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datadegroove · 1 year ago

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here i have a new plan for the world: i think that employers should take all the money that they give you and make a 100% contribution to this account that would accessible by me called a "bank account" and then i could take this "money" that was in this "bank account" and use it for whatever purpose i desire instead of spending all my goddamn money that i'm owed that i didn't agree to have put into these pointless expenditure accounts for health or dental or glasses or safety boots or WHATEVER

#i'm being conned out of thousands for the purpose of insurance #like #give me the money #and i'll get my own insurance #or eliminate the insurance and give me the services #FOR FREE!!!

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the-oracle-of-the-lost · 3 months ago

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i deserve to kill insurance companies actually.

#i've been fucking around with this for two weeks now and i want to die #why is it legal for an insurance provider i am paying to decline a medication that i've been on for years #why does a doctor have to fill out a special form to prove that i Really Need this medication. that's just what a prescription is for.#and also why is my doctor's office closed half the week and i can't get ahold of them and they don't call me back #i'm already rationing my meds like this is not sustainable #the real bullshit is that from what i can tell my provider won't even let me pay for it out of pocket. which i don't want to do but. still.#(it's a maintenance inhaler. i still have plenty of my rescue inhaler left so i'm not like. gonna die without it. but i will be very #uncomfortable and pissed off about it.)#part of this is my own fault because i knew switching insurance would cause some Bullshit when i try to get my meds refilled #so i should have started this earlier #but TWO WEEKS SHOULD BE ENOUGH #i just want to find out what i can do bc every day i call and they go “huh that's weird that it hasn't been approved yet. i'll look into it #and then they don't call me back #well uh. with med rationing i have enough to get me to Tuesday so i fucking hope someone actually figures out what's going on today #vent #personal

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shirogane-oushirou · 27 days ago

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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.

i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.

[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!

also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]

#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch #on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or #old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing #and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me #even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me #housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong #(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display #outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in #some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt #my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's #only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then #disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -

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supercantaloupe · 5 months ago

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made a new patient appointment at a new dentist in the city all by myself. please clap

#my old dentist was completely booked up when i can get back home and i need a routine cleaning....#at least they have an in house payment plan bc i don't have dental insurance 😬#i wanna talk about me #the in house plan seems like a deal too like the plan for 2 cleanings/1 xray and a bunch of other guff was only like #a hundred bucks more than what the lady quoted me for the new patient cleaning appt on its own?#i guess that's how they getcha...but i'll get got in that case dental health is important #also b''h my parents still help me pay for medical expenses.

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quaranmine · 7 months ago

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i hate being an adult i hate money i hate bills i hate healthcare and health insurance

#im fine im just upset that it is VERY likely i'm going to have to front $700 of my own money for work reasons this week #bc nobody at work will help me resolve this!! apparently! i'll be paid back eventually but not for a few weeks #and that i may run out of a prescription while i'm on my trip and i was trying to get it filled and have been bouncing around on the phone #to find out that it's the insurance company that won't pay for it until june and i dont want to pay out of pocket #i'll live til then and i may actually have enough til then (i need to just physically count all the pills; i just knew it was running low)#but i'm so frustrated that after i hung up the phone with CVS that i just cried a little #i'm not gonna call the insurance. the last thing i want to do is deal with those guys when i know it's not going to kill me if i run low #(i have been taking half doses to stretch the bottle. is that advised? who knows! but i've done it before and it aint killed me)#i'm just. sigh. nothing going right for me this week #there's also ANOTHER medication that was supposed to refill this week but didn't because it had no refills left. i should've got it today #sooooo i had to call that pharmacy and that doctor to basically beg them to refill it asap or at least send me a sample #i also wont die if i run out of that one (already taken half doses to stretch it this week) but contrary to the other one i will notice thi

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eats-the-stars · 2 months ago

