#and im more of a 'might as well'
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eourghh i hate when i spend so much time engaging in the things i like that i get a little sick of them so decide to take a break and realise the suns almost set and i havent spoken to any of my friends today and ive forgotten to eat or drink and i feel like shit but i cant do anything about any of it bc theres too much so idk where to start so i dont and i just sit there not enjoying taking care of my needs or enjoying my interests because both feel so out of reach and my home starts feeling less like a home :(
#day thoughts#vent#sort of#i wish i could telepathically let my friends know i would love to spend time w them#but i am just so incredibly exhausted i cant reach out to them first#like i always do#i wish i could let them know it is exhausting always being the first to reach out#because eventually that gets to me and makes me wonder#if they actually think abt me as much as i think abt them#or if im just another thing theyve gotta do#like i would gladly make space in my schedule whenevers possible to hang out w any of my friends#and i do get i have a much less busier life than them but like#it feels as if theyd only want to spend time w me if they werent doing anything anyways#and im more of a 'might as well'#rather than a 'i really want to'
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growing up!
#FALLS TO THE FLOOR!!!!#so shocking news: the silver artbook actually killed me a little. this is the first finished pic ive made since#wow isnt it crazy that 26 completed illustrations would kinda take it outta ya. bananas. i need to Not do a full bg again for a minute#i had the stupid thought like 'oohhgh i could do a series of silver and lilia as hes growing up!!' im HITTING ME!!! NO MORE SERIES!!!#I CAN DO NON-RELATED PICS OF THAT IF I MUST!!! THE PRESSURE OF A SERIES IS TOO TIRING RN!!!!#my life is a whirlwind i JUST moved and now might need to move again bc the nepotism might work and id make a ton more#im trying to sell my house and its going very poorly. im doing well at work. ID HAFTA MOVE ACROSS THE COUNTRY AGAIN#ID BE BACK NOOOORTH id go to pennsylvania <3 im from new york so the thought of being closer to my mom is rly nice#and i have friends there both from high school and ohiiiio and new england etc etc!!!! YAY!!!#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#lilia vanrouge#suntails#did u miss this. be honest. when i vanish for months at a time do u miss the rambling life updates. theyre who i am
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seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything
#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out#i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity#but me i like to chill out.#and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed#at the thought that others might want to see me working#if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do#catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries#for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day?#or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk#not in the slightest#but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior#that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation#this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age#and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative
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obligatory beach divorce doodling
bonus rough cover redraw of x-men #41 (1995) But Beach Divorce below cut
#mcu#marvel cinematic universe#xmen#xmen movies#xmen first class#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#'snap i thought you were drawing old cherik this weekend' so did i but i was inflicted with visions sorry </3#i have my lil 92 comic sketched so ill do that tomorrow. not finish it but ill work on it 💀#i wsa just gonna draw the first thing but then i figureed i might as well draw Most of the beach-divorce-related things i want to#just so i could put it all on one post. however this is a lie and i know ill wanna doodle more beach stuff#the first drawing Unsurprisingly was motivated BY the xmen 41 legion quest cover- at the very least the total blackout of erik's face#i wanna draw more of erik using his powers .. i wanna figure out how i wanna draw the effect etc etc#i was just gonna redraw the cover but i already liked the sketch i did of the first thing so. here we are#plus i figure someones already done a redraw of the cover but if anyone cares ill finish my version ig LOL#as for the comic ermmm it was just an excuse to draw erik with glowing eyes </3 and fading-glowing eyes </3#thats why i didnt draw the whole. Choking Moira bit. but i wouldve if i was redrawing the whole scene#kinda wish i did now that i think of it cause it coulda looked cooler prob but oh well maybe in like. three months when i redraw this#for exactly five cents ill redraw the whole beach divorce erlkjealkaje i can see it so clearly in my mind#what if first class was a comic drawn by a freak thatd be wild#but yeah thats why everything look rough as christ these were just supposed to be silly lil thangs#'silly things' and its beach divorce OK.#ok bye im gonna do my homework
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recent gira skpg+some slightly older doodles of baby gira
#poke mythos#pokemon#giratina#baby gira#sketch#was outta state fr a funeral im sick and beat#as in i got sick. potentially covid from my mom shes bad at masking -_-. idk i need to get some more tests#id tested negative a few times in recent days but after i started feeling a bit worse i might as well make sure its not a false negative#ive been masking regardless tho
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Summer Times
Hi! I'm finally back from my two week abroad trip!
