#and my head just went 'DESTIEL'

[hells-plaid-angel]

Julia Armfield - Our Wives Under the Sea

[babygirlwolverine]

do you think dean uses cas’ name differently pending on how he’s talking to cas? like sometimes it’s “oh cas my handsome husband” when dean is flirting, and sometimes it’s “cas,” murmured softly when dean is feeling fond, or “caaaasss” drawn out in a moment of stuttering pleasure, or “cas, sweetheart,” when dean is smiling at cas and he’s just so happy and content, and then there’s times when dean’s mad and that’s when it’s “castiel!” because a certain angel is most definitely in trouble and not the good kind of trouble

[absolutely-not-my-main-blog]

Macdennis real

Source: saw it in a dream

[queerstudiesnatural]

something else about want and need. want is deliberate. need is passive. it's no wonder that dean, who's never felt (nor been, really) in control of his own life, expresses a need when it comes to cas. the love feels like yet another thing that's beyond him. on the other hand, cas' whole arc from the moment we first meet him is about taking ownership of his decisions, feelings, and fate. so naturally, he would be more deliberate about what, or who, or how he loves. he wants dean. it's a choice, and he is fully conscious of it.

in the end, the result is the same (love), but their different ways of getting there, and of expressing it, are what keeps them apart for so long. there's a cluelessness and passivity on dean's part, and a feeling of selfishness and unattainable fantasy on cas' that prevent the both of them from trying anything. they both have to deal with that before they can be ready for each other.

[eroswmorals]

i went back to the boba tea shop and i drew destiel

it's kind of ehh bc the barista was looking at me the whole time and i was nervous ;-;

probably cus i was in there for 90 minutes just sitting there drawing and nodding my head aggressively to green day in my earbuds with my very visibly finished drink next to me i should have left lmao

[tvfangirladdict]

New Show Rec!!!!

If you enjoy watching two men with black cat/golden retriever energy(and not in the order you'd assuume) behave like a bickering, old married couple while simultaneously calling each other 'babe', telling each other they love them all the time, and kicking ass, I've got a show for you. Seriously, you don't even need subtext with these two, they're just blatantly in love with each other and everyone and their mother knows it.

I've fallen down a new rabbit hole. I was looking for a new show to watch and decided to give Hawaii Five-0 a shot finally because I've seen some overlapping appreciation in the Buddie, Destiel, and One Chicago Fandoms. And damn, this did not disappoint. How are more people not completely insane over McDanno??????

Personally, I didn't watch before now because even though I enjoyed MacGyver for a while, I didn't want another overdramatic procedural show filled with outlandish action scenes and bad CGI done by CBS. Cop shows are a dime a dozen now, and nothing about it really stuck out to me. But man, I was wrong.

I was thoroughly impressed by the first season. Between the chemistry between Steve and Danny, the amazing fight scenes that are better than most blockbusters, and their focus on character stories, I was hooked faster than ever.

And while the writing went down hill towards the end just like with most shows(I guess there was a lot going on bts and people were unhappy, I don't know much) and we didn't get the ending we wanted, it's still worth the watch. Besides, this is the perfect recipe for more and better fanfiction to be written in my opinion, when viewers are left unsatisfied.

Anyway, I know the shows a few years old now and the fandom's probably pretty quiet, I'd like to recommend this to any of the Buddie, Destiel, Sevasey, Sterek, etc shippers. There's probably other fandoms and ships similar to these that would enjoy McDanno too, but these are the ones I can think of off the top of my head. Basically, two guys working together with 'old married couple' energy and an unprecedented number non-platonic interactions. These two are the worst I've ever seen in the best way.

So if I can share this with even just one person, I'll be happy, because this is so amazing to watch after living off of scraps on shows like 911 and Supernatural.

[zloveon]

>,I Left You With One Singular Rule, Dean,<

Word Count: 1.3k

Genre: Fluff(?) Gn!Angel!Reader

Pairings: Angel!Reader x Castiel if you squint, Angel!Reader x Dean Winchester, Destiel if you sauint, and Angel!Reader x Destiel if you squint

Content Warnings: Mentions of sex, kissing, cursing, ideation of corruption, etc. 

A/N: My first independent idea turned into a fic!! I really hope you guys enjoy!! I really had fun writing this one. 

Taglist: @ohsc @ryvkkr

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    The fall had been hard. For every angel, but especially for those who hadn’t been on Earth prior. Especially for Castiel’s new protégé— of sorts. They didn’t understand human emotions, nor did they understand human normalities. Like knocking, for example. 

     Which is how they ended up in the situation they were currently in— standing to the side of the room as Dean rushed his most recent affair partner out of the bathroom with assurance that she would see him again. She wouldn’t. He looked disheveled, given he had to quickly put on his boxers and deny himself an orgasm. For a damn angel. Not even his angel— just one that his angel decided to take under his wing. An angel who didn’t even understand that Dean was trying to have sex. “Don’t judge me,” he rasped, running a hand through his already ruffled hair.

     “What would make you believe I am?” The angel asked, tilting their head to the side. “I am not aware of any reason I should be.” They continued, their eyebrows pulling together in confusion. 

      “That’s cute,” Dean said, chuckling to himself for a moment. Though, from the other’s silence— he paused and turned back towards them. “You’re.. serious? You don’t know what the midnight tango is?”

     “You were.. dancing?” They repeated, now just all the more confused. They were sure that Dean had been in the shower with the woman. “You are able to dance in such a small shower?” 

     “We were shagging— or, trying to.” Dean said, trying his best to avoid being too vulgar. Not because it bothered him, but rather because he didn’t want to be on the tail end of a lecture from Castiel when they went and asked him questions. 

     “How were you doing two different dances at once, Dean? You cannot shag in a shower that small.” They said, fully unaware of the vulgarity of the sentence they just said. “Being on earth and.. knowing you has made me aware of why my Father was so worried leaving your kind alone. You are all rather odd, and slow.” 

     “Yeah, alright.” Dean muttered. Cause he’s the slow one, right? “Look, sweetheart, I’m not sure how to explain this to you without Cas all up my ass.” 

     “Castiel? Why would he be inside of your..” the angel started, her brows furrowing as she was veryquickly cut off. 

     “I didn’t mean— it’s a phrase, alright?” He groaned, running his hand down his face annoyedly. “Do you seriously not know what we were doing?” 

     “You certainly weren’t dancing.” They responded, a small grin curling up onto their lips in self-satisfaction. She didn’t quite understand her own grin— she wasn’t supposed to feel, yet here she was. Feeling emotions because of a Winchester.

