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[brandileigh2003]

What even is your life if you can't sleep at 4am Friday night/sat am and you're eating cinnamon toast crunch, sore from a procedure and thinking about crimson rivers wolfstar???

Wait.

Is that just me??

Oh.

[zara-renata]

something something compare and contrast: sylus, caleb, two sides of the same coin, big caretaker vibes, both ruthless in protecting and keeping what has offered to be theirs (that's you, mc):

sylus: has waited lifetimes to find you again. you taught him to love, what it is to be human, what a heart and his human body are for. but he's not human, he's not dragon, he's both, he's neither. his compass is you. he's hungry and he's bored and he's been hurt over and over and over again, by humanity, by solitude, death and being forced back to life again, and not finding you, his curse, his other half. when he finally does, you don't even remember him. he has missed so much of your life already. he will either make you remember through cruelty (fails) or set such an elaborate trap so that you fall for him all over again, even without remembering him (succeeds). Poet, romantic, deeply loyal -> you're the one, the only. he has memories of a different time, a different way of wooing you -> gifts, patience, an animal attentiveness to every expression across your face, a shift in pheromones, your mood. You can't lie to him, or a fool him, even when you want to. he loves you, he worships you, he would never hurt you, not after he realized that his initial cruelty in an effort to make you remember was a failure and almost drove you away for good. he wants to play with you, he wants to have fun with you, he's a lover who follows your lead, give and take, negotiate and renegotiate, with your wishes and desires front and center. Turnabout is fair play -> you want to lead, then so does he. you are the other part of his soul, after all. he always asks, checks in, double checks, to make sure. he isn't always as sure as he seems, because he's been wrong before, he has hurt you before, after all. he can hardly believe you're saying yes again, and again, and again. everything leads back to you. he loves seeing your independence, your strength, your flippant entitlement. you're independent, but you have chosen him, you want him, what could be a higher compliment, a bigger testament to the fact that you're true kindred spirits? you're a true match for a dragon like him.

caleb: he has been there with you, for as long as you can remember. he is one of your first memories. he either knew you from before, in the lab, and you just don't remember the before, or he knew you from the moment gran introduced you, brought you under the same roof. it doesn't matter. what matters is that the moment he held out his hand and you took it, he was yours, and you were his. you were the gravity holding him together, twin stars orbiting each other, anchoring each other. he protected you, covered for you, laughed with you, pestered you. he was your childhood best friend, the closest to you that anyone has ever gotten, from the very beginning of you. somewhere along the way, as you grew together, around each other, into each other, twin trees planted close and eventually intertwined, nurtured from the same soil-> he notices you're not just cute, not just cherished, familiar, as much a part of himself as his own heartbeat, his own breath, but you're beautiful. you're so beautiful, it hurts. maybe he already knew, from the beginning, that he is supposed to be a tool, a weapon, that he's supposed to contain you, restrict you, hurt you. but none of that matters, from the first time you took his offered hand. he'll do anything, by any means necessary, to ensure that you'll be okay. orders from above, societal expectations, he will cross every boundary to protect you and keep you by his side. he is attentive, yes, but he already knows, because he saw you the first time you tried your favorite flavor, the first time you got seriously hurt, as you learned what you liked and didn't like; as you learned who you are, so did he. he was watching, etching you in his memories. he doesn't even have to ask, because he already knows. he gives you what you want, what you need, and he takes what he wants, and what he needs, in return. he spent too long hating himself, feeling guilty for everything he wanted, only to almost lose you for good when he 'died' and he had to let you think he was dead for such a long time. he's crawled back from the dead for you. he's not going to deny himself, or you, ever again. he needs you to need him, he loves seeing you accept what he provides, even though he knows you could do it for yourself. he prefers to be in control, because there's so much he can't control, fate and his intended purpose, your destiny, what he knows is waiting for you if he fucks up. but he knows that you have been striving to be independent, to be his equal, once he left for the DAA, and he respects you for it, even as he will never get over the urge to do everything, anything for you, every chance you'll let him. he is shocked, whenever he is wrong about what you want, what you need, whenever you have acquired a new taste since he was gone. his existence is defined by your need for each other, in a world with just the two of you.

neither of these idiots are going to intentionally hurt you or ignore you when you're crying or put their own needs above yours. both of them admire, respect, are nuts about you. both of them want to provide for you, care for you, give you what you need, be the one to do it. sylus has the self assurance of the other half of your soul, but worries you'll forget him again if he's gone for too long. caleb has the self assurance of knowing you best, from the very beginning, but worries you'll outgrow him, leave him alone in the solitude he forced himself to be in for years when he refused to admit to himself and to you how much he wanted you beyond being his closest friend, the other person in his family. both are incredibly powerful, willing to do anything to ensure your safety and presence in their lives, including hurting and/or killing other people. both of them are going to center your wants and desires over their own because that's the fantasy infold is offering with how they write them.

ok thanks for coming to my ted talk. i figure if i'm going to complain about stuff i see in fandom discourse/fic then i should provide a counter-argument to how these fictional loverboys are characterized.