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hate my sister's shitty good for nothing boyfriend. can you imagine being a 30yo man with two kids who won't even scramble an egg. Not for his kids, not for his girlfriend, not for himself. literally if my sister doesn't leave out pre-made meals when he's watching the kids he will rip up bread or pour them dry cereal or open a granola bar and make himself microwave dinners. like, lowest effort possible. but if i mention this to my sis, she'll be like "no he's definitely cooked for the kids! he scrambled an egg for them once! i watched him do it!" but it's like...so he scrambled one egg in the last five years. just to like, prove he can? at your direct insistence? should we all clap? like seriously. hate this guy. had to really hold back recently because he had someone over and he was interacting with the kids more than usual for appearances, and he had to keep asking me and my sis what the 5yo was signing because he barely bothered to learn his own son's primary form of communication. i was so tempted to say "that one means 'go home' but you wouldn't know that because you don't take them anywhere." so hard to hold that in. If I had to describe this man in two words they would be these: Low Effort. Not quite bare minimum, but JUST enough to convince my sister that it would be too much hassle to get rid of him. he's stupid as fuck, but just smart enough to quickly stop shit like screaming obscenities at the kids for doing normal kid things. and he once stomped on my headphones and broke them in a fit of rage, but gave my sister money to replace them so it was "fine." Like, my sister thinks that he's just struggling with his anger issues, because he had a bad childhood, blah, blah, and oh he would never actually hurt her or the kids. and like, good for you, but i don't trust like that. genuinely hoping he gets struck by lightning and dies instantly.

#my sister and i do all the hard stuff and most of the easy stuff too tbh #cooking and cleaning and sorting out benefits and insurances and getting the kids to school and events #doctor's appointments and medications and dentist appointments and taxes #we get the groceries and care for all the pets and kids and household things #we both have jobs #i actually have 3 jobs #good for nothing boyfriend makes $12 a year plus some under the table cash as a “private trainer”#which means between that and selling his plasma and borrowing money from his mom he can...pay his super cheap tiny part of rent #and occasionally hand my sister like $20 #he doesn't buy groceries or diapers or household supplies or clothing or toys or literally anything #literally the only household chore he does is fold laundry #that's it. and it's not “DO” laundry. it's just folding the clean and dry stuff #you know. the chore my parents would have us do when we were like 10 so we'd feel helpful #the 5yo is medically complex and we frequently make trips to a slightly distant hospital with him #and they literally asked us to stop bringing my sister's boyfriend along because he was disruptive and confusing #which was a polite way to say 'obnoxious and stupid as shit'#do you know how many times in one visit w/the same doctor he would ask 'so when does he get superpowers?'#he also obviously didn't know how to answer basic questions like 'how many times does he poop a day on average'#and 'how often has he been eating and what has he been eating day to day?'#like bro this man can go days without changing a diaper and will not even heat up a can of spaghettios to feed his own kids #he cannot answer those questions with any kind of accuracy #also i'm saying boyfriend because my sister desperately wanted to at least be engaged so she could say fiance in front of ppl #but just like marriage this was apparently a 'waste of effort'#not even the cheapest ring or the most underwhelming proposal or a courthouse wedding was worth his energy so...#yeah glad she hasn't married this waste of air. and i'll be praying for that lightning strike

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moe-broey · 4 months ago

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Idk I also just hate the future actually. My ass is Always living in the past or simply day to day 💪💪💪

