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Health/Status Bar: This could be useful, but I can already tell when I'm sick. I already know I have chronic conditions that lower my HP? It's useful that it tells me exactly what the condition is and stuff, but I don't think it would be that life-changing. Also, how is it quantifying my health into a single number? I feel like that would require changing how my health works, too.
Quest Menu: Where is the information coming from? Life doesn't have things that objectively needs to be done. There's things that people think should or need to be done, things society demands of me, things that are important for my health based on our current understanding of how to stay healthy, etc. So, is it just some invisible sentient being who is telling me what it thinks I should do? I already get that enough from my mom.
Checkpoint: Only having a single checkpoint is just extremely limiting. I can only do that once, and then I no longer have any powers. I'd either use it and then regret it forever or never use it and then it was useless.
Inventory Slots: Definitely really useful, even if I don't think it would come up that often in my life since I can't go outside. There's definitely times it would be fantastic.
Damage Resistance: I can't think of this being that useful unless something unlucky happens to be.
Rapid Cooking/Eating: I don't think this would help me with difficulties eating at all since I still need the food around, and I can always eat snacks if I have that around.
Skip Cutscene: Depending on what counts as a cutscene, I figure cooking would be included. So, it's just a better version of that ability. It would help a lot with showering, brushing teeth, cleaning, etc.
Fast Travel: Very useful but pretty limited. I would get so stressed about moving markers because it's so hard to go outside, let alone far away places. Since I would have to travel all the way back to the far away place to put the marker back if I moved it. I think this is still extremely useful regardless.
Double Jump: Literally not useful for me.
I'm not sure the scope of powers I could choose, but a video game time control ability that lets me stop time, at least, would be pretty ideal. Maybe infinite quicksave and quickload (that automatically loads if I die), assuming I could delete all my quicksaves if I didn't want a backup at some point.
*Just you/the person answering this poll, not the entirety of humanity
Health bar: Shows how much “hp” you have, compared to you at maximum health. Lower hp=closer to death. Has a list of temporary ailments (diseases, injuries etc) affecting you, how much damage they deal, and how long it lasts before going away. If you have a chronic condition that affects your health/will stay with you most/all of your life, max hp (compared to current hp) is reduced. Also shows a stamina bar as well
Quest menu: Guides you on how to do things, from lifechanging achievements to everyday activities. Detailed step-by-step instructions, accurately prioritized, and a “hint menu” in case you get stuck
Checkpoint: From here on out, you can set one “point” (a specific date, time, and location- you must be at that point when you set it) that you revert to when you die, retaining the exact state you were at but with the addition of knowledge that you have at time of death. Once you set the
point you cannot change it, and you must revert there when you die. An extra life, essentially
Inventory Slots: You can store items (you must be able to physically hold them/carry them with ease) in a pocket dimension, and take them out/put them back at any time. Space is limited but is based on diversity of items vs number of items. Carrying bags, purses etc increase how many inventory slots you have
Damage Resistance: A single strike from a sword won’t kill you, tripping and falling won’t send you to a hospital, what would instantly kill the average person would typically just be an inconvenience to you. (You are not immortal, you just now have Video Game Logic ™ applied)
Rapid cooking/eating: You need a method of cooking and the required ingredients, but for some foods you can cook them instantly (it is still perfectly cooked and safe to eat) and you can instantly eat things (you can’t sense the texture/flavor, you still get nutritional benefits/detriments, foods eaten in this manner cannot harm you from overeating (but you are still restricted from eating further/you have a sense of fullness))
Skip Cutscene: If you have had the same conversation multiple times, or have a task that you do repetitively, you can skip it once a day
Fast Travel: In addition to the location where you wake up (if your sleep schedule is irregular, the location where you are at during midnight), you can select three other locations to teleport to. You can teleport three times a day. You can move around your teleport markers, but you have to physically go there to access them/move them
Double Jump: Self explanatory, you can jump twice, with slightly less height but half the stamina used as your regular jumping ability, and timing your second jump properly can significantly reduce the damage taken from high falls
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Alright everyone shut up because I got the dumbest danny phantom fanfic idea and I need someone, or a few someone's, to either encourage or discourage my insanity!
Basically; Danny needs some extra credit in Lancer's class, and Lancer, who does want Danny to succeed, comes up with a suggestion. The school is doing a musical and Lancer wants Danny to audition, he doesn't have to win the audition, he just has to try out and Lancer will give him some extra credit. Danny doesn't really wanna do but he really really needs that extra credit so; sjsoyheksgd fine, he'll do it. It's only going to be the drama kids, who are actually super encouraging, during the auditions, maybe a few of their friends, and the teachers. It'll be fine...
