#and it made sense given everything

[stars-n-kites]

really an inexplicable train of thought but i feel like taako is the kind of person who in a modren era au would just decide to go to a shooting range and learn how to shoot a pistol for funsies, but would consider learning to spin the pistol all cool like they do in cowboy movies to be his first and foremost priority. like hes already bought a holster and the moment he is given a gun he immediately starts trying to twirl it. the instructor has to tell him to stop or theyll take the gun away from him. he keeps trying to lead the conversation back to it anyway because he really feels like theyre putting the cart before the horse here if hes learning how to shoot the gun before even knowing how to dramatically reholster it if he were to get in some sort of cowboy duel. hes actually really good at the shooting part but he gets kicked out of the class after his eighth guntwirling attempt in which he accidentally flicks the safety off mid twirl and shoots one of their light fixtures

[sysig]

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[hopeswriting]

daily life arc miura haru. does anyone know who i'm talking about. do you guys remember her. i still can't believe what happened to her 😔

[olasketches]

the fact that megumi was supposed to be the MC makes me giddy as hell. ITS ALL COMING TOGETHER GUYS

[disarmd]

okay this is not cleanly any of the prompts from the fic ask game? but my proposal for how I'd identify your anon fic. I think a disarmd hallmark is really living in the tension between instinctive kinky impulse and metacognition/potentially unpleasant self-awareness? I think there's a line somewhere in Dwelling that's like "sex usually felt regular to do but then excruciating to talk about," and, yeah. yeah! the potential gap between what kink feels like to do and to define!!

so like, the pov character stuttering between hornily subsumed and uncomfortably lucid? zooming in to all sensation and desire and then right back out to idle observation about the room or a numb body part or somebody else's weird expression? Anyway it's the realest thing in the world and I'm obsessed w it.

if there's a question in here it's maybe about contrasting Dwelling with Monaco LN Bodyworks which both have so much kink-you're-not-talking-about and intimacy without security (huh maybe THAT'S the de-anon clue, I also said that about Shiny and New), but with background radiation shame vs nuclear meltdown levels. Do those fics feel linked to you? xoxox

[fic ask game] this is the most interesting message in the world, i've been thinking about it all morning and i almost don't want to reply right now because i just want to keep chewing on it forever. god damn!!! the way you've read me to absolute rights but also articulated everything in the most brilliant way and put words to things that are extremely accurate but i wouldn't have been able to describe myself.

living in the tension between instinctive kinky impulse and metacognition/potentially unpleasant self-awareness this is so so so so so so interesting, and you're right, that's absolutely how i write. i have read stories or blog posts or whatever by authors who really enjoy the intellectualization of kink - and in what is entirely uncharacteristic of me, because i like intellectualzing absolutely everything else, i just never have any interest in trying to apply reason or causality to things involving sex or kink. i don't know if this came through at all, but one thing i thought about when writing bodyworks was never having the story/narrative suggest that carlos "needed" to be spanked - but that's a whole other topic so i won't start rambling about it now. the point is, yes, exactly what you've said, i totally do write kink coming from the instinctive horny place contrasted with moments of uncomfortable lucidity. i feel like you've given me such a gift with this ask, because i've often wondered if there are strong themes that come through in my writing and i genuinely feel like i've learned new things from you, <3

re the section in dwelling:

The thing about doing kinky things was that they didn’t really feel that kinky at the time, usually. Like Dylan had wore all of his ex-girlfriend’s clothes once, including her panties and bra, and it hadn’t really felt like much at the time, just kind of a funny thing to do, but then way afterward, one night when he was at a party, someone said something about crossdressing and he realized that he had done that. Technically, that’s what he’d done. But it hadn’t felt like that at the time. Things usually felt normal to do and excruciating to talk about.

i love that you pointed that out because i really do think that's my actual thesis statement on kink, and as you've said it's shown up a lot of times in various things i've written. (also, i ended up rereading some, and i really do love that story. i was actually thinking last month about how much fun i had writing absolute idiots in hprf and that's what inspired the lando pov in taking care, haha, i was like, oh, i wouldn't mind playing around in the mind of an idiot again.) although i obviously talk and write about kink and sex a lot, so not something i actually find excruciating.

so i completely agree with everything you've said and will start off by saying, yes, for sure, you're absolutely correct. For me, the story i actually thought of as being like Dwelling was Green Thumb. In that -- so for Dwelling, my premise was what if the ot3 had the failiest kinky sex, like originally i had imagined them doing like full suspension bondage and being the worst you can be while not actually putting anyone's life at risk. like just endless of dylan and mitch bickering while connor is in a situation. so in my head, that was in the domestic-flavoured kink realm, like obviously dwelling was literally curtain fic (god i love tropes so much) just written insanely because that was fun for me. and i had Green Thumb in my head in the similar category of domestic-flavoured kink. humans in their homes doing fun weird stuff in fun weird ways. Perhaps a garnish of dynamic play, but you'd probably call the "active" characters tops as opposed to doms.

