#and my cat is cool and all. but she's not a people. she's just a cat.
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Id say its less like chips for dinner and more like fairy floss. Mostly air, disappears into your mouth immediately, doesnt sustain you at all. Its barely worth the sugar hit.
I think its also ok to want a story with low tension, because even low stakes high tension can be stressful. But in that case we have to absolutely love the character down their bones, which means, without big challenges to garner sympathy, they gotta be incredibly competent and charming and larger-than-life, in which case theyre not relatable - which I think would be fine could work really well - but writers and editors tend to want relatable characters I imagine especially for coziness. You want reader insert.
Cause story elements are quite flexible, but if you leave out too many you dont have a dish anymore, just some ingredients. You left out the seasoning so its all bland, or you forgot to put liquid in the soup so it burned.
Something like Legends and Lattes I think could also work if the setting was really deeply a character, but in my memory its just fantasy coffee shop au. There was a big magic cat of some kind is my main memory, but it wasnt super distinct.
Maybe this is a better metaphor, as I was becoming more disabled and less able to cook, I made a minestrone soup entirely out of cans and pre-made broth. It was all the same ingredients as when I made it from more-scratch but it came out terrible. If you have a generic coffee setting + generic fantasy setting (the + makes it more interesting but not much bc ....its just a coffee shop au its been done a gazillion times) + reader insert character + no stakes or tension to the plot....theres nothing left to be The Interesting Part.
Though for me the weirdest part of the book was not fully trusting the low stakes especially in the final third. I never felt like i could relax because she has a sword shes been an adventurer, shes having dealing with a local magic gang, maybe the tension is about if she'll pick up her sword again. So it was a weird tense experience for me in a way that didnt break or resolve because I didnt feel like I could be sure that these low stakes were going to stay low stakes, even with a blurb on the cover about how chill it is.
For a reccomendation though, theres a picture nook called The Tea Dragon Society with a very interesting world (and such pretty art), and interesting take on dragons, really cool characters, the protagonist is a kid who acts like a kid. Its a small story about four people intergenerationally bonding over care for dragons that grow tea. Nothing like, showstopping revolutionary, its not a michelin chefs newest dish, its more like that friend or relative whos food you love because its a really good version of the familiar. I think thats ny food metaphor for it.
-im also thinking about cozy games but I dont have specific analysis to add atm.
Cozy Fantasy and Why It Doesn't Work
I think I am among many who feel like they should love cozy fantasy and have found it an incredibly lacking genre.
This newly branded "cozy fantasy" genre that has taken readers by storm since 2020 and while it is new that books are now marketed as cozy, the genre itself isn't new. Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones is a great example of the genre before it was labeled and also how to make it work.
Cozy fantasy is defined by many as fantasy with low stakes. Fantasy aesthetic but less sword fights. On paper, it sounds great. But the execution has been less than stellar for readers like me. The lack of physical stakes has also impacted the emotional stakes of these books, creating forgettable characters with boring problems. As a romance reader, I find this frustrating. Romance is known for being a predictable and formulaic genre, the now defunct Romance Writers of America defined romances as needing happy endings, a term romances have continued to follow. Yet these romance texts manage to have low physical stakes (how to date your neighbor, how to confront your toxic friends, etc) while still maintaining high personal stakes that keep readers invested and begging for more. So I was initially confused why cozy fantasy authors struggle to write texts that connect to readers like me.
I think I have found the answer which is the genre is just here for vibes. It is all about aesthetic, not even worldbuilding that fantasy is known for as most cozy fantasy I read have so many problems as soon as you ask one question. It is hard to acknowledge that a genre that is pitched to work for readers like me doesn't work for many of us. Especially because occasionally there is one that works beautifully to my taste.
I often say my favorite cozy fantasies that are more contemporary are short and visual, which I plays into the idea of the genre being an aesthetic. The Bakery Dragon by Devin Elle Kurtz is a good example because it is a simple story that is given the perfect amount of pages and gorgeous visuals without dragging on when the message is very clear and easy to understand. Books like The Phoenix Keeper and Legends and Lattes have absolutely nothing for me, their very clear message hitting the reader over and over so the readers don't miss it and focusing on the aesthetic of worldbuilding rather than the reality of the fantastic elements within the world.
I guess my point is. . . I realize this genre isn't for me since I have realized it is more of an aesthetic than anything. .. .but I want it to be. Should I let it go and put my efforts elsewhere? Or should I keep exploring this new trend and find the hidden gems?
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I really hate how much this fandom ignores Peter as being part of the group because he betrayed the Potters (and when they do include him he's treated like shit), so here are my favorite Peter hcs cause he's one of my fav characters and doesn't get enough attention!!
he's amazing at herbology and loves plants + him tutoring the others in it because he and James are the only ones who give a damn about it (James' mum adores gardening and he helped her a lot growing up)
he is a fiend for green clothes and wears green (sage greens particularly) c o n s t a n t l y
he had braces starting the summer after third and ending in early to mid fifth (he was lucky enough to not need headgear though)
James and Sirius affectionately called him "brace-face" and "tin-grin" during that time
he, James, and Marlene all grew up together and Euphemia's love for gardening got him started with his love of plants (he always takes time to talk to her about his new plants when they all go to the Potter's for the hols and she thinks it's just the sweetest)
probably smoked weed
ok he definitely smoked week
aroace but doesn't have the labels to properly describe it cause it's the 70s
doesn't quite understand gay people (or romance in general but he gets that slightly more) but if it makes his mates happy then it's cool by him!
he and James are the sole reasons Remus and Sirius regularly consume meals
has major anxiety but also a fuck it we ball mentality (one of my favs! it's so fun to play with how they mix for him!! highly recommend)
really fucking funny but doesn't talk much so no one outside of his friends know about his absolute wicked sense of humor
he either remembers every word of a conversation you had with six years ago or doesn't remember even talking to you two days ago. there is no in between and there is no way of telling which you'll get
he probably had a lazy, orange cat who ONLY liked him and Sirius
yum bagels
struggles with words but will randomly say the most eloquent, wise old man esque shit ever and then goes back to stuttering
reads books with Remus and Lily!!
wore green to a quiddich match against slytherin once and James and Sirius stole everything off his bed and hid it from him for a week (he just cuddled with Remus every night)
loves baking and cooking but is pants at it (he's getting better though!!)
can convincingly bark like a dog???
probably cried to Lily a couple times because 'why are his friends so fucking oblivious??'
makes fun of his friends unprovoked, constantly
literal god at chess (only time he loses is when he pretends to while teaching underclassmen)
insanely good at photography!!
asfhgfsfdaaa
I love him sm and have so many more so if you're interested don't be afraid to send an ask :)
#peter pettigrew#peter pettigrew headcanons#peter pettigrew appreciation post#hes so silly#i love him
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🍓̟!! Strawberry flavor ᴹⁱⁿʲⁱ ˣ ᶠ!ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ
Pairing - Kim Minji x 6th member! reader {req}
Genre - fluff
Synopsis - Somehow you charmed Minji the moment you met, it wasn't in her plans to fall in love with your group member, but she did, maybe it's not so bad.
