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#so like#this has been bothering me for years now and i have to get it out now#but i don't want it to really be /out/ there so im just gonna ramble in the tags for a sec#but im so confused as to how ppl will look at my art style and ask me#hey can you do me a commission in [insert style that is a complete 180 from what i draw]?#and i just sit there thinking to myself#where did you get this connection from?#why do you think i'm capable of pulling off this style when i have posted nothing that would even remotely resemble the style that you want#are other artists just better than i am?#am i missing something? should i be able to draw like that despite my love for my current style?#i want to be angry but i know i cant be bc i don't have all of the info#well maybe angry is a bit much more like upset#bc it pulls my confidence down into the gutter#AND ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT#everybody thats seen my art is always like hey can you draw something cuter/simpler/more like this style#and i just have to sit there and stew in my own depression bc no??? i literally cannot???? why would you ask me this????#idk im giving up on being a marketable artist#im just gonna sit here and draw my stuff#im not too pressed to publish anything anymore bc its just not what ppl like#and im starting to become ok with that#but man it sucks bc i like sharing ideas#but interaction is next to nothing so i feel like im just wasting time#this isn't directed at anyone specific just me pointing out the patterns of my life from grade school to adulthood#tag rambling#i had to get it out im sorry its just been getting too much lately and cant keep shit in anymore#so fuck it lol
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EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK!!! I want to be coherent about this season but please picture me foaming at the mouth and running on the walls. S2 being what if Mark's just like his Dad? Insanity. I love this show. Anyways, AU where an Evil!Mark tries to make Our!Mark worse, and Our!Mark tries to make the other better. Something something confronting your idea of the worst version of oneself. Plus, tweaked black and yellow costume because I saw it and immediately went murder hornet lookin' ass and knew I had to draw it. Evil ass Mark. Horrible. I think he should be dragged kicking and screaming into redemption.
#mark and the fact he is fighting for this fucking life to avoid the Many Bad Endings???? im pacing. getting out the red string.#when the season is about who you are and what you could become. when trying to be good is an active choice and a struggle.#RAHHHHHHHHHHH#chewing on the bars of my enclosure...when every mark is evil OUR mark is the outlier. the exception. the OTHER. RAHHHH#dog poetry being mark poetry because how often can you kick a dog before it starts snarling before you raise your hand?#how often can you beat it before it rips into you without mercy? when it bites not at your hand but at your neck?#when does violence for survival and violence for vengeance start and end? when your opponent is down and you keep drawing blood?#circling and pacing and losing my mind over this btw if you care#anyways self vs self gets me going crazy. did you know i loved the end of atsv? because it shows.#i think o!mark would lose his fucking mind at what evil wasp looking mark has done + this mf wasp would LOATHE mark's kindness#they both see the other as the WORST version of themselves and they can't stand it. They can't shatter the mirror but they think they can--#--change the reflection.#evil mark seeing mark and seeing what he USED to be#mark seeing what he COULD be#CAN U SEE THE VISION??????#digital art#invincible rotating in my mind#invincible fanart#fanart#mark my beloved#mark grayson fanart#mark grayson#invincible s2#invincible show#mark like hello this is my secret twin and he is NOTHING like me hahahaha anyways wanna debate about having mORALS and LIFE#mark grayson vs the urge not to accept every responsibility as his own#he's batman coded that way#ok im done yapping#if this happened in the comics in any way shape or form dont tell me JACK SHIT or i will PUMMEL YOU with my SHOES
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“I’m more powerful than a god. What does that make me?”
“A nonbeliever.”
