable in this,â he said before turning toward the door, giving you a bit of privacy to change.
Once you slipped into the oversized shirt, you padded out to find him in the kitchen, pulling a bottle of water from the fridge. He twisted the cap off and handed it to you as you approached.
âThanks,â you murmured, taking a long sip.
Jake nodded toward the couch. âCome on. Sit with me.â
You followed him over, sinking into the cushion next to him, leaving a respectable amount of space between you. Jake glanced at the gap and raised an eyebrow, smirking just slightly.
âYou scared of me now or something?â he teased, his voice soft but warm.
You rolled your eyes, but before you could come up with a response, Jake reached over and tugged gently at your hand, coaxing you closer. âCâmere,â he said, his tone so inviting you didnât think to resist.
You shifted over until your thigh brushed against his, and Jake draped an arm along the back of the couch, his fingers brushing your shoulder. He didnât push for more, didnât try to crowd youâhe just held you there, close enough to feel his warmth.
âYou good?â he asked after a moment, his voice quieter now.
You nodded, leaning slightly into him. âYeah. Iâm good.â
For a while, neither of you said anything. The room was quiet except for the soft hum of the fridge in the kitchen and the occasional creak of the couch as you both shifted to get more comfortable. Eventually, you rested your head against Jakeâs shoulder, and you could feel him relax beneath you, the tension in his body melting away.
Thisâwhatever this wasâfelt easy. And for now, you were content to let it be.
The silence between you settled into something soft, the kind of quiet where you could hear your own thoughts but didnât mind sharing the space with someone else. Jake absentmindedly brushed his fingers along your arm, his touch light, comforting.
But then the thought hit you, and you started to feel a twinge of guilt. Jake had gone out of his way to make sure you felt incredible, but you hadnât done the same for him. The realization sat heavily in your chest, and before you could talk yourself out of it, you shifted slightly, sitting up to look at him.
"Hey," you said, your voice quieter than you expected.
Jake tilted his head toward you, the corners of his lips quirking up. "Whatâs on your mind, darlinâ?"
You hesitated, chewing your bottom lip for a second. "I just... I feel bad. Youâyou got me to, you know, but I didnâtâ"
Jakeâs low laugh cut you off, his head tipping back for a moment before he looked at you again, his eyes warm and amused. "You feel bad about that?"
"Well... yeah," you admitted, your cheeks heating. You glanced away, feeling the awkwardness creep in. "I mean, do you... want me to...?" You trailed off, unable to meet his gaze.
Jake reached over and gently tipped your chin up so you had to look at him. His expression wasnât teasing this time, but soft, almost tender.
"I donât need you to do anything," he said, his voice steady. "Tonight was about you. I wanted to make sure you felt good. Thatâs enough for me."
You blinked, a little thrown by how sincere he sounded. "Really?"
He nodded, leaning back and letting his arm settle across your shoulders again. "Really," he said, the hint of a smile still tugging at his lips. "But I appreciate the offer. Makes me feel pretty special."
You rolled your eyes, but you couldnât help the small smile that broke through. "Youâre impossible."
"Yeah, but you like me anyway," he quipped, his grin widening as you shook your head and settled back against his shoulder.
The room fell into a quiet lull, the kind that was filled with comfort rather than awkwardness. Jakeâs arm rested across your shoulders, his fingers lazily tracing circles along your arm. You let your head rest against him, but the words youâd been mulling over stuck in your throat.
Finally, you worked up the courage to look up at him, your voice soft, almost hesitant. "Jake?"
"Hmm?" He turned his head slightly, his green eyes meeting yours.
"Can I..." You paused, nervousness creeping in, but you pushed forward. "Can I sleep with you tonight?"
Jakeâs grin spread across his face almost immediately, cocky but somehow still sweet. "Where else would you sleep?"
You shrugged, suddenly feeling shy under the weight of his gaze. "I donât know. The couch maybe..."
Before you could finish the thought, Jake leaned in and kissed you, his lips soft and warm, pulling you right back into the ease of being with him. When he pulled away, his grin had softened into something tender, something that made your heart skip a beat.
"You can sleep with me every night," he murmured, his fingers brushing another stray piece of hair from your face.
Your lips parted, but no words came out. Instead, you just smiled, leaning into him as his arm tightened around you, pulling you closer. In that moment, the thought of waking up next to Jake every morning didnât feel so crazy after all.
* * * *
The morning light streamed through the blinds, coaxing you awake. Your head throbbed faintlyâa mild reminder of the last beer you probably shouldnât have had. Blinking against the sunlight, you looked around, disoriented for a moment. This wasnât your apartment.
And then it all came back. Last night. Jake bringing you home. The teasing, the kissing, the way he had pulled you close and told you that you could sleep with him every night. The memories brought a mix of warmth and guilt as you realized just how many lines of friendship you had crossed in a single evening.
Sitting up, you glanced over at the other side of the bed, half expecting Jake to still be there. But his side was empty, the covers slightly rumpled. You pushed them off and padded out of the bedroom, your bare feet cold against the hardwood.
As you stepped into the living room, you froze in place, utterly speechless at the sight before you.
Jake was lying on the floor, one arm propped up to support his head, his body stretched out lazily. He was barefoot, in jeans that fit a little too well, no shirt, and a Stetson cowboy hat perched on his head.
Your mouth opened, then closed, your brain short-circuiting. You werenât sure whether to laugh, blush, or scold him for how ridiculous he lookedâand how ridiculously good he looked at the same time.
âWhat,â you finally managed, âare you doing?â
Jakeâs lips curved into that signature smirk of his, the one that always got him into trouble and, apparently, you as well. âWhat does it look like? Tall, hot, in a Stetson. Isnât this what you wanted?â
Your jaw dropped as you remembered your flippant comment from the night before, and a laugh bubbled out of you before you could stop it. âAre you serious right now?â
He stood up in one smooth motion, the hat still perfectly in place as he strolled toward you. âIâm Texan, darlinâ. Born and raised. Owning a Stetson is a right of passage.â
You shook your head, laughing harder now as he stopped in front of you. âYouâre ridiculous.â
He leaned down, his green eyes twinkling with mischief. âRidiculous enough to make you laugh this hard first thing in the morning?â
âYeah, wellâŠâ You tried to form a witty comeback, but the way he was looking at youâhalf playful, half something much softerâmade your words catch in your throat.
Jakeâs smirk softened into a smile as he tilted his head closer. âMerry Christmas,â he murmured, his voice low and warm, before leaning in to kiss you.
And just like that, the absurdity of the morning melted away, leaving only the feel of his lips on yours and the flutter in your chest that you werenât quite ready to name.
Jakeâs hands slid to your waist, his grip firm yet gentle as he deepened the kiss. His lips moved against yours with a confidence that made your knees weak, and you swore you felt his smirk against your mouth when your hands instinctively gripped his shoulders for balance.
Without breaking the kiss, Jakeâs fingers tightened slightly on your hips, and he murmured, âJump.â
You hesitated for only a fraction of a second before doing as he asked. His hands were steady as they guided you, and your legs wrapped around his waist naturally. He held you effortlessly, the warmth of his skin against your thighs making your breath hitch.
âYouâre way too good at this,â you whispered against his lips, your voice teasing but a little breathless.
Jake pulled back just enough to flash you that cocky grin you knew all too well. âDarlinâ, I was born good at this.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât stop the smile that crept onto your face. Then, just like that, he was moving, carrying you down the hallway as though you weighed nothing.
The hat was still perched on his head, slightly tilted from your movements, and you couldnât help but laugh at the absurdity of it all. âYouâre seriously keeping the hat on?â
He glanced at you with a raised brow, that grin still firmly in place. âYou said tall, hot, in a Stetson. Iâm just giving the lady what she wants.â
âYouâre unbelievable,â you muttered, but your words were swallowed by another kiss as he carried you into the bedroom.
Jake lowered you onto the bed with care, the playful edge giving way to something more deliberate, more intense, as he hovered over you. His green eyes locked on yours, and for a moment, the room felt still, the air between you charged with something electric.
âGuess that makes me your cowboy now,â he said softly, his voice low and teasing, but there was a hint of sincerity there that made your chest tighten.
And before you could respond, his lips were back on yours, and nothing else mattered.
Jake kissed you with a hunger that sent a spark straight through you. His hands slid up your thighs, the warmth of his palms setting fire to your skin as he pressed you into the mattress. The Stetson, still sitting askew on his head, was the perfect blend of ridiculous and sexy, and you couldnât stop yourself from laughing softly against his lips.
âWhatâs so funny, darlinâ?â he asked, his voice a low rumble that made your stomach flip.
You reached up, plucking the hat off his head, and twirled it in your fingers with a smirk. âJust trying to decide if this thing makes you hotter⊠or if itâs the most ridiculous thing Iâve ever seen.â
Jake chuckled, pulling back slightly, his weight still braced above you. âGo on then, put it on. Letâs see if you can pull it off.â
Your eyes narrowed playfully, accepting the challenge. Sliding the Stetson onto your head, you tilted it just slightly, giving him a mock-serious look. âHow do I look?â
Jakeâs gaze darkened instantly, his tongue swiping across his bottom lip. âLike trouble,â he drawled.
The heat in his voice sent a shiver down your spine. Emboldened by the way he was looking at youâlike you were the only thing heâd ever wantedâyou took a deep breath and gave his chest a small push. Jake raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued, but he rolled to his back without protest, his hands guiding you along with him until you were straddling his hips.
His smirk grew as he settled beneath you, his hands resting on your waist. âThis what you had in mind?â he asked, his tone a teasing challenge.
You didnât give him time to comment further before you rolled your hips slowly, teasing him. You reached down and grabbed the bottom of his shirt that you had slept in and quickly slid it off, leaving you completely bare. You reach for the hat that had been knocked off and carefully placed it back on your head.
Jake groaned, his head falling back for a moment as his grip on your waist tightened. âYouâre playinâ a dangerous game, darlinâ.â
âAm I?â you teased, leaning forward just enough that the brim of the hat shadowed your face, leaving him staring up at you like youâd stolen all the air from his lungs.
Jakeâs hands slid up your sides, his thumbs brushing over your ribs as he guided your movements. âYouâre wearinâ nothinâ but my hat and lookinâ like that,â he muttered, his voice low and ragged.
You laughed softly, but your amusement quickly faded as the heat between you grew. The way his hands moved over youâpossessive yet gentleâwas making it impossible to keep the pace slow.
As you shifted and leaned forward again, Jake reached up, tipping the brim of the hat slightly. âYouâre somethinâ else,â he said softly, his green eyes locked on yours.
For once, the cockiness was gone from his voice, replaced with a raw honesty that left you breathless. You didnât respond, couldnât, as you captured his lips again and let the heat between you consume every other thought.
The heat between your bodies was electric, every touch and movement sending sparks skittering across your skin. You shifted slightly, lifting your hips just enough to position yourself over him. Jakeâs breath hitched, and his hands instinctively gripped your thighs, steadying you as if he couldnât bear to let you go.
For a brief moment, the world seemed to hold its breath. Your eyes locked with his, and the teasing glint in his green gaze had softened into something deeper, something that made your heart skip a beat. Without a word, he let his hands glide up your sides, the warmth of his palms grounding you as you slowly sank down onto him.
