#and instead it’s getting somewhat ridiculous lmao

[itstimeforstarwars]

Six sentence Sunday, from one of the later galidraan fics:

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“Hey, if a psychometric and an oracle kiss, do you think we’d finally understand what it means to focus on the present?” Quinlan asked, only half-joking.

Ben gave him an achingly familiar side-eye, one he’d seen so many times from his twin. “That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard, Quin,” he said.

“Yeah...” Quinlan said softly, reaching out to cup Ben’s cheek, so they could actually look each other in the eye. “If that’s the dumbest thing you’ve heard from me, then clearly we don’t hang out enough.”

[tehrevving]

Vincent Valentine Week Day 1 - Sweet

I knew this event was happening but not that it started on his birthday lmao I’m ridiculous. Anyway, I might not get to every day, but I’m going to try.

Here’s day 1 - Sweet. Enjoy! (SFW (Shocking I know lmao))

You’re relaxing at the inn, lying sideways on one of the couches with your socked feet up on the cushions. You’re surprisingly comfortable, leaning up against Vincent’s side while you read a book. He’s warm against your back, comforting and he makes a surprisingly good pillow considering how angular he is.

You look up as Tifa walks in, carrying a single shopping bag and looking absolutely bedraggled. She and a few of the others had left early this morning to go out on some sort of job. You didn’t know the specifics, just that you definitely didn’t want to go. You’d stayed behind, taking inventory of supplies and considering how she looks, having a much better day.

She smiles at you, radiant as always and you can’t help but smile back at her. She reaches into the bag, pulling out a handful of small, wrapped squares. “The client gave us these as a tip,” she sighs, clearly having wanted money instead. You take what she offers, inspecting them, they’re dark chocolate after-dinner mints. You don’t think that’s the worst gift ever.

“Job wasn’t worth it then?” you ask playfully.

She rolls her eyes and shakes her head, giving a wave and then walking away. That’s fine, she’ll tell you all the details later before bed.

You unwrap one of the chocolates, immediately splitting it in half and reaching back to hand Vincent a piece. He’s told you that he technically doesn’t need to eat, but you think it’s ridiculous for him not to. He doesn’t like wasting food, or taking rations away from anyone else in the group, but he’ll take some of yours when you offer. You’ve decided not to explain the logic that technically, he’s just taking food away from you instead. You don’t mind, in fact you like it, it’s a small gesture that you can do for him. You’re not sure if it’s just a placebo, but you genuinely think he looks healthier since you started sharing food with him. He’s still impossibly skinny of course, but his skin seems less sallow, the bags underneath his eyes less pronounced.

He doesn’t normally eat sweet things, but it’s dark chocolate, so you figure it will be fine. You hear him hum as he shifts against your back, taking the chocolate from between your fingers. You tilt your head back to look up at him, curious to see what he thinks. His face is mostly obscured by his red cloak, but you can see enough of his eyes to be able to gauge his expression.

He places the square into his mouth and chews for a moment as his face immediately lights up. It’s a subtle expression of course, you don’t think anyone else would be able to pick up on how much he’s enjoying it, but you can tell. His eyes are slightly wider, wrinkles at the corners of his eyes turned up slightly. You have never seen him react like this to any other type of food. He must really like it.

He swallows and then turns to look down at you. His face is somewhat upside down, but you can tell that he’s looking at you a little bit expectantly. You sigh and hand him the other half of chocolate that you’d been too distracted to eat. He takes it with a soft smile, the first time he’s ever wanted seconds of anything you’ve handed to him. You’re glad he’s happy but feel a bit sad at the fact that you’re probably not going to get to eat any of these.

It’s a week or so later and you’re sitting on the Bronco, resigned to another day of rough, bumpy travel. You pull out a protein bar, sighing when you realise it’s your least favourite flavour. You rip off a piece and hand it to Vincent sitting beside you, but he refuses, again. He has refused food a lot lately, which is fine, he’s an adult and he can make his own choices. You’re a little bit worried about it, even though you know that he’s fine and will be perfectly healthy because he doesn’t need to eat. You miss sharing food with him more than you expected though, and you’re not quite sure why.

Vincent struggles being cramped up in the Bronco, so he’s the first one down the stairs once you dock for the night. The irony of the man spending years in a coffin but hating being in a plane turned boat isn’t lost on you. You grab your bag and Vincent’s too, he doesn’t have many possessions so it’s light enough for you to carry. You turn but find Cloud walking up to you, looking expectant.

“Vincent took my bracer yesterday,” he says, “can you check his bag for it?”

You look down at Vincent’s bag, you know everything that’s in there. You don’t think he’d mind you going through it, but you’re still unsure.

“I want to clean it. It’ll be too late if I wait until he gets back.”

You sigh. “Alright.”

Cloud turns his head, not looking into the bag as you open it up on the bench. The bracer is right at the top, easy to spot. Vincent only has a few changes of underclothes and very few other possessions. You grab the bracer, noticing that it’s resting on top of multiple, open boxes of dinner mints. You can’t believe it. You steal a box and shove it into your purse, handing the bracer to Cloud and zipping the bag up, intending to confront Vincent about it later.

You’re sitting with Vincent on the inn roof, as you both often do to get privacy. You’re too out in the open to do anything dirty, but it’s private enough for him to let go of some of his inhibitions and cuddle with you. His arm is wrapped around your waist while you lean against his shoulder, leg pressed up against his. It’s warm here, too hot for you to lean completely against him.

“Cloud asked me to get his bracer out of your bag today,” you say eventually, breaking the comfortable silence.

Vincent hums behind you, the sound rumbles through his chest.

“He was insistent, so I did. Was that alright?”

He presses a soft kiss to the top of your head. “As long as you are the only one.”

You nod, you’d never just let anyone else go through his stuff. You take a deep breath and control your tone. “I found something else in there too.”

Vincent freezes behind you.

You let him panic for a moment before laughing, trying to reassure him, he’s not in trouble. You reach into your bag, rummaging around and pulling out the box you’d taken from his bag. “I never thought I’d find you hiding snacks.”

He says nothing, but his face presses to your hair. You think he’s embarrassed.

You turn and press an awkward, sideways kiss to his cheek, the only part of him you can reach. “I didn’t bring them here to call you out,” you reassure him. “It’s fine, I just missed sharing food with you.”

He pulls away from your neck, tilting you slightly in his arms so that you’re looking up at him. “I didn’t think you would miss that.”

“It’s just something nice I could share with you,” you respond, feeling a little bit embarrassed.

He takes the box from you, reaching in and taking a square. He rips into the packaging, an expert with one bare hand and his gauntlet. He splits the chocolate in half and holds part of it out to you. You lean forward and take it, lips brushing his fingers. He smiles and then eats the other half. You can still see how much he enjoys the taste.

He swallows. “It does taste sweeter when shared,” he murmurs, pondering, voice soft, then leans down and kisses you, mint and chocolate on his lips.

[harvardhaugland]

Never requested anything in my life but how about a scenario where the reader jumpscares either jamie, luke or bosch (in the rooftops, while playing a game or training) and gets a laugh out of their reaction and then they get reader back for it except it leads into something a bit spicy 😳

Love your writing so much, I'll eat up anything you put out fr

-@gourdkeeper (anon because it'd message from my main </3)

twister! - luke ♡

a/n: ok funnily enough i actually had written ab eerily similar personal fic to something like this execpt it was an oc insert + they were training instead HELPPP but omg… yas of course!!! i already have another jamie fic in the works so i feel like i gotta switch things up w/ luke 👆👆sorry ive been writing nothing but fanfic smut lately and its only bc literally half of my account is old amateur fluff hcs LMAO

not proofread bc… YOLO!!!!

You do this routinely thing of hanging out with each and every one of your masters, a whole schedule, specific times of days. On Monday mornings Chun-li teaches you skeet shooting, Wednesday evenings are reserved for baking with Manon, Saturday nights are best for alcoholic shot games with Jamie.

Sometimes simple, sometimes ridiculous. You’re a real people pleaser.

