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satanssquidgy · 2 years ago

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How are people so rational and capable of not being bitter

#one person does smth that annoys me #or hurts me #and im gonna think about it for the next 4 months #and im gonna stare at the problem #i am so bitter rn #'oh but blah blah blah'#i know i know i shouldnt dwell on it #but god its just like #I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE IT #im just mad okay #jenna.txt

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wishchip106 · 1 day ago

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these guys definitely got married at one point in hox/pox and you cannot convince me otherwise

#and then they got divorced again its the natural order of things #i cant tell if they’re the kinda people to have a big celebration or the kind to just elope in the comfort of their home #i feel really drained after a depression wave guhh #i wanna read cherik fics but i dont have the energy to read 😭#gonna stare at the ceiling while cherik are being gay in the back of my head #its really hot rn i crave american christmas #i crave snow in general it never snows here #the last time it did was a few years ago #trynna figure out if i wanna think about comic cherik or movie cherik #coping method: give charles xavier all ur problems #honestly feel like im dumping my brain on my tumblr blog #feels good #hrmmm gonna mentally prepare to get out of the house #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #x men #professor x #magneto

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hall0wedwyrm · 3 months ago

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THIS ISNT OKAY

AND THE

IM SOBBING THEY CANT DO THIS

Shadow is so pretty they can't do that either

bonus caps of the boys™️

I missed them so much I'm so glad to have them back

STOBOTNIK NATION WE RIDE AT DAWN

but also fuck the reveal at the end. you have to sell me on it so well or I'm causing a riot.

#IM CRAZY IM CRAZY IM CRAZY #they can NOT announce anything important on the Nintendo Direct or i swear im gonna cause problems on purpose #anyway gonna go stare at Shadow screenshots for 30 minutes now hes so pretty it's not fair #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic movie 3 #what else do i tag lmao

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dirt-str1der · 5 months ago

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Theres no season 4 because theyre too scared to animate the canon gay couple. They know its going to change the dr stone mrm ecosystem forever

#its the smug way that xeno introduces stanley as 'ex military' like yes he used to work for the state but now he works for ME #Listen to my problems #like tsukasen is already so popular if theyre gonna introduce another hot guy x silly guy couple AND theyre adults AND theyre evil #itll be fucking game over. actually maybe not. since theyre adults. they only wanna do dj of kids #and the current stanxeno doujins all have a very specific mature bl vibe that tsukasen struggles to match #and its so fucking funny when he immediately cracks an inside joke because he doesnt like stanleys smoking habit but hes literally the one #making the cigarettes for him like he just fucking loves him its so funny. and then when we see stan actually doing his job he complains #that xeno likes overloading him with equipment because he wants him to be at his best #and near the end he... he SHYLY hands him a pack of chewable tobacco like 'here since you cant smoke in space' <- HUH #like thinking of his nicotine addiction is already crazy enough but SHYLY looking away and handing them to him ? what was that ? why #did he get nervous ? is he gay ?#im not even talking about the face grab scene because stanley was literally about to make out with him if senku wasnt standing right there #this isnt fanfic like he reached out in canon and grabbed xenos chin and forcibly tilted his head up to look into his eyes #and it wasnt for a contrived plot reason he just did that because he wanted to. and it was never explained #like senku staring at ryusuis ass can be explained away because he just likes guys but stanley doing that was so actively and aggressively #homosexual behaviour i cant stress how much he just randomly did that #and the focus on his lips in the previous panels before that part. also pretty funny #his lips that were so beautiful that everybody thought he wore lipstick but no theyre just a perfect shade of deep red

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acidicwerewolf · 14 days ago

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Trying to find something to do but the demons(lack of hyperfixations) in my skull(unmedicated ADHD) want me to rot and suffer(be bored).

#:3 rant #shitpost #hyperfixation #adhd #adhd problems #this might not actually be a part of adhd #but im bored so im gonna blame my ADHD #girl rotting #bed rotting #ive just been... stareing at the walls #going insane

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whumpy-wyrms · 7 months ago

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this man’s hair is changing without my permission again

#very slightly but it’s still a million times better than before imo #erm me drawing sad wet cat anton again? wow what a surprise #ignore the fact i am drawing this diagonally on my canvas. i’m quirky like that okay.#ignore the fact he is staring directly into your soul in this image #also anon i see you. i hear you. more dew art coming soon i just gotta get this outta my system…#i cannot stop drawing him i actually can’t it’s actually a problem (no its not)#anyway this is art that’s gonna be based on the next chappy 💥💥💥#dew will also be in it 💥💥💥#in the art i mean (obviously he’ll be in the chapter) guys that’s why the canvas is like that. that’s why #crazy shit #i love talking absolute complete nonsense and confusing everyone who’s reading #yeah. yeah i bet ur confused right now. about what the hell im talking about. me too #doodles #anton oc

