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gossippool · 2 months ago

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okay but the agony of logan loving and having to kill his own universe's wade and then falling back in love with him in another universe

#user: gossippool 😝#FUCKKKKK #if i weren't already half crying over this other fic premise i'm working on rn i would write this #like i know this is kinda a happy premise overall but my brain makes everything sad so #goddd #okay #deadpool & wolverine #deadpool and wolverine #poolverine #wolverine #logan howlett #deadpool #wade wilson

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merlins-strawberriesandroses · 3 months ago

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The thing no one ever considers while writing up character analyses about Merlin is that. he must have been sooooooo sleepy.

#I see everyone talking about the nuances when you look at Merlin through [x] lens #BUT WHAT ABOUT THE SLEEPY LENS #WE CAN’T KEEP SLEEPING ON THE SLEEPY LENS #(can u tell I'm exhausted)#see this reads as if I'm joking but I'm actually being SO serious. I think the lack of rest was a significant factor in Merlin's conduct #IF he got a solid 8 hours of sleep + 2 hours minimum JUST to himself everyday uninterrupted... I just know things would turn out different #like it isn't even asking for much. decent sleep + a frankly sad amount of down-time. and yet. I know he didn't get that w those 3 jobs #ugh #he must have been TIRED do you hear me #even applies to morgana she looked tired tbh. those prophetic dreams probably weren't great for restfulness. sad what she did but #she did seem sleepy #okay ignore this I am going through it. extrinsic intrinsic coagulation pathways have gotten to me if u know what I mean #actually wait no if anyone sees this don't ignore it #HE MUST HAVE BEEN SO SLEEPY and everyone must understand. SLEEPy.#I hope I do not wake up and reread this and wonder why I posted this. but like I feel like I am the correctest person on planet earth rn #I've been thinking abt merlin's nap deprived state for years now tbh #merlin #bbc merlin

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starry-bi-sky · 7 months ago

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realizing i have. a lot of untapped trauma potential for clone^2 danny because i just Fully Processed Four Months Late the fact that his parents were capturing and torturing ghosts in the basement before he became Phantom. and the fact that he was on house rest for 2 weeks. during that time period. and he wasn't really leaving the house. he could hear their screaming through the floorboards

*points at clone danny* i can give you suuuuuuch a bad time babe ahaha. i've got two untouched years before you meet damian what fucks you up before then

#dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #clone^2 #danny fenton is a clone #like i dont even need to traumatize you worse the pure explorative options from this aLONE is enough to feed me for a week.#like. tucks hair behind ear let me shatter you into glass pieces then glue you back together babe. i can put you back together so good.#i'm missing a few shards because some parts of you broke into such small pieces i couldn't pick them back up again so you'll be missing a #few chunks of yourself that you'll never get back but that's okay. you'll still be a resemblance of your old self :]#don't let anakin (me) listen to late night sad songs he makes angst.#hhh imagine being stuck in a house for two weeks where you can hear your parents torturing ghosts in the basement and not only that but #you're the only person who can undERSTAND the ghosts. how many times did he see his parents drag in a ghost with whatever capturing device #they made recently? iirc the thermos was like. brand new in episode one right? but gOD the trauma this alone would cause #nobody touch me im cooking rn i need to think about how this would impact danny. like obvs it would fuel into a developing obsession to #keep his parents away from ghosts and to help the dead but what *else.* i need to refine my becoming phantom ficlet i wrote back in winter #raaa #and like even after two weeks they were *still capturing ghosts* danny just wasn't in the house 24/7 at the time.#*but those two fucking weeks man*#i need to sleep on this first before i make any major moves bc i know im tired but i am having thOUGHTs

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thekittyokat · 7 months ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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softgothbabe · 2 months ago

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Pull up a chair in front of the full-length mirror, and sit me (naked) on your (fully clothed) lap facing the mirror with my legs spread. Make me watch you play with my sensitive clit until I'm whining and dripping and begging for you to put your fingers inside me. Insert one finger slowly. Hold my chin with one hand to keep my dizzy eyes focused on you gradually fitting a second, then third, finger inside my aching pussy. Pick up the pace. Move your hand from my chin to cover my mouth to silence me as I moan louder and louder. Make me climax so hard I'm shaking and squirting all over your lap.