     “Alright, I get it, sweetheart.” Dean said, a groan spilling his lips from the angel’s persistence. Though, he did find a grin of his own finding its way onto his face— which made theirs fall. They knew that look on his face meant no good for them. “If you hadn’t walked in, I would’ve gotten past third base.” 

     “You cannot play baseball in the shower, Dean.” The angel started, only to be very quickly cut off by the man standing in front of them. 

     “It’s a euphemism.” He finally gave up, running a hand through his wet hair and squeezing it onto the towel at his feet in an attempt to stop the water dripping down his body. 

     “Why would your words have been too offensive to say outright?” They asked, their head falling right back into that same tilted position. The one that Dean both loved and hated. He loved it because it made them look so innocent, but hated it because such innocence meant he could corrupt them. He wanted to. Hell, he craved to— but that would break the singular rule Castiel had left him with. He could nearly hear the words that the man had said to him echo throughout his mind: 

     “Protect them, Dean. They are here— and that weighs on my conscious every day. They was not meant for earth. Not this soon.” 

     “Cause you’ve never even kissed anyone, alright? How the hell do you expect me to tell you that you just cockblocked me when you’ve never even been kissed? And before you ever ask— cockblocking means you stopped me from getting laid. From having sex.” The man snapped, his voice admittedly holding too much hostility. Not at them, but rather at himself for thinking about them in ways he shouldn’t be. 

     “You’re acting as if my lack of experience in human.. preface to sexual intercourse is so horrible.” They scoffed, their face curling downwards into a frown with furrowed brows.

     “Kissing isn’t always—“ Dean sighed, cutting himself off to focus on something the other would understand more. “It is kinda bad, y’know. S’not like you’re actively serving Heaven. You did fall. Even Cas has gotten laid, sweetheart.” 

     “Why would you kiss one another for any reason other than.. sexual relations? You are aware of the.. spread of germs, yes? The risks?” The angel questioned, their cheeks scrunching their eyes in confusion. They truly didn’t understand humans, not yet. 

     “I’ll show ya,” the hunter started, leaning closer to them. So much so that it brought a heat to their cheeks that they couldn’t even begin to process. “You just can’t go running off and telling Cas, alright?” He grinned against the shell of their ear, finding himself unable to fight the urge to corrupt them now. 

     They couldn’t do anything more than nod, finding themselves held in place for once. Despite still having their grace, they had fallen— making them all the more susceptible emotions. To the feelings, even the ones intended for humans. As Dean’s calloused thumb met their cheek, their eyes darted up to meet his. His other hand cupped their jaw, tilting it further up to avoid leaning so far down. “Swear,” they gulped, their eyes searching his. The moment their lips crashed together, their eyes widened before fluttering shut. It felt nice, right, even. Heaven couldn’t punish them, considering they were locked out. 

     The angel’s arms almost naturally reached around Dean’s neck as one of his hands trailed down to her hip— squeezing it gently. Part of them debated that this was a piece of Heaven on earth. It surely felt like it. His lips quickly grew hungrier, considering what he had given up when they had walked in.  By the time he pulled away, the angel’s lips were red from Dean’s nipping kisses. Their lips remained parted momentarily as they allowed their eyes to flutter open. 

     “That’s why,” Dean rasped, his gaze meeting theirs . In response, they merely kissed him again and enjoyed as his hands wandered their body— Castiel remaining unnoticed as he came into the bathroom in search of the man. 

     “I believe I understand now,” they grinned as they pulled away— their face dropping as they saw the other angel’s face. He also hasn’t quite grasped the concept of knocking, and yet again— Dean was cockblocked by an angel. His angel. Well, now his other angel.

     “Dean.” Castiel said, his voice rough and demanding.  

     “She was being—“ The man started, trying to defend himself. Not to save his image, he knew l how damaged it already was. 

     “I left you with one singular rule.”

[rosemariad]

THE BITTER END | SPN 15x18 DESPAIR: About that Destiel moment in 15x18

Oh boy…the scene that sailed a thousand memes (and counting)…the scene that made us all go feral in the midst of a contentious presidential elections in one of the most disruptive, chaotic years in recent memory (2020 you son of a bitch)

Now i am super late with this since it’s nearly been 4 years since this was aired live on TV and posted like crazy all over the internet BUT…y’all Destiel shippers got robbed. Not just with this scene but the whole Destiel ship in general - just done so dirty.

I started watching this show on and off back in 2021 and I finally got to finish over the summer this year (2024) taking my sweet time, even rewatching certain episodes (for some fanfic writing 😁). I went into this to settle the debate for myself - is this Destiel stuff legit? Or was it taken out of context? Misconstrued.

No. It really wasn’t. They (the powers behind SPN) tried it, tried to pull the wool over people’s heads, with certain fans chiming in (the destiel haters, the homophobes, the anti-mishas, etc.) but no. The SPN showrunners fucked all this up.

From the beginning….

So it’s 15x18 despair - we’re in the last act - shit’s popping off, everything’s going tits up - Billie is trying to hunt Dean down, calling him chaos incarnate. Dean & Cas get trapped in a room with no apparent means of escape or defense - probably should’ve headed for the exit - but I guess since it’s the 3rd to last episode and the execs clearly want things to go back to the status quo 🙄 now’s as good a time as any to cash in on that plot thread from last season and kill Castiel once and for all 😭 (as 1 person pointed out, given the prior context they probably could've just waited Billie out, since them being trapped in that room - Cas was the one that blocked the door anyhow - but I get it SPN showrunners you wanted to get rid of Cas somehow - what a mess)

If you haven’t watched it - here’s where I gasp and scoff in disbelief - please watch it https://youtu.be/l_r9GZeQl1w?si=uVox8PlXByYEYKci

Basically Cas tells Dean he’s the greatest guy he’s ever known, that he fights for love and that Cas lurves Dean 😭 and he’s not the bad things enemies say Dean is. That he’s more than the worst parts of himself - oh Cas.

This was Castiel’s one moment of true happiness - telling the one person whom he adores more than anyone or anything else in the entire universe - that he is loved by Castiel himself.

The confession that triggers Castiel’s demise to go with the empty, takes Billie with him and before Dean can process the massive TRUTH BOMB Castiel just dumped on him, Castiel is gone.

Despair indeed.

They made too many fucking cuts to this scene, at least for Jensen’s coverage. Like if you don’t want Dean to reciprocate…fine. Don’t. But let him fucking respond! Let him use his words. Castiel just told Dean he was in love with him, that is one of the BIGGEST things you can say to somebody in your life. EVER. Especially on TV. And yes it was in love, like romantically. Not platonically because why make such a fucking fuss over fucking platonic friendship! There’s always been a tension between these 2 characters, it hung over between them since season 4. They just made it into a joke, never expecting to get the traction it did over the years. They even tried writing Cas off the show for good back in season 7. But they got stuck with Cas and never really made proper use of him. They literally just waited until the last minute to get rid of him in a way that couldn’t get the show cancelled until that decision had already been made by the network. to make things worse - COVID happened

So don’t tell me the confession doesn’t merit a response, either for or against on Dean’s part - whether he returns Castiel’s affection or not is another story but dammit let Dean speak! How could you not? Cowards!