Thing is, Dash Overheard, and smelling a chance to make fun of Danny, he talks the other A-Listers into sitting in on auditions so they can film what is sure to be an utter train wreck.
We get to the day, Danny is super nervous and annoyed the A-Listers are there, but he's already on stage so Ghost Darn It, he has no other choice. So, he sings. And he's good?!
Like he's not overnight popstar good but for a 15 year old with no training and only a week or so to practice, he's pretty good. And he also kinda, had fun doing it. Like he knows he can't commit to the actual musical, what with the ghost buisness, but he did kinda have fun and it's the most stress free he's had in a while so it was cool experience.
Now, I'm just not sure what song he should use for the audition. If I wanted to with angst/mild serious I feel like Michael in the Bathroom or Waving Through the Window would fit Danny painfully well. But~ as for going full crack; then Play Rehearsal for Danny alone, but Danny could also rope Tucker and Sam into helping him and they do either: Candy Store, Sincerely Me, or Two Player Game.
#danny phantom fanfiction#i thought about Blue as an option but figured that was just a bit too far and Lancer would immediately shut it down#honestly though theater kid danny feels so right for somereason#danny phantom
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I would so love to read fics from you exploring Carlos as a parent! There's so much to unpack with the very rapid journey Carlos has gone on to become a father, plus the realities of his situation - he has to balance a very stressful job, where he sees some awful things, with fatherhood, and TK spends more time with Jonah and has a blood relationship with him that Carlos doesn't have.
And Jonah is wonderful and adorable, but being a parent is HARD! And he probably has some trauma from all that's happened to him that TK and Carlos will need to help him deal with.
omg this is very sweet, thank you! i completely agree, everything happened so fast (even with the five month timeskip, it feels like so much to go through in such a short time), and like you said, carlos would be balancing his job and fatherhood in a way that would definitely be a huge adjustment.
and what you said about tk's relationship with jonah versus carlos's is such a good point, because the truth is there is really no difference, and carlos is in no way any lesser because he's not blood-related to jonah, but i can definitely see him worrying about whether they'll be able to connect. whether jonah will like him, whether he'll handle him well, etc. those irrational worries that feel way bigger than they ever really are but send you spiraling anyway, kind of thing
and yes!! parenthood is so hard especially because jonah's already been through so much. i'm sure there are pros and cons of skipping the infant years and going straight to having a toddler that i'm not well-versed in but overall it would be such a massive adjustment. i can't remember how old jonah was when gwyn died and maybe he doesn't remember that but he definitely would struggle a lot with his dad just being.... gone, only able to visit infrequently. that's so confusing for a 3 year old. them having to explain why he can't see his dad whenever he wants like he used to be able to would be a lot, for sure.
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Your past with Ellie
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Mention of: weed,cigarette,alcohol,curse words
So what do you say?
Maybe it turns out good hm? Ever thought of that? Dina moves closer to you,caressing your back as a way of comfort
You just humm as you think about it. Turns out good? How could this turn out good? How could partying without your girlfriend(you hope she is still your girlfriend......(awkward)) turn out good?
I don't have nothing to wear to this club. You shrug ur shoulders How baaaad I have to skip this one. You say sarcasticly rolling your eyes
Oooohh nononono. I can help with that sweets no worries. C'mon let's see what we got to work with.
Well I still don't have any money with me-
Don't you worry about that we got that covered up already
Bot Dina and Jesse nod at that
Well...looks like you got no other choice. But why would you be really the one who drowns in depression? You were the one who was cold to the other? Who lied? Fuck no you weren't. So fuck this. One night can't hurt right?
After hours of searchin',the dress u and Dina choose was.. brave. Tummy,chest,hips,shoulders exposed. The dress barely covered ur cheeks down there. Ur hair and makeup was done already.
Ready to go? Abby couldn't make it because her father got really sick and she takes care of him. But she wishes she was here. And Jesse is almost in the club.
You looked into the mirror one more time. And you liked what u saw. Yeah,the dress was brave. But. We live once right?
You and Dina entered the club. The "fine ass music" as Abby said. Wasn't that nice. But it wasn't soo bad. It was bearable.
You saw jesse at the counter. He just rolled down a shot. But he looked stressed? And than Jesse saw Dina first. And than u. His face..screamed panick. What the fuck?
Jesse quickly walked towards you to.
