#and it only made fah love him more

[iguessitsjustme]

Honestly Oh insults himself all of the time without even realizing it. "I don't believe you're actually dating" okay way to tell on yourself ya dumbass. Oh is openly admitting to himself, his friends, his crush, his crush's fake boyfriend, that he knows his crush doesn't like him back and he's so bad at being around his crush (just in general) that his crush is willing to pretend to date someone else just to get rid of him. He is admitting he knows he's not wanted! Just take the L my guy there's no coming back from that

[respectthepetty]

I love Rak's grandfather the most in Your Sky (and will be ignoring the last scene of episode eleven)!

BECAUSE THIS WAS CRAZY!

But the grandfather joined the BL grandmas and made it clear that he was not going to ignore his son's wild reactions to his grandson's relationship.

They were all supportive! They were all wearing blue! But the dad just had to be dramatic! He just had to ruin everything! HE JUST HAD TO BE RIDICULOUS!

But I actually like how this was done because the entire family walked away from the dad, and the mom was direct with her "Are you happy hurting your child?"

And the grandpa went in on his own son about being a better dad!

They love their guy, but they also know his actions do not align with his belief that he is protecting his child when he is actually the one harming him.

I'm glad Rak has a supportive family who is there for him.

And that family is willing to sneak in a little date for him!

I'm also glad he has supportive friends who tell him to talk to Fah.

But more importantly, I'm glad this precious little warm blanket of a man did not try to sacrifice himself or his relationship.

Rak loves his Blue Boy and will continue to fight for his relationship!

Because they are better together!

Rak is a Yellow Yal, who brings sunshine and happiness into Fah's life!

And Fah is a loyal Blue Boy who can always be relied on to provide stability and security.

So this entire sequence of Rak walking in the gallery of blue skies leading to Fah . . .

GENIUS!

Then they embraced in front of a painting that looks like all the sunsets they have watched together.

I love the little Dior hearts on Fah. I love the blue on Rak. AND I LOVE THEM!

And I really liked this episode.

Now, can these two get it together, since THERE'S ONLY ONE EPISODE LEFT!

[prapaiwife]

Oh, this scene in the novel is what made me love North more than I already do and as to why he's one of my favorite characters now!! Also, bas is doing such a great great job as North! And so seeing it here, I'm just screaming and crying, lol. As fah said, not everyone has one side to them. When we're stressed, we don't wanna talk or socialize in any capacity. And him being johans friend for a while, he can tell that's how jo is. But when he's with others, he doesn't act like that cause with North he doesn't have to feel like he needs to be what others already expect of him. And North, being the best person, ever says he doesn't think it's bad for jo to feel whatever it is he is. He should be able to express that emotion if he's stressed or whatever. And fah asking a good question!, he doesn't put the stress on you? Cause he is exhausted and stressed from the choas of his work life and balancing school, And North says no immediately cause johan doesn't ever make north feel like it's his problem he doesn't put his stress onto north! And fah seeing johan when he's with north be completely just at this ease is something he doesn't rarely see only when he's with him and so him asking north to stay and north willing to do just that 🥺

johan said, North truly made his life so special cause it was him. He's such an uncomplicated person, as he says himself. He accepts johan as he is, though he knows others have their preconceptions about him, and he doesn't care. He sees and hears enough about johan. He's very hardworking a workaholic truly. He takes care of him so well cause he wants to it's more than just a transactional thing it's cause johan had been found his person then and isn't gonna lose his 2nd chance😭

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Currently Watching - January

aka The Masterlist

Because I love a good little list - in alphabetical order! ����

Regularly updated during the month, latest update 31.01.2025

A little link to my favorite bl-tropes-collection 💙

gif-requests are open, but you'll need to have some patience🌼

Here you can find all of my gifs.

At the end you can have a look at what we can expect in January with a MDL link and a link for a trailer (if avaible).

This is guaranteed to contain spoilers!

1. Eternal Butler 🇹🇼 (5/12)

I really don't like this one that much. Why am I still here? The plot is hiding, the acting is playing catch with the writing. Some emotions are shining through and yet this feels very muh bland.

2. Futtara Doshaburi 🇯🇵 (4/7)

My intention was to talk about what a nice social study this show is. How the lack of sex can make you feel this insecure and lost and that the missing communication is not helping. I wanted to talk about how much Nakarai is longing for some physical touch, some love, not just sex and how this situation is slowly eating him up. And then there was the preview and my mind went "oh." Just "oh". See you next week.

3. I'll Turn Back This Time 🇨🇳 (2/6)

Okay, just time travel this time. Cut the step brothers. I enjoyed this episode and Shen Nan building a connection with Gu Shi Wen. I still don't understand the time travel and the changes that been made because of it, but I hope we get a little more information in the future.

4. Ossan's Love Thailand 🇹🇭 (4/12)

What in the Luigi is happening here? This series is really challenging me. The only thing I kinda like is Mix's acting and the soundtrack. The OST is so funny. The show? Not so much. It is really difficult to watch. Just not my humor.

5. Sangmin Dinneaw 🇹🇭 (5/8)

This series is such a rollercoaster. One moment they are sweet and innocent and the other second they are eating each other! And everyone beside the main couple is just pure chaos. I watch it only half, because I can't watch most of the cringe scenes. And now I am kinda curious what Sangmin's secret is.

6. Study Group 🇰🇷 (4/10)

I like the study group. They are all such characters. And I really enjoy the fight-scenes. So the study group is finally complete and now they are fighting evil bastards? I guess. And I am here for it. But I am so sorry Cha WooMin. Ever since Weak Hero Class 1 I can't like you. You hurt me too much! And now you're a villain again? Damn!

7. ThamePo Heart That Skips A Beat 🇹🇭 (8/13)

Oh you mother of all slow burn! This is pure torture for them and for us! And I love every bits of it! So we finally get Jun telling his intentions (I was right, yeah!) and Thame showed again why he is the greenest flags of them all! He is such a fair player and a loyal friend, who wouldn't sacrifice one or the other, but wants Po to make the decision. Only Jun already knew that Po already likes Thame (and like everyone else knows too). I didn't like the fact that Jun told Thame and Po about their mutual crush, but without him, let's be honest, they would still just stare at each other. And yes, I was screaming at my screen "Just kiss already", but this is such a delightful torture of a slow burn! Really delicious! And we got some hand holding. But Thame... your idea putting Po's hand in your pocket and nobody will know is just dumb. But they hold hands! AHHHHH! And next week... AHHHHHH!

8. The Heart Killers 🇹🇭 (10/12)

Joong really delivered in this episode. His single tears were so good. Fadel breaking down and allowing Style to comfort him, to protect him, to love every side of him was indeed beautiful. The series is not good, but this episode was quite good. But Mama being the bad guy here. Who was surprised? Be honest.

9. Word of Honor 🇨🇳 (25/36)

Yes, I kept watching. Well, this will take me a while to finish, I fear.