No matter what day though, you always find some way to squeeze in game-time with your first master— Luke, of course. The two of you hangout often, being intimate whilst also eating snacks and constantly bantering whenever you game. Tonight was different, instead of the usual Strawberry Fighter IV ranked matches, you had suggested playing Twister. Boardgames are just some “old-fashioned fun”, you told him.

You both had been playing for hours now, no breaks, your limbs entwining, you have your head underneath Luke’s chest, both hands on two dots just below his feet. He has his face pressed against your back, facing the opposite way.

Luke is no Ryu, that’s for sure. But you’d like to think he would be somewhat skittish around scary insects— so before he reaches for the spinner again, your fingers lightly tickle his leg, trying to imitate the feeling of something crawling up his leg. Quickly, you shout, “Is that a spider?” drawing your hand back quickly.

“What—!?” Luke immediately backs away, falling off the plastic mat, shaking and kicking his legs frantically, watching you slowly rise up from the floor, fists in the air.

“Gotcha!” you point to him, laughing, holding your stomach with a wide grin on your face. Never in your life would you believe that actually worked as well as it did.

He pouts. Standing up, crossing his arms, checking his legs one more time, just incase, “Aw, c’mon. You cheated!” he points back at you, “But aw man, that was a good one..” he quietly admits. One thing about him that you’re glad about— he doesn’t take things to heart.

“I’ll get you back.” he swears, a wide smile on his face. Seemingly riled up already.

Before you quip back with a sly remark, Luke charges at you. Pinning you down against the floor, sparking up a playful wrestling match. Your legs are beside his hips, Luke’s arms are wrapped around your waist and his head is snuggled into the crook of your neck. He’s squeezing you, trying to pin you into submission. You’re too flustered to even try to “fight” back, simply giggling, hugging around his body instead, trying to insinuate to him.

“You’re bad.” he whispers, quickly pressing a kiss to your cheek, “Were you just trying to get into my pants? You could’ve just asked, y’know. I’d gladly twist you into a pretzel myself—“

“Stop it, you cornball.” you joke, lightly tugging his head back. Luke starts to attack your neck with kisses. He’s quick to slide his hands underneath your shirt, feeling up your chest, moving his lips to touch yours, he’s more rougher and excited than usual. The days where you manage to get under his skin are the best.

He pulls you closer towards him, pressing your hips together, grinding his erection against you. You card your hands through his hair, he looks up at you with half-lidded eyes, mouth open agape, hot and bothered. He’s all of the sudden desperate to fuck you. He slides down your pants with haste, pulling down his own right after. When it comes to sex, Luke is way too excited, he’s often sloppy, messy as if he was actually inexperienced.

“You always look so good.” he says, pressing his fingers to your mouth, obliging you to open up, slicking his fingers with spit, sucking on his digits, muffled moaning as he continues to grind against you, pulling his fingers out.

Fucking on rooftops in the nighttime meant that you had privacy— but everyone could still very much hear you. So the two of you make a desperate effort to stay quiet, covering each other’s mouths everytime one lets out a particularly loud moan.

He makes it clear how badly he wants to be inside of you. He’s in a rush to use your spit as lube, teasing the tip of his cock into your entrance, closely observing your face for any sort of reactions as he slowly pushes in, groaning out in relief. Luke collapses against you, more licking and kissing all over your neck. Slow, hard thrusts rock your body back, he’s big, confident when he fucks, leaving you a sensitive, whiney, and needy mess everytime.

You want more, you beg for him, demand him to go harder, faster or slower. He obeys your every order, looking to please you, praise you.

“Luke,” you call out to him with a moan, “Close— so close.” you whine.

“Are you gonna cum? You just— god, you’re too good to me.” he groans, “I wish I could just fuck you all night, watch you get all shy for me.” he says, his thumb caressing your cheek. He’s hooked on all the noises you make, the little changes in your expression. It’s all too much, he feels you tighten around him, arching your back, pressing against his sweaty body.

“Good job, baby.” Luke pulls you into another tight hug, pressing a kiss to your neck, “Hold on, okay?” God, it seemed no matter how much you tease him, or how pent-up you’ll try to make him, Luke absolutely never would be degrading with you. When he speaks a constant flow of praises in your ears, the tone in his voice is shaky, so gentle with you, willing to keep going for as long as you cum.

You feel his cock twitch, his movements growing more sporadic, making the Twister mat underneath you two scrunch up and wrinkle, ruining the once wholesome little game. Luke lets out a relieved groan. His hips stutter as he cums inside, keeping you still against his pelvis, pulling out slow when he’s finished. “I’m still mad at you for cheating.” he jabs, sarcastic.

“Well, you paused the game last time I almost broke your win-streak! It’s fair game.” you reason.

[angelbymadonna]

so I got to thinking about how Batman uses intimidation to get what he needs or if villains, so I had this idea that everyone thinks he's taller than he actually is. I also wondered if he would purposely make himself look taller. At some point I realized that he could achieve this by moving his eyes on the cowl, and consequently the top of his helmet, up by an inch or so. You know, like the LEGO one.

but I think the eyes would be part of the helmet, maybe reflective so that an opponent would have to see their own face if they got close which would make cool comic panels as well as allowing the artists to sometimes draw him as an indistict batblob with white eyes. In order to make this somewhat convincing, his whole face and shoulders with be concealed the attatched-cape-helmet-thingy. here is a helpful diagram!

All the computer stuff that's in his helmet (that's a thing, right?? I think it is in a show or smthng) has that nice spacious cavity, though it wouldn't hurt to put some safety padding in there instead actually... Umm he put the computer bullshit there because he is a proud man who thinks he will not be hit on the head. or something.

THAT thing started the idea of him saying he's "5 foot eight with the ears" but that part is just bc it's funny. so here is a very shitty comic where he says that to a reporter

but the sketch of the hip area looks so much worse here than on the diagram lmao.

Also to consider: 5'8" with the ears funnier the more ridiculously tall the ears are.

[melonteee]

One of the most interesting things about OPLA that I've seen is that people seem to like this version of Sanji way more in regards to how he acts towards women, saying this is how you make Sanji more likable, that here he is a "smooth, respectful flirt" while in reality, he still is very much a benevolent sexist lmao just in a different, more digestible way? It's all good when he's "smooth" and not "cringe", I guess? Another interesting thing is how people, especially women, either seem to find his behaviour extremely endearing or extremely uncomfortable, which are both just as valid and that will be the eternal "problem" with his character, since while a lot of women would love him to treat them like goddesses, a lot of women dislike the fact he keeps on insisting doing so, even when they have expressed they are uncomfortable with it. It's still very much up to personal preference, but it's just kind of hilarious when it literally is the same concept but in a different way. I VASTLY prefer animanga Sanji, at least he's really funny even though he can be… questionable at times lol Taz killed it though, he put in an amazing effort and I couldn't be more impressed, I'm just sad the script is what it is lol

Okay so my friend said something I didn't even consider which was "The reason I love anime/manga Sanji is because men just aren't like this, I have no uncomfortable, real world experiences with a man like Sanji because his way of flirting is just over the top and nonsensical to the point it's harmless and cute."