Uuhhhh.. well this club sucks isn't it? We.. We should find another one! Yeah! Yeah yeah yeah another is a good idea. Iiii know just one right down the corner a few block away that one is way better than this shithole. He said panickly. He's whole body screamed that he is lying straight up.
Dina grabbed Jesse by the arm and pulled him away.
Okay what the fuck is wrong with these?
You sighed a bit because you didn't plan to be alone. But here we are.
You made your way to the counter and asked for a shot. That should help to ease ur nerves.
You looked back to Dina and Jesse. And she looked really pissed at something that Jesse said. You shooked ur head. And made ur way to the dance floor. To ease ur mind from everything that happened. To finally try to relax a bit.
But as u finally relaxed to the music and dance to the music somebody touched ur shoulder.
Oooohh hell no your not here for that. You quickly looked back at the man who was still touching ur shoulder.
Hey. You seem kinda stressed doll.
Uhh thanks I'm good. U said as u pushed his hands off of you.
Do you wanna smoke some weed? Not with me though don't look at me like that but you can buy some right there. He said nodding in one of the rooms way.
Well you were here to relax and forget everything right? And u have just enough money to buy one. You nodded to the guy and he showed you the way.
He opened the door for u. You walked in not even glancing up at what room are you even in searching ur little bag for ur wallet.
Hello. You greeted anyone who was in the room. Well u suppose someone must be in the room bc u are still searching for that damn fucking wallett. Where even is it? You remember u put ur wallet in there.
Searching for something?
Ooohh hell no this can't be happening right now you said to yourself. There's no fucking way-
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Oh you got that right. 🥲 It was a bit stressful, and though I didn't want to admit it, a bit scary too. But I made it out of the procedure with flying colors and am already on the mend! (Yep been dealing with this medical issue since May of last year, but I so appreciate you for those well wishes 💓💓💓)
ahaha your question did not seem like a request, no worries!! I just decided the HC format was the best way to "answer" your question, so why not! For you, I didn't mind one bit. 😘
On this I love getting your insights as a barista -- with Dean I sense a coffee chop au a' brewin'. 😝 And a cookie butter latte sounds amaaaazing! 🤤 (Oh I miss Beau too!! I appreciate you in advance for the reread on TMH. I wanna get back into writing those two 💞)
"what the fuck is oat milk" lmfaoooo 😭 that is probably what he'd say though 🤣 (also i feel like you would not be able to explain that oat milk makes the drink creamier because that man would have an array of jokes to make 💀) but cold brew would be a great choice for him! especially with the higher caffeine percentage lol.
lmfaoo yeah there's no way you're gonna be able to explain that creamy ratio to Benny boy, unless you want a host of disgusting ad libs to go with it. 🤣
also fun fact, i actually do have a regular customer named russell who orders a flat white 🤣 except he gets his with a lot of white chocolate. like a lotttttttt, it concerns me a bit but i'm just there to make the drinks loll
Omg really?! That's too funny loll. Maybe if he's cute you can slip your number in along with that extra white chocolate. 😏
you are the absolute sweetest alex!!💗💗 i started out my day by waiting outside of work for forty minutes in the cold rain because my supervisor was late, and it had only gone downhill from there. but this? not only did it cheer me up but it truly warmed my heart <3 sorry to get sappy on the timeline lol, but you genuinely put in so much thought and effort in your responses, even to all my silly little questions :') i appreciate you very much friend <3 and i'm glad it was a fun question! i was worried it wouldn't make much sense, i was rushing to type it out on my lunch break 😭
Ughh omg that sucks!! I'm so glad this little batch of HCs could turn your day around, hun. Seeing you pop up in my inbox gave me something to take my mind off just laying in my bed all day, so thank you! 💗 I don't like to do things half-heartedly, so if an idea hooks me, I want to give it my full attention.
And it made perfect sense! It's fun to imagine these guys doing domestic everyday things like what they'd order for their coffee fix. Thank you again btw for having Midnight Espresso in mind!! There's a reason why an espresso mug is now part of my blog banner. 😘☕
hiiii, i hope your friday is going well lovely 💞💞 :) how has your week been?💕
i’m currently stuck at work and it’s beeeeeen quite the day already, but you always cheer me up so i have a random question :p
i’m thinking about the scene when dean tried cafe con leche in the midnight espresso-verse (also i’m a barista loll🥲), and he was pleasantly surprised, so it has me wondering;
if they were to get something besides plain coffee, what do you think dean/ben/beau/russell would like to drink if they ordered at a coffee shop?
i always love to hear any and all your thoughts 🙂↕️🤍
Hello my lovely! 💞💞 I actually am in recovery this week after having a surgical procedure yesterday, so I'm finally getting a chance to catch up on my TBR reading and the shows I've had on my watchlist. 🤪
Ooh introducing Dean to Cuban espresso was the scene that inspired that whole fic of Midnight Espresso, and ultimately turned it into a whole series of Dean x plus-sized Latina fun!! lol
This is such a fun question though!! You as a barista probably know way more about coffee than I do, but here's my take on these guys' orders...