10. Your Sky 🇹🇭 (11/12)

The question for me this episode was: Why do you think Rak can't have a happy family and someone who cares about him with Fah? Why do you think he needs a woman for that? The father really annoyed me with his I don't want to talk about it attitude. He is just worried? He wouldn't be worried if Fah was a woman. I understand where they were coming from with this plot line, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. What I still love about this series is the communication, especially between the mains. And that Rak didn't sacrifice his relationship in the end, but he stood by his man and so did Fah. I love them!

Finished in January

Series

Miseinen: Mijukuna Oretachi wa Bukiyo ni Shinkochu 🇯🇵

Somewhere along the way I lost interest. I don't like the trope of noble idiocy and that kinda ruins my wish to continue the series. And while it might fit into the narrative, I still don't like it. And so I didn't like the ending. Well, the ending itself was okay and it felt real. Coming out to the friends and family would have not fit the plot. I liked that about the series. Overall a strong start, a mediocre middle and a weaker ending. I give it a 7 out of 10.

See Your Love 🇹🇼

I went into this without any expectations. And damn, I am so happy I could binge this one. I loved it! They are so cute. The height difference is adorable! The story might came a little bit short, but but the characters and their developments and relationships made this series really enjoyable. I love how enthusiastic Yang Zixiang learned sign language. You could see, that this was important for him. The depiction of disability was good and well performed. The side-couple is the only thing that was not for me. I give it a strong 9,5 out of 10.

Fourever You Project 🇹🇭

I just binged this one. I started for Johan and North and I stayed for them. And for the others beside Hill and Ter. I adore Pond. I loved him in 180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us. But this series was not for him. He and Earth have no chemistry together. Perhaps I don't like the typecast of Earth. Most of the times his characters annoy me and he isn't allowed to play an adult. And with Pond there was no spark on my screen. Other with Maxky and Bas. Their characters were goo. The chemistry was good. Their story was good and not that cliche-loaded as HillTer's was. I want to know what is going on with the other two, Tonfah and Arthit. The plot was a college bl. Plain, good ol' college bl. Nothing more nothing less. I admit I skipped most of Hill and Ter's scenes after Johan and North got the lead. I give it a 7 out of 10.

Movie

Short Film

Dropped in January

Looking forward to in January

The Boy Next World - Trailer (Jan 5th)

Ossan's Love - Trailer (Jan 6th)

Call Me by No-Name (Jan 10th)

Impression of Youth (Jan 15th)

The Paradise Of Thornes - Trailer (Jan 22nd)

[tinrange]

Despite rushing it, this weeks Your Sky episode left me feeling relieved in some way, there was no sidestepping the external homophobia or its impact on Rak. He was not in his head, he was nervous and right to be and that fear thats been plaguing him is not one borne only of outsized fear.

This is going to sound incredibly jaded but im increasingly tired of modern QLs not committing to homophobia as a True obstacle for their protagonists. It is sooooo reocccurent: Only Boo, 23.5, even as far back as Dark Blue Kiss and countless other shows, the characters are scared and apprehensive about coming out just to be told theres no reason to. Its becoming increasingly grating to see tv that wants to include homophobia, whether to legitimize a rship in face of struggle or make their characters more relatable to an LGBT audience, but never has their characters deal with it as anything more than an internal battle because everyone around them is always ready to accept them.

Raks commitment to sticking by Fah even as his father disapproves is a big moment for his character growth and a display of how their relationship has not only made him happier but firmer in his wants and needs. The menacing air around his father at dinner, his mothers silence before her sad acceptance, the blow up with swearing and his fathers assertion of control, all complete with his fathers decision to put his adult son on house arrest and watch him like a hawk lest he steer off the right path. They cant even talk. Its also such an underdiscussed dynamic to be the one who has to introduce more pain to your partner, especially the homophobic kind. For all the queer discourse on dating someone whos closeted, theres a worry of having to 'force' someone to endure what you have to for the crime of loving you. I wish the show wouldve had more time to sit with these themes but in some ways I get it, its hard to rectify that melancholy with the light vibe its had going, similar to the LITBC movie.

Theres been a lot of discussion on sanitizing queer experiences for a larger audience, sparked by a great post from @lurkingshan, and to see a show so firmly bubbled up that it seemed removed from all real depictions of homophobia reaching for the chance to show something Real made me appreciate it much more. Its extremely telling that even in the homophobic 'I like you, not boys' era familial and communal homophobia was treated as a viable obstacle instead of a stepping stone to a happier future. The commodification of BL specifically has made these sort of expressions of overt homophobia rarer recently. Even when its discussed you cant really see it the same. A show like this, whos audience loves a bit of fanservice and light fluff, sticking to depicting such a lash out is an unequivocal good to me at this point considering how Thai BL really feels its hit a standstill in the things its allowed to be brazen about. It feels a bit fatalistic to say, especially for a show so nutrient light, but we really are entering a period of conservatism and the media landscape refusing to reckon with that is never a good sign.

[cupidarchived]

Your Sky: Episode 5

I honestly don't think I have ever loved an on-going show as much as I love Your Sky. Instant butterflies and giddiness are all I feel when thinking about and watching this show. It is currently the highlight of my week, every week.

I did not get a chance to make a post for last week's episode (4), mostly because I was reading the book and was too overwhelmed to put anything into words. Thomas and Kong (and the entire cast) are perfect for these roles. Not only have they wowed me every episode so far but having the details and the back story just made watching this week's episode 2x greater. I am still overwhelmed so I will try to keep this short, but the happiness this show brings me tends to take over often so forgive me if this gets lengthy.

The first 18 seconds of them just taking each other in is already giving me butterflies. Teerak staring at Muenfah with wonder and Muenfah in turn staring at Teerak with adoration and pride after being told that he helped Teerak speak-up for himself, that he's helped him become stronger. Muenfah having to catch himself after unconsciously reaching out to touch Teerak. He never wants to make him uncomfortable with his own feelings, he doesn't think they're Teerak's burden to bear. Teerak instead noticing and giving the go ahead and better directing him on how to pet/praise him. This whole cafe scene is adorable, sweet sweet boys.

A BL father willingly watching a BL series and taking the time to listen and understand. I'm shocked. I wonder if this is it as far as Teerak's dad's acceptance goes (because the book is.. different). Teerak giggling as he imagines Muenfah as the teasing and playful main lead of said BL series is interesting and cute. Got something you want to say, Teerak?

These are the worst fake daters (and siblings-in-crime) ever. Between Punlee asking why they would hold hands, Muenfah and Teerak being completely clueless as to anything couples do, and Babe being a real overprotective sister even in a fake situation.. our crew is most likely going to get caught by someone, unless they've already made everything official by then. But my dear sweet Joy, I totally get you. Rewinding 5 times to catch every detail of a show is me with Your Sky.

