#and in one you NEVER get to learn much about her and the other hasnt been worked on in over a year

[grimysash]

one of my favourite things to contemplate about the sashanne dynamic development/change is the fact that their roles are flipped upside down pre-amphibia to wartwood resistance arc.

pre-amphibia and s1 anne is such a fucking loser. she is literally so insecure and just takes whatever she gets, never hoping for more, she allows sasha to walk over her, humiliate her and boss her around. she is lowkey floating thru life and hoping it will all work out in the end eventually without putting in any effort for it ever to do so. she relies on sasha to protect her and stand up for herself. she's a ball of nerves and can never say no to something she doesnt feel comfortable doing and buries everything into the back of her subconscious because she doesnt want to provoke any unnecessary fights

pre-amphibia, s1-s2 sasha, on the other hand, is opinionated and cocky. shes the "idgaf" typa girl who gets what she wants even if she has to cut her own arm off to prove a point. she's bold and smug and always crosses other people's boundaries because she just automatically assumes they'll be okay with it and suck it up for her sake. she's controlling and if something doesnt go her way for just a few hours, she'll throw a hissy fit until the other party gives in and cracks under the pressure of her manipulations. she knows she's better than you and she won't be afraid to show it. yeah maybe she's overcompensating for something, maybe she's just trying to conceal her fears but when it really comes down to it? externally, she's a fucking wild force to be dealing with and rest assured, if you cross her you are dead. she has anger issues so severe its a wonder how she hasnt set herself on fire at some point

and then, suddenly, it's the other way around. s3b sasha is awkward, fidgety, fussy, she's afraid of her own shadow in the sense that she feels immense amount of guilt and doesnt want to fall back into her old habits again. shes trying her best to please anne as much as she can and she tiptoes around everything so hard you can't help but feel bad for her.

sure, she still has a mild form of anger issues, and to be fair, she was sorta pushy in commander anne trying to do "damage control" if you look at it from a different perspective, but. she's kinda a mess. especially in turning point. she literally ugly sobs reading anne's journal and realizing just how much her past actions have hurt her. she goes to sleep in the barn on bare chunks of hay because she just feels so horrible about herself.

anne is the opposite. she feels more comfortable about herself, she has goals, she knows that her families (both adoptive and biological) got her back and she finally learns to own up to her mistakes and accept responsibility. she's scared, she doesnt know what's going to happen tomorrow or even today, but most importantly is that she likes who she sees in the mirror now. she can always fall back on herself because she feels confident enough to do so and she wont take no shit.

so its a veeeery hilarious dichotomy to see them interact during the resistance era. now anne is the one who has to give a little nudge to sasha to move them forward together. she's the one who has to convince sash to take the helm once again and she isnt afraid to speak up her mind if she doesnt agree with her at the moment.

sasha's lenient, tries to hide how she feels all in favour of making anne more "comfortable" and hangs onto her every word. she's unsure and she so desperately wants to show that she's changed, she ends up tripping on her own feet.

i wonder how anne felt about this new side of sasha. her friend was kinda her idol, the cool strong one her whole life, the kid that protected her & marcy at the swings quite literally first time they met and she was her "follower", slinking in her shadows and quietly supporting whatever sasha wants to do next even at her own expense. and then anne has to be the one to take the reins because clearly sasha isn't in the right headspace now to do so.

same with sasha. she was used to the fact that anne agreed with whatever she said, but you see that anne is ready to take her down a peg if she ever deems it necessary to do so. she's generally just outspoken and expressive. she has sudden anger outbursts because she just feels so worried for others. maybe anne doesnt need her anymore like she used to, maybe she can protect herself now, including but not limited to from sasha herself

idk guys. its neat. it really is. and i wish there was more sashanne introspective resistance arc fanfic expanding on that idea cuz when they finally reunite both of them are completely different people, so even though they may have used to be friends in the past and shared history and know all the deets about the other, they dont know this new person. at all. not in the slightest. having to settle in with this vastly dissimilar relationship they got going on in comparison to the previous, all in the middle of a fucking war. it's like stopping talking to one of your childhood best friends in elementary and randomly renewing your friendship in college. you two have grown and evolved so much that really, all you know is their name.

it's both an exhilirating and a melancholic experience at once.

damn. i love the gays sooo bad i love my blorbos guys

[wlwanakin]

I gotta get ur pov on Anakin and Padme after the war(no empire situation) Some ppl seem to think they wouldn’t work out, like divorce, but I don’t agree with that bc Padme didn’t even want to leave him at Mustafar and the only thing that kept her from him was dying and there’s no way Anakin hasnt given her his whole heart to never take back. I think a lot of ppls reasoning is based on wondering how Anakin would handle his mental state(these ppl then ignore Padmes traumas) and how much self sabotage he might do, with a smattering of them never truly getting to be a couple since it had to be so secretive. And then I’ve seen ppl say he wouldn’t be a good dad bc he’s too possessive to a degree of destruction. I dont know tho bc what we got to see was Anakin at his worst and having a mental breakdown. I think abt how he was as a child with his mother and I wonder if he had room to breath and didnt have to lie anymore if he would reconnect to the best of Shmi and what she taught him. Not being groomed by a sith lord anymore would also be a pretty big game changer

this is one of my favorite things to think about!! i don’t think there’s any universe where they aren’t together til the end honestly, though they’ll totally inevitably run into problems because they’d previously spent their marriage not really able to find out how they work as a normal couple. there’s no getting around the fact that they’re both traumatized people who don’t have any experience that lends itself to a non-hierarchical romantic relationship like theirs, especially not under non-strenuous circumstances. but them being able to give each other that escape is what drew them to each other to begin with so it’s a learning curve they’re on together.

anakin specifically is never gonna be 100% mentally healthy because he has led the kind of life that fucks one up forever but plenty of people who are similarly mentally ill are still able to successfully have relationships and be decent/good partners. and the thing about anakin is that he had an unfathomably awful childhood but then when he escaped his old circumstances he never actually stopped being traumatized, but even while getting pretty regularly re-traumatized he was a pretty good husband for the better part of three years. so i don’t see why that would change drastically in a world where that’s not happening and he’s not getting pushed to a breaking point all day every day. he’s constantly stuck in a context that’s enabling pretty much all his worst traits and stunting any healing he could do because you can’t really process childhood trauma while going through even more trauma on the daily that you’re also not processing, so if you took him out of that context he’d pretty automatically be in a better place by nature of no longer having an occupation that traumatizes him faster than he can think about it and requires him to do lots of violence. even if hypothetically he had a full-blown breakdown and self-sabotaged to hell and back in a post-war au, if you remove The War and palpatine from the picture that sabotage is probably going to look a lot less like murdering a bunch of babies and a lot more like regular instability and padmé has proven herself to be so forgiving and understanding of anakin’s issues that she can and will forgive baby murder so long as the motive is sympathetic so why wouldn’t she be understanding about non-mass murder forms of acting out.