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HEADCANON: What Dean Winchester, Beau Arlen, Soldier Boy (Ben), and Russell Shaw would order at a coffee shop. ☕
Dean Winchester
Why, an espresso of course! 🤎
Cram that little cup full of sugar, and you've got Dean hooked on a heavy-hitter fix that'll keep him up during long research sessions. (It also gives you the opportunity to distract him from said research, give him a taste of another steamy fix. 😘❤️🔥)
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Ooh I feel like he'd protest at first and claim to solely drink Americanos, but he's a basic latte guy.
Hit him with some caramel or hazelnut, and he's happy. But you could also hook him into being a little adventurous with a pistachio or "brown sugar" latte lol. Like most things, Beau is willing to try almost anything once. 😉
Soldier Boy (Ben)
So he's definitely going to be thrown by all the modern selections of coffee. (i.e. "What the fuck is oatmilk?") And how the hell can you get milk out of cashews and almonds?
All the health crazes, "drip" coffee, and milk alternatives are definitely going over his head, or he's mocking them. ("Save that pussy drink for Hughie." 💀)
But one thing he might go for, other than a black coffee, is a nice cold brew, hold off on too much foam -- can't be getting the milkstache, now can he? But he'll like it even better if you make it "Irish." 💚
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Last but certainly not least, we have Russell! I don't think he's picky about his coffee, considering he probably drinks a lot of free motel coffee. lol
But! I think he'd appreciate a nice flat white at a proper café. It's more robust than a normal cappuccino and less milk, so he'd argue that he's getting more "bang for his buck." 😂
AN: @wvffles Hope you liked this little headcanon, friend, and that it cheers you up! I LOVE me some coffee, so this question with the guys was really fun to contemplate. 😘☕
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I might skin someone alive.
#whatever STUPID fucking admissions person 'helped' me with signing up for classes is a fucking MORON#not only did they not explain jack SHIT#THEY DIDNT ASK ME ANYTHING THAT- OH I DONT KNOW- MIGHTVE HELPED THEM *NOT* FUCK ME OVER??#I mean I get that I'm going to community college#but you could've at least CHECKED to make sure I didn't have any college credit that would transfer over#or at the VERY LEAST#you could've showed me how to check if I had anything that might- oh I don't know FILL A CREDIT REQUIREMENT??#OR YOU KNOW#FUCKING FOUR#BECAUSE ITS AT LEAST FOUR#FUCK#I am#livid.#and maybe it's just because I'm already stressed#BUT I WOULDNT HAVE TO BE BECAUSE I WOULDNT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT A CLASS THAT THERES NO REASON FOR ME TO BE TAKING#BECAUSE IVE ALRWADY FILLED THAT CREDIT CATEGORY REQUIREMENT#VECAUSE YOURE TOO FUCKING STUPID TO CHECK THE COURSWA IVE TAKEN#AND UNDERSTAND THAT NOT ONLY HAVE I FILLED THAT REQUIREMENT#IVE FILLED IT TWO FUCKING TIMES OVER#G O D#heads will roll.#bread HATES college now I guess#bread hates school#vent#<- just in case
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[ * hey hello quick announcement I vibe with proshippers now (I have sorta nuanced views but I'm closer to being proship and I'm comfy hanging out with them so. If you don't vibe with that there's the three dots in the top right corner of this post, click that and it should give you the option to block me) ]
Edit 2: [ * HEY WHY DO I HAVE MORE FOLLOWERS NOW. THAT AIN'T RIGHT. THAT DOESN'T ADD UP. WHAT'S UP WITH THAT. I THOUGHT MORE PEOPLE WOULD UNFOLLOW AND MAYBE BLOCK. ]
#cw shipcourse#tw shipcourse#<- [ * just in case ]#[ * I won't be posting any darkships on this blog though so dw this blog is going to be squeaky clean of that ]#[ * though tbh i already don't really post any shipping at all (minus tsn) LMAO i just draw Ink being a silly awesome guy ]#[ * this will stay on pinned for maybe a couple of days ]#[ * rude asks will get blocked. no hesitation ]#[ * just REALLY needed to get this off my chest because keeping this hidden (i didn't have a support network specifically for this but now#do) has torn my mental health to shreds like. i had to pull the vent animation card kinda shreds. ]#[ * i won't be posting about shipcourse either . stresses me out ]#[ * anygays. back to our regular schedule of cool Ink arts ]#edit: [ * I MEANT WEEKS I'M KEEPING THIS PINNED FOR AT LEAST A WEEK ]#edit 2: [ * There's a few recent ones which do have proship dni which... man... how do i tell you this... ]#[ * i avoid interacting with them though but since this is kinda a bit of a Situation ig I'm giving them the option of whether to block me-#or not ]#[ * because again no darkships on this blog ]#[ * anyway yapfest over ]#[ * yet ANOTHER edit: i am in fact a darkship enjoyer but. again I don't post that stuff here !!!!!!!!! ]#[ * just wanted to clear that up if that somehow modifies things ]
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Australian Rituals / Teeth of God Tour Bingo
Alroighte gwois, let's hear your predictions for the upcoming rituals. I *might* make another bingo (like on Wembley) - even if I don't, let's get them all in one place cus I think it's funny.