And like, she's right lol. You're not gonna go into a bar or restaurant and have a man get on his knee, offer you a rose, spin around the table ten times and shout to the heavens about how the gods have blessed him with a gem LMAO. It's purposefully ridiculous, but this new version of Sanji is...somewhat uncomfortable to me? Cause the issue is, I am by no means attracted to Taz LMAO. Don't get me wrong he's a fine man, and I'm not calling him ugly, I'm just rarely attracted to irl men lol. So people who are attracted to Taz see him wink and say "my apologies madame 😏" and they swoon, but it just reminds me of weird nights I've had in bars where a guy was trying too hard on me and wouldn't get the memo hhh

Taz is a good actor I just wish this script wasn't what it was, like god I would've loved to see Taz twirling around and his jaw dropping from Nami's beauty or something. Instead his Sanji has this weird atmosphere the common guy in a bar would have and it's genuinely more cringe to me but not in an endearing way, it's just personally not for me at all hhh

[gunsatthaphan]

🎆 🥂 𝐻𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 𝒩𝑒𝓌 𝒴𝑒𝒶𝓇!!! 🥂🎆

*cue piano music* another year is gone and I know no one asked for this but I wanted to take the opportunity to do a little recap and also give shoutouts to some lovely people 🥺  

It’s been a rollercoaster of a year, both for me personally and also regarding the content that came out. We got some amazing stuff but sadly there was also a lot of less amazing stuff and ultimately, the quantity > quality tendency dominated once again. 2022 was the year where I decided to take a few steps back in terms of my watchlist; I have come to the realization that the more stuff I watch, the more stressed I get - both regarding the pressure of always being up to date with everything, but also the pressure of creating content around said shows. Which might be a ridiculous thing to think but I usually have a feeling of insufficiency when it comes to my content. Which is why I put a few things on the backburner this year. Additionally I have also realized I’m not willing to put up with shows anymore that are not 100% to my satisfaction. Hate-watching is something I somewhat enjoyed before and admittedly there were a few shows that I watched despite not liking them (like unforgotten night or OMSN) which was mostly due to the amusement of making fun of them lmao. But I ended up finding a lot more joy in putting my whole focus on the few shows I genuinely enjoy, instead of watching an abundance of mediocre stuff on the side. Which was why the variety of content on my blog was a little limited this year. 

I took a 3 month trip to Thailand where, amongst other things, I emerged myself into the on-site fan culture and got to see a bunch of actors close-up and while that was an incredible experience, it made me realize how insanely commercialised this industry really is and how exhausting it must be for these people to always appear at these events with perfect smiles and what not. which was also part of the reason why I stepped back. I don’t want to make this sound overly dramatic but that was the vibe I got when I was there. oh and also don’t forget that time where I got shadowbanned from tumblr for almost 1 month and thought I would never get my blog back... good times 😬 

However despite all, I loved creating content for the things I was passionate about over the past year and I’m looking forward to making more in the next one!

I’m gonna post a personal top10 of the shows I watched this year shortly after this post goes up. Until then, I want to talk a bit about some of my favorite people this year - I’m not good with words lmao but thank you for being you and for making this hellsite a better place djkghdf 💜  

@leonpob - bestie 🥺💜💜 you know you’re one of my favorite people, I love talking to you every day and sharing our thoughts on shows and other things!!! You radiate so much comfort for me and I can’t wait to continue our talks in the new year!!! 😘 

@khunvegas - another year of collectively simping, trash-talking and screaming and I wouldn’t want it any other way jkdfhg. I cherish our unhinged and shameless conversations and I appreciate your non-judgy nature when it comes to unpopular opinions lmao. looking forward to another year of bl bants 🫡

@my-wandering-rabbit - you’re always sooo sweet and I absolutely loved talking to you this year!!! 💜 I appreciate your balanced opinions and your honesty and I'm looking forward to more chats in 2023!! 😊 

@odi-et-amo85 - I love our random convos lmao and I appreciate how nice you always are!! you’re so fun to talk to and I’m so glad we started chatting! 😙

@sleepypurplenote - ahh I love talking to you!!!! your messages are always so lively and fun lmao I love it!!!! 🥺 I love that we share so many opinions when it comes to BL stuff so thank you for being here!! 😘 

@laowen - We haven’t talked a ton this year but just know that I absolutely love you and your content!! on top of that you’re one of the nicest people I’ve met on here and I appreciate you and your blog so much!!! 💜 

@pharawee - we haven’t talked a lot yet either but your content is so amazing!!! I love your gifs and everything else that you do!!! keep up the amazing work and thank you for helping me with my giffing troubles! 🙈 

@bl-recs-and-reviews - my discord bestie 🥺 I absolutely love catching up with you and even though we don’t talk every day, it always feels like coming home when I talk to you 💜 let’s do that a lot more next year pleeasee!! 

@mrsandypants - ahhh you’re legit one of the sweetest and loveliest people I’ve met on here!!!! you’re so nice and fun and your asks are my favorites!! 💜 stay the way you are and please stop by my blog as much as possible 😄 

honorable mentions go out to these lovely people 💫

@10ways @offspring-of-calliope @jjungkookiess @fiftyshots​ @chainsawandronan@victooooorious @sillybiscuitshepherdskeleton @dollopheadsandclotpoles @theblbois @emisfritish @boun-prem @hecalledhimhyung @bengiyo @benkaaoi @clairificusrex @tumcialgun @vegaspetes @eaasysarcasm @german-bl-kpop-lover @patandpran @earthpodd @spine @tobeornottotc @ilajudica @zeejade88 @hunginggrapes @malec4everr @nanons @praninlovex @flukenatouch @dimension-eater @bfjeff @billkinspp @coldties @freensrcha @gooseras @guzhu-furen @jaehwany @jeffsatur @kaonoppakao @kimporchay @lakorns @liankuea @loveisactivated @machikeita @paisky @pranparakul @pranpats @prapais@patpran @seanwhites @seawherethesunsets @smittenskitten @sunsetandthemoon @tachinekoii @taeminnie @team-win @tehohaews @tirpse87 @wanderlust-in-my-soul @yibo-wang @ncppanut​ @ddreamzee​

thank you for making this fandom-year amazing with your content and just by being cute 🥺 happy 2023!!! 💓💋

xxx 

[gwaaaaar]

Black Butler racism (or just overall bigotry) is the funniest shit ever (no it isn't. It's awful) because. Black Butler somehow got better. And worse. Spoilers under the cut for Baldroys backstory btw.

Please try not to take this as an entirely anti-black butler sort of argument. I was thinking about this in passing and thought it was something worth discussing. So DON'T COME AT ME!!!

I'm gonna start off with the easiest and earliest examples of racism.

Soma and Agni-! Wow... so I'd argue in the beginning Soma was based off of, I wouldn't say harmless stereotypes, but stereotypes that weren't applied with malice. He's a prince with like. 26+ siblings so he never really had a chance for the throne.

The 26+ siblings is... an unfortunate common stereotype applied to brown people, more specifically muslim. Soma is from Bengal and depending on where, there could be a high muslim population. But Soma is hindu. Either way, it's not. Good. To portray brown people like this. Like having 20+ kids that is a bad look. Indians do have big families, I should know, but not to that extreme and it has weird implications. Also when Soma tells Mey Rin to strip because painting naked women is better... yikes

Here is the harmful part: his and Agni's worship of Ma Kali is treated as a joke. Like ohhh look at this scary demonic hindu goddess!!! Even sebastian is weirded out and he's a demon!!! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK. :/

BUT. but. This. PALES IN COMPARISON TO THE SINOPHOBIA. Holy shitttt Lau... oh my god he is like a stereotype from mf Tintin. The opium den and the Chinese girl in skimpy clothing is crazy (and the implied incest??? What is ran mao to him again??? Theyre like siblings right???)... It really fucking sucks that the way hes portrayed almost implies that Chinese people wanted the opium crisis rather than you know. Having it pushed onto them by the British . I can be upset about Soma all I want but damn... maybe indian people did get the good end of the stick.

And, it's weird right? It's weird how one minority that normally isn't treated seriously can escape with relatively minor stereotyping compared to. TO THE SHIT TON OF OPIUM. Of course there's a lot of historical things going on, but wow the sinophobia is nuts.

I do think the main problem is somewhat classism. Victims are treated brutes for retaliating. Like that one miniarc where indian immigrants were tying up British nobles that visited India because they were angry that they were used and tossed aside and can't go back home. Soma, one of the few indians treated with sympathy, is a prince. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE WHAT THEY DID TO MINA... she was rightfully upset. The caste system is a terrible thing and she wanted to escape that, and she's the bitch? She isn't gentle to Soma, but she's in the right.

