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monstersandmaw · 2 years ago

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Good news: the desire To Write is back *yaaaay, cheering*

Bad news: actually doing The Writing is still completely overwhelming *ugly sobbing*

#one step forward two steps back almost #feeling so drained and stuck #i know all the published authors just say 'JUST WRITE' but it's Too Much(tm) and i'm tired #i'm so fucking tired #mentally and physically #and i know i should just 'take my time' but i don't want to #i want to write #and it's crushing that i can't #personal post #non monster post #ghosti rambles

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palarien · 6 months ago

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sketched this out at jury duty actually

#i sat there for eight hours and wasn't called at ALL. even for selection >:(#death note #light yagami #l lawliet #lawlight #i don't ship them that hard tbh #i just like to cheer for classic yaoi as i'm rewatching this series #yippeeeeeee love at first sudden-death mind game 🎉🎉🎉#edit: omg multiple ppl have pointed out the hand (positively)...#i've been wondering why it's getting so much attention... it's probs bc i over-rendered it since i was worried it looked bad LOL #edit 2 months later: i'm glad DN is still enjoyed by so many people!! it's rly nice to see 😭#also i saw notif for a reply that started with “shipping light with L while the former is only-” but it doesn't show up under the post #so i can't read the rest... tumblr saving me from something vile truly. i assume it's about age #btw this character is a magical serial killer #like be fr LMAO i think there might be other issues here!!#the elitist morally bankrupt 17 y/o murderer with a god complex can have a little crush #as a treat <3

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egophiliac · 3 months ago

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don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers #sorry it's even scribblier than usual :') hopefully my chickenscratch is legible #anyway come here and join me in the corner where we go to be embarrassing about anime characters #just. between riddle and trey's dreams i've been thinking a lot about how #trey knew this kid for like two months when he was nine and then never really got over him or how their friendship ended #which. honestly. understandable given the circumstances #and then when they finally met again riddle acted like they'd never met before and neither he nor trey ever intended trey to be his vice #but every time riddle talks about his childhood post-incident it's basically #'oh yeah i constantly thought about trey and che'nya and fantasized about still being friends with them! this is fine and normal'#(there's a bit in one of his birthday cards where he talks about crossword puzzles and shit man that one got me)#idk. i can't put this into words very well #just...the implications that riddle was actively resisting trey's friendship #(presumably because it ended SUPER badly last time and he's learned that if he shows he wants something it gets taken away from him)#and trey had to work REALLY hard to just to get to the point they were at by the time canon starts #that was progress somehow #y'all can call him boring all you want but trey's defining feature really is that he keeps being like #'everything's fine :) this isn't a big deal :) i don't care that much'#(trey on the inside: THIS IS THE BIGGEST DEAL THAT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AND I WILL NEVER LET IT GO)#anyway i continue to be absolutely murdered by the timing of riddlepunzel directly after this #riddle's line about not wanting to keep standing in front of a door that's never going to open...#hey. hey silly gacha game about anime disney boys.#you are not actually allowed to do this to me #oh shit oh damn i'm out of tags and i haven't even talked about cater yet. NO BUT I HAVE LOTS OF FEELINGS THERE TOO --#(i am crushed under a falling safe looney tunes style)

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literarymerritt · 1 year ago

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Thinking about Them 🥺

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skellydun · 1 year ago

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who wants to lay on top of me like a weighted blanket and fix me

#i can't use actual weighted blankets bc it feels suffocating but another person? 10/10 #not even in any kind of way i just need someone to crush my body back into some sort of shape that is not exhausted and aching #need me a bear hug and a bear to crush me tbh #the cabin will fix me. i will be secluded and alone and get high one of the nights and have smores. i will take stupid nature walks and read

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discocandles · 5 months ago

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one thing about steve harrington is that he sucks at doing nothing. like he has to be doing something with himself lest the guy waste away. this has led to him being very good at fucking around with things especially when its something relatively quiet. the loudest steve will let himself keep his hands busy while stuck idle is tossing whatever's in his hand to himself and catching it, which usually bodes well for sports practice after coach learned that just because he was moving didnt mean he wasnt paying attention(usually the opposite).

he learned how to flip a pencil around his thumb in middle school and seeing someone in one of the meetings he sat in on doing it. he'll twirl anything he can around in his hand, especially while he was working in the mall. the scoopers were perfect for it. and any way youve seen a drummer/percussionist fiddle with a drumstick, steve knew he had to replicate it.

but even with all this movement and the fact the guy was barely ever not moving, it seemed like no one noticed it ever. a fact that nearly drove eddie insane when they were in high school together. because he did have the reputation of being restless, and in a constant state of movement. and he probably fucked around with random shit less, so how did steve "the hair" harrington not end up with the same reputation? the answer was just that he was way more quiet("and sneaky" -eddie) about it. and if the teacher hated when their students fiddled and futzed he'd be sure to try and keep the movement below his desk.

but it not that he only has to keep his hands busy. no no no, if bored or stuck waiting, and that won't suffice, steve harrington will pick up anything with words just to read it. anything. outdated newspapers, ingredients lists, magazines of any topic. he just mindlessly grabs for whatever and starts fucking reading. Robin could swear under oath to a court that her best friend has read the back of every vhs in family video. hell, she's seen him reading drugstore novels, like the fucking grandma smut and books with cover art of nicely dressed ladies running from a castle. and its her jock best friend reading it, instead of some repressed suburban woman who hates her husband. yes, this information is the bane of robin buckley's exsistance because its not like anyone would believe her.

idk just give me steve being restless but doing it quietly enough that no one really picks up on it.