If you have something specifically for the Teeth of God Tour (because they are headliners and can do Cooler™ Fancier™ stuff) do specify. Same for strictly Australian Rituals. Some stuff may happen earlier (like when they debuted TMBTE and the new Espera masks), others may only happen on the Tour, so let's just put them all here and see what happens 😗✌️
Please reblog/put on the replies your predictions!! Whether serious or silly, please share!
Mine are:
One of the Vessels (Vessel or ivy OR Espera!!!!) singing onstage with Oli
Kangaroo/koala headbands / Aussie Explorer hat
EUCLID (more for Teeth of God but wouldn't be surprised if earlier)
The Apparition (PLEASE)
The Summoning pushups will return
Older song throwback (please please Sugar or Jaws. TNDNBTG for ToG)
Outfit change for the Vessels (only cus i think Australia is quite hot now innit? poor iv will MELT in that jacket)
NEW VESSEL JEWELLERY
This one I'm not super confident/keen on BUT new Vessel mask with Antlers (more likely on ToG but who knows)
#I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE RITUALS AAAAAAA IT'S RIDICULOUS#i kinda hate that because of timezones they will be playing during the day (for me) rather than later at night but!!#it means we can at least gather round in the evening and react together#cus lord knows how many full nights of sleep i sacrificed during the US rituals#actually yeah now that i think about it it *IS* better this way#ignore my earlier tag then i am thinking out loud#i need at least one picture of the crew with koalas. Just one#i know the girlies are there already so i'm assuming they are ALL there#(one of the Esperas posted on her stories. calm down guys i am not doxing anyone)#do you think they are doing fun Aussie stuff 🥺 trying vegemite and milo and petting koalas and fighting roos 🥺🥺#wait but Adam is not there yet. maybe her photo is from last year. or maybe they're all arriving at different times idk#i just hope they are not stressing too much and are having fun and healthy 👍#i will get SO emotional hearing Vessel fully recovered on stage again 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#ANYWAYS I RAMBLED TOO MUCH OMG SORREH#if you reached this have a little snack for your troubles �� 🍊🧃🍬#sleep token#sleep token teeth of god tour
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recent things and such~
#photo diary#image 1 - kind of interesting lacy looking clouds. Image 2 - pinky purple sunset stuff#image 3 - These REALLY cool flowers I saw in a field ? growing wild so like.. weeds I guess. but I like the color of them and how the#petals are small and layered. Image 4 & 5 - More recent hair growth progress. I still think it will never get much longer because#it's been basically the same lenght for multiple years now BUT I do feel like maybe it's getting like... just the tiniest bit longer?? Just#not as obvious of progress as the first few years. Like now if I take it out of the braids and actually hold it so it goes straight down th#very tips of the hair on one side goes down to the tip of my pointer finger. and on the other side goes a little past my thumb. and I#remember maybe last year or two years ago it was only to my knuckles or like midway down my thumb. so.. perhaps it's not reached a#maximum genetic possible length just YET as I'd thought it had maybe lol.. perhaps I could slowly gain a cenitmeter or two#here and there gjbjh.. Unfortunately incredibly doubtful it will ever be down to my knees though as I had wished. oh well.#image 6 - writing again... as always... Slowly chipping away... And looking for ways to make it go faster lol. The original premise was 8#main characters with 6 quests for each. Then it was 5 with 6 quests. Now it's 4 with 4 quests each. And even that I'm like hmm... what#about having only 3... so it could be done faster... lol.. I think mostly just because I have no gaurantee of investment. So it's like#I could spend years and years doing 500.000+ words of writing and then have about 3 people total actually play the game and nobody cares#and nothing ever comes of it. You know? So I have to balance that somehow. And rather that put out the 100% complete version#be putting out like 'here's ENOUGH of it for you to see what the concept is and what it's like. and IF theres any investment then I#can put in the effort to finish the few bits that I left in more of a preview form'' type of thing. And then it's like.. well if I'm#limiting the initial scope anyway - how much is enough to cut away? and how much would be TOO much? etc. etc. I'm pretty sure I#already have it down to a balanced minimum but some days when I'm very stressed over my ability to actually finish anything I'm like..#ehhhh..maybe I could make another main character into a side character.. as a treat lol..