#detroit become human#dbh#markus rk200#dbh fanart#fanart#onemoredrawing#the quote only kinda applies to this but it’s from my sister’s fic and I really wanted to use it#<— markus says it btw so i had to ok???#markus is such an atheist but robojesus implications prevail 😕😕#markus better than me cus if I saved my whole species and they start UTTERING the name RA9 instead of MARKUS theyre getting popped#right on the side of they head#her name is MARKUS… *i scream to the others in jericho*#*markus turns over to me* heh…you get it. wanna interface#me: omggg you noticed me stawpppp 😅😅 anyways hell yea#ok ill stop im just typing to type
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How do you feel about concepts for redeemed/good guy Ganondorf? I don't remember if you've said anything on it before, so I am curious to see what sorts of thoughts you have to share or if you've thought about the idea before (especially since you've worked on SoF so I assume you've thought about many possibilities of a "what if" Zelda game)
For my part: I have mixed feelings, and I think a lot of concepts end up being "I want a buff guy to ship Link with"; I also think a lot of criticisms of the racism in many depictions of Ganondorf have merit (though I don't speak on them in depth because I'm white) and would love to see a more favorable/complex portrayal of him and other characters of color in LoZ. I personally haven't seen many versions of good guy/redeemed Ganondorf that really engage with the base structure of the LoZ games but I would love to see one that did.
Anyways I love your blog and analysis and I love seeing someone who finds analysis as inherently a part of their engagement with fandom as me, it's really nice :) I hope you're having a good day
I never posted about it much but sof did actually have a somewhat redeemed ganondorf, or as close to "good guy" as i'm willing to go with him in my own writing. sof was/is very much about me exploring the religious aspects of the lore and issues of fate vs self-determination, so my ganondorf was a much younger version of the character (similar in age to link and zelda) born into an extremist hylia-worshipping doomsday cult. in sof, ganondorf finds the remains of DEMISE'S sword and believes it to be the master sword, so when it starts ordering him around he follows the orders without question, believing that he's hearing the voice of hylia, and basically everyone in his life affirms to him that this is the correct choice and he's hylia's chosen one. Because of the intensity of the religious doctrine he was raised with, he has no problem following the sword's orders even when they become progressively more and more violent, and by the time link and zelda get to him he's nearly past the point of no return. (this is also partially a product of the setting I chose to put sof in--it's one of if not the first cycles after sksw, so the hyruleans' understanding of the reincarnation cycle and their own general history isn't super solid.) So that's my personal take on a "good guy" ganondorf, and, i think, the way i'd like to see it done in canon if ever they choose to go that route--because loz deals so much with the concepts of fate and cycles, I think leaning into a ganondorf who isn't inherently evil but can't escape the fate that waits for him is a fun way to take it.
#im not into ganon/link for about a million different reasons but yeah a good 80% of the good guy ganondorf stuff out there is just#give that twink an agressive top with a huge package. like ok guys. happy for you. but uh. actually nvm im gonna keep my mouth shut#asks#i do intend to end sof with ganon alive btw. if i ever end it (unlikely)#but like. with sof ganondorf my thought was like. this is a kid who genuinely believes he's doing everything right#he doesn't see stealing the sages as kidnapping. he believes hes performing a ritual to revive his long-dead goddess#he believes LINK is the heretic being ordered around by a fake sword claiming to be the original#and by the time he starts being presented with irrefutable evidence that he's wrong he's in too deep#and he HAS to keep going because he can't admit that everything he's done up until now was based on lies#his crisis of faith becomes a literal life-and-death situation for the entire kingdom basically
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fairest of the fair
#hi! im alive and back and etc.#six the musical#six the musical fanart#katherine howard#thinking of that post going 'i think eventually you become the person you needed most' and like maybe that's the thing with my art#this started out as a redraw and <improvement meme> i think i've finally reached the stage where i'm making the things that my younger self#aspired to create. like i can do this now! i've reached That level of technical skill! tiny me would be so proud. it's very gratifying#redraw from august this year actually. i've made a surprising amount of improvement HAHA maybe it was the adamandi stuff getting me#back into digital rendering. i think that obsession has quietly slipped away but yknow. one never truly leaves a fandom. just less intensit#also speaking of old fandoms! we're back with the six stuff haha. as of writing i'm in the midst of blog revamp- figuring out how to chill#multifandom status doesn't mean ditch all the old stuff ! but i do feel much freer and less stressed. i think hiatus has been good for me#notes on this piece particularly: redraw about cutting hair and thinking of the lyric above. also lowkey &j ref + pinterest poem excerpts#of female suffering. and maybe a dash of amanda heng let's walk inspo. this work is really just full of contradictions..