#listen we've all seen the gifs of steve messing around with the scooper in s3 or him doing the same thing with a flashlight in s2 #and i was like ok what if i added to that? and what if when hes waiting hes reaches blindly for something to read?#and steve reading drugstore bodice ripper novels is something i can't unsee and i needed to share it #steve harrington #stranger things #robin buckley #platonic stobin #she's so done with his shit(affectionate).#eddie munson #steddie #not exactly. but like eddie being pissed off about steve existing is kinda just shorthand for a crush atp #the party will bust into family video and steve is just reading the back of a bag of an m&ms #am i projecting? a little but we've seen this in canon so extrapolation cant hurt.#if you want real projecting ask me about my headcanon about steve and manga #headcannons

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aashidoodles · 3 months ago

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#shiguang dailiren #link click #時光代理人 #go for it nakamura #aashi doodles #was anyine gonna tell me there was a nakamura anime coming up or was I just supposed to find out thru a good kid mv #that was actually a really funny way to find out tho ngl #gotta get around to finishing reading that comic it was cute #too bad lg can't just have the simple life of trying to get closer to his crush #gotta struggle through the timeline to keep him alive too #lu guang #cheng xiaoshi

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ventique18 · 3 months ago

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🐉🌸 with one-sided ❤️🌸

🍎: "By the way Ace, didn't you say the other night that you were into the prefect? What happened to that?"

❤️: "About that... Yeah maybe you should just forget about that."

🍎: "Ehhh? Why? Did they reject you?"

♠️: "That's because he's a coward."

❤️: "Shut up! I ain't no coward! You know you'd do the same in my shoes."

🐺, snickering: "That's exactly how a coward is, you know."

❤️: "No! They're just... Not worth the effort."

🐺: "So you're a jerk who can't be damned to put in the effort."

❤️: "I resent that."

🐺: "You gotta fight for what you want, you know. Nothing's over until it's over."

🍎: "What he said! You're already close friends so it's kinda a waste, isn't it?"

❤️: "BECAAAAUSE."

Saying that, he put up two index fingers on either side of his head; as if to motion the image of a devil.

🍎: "They're a bitch?"

❤️: "This stupid-- no. It's their other option."

The other boys stared at him blankly.

❤️, rolling his eyes: "Dragon."

The first years mouthed a slow "ahh".

🍎: "So sorry."

🐺: "My condolences."

❤️: "Hey! Where's the faith you put in me earlier? And here I thought we were friends."

#i sometimes come up with scenarios like this in my head because my yuu is a bit older than the first years #and just sees the boys as her younger brothers lol #that can't stop ace from crushing on her ofc #twisted wonderland #ace trappola #malleus draconia #malleus x reader #ventique rambles #epel felmier #jack howl #deuce spade

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angrycloudloud · 3 months ago

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Jayce face after Viktor's "wait...this isn't my bedroom?" Was so "fuck we are caught" and Jayce introducing him as his partner to Mel are the reasons why she wait seven years to get him in her bed... Our lady was full "is he gay or european" for seven years trying to figure out if Jayce and Viktor were dating and no one can change my mind.

#arcane #arcane jayce #arcane viktor #jayvik #mel medarda #mel arcane #my headcanon about those three #Mel: Elora i think they are dating he can't keep his hands off the Zaun guy and keeps calling him his partner #Also Mel: maybe he isn't gay Jayce blushed and almost fell off the stairs when i praised him #later Mel: definetely dating that Viktor guy killed me with his eyes when i made Jayce leave the lab #Elora internally: he is obviously bi and the twink is oblivious about their crush for each other but this is funny so i'm not gonna tell her

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starleska · 9 days ago

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hey. new Doctor Who fans (or old ones who haven't been here for a while) who are here because of Mr. Ring-A-Ding. do you know that he's not the only camp, dancing, all-powerful chaos-lord we have?

do you know that this one tormented the Doctor with a Spice Up Your Life dance sequence? 🌹🧸