#image 7 - cabbage noodle beef stir fry sort of thing. As usual I kind of cook the beef too long because I'm afraid of getting sick if it's#underdone despite preferring medium rare steak lol.. Funnily because usually making something at home has the advantage of you#being able to do it Exactly The Way You Like It whereas me cooking meat is often like.. ah yes.. the worse way that I dont even like. love#to make a tough chewy anxiously overcooked protein puck for myself. :3 Images 8 - 10 -- various plants from the deck. though#some of these pictures are old and they're no longer alive lol.. Most of my plants actually do live through the winter because I#painstakingly move them inside and outside and inside and outside depending on the temperatures. But sometimes.. one cannot#help but be lost. Especially the temperature change sometimes can make them more prone to mold and stuff. and humidity is#hard to control indoors. There's always one or two that deteriorate despite my best efforts. But that's better than every single one of the#dying because they alll freeze when it gets to 20F one night and I left them outside or something lol#ANYWAY.. hrm.. still working on friend quiz thing... and sculptures.. and videos maybe?? costumes... rghhhghhrrr.. (< to do list angst)
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if one more person tries to talk to me about college, i swear on everything i love, i will explode
#“so what colleges are you thinking of applyi-” SHUT THE FUCK UP#DAMN#like dude#i get so stressed about college and im signed up for way too much shit that im not even interested in because it looks good on college apps#*cough cough* debate.... *cough cough*#like at this point it's like my life isn't even about finding the stuff that i enjoy and the community i want to surround myself with#it's all college college college#everything is about fucking college#and yk maybe if college was a little less “eternal debt unless you get a crazy good scholarship that's only given to 6.0 valedictorians”#and a little more like the AUs then maybe i'd actually want to go to college lmao#but at this rate#it's not even something i want to do#i'm just setting my life up for it because like what the fuck else am i supposed to do??#skilled trade seems nice but i dunno#like ugh#any time i consider a program or anything that demands my time the one thing at the forefront of my mind is#whether it looks good on a resume or college application#and lowkey#i do it so often that i didn't even realize i did it until i was chatting with this one guy at the bus stop and he was talking abt this one#rlly good internship offer#and i said smth along the lines of “i'm sure that looks really good on college applications” for like the third time that conversation#and he responded saying smth along the lines of how#college applications shouldn't be the main reason u choose to put ur time into something#and internally i was just kinda like “oh yeah...”#i have so much to say about this fucking fuckass topic but this is already turning into too much of a vent#my posts#cw vent
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well boss said reese has no indication of any uti or crystals only a tiny amount of red blood cells which can be caused by the manual expression. coworker insisted there was no point in taking rads to see if he's blocked from the string so going to try some laxaire and hope 😬🤞🏻also then my boss gave me a ride to the bus stop so i didn't have to carry the huge crate which was uncharacteristically nice of him 🤨
#already plotting in my head how trying to get him into emergency surgery on the weekend would go and its not great#on account of the fact that i simply do not have enough thousands of dollars for the er proper. or a way to get there but i could probably#figure that one out but not so much the money#he had a god awful time he had to see a d*g and that was horrible he hissed at it (chihuahua less than 1/3 his size)#he was SO scared i feel horrible and i almost cried a lot of times just from looking at him 😭#anyway i'm glad we did a ua though that does help some of my anxiety but now the problem is the string#it probably had a big knot in it so i'm not totally convinced it would even be able to exit the stomach but if it did thats terrifying#i don't think it was super long just the big knot#coworker also insisted strings cant cause blockages only intussuseptions which does not sound right to me particularly if it was a bulky#but not long string such as this one. but what do i m#*know#i'm still really stressed and we have to move tomorrow ugh#i forgot to grab the laxaire at the clinic so i'm going to have to go out and get some but i have to go drop off a goodwill bag anyway#ugh also while my coworker was trying to get pee from him she said “if you bite me i'll smack you in the face i dont care if your moms here”#and i didnt say anything but if she had done that i think i would have lost my mind. what the fuck is wrong with you#she is like that with all of the animals and it drives me insane or like she'll brag about how her rottweiler lifted his lip at her so she#beat him and stepped on his head (???) like some would accurately identify this as animal abuse and yet youre a vet tech???#like these animals are all having a horrible day why the fuck don't you have two seconds of patience instead of immediately going to#“oh you threatened to bite me let me force you into tonic immobility”. again what the fuck is wrong with you#same woman who justified hitting kids in the face btw. of course#my boss is actually much nicer to them for the most part than she is he's just a total douche to people (me) its weird#like i just think you should not have made your lifes work being a vet tech if you think its cool and fine to smack dogs and cats around for#not immediately doing what you want or for expressing discomfort or fear#and they are almost all fear reactive i think there have been maybe two cats that i would describe as aggressive and not just fear reactive#and i'm probably wrong honestly! theres always a reason#anyway. please everyone pray or vibe or whatever that my cat doesnt get his guts tied in knots because i dont have $10000 and his insurance#doesn't kick in for two weeks i think (i got it last night in a panic having intended to do it months ago but thought he had to have a vet#relationship in order to get it)#i'm still really scared lol. god bless#me