A shuddered groan escaped Jakeâs lips, and you couldnât hold back the small gasp that left yours. The sensation was overwhelming, but it wasnât just physicalâit was the way he looked at you, like you were something precious, something he wanted to memorize with every touch.
Jake sat up slightly, his arms wrapping around your waist to pull you closer, pressing his forehead to yours as your breaths mingled. For a moment, neither of you moved. The intimacy of it, the closeness, was almost too much to bear. His thumbs traced small circles against your skin, grounding you in the moment.
When you finally began to move, it was slow, deliberate, like the two of you were trying to savor every second. Jakeâs lips found yours, and the kiss was anything but hurried. It was deep, consuming, a perfect match to the rhythm youâd set. His hands explored your back, your sides, your hips, mapping every inch of you like he never wanted to forget.
As the pace quickened, so did the intensity. Jakeâs lips left yours to trail along your jaw, down your neck, his teeth grazing your skin in a way that sent a shiver racing through you. Your fingers tangled in his hair, pulling him closer as you tipped your head back, surrendering completely to the moment.
His grip on your waist tightened, and his lips found the hollow of your throat. Every movement between you spoke louder than words ever couldâthe way his hands caressed you, the way your body arched into his, the way his lips lingered on your skin like he couldnât get enough.
This wasnât just a fleeting moment, and you could feel it in the way he held you. He wasnât just here for nowâhe was here for you, wholly and completely. And though neither of you spoke, the weight of that realization settled between you, amplifying the passion that had consumed you both.
As the rhythm between you grew more urgent, Jake leaned back, letting his head hit the pillow as his hands guided your hips. His eyes were locked on you, full of heat and awe, like he couldnât believe you were real. âYouâre incredible,â he murmured, the words slipping out before he could stop them.
Your gaze softened as you leaned down, brushing your lips against his in a kiss that was both tender and passionate. The way he looked at you, touched you, kissed youâit was like he was unraveling every fear youâd ever had about being vulnerable, about letting someone in.
When the moment finally crested, your head fell forward, your lips finding the crook of his neck as he held you close, his hands splayed against your back to steady you. You stayed like that for a moment, tangled together, neither of you willing to pull away.
Jakeâs fingers brushed over your spine, his touch gentle as your breathing began to slow. He tilted his head to press a soft kiss to your temple, and you felt the tension in his body ease as he cradled you against him.
No words were spoken, but they werenât needed. Everything you felt, everything he feltâit was all there, in the way he held you, in the way you lingered against him, unwilling to let the moment end.
The silence in the room was peaceful, broken only by the sound of your slowing breaths and the faint rustle of the sheets. Jakeâs hand skimmed lazily along your back, his touch soothing and warm as you rested against his chest. For a moment, you both just lay there, content in the afterglow of everything that had passed between you.
But of course, Jake couldnât let the moment stay quiet for too long. His fingers danced lightly along your spine, and you felt his chest rumble with a low chuckle.
âSo,â he drawled, his tone laced with that familiar cocky edge, âwas it everything you imagined it would be? Or do you need another round for comparison purposes?â
You let out a soft laugh, lifting your head to look at him. His grin was downright smug, and you couldnât help but roll your eyes, even as your lips tugged into a smile. âYouâre ridiculous,â you muttered for what felt like the tenth time since you arrived at Jake's place last night, propping yourself up on one elbow.
Jake smirked, clearly unbothered by your comment. âRidiculous, maybe, but you like it.â
âDebatable,â you teased, your tone light and playful as you reached up to brush a strand of hair out of your face.
His grin only widened, and he gave a small shrug, feigning nonchalance. âHey, I donât blame you for falling for the whole âhot guy in a Stetsonâ thing. Happens to the best of âem.â
You laughed again, shaking your head. âYouâre insufferable, you know that?â
âMm, maybe,â Jake said, leaning in just enough to brush his lips against yours. âBut I think you like me anyway.â
You wanted to argue, to fire back some witty retort, but the softness in his gaze stopped you short. His hand came up to cup your cheek, his thumb brushing gently across your skin as he smiled at youânot his usual cocky grin, but something quieter, more genuine.
âI mean it,â he said softly, his voice carrying none of the teasing from before. âYouâreâŠamazing.â
You felt your cheeks warm under his gaze, and you dropped your eyes, suddenly shy. âYouâre not so bad yourself,â you murmured, the words slipping out before you could stop them.
Jake chuckled, his hand sliding down to rest on your waist as he pulled you closer. âNot so bad, huh? Iâll take it.â
You laughed, the sound light and easy as you settled back against him, your head resting on his chest. His arms wrapped around you, holding you close as the playful banter faded into a comfortable silence.
As your eyes began to drift closed, you felt Jake press a kiss to the top of your head, his voice soft and warm as he murmured, âMerry Christmas, sweetheart.â
And for the first time in a long time, you felt like everything might just be exactly as it should be.
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insta au req about reader and charles being best friends and a rift comes between them because of his girlfriend(or whoever!!) and reader and max finally get together and she shades ferrari and charles purrrrr (if not i totally get it queen love u loads)
into the arms of another | max verstappen social media au
pairing: max verstappen x reader
after charles leaves her out in the cold, y/n falls into the arms of another.
part two part three
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user1: they're really just the definition of no thoughts behind the eyes
user2: it's crazy cause we all know you have to be smart to drive an f1 car and she has a literal degree in architecture but they are always in the most insane situations ever
charles_leclerc: that's my private jet don't call me dumb
yourusername: *rented, dumbass
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user3: they're friendship goals like perfect example of platonic soulmates and male and female friendship
arthurleclerc: so like what does a man need to do for a feature on your instagram?
yourusername: soz arth, step ur aesthetic up x
user4: oh to be besties with an f1 driver
user5: wait so like all the leclercs and their gfs went on this holiday, right?
user6: yeah arthurâs and lorenzoâs gfs have posted about being there
user5: so itâs kinda muggy that y/n refused to post the girls?
user6: not really sheâs posted with the girls loads i think yâall just want an excuse to be mad at her
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user8: no y/n ....
user9: did yall see that tweet about the girl who met y/n in corsica when charles left her stranded on the beach to walk home on her own
user8: what ???
joristrouche: love you brother
charles_leclerc: best mate
user10: the vibes have shifted, the atmosphere is weird and the absence of y/n is the centre of it
user11: i fear i've seen this film before and y/n is defo getting iced out because charles in back in a relationship
user12: noooooo i thought he'd matured past that after the last time he fucked y/n off for a girlfriend
user13: babes please stop expecting so much from men
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pierregasly: you look sunburnt calmar, did you leave it at home cause y/n isn't there to remind you?
charles_leclerc: she's here and i have been putting it on the sun just has it out for me
yourusername: i tried pierre, believe me
user14: well this is fucking awkward
user15: charles is not beating the allegations of forgetting about y/n while in a relationship LOL
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maxverstappen1: simply lovely to win my home race again. the orange army never disappoint and i'm so thankful for all the support here this weekend
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user20: call me a conspiracy theorist BUT he thanked the orange army and the support separately i.e. Y/N Y/LN
user21: now you bitches usually jump to conclusions, but i'm hearing you this time
martingarrix: next set just gonna be super max on a two hour loop
maxverstappen1: i'll be there
user22: i'm sorry i'm new here why is y/n being in max's garage such a big deal? who is she? (gen.)
user23: y/n is charles' best friend, they've known each other since childhood and she's supported him through all levels of karting and single-seaters. though they haven't interacted too much in the public eye, max and y/n have known each other for as long as charles and max have. charles is a bit notorious for dumping y/n to the side for his girlfirend any time he's in a relationship and being inseparable once he's single again. after he ALLEGEDLY ditched her at a beach in corsica over the summer, y/n hasn't been seen with him or interacting with him online and was then in max's garage.
user24: maybe i'm messy but i genuinely want max and y/n to be together
yourusername: the red bull catering was defo worth breaking the cost cap
maxverstappen1: you're welcome any time
user25: can someone please check charles' pulse
landonorris: he looked like a cartoon with steam coming out of his ears earlier
user26: LANDO WHAT?
user27: tbf i think that's just a general side effect of driving the ferrari
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user28: in my professional shadow identification opinion, i have deduced that it is in fact max verstappen
user29: ur so delusional (i believe you)
charles_leclerc: so that's who you've been getting our vanilla and chocolate cones with
yourusername: i'm not entertaining this argument over the internet charles you know where i live
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user30: she's so much better than me i'd rip him a new asshole right here right now
arthurleclerc: please come to dinner on sunday, carla can't come and i don't wanna fifth wheel plsssssss y/n
yourusername: sorry chickie i've already got plans but give mama my love
arthurleclerc: noooooo what could be better than mama's sunday lunch
yourusername: i promise i love those dinners but i've had enough experience seventh wheeling you guys and would love time with someone who loves me for me
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user31: yall i feel like i'm in the family group chat in this comment section this feels illegal to see
user32: max is so sly with the comments he's liking but that's MY petty king
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f1: oops. charles leclerc takes championship leader max verstappen and himself out of the race at the first corner. the two did not mince their words, verstappen saying: "i tried to stay out of trouble but trouble came to me"
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user33: the way i RAN to twitter
user34: i'm not a verstappen fan but that quote goes so hard
user35: i'm all for leaving the drivers' personal lives alone but lord the tea is piping and sky cutting to y/n in max's garage? OOP
user36: no cause someone at sky has been watchign too much drive to survive because putting "charles' childhood friend" on her name banner as she's in max's garage was pure cinema
user37: charles be chatting mad shit for the man at fault
user38: leclerc drove into verstappen and perez and thought he'd manage to get out of the blame again LOL he's such a joker
user39: i think it's a good thing that y/n is skipping that dinner
user40: the way charles' gf wasn't even there this weekend and he was clearly looking for y/n in the garage
user41: the drama is too much for me to keep up with
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user42: i'm going into cardiac arrest
maxverstappen1: finally now i can comment freely about my unbelievably sexy, smart and hilarious girlfriend who i love and defo haven't pined over for ten years
yourusername: awwwww maxy, if it makes you feel better i've liked you for that long as well
user43: hmmmm idk this all seems a bit fake
yourusername: babes i still fancied him when he was a lanky, spotty teenager
arthurleclerc: i can confirm this
user44: the way y/n was always so nice and constantly hyping charles and his gf in their comments ... where's charles
user45: tbf she is dating his rival
user44: oh please we all know they never hated each other and have been good friends for years, charles is just being petty
danielricciardo: never thought i'd see the day when max would grow some balls and finally ask you out
yourusername: i thought you were meant to be some great wing man, i didn't see you helping
danielricciardo: i didn't want to get ran over by charles, no thank you
user46: i'm so sad i want bestie charles and y/n back
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user47: THE CAPTION? THIS MAN IS SO UNHINGED
user48: mad max returns and in the form of shady instagram captions
yourusername: but you didn't even let me drive :(
maxverstappen1: babe i love you but you don't have a license and that's a very expensive car
user49: wait don't make me depressed didn't charles say in an interview ages ago that he was going to teach y/n to drive? did this never happen?