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trash-bin-ary · 2 months ago

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:( both of my phone chargers hardly work, please charger how do i need to hold you to start the charging up

#this is a post i made #need a normal post to put my actual thoughts under lol dont know why but my thoughts sure all observational rn #well… a lot of my thoughts come from my surroundings have you seen the types of questions I come up with hehe #was gonna ramble about this in the other post but they got blipped out of existence so I didn’t #and apparently I will not yap anymore in this post #hmmm yeah the problem are emotions are just missing rn cause thoughts are all observational and its all physical reactions to music rn #brain wants to only talk things out in my head but then when i try to is like hmmm no.#ive also been writing one thing and then staring off into space for ages and not in the way i do when im excited about something #fall air would fix me maybe but also oh cant move to even open the window now #yall ever get in a position and youre like okay im staying perfectly like this i dont want to release the pressure on my hand and reset it #or something i dont know how to explain it #entropy apparently im all for it #^tags im gonna (am already) be like yeah ignore those idk what im talking about

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st4rrstunned · 7 months ago

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damn it!! im listening to mitski again!!!!! im crying again!!!!!!!!! everything is falling apart again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#DAMN IT #i might cry #i might just do it #i might have a problem #i MIGHT just stare at the dark in my room with no thoughts like a blood sniffing shark #mitski #i love mistki #im gonna lose my mind #i miss being a kid #i miss my innocence #i miss my youth #i miss my lala loopsy dolls #i want to go home

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opalthea · 7 months ago

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also, hello padisarah nonnie !! it's good to see you again :>

i decided to not answer your ask regarding the wholeeee stuff.. because i don't really care what they want to do anymore. i've done my part of speaking up about their behaviours and calling them out - which made a lot of people open their eyes for once instead of ignoring the warnings they got from me or other people. and i think that's all i want to do.

THIS WILL FORMALLY BE THE LAST POST ABOUT THEM. I will not answer any asks regarding it anymore, so if you want to make your own posts regarding those users, please use your own platforms, thank you.

as much as i encourage speaking up, i also don't want to give a flying duck about them anymore. y'know, like, i spoke up because i couldn't tolerate them and their behaviours anymore - couldn't just keep quiet when my mutuals are knowingly or unknowingly talking to shitty people like that. if they started a new blog, just let them. i don't really care anymore 😭 all i hope is that my mutuals and those that see this are more aware of internet safety and who you surround yourself with. it was already exhausting trying to warn others about them and not being listened to until i made this shit public — i'm not going to start becoming a blog that runs on discourse just so some can finally realise that this person was shitty and that person was the devil.

thanks for also caring abt me and informing me of their new url, i appreciate that a lot! it's on my blocklist now + the mutuals they've tagged on that post too 💀 if, however, i blocked you without a good reason why, or if i blocked you before you knew of this and had already cut ties with them, feel free to send me a message or ask on a different blog! i took precautionary blocks when it comes to having those kind of people as mutuals so .. yeah.

#visitors from teyvat : padisarah anon #thea answers #the post was made because i just couldn't stand the audacity of certain people still claiming to be the victim.#imagine claiming yourself as the victim when your story wasn't even straight.#venting in public but you can't even pick a plot. were you banned or did you leave willingly first without being punished?#then proceeded to say you were wrongly banned when you were literally guilttripping the mods . what did you think-#was gonna happen when you come back? did you think our arms were open then?#you left first . to avoid consequences . now that the consequences are staring right at you #you chicken out? you curse at the effects of your actions? YOUR actions? what about the people you've affected .#you say you aren't the same person you are a year ago but you only left a few months ago and you still affect the mental health of many .#our server wasn't even a mental health server. it's a positivity server. you're supposed to use it to get serotonin boosts #or boost other people. not a place for us to be your therapists and fix your problems.#i still can't get over the fact that neither of them can get their stories straight. wdym a year ago lmao. it was literally 4-5 months ago.#and you still act the same as ever. venting about how you wanted to kys or break down when a damn post unrelated to you talks-#-abt ur fav character in a scenario where they don't love you.#do you realize that the artists and writers' works you consume are for the general and not just you. what is your logic .#and i know you see this . you vague about us all the time. did you think i didn't notice.#the only mercy i've granted you was the peace for 4 months. you tell me i was dogpiling on you but you didn't change at all . so entitled t #-your ways of thinking and what you think is right.#in the first few weeks of u in that server i was the only one who thought better of u. funny how that turned out.#cuz u didn't change then and you wouldn't change now.#idk how many times i hv to repeat this but i blocked each n every ONE of them. including their moots.#and including anyone who interacted with them. im not sorry. if you were wrongly blocked then u can shoot a dm.#otherwise stay blocked and stay mad loser L.

