#and i wouldnt exist
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Idk what's worse,
The fact that I know I wasn't supposed to exist and be born
Or the fact my mom was supposed to have 2 sons and got 2 daughters instead
#she had a miscarriage before my older sister was born#but if she hadnt my sister wouldve been the middle child#my brother the youngest#and i wouldnt exist#but instead she had my sister#and shes the oldest#and im the youngest#she was supposed to have 2 sons#my mother wishes she had a son#dysfunctional family
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all period typical nicknames are free reign
#chitra.txt#historical#i could have fit more but i feel like that wouldnt be in the spirit of the era#like people existed who werent these but less common#polls
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trenchbleeder lucy x 1000-thr earthmover anyone?? let the beasts be yuri
#ultrakill#pressure#1000-thr earthmover#trenchbleeder lucy#ultrakill fanart#pressure fanart#earthmover#trenchbleeder#drawn on webbypaint.com#sorry guys felt very silly today#i just thought i gotta draw my wives together. theyre each others wives too now#ik trenchbleeder wouldnt realistically be able exist anywhere but the let-vand zone but lets not think abt it rn
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Gojo’s binding vow: one loss for one gain
Explanation (SPOILERS UP TO CHAP 261):
Based on the theory (prior to JJK chapter 261) in which Gojo would have made a binding vow when dying from the World Cutting Slash, he would give up one of his eyes and one of his powers (the Six Eyes in this specific case) to get a chance to live again.
It obviously didn’t go like this and it hurt so much when that chapter dropped.
#gojo satoru#jjk 261#jjk#jjk fanart#gojo satoru fanart#my art#chap 261 is a masterpiece but at the same time i wish it wouldnt exist
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realized ive never drawn portugal so..... heres joão 🇵🇹
#hetalia world stars#hws portugal#hws spain#hetalia#anyway when i was first in this fandom portugal didnt exist and wouldnt for two more years#i love his goggles and his beauty mark and sighhhh im sorry antonio hes just Too Cool#i have to go back to work tonight so im not gonna be able to draw as much . and i needed to draw him before im trapped in the 9to5 again#my art
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true love is something that can be so beautiful. joke stolen from @eelsabound
#manfred von karma#damon gant#blaise debeste#ace attorney#i almost drew franziska and edgeworth but i was like. wait#no franziska was certainly born in wedlock she wouldnt exist yet
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I'm so mad that post was misinformation because there is actually an EXTREMELY important conversation to have about the production schedules artists are forced into. There's no need for exaggeration, the conditions are bad.
I work for webtoon. My publication schedule is weekly. While publishing I'm required 10-15 pages a week. Fully colored.
This means I'm finishing a 150 page fully colored graphic novel every 10-15 weeks.
When my comic is not updating, I am not getting paid. Any time writing, editing, or off is out of my own pocket. I don't get healthcare. They do not provide any assistants. They expect me to promote myself; they chose to deprioritize me before I even launched and gave me an end date half a year in. I never had a chance.
And this is the industry standard! Every company has artists forced into crunch hours, overtime, and burnout. Artists are literally dying early due to it. So many of my friends can't afford to go to the doctor.
It's unsustainable and untenable, and it's also the expectation our audiences have.
If we want to have this conversation, there's plenty of conversation to be had with the realities of the situation. It's bad as is.