And Would it be so terrible if Dean did feel something MORE than friendship for the only other individual that has stood by him for so many years? Like really? A relationship doesn’t demand sex (but let’s be honest, Cas probably wanted to fuck the shit outta Dean 🤣) it’s whatever the people in the relationship want! Dean isn’t young by the time s15 rolls around. Older people tend to just want someone to come home to, settle down with. Companionship. Cas fits that to a fucking T. When Dean dreamed of a future, Cas was right there with him (and Sam, cuz Dean always wants his family close as much as he can, given how he grew up).

Couldn’t find a gif of Dean talking about taking some time off after all the craziness of the hunting they do but I’m not crazy I know he wanted it.

The team behind SPN could have finished Dean’s narrative beautifully as man who was driven by fear all his life and opens himself up to a relationship he never saw coming but when the time came he didn’t run because he grew to love more than fear (and choose to live a life of peace after stuck in one of violence for so many years).

This is why Hollywood is shit! Great beginnings, shitty endings. But in this case, it was because they consistently chose NOT to indulge in queer-like narratives with enough care (aside from some other problematic stuff like the treatment towards women being more negative than positive, the inconsistent writing for characters and plot, etc.)

BUT not when it’s the main character 😡 Charlie can be gay AF but not Dean, seriously? That’s fucked. Like at least let him fucking explore/consider it. So people stop watching it who gives AF?! I never even watched the show when it was on air for 15 years, tons of people didn’t. There are still people out there watching SPN for the first time today! People who started but stopped because it’s a show that ran WAAAY longer than any other normally does.

Idk who made it so that Dean couldn’t explore his sexuality or fucked up the Destiel of it all but they SUUUUUUUUCK! You really shat the bed! at least explore it cuz at the end of the day, it may not work out. Gay relationships aren’t that different from straight relationships in that sometimes it just doesn’t work out BECAUSE we’re ALL people. And who knows maybe they could’ve been happy but we’re not allowed to know that canonically because Destiel was never given a CHANCE!

I mean if it was REALLY that big a deal – why introduce it? By making these little suggestions that (in a way that's funny but why would Dean be queer be haha funny - no that's not okay, queerness shouldn't be a joke) furthermore we’re talking about a show on basic cable - all it would’ve taken was fucking hand-holding or the same routine of staring into each other’s eyes like they’d been doing for 12 fucking years already! Just not shying away from the queerness that time. Legend of Korra did it. That 1 Disney show did it (i don’t remember the name). No kissing would’ve been necessary - nice, wishful thinking but not necessary if the kissing became an issue (but seriously it was 2020 man but ofc - that is a year where a pandemic that required social distancing decided to kick in during the final arc of this show) - just so we’re all clear COVID cock blocked Destiel lol jk 🤣

All those times they had Dean & Cas stare into each other's eyes – the forces at work – showrunners, writers, directors AND editors & the network who is showing this to audiences – if its such a big fucking deal - Don't leave it in. By leaving it in, you're allowing people to make assumptions about the relationship – it happens literally every time in every story ever told. You put 2 people in a scene and they're not family (though not always the case) or JUST friends (explicitly proven) there's a chance SOMEONE is gonna wanna ship them no matter how likely it is (OR NOT) they'll hookup or become a couple. That's just how it is. So don't fan the flames and then turn it around on fans that they're wrong, crazy or misinterpreting. If Wincest can exist, so can Destiel and any other ship. That being said, y’all Destiel shippers were ROBBED but I don’t need to tell you that.

I don’t think the relationship would’ve been perfect or smooth sailing - their friendship as it was on the show sure wasn’t. And Dean wasn’t the only one with issues - Cas had some bad qualities too - the angel liked to lie and for a while there he was extremely averse to conflict. And Dean…he gets real fucking angry 😬 not a good mix for a relationship- hell even a friendship.

But the two had a profound bond, with a great deal of affection for one another and that’s what got them through betrayal, fights, amnesia, curses, apocalypses, and all the ugliness in between. They could’ve made it. Or they could’ve just had Cas and Dean stay friends - but we’ll never know since Cas was pretty much omitted after 15x18 - there were references - like only 2 though 😒

Really SPN? 😒😔 so lazy. But sure, go ahead, blame COVID. It’s not like phones exist. It’s not like the actor couldn’t have just recorded Castiel’s voice nope. Totally not an option 🤦🏾‍♀️ same goes for the other characters - Jody, Donna, Eileen - you know all the other characters Sam & Dean cared about but sure - fuck ‘em too. Status quo is the only thing that matters - SMH.

[ohsc]

Hmm what about Destiel, Dean lashes out at Cas for whatever reason you like

Comfort angst ofc :3

hi lovely!! tysm for the req <3 | destiel, 0.9k, hurt/comfort, fluff, kinda unedited

His eyes were pulsing. Dean squeezed his eyes shut, a palm pressed to his forehead, and he prayed that the pain would subside soon.

Well, maybe prayed was the wrong term. The only reason he had a headache was because he’d been so stressed after the argument with his angel. Maybe he didn’t get the right to pray in that moment.

His mattress was too hard beneath his back, his head hurt too much, his room was too quiet, and all he wanted was to roll over and lay his head on Cas’ chest until the pain went away. Instead, he laid alone in his bedroom with a bottle of whiskey and the guilt that settled heavily on his chest, and the knowledge that Cas was sat alone in the library.

It had been an argument that had gotten far more heated than necessary, and had been so bad that Sam had taken Jack out of the room when things had really kicked off. They shouted, said things they didn’t mean, and then Dean retreated back to his room feeling sick and growing a headache.

That had been two hours ago.

Dean groaned and rolled onto his side, grabbed one of his pillows and pushed it so tightly against his head in an attempt to block out any light in the room, wanting the ache to just go away. Realistically, he knew he could’ve just asked Cas to use his grace, but Dean was too stubborn to go back out there, even if he wanted nothing more in that moment then his angel.

With the pillow shoved tightly against the side of his head, more importantly his ear, the only thing Dean was able to hear was the thump thump thump of the headache in his skull, so he wasn’t aware that the door had opened until he felt a hand on his shoulder and he flinched, shoved the pillow off and sat up so quickly that his neck cracked.

“Jesus Christ, Cas.”