Warnings - 🚫
Word count - 1.821
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When Minji met you, the first thing she thought was, “She smells like strawberries,” the second thing she thought was, “Shit, she’s so pretty,” that was almost enough for her to fall in love with you, but it was still too early to tell.
“Minji-unnie! Look!” you smiled with a cat plush in your arms, you proudly showed it to the girl “I got it for you, you said you liked it.” the girl smiled.
“Really? Thank you.” somehow, your smile got brighter, melting Minji’s heart “You didn’t have to.” she took the cat and watched it for a few seconds until you got closer and spoke softly.
“My mother always said that we don’t need reasons to give gifts to people we love.” Minji’s cheeks heated up.
The third thing Minji thought was: “Does she love me?”.
During a live stream, the six of you were sitting around talking to each other and answering some comments. You were as excited as ever. You and Danielle were nicknamed “Smileyz” by the bunnies, and today was no different. You two were the ones who interacted the most with the comments on that live stream. That’s something you never get tired of. Minji admires that about you.
“Minji looks pretty tonight.” You read a comment out loud, catching the girls’ attention.
“Oh, really?” The girl smiled shyly, not because of the comment, but because you were the one who said it.
“That’s a lie.” You frowned and the girls now looked at you confused, you smiled and looked at Minji, your fingers lightly running over her shoulder “Because Minji-unnie looks pretty every day, doesn’t she?” You heard the girls’ disapproving murmurs and Minji’s cheeks turning red and moving away from you and the camera’s frame.
“Oh God, she’s been doing this all night, ignore her guys.” Hanni said and you laughed.
“It’s not my fault she’s so pretty.”
The fourth thing Minji thought was: “Does she think I’m pretty?”
You smiled and waved to the airport cameras. Minji watched you with a small smile on her face that turned into a bigger smile when you turned to her. You approached her and linked your arm with hers.
“Are you happy?” you asked her, holding her tightly, as if she would run away from you at any moment.
“Very…” you noticed when she looked at your lips for a few seconds, this made you unconsciously get closer but then you moved away when you remembered the people and the cameras around.
“I think I’ll bake a strawberry cake when we get home, what do you think? Or maybe a pie.” You waited for the girl’s opinion.
“I think both options are good.”
“No, choose one!” You shook the girl slightly, she laughed, everyone noticed how she laughs more when she’s with you and it even seems like she’s a little high, you make her high.
“Okay, then… Pie.” You smiled.
“Good, that’s what I wanted.”
Minji loves how you always bake pies and cakes every week, those are her favorites.
You placed the freshly baked pie on the counter, your members leaving the room and going to the kitchen to see what you had made.
“This looks so good.” Danielle came closer and smelled it “It smells so good too.”
“Yes, Y/n-unnie, can we eat it?” Hyein pleaded and you laughed.
“It’s hot, at least let it cool down a little.” the girls protested and you pushed them back into the room “Get out! Get out! Come back when I call you.” but before Minji could go with them, you pulled her “Ahm… Can you help me with something?” you smiled, Hanni watched.
“Uh-huh, yes, help.” you pushed her and pulled Minji.
“What do you need?” she watched you bend down to open the cabinet.
“I… I just didn’t want the girls to see me giving it to you.” you picked up a small box “There’s not enough for everyone.” you opened it and handed some red balls to Minji “Gum.” you smiled and the girl did the same.
“I think there’s enough for everyone.” she observed the amount in your hand and in hers.
“Shut up and say thank you.”
“Thank you.” You smiled, Minji smiled.
The fifth thing Minji thought was: “She has the most beautiful smile in the world.”
You strode into the dorm with a large box in your hands. Minji and Haerin were the first to notice you, and Haerin was the first to ask.
“Unnie, why are you so happy?” you looked at the girl.
“There’s something cool in here.” you nodded at the box.
“Are you smuggling drugs?” Hanni asked and you kicked her in the shin.
“It’s something cool but not illegal.” you went to your room.
“Aren’t you even going to show us?” Dani shouted from the kitchen, they only heard you yell “No” before slamming the door.
“I’m sure it’s drugs.”
You placed the box on the floor and opened it quickly, coming across all the gifts you had bought for your friends. You smiled broadly as you took them all out of the box, but one in particular caught your attention.
It had become common for you to give Minji stuffed animals, but this time it was one similar to yours. In fact, the ad said it was for couples, but she didn't need to know that. You smiled and held it against your chest. You texted Minji to tell her to come to your room. In a few seconds, she was knocking on the door.
“Come in.” You watched the girl open the door and smiled, you patted the rug next to you, the girl closed the door before sitting next to you “Look, I bought it for you.”
“Just for me?” She smiled as you handed her the plush.
“I didn’t buy it just for you, but… This one is more…”
“Important? Am I your favorite?”
“Oh, shut up before I regret it.” She laughed, hearing her laugh, you felt butterflies in your stomach, this was becoming common for you “They’re a duo.” You showed her your plush “Like it was me and you, only in plush toys…” You looked down as if you regretted what you said “It’s stupid…”
“Hey, no, don’t say that.” She lifted your chin gently with her fingertips, making you look back at her “It’s cute, I like that about you.” You felt your cheeks burn, in a surge of courage, you approached. “Minji, I-��� you were cut off by the door opening and the two of you turning to look.
“Do you guys want barbecue?”
Sometimes it sucks to have a shared dorm.
You sat on the couch and covered yourself with the blanket, it was finally the weekend and you could finally watch the movie you wanted so much, before you selected, you saw a sleepy Minji coming out of the hallway and looking at you, you smiled at her.
“Did you lose sleep?” she agreed. “Sit here.” You patted the place next to you. The girl came over sleepily and threw herself on the couch. You covered her with your blanket and looked at the girl. “Do you want to watch a movie?” She agreed and you started the movie. It was a horror movie. In fact, you were thankful when Minji arrived because you wouldn’t have to watch the movie alone now.
Minji didn't say much and you assumed it was because she was sleepy, but the truth is that she had lost sleep after dreaming about you, this happened sometimes and she got used to it, but this time it was different.
