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me when i see yet another statement from the arcane writers:
#arcane critical#im taking death of the author to the extreme#what happened to letting your writing speak for yourself#instead of trying to explain things post release#and making everything feel hollow#you cant just explain unclear things in a tweet and act like it fixes criticism#if its not intext it doesnt matter#all it does is make me respect the media less#respect the writers ability less#and leave me frustrated#can someone tell them to shut the fuck up before i cant even watch season one#they are ruining their own damn show#by exposing how little attention they even paid to it originally
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Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.
We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.
Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.
He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?
I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?
#like curly is very much does his job goes home takes care of self repeat i dont think hes like an asocial person but he doesn't take the tim#time to indulge in himself the way he thinks hes a bigger picture guy so as long as nothing is disrupted hes relatively okay even if its#slowly chipping away at him and making him feel hollow like he thought space was endless that he could never reach a point of feeling finis#he never had to predict what to do after the end and suddently he realizes there was no end to it because there cant be an end to nothing#hes accomplished so much objectively but hes done nothing with his life outside of his work like he mentions no hobbies other friends or an#thing of the sort he doesn't even feel like he can vent it cause what? hes complaining about how hard it is to get promoted to have securit#in a job you hate and a position that keeps weighing you down like I feel like if he explained himself at the party and didn't let Jimmy t#talk for him hed actually have made points the others would get cause even if they envied his position he still is justified in being unhap#not everything that you think would bring you happiness does or fulfills even a small part of that desire#idk hes a lot more fucked in the head but like towards himself than people realize like how he lets Jimmy treat him is indicitive of that i#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#curly mouthwashing
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hm sofft vessel
#hollow knight#quirrel#the hollow knight#quirrelhollow#they’re sleeping everyone#i have been having a bit of a rough time lately and these little critters have been making me feel better :')#i think that hollow���s cloak could be really soft#if it was clean and everything#queruloustea
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Also I stole this ask just so I can post this fuggin weirdo I made smhh (I raise from the dead just to post an oc again LMAOAOAOAO)
Hopefully this will be my last one in a long while I can live with 7 fuggin wh characters HHFHFUDJSNKSSJ- well- technically 8 if you include Betsy-
But to keep it (somewhat) short and sweet- my loser- a ye ol Milkman- Zachary Milksop (chronically lactose intolerant) and Betsy (a lil mascot moo sentient puppet)
Another character made almost spur in the moment again (like Mari) though thankfully not another bUG, but just some average human smhh. He’s a really simple guy, a loser, is as interesting as normal milk— he’s just the ye ol milkman who delivers you that gud shid smhh— enjoyer of the finer things in life (lunchables). A lil flirty and charming (in possibly the cringiest way possible) however he doesn’t really seem to pick up anyone besides the local cows that constantly harass him (and eats his pants). He enjoys watching them though, from v e r y m u c h afar——
hes just kinda, “that guy”
Also Betsy- a very sweet woman! She always greets everyone and has the friendliest extroverted personality ever! Always the type to bring (albeit tiny) gifts for her favorite neighbors and always leads when talking to anyone. Not like she would allow Zach to say anything anyway, she hates his polyester guts (and only him smhh)
#HOPEFULLY#h O p e fu l ly#Last oc in a while I am too tired to make another one in the spur of the moment again JDHCGDDH#I’m trying to rest damn it LMAO#But also doesn’t help that iv been feeling like absolute garbage lately#Last night specially- I just couldn’t sleep for the life of me- I was so upset and disheartened-#Dw I’m a lot better today- just still feelin a lil hollow#But anyway!#a loser 😔💔🥄🥄 iv been wanting to make a painfully dumb human character since iv made Dusty#But nOOOOOOOOO I MADE EVERYTHING EL S E#Now iv basically made every version of characters iv been wanting to make-#So now I can finally be at e a s e -#Welcome home#welcome home oc#Also hopefully that will actually motivate me to draw welcome home content again LDNHDJDDJDJ been severely l a c k I n’#Zachary Milksop & Betsy#They share a tag 💔🥄🥄
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kevin/ichirou in a way that's wildly unhealthy for both of them- for kevin it's like, for some reason it feels like he's cuckolding his dead, former best friend/brother/abuser in a way that all his other relationships have not felt like. and he doesn't understand why that thought isn't turning him off completely. for ichirou it's that he doesn't think he's the type of person to keep secret mistresses or cheat on his wife for something so stupid as lust, but he stumbles into the irresistible kevin-day-effect and suddenly he finds himself rationalizing why having sex with a man that he technically owns wouldn't be considered cheating at all. or gay, for the matter. ( it is; he's just homophobic) because 'cheating' would imply a threat to his marriage, which, how could there be when it's just some guy whose life belongs to his family. (it is; he's just in denial) and besides, half the things they do can't even count as sex (maybe not, but it's definitely weirder and kinkier).