Real is one of my top guesses for the one who may catch them if their fake-dating sham is exposed. That is if he can work past his own gay panic with a certain red cutie in his own life. The hand-holding at school was precious, even if the head pat was awkward. AND, Teerak was wearing pink while they did it! Which I know means he's in love, (Thank you, Petty!)

I love that they addressed the fact that for some people you can't just pretend to be a couple. You have to get to know one another and make progress for it to be believable. Punlee knew something was up the moment this whole thing started but the way he watched Fah in the kitchen, he confirmed what he already suspected. (Also, as someone who loves the details, I love how the production/design team made sure to include details from the book, the cupid fountain in front of the Phisut/Pisuthi house was a nice touch!)

Muenfah is so in love with Teerak, the way he just watches him with such fondness in his eyes. Not only does he adore Teerak, but he respects him tremendously. (Ugh, Muenfah you are the dream man!) Him moving around the couch to give Teerak as much space and comfort as possible took me out! They are not only adorable but they're also hilarious. I love that Teerak noticed Muenfah's discomfort and immediately apologized. I love even more the way Muenfah waited for verbal confirmation and consent that Teerak wanted his touch and then he just went for it. Like he had been waiting his whole life for it. The arm grazing, hand-holding, immediately scooting closer so that their bodies touch, his hand rubbing up-and-down Teerak's back, the hand on his shoulder. Teerak allowed him to stop holding back and gosh if that didn't confirm how badly he wants Teerak. Get Teerak out of the kitchen, NOW. But he��s sooooo baby. I, too, would fold. I get you, Muenfah, I really do. I’m praying for you, buddy. “P’Fah, we talked about this.” Fah, let him hold your hands, please. You both want to! They’re so flirty and I don’t think either of them realize until the other person is reciprocating! Oh’s obsession is beyond weird at this point, but we see where he gets it from. His mother is an enabler and she’s just as immature as he is for wanting to get unwarranted revenge on her son’s behalf. I’m disgusted by them both.

Teerak thinks his P’Fah is so cute. The endless eye contact between these two is astounding. Couple naps are very precious. They’re getting more comfortable with each other. I KNEW it was a dream, but STILL! The kiss! The fact that it was Teerak dreaming instead of Muenfah also confirms how much Teerak is falling for Fah, even if he doesn’t understand or realize it yet. He wants Fah so bad, he’s started showing up in his dreams. He doesn’t want their relationship to be a joke or to be fake either. The way he grabbed Fah’s shirt in the dream, please. His heart pounding after waking up and looking into the real Fah’s eyes. And now he’s avoiding him. Fah looks like he wants to lose his mind until Lee brings up the possibility of it being Fah making Rak blush instead of upsetting him. And then he’s all smiles afterwards, he wants it to be Rak blushing because of him so badly. Love as a sickness is almost always such an interesting and accurate metaphor. Poor Rak doesn’t understand what’s happening to him.

I love both of these friend groups so much. I love the way everyone adores Teerak and how Muenfah will give a death glare whether someone does and/or doesn’t adore him. That moment of realization for Dom when Fah and Rak are staring at each other. The almost kiss! They were both so ready and willing to let it happen. Even Fah’s friends were shocked they were going for it. And then Babe stopped it right before we got anything! (I adore her in all her fierceness, over-protective big sister love, and general cuteness despite being so tough.) Fah wanting to take his baby home like Dom and Babe aren’t right there. :(( Fah, himself was getting ready to lose it had he gotten to kiss his boy. He had to calm down. Him coming to bring Rak some meds even though he just finished working late at night. He had to have been thinking of his sick boy all day. He is the sweetest, most thoughtful guy ever. “I care about you," as Rak’s heart immediately starts pounding in his chest. People seem to think that Fah rehearsed the head pat and the nickname but this time I think it was all him. He had no one to convince, just him and his Naughty Baby.

Gosh I am SO obsessed with them. And the book just made me love the characters even more. Next week, our sweet boys get to go to their favorite place together and they get to film romantic scenes. Teerak is considering his feelings seriously and we’re being teased about him confessing his feelings to his P’Fah. They’re both pretty great communicators so my hopes are high. I’m so excited.

[wayfinder-family-lover]

Honestly, a thing I adore with Your Sky is how the platonic relationship are always present! Usually, with this type of show, the friendship become more background to the romantic one. And while the series is focus on FahRak bc it's a romance show, the platonic love is still very much present and important.

And the best example of this is Teerak's imagining his first meeting with the Phisut parents. Not only it shows Teerak is an overthinker yet again, but most importantly it highlight his friendship with Punlee.

Even in his most stressfull moment, when he is thinking about the worst, he still can't think of Lee being against him. He has a fear that Fah can turn against him if his parents aren't approving (which is practically impossible, this man is WHIPPED and the only person that can compete with his whippeness is his own brother), but Lee? He is still on his side. For Rak's brain, it's just downright impossible for Punlee to not be in his side, THAT'S HIS BEST FRIEND!

And I love that, I love the fact it's not because Teerak is in love with Muenfah, that his friendship with Punlee is diminish. His love for Fah doesn't overshadow his friendship with Lee.

I will even argue his trust in Lee is stronger than in trust in Fah, but not bc he doesn't trust Fah or that Fah show him reason to distrust him. It's a time thing. The more you spend time with someone the more you are secure in the relationship (no matter the kind of relationship) and trust them. And it shows here, Teerak and Punlee are friends for over a year by that point, Muenfah and Teerak are only dating for a few weeks and close for what 2 months, 3 at most. Of course, he would trust his relationship with Lee more, they spend more time together. Doesn't mean that Fah cannot reach that, on contrary I know he would, but this take time. A time Lee already has.

And as someone point out, Fah might have realize that, which is why he asks Lee to be here, even when Lee himself wasn't that thrill lol.

Showing that Muenfah is ready to step down, when he can't bring Teerak the comfort he needs. He is ready to let someone else take care of Teerak if they are a better fit to comfort him.

And that, in my opinion, makes the love between Muenfah and Teerak stronger. Because they aren't the only one to be able to comfort the other, because they have friends and families who are supportive and sometime a better fit to comfort them. It makes their love stronger, as when they do it's a choice they made. And it's something they work on or let time do his thing. It's such a refreshing couple, who we see work on their love and themselves, which is why they fall in love with one another. And whose love doesn't diminish their platonic love they have with their friends and families. Their love is so selfless, because they only want each other happiness. And doesn't care who is the one to bring that happiness.

[traceofexistence]

I finally got to read "blank" the novel

and I was really surprised how close (at least dialogue wise) the series were to it.

now there were some differences but overall, pretty close.

after having the full picture for both, I prefer the series over the book, especially when it comes to Khun Nueng but also because the book is in first person, and when it comes to other characters including Anueng, they are written from the point of view of Khun Nueng, which is fine, but I personally prefer stories that are 3rd person, and get to flesh out the characters from unbiased views. Khun Nueng being the narrator means that we only get her view on the others.

