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an-ruraiocht · 4 months ago

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sometimes it's like. i don't really wanna have an opinion about this in public because i don't feel that strongly. but a lot of people are having ill informed opinions about it and i don't feel i can offer correct information without also an opinion. so i just have to suffer

#this is about nanowrimo lmao #having been involved with nano for fifteen years i can promise it was always a website/organised thing #and there WERE reasons for the website to exist and the community of the forums was a huge part of it #now they totally fucked that up a few years back but originally it was a massive part of it #especially bc when i joined nano twitter was like... barely a thing?#there were so few ways of finding a writing community at the time #very few wordcount trackers you didn't have to build yourself in excel etc #it had reasons to exist at the beginning. i would argue it has much less reason to exist now #but it wasn't a subsequent 'cashing in' on a concept #anyway.#the reason i don't have strong opinions about the current fuckery beyond an eye roll #is that i already walked away from being invested in nano because there has been So. Much. Fuckery #this is a nail in a coffin I'd already accepted was buried #and i get that people are more likely to care about the ai thing #as like. symbolic of wider societal issues or whatever #vs grooming and harassment and racism and firing all the MLs #bc that affects people in the community much more than people inside it #but. look. if you're gonna expound upon it #consider that nanowrimo started in 1999 and forums were THE way to connect with people online #and the website as it grew in the 00s primarily revolved around the forums #and continued to do so through the 2010s #and that no it wasn't just a social media challenge bc social media didn't exist yet #there IS a reason nanowrimo has a centralised website and organisation #it wouldn't exist without them #bc I can't be arsed to explain this again #*more than people OUTSIDE it

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wawamouse · 7 months ago

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Me? Well, I've... I've mostly been a loner.

#oz hbo #hbo oz #my gifs #miguel alvarez #cathy jo cutler #kirk acevedo #you know the first time i saw this show i was like I can't believe they gave miguel a love interest who's a nazi wife 💀 that's so darksided #but now i'm like eh i guess i get it.... she does have beautiful hair and face.....#i mean i still think it was darksided but lol whatev #I understand these are not angles the writers think about lol #anyway this answer continues to slay me for multiple reasons #Due to how long it takes miguel to FUCKING ANSWER #yeah he's down.... a ............guy......(succumbs to thought).........overdosed....... close friend? ..........ya know.......#the fic i'm working on rn is very much friendship building so just from that angle i'm like Ahghh #if i was writing the friendship building from His pov i guess it would be like: mostly* (*until recently. but now it's gone again maybe)#also perhaps the distance of saying A guy overdosed makes it less depressing or somethn i means he's already down i suppose why wallow.#mostly been a loner. up until quite recently. but then a guy overdosed. etc. bc if he was your friend that means your friend ODed :\

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giantkillerjack · 1 year ago

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POV: You're already in the most unhinged horror story in the world, and suddenly there's a circus tent in the fog, and THAT can't be good.

#junji ito #gyo #gyo junji ito #ito junji #gyo manga #hey everyone this manga is buck fucking WILD and DISGUSTING in ways that continue to surprise me bc you canNOt underestimate my guy Junji #i can't tell yet how i feel about it but it is even more unhinged than advertised #it is the one with the shark on land with spider legs #ya know #normal stuff #I cannot emphasize enough that the shark on spider legs is the most grounded thing that happens in this manga #like it is not endgame it is one of the very first things that happens and it just gets weirder and more gross from there #I really thought it would like build up to the shark and that would be the end but I was so fucking wrong it's so gross #but also it's being illustrated by an absolute master of Horror art. I read too many chapters in a row today #because it's also funny at times and that made me think maybe it wouldn't be really scary and I was wrong!#the humor was like the sugar in a fruity cocktail. ya think hey it tastes like candy there can't possibly be much alcohol in this!#and soon you've collapsed under a table babbling about fish with spider legs

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itsalwaysdark · 1 month ago

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and when i live on my own ill be able to decorate like real life decorate ive never gotten to do that in real life b4