Whereas in Monaco LN Bodyworks, i thought of it instead as kink-flavoured kink and the dynamic aspect was the primary thing i was thinking about/orienting the fic around. my dom lando agenda, let me tell you all about it. where dwelling was about relational security, to me lando and carlos already had such a strong foundation to their friendship that bodyworks kind jumped in with that already established and was then more about carlos's journey of self-awareness/self-acceptance with a lens or commentary more on masculinity/stereotypical gender roles. so like security in self, about self. (vs. the idiot op3 being actually very capable of doing weird sex stuff, happily, but not being able to talk about where they were going to put their clothes WHEN THEY ALREADY LIVED TOGETHER).

As well, though, all the other things you've mentioned - intimacy without security (and vulnerability in general), not-talking, shame either as background radiation or full nuclear meltdown (oh my god i'm so obsessed with how you framed that, YOUR INSIGHT) are all my favourite things to play around. so i totally see what you're saying in terms of the linkages!!!

[dootznbootz]

Do y'all ever think about how it's possible that Zeus' first verse in Thunder Bringer is about Penelope and his second is about Odysseus?

She's a "Damsel in Distress" (She's cool af, she just needs some help and misses her idiot), the suitors are prideful and hope to do what Zeus is singing about to her. Pressuring her to choose. Her "true nature" is revealed when her trickery with the shroud is found out .

The 2nd Verse about how Zeus is also the God of Justice and punishing them for the crew's crime of slaying the cattle. Odysseus saves himself to see Penelope again, meaning his crew/people will die. They died for touching Helios' cattle. Odysseus also saves himself AND Helps Penelope by killing all the suitors for their crime of flirting with/bothering Penelope and making her cry, while also bullying and eventually planning to kill his son. Many of Ithaca's men are killed for their pride too. Thinking that they're worthy of Penelope when Nobody is. Flirt with the Wife, you get the knife.

Penelope and Odysseus DO take each others' suffering away when they reunite as well. 🥹

[satari-raine]

Finally sat down and listened to the new song. Silly words are here if you'd like to read (and more in the tags because yeah, and this has been edited since I posted, so apologies if it looks different from someone else's reblog), but no pressure. If you scroll on by, I hope you have a good day today.

I'm... surprised I'm happy? After hearing it. I think that's how I'm feeling, at least. It's not a giddiness or me jumping around in joy, but there's a kind of, um. Candlelight flicker among the darkness that was surrounding me as I was thinking about it? Like a light came on once I finally looked and checked it out for myself.

I'm unsure how to word it properly and I don't really know how to without going on a long-winded ramble, but I had some thoughts before I heard the song based on what people were saying, the anxieties I saw swirling about, thoughts of guilt and anger amongst the pointing fingers and the reality of what a sharp rise to fame can do to, well, anyone. I saw so many different opinions and I'm not here to dismiss any of them, or say one is wrong. Music is wonderful and powerful, loving and harsh, not just in its creation but in the context we give it. I don't want to dismiss anyone's thoughts here.

I just want to say that it's a song I'm glad exists. I'm glad he trusts people to hear it. That despite its content, or context - I don't want to comb through why it exists, or say I'm glad any negative things happened so the pain can produce more because that is the furthest thing from the truth for me.

Caramel is sweet as a concoction in it's nature. You can put things in it, like salt, to change the taste and make it more complex. And it can burn, scorch, and stick - it can make a right mess of a kitchen, of someone's clothes, hands. It's temperamental and not set in stone, at least not while you're stirring it in the pot. But it's not always a mess.

If you're patient with it and respect the process - and, in this case, that respect is to him and the others as performers and as people, as well as yourselves as fans of the music and individuals with flaws, personalities, all that makes people who they are - it might turn out okay, in the end.

I could be off with this, of course. I'm just glad the song exists.