yourusername: sorry to ruin your day but i'm still illegal on the road
landonorris: so no photo credits? i watched you guys kiss for so long to get that shot
yourusername: i didn't hear you complaining on the day
maxverstappen1: let him be lonely in peace
landonorris: that's really not the save you think it is but thanks mate
user50: i am so happy that y/n is happy but the way charles can't be happy for her relationship like she always is for me is so sad to me
user51: i get that the charles and y/n situ is sad but she's clearly happy with max leave them be
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note: hope you enjoyed my love, i hope this was kinda what you were envisioning, i'm happy with it but would be up for a part two if people want it lol xx
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summary: michael kaiser is a coward who needs a little incentive to finally confess his feelings towards you.
tags: f!reader, roommates to lovers, fluff, falling in love, kissing (more like, making out), jealousy, mutual pinning, possessive kaiser.
wc: 1.7k
notes: i do not know what possessed me into writing this, but man, it needs to do it again.
something you've realized early on in your friendship with kaiser is that he's a coward.
he hates spiders, makes you throw the trash out at night, and screams whenever something falls out of its place because he thinks the apartment is haunted.
in the year that you've spent as his roommate, you've come to terms with it. he's nice, cleans his dishes, and helps with the laundry. he keeps the noise down to a minimum and cooks you breakfast when he isn't preoccupied with practice.
another perk of living with him is the fact that he buys you things, expensive things. perfume. flowers. the dress you were eyeing online. your favorite snacks. a limited edition plushy you've been wanting since forever.
anything.
you realized early on that michael kaiser is rude to other people, scoffing and smirking as if he's above everyone else. he mutters comments about them under his breath, thinking you can't hear. he bosses people around, looking at them like they're ants. a waste of his time.
he isn't like that with you.
for one, he's sweet. if the gift giving isn't enough, he goes out of his way to seek you out after his matches. he asks for massages, for small pecks and fleeting touches. he video calls you when he's away, never forgetting to wish you a good morning and sweet dreams through voice notes. all with a grin on his lips.
you aren't blind. you know those are his ways of expressing affection. you just wish he'd finally man up and admit his feelings.
"so, how was the date?"
kaiser's sitting on the couch of your living room, remote control in hand as he stares at the tv, some random soccer match showing across the screen. his hair is wet, and he's got his glasses on. his posture is relaxed, seemingly nonchalant as he asks the question.
you know him enough to see him gritting his teeth even through his bored expression.
"good evening to you too," you laugh, airy as you take off your heels. putting them next to the door, you drop your keys in the sage bowl, letting them clink against his. "have dinner yet?"
leaning against the door, you can see the fine lines of his shoulder tense. the kaiser you're used to is a show pony, the person sitting on your couch isn't. he almost looks like a stranger with his neutral expression and bored eyes. such a difference to the guy who usually comes running whenever you walk through the entrance.
"i ordered takeout." he motions to the plates littered around him, pointing at the fridge. "i saved you some of your favorites."
internally, you flutter. happy to know that the kaiser you know, and love, isn't completely gone.
"thank you, that's very sweet of you."
he's adamant on keeping his eyes off you and on the screen, his shoulders becoming even more tense as you open your arms wide.
"no hug for today?" there's a hopeful smile on your lips as you say the words. happy to finally have everything the way they should be.
only to be shut down with a single side eye from him.
"what?" he asks lowly, almost conceding in his words. almost like your presence bothers him, like all those other people do. like you aren't special to him anymore. "did your date dump you? and now you're looking to me for comfort?"
the words are icy, and he gives no room for rebuttals. not when he looks at you with a quirked eyebrow and a cocky smirk.
it's the first time he's used his persona on you. one he uses to hide away from the world. you decide that you hate it.
"no. actually, he was sweet," you bite back, glaring when you decide that enough is enough. "asked to hold my hand and carry me on his back."
you watch as his face darkens, his eyes clouding over until you can't recognize the pretty blue color they usually spark in. you're riling him up, making him angry. and it's working.
"why? jealous?"
it's the question you've been dying to ask for months now. he flirts like you're more than friends, buys you gifts like you're something special to him, shuts down every time you go on a date with someone that isn't him.
but when it comes down to it, you not his to have. not when he's too much of a coward to do anything about it.
"and if i am?" his words surprise you. it's the first time he's come close to revealing his true feelings in months. they're said with an underlying tone of anger, jealousy, and possessiveness. like you're already his and no one else's. "what's it to you?"
"oh, you know, just happy you're finally being a man and talking about your feelings."
you shouldn't have said that. with the way his eyes are practically glaring, you don't know what else to say. you look up when he stands, practically looming as he stalks to you.
"you're so-"
his words are interrupted by his cursing. he glares down at you, pushing his hand next to your head, pining you against the door. you gulp, watching as he practically shakes in anger.
"du machst mich wahnsinnig, liebling. ich glaube nicht, dass ich mich zurĂŒckhalten kann, wenn du weiterhin so eine göre bist."
translation: you're driving me mad, darling. i don't think i can hold back if you continue to be such a brat.
"he even asked to kiss me too," you say, your voice trembling under his dark gaze. your sweet and funny roommate is gone, replaced by the man you see in front of you. your heart is pounding against your chest, in both fear and excitement for what he'll do when you finally push him off the edge. "he-"
kaiser surges down, cutting your sentence off with a kiss.
your eyes widen when your head hits the door from his force. a shiver running down your spine when he lifts a hand, placing it on the back of your head, gently caressing the area. closing your eyes, you wrap your arms around his shoulder, kissing him back with just as much fervor.
he relaxes at that, pulling back slightly only to swoop back in, keeping you in his arms for as long as he wants. by the time he finally breaks the kiss, you're both leaning against each other.
you've never seen his eyes as happy as they are now.
"ich bin mir sicher, dass ich besser kĂŒsse als er," he says, smug as he takes in the way you're panting. he chuckles, placing his hands on the side of your neck to pull you into another kiss. "richtig, liebling?"
translation: i'm sure i kiss better than he does. right, darling?
"i don't know what you're saying but yes. okay. sure." you nod, head still hazy as his hands start to stroke your cheek. "if it's something bad, then no."
he chuckles, placing a kiss on the corner of your lips. he keeps you rooted in your spot, his eyes darting back between your eyes and your lips. "you're mine now, yeah? no one else gets to kiss you the way i did."
"about time," you say with a roll of your eyes when your breathing finally settles. you play with the hair around his shoulder, slightly tugging at the strands. "it went awful, by the way. he made me walk 3 kilometers because his car broke down."
his hands stop, freezing as he looks at you incredulously. "but you said-"
"i lied," you say with a cheeky grin. you lift yourself onto your tiptoes, placing a kiss on his cheek as an apology. "just wanted to see how you'd react."
you giggle when he groans, letting him settle in the crook of your neck. "you little minx. next time, call me. i'll pick you up and drop you off."
there's the kaiser you know and love.
"mihya." the nickname is odd on your lips, new and completely unrefined. you watch as he perks up, his eyes practically shining as he looks down at you. guess you'll just have to use the nickname on him more often from now on. "you're a terrible driver. you'd be picking me up at the mall and dropping us off at the gates of heaven."
"well, at least that means an angel will finally return home."
you smack his shoulder for that.
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you're walking down the stairs of your university a few weeks later, laughing at something your friend said when the sound of squealing fills your ears.
a sleek black lamborghini sits right in front of you.
you blink, taking in the over-the-top showcase before your eyes land on the figure right beside it. you snort as kaiser winks at you from his spot, still taking his time to soak up the limelight.
"did you have to come all the way here to be a showoff?" you greet him with a kiss to his cheek that kaiser visibly grins at.
ever since getting together, he's been hogging you all to himself. he insists on driving you to and from wherever you need because your time together is worth everything to him. "you are so petty. making sure no one even thinks of asking me out on another date?"
"you like it." the way he says it is breathless, like it's a secret he's been keeping to himself for a long time. "you like me."
who knew michael kaiser turned out to be such a corny romantic?
you snort, tugging him into the car before he makes any more of a scene. "i do."
he grins at that, revving the engine as loud as he can, smirking when a group of freshmen cheer and wave to him from behind the car.
"good." he takes your hand, placing a kiss on the knuckles. he holds it as he backs out of the university and into the open street. "be prepared because i'm about to spoil you even more."
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The sound of muffled cries filled Daryl's ears. He stopped in his tracks and cocked his head to the side, trying to find the source of the sound he was hearing. He soon discovered that it was coming from Dale's RV, and against his better judgement, he walked up the steps and opened the door, hoping to figure out who was crying. However, he stopped in his tracks when he figured out who those cries belonged to.
They belonged to you.
The sound of feet shuffling caught your attention. You quickly wiped at the tears that fell from your eyes, hoping that you could shield your true emotions from the person's gaze, but you knew it would be to no avail. You simply sniffled and looked up, prepared to tell whoever that had entered to please leave you alone. However, your words got caught in your throat when you saw it was Daryl.
Daryl's cerulean eyes locked with your own eyes. He was awkwardly fiddling with his thumbs. He wasn't entirely sure what he had expected to do once he had found out who was crying in the RV. However, although his brother's voice rang through his mind, reminding him that âchicks crying was an automatic noâ and that he should run, a strange feeling overcame him.
He wanted to kill whoever was causing you so much pain. Even though he logically knew that you could've been crying because of something else, something told him that it was your boyfriend, that Shane prick that made you cry like this.
âYa alrigh'?â He mentally kicked himself for starting with that. You obviously weren't okay. He felt like a perfect moron.
You chuckled bitterly and shook your head. âYep, I'm just peachy,â you told him with a fake smile. âBut I'll be fine. Don't need you to worry about me. Go and do... whatever it is you do.â
Daryl knew that was your way of telling him to get lost. He didn't blame you; your last interaction with him hadn't exactly been all sunshines and rainbows. The two of you had formed a friendship that was blossoming rather beautifully, but then he had snapped at you, and he didn't blame you for not wanting him to pry into your life after that. However, he couldn't stop himself from saying what he said next.
âWant me to kill 'im?â
You looked up at him with confusion clear on your features. However, you quickly realized what he meant, and you decided to play along with the jokeâwhat you didn't know was if you really wanted him to, he'd go through with it. âPlease, or else I will. I can't have a murder charge on my record. How will I find a job?â
Daryl chuckled at your joke and shrugged. âI dun' mind takin' the fall, as long as ya visit me in prison.â He took a few steps further into the RV, getting closer to you with each step. âBut seriously, what'd he do this time?â
âLori's pregnant.â
Daryl didn't need to be a rocket scientist to figure out what you meant by that. He was painfully aware of the fact that Deputy Dickâas Merle had so affectionately nicknamed himâhadn't been able to keep it in his pants, and so were you, Shane's actual girlfriend. Daryl couldn't explain it, but the urge to stab Shane for doing that to you was strong.
âAnd,â you began, snapping him from his train of thought. âI finally broke up with him. I'm mostly relieved, but I'm also... I don't know. I mean, I dedicated four years of my life to this man. I didn't expect it to end like this. Hell, I didn't expect it would end at all. We had our fights, but I never once thought he'd do this to me. And now he got another woman pregnant, and I don't even know if Rick knows. If he doesn't, how do I possibly break this news to him?â
Daryl didn't know how to respond to that. He hadn't expected to have all of that dumped onto him. Feelings and comforting had never been his strong suits, so he didn't know how to make you feel better.