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 5: Flip Slip.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #Yungmang Jiang Training Arc AU #lan wangji #wei wuxian #digital art #Trying out some digital techniques to see if I can get closer to feel/style of my traditional comics.#So far the biggest difference is *colouring* Digital colouring feels...not good. I have complained about this before and I'll complain agai #Before we get into the sad stuff with Yungmeng Jiang in the PD-MDZS comics lets have some lighthearted fun!#Remember that if anything bad happens to these Jiang disciples in the canon comic - they are happy in this AU B'*)#I think one of the funniest things about the teenxian dynamic is how WWX accidently finds things that get LWJ to feel flustered.#My guy wwx goes 'I'm going to lightly bully/tease this nerd 'cause his reactions are funny.' and LWJ goes “My god. He's everything to me.”#Part two of the fun part of this dynamic is that LWJ is ever so lightly self aware enough to LOATHE THIS CRUSH.#Hence why I have been marinating on this 'Accidental Lan headband miscommunication' concept.#This is how LWJ assumes that WWX knows what the band means in this AU. This will be relevant later.#And YES! I am still going to be making comics for this AU. I have so many ideas I simply can't hold onto forever.

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wickedcriminal · 4 months ago

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Last Unicorn quote stuck out to me so I gave it to Spider-Fox

(the only person willing to be your friend and he didn't show up until long after you already lost all trust in other people)

#i won't post about the movie yet but i WILL post more sonic prime heyooo!! there's no escape!!#sonic prime #sth #nine the fox #miles nine prower #shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #tails the fox #my art #baby fox do do do do do do #poor sonic though: imagine raising a kid like family only to see how the kid would turn out if you were never in his life and its BAD #the guilt that would crush him for not being there for him (even though it wasn't his fault) so he tries to make it up to the kid #by doubling down on affection and praise and trying to let the kid know he's worthy of love #but ultimately he's NOT the same kid; you missed your chance a long time ago and now all you can do is watch as your baby brother #fades into a shadow of pain paranoia and loneliness and everyone keeps saying that the only thing left to do is give up on him entirely #but you CAN'T DO THAT you'd rather die than give up on this kid #but it keeps biting you in the ass because he's NOT YOUR BROTHER and he's hellbent on isolating himself at any cost— even from you #I'M NORMAL ABOUT NINE I SWEAR

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corviiids · 14 days ago

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grappling hook related posts

#you dont understand. in the runup to royal i was so fucking excited for this grappling hook #i was like finally we can circumvent the worst parts of eg okumuras palace #where you run down a path and then like two cubes fall in front of you that you could definitely climb #and the game is like oh no time to spend fifty hundred hours zigzagging around the factory #you know what gamers like? you know what gives a sense of progress? when the goal is in sight but you can't reach it for contrived reasons #(crushing the dualshock in my hands) anyway #they announced the grappling hook and i was like oh my god maybe now we will get actual “gameplay”#no #now we get ren refusing to use the grappling hook except for at specific osha approved grappling locations for trinkets #and goro akechi being passive aggressive at you when you dont use the grappling hook #and you STILL can't get over those FUCKING blocks #rookposting #p5 #this is a deep seated grievance

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marzipanandminutiae · 2 months ago

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"this old mansion is $20 million, but it's really hard to find a buyer because four spaces inside have preservation restrictions and the rest needs extensive work to convert it back from a dormitory to a house again!"

I know, off the top of my head, at least ten museum workers who make under $35K/year who would absolutely cherish this building and pour their hearts and souls into preserving and restoring it. and they'd make sure it was done RIGHT, too. you want public access for scholars and researchers? guaranteed. they'd fall all over themselves to make it a study center or something

but. they can't do that. because it's $20 million. so it sits there waiting for that rare billionaire who actually cares about something bigger than themself, empty and unrestored

do you ever just want to Bite Things?

#so I got to see a really cool old house today #an old house that neither I nor anybody else who's dedicated their lives to preserving and learning from these spaces #could ever hope to afford #like all old houses #the one mercy here is that it can't be gutted by some rich asshole. but most of them can be and many of them are #we would treasure them but because we chose that path #they can never be ours #god it's such a crushing grinding omnipresent despair #every Gorgeous Victorian Mantle!!! on FB Marketplace that's clearly taken from an intact house (in the photos)#entire STAIRCASE BANISTERS ditto #'we opened up the space! we modernized it! buy this stained glass window!' and I can't do a DAMN THING #to save even ONE HOUSE #because I can't afford it. and these vandals. these absolute desecrators of art and beauty. they fucking can

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lazylittledragon · 8 months ago

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I saw on your IG you had some nasty comments about this but as a curvy girl, THANK YOU for the way you draw Karlach and Shadowheart's bodies!! They're both so soft looking :')

YOU'RE SO WELCOME LET THEM BE SQUISHY

#ramble #bg3 #y e a h i get that whenever my art breaks containment #it's ok though it helps my engagement #i've always drawn karlach the way that strongwomen/deadlifters are built #like it doesn't make sense for her to be thin because to maintain muscle that's for function and not just for show you NEED fat #you need something to PROTECT those abs they can't just be open to the elements #also i like women who could crush me #that's all the justification i need

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fairylando · 6 months ago

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just finished watching the wild robot (im a sobbing mess) and i got sent this tiktok... how do you even begin to explain this, and most of all, is there a non-gay way to explain it???

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