#and i think this mostly comes from uhhhh spiritual people

[giverofempathy]

sundays are always. something i guess

[redrobin-detective]

wait isn't there a dc hero who is just a ghost that can't interact with most stuff without possessing someone and does hero stuff by possessing people. i think his name is deadman. imagine the confusion if deadman ended up in Amity Park

Do you mean Boston Brand, my beloved? I love Deadman so much does the root of my love stem from my origins as a DP phan? most likely I’d say and he’s such an interesting character with a unique place in the DCU. Every comic he appears in is a special thrill of Hai there Boston!!!!

Anyway, I may or may not have uhhhh given considerable thought to how Deadman intersects with DP. So Boston’s ghostliness is uh a little more spiritual in nature. He was given the ability to interact in a limited capacity with the living via the godly caretaker of the hidden city, Nanda Parbat (massive simplification don’t fight me fellow DC nerds). That said, he is aware of the Zone and other ghosts he just doesn’t really go there all that often since he’s pretty stuck in the real world.

99% of ghosts, in DP and DC, are like Boston and can’t really have any effect on humanity. Boston himself is strong enough to be able to possess the living and make contact but most ghosts can’t in normal circumstances. Amity Park is not normal. The whole town was one big liminal space even before they had a giant ghost portal leaking ectoplasmic energy everywhere. It’s a big reasons ghosts go to the small town, its got enough latent ghost energy that they can have physical form whereas they can’t in most other places. Amity Park has another thing, it has Danny. I think I made a post about this but Danny also creates a strong ectoplasmic field that unknowingly strengthens other ghosts around him. If Danny were to go to, let’s say New York, his aura would give strength and potentially even form to nearby ghosts. 

Boston knew about Phantom long before he met the kid. He knows there’s a stable ghost portal in the midwest, knows that ghosts come and go freely but he also knows that situation is concentrated to Amity and is being managed by a powerful, ghostly spirit. Boston thinks Phantom is like him, another poor dead soul who’s keeping people safe while they worked through their own death. It’s something he knows but doesn’t bring up to the JLA bc it’s not really relevant until one day it is. 

When he gets in Danny’s vicinity he realizes several things very fast: 1. Danny is crazy powerful and they’d have a hard time taking him down if it came to that 2. He’s a ghost but still can easily interact with the living and world around him unlike Boston 3. He can make other ghostly things able to interact with the world (he almost cries when he speaks and his coworkers turn to look at him) and 4. holy fuck this kid is a ghost but is also still alive. While humans can’t tell Phantom apart from other ghosts, the dead take one look at Danny and just know that he’s still carrying the spark of life they themselves are missing. It’s a lot for an undead circus acrobat to handle.

Anyways, he and Constantine become Danny’s primary contacts in the JLA. They all come to an arrangement that Danny will mostly stay in Amity and only be brought into JLA related missions if he’s absolutely needed, likewise, the League will be there if Danny needs help. Boston and Danny get along pretty well, they have vastly different circumstances but they’re both ghost superheroes so it checks out. Boston delights in helping Danny out with ghost lore and working on the more finicky of his powers. The kid unnerves him, he’s unnatural and his power radiates off him like a furnace. But he’s a good kid and Boston does his best to ensure Danny gets the most out of his human life before it’s taken. Amity soon gets used to seeing the Deadman floating over their city, playfully bantering with Phantom in his characteristic thick New York accent. Just another day in the most haunted city in America.

[wildfey]

some outfit changes from my aai backstory swap au where mvk is the one who gets caught on the scene and has to flee and change his identity, whereas callisto yew is the one who doesn’t get caught and adopts the kid of the guy she murdered

more nonsense au stuff under cut

- So when I was talking about this au before, I said that I’m not sure which side of the bench Edgeworth is on - well I’ve made up my mind, he’s a prosecutor, but instead of his mentor being mvk, it’s the far preferable Byrne Faraday

- Faraday sr. was 30 at the time of dl-6, and being a honourable kind of guy, I can’t imagine he’d have liked Von Karma much. as such, I think he ends up on the case to track the guy down and that’s how he ends up meeting Miles. Kay’s estimated birth year is 2002, dl-6 is late 2001, so I like to imagine that Faraday is kind of at the point of the pregnancy where he’s carrying around the ultrasound images of his soon to be daughter, and then suddenly he meets this kid whose dad has just been killed and is like... holy shit this kid needs a hug or 10, and makes a promise to Miles that he will do whatever he can to help bring mvk down

- I also think Miles reacts very well to this, and Faraday does end up helping him a lot in the early stages of grief. unfortunately he never does manage to catch mvk, which I think ends up being one of the factors that leads him to form the Yatagarasu later. 