Black Butler has evolved as a story significantly since the beginning and when I say it's kind of gotten better I mean, the characters have evolved so much they can no longer rely on stereotypes. We have to take Soma and Agni seriously, they are no longer just some funny foreigners. LAU DOESN'T EVEN DO OPIUM ANYMORE AFAIK... that was like 50% of his personality and she got rid of it lmao.

edit: i lied he still does opium its just that isnt his personality anymore.

And that's a good thing! They shouldn't have been portrayed in such ways in the beginning. Stereotyping is just objectively shit writing. But also yeah shitty thing to do to minorities.

I think one of the most beautiful cultural references made later on is post Agni's death, when Soma has had enough and finally snaps. The panel that says "he has gone down the path of Maa Kali" is so poetic and my roman empire . It's a good reference back to the deity they worship, but instead of her being treated as something to ridicule or be scared of, it shows how Soma's personality, and background has lead him to who he is today. I think it's beautiful! I'm happy Soma is in the story because of that.

The same can be said about the slight transphobia with Grell in the beginning. NOW I know in the beginning, there wasn't a particular word for trans women or people in general so a word referring to effeminate/gay men or crossdressers was used. This isn't about that, language changes etc etc. Its moreso how she was portrayed as like, a sicko serial killer. Like yk, negative trans stereotypes. But over time she was recognized as a woman and gets to be her own character. Which is awesome! It's good that shes been viewed more postively over time.

Now... here's where things might be getting worse.

Baldroys backstory pisses me off. The idea that native americans were like ravaging his hometown and killed his innocent family. He even says something like how he knows their land got stolen so their reaction was probably justified but he doesn't care. It just. It just feels like siding with the colonizers you know? Like perpetuating these stereotypes to give people a reason to be "afraid". I know conflict was pretty rampant back then but there's just certain things people should be careful with when portraying... and I don't think Black Butler did a good job. I was really surprised to see that it was from a recent chapter bc it honestly read like something from the older ones.

AT LEAST we finally got a black grim reaper wooo mama

[littlemissgloomexe]

Untitled bootleg game [a pokepasta]

Has anyone else ever played one of those bootleg Pokémon games? Well, I had a weird experience with one. My friend, Anu, and I bonded over our love for Pokémon and would take pleasure in finding knock off games, and laughing at how ridiculous they were.

On the last day of school, something happened that stopped me from wanting to play any bootleg games. When I was walking out of school I was stopped by Anu, they shouted my name while running up to me, waving their arm in the air.

“Sarah! Hey, Sarah!!” They grabbed my shoulder when they finally caught up to me. “OW-! Watch it, dude!” they awkwardly apologized to me after I yelled at them. “Before you leave, I wanted to give you this.” They handed me a disk and a sheet of paper, they had a devious grin on their face as they handed it to me.

Before I could thank them, they ran away. I sighed and shook my head, then I walked out of the school. I was staring at the disk the entire walk home, I was really confused as to what it was, but I was somewhat excited at the same time.

Once I finally got home, I called for my parents but they didn’t answer, I was home alone. I went up to my room and put the disk in my computer then read the note Anu gave me along with the disk. The note had some sort of directions, it said; “Yet another bootleg Pokémon game!!! Safe route: Name your character “Storm” DeadStorm route: Name your character “Trait” HAVE FUN LMAO” So I figured out that Anu gave me a bootleg Pokémon game.

Apparently it had two different routes? I just went with it and booted up the game. Weird, there was no title on the start screen, I shrugged it off. There was a character on the screen, it was a girl with fluffy black hair, there were pieces of hair at the top of her head that formed a triangle form, they kinda looked like cat ears.

I clicked start and entered the name “Storm”, I’m gonna assume the character’s canon name is Storm. The game started with this “Storm” character in her room, as any Pokémon game would, the only difference was that there was no intro, no professor giving an introduction explaining how Pokémon inhabit the world and all that shit. Much like the title screen, I shrugged this off, I thought maybe the game was unfinished, if that’s true, I wonder how Anu got their hands on an unfinished game.

Something cool that I noticed almost immediately was that Storm’s idle sprite was animated instead of it just being a static standing pose. There was breathing and blinking animations, Storm’s room had this whole gothic style going on, which was also pretty cool too. I walked Storm over to her bedroom door only for me to be interrupted by a dialogue box

“Well, I better get going!”

My eyes widened “Oh cool, The protagonist actual speaks! Maybe she’ll have an actual personality?” I started talking to myself about how I think I might genuinely love this game, another line of dialogue snapped my attention back to my computer screen.

“…”

“My neck itches.”

I squinted at the screen, “What…? Does that have some hidden meaning or something?” I said out loud to myself, I rolled my eyes and walked out of the room, it seemed like Storm didn’t have any parents as there was nobody downstairs to talk to her before she left. I just walked out of the door, nothing outside seemed strange or different, I decided to look at the menu hoping I’d find a little more information about the character I’m playing as.

I’ve gathered a bit of information about Storm: She has a Pokémon already, a female Mimikyu, so no choosing from a set of three starters, and Storm is 15 years old. That’s all I could find, as I’ve just started the game so everything else is just empty. I played the game like how you would with a normal Pokémon game and nothing interesting happened, I was about to close the game and shoot Anu a passive aggressive text until something interesting actually did happen.

As soon as I took the first step into a new route, the screen froze and turned completely white except for Storm’s sprite outlines, along with this, a loud buzzing noise played. I jumped at the sudden loud noise before leaning closer to the screen, I tried clicking the keys on my keyboard, nothing, until I hit enter, it brought up the menu for two seconds before the screen went completely black, white text slowly typed out on the screen.

“What are you doing?”

“What are you doing here?”

“You’re not supposed to be here.”

Then the game crashed. I ejected the disk then put it back in, and opened the game again. There wasn’t a continue option like I expected, I could only start a new game. I entered the new name “Trait” and loaded the new game. “What the hell is a DeadStorm route?” I said to myself while looking over Anu’s note. A few things were already different visually, Storm, or I guess “Trait” in this context, had a different hair style, the “cat ears” were gone and instead she had a weird antenna thing at the top of her head, along with hair tufts on the sides of her hair, one on the top right side, the other on the bottom left side.

Trait was pale, and her hoodie was a bit darker than the Storm sprites, the breathing and blinking animation was slower, and she had eye bags, she just appeared empty. I decided to look through her bag to see if anything changed, she had a few normal items, except for one, “Knife” I shrugged this off and walked Trait downstairs, she still had no parents

“I wonder where my family is”

I squinted at the screen, she didn’t say anything in the other route, the game definitely is unfinished, at least the first route is. I walked Trait outside and walked around her hometown, it was somewhat familiar, but that could just be me. Unlike I did in the first route, I went into other buildings in the town. I talked to the NPCs, who had nothing interesting to say, that was until I talked to the Pokémart worker.

She was a redheaded girl and she was referred to as “Ms. Rivers”. She had a long string of dialogue that I skimmed through, only catching a few words Rivers said, I stopped spamming enter when Trait had their own line of dialogue

“(She’s really starting to annoy me…)”

Then the string of dialogue ended. I jokingly said to myself “Well Trait…” I opened up the items menu “Why don’t you just kill her?” and I clicked the knife option, thinking nothing would happen, but I couldn’t be more wrong. The screen went black and then…

STAB STAB STAB STAB

A series of rapid stabbing sounds played before the black screen faded out and showed a detailed picture of Rivers dead. She was sitting with her back against the wall, her eyes wide open in shock and completely grey. She had stab wounds on her neck, shoulders and multiple wounds on her abdomen area, weirdly enough, the blood was pink rather than red and the image wasn’t pixelated.

The screen transitioned back to the overworld sprites, my jaw was dropped, I didn’t think this game would show gore. Another dialogue box appeared.

“…”

“I didn’t want to do that.”

Trait walked out of the pokémart without my control, like the game was playing a cutscene. When she was outside I could finally move her around again, she walked slower this time and people would actually try to talk to her, but her only response was “Not now please…”

“What the hell is going on?!” I said, my eyes were glued to the screen, I had nowhere to go but I continued to wander around the town. After I little over a minute of this, Trait stopped in front of a person, I couldn’t quite make out their appearance but I’m pretty sure they were a girl. An explanation mark appeared above Trait’s head and she ran away.