I'll get into some details under the cut

so spoilerinos ahoy

Khun Nueng, in the book, she speaks way more than in the show, and she has no filter whatsoever, which makes her a little bit more immature in the book than in the show. I prefer the way she was in the show, because she was better balanced, and Faye can just be mute in an entire scene and speak volumes with just her eyes (which is my preferred style of story telling. I, myself, write minimal dialogues, if at all, in my own stories). I like how Khun Nueng also dealt with situations in the series more than how she did in the book. For example when she caught Folk stalking, in the series she gave him an earful while in the book, she brushed his stalking off. When Fah asked her about the nature of her relationship with Anueng, in the book she went and spilled what they do in bed in full detail (no filter), which was unnecessary in my opinion and I preferred the more mild "we love each other, and we do things that women do when they love each other" approach in the series. Another thing that is very clear in the book, is that Khun Nueng only had sexual experiences with women in the past, never with men. She knew that girls in girl schools were messing around with each other, but when asked if she also did, she said that she didn't because it wasn't the appropriate age to do. It is safe to assume that she started having sex either during University or right after she graduated Uni, and of course behind her grandma's back LOL.

Anueng, since she's depicted from Khun Nueng's perspective in the book, we dont get the full picture of her, up until the end where the author wrote some chapters form Anueng's POV. Unlike the series, in the book, she remains immature in certain aspects, even when she's grown. In the series, she's not only the more mature, but she also goes through the biggest character growth of all. the series did an amazing job with her character, because they gave her so much more depth.

Folk, he's an absolute sweetheart in the series, and he becomes a good friend to Anueng, while he has no personality whatsoever in the book, he is just there.

Chet, he is bad in all versions, but he dare put his hands on Khun Nueng in the book, so I despise him even more. In the series at the very least, he made an effort in the end.

Yui, this poor girl!!! in the series she was given a chance to be Anueng's friend, while in the book, Anueng ends up ditching her and hating her because the poor girl fell for Khun Nueng's charms 😭

Piengfah, this is the character that I actually prefer in the book, over the one in the series. in the book, she actually understands her daughter, and why she fell for Khun Nueng. She doesn't lash out on Khun Nueng, and she's the only one who understands her. I was more sympathetic to her and her reasons, than the series one.

Dr. Wan Viva, ahhh pretty doctor😍. Million % prefer the series one, because not only her first scene is different than the book, but also she keeps coming back, and she's a great friend to Khun Nueng. (spoilers from the Affair novel) I didn't read that one myself but a friend did, and I asked them the details of their relationship. so pretty doctor, had gay thoughts and wanted to figure out if her gay thoughts were just for that one person or extended to other women. She first met Khun Nueng at a bar, and they had an one night stand. Apparently Khun Nueng was very good at fucking, and pretty doctor complimented her on her skills (LOL) but she realized that her gay thoughts are for her one and only. oh well.

Grandma 1, Khun Nueng's grandma in both the series and the book, gets the same amount of chara development and it's pretty much the same. I understand her role as a parental figure of a royal child, and the unbreakable exterior. I think the series picked an excellent actress, whose looks made her more sympathetic figure, especially at the end. (not gonna lie grandma was hot as hell too, in Khun Nueng's words, "of course all my family members are good looking" and that was one hot grandma right there😛)

Grandma 2, Anueng's grandma got little to no story in the book, since she was the character Khun Nueng interacted the least with. I prefer of course how she was depicted in the series, as they gave her substance and actual character. also both actresses who played her did a great job. The s1 actress was so fucking scary, the s2 actress was cuter and cuddly looking but her tongue was sharp 🔪 as fuck

One thing I absolutely LOVE about the series is that they added where it needed, and removed when it was too much.

One of the things the show added, was Khun Nueng taking care of Anueng in the hospital, in the book she was just visiting, but in the series she actually became a caretaker, she washed her, cut her nails, massaged her muscles, etc, and of course read her her fav novel "Blank" 😅

in the book Khun Nueng expressed in her thoughts how her royal title was not fitting the humility she was feeling (when she begged the parents to let her love Anueng, or when she dropped on her knees crying in front of everyone), but in the series, such thoughts were never expressed, but instead they showed how the ML Sippakorn had been humbled by nursing her loved one. I loved that about the series.

another thing the series changed was Khun Nueng's profession.

in the book, she was just drawing because she was good at it, and then she became a cook because she was good at it.

in the series, Art for Khun Nueng was precious, it was linked to her grandma giving her her first drawing equipment, it was linked to her pain when grandma told her that she shouldn't be an architect(by the way in the book she actually studied to be an architect, but in the series we never learn if she actually studied it or if she followed what her grandma demanded her to study.)

she made up with Anueng by drawing her picture, etc etc. and she ended up opening a gallery and do workshop.

the cooking on the other hand, was her love language. her grandma taught her how to cook, and she cooked for Anueng to show her love.

I loved that approach to her profession better. it was given reason, while in the book she didn't give a fuck really LOL

overall the book was an easy read, the use of some english words in the translate version unfortunate (I mean the word grooming, used with its innocent meaning. example: "my grandma groomed me to be a perfect") of course it doesnt take much for someone to make a bad faith argument and render the entire story as inappropriate. anyone with a brain can figure it out through context .

the smut was well written, just like with the series, in the book as well, there was a sense of consent given, Khun Nueng would ask all the time, what Anueng wanted. Consent is fucking sexy 🤷‍♂️

[secriden]

#i'm so grateful for this because of how it adds this heart wrenchingly beautiful tenderness to kluen (who is otherwise portrayed as being #cold and aloof) and allows him to show the soft tenderness he feels for dao

oh my god if you enjoy Kluen's soft tenderness towards Dao I can't wait to see how you'll feel about the extras!!!!

Sky in Your Heart is not everyone's cup of tea (in my case, I liked the setting and one of the characters, but not so much the other/them as a couple), but I recommend trying anyway, just to see if it works for you. If it doesn't, here's a list @airenyah made of the KluenDao moments scattered through the episodes, so you can find their scenes more easily.

After that, don't forget to watch the Star & Sky: Special Episode and their Our Skyy episode as well. All these extras are delightful, and I promise you're gonna love them 🥺

:o i'd heard that their Special Episode and their Our Skyy episodes were bad so i hesitating to watch them cuz i didn't want to ruin my KluenDao enjoyment... but now i really want to!

i... sort of see what you mean about SIYH not being everyone's cup of tea. i enjoyed watching Fah as Dao's doting/playful/protective older brother but as half of a main pair i can't help but find him kind of immature...although i'm cognisant of the fact that i've only just started the series and he'll probably grow in the process of the story. but its just weird to me because he's supposed to be a working adult who graduated a while ago, but he has bratty/entitled 2nd year uni student energy for some reason.

aaslkdfsldfj thank you for linking me to the list of timestamps!! that... will certainly speed up the process of me getting to the lovely KluenDao moments. *w*

but already in episode 1 i am basking in Kluen and Dao's dynamic!! its kind of overwhelming to see them so... settled into their relationship.

obsessed with the way Dao looks up with that teasing amused kitten smile on his lips. obsessed with Kluen being this bold in his affection in front of other people (and specifically Fah, because Kluen clearly feels he lived up to his words in ep 8).

oh my gosh i'm just realising how excited i am to see domestic established relationship KluenDao!?!? like!!!!! normally you don't get that cuz the show ends when they get together and you maybe get a small glimpse into it during the special episode but this!?!? a whole series worth of guest-star moments!?!? *O*

[vellatra]

For the writing challenge how about Slow Dancing by V and Radiant Dawn? :)

You know what? I like you, and you've also been very patient (thanks! sorry!). Why don't you have TWO snippets? ;)

First, Radiant Dawn: 🐦‍🔥

"What's that?" asked Elincia, trying to peek over her shoulder.

