#and my grandma. that narcissistic bitch

[gulaabjamoon]

my parents are so against divorces it baffles me honestly

[nurbrotheadfull]

I rushed so hard to finish it before having to go to school

Anyways, did anyone else’s religious family have some weird hatred for yoga?? Mine always told me it’s the work of the devil or some shit

[thecoolest69]

"Most grandparents wouldn't even pick you up from crafting club stop being such a selfish peice of shit we could of made you walk home stop being so god damn selfish you are such a Narcissist I mean I make one mistake and tour gonna cry when you make so many mistakes like stop being a selfish bitch"

Yep she said that great that made me feel so much better about myself maybe I am selfish and should just never do anything ever again since I'm obviously a terrible person

Oh well I mean you do realize grandma that you are my guardian and like my mom physically can't pick me up

I told her "well sorry I had a shitty day"

They yelled at me more and I heard the caregiver say that oh she's on her period

My grandpa is the only one not being rude he gave me 10 dollars and told me to get some dinner somewhere cause I know you had a rough day I love my grandpa he is the only one that isn't mean to me

Well anyways my mom is crying and calling me selfish even though she was the one complaining about eating "not enough"for the 100th time this week even though she's on a diet cause SHE IS OBESE and can't go anywhere cause no one can transfer her into the car

Well I man atleast you ate mom

I told her to shut up and that I really don't want to hear her complain about food all the time and it's getting old

She yelled at me and said I am the worst person ever and that I am so self centered and how I am so rude and she doesn't know why I'm like this

I probably am I mean idk how people like me I'm selfish and I understand if you hate me I am just a selfish terrible person

I mean this is a daily thing in my family so idk why I should complain I guess it just gets to me sometimes

Whatever I mean I shouldn't complain I have a couple awesome friends and a awesome person I'm dating they are the best <3

[lyceana]

I felt true, visceral fear today after I returned from work and discovered that my Huion monitor tablet wouldn't connect to my laptop. I knew that bitch was all powered up and screaming but blue-balling me with only pitch-black darkness.

I shut off and restarted my laptop 5 fucking times, rammed the usb cables in and out of my laptop's usb ports, in and out... I never thought that an expensive device - wasted for just watching funny cat videos and enabling me to draw the shapely but scaly butt of Voldemort - could be violated. Learned a life lesson here: any hole can be stuffed, you just need some imagination y'all.

Fuck tentacles, ugly men & weird-ass creatures with gigantic horse dicks - give me sub laptops/pcs getting dominated by their puny usb cable daddies!

I digress. So, I turned on my 2nd laptop which is on life-support - it never asked to be an accessory to producing hardcore incest material between Tom and his hot daddy Riddle sr, btw. But, like come on! What's better than one hot, mentally maladjusted Tom Riddle? Two of course! Think about the delicious angst, the hurt/comfort, the abandonment issues, the forbidden attraction, uugh...

Why are there so few tomcest (sr) fics? It's unfair, I'm fucking starving, eh. I mean, Riddle sr is the goddamn blueprint for gratuitously hot Voldemort! Where's pathetic, blushy, snot-nosed and puffy-eyed Tom Riddle sr??? The internet lied to me! I thought you only needed two hot dudes who didn't even have to meet each other to make sweet, sweet looove to each other... there's even incest and murder for extra seasoning!

I'm begging the ao3 wordsmith gods who kin Tom Riddle/Voldemort to open their hearts to Tomcest sr T_T) We all love pathetic men in tears and Voldemort would never allow himself to show such vulnerability but that's what we have his da for... Voldy could vicariously experience such a display of helplessness through Riddle sr! And tbh, I seriously need more beautiful works of art featuring my favourite basket case twink (dub-) non-con-ing his papa into some father/son bonding. I'm going cold turkey here!

I digress again. So, I plugged my Huion into my 2nd laptop and behold! That fucker finally connected and mirrored the laptop display, thank fucking god! Little shit was playing hard to get but it still lives! Whoop, whoop!