i actually think their biggest problem would be that they have pretty polar-opposite relationships with systemic power and hierarchy. they both understand dehumanization and having immense age-inappropriate responsibilities placed upon them, but anakin has spent his entire life in positions of subservience whilst padmé has spent most of hers in positions of power (rather complicated ones where she’s often reduced to a pawn but still). and they’d absolutely clash on those grounds, because they’re stuck in this place of almost understanding each other but not quite and that’s frustrating, and also because they probably have habits related to this that set each other off (i can totally see anakin short-circuiting at padmé slipping into her more authoritative political persona by accident during an argument or something or that turning into an explosive fight). and this is just the kind of thing that would slip out more and more the more time they spend together, but it’s also not relationship-ending.

in general they’d also struggle with working through things because they are both quite stubborn and their previous circumstances forced them into a position of not really being able to linger on any issues or clashes because their time together was so limited and precious, but they love each other so deeply and also just like each other and for two people who want each other in their lives as much as those two do that’s absolutely something they’d learn. it’s really just leaving the honeymoon phase except the honeymoon phase was…war. i really think that especially in a situation where anakin left the order and padmé stepped down as senator they’d have a lot of space to work through it and it’d be more of a matter of learning to be people together after a lifetime of being denied normalcy.

(the question of what kind of parent anakin would be is a more complicated one imo but i do tend to lean towards “decent” because as much as he’s possessive and destructive his ability to be a loving husband and his relative success at training ahsoka tells me he wouldn’t be violently nuclearly bad. you can’t really use darth vader as a basis because his brain looks like swiss cheese at that point and you can’t really call being on the opposite side of a war as your adult son “parenting” even if attempts at creating a familial bond were made. but that’s a whole other convo.)

[ecto-hazard]

pseudoencephalophobia

i think ive always had anxiety but it hasnt always manifested the same. now that im older and more aware of myself i have much more of the social phobias i didnt have when i was younger. but i still had things that made me nervous. i felt the need to hide journals and art even if there was nothing particularly incriminating in them. i would tell my parents my brother asked for ice cream or snacks or whatever so that if they said no, they wouldnt say no to me. these were all sort of weird quirks that were mostly in my own mind, but they probably were learned behaviors. you can probably trace them to specific causes. not wanting to feel ashamed. or be told no. stuff like that idk. they may have been irrational, but they ultimately made sense in my mind. but throughout my life a particular fear of mine never made any sense even to me.

when i was a kid i was like deadly afraid of brains. like the organ. even as a concept. idk what exactly started this cause i wasnt like Born like that (my suspicion is that it came from seeing a goreish gag from spongebob, specifically the strike episode with the door, but i also have a vague memory of DECIDING to be afraid of brains like on purpose???? i couldnt tell you what exactly happened there). it started around me being like 6 maybe. but it was like such a problem for so long in my life. i couldnt look at brains. drawings of brains. even cartoonish undetailed drawings of brains. watching nickelodeon and similar stuff was an inherent gamble. i had to cover my eyes whenever the scientist showed up on nightmare before christmas. martha speaks was one of my favorite cartoons on pbs but i fucking couldnt look at the goofy diagram demonstrating how alphabet soup went to her brain and let her talk. i had nightmares of rats with exposed brains, would wake up crying, and lied about the dream being worse when i felt it wouldnt be taken seriously. i similarly lied that i saw something scary on tv when i was at my grandmas when it was just an episode of chowder (i didnt even fucking see the brain on screen i just turned it off immediately knowing it was going that direction). at one point i couldnt even hear the word brain. or read it. i insisted people use mind instead. this annoyed people but that severity of it didnt last forever.

this was an issue for way too long in my life. even when i was an older teen. pretty much everything else i learned in health class was gross and upsetting to an extent. like i remember spending hours sobbing cause i couldnt bring myself to watch dissection videos for biology classes. but brains in particular just fucked with me. i still needed sticky notes and shit covering up the brains in my health textbook (SPECIFICALLY the brains! nothing else!). i still felt the need to cover my eyes watching shit like invader zim (idk why nickelodeon has so much gore???). i mostly kept it to myself, so it was less a bother to other people, but everyone close to me still knew it was a problem.

i was going to go into wildlife biology in college. it was the first time i felt really passionate about a future job. i loved animals. i wanted to work with animals. i had experience volunteering at an animal shelter and all. i was really excited to work with snakes in particular. i was still bothered by anatomy, i knew that was an inevitable part of it, but i was determined that i could overcome it for my passion

i could not

i didnt get through the first semester. none of the classes i took had any particular anatomy stuff, it was all real general Hey youre a freshman classes. at the end of our intro to bio course, the professor did a presentation showing what he worked on. photos of his research from the past. alzheimers research. a really important field to research in! but i saw the photos of dissections and that was it. i broke down. i left class fucking sobbing. i was humiliated. i had to immediately call my parents to say i couldnt do it anymore

the fortunate thing was that i switched majors to chemistry and had a good time with that. covid happened so that was a load of shit near the end, but overall i did fine. when i graduated, i was on anxiety meds and had been to therapy and had gone through a lot of self reflection and discovery (the nonbinary kind of course). i was wanting to do grad school of some kind but doing chemistry research wasnt really a good fit for me

id always liked biology. even if it scared me. so i looked into going into medicine. i had to actually take anatomy courses i didnt take at that point in order to apply to the programs i was looking at. my parents were supportive enough to pay for 2 more years of classes out of pocket so i could catch up on bio stuff

i was better about my fear at that point. i found diagrams disturbing but ultimately could get through them. but i was still afraid i wouldnt be able to handle it when i got deep in the course. specifically when it came to the nervous system lab. sheep brain dissection. id seen a video years ago in high school, but had never participated in dissection myself

(and i still wouldnt. the schools funding was limited, so they reused the same brains each lab and didnt actually cut them up. they were sort of prefilleted)

i slowly worked through the class. no major breakdowns. the models and posters went from unnerving to mundane. the plastic molds i hesitated to touch now but i still anticipated the lab. it felt like my ultimate test.

the day comes. the buckets of formaldehyde are out. all the nursing students in here dont want to be the first one to touch the little gray mass the teacher pulls out. theyre grossed out at the very least, which is fair. i wonder if any of them were similarly terrified.

i volunteer to take a look at it first. get it over with. the teacher puts the flesh in my gloved hands. its wet. it feels exactly like i thought it would.

and im fine. i was fine.