Cas was sat on the bed beside Dean’s knees, and he looked ever so guilty at making him jump. “Sorry, Dean.”

Dean scrubbed a hand over his face, pushed a breath out of his lungs as he sat out properly. “Thought we’d gotten over you scarin’ the shit outta me when you stopped zapping everywhere.”

Another apology seemed to be on the tip of the angel’s tongue before he paused, frowning. “What’s wrong?”

Dean glared, a deadpanned look. “Oh, nothing. I’m having such a pleasant evening.”

Cas’ look also soured. “No, not that. You look like you’re in pain. What’s wrong? I can help.”

Dean clenched his jaw, and tried to stop his eyelids from blinking too much beneath the light of his bedroom, which made the pulsing headache feel like a sledgehammer. “It’s fine.”

“Dean.”

He huffed a breath. Cas always had held a habit of seeing right through him. “Feels like I’ve got Annie Wilkes knocking around my skull.”

“You could have come and told me,” Cas spoke with far more gentleness than Dean deserved as he leaned forwards, and pressed his palm to Dean’s forehead, his other hand lifting to cradle his jaw. The first touch was necessary, the latter wasn’t. It made Dean feel better than whatever the grace would do. He didn’t seem mad anymore. “Here.”

Cas’ eyes flashed and the relief in his head was palpable. Dean closed his eyes and let out a shuddered breath as it felt like cold water was poured over and inside his head, washed away any remnants of the headache until the only pain left was the guilt settled within his ribs, along with the enochian that Cas had carved there, like he had carved a space for himself within Dean’s soul.

“Thanks,” when he reopened his eyes, he was met with the usual comforting blue of his angel’s eyes. “Listen, Cas-”

“It’s fine,” Cas’ throat bobbed as he swallowed. “I understand that I was being a little difficult-”

“Understatement.”

The angel glared before he continued. “Sometimes I forget that my actions can get a little reckless. This is the first time in… eternity, that I’ve ever had somebody to be safe for.”

His stupid boyfriend and his stupid poetic words. If he hadn’t already forgiven him, then he would’ve then.

“You sap,” Dean rolled his eyes, but felt himself glow when he got a small smile in response. “Sorry for yelling though, man. I just… don’t like the idea of you getting hurt. Y’know. Again,” his own lips quirked up too. “If you could stop dying for us like once a month that’d be great.”

“I’ll do my best.”

Dean smiled, the rift between them healed as quickly as his headache had been, and leaned in to kiss him. Kisses had meant nothing to Dean for so long. Kisses had just meant that the girl he’d met at whatever bar he was at was someone he’d possibly spend the night with. It had always been rushed and lustful, tongue and spit and lipgloss. He’d never kissed somebody as carefully as he kissed Cas; a hand on his jaw, slow precise movements, shared breaths. Love.

When he pulled back, Cas had also completely softened. “Dean?”

“Mm?”

“You should stop dying for us, too.”

Dean snorted. A fair trade, it seemed.

[cinderellarhea]

people i want to know better!

tagged by @herrmannhalsteadproduction (I love stuff like this thank u for tagging ❤️❤️)

LAST SONG? Live and let die by Paul McCartney (it was in my head bc of this bucktommy spy au fic by @herrmannhalsteadproduction (whaaa who’s that hehe 🥰) which everyone should read!!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/57261649/chapters/145654609 )

FAVORITE COLOR? PINK 🩷

CURRENTLY WATCHING? I binged all of 911 this summer so then I just…. went back to season 1 and started again 🥰 I’m also rewatching Leverage for the like 1000th time ! Everyone should watch/rewatch leverage in the summer it’s so fun!!!!!

LAST MOVIE? Twister (my sister wanted to see this as a joke and but it was like really good) also. Whenever I watch stuff I ask: Could Destiel do this? The answer for Twister is yes.

SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY? Sweet!!!!!! I love chocolate the most 🩷🍫🍩🍪

RELATIONSHIP STATUS? Single :0 I want a girlfriend sooooo bad is anyone taking applications hahah 😘🏳️‍🌈

CURRENT OBSESSIONS? Im like. Obsessed with 911. Like it’s bad I have it bad. Like Evan Buck Buckley is soooooooo blorbo I’m rotating him in my mind 🫡❤️ I have like …… 124 ao3 tabs open rn. I’m not exaggerating. 😂🥰 also !!!!! Really obsessed with storytelling/story structures rn - I think it’s bc a lot of my students are doing college essays rn and bc I took another writing class this summer ! But I’m just so interested in the movement and flow and structure of stories rn ! Im like usually obsessed with that but I’m working on my own fiction too rn so like the obsession is stronger again!!!!!

LAST THING YOU GOOGLED? Im not 100% sure and when I went to check my tabs it’s just all ao3 so like. Yeah. Idk.

This was fun! Tagging ppl no pressure but if you wanna make one!!! ❤️

@daalcuntynatural @butch--dean @chronicpainnatural @kerryweaverlesbian @ohithankyou @desert--moonchild @kinard-buckley @ily-tothecore @perfectlysunny02 @aspecbuddie

[kerryweaverlesbian]

I want destiel with 13 or 22 (the prompts you reblogged)

Take it easy, with me please, touch me gently, like a summer evening breeze

"You know what this mix is called, Cas?" Dean murmers, pressing his forehead to the side of Castiel's and changing their sway to match the new rhythm.

They've been dancing alone in the kitchen, slow and close, for something like half an hour, and these are the first words either of them have spoken since Dean pulled Cas in. On one side their hands are tangled loosely together, and on the other their arms cross over at their waists, keeping them both pressed together, chest to chest.

"No," Cas says, playing along. They both knew the tape had already been in the stereo when Dean had reached out and pressed play. It wasn't one Cas recognised; all slow, a lot of crooning women.

"It's called, 'For Cas, if we win'. I made it while you were gone." Dean's breath warms the tip of Cas’s ear, and his meaning warms him everywhere else.

"Was there an 'if we lose'?"

Dean shifts his head back to look Cas in the eye. "No. I was never going to happen."

Andante, andante, just let the feeling grow.

Enchanted by the devotion in Dean's eyes, he's caught of guard by his sudden, amused smile. He understands when Dean sings along, sotto voce, "Touch my soul, you know how. Forgot that was coming."

"You've touched mine, now," Cas reminds him, "Or, the closest thing I have to one."

That's how he'd gotten out of the Empty, Dean cradling his Grace to his chest and then fighting his way back through miles of black, sucking sludge, beset by angels, demons and the Empty's own power as he went. The place had been a lot more active since the last time Cas had been stuck there, but no less bleak. There had only been a chance for Dean to finally choke out an, "I love you too, you fucking idiot," when they'd collapsed back out through the portal before he'd fallen asleep for 15 hours straight.