In the dream she ended up having the courage to confess to you after a show, something that wasn't planned and that you definitely didn't expect because of how her eyes opened in shock and her jaw slowly dropped. This usually wasn't enough to make her wake up and lose sleep, what did was that you refused her, harshly and called her disgusting for thinking that way about you, so Minji continued to hear the word "disgusting" over and over again until she woke up, this was the reason she couldn't sleep anymore.
During the movie, she noticed how you got scared a few times and clutched the blanket in a failed way of calming yourself down.
Minji sneakily held your hand, still looking at the screen, so she didn't notice when you looked at her in surprise or how your cheeks turned pink from the warm touch of her palm on yours, you tried to pay attention to the movie after that, but you couldn't take your attention away from your intertwined hands or when she caressed your hand with her thumb and gave you goosebumps.
One of the things you thought about Minji was: “She would make a great girlfriend.”
Minji brushed her hair with her fingertips, her forehead sweaty and her breathing heavy from practice. You looked at her, the girls had gone out to get food since you had finally finished practice, you approached her and handed her a glass of water, receiving a quiet thank you.
“Do you like me, Minji-unnie?” the girl spat out the water that was in her mouth and looked at you with wide eyes.
“Huh?”
“Do you like me?” you stepped closer and tilted your head slightly to the side.
“I… Why do you-“
“Yes or no?”
“Y/n…”
“Answer me!” she sighed and looked down.
“Yes.”
“Really?” you stood in front of her “Unnie, look at me.” she slowly raised her head and you smiled “Do you really like me?”
“I do.” you hugged her tightly, making her take a step back before wrapping her arm around you.
“I like you too, unnie.” you pulled away just enough to look at her “So, what are we now?” Minji was still in shock, you found it cute.
“Girlfriends?” she said quietly, you smiled more and hugged her again, but pulled away afterwards.
“Can… Can I kiss you?” Now you were the one who was shy, the girl nodded and you approached, smiling before finally touching your lips, a kiss that you both had been waiting for for a long time, Minji felt goosebumps when she felt you caress the back of her neck with affection, you both tried to be delicate, especially her, kissing you as if you were a fragile doll, you separated and looked at her.
“We're here!” you both separated quickly when the door opened “We brought roast pork.” you ran to Dani and looked at the bag.
“Minji, are you okay? Why is the floor wet?”
The sixth thing Minji thought of was: “Strawberry flavor.”
#𝓡𝓮𝓺𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓽 . .ᐟ📬#newjeans#newjeans x reader#newjeans x fem reader#kim minji x reader#minji x reader#kim minji x fem reader#kim minji#newjeans minji
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My Live (kinda) P:EG Chapter 1 thoughts
SPOILERS AHEAD
I thought it be fun to make a post AS I play chapter one, like literally writing this as I play, I’ll also do this when the other chapters come out
Some time later I’ll make another post discussing some things in better detail
With all that out of the way, let’s begin
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Downloading now
Launching and loading now
Chat I am not fucking ready for this lmao
Starting the chapter now
Opening looks so fucking sick, chat they cooked
Here we go, I’m so not ready 😭
Dorm rooms aren’t soundproof lmao
Damon’s room looks fucking sick, I love the layout of it
THERES A FUCKING REFERENCE TO DAMIAN, HES ON THE CALENDER LMAO (who if you don’t know is a cut character)
Damon called him sexy, Damon gay confirmed/J
A stage?
OH A CHIBI TOZU
Bitch just called me a chicken
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
FBI OPEN UP
THE CALENDERS ARE THEMED, DIANA GOT HORSES, TOZU LIGET LOOKED AT DAMON AND SAID ‘lmao you gay ass’
Neverminds all the girls got horses and the guys got Damian
MEETING TIME
Cool we got a map now
Lmao the name alpha sanctuary
Opp Wolfie don’t trust Damon or Eva
Diana to the rescue :D
TOZU JUMPSCARE
Lol Eloise calling him a villain
We got the rules
Desmond called him ‘Goat Guy’ lol
The shutter door opened
Exploring time
Nice looking room
A pharmacy?
And old looking pharmacy
lol Kai just worried about someone (or him) getting high on the drugs (good thing I use paint thinner/J)
Aww Ingrid’s not mad at Damon 🥺
Ok I love Ingrid omfg 🥺 she called Damon cute (she called his suit cute but still)
Ok I guess I’m helping her with laundry, i didn’t mean to click, I thought Damon would answer for me 😭
A back room? It looks like the store from DR2
Cassidy called Damon Damie, I love that nickname
Damn this area fucking large
FUCKING TOZU JUMOSCARE
Marabucks mention
One of Cassidy’s lines is ‘better zip up my fly, my genus is showing’ and I don’t know if I love it or hate it
Medical bed room 👀
Toshiko called Damon Mochi, FUCK THE OTHER NICKNAMES, I LOVE THIS ONE
Toshiko is scared of needles, she’s so me
Great another lab
Tozu plushies? I hate him but FUCK I want one
Ooohh Ingrid found a pin pad, has anyone tried 11037?
Never mind it’s only 4digits
LMAO CASIDY PUT 8008 IN THE PINPAD
Oooh we all got profiles now
Oh so they all can see each others profiles
Eva’s profile?
WHAT?? WHAT IS IT???
…
Ultimate Mathlete
lol everyone’s on Eva’s ass
Why the fuck is she so upset, it’s not that bad??
Opp she left
Welp back to the dorm
Someone’s at the door
A lot of people, everyone
So everyone’s lock is broken
Oh now I feel bad for Eva, she don’t look okay
oooohhh Toshiko playing matchmaker
Opp never mind
Splitting by gender
OOOOHHH DAMON GOT PAIRED WITH KAI
👀👀👀👀
I hate Kai’s fucking room, WHY IS IT SO PINK AND FLAMMABLE
Dividing the room I see? I’ve read this fanfic before lol
And back to the stage with Chibi Tozu
Cats and dreams?
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
Ooh letters
WTF WOLFGANG??
…
Welp
Wolf in sheep’s clothing?
Oh it’s his dad
Oh everyone got a letter
Oh it’s everyone’s secrets, I wanna know what Damon is (he’s gay lol/j)
FUCKING TOZU JUMPSCARE
Opp the first motive
Damon trying to get Tozus attention, trying to meet up with him
FREE TIME, WOLFGANG WHERE ARE YOU
USING MY MARABUCKS AND GETTING HIM A GIFT
GOT SOMETHHING HE’LL LIKE, OOOHH WOLFIE
HE LOVED IT
Oh his profile got updated
ANOTHER FREETIME?? OH WOLFIE
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
Opp it’s time to meet with Tozu
Here we go
…
And Tozu ain’t here
Nevermind he’s here now
Why Damon got Wolfgang’s secret
It was literally darts lol
Like father like son, wolf in sheep’s clothing…
Is his Wolfgang’s dad a killer or something?