#like im not barred from doing it Nd i do like. a little bit kind of but its like. Idk my entire life is a very transient thing and im rly #rly rly not used to being in one place for a long time so as a kid we never rly decorated ever #and like obv i wont be Owning a house or anything like that so itll still have to be moveable but i can like. but furniture that i like and #stuff... ive never gotten to do that b4 even in um. wa. i didnt rly get to do any of the decorating even when i was in the actual house bc #him and the roommates umm. did all that. Okay well now ive sort of freaked it by making myself think of that so im going to go stare #longingly at the floorplan i did #bc umm. well ideally id like to move into one of the apartments thats right across the way bc theres a couple of apt buildings like right #there 5 min walk tops and one of the places Has an open one but no floorplan #i wont be movjng out for ages i just wanted to look at floorplans yk #but like i said no floorplans BUT theres one a bit further away not rly walkable bc its umm #youd have to walk on the interstate and stuff and um. no sidewalk and everything but theeeeeeeeee thing had a floorplan #still very close by like 2 min drive but yk. but i still did my little mockup floorplan with that apartment instead #i want it to be closeby so everybody can come visit and so that i dont die and explode . i dont rly want to continue living in this town #4ever once km like Normal and have savings and ive got everything worked out i wanna maybe move to chicago or something since il is better #for the transgenderisms. + ive always wanted to try living in a big city at least once and i think itd be awesome #but thats Ages and ages away like maybe 5 years depending on how good i am. weeee will see if 5 years in the future is like on the table 4 #me LOLLLL 24 year old connor seems rly crazy to imagine. but anyways....#but itll be nice to move out and still be in town bc then i can have the same job yk . and maybe ill know how to drive atp and i can like .#buy a car ..or something . if i do know how to drive #which i probably should since this town very car dependent and i dont want my mom to have to drive me to work esp if umm. i dont live with #them ... im just rly rly rly rly rly fucking scared of driving but i know also in my heart that when i do know how to drive the bond between #me and that car will be crazyyyy like. idk how many of you followed me last year but you may remember my insane bond with angel my cart from #work and there was a lot gokng on woth that <- was Very delusional at the time and i was convinced that she was a sentient thing and had the #power to make my life better or worse if i upset her so i said good morning and goodnight to her every single day so that i could have a #good day . looking back on it probably was something to be concerned abt but whatever.... she is still my best friend and i do miss her #deeply #her bathtub and heater were my besttt friends when i was in wa LOL. i was quite unwell #bathtub is still in my room tho yayyy. heater lives with lamp now and angel is of course at my old job....#bathtub currently is holding a project i gave up on. everyone say thank.you bathtub im looking at her right now

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bibleofficial · 3 months ago

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it needs to become acceptable to end emails w ‘please kill yourself. thank you, [name]’

#stream #ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLA #the way i’m going to kill my utilities provider #QUIT CHARGING ME FOR THE FUCKING BUILDING IM IN 1 FLAT !!!!!!!!!!#I DONT EVEN HAVE GAS IN HERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!#ITS 26 SQUARE METERS !!!!!!!! 270 SQUARE FEET !!!!!!!!!!! TOTAL !!!!!!!!!!!! IM NOT SPENDING 268£ IN ELECTIRICTY AND GAS A MONTH !!!!!!!!!!#I DONT EVEN HAVE FUCKING GAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#EVRRYTHING IS ELECTRIC WHY ARE U BILLING ME FOR THIS SHIT !!!!!!!!!!! KILL YOURSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!#‘we can’t see what we charge u exactly but be advised that there are cancelation fees’ like ok ? girl i literally just pulled the cash from #the bank account associated like ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLA #KEEP SENDING THOSE BILLS THEY AINT BEIN PAYED BY ME #IVE PAYED YALL LIKE 13 MONTHS WORTH ALREADY YALL CAN KILL YOURSELVES #FUCKING 550 QUID IN 2 MONTHS TF I SHOULD ACTUALLY BE PAYING LIKE 60£ TOTAL MAX A MONTH BRO ???????????#like do they rly think i’m just going to continue paying that #‘u SiGnEd ThE cOnTrAcT’ & U QUOTED ME THE WRONG FUCKING NUMBER U CHARGING ME FOR A HOUSE IM IN A FLAT SO CONTRACT VOID DUMBASS #THE FIRST EMAIL U SENT SAID I WAS PAYIN GAS & WATER & I CORRECTED U & U AGREED THEN SAY ‘u can’t cancel’ like #making me laugh but ur doin my head in #like the way the electricity is set up here w this scumbag landlord they could just cut electricity to this flat & id still have working #electricity ALSKALSKAKKSKKSLAKALAKSLAKA #like ……..#i’m willing to pay bc i’m trying to live like a legal resident #but i’m just #not #like i even said ‘if u can’t cut electricity from my bill from now on without voiding the contract then void the contract & take the #cancellation fee from the extortionate amount i’ve alrdy payed #they haven’t responded so they’ll respond tomorrow #iF THEY KNOW WHATS GOOD FOR EM LMFAO #i can’t wait for the email to come saying ‘we tried to bill u but it didn’t go through :(‘ like #it’s bc i’m not paying u i even said ‘not one pence more will be sent to yall until this is sorted’ like ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA TRY IT