#HELP ...... SO MANY OF MY DAYDREAMS CENTER AROUND THIS ACTUALLY.....#like. huge point of drama/point of contention between alfonse and moe is that moe Hesitates.#even outright Refuses. to consider the future. where alfonse's future seems set in stone that is the path he's been striving for all long #moe feels like it won't have a place there. you'll be king. you'll be all set. you'll probably have to have a queen #and even if it's a political marriage thing (WHICH. I HAVE SO MUCH HC LORE ABOUT --#like no one specifically but like. alfonse is the type of guy who has accepted this long ago and just treats it as a fact of life #which moe RESENTS. HOW are you gonna fuckinh ACCEPT THAT. your life entirely out of your own hands #bitch i'll fucking KILL YOU. ect)#also as a side there was a whole wedding banner wip that explored that that i. forgor about #but like. alfonse tries SO hard to convince moe that there WILL be a place for it by his side. he will MAKE that place if he has to #also a king4king situation isn't feasible i think moe would be a concubine (gay style). or an enuch or something #like moe does NOT want to be in any position of actual authority. that's not its heart. it's a support guy through and through #but going back to the start. moe is the type of guy who's convinced it's going to be replaced.#moe is the type of guy who burns bridges and feels a sense of relief. moe is the type of guy who is looking for ANY excuse #to run away. and ESP to reframe it as 'you're better off without me'.#the only reason it was able to get so close to alfonse is bc it was convinced alfonse wouldn't get attached to it #and when he did moe was convinced Well. this will all be temporary anyway. i'll take it day by day #make the most of it. and whenever alfonse hits it w one of his classic zingers like #the more you have to lose the worse it hurts when you do doesn't that make you feel lonely. SHUP FUCKIYBNG SHUT YPUR FUCK UP‼️‼️‼️#moe is a normal guy with no problems. definitely no commitment issues or intimacy issues. i promise.#ACTUALLY THAT REMINDS ME. BEEN TURNING THIS AROUND IN MY HEAD TOO. ESP W MY CURRENT WIP #and the feelings it invokes in me. moe is SO CONVINCED. SO CONVINCED. it's gonna fuck alfonse over big time #do NOT make me your lifeline i swear to fucking god. i Promise You. i Will Fail You.#adjacent but moe being a healer is ENDLESSLY. FASCINATING TO ME. LIKE MY GOD #healer that is just SO destructive. that's w.. that's part of why... it became a healer.........#like god. being a healer to ensure that if you get rid of me you'll be at a disadvantage.#nevermind the fact that i have a role exclusive to me. not good enough. i need More insurance.#the way. the role it took upon itself. when it was younger. to be the fixer. to clean up after [redacted]#and its never ending cycle. ever since it was a child. its never ending cycle of tearing itself apart #to rebuild itself anew. better this time. Perfect this time. this time. this time. this time.

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headslikekites · 5 months ago

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what if you: wanted to work on artfight prep

but god said: car break down be stressed forever

#rambumbles #this happened yesterday and I am still. doing bad. haheho #I love (hate) my ancient money-sink vehicle yayyyyyy #when your car starts smoking in the middle of the road and then you sit baking alive for 40 minutes in the 3pm texas heat #while waiting for assistance. and then you go to work for 8 hours !!#at least I have enough in savings to hopefully get something decent if I need a new car. sigh #uncertainty makes me anxious and I felt like I was finally returning to a stable point after getting my power back a few weeks ago #and now it's just all shit again #I need to get medicated or something but that costs even more time and money because diagnoses are hard and I don't know how insurance work #and my parents don't take my mental issues seriously because they don't take their own issues seriously #and so now I don't even take my own issues seriously and then I overestimate myself and end up crying at work #because No I Am Not Great Actually #everything is so much. and then you die #I think I went off a bit much here. sorry I'll be fine I promise I am just exhausted and scared and sleep-deprived

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hevendor · 6 months ago

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I am slightly emotional and very offended right now just to preface this but if you think people who have bad teeth are "disgusting" and "must lack personal care" I think you should eat shit and die and go to hell after I curb stomp the shit outta you

#Every time people reassure me that no one cares about how my teeth look I know they are lying to make me feel better #Because then I always run into shit like this whenever someone happens to bring up teeth #And I know everyone wants me to just get over it but it can't happen until I get my teeth fixed-#IN ANOTHER COUNTRY BECAUSE GUESS WHAT IT IS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO AFFORD IT IN AMERICA #MY DENTIST TOLD ME TO MY FACE SHE CANNOT HELP ME BECAUSE MY INSURANCE DOESN'T COVER IMPLANTS AND I CAN'T AFFORD THEM ON MY OWN #3 OF MY 4 FRONT TEETH NEED IMPLANTS AND ITS $5000 FOR ONE IMPLANT HERE BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!#I'll probably delete this later since it's emotionally charged and I will surely get embarrassed once I chill again #But seriously fuck you if you judge people on their teeth you are nothing but a filthy classist pig

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transmechanicus · 2 years ago

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It is sunday night. I remain exhausted.