im proud of myself of course. i get through that class. and the next one. and all of them. i work at the biology department. i help set up the labs. i spend a significant amount of time living my childhood nightmare. and its fine. im okay. and im happy. i did it.

what i eventually became aware of is that im not like completely cured of my phobia. maybe its not even really considered a phobia anymore. but i found with more reflection that working with actual dissections and specimens, that didnt bother me for some reason. it doesnt at all. like i dont think id be okay seeing like. violent gore irl. but seeing what we Actually look on the inside was underwhelming.

what i did realize is that medical diagrams were still a bit disturbing. idk what exactly it is. the bright colors? the lighting they usually have? theres something off about them. something grotesque that isnt found in real flesh

and cartoons? even worse. always worse. theres a level of simplicity where it doesnt bug me, but seeing shit like gore in nickelodeon cartoons still upsets me sometimes. i Can watch it. i Can see that stuff without fucking losing my mind. but it disturbs me. and i dont know why. i dont know why that primal anxiety still stirs when i see brains in spongebob. but i have a sort of a theory

i think about the concept of uncanny valley. an almost universal response where humans feel disgust or fear seeing something thats Almost Human but not quite enough human. mannequins and animatronics. its off. its not quite right. the primal part of you sees it and knows not to trust it

i wonder if my brain knows that too. even if its come to identify with the outer layer of my face, i wonder if my brain knows itself subconsciously. especially when im distant, absorbed in a story, in a dream, out of touch with my external senses. when i disconnect, maybe my brain sees the familiar shape of my true form in the drawings on the screen. but it knows what it sees isnt right. its seeing a false image. ridges are too pronounced. colors are too bright. and somethings missing. it cant identify what. but a crucial part isnt there. it cant be trusted. uncanny valley.

so yeah i recently was able to play goobers lab on webkinz without panicking and it was pretty cool even if its just bejeweled. 6/10

[freakinator]

i think the thing about kab that frustrates me the most is that she seems to think shes a lot more helpless than she actually is, always looking for someone to help solve her problems for her even when shes fully capable of doing things on her own but she just doesnt believe she does

first and foremost is clown: why is her go to solution always clown?? mfer hasnt even logged on in months and most likely will not log on until he finishes elden ring which will surely take a while and thats not even mentioning the fact that they arent teammates -- seemingly a moot point considering how close they are but a declaration of intent to team is important on lifesteal cause it essentially signals to the other person "i'll be there for you" and is a big reason why betrayals hurt so damn much because trust is a rare commodity that essentially got stomped on, the fact that clown wont even do that tells me that he feels no obligation to her and its fair to assume that he'll act accordingly. kab seems to think hes reliable and will always be there for her which is fair cause he has been in the past but the thing is he isnt right now, she cant rely on him cause he just simply wont be there for her -- if he was then he wouldve killed mane by now

second is hannah: i'll admit that out of everyone on the server hannah is probably who kab can rely on the most right now and yet despite that hannah 1. has not logged on in a while and 2. prioritizes her own safety over kab's, to the point of essentially abandoning her and taking red's side when team mice had a fallout so despite being one of the two if not the only person who would throw everything away to help kab out, at the end of the day shes only as reliable as her survival instincts would let her be

third is zam: to put it as bluntly as possible, zam has never and will never prioritize kab. his main and only priority is the server itself esp spawn, the only reason he goes out of his way to assist helpless players is cause he wants to keep the server functional and leaving the weaker players who arent willing or arent able to fight back for dead basically ensures that all conflict will eventually stagnate and therefore leaving the server in a state of decay. his oath is not and has never been an arbiter of morality, its more akin to stewardship rather than justice therefore regular conflict such as grudge kills are far too trivial and most importantly normal and necessary for the server to keep functioning and will never make him go out of his way for her. sure she can ask for gear, thats something that he prides himself on and he can be rather generous esp if hes got a surplus of material, but he will never solve her problems for her unless the source of her conflict affects the server itself such as when mane escalated from hunting kab down repeatedly to becoming the main spawn griefer

she needs to learn to be more independent, to take responsibility, to not rely on other ppl so much esp if there isnt mutual trust and willingness to defend each other between them. she can ask for help of course but she cant solely rely on assistance to help solve her conflicts on the server and with her karma thing going on, how does she expect to fulfill all that if she cant even stand on her own feet without a crutch? like its one thing if it was a whole team but shes the sole arbiter, how is she meant to enact revenge for the whole server if she cant even solve her own problems? how is she meant to face off against some of the best pvpers on the server (who dont hesitate to kill weaker players btw) if she cant even spill blood on her own? she can make traps but is she willing to? over and over again? can she deal with the consequences of being a hunter? cause shes not getting off of this scot-free regardless of how morally good her actions are

[arataka-reigen]

hello! i finally watched/read dungeon meshi after seeing so much about it! i loved falin, but i had a question if you dont mind: i completely understand marcille being in love with her, but i never understood why the fandom think falin loves her just as much? it seems like marcille just happened to be the only one nice to her at school, then they started adventuring together. i love the cute school sweethearts, but it honestly seems like falin hasnt gotten the chance to meet many other people and she kinda just stuck with marcille by default. is there something more on her end that im missing or forgot about? please let me know! thanks!

Idk, man. i just think they're cute together. I'll be honest i never gave it that much thought. And her and Laios have been adventuring for a while, so she definitely had the chance to meet new people while doing so, even before Marcille joined them. I mean, just look at Toshiro. He was in love with her, and she either knew and didn't want to reciprocate or was oblivious to it.

The Touden party had other members before, so Falin got her chance to interact with other people. It just seems to me she is much more interested in Marcille than others, although she is shown to be kind and mindful of everyone, as seen through her remembering Senshi and being instantly friendly with him. She isnt socially stunted at all and Marcille and Laios probably had to do with how she learned to open up and get more friends.

[o-i-w-u]

I wish to know out of context lore

I have some myself if you’d be more inclined to a trade, any of my Bloodmoon— I mean- aus

Pretty please?