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chromoluminary · 6 months ago

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I cannot stay at this job for a second longer than I have to this sucks so bad holy shit

#ember talks #my supervisor keeps saying she wants to bring me on as a contractor after the internship ends and I have no way of telling her uh #respectfully I do not think I’d live through the semester if I did that #it’s not even grueling work I just hate the content and the company culture is a funeral at best #I can do corpo culture w layoffs or I can look at photos of necropsies for 8 hours a day #I can’t do both but I have to this summer #especially with the continued assumption I’m cis and straight and neurotypical in such a weirdly aggressive way #I have a presentation that I’ve been putting off building the slide deck for bc I just. I don’t know how to spin my project #it’s basically a grunt labor project but I’m qualified enough to speak to the principles behind it #but I was told to not talk abt the principles #or about what an archive is #and I got flack for not working 20 extra unpaid hours last week but there’s no way for me to do that without getting fired #I hate it so fucking much I’m so tired #I’m so tired of being tired #I know every job is going to suck but at least the other ones don’t have me staring at viscera trying to figure out how I can upload it #I know I should feel fortunate to have this job but I’m just lying on the floor sobbing rn #I’ve been working since 6:30 this morning I should just. stop #log the fuck off give the fuck up try again next week #(Monday I have an interview for a hopefully chiller job in the fall and I’m very excited for it tbh)#the team seems cool and it’s . idk it’ll be something I can live with doing #and I can work my other school year gig and I miss that team so much and they said they missed me too and #god I just rly wanna work full time at the library I work at during the year

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mokeonn · 6 months ago

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Currently I have so many bg3 saves bc I refuse to delete my old ones that will likely never be finished (first ever gameplays, not optimized, everytime I open one I get overwhelmed and stop), but also because I keep making new games with the specific purpose of romancing a certain companion, seeing special dialog, doing a specific style of run, or getting an achievement on steam.

#simon says #currently the 4 that I have right now are fun but I wanna do a new one bc I like making characters and being silly #so far I have:#sad bardlock that was originally going to be a no-romance 'everyone's worst ending' run but then I finally decided to romance shadowheart #since the two of them absolutely give off sad lesbian vibes and just seem to make eachother better #because a doom and gloom bardlock constantly saying 'that sounds lovely :)' to anything shar related quickly made Shadowheart happy #next up is big hulking non-lolthsworn drow who is a cleric of Mystra #because I want to see how a cleric of mystra works with Gale and so far it has SUCH fun interactions #... Jak'ith. my gith jack-of-all-trades romancing Lae'zel #i would be a liar if I didn't say doing a legit jack of all trades run as a gith romancing Lae'zel wasn't the most fun out of all my saves #the interactions are so fucking funny I love it #like I highly recommend a gith lae'zel romance because it's so much fun just bouncing back and forth in dialog #and I got REALLY into stealing after playing Jak'ith so I made a duegar thief who is gonna eventually be a druid #and im gonna make her an exclusively Halsin romance bc I saw some of the duegar dialog options with him and I thought it would be funny #since my last Wyll romance went south (i had hubris in honor mode and lost it all) and I have still yet to romance Karlach or Minthara #those 3 are on my list for characters to make and play bc I haven't explored those routes yet #i also want to try doing a true goody two shoes durge run and a true evil durge run #obviously the evil run will probably be the Minthara romance #also on this list I am ignoring Astarion bc I have romanced him twice now in my two old durge runs so unless I can think of something unique #then im not doing anything with him for a while #well except playing as him #i got an old playthrough with him I should continue bc I wanted to see what his origin stuff would be like in act 3 #at some point I do want to origin run all the origin characters bc it sounds really cool #but I want to get a good idea of their character arcs before I do #also for the achievements:#Jak'ith is the jack of all trades no Withers help achievement #My bardlock is the busking 100 gold one #and I want to do a punch drunk build at some point #which would probably be a monk bc of the drunken master robes you can get #but yeah I will probably end up with like 8 or more saves in the end

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lord-squiggletits · 2 years ago

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Onyx Prime = Shockwave time travel plot is such shitty writing I could and WILL (eventually) write multiple essays about it it's so fucking bad.

