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I remember a time when I couldn't understand when people used stupid numeric or punctuation based replacements for letters. And I mean literally couldn't understand, I would look at the word and try and work out what the letter was supposed to be and what the word was because I got distracted from all the other letters by an exclamation mark or a 3 or whatever the replacement was.
I miss those days.
I just saw a story on AO3 tagged "pet p!ay"
TIK TOK MUST BE STOPPED BEFORE IT DESTROYS LANGUAGE
#sometimes I begin to wonder and worry that there is in fact an entire generation that thinks that's how they're spelled#like I swear it was only yesterday that using punctuation and numbers in words was a sign of being overly online and involved in things lik#i dunno hacking or MMOs or something#and now it's just so normalised that half the time I barely even notice anymore#please tag responsibly#by which I mean use actual words with actual spelling#because some of us filter things for a reason#and no one should have to work out all the potential combinations of censoring to avoid things#censoring
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For the yugioh character meme: Number 96!
Why I like them/why I donât
Dark Mist is one of the characters who I am so sad didnât get more screen time. He had an awesome debut and established himself as a threat immediately by taking Yuma hostage but then heâs just stuck in the key a while. He appears a bit but really doesnât do much important stuff until his team up with Vector in season 3. BUT HES STILL SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heâs a number and heâs completely intelligent which literally no other number has shown the capacity to be Iâd argue that itâs not cause heâs fused with Astral, he still planned a way to get into Yumaâs deck. The intelligence could come from the fact that heâs part Don Thousand and speaking of which wow do I wish that was expanded on more. Imagine being a fusion of two completely opposite people one of which is meant to destroy the other, thats an identity crisis just waiting to happen.
To conclude I guess I just like him cause he has so much potential for cool stuff
What I like about their appearance
*deep breath* ok this guys got a lot of appearances and I have varying opinions on them so this is gonna be my unofficial 96 forms ranking post in order of appearence
Beast 96

We get this form for a grand total of one scene and it only exists so that Yuma will underestimate him further and let Dark Mist posses him. Pretty funny guy, I like the layering of the warm colors, it makes it look like he has a molten core
5/10 a bit to boring but its meant to be
Astral 2 evil edition

Very solid design, likely cause itâs basically Astrals design and that oneâs good too. The red face detailing makes him feel more distinct and is also a nice nod too his monster form
8/10 I think itâs funny that he doesnât get censored in every scene like Astral does
Monster 96

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm good. Zexalâs monster designs are always a treat and 96 is no exception. The sharp edges with the misty (haha) bits connecting them gives it a very cool haunted armor look and the flaming eyes are a nice pop of color.
10/10 absolutely sick
Barian powerup form

Oh god oh no oh fuck oh god. All good things must come to an end and 96âs design streak comes to a screeching grotesque ugly as all sin halt. This design is a crime for many reasons but Iâll go one at a time. First off, WHY IS HE FLESHY??? I know its a thing for yugioh villians to have theyre veins poke out when they get extra evil but 96 is a combination of Astral and Don Thousand, arguably two of the more ethereal looking designs. It feels like they tried to mash Don Thousand, Vector, and Monster 96 all into one design and then failed horribly. The flesh boots and shoulder pads are meant to look like his monster design but it lacks the sharpness that made the original work. Theres also a bunch of ripple things? Why. I dont like them. He also just copied Vectors wings but they just look out of place. And lastly the purple lipstick that would be a cool element but with everything combined and Dr Fakers haircut makes him look like a clown. Rant over. Sorry.

0/10 Iâm glad he exploded
Corpse puppet

Ok this one shreds actually. I actually think this is one of 96âs coolest designs and criminally underrated (then again when is he not) itâs a pretty fucked up parallel seeing as they both died, Astral got brought back by Yuma and meanwhile Dark Mist is having his corpse tossed around and repeatedly destroyed by Vector.
10/10 rad as all hell best creepy puppet in the show just too bad heâs a personality less husk
Do I prefer their dub names or original names?
Dark Mist vs Black Mist, they mean almost the same thing but I prefer Dark Mist cause itâs what Iâm used too
OTP/NOTP/OT3
I honestly donât think he should be dating anyone at all. He should be embezzling government funds and standing ominously in dark alleyways a romance with him involved would make everyone in it worse
Favourite card they use
I feel like basically all his cards are bangers. Giant germs the guy who originally had him used? Iconic, weird, stuck in my head ever since I first saw the episode. His weird utensil themed monsters who literally came out of nowhere? Hilarious, cute, why do even have those my man arenât you the devil? 96 himself? Fucking awesome looking in monster form
Favourite moment they were in
Both his duels were very good but his debut/the Yuma hostage situation holds a special place in my heart as the most violent tv show episode I could get my hands on as a kid <3
Least favourite moment
âŚâŚâŚ.. barian powerup transformation *shudders*
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Restless Rewatch: The Untamed Episode 14 first part
(RR The Untamed Masterpost) (Canaryâs Pinboard - more Masterposts)Â
Warning: Spoilers for All 50 Episodes!
Murder Turtle, Continued
Lan Wangji wakes up after a good night's sleep leaning against a rock wall, to find that his leg is no longer splinted, and his perfectly clean and unbloody headband has been put back on his head while he was sleeping.
Leaving aside the "not waking up" part of things, how, exactly, did Wei Wuxian get his headband on without mussing his hair? Did he bring a crochet hook?
Wei Wuxian gives him a sitrep and then they cozy up and have an extended conversation about the nature and history of the Tortoise of Slaughter. Wei Wuxian is interested in everything Lan Wangji has to say, and Lan Wangji talks a lot more than usual; they are completely on the same wavelength here and are enjoying swapping obscure knowledge.
Lan Wangji: My lacerated leg and I are actually super aware that it has big teeth, but thanks for the reminder.
In the course of the conversation, Wei Wuxian mentions his plan to 1. sneak into the tortoise's shell and 2. drive it out of its shell so they can attack it.Â
OP did a little tortoise research and learned that the only species of turtle that can leave its shell is the Koopa Troopa.

Good news for Wei Wuxian: If you jump on its shell in the right spot, you can rack up a pile of extra lives.
Does that make the Tortoise of Slaughter a giant Koopa Troopa? Perhaps...the king of the Koopa Troopas?
I'm gonna say yes.
(More after the cut)
Letâs Go Killing
Wei Wuxian is exhilarated by the idea of fighting a giant dangerous monster with Lan Wangji. Some day Wei Wuxian will found the Nike clan, because his motto is definitely "Just do it."Â
It's sweet how, in his romantic notions about chivalry and Lan Wangji, he's completely elided the original reason they were (sort of) told to venture together.Â
Wei Wuxian:Â I'm still on the "find the Yin Iron" quest; I'm just skipping the "suppress it" part. Â
Wei Wuxian weighs up their chances against Bowser and tells Lan Wangji that even if they die, it will be badass to be killed by a famous monster, so they won't have to feel embarrassed.
This is the exact moment that Lan Wangji's feelings for Wei Wuxian go from "smitten" to "gagging for it."
Lan Wangji: as soon as we get out of here I'm going to borrow a whole lot of books from Nie Huaisang
The boys come up with a plan that involves a rather long montage of collecting archery equipment and deconstructing it. This potentially-dull montage is fun to watch because they are both very, very good looking.
Artists who want to draw Wang Yibo as an elven archer, this is your episode.
Now we suddenly have, with zero explanation, telepathy. Ok, sure. It seems to work kind of like a phone conversation, in which they say specific things to each other, rather than like Cherry Magic telepathy where you can hear everything the other person is thinking. Or at least, neither of them is embarrassed, so I assume they are maintaining some mental privacy.
Club Ruohan
Same, Wen Chao, same
At some point there is a boring sequence at Club Ruohan. Â Wen Ruohan doesn't know where Xue Yang is, but really wants his hunk of Yin Iron. Wen Chao thinks that WRH's 3 pieces of Yin Iron should be able to beat Xue Yang's 1 piece, but apparently he is dumb and that is not how math works. O...kay? OP does not understand this either but whatever, Wen Ruohan is boring, moving on. This scene is really just here to make us think about Yin Iron before Wei Wuxian jumps into Bowser's shell.
Bigger On The Inside
So then Wei Wuxian climbs into Bowser's shell, which is, to quote The 12th Doctor, bigger on the inside.

Bowserâs shell is the approximate size of my entire house. It is also bathed in a hellish pure red photo filter, which OP has done her best to remove for these gifs, because it gives me eye strain and it obscures Xiao Zhan's hotness.
Camera Operator: What did I do?Â
Wei Wuxian wanders around inside, finding random corpses encased in slime cocoons. Tortoise, spider, xenomorph, whatever. There are also random curtain things hanging all over, and then at one point Wei Wuxian stares into the face of a corpse, and then does a jump scare response at the camera operator even though nothing particular happened.Â
I imagine the corpse was supposed to open its eyes and say "killl meeee" but it got censored. He also makes about 8 other faces at the camera operator, so we get that the inside of this TARDIS-like tortoise shell (must...resist...temptation...to...say...TORDIS) is yucky.
Lan Wangji waits outside listening to Wei Wuxian telepathically complain about the smell. Â He is anxiously clenching a bundle of string and an arrow, and wishing he could clench Wei Wuxian Bichen instead.
Serendipitous Yin Iron
Wei Wuxian backs his way through the TORDIS until his butt bumps into a sword that is steaming with resentful energy. That's right: Wei Wuxian is about to pull a piece of Yin Iron almost literally out of his ass.
He grabs it and is overwhelmed by its screaming resentful energy and has to let it go again.
So this is what a vibrator with 4 batteries feels like
When Bowser comes looking for him, however, he quickly decides to go for it, grabbing the sword and singing "I've Got the Power (Gonna Make You Sweat)"
Wei Wuxian plunges the sword into Bowser's lower jaw, and Bowser pulls his entire head out of his shell with Wei Wuxian attached, while leaving the rest of his body and all rational laws of physics inside the shell.
Gamera Versus the Cultivators
What follows is one of the more ridiculous action sequences in the history of the world, and I say that as someone who likes Mothra movies.Â
Wei Wuxian hovers in a perfect horizontal plank while âhanging fromâ the sword, which is held well below the level of his torso. While Bowser spins him around. For much of the time, Bowser keeps his head still and just waves his neck around.
Lan Wangji and the camera operator do everything they possibly can to make "guy pulls on string" look interesting.Â
Everybody tries really, really hard and the actors are great at pretending something is there when it isn't, but this whole sequence is just horribly conceived.
What works well, though, is the Yin energy and Wei Wuxian's wrangling of it. He starts off being frightened and overwhelmed, and looking like it's too much for him; I dont' know if they made his face puffy on purpose or if that's just what happens when you spend days hanging from the ceiling fighting an imaginary monster. But he looks slack and unwell as he grapples with the iron sword.
Which makes this moment, when he gets control of it, deliciously creepy. He uses the power of the Yin Iron to stick a bunch of pokey things into Bowser's neck.
Lan Wangji has seen him struggling and now sees him...not struggling. Which scares the piss out of him, and he moves to finish the fight as quickly as possible, slicing up his hand and breaking the string. Combined with the pokey things, this does the trick and Bowser dies while Wei Wuxian faints and falls into the water.
Do the Whumpty Whump
Lan Wangji rescues him and wakes him up, and Wei Wuxian clutches the Yin Iron sword and tells Lan Wangji that he was knocked out by the screaming of disembodied voices.
This certainly sounds like a strange and dangerous phenomenon, so Lan Wangji carefully asks him to explain everything.

Ha ha ha j/k. Lan Wangji asks him exactly nothing about the strange sword or the black smoke or his weird evil smile or his new power over pointy objects. Lan Wangji appears to have a Star Trek: TNG level of unconcern about strange phenomena happening directly under his nose. But in fact he has noticed what's up, which is why he will be instantly distressed when he sees Wei Wuxian's flute moves at the Wen Corporate Headquarters.
Wei Wuxian has a fever (stay positive test negative) and comments on Lan Wangji's being so nice to him.
Wei Wuxian: I could never have imagined Lan Er Gongzi acting this concerned about me. Lan Wangji: what else have you never imagined me doing, while we're on the subject?Â
Lan Wangji transfers a stream of spiritual energy to him. Lan Wangji has so much spiritual power he can be a battery for Wei Wuxian without breaking a sweat or, like, noticing whether Wei Wuxian has a golden core or not, for that matter.
Wei Wuxian basks in the nice feeling of gigajoules for a while but then decides he's bored. So then he pouts, whines, and cajoles Lan Wangji in exactly, EXACTLY the way he whines at Jiang Yanli. I think this, while annoying of him, is a leap forward in his relationship with Lan Wangji.
He's letting his guard down and not just allowing Lan Wangji to take care of him; he's demanding to be cared for on multiple vectors, when he asks the guy who's already busy healing him to sing to him as well.

Lan Wangji obliges, singing him the song he composed about their love cultivation journey, while Wei Wuxian (or possibly Lan Wangji) (or possibly both) has a flashback to assorted sexy interactions that they've had so far.

Wei Wuxian memorizes the song perfectly on one hearing, before passing out.
Writing Prompt: Baldurâs Gate III / Untamed Crossover AU featuring elf archer Lan Wangji