You laughed bitterly and shook your head. âI'm sorry for dumping all of that on you. Just forget I said anything.â
No, he wouldn't have any of that. He may not be able to comfort you, but maybe he could distract you. And after seeing the flowers in the vase on the counter, he knew exactly how.
âYa know that Merle was really into flowers when we were younger?â
You scoffed in disbelief, but when you saw he was being serious, your eyes widened in disbelief and a smirk tugged at the corners of your lips. âSeriously?â
Daryl nodded. âI didn't know 'bout this until he was high one night. We were out on a huntin' trip and he had his nose all covered in some drug. He had jus' had a bad encounter with a boar he didn't kill properly. I was cookin' up some squirrel stew when Merle pointed out to a bunch'a flowers in the distance. âDo ya know what daisies represent?â he had asked me, real serious, too. Of course, I didn't know, so he told me, âThey represent innocence, purity, but above all else? They represent new beginnings. We're gon' grab the bull by the horns and take the world by storm, lil' brother. They ain't ready for us Dixons, that's for sure.â Yeah, that was bullshit. Ain't much of our lives that changed.â Daryl cut himself off before he could ramble any more.
You smiled at him, your heart fluttering at the sight of his shyness. Was it just you, or was Daryl kind of stunning? âDaisies really represent that?â
Daryl nodded. âYeah. I looked it up. It actually does. M'surprised Merle knew that, though, but I didn't bring it up. Merle would just deny it and give me one hell of a beatin' if I did.â Daryl took a flower from the vaseâa daisyâand extended it towards you. âWhat m'trynna say with that whole story s'that the situation with Shane and Lori definitely sucks, but ya can't let it get ya down. Be like a daisy. S'yer opportunity to start fresh. S'yer new beginnin'. Dun' let this be yer setback.â
A few beats of silence passed. Daryl was beginning to think that he had overstepped his boundaries, and he was about to pull back, mumble a âsorryâ and hightail it out of there. However, you finally took the flower from him and sent him a small smile.
âThat's actually kind of wise. Thank you.â
Daryl shrugged and took a few steps back. âAin't nothin'.â
âWhatever you say,â you told him with a small smirk. It soon turned into a more genuine smile, however, when you glanced down at the daisy in your hand. âI needed that. Just... thank you.â
A moment of silence passed before Daryl spoke up with his usual nonchalant demeanour. âYeah, yeah. No need to get all mushy 'bout it. Jus' can't have ya mopin' 'round camp and bringin' the mood down.â
You chuckled and shook your head. âThere's the Daryl I know.â
And for some reason, as you looked up at him, you realized that you wouldn't want Daryl any other way.
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putting the tl;dr at the top as a poll and the commentary under the cut because itâs quite rambly and itâs also late and iâm tired.
*whether dorian is one of these is up for debate
thereâs some discussion of bellâs hells not having the âitâ factor for a lot of people. even though itâs my first campaign and the only one iâve mostly watched live, i kind of have to agree.
thereâs a distinctive lack of investment in backstory for the group in terms of what theyâve spent time on in campaign. i think fearne is the only one whoâs been done justice, even though weâve seen other exploration, because theyâve been to her home multiple times, and while her backstory isnât central to the main plot, it is close. itâs enough distance for her to be able to develop as a character but also for us to see where she came from.
imogenâs is tied directly to the main moon plot, so sheâs had screen time aplenty, but less time to develop quietly, as laura does really well. i might argue for orym, but thatâs because his is kept simple but with depth. his backstory comes through in the acting because heâs put up against his family members occasionally, but heâs a little guy at root.
for everyone else itâs been short detours. sometimes not even that. the spotlight oscillates between moon plot and god arguments with indecisive wandering in between.
while not everyone in vox machina inherently had a deep personal connection to the big bads of their campaigns, they didnât need to. they did it for their friends, because they loved and trusted one another deeply. they made decisions about what they were facing and stuck to it, even when it meant sacrifice. they made multiple levels of friendship around and across the table.
at this point bellâs hells has been told a bunch of different things to do. and honestly i donât know if they ever decided on one.
thatâs not the point of this though.
thereâs some archetypes or dnd players out there: roleplayers and power gamers. people who are all in it for the story and people who are all in it for the game. and it reflects in the characters they build.
somehow bellâs hells (collectively) is neither.
they donât have strong investment in the plot collectively. the character concepts range from simple to deeply complex, and i have to say that i think the simpler has worked better for a plot-heavy campaign, because the characters that started simpler had a chance to develop over the campaign rather than competing for time between the plot and their own stories hanging over their heads.
take dorian. he was a humble bard, a former noble, whoâs trying to make his way in the world. he refused great power from an evil source and paid the price in the loss of his brother. he fell in love as the world ended, and is still trying to sing the songs of the people he loves because he wants to bring people joy and bring them together. heâs invested in stopping predathos because of his friends, but also to avenge loss, and to protect the people of his homeland and take up his responsibility as heir to the silken squall.
it took a paragraph. but at the table, even when he was with the crown keepers for a few months, he fits right in. heâs had growth while keeping true to his core.
iâm not going to get into the rest now but thereâs a definite element of throwing shit at a wall and seeing what sticks.
anyways, beyond the difficulties of backstory, theyâre not super optimized. iâm of the belief that optimization works in tandem with roleplayâthe characters are growing and changing over the course of the story, and having the mechanics trace that and make choices impactful is a big part of the appeal of the game.
watching vox machina and the mighty nein fight is a treat because not only are they level 20 and therefore godlike in power, their mechanics support interesting combat where failure hits hard because theyâre built to succeed. when someone fails a save or misses it means something. they have options in their wheelhouse but theyâve found their niches and know how to play to their strengths.
bellâs hells is playing high level combat right now, but they have middling stats: lots of dump stats, 10-14s in the middle and some attacks/spell saves that arenât as high as youâd expect of level 15 characters. they have several characters with perhaps too many options, and have made some weird strategic decisions. theyâre indecisive. in combination with fluctuating luck from the dice, thereâs times where they can wreck house, but also times of them failing saves, missing on full turns, losing resources, and overall failing more than they succeed.
also bellâs hells donât make big decisions in combat unless theyâre absolutely forced to. in the last arc pre-final battle, the big battles were otohan on ruidus, dominox and ludinus in aeor (+delilah), zathuda and the unseelie in the feywild. with otohan, they were dying all around until fcgâs sacrifice. literally end of the line. then in aeor, they fought to end dominox, got whammied with downfall, and then had the delilah fight, but then her sealing came later. they fought in the arch heartâs temple, but the big revelations came on the heels of that, between the arch heart themself and then zathuda being strung up on the loom.
but of a tangent: i donât think naddpod and critical role can be fairly compared, because theyâre different in tone and telling very different stories. i relistened to naddpod c1 recently along with the last few episodes of c3 as we approach the finale, and while they have gotten more creative on the character building side, the story is still well done and combat is fun to listen to. they have had moments of deep tragedy on naddpod. theyâve had cameos of old characters, and even had one of them as a pc for a full arc mid-campaign 3. theyâve explored the future of the world of bahumia after the events of c1.
and while the story is satisfying and fun, the combat is also satisfying and fun. not just because murph is really good at building combats that are interesting in theater of the mind, but because the characters are built to be good at what they do. and when they go down, when they miss, when they fail, it hits harder. but they bounce back and keep going even when the circumstances suck. and they make narratively important decisions during combat.
with bellâs hells, i have often noted a split between their combat and roleplay. i like mattâs combats. i think theyâre fun and make good use of a variety of enemies, terrain, and complicating factors. with vm and mn, it makes for really engaging episodes of combat, where they make use of the environment tactically and get to discover elements of how the field is set up as they go. iâm using the recent examples, which are not entirely inclusive but generally reflective of their combat trends.
vox machina fought their way off an airship, onto a chaotic battlefield, and then stealthed up to the malleus key, where they proceeded to defeat ozo cruth, break the bloody bridge, and get vax out of imprisonment. the mighty nein stealthed around kreviris, met with the volition, zip lined to and blew up the arx creonum, and then snuck through to meet the weave mind in combat. i can recall fun details and clutch moves, big risks including characters dying, and overall, battles that had character interaction.
as iâve talked about before, bellâs hells gets whomped. they swing for the fences on some things, but when it doesnât pay off itâs not just a missed opportunity, itâs often an active barrier or a loss of valuable resources that drive them closer to crisis.
imogenâs whirlwind, laudnaâs disintegrate, and dorianâs forcecage were all great moves this episode. it also means theyâre down some of their highest level spells before they actually face ludinus and/or predathos. granted they have the orb. but whether they can use it will be variable.
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percy jackson x aphrodite cabin counselor!reader summary: valentine's day at chb brings you and your best friend closer than ever wc: 1.4k
Today was your favorite day at Camp Half-Blood, Valentine's Day. Maybe it was cliché considering you were an Aphrodite kid, but there was just something about Valentine's Day that was addicting to you. Maybe it was the weeks leading up to it that you played matchmaker even more than you normally did as counselor of the Aphrodite cabin, or maybe it was the cute and overpriced chocolate that the Stoll brothers smuggled into camp for the annual Valentine's party.
However, one thing was for sure: it was not because you had a valentine or were in love. Well, you were in love but still had no valentine which came as a huge surprise to all of your siblings, but even more so your friends at camp.Â
Since you were 14 and made cabin counselor, you always had a date to your own Valentine's party. This year was different though, you'd realized your crush on your best friend at the Christmas party and knew then that you couldn't break another person's heart by taking them as your date to the Valentine's party and then dumping them the next day. After you completed the 'rite of passage' as an Aphrodite kid, you decided that you didn't have it in you to break anyone else's heart, so whoever you dated next had to be it for you.Â
Today you'd woken up nearly on cloud nine. You'd gone about your routine as normal and then got to work assigning tasks for your siblings to set up the party. While everyone at Camp Half-Blood was invited to the party, you still liked to make invites, because really, why have a party if you can't make cute pink invites for everyone?
Usually, parties like this for 'minor' holidays wouldn't be allowed at Camp Half-Blood, but Mr. D and Chiron, mostly Chiron, made an exception because of how much it meant to the Aphrodite cabin. Mr. D only let you host it because you somehow convinced the Olympians to let his wife come down to accompany him to the party.Â
Now, after assigning your siblings to their task, handing out invites, and making sure the party was ready, you were sitting at your vanity, redoing your makeup and hair, while your best friend, Percy, laid on your bed and juggled your stuffed animals, which you usually would have found weird or annoying, but now you couldn't help but notice just how beautiful he was. His black hair always sat messily atop his head, nearly never fully dry because he couldn't keep himself from jumping into the water whenever he felt like it. Before last year, you would've fixed his hair and chastised him for jumping into the lake because it made his hair all weird, but you just admired it now.Â
Not wanting to get caught staring, you turned back to your mirror, not noticing the way Percy stared at you with hearts in his eyes in the back.
"You look so cute," he said mindlessly, his brain immediately yelling at his mouth for always saying things he meant to keep to himself.
"What'd you say?" You ask, mad at yourself for not hearing him and hanging onto his every word.