:3

*bats eyelashes*

HI!!! okay okay,,, hmmmm i mostly have them for lbm right now because ive been thinking about him the most so. whoopsies,,,,,,

lord bloodmoon au:

they make squeaks when scared/mad, its one of their tells (which ive mentioned before but never explained? the whole beetle thing makes them very vocal i suppose :) if i were to use this in a animation id end up using moth squeaks instead because sound bites of beetle sounds are very hard to come across pfft-)

she usually laughs a lot like eclipse, all deep n' sinister like, but he has a real laugh thats more of a snort in reality (mixed with the squeaks usually)! he doesn't like it very much and tries to cover it up, they haven't genuinely laughed in years.

the whole "permanent lunar eclipse thing" is more of an illusion than anything, a simple manifestation of a distent memory clawing to get out

^adding on to this, real eclipses do still occur, which usually would be a net postive for most bloodmoons, but not this one.

also a little jumpscare for you,, believe it or not, Lord bloodmoon is more of a lunar than a bloodmoon. he also.. hasnt met a single lunar i think???? i will elaborate later but for now this is all you get :3

lord kc au

THORN LISTENS TO WILL WOOD. THORN LISTENS TO WILL WOOD. THORN LISTENS TO WILL WO-

thorn is transfem which i dont think ive mentioned? for most of (if not all?) of the story, she's unaware of that though unfortunately

crimson is just a little guy,, a little fella even,,, they straight up dont remember anything before the "incident" so they're literally just a child if you couldn't tell HAHSG

kc has a full fucking bunker for her kids that they use like.... scarily often lmao

star is kinda just doing his own thing tbh. he doesn't actually interact with his siblings very often aside from when hes bored and wants to be a bit of an asshole FJSNBFBS

and LAST BUT NOT LEAST! popstar au

the bm twins regularly kill people in the alleyway behind the venue after concerts, and they get literally no backlash for it FHAHGD. their fans are fucking feral and will defend them all the way. also i mean what are you gonna throw two INSANELY popular animatronics in jail for killing people? yeah actually NO! our justice system isnt good enough for that!

the whole focus of this au is on the twins BUT!! the others are there too, and they all have their own careers/hobbies!

solar and lunar are poledancers (BECAUSE POLEDANCING IS COOL GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER)

also sun and moon were like indie rock i think??? maybe a bit of folk/forestcore for earth in there

AS FOR LORE TRADE,,,, im gonna be so honest i dont anything about know many of your aus? uhm uhm but id be up to learn!!!! share whatever you want!!!!

okayyy thank you have a good day :3

[henrioo]

I need get this out of my head. But whats yamato(one Piece) damn gender? People keep saying different things all the time. Some say "you can't call yamato trans because oda hasnt comfrimed anything." Like the thing is just so messed up.

I apologise for sounding so dumb. But ever since I got introduced to yamato things had been so confusing

Please help.

Oh baby, you don't sound dumb at all, this can be a little hard to understand if don't are a trans male, but I will try to help

So here a quick and easy explanation about wtf is Yamato's gender!

First, when we learn about Yamato they said that Kaido have a daughter, then at first you would think, okay its a girl? Not exactly

That was said for people outside of Wano, who only know about the birth gender of Yamato, since Kaido doesn't let him leave Wano is kind of obvious that no one would know about the way he identifies himself, so people know him as Oni princess

adding this to the fact that in the Vivre card, a book with a lot of facts about the chars, is write that Yamato is a woman, a lot of people get confused and even use that last info to say that Oda confirms that he is a girl

But the important thing is: ODA DOESN'T WRITE THE VIVRE CARD, THIS BOOKS WRITING BY OTHERS ARTIST AND ROTERISTS OF ONE PIECE

So, we need to get based on things that Oda really said, what it means, let look at the manga!

After we have this about Kaido daughter, doesn't take too long to finally meet Yamato, and guess what

Everyone in Kaido crews calls him a boy??? Not only that, the Kaido himself calls Yamato his son??? Wait, this is getting confusing right?

The thing is, Yamato was called a girl, we can't deny that... BUT FOR THE REST OF WANO HE WAS ONLY REFERRED TO AS A BOY!

Yamato is called by son by his own father kaido, Yamato is called as young Master and not other title that girls used to have, like young lady

Yamato is referred by Luffy as a boy, and even called Yama bro, Yamato has the honofic of MALE SAMURAIS, Yamato even have the Japanese refer to boy, like Nami and Robin have gain the O in front of their names

Yamato literally Y both male Japanese and English pronouns, and guess what, HE IS EVEN TOLD TO BE THE SHOGUN, A MALE TITLE

AND IF IS NOT ENOUGH, YAMATO GOES TO THE MALE SHOWER WITH ALL THE BOYS WHEN KIKU (A CANNON TRANS FEM) GOES TO FEMALE SHOWER

YES DUDE ODA ALREADY TOLD US THE GENDER OF YAMATO AND HE IS A BOY!

So, then why people call him a girl? Why people insist on that?!

First of all, because they are transphobic

Yeah, you can't deny boy, if you don't see Yamato as a boy after all of Oda show, then yes you are a transphobic

Those transphobic say like "Oh but there are boobs!"

First, everyone has boobs, and of course, Yamato would have, he is not doing any hormonal stuff! Also, he is a fighter, he can't use a binder or he probably will faint in the middle of the battles

And guess what, not all trans male people want to get rid of their boobs! Woooow, so incredible right???

After that, people use the argument of like, he is called one princess, kaido daughter! Bla bla bla

What again is not a strong argument since he is also called as kaido son

The most strong argument they have is "Yamato only says he is a man because Oden is a man and he wants to be like Oden!"

So again if you are cis you won't understand that, but this is actually a common way to trans masc people say that they are a boy

The same way that Kiku says she is a woman in her heart, saying that you want to be or that you are a boy like a man person is used by trans male people

As an example, I always say to myself that I want to be a boy like Luffy or Ace because that is a way to motivate myself to never give up, is also a goal, I want to be see as a boy much as they are seeing by other people, makes sense?

And even if Yamato is only a boy because he is following Oden, at the end of wano he says to Luffy that he won't follow more Oden, because now he wants to be only Yamato and have his own dreams

And guess what, weeks later of he said that, people still refer to him as a boy! Because he is a boy doesn't have anything with Oden!

Oden was the inspiration for Yamato to discover himself and also a way to fight against the cruelty of Kaido

But when he has his dream fulfilled, that is wano be free, he is still a boy! Because being a boy wasn't a joke or just a term for him, he is truly a boy and he knows it!

So yeah, Yamato is a boy and if you don't accept that you are really dumb and transphobic, but like I said, if you are a cis person you probably won't get it that

Because oda has to be really careful saying that Yamato is a boy, because you know how Japan is, also he made that because guys, oda is a cis old man, he doesn't know the best way to do this

But he did a great job with Yamato and Kiku, they are some of the best trans people written and they even show too much

If you read Wano again looking more carefully for each signal, you gonna see that Yamato is always called a boy, and the only times he is not, is for people that don't really know him before that

The final result: YAMATO IS A FUCKING HOT GUY AND HE CAN CALL GOOD SLUT AND I WILL BARK FOR HIM

[driver-doves]

character ask um sona thouughffs perhappps 😁do soba. Sona :)

Greets Gekko!! and of course, im always happy to talk about my cancelled aunt, she is my pfp after all

Favorite thing about them

Oooh this one is hard... "Favorite" is a little too wide of a definition for this, so ill narrow it down to what hits the hardest for me, and that is most definitely, the "flawed mother" angle they were going for her.