Thank Voldy's perky ass, I wasn't forced to make a human connection with an underpaid yet bored employee at the Huion support centre. I had that tablet for 4 years and we experienced the deepest depths of human depravity together - I cried bitter tears, cursed it for reflecting my shitty art skills - my inability to draw hot men bedtime wrestling. But, we also experienced joy together when I succeeded. That fucker made me feel like an art god when it reflected how I envisioned the smut to be. I'm not ready to end this toxic relationship, I thought I'd be.

I was all 'yeah, I'm sooo stage 4 already! I only need the Huion employee to gaslight me into buying their newest, shiny model to reach stage 5!' I'm 30, a grandma according to annoying (affectionate) internet youngsters. My body can't handle eating only instant ramen for 4 months anymore. My roaring 20s are a bygone era and for once I choose to practice some self-care, to love myself even!

For once, I was about to make an adult decision and... wait. To save up the money - to accept that I'll be a temporary full-time traditional wannabe weird-ass hentai artist with a shitty phone camera... but thank god I don't have to! My beloved tablet still works and I can be a part-time traditional but mainly digital wannabe weird-ass hentai artist with a shitty phone camera! Yeah, this is how my day went. Love y'all ~ mwaaah

Shameless self-promo plug but I think you should at least look at the smut scenes to see the appeal of tomcest (sr)~ I also need some validation for providing my tears as lube for their narcissistic coupling You can read Philautia here: AO3

[thenickgirl]

Did i actually do something wrong, i came out to my grandma and she freaked out on me, saying i was attacking her because i was defending myself. I asked her what she thinks about pride because pride month is coming up and she says she doesn’t care what people do so I told her and she said your to young to know what you want you haven’t lived life yet. So I obviously defended myself saying how do you know what I am, and that she says she doesn’t care but if it’s in her blood line she freaks out. Then she called me a narcissist and walked off. So like did I do something wrong or is my grandma just a homophobic bitch. I also think I’m going to cut communication off when I older cause she’s been like this my whole life

you did nothing wrong, my love. you have every right to stand up for yourself even against family. i think it might just take some time for your grandma to come around. i wouldn’t say she’s homophobic just yet, it’s way easier to be accepting of something when you yourself don’t have to deal with it, but now that it’s hit close to home for her (as in you her grandchild being gay) she’s probably just overwhelmed so she freaked out on you. you did the right thing, i wouldn’t worry about it, she’ll be alright eventually. if she doesn’t, yeah cutting her off might be the best thing for your peace of mind, but hopefully you won’t have to. i’m so proud of you though for coming out and sticking up for yourself!! 🩷

[direwolfrules]

Shout out to my grandma. Burn in hell you narcissistic bitch. Thanks for bringing back my suicidal thoughts, real generous Easter gift.

[landograndprix]

😭😭 now I'm worried about what she's going to do next. knowing her, she'll spread a rumour that carlos or somebody else might be the baby daddy or sth 💀 does milou even have any friends?????

- 🌹 hope you're well today 🥺🩷

Another baby gate? 👀 nah, don't be surprised if more of y/n's past gets leaked or more rumors get spread..and don't forget, we still have Pierre in that trashy Alpine team 😂 also no, I doubt milou has any friends considering y/n and Cecile took her in as a little sister and she's lost them now due to her own dumb behaviour..maybe her PA and some old school friend cause let's be real, you don't turn into a narcissistic, arrogant little bitch over night, pretty sure she's lost many friends along the way 💀

I'm doing great today, I've done a little shopping with my mother and continued the day doing grandma activities so life is good! Hope you are great as well and that your day is going smoothly 🥰

[samninja18]

Rick and morty au. What if Rick’s original family never died and he was able to still keep Our Rick’s knowledge, inventions, and personality.

Without being a major asswhole to his grandkids, being a better father to his daughter, and not super mean to Jerry.

An Au where Beth was NOT a psychopath or narcissist

An au where Jerry isn’t just a pathetic coward or a petty guy

An Au where Morty grew up normally along with Summer whom isn’t a total bitch.

A healthier au where they knew their grandma and even had aunts, uncles, cousins, and more siblings.

Beth and Jerry are happier in their marriage and much more secure

Rick is happy and a loving grandpa.

Want to know more?