Percy had never felt relief like that in his life.
"Nothing, I just said you look like a fruit," he said, mentally facepalming. "You look like a fruit," what the hell is my problem?
"That doesn't even make sense, but okay," you say, rolling your eyes.Â
"Sure it does, if your mind is as awesome as mine."
If your eyes could roll to the back of your head and stay there, yours might as well have already because of how many times you roll your eyes around this boy, but never out of real annoyance. How can someone who would typically be so annoying with his stupid jokes be so cute.
"No," you say to yourself. If I keep thinking like this, I'm just going to mess up our friendship.
Little did you know, the boy you were thinking about was thinking about you in the exact same way.
"Hey, when are you going to be done? The party is in like 10 minutes."
"Yes, Percy, I know, it's not like I'm hosting the party or anything," you say, feigning annoyance. "You can go on your own if I'm taking up too much of your 'precious time', y'know," you say, hoping but deep down knowing that he wouldn't go without you.
"Oh come on, you know damn well I would never go to a party without you, especially a party you're hosting, we're best friends," he says, immediately regretting the last words he said as soon as he heard himself say them.
Friends. That's all you are to him.
"Right, what am I thinking?" He hears you 'laugh', and if Percy Jackson knows anything about anything, he knows that is not a real laugh, but he doesn't know what to say to make it better.Â
"Well, I'm done now, I just need to put on my dress, just stay here," you state, sauntering off into the walk in closet. You choose your cutest red dress to pair with your darling white cowboy boots, but can't manage to tie the straps into bows yourself, so you decide to ask Percy for help.
"Hey, can you come in here? I need your help tying this!"
Percy blushes, but walks in nonetheless, and is immediately astonished at the amount of clothes in just your closet alone.
The sight of your bare shoulder and small manicured hands holding up your dress was enough for him to combust on the spot, but he held himself together.Â
The sight of the dark red tint on his cheeks brought a cheeky smile to your face, knowing that your plan was set in motion.
His fingers shakily grabbed the ribbons on the dress and tied a bow on each shoulder, but not without him accidentally touching your shoulders with the pads of his fingers.Â
His touch could've lit you on fire, even though he was a son of Poseidon, not Hephaestus. Even the tiniest touch was absolutely intoxicating.
You turned around and grabbed Percy's hand. If touching your shoulders was just the first step of becoming addicted to you, he was fully ready to do anything for you now.
It's not like you two never touched each other, but it was never quite like this. Not when you both had a sneaky feeling that the other felt the same way that you did.
Even when you got to the party, you stayed near each other. When you went up to the front of the party and went over your yearly Valentineâs spiel, he was at your side. When you went to get some of the definitely not spiked punch, he was at your side.Â
When the slow dance songs came on, he gently grabbed and moved your hand from his to his shoulder.
The way you looked into each other's eyes could in itself be a public display of affection. The pure love in your eyes for each other shut all of your admirers down without you even having to say anything. Your faces slowly got closer to each other, still staring into each other's eyes.
"Are we about to kiss right now?" he asked, mostly as a joke, but a small part of him still had hope.
What he didn't expect was for you to softly, with your honey-like voice, "I don't know about you, but I definitely hope so."
With your consent, he felt like his lifelong wish was coming true, and he immediately pushed his slightly chapped lips onto yours.Â
The feeling of finally getting to kiss each other was like the best thing in the world but 500x better. He tasted vaguely like a weird but good combination of saltwater and cookies.Â
The longer you kissed, the more passionate it got, and this was definitely pda now. His sharp teeth gently bit down on your bottom lip, causing your mouth to open, allowing his tongue in. You'd never felt something so perfect in your life.
When the two of you finally split, it felt like when you were a little kid and your parents took away your toys.
"Not sure about you, sugar, but that was singlehandedly the best kiss I've had in my life," he said with a smile.
a/n: book!percy my beloved also happy valentine's day to everyone reading this! <3
#pjo#pjo series#percy jackson x reader#pjo x reader#pjo x you#percy jackson fic#book percy jackson#percy jackson x you
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âDo you like girls?â
âI donât know.â
âDo you like boys?â
âI donât know. I think I like TV shows.â
I remember when I was in middle school all the other girls were talking about the guys they liked and I said I didnât like anyone. I just wanted to do my own thing.
I didnât really get why I would want to date anyone. I understood friendship, companionshipâ having someone to share my interests and mutually info dump to sounded coolâ but I struggled to understand the appeal of spending every day and every night with someone else. Of holding hands and going on dates.Â
This led to a lot of homophobic bullying and a few of them would act disgusted that I might be into them. Constantly acting like I was looking at their boobs and sexualizing them (I never made eye contact with anyone and would frequently look at the wall or space out while looking in their general direction). Or make a big show of not being interested and many other things.
I didnât get this either. I didnât know why I would be interested in any of them. They treated me poorly and I thought attraction was something people made up and simply just claimed to feel towards other people.
Just like I never understood celebrity crushes. You donât know the person so how could you possibly know you liked them? And I never understood how people âchoseâ who they dated. Did they just choose whoever they liked hanging out with the most?
But any time I voiced this it was always met with worse and worse reactions. It led to isolation among peers and my family. My parents made it pretty clear I wasnât who they wanted me to be. That I wasnât normal.
I soon learned to fake it. Pretend I understood it.
The idea of not being attracted to anyone seemed like a foreign idea to most people I met. Even when I branched out and moved away, I met a few people in the lgbt community who couldnât grasp it either and reacted poorly and it made me feel stupid. Like maybe I wasnât just screwed up to people who fit in the neat little box society wants you to fit in, but to everyone else as well.
Maybe I was wrong. If itâs an impossibility even in this community that champions diversity and acceptance then can that really be my reality?
I kept trying to force it. To date, but every time I did I always felt that same skin crawling discomfort and it always petered out. It didnât matter who it was or what gender. It always felt wrong. It was suffocating.
I donât think thereâs a movie that better portrays that all consuming, suffocating stagnation of feeling so out of placeâ knowing youâre out of place compared to those around youâ and in response forcing yourself to fit what other people expect of you than I Saw the TV Glow.
Whenever I think back to growing up or whenever I return home that same feeling this movie is centered around always drenches my experiences.
And even now itâs hard to put into words when I talk to other people what Iâve felt when it comes to this aspect of my life.
That comment from Owen about knowing thereâs nothing there when talking about romance and attraction, but being too afraid to look and knowing that his parents know something is wrong with him hit harder than any other scene from a movie Iâve watched this year.
Itâs that absence of something that is at the heart of asexuality that makes me always question what I choose to identify as when I have to explain it to someone. Because for the most part my explanation boils down to (in broad oversimplified terms): Iâve never felt attraction, Iâm more interested in watching a Spider-Man movie than Iâve ever been into even just the idea of dating, every time Iâve attempted to date itâs been uncomfortable and Iâve actively dodged anything beyond friendship while in the ârelationshipâ.
And when I try to voice that to another person it always feels like those experiences donât hold water. Thatâs describing the absence of something. Thereâs no real proof of the identity.
With being bi or gay or lesbian thereâs something you can I donât knowâpoint to?â that can help you know your identity.
And thatâs the fact that youâve experienced attraction towards one or more people of one or more genders.
Itâs defined not by the lack of something but the presence of an experience.
And so every time I try and explain it I end up feeling stupid. Like I just havenât tried hard enough to find someone compatible. That I need to get back into the proverbial saddle and try again. I always in some way feel ashamed and backtrack as a result.
This is in no way to say that itâs harder or easier to be one identity or the another. Everyoneâs experiences are different and everyone experiences are valid. This is just a struggle Iâve found thatâs unique to asexuality that many people Iâve talked to have also experienced.
I havenât felt that part of my experience be seen in media until I saw this movie. Maybe Iâm latching onto what I can get or maybe that was an intrinsic part of the movie. Thatâs not important. Whatâs important is that itâs something I felt seen in even if it was literally just one scene.
This is my really long winded and roundabout way of saying that I really think this movie is going to stick with me much longer than any other thing Iâve seen this year.
Things can be hard to put into words and as a result I tend to keep things inside. Iâm fairly certain Iâm ace but it might turn out Iâm on a different romantic spectrum then I thought or I fall somewhere different than I thought on the ace spectrum. I donât know what Iâll discover in the future.
Iâm likely not going to express my label out loud to anyone but a select few. I still canât express this particular label out loud to many people. My family is definitely never going to hear it. A friend or two might.
Itâs something I struggle with on a regular basis. Iâm fine with identifying with the label in my headâin a lot of ways it makes me feel comfortable and happyâ but any time I try to voice it the words die in my throat and I canât help but feel ashamed. Itâs easier to just tell people I donât want to date right now. That there are all these factors in the way (finances, time, jobs, etc) than it is to try and explain what Iâve just rambled about above.
I know many people have felt and understood that experience and I hope people know theyâre valid. You can express your identity with your full chest, shout it from the rooftops and let people know, or you can keep it to yourself, identifying as your label solely in your head. Both experiences are valid. And if your label changes at some point in your life that doesnât make what you chose to identify as at this point any less valid too. People are always learning and growing. You can gain a new understanding of yourself as time move forward.
Sorry for the way too long ramble. This movie made me feel things.
#i saw the tv glow#a24#aroace#asexuality#asexual#ace experience#this is my overly long#thoughts on my own experiences#and how labels can shift#and that your experiences#arenât more or less valid#if you choose to say it out loud#or identify as it solely in your head#lifeâs complicated
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The More, The Merrier.
Reo Mikage x Fem!Reader x Nagi Seishiro.
Request: so sorry but i forgot to add!! could u include double penetration w the reonagi 3some? thank u !!
Warnings: relationship; best friends, childhood friends. explicit sexual content; threesome, foreplay, dry humping, virgin!reader, virgin!reo, virgin!nagi, oral male receiving and female receiving, fingering, penetrative sex, double penetration, anal, overstimulation, degradation kink, praising kink, mean!reo, soft!nagi, double creampies, multiple orgasms, aftercare.
A/n: ngl this was really hot to write. lol. this request was from october of freaking last year lol i'm sorry but i hope i did some justice if you're even still following. send a coffee!
Masterpost - Masterlist.
You didn't know exactly how you were still friends with Reo, the guy changed and discarted friends like nothing, so to be by his side after a lifetime was surprising to everyone.
So surprising that some people thought you two were in a relationship for some time now.
You weren't, to clear the record.
But there was never a denial on whether you found him attractive enough to sleep with him, the opportunity was simply never given and you were for sure never going to ask just to calm your curiosity on his abilities in bed. It would have been slightly desperate on your part. Even if you dreamt about it in your early teens.
Then, he befriended Nagi, you did too as he brought him around. Another one that you couldnât help but find attractive, honestly, only blind people wouldnât. His height was enough to get you riled up, along with the general different in size between the two of you. He was a stud.
Growing and maturing, they both just got better, but it got worse for you as the two untouchable people in your life continued to appear in your horniest of dreams.
Nonetheless, you found yourself cheering for the two of them during every match, you could be in, congratulating them both if they won, consoling them, cooking if they lost, spending your breaks from uni the three of you together, making trips during the holidays...
You three were inseparable, the three best friends.