#1. the mirror and cutting hair as an act of self liberation 2. the & is part of the lyric but also a nod to &j (in another iteration it was#pink but the white looked better) and like. &j is really all !!! girl power!!! etc. and i was like hmmmm. also matching pink shiny aes#3. the frame as a cage; the mirror as a self reflection idea (ie. saville's propped insp) but also as a sign of vanity. 4. sparkly costume#and pretty pose- read one too many poems about women feeling like they have to be pretty even in their suffering. something i wanted to#explore. and also in 5. the show itself... all you wanna do is. despite all the dancing and pink and sparkly the content of the song is#darker. and even though it's a story of her suffering it's still presented as a shiny fun pop song and ajshdhfhfh ok... 6. the lyrics fall#outside the frame. sort of a caught inbetween. sort of a trapped in the narrative and yet#within the frame it's all. vaguely handwavy breaking free vibes. like i said contradictions?#7. cutting off the long ponytail vs the pull my hair lyric at the end. yeah#8. the blocked off & looks a bit like scissors. positioned to cut right at the neck#anyways yeah irl remains hectic! but if i get around to more doodles they'll appear here :)
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D:BH Rarepairsweek 7 | @dbhrarepairs
Day 1 - North/Kara
#dbhrarepairsweek#northara#north x kara#dbh#dbhrarepairs#dbh mods#d:bh#detroit: become human#dbh kara#dbh north#ok so i kept writing captions for this scene but i realised that i think it's more fun if you can read what u want in it if u want?#big story au or just romantic au?#r they revolutionary leaders?#co-parenting alice?#just struggling together?#did they kiss or just hold hands??#WHAT MATTERS IS: IT IS NORTHARA#THEY'RE NEAT ALRIGHT#like there's some fun potential there#i have MORE great scenes with them but i didnt have time so i wanted something light and less conceptual to start off the week hehe#helped me get back in the gif-making groove#also i tHINK this is the post format i want to go with but yeah#i want them all to look consistent but if i make any changes be ready for that#(also i rly enjoyed the prompts but im doing gifs this year a.k.a it's a bit more limited so NO PROMPTS. )#(BUT GONNA TRY TO MAKE 1 DIFFERENT PAIRING PER DAY)
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band au rahhhhhhhhhhh
#i wanted to draw the other guardians too but this would be a good start#ok so#tsuna starts his band. yamamoto bass and gokudera keys and tsuna suprisingly drummer and also lead vocal. reborn appears out of nowhere-#being “youre not your full potential so i will drain you till youre like a fish in a dehydrator until you become the best out there.”#thats about it#but i just like how drumming singers are like extremely good music people because drumming is already hard. and singing too???#absolutely insane i might say. tsuna would do this (bc reborn told him so)#he does not want to be the best but reborn exists in the paro for a reason#reborn is like maybe a famous musician who faked his death then did whatever he wanted to do while he was “alive”. then he got tsuna as his#apprentice and so so. oh yeah also whiplash (the movie) reference bc holy shit its so good. for me at least. and reborn would make tsuna go#that kind of crazy. like training until drenched in sweat from morning to night or whenever hes available. bc he knows he has potential#he just need someone to push him beyond his expected limit#btw 8059 implied#gokudera joined the band first bc yeah then comes yamamoto for fun as he had to rest from playing baseball a bit too enthusiastic#gokudera hated him so much for like being dumb??? (the goofy ah laugh) but then the two dated even before reborn made a move on tsuna#its very funny but they work it out#i was also thinking if the band ever do solos or do something not as the whole band 8059 will have their own album. itll be great#for genre im not sure?? lets just say alt rock electrojazz????#no idea but maybe ill make a playlist. maybe#sawada tsunayoshi#reborn#yamamoto takeshi#gokudera hayato#8059#r27
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now i can finally leave surprises in your inbox HEHEHEHE
#you have become TOO POWERFUL!!!!!!!!! i. i saw i had an ask from you and i was so excited.#‘wow!!’ i said. an innocent man. a fool. ‘what did my beloved gb say in our first correspondence? prithee tell for i am naught but gay!’#and then i was shot. in the face. point blank. eviscerated#tmnt#rise#FAVORITE#FAVORITES OF FAVORITES. the MOST FAVORITE#ok. drama over. gay shit now. hey. hey gb. [kisses you with tongue]#im so fkkin obsessed with your style and this is so amazing. it’s so soft. it’s so fkkin tender. i want to write a 50k fic just of this pic#your lines are so god damn pretty?? your colors are just. chef kiss. his lil face makes me want to **** ** ***** * ****#mwah. mwah. mwah. forever mwah. good morning everyone!! i hope your day started off .1% as well as mine bc if so it’s gonna be a Good One#ask tag
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swap au or something
ekko -> viktor
viktor -> jinx
jinx -> ekko
i read this fic and got inspired. it doesn't follow the canon to it but it inspired me (do check it out though it's really cool)