Check out my story on wattpad

[tamayokny]

there's a TLDR at the end of this post. also sorry if y'all just saw a mass text on your dash for a bit. i put a read more but it glitched. classic tunglr.

so on thursday this week (on 08/15) my family hosted a celebration of life for my grandpa--it would have been his 80th birthday. a lot of people showed up, family included, and it was a good time. we did what grandpa would have wanted and done best: drink, eat, and socialize. (my bio grandma said i was acting just like grandpa LMAO.)

there is some sad stuff, though. one of my great uncles (lets call him d), the baby of the family, is still very torn up over grandpa's death. (we are all, uncle h.) it's so sad bc while the family can be sentimental, i have never seen uncle r so...like that. i mean, we choked up together when we attended a mass for grandpa back on my birthday, but....yeah.

things get a little worse, though. i have two great aunts, and they're both older than grandpa and uncle r. the eldest didn't show up (which i'm kinda salty about ngl), but the younger one (aunt y)....so she and her husband (uncle e) live in florida. they flew up to come to the celebration of life. they're staying with uncle h and his wife and were going to carpool with them. however, aunt y and uncle e had to stay at the house because aunt y had a very bad fainting spell that morning. apparently she's having some health issues (she's 82 years old; it happens) and faints are one of them. however, it gets even worse you guys! she's also having signs of alzheimer's (specifically the memory issue) and she's taking experimental meds for that.

so, grandpa had alzheimer's / dementia / parkinson's and died with it (and i'm sure that contributed to the malnourishment, among other stuff). his older sister is showing signs of it from what great uncle e was telling my uncle. btw, apparently their dad had it too, and he died when he was 85 years old. aunt y is currently 82 years old...so great! not really feeling it you guys.

but christ, it gets worst.

apparently, some of the older relatives have asked my uncle and his wife if we know where some of their mom's things (my great grandma) and other family stuff is at. now, we knew where some things were at from the last time we went to That Place, but who fucking knows. i hope that bitch still has it but she needs to give the family their stuff back. i doubt she will---i really hope she didn't trash it, but if she didn't give the things my dad asked for (which was a bench and small metal toolbox he made for his dad when he went to school)....well, i hope she will give the older relatives that stuff. THAT SHIT IS NOT HERS AND IT BETTER FUCKING NOT GO TO HER DUMBASS FAMILY ONCE SHE CROAKS.

put this bitch in a fucking saw trap PLEASE.

tldr

i took bereavement leave this past week and spent time with family

i found out that one of my great aunts has a poor bill of health and is showing signs of alzheimer's, which is something her brother, their father, and their sister-in-law had. um. that's not good at all haha!

found out the bitch still has family heirlooms that she needs to return to grandpa's siblings. she probably won't do it because she's a fucking cunt.

i'm still torn up over grandpa and will probably never heal even after that cunt dies. like, of course you never get over a death but my family has been robbed of a proper, peaceful bereavement because grandpa married a narcissist.

[twinknote]

i need to process a dream i just woke up from, cw ableism, shitty family dynamics, emo abuse mention

so i was at my grandma’s house (which is already emotional, she’s been gone for many years now and that house was the setting for most of my favorite family memories) and me and my brother and dad had just gotten back from walking around and getting food. i had decided to lay down in bed for a bit because i was crashing from being out

my aunt ellen (who irl is actually very nice) came in and was chewing me out and telling me how disrespectful it was for me to be ignoring family members who wanted to spend time with me

and i advocated for myself like a bad bitch, i was like Ma’am i literally have a disability called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and i don’t think it’s disrespectful for me to need to rest and take care of myself

at some point i had to go to the bathroom and ran into my cousin leah (who i love, i’m surprised it wasn’t her sister emily who i’m closer with irl but i think it goes to prove a point that i will get to later) and she was upset and crying because she recognized that ellen was being unfair and mean to me. she hugged me and was like i totally think she’s overreacting, you don’t deserve that

i went back to bed and my dad came into the room and tried explaining ellen’s pov to me and i tried explaining mine but he kept not really listening to me. i also kept hearing family members outside the door talking abt me and misgendering me

eventually i made it downstairs since leah needed to get back to her kids and i wanted to say goodbye and thank her. ellen immediately accused me of doing smth i didn’t do and i was firing back snappy responses to her and she seemed to be getting tired of it after a while

leah and i hugged and were laughing that she was being so weird and unreasonable.

ok so obviously this kinda shook me but i have a likely interpretation of what the dream actually meant. i’ve been really struggling to communicate w family members (there are several who i really need and Want to respond to but my anxiety has a grip on my throat). and i think this dream was my brain’s way of saying Hey, this is what you Think family members are going to treat you like (ellen) and this is how real family members will actually show up for you (leah). my cousins and my dad who i actually want to respond to have always been nothing but unconditionally nice and caring to me.