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agayconcept · 8 months ago

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#im in so much fuckin pain i cant move ugh #like. typing this is excruciating #but i cant just stare at the wall or im gonna lose it eventually ugh #my pain is getring progressively worse these days and the last 2 months have been hell #doctors r worried this might be my new normal for the time being #which. uh #SUCKS #bc i cannot stand or walk for more than 5 mins #and i need a walker w me bc my cane isnt enough #and most days i am trapped in bed (or on the couch if i can make it there) unable to take care of myself #bc everything hurts and i feel like i'm being tortured #oh and my lordosis & the related pain is now at a level that might need serious medical intervention #my migraines r out of control #my joint problems r also way worse #and u kno what ? i would like to die now #thanks #truly and genuinely #im so done #i cant keep going this way #my doctor has no idea what to do #and the pain clinic im a patient of refuses to help further unless i sign up for their ridiculous pain education program #which is 8 weeks long with mandatory in-person weekly attendance (i do not live near it & cant afford transportation)#where they tell u all the ways ur pain is ur own fault and give u unrealistic and ridiculous advice abt exercise and lifestyle changes #that u Cannot do bc of said disabilites and pain #jfc #our healthcare system is broken and nobody cares if i live or die or suffer #AND im stuck dealing w my mother complaining abt my existence nonstop bc she resents me for the things i cannot do independently #so u kno what ya i am done. im so done. i give up #catch me rotting in this bed forever until i die. thats the only option being given to me

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seventh-district · 8 months ago

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i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t.#it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

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vaguelydefinedshapes · 9 months ago

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the curse of having light eyes is that everyone and their mother will comment on them. doesnt matter what the situation is. i had a classmate tell me from across the room that she liked my eyes. i had a customer stop in the middle of our conversation to say it. i will never know how im supposed to respond to this

#this is v much a non problem btw #it's just a vague “come up w something original next time” moment #but alas ive got that green eyed stare and so everyone labors under the assumption that theyre the first person to ever notice my eyes #and that ill be stricken with gratitude if they only say something to that effect #but in reality i just get the anxiety of responding with the appropriate amount of appreciation for a compliment that i Do Not Care About #im glad u like my orbs of jelly. screws and fasteners are gonna be in aisle 25

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imabiscuitinthousandworlds · 1 year ago

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i've started writing in stimuwrite. it's wonderful. problem? I can't ctrl+s save. it just crashed. i'd written almost 1k of near perfect, emotional, scene. it's 4am and i spent an hour on this and it's actually good. i reopen the app. it's empty. in light of the utter shock i felt, the actual physical tears i shed and the utter horror of losing all this staring right into my face i would like to thank satan and my friend who prayed to satan for me bc it turns our there's a recover previous session option and i have my work back whole. i am still in shock i think. i am never ever ever repeating this.

#if you cant tell by the punctuation im really really really shaken.#this was horrible.#im staring at my screen with panic wide eyes just to make sure my baby is safe now.#the good thing is im gonna sleep now.#what the fuck never again. never the fuck again.#the horrors #writer problems #writer panic more like #a biscuit's rambles

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#yesterday i was wandering around the campus where ive resided these last 4 years bc ive banned myself from running until my leg heals #and i was thinking like. what am i gonna miss about this place when i leave? bc im always thinking abt the things i cant wait to get away #from. and its a real short list. ill miss the palm trees bc i never get sick of seeing thrm. theyre so weird #ill miss the yucca. again bc theyre so weird looking. ill miss the way u can see where all the ants r bc in the non human populated areas #there isnt grass everywhere bc desert. ill miss that there r so many birds of prey hanging around. and the road runners and all the lil #lizards. and maybe in an abstract way ill miss being so close to the boarder bc when u live near a boarder boarders feel like bullshit #like staring down the road into another country. idk theres something i like abt that. ill probably also miss being able to run outside #all year long bc in the winter during the day all u need is a light jacket lol. where im going it gets real cold 🥶#maybe ill even miss the constant blue skies. but idk ive always liked a cloudy sky better. makes me think of home haha #ill def miss how convenient my apartment rn is. the loft bed. the low cost. the 5min walk to campus. sigh. but thats pretty much it. i #dont think ill miss anything else. im not really close with anyone. my boss was the reason i came here and she left this school in January #so thats it i guess. i think i stayed a year too long and was not well for a lot of my time here but so it goes #just gotta move to the next place. just gotta pray pray pray that i find an apartment soon. i dont even wanna say anything abt it bc im #afraid to jinx things. even tho thats irrational. like. i just gotta somehow project how good a tenant i am. im so quiet u will never see #me and i never complain abt anything bc i have brain problems. sigh. i cant wait for this transition to b over #im so so so ready to be in a new place doing new things. but at least my energy is back. im back to high energy on little sleep lol #i dont understand how my body functions lmao. somehow when i get a normal amount of sleep it's a sign that i feel awful #unrelated