Caramel takes time. And it's okay to have it salty, bitter, or sweet. There's times for all flavors and even if it isn't your preference for whatever reason, it's good to accept the choice and respect it. Respect the making of it and the one who spent hours of time and patience on it.

I'll end here to save my brain from spinning in circles. If you read any of this, thank you so much. I hope it made sense. Please take care of yourselves, everyone.

[thewardenisonthecase]

do you know whats insane to me. is that meredith, of all people, shut down the 'tranquil solution' but cullen is the one who says maybe alrik had a point

[quemirabobo]

Literally everyone I tell I'm asexual, first they go for "people can feel like not wanting to have sex from time to time, doesn't mean they are asexuals" and after explaining to them what asexuality actually it is, their response is "that's normal I mean I too *proceeds to describe how they feel attraction, which is exactly the definition of demisexuality or graysexuality *, that doesn't mean I'm asexual, everyone feels like that"

I just sit there, reminding myself why I don't talk about it, not that I'm in the closet I just hate this stupid outcome, and at the same time I have to suppress my laugh because you and I are the same bitch, accept it

[galedekarios]

I’m not surprised honestly, but I don’t need an award to validate how much I love it. Veilguard is my personal goty, that being said if it can’t be that. Go Metaphor!

that is very true.

i'm just feeling some kind of ways about the positive aspects being completely dismissed in favour of endless criticisms, some deserved and some not.

the same thing happened with inquisition back when it released.

it's funny when i see large parts of the fandom - and even outside of that - now getting misty-eyed over it.

i do remember all the thinkpieces back then on how the inquisitor is actually the worst protagonist, the companions the weakest, the tone too goofy, the plot and chars too railroaded, the lore and stories retcon'd and/or ignored, and so on and so.

i talked about this before and i suppose it's the cycle of bioware games and the bioware fandom at this point. in additions to that, we sadly live in a time now where grifters picked up on it and i do genuinely think that influenced the decision process to some degree.

[hyog-blog]

The Story of Pearl Girl (ep. 35 - ep. 40) [end of series][spoilers]

Out of all the show's tropes, this one did it for me - knowing that you will die soon, for sure, and spending your last days with the person you love the most, cherishing each and every bit of it. This was just heart-wrenching to watch, mostly due to Liu Yuning's and Zhao Lusi's stellar acting. I mean the TORMENT is not just real, it's almost unbearable, but also, somehow, you can feel so much love and appreciation and, actually, light during those last days of Yan Zijin.

Probably because of his attitude. Like, it hurts, more than anything, but there's also one more hour you can spend with the woman you love, and then a whole day, and maybe one day more. Isn't that all that we could really ask for? The most precious moments line up like pearls to form a beautiful necklace. But then, eventually, everything fades away, both good and bad.

Of course, she knew he was poisoned. With her level of intelligence, I'd be surprised if she didn't. The fall of the bad guys was a bit meh, I mean, yes, that's what Yan Zijing was killing himself for, but in the end, that was not what truly mattered. But his family's name did get cleared, so he achieved his life's mission. Alas, he didn't have the time to enjoy the ordinary, simple pleasure of a life surrounded by the people you love and care about. it's kind of a happy ending for Yan Zijing, but with a very dramatic twist, which was obvious from the start, no one even tried to hide it. The poison was there, I just hoped for some ridiculous miraculous last-minute saving. Which didn't happen, but like with most things in life - we get some good stuff, we get some bad stuff, it's a mix.

I can see how ep. 40 could inspire a few depressions out there, but the message is still surprisingly hopeful. Justice prevailed, the bad guys got what they deserved, and the good guys, well, they took whatever happiness came their way, just like we do in real life. Su Muzhe did become the free-spirited trader she always dreamed of being, traveling far and wide just like Yan Zijing did. Cui Shijiu rose from the ashes and finally got her shit together XD Becoming a smart and cool girl we knew she could be, but for some reason, it just wasn't happening.

I have to admit there was a moment between Su Muzhe and Cui Shijiu, when our girl called the other one zhiji and all that wine-drinking was happening. I mean, I could totally see things going more than a little bit queer if the show wanted to go there. With all those powerful female characters, it would have totally worked. It was a lovely hint, though, which I enjoyed immensely :D

I need to go and watch some kittens now XD And remember there's more to life than torturous romance and people in love who can't be with each other. Still, I appreciate this show very, very much. I ended up loving every bit of it, surprisingly. It's very realistic in many aspects, maybe less so in others, but when put together, everything works great. Zhao Lusi's and Liu Yuning's acting is just 5 stars, they are both seriously amazing actors and their chemistry in both happiness and suffering and everything in between is truly top-notch.