Welp back to Kai
Oh Graces is swapping with ulesses (idk how to spell his name nor do I care cuz idc bout him lol)
Back to the stage with Chibi Tozu
Ships?
Oh boat ships
Boy with cream colored hair? Damon? Idk if his hair is cream colored but idk who else
Tozu built a ship? So did his friend?
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
Opp knocks on the door
Hello Ingrid ☺️
Laundry day and Kai is coming with
Oh Wolfie and Grace are here
LMAO WOLFIE CANT CLEAN OR DO LAUNDRY
I love Ingrid 🥺, she’s so gonna die tho lol
OMG I LOVE HER SINGING VOICE 🥺🥺🥺
Lmao Wolfie putting the entire bottle of detergent in
Oooh getting breakfast with Kai 👀
Oh Eva
She wants to talk to Damon?
Oh it’s Desmond’s secret
Oh Eva trusts Damon🥺 cause we took her side earlier
Oh she apologized to Damon 🥺
Now we showing her Wolfgang’s
So Wolfies dad did something bad and Wolfie is like him, like father like son
Eva lied about her talent cause she felt powerless??
Oh, oh Eva🥺 baby SHES PRECIOUS
Yea Damon and Eva are trusting each other 🥺
OH SHE SMILED 🥺🥺🥺
Opp Grace is yelling at Eloise
Opp Wolfie is upset at Damon and Eva for being late
Oh Cassidy and Jett
Oh she got games
Oooh a game tornament
Tomorrow at 9
Ok so Eloise, Wolfie and Diana won’t be there
ANOTHER FREE TIME??
I don’t have anything for Wolfgang so I’ll go spend it with Eva
Damn WHERE TF IS SHE???
Found her! Finally!
She liked by gift ☺️
She looks so depressed 🥺 my baby🥺 omfg I love her, I didn’t like her at first but now I love her
And her profile got updated
DAMN ANOTHER FREETIME??? THATS 4 IN ONE CHAPTER???
Back to Eva I guess
She liked my present
Oh Damon is allergic to dogs
Oh so Eva was forced into her talent, poor baby 🥺
Oh she was bullied too 🥺
And her profile got updated again
Oh Diana,
She wants to know how Damon is but the song Isolation is playing? TF does she really want?
Oh she is SO sus
She wants to know if Eva said something? Thank you Damon for not telling Diana
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
Kai trying to convince Damon to go to the tournament 🥺👀
And he succeeded and in return
THEY SHARING THE BED👀👀👀
IVE READ THIS FANFIC BEFORE
Back again with the stage and chibi Tozu
He had a dream
In class
Idk what he’s saying and idc lol
All I heard was Swiss Army Banana wtf is he on and how do I get some of it lol
Oh Kai is waking Damon up
They slept through the morning announcement
To the tournament
Only Damon, Kai, Eva, Cassidy, Jett and Mark are here
Oh Eva helped set it up
Oh she’s a fan of the game, people are totally gonna ship her and Cassidy now aren’t they cause I am a little lol
Jean is supposed to be here but he ain’t
Eva likes video games, she’s SO getting shipped with Cassidy. Damn now I need fanart
Oh Kai’s back
OH KAI IS SHOWING DAMON HOW TO PLAY CUTE☺️👀🥺
Jean is here
So is Grace
Oh Mark doesn’t want to talk about his talent?
OH I LOVE THE SPLASH ART THIS IS SO CUTE 🥺🥺
OH SHIT A KA-BOOM
Uh oh powers out
Using the trinkets as flashlights, smart move Jean
Ok Eva coming up with a plan to turn the power back on
Damn this looks like a horror game now
Searching in pairs and Damon is with Kai again
Aw poor Kai is scared🥺
Opp someone just ran past
Opp the boiler room, are we gonna see a dead body?
It’s silent
Oh
OH
And can’t see shit
Oh the power is back on
Lights on, dead body?
Oh
OH
????
Who
WOLFGANG NO
FUCK NO WHY
I CANT BELIEVE HES THE FIRST VICTIM NO
FUCK WHY HIM, WHY SOMEONE I CARED ABOUT???
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
A body has been discovered
Well time to investigate I guess, I’m so fucking sad I can’t believe Wolfgang was the fist victim
And Kai ran off screaming
My first guess is that he got electrocuted, there doesn’t seem to be any blood
Here comes everyone
Here’s Tozu too
Oh Toshiko is crying, GURL SO AM I 😭😭😭
We got the Tozu tablet
He was in the water in the boiler room so he did get electrocuted? At least it was quick😭
Bye Tozu
Oh Diana already looking sus
Investigating time
I’m not gonna say a lot, I’ll do that in my later post about the chapter
I wanna completely focus here cause I’m stupid lol
DING DONG BING BONG BABY
Investigatings over, trial time and I have no idea wtf happened lmao
All I know is Wolfie got electrocuted
Class trial starting, I probs won’t say a lot till it’s over cause I wanna focus
I’m so fucking confused lmao
I fucking hate rebuttal showdown, I DONT KNOW WHAT TF IM DOING 😭😭😭
WTF I KNEW DIANA WAS SUS BUT I DIDNT THINK SHE BE A KILLER I IN THE FIRST CHAPTER WTF
Oh nevermind she just watched him die?
Teatime with Tozu, I lowkey want that art as a poster ngl
NGL THESE DISHEVELED SPRITES OF WOLFGANG ARE LOWKEY KINDA HOT, SOMETHING ABOUT A MAN WITH BAGS UNDER HIS EYES ❤️😍🥵
OH DAMN THE KNIFE SPRITES
Bring her back??? TF IS HE GOING ON ABOUT??? HIS MOM???
So Diana used the taser gun on Wolfgang and then watched him die?
Opp nevermind
Is Wolfgang drugged or something??
OH DAMN KA-BOOM
Oh so Diana was framed
OH so Wolfgang was hallucinating, so he WAS drugged
Ingrid just said something sus…
I SWEAR IF ITS HER IM GONNA LOSE IT, I JUST STARTED LOVING HER 😭😭😭
Oh Damon said ‘that guy’ so it’s not her, is it Jett??? I LEGIT DONT KNOW
OH IT IS JETT??