#my stuff #i tried everything this weekend and nothing is healing my Existential Ambivalence #like i know i cooked and i saw friends and i did my hobbies and normally i'd be proud of myself for all that but i just...don't care #i wanna call out sick or something tomorrow. I'm worried about my finances and i genuinely think im gonna have to move somewhere cheaper #like i was expecting my tax return to offset the slow bleed of money from my savings each month and that Is Not Happening #And its not like i have any way to Make More Money #bc im a grad student and we're contractually prevented from doing so #So that means i'll need to move when my lease is up this summer and i really don't fucking want to #i like where i live i just wish it wasn't so goddamn expensive on rent #even like $200 cheaper would be world changing for me #but no instead i gotta look at my bills after power and car insurance and food and be like oops guess i lost $100 this month #and god forbid i get coffee or eat out in the cheapest way possible bc somehow that adds up to like $100 the second i look away #im sick of being anxious about this!! im not eating enough as it is!!#i also don't wanna get a fucking roommate bc i don't want someone in a space i've come to consider my own #like sorry but im transgender do not fucking look at me stranger #so the only real solution is to move and that's such a fucking hassle and it doesn't solve the problem now and i just want this to get bettr #i wish all students a very $2000 raise forever #and all landlords a very Scrooge Moment that makes you cut my rent in half #ave omnissiah

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im2tired4usernames · 8 months ago

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It's so frustrating when you look for "affordable" ways to live it's all

"get a roommate"

"live at home with parents"

"live in a tiny home that costs a billion dollars and needs a property to be set on"

"get finical aid that no one can actually get because there's so many hoops"

"live in a million dollar van"

"live in a absolutely desecrated fixer upper home that has holes in the floor roof and rats the size of a small dog and is unlivable "

"work three jobs don't use your lights and eat one meal a week you don't need your meds either"

"find a shitty run down appartment that MASSIVELY over charges will continue to bump rent up after You've stayed so long there and has a six month mim wait period"

I have no fuckin hope of ever bettering my life or gaining freedom and independence

#i really don't know why I'm even bothering I'm so tired #I'm not asking for much i lit want just three rooms a place to sit a place to cook and a place to shower/poop #and i want to have food and medicine and lights on at night and heat in the winter #maybe that's too much to ask for maybe i need to lower my wants n needs #maybe i need to just find a fucking tree to crawl into and die #i just cant keeo doing this #life only gets worse and worse IT NEVER GETS BETTER IN THIS HOUSE #i need to map out and plan what i want my future to look like and start makoysteps to it get a better job get a place of my own #figure out how to get a job n place across seas so i can support myself there get a visa. and the ability to legally be allowed to work n #live there find a job that pays enough to live and insurance and leaves me with enough energy to continue house work and then energy to #enjoy being alive #i have to start moving on if i don't put the steps into it I'll be stuck here forever but GETTING A HOME WOULD BE STEP ONE AND IMPOSSIBLE #i can't keep doin this though

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what-if-i-dee-eye-do · 1 year ago

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I know I promised myself I wouldn't ever try to kill myself again but like. hee hoo

#who's fronting?#other #negative #dude it hasn't been this bad in years #these past two years might have broken me For Real #I literally just want to die All The Time #my body always hurts. there's nothing good in my life. what little good IS in my life is greatly offset by other shit #like my dog. love my dog love her HATE myself and how I treat her and how I don't give her the life she deserves #love my wife love her so much but I don't like the way she treats me and it feels like she doesn't want to spend time with me anymore #like im just a stuffed animal she wants to snuggle at night or while scrolling her phone #I love my family but I think we all know the problems there #literally what am I supposed to live for at this point? the hope that one day things might not be quite as bad? as fucking if. look at the #climate. look at geopolitical events like Palestine and the Congo. look at the economy #why the fuck would I want to live #why would I want to suffer in this hellscape of capitalism and genocide and climate change and and and and and and and #I wish I could go back to the doctor and try to get meds and therapy but I'm flat broke and don't have health insurance so i guess I'll just #feel like this until I die naturally or by my own hand lmfao

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altruistic-meme · 2 years ago

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yay we love adding an additional 15 stressors to an already stressed tf out person like yayyy whoopee that sure is fun :)