I was so confused, I texted Anu thinking they would’ve known something about this. They left me on read… of course. I looked back at the screen and Trait was standing in what looked to be an alleyway

“Please don’t make me go back there.”

“Please.”

“I don’t wanna go out there.”

At this point I just felt bad for Trait, I desperately tried to help them find a way out. Sure, I can be weird and feel bad for a fictional character. There wasn’t any other way out, the only way out was to go the same way Trait came in from. The same girl was waiting for Trait, she was carrying a machete and she walked closer to them and I pieced together what was about to happen. I didn’t want Trait to die, I spammed the “eject” button but my computer wouldn’t let me eject the disk.

Click click click click click

As the girl got closer

Click click click click click

But nothing happened. I wanted to cry, I felt so bad for this character. The girl stepped in front of Trait and one final dialogue box appeared.

“Look what you did. What have you done. Why did you do this to me.”

The screen faded to black and a cutting sound followed by a deep feminine voice grunting in pain played. Then a similar screen as the Rivers screen faded in. It was Trait’s headless body on the ground, front side down, and a pool of pink blood coming from her neck, her head was next to her body, a small amount of blood pooled from that too.

I felt sick. I covered my mouth with my hand. I wanted to cry. Then, the game crashed. I could finally eject the disk, I ejected it and put it back in hoping I could find a way to save Trait, but instead of the title screen it was just a black screen, white text appeared saying

“You don’t need to play this game anymore. You can stop now.”

And it crashed again. I immediately went to research the game to see if anyone could’ve known what this meant since Anu was no help. Not many people were talking about this game, but from the little information I’ve gathered, I’ve come to a conclusion; the creator of this game is most likely going through something awful and probably made it out of stress, but that could just be a stretch.

All I know for sure is… this experience scared me out of ever playing another bootleg game.

A/N: omfg what did I write. Thiz iz prob rlly lackluzter since I’ve never written a pasta before. If you read thiz far, firzt of all tysm, second of all I’m so sorry you had to suffer thru readin all of that </3 Your support iz highly appreciated!

[libra-stellium]

Tracking Mars transits!

Notes from Planet in Transit - Robert Hand

Mars opposite Sun (Apr 30 - May 6)

This can be a time when some activity of yours is brought to a triumphal climax

This could be few things: my nails were so long and I was so proud of them (writing this on 6/3 and they're all broken now lmfao), i finally found a spray that worked to get rid of the mold on my bathroom walls, and I successfully made red thai curry chicken on my first try!

This activity may have started during the last transit of Mars conjunct your natal sun (Aug 26 - Sept 3 2023)

That was around the time when I started intentionally making food at home more and it was not going well lol i had chef block! And almost a year later I was making red thai curry chicken HEALED

The last transit of Mars square your natal sun (Jan 3 - Jan 10 2024) you had to face a challenge, if you survived successfully you will now enjoy the fruition of that effort

I don't remember if I faced a challenge lol during that time at work is when they asked me to sit in court with them to time the arguments for 20 days 9-5 and I thought I should quit lmao but nothing related to that happened in May....maybe it was a mental thing! I could stretch it and say that when they asked me that I panicked that I had nothing to wear (and hated my outfits the 3 days i went to court bc they ended up not needing me for 20 days lol) but in May I wore this really cute outfit out!

Mars trine Jupiter (May 9 - May 16)

One of the best transits for any kind of activity, high energy, feeling good, belief that you can do twice as much work

I did a lot! I cooked, I went to zumba, I went to get my friend a parking pass which ended up being like a two day ordeal lmao

Extremely favorable time for any physical activity, muscles have unusually good tone and vigor

Yep! Zumba was great! Also on 5/12 I got this body composition thing done at the gym and it was so funny bc as the guy is explaining to me that most people are not symmetrical he reads my results and was like "oh! I guess you are" lmaooo he doesn't know i'm a libra like of course I would be balanced on this thing lol

You are able to act with a complete picture in mind of what you are doing

I've been working on a 3000 piece puzzle and I got the bright idea to put the part of the puzzle away that I already finished bc looking at the size of it is overwhelming! I made so much progress in a couple days compared to a couple months

You can plan with greater foresight and thereby avoid pitfalls and be regarded as lucky

This! I felt so lucky getting my friend that parking pass bc we saved $55! I wen to go pick up a long term pass for 7 days and it was $150 and the guy in the office told me that if I came back the next day I could get the monthly pass for may instead half off for $95 and I was like BET and came back the next day to get it! It was also less work than the long term pass bc all they needed was my name not even a license plate

Particularly favorable time for any work that can advance your own interests

Spent time making the itinerary for my trip to Amsterdam!

Mars opposite Moon ( May 20 - May 27)

When I read about this transit I was so scared of it lmfao I was like omgggg this is literally my trip what if my bestie and I have a falling out? LMFAO absolutely ridiculous i've known her since 2007 there's no turning back now lol

Emotionally based relationships may be somewhat difficult, women may be especially hard to deal with, this transit creates emotional confrontations forcing you to master aspects of yourself you're not usually aware of, confrontations will be most powerful in your closest emotional relations

When I came back from my trip on 5/26, on my aunt's bday, after she opened the gifts I got her she told me how she shared my pics with my mom i'm NC with..... and I was like wtf??? why would you do that?? I felt so violated!! My moon is in the 8H so honestly it wouldn't be normal if I didn't get hit with some random act of betrayal from family frfr

If you are not self aware your actions will be dictated by irrational desires

I AM self aware! I was so angry at her for doing it but I didn't snap! I took 5 days to think it over before bringing it up again

Period of testing and confrontation which points to relationship tensions

yeah this was really showing how on my mom's side my aunt is bc it was so easy for her to disregard my boundaries just bc she "felt bad" my mom was sad and I honestly think it's bc I'm doing well in life so it looks like I'm the "bad person" to her bc i'm not suffering from going NC *rolls eyes*

Conflicts at this time all serve to creatively release tensions that have been buried within you and to increase your self knowledge

True! Bc what a random way to confront the whole "whose side are you on??" with my aunt willingly telling me that she share my trip pictures with the one person i intentionally removed from my life lol

Mars opposite Mercury (May 22 - May 29)

This overlapped with the Mars opposite moon above! And I avoided bringing it up again until 5/30 bc I knew i had this transit lol the boundary I set with my aunt was that she would no longer be getting pictures of what i'm doing and getting details about them bc I can't trust that she's not going to randomly "feel bad" and share with my mom and she responded "I respect your decision"

Today may be full of disputes and arguments

Not a good day for trying to settle arguments because neither you nor your opponent will budge

Your ego is thoroughly bound up with your opinions

Make sure that there’s a real issue at stake and only if you have a real position then defend it

Excellent day for any kind of mental work as long as you don’t have to work with others

Hasty because energy is high but self discipline should help

Be careful for any situation that has potential for accidents especially while traveling

Mars square Neptune (May 26 - June 2)

Deal with feelings of doubt, discouragement and inadequacy

I was feeling bad at work bc I've been so mentally exhausted I haven't been able to complete my work and I feel so bad about it like they're going to message me and tell me they know I haven't been doing shit lol

Taking the easy way will have you face even more discouraging consequences as a result

This may be a stretch but I was EXTREMELY bloated during this time because I was opting for snacking instead of full meals or just eating at weird hours instead of sticking to a schedule lol that was me taking the easy way and I couldn't sleep some nights

Your physical energies are low at this time, try to relax, body is more subject than usual to minor infections, chills, fever, and excessive physical strain should be avoided

Forgot about this transit and I went to bodypump on 5/29 and I can still feel the soreness in my armpits omg and I could barely walk on 5/30 lol I think the weights I picked were too heavy for this day

You'll have a successful transit if you conserve energies and confront your fears