The three that many believed were fucking between each other.
Reaching Reoâs family house like every other Saturday afternoon with the difference of it not being his apartment, you met his father at the door, he smiled at you warmly, informing you that Nagi was here too with Reo playing videogames, while hewas going to go to an emergency meeting right then. He patted your head as he left the house.
There was a tingling in your stomach for some reason as you made your way up, brushing that to the side you finally entered the room finding Nagi sat with his back to the bed on the ground, while Reo was crossed leg on the bed a bit hunched over.
Your body and his mattress were one and only in a second, laying down beside him, your head close to Nagi's head and Reo's leg.
You felt the slight tension in the room, the awkward air that was hanging heavy at your appearence.
"Hi, are we going to stay like this for long?" You asked as minutes passed where they stood still as statues with their fingers being their only indication of life.
Their eyes met one another briefly, your eyebrow started to arch in confusion. The game became silent seconds later, Nagi was scratching the back of his head as Reo put things back into place all without saying a word and never looking at you.
"What is wrong with you two today?" You asked calmly and honestly a bit scared, were they going to dump you? Or well, stop your friendship?
Reo cleared his throat loudly, leaning against his desk directly in front of you, arms crossed and body stiff trying to relax for whatever he was going to say next. "Well... we were kind of, we talked about something before that left us wondering a bit, you just came in at the⊠wrong time, I guess."
"Good, what is that?" They kept looking at each other as if choosing who'd say it, patience was running thin now. "Guys."
"Having a threesome." Nagi said as unbothered as ever. Your eyes widened but other than that you kept your compsure, without noticing arching your back. Looking back and forth once again between the two.
"You guys... had a threesome?" You asked baffled. For some reason you felt a bit hurt at the admission. Despite being 18, you were up till then still virgin-
"No! No! We- we just talked about it, like a possibility in the future to experience and then you walked in and things got awkward, since you know- ugh." Reo explained quickly with a hand rubbing his face out of the slight embarrassment he was currently feeling. You felt relief, at least some groupie had not taken them,.. from you.
It felt wrong to think of them as yours but for years they were just that, yours. The only girl they let close to them, the only girl they hugged and complimented.
A chill ran down your whole body, a feeling you knew too well was pooling in your core, you realized that two of the most attractive guys you knew, were standing right there, with a open possibility of having them at the same time without it being awkward in your small friend group.
You stood up, thinking over your next actions carefully as they just looked you pacing around the room and just like you feeling a certain heat in them. Looking at one another, Reo with a tiny smirk.
With your silence he was getting angrier though rather than frustrated, the previous embarrassment completely left in favor of supressing the need to bonk you on the head and stop walking around.
"You're making me dizzy." Nagi said out loud, basically reading his mind. Stopping you in your spot.
"Would you though?" You directly looked at them, more at Reo. He shrugged his shoulders, eyes never leaving you while Nagi gave more of a lazy nod.
Your mind went blank for a second, and when you felt conscious of your own moves, your eyes were half lidded looking directly into Reo's, while the smacking of your lips echoed in the room as they moved so hungrily against the other.
Nagi's figure was behind you, his lips attached to your neck with his hands under your shirt. Your chest pressed against Reo's, your hands on his abs while your ass pressed strongly against Nagi's crotch.
Reo's fingers played with the button of your pants, watching your face flush pink and red in the sloppy kiss, a corner of his lips went up. You seemed so fucked out already and that had him amused, it was arousing to see the composed little girl a puddle in his arms, with his best friend's hands groping all around you.
This was the time he could finally act on his attraction, as much as Nagi could and even you could, without making it worse for all, for this moment at least.
His hand hid behind the zipper of your pants, fingers finding the slick in your freshly shaved skin and he wondered with a grin how many times you walked in so prepared for this moment. Oh fuck, that thought was getting him harder.
Your thighs clenched together at his finger messing with your sensitive clit already. You knew you were mess, but that would make it far more interesting. Your reaction to his fingering had a clear effect on Nagi as well as your rear pushed towards his crotch even more, the bulge a complete hard on, his groans against your skin told it all.
Reo used his free hand to pull away from your kiss, lips swollen and red, soft gasps as you caught your breath but he guided you towards Nagi, your lips connected with his, his hands squeezing your breasts even more, he watched in satisfaction how needy you were as your hand struggle with his pants, trembling and getting frustrated over them.
Your tongue danced with Nagiâs, your body responding to the difference in size as he hunched over to properly kiss you. His hands were burning on your skin, they were far bigger than anything on your body, almost feeling inadequate. You probably were nothing compared to the girls that threw themselves at them, but you couldnât let yourself down now. If this was your only chance, you had to properly use it.
âNagi, ReoâŠâ you moaned their names as Nagiâs started to kiss your neck again. âFuck.â
Nagi slipped your top off in that moment, letting you gasp at the cold air and the sudden wet feeling of Reoâs mouth on your chest. Your face flushed seeing him taking your nipples in his mouth, your hand going around his neck gently, squeezing him whenever either of them gave you stimulation.
Nagiâs long fingers did their job as the palm of his hand pressed against your clit while the tip of two fingers went in and out of your tight hole.
All of your inexperience surfaced at how hungrily you were all dry humping on each other to feel more. Your hips were rubbing against Nagiâs roughly, you could even feel the heat of your clothes at the continuous friction while your hand remained on Reoâs buckling hips. âShit.â He said over and over. Grabbing your wrist roughly edging himself and just bringing you to his bed, throwing you over it, landing on your stomach, with your hips wiggling on their own.
âFuckâŠâ you moaned, gasping for air.
You felt the bed dip near your head, looking at Nagi he leaned down to claim your lips as Reo started to take off your pants and panties. Leaving you completely bare, exposed to these hungry men.
The white haired boy led your hand to his crotch, starting to palm it through his pants and slowly taking him out. His cock was bright pink at the tip, oozing a bit of precum, only the sight made your insides melt and you knew they knew, after all Reo who was then fingering you, made the sound of your wet pussy echo in the room. The squelch would have felt embarrassing if it wasnât for how taken you were with the pretty cock in front of you and your flushed best friend eagerly waiting for you to take him in your mouth.
You moaned at the gentle hand on your face as he guided your hand down the length of his cock. Flinching when you felt the tip of Reoâs tongue starting to explore your cunt. Your legs had closed off or tried as he kept them apart forcefully, with your hand on his hand, gripping on it. âStop moving around, Y/N. I need to have a taste.â You gave up, listening his voice, raspy, intimidating and a hidden hint of desperation.
They did not stop themselves, you couldnât even see how Reo was stroking himself at the heightened and intensified pleasure you were receiving.
The amount of time passed reading erotic books and watching porn felt worth while as you practiced what you had visualized. Your tongue swirled around his shaft, moaning around it as much as massaging all around, from the base to his balls to leaving nail marks on his inner thighs and lower abdomen. âOh, thatâs my girl. So good.â Nagi whispered as his hips bucked into your mouth, gagging as he reached the back of your throat.
Your moans grew louder as you felt your climax reach in Reoâs face. Trying to push him off before without success, your thighs clenched around his head as you gave into it. Spasming as he continued to press his tongue on your clit while Nagi continued to fuck your mouth as he kept you in place.
âCome on, baby, a little more.â He whispered to you, as the other side of the bed dipped signaling Reoâs presence. Stroking himself off on top of you as Nagiâs finally cummed into your mouth, drinking down all of his seed after showing it off to him and then caring for Reoâs climax, taking him in your mouth for him to finish.
Youâve probably dreamt of this scenario secretly, as you sat up, the two took turns to claim your lips, grunting at the taste of their cum mix together still present faintly on your lips. Your hands returning to each of their cocks, starting to harden once again.
It was a heated make out session that ended with you on top of Reo, Nagi standing by the bed looking at you two as his cock finally entered you with a bit of struggle.
You were no longer a virgin and so wasnât Reo anymore. It all happened while your other best friend was intently watching the two of you. You both moaned as he started to move, it was completely different from the feeling of their fingers, you felt filled, truly. You tried to move your hips to match his, your thighs burning while your brain couldnât function either.
His feet planted on the bed and pushed into you with even more force, feeling him hit spots youâve never reached by yourself. Your nails dug into his chest. A smirk plastered on his face. âYou can take it, love, donât disappoint me.â He whispered as his hand wrapped around your throat, moaning at the gesture as he pushed back into you making you almost scream. You looked around for your gentle giant, wanting his lips on yours, to share this moment with you too.
Your half-lidded could only make out his figure going around the bed with something in his hand. Losing sight of him as your eyes shut close at a deep thrust from Reo.
Only when you felt liquid dripping onto you, you understood, with Reoâs hands going to your ass spreading it apart for him as he kept going into you. You whimpered as you felt his finger spreading the lube and entering your hole. âNa-Nagi⊠I donât-t think I can-â You managed to say.
âShh⊠dont worry, baby, look at you taking Reo so well for your first time. This will be the same.â He traced a line down your spine, making you shiver, your legs tremble as you then watched him spread lube on his own cock.
Reo stopped his movements, edging himself once again as he waited for Nagi as well teasing you all along for your reaction to it. âThank god that itâs Nagi taking your ass, I wouldnât be so caring.â And while the semi- warning sent goosebumps on your skin, making you gasp against his lips, you felt yourself clench around him, after all, this whole encounter was of you being used by them. He grinned at the feeling of the walls tightening around him, hissing. âFuck, youâre a slut⊠our little slut.â He said, kissing you, relaxing you as Nagi made his way into you.
He groaned as the mere tip passed the ring of muscles, you felt burning, whimpering against Reoâs lips, pulling away from them to moan and grab one of Nagiâs hands in your own. He pushed more and more till he was getting his way into you, grunting loudly. âSo fucking tight, shit, princess, itâs so tight.â Your heart flattered at the pet name. Pecking your shoulder, giving you time to adjust before both of them started again.
You were a moaning mess, tears coming down your eyes at the weird feeling in you, between pain and pleasure, over fulfillment and the knot that you felt in your stomach. All your limbs were intertwined, your hips going against their thrusts automatically. You could only imagine if someone walked in on you right now, being rammed by the two guys you always had the hots for secretly.
âOh god-â You choked on your words. âIt feels so good.â You managed.
âYouâre taking it so well, princess. So gorgeous.â
âPerfect slut for us, ours alone.â
They emanated opposite sides of each other. Reo was not so respectful anymore, was not treating you gently, he was degrading you. Nagi who was often crude and more inclined to inappropriate jokes was so caring and praised so much. Both were fulfilling your desires, rough and gentle.
âI- I- Iâm going to- ah!â You screamed as you felt your orgasm going through. You could hear them groan as your insides clenched and trapped them, almost milking them out. When you relaxed a little they kept going, going for their own release.
Planting his feet again, holding onto your thighs, Reo thrusted mercilessly as much as Nagi did as he grabbed your shoulders from behind and guided your whole body against his.
Your body didnât feel like yours for a moment, completely bent at their wills and needs. And you could only welcomed it, your body reacting to your oversensitivity from the previous orgasm as they both finally released deep in you and you did too. Trembling in their hands. As the three of you panted for oxygen, their hips still spasming as their ropes of cum continued to fill you.