Sona isnt perfect, as much as she wants to claim otherwise, she believes in ideologies that actively put Frisks friends in danger time and time again, and as shown, is even willing to act on them in the imperfect routes, but they still love and see the good in her, because thats what theyve grown up with their whole life, and for someone who has a mom in a pretty similar situation, that hit so fucking hard for me.

Sona... they could never make me hate you Sona...

Least favorite thing about them

I dont really understand the hair motif they were going for, it feels unnecessary, out of place, and compared to all the other powers she could have had in the concept art (Doll powers, omega form, ect) just feels... idk, boring to me? i just feel there was so much more potential for her.

Favorite line

"If you dont have determination, you have to fake it!" lives rent free in my mind. its the perfect way to show off one of her main ideologies, In Sonas mind, theres just simply no thing called weakness or imperfections, and anything that is lacking can be fixed right up like a doll, who cares if itll never be as genuine as the flawed and complex human being that they used to be?

Theres also the iconic "I only take the souls of children if they disobey me!" line, which i like for a lot less complex reasons. just, out of context funny lmao.

BrOTP

The possible relationships she can have with Dalv, and her relations to integrity are both very intriguing to me.

Like, for Dalv theres this whole thing with them that they are both flawed individuals who ran away from their problems in the past, but ended up with completely different outcomes (Dalv was ripped away from society, while Sona actively got herself involved in it) but also like?? for something fluffier, i like to imagine that Dalv is good with kids, and the idea of him running an orphanage with Sona is really cute to me.

And integrity... oughh, its seen both in the no romance endings and the perfect sans route of kc that Sona really cared for integrity (their ending having the most lore, only second to Justice because...well, uty reference, her giving them flowers in that one cg), So the idea of her in a uty scenario (cough cough kcy cough cough) finding out about what they did and their fate is a REALLY interesting angle to consider for me. so many thoughts, oh so many of them.

And then last but certainly not least, theres her and Chara which i feel like i dont talk about NEARLY enough but since this section is getting long, ill just end this off on that kc shouldve had more Sona and Chara interactions.

OTP

... Its Sonaroba, is anyone surprised.

Theyre so interesting and mentally ill and evil i need to put them in a snowglobe and shake them as hard as i can. Like, you have two woman who were both wronged by the world in some capacity, and when proven wrong, are so tunnel visioned that they basically just beg for death. only that one is past that arc and has learned to grow, while the other, despite having the chance time and time again, hasnt. They're two sides of the same coin, they're two different outcomes of the same person they're they're they're-

My incoherent ramblings aside, i also really enjoy Sonanny, they're the doomed old woman yuri ever and i refuse to take any criticism /j like, theres a reason Nanny is the only adult not controlled by Sona right? IM GOING INSANE-

nOTP

... Im actually at a loss for what to put here lol. I mean, i guess theres Sona and Sans, but its just so stupidly evil and toxic that i kinda just, thrive in it now

I guess her and Starlo?? but theyre not compatible anyway so i dont really get why people would even ship it to begin with.

Random headcanon

The hat she has in the concept art right?? i imagine she actually still has that hat somewhere, and wears it on special occasions like anniversaries and birthdays. its just so cute i cant help myself rahhh-

Unpopular opinion

Im actually not that familiar with what the major idea around Sona is since i only really hang out in niche spaces, maybe i should hang around Andrews community more-

But since "Sona isnt just some random racist mom and her character goes so much deeper than that" isn't really a fun answer, im gonna say that i think we (and by we i mean like, the twelve people in the kissy cutie community) Really dont explore her Mexican origins enough. theres so many fun things you can do with it like the original game does-

Song i associate with them

The main two songs i associate with her are Suburbia by Will wood and the tape worms, and ruler of everything by tally hall.

Suburbia in particular feels like her trying to fit herself and eveyone into a "generic" standard, and the ar-15 part in particular feels like Chara speaking to her like "cultures not your friend" and "Culture is more afraid of you then you are of itself", making it a duet between the Siblings?? ouggh can you see the vision.

And ruler of everything... oh ruler of everything my beloved, everything about it fits Sona so well for me, especially the chorus?? Ayaygdgyduhhuh

I actually was story boarding a ruler of everything Sona animatic, i lost interest since school started, so heres the rough beatboards

Favorite picture of them

The little full body Xan cut out lives in my mind rent free, like look at her guys shes so full of bliss and whimsy

Thanks for the ask!! sorry this got a little long lol, i am a yapper at heart

[yourheartasmymark]

the married wizards au has been rotating in my head the past few days…what their first meeting like as Ice King and Magic Princess…does MQ bring home gifts and souvenirs for her 53 penguin children, does any random ever go into a dungeon or a tomb and just find a Archeologist witch carrying a penguin in bjorn…..what do the Wizards in Wizard City think of Magic Queen calling herself Magic Queen, does that imply she’s their ruler??? Man, thank you for coming up with this idea. It’s so good.

aw thank you for the kind words! 💕 these are some fun questions!

their first meeting

magic princess preferred to travel on foot, or at least fly. she could just teleport herself places, but that takes the fun out of exploration for her, and its easy to miss things when youre just zapping around, yknow? that does mean she needs to make rest stops, though, and one of those stops brings her to the ice kingdom one day. shes surprised to find out a cave she was planning to rest in was already a home (albeit a terribly furnished one) occupied by the ice king

ice king, of course, is excited. a princess has just strolled into his home, and shes not immediately leaving! shes staying overnight! time to put the moves on. magic princess is a little more wary, at first. its been about 50 years since simon parted ways with betty and marcy, and his isolation has already affected him, though he has yet to develop his violent temper. he just comes off as very… sullen. he swings between being weepy and being happy and excited like nothing happens.

but this is a fine place to stay. magic princess wont be bothered much, and she can just magic up a bed for herself that isnt a solid chunk of ice. she ends up staying longer than planned, and they get to know each other better. ice king just falls more and more in love- mp is actually polite to him. shes smart and witty and funny, and she has a way of explaining things that makes them easier to understand. she figures out where hes at and accomodates him. sure, she could just be trying to be a polite guest, but… its hard not to fall in love with a woman this perfect. not to mention shes beautiful.

magic princess isnt sure why she sticks around so long. she doesnt need this long to rest up, but she feels safe here. sure, the ice king is moody, but hes never mean, and as she gets to see his good moods more, she finds out hes actually a pretty sweet and funny guy, and very creative and enthusiastic. unlike other wizards, hes actually interested in her pre-war research, and he helps her sort through her notes, even if he doesnt really “get” them.

theyre a match made in heaven, and so a few years later they make things official, and magic princess crowns herself as queen of the ice kingdom.