#sorry about this#this somehow feels like the worst thing i've written#i just suddenly had the thought of ichirou meeting kevin in person at riko's funeral#and suddenly being struck with the absurd thought “damn grieving widows are kind of hot”#before forcibly reminding himself there are no grieving widows present#that's just rising exy star kevin day in a trim black suit with a brave face and hollow eyes#i want to stress that there was never even a whiff of past kevin/riko in this scenario#the point is that kevin and ichirou's combined homophobia and repression are coating everything with a thick layer of sleaze and grime#again. so sorry#i think it's the relief and euphoria of making it through this shit week getting to me#aftg#kevichi
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Anyone got any recs for media like this
please I'm DESPRATE.
#in stars and time#house of leaves#off game#slay the princess#please please please please please please please#I want a peice of media ANY peice of media that can make me feel half the emotions thease ones made me feel#like my soul had been scooped out with a melon baller and had left me hollow and empty as I processed everything#I guess I REALLY like media about greif?#recomendaciones#SERIOUSLY IF YOU HAVEN'T CHECKED THEASE OUT CHECK EM OUT#GO READ HOL#GO PLAY STP#GO PLAY OFF#GO PLAY ISAT#PLAY IT READ IT CONSUME#CONSUME MEDIA
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Hello coauthor! A Residuum reader here. One thing I really like about your comic is how the consequences of the characters' actions feel so plausible, but what stands out to me the most is the pacing in how they're presented throughout the story. Do you have any tips for structuring a plot? Every time I try to outline mine, it feels a bit incoherent, and the scenes don’t seem to flow well together. I’d appreciate any advice 🐢
best advice? Write the whole outline down as much and as far as you can, doesn't matter if it makes sense, that's for editing you to figure out. Then edit the ever-loving daylights out of it, add in connecting actions, and take out things that don't work. Residuum has had Five different drafts, with major tweaking as we go. The outline is not set in stone.
Also don’t share it outside of friends, that can make you feel pressured to stick to (the previous plot) even when it doesn’t work for how your story has progressed. There’s a reason we didn’t share any of the potential endings when we were still trying to figure out where the story was going. When the first arc was being posted we had an idea of the plot til about halfway through arc 4, but we didn’t actually have a concrete ending.
how we structure a plot (and do pacing)
Write out your main plot points and then write what the characters need to do to make that event happen. We basically do the plot mountain structure, but for each arc (there are 4 of them) we tend to make the climax of each arc into turning points or decisions that the main characters have to make that they cannot undo. here's a good article to read about structuring plots. (Note! This is for the broad spanning major plot beats, each update actually gets written as needed, they aren't written into the outline.)
When it comes to character decisions it’s more about, “what would make the character do this?” rather than, “would the character do this?” You can make characters do things they normally wouldn’t if you give them the right incentive.
For the pacing with residuum, because it’s serialized, we try to have something progress with each update. Either you learn something new, the plot has progressed (aka the status quo has changed), or there's set up/foreshadowing for later, most updates actually have all three. When writing in a serialized format (each chapter getting its own release) it’s a good idea to treat each update as a complete chunk. Try asking yourself: what is the goal for this part? are you using this update for anything actually important? are you conveying anything new and/or important to the plot? Is this something you want to focus on? Are you writing this to meet audience expectations or because you want to? There are parts where residuum gets almost no interaction but, importantly, those parts still meet our individual update rules. If you're writing for audience engagement you are going to get discouraged from writing long spanning plots very quickly. The audience doesn’t know whats coming, so they won’t interact with anything that doesn’t have their current blorbo™, even if it’s plot important.
for how we make the consequences make sense
Make things make logical sense? honestly i don't what to tell you.
