niningtori

[niningtori]

just an update

hi my sweet friends. not sure if anyone really wants to read this but i thought i'd give an update on how i'm doing since a lot of people seemed concerned about me/my health and there are so many comments on my initial post about it that i honestly can't even muster up the strength to reply to all of them but i do want to say thank you and i love you to everyone who left kind words/asks in response to my struggles. it was very encouraging to read that people cared and it motivates me to continue posting on this account and honestly to just keep going in general.

as far as writing goes, i'm actually working on something that not many people have really asked for but i do still hope that you all enjoy it! i think you will. my headspace still isn't the best at the moment so it's most certainly not the best thing i've ever written but i do want to get it out there and just prove to myself that i can still write (lmao) so i'm asking for you all to please be kind when i post it even if it's not indicative of me at my peak.

that's it! thank you everyone. i love you and will see you relatively soon ❤️

[niningtori]

u r so Wise…i luv u. Ur right when u said u shouldn’t have to coach a man into being a decent person …u ate. thankfully i didn’t have to he’s actually learning idk i manifested he would and he seems smarter LMFAOOOO i probably sound so crazy to everyone who reads this. manifesting works Chat please try, u can literally get anything u want (in good karma).

ITS OK I SAY THE SAME THING…i like everything. when i get my wisdom teeth removed i Promise ill sing something just for u 🐰🐰🐰🐰

meanwhile i'm the dumbest person on this planet OMGGG but i luv u bun. can u manifest me peace of mind next if it's not too much trouble 🥹 (i'm kidding) i used to try to manifest my ideal partner for like months straight a few yrs back but idt my heart was in the right place so it never happened

i can't wait to hear u sing ik i'm gonna enjoy it ❤️

[niningtori]

ninii omg i havent been on tumblr for god knows how long and got a mini jumpscare when i saw that u were leaving 😭

glad that u felt better and decided to stay my lovee ☹️💞💗🫶🏻💖

uni has been kicking my ass but TRUST ill binge read all ur fics during deepavali break 😋

hope u have a nice day/night qt 💖💞💖💗🫶🏻💞💗

omg hi my love thank you for checking in with me it makes my heart feel full

i'm sorry to hear about uni being rough but i hope you enjoy your time off and if you do get around to reading any of my work i hope you like them!!

i hope today is treating you well ❤️❤️

[niningtori]

Hi nini

I'm so so glad to see you here again 🥹❤️‍🩹

I checked your account everyday and I was already emotional with your post about your struggles (and thank you for being so open and vulnerable about it) and seeing you back made me honestly cry (it's joy, don't worry, must be the hormones too 😭😭😭)

I couldn't help but think that my request maybe triggered you in some sense, SO I'M REALLY REALLY SORRY 😭😭😭😭😭 I hope you'll recover fully and be always healthy and happy

If you ever need something or someone to talk, lmk and I'll be there, pls take care 🫂

Again, sorry if I made you uncomfortable, it was never my intention 😢 I really love you too much

Have a great day, you're very very loved - 💜

hi baby. thank you so much for your sweet words and for caring about me and how i'm feeling. no need to cry over me though i'm alright!

your request didn't trigger me at all i promise. you did absolutely nothing wrong so there's no need to apologize. don't be scared to request things in the future either i swear that i'm okay and you didn't make me uncomfortable even a little bit.

i hope i recover too but just hearing that someone cares makes me extremely happy. i'm always here for any of you if you ever wanna talk i love you very very much. you are so lovely and sweet i am sending you a virtual hug right at this very moment 🫂

[niningtori]

YOURE STAYING??????

the world is healing. the sun is shining. IM SO HAPPY WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE.

i love you so much i have been in excruciating agony but now i feel reborn again >_<

i think so yes 🤭 i just had a lot of feelings BABANNAJAJS but i'm feeling better lately

i love you SO MUCH the feeling is 100% mutual 😽

[niningtori]

if u leave this app im literally k*lling myself girl dont leave ever 🙏🙏🙏🙏

BWBSNSJSKSKKSKD ok ur me when u announced ur hiatus i had to be talked off the ledge no it's true it's true

[niningtori]

PLEASE STAY.

And what's your thoughts about the new concept photos??? Do you have a favorite one??

i'll do my best ��

i LOVE the concept photos but i especially love angel and lover. lover is totally my aesthetic and i knew it'd be my favorite as soon as the name was announced 😭 what ab you bby?

[niningtori]

NINI IS BACK WHO CHEERED‼️‼️‼️‼️ (me, i cheered.)