- Nevertheless, I think once Edgeworth grows up, he ends up in contact with Faraday again, who helps him reopen the case and start searching for mvk. As a result of this, he ends up becoming a prosecutor so they can work together.

- Edgeworth in this au is very much in a vengeance mindset (at least, until he meets phoenix again and manages to decide that he’s going to catch mvk fairly and without harming others) so I think becoming a prosecutor very much ties into that.

- The funny aspect is if Faraday leaves some Yatagarasu stuff for Edgeworth as a successor and Edgeworth is like... no I don’t think I’m going to do that, thank you, and puts it all back in the box and doesn’t mention it to anyone (for the sake of Faraday’s reputation) until the events of aai

- This means that Kay remembers Edgeworth much better in this au than in canon, as he was her fathers mentee and was around a lot. She resents him a little for never finding her dad’s killer, but has mostly forgiven it by the time they meet again

- Though I do think one aspect that comes from this is that later on it would be relatively easy for Yew to frame Edgeworth for Faraday’s murder - he was at the scene, and if he was investigating could have covered up evidence - and I think that working out that Yew is lying about this is one of the first clues that Kay gets to the fact that she’s not what she seems.

- Also I think I’ve decided that Franziska is a detective in this, and although she’s still a genius prodigy, she actually got a childhood. Gumshoe is theoretically mentoring her, but because it’s Franziska she immediately asserted dominance and has essentially assumed his role of senior detective at 19. RIP Gumshoe. I think Franziska also helps eventually catch mvk because it’s what she deserves.

- uhhhh on the other side we have Mia and Phoenix who are in this au because I want them to be

- Like I said in the other post, I think Mia still becomes a defence attorney, even though Misty remains the master. This is because a) she doesn’t want a power struggle with Maya and b) I do think Mia genuinely does have a calling in that direction (becoming a prosecutor, for example, in canon, would have made her more able to search for her mother. but she still became an defence attorney - why? because it’s what she truly wants to do)

- Her relationship with her family is much better though, so I think in this version of canon Mia does a lot of the master training, and becomes extremely good at channelling, essentially becoming a sub-master or something similar. (I think part of this is insulating her sister and mother from Kurain politics - if Mia is the third in line, anyone wanting to usurp Misty or Maya would have to also reach her, outside of Kurain)

- And this means - psychic defence attorney Mia Fey! Her firm specialises in the weird cases, and it’s relatively common knowledge that she uses ‘spiritual powers’ to defend her clients - whether people believe that depends on the person (though the Kurain school was never discredited in this au, so she’s actually relatively prestigious)

- I know I said before that Phoenix is still a lawyer but I’ve changed my mind.

- Phoenix was going to be a lawyer, to the point of working for Mia Fey (who hires him because he’s remarkably good at rolling with weird stuff,). I think he meets Edgeworth again way earlier, and ends up not fully passing the bar in favour of instead having some spiritual training of his own to assist Mia. he’s not exactly powerful in the same way as the Fey’s, but I think he has some abilities, because even in canon, Phoenix is a magnet for weird magic. 

[recurring-polynya]

I'm curious - what do you think about those that claim Rukia is "abusive" toward Ichigo and Renji because of the way she kicks and punches frequently?

Uhhhh... this is a new one to me? I cannot say I have ever seen this claim in the wild, and I am not sure what the purpose of it is-- Rukia-bashing? A criticism of Bleach generally? I dunno. I am not sure I have ever seen someone in this fandom complaining that they didn’t like Rukia in any way, so forgive me if I’m not really sure where this is coming from.

In case it wasn’t clear from the last time someone asked, I am not going to ever offer opinions on “people who say such-and-such.” People have a lot of reasons for saying stuff, and I am not gonna make generalizations about folks based on their anime opinions. I am here to make friends, not start beefs.

But since you asked, here is my opinion on the take itself.