#i hope everyone is doing well!#ive gotten quite a bit of asks these past two weeks and i apologise for being so silent with art#i didnt bring my laptop with me and didn't have the proper environment to set it up even if i did so i couldn't really draw#i want to properly answer questions and make lore posts with more than just text so i hope you can forgive me#everything is going to be answered in due time#all my art projects are also getting completed and i really hope you'll like them because i think they're pretty cool!#for one instance im learning krita to make a bad end au themed animatic#if im successful i might even get to make an actual short episode one day which would be cool i think#once again thank you for the support despite my abscence#super mario#super mario bros#smb#luigi#mario#princess peach#mareach
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[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post
#dc comics#dc#damian wayne#dick grayson#talia al ghul#batfamily#dc robin#nightwing#anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther#like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it#they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc#but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself#anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did#it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios#also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul#you will always be famous to me#son of the demon origin...bwahhh#anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic#but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up#so go look at that as well#anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy#i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!)#so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!)#when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself#it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on#I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue#i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :]#idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups#so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat#mine
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hello again I'm insane. I will never not love drawing slugcats hugging and cuddling. but my md hyperfixation hasn't stopped yet so it's nuziv
#V turned out a lot smaller than I'd like but its too late to fix that.#also im tryna clean up my pixelart more cuz i might as well#converting to a more pixelated artstyle was completely by accident btw#rain world#murder drones#slugcats#fanart#md uzi doorman#uzi doorman#md n#md serial designation n#md v#serial designation v#nuzi#vuzi#md envy#nuziv#vuzin#envuzi#nuvi#violentbitingbiscuits#bah so many names for this ship#n x uzi x v#i rlly love nuziv. like an unhealthy amount#if anyone has nuziv fics to recommend. hit me up#my art
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a dull 25th (id in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#ruporas art#late christms comic doomed to always be late for christmas...#i like to think of vw having good and fun christmas maybe after being together for awhile#but im always thinking of how lonely and miserable most holidays might be for them. i think specifically in wolfwoods case#since he had some more years to enjoy them with family as opposed to vash who had it cut short very early#anyway… why modern au jin…. Well. i wanted to draw them in comfy clothes
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rain or shine i'm by your side so why won't you look my way
#parkour civilization#parkour civilization fanart#parkciv#evbo#seawatt#seavbo#minecraft#minecraft art#third version posted!!!!!!!!#good morning it is 8 am and i actually spent 2 hours marinating in bed#body clock fucked as hell wdym im automatically waking up 6 am on weekends now#well alright time to post more of them!!!!!!!!🌈🌈🍭🍭#has anybody noticed the weathergirl flavor foley captions#i looooove weathergirl Omg#i had it on loop when i made this piece#my original idea was to actually just have evbo alone!!!!#a weird yearning that he just cant seem to understand!!!!#an unknown want for someone thts been long gone but he doesnt want to acknowledge it!!!!#might get into mavbo slash darkstar too lowkey
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round 2 of prelim designs for @philosophiums n my lovechild of an au
first year trio
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jjk atla!au#gojo satoru#nanami kento#choso kamo#atla!au: design#atla!au: art#STILL NOT SHUTTING UP ABT THIS AU NOT SORRY#shoves more concept art in ur face but make it the Adults#spent entirely too much time figuring out how on earth to dress gojo#bc i knew i wanted him air nomad monk-esque#but the LAST thing i want is to put this man in orange. in fact i wld rather die#so i yoinked raava's whole Vibe every1 say thank u raavaaaaaaa#debated the hat also but im so happy i went fr it it brings the whole thing tgt so well#every1 say thank u painted lady kataraaaaaa#and the fit as a whole turned out SO good im ????? do i LIKE gojo in this ???????? hina like gojo challenge???????????#who knew all it took was billowy robes and twice as many necklaces as any one man has the right to wear#as fr the others#iv never Drawn choso period so i ws neutral on his design until i had th idea 2 make his furs bloody#now i think its pretty metal GHFHJS#n then theres nanami......not a Bad design i dont think but definitely pales next to th others gomen......#reffed the lok metalbenders pretty heavily n didnt do much else.....might workshop it probably definitely bc i refuse to let him flop >:(#lmhs