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buttercupshands · 8 months ago

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Happy (almost belated) Birthday, Tenko Shimura!

wanted to draw something light after... you know 419...

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phant0ma · 3 months ago

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I know I'm literally just a mentally ill gay 18 year old but I wish sanji was real so I could hug him and tell him everything's gonna be alright

#this came about bc of sanji's damn sad eyes. THEY'RE ALWAYS SAD #I'm not okay #in my feels rn #sanji #black leg sanji #one piece

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hercarisntyours · 2 months ago

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that's the love of my life 🥹🥹

#to think last year I was pissed off because she didn't have a lot of figures+ wasn't featured a lot 🥹 look at her now #I'm so sappy she's getting featured so much more if you told 2022 me that Elita would be a main in a movie with more figures coming out #I'd punch you im sad happy rn #crying in the club rn #im not the best at figure posing but that's okay :))#elita one #elita 1 #tf one elita #tf one #transformers one #transformers

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dogboner · 7 months ago

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personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

#guy who's very proud of how well he's handling things rn lol #anyways personal time:#but idk man i kinda remembered smthn from my past n #like. if it wasn't for how much effort i've put into my mental health n coping skills #n my support network now #idk id be in a much worse place.#so i'm gonna forgive myself for not really sleeping last night #n having a hard time with my bpd feelings n emotions #because fuck man! i'm doin really good actually!#growth doesn't have to be oh man i'm never ever sad anymore #it's just. idk i don't cry because i Wanna die anymore #sometimes i have an intrusive thought of suicide #and it makes me cry because i DONT wanna die. and i know those thoughts are not good or needed #but i'm not gonna beat myself up for having them. i'm just gonna be patient n gentle w myself #n give myself time #n everything will be okay(:#bc it is okay! it's in the past and i'm safe now. and i wanna make other people feel safe too #growth starts w baby steps. n that's why it's so hard to recognize in yourself a lot of the time #it goes slooooooowly. for me at least lol.#mine #despite everything i am happy because i know my life now is one i love (: and one im actively trying to better for myself

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statementlou · 1 month ago

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#I am certain the pap pics of Louis in Malibu were taken before the death #but before or after (as they claim they are) can I say how fucking creepy it is sending drones or whatever #to take pictures of him and his family chilling and living their lives in the private yard of their private fucking rental #obviously 20x worse if now but honestly not remotely okay if a few days ago either #and actually doing that and then sitting on them and then being like ooh yeah I know what'll get clicks #we'll use these now and say they are current look he doesn't care he's fine #is maybe worse than either #SO FUCKING GROSS AND WRONG #(although obvs if they are current not being visibly in tears at all times doesn't remotely mean anyone is fine I LOOK FINE RN #it doesn't mean I'm not fucking sad as shit)

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adustoflove · 1 month ago

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I feel like such a waste of space. What am I doing? I'm ignoring all my worried friends. I'm pushing everyone away. I'm not doing anything worthwhile. I'm not helping anyone. I'm wishing I was dead when I could be doing anything more productive. I feel 14 again, sobbing on my stupid purple rug because I mean nothing to no one and my existence doesn't do much.