I was exhausted lol mission failed! But i had fun so lol

[lo-sulci]

just finished getting thru the gundam 0079 arc with all the amphibious mobile suits, so now i'm gonna comment on zeon mobile suit designs because why not im bored

zaku

the very first one! definitely has some cool elements- the torso design makes me think of, like, ancient roman battle armor, specifically the, like, armor skirts that i just now learned googling are called pteruges. anyways, it's neat, but also, it's hard to say that it's not overshadowed somewhat by some of the ones that follow it, which is okay!! it serves its function well

gouf

this is no zaku!! the blue is a fun color, and the electric whip is a pretty cool weapon. as much as it is no zaku, it does follow the same kind of design path as one, and really does just kinda end up being, like, "zaku but slightly more." name kicks ass tho, love da goof

dom

speaking of names lmao. i kinda really like the dom, tbh? admittedly, part of that is personal bias- purple is my favorite color, so a purple MS is cool to me. but also, i really love the camera set-up here! it almost looks like this single red eye in this dark cloak hood or smth, it brings to mind imagery of, like, fantasy assassins to me. how they move is also pretty neat, i like watching them glide around and stuff. dunno what the little badge thing is about, but i'll pretend it's a little award for having a cool design :)

gogg

our first amphibious MS!! like the zaku, it's the kind of basic one that subsequent ones iterate on. that said, look at those claws!! in general this is such a chunky MS, it's great. i also like the little thrusters/propellers it has on the bottom of its feet, those made me laugh the first time i saw them. does anyone else feel like it looks like its wearing, like, a wrestling championship belt or smth??

z'gok

HELL YEAH!!!! genuinely love the z'gok. first: phenomenal color scheme, imo. the periwinkle and dark teal works *so* well, i could not be happier with how that looks and fuck char for painting it all red. aside from that, there's something so pleasing to me about the general way it's shaped. the proportions work surprisingly well for smth that is really close to being a torso with no head. and, speaking of the head: I love the little torpedo launchers on top! idk, I can't tell you exactly why, I just think the z'gok kicks ass, and is one of my favorite MS designs so far

zock

THE MAN THE MYTH THE LEGEND!!!!!!!!!!! the zock looks so ridiculous in the best possible way, I'm utterly obsessed. almost looks like it was designed to be a mobile armor like the bigro or smth, but then was changed to be a MS instead at the last minute. i dont care at all tho, bc it is just. perfection. look at that camera set up!!!! why is it a star!!!! it's so impractical it kicks so much ass!!!! and my god, the SHAPE on this lad!! and those claws!!!! and just, everything!!!! perfection has a name and it is zock

acguy

acguy is. a lot. he head too big for he gotdamn body!! it's a bit disappointing to go back to a gogg-adjacent color scheme, i won't lie. also anything coming right after the zock was bound to be a bit disappointing because, like, what could compare? that said! the crab-like head is cool, and i like the range of motion the camera has. also, the retractable fingers are incredible, and seeing these things spider-maning around in a cave was hilarious. more than any other MS, the acguy is just, like, a sopping wet beast to me

bonus that i haven't seen in action but saw a picture of: juaggu

what the sneef? i'm snorfin here!!

[determinate-negation]

Sorry this is my last message to clarify just a couple things and then I’ll stop bothering you bc I think we’ve both asked our questions and made our points! I didn’t ask about the books that was someone else. Seems a little self important or condescending to assume so but I guess I shouldn’t assume that myself with how easy it would also be to simply get confused. I’m not crazy. And I’m not just trying to hate on u honestly u seem like a perfectly nice and fine person and seriously I’m not just saying that. I have agreed with a lot of what you’ve had to say I don’t think we’re on two different pages here. I think my main point of it all is more that so many leftists are wildly unacknowledging of the injustice and flippant cruelty of pretentious and pompous attitudes towards others. The consequences of that are significant. Those who are given the space to be a “dialectician” with a “psychoanalytic” approach have it as a very exclusive right. So maybe let’s not be so harsh on fellow queer people because they say or do things we think are “corny”. Reminds me of incessant infighting and it’s sad and frustrating. That’s what I mean by getting a grip. And I said we and collectively get a grip bc I think it’s something we’re all guilty of not only you personally! Sex for a lot of ppl especially queer people has been traumatizing. So if someone has been able to find love instead of trauma in their sexual practices, even if we think they are “cringy” for how they made that happen, why do we feel the need to shame them? Tell them how awful and repulsive it is? Is that not also somewhat awful and repulsive? So idk it’s not just a “let people enjoy things” type of thing but something more than that. Bc real working class or uneducated or poor people have “cringy/corny” or “unenlightened” opinions all the time. And that is okay, it’s unreasonable and out of touch to assume otherwise. But they will not be lectured shamed or intimidated into revolution! It just doesn’t work like that. Like as leftists we really do give the vibe sometimes that if we become the most enlightened informed best opinion haver ever we have reached our peak and others who haven’t done so are “corny”. We should screenshot the fellow wretched queer corny doers posts and make public complaints of shame and ridicule. This is so normal and good I love life!! Lmao so idk yeah I didn’t want you to think I sent the message about books too because that would be really weird if I did lol! Peace be with you and goodnight <3

“Seems a little self important or condescending to assume so but I guess I shouldn’t assume that myself with how easy it would also be to simply get confused.” come off anon and i wont confuse you for anyone, like i said you could message me if you actually want to talk. im sorry for how my post came off to you that you took it so personally. honestly were on entirely different pages. i literally dont even know what to say at this point this is insane i think youre extrapolating a lot. when you dont support the cringe working class for their tweets about bdsm…

[flightfoot]

Sooo, today I got my first hate mail for defending Adrien on another more prolific blog and somewhat succeeding (?) (look, the person is taking a break from MLB now, focusing on a different fandom they enjoy and said they'd reavalluate their salt intake. Honestly, my respect for that person just grew since).

As for the hate ask... I dunno, I expected to feel upset but instead I'm just shaking with laughter. LMAO 😂😂😂 They told me to get a life cause I have none, but I'm over here, looking at the ask imagining the asker wearing an even bigger dunce cap than I ever did back when I was on the salt train. Damn, the things salters get up to... I'm glad I jumped off the salt when I did because seeing this ask, I reflect this could be the sort of jerk I could've become if I stayed.

I just... is this a vent? I'm not even remotely upset but I felt the need to dump this somewhere. You don't have to reply, I'm just getting this off my chest. Thank you for listening.

Oh I've gotten a few people going after me for defending Adrien. At this point, I just see it as being pretty ridiculous, and when they start on personal attacks, it's REALLY obvious that the anon ain't worth the time of day.

[angelslant]

7, 16, 19 <3

7. Any tattoos?

yes!! i have two, both stick and pokes by my friend laine (hi laine if u see this hehe) one says “lost boy” on my arm and the other is a owl petroglyph above my ankle <3 (i love neolithic art and a lot of my future tattoos involve cave paintings or rock carvings) i dont have many super good photos of them bc theyre at angles where they kinda need to be taken by someone else but i love them both dearly and looking at them makes me so so happy. also i want hand tattoos so bad but im restraining myself for now....