if you got any au questions then throw em at me (i've only watched arcane once tho so i might not have answers)
(more in the tags)
#diinoposting#yippee diino art#random au ideas#arcane swap au#arcane#ekko arcane#jinx arcane#viktor arcane#forgot to add#viktor gets 2 hexclaws for braid equivalent#they also are what he uses the stolen hextech to power#as like equivalent also to jinx's guns and weapons#it's cool#ekko here still becomes machine herald in place of vik#it's less religiony but he is still saviour in the eyes of the healed#jinx at first still quite likes bombs but switched to more defensive weapons after creating the firelights#definitely will still create time travel too#jayvik probably won't happen in this au except for maybe really later. they kinda fought at the start and it was pretty irreversable#viktor hates jayce and piltover with a passion because viktor created a bomb and was gonna use it on enforcers but jayce thinks now that al#-zaunites are chaotic and violent. he doesn't want to work with someone who's making bombs that will kill their beloved police force#this is like really far back tho. a couple years or so after viktor's boat scene. so it's not exactly fully rational thought yet#since they got small child brains (in terms of development and core values. they're still both super smart)#then since hears their argument and viktor accidentally sets off the bomb. jayce retreats and takes their main notebook back to piltover.#singed i mean. typo#meanwhile vik gets adopted by silco who promises that jayce and the rest of piltover will see his potential someday (likely violently tbfr)#the bomb and the boat are currently his best work and silco sees use in all of it. the bombs are well. bombs. but the boat has really well#-made mechanisms which can be used for other stuff#i think im gonna stop rambling in the tags now lol#any questions feel free to ask cause this idea has definitely split off from it's source inspiration#ok thanks gang
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just finished the poppy war trilogy what the FUCK WAS THATTTT
#i mean this in the positive way#head in my hands#im gonna strangle rin with my bare hands#me: i love stories where the character becomes the worst version of themselves through the cycle of revenge and vengeance#me when that actually happens: I CANT BELIEVE THEIR ACTIONS CAUGHT UP TO THEM AND TRAGEDY BEFELLED THEIR ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!#ok but actually#how she kinda broke the cycle by choosing to die and not keep going#because how all the others had continued their reign and their wrath and ruined the country more#AND THEN IT CIRCLJNG BACK TOO#cause the whole thing in the first book of ‘why would the red emperor kill his wife if he loved her’#AND THE NEZHA KILLING HER ON SPEER AS THE HESPARIAMS GET CLOSER AND THE PAIN BECAUSE OF HOW#MUCH HE LOVES HER#love was there and it didn’t change anything. but my god. the love was there#don’t get me started on kitay. i don’t even want to think about kitay.#HEAD IN MY HANNDSSSSS#i think everyone should read this book. btw.#enemies to friends to not lovers to enemies to one killing the other. peak literature#me rambling#the poppy war#the burning god#they weren’t kidding that god really can burn
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you ever think about how bill is who the pines could have been if they didn't have any kind of support from anyone in their lives
#godsrambles#im thinking about the thing on the website where he goes on an angry jealous rant about stan#bill turns away from the chance to be better over and over and over and over again#but what couldve happened if he had some kind of support at 30? at 60? instead of at over 1 trillion?#he turns himself into a monster. he sets everything up to try and lead someone down the path of becoming a monster with him.#not consciously. but subconsciously he is so ready to commiserate with someone else about being monsters together. and be less alone in it#and then bill finds out that this person actually has a family member willing to risk the apocalypse just to bring him back.#and other family members willing to do whatever it takes to rescue him During the Apocalypse Itself#and friends who forgive him. and then even the brother he thought he hated for so long gets a happy ending#and here bill is. in a pit dug by his own endless atrocities. but the very first few shovelfuls of dirt that started digging the pit#were caused by him having no one. no support network. no family member willing to cause the apocalypse just to bring him back#and then he gets fucking institutionalized.#one of the kinds of places where people unwanted by anyone in society get sent to so no one has to think about them again.#^greatly reductive descriptor that isnt always true im just talking about the way society views this topic + depicts it in media#like ok. ok i guess. sure. whatever. fine. im exploding everything in the universe with my mind 👍
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I don't normally ever speak up, but lately I've been seeing a lot of takes like this
Both on tumblr and off of tumblr. So let me just say this out loud for all three of my followers:
There are way more people in this country who don't want Trump as president than who do. Way more. The only way he wins is if a ton of us collectively decide not to vote.