I think it is clear that Kubo does not intend it to be read that way. It is slapstick, it is meant for humor, it is pervasive in the genre. I wouldn’t even say Bleach is a particularly bad offender. I said Kubo, but this sort of stuff is far, far more prevalent in the anime than the manga. Rukia is hardly the only character in Bleach that does it, it’s just that she’s the secondary protagonist, so we see her the most. Tatsuki also punches Ichigo, Nanao punches Kyouraku, Hiyori hits Shinji, Matsumoto throws a plate at Isshin’s head at one point. That doesn’t mean that we have to like it. It’s not cool to hit your friends, regardless of gender. It’s not really funny. It doesn’t add anything, to be honest. It doesn’t bother me all that much, but I can see how people might be bothered by it and it does not offend me in the least that people might speak out against it. Much like the “perverted character” trope, I mostly just ignore it.

A more subtly gross aspect of it is that I think the entire convention of women-beating-up-men-ha-ha is that it is perceived as a form of punching up-- “women are weaker than men and therefore could never really be their abusers.” Of course we know this is bullshit in real life, people of all gender can be victims of abuse. It is double-bullshit in the Bleach universe, where we are led to believe that strength comes from spiritual energy rather than physical size, and sexism within the Gotei doesn’t really make sense at all (and yet...)

Just so no one thinks I am a hypocrite, I do enjoy physical affection as a character-building device. I have a great love of characters who punch each other in the shoulder or put a friend in a headlock and noogie them. This is fundamentally different than one character saying something dumb and another punching them so hard that they are shown with a black eye or a lump on their head.

[katierosefun]

b, f, k and z? 😍

thanks for the ask ann!! 

B: Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?

ooph uhhh. uhhhh, well, i’ve mentioned it like once, but too far was very deeply personal for me? i almost didn’t post it because i was like okay, i’m getting freakishly real here, but then i read it over a few times, tweaked some details...took out some scenes, added new ones, and then i realized that like. i still wanted to talk about this particular issue, because i was. i don’t know. i found some other fics about this topic and some of them were brutally real (a little too real), but i never felt like there was a happy resolution? or a healing resolution? and for me, i want to write stories that make people feel like there’s still some hope left, so i was like, “well. i’ll make the first story about this topic that’s kind of about...getting better in the end.” 

F: Care to share a favorite hurt/comfort fic?

oh god. so many. so  many. but uhhh, here, let me just: 

regeneration by @pandora15 was one of the first clone wars h/c fics i read last year when i was getting back into writing fic, and hnnng, i remember reading it on a really bad day and being. very touched. very good. spoke to me on a spiritual level and i still go back to it when i am. anxious. 

a long way down by @kckenobi makes me feel way too many things. anakin trying to climb up a cliffside with an injured obi-wan. lots of desperate “i’m not letting go of you so shut up” feelings. i was sitting in the library and quietly shrieking into my hands because what what what. lots of beautiful lines, a+, i cry at the ending every single time!!!

four in the morning, we find ourselves here by curseofmen. anakin, obi-wan, and ahsoka sleep together. anakin manages to drag obi-wan into bed. obi-wan’s in the middle, and cody finds them all in the end, and they’re absolutely adorable and soft, and i cry every time because they’re so soft, your honor, and i love them. 

obligate by @communistkenobi. i just finished reading this fic (like literally this morning), and i’m still recovering?? deception au but make it anakin fakes his death instead of obi-wan. angst. so much fuckign angst. obi-wan does the reckless thing. ahsoka says “fuck off” at one point and i’m losing it over here. the reunion made me w e e p. also anakin gets everyone hammered. also anakin and obi-wan. also ahsoka and anakin and obi-wan group hug. gimme a second. 

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

,,,is it weird for me to say that i don’t think i’ve come up with my angstiest idea yet? because i have certainly written angsty fics and angsty scenes, but i still don’t think i’ve peaked yet. b u t, that being said, there’s this fic idea i have that kinda came to me last night, and i think it’s pretty angsty. (,,,obi-wan, anakin, and ahsoka all running into each other post season 5. kinda sad, kinda funny, but mostly sad, because anakin and obi-wan were trying to catch down some crook, but they both got injured and as luck would have it, they run into ahsoka. in the rain. of all things. ahsoka’s like “oh man oh fuck oh why” but of course she helps them, and of course she lugs them back to her apartment, and of course anakin and obi-wan pass out, and of course there’s just. a lot of pain in this fic. i’m very excited to actually write it and share it with everyone, because lol pain :)))) 

**EDIT: wait i lied, holes was def. the angstiest fic. how could i not realize that the fic with a literal character death and nods to rots would be the angstiest? 

