#and man it felt isolating

[melien]

Eden: You sure it's not my fault?

Harper: No, Eden, no! It's just my own deeper feelings about myself. And I've always known it will be an inevitable part of getting older. It's more like... Well, the whole time I've been growing up, I always had to see all these romantic relationships, and all that comes with them. It was like the good was outweighing the bad, and it was an experience no one could miss out on. Our parents being a love story for the ages, our cousins dating around, and now you also have April. I'm really, really happy for you, don't get me wrong! But... for me it's different. For me, it was always enough to have you, our parents, and a few friends I've had. I felt fulfilled with you guys by my side. It was like my little comfort unit.

She sighed, looking particularly vulnerable. Eden was listening with intent. Harper often played a part of a caring older sister and didn't particularly open up about her own problems.

Harper: I know it's just who I am. I don't get all these romantic crushes or even casual sex. And I have always focused on my platonic, familial relationships the most, putting my all into them, but now I feel like it's unfair of me to expect this... loyalty of people. They're not like me. They will all have a special person sooner or later. Hell, that's all they talk about. And I can't even feel left out or anything, I don't have the right. I know I don't even want that type of thing. I'd feel bad about myself if I went against my wishes. But... it feels lonely sometimes. It feels like people like me... we're doomed, in some sort of way.

Eden: Harps... Man, I wish I could be there for you.

Harper: That's the thing... I know you don't have to. No one has to. But it stings sometimes, you know? That I won't have this one person, or that all my friends and family will just move on... Maybe it's about feeling special to someone. I mean, maybe it doesn't have to be romantic. I could find someone to just chill out with and share my interests with, to travel with and come up with the coolest outfit designs. But it feels... pretty much impossible. Everyone wants a love story nowadays.

Eden: I feel like there may be a lot of people like you out there. They're just not showing themselves. Or forcing themselves to live the life they despise.

Harper: It could be, dear. I don't want to be alone, you know?

Eden: You'll never be alone. I think of you daily. Even if things change, you're still my closest person in the world, and it will always remain so. But I'm sure you'll find your community as well.

[adustoflove]

I always think well if I dated a man, I wouldn't feel as insane. I wouldn't feel so awful or jealous. And then I remember why I came to the conclusion that I'm a lesbian. I just wouldn't care if it were a man. I just can't bring myself to care about men like that 😔😩😭

[whentherewerebicycles]

just met with a new student and he was the most Boy student i have ever worked with. obviously just fully immersed in the youtube and podcast manosphere but like... a kind of gentle version of it? just like, earnestly telling me about how if you just get your mind right money will flow to you regardless of what you do and talking about how you can't be a taker you have to also be a giver and a provider who is attuned to the people around you. god i have SO many thoughts. truly just a fascinating glimpse into A Boy's Search for the Meaning of Masculinity but in a way that i really empathized with?? i also think his girlfriend made him read brene brown because he went on a long tangent about the value of vulnerability and believing you are Enough as you are and being authentic to yourself instead of approaching others from a place of fear. it was all like jumbled new age + manosphere + therapyspeak mush but so earnestly expressed. idk man i think we gotta be gentler with college-age boys i think they have so much toxic sludge to wade through while also doing the very human teenage/early 20s thing of trying to figure out who they are slash what kind of person they want to be in the world.

[jessamine-rose]

*lovingly tackles Aine*

Read my Yandere! Pierro longfics first ♪( ´▽｀)

Last week, my beloved mutual @ainescribe surprised me with Savior! Darling fan art and AHAI9232@2-!/! CRYING SCREAMING I WANT TO LOOK AT THIS ART AND WORSHIP YOUR VERSION OF SAVIOR THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH YOUR ART—

*clears throat* Anyway, now that I finally have the time to properly sit down and comment on the fan art, I’ll do just that. Feedback will be in the tags and it will be unhinged. Once again, thank you so much to Aine for drawing this <3

[milimeters-morales]

Them (Miles Margo Gwen) all having issues with a social life is real nice. Gwen shutting herself off from other people and not learning some important social/people skills + Margo being in an online space nearly 24/7, her family issues, and her universe in general not really being an in-person place + Miles being a social butterfly who doesn’t actually form bonds with other kids easily at all. Gwen and Margo can probably bond over not using the right manners around certain people, or accidentally disrespecting someone else’s property, or a low impulse control when it comes to being with ACTUAL friends that you like and trust. Miles probably didn’t really think that he had a problem with his social life because yknow, switching schools changes that, and some people just aren’t people you hang with outside of school, but now that Gwen and Margo actually expect to hang out and call him, and he starts expecting the same and calling them, he’s realizing “ah i was missing this!!!!” they all make each other’s world go round each time they realize something they were doing wasn’t considered “normal”