And i really want to emphasize to myself that the fear my brain is clinging to is actually so valid and real bc the way ellen treated me in the dream is literally how my mom has treated me so many times. she’s such a manipulative narcissistic emotional abuser and i’ve spent most of my life trying to stay on her good side. my fear of being treated poorly by family isn’t irrational or stupid, it’s literally lived experience and it makes me terrified to be emotionally vulnerable with family members.

BUT. i’m insanely proud of my dream self for actually advocating for myself and sticking to what i know is right for my body??? like look at him go??? i typically have such a fawn response and in my dream i was like Nope i’m fighting, bitch. and i LOVE that for me

anyway moral of the story is that maybe reaching out to family will actually be a positive experience and even if anyone says anything sus (which would probably be my dad out of ignorance) i have the strength and ability to inform them of my perspective!!!

[siouxiedadegenerate]

(ALSO FORGOT TO POST THIS SO IGNORE THE WRONG DATE XD)

Gah! I’m sorry for taking so long to post!

A lot of life shit happened.

For one, my birthday is in 11 days! I’m turning 26 years old! XD And, may I say, I feel like I’m fucking 76. Cause everything fucking hurts. My neck, my back…. My life is a hack. Ha! You thought I was going to say ‘my pussy, and my crack’!” ….. Damn it I just did xD

But I’m currently in line to get another title for my RV that we had to return to get another one. And damn, it’s been a hot ass minute in this line. I’m at the DMV before we go see the RV cause we need a title. And my damn feet hooooort! AAAAA I wish they will do what they need to do and go! I’m in internal pain! I know myself when I say, if I stay for a long period of time (more than 1hr and 30min) my body is prone to passing out. I don’t know if it was hot that day or what, but I almost passed out from standing up too long and had to sit. But that was a long time ago, my body could have changed passed that. IDK :/

But yeah, I’m getting a title for the old RV so I can get a new one. And it’s a lot BIGGER AND BETTER.

I’m going to use this RV as a home for me, since Grandma kicked me out the house. That grade a bitch… and she got the nerve to ask me ‘When are you coming home?’, I really wanted to say never you fucking bitch, I’ll rather suck Satan’s left tit in hell than live with you. But I put on a fake smile and said. ‘Until we get the RV.’ TRANSLATION: ‘When I can live away from you’.

I honestly just want her to die already… I know that sounds bad but she is one evil narcissistic woman and she needs just to give up on life. She put her whole family through hell and MOST of the family, barely deals with her. Oh, I wonder why! She blames other people but it’s all her damn fault. And my mom (my aunt who adopted me) agrees that she is sick in the head and needs to leave me the fuck alone. But I can’t wait to get my own place, far away from my Grandma as possible…

BUT ANYWAYS!

I’ll post pictures of the RV soon, I don’t know how long it will be until we get out the DMV but I hope soon…

[featherlightsprite]

Day 9

Oh gods yeah. When I was heavy, when I was at my smallest, when I was just a kid growing up. This is a long one, strap in.

Growing up my mom was constantly pointing out my big thighs, my beefy arms, and my tummy. She would go on these workout hypes for like 2 weeks and then it was right back to how she was. She would blame me for how fat she got and then pat my stomach and say "that's where all the pregnancy cravings went." Anytime I wanted a snack cause I was a very active kid, she'd say I'm pigging out. Looking back on those photos, I wasn't big. I was a normal kid. Figured out she was a narcissist as I grew up and was projecting.

As a teen I got bullied a lot. Mainly cause I was a cringy kid but I was also 260 with 38GG. At 16. One thing that stands out is a girl coming up to me out of no where, picking a fight, and calling me "nothing but a bitch with tits." I was full swing in the middle of my bad habit, but they only saw the fat kid.

