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subbydream · 6 months ago

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Can a strong masc lesbian come help me move in to my new apartment pls 👉👈

I'll provide emotional support, snacks and kisses a plenty (and probably useless help trying to build the furniture)

Lesbianism alert: men and minors dni

#lesbian #i really just want masc lesbians so baaaad #wlw #i am actually not looking forward to building all these ikea things #too many books to pack up #and moving out of my room rn #sapphic #wlw yearning #masc lesbian #butch lesbian #butch #kaitalksgeneral

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brown-little-robin · 26 days ago

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I think I'm in the "conscious incompetence" stage of being a social animal in the real world and it sucks so majorly. bro what do you do after you realize you're bad at socializing and then in-person interaction gets harder because you know you're failing at it now.

#Robin processes emotions on main #I WANT to get good at socializing #I used to be better and I'm now worse >:[#in some ways. in some ways I've improved (e.g. am kinder). but I used to have more confidence and an easier time staying present #now I'm always shutting down and running away #literally I leave the room and go calm down in my room #I want to learn to regulate that impulse and become a chill person to hang out with. but How #I've been struggling lately with punishing myself for running away (not physically but with like. spirals of self-recrimination)#I think one good step would be to get mindful about praising myself for small steps again. I'll change faster if im kinder to myself #also I think seeking reassurance from the people I'm around more often even if it seems silly would be good #ALSO. a major problem I'm facing is that I am living with my parents. and my little sisters. and I don't... I... it's rough.#I used to parent my 15 (then 9) y/o little sister when my parents were gone and I still struggle with feeling Responsible For Her #so every time she's a little cringe I end up feeling like it's my fault and I'm gonna be punished for it and I don't know how to deal with #—how to deal with it #BIG SIGH #I'm TRYING to become a good adult who can help others rather than just living in desperate self-defensive survival mode forever #but it's so hard bro #and another issue is that I'm growing further and further apart from my parents' fundamentalist brand of Christianity #and feeling more and more incapable of making friends and bringing them to visit me. because I have to be perfect around my parents #how can I make friends if I can't offer them hospitality??#how can I be a fully realized adult if I have to hide in plain sight??#I need to move out so bad. even if I'm lonely at first I HAVE to move out #in related news my seasonal job is Over and I'm looking for full-time work! please pray for me if you're the praying type or just #send me encouraging words #that would help #<33333 I will be ok it's just a bad situation rn

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hiraethwrote · 2 months ago

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might end up homeless ✌🏻😗

#— yap central #so this is an exaggeration obvi…#the thing is my ex already bought a house #meaning if I choose to move out of this apartment #he has to cancel the contract by December first…#so like a week….#I have to find a place to live I can afford that allows pets within a week that is available from January first #the market is shit rn so that’s fun…#OR I could try and get someone to take the spare room here which is gonna be hard #what sucks the most is how little time I have to figure it all out #sooooo semi-hiatus????#because possibly homeless and broke?

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abigail · 2 months ago

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things i need to buy asap

bed frame

mattress

vibrator

#send me your recs. for whichever lol #but yeah i’m unable to move out rn so instead i am just moving into the dressing room which will become my bedroom so yay. but i need a bed

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thevoid-isthe-onlyone-ican-trust · 5 months ago

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Do you think my new roommate will think I am cool and popular? ʕ⁠～ꈍ⁠ᴥ⁠ꈍ⁠ʔ～｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+*⁠.⁠✧

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skunkes · 4 months ago

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not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.

anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.

like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.

I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.

this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it

#skunk mail #Anonymous #ill be in a car with my dad fighting tears thinking about how ill miss it one day and there's no way for my brain to capture the moment and #make a simulation of it. and even then that wouldnt help. ykwim #sometimes i sit in my parents room while my parents and brother are there and i cant stop thinking about when ill see them for the last tim #and how i wish i could full really truly wring every last drop of ''appreciation'' from the moment.#i think about that time isnt linear thing. how everything that has happened or will happen exists on its own #and i think about the cheye experiencing the After tragedy. and i cant handle it. not now or then. i envy the past cheye #even the one of 5 seconds ago. because that was 5 seconds ive lost. 5 seconds closer to events that will #separate my life into Before and After. over and over again #(like you said anon. i think abt that all the time too)#i think this is also why im struggling with the thought of moving out #we all have so little time. dont even get me started on the fear and grief i feel for my own life #not only fearing dying but fearing the lead up where ive lost and cried over much. just me. alone.#ill never see them again. it will never be today again. we'll never be in my parents room like today again. i cant take it.#even if i spend every last second with everybody i still wont be able to take it. i cant believe it #human beings that were all somebody's baby once. tomorrow it will be like they were never here at all. all their memories #go with them. it hurts so bad. i cant take it #i cant even breathe rn ruminating abt it *peace sign emoji*