"Your hands were very gentle," Cas notes, and he can feel Dean's face heat as he moves them cheek to cheek, an endearing and unsuccessful attempt to hide his blush. "I felt very secure."

"I didn't want to drop you," Dean admits at a mumble, then complains, "You were freaking slippery, man."

"My apologies," Cas teases, and Dean knocks him with his hip in playful retaliation. "If it helps, you fought me all the way from Hell to your gravesite."

"Sounds like me," Dean says, with a prideful grin that Cas can hear in his voice.

I'm your music. I'm your song.

"Yes. Had I known then how you would change me, I might have held you even tigher."

"Or you might have let go, save yourself the trouble," Dean quips, but there's a fragility to it that has Cas stop the dance and take Dean's cheek in his palm, guiding him to look at him.

Play me time and time again, and make me strong.

"I wouldn't trade the life that we have built for anything. All the time that I have loved you has been-" Cas can't help the tears starting to catch at his voice - "Has been the best of my existence."

Dean's welling up along with him. Perhaps they will both cry every time he tells Dean he loves him. A very small price to pay, in comparison.

"Cas," Dean says in a rasp, and knocks their foreheads together gently. Two teardrops fall from Dean's eyes to Cas’s cheeks with the movement.

Andante, andante, tread lightly on my ground.

No matter who moved in for the kiss, they both lean into it, careful and soft and everything they haven't managed to be with each other until this point. The passion shared between them is palpable, even as the kiss remains relatively chaste. There's no finish line to run to, anymore. No Apocalypse to beat. They have the time to dance together, just as slowly as they please.

Andante, andante, oh please don't let me down.

[1heartfanfics]

Hello! Is there anyway you could write a Dean/Cas (Romantic or platonic, up to you.) Dean is the sickee, maybe while on the road or just laying around in the bunker. Maybe he’s extra grouchy and irritable and Castiel just *knows* there is something wrong with his man.

So my favorite way to write destiel is somewhere in between. Not an established romantic relationship exactly but definitely not platonic either. An unspoken relationship that everyone knows about but never says outloud. Also this is really short, sorry.

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"What?" Dean asked shortly, having caught Cas watching him for just a bit too long.

"Are you alright Dean?" Cas asked, already knowing what the answer was going to be.

"I'm fine," Dean huffed.

Cas knew he wasn't though. He'd known as soon as Dean came into the kitchen that morning looking like he hadn't slept in days, dark circles under bloodshot eyes, face pale with slightly flushed cheeks. Then he'd made two pieces of toast for breakfast instead of his usual bacon and eggs.

All telltale signs of a fever and an upset stomach. Dean was clearly sick, but Cas knew he wasn't going to admit it very easily. So he just rolled his eyes and went back to scrolling through news feeds on the laptop.

The next time he looked up, Dean was leaned back in his chair, eyes closed. Had he fallen asleep? He really must be sick...

"Dean?" Cas asked quietly, not wanting to startle him. Dean tended to react aggressively when someone startled him.

"Hmm?" Dean jolted awake, eyes darting around the room for a second before settling on Cas.

"You fell asleep?" Cas asked, although he didn't really mean it as a question. What he meant was 'what's wrong with you?', which Dean would know. Whether or not he answered honestly was another question entirely.

"Didn't sleep well," Dean shrugged noncommittally.

Cas nodded. As if he believed that a poor night of sleep was the only thing going on with Dean. He thought better of pressing the issue any further for the moment, as he knew it would only made Dean angry. He was grumpy when he was sick.

A few minutes later Dean got up and walked out of the room. Cas heard the shower turn on from down the hall.

"What's wrong with him?" Sam asked, likely having passed Dean in the hallway and had the same concerns that Cas had.

"He's sick," Cas shrugged.

Sam raised an eyebrow skeptically, "He tell you that?"

"No," Cas rolled his eyes. "But he is," he added.

"I don't know man, I feel like Dean never gets sick," Sam shrugged, still not buying it. But Cas knew the man better than Sam did, and he knew that Dean was sick.

As if on cue, the sound of retching came from down the hall to prove Cas's point.

Sam winced, "Hangover?" he suggested.

"All he ate for breakfast was some toast, which means that he's sick because if he was hungover he would have made bacon or something," Cas shook his head.

Sam held his hands up in mock surrender, realizing that Cas had been right. "Should we go check on him?" he asked, gesturing over his shoulder.

"I'll go," Cas said, standing up from the table. He knew that Dean would still be reluctant to accept his help, but even more so from his little brother.

He gave Sam a light clap on the shoulder as he passed, knowing that Sam was worried about his brother, even if he wouldn't admit it. But Cas would take care of him, regardless of if Dean wanted him to or not.

[bibellebibuck]

Finale Thoughts

This is a long ramble that I’ve attempted to categorise and form into something coherent - but bear with me if there’s any mistakes, I’m working rn and didn’t have time to proofread🙏🏻

HENREN & MADNEY

I adore Madney and how inherently GOOD they are all the damn time. My favourite straights ever.

I know there’s differing opinions on this plot line but honestly I am glad that Madney are fostering Mara, for Maras sake. It’s a safe space her for where she’ll be loved and can keep in contact with Henren.

I do agree, though, that the constant struggles they put Henren through as they try to build their family is getting old and tired now, let them off the struggle bus, it’s time for a breather.

It’s a testament to how rushed this episode was that we didn’t even SEE the councilwoman at all. She just drops this bomb on the Henren family last episode and then disappears? No follow up? Okay.

My thoughts/hopes on these guys for S8 are; Madney will be left as they are once the Mara storyline is resolved (which I think won’t take long after the whole Gerrard situation is sorted) as they’ve had a lot going on with their wedding etc. I think they’ll be put aside for a while while other characters stories are expanded this season. I think it’s a possibility we’ll get another Buckley-Han baby after they see the sibling dynamic between Mara and Jee. Afterall, it was Maddie who commented on Denny and Mara “getting along so well” “like siblings”.

Henren specifically id like to see more of, I want Karen and DENNY! to have more screentime. Karen’s job is fucking interesting, SHOW US MORE SOMEHOW!! And Denny, what’s going on with his relationship with his dad now? This kids a great actor, give him a little more screen time.