Oh no it’s not him, killer just took something from his room
Oh wait, WAS IT SOMEONE FROM THR TOURNAMENT??? Throwing the battery through the vent???
Oh no the battery was suspended over the generator nvm
I still have no idea who tf killed Wolfgang tho
The cord was tied to the vent, SO IT WAS SOMEONE FROM THE TOURNAMENT THEN???
HOLY FUCK IT IS
WAS IT JETT??
Oh no
WAIT
EVA??
HOLY FUCK IT WAS HER
WTF I JUST STARTED LOVING HER I HATE IT HERE
It really was her, FUCK I HATE IT HERE, I JUST STARTED LOVING YOU WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS 😭😭😭
WTF EVA JUST EXPOSING DAMON FOR HAVING WOLFGANGS SECRET
OH DAMN NOW EVA TWEAKING
SHE USED THE CAMRRA?? Also did her accent change??
She used her game console, that’s fucked
Comic recap time, I still can’t believe it was Eva, I JUST STARTED TO LIKE HER, I KNEW I COULDNT TRUST A BITCH
End of class trial, FINALLY THO CAUSE BY ASS HURTS FROM SITTING SO LONG
Eva’s motive…
It was Tozu?? Tf you mean he ‘made you’?
She’s a traitor?? We got a traitor reveal THIS EARLY??
Oh nvm
So Eva approached Tozu
They made a deal??
To begin the killing game??? WTF EVA
So she did it to get a perk??
So the life or death secret about the pharmacy was the perk??
So Eva solved the life or death secret, got into the pin pad room and got the perk. Damn
and the pin is being changed again so possibly someone else could get it
The perk lets you used the cameras, damn that’s a good perk
Tf you mean you had no choice Eva??
So she did it so she could escape and leave everyone for dead
😑 I knew I fucking disliked you from the second I saw your ass
‘I’m always the one…that people hated’ oh Eva
DONT MAKE ME CARE FOR YOUR ASS AGAIN
Tf you mean you still would have died cuz of the perk??
Oh
So if Eva didn’t kill someone then she would die
Opp voting time
BYE EVA
Execution time!
Opp Eva getting dragged away like Leon in THH
At least she’s putting up a fight
Opp nvm
So far it doesn’t look at that bad
…
I was wrong
Opp she running now
Raining math stuff
And she tripped
And she stabbed herself on the math stuff
And nails
She’s crying 😭
Oh Cara’s puppet there giving her a hand, and her hand came off
And Eva fell
Oh Damon, seeing him cry watching Eva die HURTS
Everyone’s crying now
Diana lying to herself again??
She blames herself for nay saving Wolfgang, oh sweetie 😢
Oh she’s gonna live for him, cute 🥺
Oh Diana, I fucking love you holy shit
Everyone leaving
Damon
Damon I love you but tf you mean Diana pissed you off??
AND CHAPTER OVER
Damn that was wild holy shit
The devs COOKED WITH THIS ONE
#danganronpa#project: eden's garden chapter 1#project edens garden#eden's garden game#project eden's garden#p:eg chp 1#p:eg#damon maitsu#eva tsunaka#wolfgang akire#kai monteago
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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.
[id in alt text]
#legend of zelda#loz#twilight princess#loz tp#i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it#it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy#but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble:#i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way#to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present#link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face#and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up#you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way#the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually?#fan art#my art#project stuff#and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!!#especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them#a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt#i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time
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I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.
#im still early game but i like the play and the writing is passable#like#Theres a flatness#the characters Are distinct but theyre mostly just their jobs#with only a few who stand out and have like. something to really grab onto#Like rue? rues entire deal is little girl you can date. Nothing else behind those eyes. She has nothing better to talk to you about#than the fact her favorite color is red#Sorcelia? Sorcelia is a goth nun who loves singing and teaches one of the village children#Reynerd? sure is a guy#got nothing else to say about him. hes just a Guy™. Victor? Has ghost friends and loves bugs and cares deeply about the cemetery#he tends to. At the moment it feels like they're trying to imply there aren't actually ghosts. and hes just talking to himself/#insisting his imaginary friends are real people#and so far? The games been cool about it. Victor's a member of his community and his eccentricities are accepted and not ridiculed#all four characters ive mentioned are romance candidates. but its just as hit or miss with the regular towns folk#Opalheart is an older woman and a world renowned blacksmith who only takes jobs if they will do Good. regardless of whether or not they#pay well. She declines to make a dagger for a rich man but makes a helmet for a childs father bc the girl asked#and olive is here#anyways you can be best friends with a cat (shes just a regular cat) and i appreciate that#idk im putting it above sun haven in my ranking of life sim games#purely because there are older romance candidates.#no fat romance candidates. but sun haven doesn't have thise either.#and sdv has neither fat or old candidates Nor can you fuck a cat boy. it goes at the bottom.#gameplay wise sunhaven is at the bottom then sdv then potion permit at the top. sunhaven has the Most™ but having#a lot of crap doesn't mean its fun and it ends up making half the game feel really incomplete#idk. Sdv is a game you should've started playing a year ago. sun haven is a game that perpetually needs another year worth of updates#before id say its worth it bc the devs keep pushing content ™ updates instead of quality of life or polish so what is there is uh#Bad. plentiful. and a large portion is good#but a Lot is just bad.#its insincere and cant take itself seriously it gives you (the right dialogue option) an (the shit joke option) which is worse than just#i ram out of space. tldr. potion permit is good Now. sdv Was good. sun haven Might be great Eventually
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is this what addiction feels like
thank you so much for every single person out there who is just as mentally deranged as i am, i love you with all that is left of my heart 🫶🫶🫶❤️❤️❤️❤️
#1000 likes#tumblr milestone#tysm for the pretty people that liked my posts#tysm for that one woman that was my first follower even though she posted cooking recipes and cat videos in five different languages#(i hadn’t even posted anything)#uhm#tysm for ann that shows me support with each post i make no matter how stupid and lifts me up with her kickass talents and how i get a rush#of happiness each time i get a comment or message from her#tysm for wil (can i call you that?) that gave me the motivation to post in those first few days when he sent me the ask that gave me a#severe serotonin boost#tysm for james that could be quite literally the sweetest being alive#also tysm for jhonny you’re cool asf i want to study your brain and write a case study and publish it#and thank you so much to all my mutuals i might never say anything to you but i regularly check your posts and love y’all#also tysm to those that like my insanity fueled content (i do recognize your user every time you like one of my posts lol)#so uhm#thank you a lot for making my stay here wonderful#i hope it’s going to last a long time#you all just keep being awesome
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examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk
#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard*#I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details#of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point#but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag#of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there#are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance#but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly#doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. )#the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead#of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like#you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image#or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i#wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol)#hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe#I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing#that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc#eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that#this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently#wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj#Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU#CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN#MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie*#Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol#I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it#with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits#and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit#out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the#unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh#re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI#art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA
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some sketches
based on @theicarusconstellation's writing
I keep thinking of details I left out and stuff I need to fix but if I let myself do that I'm going to go insane so we're leaving it at this
Also some Sirius because they're a fucking king and we love them (I very strongly hc them as genderqueer and using any pronouns, but specifically he/they/she/it)
The dress was a bit of a failure but hey it looks like fabric at least I think maybe
#fanart#marauders era#fanart of fanfiction#Sirius#A form of jegulus#Not sure if reg being an animagus is widely accepted Canon but I fucking accept it it's mine now and i will die on this hill#I DO however know that Sirius is generally accepted to have tattoos but unfortunately I'm shit at coming up with tat designs#I don't think there's a generally accepted list of what tattoos they have but if there is I would love to hear it#If not ig I'll just make something up#She probably has like. At least one wolf and dog one somewhere#Then definitely canis major#Idk how sappy they are but I want them to be one of those people who gets their friend group to draw hearts or stars and gets those tattooe#Also skeleton designs v much. I want them to have a cat skeleton on their hip in that curling position#Like the floaty cat#Maybe with a moon or star in the center#No real reason I just think he'd look fuckin awesome with it#He also probably has a really cool stylized semicolon on his wrist#I can't give him a koi/sun one cause that's mine and it doesn't fit then anyways#But definitely the top piece is the full moon symbolizing Remus#The bottom idk about but like maybe a squished up dog? Not like disproportionate I'm sure I could figure something out#Honestly they probably also have tats for each of their friends#I'm thinking a stylized deer under a full moon with the rat on it's head#or just prongs and moony w/ little bro between them#Brainstorming idk#If u read all that congrats I don't know why or what you got from it#Welcome to the live stream of my consciousness (you're missing not strong enough fucking BLARING in the background of all my thoughts)
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💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 you know that post about creating community if that's what you crave?
I made an enormous pile of choc chip cookies and I batched it out for our upstairs and downstairs neighbours, my ma and my great-uncle across town, and my granddad's old pal and his family, and I just got done delivering them and I feel like 🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽
so alight and alive with it all!!!! I love people! I love them!!! I am so full of fruit and phone numbers I probably won't ever call!
Life can be so unbearably sweet ❤️
#I'm badly depressed so it was a rote mechanical baking exercise yesterday bc I've been meaning to bake sth as a housewarming present#for upstairs for like 2 years now. and they're always so nice to us. and they brought dates from the South with them this time#so I got to do it. finally. and their kid is a big k-pop stan so I got the 👀👀👀👀👀 stare from her but she's super sweet too#and I hope the next Korean she meets is more interesting/less of a fake lol#downstairs (young couple) was happy with me (I watched the cookies disappear in real-time)#my ma and I ate some at the old bazaar while cat-watching which 👌 and then my great-uncle actually finished his!#and then late this evening I went over to the H's who are so chummy and sweet and kept me for an hour#and I got to meet everyone after like 2 years of Mr H telling me his daughter and I would be BFFs#(she's really cool. a single mom working in mech eng? here? the coolest literally)#sooooo yeah that's more socialising than I've done in 2024 put together. and all of them are people I like and wanted to connect with!!!#and I got to do it! I got to talk to all of them and all of them were just so lovely#food continues to be my way of prying the door open and it has yet to fail me :D#I feel whole. Finally. I feel like I'm doing something worthwhile with my waking hours.#and all it took was 300g of butter and a slab of chocolate. I got to know so many neighbours. it filled a void I've been sick from.#.........:) yeah.#thought
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I'm still so mad that August Kitko was such a mid book and like I would go do far as to say maybe it was bad but it's likely it just wasn't for me.
And then I read Hell Followed With Us and realize hey now... there's a lot of similarities between these two books and wow i am enjoying this other book way more. I almost want to dig into that and figure out why. Can you ever dislike something so much you want to take a scalpel to it and dissect it to find the bloody heart? Yeah that's what I'm feeling with August Kitko... it kinda sucks but I need to know why it makes me so mad.
#cat rambles#both books are about queer people at the end of the world#both are written by trans authors and yet the queerness is handled so differently#i just.... hell followed with us manages to really get into the world building and it feels alive despite most of hunanity being dead#akatmfs just... it feels so surface level and the more i think about thst book the more pissed off i get#i really wanted to like it SO BADLY AND YET I AM JUST SEETHING#i did finish akatmfs and i was just disaappinted at the ending#there are moments in hell followed with us that made me shriek out loud like OH SHIT ya know???#i like it when authors do interesting things with their medium#andrew joseph white does that so well with the spirit bears its teeth and with hell followed with us#ann leckie also does this well just with how she writes the characters and differing perspectives#akatmfs just.... even with two main characters it just doesnt do anything interesting with that#LIKE FUCK okay#chapter 1 is from gus's pov which is good! then chapter 2 is all from ardent's persepctive iirc#thats cool!!! i like different povs but then it just starts changing pov in the middle of yhe chapter and that just.... okay i guess#i thought you were setting up this cool rhing IT COULD HAVE BEEN SO COOL#theres a part where gus gets kocked the fuck out#imagine if instead of having thet dull ass conversation with Infinite the chapter was just kike a single line of him passed out and then we#snap back to ardent#THAT WOULD BE THRILLING#THAT WOULD BE SUSPENSEFUL BC WE DONT KNOW WHATLL HAPPEN TO GUS#but no we get thus dumb ass concersation between gus and infinite that i just disnt care for#i read it all and god i just rolled my eyes becasue of course the book reveals the mystery of where the Vanguards cane from so fast#maybe i just gotta write an essay about this idk#i have thoughts
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My dog has been having senior moments, such as randomly forgetting what she's doing or trying to walk into a street, and I've been calling her "Mr. President" when it happens.
Like, "No, Mr. President, we can't walk into oncoming traffic. That's how we get killed!"