#squiggposting #for a brief preview of what i would be writing #1. time travel was done better in the same continuity by JRO #2. the plot by barber completely contradicted and undid most of the themes he was trying to build up #3. the plot introduced a lot of shit out of nowhere with no foreshadowing and had to be done via excessive exposition #4. it's just a really fucking bad logic loop that relies on a character doing things 4 THE EVULZ and not because he's like a person #can't believe ppl are actually defending it because 'oh it's silly lol'#it's not just silly it's stupid and it destroys most of the agency and drama of the rest of the story #including parts of the story that the same people who like S = onyx also praise as good writing #have higher standards for writers ffs don't accept shitty writing just because he made some points you agree with #genuinely don't understand it at all lmao #like barber made a whole story about the legacy of colonialism and how history is propagandistic and corrupt or whatever #and then introduced the big plot twist that actually it was all machinated by just one guy #hmmmm and here i thought this story was about responsibility and the way bigotry seeps into society's instutitions or something #NOPE actually the reason society is racist and imperialistic is because one guy went back in time and decided to make all of it happen #and the reason that guy wants a cybertronian empire is because he was raised during the golden age... which was brought about by the primes #...who were created by that very same guy. so like it's just an infinitely repeating circular logic error #in which this guy's motivations exist bc of the times he lived in but he literally invented the times he lived in

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erythristicbones · 2 years ago

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i don't feel like copying what i wrote, so take some screenshots of me having brainworms for the JDK villains again. primarily spurred by me going "hey wouldn't Nisha and Artemis and Apollo make cool rockstars instead"

#i really need to hurry up and finish organizing my writing blog so i can start posting these there instead #anyways i feel like this finally nails EXACTLY the kind of vibes that i wanted for the Acolytes and Solanace #and tbh.....even if i cant find a way to work JDK's original curse themed plot with these ideas #i feel like it would absolutely be worth changing the stories/motivations for the POV trio to fit this new set of ideas #kinda adds a lot more to the villains as a whole #and also sets it apart from a lot of my other stories that revolve around 'essentially a cult' as an opposing force #if i decide to be the most self indulgent that i possibly could be #i might even consider the idea of making it a story ABOUT Solanace and the acolytes in the POV sense #theyd still obviously be villains but the protags of the story instead of the antags #at which point jonas/lydia/hayes would have to be majorly reworked to then fit into the antagonist roles #could also theoretically work with the idea of jonas AND nisha being POVs #so the reader would be getting insight to the good guys and the villains at the same time #JDK(which STILL needs a better placeholder title) really is a story that ive had to majorly change multiple times #most of my stories i have the general idea + genre settled before anything else #but this one is more character driven #i have two groups of OCs ive thought about in depth and i just havent been able to build the story around them in the right way yet #i think once i can Actually get my brain focused long enough to draw #i wanna doodle more rockstar inspired designs/themes for nisha/artie/apollo #see if the idea continues to tickle the brainworms in such a great way + then have time to make polished refs b4 artfight #bc i really love my overdramatic artsy villains okay. i think they deserve to be extra as fuck ya know?#who doesnt love a villain whose primary goal is to put on a show and THEN to do the evil things?

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nicholasdwuffwood · 2 years ago

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tristamp s2 confirmed AND timeskip p much confirmed ??? if im readin mutos tweet on twt right & timeskip (n tristamp s1 at least being like... kind of a prequel?? Idk what else to call it) is confirmed everything abt s1 will finally make a little more sense to me lmao.

#i am now fully and 100% convinced the pacing was fucking insanely fast bc they just wanted to get all of the set up out of the way for the #timeskip. which unfortunately affected my investment but knowinf it was probably intentional to build up to smthn gives me a lil more hope #for this series... some changes still make absolutely 0 sense to me (even just the concept of a prequel esque route for trigun in GENERAL #confuses me bc it just rlly doesnt seem like something that works for it but! we'll see!) but ill continue to just. try my best 2 b open #i just PRAY AND HOPE this means vash will finally fucking get literally any character since theyre def gonna b having him #develop more into his og self. like they HAVE to be what else would they b doin wit him. if they continue to make him so one-note after s1 #idk what ill do lol #im still just skeptical on him as a whole bc it feels like theyve Already Missed So Much for him but. ILL HOLD OUT HOPE FOR NOW!!!

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alivehouse · 1 year ago

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theyre knocking down a bunch more forest around me and its bumming me out so much tbh. this place looked way different when i was a kid

#like huge swaths of it. by this park i help maintain in particular. which is fucking depressing bc i know theyre just going to build more #overpriced housing for city ppl trying to Go To The Mountains or whatever even tho they r destroying them to do that 😬#& im just going to have to continue rotting watching cost of living go up forever

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aro-aizawa · 1 year ago

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against my better judgement i did indeed buy the saints row 3 remaster and oh boy i should have expected all the bugs