[grimalditeuthis]

bit that is stuck in my head and vocabulary for ever and ever. the chainsaw killer

(source)

[queerautism]

Hey Rouke, I have a few kinda medical questions and doctors make me extremely anxious (see: bad treatment from physiotherapist)

Is it alright if I ask you them?

Don't feel like you have to answer this btw, if you can't type, that's alright

Please try not to stress yourself over it

Yeah totally, feel free to ask them and I'll do my best / get Dave to help

[marciliedonato]

Käärijä is trending again bc he was watching twilight with Bojan then filming a dramatic video at the airport with him just a couple hours later to my heart will go on... Another day, another slay creating even more allegations and not beating any of them... Just a normal day in Finland 🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️

Edit: yeah they also recreated the cha cha cha performance in a box and pretended to do butt stuff in a shitty club bathroom nothing to see here guys just bros being bros 😊😊😅😛 ....and that's what you missed on glee ‼️ 🤪 😮‍💨

[rosenfey]

so I met trahearne...

[palalabu]

Pretty. Beautiful. Gorgeous.

[tojiscrack]

WHOO HWKKWNE A 20.06k YAYYAYA i’m not sleeping when it comes out

(meet frank)!

22k now that we mention it 😭 it’s 2:22am where i live rn, so i’ll continue writing tmr but school’s starting again so it’ll be a little harder to continue. it’s the most important year for me since i’ll be applying for uni now 😟

but i recommend you get a GOOD night’s sleep BEFORE it’s released bcz it’s a long one with soo many things going on.

on another note, i’m here for the support and it motivates me more than you know :)))

hi frank! 🤭

[koheletgirl]

you can get into les mis after watching crazy ex girlfriend. but watch out

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

re-enabled spell check on my notes app since a few errant words slipped by me in my recent fics and instantly remembered why I turned it off in the first place

even when I added the Japanese dictionary to my phone it is still determined to red line every Japanese name, and adding those names to the dictionary becomes a gruelling process if I need to do it frequently

I might just have to take the occasional misspelled word tbh this is so irritating

why can't iphones just have a nice straightforward 'add to dictionary' button, why are they like this

[sharkfish]

A WAY FOR THE UNIVERSE ON AO3

porn with feelings in space (feat. alien cas)

Rating: Explicit Words: 3,234 Tags: Alternate Universe - Space, Alien Castiel, Human Dean Winchester, Porn with Feelings, Hallucinogens (sort of… see author note)

Summary:

“I have music,” Cas says. “I know it’s not what you generally prefer, but I read that—well. Do you mind?”

Unflappable Cas, becoming increasingly flustered. It’s almost flattering. “Did you do research?” Dean asks, unable to keep the teasing lilt out of his voice.

“I’ve never been with a human before,” Cas says, looking away. “I want you to enjoy yourself.”

“I think I’m going to do more than ‘enjoy’ myself,” Dean says, hoping the flippant tone will cover up the way his chest aches with Cas’s solemn sweetness. “Start the tunes.”

in the space station playlist

[ducktracy]

your blog reminds me of that old toonheads show

THANK YOUUUUU AHHHHHHH WHAT A KIND THING TO SAY!! you're actually not the first to make this comparison, which i LOVE!! i hesitate to confess that i've never yet seen an episode of Toonheads myself... key word YET!! if i'd have seen it when it was airing at a more cognizant age i know kid me would have eaten it up

but seriously! i'm so happy to hear this :') i love shows like Toonheads because it's proof that The People Love To Learn!! and that's what i aim for! it just feels gratifying to learn something new. and even moreso to share it with others!! i definitely see myself as a bit of an archive account myself--whether you have all the interest in the world in golden age cartoons (welcome to the club!) or absolute squat, i at least hope that at least one person comes out learning something new and is maybe even able to foster that knowledge further! it's so rewarding. like an eternal scavenger hunt for knowledge!! so it makes me quite happy to get comparisons like these. thank you thank you!!

[itwoodbeprefect]

on a deep & fundamental level i don't think whoever decided to allow a maximum of four language settings on my phone's android keyboard understands me. why not five. why not six. why not..... ten

[fruit-of-infidelity]

// Richter and I are lowkey gatekeeping smol Ryuuto :/

[piglinmyfeet]

That old picture of Jimmy with the hair has the same vibes as that old picture of Joel with the Justin Bieber t-shirt

I'm not including the photos, you people know exactly what I'm talking about

[riotbeankai]

Hey um. What