I DARE YOU
Soundtrack: 1. Everybody Dance Now by C+C Music Factory 2. Paradise by the Dashboard Light by MeatloafÂ
Wei Wuxian fainting tally (cumulative): 3
#fytheuntamed#the untamed#wangxian#the untamed gifs#the untamed meta#the untamed spoilers#restless rewatch the untamed#my gifs#canary3d-original#asian whump
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Sagittarius Sun and Moon Combinations
Planets represent different energetic principals in the life of an individual â the signs show how these energies express themselves.
Having an inner planet (or luminary) in the sign of Sagittarius gives the personality enthusiasm, an expansive quality. No matter what other placements the person has, the energy and spirited nature is going to come through.
To simplify;
The Sun represents individuation, ideal self-expression and conscious self-expression.
The Moon represents instinct, emotional nature and personal needs.
Sagittarius Sun â Gemini Moon
This person has a difficult time keeping the enthusiasm in check. Once the ball is set rolling, it doesnât move in a straight line, it bounces off the walls until it accidentally hits a target. The overall personality is set on being honest, but in the jungle of information one could get confused about what oneâs thoughts actually are. They change so fast and move from this to that â it might feel like thereâs no truth except the constant search for truth. The person would crave stimulation and be allergic to boredom. The personality would be unsuited to work that requires stamina and determination â thereâs too much scattered energy living inside this individual to mobilize towards a concrete goal. The excitement of living is more important than anything that can be accomplished â to inspire, charm and have fun is what this person lives for. When potentials arenât actualized or when the person is forced to follow a strict path it will be difficult to find any joy. But, even in the midst of restriction, thereâs a light-heartedness and a willingness to provide a spark of inspiration. The person is full of ideas and pride, anything could be an adventure if one is allowed to exercise oneâs creative mind and bring some life to existence. On the down side, this person would feel disinclined to define themselves in any way. To remain in a state of potential is much preferred to concretize a stance, a need or a desire. Everything depends on the moment, what arises and what is called for with this combo. The constant state of flexibility could benefit the person but be detrimental at the same time. The effort and dedication it takes to wait for something to actualize itself through a longer process doesnât necessarily appeal to a person with these placements. On one level, itâs as if this person isnât registering the pressures of life, but is sublimating them, dealing with them as mental concepts rather than being squarely in the experience of them. Keeping things moving and avoiding soaking in experiences could lead to feelings of meaninglessness and futility, despite the original proclivity to be optimistic. This is a healthy state, presumably, which gives the mutable personality some depth instead of mere superficial excitement. When the person matures, thereâs recognition of value in the journey, and value in information. Not to mention the recognition of power in knowledge.
Sagittarius Sun â Pisces Moon
Thereâs a lot of optimism and sensitivity to this combo. While the Sagittarius personality might be able to brush things off and put themselves above any petty criticism of their character, the Piscean need is to be loved by everyone. Life is not worth living if thereâs not a genuine belief in love, and depending on what circumstances the person find themselves in, the dream of bliss might get crushed or kept intact. Even though the process of individuation for this kind of person is to gain confidence, a spirit of enthusiasm and trust, the person is originally prone to want to retreat into a state of non-separateness. Thereâs a tendency to idealize people and places, to live with a kind of bitter-sweet outlook on life. While the person would strive to always have things be exciting and to explore things outside of the comfort zone, there would be great emotional sensitivity to stimuli which could hold them back. The person would perhaps more often than not end up exploring their interests and fascinations in private â exploring the inner world of dreams and images could be very satisfying. Since Sagittarius and Pisces are universal signs, there might be an enhanced capacity to intuitively know things, to intuitively grasp complex themes and patterns within and without. Both signs hold broad and inclusive perspectives and seeks to make sense of the totality of reality through meaning and purpose. The limited and the personal is not this personâs primary concern. The essence of life is sought on a general level. Thereâs an awareness of the unseen, a great love affair with God and an acceptance to be led through existence back to oneâs source. Although the person might go through episodes of sadness and world-weariness, the Sagittarian identity that is unfolding throughout life is designed to have faith, to inspire, to convey wisdom and adopt a more or less carefree attitude - never loosing sight of the big picture. The Piscean tendency to be thoughtful and introspective adds a nice touch of depth to the personality, and a remarkable ability to feel what is taking place emotionally on a collective level. The person lives in connection with humanity and the world more than others, always picking up on trends of the times.
Sagittarius Sun â Virgo Moon
Thereâs a concentration and an attention to detail in the quest for knowledge. The zest for life is paired with practical reason â thereâs an awareness that extraordinary life experiences wonât just fall in oneâs lap, they are put together piece be piece. The tendency is to plan, to organize and process everything, which could put a damp cloth over the desire to be care-free. Anxiety over whether everything is going to work out is conflicting with the trust that the person strives to develop. Sagittarius Suns are supposed to take on a broad vision, a perspective that allows for mishaps and bumps in the road because one knows that itâs all part of divine plan. The Virgo Moon effectively counteracts this by being aware of things that could go wrong from a more earth-based perspective. To ride a bike without a helmet could end up in a disaster or eating too many sweets could make the person hyper-active. The Virgo temperament is not designed to overlook these little things, which could make the person frustrated because the Sagittarian spirit doesnât want to be limited by petty things. The advantage, however, is that the clumsiness and boldness of the person is toned down by a careful and hyper-aware disposition that could serve to keep them out of trouble. The friction that is created between a rational and physically anchored perspective and a adventurous and freedom-loving one can produce an interesting dynamic. Thereâs a push and pull between self-actualization and basic personal attributes. The need to have established routines that guarantee optimal health and efficiency has to exist alongside the process of finding oneself, the process of actualizing as an individual. As long as thereâs mere focus on ritual and everyday normality, thereâs nothing that sparks the self-expression. Once thereâs room for excitement and pursuing an intuitive path, the Virgo attributes can come in handy putting all the knowledge into practice and not loosing sight of the importance of specifics. Both signs are mutable, so adaptability is a great strength, although stubbornness and skepticism might kick in every so often. One should take care as to not let the belief in oneâs intellectual capacity cause ego-inflation. Knowledge should be used for good of all, not to enhance oneâs own sense of superiority.
Sagittarius Sun â Sagittarius Moon
With the Sun and Moon in Sagittarius nothing stands in the way of pure enjoyment of life. Independence, freedom, travel, exploration, adventure â life is calling them to set out on a quest for truth, a journey of the spirit. This person would not want to settle and would prefer to keep up the speed, even in old age. Thereâs a tendency to live as if one has already reserved a place in heaven, free of sin, free of guilt. Thereâs nothing to impede or hinder this person because life itself is what is treasured, not the particular form or circumstance. On the down side, this attitude could exclude the awareness of denser emotional states, making the person prone to gloss over negativity by viewing it as a betrayal of the eternal spirit. Thereâs validity to the experience of limitation and lack â the denial of these is to avoid going deeper and cope by flying up into the realm of belief in eternal life. Although this person would generally be open to a multitude of perspectives, there would be a strong sense of the correctness of personal opinion. The need to preach oneâs stance with force could upset a few people. Thereâs a censoring that could happen which would seem selfish and narrow-minded. Not to mention that there can be a scatteredness to the personâs thinking that could make their message seem insubstantial and backed by confidence rather that convincing arguments. The task is to adjust and evolve into the more refined traits of Sagittarius, to cultivate compassion and understanding for people, to uplift and inspire through genuine love of life rather than going down a path of reckless and irresponsibility. Itâs good to have confidence but it should not be acquired through rubbing oneâs competence in other peopleâs faces and bragging unnecessarily about oneâs broad knowledge and insight. One should watch out for the risk of viewing oneself as superior, bossiness can hardly be labeled a virtue â itâs childish and immature. The person might not be suited to lead because of their strong ambivalent and independent streak, but I could see this combo being a great side-kick, a resource of great value that would have to be kept on âlong leashâ in order to be willing to work under someone else. The person would definitely need variety and freedom to act on impulses.
Sagittarius Sun â Libra Moon
The bold and fearless self-expression is slightly modified by the need to enhance the self through entering relationships. The person naturally gravitates toward self-flattery disguised as humility. The effort to be charming, sociable and well-liked is on autopilot while the more bold and uninhibited individuality needs to be developed and expressed consciously. The person cares about how other people perceive them, for better and for worse. To develop the Sagittarian traits one might need to live from an outlook of a more general and universal standpoint, viewing social interaction as an experience on the road to truth rather than an end in and of itself. The person might benefit from taking risks by speaking their mind when it isnât socially advantageous, to push the limits of what is socially appropriate. It might not be comfortable, but it could be worth it in order to live more from a place of freedom than restriction. The Libra Moon needs to navigate carefully as to ensure optimal social and relational esteem. Personal safety and satisfaction depends on having other people to bounce their ideas off of. Thereâs difficulty in merely setting out on oneâs own and trusting oneâs gut â everything is done within the framework of a social context. Libra is very aware of the fact that one doesnât exist as an island unto oneself, thereâs other people that contribute to form oneâs own life. Being with the right people at the right place and the right time makes all the difference to who one is. Thereâs some validity to this perspective but itâs also very limited and superficial. By developing oneâs Sagittarian expression itâs possible to transcend the personal and the social and see others as fellow travelers of the world â equally independent and valuable despite all the differences. The Libra Moon is covertly competitive, giving off the impression that theyâre merely out to make everyone else feel respected and seen. In fact, to be pleasant is their agenda, to âwinâ at the social game. The Sagittarius Sun however, makes the person prone to be a little arrogant and blunt which could taint the perfect impression one is trying to preserve. Speaking first and thinking later could put this person in a tight spot of quickly trying to patch things up by doing the socially appropriate thing of apologizing or compensating for the slip-ups.
Sagittarius Sun â Cancer Moon
The optimistic and casual attributes of the ideal self becomes difficult to accommodate for in the midst of mood-swings, strong emotional attachments and apprehensiveness about the âworld out thereâ. The natural way of coping with life is through putting up strong defenses against threat. Thereâs great sensitivity and need of mothering, which the person seeks to provide for themselves â either through partnership, a family or perhaps a close circle of friends. The ability to care and support others through their ups and downs in life could earn them a positive reputation of being considerate and trust-worthy. However, the Sagittarian potential calls the person to develop qualities of openness, curiosity, fearlessness and trust. A spirit of adventure is worth cultivating while having a safe base to return to when the world starts to seem too harsh and inconsiderate. Sagittarius Suns are not very keen on admitting to vulnerability and weakness, but this combo requires these states to be factored in. To live as if thereâs no tomorrow and as if one is immortal and exempt from frailty is not possible to get away with. Feelings should not be viewed as an inconvenience, they should be valued for the experience they provide. Thereâs no use glossing-over personal and primal needs - they exist in their own right. I can picture this person as a parent, capable of being soft and gentle with the children yet ready to play and take them out on little adventures when the mood hits. Itâs after all not only important to provide shelter and protection but to instill an confidence that allows one to test limits and attempting to fulfill innate potential. Thereâs an element of trust that needs to be cultivated in order to venture outside of the safe zone, a trust in life to be helpful rather than destructive. These signs complement each other because they respresent different dynamics, on the Cancer end thereâs awareness of threats to survival and a feelings of vulnerability, on the Sagittarius end thereâs the pursuit of knowledge and freedom of the spirit. Cancer is primordial while Sagittarius is universal. Literary and philosophical knowledge might not make the person feel safe, but it will be how the person expresses their individuality.
Sagittarius Sun â Capricorn Moon
If this isnât the embodiment of the dutiful pursuer of truth I donât know what it is. Thereâs a need to achieve something of substance, of greatness. The feeling of abundance is not there from the get go, so the person has to summon their resources and use them wisely as to get ahead. The person is very controlled and conscious of how they present themselves, strategically trying to get everything right as to reach their long term goal. On the downside, thereâs a lot of internal pressure and inhibitions of spontaneity which would take a toll on them eventually. The path ahead is to develop the Sagittarian worldview of expansion and freedom rather than discipline and scarcity. Being spontaneous and enthusiastic about things is how the person will self-actualize. However, since the need is to stay within convention, thereâs a bit of a conflict present. Ideally, the person would combine the need to achieve worldly success and the pull to live a life free of responsibilities and commitments in honor of the eternal spirit. If the person decides to follow the beaten path of prestige and societal approval, there might be an inner urge to break free from all restrictions and limitations. It might be wise to try and combine the desire to move and explore with a sense of responsibility â to seek to accomplish something âworthwhileâ according to convention while being bold and passionate about it. The inner compulsion to always aim high could pay off, or it could make the person stressed and unproductive. The Sagittarian Sun indicates that there should be an attempt of freeing energy, of overcoming the burden of judgement, of rooting for life rather than mechanical and dead materia. The Sagittarian philosophy is that life is supposed to be lived, not boxed in and deemed as unworthy because of superficial lack. All life is worthy, and there need not be any punishment that is implied by the apparent boundaries of structure. The person could have a hard time accepting a more liberal world-view for themselves that doesnât define right and wrong so clearly. The Cap Moon is more or less tied to playing within the confines of structure, but with the Sagittarius Sun thereâs the potential for introducing variety, a broader perspective and a more optimistic attitude. The structures arenât set in place to enslave the human spirit, they should work for the expansion of all.
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Sagittarius Sun â Aries Moon
The warrior that strives to gain wisdom. The inborn personal attributes are that of force, competition and impulsiveness. The task is to mobilize these in order to actualize an identity of curiosity, independence and trust in a benevolent universe. The person might be quite aggressive in the pursuit of answers to the big questions in life, seeking challenge and confrontation with life as to test oneâs capacity to prevail and conquer. Thereâs a lot of energy to this combo â and a lot of emphasis on independence. The person would first and foremost stand up for themselves and leave others to do the same. Thereâs little tolerance for dependence as quality in others and in oneself. Strength is always emphasized â this person has nothing to gain from acting meek and vulnerable. Anger and frustration is the most common response to things that stand in the way â whether itâs an opinion another person holds or of itâs a literal lack of support â confrontation is the immediate reaction. Even if the person is quick to aggression, itâs usually easily diffused and forgotten. These fire signs live in the moment and are not prone to hold grudges. That being said â they wonât back down and is set on furthering themselves in all that their doing â especially if theyâre continually opposed. The Sagittarius Sun indicates that the person is supposed to seek knowledge and broaden their perspective through exposing themselves to variety of culture and thought-systems. Identity is found through sharing and consuming knowledge, through breathing life back into a world of stagnation. The Aries Moon jumps on every opportunity to excel and to be the best, providing a fighting spirit to the more casually bold Sagittarian Sun. The person would be prone to provoke people unnecessarily, always wanting to compete and lead the way. However, the expression of the fire signs is usually so direct and uncalculated that it comes off as pure, even though itâs fundamentally self-centered, At least, it is honest and relatively uncomplicated. The Aries directness further enhances the Sagittarian tendency to speak the truth no matter the cost. Not to mention, the Sagittarian proclivity to be scattered and all over the place is counteracted a bit by the simple and straight-forward Arien nature.
Sagittarius Sun â Aquarius Moon
This combo represents the peak of objective perspective. The person is emotionally separated from the irrational, moody and earthy human condition. One lives for potential and that which can be found beyond the horizon. Thereâs likely to be a restlessness and annoyance with the current society and other peopleâs limited perspective. Ordinary and mundane is so âyesterdayâ, itâs a pity that one canât be rid of the current unevolved existence and jump to the future without having to go through a long and process of unnecessary in-between states. The person is likely to be the type to hang out in the thought-scape rather than on the earth-plane. Thereâs a tendency to get bored very quickly and be a bit uninterested in idle conversation and interaction with other people who are light years behind in the progression of thought. The path for this person is to cultivate passion and inspired involvement in worldly knowledge â to read and educate oneself in order to get a more well-rounded picture of what it means to be alive. Sagittarius is all about spreading truth and connection to essence, while Aquarius is more about the fixed thought-based blueprint that dictates form. Thereâs a coolness to this person that is their fundamental nature â itâs not rooted in being but rather in becoming. Sagittarius is not cool but vibrant and alive, ready to interact with the variety of expressions of the universal spirit. The personâs task is to become through being, to find the face of self in all fleeting experiences and appreciate them as they come and go. Thereâs value in the brokenness, thereâs beauty in the imperfect. The Aquarius Moon might have a hard time viewing life in this way, having to label and categorize and put things into context. Itâs worth to consciously develop the capacity to perceive meaning in experiences, to connect to the intelligent source of life that is not found through perfection but underlying everything. Thereâs more to life than hacking the blueprint and getting things to work better, look better or feel better. Thereâs mysterious inner wisdom that is untamed and unbound, intelligently guiding oneâs steps on the path of higher truth. To put in a word of caution, it might be tempting to view oneself as more important or superior than people with more primordial natures and simple minds. Itâs true that people are different, but everyone plays a part in life however big or small.
Sagittarius Sun â Scorpio Moon
This is a freedom-lover, an explorer and an emotionally volatile individual. Thereâs a need to test, to push, to provoke while keeping all the vulnerable parts of oneself tucked away where they canât be reached. The fundamental nature of this person is extremely sensitive to violation and feels things strongly. Thereâs an inner fear of being controlled or deceived to the point of paranoia. This is not to suggest that the Scorpio Moon radar is faulty and sees threat where there is none, itâs just that they canât allow themselves to put their guard down. Ever. Through developing a Sagittarian individuality, thereâs likely to be an increase in playfulness and chill, but at the core thereâs always going to be suspicion. The person would want to promote the truth as a part of their individuality, to inspire and lift peopleâs spirits. However, the personal need for secrecy and privacy would present a contradiction. Thereâs an impulse to live out a destructive nature, to revel in powerful emotions and let people know that they shouldnât be messed with. While the Sagittarian tendency is to view experiences from a âhigher perspectiveâ of belief and philosophy, the Scorpio seeks to penetrate or be penetrated energetically. There are three choices in the book of Scorpio; being attacked, attack or hide. Although Sagittarius is bold and willing to take risks because thereâs an attitude of optimism in everything they do, a proclivity to say things as they are and be honest, the person will not share things that can be used against them (if they can help it). The strength of these signs are very different, but they could potentially work together relatively successfully. The emphasis could be to make people aware of the power-holds and dishonesty that takes place underneath the surface layers of society and reality, to uncover and reveal things about others or oneself that grabs peopleâs attention and makes a statement. Transformation and truth is what this person is ultimately after and it could be pursued in all kinds of ways. It would be important to remember to keep the Scorpio paranoia in check and to be a little careful of boasting and inflating oneâs ego unnecessarily. One has to show respect in order for other people to be willing to be respectful in turn. That being said, it is appropriate to call people out on their bullshit from time to time.
Sagittarius Sun - Taurus Moon
The path of self-actualization is to expose oneself to a variety of experiences while the personal need is to provide oneself with things of material value. The need to possess and have things be tangibly present in order to feel good doesnât really go together with the realm of spirit. The Sagittarius Sun perceives the world in terms of higher truth â and itâs not an ultimate truth that a house provides stability. Yet, the person would need the material representation of safety and could not deny the importance of the physical realm. The development of the Sagittarian identity would take the person into the realm of abstraction rather than tangible perception. Life opens up and is more than what needs to be done on a routine basis. The earthy and stubborn temperament would be balanced out by the desire to introduce new impressions and new experiences. The need for a solid âliving and workingâ situation would prevail, but the person would ultimately aim higher than that in terms of individuation. Some Sagittarius Suns would be content with exploring their interests in private, to explore fascinating topics that adds to their own life while other would have to venture out into the physical world â to smell, see and touch different countries, to be in the sensory experience of it all. Taurus is a very physical sign and would likely appreciate the concreteness of experiencing something in the flesh rather than as an abstraction. The ability to picture things vividly in the thought scape sometimes doesnât come as easily to more earthy temperaments. This could make it difficult to get excited about something without actually being in the actual excitement. However, the Sagittarian Sun has the potential to provide a great intuitive and creative capacity. This combo could be indicative of a person that is keen on securing a predictable future and predictable present while not taking it all too seriously. Whatever happens, itâs fine. Life goes on and one can trust that things are going to work out â not that itâs going to fix itself but that one has the stubbornness and stamina to see things through. It also gives the person a willingness to not only be concerned with the material aspect of life, but to see meaning in experiences as they unfold and present themselves.
Sagittarius Sun â Leo Moon
Honoring oneself through living out inherent greatness is of utmost importance. The person needs to know that they are whole and magnificent without having to explore and expand through the experience of variety and diversity â however, they could use their knowledge and insight to enhance their authority. The person would feel as if they were blessed from birth with a specialness and a right to be admired and loved. The need to occupy space and claim a place of importance is pressing for this individual. Speaking their opinion, retelling stories and dwelling on the subject of oneâs involvement in significant events would be typical. I make it sound as if itâs done in order to compensate for a sense of inferiority, and it could be, but often Leo Moons have a genuine air about them that is magical and captivating. The person would be inclined to dramatize their life, to demonstrate their radiance through everything they do. With a Sagittarius Sun, it would optimally be done through travel and the experience of culture, religion and ancient wisdom. Everything has to be profound and glorious with this person â grace and charm is what they embody without trying. What the person needs to develop throughout life is more of a casual nature, a broader perspective and a recognition of peopleâs sameness. Leoâs tendency is to enhance personhood and not be overly concerned with the universal spirit â the universal self. Sagittarius knows that the same life that is oneself is also found in the rest of the existence. By developing the Sagittarian identity, the person doesnât have to tone themselves down and live as if their separate self wasnât worth promoting. The person could sustain a sense of specialness and still acknowledge other peopleâs beauty and rightful participation in life. It would be wise to keep in mind that thereâs a big risk to always assume that one is right. Although Sagittarius provide a sense of openness and willingness to adapt and blend in with the spirit of the location, Leo needs to claim and dominate the environment theyâre in, the conversation theyâre in. This doesnât necessarily go over well if itâs done with arroganceâ otherâs would easily feel diminished and disrespected. However, if the person is more mature, this need to shine could be felt as a genuine, benevolent presence that makes other people comfortable.
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Anyone who hangs about Twitter potentially saw an unfortunate Hordak take cross their timelines today.Â
As is custom on this blog, Iâll be taking it apart for my own personal amusement (and for the amusement of any of yâall who like to watch me do so). I doubt the poster will see this, as theyâre on Twitter and not apparently on here, but in case they do: this is for my own enjoyment and the enjoyment of followers; it absolutely does not need to be responded to if thatâs not your cup of tea.Â
So, that little disclaimer in place, letâs see what we can make of this! Because this is on Medium, Iâll be using screenshots as quotes; just a heads-up.
So... this first bit isnât really anything Hordak-related. Itâs more... fandom drama, I suppose? Not really something I can pick apart. I can, however, give my own personal opinion on this sort of thing, for what itâs worth.
Itâs true that people can and should be able to feel whichever way they wish about a character. And to talk about that character.Â
However: it is also true that people who dislike Hordak can be very unpleasant in making that known to those of us who enjoy him. Including descending into personal insults for no discernible reason. Add to that the fact that his character means a great deal to some fans for intensely personal reasons, and it is not difficult to see why some fans arenât keen to see anti-Hordak content on their timelines, in their mentions, etc.
Censoring character hate isnât a requirement, but in some circumstances, it can simply be a polite thing to do. It doesnât take great effort, and it prevents people from experiencing just another bit of unpleasantness on their social media. And if you donât want to do it? Well, thatâs your right; but donât be shocked when people voice their displeasure by replying to your words. Because that is their right.
And thatâs all I really have to say about that.Â
Odd way to phrase things, really. These arenât âreasons to forgive.â The first two scenes involve Catraâs asphyxiations and are things that would need to be forgiven, not things to forgive.
Though, yâknow, I really only apply that to the first scene, where he assaults her without her necessarily doing anything wrong. Mind you, I believe he does it out of a combination of needing to maintain a hierarchy for safety purposes (this is a man who needs people to be afraid of him to maintain his own safety) and poor leadership skills mimicked from a narcissist, but itâs still a terrible thing.
However! The second time? After he asks her about Shadow Weaver? This isnât torture-fun-times. This is Hordak neutralizing a threat to the entire Horde. Because that is what Catra is in this moment: a threat to the security and wellbeing of him and the entirety of the Fright Zone. She lies about a critical mistake. She proves herself to not only have poor judgment in serious matters, but to be very willing to lie about it in order to guard her own selfish motives. While I canât condone the method Hordak uses, I do wish people would stop using this second instance of punishment as some sort of proof-of-torture. He does not do this for no reason. He does it because Catra released a dangerous prisoner into the wild and lied about it. And his concerns over it ultimately prove correct.
This entire qualification doesnât have much to do with whether he deserves forgiveness or not, but itâs a point I want to make because it combats this idea that Hordak did this to an innocent girl âfor no reasonâ or âjust to be cruel.â Thatâs simply not the case; no matter how unpleasant the method, Hordak is a military leader punishing a subordinate for seriously endangering him and everyone else in the organization. Badly. I donât know what the equivalent would be in modern military, but Catraâs error is massive. It doesnât make what Hordak does right, but it does give a reason other than a simple âheâs a bad, bad man.â So.
Adding this scene is... actually kind of odd because he doesnât really do anything to Adora here. And also: this scene is... whatâs the word... meaningful-in-hindsight, so to speak. Essentially: in this scene, Adora is claiming that Hordak is responsible for stealing her, for robbing her of a peaceful life with her family. And Hordak is claiming that he neither knows nor cares who she is, and that she does not matter to him.Â
The interesting aspect of this scene, and something that OP fails to acknowledge at all, is that both Adora and Hordak are wrong.
letâs see if I can talk about this without crying... nope, already starting to tear up
Hordak never stole Adora; Light Hope did. Hordak did not orchestrate this unfortunate life for her. Rather, Hordak, a lost clone dealing with his own insecurities and fears and problems, found an equally lost infant in a field and gave her the only home he really knew how to create (and one that, for its flaws, was still better than the absolute nightmare he was âraisedâ in). In all likelihood, given Light Hopeâs lack of understanding of infants, he probably saved Adoraâs life by doing this: without him, she may well have perished alone in that field.
Hordak likewise does remember her, eventually. And she is not inconsequential to him: by saving her, he ends up saving himself, and all of his brothers. By forging this near-unknown bond with her all those years ago, by choosing to take in an infant rather than letting her die, he plays a key role in deciding the fate of the universe.Â
This scene that OP sarcastically claims is a reason Hordak shouldnât be forgiven has a sibling:

The fact that OP apparently fails to recognize this and realize that these are the only two moments in the series during which Adora and Hordak directly interact, that theyâre a pair, means that OP misses the connection between the two and the significance of how they misjudge one another initially. It indicates a lack of understanding of the themes of the show: themes centered around connections with other people, love, and forgiveness. Which, given the contents of this essay, is unsurprising.
Moving on!
Yâknow, whether or not one believes, in terms of definition, that Hordak is a colonizer (I personally donât for pedantic and clone-cult reasons, but thatâs not really relevant to this post), itâs interesting that OP notes how Stevenson confirms that he is... but conveniently leaves out the part where she confirms that he did it because he was brainwashed.
Thatâs... an important piece of information to leave out when discussing whether Hordak should be forgiven or not. A very important piece.
And it doesnât really matter whether heâs a colonizer or a conqueror; the reason it comes up is because people seem very stuck in the mindset of âif itâs a colonizer, it must dieâ without acknowledging any sort of nuance. Thereâs also the question of whether what Hordak did actually caused the same sort of upheaval and lasting damage we see resulting from legitimate colonization, and all of the implications of that, but this isnât really the place to go into that. Honestly, I donât really think SPoP as a whole is the place to go into that.
No. Hordak is not the person who taught her all of these things.Â
Shadow Weaver is.
Hordak did not personally teach her that Princesses are evil. He did not teach her that wanton cruelty is fine in getting oneâs own way. He did not feed her propaganda.Â
Actually, as an aside: can we even confirm that Catra ever thought that Princesses where evil? I mean... she works with Scorpia, and she has no apparent morals to speak of. She does as she wishes for her own personal gain, not because she displays any sense of âfighting the evil Princesses.â And in terms of disposing of Entrapta because she was âmanipulatedâ into viewing Princesses as evil: Catra disposes of everyone. She manipulates and uses everyone. That is one of the key aspects of her arc: she uses and abuses people for personal gain. She does this whether they are Princesses or not: just see Lonnie, Rogelio, and Kyle. Add to this the fact that Catra, from the first season, knows that she and Adora have been lied to, manipulated, and that the Horde is in fact evil, and... this entire line of reasoning falls apart.Â
None of this is an attempt to âabsolve Hordak of blame.â Hordak just... legitimately had no hand in raising any of the children. That was not his role (and while I know that this was confirmed by Stevenson at some point, I donât have memory of where; potentially the last podcast?). And Catra did not operate on any sort of propaganda that she actually believed in: she simply used and disposed of people as she saw fit because she cared more about her own rise to power than she did about those around her. This was one of her major character flaws, and really? Trying to pin this on Hordak, or even fully pin it on Shadow Weaver? It absolves Catra of the blame, of the intentional bad choices she made (as emphasized by Adora) and thus weakens her entire arc.
All in all: Hordak may have created a poor environment for the raising of children, but of note is the fact that only Catra turns out this way. The other kids, whatever their problems, are not in the habit of manipulating friends, lying to them, using them, and then tossing them aside. That is a Catra Problem. Part of this can be attributed to Shadow Weaver (who only treated Catra in the poorest way), and part of it is just... Catra being not-the-best.
All right. Now we get to the really disingenuous portion of the essay.
First, as just stated: Hordak is not Catraâs abuser. Shadow Weaver is. Hordak had no hand in raising her. Hordak did not direct Shadow Weaver to abuse her. Hordak did not personally feed Catra anti-Princess propaganda, and even if he had, we know by the first season that Catra sees through whatever propaganda she was exposed to and has no actual moral objections to Princesses. But thatâs not the main aspect of this portion that irks me.Â
The main aspect that irks me is that this is not the scene Hordak stans mark as abusive. And I cannot imagine that OP does not know this.
But letâs talk about this scene, for a moment, before getting to the actual, legitimate abuse.
OP talks about his scene almost flippantly:Â âHordak finds out Catra lied about Entrapta, he becomes angry and attacks her with a clear plan to kill her.â
Yes. Yes, he "becomes angry.â He becomes angry and attacks because as far as he knows, Catra killed Entrapta. This isnât some annoyed âyou lied to me!â moment. He legitimately thinks Entrapta is dead because Catra sent her to Beast Island. OP just blissfully glosses over the fact that Hordak is attacking Catra in rage and grief because Catra, as far as either of them know, killed his only friend and then lied about it for approximately a year. Like... how do you gloss over that in discussing this scene? How do you gloss over the enormity of what Catra did, and the unimaginable pain Hordak experiences when finding out?
So. The writeup of this scene is poor. It misses all of the emotion, all of the reality of what Catra did and what Hordak felt. But! Thatâs not even the unfortunate part of this portion. Letâs get to the real disingenuity.
This is the abusive scene. This is that stomach-turning moment when Catra removes a disabled manâs ability to move with dignity and without pain solely to force him to escalate a war for her own personal benefit.
Hordak is not a danger to her here. Hordak has not been a danger to her for a while because he has been holed up in his private quarters, trying to deal with the emotional fallout of Entrapta supposedly betraying him. He wants nothing to do with Catra. He wants to lick his wounds and gather himself and somehow heal from this deep personal pain thatâs been inflicted upon him.
And thatâs a problem for Catra because it stands in the way of her using the war as a way to best Adora.
So Catra identifies Hordakâs physical weakness and exploits it for the purpose of spiting her ex.
The fact that OP completely fails to acknowledge any of this is... well. Disingenuous. Absolutely so.
The next portion of the essay talks about people feeling that Catra was too easily forgiven and isnât really Hordak-centric; I wonât really go into it here. Moving forward:
Ah, one of the most annoying questions I see asked. Letâs, again, acknowledge and move past the fact that Hordak was not actually Catraâs abuser...
When, pray tell, was Hordak supposed to show this remorse? When? While he was serving on Primeâs ship, trying to forget the pain of losing Entrapta, of failing to prove himself, of losing everything? Should he have done it while screaming in agony in the purification pool? Should he have done so while alone on Primeâs ship, trying to serve quietly while piecing together his memories?
Not only was Hordak simply not in a position, narratively, to go into a whole remorse bit, but he had other problems. Like, life-endangering problems.Â
The appropriate time to go into his feelings on Etheria and the Princesses and All of That would have been after Primeâs defeat, upon Hordakâs re-introduction to Etheria... but then the show ended. So.
Agh, vulgar. Taking a brainwashed, conditioned slave and bastardizing his triumph at finally seeing himself as a real person, instead claiming that his intent was to glorify his own misdeeds. No. Just... no.
Again: this is not the time for guilt. And it is a demonstration of why guilt and remorse were not front-and-center in Hordakâs arc during season five: his arc was about finally realizing that he was his own person, a person worthy of identity and love and care and freedom. And this arc culminated in him separating himself from his abuser and declaring his personhood.Â
That is what this scene is: not Hordak reveling in his makeshift empire, or in the terrible deeds heâd committed, but in declaring himself his own person.Â
I should hope that he is proud of doing that. Iâm proud of him for doing that daunting feat, of defeating his abuser and defying his god and recognizing that he is worthy of more than what Prime thought of him. And I recognize Entraptaâs role in it: not as the sole inspiration for his change, but as someone who showed him a foundation of love and acceptance, someone who introduced him to the idea that he was worthy of care and happiness and affection simply because he was a living being, no strings attached.
Trying to shoehorn in some sort of claim that this is about pride in his misdeeds, rather than joy at finally accepting his own sense of self is a massive misinterpretation of this scene, a misunderstanding of Entraptaâs role in Hordakâs arc, and... can I say itâs disingenuous again? Because Iâm going to: itâs disingenuous.
All right; weâre at the end. And while the first sentence here is something I absolutely agree with - the decision to forgive Hordak is personal and subjective both for viewers and for in-show characters - the whole conclusion falls apart from there.
It highlights another glaring omission from OPâs arguments: the fact that Hordak is a brainwashed clone slave.
Hordak did not choose to âspend his life trying to prove his worth to Horde Prime.â He did not choose the method of said proving: that Prime would look kindly upon conquering rather than some other task. And he did not choose to have certain concepts and ideas (all beings must suffer to become pure; all creatures, no matter how small, have a place in service of Horde Prime; failure is when something ceases to serve a purpose) conditioned into him.
Hordak was manufactured as a cultist slave. He was âbornâ with hardware implanted into his body against his will to better control him. He was indoctrinated and brainwashed to the point that he believed that Horde Prime was his literal god - and in a way, Prime was, because he could mentally invade and possess and physically control the clones whenever he wished.Â
Hordak was not allowed to have a sense of self. He was not allowed to have a name. He was not allowed to express emotions. He was not allowed to live without that life serving to glorify Horde Prime. Hordak was so absolutely sick with this mentality that he saw himself as a failure due to physical disability and assumed it was his responsibility to fix that.Â
The idea that Hordak simply chose to do what he did, that he had the same foundational morality and mindset as any ânormalâ person might, shows a glaring lack of understanding even the basics of his narrative.Â
Yes: Hordak did bad things. But he did them for legitimately tragic, nigh-horrifying reasons that this essay just ignores for the sake of... I donât know? Trying to justify OPâs distaste for the character? I am uncertain. But itâs a mark of a poor essay, of a poor understanding of the character, and is honestly just disappointing to read when the show itself tries so hard to drive home its wonderful, hopeful themes through Hordakâs story.
Whether one forgives Hordak or not is oneâs personal choice, but I certainly hope one makes said choice with better insight into his character than this essay provides.
#discourse#hordak#I wonder if I come off as too sassy in this but honestly this essay was a chore to read#so much was just ignored or misinterpreted#it was like a willful misrepresention of Hordak's character and I did not like it
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Is it Legit: Part 2

Today weâre going to look at a shiny Oranguru that was traded to me via Wonder Trade in PokĂŠmon Sun. Iâve since moved him to PokĂŠmon Shield which is risky business for a PokĂŠmon of uncertain origin but I was fairly certain that he was the real deal (or close enough but weâll get to that later). Since I wasnât banned or suspended from PokĂŠmon Bank or PokĂŠmon Home, I can assume with confidence that my assumptions were correct. But how did I know?
Quick Note About Pokerus
Pokerus is often an indicator, or at least an orange flag, that a PokĂŠmon has been hacked. However, itâs important to note what type of Pokerus. Active Pokerus is much more of an orange flag than latent Pokerus, which is what my Oranguru has.

Hereâs my Dragapult who has active Pokerus, which means she could spread it to other PokĂŠmon in the party with her. This is what hackers typically add to PokĂŠmon because itâs more valuable to be able to spread Pokerus to other PokĂŠmon. A quick note for those who donât know, Pokerus is a rare but beneficial virus that PokĂŠmon can suddenly develop or catch from other infected PokĂŠmon.
In this case I exposed my Oranguru to Pokerus so thereâs no worries either way. Now weâre going to go through the same steps in my last post to confirm his legitimacy.

1. Is it met on an impossible date?
It seems that bringing him to Galar has lost the date that he was captured on but it was not impossible.
2. Did it meet the OT in an impossible place?
Again, weâre not given a lot of information here but thatâs ok. A lot of hacked PokĂŠmon will say that they were met in a âfateful encounterâ. This is reserved for event PokĂŠmon and some wild Mythical PokĂŠmon. Event PokĂŠmon will often also state that they were an online present but not always.
3. Is it inside a Ball Combination that could not exist for the game the PokĂŠmon came from?
No, Luxury balls are accessible in PokĂŠmon Sun and Moon.
4. Was the PokĂŠmon met at an illegal level?
I havenât changed my Oranguruâs level so we can assume it was met somewhere around the level itâs at. However, shiny Oranguru who are caught by SOS chaining can be level 17 in Lush Jungle, so this makes sense.

5. Does it have perfect IVs?
As you can see, Oranguruâs IVs are less than impressive. If someone was chaining in hopes of finding a competitive ready PokĂŠmon they would see this and be disappointed, which might explain why his original trainer decided to part with him in the first place.
6. Does it have an illegal moveset?
PokĂŠmon Home has a feature where it will remove any moves from a PokĂŠmon that are not legal for the game that itâs porting into (this is for game balance mostly because some legit moves are not supported in the newer games but it would also alter a hacked PokĂŠmonâs moveset potentially). Oranguru kept all of his moves that he had in Alola though so heâs fine.
7. Does the PokĂŠmon have the name of a streaming website or words that would normally be censored?
Nope! Heâs just Oranguru.

Analyzing the Information
All signs point to Oranguru having been shiny hunted, probably via SOS chain, and then discarded for whatever reason (my guess is stats). We can only guess at the OTâs motives but nothing stands out as being suspicious for Oranguru.
Does that mean heâs legit?
People in the PokĂŠmon community use the word âlegitâ to describe a PokĂŠmon who definitely entered the game through legitimate means. What a lot of people donât realize is there are no definitive ways to identify whether a PokĂŠmon is legit or not outside of the knowledge of your own PokĂŠmon that you get from your own games. Every time you do a high value trade with another trainer you are trusting that the PokĂŠmon is legitimate (unless of course they are forthcoming about it being otherwise).
But I thought you said Oranguru isnât hacked?
I donât think he is based on our criteria and the fact that I wasnât banned from using PokĂŠmon services after putting him there. But he still could be cloned. A clone is a complete and perfect copy of an original PokĂŠmon. Some streamers will utilize them to do mass giveaways and some people will utilize them to make multiple high value trades (after all, there are some PokĂŠmon like Marshadow that sell for actual money). The thing is, you can identify if a PokĂŠmon is hacked but thereâs no way to identify a clone because it would just look like a normal PokĂŠmon!

Should I worry about clones?
This is more of a personal opinion. Some people really agonize over whether their PokĂŠmon are legit or not and some people donât care. The only reason I care personally is because hacked PokĂŠmon can get you banned from PokĂŠmon services. Would I use those PokĂŠmon? Probably not because I appreciate the value of working hard to achieve a desired result and it seems cheap to go into competitive with a hacked shiny. As for clones, why worry about something you canât control? Maybe the Articuno I won in a contest recently is a clone? Iâll never know! But he makes me happy so why stress?
So Oranguru and my Articuno both fall into a class of PokĂŠmon that people call âlegalâ, which means that they are accepted by PokĂŠmon services as being okay for competitive and other services. Could they be legitimate too? Yes but we canât prove that, so if I were thinking of trading either one I would need to list them as âlegalâ if I were communicating directly with the person I was trading with and not âlegitimateâ because I didnât catch them myself.