gifts for the penguins/dungeon diving

absolutely. she cant understand them the way ice king can, but he translates for her. she could just magic up whatever they want, but its supposed to be the thought that counts for a gift, so even if its something silly like a smooth rock or whatever, she’ll go out of her way to pick things up for the penguins. gunther asks for the most complex things. hes got a hell of a snow globe and post card collection by this point.

shes brought gunther dungeon diving once, indeed in a carrier. he didnt really enjoy himself thought, so she didnt bring him again, and the other penguins arent really interested. but yes, if a tomb or dungeon hasnt been explored much, chances are youll go inside and find magic queen in there, surrounded by the torched remains of guards and monsters and writing info in her big, messy notepad.

relationship with wizard city

its super mixed. at first, they hated her. like, whos this out of the blue nobody calling herself a magic princess? WAIT, SHES CALLING HERSELF A QUEEN NOW?

by year 100 of betty taking the queen name, though, theyve basically learned to live with it. she doesnt have actual political authority in wizard city, but shes accepted as one of the most powerful wizards to exist in a LONG time, doubled by not just her raw power but her sheer competency with it, and its versatility.

its begrudging, but they respect her strength. they think shes wasting a lot of her time though, both with her pre-war research and her relationship with a goofy guy like ice king. they definitely kiss up and show respect to her face, but they grumble and complain behind her back.

[the-s1lly-corner]

E, F, ❤ w/ Jane the Killer (fluff alphabet)

i need to write more stuff for the lady creepypastas, i feel like the fandom is lacking in lady characters... like... i never realized how the majority of the popular characters are dudes... maybe ill read some stuff to learn about more characters prompts: emotion, family, pda notes: reader is gn but the post mostly focuses on jane, written on mobile cws: mentions of murder and loss of loved ones, jane is traumatized

FAMILY

EMOTION

Shes calculated most of the time, she has a metaphorical mask on... shes.. careful around you- she still gives you affection and tells you how much she loves you but sometimes she shows it instead of telling

Small acts and expressions... making sure you're taking care of yourself and that you get home safe

She does have a temper, but it's hardly ever aimed at you- but its possibly the most emotion you see from her

She doesnt want a family but she... does... she feels conflicted over it. Her family is dead because of jeff. They wont be there to watch her children grow up

It makes her feel... off... shes sure with time it will be something she can warm up to, perhaps give her more time to truly heal over everything that's happened

It will get easier when/if she eventually kills jeff, it would give her some peace of mind- let her close this chapter of her life and move on without fear that he may return to repeat his past actions

♡

Probably one of the few creepypastas that can still pass as a member of society, at least in my hyper specific au... mostly in part due to her only wanting to kill jeff and hasnt really attacked anyone else... or at least hasnt gotten caught

Vengeful to be killer biding their time for their moment my believed trope... anyways

Not very interested in PDA, she might hook her arm around yours if she feels theres any danger present but other than that she is very closed off when in public

Shes not cold, public affection just isnt for her! Shes a cuddle bug I promise!

[suffarustuffaru]

What do you think would’ve happened if Heinkel had been the one to fall into a coma instead of Louanna? I just think the potential of that is very juicy because like that completely changes the Astrea family dynamics!

oh i ADORE this idea so much!!! arghhh i love astrea family dynamics so much and i really really like each member - though of course i hope we learn more about louanna soon!!! im so curious about her and everyone in the family BUT her is at least decently fleshed out already!! but yes okay this idea is great and also Everyone in these reddit threads have brainstormed all kinds of ideas for Other Astrea Members Falling Comatose (heinkel, reinhard, theresia, or wilhelm) far far better than i could so if anyone seeing this hasnt seen those i highly recommend reading!! super fun ideas going on <3

but yeah my quick two cents on heinkel specifically going comatose is that, like people have mentioned in those threads that stuff would happen differently. marcos doesnt rejoin the royal guard, reinhard probably doesnt get the dp of mind changing, wilhelm might die to the whale instead since heinkel isnt around to get sent on a suicide mission and wilhelm Would Not Back Down from that, etc etc. or did theresia get sent to kill the whale right away while wilhelm like in canon went to deal with the royal family?? that sort of thing.

i think ultimately we dont 100% know what would happen on the louanna side of things just because. we dont know anything about how she was as a person hah so hard to predict!! but i think things would probablyy turn out a little better given everything i just mentioned. and also the bar for how canon went is super low anyway aljsdfl. but yeah i mean louanna seems like she might cope a little better (i mean. shes Probablyy not the type to fall into alcoholism right haha). or she might Also Cope Badly, depending on how you wanna interpret this. and depending on how louanna turns out to be as a person. and Someone is still gonna die to the whale probably. so things are Not That Great and also heinkel being comatose means he wont be head of the house. louanna in this situation either way would need to take charge - both in the sense that uh, in the end it'll just be her and one of reinhard's grandparents left around, and also in the sense that she is reinhards only parent left now. and also reinhard Might get a bit more pressure to hurry into the royal guard sooner. he'll get compared to his comatose MIA dad im sure :(( esp since heinkel is. frozen in time.

theres Always something chilling about how in canon, long term sleeping beauty syndrome victims are just. Stuck. in time. forever frozen. never aging a single day from the moment they were gone. thats Haunting. thats like living with a ghost thats still there. and in this au itd be heinkel!! heinkel whos still at his prime and hasnt truly had a permanent failure yet (losing his mom to the whale, losing louanna to a coma, etc etc), and of course like canon heinkel, louannas left to pick up the pieces which is always really sad to me :(( she and heinkel were young too when all of this started to go wrong T^T like Still Adults, of course, but still young!! like shes 21 and hes 22 T^TT wild stuff.

also i do agree with people who said that louanna might just wack reinhard over the head for kidnapping felt like that. 1000%.

anyway!!! astrea family drama still goes Wrong i think somehow, in another font, if heinkel or anyone else is the one that gets put into a coma :(( it might be better or worse depending on what happens!! and depending on who gets comatose and who Dies!! but yes i think everything goes a bit wrong either way :(( they can never win T^T but itd shift dynamics around every time which is the fun part!!

[frostythefrostedfox]

I can't really see sonamy working out in the long run, either one of or both characters would have to be ooc if they were a couple, I can only see it as alot of giving and sacrificing mostly from Sonic's end, because so far shown in the games canon, Amy hasnt had alot of patience with him and wants a more typical kind of relationship with sonic with dating and all that, which sonic just isnt all that in to.

Considering how much the average sonamy fanbrat clings for dear life to two tposing models in a leaked screenshot and one out of context leftover line, it has always seem like they are looking for validation rather than consensus, they tend to turn any conversation from "exposition of motives" to "explaining why i am right", and you cant win that one, you never will.