#and people get mad at us about 'short updates' lmfao#the companies are absolutely abusing our passion and our desperate situations#but readers genuinely offer little to no grace#if I am going to be able to leave#then the conditions for me to be able to leave need to exist#and they just Dont right now#I'm not making nearly enough to pay my bills without webtoon#I NEED the job#I dont have a car#I cant fucking afford one#I can't drive anyway#I NEED TO WORK#THIS IS MY JOB#I want to leave I'm being mistreated but I CANT!!!#anyways. whatever#I'm so fucking upset that someone just idk spread misinformation#and now the conversation is about like nooo she was under the same shit conditions as everyone else#she's just a really good writer#like okay that's awesome and I'm really glad#but WOULDNT IT BE NICE IF SHE WASNT ALSO OVERWORKED?#AND ALSO IF GOOD WRITERS WERE ABLE TO WRITE WELL WITHOUT HAVING TO BE OUTLIERS???#god it makes me so so so mad!!!!#fucking ruining a really important conversation to have!!!#we're mistreated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we just are!!!!!!!!!!1#I'm not paid enough to build the savings to take risks!#this 6 month break was EVERYTHING#I NEED to start working to pay my bills now#like it's over I ran out of time#its heartbreaking#I hate it here
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Chickens likely domesticated themselves the same way wolves did which is basically by hanging around our settlements and eating our refuse.
Living with chickens in this sort of way was likely happening way before the estimated times of 8,000- 10,000 years ago. The relationship was likely already long established it was just during that time some chickens started developing smaller/weaker adrenal glands which caused them to become much easier to raise and handle which eventually lead to the domesticated chicken we know of today (and how that happened so suddenly is a completely different but very interesting topic)
Also due to this you could argue that there isn't any true wild red jungle fowl left untouched and uninfluenced by humans anymore. Not only due to constant cross breeding with domestic chickens but because red jungle fowl are still doing what their ancestors did in their current range, if there is a town or village nearby the bravest junglefowl will still choose to intermingle with the village and eat the refuse, agricultural byproducts, and waste. People will still catch and care for these "wild" birds like their ancestors did. This isn't to say we shouldn't try our best to preserve the wild red jungle fowls wild genetics, their should be populations left to be in their natural environment but it's likely they are not truly same wild birds they once were thousands of years ago and honestly that's OK because thats how its been for thousands of years.
#basically domestic chickens suddenly became so wide spread so suddenly those thousands of years ago because a chinese ruler was like#i need to feed my people and im going to use these birds to do it#so they selected for big birds who were calm so they wouldnt freak out and burn calories#and they selected for less rooster to rooster aggression so they could house large amounts of birds together#and those birds were basically proto cochins#also game birds are very simialr to wild jungle fowl since their adrenals are physically different then asiatic breeds and their derivatives#they like have their own things going on im not getting into right now but#its all very cool and fascinating#also by learning this i learned that a lot of the older breeders in america think that like chicken breeds just#came unto existence via god??#Christian fundamentalism is wild
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minecraft herobrine analog horror... okay now hear me out.... from the perspective of herobrine
#minecraft#mineblr#worst idea of all time i think it should happen#it would be so good#i have many ideas but none of them are coherent#closest i could get to this would be like... fanfiction#plus how would analog media exist in the minecraft universe?#it wouldnt work but i wish it would
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ok so i never rlly paid attention to the dates before and i was wondering how much time was in bewteen the showdown and wanted and-
oh ! so chosen was. alone. for 5 years. ! oh okay !
and we dont know how much of that time he was running from rocket corp either, he couldve been on the run for 5 years for all we know.
thats,,, yeah.