#it makes me sad that she's so old. and it's only in the past couple months that she's been doing this.#she's still overall very physically healthy. we go on walks almost every day and as long as she wants to.#and she eats well and takes vitamins and her teeth are kept clean and her claws trimmed and her coat clean#but she's slipping a little mentally#she's 11 which is old as hell for a dog her size. the vet said golden retriever mixes (which is what i assume she is) usually live to 10.#and she's not even started going white too much. just around her snoot and a little on her paws.#so when i take her in the vet always assumes she's like 6#but I've had this crusty old lady since shortly before i was even legally an adult#and I'm scared for when she does die because my other dog dying damn near made me commit suicide#and like I've said. I've had her a lot longer.#if she were a person she'd be going into middle school. like.#and she's had her share of weird health things. she's had a thyroid issue since she was 4. she has a weird skin condition.#she's had a couple surgeries and has scars from being attacked by random dogs (not my fault. she's well trained)#she's fallen a couple times recently but the vet says that's normal for her age#she went blind then wasn't blind and is going blind again#her hearing is starting to get shit too#I'm just so worried about her. this dog is a person to me. she's more real than my family in my mind.#and my cat is cool and all. but she's not a people. she's just a cat.#i guess the best i can hope for her is she lives the rest of her life comfortably and can die peacefully in her sleep#i think I'd completely come unglued from reality if i lost another dog to surprise everything cancer#but that's what I'm most scared of#because it came on so quickly and no one caught it despite me being that person who takes their dogs to the vet over a cough#she's sleeping right now and making goofy ass dog dream sounds. and i know i won't hear that any more sometime soon.#dog#old dog#senior dog#clio#joe biden mention
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i'm perusing court listings and the very first case i looked into is multimillion dollar fraud 😭 they can't all be this interesting surely
#i'm planning to catch some trials to see how they operate and to get a bit more of an idea about law#i've gone to the courts once before but it was unplanned i just rocked up and watched the last hour or so of the day#and it was just a bunch of admin really. smaller bits for smaller cases. and i was very tired#like a parking ticket and someone who avoided showing up at court a few times and a video call about getting rid of this old case#the video call was the most interesting bc unrelated to the case the guy was an international lawyer and private detective#and also a cat popped up on the screen and everyone was laughing silently apart from the judge who didn't notice lmao#that was interesting in its own way tho for sure. and the people i talked to were really nice!!#i talked to the security guard a little then asked a lawyer if i could sit in with her room and they both seemed kinda impressed with me#going into all that as a high school student yk 😼😼#like it's all PUBLIC it's cool so i'm gonna look into it as much as i can#and i'd be fine going to these all alone but i'll ask my classmate who i think is interested in law if she's interested in tagging along#there is a typo in the listing lmaoo
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love my own like theatrical relationship to shakespeare which is a) being so slow to realize like "oh, i've loved theatre? everyone doesn't just feel this way & go 'of course acting onstage would fucking kick ass' & adore rehearsals and hanging around backstage and in greenrooms and changing and performing & etc?' never really occurred to me" and b) my response to most encounters w/shakespeare being "wha" when it comes to anything granular yet the relevance still in the spirit of things lol
namely one prominent example being i was an on campus college student where said campus has a shakespearean theater literally three blocks away, and we had like a freshmen orientation weekly class there doing shit with actors and checking out the theater, not to mention like punchcards to see four shows free (to write up about afterwards but yeah sure whatever) and this wherein also you always got student discount tickets And there were pwyw performances....kicked ass. i went there for shows so many times. i have never fucking known what tf is going on in any of the like dozen shows i saw there when a) audio processing can be tricky enough for real life modern vernacular parsing and b) sure am not used to ye old very stylized language nor any other qualities of shakespearean material so lots of times when i finally started to kind of acclimate to the language it would be like "oh wait that was the conclusion? ok. hoorayyyyy" like also c) You Have A Great Time Seeing Shakespeare Productions Anyways like again i loved going anytime. it's Theatrical and if people are just putting their damn backs into delivering and performing the material it's An Experience even if you're really not following lmfao. and i suppose one can read the text / familiarize oneself beforehand
also like my first and really one of my only like regular theatre performing experiences was my literature class in fourth grade doing a few scenes from julius caesar. i was so hype for getting cassius like one of the most prominent roles? a guy? an antagonist if you're caesar or dante??? oh Fuck yes. b/c of technical difficulties we got to perform it twice in a row when we did a field trip to some other school to perform our respective [scenes from various shakespeare plays] altogether. even back then i was way into it and cared about stuff like "we have like no Effects to make it that dramatic when we kill caesar. or like, non silent. bit awkward" and "also i like, don't know how to act and am just winging it. and of course, i'm also like 9" like in theory i do like to know How to do something vs trying to make it up myself. somewhat lol. a balance, who can argue w/that
beyond that there's also lots of things i just didn't quite realize "counted" lmfao like, when you're a theatre gay with a parent req'ing you go to church every week but you have a good time being in the choir....i was sure on those tenor harmonies & singing loud. and going relatively often to various live theatrical events, having an engaging enough time there, but also would've assumed anyone would be into it And that that's not really the same as actually being in them, of course. but that most of my firsthand experience was just sticking w/ballet for like a decade, and kind of live theatrical performance adjacency there. don't say shit, for years was effectively just like, an ensemble for the occasional performances, but even then it's like hoorayyy i Love rehearsing and being onstage and backstage and dealing w/costumes and coordination behind the scenes and shit. and eventually being like, a distinct individual character in shows, so despite again nobody saying shit you're still somewhat interpreting and doing whatever character work while also enjoying the bennies of [it's dance, so also it's choreographed]....even more clear like oh i love backstage and rehearsing and behind the scenes and onstage and putting together stage character makeup, and i don't mind tackling technical difficulties, and etc etc. didn't even necessarily have the reference like, idk, wouldn't / doesn't everyone feel similarly. classic ye old memory of like being idfk 7 or some shit simply getting to walk with classmates behind a backdrop to the opposite wing of a stage, and loving that lmao. combines a love for [backstage] and [secret passages] type deal lol, big fan of these elements
also in 7th grade doing a theatre/drama class for a few months and we couldn't really get like all this in depth extensive stuff b/c you know, intro course for like 8 weeks for rando middle schoolers, but idk it was just illustrative lmao like after julius caesar, us slapping together some kind of script and my getting to be this fun little theatrical(tm) antagonist guy again? feedback was "what was supposed to be happening" but could've stood to have learned that the enthusiasm and affinity i felt for acting onstage was perhaps indicative of enthusiasm and affinity for acting onstage rather than just, idk, the exact kind of baseline experience any & everyone would have lol. not that i would've necessarily had the chance to really do anything with that knowledge, but even now, ofc i don't particularly anticipate getting to use it, but it's great having that knowledge like ohhh i see. the entire time i've been huge into doing theatre with all these kind of adjacent & gently overlapping brushes with it. gotcha