Z: Major character death--do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can't tolerate?

okay, so i’ve definitely written a few death fics, like holes with @kckenobi (major sad. big sad. we used a lot of humor to cope, including “wait we could call this fic ‘holes’ because obi-wan has a hole in his heart where anakin used to be :)))” and “oh wait anakin can’t do that because hE’S DEAD HAHAHAAA” help) 

and then i also wrote known, which uh. uhhh lawless au where satine lives but uh. y’all can figure it out.

if i’m being honest, major character death is something that i can’t always read/write, though--so if i ever do have a major character death, then i try to put a lot of actual time and effort into it because like?? you know. major character. better send them off well. 

i guess if there’s a character that i cannot stand the death of, it’s probably ahsoka’s? i don’t know, in my head, i always think, ahsoka has to live. maybe because she’s the youngest of the tcw trio or maybe because just?? ahsoka tano as a whole is just so super symbolic to tcw fans and i lived through the time in fandom when everyone was speculating about how/when ahsoka was gonna die while tcw was still airing. (let me tell you. let me tell you,,,whenever our baby got too close to danger, every instinct in me would be like, dave filoni if you kill my child, i’m gonna break into your house.) so i guess because of that, i can’t really bring myself to ever even speculate writing/reading an ahsoka deathfic. she’s alive. she’s immortal, i don’t care what anyone else says. :) 

from these asks

[jaeminlore]

bard!taeil ^_^

commissioned by @warmau luv u thank you for giving me free reign i’m sorry i used it all on world building

words: 5k+

a/n: sorry this is a bit late ! also for any mistakes !

okay first thought when given free reign of a story is PRINCE or ROYAL bc that is where my mind is for every story i love a good castle moment

i just think they’re neat ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

but yknow i was thinking about bards and also my skyrim game and how annoying yet precious the bards are in the inn. and if that is not taeil i will eat my own foot,,,,, like omg i forgot his name i think it’s mikael?? he’s at the inn in riften!!! i beat him up to preserve the honor of some lady and now we’re best friends ^_^ anyways he’s lovable and it makes me think of taeil

i miss taeil i read a post about how precious he is and it made me feel some type of way ,,,,, my favorite taeil era was cherry bomb bc the CHOKER and the EYELINER and he just felt like the embodiment of that tiktok sparkly filter

okay now that that’s over

this story is set in a lone kingdom called intima,,,, intima is a word meaning the heart of something and it’s where the word intimacy comes from and it makes me feel warm and happy so i assume it will make the people of intima happy too !!!!! it’s an island centered around the sun — and YOU my dear reader are the eldest princess, the first before six younger siblings !!!

as the oldest, the throne is in your future, and you are set to be the reigning queen WHICH you are quite excited about this isn’t one of those aus where you hate your kingdom and your job and serving,, you LOVE your people and your culture and you genuinely can’t wait to become queen

i’m going to set the world!!!! bc world-building gives me endorphins >.>

intima is a HEAVILY floral-filled island. the clivia (or bush lily) is the capitol flower, often associated with patriotism or pride for intima as an island!!! it’s the flower people pin to their chest during coronations or royal festivals!! and the yellow/orange/coral shades are often what you and your siblings wear to represent yourselves and your island.

intima is a land of equality!!! bc i said so!! and also because the culture is purely built on gratitude and kindness ,,,,, i like to think the spirituality or “religion” in the culture is the worship of the sun and the warmth it brings,,,, a sort of serving the thing that shines a path for the hopeless!!!! there are hundreds of poems and legends and songs about the sun and who she once was and why she blesses intima with her harvests and all kinds of other things and i do have the time to get into it but i know all of you do not

intima also believes that art is hard work!!! and it’s one of the most respected jobs there are!!! like a busker or a street painter are often praised and it’s expected of islanders to tip them and stay to praise them a bit!!! and usually they’ll sell their art (if that’s what they made) afterwards!!!! and poets will read for the children and adults alike and they’ll sell their services to like,,, people who struggle to put their words down on paper and it’s all very helpful and lovely

farmers and fishermen are well respected as well!!!! ofc they bring the food in and the vendors at the marketplace sell them while the artists keep entertainment going. it’s a lovely system and often as the seasons change people will shift their jobs so a vendor will decide to create for a season or a fisherman may decide he wants to sell wares,,, it’s a system so that people can enjoy where they are as well as express they’re creativity properly