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why are they batshit insane
#sorry I can’t stop shitposting#don’t come at me with the whole oh 2/2 has two choices so joker can choose not to do it so it’s not valid he SERIOUSLY CONSIDERED IT#IT WORKS IN SPIRIT#after he made all his friends give up their wishes#after being like maruki we’re going to stop you#maruki then pulls out the akechi card and jokers like ok well shit#look. He considered.#he seriously considered it. The only thing stopping him is akechi#literally comparing rank 10 and non rank 10 akechi choices for lavenza after third sem joker has regret options#like his regret is literally leaving akechi to his fate of assumed death#OK#IT WORKS IN SPIRIT.#and the twewy one is just. the interview that said Neku fully expected Shibuya to be gone#and that’s why he says what the hell#actually rip neku because he had to choose in ten seconds#at least joker had like. 3 dialogue options.#LOL#p5r#persona 5 protagonist#twewy#sakuraba neku#ngl neku might be more insane because Joshua is Joshua#persona 5#yeah this is shuake. To me#my art#doodle#doodles#shuake#and joshneku tbh but the fandom is so small im scared to tag not so relevant stuff in it
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Theres many mistakes on this but i just wanted to finish it and move on, also yes i totally forgot Blossom was supposed to be wearing a long skirt :')
Bricks reaction:
#sbj more than human#powerpuff girls#rowdyruff boys#my art#fanart#ppg#rrb#i kinda dont like it lol ajajajaj#but might as well upload it here#im so lazy at backgrounds
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sif is almost just as mentally stable as me
#i was like. nah im not gonna draw more for now. welp. didnt work out#ive been scared of posting art recently and i really procrastinated with posting that odile pic (i made that like two weeks ago)#but like. might as well post it. i guess. oumngsmnnnn anguish noises#siffrin just like me recently (recently as in: the past seven years)#anyway#in stars and time#isat#no spoilers i think. just general Siffrin Being Mentally Unstable#isat siffrin#isat odile#drawinsometimez#im going to sleep goodinght
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Mini comic because i like this idea
Once Toshi retired and no longer had to pretend he's invincible, he began to warm up to the idea of using mobility aids. He mentioned it in passing to Midoriya and, with Bakugo's reluctant help, his protege latched on to the idea until they could make it a reality.
Aka. me giving All Might a mobility aid that has additional self defense features because its epic and he's epic and i need more dadmight that includes Bakugo
#sorry if its hard to read im not used to making comics#trying to practice more because well. i am on the dev team for a fan comic and if i cant draw comics then what#all might#dad might#toshinori yagi#yagi toshinori#katsuki bakugou#bakugou katsuki#midoriya izuku#izuku midoriya#mha#bnha#mha comic#mha fanart#its nowhere near all might's birthday i just wanted to post this
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anyway re this post:
when i was studying classical civilisation at a high school level we were taught this very old-fashioned idea that the shift from abstraction to realism in Ancient Greek art was an objective improvement.
basically they were still teaching that the guys on the left (less naturalistic, heavily egyptian influenced) ''''evolved'''' into the guy on the right as the Greeks got '''better''' at sculpture.
historically europeans were really into the idea that there's this objective 'best' form of art which is represented by graeco-roman sculpture, its renaissance imitators, and 'realistic' art in general. according to this understanding the end goal of art is to produce idk. Michaelangelo's David and the Mona Lisa. & abstract art is a less 'evolved' form of art.
& therefore according to this understanding, western artists opting to make abstract art instead of more ''''classical''' realistic works is an artistic 'devolution' and debasement.
this is all (I hope) self-evidently extremely racist and also undoubtedly a very basic understanding of art history. but for anyone who struggles to grap the relationship between fascism & hating modern art. this particular form of racism has got to be a big part of it.
#yes they were really reaching this in school as recently as 2009 and might well still be at it#im pretty sure my school textbook used the term 'orientalising period' and then i got to university and the professors are like#noooo no we dont. call it that any more
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