THIS PICTURENANANWNSK guess who loves jjae? (it's me, i do)

[niningtori]

“would you be mad if…” no I wouldn’t because I think about deleting everything and disappearing everyday and I think I’m stable 😂😂

ok ur me 😭😭 i'm unstable tho so i cant really gauge what's normal and what's not LMAOOO

[niningtori]

you made the suggestion even better 😭😭😭 i love you

ofc you can put a nameless bf and write with hyuka! (i love him so much, he's my big baby 🥹)

i thought of that scenario bc I read i know it's over, but ofc you decide what's best, write what makes you comfortable and sorry if the suggestion made you feel uncomfortable 😣 it wasn't my intention, it's just when i get an idea, i get really talkative and like to give examples bc i don't want to forget it (since im very forgetful 🫠)

im so excited! thanks for being so kind 🥹

love always - 💜

i love you ❤️

hyuka is my baby it's true it's true

i'm not uncomfortable at all! i like the idea a lot don't worry! no need to apologize

thank you for being so sweet 🥹 love you dearly

[niningtori]

hi nini hehe i saw ur last response i just forgot to say anything but damn. it’s fine he’ll live

being mean to men is my specialty idk. that boy on tiktok i told u about i like him he just needs to stfu he can be painfully ignorant and aware of it but labels it as dark humor. either manifesting is working and i’m detached or he’s pissing me off. can’t tell which one bc i’m eventually always irritated with the men im interested in. he’s def just misinformed bc i think he’s pretty progressive in certain aspects but he’s a man. Idk hopefully digital footprint didn’t come and bite me in the ass for this but idk if i care

hope u enjoyed this nonsense i’m still in jaw pain and i will be working on music again soon even tho i can’t sing rn. suggestions..? what do u like to hear hehe 🐰 pls feel free to share any nonsense

hi bunny.

i like being mean to men too bc they deserve it like i'm literally a misandrist irdgaf. he sounds rlly annoying so i fear ur justified in being irritated by him. u deserve better than to have to coach a man into being a decent person.

oh honey i hope ur jaw is alright!! if u mean what's my taste in music i honestly don't rlly know bc like ik everyone says this but i like a little bit of a lot of diff genres. i tend to listen to the same music i've already discovered tho if that makes sense like i just love revisiting stuff ive already decided that i like!! all this to say ... idk what i'd like to hear but if it's from u i bet ill like it

[niningtori]

I'll punch anyone who will be mad because you changed your mind. I swear

im grinning like crazy ur too sweet for this planet 🥹❤️

[niningtori]

i'm sooo scared that I literally checked your account everyday just because of the 'deactivation' you announced, i'm soooo happy you are ok now 🥹 i love you and your stories made me happy/ugly cry and i want to hug you 🤍

IM SO SORRY 😭😭 i kept my acc up bc i was planning on saving all my old works first just in case i wanted to repost them in the future but the more i thought ab it the more i was like do i even really wanna go 😭 i love you so much i'm so happy that my words make u feel something and idk if u can feel it but i'm giving u the biggest virtual hug rn

[niningtori]

i’m so happy you decided to stay omg ^-^ you’re literally one of my FAVORITE authors on here and i always look forward to reading everything you post!!! i was literally devastated when you said youre leaving i couldnt focus on anything LOL but im always here if you need someone to talk to, i hope youre feeling better now <33333 ILYSM

i am going to burst into tears... i can't believe u were devastated by me like genuinely i'm in awe @ the fact that ppl cared at all 🥹 thank u for going out of ur way to say this to me i love u to the moon and back and i'm always here for u too!! i'm not feeling back to how i was but i'm doing a little better so i hope you all like the next fic i post <3

[niningtori]

i’m so happy you’re staying 😭 I was so sad that you would be gone I literally love your works so much

thank u angel 🥹 this means the world to me hehe i'm happy to be back in any capacity!

[niningtori]

NO ONE IS MAD AT U!!!! STOP THAT NONSENSE 🐰🐰🐰🐰 We love u and we r always happy to see u promise

ok i will stop saying i think ppl r mad at me NENAWJEJSKDI but i'm so happy ppl r reacting positively :,) i was scared ppl were gonna say i was being dramatic but i love u all very much

[niningtori]

I'll always miss you if you do deactivate😞 I hope you'll be able to heal in the meantime! Just know that even though we aren't with you physically, we'll always be here to support you no matter what your decision is! I've never sent an ask before but I felt like I had some words I needed to say to you. Goodbye to one of the sweetest writers here on Tumblr<3

hi sweetheart. i'm feeling a little better (still not 100% by any means) so i'm planning on staying while i work through my issues (i hope that's okay! :,)) thank you for sending these sweet words i hope you know how much they mean to me!!