Between 18-23 was when I was smallest. Male co-workers would say horrible things about me because I had an attitude and was "nothing but a fat ass and nice tits." Female co-workers hated me cause I had what they wanted. My family thought I was using (I wasn't) because of how fast the transformation was. My grandma is the worst for it. I was so proud of what I'd accomplished. The first Christmas I saw her after my achievement, in front of the entire family and my ex boyfriend, Grandma and aunt start picking on me asking "where'd your tits go!? You look sickly. No man will want you with no meat on those bones!" They wouldn't stop till my ex stepped in.

Dad was always telling me to eat a burger. Constantly trying to shove food in my face.

I'm now at what I'm at from stress, but also happy relationship weight. He feeds me, but not in a pushy way. Just making sure I have at least something in my system. Grandma now tells me to lose what I've gained cause "I look unhealthy, nothing I gave you fits now." Last time I saw her she went on a 15min long Meanspo rant at me.

[starset21]

My grandma is a real piece of work sometimes, I literally was just trying to walk my cousin over to her house and I brought my new dog with me and she was outside so I let her meet her (I wouldn’t have yet if she wasn’t already outside since she’s been so vocal about how me getting a dog is such a burden 🙄) and talked for a few minutes before they went inside and I walked home but apparently she told my cousin that I was a bitch and my tone was bitchy and complained about some other things after I left.

And she wonders why one of her daughters went no contact, and why I want basically nothing to do with her, (everyone is over her bs at this point, she’s got some very narcissistic tendencies)

Anyways this is my new dog:

[littlestarprincess]

While I'm not one to advocate for all daughters to love their mothers, it's fascinating to me that we're opening with daughter vs mother vs grandmother and it's rooted in calling each other "dramatic" and "ridiculous".

Her mother is a bitch for not wanting Adeline to live in Parson's Manor, but she describes seeing her gynecologist as more painful. (Why her gynecologist? I dunno.) but we're meant tk understand that it's more about how her mom is always like this.

Her dead grandma was so nice and sweet, looking at the world through rose colored lenses, and her mom is a bitch who's rose colored lenses got smashed (probably on the way out of Nana's vagina. We're on page six and this is the second reference to vaginas. It's giving pussy power.)

"She wasn't raised this way".

There are a lot of allusions to this ideal of femininity and it seems like Adeline's issues with her mom are more rooted in her mother's failure to live up to this standard. There's a brief mention of her mom not being able to tolerate her when she was growing up, even though one page ago her mom was complaining about Adeline living too far away. Adeline gives us a quick breakdown of her background and does not reference a change of attitude.

We finally get an actual example of bitchiness halfway down the page, when her mom seems to change her mind *again*, and talks about wanting Adeline to do more than waste away in that house, even though Adeline is a successful write who has traveled around the country after quitting college. This inconsistency is also not noted. Adeline's mom refers to Adeline's grandma as worthless and Adeline tells her to fuck off.

This could be meant to portray narcissistic abuse, except even within Adeline's internal monologue we get no indication that her mom is being inconsistent or that the expectations she's expected to reach are extreme.

Parson's Manor is described in a way that creates an interesting parallel to Zade. The lawn needs a haircut; it's dark and menacing and looms over the woods "as if to say you shall fear me."

A curtain flutters and she doesn't doubt what she saw even though "nothing should be able to move [them]".

There's a lot of little traits that tie Adeline back to the author's blurb -- her love of horror, being a fantasy author (the author loves paranormal shows). I wouldn't be super surprised if she and the author are the same age.

Adeline comments to herself on being a successful author in defiance of her mom's words, so that does happen even if the timing is weird.

*Nana* got along with *her* mother. How *dare* Adeline's mom not do the same? It's very much giving the impression of a young girl absorbing the bitterness of her caretaker and perpetuating it, despite Adeline's insistance that Nana is soooo nice.

We get a random reference to Adeline's nipples because the thermostat was set to 62° and that's practically arctic. The narrative is incredibly insecure about Adeline's femininity.

"Nana used to say she liked it best when she was the brightest thing in the room". That's a really weird characterization tidbit given the Nana VS Mom thing.