And before anyone takes a swing at me, I was on the literal front lines of activism during the last Trump presidency. I risked life and limb for years.
And even after all that, this defeated outlook is genuinely confusing to me. If we don't want a Trump presidency then get out there and vote against it. Grab your buddies to go vote against him. Grab your family if they swing that way politically to go vote against him. Grab your damn classmates to go vote against him. If voting was as useless as some people seem to think, then the right wouldnt be so terrified of us organizing. They wouldn't need to rally so hard around this incident if they were certain they'd win. They're scared. They know that there is no guaranteed Trump presidency.
Fight back against this attitude of inevitability. Don't want a Trump presidency? Then become the reason he won't win.
#become a fucking menace#trump#biden#this is like the third personal post I've ever made since starting this blog in 2013#im shy ok#but i cant keep quiet on this#us politics#donald trump
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hello! hope this isnt an invasive question or anything, ive been following your art blog for a while, an i've noticed you tag your art that has "you" in it as "neptune" is that a name you went by before, or something else? :o sorry i know its a little weird to ask !! hope youre doing alright ! 🦆
so I fully realized/had a name for my transness at age 11 or so, but I didn't pick my childhood nickname of Cheye as my name until I graduated high school I believe.... i can't remember
Anyway between those 2 points I tried some names but they never felt right. But I like organization and needed a tag for my Self drawings on my art blog. I'm a pisces and the ruling planet for that sign is Neptune (along with it being one of my fave planets) so that was the tag label I use(d) for drawings of me. I didn't have to wrack my brain for several years for another name I'd actually go by, and it's also not a name/label I dislike. Neutral.
I've kept it as "neptune" instead of changing it to Cheye for the same reason that sometimes when I'll talk about scenarios with myself and OCs I'll refer to myself as smunker instead of "me" or "cheye" (even when im not talking about their fur forms)....i just think its embarrassing to "admit" or call attention to it being Me in 90% of the stuff i make LOL its more sensible to refer to myself as a character
#ykwim...saying ''talon leaves the room when al and smunker start kissing but if he'll come into the room if it's something that starts#without him there'' becomes the ramblings of an annoying elementary school classmate talking your ear off about a boring dream they had#once you substitute Smunker with ''I'' or ''Cheye''. like damn who cares also thats so cringy...etc#thats also how I feel tagging little self doodles with my actual name so its Neptune instead#skunk mail#anonymous#like its ok if YOU guys refer to drawings of myself as myself...u dont have to say cheye u can just say you etc#i just get embarrassed doing it myself. like damn sorry im cringe
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Something something S4 shows through Nancy how someone can be pressured into a relationship by well meaning people, how easy it is to project your significant other onto someone familiar when they're gone, something something Nancy only started giving Steve eyes during situations he reminded her of key moments in her relationship with Jonathan, how you could see all over her face that she was going to reject him, how the audiences emotions are lined up with Steve and not her and the fact that Steve wants a girlfriend so badly means the audience wants him to have a girlfriend too bc he deserves it ! He's grown so he can do better this time ! She CAN love him ! Look ! The people who just officially met them this week think they're true love ! But Nancy is in love with Jonathan. But Steve wants a white picket fence life at the end of a cul-de-sac with 6 children, which Nancy said herself is like her worst nightmare. But Steve was never the problem in their relationship. Nancy didn't love him. Nancy is not a prize. He doesn't deserve her for changing. And the people trying to matchmake them DO NOT KNOW BOTH PARTIES WELL. Robin JUST officially started talking to Nancy, all she really has to go off of is whatever Steve has told her and EDDIE met BOTH OF THEM officially like three days ago. All he knows is their reputations really, and that "act of true love" was entirely typical of Nancy's character and she would've done it for just about anyone she cares about, he doesn't know that though because he doesn't know her. And she ended the season in her bf's arms setting up their conflict in s5 while Steve ended the season alone but with his friends.