A gentleman am I, and so should not

Blame you for ev'ry fleeting wish and thought.

But prithee, why must you confuse me so?

Your eyes tell me to stay, your lips say "go".

I trust I have made my intentions clear,

And that you know I love you very dear.

I only wish that you would do the same

And not play, with my heart, your little game.

Perhaps it would be better to depart,

And thus, protect my poor, love-stricken heart.

Alas! It is too late, I'll ne'er be swayed.

All my affections remain yours, good maid.

"Nothing!" Lucia stammered, stuffing the love letter into her pocket. Count Bastian would be the death of her yet.

When Nen came out of the mess tent, Neta was setting and the sky was rapidly fading to the burnt orange of twilight. The tents and shanties' shadows were lengthening across the charred earth, leaving New Silcard looking a bit gloomy.

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And now, the Silen Fah one! ☀️

"Matches our moods," Nen thought sullenly, shuffling down a "street" toward the lean-to he'd been sharing with Fabian and four jelturen. He had to give everyone credit; they'd all really tried to bring each other's hope back. But their town was burnt down, and poor little Trajeda... he hated to even think about it, but she'd probably burnt down with it. Tannufia, especially, had been inconsolable, no matter what anybody did. There was nothing to be done now... but that didn't make things any easier to bear.

Then Nen saw something that did make him perk up a little. His eyes were sweeping the hastily-planted gardens on the outskirts of camp... and he noticed Vixie. He abruptly rotated in his walk and strolled in her direction. She had her back to him and was pulling out weeds - a bit more fiercely than was entirely necessary. Nen stepped over one row and settled down to help.

"Oh!" said Vixie, glancing nervously up at him.

"Didn't scare ya, did I?" said Nen.

"...No, no it's fine," said Vixie, her face softening. Then she frowned a little and looked back down at her work.

Nen grunted, and worked side by side with her in silence for awhile. But it didn't take long for him to get uncomfortable. Eventually he cleared his throat. "So... what's been eating you?"

"Eating?"

"You know. Bothering you. Upsetting you. Keeping you up at night."

"You don't know that," said Vixie.

"Everybody with eyes knows that," he said, gesturing up and down at her disheveled face. "You're sleeping less than your sister and that's saying something."

"Why should I tell you?" Vixie growled, struggling against something with a particularly deep root. "We don't even know who we can trust anymore."

"Hey now, that's hurtful," he said, trying - unsuccessfully - to catch her eye. "You know you can trust me. What reason could I have to sell out to the Mervaturen? All my friends are right here. You're right here. I'd have nothing at all to gain, and everything to lose. I'm not the spy and you know it."

Vixie suddenly met his gaze. She was hard to read - her brows were furrowed, her cheeks were flushed, and her eyes were full of tears. "Why can't you leave me alone?" she groaned.

"Wha-" Nen started, but stopped when Vixie started to cry. He climbed over the little plants and pulled her into a hug - which, surprisingly, she did not resist. Somehow, this silence wasn't so tense, and Nen was able to restrain himself for awhile. So there he sat, in the lengthening shadows, with Vixie weeping softly into his shoulder, for quite some time. But all the while, his mind was racing. She wants me to leave her alone? But why did she let me hug her? She's hugging me back? Is she mad? Just dealing with grief? Why accuse me of being the spy? I kind of understand the other humans, but why her? ...Maybe if I confide in her, she'll confide in me?

"Hey," he finally mumbled in her ear, when the crying jag seemed to be winding down. "Can you keep a secret?"

Vixie pushed away immediately and sat back on her heels, frowning at him again. "Don't tell me anything," she huffed, wiping her eyes.

"Eh? I thought we just had a moment-"

"No moments!" said Vixie, standing up quickly. The tears were coming hard and fast again. "This isn't the time or the place for a moment!" She turned and ran down the garden path.

"I don't get it," Nen called, hurrying after her. "You've got a thing for me, I can tell that. But you're always pushing me away as hard as you can. Help it make sense!"

"I can't do this right now," said Vixie, spinning around to confront him, and starting when she found her nose practically poking him in the chest.

"Listen," said Nen, "we're all pretty rattled right now, I get that. But pushing your friends away and always assuming the worst isn't doing you any favors. Romance or not, I want to help you. So I've got this thing I haven't told anybody yet, and I want you to let me trust you with it. Can you do that?"

Vixie started to say something, but whatever it was caught in her throat. Nen found himself holding her again, and this time, she'd initiated the embrace.

"Right," said Nen, swaying slightly between the rows of carrots. "So..." he took a deep breath. Now that he came to it, he didn't really want to give away his secret. But it was something to help distract Vixie from... whatever it was. So he forged ahead. "I figured out my power."

"W... what?" she said, puling her head away to look into his eyes.

"I haven't told anybody because I can't control it," said Nen. "It's not a blessing so much as a curse, really. Sometimes, when I get too excited or upset... I turn into a dragon."

"What??"

"I can't control when I change, or when I change back," Nen hurried on. "I can't even control my fire breath all that well. I do more damage by accident than anything else. And everyone else's powers have come so easily... I just don't think they'd understand why I can't control it. So I haven't said anything. But that's why I've been disappearing for days on end. I'm not a spy. I'm a dragon."

"Oh Nen..." Vixie leaned her head against him again. "Why would you tell me?"

"Well..." he thought for a minute. "Because I trust you."

[theheightofdishonor]

Inspired by this post, I kinda wanted to make my own dream cast for a female Only Friends since it seemed so fun. However, it turns out that i'm indecisive (which you'd think I already know) so I mostly just ended up musing different options. I kept a lot of @pranink's casting because they were so dead perfect.

Like Pat and Fah for Ray and Sand, especially Fah for Sand is such an inspired choice because she can pull of that same edge of sincerity that Sand has. And Pat ofc is a master at playing terrible and yet sympathetic characters. (she's a miracle in P.S. I hate you)

Mew was a bit harder. I love Namtam but I kinda wanna see Piploy too. I couldn't find gifs that got across the energy I wanted but I swear, she'd pull off Mew's slightly condescending sweetness and need for moral superiority flawlessly.