#im having a time ok #i already havd been super stressed about fucking everything #and now my parents are having me get my own insurance and phone plan and switiching the title of my car to my name #but theyre putting a lean on it which means if my car becomes unrepairable i will not be able to sell it or trade it in #to help cover the cost of buying a new car #especially bc my parents will be literally across the country 🙃#and that on top of trying to decide if I'll be resigning my lease or moving #and i COULD move in with my sister and her gf but like #i mean that's also like a generally Good plan bc it'll cut my rent down by more than half what i pay now #but also from what my sister told me of the contract her gf is writing for it (in case i DO move in with them)#its like. heres a bunch of conditional stuff about your cats (including potentially not allowing them at all)#and conditional stuff about your health (????) as though I'm not fucking trying to work on that #as though I've not BEEN trying to work on it since i was fucking 12 years old #like is that. is that actually fucking NECESSARY? to include in this? like us in AWARE I've got health issues #I'm AWARE i have severe depression and anxiety #I'm TRYING to work on it but i ALSO just lost my healthcare and am trying to figure out the one my work provides #which also wont cover a whole lot and is not exactly like I'm dwimming in cash over here #anyway #ugh #shh ac #seriously shut up

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v-iv-rusty · 1 year ago

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I feel like growing up with parents that are rabid conspiracy theorists about anything and everything affects you like. way way way deeper than most people do (or maybe want to?) acknowledge. and I just wish it was talked about more honestly

#misc.txt #ventish #(<-not too bad just tagging for blocking purposes)#like. this is embarassing to say but my parents were and still are severely anti vax. so at some point I need to go get #proper rounds of vaccines #bc obv I was not fucking allowed to #preferrably uh. fucking soon if I can work out how to do it without them knowing #(and if I can't I guess. I'll have to figure out some health insurance stuff bc I could literally be in danger if they did know.)#(which is a whole can of worms on its own.)#and EVEN THOUGH I fully 100% know that everything they fed me was bullshit #I still have so much deep fear around it bc it was drilled into my head so fucking hard growing up #x will kill you. y will make you sick. z will probably damn you to hell forever but maybe not who knows better to be scared and 'safe.' etc #and it's so hard to even explain it to ppl because they go 'oh so you still believe that stuff' and no!! no I do not!!#Ive just been trained since birth to be afraid of anything n everything!! I've been fed lies for my entire life!! thats hard to shake off!!#I WANT to do good things for myself but my stomach drops on instinct just thinking about it #and I am so so so tired of having to be brave about things I never should have had to be brave about. that's all ig. I'm tired.#like either ppl think you have also inherited their insanity OR they just look at it like 'oh haha funny quirky kooky'#no it's kind of torn my psyche to shreds in ways I'm still uncovering. but w/e go ahead and laugh <3

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orcelito · 7 days ago

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The insurance agent I picked out is rly nice 🥺🥺🥺 she's willing to go out of her way to help me get coverage on the same day that I buy a car. Which!!!! Could be the 30th!!!! Assuming everything works out time-wise and I find smth suitable to my needs at the dealership.

I could be driving myself back from break this year... omg...

#speculation nation #im a little nervous about driving by myself for the first time (ive only driven with other ppl in the car with me)#but i know i can do it. i passed my driving test after all. and it's not like he helped me or anything.#so Effectively i was driving alone. without help at least. it wont be much different to drive Actually alone.#not looking forward to having to do insurance payments But! it will mean i have my own car. and. hehehehehehe #i'll be able to go places... do things... and i'll be getting it just in time for the winter season...goddamn...#which oh yeah i walked 2+ hours today and got snowed on a lot. but oh well i survived !

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nexus-nebulae · 7 days ago

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can ppl stop calling us today i swear we've had like two sessions of three back to back to back phone calls-

#like the timing was insane 😭😭😭 i hung up one call and then someone else immediately called less than a minute later #and it's two unrelated facilities they wouldn't have known the other was calling so like that timing 😭😭😭#and im at the library but all my stuff is kinda everywhere and a lot of it I've put on my wheelchair while i sit in their comfy chairs #so I've had to just stumble into an empty corner of the library and my back is so so sore from it 😭😭#that's my own fault if i know I'll need to move quickly i need to be staying in my wheelchair #the other time it happened while i was in the bathroom so it was private enough #but also i was in there for nearly 20 minutes 😭😭 im sure Someone was getting frustrated with that #at least i have my medication refilled and appointments scheduled and insurance changed #so that's. a surprising amount of stuff off my shoulders

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