If you are worried about clones you essentially cannot trade online with confidence, which will greatly limit your experience with PokĂŠmon in general. So in my opinion: donât stress out, play the game and have fun!
As a follow up to this post, soon Iâll be writing, âHow to Navigate a High Value Trade.â Look out for that post in the future! Until then, happy hunting! â¨
#pokĂŠmon#shiny pokemon#shiny hunting#shiny pokĂŠmon#shinyhunters#pokemon#pokĂŠmon go#pokĂŠmon sword and shield#pokĂŠmon sun and moon#pokĂŠmon home
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incoming long list of incorrect quotes because im getting annoying on discord so you people have to deal with me now
Kei: Looking left cause you donât treat me right
Han: Looking right because you left
Rose: Looking up cause you let me down
Oliver: Looking down cause you fucked up
Blair: What is wrong with you guys
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Kei: Bridge the generation gap by combining old and new slang into one!
Han: Tubular AF!
Rose: Mood to the max!
Oliver, annoyed: Groovy, I hate it.
Blair, just as annoyed: If she breathes, sheâs a square.
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Kei: Whatâs something you guys are better than Han at?
Rose: Mario Kart.
Oliver: Yeah, video games.
Blair: Emotional vulnerability.
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Kei: There are seven chairs and ten kids. What do you do?
Han: Have everyone stand.
Rose: Bring three more chairs!
Oliver: The most important ones can sit down.
Blair: Kill three.
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Kei: Favorite horror movie?
Han: It
Rose: Saw
Oliver: Annabelle
Blair: High School Musical. after watching it I spent all my middle school years terrified that the entire school would start singing something and Iâd be the only one who didnât know the lyrics
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Kei: Poison is a magic transmutation potion that turns people into corpses.
Han: This knife is actually a magic wand.
Rose: Meet me in the Dennyâs parking lot for a wizard duel.
Oliver: *cocks gun* Magic missile.
Blair: What the fuck is wrong with you people.
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Kei: Imagine if someone handed you a box full of all the items you have lost throughout your life
Han: Self-esteem, haven't seen you in years!
Rose: Oh wow, my childhood innocence! Thank you for finding this!
Oliver: I knew I lost that potential somewhere!
Blair: My moral code, is that you?
Kei:
Kei: I was just gonna show you this cool trunk my mother left me but do you guys need a hug?
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Kei: What if the person who named Walkie Talkies named everything?
Han: Pregnancy tests are Maybe Babies
Blair: Socks are Feetie Heaties
Oliver: Forks are Stabby Grabbies
Han: Defibrillators are Heartie Starties
Blair: Nightmares are Dreamy Screamies
Oliver: Stamps are Lickie Stickies
Rose, annoyed: You are disappointments
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Kei: Where's Han, Rose, and Oliver?
Blair: They're playing hide and seek.
Kei: Where?
Blair: I don't think you get how this game works.
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Kei: You kidnapped Han? Thatâs illegal!
Rose: But Kei, whatâs more illegal? Briefly inconveniencing Han, or destroying our dreams?
Kei: Kidnapping Han, Rose!!!
Oliver: Kei, listen, whatever I may think of you right now- these guys are counting on you to inspire them!
Kei: What, to kidnap people?!?!
Oliver: To work together!
Kei: TO KIDNAP PEOPLE?!?!?!?!
Blair: Kei, we all agreed a Han is a not a people.
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Kei: Anyone d-
Han: Depressed?
Rose: Drained?
Oliver: Dumb?
Blair: Disliked?
Kei: -done with their work... what is wrong with you people ...
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Kei: Nothing in life is free.
Han: Love is free!
Rose: Adventure is free.
Oliver: Knowledge is free.
Blair: Everything is free if you take it without paying.
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Kei: We need more help. Maybe I should call my friends.
Han: ... Your what?
Kei: My friends.
Rose: Are they saying âfriendsâ?
Oliver: I think they're being sarcastic.
Blair: No, no, no, this is delirium, they've cracked from being awake all night. Hey, Kei! All of your friends are in this room.
Kei: I have other friends! You asked me to make new friends, I made new friends! It was a task. I complete tasks.
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Kei: Good responses for being stabbed with a knife?
Han: Rude.
Rose: Thatâs fair.
Oliver: Not again.
Blair: Are you going to want this back?
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Kei: Are we really going to let Han keep Rose?
Oliver: We kept Blair.
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Kei: What does 'take out' mean?
Han: Food.
Rose: Dating
Oliver: Murder
Blair: IT CAN MEAN ALL THREE IF YOU'RE NOT A COWARD.
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Kei: If you bite it and you die, itâs poisonous. If it bites you and you die, itâs venomous.
Han: What if it bites me and it dies!?
Rose: Then youâre poisonous. Jesus Christ, Han, learn to listen.
Oliver: What if it bites itself and I die?
Blair: Thatâs voodoo.
Himari: What if it bites me and someone else dies?
Han: Thatâs correlation, not causation.
Oliver: What if we bite each other, and neither of us die?
Blair: Thatâs kinky.
Kei: Oh my God.
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*The squad is over at Kei's house*
Han: Ohhhh, we each get our own oven?
Kei: ... N-No...
Kei, laughing: How many ovens do you think I have???
Han, motioning to their kitchen: Three, I thought!
Rose: I see a-
Kei, motioning to one device: This is a microwave.
Han: Oh, well I-
Kei: Hey wait wait, actually- hang on- *fiddles with the buttons on the microwave*
Kei, amazed: Its got a bake setting!
Oliver: Ohoho, you learn something new every day!
Blair: Do we- Do we roshambo for who gets to pick first?
Kei: Now I've just discovered I have more ovens than I thought, we don't have to roshambo nothin!
Kei: I am someone who owns four ovens...
Kei, louder and way too happy: I am someone... who owns FOUR OVENS...
Kei: I didn't know I was so rich with ovens...
Himari, pointing to another appliance: Also the toaster oven!
Kei:
Han: Ohhh, toasty boy! Four- Five ovens!
Kei:
Kei, fucking ECSTATIC: I AM SOMEONE WHO OWNS FIVE OVENS
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Kei: Rules are made to be broken.
Han: They were made to be followed. Nothing is made to be broken.
Rose: Uh, piĂąatas.
Oliver: Glow sticks.
Blair: Karate boards.
Himari: Spaghetti when you have a small pot.
Kei: Rules.
Han:
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Kei: Who the fuck added me to a fucking group chat?
Han: >:O language
Rose: Yeah watch your fucking language
Oliver: OKAY WHO TAUGHT ROSE THE FUCK WORD?
Blair: 'The fuck word'.
Himari: Are you stupid? You guys use the f word all the time
Rose: Oh my god they censored it
Blair: Say fuck, Himari.
Rose: Do it, Himari. Say fuck.
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'Can I copy the homework?'
Kei: I can help you with it!
Han: Yeah, sure.
Rose: Bold of you to assume I did the homework.
Oliver: lol nope.
Blair: Wait, we had homework?!?!?!
Himari: *Read 5:55pm*
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Kei: Time for plan G.
Han: Donât you mean plan B?
Kei: No, we tried plan B a long time ago. I had to skip over plan C due to technical difficulties.
Rose: What about plan D?
Kei: Plan D was that desperate disguise attempt half an hour ago.
Oliver: What about plan E?
Kei: Iâm hoping not to use it. Blair dies in plan E.
Himari: I like plan E.
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Kei: We need to distract these guys
Han: Leave it to me
Han: Centaurs have six limbs and are therefore insects. Discuss.
Rose, Oliver, and Blair: *Immediately begin arguing*
Himari, watching in horror: Oh this. I donât like this. I don't like this at all.
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*The squad right before Kei's wedding*
Han: Well I have to go, I have a wedding to attend.
Rose: Wait... Oh! I have a wedding to attend too!
Oliver: Oh, I have a wedding to attend as well
Blair: I THINK WE ALL HAVE WEDDINGS TO ATTEND
Himari, panicked: I THINK I HAVE A WEDDING TO OFFICIATE
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Kei: Croissants: dropped
Han: Road: works ahead
Rose: BBQ sauce: on my titties
Oliver: Shavacado: fre
Blair: Miss Keisha: fuckin dead
Himari:
Himari, grumpy: I didnât understand a single word of that and I hate every single one of you.
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Kei: Everytime I hear someone talking about updog, Iâm torn between not wanting to fall for it and wanting to help them complete their joke.
Han: Okay, but what is updog?
Rose: Updog is a long sausage in a bun, often served with ketchup, mustard, onions, and/or relish.
Oliver: Not, thatâs a hot dog. An updog is when a new version or patch of an application is released.
Blair: No, that's an update. Youâre thinking of the fourth largest city in Sweden.
Himari: Surely, thatâs Uppsala, whereâs updog is the giant spider in Harry Potter.
Kei: Thatâs Aragog. Updog is a symbol conventionally used for an arbitrarily small number in analysis proofs.
Oliver: Youâre thinking of epsilon. Updog is an upward-moving air current.
Rose: No, thatâs an updraft. An updog is the modern version of a henway.
Han: Whatâs a henway??
Kei: Oh, about five pounds.
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Kei: Just be yourself.
Han: 'Be myself'? Kei, I have one day to win Rose over. How long did it take before you guys started liking me?
Oliver: Couple weeks.
Blair: Six months.
Himari: Juryâs still out.
Han: See, Kei?
Han: 'Be myself'. What kind of garbage advice is that?
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Kei: I CAN'T DO IT!
Han, laughing: I CAN'T EITHER!
Kei: I CANT FUCKING DO IT ANYMORE
Rose: WELL I'LL TELL YOU WHAT, YOU CAN EITHER GIVE UP NOW, OR YOU CAN FIGURE IT OUT. BECAUSE WE CERTAINLY CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT YOU, AND WE KNOW YOU CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT US.
Kei:
Kei: I appreciate it,
Kei: BUT LOOK WHAT WE'RE DEALING WITH-
Oliver: Kei-
Kei: YOU GOTTA DRAW THE LINE SOMEWHERE!
Blair: Kei we gotta-
Kei: YOU GOTTA DRAW A FUCKING LINE IN THE SAND. YOU GOTTA MAKE A STATEMENT.
Kei: YOU GOTTA LOOK INSIDE YOURSELF AND SAY 'What am I willing to put up with today?'
Kei, motioning to Himari: NOT FUCKING THIS
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*Squad reactions to being told âI love youâ*
Kei: Thanks fam!
Han: oh no
Rose: *cries* I love you too
Oliver: Sounds fake but okay
Blair: *A flustered mess*
Himari: can i get a refund
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Kei: Hewwo.
Han: Hihiiiiii!
Rose: Greetings, Humans.
Blair: Three kinds of people.
Oliver: I want pudding.
Kei: Four kinds of people.
Himari: WHATâS UP FUCKERS?
Blair: Five kinds of people.
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Kei, walking into their house: Hello, people who do not live here.
Han: Hey.
Rose: Hi.
Oliver: Hello.
Blair: Hey!
Kei: I gave you the key to my place for emergencies only!
Himari: We were out of Doritos.
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Kei: *Posts a super low-quality image to the group chat*
Han: If I had a dollar for every pixel in this image, Iâd have 15 cents
Kei: If I had a dollar for every ounce of rage I felt in my body after I read this text, I would have enough money to buy a cannon to fire at you
Rose: Actually I did the math, Han would have $225, not $0.15.
Han: Fam Iâm right here....
Oliver: If I had a dollar I would buy a can of soda :)
Kei: while youâre there could you buy me an apply juice please?
Oliver: Sorry I only have a dollar
Kei: :(
Rose: Hey I just realized my friend is right, Han would have $22,500 because it's a dollar for every pixel, not a cent
Oliver: If I had $22,500 I would buy a can of soda and an apply juice
Rose: You can buy anything you want with $22,500
Blair: Yeah and they want soda and apply juice
Rose: Apply juice to what
Himari: Directly to the forehead
Han: Great chat everyone
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Kei: Would you guys be there for me if I was going through something?
Han: Nope, absolutely not.
Rose: I hope it sucks, whatever you're going through.
Oliver: I hope it emotionally scars you for the rest of your life.
Blair: I hope you reach out to me so I can ignore you.
Himari: I can't wait to go to your funeral, knowing I could've changed that outcome.
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PLEASE READ!! YOU WILL BE GLAD YOU DID...
Hello to everyone out there... I hope all of you are doing well, as always. I really want to reach out to you and talk to you from the heart. I posted about the President of Ghana and something major he had to say to the world yesterday morning and no one paid any attention to it. It is so frustrating!!
This is hard because there is a short video that lasts for 12 minutes that is on Telegram right now but I can't share it here at all due to tumble and their Communist censoring nonsense. I was absolutely insane to even try to share the actual video here but I always give everything a try at least once... Anyway, IT IS SOOO INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY HERE NOW... I AM GOING TO JUST TYPE OUT WHAT HE SAYS ON HERE FOR YOU... I went through and listened to every word and wrote it all down for you all almost verbatim. He is kind of hard to understand due to his accent but I did my best. It took me a couple of hours to transcribe this so PLEASE READ THIS IMPORTANT INFORMATION!!! IT IS THE HONEST TO GOD TRUTH!!! IF YOU WANT MORE CONFIRMATION OF THIS, YOU WILL HAVE TO GO AND LISTEN TO THE AUDIO YOURSELF THAT I TOLD YOU ABOUT ON THE LAST POST...
The President Ghana reveals the entire Rockefeller's Lockstep Plan and it explains everything about *OVID and the vaccine. First off, in case you don't know, *OVID stands for CERTIFICATION OF VACCINATION IDENTIFICATION. The actual true name of the vaccine is Luciphase (might be spelled wrong) after Lucifer). The pandemic was planned many years in advance.
They literally call it a Plandemic (accident according to plan) themselves. This virus was created and patented and we were purposely, globally infected. They started way back as early as 2008-2013 and had a weaponized version of the strain by 2015. They had the strain they planned on using to kick this off literally stolen on purpose from a lab in Winnepeg, Canada and then taken to a class 4 lab in Wuhan, China, for plausible deniability and to cement the "wanted" public script as something to fall back on, if needed. The Primary script was that China created it by accident. Release the virus at the Wuhan lab itself and then blame it on a natural scapegoat-the Wuhan wet market. Roll out on a global scale, then the global vaccination identification action plan-digital ID.
Mystery of iniquity and wickedness cast in secrecy.
Next, downplay the human to human transmission as long as possible to allow the strain to spread on a global scale before any country can lockdown to respond before any infection. Once a country has seen and experience infection and it is in place, lockdown incoming/outgoing travel but keep the transmission spreading within the country as long as possible. Once enough people in a country are infected, quarantine starts and slowly lockdown overtime and expand the region.
Overhype the mortality rate by tying the strain to deaths that have little or nothing to do with the actual virus - with fear and compliance at the maximum.
If anyone dies, whether it is *OVID or not - it is to be considered as *OVID. If they have any symptoms of *OVID - it is to be considered *OVID no matter what. This is why the Americans are challenging the Chinese. They were not wrong. They were quoting the right figures. But this thing was bred and brewed in the U.S. - as the personal agenda of Fauci, Gates and the Rockefeller Foundation. The deaths - in the U.S.-a lot have absolutely zero to do with *OVID-many have some of the symptoms but are not really *OVID at all. This is why Fauci speaks with such confidence and why he did when he said we would have 200,000 deaths and so on...
Next... Keep the public quarantined as long as possible to destroy the regions economy. Create unrest, break down the supply chain, create the start of mass food shortages as well as cause people's immune systems to weaken due to lack of interaction with others, bacteria, the outside world. Making us susceptible to diseases. Downplay and attack any potential treatments (HCQ) and continue to echo that only a CURE is the answer to this virus a/k/a: a vaccine.
Continue to drag out the quarantine over and over and over again over two week intervals, causing people to finally stand up and protest or defy them.
Eventually, end Phase 1 quarantine after is enough public push back (approx. June 2020) and publicly say it's too early to end isolation but are willing to do it anyways... Once they go back to normal, wait a few weeks, then over-hype the virus mortality rate (approx. Sept. 2020). Combine it with increase of people dying from standard illnesses at a higher rate than normal due to having highly weakened immune systems from weeks of being in isolation to further pad the virus mortality rate and have the Phase 2 Lockdown set in motion.
Oct.-Nov.-make it much more extreme level of lockdown/isolation/quarantine/restriction/masking, etc. - Blame the protesters - they are the ones who do not trust the government already-the cause of the even larger 2nd Wave. - We told you... It was too early but we let you anyway... see what happened now? You should have listened to the government who is here to help you and knows best... Now it is all your fault - now, all because you needed a haircut, your freedoms have consequences.
Now - Enforce official quarantine at much more extreme level - increasing penalty for defense. Deem all travels as non-essential. Increase check-points, including Military assistance. Increase tracking/tracing of the people. Takeover control of food, gas - cause large scale shortages so that people can only get access to essential products/services if they are 1st given permission. Keep the Phase 2 Lockdown in place much longer than the Phase 1 Lockdown.
Continue to destroy the global economy. Further degrade the supply chain. Amplify the food shortages and the like. Quell any public outrage using extreme force and make anyone who defies them as public enemy number one.
To those who are willing to submit after a long Phase 2 Lockdown for at least 6 months or longer, roll out the vaccination certification program and then make it mandatory for everyone - giving priority access to those who have submitted from the start and then have those that are fooled attack those that are against the program - saying they are a threat and the cause for all of the problems - The whole reason why we cannot go back normal and we can't until everyone takes the vaccine. People that defy are the enemy. They are hindering our way of life. The "New Normal". And all the while - limiting the people that defied the agenda... Their ability to work and travel. And for this minority of people left that are going against the agenda - there will be a release of a weaponized hybrid strain of the virus with at least a 30% real mortality rate as a final scare tactic to push them into finally becoming the majority - a final "I TOLD YOU SO"-for those that wouldn't listen.
Next, ignite the new economy model Microsoft Patent 060606 Crypto Currency System USING BODY ACTIVITY DATA BASED ON HUMAN BEHAVIOR AND WILLINGNESS TO SUMBIT. Black bureau's 15 Million Merits. This will use water, food, shelter and other essentials as a form of enforcement of the new economic system. Do what we want and then you will get rewarded and gain credit and access to the things to survive/go against what we want and you will get penalized.
Well, this is the end of the information that was given for now from this brave and amazing man, the President of Ghana, Nana Addo Dankwa Akufo-Addo. He is a strong Christian believer and at the end of giving the information to this diabolical plan, he prayed an amazing prayer to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and then declared and decreed that this plan will NOT succeed! This man is part of the Alliance with us. Trump is fighting against these deep state criminals and talking heads to keep this from coming to fruition. That is another reason they hate him so much and have done everything in their power to try and stop him. If you stayed with me and read all of this, I want to truly thank you so much. You are truly a Patriot if you did and you love this GREAT country and our world as much as I do. Please PRAY!!! God bless every one of you and your families!! Thank you. God bless America.
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Dating men, women, and nonbinary folks â Sex Ed for Bi Guys

This is the SFW/censored version of this post. You can view the uncensored, sexually explicit version here on Pillowfort. All images are borrowed from the internet and are in the post because I like them. If you are the copyright owner or a person in the image, contact me: Iâll gladly credit you, or remove the image at your request.
At some point, bisexual, polysexual, and pansexual guys face the situation of going on a date with a person of a different gender than what theyâre used to â typically when a guy has only ever dated women, or when a guy has only ever dated men. Or maybe youâve dated very little, and the prospect is intimidating. Here are pointers that will help make this an enjoyable experience and avoid some obvious missteps.
Asking someone out
This is the part a lot of people find the hardest, and weâre not even on the actual date. In a nutshell, Iâd say: be mindful of context; pay attention to the signals the person has been sending you; say what you want clearly and directly; but make it clear the person can decline, and leave plenty of room for a graceful exit.
Context means being aware of the situation through which you know the person, as well as any existing power dynamics. Asking a friend or an acquaintance out is different that asking a coworker, or someone whoâs in a hierarchical relationship with you (that last one is often a bad idea, and it might be forbidden by the organizationâs rules or flat out illegal in some situations).
Likewise, when you are asking a woman out, or a nonbinary or trans person who was seen as a woman for a good chunk of their life, you must be aware of this: women and people who are seen as such get a lot of unwanted sexual attention. Acknowledge that, and act accordingly. For example, you could make your approach with âI know you probably get a lot of unwanted attention from guys and feel free to say no, but I really like [this] and [this] about you, and I wanted to know if youâd like to go out sometime.â This is less of an issue with cisgender men (cisgender means a person agrees with the gender the doctor diagnosed them with at birth, as opposed to transgender) and to some extent transgender men, but you should still make it clear that itâs fine for the person to say no and give them the opportunity to do so subtly and politely.
Also, before making an ask, pay attention to the signals theyâve been sending you. Does the person smile a lot when theyâre interacting with you? Do they make a lot of eye contact? Or are they preserving some distance and boundaries with you? If you notice the latter, they will probably turn you down â but then again, some people are just shy and awkward, and they might be delighted if you took the first steps. But when you think they are closed to an ask, give them even more opportunity to back out with grace. Finally, even if you notice positive signals from the person, they could say no for all kinds of reasons that donât necessarily have to do with you: they might like you but not that way; theyâre not on the market for dating; theyâre too busy; or if itâs another man, theyâre not ready to date another guy, etc.