The reason why so much sonamy related stuff feels so OOC for both of themy care very little about representing the actual characters and more about representing what they want these characters to be, usually turning them into mouthpieces for whatever bias or story they want to tell, which in turn explains a lot of their love for other OOC representations of their pairing, like Prime Sonic and Thorn, or IDW Sonamy. Their story reads great if you read it in a vacuum, but as soon as you contrast whatever they wrote with the writing in the games, it becomes apparent that these are not the same characters, replacing Sonic with Domingo, by writing him to be, usually, a self centered prick that has to learn the value of *insert positive trait here*, or a little penis man that trips on his balls everytime he takes a step and needs someone to believe in him so he can do this with the power of love and friendship; and replacing Amy with Consuela, this lovey dovey perfect girl that has never ever done anything wrong, has never made Sonic feel uncomfortable, has never stalked him and has never ever in the history of ever tried to force her views and herself into sonic's lifestyle.

For some this shit was never about "why would these two character become better by being with each other" and more of "Me and my pookie". For a while several depictions of sonamy (i would call it fanon, but that would imply there is a canon counterpart, and guess what!) have always struck me as some weird self insert, and it usually reads in one of two ways

First: Self inserting as Sonic, the one being chased, the thing gets morphed into some early 2000s romcom plot, "she is annoying but i care about her", where, at the end, the pursued reveals that they have always had an interest in the pursuer and that trying to get away was their way to try and fool themselves. Usually this goes with the motif of "I wish that were me"

Second: Self inserting as Amy, this is the toxic and problematic one, because more often than not the author ends up agreeing with the concept of "Love as a transaction", where their interest must always be reciprocated because they did these many things, they have been around for this long or they have met this set of arbitrary requisites.

I really don't wanna be that person, but to me these behaviours tends to speak a lot more about its poster than about the subject of the post, and the fact that you're usually met with such defensive, offensive and sometimes aggresive behaviours (because the shit that some of them say is really eyebrow raising and I wanna believe is just a passing comment that does not represents their actual views on said topics and issues) from the fanbrats upon mentioning it, hinting at it or bringing it up, makes me believe it

If you have to change two characters so much before they can be compatible with each other, maybe they don't belong together, and maybe, just maybe, you're just looking way to deep into something that holds absolutely no meaning for validation of your ideas that you yourself made believe were real, and acting the way that some do whenever the topic aint "how great sonamy is" kinda points in the direction of "I know it but im afraid to admit it"

At the end of the day people can like whatever they want and I'm sure that most sonamy fans are normal people, but if you're one of the fanbrats that just gotta be so vocal and loud about it, don't act all offended when the others complain, or worse, do the same

[actualbird]

hiya zak!!! it's 2am and i can't stop thinking about it- but if you had the chance to write how luke gets cured of his illness in canon, how would you do it? (eg. via "surgery, but there's risks"/"oh we found a magical anecdote to your illness, yippee!...etc etc)

hiya "anon" hehe >:3c!!!! first off, thank you for this ask cuz it's super interesting. my answer to this is rather specific and looks bad at first but Trust Me and hear me out on this alright

if i had the chance to write how luke gets cured, i wouldnt make him 100% cured. medically (and this is very vague because im not a doctor), i would make it so that maybe new medication or a new treatment plan is found that makes his illness no longer terminal, but chronic. the new treatment has to be taken regularly as maintenance, along with regular diagnostic tests like EEGs and regular check ups with aaron. the new treatment would also come with a lot of side effects like mood swings, fatigue, nausea, etc.

basically: i dont want him to be cured, but i obviously dont want him to die. however, i want him to have to fight this for the rest of his long life.

it'll be an arduous process, one that never ends, but one he has to get through. and one he dedicates himself to do every day, because it's worth it, because it's worth life,

because he's worth life.

why do i want this? well, first off, it's because i'd love to see more chronic physical illness representation in fiction. it's not always clear cut with illnesses, and sometimes there Isnt a grand cure and it's more like an endless slog of maintenance

second off, i will repeat something i said in a previous ask i answered about luke's illness, but a sudden and 100% cure feels like a too-neat deus ex machina to me, narratively. his illness has been shown to be as Very lethal and Very painful and Very hard to treat, so for all of that to suddenly go away, well....the writing would feel a tad cheap to me if it were that easy.

and third off, because it'd fit well with the themes of luke's stories and luke's character

actually, let me go back to that previous ask i linked because im gonna copy paste a whole lot from it HAHA since my view hasnt changed since i wrote it. in that last ask i say:

in general with stories, i am less drawn to super neat resolutions and im more drawn to resolutions that are more like “and things werent perfect and they never will be, there will always be problems, but our characters will be okay and theyll keep getting better and better, and it’s in this push and pull of struggle and learning and progress and getting through where their happiness lies” ever since luke was a kid, even before he developed his condition, hes had the fear of being a burden to his loved ones. and when he does get his terminal condition, this fear is worsened and he starts to see his existence in other people’s lives as a whole as a burden of pain and grief that isnt worth the trouble. and…i dunno, i just like the idea of him continuing to live but also continuing to have these problems that still spark fear inside of him and still take so much work to manage every day. and out of habit, he braces himself for pain, not just for the kind his condition gives him but from Life because Surely, His Loved Ones Will Get Tired Of All Of This, Of Him and The Problems He Comes With, Right? but surprise surprise, they dont. because they care about him. because this should not and is not a dealbreaker for them continuing to care about him. aaron creates treatment thats more on the preventative maintenance meds angle so luke doesnt have to just wait for a pain episode to pop up and then dry swallow painkillers every time. it’s not infallible , but sometimes luke can have hours, even a whole a day sometimes where the pain hes bracing himself for doesnt come. mc always reminds luke to take his meds whenever luke gets too busy or caught up in a case. he worries at first that it’s an inconvenience to her for her to have to remember his routines for him just in case, but that worry becomes quieter as luke realizes she reminds him in the same tone as she says “good morning” or “have you had lunch yet? wanna join me?”, just this casual and loving thing thats now integrated into both their lives the team are always ready to help too in their own way. when luke gets a pain episode in hq, marius offers distraction in the form of idle chatter on (harmless) internal pax gossip while luke waits for his painkillers to dull down the stinging. when luke feels uncomfortable tingling crawling across his whole body while out with vyn, vyn subtly helps luke move from a crowded area to a quieter one where outside stimuli cant further overwhelm luke’s senses. when it’s a bad grip strength day and all luke wants to do is punch something and fuck his useless hands up even more, artem tells luke about custom silicone grips that exist for things like pens or knives or such and that they could look for some next time they go shopping. it is not perfect. but luke’s life, even with the pain, is still worth living. everybody is trying to help and eventually, luke learns how to start helping him self along with them too.

in summary: i think luke is a fighter. i do wish he had less battles to fight, but one battle that is important for him to fight is the fight to believe that he is worth living and worth joy in spite of it all

so if i had my way, i'd write him having to manage his illness for the rest of his life

and i'd also write him having a full and happy life while doing that anyway

thank you for the ask!! :'D

[spidermanifested]

tell me ur hcs for ur favorite fma girl. if uve already answered for that go to underrated fma girl instead, i dont know many of their names but i like hearing u talk abt them

best ask i could have hoped for because i already did mei and martel so now i get to do the character nobody knows or cares about except me RUBY!!!!!

