#and im not ready

[crying-in-converse]

cant stop thinking about how close the start of the school year is again...

[animentality]

My mom has cancer.

And I'm scared.

And I'm angry.

And I'm sad.

But I can't be any of those things because she needs someone to support her right now and it's not about how I feel, at all.

So I'm going to keep my crying to myself.

I'm going to get my shit together so she has nothing to worry about from me.

And she knows she's the one who's allowed to not be ok right now.

God.

I hate how people just...don't live forever and ever.

If anyone deserved to, it's her.

[sablewardz]

the new arcane episodes are breaking me and I havent even watched them yet

[raksh-writes]

I have an exam in like half an hour and I am Stressed. Everyone that already had an exam with that professor is fear mongering and fueling my anxiety and frankly I just want it to be over with. And then we have a second exam on monday ;_;

This is gonna be so bad but I Need to pass this and I have no idea how In gonna do that ;_; Y'all wish me luck this is gonna be a mess, oof

[anachronisticbones]

what the FUCK Yakuza 0's the first game that made me fucking cry holy SHIT

[panncakes]

khun yai dangerously close to worming his way into my heart as one of those characters i will never be able to fully shake

[tinyevelyn]

have been busy the past few days and will be for the next few weeks due to end of year exams. ill try to post a few doodles every once in a while so yep anyways

human emiko? human emiko.

[kkyaka]

Y'all please pray for me, I need to pass this orgo exam 😭🙏🏽

[sunshineandlyrics]

Women supporting women!

[imeminemp3]

bad day at work and bad day thinking about how scared i am for my trip and still trying to deal with liams death i come home and it's literally so mild but my housemate used my scissors from my room which meant they're dirty now and it just sent me ova the edge cool cool time to spiral

[lost-hourss]

Mm.. I have a weird feeling that my dog is slowly inching closer to death, I don't like that..

[clawsomebeats]

its time

[analogboii]

iconic of him. he must be getting ready to drop a fuckin' nuke or some shit. he WANTS people to talk about it. hes out for blood. he wants to make sure drake will never come back from this.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[eydilily]

so i dont love you !

[haethyre]

Pets are part of the family and people need to stop acting like losing them is any less devastating