Still, asking an acquaintance or a friend out is different than asking someone youâve just met. When you have a potential romantic interest in an acquaintance, I suggest you ask them out sooner rather than later â if things arenât going to work out, youâd rather know before you get too infatuated with them. If they are a long-time friend, be aware it can impact your friendship, but strong friendships can survive the realization that one of you wants something different than the other, as long as respect a no â and itâs fair to take some time and space to process your disappointment and heal before you resume the friendship.
Asking someone out that youâve just met is lower stakes, but be ever so aware of the power dynamics Iâve mentioned above (expect cis men in a queer setting to react better than anybody else to being asked out out of the blue), and donât be a creep â once again, give them the chance to make an elegant exit. A good ask could sound like âHey, Iâm aware this is sudden and that you could be getting a lot of unwanted attention from guys, but I really dig your style and Iâd like the chance to get to know you better. You donât have to respond to this, but hereâs my number if you ever feel like texting me to chat and maybe go out.â
If things look good and the person says theyâre interested to go out on a date with you, itâs best to arrange right away what the activity will be, the place, and the time. Itâs also easier to ask someone out by proposing something concrete instead of just asking if they will go on a date with you. When you donât know the person very much, you should ask what kind of stuff they like doing and see if thereâs something you both like that you could do.
You canât make someone like you
A lot of guys feel that flirting, wooing, and dating is an attempt to win the person over or to get them to like them. But you canât get someone to like you. When they find you attractive and they like your personality, the potential for a connection is already there. But when they donât, you canât change that and you can create uncomfortable situations if you attempt to. Itâs disappointing to realize someone you like isnât into you, and itâs okay to feel that way. But you canât change it, and itâs better to move on. Feelings people have for each other can change over time: there are a lot of stories of platonic friends eventually discovering a romantic connection. But itâs not the result of trying to get someone to like you; itâs just intimacy deepening over time â and often it just doesnât happen, and you will break you heart pining over a person who doesnât reciprocate your affection hoping it will change someday (especially with a mostly heterosexual man).
There are some people with old-fashioned values however who expect their suitor to woo and court them, and to display insistence. It creates a dangerous situation though in which you canât know whatâs going on, and you can easily cross a line into harassment when you read the situation wrong. As a rule, Iâd advise you to not get involved sexually or romantically with a person who isnât willing to say what they want; these games just create drama and sometimes worse situations. Finally, while you canât get someone to like you, there are however plenty of ways that you can ruin things with someone who actually liked you if you try too hard, put pressure on them, or act like a creep (especially with women). So make your peace with the fact that a lot of the time, the other person just wonât be into you; it comes with asking people out. But unless there is something very wrong with your appearance or your behavior, there will be people who are into you and youâll meet them someday.
The actual date
My #1 advice: donât see this as a date. Youâre two people hanging out, or getting together for a movie, a dinner, or a brew. Maybe sexy times are in the cards; maybe they arenât. But the more you see this as just two persons hanging out to get to know each other, the less stressed out youâre going to be, and the better of a time youâre going to have. The gender of the person youâre going out with doesnât matter for this â my best dates have been in that mindset. Frankly, I think itâs the secret to the whole thing â people make a much bigger deal out of dating than it needs to be.
The cliche: be yourself. The nice, presentable version of yourself; not the Foul Bachelor Frog version. But donât put up a facade or a front. If your dating partner is going to like you, you want them to like you for who you are. So be genuine.

About hygiene and clothing: be on the ball on this, but donât overdo it. Shower and clean your genitals. Go easy on the deodorant/cologne/aftershave. Wear nice undies, but no need for those $40 trunks unless thatâs your thing (I wear Joe Boxer boxer briefs, and itâs never stopped me from getting laid). Put on clothes in which you feel comfortable and make you look great, but donât overdress â you risk intimidating the other person. Think casual, unless the two of you somehow decided to go together someplace swanky, or you love to dress sharp.
Be prepared for sex: keep condoms with you at all times, and know how to use them properly, even if you donât expect sex on a first date. You donât know what will happen, especially if substances are involved⌠or because youâre both horny. Also bring lube along if youâre open to butt sex, or if you use it for wanking. If your date is with someone who has a uterus and youâre not used to that, preventing an unplanned pregnancy is something you must be mindful of â condoms arenât just for protecting the two of you from STIs. If the prospect of sex comes up, ask your partner what kind of contraception method(s) they use on their end. If the idea of an unplanned pregnancy terrifies you, combine condoms with another contraception method (even not ejaculating inside your partner on top of using a condom will do); theyâre not as reliable as some other methods of contraception in day-to-day use, unless you know the ins-and-outs (no pun intended) of using them perfectly.

Be savvy about gender identity: the person youâre about to hang out with could be trans and you might not know about it, or they could have more complex views of their own gender than what youâre used to. You might be starting to hang out in queer circles if your date is not a cisgender woman, which means youâll run into people with diverse gender identities. Itâs a huge topic, and I canât cover it all here (and Iâm not the ideal person to do it), but this short guide covers the important basics with links to other resources at the end. You should give it a read, on the off chance the person youâre going out with ends up coming out to you as trans. When you do know you are going on a date with a trans person, brush up on your manners as a trans ally.
If you are a trans or nonbinary guy, or both: the biggest question on your mind might be when to come out to that other person you might end up seeing on a regular basis, assuming you arenât out already. Itâs a big deal. Besides the possibility of rejection, coming out could at times put you in danger, especially if youâre trans. Even when that other person is well-meaning, they might know little about how to be a good trans or nonbinary ally, and say or behave in ways that are not cool or that could trigger feelings of dysphoria. There is also the risk of them outing you to other people you both know. The decision to come out belongs to you, and you do not owe a coming out to anyone. Taking longer to come out means that you have more time to assess how safe coming out to that person is. They will also get to know you as a person before they are confronted to any prejudices they might have against trans or nonbinary people. On the other hand: the emotional stakes become higher; you have to deal longer with the anxiety of being closeted; and in a dating context, you might feel that the longer you take to come out, the harder it is to do so. But trust your gut and your judgment.

Coming out as a bi/pan/polysexual guy: speaking of coming out, a lot of people wonder when and how to bring up that theyâre bisexual, pansexual, or polysexual to a new dating partner. I would say the sooner the better, without making it appear forced. Get it out of the way before either of you gets emotionally attached, in case your dating partner ends up being a biphobic or monosexist (someone who believes being attracted to a single gender is the only valid experience) a**hole. As most people meet dating partners online nowadays, you should state your sexual orientation in your profile if youâre comfortable with that. For people who are fine with having a visible marker, wearing a pin that states your orientation or wearing the bi colours can work too (many people miss or misinterpret subtle markers though â numerous people have mistaken my âBIâ pin as standing for Business IntelligenceâŚ). When each otherâs dating or previous partner history comes up, itâs a good time to mention that you like different genders and that youâve been with people who arenât the same gender than your dating partner (without spending too much time talking about exes, which is risky territory). Along a similar line, you can ask your partner if theyâre only into men or if they also like other genders, and elaborate on your own orientation and experiences after that. If you havenât had the chance to come out and discuss each otherâs orientation by the third time you see each other, itâs time to make that conversation happen before either of you gets too invested in the exciting new relationship.
Biphobia and monosexism: the sad truth is that they can rear their ugly head in the dating game. Most of us have heard the words âI wouldnât date a bi guy; Iâm too afraid theyâd leave me for a man/womanâ â these situations suck. Those prejudices can come from any dating partner, even queer ones â sometimes even from other bi people (internalized biphobia is a thing). You should also be aware that youâre more likely to run into this with heterosexual women, unfortunately. In a 2016 survey from Glamour, 63% of women responded they wouldnât date a man whoâs had sex with another man â not just bi men, but any men who has experimented with another guy even once. Some bi, pan, and polysexual guys choose to restrict their dating pool to queer people for that reason. If someone treats you poorly because of their biphobia, try to find some people who embrace your sexual orientation for support, even if itâs just online.Â

On your physical safety: if youâre getting together for the first time with a person youâve met online â another man especially â you may want to take a few steps to protect your safety. Since we can face homo/bi/transphobia, we need to be more careful about this than most people. The risk to your physical safety depends on where you live and in many cases, you might feel these steps are unnecessary. Iâm providing the tips in case you ever feel you need them.
Meet in a public space first.
Spend some time talking with the person before you head to a private setting like their home or yours.
Trust your gut â if you get a bad feeling about things, excuse yourself and leave.
Let a trusted person know that you are meeting someone you met online; if your date is another guy, itâs more difficult to let a friend know when youâre in the closet, but you can always describe the encounter as platonic.
Agree to check in with that friend once in a while, and text them the address of any place you end up going, especially if you expect to be alone with your date.
How to be a decent conversationalist: remember that while you have two ears, you have only one mouth â so be more of a listener than a talker. Ask questions. Show genuine interest in what the other person has to say, in who they are. Listen. Say your piece when itâs appropriate, but keep the balance tilted in favour of listening to your dating partner rather than talking about yourself.
On sexual innuendo: a lot of queer guys love their sexual innuendo (but not all of them, however, so be mindful of that), even more so if theyâre interested in whatâs in the pants of the person theyâre chatting up. Personally, I find itâs the fun bit about hanging out with queers: the relaxed, casual flirting and slinging of sexual innuendo. Not everyone is like that though: how comfortable someone is with sexuality varies from one person to another. But one of the things many queer guys love from spending time with each other is that we have permission to acknowledge that yeah, many of us are a bunch of f***ing horndogs. The innuendo doesnât necessarily mean that the other guy wants to end up in your bed (because sexual innuendo is fun in and of itself), but itâs a sign you guys are on the right track when thatâs your plan, and itâs a great way of testing the waters. Plus, itâs liberating when youâre not used to expressing the homo end of your sexuality. On the other hand, be more cautious with innuendo with women or people who have been perceived as women at some point in their life â itâs best to test the waters a bit before engaging in that, or to let them make the first move on that front. They might have had bad experiences with sexual harassment or with nasty gender power dynamics, and misplaced sexual innuendo can make you come across as a creep, or at the set off red flags.

Substances: think about how much you want to use and figure out whether the two of you are on the same page on this, or not. A lot of bi guys like to drink or smoke pot. Some like stronger drugs on occasion, or often. Some people get together for the first time and have a lot of fun getting thrashed together (especially if theyâre both guys). Others donât use at all. A conflict can happen if the two of you have different values or expectations about substance use though. Also, when one of you, or both, is less comfortable or experienced with their sexuality, the temptation to use (and use a lot) can be stronger, if just to ease up on the shyness, but this is especially true of bi guys exploring same-sex experiences. When you are planning on using (even if your plans are just a social drink or joint) is to:
pack condoms and lube ahead of time;
pace yourself, and remember that mixing substances often amplifies their effect;
and hold back from using to the point where you take sexual risks you would not have taken, or where one of you guys canât consent anymore.
Itâs not consensual sex if one of you is way too far gone, even when theyâre the ones coming on to the other person (this can be a lot more complex and nuanced than that in reality, and a drunk person can also sexually assault a sober person â but itâs still a good ground rule to keep). The right thing to do is to make sure your date gets home safe, and to give them a raincheck on that hot sex for when you are reassured they have a better handle on the decisions theyâre making. Still, if youâre using because you donât think you could go through with sex with the other person, you should think twice about what youâre doing. Iâm not judging â the first guy with whom I ever had sex and I got thrashed on sambuca before we could ever get down to the sexing. But itâs okay to feel vulnerable when having those first sexual experiences with someone from a different gender than with whom you usually have sex. When itâs with another guy, itâs okay when there are feelings of guilt or shame you havenât worked through yet. It might be better to wait until you are comfortable with someone to explore your sexuality together, and share with them how the experience makes you feel, even the less pleasant stuff.
Who pays for stuff? If youâre two guys, you usually come to an agreement to pay for your own things, split the bill, or alternate between buying rounds when itâs a bar date. Even on a heterosexual date, I would be really uncomfortable with assuming that Iâd pay for my female friend, unless I was taking her out for her birthday or something. Itâs the 21st century, people; Iâd also expect nonbinary and genderqueer people to not be into that. Still, some people are old-fashioned that way, so itâs best to clear up ahead of time what the expectations are.
To go, or not to go for the kiss? There is only one acceptable answer for that in my book: ask the other person. I know not everyone agrees on that one â some people think talking âruins the moodâ (I call bulls*** on that one). But consent and respect matter. Always make sure your partners are into what you want to try, and reassure them that a ânoâ or changing their mind in the middle of things are okay. Itâs the same thing even in a situation in which youâre two guys. But when your partnerâs gender is different than yours, be especially mindful of gender power dynamics at play. You can just say: âI think youâre really hot. Do you want to make out, or thatâs not something you want to do with me?â Itâs easier to ask than most people think. Still, read body language before you ask. Is their posture open? Do they laugh easily with you? Is there a lot of eye contact? Some light touching? When those are there, itâs a good sign (but not a guarantee theyâre into you that way). Iâve always asked people for permission to kiss them for the first time, even when their eyes where screaming at me to do it, and I was always glad I did.

What about sex on the first date? There are a whole bunch of misconceptions about this (spoilers: Iâm a sex on the first date kinda guy). Sex is nice, and pleasure is good for you. Having sex on your first meeting with another person will not spoil the potential future relationship with you. Weâre all human, and sometimes we lose interest in a person after weâve gotten in their pants. But if there are affinities for a meaningful friendship or romantic relationship, I can assure you that shagging that person on your first encounter isnât going to ruin any of those affinities â quite the opposite in fact. Sharing orgasms is quite the bonding experience, and getting unrequited lust out of the way lets us see better what we want with the person. Iâve shagged my future husband on our first date, and Iâve become good friends with a lot of people with whom I hooked up early on. Also, while there are people who would judge you for putting out on the first date, no one has any business doing so. Itâs a sad thing to say, but shagging on the first date can be a good filter for judgmental people. If anyone would reject you for giving them sexual pleasure on your first encounter, I donât think you want them in your life. Some people think withholding sex is a way of getting the other person to âproveâ their genuine interest in you. You might yourself feel that way. But interest or love are things that can be only proven over time, and not in a matter of a few weeks or months. Now, if you want to become intimate with a person (or at least get to know them a bit) before you have any kind of sex with them, thatâs fine. There are all kinds of good reasons to make that decision, and no one should treat you poorly for that. The hook-up app world and the cruising scene with other men can make you feel that you have to put out or else no one will be into you, and that your values on sex and relationships are unpopular. But if you are honest about your needs and present them early on without being judgmental yourself about people who hook-up quickly, a lot of people will respect that, especially when they like you as a person. Finally, the same goes when youâre still uncomfortable about having sex with a person of that gender â a lot of bi guys feel conflicting emotions when that possibility arises, especially with another man. Honesty is the best policy in those situations, and you deserve someone whoâll be supportive of you through those new experiences. Itâs okay to say: âThis whole âhaving sex with a [insert the personâs gender or identity]â thing is new to me, and I feel a bit out of my depth. Iâm really into you, but I want to know that I can stop or that weâll take things slowly if I need to.â

Often, it just doesnât work out: the reality is that most of the dates you will go on wonât lead to a romantic relationship (or even a hook-up). The point of dating is to get to know the other person and to explore whether thereâs a potential connection there or not. But most of the time, there isnât, and thatâs okay; when youâll make your peace with that, you will enjoy dating a lot more. Sometimes, a date just doesnât lead to a second meeting. At other times, one of the persons excuses themselves early to cut the awkwardness short. This is all fine, and it comes with the territory. Sometimes someone gets stood up and a date is a no-show. That sucks, and while you canât do anything to prevent someone else from doing this to you, let the other person know if you decide not to go, even if it is awkward. Itâs better than them going there for nothing, and it reflects better on you.
How to follow up: sometimes though, the date was exciting and fun, and you want to see the person again. (Sometimes it was fun for you, but the other person doesnât feel the same way though â see above.) Then youâll run into the question of when to follow-up. A lot of people used to have a rule of waiting three days before following up on a good date, just to avoid appearing too eager. In our day and age though, three days can easily come across as ghosting (having cut off conversation with the other person), a common occurrence on dating and hook-up apps. Let the other person know quickly that you had a good time and that you hope you see them again. But past this point, give the other person the opportunity of making the conversation happen. It will be a good indicator of how interested they are (believe me, if they like you, youâll hear back from them), but it also leaves room for the connection to end with grace when it turns out the other person isnât into you â a lot of people just wonât say that they didnât have as good of a time as you did, and constantly contacting them increases the awkwardness. Another thing you should be careful about is to get attached to quickly. Itâs easy to get excited after an enjoyable date, and thatâs understandable. But you donât know each other well yet(unless you were long-time friends), and itâs yet unclear how the other person feels about you. There is still room for things not to work out, and youâll be heartbroken if you attach yourself too quickly. Itâs also scary for the other person if you break out the âI love yousâ on date number 2 or 3. Take this burgeoning relationship one day at a time; if the two of you do like each other, things will work out.