(ruby is from the light novel "the valley of white petals" which i posted a couple things about when i read it. its plot is about how meritocracies suck and are inherently ableist. ruby is a teenage orphan whos initially taken in by the promise of earning her place in a Fair System and then has to learn the hard way that she was incorrect)

sexuality headcanon: like many others i think she is bi but hasnt realized thats an option because Society. alternately she could be a lesbian and doing comphet with al because if raygen wants her to marry a guy so bad al is literally a suit of armor, he could be anybody in there

gender headcanon: itd be fun if she turned out to be nonbinary, i think that could lend an extra level of significance to learning to carve her own path in life outside of what raygen wanted her to be. but being a cis girl still works too

a ship i have with said character: listen to me. i think that her and paninya would be so good. one of them is goofy and fun loving but trying so hard to be responsible and the other one is a total stick in the mud trying to learn how to relax and theyre both like 16 and orphans and theyd initially rub eqch other the wrong way and then realize how much they have in common and get closer and start blushing super awkwardly around each other until garfiel cant take it anymore and goes oh good grief would you girls just kiss already. Do you understand my vision.

a brotp i have with said character: its sweet how leaf never gave up on trying to make her understand how he couldnt fit into the system. He maybe should have given up sooner but he didnt and i think ruby knows and appreciates this at the end. theyre such well characterized siblingfriends

a notp i have with said character: i dont think id want to see her shipped with leaf just given how much she treats him like her snotty little brother lol

a random headcanon: i think eventually she would become the de facto leader of wisteria. she has so much drive and passion that i cant see people Not turning to her as a pillar of the community. who knows how long itd last even after the regime change, its still a tiny little commune in the middle of a wasteland, but i think if anyone can turn that energy outward and manifest the specter of communism over amestris its her

general opinion over said character: i thougjt when i got really attached to bido i couldnt really get any more niche and obscure than that as far as fma favorites went. Well

[skybristle]

Would .. would you mind telling us about your clover fanon.. I am so very curious they’re my darling ever

sorry i read this and went "i should answer that" and then i forgor. i just rembdered though! some fucked up themes tho. animal death + general mommy issues and he has some Mental Problems <3 also off the bat. he's Soooo unlabeled to me but uses he/him and kisses boys. i dont think he really cares abt the pronouns though either hes literally just hanging out. ok so! First and foremost. The reason he is Like That is because he is [sparkling emoji] one of white lily's experiments! Particularly she took a deer from the millenial forest [holy animal], sacrificed it, and baked it into a cookie [she left the lily villiage at some point in the past but knows the forest's secrets still so. lol]. however he didn't really turn out and the powers he Did get from it aren't replicable,,, at this point she hasnt gone Completely off the deep end so she doesnt completely abandon him like she does for crepe later but he Did feel fundamentally unwanted and kind of just. Left her grove seeking to fufill what she wanted out of him [not realizing he's a failure by principle no matter what he does] he is by most means a wanderer. picks up his lute, grows fond of the forest animals as he travels along [avoiding villiages because well. he is kind of a freak of nature and also just general Tism makes him seem like much more of a possibly ill-willed cryptid than he is]. he has a very strong desire to become what his mom wanted from him but also develops an appreciation for the world and wants to see more of it. eventually finds himself in the millenial forest [and lily villiage],,, and while they do welcome him its clear with the way they look at him he is the Outsider and very fucked up . eventually speaks to millenial himself and he takes pity on him and gives him what he wants [immortality] so he can live up to his purpose and keep traveling the world. Eventually as a bard once he realizes thats a thing that exists. and honestly once he comes to terms with how he'll never have a relationship with his mom [the lily grove, a mess of illusions, doesnt really let him in deep enough to where she is] he just doesnt hang onto it and does what he planned to. he has to bear the horrors of immortality but honestly it isnt,,, too terrible with his aloof nature? Like. Immortal or not he's perfectly used to his animal companions dying over time and he mostly has superfiicial relationships with other cookies. i'd say the worse thing for him is he's very,,, distant a lot. it's also part of the learned mentality of a bard/storyteller [watch what happens and remember it instead of engaging in it] and learning Things Hurt once they go away in his immortality. he's been around 2-300 years and is mostly just chill. has leaned into that cryptic guy of the woods thing a bit. he really is just hanging out. he's also probably a little traumatized from all the shit hes bore witness to [especially the dfw when he put together the dots of wl's experiments and de's goals] but idk. he just generally does not caare. he eats poisonous mushrooms for fun ebcause theyr'e yummy and dont effect him because he's immortal/in a weird position of being almost divine with what he's made of. also some time post canon he meets a mostly-human robot [copperbell, my wife's oc] who's seeing the world for the first time after being trapped in the city of wizards up until very recently. they hang out a lot. two immortal guys very passionate about music who hang out. one who's very passionate for the world and one who wants to know so much about it . yeah they're yaoi eventually . the machine and nature CAN have gay sex WOOO

[glacierbash]

hello maiyastie would you like to tell tumblr about your local psyker autism swag 40k girl

OH BOY!! WOULD I!!!!

So I need everybody to envision the worst woman who isn’t outright evil. A snarky, sarcastic asshole with unrelenting quips that entirely revolve about making fun of other people. She’s mean, she’s cruel, she’s egotistical, she’s an absolute megalomaniac, she’s very clearly somebody with too much power who has never been punished.

EXCEPT SHE SURE HAS BEEN!! Her life literally SUCKS and she HASNT LEARNED A LESSON. she only experiences a shred of remorse when she HELPS CREATE A NEW UNIMAGINABLE HORROR. She stares at a rogue trader who literally goes “no wonder people want to kill you your vibes are WRETCHED” and she KEEPS GOING.

She only shows regret or fear when it directly affects her and otherwise she’s like. So remorseless. She bullies an aeldari, then immediately compliments her sword. She teases a sister and then immediately almost dies to a sister of silence. Her life is miserable. She’s in agony. The one person she’s getting along with is an ORK WHO SHE THINKS IS A PERSON. I HATE YOU MAIYA VALDETU-NORMIN I HATE YOU!!