For Top, Jane Ramida would be my first pick but I think Tu would be really interesting and in this type of role too. I really can't pick between the two.

I'm keeping pranink's casting of Jamie Juthapich and View for Boston and Nick because it's so ridiculously perfect. Like look at them?

Boeing was the hardest to cast tbh because there's so many options that would work and yet they'd all give totally different vibes.

If we keep Jane as Top, then i'd want Tu as Boeing. Imagine Tu getting between Piploy and Jane?? It'd be amazing. Also this means we'd get FahTu and that's a dream pairing if there ever was one.

But Ciize would kill it too?? And I also kinda wanna see Milk in this role? It's soo difficult. Pics below so you can see.

Final decision though is that if Tu is Top, then Milk is Boeing because F4 (You don't understand how convinced I was that Lita was going to fall in love with Gorya and my dismay when she took the far more boring route of liking Thyme. It doesn't make sense, idc if it's adhering to the storyline)

However, if Jane's Top then Ciize because I know in my heart they'd have excellent chemistry together. And they're both part of SIZZY and I'm slowly accumulating the entire band for this cast.

Gigie for Daddy Dan. I don't think her and View have acted together yet so it'd be a really fun pairing and I think Gigie's got that slightly suspicious vibe that made all of us think Daddy Dan was going to be terrible before he turned out to be hella sweet. (Honestly, Gigie could do Boston too and probably would've been my first pick for it if I didn't fall in love with the idea of Jane J as Boston.)

Cheum and April were also surprisingly hard to pick, especially Cheum. The mean girl that thinks she's a mom friend? Like there are sooo many options. New Thitipoom and Gun Atthaphan would be easy picks but I also like Mike Chinnarat too and Pod because Pod tends to play sweeter characters and i'd love to see him play a mean girl. Ofc, Gun Korawit would kill it too. April would be Guy Sivakorn (he's incidentally in the last gif here and also I believe in my heart that he'd have chemistry with any of these boys. Plus. he's already partnered with Pod (ps i hate you) and Guy S. (2gether) .

If I was casting April and Cheum as a pair though Gun Atthaphan and Tor Thanaphob together would also be great and it wouldn't matter which one plays which because they'd both pull off either.

For Yo and Plug, I kinda like Man Trisanu and Prim Chanikarn. We know Man can do Yo's commitment issues and Prim has that indignant righteousness of someone in their early 20s when dating an older person.

But- and this is literally just for wish fullfillment- you could keep the genders unswitched and go with Zani Nipaporn for Yo and either Pond or Nanon for Plug. Though honestly, as long as Zani's Yo, any of Gmmtv's younger cast could do Plug.

Prigkhing Sureeyares for Atom. I'm imagining her in that scene where Atom lies to Cheum about Boston and honestly, she'd be so perfect for it.

and finally, Jan Ployshompoo for Gap.

[golden-grove]

Letter from Vera Ivanovna Rozanova to Catherine Ruth Falconer, née Harrison

January 1, 1925

10 Ennismore Gardens, Knightsbridge, London

Dearest Katya,

Happy New Year! I received your last by the evening post, and read it late last night (or rather early this morning), as I had company to usher in the New Year. I made myself to wait until they were all gone, but I could not wait until the morning to read your letter!

How is little Ruth? What did she think of all the doings for the New Year? I suppose, by now, she's seen three of them come and go, but surely they have not grown stale to her.

Though I should not like to belittle your fears, I think they are both natural and unfounded. My brother also learned to speak later than his fellows, but he is now, as you know, quite capable of speech. I would not go so far as to call him ordinary, of course - but as to that, you can judge for yourself. In any case, I am sure Ruth will be chattering away like the most loquacious of magpies in a year or so. And when she does, and you cannot find a silent corner of the house, I'll be sure to remind you that "this is what you wanted, a year ago."

I have not yet had a chance to read Manalive, though it's been on the table by my armchair since you sent it. I'm sure I'll enjoy it - that you like it is recommendation enough, besides my thorough enjoyment of Mr Chesterton's other stories. I hope this is just as madcap as the others.

There was nothing much interesting in the personal column of the Times, except "Constance - Sorry to hear of your sad trouble. I wish I could comfort you.", and "Tinkerbell - Always the same, dear. - Rosebud." I wish people could have more exciting messages, for my sake. Why can't some forbidden lovers take up a correspondence in cipher again? That was an entertaining newspaper. Alas! If only more people could be more miserable, for the sake of my entertainment. And they always choose such sickly pet names. "Tinkerbell"? Fah!

Well, I suppose I'll let you get back to your duties. The sooner I send my letter, the sooner I'll get yours. It's always such a treat to her from you!

Until we meet again, dear!

Love,

V. I. R.

[respectthepetty]

Is Babe my favorite character in Your Sky?

Yes.

And when she finds out all the shit that Oh has been doing, she will end that boy where he stands.

Because once Mew showed up with the red bag, I was convinced she was sent on behalf of the devil Oh.

Since she was a black bag girlie before being approached by the devil Oh.

But there's only room in this story for one Red Rascal, and a Black Brooder is already in love with him.

And even though Real is harping on his best friend for being a goofball in love, Real is much worse as he wears Hia's red often, even if it's a darker shade.

Because unlike Real, who is exposing all his secrets by wearing Hia's color, Blue Boy Fah tries really hard to keep his secret hidden, which is probably why he wears so much black.

If Teerak knew just how loyal and in love Fah really was, Fah thinks it might scare him.

But all the signs are there. Literally. 💕

And if Fah paid attention, he would notice Rak is feeling the same way since Rak continues to wear Fah's true color.

Oh, and center his entire life around Fah the sky.

But it couldn't be more obvious than at the celebration party where the pink straw was near Pink Person Joy and the green drink was near Green Guy Type.

Fah, hiding behind pick-up lines, sat there with in his black shirt and his blue straw and practically confessed to Rak with his yellow straw and PINK SHIRT!

Regardless if Rak is aware of it, he is already in love with that Blue Boy.

And Fah continues to give Rak his love and his color by giving Rak sweet treats with color-coded blue straws.

Yet he still keeps his secrets as he lies to Rak about who drew the adorable picture on his drink.

So since these two are incapable of thinking straight when it comes to each other, I'll be the judge of the potential date outfits because I am an expert in colors, which begins with Rak in his color!

7/10 - This would have been the perfect outfit for Fah since he is a Blue Boy in love, but doesn't fit Rak. Not yet at least.

8/10 - This outfit blended their colors together, but the red served as a reminder of the devil Oh breathing down their necks.

0/10 - It's not in their colors and the exposure of Rak's waist would have made that poor Blue Boy insane.

10/10 - It's Fah's color, and Rak looks adorable!

7/10 - If the yellow was more vibrant, this would have been a 9/10 since it also included pink!