âSo good, you were so good, baby.â Nagi whispered into your ear as he leaned down and finally stood up.
âTook it so well for your first time.â Reo chuckled, kissing the crown of your head, his arm going over your waist, hugging you to him. His personality completely changing post orgasm. He had to be cocky, as if this wasn't his first as well.
Nagi came back with his phone in hand, Reo grinning as he slowly raised you up to let his cock out as he recorded your rear and cunt as they started to push out their cum. âThatâs a sight to remember.â Nagi said under his breath.
âSend it to me, thatâs material to jerk off in away games.â Reo said, patting your lower back. You blushed, nuzzling into his chest. âDoneâ Nagi said and not even seconds later his phone rang out loud.
âYou shouldnât do that without asking me first.â You complained, tracing the lines of Reoâs muscles. Nagi, then, leaned near you, trapping your lips in a kiss. âCan we keep it?â He asked pecking your lips once more and caressing your cheek ever so gently.
âFine.â You nodded and chuckled at the silly grins they got.
He resumed the kiss and soon after you were being carried in the bathroom, Nagiâs cock thrusting into your swollen pussy from behind as Reo had your hair in a tight fist bouncing it up and down his length as the hot water rained upon the three of you.
Nothing was truly established that night, you were just being fucked throughly, used as nothing more than a cumdump for them, sometimes they both did, sometimes just one and the other watched.
Before you completely passed out, the only thing you heard is how now you knew how they wanted to be greeted by you, how this was going to be their celebration or consolation routine, their stress relieving cycle.
How you were theirs.
You honestly werenât sure if this was just another of your wet dreams, but when you woke up the day after still in Reoâs bed with his t-shirt on, no panties, with your head on Nagiâs bare chest and Reoâs hand gripping your boob from below, you realized that nothing was going to be the same and fortunately for you, in a positive way.
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< Little Birdies >
Detective Yoongi x Female Detective Reader, Friends to Lovers
Warnings: Some suggestive bits, mentions of violence, guns, injuries
I hope you like it and thanks for the request!
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âYour friend seemed nice.â, you mumbled after another sip of your coffee. The thought of the strange woman carrying her bra and underwear in her hands while she tiptoed out of the apartment you shared with Yoongi making your stomach turn just a little.
The shutter of the camera made a loud clicking sound. After making sure he got the shot Yoongi turned and smirked at you, âYou want her number? You seem more interested in her than I am.â
âNo thanks. Not my type.â, you scoffed.
âMmhmâŠyeah I forgotâŠyou like assholes named Hoseok that somehow forget to text you for days at a time and spell your name wrong in birthday cards that they give you three weeks too late.â
âYeah well at least I donât have a revolving door of different women because Iâm a manwhore that canât go more than three days without getting my dick wet.â
âOuchâŠâ, he said clutching his chest in fake hurt but still with a smile getting you to giggle along with him.
âSeriously though Y/N, you should dump him. You deserve better.â
âLike you?â, you playfully responded.
âUmm yeah, Iâm a great catch.â, he proudly exclaimed before grabbing a few more photos.
You snorted in response, but deep down you knew he was right. He was kind, thoughtful, funny, brave, and on top of that he was incredibly handsome. Youâd had a crush on him since his family moved in next door to you when you were both six years old. The two of you became pretty much inseparable while growing up even joining the police force together and getting an apartment to live in. You werenât entirely sure of his feelings towards you and you were just too scared to make any move that could possibly ruin your relationship. So you kept them a secret all these years.
Yoongi took a few more pictures as a group of men walked out of the restaurant you had been scoping out for the last few hours before placing the camera on the back seat. âI think we got enough for now. Letâs get back to the office and search for any updates.â, he said putting the car in drive.
The thing was that you had no idea how much Yoongi liked you, he knew that he even loved you. It killed him watching you date guys who treated you poorly or didnât care about you like he did. Even when you dated Taehyung who was actually very nice and caring and never did or said anything to make it seem like he didnât love you, it still didnât sit right with him. Yoongi always knew he could love you better, he could love you more.
He hated that he couldnât bring himself to stay in a relationship longer than a few months because he always ended up feeling like he couldnât fully commit to them since you were always on his mind. He hated sneaking in random women that he met in bars or through friends just to spend the night pretending that it was you moaning his name in his ear as he thrusted in and out of them. He hated that he could stare down the barrel of a gun like it was nothing, but he didnât have the courage to really tell you how he felt about you. He dropped hints. He thought he was being very obvious at times. Everyone else could see it, but for some reason you never did. A part of him wondered if you did catch on, but didnât feel the same way and you just didnât want to embarrass him or ruin the friendship you guys had. The thought of that made his chest ache.
âGood morning Y/N, where is your other half?â, Jimin smirked while Jungkook giggled next to him. You wanted to say something harsh in return but you reminded yourself that they were good kids and just liked to push your buttons a little. They were rookies and were assigned to work in the same office as you and Yoongi. They were in charge of paperwork and smaller tasks, but mostly they just gave you and Yoongi a hard time.
The thing was you actually didnât know where he was. He had a date last night, like an actual date and not just a one night stand. You fell asleep on the couch waiting for him to get home and when you got up for work he wasnât there. The date mustâve gone really well was your first thought. Your second thought was that it must have gone so well that he didnât even come home last night because he never lets you sleep on the couch. Something about it being bad for your posture so he always carried you to bed. It seemed like someone else had kept his attention.
Before you could answer the two men he came walking into the small office. âI was buying you guys some breakfast, but I guess Iâll just have to eat it myself.â, he said while purposely letting the large bag of food smack Jimin in the back of the head as he walked by.
âCaramel Latte.â, he smiled handing you a to-go cup.
âThanks⊠did you forgot the ââ
âBlueberry bagel extra toasted with extra cinnamon cream cheese.â, he smirked handing you the still warm bagel.
âThanks Yoongles.â, you smiled already digging in.
From the side Jungkook mocked in a high pitched voice, âYeah thanks Yoongles.â Jimin joined in, âYeah maybe for lunch Yoongles can give Y/N some of his own diââ, he couldnât finish because Yoongi had taken a half of a bagel and shoved it into Jiminâs mouth to shut him up earning a laugh from everyone in the small office.
Once everyone ate and and got their briefings and you and Yoongi were in your car off to scope out a new location that was suspected of being a mafia hangout, you finally took a moment to ask the question that had been bothering you since the night before.
âSo uh your date went well Iâm guessingâŠyou know since you never came home last night.â, you slightly cringed at how petty and desperate you sounded. You werenât his mother so you had no say in when or if he even came home at all.
âIt was alright.â, he mumbled.
âMmm do you think youâll see her again?â
He shrugged, âI donât know. Maybe. Unless someone else want to go on a date with me instead.â
You smiled, but didnât say anything else. Instead you turned to look out the window pretending you were taking notes. You missed the way Yoongi looked you up and down.
The truth was he didnât really have any plans to ever see that woman again. As horrible as it sounds he thought that she could maybe be a distraction for a while, a way to get his brain to stop thinking about you every minute of every day. But for the entire evening all he could think about was the look of sorrow in your eyes when he told you about the date. And right before he was about to leave you dropped the bomb on him that Hoseok had broken up with you that same morning. He felt awful. He offered to cancel the date, but you begged him not to. He was miserable and decided to end it early. He stopped at the convient store and grabbed all of your favorite snacks and a cute little stuffed poodle to add to your collection of stuffed animals heâd gotten you over the years. But when he got home you were already sound asleep on the couch. Normally he would carry you to bed not wanting you to wake up sore, but you looked exhausted and his shoulder had been acting up worrying him that heâd end up dropping you if he tried. So he grabbed another blanket and tucked you in instead before placing a soft kiss to the top of your head and getting in bed himself so that he could get up bright and early and surprise everyone with breakfast in the morning.
You hated working nights. You were so glad when your rookie years were over and you could have first dibs on the more desirable shifts. But they were super backed up on paperwork and you needed a distraction. Yoongi was on another date. He wouldnât confirm or deny if the date was with the same woman so you chose to assume it was a second date and in Yoongi world being lucky enough to get a second date with him is basically like a marriage proposal so you were feeling a little heavy hearted.
âYou two should just tell each other how you feel.â, Jimin spoke from the cubicle across from yours after noticing you staring into space. âYeah it used to be fun to tease you guys, but now itâs just sad.â, Jungkook added after popping a handful of chips into his mouth.
âWhat are you guys talking about?â
âOh come on Y/NâŠitâs clear that you two like each other. Childhood best friends that have always had a thing for each other, but were always too afraid to say anything in fear of ruining the friendship so they yearn after each other in secret while trying to force love elsewhere.â, Jimin snorted, âItâs a tale as old as time.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about. Heâs my best friend and thereâs no way heâd like me any ways.â, you spat feeling a little irritated.
âYeahâŠbut do you give all of your friends big puppy dog eyes every time they walk in the room?â, Jungkook questioned which pleased Jimin judging by the smirk on his face.
Rolling your eyes you continued to type away on your computer without giving them a verbal response.
âAnd Yoongi has it down bad for you.â, Jimin said making you stop your actions.
They snickered back and forth knowing they got you.
Jimin continued, âSeriously Y/N, he buys you food all the time.â
âSo? He buys the whole office food.â
âYeah, but we get the stuff that was 50% off because it was about to expire while you get the premium fancy coffees and the hot fresh sandwiches.â
âSo what? Iâve known him since we were kids.â, you shrugged, âIâd do the same for him.â
âYeah well what about these?â, Jungkook said pointing at a bunch of pencils that were snapped in half on Yoongiâs desk.
âTheyâre just pencilsâŠI donât really understand?â
Jungkook laughed, âYeah theyâre all just poor innocent pencils that Yoongi has snapped with his hands because he was squeezing them so tightly in anger every time you get all flirty with the ballistics guysâŠuh whatâs his name? Namjoon, yeah that guy.â
âI do not flirt with him. Heâs just nice and has cute dimples.â
Jimin snorted, âDonât let Yoongi hear you say that. I donât think we have any room in the budget for more pencils.â
âOkay and like he actually took a bullet for you. Iâm not sure I would even sprain my ankle for this guy.â, Jimin sighed pointing over at Jungkook earning quite the glare.
He did have a point with that one. You were both new at the time. You were closing in on a well known and dangerous drug dealer. A shot was fired and you froze. If Yoongi hadnât acted quickly and stepped in front of you it wouldâve hit you right in the forehead. Instead he took the bullet in his left shoulder barely missing a major artery. Itâs been nearly seven years and he still hasnât 100% recovered, still having pain from time to time. Youâve always felt awful about it but that was him just doing his job and protecting his friend, nothing more.
You shook your head, âThat doesnât prove anything. That was just him doing what he was sworn in to do.â
âYeah well he also turned down that promotion because of you.â The sound Jiminâs hand made when it connected to the back of Jungkookâs head wouldâve made you laugh at any other time, but instead his words kept repeating in your head, âWhat promotion?â
Jimin put his hands up in defense and looked at Jungkook., âThis one is on you. Yoongi made us promise not to tell her and I do not want to receive the wrath of a man who can easily snap a pencil with one hand.â
Jungkook swallowed before nodding, âWell a few months ago Yoongi was offered a promotion to captain. But he uhâŠhe turned it down because he didnât want you out in the streets without him. He said no one could or would protect you like would so he declined it.â
âW-wait, he actually turned down a promotion like that because of me?â Both of the guys nodded but remained silent.