#im fine im normal#(<- is lying)#okay but.. please think about it with me. he escaped with dark in 2011. from then to 2018 are 7 years then dark got killed.#in the 5 years between showdown and wanted; did he just...roam the outernet? alone??#i mean what else would he do? before the whole of ava 5 its shown that dark and chosen would go to various places destroying them#but after dark is gone he wouldnt be destroying or killing so does he just wander?? does he try to live normally?#does he try getting a place to live? has he ever tried to just exist before?#was this the freedom he wanted?#anyways tldr im not normal about these stickfigures <3#animator vs animation#ava#ava the chosen one#pawu.speak
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#what if i just never emotionally recovered from this . wouldnt that be something#star wars#sw rots#revenge of the sith#rots novelization#anakin skywalker#darth vader#you know what. it's the fact that after everything that has happened anakin still chooses to stay with sidious#even after he knows all he's ever done is lie to him. is use him. is be yet another person on a list of people#who've only ever wanted him for his power#anakin HATES sidious by this point. he despises him. he wants him dead. and yet he stays#because he has no reason not to#he's destroyed everything and everyone who he's ever loved and has loved him in return#and as twisted as it is.. sidious is all he has left now. sidious and all of his anger and all of his terrible grief#so he stays . because he has no reason to leave#and it's not until rotj that anakin finds himself faced with a choice which isn't really a choice at all#because from the moment he realised luke would never join him in overthrowing sidious and ruling the empire#there was only ever one decision anakin could make#because in that moment he looked upon the last reminder of the love that existed once between him and padme and he found his reason#to finally break the cycle of violence#he couldn't kill luke because he loved him ! even among all the anger and pain and regret. anakin loved his son#and just as anakin's love drove him to the dark so too did it help guide him to the light#whatever. this novel destroyed me. gonna have 'this is how it feels to be anakin skywalker forever' on my mind for 3-5 business days
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some doodles
#i meant to put the balor one in the previous post but i forgor 😭its in a diff file from the sketch dump i was coloring in so it just didnt#exist in my mind at all. i felt like smth was missing as i was posting it but i couldnt place what hlep#adeline and eiland have been driving me insane lately. expect more of them. probably.#dont minf the last two guys. some concepts for future farms 😋 (pls mind them im crazy abt all my farmers even if they technically dont -#exist yet. pls ask abt them or smth pls im nroaml i can be nroma l i prommy)#fields of mistria#fom balor#sona#im gonna start tagging that i think.#fom eiland#fom adeline#fom elsie#fom farmer#my art#guys can i just say that im so happy that balor is silver n not gold cus otherwise i would have to confront a part of me im not proud of#we shouldnt talk abt it but like yeah jjust know i like his silver and his whole deal#have such a softspot n bias for characters who dont settle anywhere. who never lay down their roots or whatever. who keep their past secret#like oughh hes hitting so many marks#i like hawthorne a lot. hes more developed in my head. and also i like his dead look and hair bows. i have so many ideas abt him man it hur#i promised myself i wouldnt make a new save file til i reached y2 w rory but apperantly errols bday is cursed bc the game has frozen twice#sorry if you read all of these tags. go to my askbox w fom stuff or smth. ask abt my farmers plsplspls pl s jk haha unless. maybe even#gimme drawing reqs for fom in general. ok tyvm ly sorry for yapping. its what i do best
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Loumand is not and CANNOT be a one to one reimagining of their previous roles as sex slave and brothel owner. louis does not have an equivalent power over armand as he did on emotionally, socially, and/or financially vulnerable women in nola, and armand’s submission is not reflective of a real powerlessness under louis
If we want to look for a marius parallel, it wouldnt be in louis who responds to armands initiations and engages in a consensual dom/sub dynamic. if we want to look for a marius parallel, who is in the predatory position here? Who is controlling information and its access? Who is the one exploiting an experience, knowledge, and vampiric power gap to get the love he wants?
But isn’t that the point? That their relationship is a shallow imitation, a re-enactment of roles which comforts both parties for their familiarity and essentialness while they were mortal? Neither of them were ready to grapple with their own identity in a meaningful way and these roles are something safe to hold onto, which may or may not be productive or accurate but they very well know the performance of this position and it is Still and it is Safe and who cares about absolute truths when you’re one wrong thought away from killing yourself
When hannah says their room is like a brothel and when assad says they revert back to older versions of themselves I think it speaks much more on loumands fear and denial to question and understand themselves than it does being a sexploitation revival. Louis put on the masculine, capitalist decision maker persona to survive his racist heteronormative life, and armand embodied the selfless submissive to survive his oppressive life.
Their brothel bedroom is a reinforcement that they have yet to fully actualize their self identity outside the context of the systems of abuse and oppression they have endured. They are vampires, armand transcends the societies that shaped him but hes still living subject and response to it. Both unwilling to be active players in their own lives, still riddled with the weight of their history that dictate them but will not be unpacked
At the end of the day loumand were two deeply traumatized immortals still struggling to come to terms with the enormity of their self so they repeated the behaviours that made them survive. They cannot stomach themselves so they will keep this up, and together they kept on surviving. Until Louis was ready to do the second interview, ready to reflect, to accept himself and move beyond survival.