Hopefully, some of this stuff will put you in a better position to enjoy a successful date (or to take in stride a date that doesnât work out). Have fun on your date!
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@scoups_bf on Twitter asked Seungcheol from Seventeen his birth time at a fansign, and he said roughly around 9:00 in the morning, in case that gives any insight into his chart.
Hey there! â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ Thanks for telling me, I was quaking so hard when I saw this ask late night⌠I checked it out @seungcheolsboyfriend â/ @scoups_bf on twt â¨definitely did Godâs Work for us and took it upon himself to Ask The One True question⌠(also this is a Win for the gays đłď¸âđcongratulations!! Iâm so happy for you!!â¤ď¸)
[Below Cut: A lil bit more on Choi Seungcheolâs  Natal Chart  ⨠]
Note: This is an abridged version, a little more censored about the private stuff in his natal chart. â¤ď¸ I give/take around 8.30am, 9am, 9.30am for this one â¤ď¸ I decided to use Whole Signs to get a clearer look ⨠Itâs just my thoughts/opinions so please read with discretion! â¤ď¸ This is just to maybe hopefully add a little more to the Seungcheol Overview I did earlier â¨
Definitely the first thing we all noticed was that the rising could probably fall between Libra /Virgo â¤ď¸ And isnât that just so?? fitting for scoups?? â¤ď¸ I think I cried seeing his talent triangles (his tiny trine and 2 sextiles) â Pluto rx (Scorpio) Uranus/Neptune rx (Capricorn) and Saturn rx (Pisces).Â
And the other one with Mars (Libra) Jupiter (Sagittarius) and Sun/Venus (Leo)Â
The one thing that got to me was his Pluto rx (Scorpio) and Uranus rx (Capricorn) exactly at 27â˛49 (so 0â˛00) â so much power, intensity and transformative power. Strong desire, no matter what house itâs actually in.Â
When itâs in a talent triangle (with all retrogrades) thatâs a lot of self-transformation, regeneration and assertion in oneâs strengthâ to come through as a talent, foundation, and ability to use his own empowerment (through hardship/challenges) to connect and bring changes to people around him as well.
With retrograde, thereâs a lot of energy thatâs spinning inwards (towards the person). Internalized energy is common, especially with Saturn (choosing to put on a brave face, hiding fear of uncertainty. Of not making âthe right choiceâ â guilt and doubt associated to the this) Uranus/Neptune (restlessness, suspicion of others, wanting to rebel but also abiding/hiding to look like the norm) and Pluto (fear of manipulation, of vulnerability. Fear of betrayal or looking âweakâ)
With all of that in his talent triangle, it makes sense that whilst those are part of his strengthâ but it also has potential to heal, become balanced and understood. One of the thing that stood out immediately was his Chiron/Ceres being pretty close to the ASC.
Chiron and Ceres being close to his ASC (whether it falls in Libra/Virgo) â points to potential for someone who may strongly identify with healing of others (after understanding their own pains) lots of dedication and nurturing, also being nurtured by others (it can also indicate food and fashion, organizing and managing otherâs life, giving advice and caring about their health/how they look physically â as indicated by Virgo Ceres) Â
Ceres and Chiron in 12H or 1Hâ whether itâs conjunct to the ASC or notâ can also indicate a personâs conscious awareness (or addiction) to their own well-being, their physicality (behaviorally, how they treat themselves). With Virgo as an earth and mutable sign, itâs nature combined with Chiron/Ceres can make someone feel/think a lot of their self-consciousness. Bringing an emphasis on their health, mental well-being, services to others (which theyâll have to struggle and work throughâ as indicated by Chiron, in order to bring it to the fore-front and help/heal others as well)
It plays a significant role on the personâs behavioral pattern, their mentality and how theyâre perceived, as well as how they see themselves. Thereâs a lot of service, âgiving backâ nature when itâs in the 12H/1H. In embodying this health (or personal mental well-being/strength) or spiritually healing/giving to others with itâ scoupsâs asc (no matter whether itâs Virgo/Libra) will also show signs of this demonstrative, practical âgiving backâ nature as well.Â
Itâs so cool to see thisâ because Ceres can often indicate reactivity. Whether itâs spiritually or up-front, it wants to be nurtured and likes being taken care of.
Thereâs a shy subtle side to Virgo Ceres/Chiron â where on one hand they do want to be acknowledged/subtly taking care of others. Yet on the other hand they may sometimes not speak, or ask for the things they truly want/need. Because their internal energy is through demonstrationâso a lot of people with these aspects (especially in these houses) may often show that they want this/that. But wonât ask for it/expects others to read and understand their gestures for something. Â
His Sun and Jupiter being in domicile, while Mars lies in detriment within the other talent triangleâ gives power to his self-assertion, energy, knowledge and wisdom to shine through. Libra Mars may be in detriment (whether itâs in 1H or 2H) â but the emphasis here is that he may be able to learn, grow and let others lead if he knows heâs being slightly too dogmatic/forceful at a given time (context).
It makes more sense to look at them together, his Libra Mars (1H/2H) would point to areas in the house where heâll have to âlet up onâ, instead of using his Sun/Jupiter to âguardâ against others for (lessons in personal vs others, letting others into their personalâ shifting/adapting whatâs âtheirsâ into âoursââ houses in 1H/12H, 11H or 3H/4H) Â
Traditional values runs strong, especially whatâs learnt at the beginning/childhood and what was nurtured/taught to him to value (boundaries). He may guard it fiercely, but within that. The talent triangle might teach him how to grow/learn and make the best of it by using it differently.
Evaluate his own identity/self-assertion, his appearance (keeping an image) financial/material assets that he may be possessive over (has to do with self-identity and kindaâŚthe fear of having that autonomy/things associated to his personal well-fare/being taken away from him)â these can point to his Libra Mars protecting/guarding itself by being irrational, clingy/possessive or what we might call âselfishââ over those areas (wanting to be âfair/justâ to itselfâ but within that, wanting to âshareâ itself/good-will with others)
Sun/Jupiter could be in 11H/3H or 12H/4H. Thereâs a generous nature to both Leo and Sagittarius. Giving and caring. It may be nobby heads most of the time, but within the 11H or 12H (for his Sun) â thereâs a compassionate nature that could appease this Libra Mars.Â
Helping him learn how to heal, give and share himself with others. This is like a âgateâ â and then Jupiter in 3H/4H may need a little abit more explaining. Jupiter ultimately wants the best things for the âfamily, siblings, roots and traditionsâ.
Although the concept or idea of these things can be static/stagnant on whatâs considered âfamily, siblings, roots, values, traditionâ â thereâs ultimately a highlighted expansive nature to Jupiter.Â
Whatâs considered his âroots, siblings, families, traditionsâ can benefit a lot depending on how he grew up surrounded by (whatâs considered those things). Jupiter can share, protect, guide (âlet upâ) and be generous with those it identifies with, grew up alongside. It becomes proud and protective, over those they care about and shares itself to.
Good-will is prominent in this other talent triangle, but seeing his placements possibly being in 11H/12H (Sun/Venus/Pallas/Vesta/Mercury) â especially with Sun/Venus conjunct (4â˛) really makes me happy because heâs such a genuinely good-willed, sometimes protective but also very nurture/wanting to be nurturedâprogressively healing and half the time, a self-sacrificing/self-assertive dichotomy of an individual.
Itâs also genuinely nice to see how Aquarius Pars Fortunae could potentially be in 5H/6H. Health is a thing with Seungcheolâ particularly if he needs to control/use it well in order to manifest that Chiron/Ceres ASC stuff properly (looking out/after himself). Aquarius Pars Fortunae talks about a little more refinement, particularly on the personal areas (how they treat/think of themselves and thusâ how they exert/show it to the world). When their fortune comes flooding through, it has to do with how structured, progressive, refining and adaptable they are. Â
This also helps in cutting back on Moon in detriment (Capricorn), dissecting and refining his ego/self and thoughts about what/how he should manifest. If he can use some of the Aquariusâs realigning, some re-thinking/shaping and not let his Leo/Capricorn sun-moon control his ego/emotionsâ he would benefit a lot from his health improving, and having an easier time being independent/stable away from extremities/bad behavioral habits or core prejudice (coming from the roots/traditions) as well.
Alot of health and taking care of himself stuff for Seungcheol â¤ď¸ But potentially itâll be good on cutting down and helping that retrograde triangle as well â¤ď¸ While there may be a lot of âstrengthââ thereâs also a lot that talks about self-healing, self-regeneration and we shouldnât forget about that especially w/ own Pluto/Chiron as well â¤ď¸
I hope this is?? good?? â¤ď¸ I hope it makes sense at least â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ Again, this is just my little take on it so please feel free to do your own reading/research as well! â¤ď¸
EDIT: oh yeah and hereâs:
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From the Sun-Moon Catalogue  â¤ď¸ (weâre still trying to get all of them!â¤ď¸ So if you have one of the missing placements, feel free to request it in!â¤ď¸)
#svt astrology#seventeen astrology#choi seungcheol#scoups#svt scoups#svt seungcheol#cheollie#kpop astrology#svt scenarios#svt imagines#svt reactions#scoups imagines#scoups reactions#scoups scenarios#seventeen imagines#seventeen reactions#seventeen scenarios#anon#asks#seungcheolsboyfriend#seungcheol seventeen#seventeen seungcheol#seventeen#svt#seungcheol astrology#scoups astrology
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Happy At Home-Part Six
So, first things first, I tried to find a proper source for the recipe I included in this part, but this was the best source I could find lol:Â https://www.stltoday.com/lifestyles/food-and-cooking/the-s-food-in-wartime-and-peace/article_2f98ef78-fccd-50e3-aa8d-e4331dc1170e.html
Anyway, sorry Iâve not gotten to write every day to keep this up, but thru the weekend and into next week Iâm trying to find more time to finish this, as well as some one shots Iâve started!
Thanks to all who read/like/reblog! The response Iâve gotten on these Sledgefu pieces has been great, and it has really helped keep up the writing motivation-in short, you all are wonderful!!
âWe have bourbon,â Snafu was in the pantry, rifling through everything Sid had bought for them. âDo we really need more than that? Your parents drink that much?âÂ
âThatâll be fine. Any ideas on a main dish?âÂ
Snafu popped back out and shrugged. âNot really. You?âÂ
âYâever heard of âdelicious combination?â Eugene replied.Â
Snafuâs eyes went wide. âWe have to eat it too, you remember that?âÂ
âSacrifices must be made,â Eugene said, though he was aware he was asking for a hell of a sacrifice. Every time his mother had made it, heâd honestly contemplated feigning sickness and skipping dinner. Separately, the ingredients of apples, peas, carrots, celery, pineapple, bananas, mayonnaise, whipping cream, and maraschino cherries could be delightful-all together was another matter in terms of taste and texture. Sure, it was edible, but so were rations even after youâd dropped them in the mud one or five times.Â
âNow you know I love you,â Snafu sighed with a smile. âThatâs basically a whole meal in one dish. You really think we need anything else?âÂ
âI know someone who makes amazing beignets,â Eugene said coyly.Â
Snafu gave him a look. âYou do. But you really want to let them in on somethinâ so good?âÂ
âThe way I see it, is depending on how the night goes, they might all be for us anyway. May as well have at least one leftover we actually want to eat,â Eugene replied.Â
âOh, Sledgehammer, thatâs adorable. But if you think weâre saving any of that âdeliciousâ bullshit, then you are dead wrong,â Snafu said.Â
âWe canât waste food!âÂ
âOnce you put it all together, it ceases to be food. Therefore, we can toss whatever is left. Donât even argue, my logic is flawless,â Snafu said as he dove back into the pantry.Â
âFine, fine,â Eugene replied, but his mind was elsewhere-their first days of settling in had gone fast, too fast. Tomorrow was the dinner with his parents, but no matter how much he prepared, he still didnât feel ready for it.Â
âWe havenât talked clothes yet,â Snafu said as he emerged from the pantry again, this time closing the door to it.Â
â...we have to wear them,â Eugene said. âWhat else could there possibly be to talk about?âÂ
âLetâs impress âem some. I know you hate the blues, and the uniform in all forms, but-âÂ
Eugene sighed. âI donât know. A nice pressed shirt and slacks is really all-âÂ
âThatâs what they saw you leave town in. You may still wear those clothes, but you came back in the uniform. But they didnât get to see that-they donât see who you are now,â Snafu said, his gaze steady as it caught Eugeneâs eyes. âYouâre still their son, but you know youâre different now. Everyone is, who made it back. Not just with the nightmares and the flashbacks, but-âÂ
Snafu paused. âI donât know how to put it, exactly. Beinâ out there was...âÂ
âShit,â Eugene filled in.Â
Snafu nodded. âBut it gave time to anyone, everyone, to figure things out. Who you are away from family, friends. In situations you never thought youâd be in. Making choices you never thought youâd have to make. Meeting people you end up caring about, loving. And then getting back, just to realize you have to figure out how you want to live.âÂ
âI donât wanna put words in your mouth,â Snafu continued. âBut-you figured out you loved me. I figured out I loved you. We both figured out we wanted to be together...Jesus, Iâm not gonna say this right.âÂ
Eugene grabbed his hand, and led him out of the kitchen to the sitting room, to one of the ornate couches. âCan I say what I think youâre tryinâ to get at, and you let me know if Iâm close?âÂ
Snafu nodded, still holding his hand and gently rubbing at the back of it with his thumb.Â
âIâm still me, but a different me than the one that left. Some of me is the same, but thereâs a lot changed. You think if we roll out for dinner in uniform, it might make them see that and face it, and us?â Eugene said.Â
Snafu smiled softly, and pulled up Eugeneâs hand to press a kiss to it. âYou got a way with words, darlinâ. That or youâre psychic.âÂ
âNo. Just been thinkinâ about that all myself. Weâre just always pretty much on the same page, or damn close. And while I hate the idea of wearing it again, I cannot stress that enough,â Eugene said.Â
âI know,â Snafu replied.Â
âI think you might be right. Just what we wore on the train back though-no dress blues,â Eugene continued. He hadnât even unpacked the dress blues-Snafu had his hung up in their wardrobe, but his languished in one of the few boxes left to finish unpacking.Â
âOkay,â Snafu said. âI know it isnât late, but you wanna head in? Get some extra sleep for tomorrow?���Â
Eugene nodded. It felt slightly silly-after all it was only seven at night. But it was less the idea of getting extra sleep, and more the idea of having extra time to be cuddled up in bed with Snafu that sounded so good. Having that time in their own little bubble, safe from everything. Sid was the only one who had called, and only to confirm that heâd be on-call for the dinner, and would come as soon as possible if either of them called and asked him to do so. It was glorious-setting up the house together, moving furniture to where they preferred it, just-nesting was the only word he could come up with for it all.Â
âCâmon,â Snafu said as he led them upstairs while the cats ran past them to the first floor. Theyâd fallen in love with the house itself, not to mention the garden. âYou kids play nice, and come to bed soon. No scratching up the curtains.âÂ
âYou know even if they could completely understand you, they wouldnât listen, right?â Eugene asked as they made it to the bedroom.Â
âThey understand. They just donât care either way. Thatâs just cats though, thatâs how it works. Those curtains are ugly anyway; we can get something new,â Snafu replied. âUm-not that your mother has terrible taste, but-âÂ
Eugene laughed. âThey are ugly. And I donât know if we could call it bad taste. Maybe...questionable, when compared to ours.âÂ
âWe wonât talk about it over dinner,â Snafu said as he started to undress. âWhat the fuck are we gonna talk about? Or can we trust them to do the talking?âÂ
Eugene shrugged as he unbuttoned his shirt. âI have no idea what theyâll do. I mean, we can tell them about Maryland. About our trip down here-well, some of it.âÂ
Snafu grinned. âYou can handle the censoring of that part of things. What else though? That might not cover a whole dinner, especially tryinâ to choke down the main course.âÂ
âI mean...they might ask about it. Peleliu, Okinawa-I know theyâll ask about us coming home. I mean, I wrote them letters but Iâm sure theyâre curious,â Eugene replied. âThat could take up a lot of time. Potentially more than dinner even, depending on how they react, how much we tell them.âÂ
Snafu was down to his underwear as he dropped to the bed. âWe canât really plan for this part of it, can we? Second we think we got it planned, theyâll throw us a curve ball.âÂ
Eugene contemplated his pajamas, then joined Snafu on the bed in only his underwear. âYeah. Weâll just have to try and be quick on our feet.âÂ
Snafu nodded and pulled him close. âNo more talking about it. No more thinking about it. Not till the morning. Just relaxinâ and sleepinâ now.âÂ
Eugene settled into his embrace and tried to follow Snafuâs instructions. It was easier once Snafu had fallen asleep-watching his face relax as he ended up cuddled against Eugene as close as he could get.Â
It still took him two hours to fall asleep.Â
Morning came all too quickly, and if it hadnât been for Snafu he didnât think heâd have resisted the urge to cancel the dinner and hide in bed all day.Â
âGot your clothes ready for later. Donât care if you walk around naked as a jaybird for now, but make sure youâre dressed later,â Snafu was already dressed, in one of Eugeneâs shirts and a pair of trousers that hung on his hips. No matter how much he ate, he was still skinny as a rail, and even the most tailored garments seemed to eventually hang off of him. Eugene didnât mind the excuse to spoil him with new clothes, even if they didnât have the money for it as often as heâd like.Â
âWhat time are they cominâ over anyway?â Snafu asked as he sat on the edge of the bed.Â
âFive, or sometime around that. At least I think so. Thatâs when dinner time always was before I left. God help me if they show up early-â Eugene replied as he forced himself out of the bed, panicking at the thought. âI should get dressed now, just in case. And Iâll start cooking, and-âÂ
âSweetheart. You gonna start dinner at nine in the morning? You think beinâ cold is gonna make that âdeliciousâ bullshit taste any better?â Snafu laughed. âRelax. Even if they do show up early, weâll figure it out.âÂ
He got dressed anyway, peeking out the window of the guest bedroom-their bedroom now. Theyâd discussed taking the master bedroom, but ultimately it felt too strange. And any guests they might have would certainly appreciate having the bigger room.Â
Downstairs, he picked at the breakfast plate Snafu sat in front of him.Â
âYou gonna eat those eggs, or just stab âem?â Snafu asked, his mouth full. âAt least have some coffee. I swear I made it good today.âÂ
Eugene shook his head. They werenât even here yet and he felt sick.Â
âOkay, lover-boy of mine. Letâs find something to keep you busy,â Snafu said, setting down his fork.Â
âIâm fine,â Eugene said, trying to mean it.Â
Snafu didnât say anything, just grabbed his hand and held it tight.Â
After a few moments, Eugene found his voice again. âMight try reading.âÂ
âSounds good. You go sit down and read. Iâll be with you in a few minutes,â Snafu murmured.
âYou donât gotta rush to eat because of me,â Eugene said as he stood up, ignoring the light-headedness that hit him almost immediately.Â
Snafu was watching him, clearly concerned. âBaby, youâre pale.âÂ
âArenât I always?â Eugene asked, just before the light-headedness turned to proper dizziness, and it all went black.Â
He came to maybe a moment later, on the cool floor of the dining room. He registered that Snafu must have moved him into the recovery position, as he took in the feeling of Snafuâs hand rubbing his back and the fact that his face was wet.Â
âWhat happened?âÂ
âYou passed out,â Snafu replied.Â
âI know that,â Eugene replied. âWhy am I wet?âÂ
âWell, I was tryinâ to wake you back up. Nearest thing was the water pitcher. It was that or the coffee,â Snafu replied. âDonât you dare rush to get up. Let yourself lay for a minute or two.âÂ
âI-â Eugene started, then stopped. Why was he fighting this so much? He was safe, Snafu was right there to help him. And the dizziness and anxiety eating his stomach alive were at a minimum on the floor.Â
He sighed, and let himself relax and go limp.Â
âBetter,â Snafu hummed, his hand still making slow and soft circleâs on Eugeneâs back. âJust breathe. Iâm right here.âÂ
He wasnât sure exactly how long he stayed there on the floor, with Snafu alternating between rubbing his back and holding one his hands gently, whispering soft and sweet things to him.Â