[maybe-boys-do-love]

Everyone’s mad because His Man 3 popped the BL bubble

[lususnatura]

i was talking about this a bit with ramone, but y'all know how i mentioned that it's likely that blamore has one of those 'special containment' cells that villains like killer croc and man-bat in arkham have as well? wellll... i can guarantee y'all that on one of the rare occasions that that they have let it into a common room (because it's basically treated as if it's in unofficial solitary confinement in arkham a majority of the time unfortunately), blamore was SO desperate to get out of there because they put a power dampener on him and because arkham is just terrible in general, that he pulled out one of the plants growing in his ribs (which is considerably painful for it to do, by the way) to give to ivy.

and she of course proceeded to break them all out of there because she can turn even just a little plant into something capable of tearing the asylum apart so... yeah JSJSJ whenever blamore is desperate, it gets inventive, and that may be even more dangerous than when it has it's powers because at least you kind of know what to expect with them — but whenever it's robbed of them... it can become particularly nasty, let's just say that ☠️

[freakurodani]

behind the scenes sneak peek into my brain, i have so many drafts now of my thoughts on hinata and loneliness and obsession and greed and adhd that all feel incoherent that i just have to fuckin, sit on it and write an essay one of these days, but in short

i dont think its explored how deeply lonely Hinata was before karasuno, how unseen and misunderstood he felt until he became rivals with kageyama

and OUGH its the way kageyama respects hinatas *greed* so much, cherishes it, even though at one point it scared him, its scared him but it pushed him to be more and he has his OWN greed that hinata relates to and wants to see flourish and they are both creatures of want and so they understand each other like no one else has understood them before and

how freeing is that? right??? this wasnt short i started rambling again augh but are u catching my drift are u seeing what i am seeing????????

[connormoving]

prev post literally since i was a child ive wanted to go to a super isolated spot where absolutely nobody else on the planet would hear me and just scream AS loud as i possibly could. partially for stress relief and partially bc i just want to know how loud i could scream if i wasnt worried abt freaking ppl

[snailsfall]

I can’t sleep because I keep getting myself worked up over all the shitty things in my life and I can’t even talk about it to anyone because I have no one to talk like that with, but man my job is killing me and I’m on the verge of just giving up man

[eddiediazdefensesquad]

okay so I know 7x04 is from Buck's POV, so the characters are a little off to reflect Buck's feelings and perceptions. But rewatching it today, why did it feel like Eddie was the only one that was vastly different from his normal self? To the point it was a little disorienting. Even some of the line delivery (like the trivia/babysitting thing) were not how Eddie typically delivers things. Like yeah I get that everyone is a little different in Buck's mind, but the more I watch it, the more I realize that Eddie's character shifts more as the episode goes on and Buck sinks deeper in his jealousy. And while the episode focused on Buck, Buck is focused on Eddie. So it felt like the obvious differences to his usual mannerisms were highlighted.

[diredeliverance]

I do keep thinking about how the end of gate game 3 somehow turned into being about BG1/2 for me and cackling. Let Jaheira do the High Hall speech because I hated the dialogue options and she dedicates the battle to Khalid. Fucked off from the city and went to Candlekeep. Spent the epilogue getting a list of Ismene's companions to visit. Most concrete plan Kas made for post game was begging Jaheira to let them travel with her, heavily implied to be joined by Minsc. All the other companions drift off and do their own thing and Kas just fucking. Sets right at recreating Ismene's party and fitting into the life she left for them. Truly BG3 is a game about getting me to appreciate BG1. What a time. And yes this IS part of why I think that it would be perfect for Ismene/clone Ismene to crash the party in the epilogue. We're building into this ouroboros thing anyway, it's high time the original death cheating Bhaalspawn hero(ine) herself showed up and ruined everyone's good time all over again.

[deadinthelake]

kinda a cringefail post to make and its kinda just speaking to the void but um please choose kindness these like next few weeks i can already sorta tell that ive been spiraling and i kinda feel the bottom coming up soon

[fiendishartist2]

the bar for "revolutionary" webhorror is so low. what happened

[odysseys-blood]

No, like. The way Fourth Wall is implemented is genius! Like, Kim Dokja assumes that he can use Fourth Wall just cuz he is a reader and therefore there will always be a separation between him and the story but NO he was already in a Fourth Wall, he was already just a spectator of life, he was already separating himself from life!

i started looking back to where dokja started actually talking to the wall himself and seeing these again

like bro its u. in one way or another its you and your thoughts youre just so used to spectating even yourself and not feeling like a real person that even your own thoughts in your own head feel othered as if its a completely separate entity!

like no wonder it get shaky whenever you talk to your mother you're scared and upset and rattled being around her!

[arcadequeerz]

8 more days till start of Pride Month YIPPEE