#an issue with Figuring Out What I Like or Trying New Things; a) having to be driven everywhere#b) just not safe to be open with ''this is something i like doing''#c) things being worse for like [i like doing this performance i don't like that parents are in the audience / involved]#didn't try out for anything in middle school b/c a) nervous. no experience; it's middle school. i don't have a great time w/Peers.#b) i'd have to let parents know i was doing that / they would then be involved; & see it....puts a real damper on things#didn't try out for anything in college b/c by then it's like. i Really have no experience lmao even if i could do this myself#kind of only deterred by my same age roommate being A Theatre Person with that prior experience lol....#but then Shakespeare Theater Company Proximity & Everyone Getting Introduced Via That Class / another kind of tangential theatre experience#hell yes....thank you for all that you did. dunno what's going on in there but you truly have a great time#even just Readings are fun but again people Gotta put their back into it or it does become like [zzz]#anyways and in this day and age....would still like to have actual acting instruction. all an abstract idea. but i for sure Like To Know.#the Ideas / Knowledge of oneself & like ''oh that's smthing i super like actually'' or what all i'd even theoretically like to do / have...#value in such things. i love to Know i think it would be cool to have like a buttonsy digital / calculator type wristwatch too. e.g.#and for real besides me talking about myself the advice is yeah go to a fun shakespeare production#''knowing what the hell is actually going on'' is Not a priority / requirement. it'll be an enjoyable experience still#oh and i did have an achievement in having A Fan once lol. when i started getting standalone roles vs [class ensemble in the back] at one#point i got to have a cats (jellicle) inspired like purple sparkly arms/legwarmered elaborate facemakeupped role; fun in & of itself#but whomsoever came to this little like middle/highschoolers community production included some absolute randos i encountered in the hall#after whatever show where this like 8 yr old kid's dad was like ''she's your (the role) biggest fan can we get a pic''#like Of Course....so i pose with said kid. hell yeah babey i'm An Actor with A Role lol....fr it was fun so#even illuminating to piece together my affinity / comfort for concepts & zones like things Behind The Scenes / hidden or secret / Nighttime#being backstage or behind the backdrop to get to another wing or hanging out in an effective greenroom w/amicable parties & our roles....#oh and that naturally the abstract concept of acting has just always seemed fun. and not like that strange or difficult#someone talking abt being autistic & learning like ''oh having friends Isn't supposed to feel like you have to constantly be performing?''#like yeah same up til recent history lmao like. lot of ways to simply already have a bit of organic training in acting lol#would still want some more actual training though lol like how do you do this shit Actually....got the essentials in fourth grade (be loud)#fr we didn't have mics of course so it was all just up to us to say our lines loud enough. couldn't actually hear other scenes [pensive]
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Have a feeling that, if more of you read Riders of the purple sage by Zane Grey, you’d be going mad over Lassiter
#the puns with his surname would be insufferable it sometimes sneaks up on me#i love him very dearly#both him and jane#Jane for being exactly who she is; stubborn kind welcoming and seemingly dumb but actually quite clever#she has a ranch all to herself#and for lassiter…… his name is Jim. I was not expecting that#secondly he’s from texas and now i had to figure out how texans speak.#this one also sneaks up on me because i did not earlier have a) a realisation that texan accent Does Exist so i remembered that’s a thing#too and b) i did not ususally connect texan accent with cool people (sorry but i only ever heard it once in a blue moon from tv)#anyway I love him very much because in the first chapters he comes all like “Yes. The Black cowboy it is me. I am very dangerous.#Jane I will protect you and your friend.” and then he does and#Jane later invites him for dinner and the man just… dissolves into a puddle with heart eyes on it like “oh i… really miss#it is a-a-alright; you don’t have to invite me for dinner [insert that emotional crying cat] Lassiter can survive just fine”#He’s twirling his hat all that time in his hands like a nervous teenager#I mean he comes there all strong and brooding and whenever Jane speaks he just. Melts. Babygirl really#he goes to retrieve Jane’s cattle he loses his horse in the process!!!#and he still stays! Even when Jane tries so hard to deter him from killing who he came to kill hes like “oh well. Guess I’ll stay here unti#you… change your mind” and Jane’s like “I will not change my mind”. And he goes#“Oh well ill stay anyway you need help managing a farm on your own” and he just stays to “help”#i could write paragraphs about Jane as well but this is a Lassiter appreciation post <3#book#books#it talks#tag edition#riders of the purple sage#zane grey
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Like I know we all love making ADHD seem cool but like, don't forget it's actually a disability? My ADHD is bad enough I've nearly been evicted for forgetting to mail the rent check to the property manager, I've forgotten to pay the utility bills and had my water or power get turned off or had to pay fines bcs I missed a credit card payment. Once I was supposed to cat sit for a friend and I lost the house key she gave me but didn't realize until she was already out of town, and she had to call the apartment office to get someone to give me the spare so her cats would have food for the week. When I'm unmedicated I can't even get myself to shower half the time, forget eating or cleaning. Before I started living with my fiance I'd just like, not eat for days because I didn't have anyone to remind me to eat or go buy me food. I've forgotten to turn the stove off so many times and ruined kettles and tbh been DAMN fucking lucky the house didn't burn down. I've done stupid, impulsive shit that's nearly gotten me KILLED. I can't remember to close the shower curtain reliably even through my fiance points out every single time I forget, and he's almost out of soap rn bcs for the last MONTH neither of us have been able to remember to order more once we get out of the shower.
I've had such bad memory my entire life that to this day someone suggesting I forgot something because I simply didn't care enough is a legitimate trigger that, in the worst cases, makes me have a breakdown.
I get that for some of you this is just something that makes studying hard or you forget to take a pee break when you're playing Minecraft or whatever, that's still a valid struggle and you do deserve help and understanding, but like, ADHD is a disability. It's disabling. It's not impossible to improve and learn coping skills, meds help a lot, there are great accommodations out there(LIKE CLEANING SERVICES), but not every case of ADHD is the same, and a lot of them are pretty ugly ngl, and just because you managed to do something doesn't mean someone else is gonna be able to manage it too, or that they're being lazy for struggling. And that obviously doesn't mean ADHD people have a free pass to never work on themselves and make everyone cater to their every need or whatever, but we do deserve some understanding when we explain that our disability is actually disabling in ways that aren't palatable to you. So like, idk, maybe don't immediately recoil in horror when you find out that someone with ADHD can't keep their house clean. And for fucks sake don't ridicule them for it.
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