We read. a. lot. I used to read 400 books over a school year, beaze has read about 13.6K fanfics on Ao3 over the course of 4 years. plus a ton of manhwa and manga, and that doesn’t include nonfiction, stuff from sites outside of Ao3, course assigned books, reddit fiction, royal road. Most of how we understand and structure plots is instinctual because we fire hosed our brains with them for years.
I'd recommend watching watching Overly Sarcastic Production’s Trope Talks, and reading stuff that's not rise related, as well as researching nonfiction stuff that's relevant to what you want to write we are at a place where we aren’t writing the outline anymore, just editing it if needed. We use the outline structure to make each update because it gives us a objective for the update, and gives us a road map for when to place the set up for future updates. But if you struggle to use outlines you can just… not use them. Garden writing is a valid writing strategy, I use it for one shot AU’s of residuum.
For long spanning stories written garden style the first draft can be your outline. Just edit and flesh it out once you’ve written it.
#caspocalypse is garden style#and everything brandon sanderson writes#the amount of reading we've done isn't a good thing to be clear. we were just mentally ill#im realizing that using we this much might make some people think beaze and i are alters. we are not#if im missing what you're asking feel free to correct my assumptions#also don't be afraid to mess up/have a wonky first draft. the first draft of residuum was very hollow.#and thank you for the complements!#residual asks
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Duel Links is an existential horror tragedy just waiting to happen
#people explain the basic premise to me and i feel fear#what do you MEAN the dead are returned to us based on the group of silgular perspectives on who that person was#how they acted and looked and thought. an outsiders view of who you were#just memories and gestures and everything that MAKES a person but when you come back are you. ultimately hollow.#I spend too much time worrying about it#yugioh#yu gi oh#ygo#duel links
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the fucking. contrast between 'For a moment, our gazes held as we mingled in unity. One person. We had always been one person. Nighteyes had voiced it long ago. It was good to be whole again.' and 'I am content' like????? killing myslrf
#robin hobb you will PAY#the way . the way fitz doesn't fucking speak of beloved after he receives the gifts EVEN THO he knows he will probably never see him again#so desperate to appear content soo so desperate to be whole again but everything he does from the point on is shallow is hollow is not. rea#he doesn't even LET HIMSELF THINK ABOUT IT!!!! he doesn't even fucking describe not even once mourning beloved EVEN THO there's absolutely#no doubt that he's morning bc beloved was actually ACTUALLY one half of him and even the THOUGHT of beloved leaving him left him feeling#like he was dying like his fucking blood was draining away and yet and yet he DELIBERATELY skips months and months only focusing on molly#but even that is so so so halfhearted this is the supposed love of his life we r talking about and yet it doesn't feel SINCERE !!! it#doesn't feel like him and only at the end does he acknowledge beloved again COMPARING HIM TO THE BOND HE SHARED W NIGHTEYES WHO WAS YK ONE#HALF OF HIS SOUL AND BOND FOR LIFE AND SAYING HE WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER LIKE BELOVED BC HELL NEVER EVER GET OVER HIM#and that is the ONLY time it feels like he's sincere in fucking two chapters and i. 'i am content' ??? CONTENT?????????????#he didn't get a happily ever after he got an ever after he had to make peace with. i cant do this#fool's errand#rote#rote spoilers#fitzloved#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#beloved
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// hopping in again because 2 am is in the timeframe where i become so hyper on accidentally finding vibes like a nocturnal predator
. https://youtu.be/8Gopg80VXwc?si=j_vS5a5xUWvgiBRC
somehow sounds like t.i
// ASHES ASHES DUST TO DUST THE DEVIL'S AFTER THE BOTH OF US //
#[ ooc ]#i have Never heard of this song until now and now i'm obsessed holy fuck holy shit#“tell me i am good enough” me when i am a random doll who wants to please everyone to the point it's a source of manipulation#from the parasites in my brain#by making me think i'm being useful when i do things for them while also not hesitating to put me down when i fail#( i easily accept these words because i truly believe that everyone else's wellbeing is more important than mine#and do not like being seen as a failure or useless because it makes me do feel worthless#as i lack internal validation for myself#so everything is a personal failure on my part even when it isn't )#i hollow out my being for the people that only serves to take and take and i fully let them do it#it's what is 'good' for me after all - at least that's what they tell me#... yeah here's some psychology