We now get a scene of Adeline Being Successful. I have never been to a book signing but this isn't how I pictured one.

She's now described as being terrible at social situations despite the back of the book trying to make her sound badass.

Her book is the Wanderer. Does Addie also write self inserts? Self insertception.

(I want to pause and say that self inserts aren't a thing I dislike, just something I'm tracking because of my premise.)

Okay, Zade's visuals are kind of cool.

Her friend is bullying her into agreeing to getting laid. Super normal. She sexted someone on Addie's behalf, because that's not violating at all.

This is after some objectifying comments on Addie's body because again, the narrative is worried we won't think Addie is hot. But it does being up a weird thing I've noticed, which is that conservative women tend to be weirdly sexual with each other.

Probably because sex is a power thing as well as an intimacy thing? Idk.

This is the most stressful sex scene. How is this blowing off steam?

Pause to remind us that Addie has great tits

(We're on page 18. This is the fifth reference we've had to objectifying Addie's body from the narrative.)

"A *real* man" -- so now we're starting to broach the expectations Addie was raised to have of men.

What *was*the relationship between Greyson and Addie? Were they dating? FwB? Daya made a beeline for him.

Anyway, I expect he's dead now.

[nightcoremoon]

I was injured in a car crash this week. nothing serious, I’ve just got a scrape and my chest muscles hurt from getting thwacked by the air bags. the girl who hit me fractured an arm but hey DON’T FUCKING GO 70 IN A 45 AND THAT WONT HAPPEN, YOU STUPID BITCH. so yeah I was turning left, yield on green, I had plenty of space because the person coming at me is going the speed limit so there’s no way the person behind that guy is gonna hit me either so I can look away for a second right? oh shit that guy’s speeding. boom.

car’s fucked but luckily my grandparents will help me pay for a new car (as in they’ll buy it lump sum and I’ll pay them over the course of time). it’s a good thing I’m their only grandkid who sees them weekly and that I’m not addicted to drugs or pregnant, lol. and thankfully nobody died or got seriously injured. aside from me with an ice pack between my tits and probably higher car insurance rates for a little while. no cops either. in fact the cops and the tow truck driver got in a fight and the driver was a dick. some bags of cans intended for recycling got crunched & unusable, and I broke my portable jump battery, and I missed a couple days of work, but my grandma, sister, mom, and bf can all drive me in the interim.

I’d have said something sooner but I know the brainless losers who salt follow me just to argue about dumb shit are gonna try to capitalize on my injury to say HA GOTCHA SEE CARS ARE STUPID AND DANGEROUS AND YOU’RE AN IDIOT since they’re the same kind of narcissistic sociopaths who use school shootings as a gotcha to Americans because of our cultural differences with England and other countries. as if the dead kids can be dug up and used as strawmans. strawmen? strawpeople? anyway that crew is either gonna be so desperate they’re still checking my blog every fifteen minutes, or they touched grass and moved on with their life.

so yeah. I’m alive. but it hurts a lot. I’ve been sleeping like 16 hours a day all week.

don’t fucking speed, kids. or I’ll kill you /j but /srs. /hj?

[faggotfungus]

Judas, you're lovely, darling. Any excuse to share my eclectic ass music taste. ♡

the Pattern - The Narcissist Cookbook

Everyone's Dying (Grandma's Drunk Again) - Roe Kapara

Let Me Drown - Orville Peck (bitch me too hey)

Homesick - Noah Kahan

Bet On It - High School Musical

@yetie @believeinlostsouls @angelddvil @necrotizer @ovaranae @cannibalfag

tagged by @bloodcoveredgf to post 5 songs ive been listening to on repeat thank you SO much for the tag ❤️❤️❤️!!!!!

1. destroyed by hippie powers- car seat headrest (by which i mean all of teens of denial cause it's all ive been listening to for WEEKS but that song was the gateway drug so there you go)

2. a loving feeling - mitski

3. the purple bottle - animal collective

4. zydrate anatomy from repo! the genetic opera

5. the air-conditioned nightmare - mr bungle

tagging @boycentriccplot @bandaidboyxcv @velvetcrowbar444 @nights-decay @foddlestocks @buscemifan @sydmarch and of course anyone who wants to participate! (no pressure of course love u all)