BATHENA & AMIR

Now, Athena was bad ASS this episode. I love BAMF Athena with all my heart, that’s literally my mother. Her talk with Amir was emotional and I think well written (one of the few well written moments in this episode..) but it all went downhill from there. Amir’s rescue was rushed as fuck, I wasn’t tense at all, Athena basically showed up, burnt the place down and sauntered out with Amir like it was nothing. Ofc my girl is capable of this no problem… but it wouldn’t have hurt to have had more of a fight scene, maybe Amir being a little more proactive, then show them struggling to get out of the fire? Idk. Just SOMETHING to expand on the scene a little. I did like “I’m Mrs Bobby Nash” though, hell yeah you are <3

Oh also Yay! May sighted!! Love my girl, wanna see more of her in S8 I miss her sooo much :(

For S8, I think Bathenas marriage issues should be gently explored a little more, i feel this plot line wasn’t properly resolved during the cruise eps? Idk maybe I’m just a nervous child of divorce but I’d like to see some of their trust issues put to rest. I mean, just an episode ago Athena was terrified Bobby was going to off himself, and Bobby literally retired without telling her. It’s not healthy, I wanna see them work it out and get stronger together. I don’t want more conflict between them to cause this though, maybe they just start up a conversation when things have calmed down and agree to talk it out or go to couples therapy or something. Leaving them where they are right now will feel like a dropped plot line.

I want to see more of Amir but I sincerely doubt we will, I have a feeling he won’t even be seen in S8 at all to be honest. It’s a shame, he’s an interesting character that I’d totally love the see explored more. Someone suggested he could be a connection opportunity for the hospital? I like that. Tim, take notes !!

I also want them to stop murdering Angela Bassets hair. Let her slay, please.

BUDDIE

I wish I had more to say here, but sadly… I don’t. My heart is telling me we’ve been gently queer baited once again, but I think that’s just old scars hurting (Destiel and johnlock survivor ✊🏻), my head is telling me a lot of the hype was stirred up by us as fans giving journalists and actors comments a little too much credit.

This isn’t to say I don’t think Buddie is happening, i still have my naive little belief that if WILL be canon eventually. They’re just going to drag it out as long as possible for the drama and possibly to appease Those fans, and the older viewer base who won’t be pleased by buddie canon.

I was very disappointed by the scene after Chris left, where Buck just put his hand on Eddies shoulder. We can say all we like that the shoulder touch is Their Thing™️ but in that situation a hug was absolutely goddamn necessary. Idc about shipping, that man needed a hug from his best friend in that moment. I think Buck needed it too. They just said goodbye to their son for an indefinite amount of time ffs why are we standing here like absolute mugs.

S8 - I want gay Eddie this season. I want it.

I want gay Eddie and then I want them both to be single for a while and Then I want buddie. If they can fit this into season 8 while keeping a nice steady pace (I have little faith after this insanely rushed finale, but let’s give them the benefit of the short season doubt) then I want Buddie feelings realisation towards the end of S8.. possibly setting up canon for S9 or even ending S8 with canon and a cliffhanger.. maybe a good one this time though!

As much as I’d like to see Buck supporting Eddie as he navigates life without Christopher, I don’t think we’ll get many scenes between them at first. I think this is where Ryan is talking about Eddies isolation. He’s going to go to work, be with his family, then go home and be without his family, and it’s at this time that he’s going to be working on himself. To get better for Chris, and for his own mental health. This journey is his alone, and I think it (although a little painful) makes sense that Buck isn’t involved in this too much.

EDDIE & CHRIS

To sum it up.. OUCH!

Eddie is an amazing father, and if you think otherwise just block me. He made a mistake with Kim, that does not make him a bad father. Him respecting Christopher’s space and choices in this ep was soooo healing and lovely to see, he called Buck because he knows Chris trusts and loves him and needed somebody to talk to, and knew he wasn’t the person for that right now.

I’ve seen some people bothered about how it’s unrealistic for the Diaz parents to have gotten to eddies so fast after the incident. To this I say, how are you not used to 911s complete disregard for timelines/timeline realism at this point? Just let it happen and move on, like it’s a fantasy land where time isn’t real. Now, I’m not American so maybe I don’t get the extent of the distance between LA/Texas - but still, I enjoy the show more I think, because I don’t overanalyse the timeline 😅

What I DO find unrealistic is that Chris would call his grandparents and not Buck. I’m not looking at this through shipping lenses either, I’m saying that when Eddie had his breakdown, Chris’s first instinct was to call Buck. When Chris was upset and scared at the Ana situation, he went straight to Buck. And now this, he doesn’t talk to Buck at all before calling his grandparents?

It makes sense that he wanted to go to Texas as if he stayed with Buck he wouldn’t really be getting much space from his dad, and maybe he’d be thinking that Buck/Eddie would be on his case trying to force forgiveness on him while he’s there. But I think he first instinct would still have been to Call Buck to discuss the situation first, to confide in him, ask for help. Then he��d call his grandparents.

For S8 - I hate to be a downer but I don’t think we’ll see Chris this season. At LEAST the entirely of 8a, anyways.

As I mentioned earlier, I think this season will show Eddie growing and healing from this situation and becoming the person he wants to be, for himself and for Chris.

I think there is a lot of potential for us to finally get some Eddie & Maddie scenes, she could open a conversation with Eddie about her own struggles with feeling like an unfit parent for Jee - maybe Buck initiates this conversation, asking Maddie to speak to him?

I hope he will finally be able to put his insecurities about his parenting aside and stop trying to find Chris a mother figure, and accept that they’re a fine (wonderful, even) family unit as they are.

BUMMY / BT

Ooooohhh lord let’s get into it then.

It’s no secret that I hate this relationship. I do NOT hate it because I am a Buddie shipper, or because I’m homophobic (the fact that I have to clarify this is stupid, but the anon hate in my inbox means it’s necessary). When BiBuck became canon, I was OVERJOYED! I was excited to see Buck exploring his identity and enjoying a relationship with a new partner (I did want him to be single for a while originally, but it wasn’t a big deal, the Natalia relationship was barely a relationship anyways).

I initially had a bit of an ick from the way Tk kissed Buck to ~shut him up~ but I’m a bit of a hypocrite here because I don’t entirely hate this trope usually, but only when it’s between two well established characters who know each other well. At this point, Tk is still new to Buck so it did bother me a little. But, we move.

Then… the first date. I fucking hated this date, Tk almost outed Buck and then left him on the pavement like an a class ASS. I lost all interest in this relationship at this exact moment.

In this episode, on this date, we see Buck opening up about his relationship with Bobby as a father figure (WIN!! Let’s appreciate our small victories!!). Tk then gives us “but your fathers alive” which ?? What’s your point?? Why aren’t you comforting your partner right now?

And shared his own experience with having a shitty dad. We then get the daddy issues joke.

