#kairaya personal stuff

[riotbeankai]

just finished the finale of the silt verses. I don't know if I've ever felt more deeply wounded or profoundly sad about an ending, or really the whole arc, of a story. I have that "I don't know what to do" feeling that comes when you finish a piece of fiction that affects you to your core. big big story and big big feelings

[riotbeankai]

I'm gonna throw up. I rly didn't even allow myself to consider that this would happen. I just focused on doing what I could control and assuming life will be okay and not worrying about what if the worst happens. I don't know what to do with this news.

[riotbeankai]

I've watched several Dracula movies from between 1920 and 1973 in the last few days, and I have some thoughts. I think that for a film to be considered an adaptation that is "faithful to the text," it should include:

- Beginning with Jonathan Harker, soon-to-be-lawyer, as a damsel in distress in Castle Dracula

- Dracula is charismatic and confident in a way that makes people overlook things they would otherwise find unnerving

- Features ALL 3 of Lucy Westenra's suitors, and EVERYONE loves Lucy so much, which is why it is all the more impactful when she dies, undies, and has to be killed again

- Quincy Morris is properly an American cowboy with a gun and a Southern US accent

- Dr. John Seward runs a mental hospital, and he is melancholy, a workaholic, and skeptical

- Lord Arthur Holmwood is very emotional, throws a lot of money around, and uses his title to get around obstacles

- Dr. Abraham Van Helsing is a highly respected and renowned scholar, and he is appropriately Dutch, friendly, and eccentric

- garlic FLOWERS, crushed up communion wafers, stake thru the heart AND cutting off the head, basically all the lore rules should match the text rather than popular or historical mythos

- Mina Murray is appropriately obsessed with trains and their schedules, and her knowledge is integral to defeating Dracula, and both Jonathan and Van Helsing are obsessed with how smart and cool she is

- Jonathan is so devoted to Mina he would fight God for her, and he has a big knife and his hair turns white in the middle of the story

- All the vampire-hunter cast are/become extremely close friends that frequently express their admiration for each other

I can honestly accept a lot of the plot being condensed or implied, to limit the number of locations or repetitive scenes so you don't end up with a 4 hour movie. However, I'm not a fan of the way so many of the film adaptations I've watched have condensed, reinvented, and/or switched around the names or relationships of the characters. It feels to me like a very different story when the characters and their dynamics together are changed so much, and the ending usually feels anticlimactic without the appropriate "we defeated the evil with the power of friendship" vibe.

[riotbeankai]

You're out of touch, I'm out of tiiiiime (but I'm out of my head when you're not aroooound)

[riotbeankai]

Today is the day to talk to my boss about FMLA leave and stuff, pls wish me luck/send me strength I'm nervous as hell

[riotbeankai]

Just paid off the final balance of my last student loan 🥳

[riotbeankai]

Hey um. What

[riotbeankai]

Do I trust my dash enough to browse tumblr while in public at this coffee shop? We shall see

[riotbeankai]

I'm fucking freeeee

[riotbeankai]

One more day of work and then 2 weeks of FMLA

[riotbeankai]

just sent the email to HR to ask for the paperwork to request FMLA leave from work 🙈

[riotbeankai]

I keep seeing a post with a satirical headline about how it's "heartbreaking" that the "weird" kid who refused to stand for the pledge of allegiance in school was right. Like..... wow can't relate I guess I was that "weird" kid but yall were actually unquestioningly standing for?? what?? like you actually were proud of the USA or something?? you actually believed any of the words you were forced to say?? you weren't just going thru the motions because the teacher would yell at you or send you to detention if you didnt?? and also why the hell would it be "heartbreaking" to realize that it's actually fucked up to do that, like the "worst person you know just made a good point" meme?? YALL were the weird kids if you all actually feel sad to find out that it's not normal and good to force kids to recite nationalist propaganda every single day. that is absolutely baffling to me this is like finding out people unironically believe in god all over again

[riotbeankai]

I hate credit cards. I hate hate hate hate hate credit cards, credit cards should never be allowed to be used by staff for business purposes, I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it

[riotbeankai]

I really wanna watch I Saw the TV Glow but I really don't want to spend $20 to RENT a movie on streaming. Wtf is that about, who the fuck is paying that much to access a movie for 48 hours

[riotbeankai]

due to foreseeable circumstances involving a high level of burnout caused by 40-hour work weeks, I will henceforth be "quiet quitting". the boomers are right about me: I do not want to work anymore. I do not apologize for any inconvenience this may cause to anyone, particularly not my workplace. I will not be taking questions at this time, thank you.

[riotbeankai]

trick or treat!!

I was tryna come up with a clever and funny thing to say about giving a trick instead of a treat or how I missed this ask until 2 days after Halloween and then it just dawned on me that I totally got tricked on Halloween. USPS delivered a fucked up package, like the flaps on one side were all taped sticking up with one of those "sorry we ruined your mail" slips holding that side of the box closed with a bunch of tape, and inside was just a large wooden embroidery hoop too large for the box. the trick here being mail theft, 'cause this box was sent by a company that only sells nail polish and nail accessories.

Anyway here's a treat!! 🍬🎃🍫