16. I will love you if

i am a quality time bitch through and through....if you dont have time for me, i dont have time for u. i love spur of the moment mini-adventures and i love friends who ive talked to every day for years and i love people who remember that we made plans and stick to them. i really like establishing enough consistency that it becomes easy to be spontaneous. also i love grad students who just impart knowledge onto me at random and the people you share art studios with when working late at night and random strangers in public who will hear a ridiculous conversation youre having with a friend and chime in in a funny way

19. A fact about your personality

this one gets a readmore bc of length lmao <3

i think a lot of ppl, sometimes even people somewhat close to me, dont rlly understand how much work i put into being an outwardly kind person lmao, or they dont understand that i do have to put a lot of work into that? i think a lot of times people confuse my anxiety with being like..."oh you look scary but you're actually so nice!" types of things which can be very true but at the same time, a lot of my current friends have not necessarily seen me when i dont put the care in to be kind and instead go with my knee-jerk reaction to situations (which is almost always some form of anger), because i have specifically trained myself out of going with those responses. i have kind of this weird dichotomy where i am a generally pleasant person who is anxious and can be a people-pleaser at times but to me that feels like a very like....surface level version of myself that can be easily cast off if i care enough to? but i think some people see that part of me as like my deep-down vulnerable self, which i dont really find to be true. because to me i think a lot of my people-pleasing is a direct result of the fact that i overcompensate for my anger. but this is hard to explain to people because since i look alternative or whatever, if you sit there and insist like "no no im actually sooooo evil and mean and tough i promise guys!!" it just comes off as ridiculous and try-hard lmao so i havent successfully found a way to be like "hey guys unfortunately none of this is a joke to me and in fact it kept me alive when nothing else would for several years". anyways idk i just sometimes feel like people view my skittishness as something its not or dont really understand that my "~edginess~" is not actually performative because it has a very real basis in my past experiences and generally if someone is willing to grapple with that they will become much closer to me and know me a lot better than if they just brush me off because they dont really take me for my word

[alchemiclee]

theres some people that are very against pirating anything like games, and I agree that it's good to pay creators for their work (especially as a creator myself) but sometimes these people that don't make sense to me. first of all, people that pirate things most likely would/could not pay for it to begin with. so nothing is being lost. but I can understand the argument there, and it's frustrating as a creator myself knowing people like to steal art and things people work hard on. so i get that. what I don't get is when it comes to old video games that haven't been sold anywhere for like 30 years

emulators are pretty easy to get online for old games. i've used them to replay games I had as a kid on my computer instead of trying to get the old Playstation to work. they're fine with that, if you own the game. but they'll often throw a fit about emulating a game you don't own and tell you to go on ebay or whatever to buy a copy of the game before you emulate it......because it....supports the creator....by paying some random middle age man on ebay who found the game in his late uncles basement and is now charging 20x the original price because he googled it and saw it's somewhat rare? I just dont see what the point is in those circumstances. if the company releases the games somewhere in modern time (like how Nintendo has a handful of old games for their online subscription thing on the switch) then sure, you're supporting the creator. but buying an expensive copy from some random nerd for over $100 when it originally cost $10 is dumb and pointless if you're not a collector. so I don't see the problem or argument against emulating those games without owning them.

an example, Playstation used to have demo discs. I played a few games on those I loved, but they were never sold in stores that I could find. I had my parents look everywhere. so I never got to play the full version until emulators! some are pretty rare. and you have to pay over $100 to get one off ebay. i'm not giving that much money to some random person just to play an old weird game I never found in stores as a kid. paying that much to a random "collector" on the internet won't do anything for the creators of this game. it will just put money in that random's pocket. so I'd rather emulated it and played through the game once and be done.

I did this with the game called Tomba like years back. it was only sold on ebay for like $125+ it was kinda fun, but don't think I even finished it. not worth that much AT ALL lmao (out if curiosity, i looked it up and there is actually a newly added "special edition" one sold for a limited time and seems to be in steam now? so if i ever feel like finishing it one day, i will buy it there, but thats not the case for other games ive googled from childhood demos) if you think I am required to pay that much and own an old game that I can no longer buy from the company that made it in order to emulate it, you're being ridiculous. so how is pirating these old games, possibly from companies that don't even exist, anymore harming anyone? games that might never be remade or remastered or resold? it's not. ebay seller will still eventually get someone to buy their outrageously expensive resold game, and I get to enjoy a piece of my childhood without handing over an ridiculous amount of money to someone that won't give it back to the developers of the game anyway.

[thegardengrows-infrozenrain]

i'll also note, somewhat related, bad vibes and drama and ships and stuff, this reveals this blog to all the mfs in the server who hated me but...

hi, i was the tomxtamara oneshot microfic kiss guy - i actually wrote that to test the no kissing rule, which was written as a server rule by matt himself (as they applied it to shipping fanfic as well) and the mods left that up and just said it was weird because tamara is tom and thus it was selfshipping but all the gay stuff involving the same kinda brief kissing got removed.

yknow the mods that matt and bing had to add themselves because they were the only people in the server with a role high enough to add mods.

and this was after (and you could scroll the art channel to confirm, i'm not subbing to a patreon to scroll the server again, and i think i'm still banned anyhow soo-) they changed the rule. originally they had a no ships AT ALL rule, canonxcanon OR ocxcanon, guess what was left up? art of tom and a woman drawn by some guy who later joined the beyond animation team - even ocxcanon gay art would get removed back then, but the straight stuff? stayed up.

more bullshit under the cut because the server was wild and i mean that in a really negative way, though i will bring up, here instead,

server curator (a step below mods, basically the role you got before being mod for real) laly (username frequencyburbs) saying tord larsson kind of had the harassment coming for having such a unique name like tord larsson. i am serious this happened. no one said anything or told them off for how fucked up of a comment that was, in fact everyone started fucking agreeing-

i'll try to find the screenshot for that specific one later and probably edit it into the post, as iirc it's still in one of my friends's old servers, it was actually fucking ridiculous LMAO

i also got banned for saying that wattpad had some good fanfiction and we maybe shouldn't let the mods/curators (and team member franpun!!!) all go in mocking fanfic writers and like actual children (something about 13 year olds writing gay tomtord fics set post-the end and they didn't like it), because apparently my comment "hurt someone" who was buddies with the mods and half the server literally blocked my discord account for that. all the popular bitches, basically. i think even a couple of mods blocked me for it.

and then there was liam, the underage kid who said the n word a lot (which was the server moments twitter's downfall) and who personally targeted me with the server moments account because i said i didn't want my messages out in public because i'd been dealing with shit from the fandom already so they made a point to keep posting my messages and refusing to take them down. made fun of me several times for it as well.

the mods also claimed to support LGBTIAQ+ people and would ban for homophobia... only to turn around and scold ME and threaten to ban me when i told kids that the "edd is colasexual/tom is objectsexual/tord is animesexual/matt is mattsexual and they're all cis" jokes were homophobic/transphobic.

also after the tbatf drama (the "you should go j//mp off a r//f for your birthday"-jax to some kid, gr//ping kids at cons from all the tbatf chicks, and the merch deal that fell through when they insulted matt) they let people talk some light shit abt tbatf... until they quietly let jax back into the server (or was it brittany? it's been a while i don't completely recall anymore) and then you had to stop or have the mods threaten to ban you for "off topic discussion".

they also don't let anyone use the eddsworld logo/edd's font for official shit because people "might get confused that you're official" (mostly because they made edd's font, the comic dialogue font, a paid download. yknow the font made by a dead guy? a dead guy who originally posted it online for free WITH THE INTENTION THAT PEOPLE WOULD USE IT, that i hunted down as a free download long before the patreon even existed? that you can still find as an ancient post on some font website's long-forgotten discussion forum? yeah, that font. anyways i have it as my browser font on firefox and have a custom program that makes it my font on windows just because it makes them mad lmao)

they've also locked a ton of recovered art from edd behind the patreon, and just some other generally skeevy greedy bullshit with patreon paywalls and whatnot as well.

so yeah uh basically b//y//nd team and anyone affiliated with them/their server is trash and i think we should absolutely discuss more of this

Anybody else getting really fucking bad energy from the fact that Matt ok'd Honey and Future Edd as a ship to the point of letting a bobs burgers shitpost about them go up on the official tiktok but the second a named black guy gets flirted with by Ell he suddenly 'jokes' about canonizing just this one comic to say Dan fucking died on his way home?

[yesimwriting]

Time of Need

had to give yall some halloween content (technically it's past midnight but whatever, also it's not really a halloween drabble bc halloween isn't mentioned, it's more just something i've written on halloween)

Summary: i've done drunk reader a lot but tipsy Billy and Stu being all clingy?? territory i've been desperate to play with

warnings: lowkey implies Stu has a bit of a thing for blood (we been knowing tho) but not really detailed (he basically licks a paper cut while tipsy lmao)

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On good days you consider the way they make you feel when it's just the three of you in that little world you make silly. On bad days you think that feeling is straight up weird.