#personal #😭😔 maybe I need to turn off my phone for now before I make myself SO sad I cant function for the day #I'm just so tired of fucking being ME. i could have been anything else. an ant. i could have been a silly little ant #no one expects anything from an ant. or no a mosquito nobody needs them #we all expect them to leech off of us. that's WHAT I AM okay I'm making myself genuinely contemplate things rn #do I need to die? probably. will I? no. am I ugly as FUCK. yes. am I usually pretty worthless? yes. cockroach #if i could id crawl out of bathroom drains too #bpd #bpd vent #vent

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offbookkeeping · 1 month ago

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i love this fandom so much i just wanted to say that. like it's small enough where i'm not overwhelmed by the amount of content i need to consume, there's a lot of overlap with other fandoms in a really fun way, i was around for the beginning of the fandom here on tumblr, i'm watching it all in real time and all of my mutuals are amazing. i found off book when i was 13!! its been so long, off book has been there for me!!! you all are amazing, zach and jess are amazing, i'm a little tipsy rn so bear with me

#i'm #not even fixating on zach and jess rn which is sad but like i love them outside of the fixation isn't that wild #i didn't know my brain could do that #i love you all okay i need to go to sleep now my head is killing me #off book #off book podcast #zach and jess #jess mckenna #zach reino #play it by ear

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rapidhighway · 5 months ago

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not to be the mood swing king rn but god I feel like absolute shit

#im so sad and angry rn #i understand that not EVERYONE in the world has depression but it feels like it with my family #what's the point if everyone needs pills to even feel okay it's like if the whole world was on life control just for the sake of carrying on #ugh #idk it's been taking a toll on me i guess -.-#i feel like such garbage whenever I'm reminded that literally no one is happy around me

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hero-of-the-wolf · 5 months ago

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You reminded me I often actually write Twilight with depression, I forgot it isn't necessarily canon lol. Glad to see you also have fine taste XD

-Sky Floor

I REMEMBER YOU WROTE A FIC WITH DEPRESSED TWI AND I THINK ABOUT IT LITERALLY ALL THE TIME

When you finish playing his game you (or at least me haha) definitely walk away with this poignant feeling of grief and bittersweetness and I'm actually so obsessed with that. Like yes Midna leaving after everything like that is so heartbreaking 💔 but it's also interesting, and I'm really glad that Nintendo decided to take the story in that direction.

And him having depression really fits his character so well?? like I can't even really put it into words, it just fits, and I really need to write him dealing with that too actually—

@skyward-floored

#maybe interesting is not the right word but I'm still fighting this headache and I can't think of a better one rn skahajsbka #I love when stories let themselves be sad tho I'm actually so obsessed with that #btw you continue to be one of my fav writers of all time I really really love the way you write Twilight #and all of the others too of course #but Twi's my guy y'know?#and I love the way you write him 💙#also I hope the tag is okay!!#hero of twilight #lu twilight #LU #asks

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ressq · 3 months ago

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man i sure wish i had the energy to do anything at all!

okay well it's not entirely true that i haven't been doing anything. i'm cooking. trust.

#meds make it so i can't really strongly differentiate between depressive episodes and regular depression #it's moreso a constant depression with random spurts of energy in between long periods of doing nothing but sleeping and working #but the art i HAVE managed to produce has gone pretty hard ngl.#i think it's also the current political climate here in america. it's hostile and i'm drifting away from my family because of it #and that's been pretty rough #it's been a gradual drift away that started in high school and has just intensified through adulthood #but i love my friends and my favs and cats and music #i think coming to terms with being disabled has been a punch to the gut since now my options SHOULD be open. but there's SO MUCH i can't do #things are looking up for me in the general sense. i'm in a good spot in my life right now but that doesn't stop the perpetual brainfog #nothing will ever really stop this everpresent depression but i'm generally stable and healthy so it is what it is #it feels good to love and be loved and that's what keeps me going #if i'm sad? sleep it off. go to work then sleep for 16 hrs a day on my days off. then work again. easy #the life of a productive little worker bee is great!#ress thinks #okay rant over. i'm not in a bad place rn dw! i just like to yap

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hopefulrunaways · 3 months ago

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These two have so much angst potential, it's crazy

#peter parker fanart #dick grayson fanart #leap of faith (catch me if you can)#leap of faith ao3 #Idk if it's okay to tag that bc this isn't direct fanart from the fic #But I'm sure as hell using that fic version of them here #Dick being Peter's dad it's just too good #For angst reasons #and also comfort reasons #But they're not here for comfort rn #Just sad #art wip #Hopef art

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