I can see how this show might not be everyone's cup of tea, but we're all different, so it's okay. But I'm happy I watched it and that it was made, and I wish ZL and LYN much happiness and more great roles in the future.

Yep, he doesn't know it yet, but she knows already. And you can see it by the way she treats him, just playing along to keep the illusion of happiness going. They're such a bittersweet couple.

And not Kang Ju working as a model for female jewelry))) That moment just made me giggle, he's such a cutie))

Everyone posing for a family portrait. I almost thought they were foreshadowing another one of Li Kui's attacks that would kill half of the cast, but I was wrong. It was just a sweet happy moment shared between friends and co-workers.

And not Kang Ju asking whether he's actually so pretty in real life, too XD

More heartbreaking moments hide behind the seemingly happy surface. You can literally see it in her eyes that she already knows everything.

Some girl-to-girl romance, happily celebrating the fall of the Zheng family. All smiles and cutesy talk. Effortlessly qeer-ish.

Then back to the emotional torment of being unable to say goodbye to each other. YZJ cooking for her continuously to show his love. And Su Muzhe asking Yan Zijing not to leave, finally showing her true feelings. Pure 100% heartbreak.

It's been a nice, although a bit hectic ride 💖

[taraxippos]

Return of the King is my absolute favorite movie to have in the background while drawing. I've seen it probably 100+ times so it doesn't tempt me to distraction but I also love it so I'm not tempted to switch to something else and thus get distracted. I have to watch the arrival/charge of the Rohirrim every fucking time because that's one of the best scenes in any movie ever but other than that I'm locked in

[obessivedork]

Most fanon: OK so Rock Lee is probably an orphan

Me: soooo his mom is a super supportive butch lesbian carpenter who also co-adopts Tenten with Gai and WOULD adopt Neji if she could

[problemswithbooks]

The 6 chapter epilogue moves to 'end' the Tododrama this chapter leaving a divided fandom...

For me I think that given the story the Todorokis have had up to this point it both makes sense and is the best we could have hoped for. I'm not one hundred percent happy with it, but I defiantly don't view as negatively as a lot of people seem to.

First off Touya dying makes sense and this is perhaps harsh but I hope he does. People theorizing that the mysterious Tenko like figure is Shigaraki and he will heal him and the rest of the LoV with his restored Overhaul powers is insane to me. With only four chapters left idk how that would even be covered or concluded, since even if they were healed they would all still be put in prison--it wouldn't erase the fact Touya killed 30 innocent people by his own omission. So, how Hori would cover that kind of plot in a cohesive way in four chapters is beyond me. It's pretty much people wanting a worse story because they want their favorite character to live.

Also, I'm a bit frustrated that yet again people are acting like Enji should die instead and making wild accusations based on nothing. Namely that Touya dying supposedly soonish negates Enji saying he'll watch him and his death will let him off the hook so to speak.

Enji has shown that he really loves Touya and feels immense guilt and rightful responsibility for how he treated him and his the rest of the family. Touya dying doesn't suddenly heal his permanently crippled body or give him back his Hero job. It will only make him feel worse. Also it's not as if once Touya is gone he'll ignore the rest of his family either. He still owes them as well, and will probably try to help them in whatever way he possibly can.

People acting as if Touya's death will free him or that afterwards he'll go on with his life completely happy and forgetting about him is just not in any way accurate to what we've seen of his character.

The other thing I've seen floating around is the idea that if Enji had been killed off during the first PLF War, Shoto would have saved Touya and the family would have been happy in the end. I don't think that's true. I will admit I'm bias because I like Enji and I'm not a fan of Touya, but given how Hori seems to have delt with the LoV and villains in general (unless he pulls a 180 and heals them last min) I think Touya was always meant to end up dying slowly in a hospital or get some other bittersweet ending.

BNHA is not grimdark by any means but it is not the idealistic manga of the past like Naruto. Hori punishes characters that make bad choices no matter how understandable or even shitty the choices they had were. Aoyama, despite helping defeat Afo, being a child and under the threat of death to him and his family, still drops out of UA because he feels he still has to earn his place there. Bakugou dies and his heart and hand will never be the same, while also having to deal with the guilt of Izuku loosing his Quirk (if that sticks). Enji, even though trying to change and atone for most of the Manga's run is still left permanently crippled, the job that meant everything to him, lost, his legacy gone.

