#kairaya personal stuff

[riotbeankai]

just finished the finale of the silt verses. I don't know if I've ever felt more deeply wounded or profoundly sad about an ending, or really the whole arc, of a story. I have that "I don't know what to do" feeling that comes when you finish a piece of fiction that affects you to your core. big big story and big big feelings

[riotbeankai]

I've watched several Dracula movies from between 1920 and 1973 in the last few days, and I have some thoughts. I think that for a film to be considered an adaptation that is "faithful to the text," it should include:

- Beginning with Jonathan Harker, soon-to-be-lawyer, as a damsel in distress in Castle Dracula

- Dracula is charismatic and confident in a way that makes people overlook things they would otherwise find unnerving

- Features ALL 3 of Lucy Westenra's suitors, and EVERYONE loves Lucy so much, which is why it is all the more impactful when she dies, undies, and has to be killed again

- Quincy Morris is properly an American cowboy with a gun and a Southern US accent

- Dr. John Seward runs a mental hospital, and he is melancholy, a workaholic, and skeptical

- Lord Arthur Holmwood is very emotional, throws a lot of money around, and uses his title to get around obstacles

- Dr. Abraham Van Helsing is a highly respected and renowned scholar, and he is appropriately Dutch, friendly, and eccentric

- garlic FLOWERS, crushed up communion wafers, stake thru the heart AND cutting off the head, basically all the lore rules should match the text rather than popular or historical mythos

- Mina Murray is appropriately obsessed with trains and their schedules, and her knowledge is integral to defeating Dracula, and both Jonathan and Van Helsing are obsessed with how smart and cool she is

- Jonathan is so devoted to Mina he would fight God for her, and he has a big knife and his hair turns white in the middle of the story

- All the vampire-hunter cast are/become extremely close friends that frequently express their admiration for each other

I can honestly accept a lot of the plot being condensed or implied, to limit the number of locations or repetitive scenes so you don't end up with a 4 hour movie. However, I'm not a fan of the way so many of the film adaptations I've watched have condensed, reinvented, and/or switched around the names or relationships of the characters. It feels to me like a very different story when the characters and their dynamics together are changed so much, and the ending usually feels anticlimactic without the appropriate "we defeated the evil with the power of friendship" vibe.

[riotbeankai]

I'm gonna throw up. I rly didn't even allow myself to consider that this would happen. I just focused on doing what I could control and assuming life will be okay and not worrying about what if the worst happens. I don't know what to do with this news.

[riotbeankai]

It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Waow

[riotbeankai]

tell me I'm gonna be okay

[riotbeankai]

You're out of touch, I'm out of tiiiiime (but I'm out of my head when you're not aroooound)

[riotbeankai]

Today is the day to talk to my boss about FMLA leave and stuff, pls wish me luck/send me strength I'm nervous as hell

[riotbeankai]

One day I'll play disco elysium. I'd love to understand how those gameplay mechanic even work

[riotbeankai]

Just paid off the final balance of my last student loan 🥳

[riotbeankai]

Do I trust my dash enough to browse tumblr while in public at this coffee shop? We shall see

[riotbeankai]

I'm fucking freeeee

[riotbeankai]

just sent the email to HR to ask for the paperwork to request FMLA leave from work 🙈

[riotbeankai]

I keep seeing a post with a satirical headline about how it's "heartbreaking" that the "weird" kid who refused to stand for the pledge of allegiance in school was right. Like..... wow can't relate I guess I was that "weird" kid but yall were actually unquestioningly standing for?? what?? like you actually were proud of the USA or something?? you actually believed any of the words you were forced to say?? you weren't just going thru the motions because the teacher would yell at you or send you to detention if you didnt?? and also why the hell would it be "heartbreaking" to realize that it's actually fucked up to do that, like the "worst person you know just made a good point" meme?? YALL were the weird kids if you all actually feel sad to find out that it's not normal and good to force kids to recite nationalist propaganda every single day. that is absolutely baffling to me this is like finding out people unironically believe in god all over again

[riotbeankai]

I hate credit cards. I hate hate hate hate hate credit cards, credit cards should never be allowed to be used by staff for business purposes, I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it

[riotbeankai]

I really wanna watch I Saw the TV Glow but I really don't want to spend $20 to RENT a movie on streaming. Wtf is that about, who the fuck is paying that much to access a movie for 48 hours

[riotbeankai]

Hey um. What