?/10 - Oh! This is tough. It's red, but it's strawberries, and strawberries represent hearts (love) AND Rak wore a strawberry shirt the night Fah rescued him and kissed his head which started this entire fake-dating scheme, but Rak had to be rescued from Oh, so . . . this would be a great shirt for a real date where they both fully realize it's a real date at the same rooftop bar, but it's not right for this date. 5/10

But Rak is asking the important questions, which are what does he wear and should they match COLORS!

So I was thrilled that Fah, who is doing a horrible job of hiding his feelings and color, wore a dark blue shirt with a heart over his heart, and Rak wore his boy's color but much lighter and the most visible part of the shirt underneath were the letters in blue and pink, so their colors match but so do their feelings!

Once again, Fah has given so much of his love and color to Rak that Rak, completely unaware, has embraced his Blue Boy and his color without hesitation.

And if this show was finishing before December 31st, it would have won an award specifically for reminding me that these queer color-coded boys are in love by giving me rainbow lorikeets on their date.

Because they are color-coded boys in love with each other!

Even if they don't realize it yet.

[nnnn99999]

I was already thinking about learning thai when I was watching simm. Because some things were so confusing to me at first and I was sure it was because I was losing context because I don't know thai. I know all too well how important language can be in how we perceive things.

I use two languages, bangla and english, in my everyday life. I use both almost equally. Bangla is my mothertongue but I did my schooling in english. So I am equally comfortable with both languages. Yet I struggle to translate creative works in bangla to english. Because how am I supposed to translate it in a way that preserves the essence of the work? The sentence structure, the use of certain words and the connotations behind the use of those particular words, the cultural context behind certain words and phrases, what pronouns are used, how someone addresses another person-all of these things add context. How am I supposed to explain how I can guess what kind of relationship two people have based on the use of the 'you' pronoun when there are three different singular 'you's and three more plural 'you's in bangla but only one 'you' in english?

Coming back to simm, at first I couldn't understand why everyone thought Fah was Daonuea's boyfriend when he clearly addressed him as his brother. It was one of the first thai series I watched so I didn't know anything about thai pronouns and addresses. It was only later that I understood the confusion was because of the use of the word 'phi'. Actually in bangla we use the words 'apu/bhaiya' to call older females/males in a very similar way. So if someone came to me and said that guy is my 'bhaiya' I would also be confused, because that could mean this guy is their older brother, cousin, boyfriend, friend or just some random older guy they know. This made me realize just how much context I am losing out on just because I don't know thai. But I was not convinced enough to start learning. I thought- am I really going to learn a whole new language just so I can understand this one show I love better? Yeah no, not yet at least.

I didn't get the same feeling of losing context again, until I watched bbs. I just know some scenes would hit differently if I knew thai. I just know it. Especially the way Pat and Pran talk to each other. I just know I am missing out. And so, I am now convinced enough to start learning thai. One series I loved wasn't enough, but two is more than enough for me apparently. Yay to me I guess.

Fun fact: I actually watched quite a lot of safehouse season 3. After watching simm, I watched the behind the scenes for simm. Then I saw a jd reaction video for simm trailer. Of course I watched that too. While watching I realized that there were other people there and they seemed to be in a reality show of some kind. So being curious, I went to watch said reality show. But then I realized this was livestreamed and had no subtitles. So, I couldn't understand a single word they were saying. At this point I wasn't even that familiar with any of the people in safehouse. But somehow, I ended up watching hours worth of footage, where let me remind you, I couldn't understand a single word they were saying. Except that one time jd spoke english, I understood that. Yeah I couldn't sit through the whole thing, I just watched parts of it. The games were fun though. It was after this that I became a full on jd fan, not just a fan of them as actors but also as people. I will never forget Dunk eating fried chicken with a fork and spoon. I will also never forget Joong getting startled by the cute music. I absolutely cannot forget that pool game where Dunk almost took off Joong's shirt. Or jd being stuck to each other for like 90% of their time there. It was fun actually. Also, Gun was so chill most of the time. He was a vibe. The few thai words I now understand are mostly because of safehouse.

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Currently Watching - December

aka The Masterlist

Because I love a good little list - in alphabetical order! 😊

Regularly updated during the month, latest update 29.12.2024

A little link to my favorite bl-tropes-collection 💙

gif-requests are open, but you'll need to have some patience🌼

Here you can find all of my gifs.

At the end you can have a look at what we can expect in December with a MDL link and a link for a trailer (if avaible).

This is guaranteed to contain spoilers!

1. Miseinen: Mijukuna Oretachi wa Bukiyo ni Shinkochu 🇯🇵 (8/11)

There are worlds between them. And I hate that they went for the separation and the time skip, but only because it hurts. I think it is a good use of this trope. But those two made each other happy and now they are hurting and that is hurting me. And next week looks hurtful too. Damn.

2. ThamePo Heart That Skips A Beat 🇹🇭 (3/13)

I love it here so much! They like each other already! They care about each other! And how could memorising a phone number be the most romantic shit ever?! They are the softest, most quiet people and I love them! They are already so special to me! I know my expectations are way too high... but I can't stop myself!

3. The Heart Killers 🇹🇭 (6/12)

Uhhhh... Shit is going to hit the fan really soon! I am here for it. What I am not here for is Fadel crying! My poor boy! Don't hurt him! So Bison and Fadel now know Kant and Style are fake, but boys, their feelings aren't fake! But the story needs some plot to work with, because right now, it is boring. Only Style & Fadel are keeping my interest up.

4. Word of Honor 🇨🇳 (25/36)

Yes, I kept watching. Well, this will take me a while to finish, I fear.

5. Your Sky 🇹🇭 (7/12)

I looooved the talk between Fah and his parents. They support him so much and they love him so much and they will love Rak with everything they have! I just hope we can get Fah and Rak becoming the best versions of themselves during the next episodes without drama and wit a lot of fluff and love. We still have five episodes to go. But for now I live in this version of the kiss and the fact that both boys are so damn much in love with the other one! They give me life!

Finished in December

Series

Blue Canvas of Youthful Days 🇨🇳

They can be glad to end this one with a happy ending! I would have thrown hands if they end it with them to never see each other again. I liked the series. It has such a wonderful melancholic feeling. It is calm and has topics that go very deep. But. The rending was very rushed. I guess we could have shorten some parts of the second couple (I really don't like them that much) and give some more time for the main couple. That is just my feeling. There were just too many questions open in the end for me. And as said, the ending was too rushed. I give this a good 8 out of 10.

Sweet Home Season 1 🇰🇷

I started this series because of him. I love him in everything he touched so far. And after a rough start this series captured my attention and I couldn't stop watching. After a while my best friend joined me and now we watch the rest of the series together. I usually don't watch horror stuff, but this one is really good. It is not too gory or to spooky and there are no real jump scares. I really enjoyed this first season. Overall a 9,5 out of 10.