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kyoshialone · 1 month ago

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tyyy beloved @ash-and-starlight for the tag here r some books im excited to read next year !!!

tagging (v optionally) @wakingstone @jumping-jackalope @legofbicuriosity @lesbianboyfriend 👉🏻👈🏻👀

#rn i’m most excited abt the sophie lewis #3rd in line on libby 😤#ash i’m 🤝🤝 abt priory ppl keep reccing it to me for so long now. something about lesbians? anyway 🫡#alsoooo putting baru on here as a contract bc i rlly have been meaning to read it since we talked abt it!! [redacted amount of time] ago 😭#a bunch of these i uncovered when sorting/moving stuff out of my room n remembered they existed #you exist too much and freshwater and the rilke mainly #tryinggg to read more physical books again #also imagine all of the locked tomb series is here i just couldn’t fit em all #but feel like that’s my duty as a lesbian asw 🫡🫡🫡#exit west i’ve heard is v cool #histories of the transgender child i’ve had on my list since i read excerpts a whileee ago #and decolonizing methodologies i saw in the reviews for braiding sweetgrass which was v good #anywayyy hehe feel free to drop more recs !!#i like that we’re all like. this is my tbr for 2025. dont worry abt the book(s) that were on my tbr for 2024. or 2023. or-

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dinoswordsb · 12 days ago

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Ok peace for a few days everyone buh bye!

#im in the home stretch of college and dared to think about transitioning when i get to move out and it made me like so happy i cojld #cry just imagining it n it felt the most achievable it ever had. poof! all gone. i sincerely am feeling very paranoid so im logging off #social media for a few days bc my entire dash and fyp is just how scary everything is #and kind of making ms want to put a gun in my mouth im not gonna but it feels really fucking bad rn. well make jt though we have before we #will again. i just hate having to see that mans face on every tv screen outside my own room in this fucking house bc my parents are neck #deep in this bullshit. ok. thats my vent byebye.#delete later #hal hour #ive been typing on an anon asking about my poem i will finisb and post it as well

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ectonurites · 1 year ago

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teaching myself how to do a rubiks cube purely because a character i like had a sticker of a rubiks cube in his room

#my mom got me a set of 'em for christmas bc. i'd asked for them bc of seeing the sticker in josh's room sdgfhg #(something i noticed while i was cataloguing shit in his room. i've got spreadsheets for both him and zach in progress rn. i just like #those kinds of character details that come out in 'what does this dude keep in his room?' hehe)#got the 2x2 all memorized now. today's task is learning the 3x3. i just did it once but was following a guide very closely #need to actually memorize the moves now #grandpa max is god? i go to church now

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seventh-district · 1 month ago

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw negative #cw health issues #‘You’re such a heartless and hateful person.’ well have you ever considered that i’m not really a hateful person and i just hate You #like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so you’ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want #‘That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.’ MF that was made TODAY. IT’S FRESH AND THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT #if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it #dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache #i feel sick too but i know it’s my fault so i’m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting #food. because you act like you’re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and that’s why I feel sick #but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so we’re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when it’s my fault #everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and that’s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasn’t enough #for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so i’ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dog’s teeth need #cleaning too and that’ll come out of my pocket and i guess that’s My fault for not taking care of him either #i think i have another goddamn UTI and that’s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i can’t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess that’s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position #my eye keeps twitching and i guess that’s my fault too. i don’t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired #god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if they’re packed in a way that shows what’s inside then i’ll have to explain #That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night #the living room floor is caving in so now there’s Two room’s floors that need fixing so that’s super fucking fun! 😃#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis #well i don’t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that i’ll go to all this trouble and they’ll say i don’t qualify #and god it’s NYE now. Besties i’m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just can’t make myself write these days. i’m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now i’ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but #there’s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what i’m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.