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i am so glad this week is finally (almost) over
i had an appointment with my pcp on monday to see about this possible kidney stone situation
they did a urinalysis on me and sure enough i do have some blood in my urine so that plus the pain means it's likely there's a stone, but i'm in a situation again where i haven't had any pain for days so it's like...that's not good !! (especially since this has been going on for a few months at this point !)
they ordered me a ct scan which i had today so i'm hoping maybe sometime tomorrow i'll get the results of that and we can maybe figure out what's going on
i also had a dentist appointment on wednesday but it was just a cleaning and my dentist said everything looks good. it is kinda funny because i was actually supposed to have this appointment months ago but decided to reschedule because i had too much going on that week and so it got pushed out until now and then i end up having even more shit to do this week than i did back then so...oh well !! it's finally done
and tomorrow i've gotta do some of my usual errands (mostly taking the garbage off and getting a few things from the grocery store) and then i think i'll finally be done !! hopefully !!
hope you have a good, restful weekend coming up if you're reading this !! <3
#i'm just hoping and praying at this point that i've passed the stone if that is what it is#and that i don't get a call about this ct and it's like#uh hey you're gonna need a procedure to get this thing out before you start to go septic again#just....please god not again#but i guess if that is the situation then we'll just deal with it#anyway#in any case i at least got all my work done for the week so that's something#i've had to work later to make up for all the time i've been out at these appointments but i did it !!#and now hopefully this weekend i can just......rest#please god#i do have a lot of stuff i need to look over for school because i have a meeting with my student advisor next week#and although i appreciate him sending me all this information it's.....a lot#and i'm kind of starting to panic now like 'uh-oh!! uh-oh what have i gotten myself into ?!'#but i'm gonna just...power through it and keep going#because i really want this now and it's probably gonna add a bunch of stress to my life#when i already don't really have a lot of room for that but#i think in the end it'll be worth it#so that's what we're holding out for#and in the mean time if my body could just.....not have any more health problems#that would be fucking amazing thank you#anyhow#i didn't get a lot of sleep last night so i'm gonna go to bed now#it's just gonna be me here this weekend because mom's off with her boyfriend#which is fine i like having the place to myself#but i also have to take care of our dog by myself and he's way more attached to her than me#so he tends to be super anxious when she's not here#and so we're gonna do our best with that as well#but part of that also means i gotta get up ass early to let him out to go potty#so i'm gonna go get a few hours in before it's time for that#and then once i run my errands tomorrow i can maybe hopefully finally unwind a little
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kinda disappointed with how this weekend went. I mean, it wasn't bad! but it was our first weekend in the new apartment, and I/we wanted to get a lot done. I already did a lot during the week (a lot for me, not a lot for most people I guess), but there's lots of things that I can't do/can't do on my own, either because I'm too short or not strong enough or I need someone else to hold something or whatever. which realistically just won't get done during the week because my husband works full time, so. it sort of sucks that only one very small, unimportant thing got done. 😔