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Sorry for going quiet, been busy- here’s some art I did today
#bloo’s art :)#badboyhalo fanart#badboyhalo#ghost ur#qsmp ghosted#ghostiesona#I haven’t played hollow knight in a hot minute- and today’s stream made me wanna play it again#I love that bbh is trying new games too#and I did hear what happened on the qsmp#I hope pomme’s admin can come back- that was so unfair#also the French need to be treated better- cause WTFF#I did see quackity’s response too#and I didn’t like the fact that people kinda forced him to make a statement about wil-#he should’ve gotten time to collect himself first too yk? will was his friend too- and we don’t know what happens bye#but yeah#I hope the qsmp takes a set back and fixes everything first before reopening#also I will never forgive the admin who thought that creating drama by using the CCs-#they’re literally the reason why I feel scared to be on Twitter as a ghostie#also how unfair for the CCs- the ones who were discouraged or the ones who literally can’t join back cause of ‘lore reasons’#hollow knight
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still a hardcore believer in the "totk was absolute development hell" theory btw, even if I know it will never be confirmed or denied, but all the signs are there honestly
#thoughts#totk#totk critical#when will my brain return from the imprisoning war...#the fact that it does not take 6 years to make a game like this#that they used the covid excuse (the game industry took like a month to adapt tops)#that the game was postponed eight billion times#that there are very clear signs that there was a pretty brutal rewrite at some point#that no writers/quest designers are credited??? as far I can tell????#and also and that's... kind of impossible to prove or to pinpoint or rationally explain#but this game feels like burnout to me#it tastes like hollowed gamedev soul who switched off their enthusiasm and went “content mode” just to push through the finish line#OH YES also the lack of dlc#I have a hard time believing they have nothing they could potentially add if they wanted to --and maybe they just don't want to#it just... feels like exhaustion packaged around a genuinely brilliant feature#hoping its brightness would camouflage the thinness of everything else#again perhaps I'm projecting but the game *feels* deeply familiar to me in that way
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is my game bugged or is there genuinely no dialogue with most of the side characters, like, outside of cinematics. hell, i don't get the option to chat to the companions outside of when their lanterns are lit or when there's a quest to prompt? and in the world maps, most of the characters that Do have speech bubble prompts only actually speak to each other, a few scripted lines, instead of being able to prompt a conversation? and the FEW that talk to You only say a line or two? That's totally inconsequential? what's up with this
#dragon age veilguard#dragon age#davg#im baffled by how little interactivity there is in this world? compared to bg3 or even just inquisition this feels. Terrible.#everything just feels so short and linear :(#and the lack of dialogue options with NPCs makes the whole world feel so hollow and makes me totally not invested :/
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riding a wave of depression to the end of the worst year of my life and realizing that there’s not really anyone i feel safe confiding in… cool, cool, very cool…
#i don’t really have anything to say anyway…#i just feel bad. because things have been bad#it’s pretty simple#i’ve given far more of myself than i think ever existed in the first place and i feel hollow and broken#and all i want is a job offer on the other side of the country so i can run away to a safe place and heal myself#but i’m not getting that until January at the earliest and February or March more likely…#so until then i just have to keep applying for more and going through the motions of life#i am truly BANKING on my ‘winter break’ to make me feel better#bc i feel sooooooo bad rn#i don’t wanna do anything or talk to anybody#but i have to do bird counts all weekend#so no rest for me until Monday#and on Monday i have to help my friend with shit and hang out#and i don’t WANT to hang out#i don’t want to see anyone - i can’t do this anymore#John Darnielle really knew what he was doing when he titled a song ‘No I Can’t.’ with the comma and period included#cuz like. exactly!#NO!!!!!!! I CAN’T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#(and yet i keep going on like everything is fine)#(haha)#i’m not dying don’t worry#i will be fine once i can TRULY rest#this has just been the worst year of my life and i am grappling with that#and the vast unknowns of the future