There's just something about Billy and Stu. Your two best friends, the only two people you trust in a way that you don't understand, a way that scares you because they're embedded so deeply in your life what is there to keep from them?

As much as it unsettles you when the realization that maybe you do need them catches you off guard, it's even more comforting during moments like this.

You're laying on Stu's bed, somewhat awkwardly pushed against Billy because Stu flopped on the bed with no warning, taking up as much space as possible. He's covering at least half the mattress and still more on top of you than not.

It's as nice as it is physically a little uncomfortable because you aren't sure you're supposed to breathe. You're not sure you're supposed to be in this position. It's been minutes now, and if they've noticed your hesitance, they've made no comment. Actually, they've done nothing to imply that there's anything weird or unusual about the two of them focusing on you silently like you might disappear.

The realization that they're both at the very last pretty tipsy hit you a little too suddenly. It took embarrassingly long for you to realize what about them was off, but in your defense, Stu's bad taste in jokes and touchiness are usual of him even when he's sober. It was Billy's blatant staring and pout when you moved your legs off his lap so you could grab your soda that gave them away.

Your realization that they had been drinking wasn't a big deal. It was noting that they were actually properly tipsy that got to you. At first it was funny, great, a way to get back at them for all the times they teased you about being a lightweight. You were amused and distracted until your thumb scraped against the jagged aluminum that once connected the little tab to the can (Stu ripped it off by accident and nearly choked on a laugh about it).

It was a tiny cut, but the thing about the edges of tinfoil is they always dig a little deeper than you thought it would. Blood bubbled upwards, a perfect bead of crimson that didn't even have the chance to drip down the side of your thumb before Stu grabbed your hand. You couldn't even ask him what he was doing before his lips covered the side of your thumb. You felt something oddly warm, Stu's tongue.

When what he was doing settled, you yanked your hand back instinctually. It was more ridiculous than unsettling and just the kind of strangely gross thing Stu would do for a laugh.

You vaguely registered Billy sitting up a little more before your snorted, an ungraceful, hyper sort of laugh escaping you. Later, thinking back, you'd realize it was the kind of panicked squeak an animal of prey lets out before playing dead. An instinctual attempt to appease. "You're so fucking weird sometimes."

Instead of laughing with you, Stu just held your gaze, something dark shifting behind his eyes openly. Without responding to your words, Stu grabbed your hand and pulled it towards him. He ignored your confusion, pulling your thumb into his mouth and swallowing just enough for you to notice. Like he wanted more blood to come out. The way his eyes watched you while he did it, emotionless, sent a chill straight through your spine.

You pulled your hand back again, a little firmer. Stu let you go with a slight pop, a subtle way of pointing out that you didn't break free. He let you go. You tried laughing it off again despite the way your stomach turned. Billy's hand lazily tracing patterns against bent knee made it a little easier.

After a minute of your heart slamming in your chest in a way you didn't understand, you decided that you needed to get out. To find a subtle, unoffensive way to go. To leave them until they're a little more under control.

Billy, who knows your instincts better than you do, was on the defensive. Instead of reacting in a way that emphasized the unnormalness of what just happened, Billy sat up fully, shoving Stu's shoulder just a little too harshly. A message to Stu, a change of subject to you.

"You're not funny," he mumbles, voice bored like the urge to leave flickering behind your eyes didn't make his stomach twist. To ease himself more than you, Billy reaches out, tugging on your arm. "Stu's an asshole." You almost soften at that, and that window of hesitance is all he needs. "That's why I called you," he pulls on your hand again gently, more of a request than a demand, "Needed you to see what I deal with."

A pinch fo humor twists its way between your caution, and that's all Billy needs. He squeezes your hand, pulling you down so that you're practically on top of him. You let out a sound, more of a laugh than a yelp and that's good enough for now. "You're just as weird sometimes, you know that?"

You're smiling, and that panicky, uncontrollable instinct of his is nearly satiated. It's pathetic, the things your proximity does. His mouth falls open in a mock gasp just long enough to make you fully grin. "As weird as him?" Billy lets his head fall back against the pillow supporting his back, "No way, he's a real freak."

Your small laugh is worth Stu's only somewhat serious, "Fuck you."

Stu's hand finds your other arm. You're tempted to jerk away, but his long fingers trail up your forearm so slowly you take it as a promise, a cease fire. "My girl gets that I'm joking, right, sweetheart?"

Wow. A 'my girl' and a 'sweetheart' in one sentence. Alcohol really does just make Stu more Stu. "You're such a weirdo." It's said too fondly, too easily. It doesn't get rid of all of Stu's uncertainty, a pinprick of rejection settling in his chest. But then you beam like you just can't help it, "But you're my weirdo."

Stu grins, fingers wrapping around your wrist, "Your weirdo?"

"Mhm," you hum, content. "Both of you."

Billy moves his hand, letting his open palm settle against your knee. "What did I do?"

"Besides call me over to Stu's house because you're both drunk?" He frowns, you laugh. "Kidding. I'm glad you called." You don't love admitting it, don't love letting them peak into the well of fondness you feel for them. "Was just starting to miss you guys. It's nice to remember that you're both..." You trail off with a wide smile.

Billy keeps his expression neutral, hand moving off of your leg and reaching forward to squeeze your chin between his thumb and pointer finger. "Be. Nice."

Heat rushes up your neck. You barely manage to blink calmly. "I'm always nice."

He raises an eyebrow at that, enjoying how easy it was to get you flustered.

Stu's hand slides downwards, his fingers loosely making their way between yours. "You've got a bit of a mean streak."

You turn your head, rolling your eyes. "Name one ti--"

"The way you almost bit off poor Randy's head because he said--"

"If he's going to have opinions that are that bad about the best movie of all time, he deserves what he gets."

The return of your attitude makes Stu grin. "See, sweet cheeks? You're just as weird as the rest of us."

You roll your eyes, resting your head against Billy's shoulder. "Passion is not weird."

Billy lets out a breath, the noise is something you can't interpret. "Why do you hang out with him so much if all you two do is bicker?"

Bicker is the polite understatement of the century. You and Randy are fine, practically best friends until you're not. Your fights are weird and brief and petty and all in good humor. "Because he's like the annoying brother I'd never ask for but secretly would never get rid of."

"Ouch," Stu hums, sharp enough to make you cringe, "Brother zone. Harsh. Didn't realize you were such a heartbreaker, babe."

"What?" The genuineness of your question takes a second to settle, and once it does they both laugh once. "What?"

Billy extends his arm, resting comfortably around your shoulders. "He's in love with you."

The comment is so jarring you nearly blank. "What? You guys are--" They're too smug, too in sync. It's messing with your train of thought, your ability to focus. "I think I'd know if a guy was in love with me."

"Apparently you wouldn't."

You roll your eyes, half heartedly bumping your knee against Stu's. "Shut up." It's a weak argument, but you don't think you'll be able to do any better. They're both too stubborn even when sober. "I have to leave soon, but apparently not soon enough to not have to hear theories on stuff I never want to hear theories on."

Neither of them return your joke. Billy's fingers press into your arm. "You're leaving?"

"Homework, parents. You didn't give me a ton of notice."

Billy slumps downwards, pulling you with him slightly. You can't tell how intentional the move was. "Say you're sleeping over at Sid or Tatum's."

"You're drunk." Stu moves your hand, settling it on his lap comfortably. "Both of you are drunk."

"So stay," Stu mumbles easily, not an argument, just a statement, "Take care of us in our time of need."

You roll your eyes despite the way that an awkward feeling settles in your chest. Both Billy and Stu have put in their fair share of time making sure that you were okay after drinking. Even if you're not a danger or feeling particularly sick, they stick around, soothing you, making sure you're okay until you're sober.

Stu drops his head onto your shoulder, and the weight of it is nicer than it should be. All three of you are a tangle of limbs and comfortable warmth. You like when the world is just this, the three of you in your own makeshift web. You'd never admit that out loud, though.

"You two don't seem that in need," you mumble, a final shot at a losing battle. "Fine, I'll call my mom."