For Touya who killed so many people without care, only to get back and his father. Who plotted to kill his little brother despite knowing he was abused. Not caring if his plans got his other innocent family members killed. After everything we've seen with other characters who did far less wrong and tried hard to amend those mistakes getting harsh consequences, I doubt it was ever the plan to have Touya sitting at the table with his family eating his favorite food with a smile, regardless of Enji being alive or not. To suggest that Hori only had Shoto fail because Hori needed Enji to be involved just isn't true. If Hori wanted to give Touya a happy ending he would have--many fans have already come up with how that could have happened even with Enji still alive.

The only criticism I agree with is Rei's ending. You can defiantly read how she wheels Enji around and answers his phone as them being back together or in the very least her becoming his caretaker. Now, That might not be the case--she could just doing those things because they were both going to see Touya and she's just helping him out that day, while they actually live separately, with Enji having a paid home assistant that couldn't or wouldn't go with him to see Touya (because of the stigma or visiting regulations). The issue is that we just don't know for sure and Rei has been shafted pretty badly.

That said, I wasn't expecting much from/for her anyway. I think getting a little blurb about what she was doing like Natsuo and Fuyumi did would have helped, but I sort of doubt Hori had any idea what to do with her character outside being Enji's abused wife and Shoto's mom. With him rushing to get these last chapters out I'm not shocked he just stuck her in the background, especially when Enji and Shoto as secondary characters needed the screen time.

[businesscasualart]

Merry Christmas Eve my dear friend!!! (i hope the timezone is right 🙈) i hope you are having the most fantastic and relaxing time!! here - a very small snowman 🥰

HEHEHE AWWW! THANK YOU! THAT SNOWMAN IS SO PRECIOUS AND SO TINY!!! You did get the right timezone! It’s been a wonderful Christmas! Or Frostmas 👀 I still need to see those movies, but it’s not too late to watch them yet!

It was a great Christmas! Made tons of treats! Played games with the family!

The family liked the gifts I gave em, I liked what they gave me! I’ve got the Austin Powers Trilogy now! I’m showing it to you like an Animal Crossing character who just caught a fish!

I’ve also gotten some nice trousers, a groovy shirt, and REAL comfy artistic heels…that no one intended for me to put all together. My family thought it’d be hideous but I put em on anyway, looked in the mirror, and (thanks to you and your immaculate taste,💕) I know of at least 19 blorbos who’d pull this outfit off in a heartbeat, 💖 and where there’s a blorbo, there’s a way! I thought of them and I looked at me and knew only thing I needed to pull this off was an excess of frankly undeserved confidence. I pushed my hips out, pushed my shoulders back, took up a big arrogant grin, hyped myself up, and took long strides and heavy steps out down the hallway to show the family. It was unanimous that I had actually managed to make this a great outfit, and the resounding theory on why was my, and I quote, “sheer audacity”. 😂

When I need to make an outfit good, imaging every greasy, outdated, arrogant, beautiful man in fictional history and trying to match their confidence tends to do the trick.

The only con today was that my heels disintegrated in like, two hours. 😔 But maybe I can get a better pair. And even if I can’t, well, I can draw myself in em!….if I can figure out how to draw heels properly.

I think I definitely missed your timezone, I hope you’ve had a wonderful Christmas too! Or…Frostmas~

it’s rushed, not perfect, and not quite consistent in style but I uhhhhhh drew you a lil something on a whim 👀👉👈 I once again forgot to look once again for references of your persona. Also I am not super familiar with Martin Short or Jack Frost outside of your posts, but any beautiful 5’6 man in wonderfully tailored clothes I’d kill (or…perhaps…kith…) to steal for myself is welcome on this blog <3

I was getting nervous about how that drawing was turning out, and perhaps I’d get too nervous to post it, if I didn’t have my little artistic cousin who just got her first tablet and drawing app leaning over my shoulder periodically going “:O!!!! HOW DO YOU DRAW LIKE THAT!! How do you draw people and cartoons so good!!!!!!!” Which was very sweet <33333 and gave me the audacity to post that little Jack Frost and his Winter Star (get it? Because the ship name is-) staying warm…cold….comfortable on an icy day <3

[lesbiansanemi]

I do not know why I bother trying to go to bed early cuz every single time I have done it my roommate has deliberately woken me up usually for something fucking stupid