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i'm for sure not finishing veilguard. i set it down a while and tried again and ahh i'm just not enjoying it. the characters dont have a depth im looking for.. the insertion of a writer's white guilt onto the elves that are based on real life indigenous people and have been in-games enslaved and treated horrifically and are the ones who don't have "real" gods that are actually just blighted tyrants. everything with taash and the qunari. the gameplay was fun for a while but then it made my hand so numb i couldnt do anything for a week. the last straw was taash's gender talk that suddenly turned into picking a cultural identity for them to align with out of nowhere and then soon after learning that Another antagonist is of course an elf. starting to feel like their implying that all elves become evil when given power jfc. i think i'm actually done with it it started making me feel gross and bored. i don't care if you enjoy it or not, everyone's got a different threshold it just crossed mine.
#i wish i'd told my brother to not get it for me but he was so excited to get me a gift. i would have rather pirated it#i wanted to be hopeful they'd have made more strides since dai since it had seemed to be getting better ish.#but the bioware team clearly don't think mulicultural people are 'true to themselves' or that arab people are well. People.#or that anyone could enjoy and align with the religion that is heavily modeled after islam. ofc it's just stifling and constraining right.#everyone who follows it is evil and awful and the fucking. blighted qunari turning into literal giant monsters when nobody else is affected#like that. what the Fuck.#how did it get More racist than dragon age 2.#anyway. long chatter short i think my final personal onion is that i do not like the game and i kind of wish it didnt exist. thumbs up#there's cool concepts in there but.. the racism got Worse. the established lore was tossed out the window. the music is forgettable.#the pacing is off. the therapy talk gets annoying after a while. my favorite things are: davrin and assan. davrin is so funny also his bo#also neve. i love neve i wish her story was more..... More. i like that she got upset at her city being destroyed even though she didnt#want to blame my character she couldnt help herself from blaming him. mixed feelings on how gender is incorporated. could be better but it'#good for a triple a game. wish they used the established in-universe terms for being trans but eh.#i wish the world wasn't so sanititized down. it feels like a desire for everything to be 'good' and perfect but it makes it feel hollow#and like a kind of immature unwillingness to tackle hard subjects but well. that's a running theme of the lead writer of this game lmao
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every time i blink theyre doing another terrible adaptation of a gothic novel will i ever be free
#why on earth would you cast another white actor as heathcliff#his experiences as a racialised man are integral to his characterisation like its not even subtext its text!!!!#the fact he's been almost exclusively depicted by white actors has enabled ppl to overlook this part of his character#and i just dont think another adaptation featuring a white heathcliff should exist#feeling mad as hell tbh#and lets not even get started on that god awful dorian gray adaption!!#everything about it is so bad i dont even have the energy to hash it out again#not to be a party pooper but im also dreading guillermo del toro's frankenstein i know im gonna hate it#why am i being punished for being invested in gothic literature and wanting better for books that mean a lot to me#we're in an adaptation hellscape atm so its not even just gothic lit#like that new rose of versailles adaptation pisses me off so bad too#it seems to exist for no other reason than because its a safe profitable option for the studio#and theyre trying to modernise the art style to make it more appealing to new viewers#which feels like a fundamental misunderstanding of ROV's appeal#Sometimes trying to make a work more palatable so it can be consumed by the most ppl possible is simply to degrade it#you're ironing out what makes it special to turn it into something more commercial a hollow shell of the original#i know everybody whose invested in art has been burned by this adaptation hellscape at least once I hope we'll be free of it one day#text post#wuthering heights
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