âIâm sorryâŠI umâŠI have to go.â, you mumbled grabbing all of your things. You felt sick and you needed to talk to Yoongi and make him go beg for that promotion.
You stood in front of your door for a minute praying that you werenât going to walk in on anything you didnât want to see so you took a deep breath and pushed open the door. Thankfully the apartment was empty. You were going to take a quick shower and then decide on your next move. But as you were taking off your shoes the door opened and Yoongi came walking in.
âW-What are you doing here?â, you asked shocked to see him home so early and also (thankfully) alone.
âWell last time I checked I lived here? Wow you must have a fever setting in.â, he chuckled.
âF-fever?â
He grabbed your hand and took you to the kitchen where he started unboxing the soup he had picked up for you, âYeah Jimin texted me and said you left in a hurry because you werenât feeling well so I got you some soup and some tea and some medicine and this cute cupcake because cake makes everything better.â, he smiled.
âDid you leave your date for this?â, you questioned feeling a little sicker by the minute.
âUh yeah, but itâs no big deal.â, he said handing you a bowl of the soup and encouraging you to eat it.
It all started repeating over and over in your mind. The missed dates, the promotion, the bullet. You wondered how much else heâd given up for you.
âNo Yoongi, you have to stop doing this.â, you said taking a step back.
âDoing what?â, he laughed, âTaking care of you?â
âYes Yoongi! You canât keep skipping out on dates and taking bullets and rejecting promotions. You need to startâŠyou need to start doing what makes you happy. You need to stop focusing on me so much.â
He stood still and licked his lips. His hands were tightly gripping the counter.
âPeppermint or chamomile?â, he asked.
âWhat?!â
âDo you want peppermint tea or chamomile tea? I got both just in case.â, he asked again already reaching for a mug.
âYoongi I donât want any tea! Are you listening? You canât keep giving up things because of me. I just want you to be happy. I want you to achieve your goals. I want you to find the woman of your dreams and spend the rest of your life together in love and stop worrying about me all the time.â
Yoongi was normally a very stoic slow moving man so when he moved so quickly that he had you caged in against the counter within seconds it somewhat startled you.
He stared deeply into your eyes, something he rarely did, âY/N did you ever stop to think that maybe THIS is what makes me happy. That maybe I enjoy taking care of you. That maybe my dream is to have you close to me forever. That maybe I found the love of my life when her and her parents came over to introduce themselves to the new neighbors and she came walking up to me with cute pigtails and a gorgeous smile to give me one of her moms famous brownies. Did you ever think that maybe the day I took that bullet I didnât just do it because it was my jobâŠthat I did it because I would rather die myself than have to spend the rest of my life without you. And the promotion? Sure it wouldâve been nice. The money couldâve helped. But the risk wasnât worth it to me. Youâre all I need to be happy. Iâm done trying to pretend that youâre just a friend to me. Iâm done going on dates with other women pretending that theyâre you. I love you Y/N and as long as I have you then thatâs all I need in this life.â
You hadnât even realized you were crying until he reached up to wipe away at the tears that had settled on your cheeks. Those were the words youâd wanted to say for so long but weâre too afraid that they wouldnât be reciprocated.
âI-I love you too Yoongi.â, you whispered before burying your face in his chest and feeling his arms tightly wrap around you to pull you even closer.
You had already felt a million times better, but Yoongi did what he did best and made sure you ate all of the soup and drank the tea. Then you guys decided to dig into the cupcake which you happily shared with him.
âSoooo how did you find out about the promotion?â, he asked before feeding you another bite of cake.
âOhhh a uh some little birdies told me.â, you mumbled trying not to make eye contact with him.
He nodded, âMmmhm I see. And do these little birdies have impeccable hair and irresistible smiles?â
âWell⊠you knowâŠI donât think the hair of these birdies really mattersâŠand I really donât think birds can even smile.â, you said trying to distract him, âAnd you should be nice to these little birdies because theyâre the ones that helped get us together.â
He leaned in and gave you a long awaited kiss, âJimin and Jungkook are still going to be on car washing duty for the next three months.â, he laughed before going in for another kiss, âWhich is better than the crime scene cleanup that I originally had planned.â
âBut I do have the nicest smile right?â, he asked when you guys were finally done laughing.
You sat in silence deciding to tease him a little bit.
âRiiiggghhhtttt?â, he questioned again with a raise of his eyebrow.
âWeeeelllll Namjo-â
Before you could finish the statement he stuffed the rest of the cupcake in your mouth to stop you and then breaking out into a big gummy smile that always had been and always will be the best to you.
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we should talk more about mikes choice of words in the rink o mania fight, or rather the writers choice of words
"You basically sabotaged the whole day!!"
sabotage
in case you need a reminder of what sabotage means
deliberately destroy, damage, or obstruct
mike is not just saying will was being a douche for moping, rolling his eyes, and barely talking. he's saying wills a douche because he's doing it on purpose. not even just on purpose either, he's saying will planned this. will wanted to ruin the day. mike thinks will was out to get him by withholding his friendship. obviously will wasn't doing any of this, he just moped because he felt brushed off by mike and was ignored (or so he thought).
that kind of behavior, thinking the consequences of his own actions are a planned attack against him, is very consistent with the way he acted in s3 when el dumped him and he blamed it on max.
we can connect this directly to mike's apology where he calls himself a self-pitying idiot. the self-pity is mike allowing himself to believe it's not his fault that his day sucked, that it's not his fault will is acting this way. deep down he knows it's his own fault by purposefully brushing will off at the airport, but he was being so self-absorbed and self-pitying that he convinced himself it wasn't.
"why is this on me?? why am i the bad guy??"
so lets go through this again, inferring from mike's own words.
when will left hawkins, he felt weird. he'd just spent the whole summer trying to be grown up and acting like he didn't care about dnd anymore, shutting will down and really hurting him in the process, so he probably feels embarrassed that he now feels the exact opposite. he enjoyed spending time with max, lucas, and dustin but it just wasn't the same without will. he missed will so badly that the fact that will was barely reaching out got to his head, and he felt too insecure to find out for himself. he didn't know if will felt the same way or if he was doing fine without mike, making lots of new friends and enjoying life. he was afraid he'd lost will. then here comes el with her letters saying how life is awesome and they have lots of friends. mike probably thought, oh now i'm DEFINITELY not telling him how i feel. the letter about will potentially liking a girl was the final straw. wow. so he's occupied with some girl and thats why he won't talk to me. so now mikes determined to not give will an inkling of an idea that he's bothered or that he cares. psh, mike could care less. maybe when will sees that mike totally doesn't care he'll feel like he screwed up and he'll be super nice to compensate and win mike back.
so mike gets to lenora and hey, will, i totally don't care about seeing you, see how i dodged your hug? i don't care. then he sees the painting. maybe it's not for someone he likes, maybe it's for me. here you go will, opportunity one to win back my affection.
"Uh, what's that?"
"Um, it's nothing, it's just this painting I've been working on."
"Cool."
operation-act like i don't care: EEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR FAILED.
LOOK at his face bro. he looks heartbroken.
from here on mike just got more and more annoyed. will isn't trying to win him back, he isn't compensating for the months of silence. he's acting sad. he's acting sad? he has the audacity to act sad after he made all these friends and left me behind?? no, this is not my fault, this is not on me. it gets under his skin in a way he can't ignore. those feelings of guilt and annoyance that will is causing mixed with his months worth of self pity and convincing himself he's not the problem leads him to another thought. he's doing this on purpose. he's punishing me. this was his plan all along. he's trying to ruin my day for no reason, because i clearly didn't do anything to deserve this.
then angela shows up and humiliates el and mike, for some insane reason, uses this as an excuse to express his anger to will, even though it had literally nothing to do with will.
"You should've told me she was having trouble."
"Well, I didn't know they were gonna be here, Mike."
"Yeah, but you knew she was having trouble for like a year and didn't tell me."
in WHAT world is this will's fault?? he had absolutely no idea el was lying until that day. and mike is blaming him? no, he's really not, he just wants a reason to express his anger without having to admit why he's angry.
"Well, I didn't know she was lying to you."
"Is that why you decided to be a douche to her all day?"
her. he's hiding behind el's name. psh, what? i don't care that you weren't talking to me, it's because of el.
el just got publicly humiliated and mike thinks now is the time to get on will and act like el's biggest problem was will not talking to her?? no way. he just doesn't want will to know that these are his feelings.
"I wasn't being a douche!"
this completely sets mike off. how dare will act all innocent after what he did to me all day? any part of him that was trying to hide that will's behavior is bothering him has been completely overridden. will purposefully withholding his attention from mike has pissed him off soooooo badly that he can't keep it to himself anymore or hide behind el.
"You were! You were! You were rolling your eyes, you were moping, you were barely talking you basically sabotaged the whole day!"
yup, thats right will. i know exactly what you're doing and i'm calling you out on it.
"Well she was lying to you, Mike! Straight to your face ever since you got here! And...and I've been a total third wheel all day it's been miserable. So sorry if I wasn't...if i wasn't smiling."
third wheel? really?
"Yeah, whatever man."
"Well what about us?"
"What?"
i imagine this is where mike shits himself. i mean he literally stops in his tracks. will is directly addressing what he'd been trying to hide his care for the whole time, them. all of a sudden after all these months, he cares about us? and it's poking at that weird feeling he had, like he missed will too much. like he was feeling too much.
"What, you're mad that I didn't talk to you? Seems like you've made it super clear you're not interested in anything I have to say."
"That's just not true."
mike says that so fast it's like a knee-jerk reaction. of course he cares what will has to say. all he's wanted all day, and all this time for that matter, was for will to talk to him. and will is blaming him?
"You called maybe a couple times. It's been a year, Mike. Meanwhile El has like a book of letters from you."
now mike's defense is kicking in. he feels like will is directly picking at that feeling. the weirdness. the fact that he feels differently for will than the rest of his friends, even his girlfriend.
"That's because she's my girlfriend, Will!"
"And us?"
now the alarms are going off. he knows something. "us" for will in this moment is just their friendship. "us" for mike is something more, because that's what's been brewing in him the whole time they've been apart. internalized homophobia in 3..2..
"We're friends! We're. Friends."
"Well, we used to be best friends!"
oh. he was just talking about our friendship. i was tweaking a little bit. and...ouch. will just officially said they aren't best friends anymore. and he's blaming it on mike. but mikes defenses are still up high.
"Well...well maybe you should've reached out more, I don't know! But why is this on me? Why am I the bad guy?!"
then will is lost for words, and he just look sad. and as mad as mike is, he hates seeing will that way.
i imagine the day or two between this and his apology, mike went over this fight in his mind multiple times. and the more he thought about it, the more he realizes, ah shit. i was way too in my head and this was completely one sided. will wasn't plotting against me, i just felt so bad for myself i convinced myself i did nothing wrong. all this because i thought he found new friends and i felt bad for myself. and now i've lost my best friend and made him feel like all of it is his fault. i have to let him know it's all on me.
tldr: mike is weird and gay.
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