Finally, Snafu let him up, only to gently grab hold of him until he was leaning backwards into Snafuâs lap and arms.Â
âWe have to get up eventually,â Eugene murmured.Â
âEventually. Not now,â Snafu replied, his arms warm and comforting as he held onto him just tightly enough to feel safe but still be comfortable.Â
âIâll fall asleep here if you keep this up,â Eugene said. He meant it too-heâd slept, but fitfully, and figured he could fall asleep anywhere right then.Â
âLetâs get you to the sitting room then. Let you nap,â Snafu said. Before Eugene could protest, Snafu had scooped him up and was carrying him to the next room.Â
âI just got up,â he muttered into Snafuâs shoulder.Â
âYou just worry about feelinâ better. If youâre still like this by four, then Iâm callinâ Sid and tellinâ him to cancel the dinner.âÂ
âWe canât,â Eugene replied.Â
âWe can do whatever we want and need to do,â Snafu said. âThat includes cancelling.âÂ
âBut Iâm just feeling this way because Iâm nervous about dinner. At least I think thatâs all it is.âÂ
He couldnât resist the urge to curl up on the couch as Snafu set him down carefully. There was just enough room for Snafu to sit on the edge of the couch near him that way.Â
After a moment, Snafu was up again though, and returned with a thin but soft blanket from the downstairs linen closet. âYou just sleep. I shoulda let you stay upstairs, but-âÂ
âNo, I should be getting up, I should be helping you get ready. I shouldnât be...like this,â Eugene sighed.Â
âYou canât help how this makes you feel. Get some rest; I got this,â Snafu said.Â
âYouâre even going to make the main-âÂ
Snafu shuddered. âDonât remind me of that. But yeah, Iâll make that delicious bullshit whatever. Iâll wake you in a few hours. Donât worry about anything.âÂ
He settled on the couch, and tried to listen to Snafu. Sleeping was always better than staring into space, anxiety-ridden. He just had to will himself to do it.Â
#text post#LeeH writes#Sledgefu#Gonna work to get the next part out asap since this is kind of an inbetween action chapter#bear with me while I type as quick as I can!
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The Basic Facts of Uzbekistan
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Hopefully this is my last VLD S7 discourse post.
I usually try to stay out of the drama but LGBTQ rep is near and dear to me and I have spent the last few days totally caught up in the discourse surrounding S7, despite my best intentions. Can I blame myself though? It is every where! Â
So I am hoping if I just put all my thoughts in an under the cut post, maybe I can move on and go back to enjoying the show for what it is and creating and assuming the fanon content I enjoy. I really do like the show. I just have feelings about some decisions.
Warning, there is an essay under here:
Iâll start by reminding people, I am in my 30s and I came out as bi in the 90s so I grew up in a totally different stage of society than most of the fandom. I mention this because it is important to keep in mind that the western world was not as open and accepting as it is now and my generation did a lot to make progress happen. There is still a lot to be done, but that is another matter.
I grew up in an age where LGBTQ characters, if present, were usually evil, tortured or killed off. At best, they were a comedic side kick. When we started to get LGBTQ content, shows like Queer as Folk, were given late night time slots and considered adult and taboo. Â
Shows like Modern Family were an amazing win for LGBTQ rep but animation still had/has a lot of ground work to do.
Dreamworks got flack for Gobber saying, âAnd thatâs why I never married,â in HTTYD 2 and that was super vague.
Conservative groups were adamant that childrenâs content be free of âdiscussions of sexuality.â Gosh forbid, someone be gay so any references had to be vague and nearly undetectable. LGBTQ content was heavily censored and often out right forbidden.
Legend of Korraâs Korrasami pushed the envelope and broke ground but itâs rep was still at the very end of the series and quiet enough to sneak by censors.
Right before I watched VLD, I watched Yuri on Ice and was so moved that there was a well written animated series that depicted a same sex relationship where it wasnât played for comedic effect, tokenism or tragedy.
When I finished YOI, I got sucked into VLD by the fan art. When I watched the show, Keith and Lanceâs relationship intrigued me and I had fun imagining scenarios where they could end up together and live in domestic bliss.
The fandom ate it up. There was so much K/lance content to create and consume and so much positive response to it, that I fell in love. They became an OTP and I have dedicated my blog to them ever since.
However, this whole time I have been cautiously optimistic about the likelihood that K/lance could become canon because I imagined the crew would have a fight on their hands to make it happen. My experience with representation in media made it hard for me to let myself hope. Â
But I let myself believe because of LOK, Disney having a gay character come out on one of its youth series, and shows like One Day At A Time.
Shipping meta didnât help. Â Â Â Â Â
But I tried very hard to keep my hopes in check and remind myself that fanon isnât canon and that I am hear for the fanon. Canon would be nice but it is not the end all be all. I had to repeat this to myself a lot.
The last little while I have found myself growing exceptionally tired of âKICKâ and shipperâs insistence that K/lance will be canon because I knew the fandom was getting their hopes up and that fanon and canon are separate things and I didnât want people to get their hearts broken when fanon wasnât represented in canon.
Also, I wanted people to focus on creating and consuming fanon content rather than scouring the canon for proof and engaging in petty ship wars, but that is some peopleâs idea of fun, and I canât judge them for enjoying the show differently than me.
Anyways, despite my reservations, I let myself hope.
Then we had Shiroâs reveal. I was so excited that we were getting a strong persevering leader and POC as LGBTQ rep in a childrenâs animation that I didnât even care that the likelihood of K/lance was diminished for me because there was no way I could let my self believe that we could have three characters in canon m/m relationships.
But then I watched S7 and the rep fell a little flat for me, but I was still happy there was enough insinuation that m/m youth could see themselves in Shiro.
But then they gave Ezor and Zethrid a coded scene and killed them and Adam.
I donât think the show runners did this with any ill intent. I think they were clueless to the fact that they were committing a dangerous trope.
The show is about war, yes, and people are lost in war, but we need to have enough LGBTQ characters in animation, media in general really, that the loss of one is not such a blow. Â They should have predicted the fandom outrage, but I donât think they did, and now they are on the defensive, seemingly making things worse. Â
I also felt queer baited. And I donât use that term lightly. I have defended them against queer baiting in the past because 99% of the time, the feeling is the result of the fandom building hype by reading into things and spinning things the showrunners and Vas said and not actually baiting.
And that happened again here.
But I feel like the showrunners contributed to it this time.
But I also am not sure how they could have shut it down.
I kind of wish they would not have said anything about Shiro at SDCC and just let the viewers interpret the scene for themselves. LM and JDS saying Adam and Shiro were engaged doesnât mean anything if they donât show it in the show. That was their mistake.
If they were not sure they would be able to give explicit rep, they should not have said anything about it. I donât think people would have cared as much that there was not LGBTQ rep if we were not expecting it.
I get wanting to make everyone happy and being inclusive and not wanting to spoil anything or shut down ships but ugh it made an ugly situation. I Â donât know how they could have been more honest without spoiling things though. Â
(But if they really didnât want to shut down ships, why write Lance and Keith in any romantic arcs at all? They knew how popular the ships were to make some changes? I suppose the verdict is still out on whether A/llurance and K/acxa are gonna be cannon though so I really shouldnât assume and get upset about that yet)
The fandom is partly to blame for the hype and perceived queer baiting in the past. If people didnât ask questions that put show runners and VAs in awkward spots or spinning things said, the hype might not be so extreme. Â
But this time it feels like the show runners went with it?
Did marketers encourage the hype for ratings though? Definitely. I donât trust marketers. There goal is to get people talking about the show, be it good or bad. Itâs important to remember the show runners and the marketers are separate. Netflix pulled some shady moves with the posters and that whole folding picture thing.
And that brings me back to K/lance. Â
For awhile now I am have been thinking they pulled a Zutara with K/lance and S/hallura, (Zutara is the pairing of Zuko and Katara from Avatar the Last Airbender, and the plan was for them to be canon but studio pressure suggested the audience related to Aang more so they shifted gears and made Kaang the canon romance in the last season instead).
S/hallura could have been such a beautifully written loves story of two fierce leaders and no one can tell me they donât have chemistry and corresponding arcs.
So I was surprised when it was revealed that Shiro was the LGBTQ rep.
This made me think maybe Shiro and Adam were to be just friends and K/lance was meant to be canon after all, which is why so many of us saw canon potential in S1-3) but then it got shut down for any numbers of reasons and they decided to make Shiro the rep instead.
Barlee recently tweeted that Shiro was always meant to be the LGBTQ rep and they had to fight for what they showed though.
So this combined with the fact that they had to fight to show what little they did and the insistence that Shiro âis the rep,â makes me think K/lance isnât happening for sure.
And I am sad about that. And that is ok. I am allowed to be sad about it. My sadness that my ship wonât be canon should not dismiss my concerns about the bury your gays trope though. They are two different issues and I am sick that people are undermining the argument because of who people ship.
I am also sad, that Barleeâs tweet suggested that LM and JDS did not get to tell the story they wanted to tell because of studio meddling. Iâd really love to know what that story was. Â
But I will get over it and go back to creating and consuming content for K/lance and VLD because the world that VLD created is rich and inspiring to me. I love exploring the what ifs and alternate story lines the VLD universe has to offer because that is the part of fandom I enjoy.
I enjoy the canon too, but it is just one story in a list of endless possibilities.
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Federation Worldbuilding: Medical
(Worldbuilding for my dystopian Star Trek AU, Federation.)
In Federation, medical science has progressed in leaps and bounds since the twenty-first century; by 2166, they have made a number of significant medical breakthroughs.
(Cut for length.)
Communicable Disease
The vast majority of communicable diseases have been eradicated. Some serious diseases still survive, but they're rare, and can almost universally be cured once diagnosed.
The single world government and improved transportation technology make vaccination campaigns much easier; hyposprays can be re-used safely (unlike needles), don't require training to administer, and stand up to transportation much better than the vaccines we know.
For the most part, diseases which remain widespread do so because they're so mild that people don't bother getting vaccinated or treated or even staying home from work while sick with them; people still get colds, but malaria is long gone.
New diseases crop up occasionally, but cures and vaccines are usually developed promptly. It's not unusual for visitors to a new planet to accidentally bring back some disease, despite measures against this, and such epidemics can be serious, since the human population doesn't have any established resistance; but they're almost always contained promptly.
Dermal Regenerators
Dermal regenerators are small handheld devices that can be used to cause rapid skin growth, healing minor cuts and scrapes in seconds. They have a range of intensities, from a low setting appropriate for cat scratches/minor burns from cooking, to a high setting used for burn victims in hospitals.
Regenerators built only to function at the low end of the range are a common component of home first aid kits. Regenerators which can treat more serious injuries, however, are only supposed to be used by trained medical professionals, because of potential health risks. A regenerator used for too long or at too high a setting for the injury in question can cause painful blistering; used much too long or at much too high a setting, they can cause cancer (which, while treatable in Federation, is still not pleasant to have.) Doctors are trained to assess what setting is called for, use the regenerator as little as possible while still achieving the desired effect, and reduce the risk of side effects when extensive treatment is needed by spacing it out over multiple days or regenerating the skin partway and then allowing it to finish healing naturally.
A rare genetic condition can cause extreme sensitivity to dermal regenerators, such that any use at all raises large painful blisters, and even small amounts of use at low settings can cause cancer. (This is colloquially referred to as an "allergy" to dermal regenerators, even though medically speaking it's no such thing.) This isn't usually a serious issue for the sufferers; they just have to make sure it's in their medical file, and heal from injuries the old-fashioned way.
Sunbeds
Sunbeds look roughly like high-tech tanning beds with none of the cancer risk. They use  a combination of light and fancy 22nd-century technology to manually adjust the user's circadian rhythm; as such, they're the technology of choice for travelers wanting to avoid jet lag. Five or six hours in a sunbed will set your sleep cycle to match whatever time zone you're in (or some other time zone, if you want to do that for some reason).
Sunbeds are universally present on spaceships, because of the need for multiple (alpha/beta/gamma) shifts covering the entire day/night cycle of the ship; crewmembers transferred between shifts can visit Medical and spend a night in a sunbed, rather than trying to suffer through an eight-hour adjustment in their sleep cycle the old-fashioned way.
Transplants
Replicators should in theory be capable of producing human organs for transplant; in practice, however, regulations and social pressures associated with the taboo on genetic engineering also interfere severely with the research needed to program them appropriately. As a result, they're currently limited to producing blood (which can of course be of any blood type as needed); and only human blood, Vulcan blood not having yet been figured out sufficiently.
Prosthetics
The prosthetics in Federation aren't much more advanced than the best ones available in our world; Geordi's visor is still two hundred years away. Artificial limbs can respond to the user's muscle signals, and send sensory feedback in return, but still clumsily and unreliably. The big difference is that, with replicators, everyone who needs a prosthetic can have the best available -- can in fact have a different one for every day of the week, if they like different kinds for different purposes, or even just for aesthetics.
Tricorders
Everyone is probably familiar with these from canon. They're little devices that you can use to scan someone or something and get information on its condition. Different models are optimized for different purposes: you get tricorders that are best at analyzing the composition of rocks, or of the atmosphere, or general-purpose tricorders that will do a decent job of analyzing whatever you run into on a new planet, or of course medical tricorders which are best at scanning someone and figuring out what's wrong with them.
Tricorders are limited in their use, but very good within their range of competence. They're excellent at diagnosing problems like "dehydration" or "iodine deficiency" or "mercury poisoning" or even "some kind of flu-like virus." They're much less good at precise identification of diseases -- they'd have to have seen the exact same one before -- or figuring out the root cause of multiple symptoms when this is more complicated than a database look-up, or so forth. And they're prone to very silly errors, especially when used in ways they're not designed for; if you use a tricorder on someone with nonstandard biology, it will diagnose them with all sorts of absurd things.
Non-communicable diseases
Lots of non-communicable diseases are also treatable! Diabetes, kidney failure, cancer, and so on and so forth. Genetic conditions are generally not, because of the taboo on research in that area; there's often but not always decent palliative care available.
Old age, broadly, has not been solved, but people do live longer due to the improved medical technology; it's ordinary for a human to make 100, and 120 isn't unheard of.
Genetic engineering
Super super super illegal. Crime against humanity. Incredibly taboo.
This, of course, doesn't stop people from doing it.
The research on how to genetically engineer improvements along almost all axes has existed for some time; it's heavily censored, of course, and illegal to research, but people still get ahold of it one way or another. If you know what you're doing, and have the right price to offer, you can find someone to genetically engineer you a designer baby.
Of course, the kind of people who are willing to do that are often very sketchy indeed. Some of them are just philanthropic doctors who have principled disagreements with the Federation. But you're just as likely to get someone who's actually doing their own incredibly unethical human experimentation, and promises to engineer you a smart baby but actually produces one with two heads, or who charges you an outrageous fee and then doesn't actually do anything at all. And that's if you don't just get someone incompetent, or a government plant who'll handcuff you on the spot.
People seek out genetic engineering for a wide range of reasons. Sometimes they just want to make sure their child doesn't inherit some condition. Sometimes they want to have a biological child with their same-sex partner. (Human-Vulcan hybrid children aren't yet possible, but they will be eventually.) Sometimes they want a designer baby: smarter, prettier, stronger, healthier. Sometimes they want a clone, of themselves or of someone else, which falls under the relevant legal umbrella. Sometimes they don't want a child at all, they want a supersoldier or a superspy or some other custom-built tool.
Other reasons people can count as genetically engineered: gene therapy exists, though it's risky and unpleasant and just as illegal as any other kind of genetic engineering; someone who's had gene therapy is legally considered genetically engineered. The child of two genetically engineered people is legally considered genetically engineered. (Someone who has only one genetically engineered parent, or less heritage than that, is in a dubious legal situation which hasn't yet been settled to anyone's satisfaction.)
It's not just illegal to genetically engineer people, it's illegal for genetically engineered people to exist; there's plenty of legal precedent for this to cash out to a death sentence, although someone sufficiently sympathetic/with a sufficiently good lawyer/who makes a plea deal/who sells other people out may well be able to bargain that down to life imprisonment. Genetically engineered people aren't considered to have any legal rights, although the Federation would probably still get complaints if it actually flat-out tortured them.
There's case law establishing that genetically engineered people are legally the property of whoever did the genetic engineering. This is based on a fairly stretched interpretation of intellectual property law, and was essentially just courts coming up with an excuse to hold people responsible for the actions of their genetically engineered supersoldiers during the Eugenics Wars. It's basically never actually used in the obvious horrible way, because in order for someone to claim those legal rights over someone they genetically engineered, they'd have to confess to genetic engineering, which would be unutterably stupid.
The legal penalty for genetic engineering isn't death -- the Federation doesn't do the death penalty, genetically engineered people just get shuffled in under the cover of "they're not allowed to exist in the first place, we're just fixing that" -- but it's subject to whatever are the most stringent legal penalties that are available; certainly life imprisonment without parole, possibly other things if they come up with anything (e.g. dumping them on a half-terraformed asteroid somewhere). And this can also apply to people who assist with it, or help cover it up, or harbor people they know to be genetically engineered, or otherwise make themselves accomplices.