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skribblz · 2 years ago

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HAPPY BORNDAY :0

I tried💀 perspective is hard and I did this all in a day and went screw canon sengen we doin modern shit and senku with new hair

Based this on the fic u told me bout with them on a train I think? So ye train ride :P I hope u like it sorry if it’s crap💀

WWOWOWOWOWOWWOW you did it in one day AND youre trying perspective??? LETSBFRICKEN GOOOOOO

SENKU WITH HIS HAIR TIED MY BELOVEDDDD BDHDHSHSJSJSJ

#me tryna write and going back to look at it AAAAAAAAA #the TENDER look omg #the hand on gen’s shoulder and the holding hands RNEJDJDJJD #thnaks for going through hell by drawing senku again lmao #honestly the background looks really good even if theres not much detail #its pretty consistent and you should be proud of yourself for that #its just adding the characters that might pose a problem but seriously im so glad youre tryijg new things this is awesome #i am staring HOLES through this piece #my phone gonna have two burn marks on them #also when you said bornday i um #uh #yeah lets say i got one of the letters messed up and thought you said smth else #BUT THANK YOUUUU THIS IS AMAZINGGGGGH <3 <:

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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I may just be delirious but I kind of feel like there's something there about some of the most traumatic events in Arakawa's life arguably stemming from/being made worse by being loved too much.

Like, Toshio's death, right. The death of a parent is always always going to be traumatic, particularly when your other parent is abusive, but I feel like being there, being the first to the scene, made it so much worse. Especially when it should've been a good memory.

Non-zero chance I'm just projecting because I was there for my own father's death and I was around Arakawa's age at the time, but it's like... it did have very specific life-long effects, didn't it... the way he keeps coming back to Peking duck and talks about it like he's had it before when he can't even bring himself to eat it unless he's with family (and indeed, never did, up until right before he died)...

And then there's his former patriarch. Of course, he seemed to see Arakawa as more of an object--fully under his control and something to be thrown away at the first sign of autonomy. But I feel like, before then, Arakawa must've been his "favorite," if he was willing to arrange a marriage between his daughter and Arakawa. Which I expect is what made his reaction when Arakawa told him he was (technically) having an affair with Akane and wanted out of the family that extreme in going as far as to send men after Akane and Ichiban.

The last one I can immediately think of is not exactly traumatic for him, though it is traumatic For Me so I'm counting it, but it's of course what we were talking about with Jo hesitating so much at the thought of killing Arakawa that he passed up the chance to save him.

I Dunno I Am Delirious but... there's a pattern somewhere in there... Anyway. Uh. "Happy" Father's Day am I right

happy fathers day :]]]]

#snap chats #I HAVE NOTES DOWN HERE AS ALWAYS I PROMISE JUST. no better way to cap off a post with a smile :)#plus yk. i dont have any major notes to add thats not restating but i do enjoy Restating so in the tags we go #also ngl im a lil tired so if im gonna look right silly cause my brains functioning like a bowl of cereal ill do it down here as per usual #totally waited to answer this when its technically fathers day my time and i didnt just stare at a wall #listen if someone has a proejcting problem its me alright. its ok if someone else has a turn at it esp when its within fair grounds 🥴#in any case Yeah.. everyone loves patterns ones a coincidence two's a pattern three should incite murderous intent #i definitely wouldnt call it delirious thinking Thats My Job right LMAO #in all seriousness the importance of at least one positive adult figure in a trouble child's life cannot be understated #im pretty sure i talked bout that already so i wont give the whole lecture again LMAO #in any case its not unreasonable to want to assert love being a theme with arakawa- if not a detriment in some way #it was arakawas intense love for akane that inadvertently fractures their family to be #it was arakawas love for masato that didnt allow him to be harder on him when he should have been and caused both their eventual downfalls #and of course- as mentioned- while not a result of arakawa's own feelings #it was ultimately jo's. //vague hand gesturing// towards arakawa that stopped him from killing him outright #yet jo's love for masato that didnt allow him to lie and go directly behind his back #so yeah love just. works against arakawa unfortunately. an especially sad thing for a troubled child #because as a troubled child that's all you ever really want isnt it- to love and to be loved without worry #so its a cruel irony in that despite arakawa's childhood and general growing-up it didnt stop him from trying to love his family #it makes me wanna throw up (depressed)#in any case i have to stay up a little longer so i can steal water for later SO im gonna be up to uhhhh idk :) Stare At My Wall

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