To detour for a moment; we all remember when Buck went to therapy and opened up about his sex addiction, right? How he was being vulnerable about his trauma/mental health, to the point that he was in actual tears… and then his therapist came onto him and slept with him. The show brushes this under the rug and even later makes a joke about it. We’ve all expressed our distaste for this in the past and rightly so. Aside from how morally wrong it was, it was also incredibly distasteful in a very real way.

We’re given a very close repeat of this situation in the finale. Tommy sexualising Bucks trauma is not only unfair on bucks character, but also a shitty slap in the face to real people in the real world too. How many times have we been sexualised for having “daddy issues”? The answer is a lot. This scene was Downright Offensive.

It’s so disappointing because in some ways this show is so progressive, and has handled some sensitive topics in such a great way in the past. But it’s really fumbled the bag with this one.

A large and hopeful part of me thinks all these tense/awkward/unhappy/unsatisfying BT scenes are a setup for BT bones in S8. If they wanted us to like Tk and be invested in this relationship, SURELY they’d make him more likeable & more supportive of Buck?

The awfulness of his character and the stilted scenes between him and Buck do feel intentional. And I reaaallly hope this is the case.

S8 - preferably, BT Bones off screen before the season even begins, Natalia style.

More likely, BT bones within 8a, due to Gerard’s return and the tension this will cause between him and Tk.

Most likely, BT bones by the end of 8b. I truly truly truly, with all my heart and head and hands, do not believe BT is surviving to season 9.

BUCK

just wanted to put in a little paragraph here about Buck specially, piggybacking off of what I’ve said about his trauma being sexualised etc.

They have consistently missed opportunities to flesh out Bucks trauma, and he has MANY to choose from. If they continue to ignore this aspect of Buck, it will be a great disservice to his character. I know we all joke about wanting Buck to go through more shit situations for the angst, and how we want him to have a big breakdown at some point but honestly - it really is overdue. I don’t just want him to suffer for funsies, I want his character to make sense, I want him to continue to be massively relatable, I want him to address his trauma and work through it and move on etc. etc. etc.

Here’s hoping we get the single Eddie and Buck arcs in S8/maybe 9 and both of them get therapy, properly.

RAVI

My boooyyy!!! The framing of that last shot, I do reckon Ravi will main soon. They didn’t drop his insane childhood lore, and built on him as a character (while Chim was at the academy with him) for no reason.

I am personally really looking forward to seeing him get a lot more screentime in S8. It’s what the people want!!!!!!

GERRARD

Why did they act like this was such a major twist?? Like why else would they have shown him last episode..

I don’t really understand how he can have been made captain of the same firehouse he was removed from for bullying a crew that is literally still there.. but for the plot I guess we’ll go with it!

I look forward to him finally getting his comeuppance in season 8, but the asshole he’s going to be to everyone sounds less fun.

Let’s look at what we might have in store, hm?

-Racist to Chim, Hen and now probably Ravi too.

-Homophobic to Buck.

-If Bobby is around, no doubt he’ll be demeaning to him.

-And, i fear, if he somehow knows about Eddies current situation, will he make snide remarks about him as a father? Idk, I wouldn’t put anything past the bastard.

I’d really like to see the team take a stand against him though, I know he’s their captain for now and they will, to an extent, respect him (or at least do as he says). But it would be nice to see some firefam crew solidarity the face of his bigotry and bullying. It won’t be realistic if any of them just stand by and listen/watch while he makes shitty racism/homophobic jokes to their family.

Going to be a fun (🫠) few episodes!

FINAL THOUGHTS

As an episode, this wasn’t horrendous, but certainly not great. As a finale, it was terrible. Underwhelming sums it up, disappointing emphasises it nicely.

I look forward to getting back to a full length season that has hopefully will be written a little more in advance than this one was. Let’s be optimistic, or this hiatus won’t be too enjoyable.

Can’t wait to spend the next few months binging Buddie fics and reading all your theories!! And don’t forget we get S8 BTS pics in just a few weeks 😭🫶🏻

Feel free to send me any asks if there’s something I’ve forgotten to mention that you’d like my thoughts on - or if you have any theories etc. I love to get asks from your guys 💛

[yourlilkaiju]

Here is the Reason Why I Am Not A Destiel Fan Anymore:

And the reasons I refuse to go back to being one:

So in retrospect, the SuperWhoLock fandom has been by and large a pretty big fandom that has been running a good while. I don't think it's stopped. I have always loved Doctor Who, as that- alongside the works of Mr.Henson and the brilliant creations from his creature shop, were my first introductions to all things weird and other worldly. Horror was another story. I will be more than happy to talk about that another day. So as time went on, in abouts the late summer/early fall of 2005, right before I turned 13, I was introduced to Supernatural. Starring Jared Padelecki and Jensen Ackles. The person I was watching it with was bouncing up and down, all excited because "Oh my gosh, it's so nice to see you watching something other than anime." (The cow.), and because it was nearing Halloween time and it was both of our favorite time of year for two very different reasons. This would end up being the start of my enjoyment of a long running series that had a good premise, but a very confusing story line after season five. (Sorry but it felt...skewed after that point. But I stayed loyal.) In any case, I eventually started shipping Destiel because of the constant queer baiting. Which didn't exactly, idk help the situation? And with that I ended up being a shipper for a good seven and a half, I repeat, SEVEN AND A HALF FUCKING YEARS. Hardly anyone sticks with a shop that long. (But being autistic you kind of stick with a lot of things for a long ass time. *Mumbles something about a certain one winged angel from the nineties*.)

My enjoyment of the ship came to a close when I was at a fantasy convention the spring of 2016. I was at one of the Double tree locations with an ex of mine and dressed up as a fae queen, laughing, having a good time and just having good conversations with the people at our table. I was with a troupe that my ex and I had started and we were initially responsible for acting out as "hosts" for the opening and closing for these events, and even "opening the portals to the realms" 🙄. When out of character we were still expected to be gracious hosts....well, more like I was. The man could get away with spilling a punch bowl over his head while mooning an entire audience, yet still somehow do no wrong. If I complained, or made a peep in my defense, the whole world would come crashing down. Even with some of the people we spent time with. And some of the people we spent time with were Destiel shippers who liked to bring strangers into our space without asking, or without any given warning or invitation. At that time, it'd been Supernatural fans who were not only Destiel shippers....but also Cockles fans.

[I am going to pause for a moment here because I feel the need to emphasize that shipping is fine. Shipping is a great way to escape reality for a period of time and even let loose the pent up need for some sort of intimacy in ones life, regardless of the type that is needed. But to allow it to interfere with reality, to force real people into seeing each other and actually make it so that it can't be left alone for years after? That's where there is an issue. And people who can't see that need to re-evaluate themselves and get some fucking help.]