and the wealth is distributed equally so that no one goes hungry!!! everyone helps each other out to find a job that fits them!!! and not many people take advantage of the system because it’s quite shameful to refuse helping your fellow neighbor

so yes!!! kindness and helping each other out is not only expected but it is often an indicator of how respected you are as a member of society

ungrateful people get the shame cone >:(

the island is HUGE and set in a sort of jagged star shape, with villages and markets surrounding the castle itself!!! and there’s a moat surrounding the castle made from the streams that trail in from the sea ,,,, and the harbors are quite beautiful if you stand atop the castle walls you can see the ships come and go and it is just *chef’s kiss* immaculate

and the moat is so beautiful i can just imagine the ferns!! like palm brush ferns and tiger lilies and birds of paradise just lining either side of the moat,,, so pretty :( and the moat isn’t to keep people out!!! it’s actually a natural pool for the villagers when it gets too hot :)!! but otherwise the drawbridge is always down so people can come and go throughout the courtyards

similarly, the castle walls run down the island as main roads, leading to the actual castle where the main courtyard sits.

you and your siblings are very personal with your subjects, and it’s not uncommon for the princes and princesses to walk hand in hand with those of a lower class than them,,,, esp bc there isn’t really a class system in place. since wealth is evenly distributed,,,, it’s evenly distributed to the royals as well, and everyone lives comfortably. the only added expense are gifts!!! so if there’s a birthday or something more wealth might be offered to the recipients by default

the courtyards!!! are so beautiful!!! there are four in total but the one i want to focus on is the coronation courtyard!!! this is the courtyard where the coronations and celebrations are held!!!

but when there aren’t any coronations, it’s where people hang out to have picnics or sell their wares or tell stories!!!

and this is where we see taeil!!!!

every day our hero brings his life and ~sings~ a different story to whoever happens to be walking by. he’s actually hugely popular with many of intima’s people,,,, mostly because his voice is like HONEY and his smile reminds everyone of home

he has like,,,,, kind big brother who only comes home for thanksgiving but each time is more memory-filled than the last energy ,,,,, anyways

you don’t actually notice him at first!!! because usually he isn’t in the coronation courtyard.

also you’re too busy planning your OWN coronation

#queenshit and all you know the vibes

it actually isn’t until yuta points out that there is a “very tiny man singing about how beautiful you are” in the courtyard that you’re actually like,,,, okay,,,,,, interesting..?

and at first you’re like shut up yuta i’m trying to work on seating placements you know ten from iacto can’t sit beside donghyuck from stella or they’ll start a prank war during MY coronation

also there are a lot of people who write songs about you and your siblings that’s just how the vibes are !!!!!

you and your siblings are known for your beauty and kindness, so many creatives often use y’all as muses

so you just brush it off

and go back to your planning

which actually consists of you begging your advisors to make little goodie bags for everyone on the entire island (they WILL eventually agree because who doesn’t want a small bee charm necklace or some cleansing crystals)

but i digress

it’s not until you visit the courtyard to finalize the seating arrangements that you actually see the man your brother was talking about

at first you don’t even realize it’s the same person

sure, this man is short, but he is nothing like the unattractie picture you painted in your mind. not that short men are unattractive, but most men who hit on you are often uhhhh creepy and old bc intima is a beautiful place but men are still a disease

this man is, dare you say it, handsome.

like prettily handsome

his hair is a warm chestnut that falls over his eyebrows in loose curls. strands curl and bend around his ears and his eyes are lined with what seems like kohl

his lips are pursed, and he’s too far away for you to hear him, but he seems to be singing

you tear your eyes away from his coral-colored jerkin and try to focus on the seating arrangements

in the end, you leave the work to your advisors, choosing to break away and listen to the lonesome bard

and just IMAGINE for a moment taeil singing like real people do by hozier

just taeil singing any hozier song i cannot get over the thought of it >_>

those are the vibes for this story

taeil a sexy irish bog man

not really but i’ll bookmark the idea for later !!!!

okay so imagine him singing real people do or sunshine and it’s so gentle and warm coming from his mouth that you’re entranced at the very start of it,,,, you’ve heard tales of sirens luring sailors into the sea,,, and they’ve always sounded quite far fetched but now that you’re hearing taeil’s voice you’re like,,,,,, maybe it’s possible

you sidle up to another listener and ask for his name

“taeil moon”

it’s a befitting name. you run it over your tongue for a good while until it feels familiar,,, and when the song is finally over, you clap and shout a few praises, thinking your voice would get caught in the crowd

but taeil catches your gaze, and he strums a sour note on his lute. it’s a swift apology and an even swifter exit as he leaves the courtyard.