Armand u are Next.
#Oh oh oh loumand#There was love and there was peace#However faux or frigid it was felt on some level and was essential to their becoming#TO ME. IDGAF.#Yes there was immense love and yes it became a rouse and desperation and pretend and yes that doesnt negate the value of this time#Yes it was mutual safety and mutually beneficial yes it was mutually detrimental and regressive too yes it was important still#Yes armand abused him yes it was toxic yes i think louis would be dead right now if it werent for armand#Claudia and louis were always going to paris they were always going to meet the coven#If armand didnt exist louis still wouldnt have joined and he’d be killed#Or claudia would and he’d kill himself with no one to stop him#amc iwtv#iwtv#the vampire armand#armand#interview with the vampire#loumand#armand iwtv#vampire armand#iwtv spoilers#iwtv season 2#iwtv amc#louis de pointe du lac#yipyap
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i can engage with the themes of the narrative AND imagine the characters having nasty immoral sex. rip to some of yall but im built different
#fun fact! i think fandom should be grosser and weirder and goofier#and it wouldnt stop Serious Analysis from existing#u can... dare i say it... have both...?
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having been in the fandom for awhile, one interesting shift I remember seeing was around when BoO came out and people realized solangelo was implied to be a future thing, people were kind of scrambling to remember literally anything about Will cause of how minor of a character he had been up until that point.
And one of the things they were looking at with Will was that previously to BoO, people thought Will was a lot older. Because he was a cabin counselor (and generally how he was usually interacting with characters like Percy, Annabeth, and Clarisse - all 16+ish, or Leo - 15/16), most people assumed he was closer to 16 at least, if not actually older than Percy. It wasn't uncommon to see HoO!Will being 17 or so (this is also why there's a decent amount of hcs of him being at CHB pre-BoTL despite not existing until TLO). After BoO happened, it wasn't uncommon to see Solangelo content with a significantly older Will.
Like, it has always been implied in the series that Will is on the younger side (since Michael Yew joined CHB in SoM and Will is younger than him/would have joined BoTL at the earliest) and it's just the entire Apollo cabin keeling over in TLO that made Will counselor. But I just think it's interesting to remember that for awhile Will was not confirmed to be 13 in HoO/14 in TOA when solangelo first became a thing/people started paying attention to Will, and the fandom very widely thought he was older.
#pjo#riordanverse#will solace#ahh fandom history#i havent heard people reference this time in the fandom in awhile and im p sure most current fans dont know it was ever a thing#so surprise! there was a time when people didnt know how old Will was#also the post-HoO pre-TOA solangelo days were a very curious time#the majority of Will Solace fanon comes from that and we actually see some of that fanon being retconned into being canon in TOA/TSATS#which is. odd. because that fanon was based on Will having next to zero character so everybody was just blatantly making stuff up#a lot of which didnt fit with the canon that did exist for him because why would it? nobody expected to really see much of him again#the most we knew was the norse series was coming out soon and as far as we knew there wouldnt be a third main series#let alone did we think a gay ship was gonna be explicitly canonized in said main series#that immediate post-HoO era tbh was probably the height of fanon content in the fandom
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based on this scene.
[ uncensored here :) ]
#ignore the wonk ass hand#pls pretend this tag doesnt exist but man aphrodisiacs are such a huge turn on for me auguhhh aw man that landfill scene.......#i literally couldnt stop thinking abt it i had to draw something or my mind wouldnt shut the fuck up#BUT IT DIDNT EVEN HELP IM STILL THINKING ABT IT NOW AUGHHHHHHYYHHHHHH#degrees of lewdity#robin the orphan#tw noncon#my art#[ ❀ ]
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