In addition to all the legal strictures, genetic engineering (or anything associated with it in the general consciousness) is incredibly socially taboo. ("Eugenics" is a decent proxy, when comparing to our world, though it doesn't have the same stigma attached to the people who are the result of it.) Prisoners charged with anything associated with genetic engineering are routinely abused and maltreated by the guards and other prisoners; suggesting that someone is genetically engineered is fighting words; suspicion of being genetically engineered gets you ostracized at minimum, likely refused basic services and/or beat up in the streets. This is not a popular cause; bringing it up socially doesn't get you "ooo, cool and edgy," it gets horrified silence and being invited to leave.
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Week 4 -Â REPRESENTATION
When should games be banned or censored, if at all? Empathise with the different perspectives of this game and its promotion.Â
Subjective. What one may claim as âcensorshipâ is someone elseâs idea of âcensored for good reasonâ. For example, a game featuring blatant cruelty may generally be considered as one of these âcensored for good reasonâ games, however there would definitely be someone out there who thinks the game is perfectly fine and has been unfairly censored.Â
For Cannon Fodder it declares its anti-war message by being extremely blatant about war is unforgiving and futile. Soldiers die in one hit, and upon death they sit there choking on blood before they finally collapse; at the end of a round the fallen are purposely named, driving home the fact that each solider was their own person, not just a number in the death toll.Â
I definitely agree with the gameâs message, but on the other hand releasing the game right on Londonâs Remembrance Day was perhaps a bit too much. The day is meant for honouring the dead and the move was perhaps a bit on the nose and maybe even disrespectful for potentially taking the attention away from those who have served - especially how as the review noted some people missed the point and saw Cannon Fodder as another one of those mindlessly violent wargames.Â
Choose one of molleindustriaâs games to play. Describe your experience and how the designers have used the game mechanics to get their point across.Â
I played Free Culture, a game about the struggle between copyright and commons. The game takes place on a white circle, representing the common, where knowledge is created and shared; and an outer grey circle that represents the market, where knowledge is commodified and sold.
The distributor (the cursor) distributes knowledge-dots to the people in the common
The vectoralist sucks the knowledge-dots into the market to create scarcity.Â
People who canât access knowledge in the common stop producing ideas and become passive consumers in the market
Consumers who donât receive commodified knowledge will return to the common
The distributor works in a herding, ârepelâ mechanic, where it scatters the knowledge-dots in all directions and makes it impossible to be accurate with. The people in the commons also will only absorb knowledge through a certain direction on their head, meaning the player has to go to quite the length to even distribute one knowledge dot. Meanwhile the vectoralist moves fast, freely, and with extreme accuracy, sucking up 4 dots in one go and moving right above each consumer to ensure the sold knowledge reaches them directly. Itâs a struggle to even defend the dots against the vectoralist, as the only way to click rapidly to counter the vectoralistâs magnetic field with the cursorâs own deflector. This was possibly intended to give a sense of desperation and struggle.Â
The answer to âwinningâ the game turns out to just sit back and not interfere and let the game play out itself. Eventually all the people turn into consumers and the Vectoralist sucks up all the knowledge. With no one left to produce ideas and the Vectoralist unable to give all these consumers their commodified knowledge, all the consumers return to the common again to produce ideas themselves.
However this is no true end state - very quickly the Vectorialist takes away this new knowledge in the commons and the people revert back to consumers as they cannot access the knowledge. An endless cycle of struggle.Â
Consider the attributes and intentions of the Eurogame genre, and compare these to Loring-Albrightâs assessment of the Settlers of Catan.Â
In Eurogames players compete for resources, have social initiatives such as negotiation, require long-term planning, and are usually won by whoever racks up a certain amount of one thing. Intention-wise this seems to have manifested as storylines where the player exploits or profits from the system. Unfortunately while fine(?) with a game like Monopoly (whose controversy is another whole can of worms), combined with story elements that concern historical events like in the game Puerto Rico where the aim of the game is to run a plantation, this make them concerning in the way that they glorify western settlement and exploitation of people of colour. Such is Loring-Albrightâs assessment of Settlers of Catan. Quote: âIt became clear, at least to me, (...) Settlers of Catan re-tells the American myth of White European settlers stumbling upon a fertile land that was theirs by right, encountering no meaningful resistance, and acting on behalf of God and Country to develop economies, settlements, and cities in this âNew World.â
Apply this authorâs line of thinking to other playful situations: video games, sports, etc. Do you see your values and your personality more clearly when you play? Provide an anecdote if you can.Â
Mostly yes, but depends on the person and the game. While I think narrative and NPCs have an influence on this, I never really played board games myself, so I donât think I have the experience to talk about. Hence Iâll be taking Animal Crossing and Undertale as examples instead.Â
I personally always choose the nicer option or choice no matter if the consequences are serious or not simply because I feel bad if I do anything that would upset the characters - I would say this reflects how I am in real life as well. However one friend who is extremely shy and non confrontational in real life would purposely choose provoking responses in AC just to see how the character would react. Though in Undertale she did not do an all-kill run because she felt bad.Â
Notably, AC is a very kind game where even if a villager does get upset with you they forget it by the afternoon, whereas in Undertale killing even one monster alters the dialogue from the main cast, and if a player insists on going ahead with killing every monster they meet, the game makes a point to drive home how the player is a coldhearted murderer.
So while thereâs the net of âitâs just a gameâ, how âtellingâ it is of how someone plays a game depends on how seriously the game makes an issue - while UT puts a big emphasis on death, games like FPSes where the whole point to slaughter enemies do not. This isnât to say that people who play an all kill run of UT are actually murderers, but I do think it says something about their level of empathy.Â
Following this line of thinking Iâd say games like sports and Monopoly where you interact with other people rather than NPCs would alter how people act as well. The magic circle would come into play - acting on motivation to win, sportsmen are more aggressive on the playing field and Monopoly sends otherwise good relations into utter chaos.Â
(Problem Attic) Attempt to understand what the game designer is trying to communicate with the symbolism and mechanics.
Seeing how the game describes itself as âa game about prisons, both real and imaginedâ, I imagine the clash of colours, faked barriers and invisible ones alike, and general confusion are all on purpose to simulate the feeling of one being trapped and trying to navigate their own mind - in extremely abstract levels, there are no instructions other than the instinctual movement rules, and mechanics are learned by trying again and again and again, much like how navigating inner troubles might be like: you know you have a problem, but how the problem works exactly you have no idea, and you can only get yourself out of it by trying repeatedly (or seeking outside help, ie, google). Following this, Iâd guess that the crosses represent traumatic experiences, seeing how it chases the player and causes the camera to convulse when it collides, and at times completely immobilises.Â
Frustration seems to be a core part of this game, such as slippery controls, platforms moving out right beneath you - one of the levels even has a purposely coded âfailâ, in which every third or fourth time the player hit the jump button it would fail to activate, hindering the player especially as youâre trying to outrun a cross on this level. Iâd think this represents trying to navigate life with all of these âprisonsâ weighing down on the playerâs mind.
(Seeing how the gameâs name can also be read as âproblematicâ I wonder if the game could also be about unhealthy coping mechanisms?)
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Kingsman: A Journey Unfinished
post-TSS fic below the cut, ~2k words, Merlinâs POV re: Harry
(wasnât Merlahad in my head but itâs certainly Merlahad-friendly; it basically works either way)
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It wasnât supposed to happen this way.
It was Eggsy whoâd reminded him, after the plane had landed back at headquarters, Roxy waiting for them on the tarmac near the transport heâd sent for her. Theyâd cheered their victory, Lancelot and Galahad hugging for ages, and then the boy had broken away, sobered, turning to him. Asking:
âAinât there gonna be a funeral? For Harry?â
Merlin tenses at the memory. Yes, there should be. Thereâs supposed to be.
There always is. The death of a Kingsman is a blessedly infrequent occasion, but when it happens, thereâs rarely any living kin to speak of. Someoneâs got to bury them, and thereâs no honor in leaving it to the state. As a Kingsman is welcomed by his brethren, so shall he depart the earth. Every suit is black on those days. Every topcoat.
Merlin himself has only been to a sparse number of these. Itâs only recently that colleague casualties have begun to plague his tenure with any regularity. They lost an Arthurâhis and Harryâs training agent, Chesterâs predecessorâto diabetic ketoacidosis in the mid-eighties. A Gareth fell to Botswanan militants in â92. A Percival to a literal fall in â94. Then Lancelotâprior to James; a man named Duncan Billingsleyâkilled in a car crash in 1997. James, they buried on a Thursday, stitched back together as best they could do. Lee Unwin, they turned over to the Westminster Public Mortuary, who, in turn, released his remains to the custody of his widow; he received no Kingsman ceremony, though the circle K mark still graces the base of his headstone, earned through his bravery.
Five funerals. Only five, and five too many. Never in all his years has he seriously pictured attending Harryâs. Harry Hart, damn him and all his reckless shite, wasâŚindestructible. Stubbornly so. That funeral was always the most hypothetical. The very last one heâd ever expected, or wanted to attend.
Until now. Now, itâs the one thing he wants to attend more than anything.
Now that he canât.
He removes his glasses, setting the frames down on his desk, working his hands together. They cup his face, and he sighs. His exhausted mind replays the comlink feedback from not five minutes ago.
âCome in, Merlin; this is Llamrei. Weâre on the ground.â
Theyâd been in the air before even he and the recruits had. The salvage crew. He hadnât waited. Not even for the toast. He hadnât toasted. Heâd arranged for pickup instead. For Godâs sake, heâd sent them immediately.
âWe have blood on the car park, positively identified.â
In front of South Glade Mission Church. Analysis would have taken only seconds. But they shouldnât have had to analyze. The source was supposed to be where theyâd left himâŚ
âArea is clear. Repeat, area is clear. No remains or sign of Agent Galahad.â
No remains or sign of Agent Galahad.
Heâd sent them immediately. He couldnât have sent them any sooner, couldnât have shortened the ocean or sped them to Kentucky any faster. And it wasnât enough. Somewhere in that window of timeâŚ
What the hell happened?
Thereâs nothing in this world he despises more than a question with no answer. Ordinarily, they annoy him. Vex him. Irritate him to no end. He designs workarounds to circumvent them. When possible, he cracks them. When advantageous, he hacks them. Unanswered questions and his hatred thereof have inspired no less than his every development, every schematic.
For all that work, this is one that he canât fix. Heâs met his match, and itâs Harryâs brains on a car park, no chance he survived, yet no body to return to his home.
How did we fucking lose him?
âYou check the area,â heâd ordered them. âAnd then you check it again.â The situation wasnât without possibilities. The moment of Harryâs death may not have coincided with the termination of his feed. He could have crawled for a bit. Back inside, or away for help. Even between the cars, or underneath, to keep himself from being discovered. Sensationalized.
But he hadnât. Merlin had watched with his own eyes as Llamrei transmitted. Their full sweep returned a topographical scan of the area covering a half-mileâs radius.
Harry was gone. Harry is gone, and a day that was already hell is now infinitely worse.
He picks up his glasses, easing them back onto his nose. He straightens his tie, palming it flat beneath his jumper. His own emotions, his own frustrations mean extraordinarily little now. Especially because itâs very likely that theyâll never subside. Not without answers that are maddeningly beyond his reach. Thereâll be time to grapple with them later. He wouldnât rule out a pint of scotch for supper tonight.
Heâs already failed to bring Harry home to rest. He is not going to fail at the one task Harry left in his hands.
âLook after him, Merlin.â He remembers Harry in his housecoat and slippers, fresh out of his coma, more concerned with dramatic entrustments than even his return to civilization. âShould I be any less lucky the next time round, I ask you, as a personal favor. Please. See that he fulfills his potential. Donât let him be discouraged by my death. Or dwell on it, for heavenâs sake.â
Heâd told Harry to shut up. And called him a prick, if memory serves. Which it always does.
He hates the prick even worse now for making him do this.
Merlin rises, putting his computer to sleep. For once, he doesnât collect his clipboard. Instead, he goes by instinct to the right coordinates of wall, pressing his palm to the hidden censor. Bluegreen fingerprints etch out a glow beneath his touch. The panel recesses. From the cubby it reveals, he carefully procures one of the agencyâs dozen coveted decanters, pinching together three shot glasses in his spare hand.
The others have toasted. Bedivere. Gawain. Lamorak. Fucking dead Chester. This is for the three of them who havenât, not fittingly. Itâs arguable theyâre the ones who need it more than the rest combined.
His gut is no less sour as he walks with measured steps toward the Lancelot suite. Heâs just very good at hiding it. After all this time, he fucking ought to be. With the crystal stopper, he taps twice, lightly, on the heavy door.
âPermission to enter,â he requests.
âGranted,â Roxyâs voice returns.
Merlin enters. Exhaustion has taken hold of the kids in his absence. Theyâre both sat on the foot of the bed, Eggsyâs elbows on his knees, medallion in his hands. Roxyâs angled toward him, her near hand on his back. J.B. and Marthe lounge at their feet, panting as if theyâd put in the same work as their human counterparts.
Wordlessly, he hands Roxy the first shot glass. Her brow quirks, but she accepts. The transaction flags Eggsyâs peripheral, as he knew it would, and when the boy looks up, Merlin proffers him the second one.
âWhatâs all this?â
Merlin uncorks the ceremonial booze. âWeâre honoring Harry,â he explains.
âButâŚI alreadyâŚâ
âNo, you didnât. It doesnât count as a proper memorial when someoneâs trying to poison you. A good tip you might want to remember for the future.â He pours Roxyâs shot first, then Eggsyâs, and then his own. If theyâre a little heavy-handedâŚwell. Harry can come fucking fight him, now canât he.
He plans to wait at least until they drink. That is, he does until Roxy sizes him up, careful scrutiny all over her face, and he knows heâs been made.
Nothingâs going to go as planned today, then. Not aside from the exploding heads, anyway.
âThereâs something youâre not telling us,â she diagnoses.
For a moment, heâs perfectly still but for his eyes, shifting from one of them to the other. Theyâre hanging on his every word, both of them. Merlin sighs. His manners only take precedence because his autopilot knows no better. âMay I sit?â
Roxy nods once. He takes the chair by her door and moves it closer, parking himself just the other side of the dogs. The shot glass and decanter go on the ottoman. His hands knead without permission.
âWhatâs wrong?â
He pays Eggsy for his question with eye contact. He has to force it, but he canât deny itâs been earned, no matter how difficult.
âIâm afraid this will be the extent of any funeral for Harry.â
Thereâs only a split second where the thought of telling the truth crosses his mind. Then, willingly, without regret or hesitation, he lies.
âAfter the test at the church, ValentineâŚsent in a cleanup crew.â
Itâs certainly not impossible. In fact, itâs the closest to a logical idea heâs got. Except that the bodies in the building were still there. Maybe Valentine took Harryâs body specifically to learn who he was. Itâs a longshot. But itâs better than the alternative. Eggsy filling his own head with false hope, waiting for months like a cocker spaniel at the window. Waiting against all odds for a triumphant return thatâs never going to come.
âMy recovery team canvassed the property, but there wasnât anything left. No weapons. No blood. AndâŚno bodies. Neither inside nor out. No one was left. Suppose he didnât want to attract the media before the countdown to V-Day was finished.â
He watches them react. Concern paints Roxyâs face, but her eyes only widen momentarily before checking on Eggsy. The boyâs eyes arenât dry anymore. He swallows hard. Merlin has to remind himself again that this is the best recourse in the long run.
âSo⌠Youâre sayinâ that⌠They took his body. SoâŚthatâs it.â
Merlin nods. âMass cremation, most likely.â Itâs insurance. None of them want to picture it, but heâs in the business of protection now. Heâs the one doomed to lack closure. The kids donât have to. Itâs a sick, wasting illness heâs got no designs to spread.
Roxyâs eyes shut, a single tear driving down her cheek. She swipes it away, nodding. Eggsy is stoic, jaw so tightly locked that the tendons in his neck protrude. He stares at the carpet for what feels to Merlin like a solid hour, and then his head bobs too, and he throws back the contents of his shot glass in a single gulp, wincing once itâs down.
He holds it out, spare hand beckoning. âLetâs have another, then.â
Not an hour agoâfresh from champagne and strawberries, effectively grounded in the back of the planeâheâd have denied him that. But not now. The look on his face is enough. Suddenly Merlin sees through Harryâs eyes, and for the first time, thereâs a pull that lets him understand firsthand, more than he thought he did already. For all intents and purposes, this boy is Harryâs son. Everything he gave the world.
Itâs more than enough reason to give him another drink. A generous one, at that.
Merlinâs still blinking away the resemblance manufactured by his brain when Eggsy lifts his second shot. âTo Harry,â he says solemnly. âJust the fuckinâ best of us.â
Roxyâs goes up next. And Merlin follows, lightly clinking them together at the rim. âTo Harry.â Itâs by no means a good enough goodbye, but as the only one heâs ever going to get, at least itâs in good company.
Together, the three of them drink. Merlin leads an unannounced moment of silence afterward, and then he stands. He doesnât cork the coveted brandy or collect their glasses. Let them finish it. Thereâs always more. Some things can be replaced.
âIâll leave you to it.â
âYou can stay, yâknow, Merlin.â Eggsyâs looking up at him now. âYou really came through for us both in all this. You donât âave to go.â
Itâs only a borderline plea, which is good, because it frees him to choose the side of the border where he can ignore the pleading part entirely. Roxyâs with him. Thatâs enough for the moment.
âActually, I do,â he says. âSomeoneâs got to start new Arthur proceedings. The sooner the better.â
âYou sure?â
âYes. But thank you.â
Truthfully, it can wait âtil morning. The real problem is that this is going to be far more difficult than anticipated. Making it through the long haul means getting out of this room right now, before he and his lie both unravel around the younger agentsâ little fingers.
Eggsy doesnât press. âAlright,â he says.
âSleep well, Merlin,â Roxy offers.
âAndâŚthanks.â
All Merlin can do is smile faintly, nod one more time, and perform an about-face, pulling Roxyâs door shut in his wake. He heads down the center of the corridor with concrete in every step, his fifty-plus years weighing like eighty in his bones. Had he his clipboard, it would probably be smashed. âAccidentally,â to be sure.
Are you happy, you bastard? The deed is done; a new mission begun of an old one never to end. Wherever you are, I hope youâre fucking happy.
He sits at his desk until Llamrei returns, and then he goes to bed, extinguishing an era with the light.
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#Kingsman#Kingsman: The Secret Service#Agent Merlin#Harry Hart#Eggsy Unwin#Roxy Morton#fanfic#oh look Aud did a thing
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