Sweet Home Season 2 🇰🇷

The reason I kept watching were those two! Yes, I can see everywhere at least one bromance that should be a romance. Come on! Who looks at the lips of someone else like this if they don't want to suck on them too?! He wants to kiss those lips and this kiss would be reciprocated. Because they are in love with each other! Besides that this season was a mess. The storytelling was boring, there was no tension, too many new characters and no real connection with those characters like in the first season. I give it 6,5 out 10 just because love those two and I read some nice fanfics about them!

Sweet Home Season 3 🇰🇷

At least they could hold hands for a short period of time. I am happy Sergeant Kim survived. I am happy most of the characters I liked survived. The ending was... not what I expected. It was not bad, but the tone was a tiny bit off. The rest of the season I really liked. It was tense and the action was good. I had a blast with my best friend and finally I liked some of the characters again. But where did all the monsters gone. Not all transform into neo-humans. And what is the conclusion? Emotions and needs are bad? I don't know. A bit more explanation would have been nice. Over all a good 8 out of 10.

Movies

Short Films

Dropped in December

Love In The Air: Koi no Yokan 🇯🇵 (4/10)

Who am I kidding. I dropped this a while ago. I really couldn't care less about this series. I didn't like the original and don't really like this adaptation. It is the story I can't stand. So it is a drop for me.

Looking forward to in December

0.5D (Dec 4th)

Aki wa Haru to Gohan wo Tabetai 2 Haime! - Trailer (Dec 4th)

ThamePo - Heart that skips a beat - Trailer (Dec 13th)

Eternal Butler - Trailer (Dec 20th)

Sangmin Dinneaw

Eyes On You - Trailer (Dec 11th Pilot)

[yichens]

RAINBOW noun 1 an arch of colors vicible in the sky, caused by the refraction and dispersion of the sun's light by rain or other water droplets in the atmosphere

2 the unification of colors on a rainbow is often thought to symbolize equality because the rainbow takes all of the visible colors of light and combines them into one

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH! ♥ ↳ my favorite lgbtq+ characters in thai media i've (re)watched lately insp. I II III

some thoughts under the cut!

for pride month, i wanted to make something where i could appreciate some of the amazing characters i've come to love. so here they are, and here are some of my reasons for choosing them:

1) shin (tay tawan) - 3 will be free (red - passion, action, courage) i rewatched 3wbf for the third time at the beginning of the year. it is still one of my absolute favorite thai series, simply bc of its vibe and how much i love the main trio. amongst them, shin is my soulmate. he is the calm to neo and miw's chaos, the silence and peace to their roughness and noise. he stands in the sidelines, watching his two companions do their thing and doubts his place there. seeing him end up so happy and loved by so many ppl at the end gives me so much comfort ♥

2) akk (force jiratchapong) - enchanté (orange - creativity, enthusiasm, sociability) when it comes to akk and theo, it’s very hard for me to choose a favorite. i am absolutely in love with theo bc he breaks my heart. him losing his faith to love bc of his parents hits a bit too close to home tbh. but akk... he is so precious. he is lovely, sweet, ready to give his everything at all times. he never asks anything in return. he inspires me to be a better friend by being so selfless.

3) yok (first kanaphan) - not me (yellow - happiness, curiosity, deception) not me has such an amazing mix of characters it’s hard to choose favorites. i find something to love about all of them, but yok has a special place in my heart. i adore his passion - towards his art and his studies and the fight against injustice (and even his quest to seek out dan and then to stay with him). that passion inspires me and it's wonderful to see how in the series his passion inspires others too, allowing them to grow and be better ppl.

4) dew (ohm pawat) - dew the movie (yellow green - youth, hope, eternal life) i dunno if i have ever loved one movie this much or if i ever will. there is just something about this whole story that resonates with me. and then dew as a character in the middle of it all - his kindness, his hope, his faith, his smiles. his optimism in a world painted so dark is heartbreaking but also empowering. i wish there was more of him here. i wish he got his happiness after all the suffering ♥

5) khai (off jumpol) - theory of love (green - growth, luck, materialism) i rewatched tol a little after not me finished bc i wanted to see if it still felt as wonderful. i was a bit scared it wouldn't (i have changed as a person after all) but instead, it was even better. there were many things i noticed only after knowing the whole story and all those things made me ache for both khai and third. but in the end, i once again found myself appreciating khai's journey to self discovery and self growth. he works so hard to become better - to become a better person for third but also for himself. it makes me believe that we all can change if we truly want to and that no matter how many mistakes you make, you can still earn forgiveness ♥

6) tay (us nititorn) - kinnporsche (turquoise - calmness, empathy, secrecy) we see very little of him but in every scene, tay just Shines. he is absolutely amazing and i find his understanding towards everyone, especially kinn, such a huge strength. it requires a lot of patience to handle someone like kinn as a best friend, but tay does it bc he can see good in ppl. he can see into their hearts so easily. it's something i wish i could do myself.

7) fah (mek jirakit) - sky in your heart (blue - security, honesty, depression) i find it a little funny how obsessed with mek i've been ever since watching the gifted. there is just something about his face... but to fah, then. i feel like his character was somehow tailored for me to love. he's competent beyond words but at the same time just a human disaster. he has a big heart but he's gotten it broken so he's afraid to show it to anyone anymore. he's sweet and very caring but only to certain ppl. he hides behind this asshole facade, failing at keeping it up spectacularly bc that's just not who he is. am excited to figure him out and cry more about how prince slowly manages to heal him.

8) pran (nanon korapat) - bad buddy (purple - sensitivity, mystery, wisdom) it's amusing how many of us claim that pran is us. how can we all be him? but at the same time, it's so understandable. it's the collective queer experience i suppose - even a collective teenage/young adulthood experience if we consider what pran goes through. he falls in love and gets his heart broken; then turns himself to stone but never truly succeeds. he struggles with his parents and tries to fit his own hopes and dreams into his life in a way that would satisfy them. he's insecure but also strong af, loved by many ppl but incredibly lonely inside. no one gets him bc he's afraid to share pieces of himself to them. and then there's pat who wiggles his fingers inside all of pran's tiny cracks and pulls down all of his walls and it's so wonderful. it heals me as a similar person. we all deserve that. we all deserve to be loved like that.

9) thorn (suar kritsanaphong) - you’re my sky (pink - compassion, insecurity, comfort) when i started you're my sky, i didn't really find it in myself to like thorn as someone special to me. i rarely feel like that with the main characters so it wasn't unexpected. but he grew on me in all of his selfless, kind, idealistic glory. ep 11 still lives in my mind rent free bc it finally made me understand the tragedy within thorn. he's so ready to give up everything, to chase after this one dream - but he always falls a little short. there is always one more moment to wait, one more obstacle to overcome. one more tiny piece of himself to give up bc he cannot ask anyone else to be the sacrifice either. he literally gives parts of himself away anytime someone (fah) asks for it. and somehow i see myself in that too, how i used to ache after all the pieces i had lost. it was nice to see thorn finally receive some of those pieces back ♥

thank you if you were willing to read this far! happy pride month to everyone and i hope you all know that you are loved, appreciated, and deserve all the good things in this world ♥