#like. there's no rush. not really.#I mean we do get our kitchen in two weeks so we'll have to have space to install it then lol#but other than that it's fine#except everyone constantly makes me feel like it isn't.#they're so judgmental and shitty about it#yeah it's chaotic and messy as hell. there's boxes everywhere. we've only found some of our kitchen stuff so we're mostly eating microwave#meals with plastic utensils. all of that stuff#so fucking what? it doesn't affect any of them! I wish they'd just stop commenting on it but they don't.#well. at least it's just over the phone now. I haven't seen my or my husband's family since we moved in and I'm not planning to anytime soon#precisely because they will not stop doing this no matter how I react to it#like in what world would that ever do anything good? it doesn't motivate me to get shit done any faster. because guess what? I'm already#going as fast as I can.#like. I've had (maybe still have) a middle ear infection and been on antibiotics all week and I still got so much done! that's good enough#and this part is fun to me! I like that nothing is finished and everything is possible and new and different#it does also stress me out but so far it mostly feels like an adventure#anyway. I'm just venting but seriously why is everyone I know irl so mean all the time?!#personal
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please answer this silly little poll of a me who was confused in a history lecture today
#which is not a conversation#but the point stands#i had to look it up.#talk tag#might delete later because this is silly#but you know#there are times when i feel like i don't belong in college#and it's when these. idk. high level academic theoretical words get used#in a way that assumes everyone already definitely understands them#and maybe this is just a normal undergrad experience#i'm not actually hugely stressed about it don't worry#i am curious about this particular one though#it was a bigger deal when i attended my first lecture by a phd candidate about their research#i've been to a few now and i'm getting desensitized to the feeling lol#anyway!!#that's enough tags
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brother was talking to me about how if you almost die from an extreme-temperature-related incident then your body is just forever fucked towards that temperature and that's why i think kiryu and saejima are weak to ice. i dont know why aoki isn't like that too but ignore that statistic everything else tracks.
#snap chats#i already made this post highkey but im making it again cause i didnt know this was an actual real thing ☠️#my brother learned this when he started to work for target. because apparently that's a thing they tell you frame one#'snap how did this topic even come up' i am LITERALLY so glad you asked :) the cold has almost claimed me twice#am i exaggerating Maybe but its my fucked up body temperature now listen#when i was younger i got locked out of my house for like. three hours since i was a latchkey kid#and my dad wasn't supposed to come home with my siblings (from their after school events) for Three Hours#and it had snowed outside and Was Cold Yeah and i couldn't get in cause i forgot my key like a weiner#and yeah. was really cold :) my dad was real cross with me when he found me shivering in the shed LOL#he made me hot cocoa tho so its ok. second incident's just funny No I Talk About It Evvery Other Week#and im p sure i talked bout the first incident too but yeah that time after the con when i was at my sister's#like i cannot stress how cold it was because It Was Late November and the cold still existed#and my sister's heater just. Didnt Work but yeah. i wont go into detail cause i share this story every five seconds#POINT IS i've always had a hard time with the cold- like i'm cold nearly all the time even if the room is 90 degrees#i wont be COLD cold but i'll be colder than i like#anyways can't believe i'm weak to ice this is so sad. i love winter..#aoki isn't weak to ice cause uhhhh /aoki/ didnt almost die in the cold 🥴 masato did 🥴#imagine changing your identity so well that you just remove your past elemental weakness. fucked up.#alright bye
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ended up clearing a bunch of stuff off the bed to make it easier to sort stuff out later and I think I feel worse now because our room looks different in a way that for some reason is triggering flashbacks to stuff from years ago and I don't know why
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#I maybe wouldn't be freaking out as bad if I wasn't already completely overwhelmed with everything#we've been in so much pain lately we're back on the same amount of pain medication as we were in June#and I'm having a really hard time with both the pain and the medication side effects#and we've been ill a lot and stressed over trying to fix everything that went to shit over the summer#and our energy levels are completely fucked#and now we have to use up our energy fixing this issue#and I still don't know how we're gonna do that without ending up in a situation where we have a breakdown because of our OCD#and right now I'm in a lot of pain because I was trying to grab pain meds and that's when the bed gi fucked up#so I panicked enough that the adrenaline blocked out the pain and I was distracted with this shit and forgot to actually take the meds#and because I was panicking I overexerted without thinking and now my whole back is spasming#and we already had a migrine which is now worse from the panicking and overexerting#and I've just noticed that we're hallucinating which is probably from stress#I need to take the pain meds but I'm laid down and I'm so dizzy I feel like I'll topple over if I sit up
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