#ok draft go off#im actually reluctant to post this just bc now I'll only have 68 drafts#this post is about byler. plot twist !#i fear i have no more words. this doesnt usually happen to me#i am SO tired tho so cut me some slack i swear the next time i randomly post smthn the tags will go crazy 🤞 campers honor#stranger things#byler#jancy#nancy wheeler#jonathan byers#steve harrington#will byers#mike wheeler#✋️🙄 pls#ok its the next day and i can think again. this post is abt byler. djbsbd#in the sense that mike was pressured into a relationship by well meaning people who thought they liked each other-#and el was so similar to will that it was easy to project him onto her and when he thought she was gone his relationship w will developed#and when SHE came back he started to recreate what he had with will with her to make it easier to be w her in general#and as she is becoming her own person with her own wants and needs- their relationship suffers for it#also 'you could see it all over their faces' ily speech and he ended the season with will setting up their plot in s5#and el ended it alone (with her family)
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erm what the freak!!
the face of somebody that listens to barbie girl on a cd player that was gifted to them by a time-traveller
does anybody else here like the magnus archives . are you a avatar of the stranger hyde believer or a avatar of the spiral hyde believer (or a secret third option?) please let me know. personally im a spiral believer.
hold on
how do i make a poll
hey it worked!!
#jekyll and hyde#hyde#chat should i just make my tgs headcanon world its own seperate oc world at this point#because the story and character have become so unrecognisable im getting tempted to just redesign them to be their own characters#i ponder this like everyday. it lives in my head rent free#puh LEASE LISTEN TO GRAND PARADISE BY FOXING#life changing song. okay not really i lied but its still really good#im tempted to just start uploading the most random junk on my tumblr. just start polluting my profile like i do with my toyhouse bulletins#i still need to rewatch the 3rd how to train your dragon movie before i make that big analysis post tho#its been awhile since ive watched all 3 movies. just need to get all my stuff together#maybe ill make a video on it#edward hyde#ok i think i did it#my art
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rk800 💙 rk900
#ok hear me out#i think they are blorbo shaped#if nines got a hug. he can be fixed. i know this. give him a chance. give him some connor#rk1700#????#i said theyre cute as platonic but i feel the tendrils of shipping lens activation slowly creeping up to my feet....#nobody asked me to give nines a lil blush there....but i did it anyway......software instability moment.....#its funny how i started out hating his guts i just called him an ugly bitch when he showed up and now i am becoming so soft for him#i just didnt understand why he was so popular then found out yall just want that love hate dynamic with the asshole cop which#i agree is valid and i do dabble in a little now#regardless#i looked at nines and connor for too long and something is stirring in me#i am afraid#hankcon going strong tho i just want connor to be loved by every single person in the game#mark my words one of these days im going to make some terrible decisions with kamski...#on another note im glad for the dbh obsession because its giving me a much needed push to learning a bit of form and rendering with art#usually i wing it and never colour but this is progress im kind of proud of :}#enjoy folks#my art#detroit become human#dbh#i forgot to tag for myself#id apologise for always rambling on in tags but you can choose not to read it#and whenever i see anyone mentioning getting a chuckle out of it it makes my day#you pressed that see all button. youre seeing it all man
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