There were few things that my ex and I agreed on, and one of them had been that uninvited guests had been a nono. However, the rules at play prevented me from saying anything while in costume. He had to dismiss the person. He had to tell them it was time to go and that "appreciated the travellers journey, however it was time for the court to take it's respite." . And yet he didn't. So as these people went on, our troupe laughed and carried on with the conversation. I did my best to segue into a different topic, and tried my hardest not to show discomfort. Because to do so would be breaking the rules. The uninvited guests went on....and on...and on. They ignored my attempts and ignored the fact that I had requested two glasses of wine and a white Russian. They carried on about how Destiel was technically canon, and how Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins were secretly dating behind the scenes. I looked for any reason I could to get the hell out of dodge. And I found my salvation when I found a friend of mine standing over by the bar.

"Pardon me, my dear..." I said, with a soft lilt in my voice. "As compelling as this conversation has been, I find that I have urgent business with a friend of the forest." As bewildered as my poor guest was, I immediately left before they could say anything more. I hated the conversation. I hated feeling trapped. It felt draining and honestly, going to my friend was the best decision I felt that I could make. And when I got to him, he mentioned that I looked like I needed help. And for a man like my ex to not say anything, he was a little disappointed.

Over the next few years, I ran into several more of these shippers at events that I'd helped run. I insisted that the rules be changed, and while he did not like it, he knew that I would not back down on the issue. The same people tried joining our gathering by one of our troupe members behest, and without warning. Upon recognizing me, they grew excited and hoped to continue the conversation from the last time they'd seen me.

"Why don't we talk about something else?" I groaned. I recalled the unpleasant experience I had with them last time as they hardly allowed a word in edgewise.

There was a long pause.

As if summoning a great storm, I was suddenly accused of being homophobic and told that I only played a queen because I whined and sobbed my way into it. And I stood there, allowing the insults to continue until they couldn't anymore. I figured it was just best to let them kick dirt at a statue and smile at them exhausting themselves.

I'm sure some of you may think me a horrible person fo this. I am sure some of you are thinking "why are you telling us this? There's no point."

Because some of you need to know the extent of how some fandoms and their shippers behave.

Back then Destiel and Cockles were as bad as LDS's. Now...well they're still just as bad. But twice as aggressive. And while I was one, I don't think I ever went that far. I would often ask things like "Aren't those two married?" When it came to the Cockles fans. Or say "I'm from way south Alabama and experienced ISA, please stop." To the Wincest shippers. Every single time I would say something like this, some would try to come directly for my throat. Literally. Hell, someone grabbed me by the hair once. All because I dared to disagree.

It's a fucking series.

With fictional characters.

Played by actors.

And all the special effects are done by the crew.

But some people can't seem to grasp that.

I refuse to entangle myself back in that sticky little web and I would rather watch it burn itself out. I would prefer to see it go up in flames as it gets rejected by the fandoms it tries to infect, JUST because it is politely disagreed with.

Because it doesn't leave people alone after being told no or receiving the sense that, maybe, a person is uncomfortable.

[calibrationneeded]

Something I find infinitely frustrating is that if Destiel does go canon there will still be tons of people who who are mad about how it went down. I’ve seen so many people who expect Dean to just fall to the ground and wax poetically to Cas about his feelings, but forget that Dean is the same man who literally fell over a table when a man hit on him. Tbh in my minds eye Dean would either;

1. Assume that Cas changed his mind if he doesn’t bring it up first and not mention it because he’s afraid of fucking things up

2. Assume he and Cas are now dating, but not ever talk to Cas about it

3. Gives the most awkward goofy response possible that flys over Cas’s head

4. He’s already decided that they can’t be together because Dean doesn’t see himself as good enough

[morallygreyintrovert]

THE Destiel song

I might be really late to the game on this one but for anyone who cba’s listening to the song I’ll post the lyrics below.

I’ve been going through the records

We're not getting any better

Maybe I'm just getting bitter

I don't really care, whatever

I'm so tired of open warfare

When the point of this was to be best of friends

We've been going 'round in circles

Like a plane without an engine

As we spiral down the slipstream

Of our quickly-sinking friendship

It's a train wreck of an ending

It's the same as if we'd never even met

And, now I'm going through the motions

Like a drunken ballerina who's too tired to dance

But keeps on getting up to see if

Anybody stuck around to see

A show that has been over now for days

And I know that they're gone but I keep checking anyway

We've been standing here for hours

On the edges of a canyon

I've got my side, you've got yours

And we're both about to fall in

The pole we hold between us

Is the only thing that's keeping us aloft

And we're standing in the hallway

Both resolved to finally do this

We each have our guns drawn

But neither of us wants to shoot first

We could stay like this forever

We could stay like this and never leave

But there are standards I expect

Our breaking up to measure up to

When you fall in love as hard

And recklessly as you and I do

It seems that the final act should have

The same intensity as the first scene

If I don't lose a couple of teeth

Then it just won't feel real to me

So, we fall onto the floor

Not really sure if this

Is breaking bones

Or making up

Maybe a bit of both

But, I won't look away first

And you won't look away first

"It's a simple proposition"

Said the rabbit to the badger

I am sure if we're committed

We could dig our way to China

Wouldn't it be great to see the wall

And all those people standing on their heads?

So, they each picked up a shovel

Throwing dirt over their shoulders

And with every shovel pulled

Their little hole got a bit deeper

'Til they had to climb down in it

Just to reach the bottom layer

They went on like this all night

Scooping up and tossing out dirt

In the morning, they realized

They weren't getting any further

The hole had grown so deep that

The dirt they threw kept falling back on them

Said the badger to the rabbit

"I am sure if we continue

We'll pull through this on top

Perseverance is a virtue"

So, they scooped it and they tossed it

While the dirt piled up around their legs

And in a matter of hours

They buried themselves in it

And we fall onto the floor

Not really sure if this

Is breaking bones

Or making up

Maybe a bit of both

But, I won't look away first

And you won't look away first

I've been going through the records

We're not getting any better

Maybe I've just gotten bitter

I don't really care, whatever

I'm so tired of open warfare

When the point of this was to be best of friends

We've been going 'round in circles

Like a plane without an engine

As we spiral down the slipstream

Of our quickly-sinking friendship

It's a train wreck of an ending

It's the same as if we'd never even met

But, now I'm going through the motions

Like a dedicated doctor

Whose patient has been broken

With no chance that he'll recover

I keep shocking at the body

Just trying to make the heartbeat stay

And, I know that it's gone

But I keep trying anyway

Yeah, we fall onto the floor

Not really sure if this

Is breaking bones

Or making up

Maybe a bit of both

But, I won't look away first

And you won't look away first

No, I won't look away first

And you won't look away first