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bee-can-art · 1 year ago

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There's nothing like spending your Friday night trying to make sense of the What We Do In The Shadows house floorplan/layout

#sitting on call with my friends rn and going through random episodes #trying to figure out which rooms are where #it took us WAY too long to confirm the location of The Fancy Room #but now I know where the music room and bathroom are #HOWEVER #this also means that I notice inconsistencies in the ways that characters move around the house #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #text post

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ayyponine · 7 months ago

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not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....

#mom wanted to rewatch the movies so we've been going thru them <3 #talk about a movie thats just like. grief. i turn into the jamie lee curtis halloween trauma supercut #SORRY..... the visuals are peak like that IS the hp vibe to ME and i am BLOWN AWAY this movie was made in 2004 it feels ahead of its time #the first two are so whimsical and magical enrapturing and this movie is like. a well worn cardigan. this feels 2011 cozycore to me #sorry but the introduction of lupin becoming a comforting trusted guardian type of figure AND the dementors representing hollow depression #this 13 yr old whos been kept in the dark on so many things being extra vulnerable prey to them bc of the severe trauma #but getting lessons on how to withstand that creeping dread.. through happy memories... still bonding w lupin increasngly ouagh...#the grief between them both over james and lily. also btw ofc defense against the dark arts being fighting yr fears through laughter. aaaaaa #and then sirius. black. im. i know we meme on the twelve years of it! in azkaban! but as a bitch whos now closer to those characters in age #and can appreciate and understand them obv more than i could when i was. a tween. that just hits like ok shit. VALID #so valid and real to see the child of your friends you knew at that age but who DIED and then see the friend who betrayed them #to see like the best of BOTH of them mirrored and living on in him and be like yknow what???? you WILL be protected frm that same fate #hoooo the briefest moment where harry might hope things will turn out okay. w sirius' name being cleared and peter having to explain himself #and sirius being like hey i get it if you want to stay w your family that is fine but. if you wanna move in w me...#(harry relaying this to hermione later as well. dreaming of a place fr just the two of them somewhere in the countryside #somewhere..... sirius might see the sky..... bc he thinks he would like that after all those years locked up do not even touch me rn.......)#only fr everything to turn to shit two friends fighting w deadly force. the chance to set this right slipping off into the night.#a million dementors descending relentlessly until utter exhaustion and certain death. some strange salvation? fight for a second chance?#but then still havign to say goodbye when they only just GOT this. and everything still being so. god. and lupin having to leave as well.#the thought of sirius also WANTING that guardian type connection but being forced to live in 1. a cave barely living more freely than before #2. then being confined to the stuffy somber abusive home he ran away from as a teen w that portrait still up there and everything.. bitch...#oh man the way i KNOW when we get to ootp (my favourite) its gonna leave me blasted into a million little pieces #the way i know shit like the knowing wink the entirety of the wall tapestry room scene and of course nice one james is gonna DESTROY me..#dont even talk to me abt that dark turn at the end of gof and how everything after gets soooo. god. w everything just getting destroyed and.#i cant even think abt it i cant even talk about it. wah #i dont care btw that they aged those guys up undermining how insanely young these people died. perfect casting fr the remaining marauders ok

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violentviolette · 2 months ago

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worst thing ever is when my room is messy so its giving me anxiety and i cant get anything done but also i cant clean the room because im so anxious and cant get anything done. so i just sit in moderate discomfort and distress for 2+ weeks trying to fight the sisyphean task of tidying up my desk

#jack.speaks #i am chipping away at it little by little and today i am absolutely tackling the desk and the laundry #but im gonna be mad and complain about it the whole time #why does my brain do nothing but get caught in cyclical traps #really the problem is that ive identified where the problem area thats spilling out into the whole room is #but tackling that means rearanging some stuff and moving things out of the room and finding somewhere for them to go #but thats so much effort and so many spoons #and potentially requires cleaning the spare bedroom first #but i dont have the energy to clean the spare bedroom because my room is still a mess #do u see where i am trapped in the wheel of samsara rn

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mer-se · 3 months ago

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