you watch him go, unsure as to why he seemed so uncomfortable knowing you were there. “is he alright?” you ask the same listener who told you taeil’s name. they answer, “he’s never left a set before. perhaps you frightened him, princess.”

you DID frighten him. moving into taeil’s point of view, the man has been declaring his infatuation with you for months now and you’ve never come to listen. he suddenly feels naked and vulnerable,,, the one person he chose to write songs about is the future queen and he could very well be executed for such unauthorized poetry

(as if executing is something intima didn’t outlaw ages ago)

so taeil is just a tiny bit dramatic, and he clings to the honest hope that you came to his show late and didn’t hear his declaration. his “all my love songs of now and forever after are for the princess y/n” that he starts every set with. he feels like a fool, so he finds himself hiding in the royal gardens, far behind the brush and hedges, where a lone forgotten fountain rusts. still water bubbles out of the spout, but there isn’t enough for the fountain to actually flow, so it just makes an incredibly awkward gurgling sound as taeil strums his lute and tries to collect his thoughts

taeil doesn’t just like you because you’re the princess. it goes so much deeper than that; he has one faint memory of his graduation out of bards college (it’s a thing in skyrim so it’s a thing in my au) and it consists of you meeting with all of the graduates and giving them each a bush lily from your own personal garden,,,,,,, you also wrote everyone a handwritten letter addressing them by name !!!!!!!!!

and it’s not much to go by at all, and taeil would feel incredibly foolish even bringing up the memory, or the fact that he keeps the card in his memeriy box,,,,, because it’s obvious that you don’t remember him from it, but he can still remember the color of your eyes up close, and he knows what it feels like to be on the receiving end of your smile,, and just the memory of your fingers grazing his when you handed him the flower and card makes his cheeks warm with childlike fondness

he’s a fool, he knows. he’s also a coward, because he ran at the very sight of you

“you ran off before i could tell you how lovely your voice is.”

taeil falls into the rusting fountain as soon as you round the hedge. he has no idea how you managed to find him, but he can’t really think much about it because he’s soon coughing and shivering from the cold and dirty water he’s just fallen into. he mourns his lute,,,,,, just floating in the shallow water ,,,,,, it’s not dead it’s just wet :/

“oh dear i’m so sorry!” you grab his hand and help him out of the fountain, wincing at the way his clothes cling to his body. (Wait. wait. taeil’s lil baby tummy.... through the sheer shirt,,,,,,, like after he takes off his jerkin to dry it out :(((( omg he’s so cute) “i just wanted to compliment you.”

“thank you, princess,” taeil manages to get out. he paints a smile on his face even though he feels like he’s never been put in a more awkward situation. “it means a lot, honestly.” he decides to avoid the topic of having a crush on you, because he thinks he has experienced plenty of embarrassing moments today, thank you very much. so he changes the topic completely. “good luck, uh, on your coronation. i’m looking forward to it.”

you lower yourself into a mock curtsy. “why thank you. save me a dance during the after party, won’t you?”

taeil nods, not trusting himself to speak, and you bid him goodbye

y’all know taeil’s face where he’s just cheesin. like :D

that’s his face for the rest of the day. and every day up until the coronation !!!!!!

and you visit him!!!! when you can !!!!!!!!

taeil has a very easygoing personality i feel like after the initial awkwardness he’d actually be the one to initiate a friendship!!! like sometimes he leaves you letters by the old fountain !!!!!! :((((

and taeil’s letters are very friendly but every once in awhile he’ll slip in song lyrics that make your heart flutter!!!! just imagine your favorite love song or folk song written out by taeil to you because he learned it and it made him think of you :(( i’m crying and i know you’re crying

one day you have a picnic!!!!!!!!! and it’s just the two of you and taeil thinks he should be nervous but he genuinely does enjoy your company,,,,, and he kinda sort of slowly starts to think of you less as a muse and more as a friend,,,,,, or even maybe a potential ,,,,,,,,, l o v e r oooohhhhhhhh,,,, omg it’s so cute tho he lays out a blanket in front of the fountain and the two of you eat sandwiches and apple juice and :(( eventually the sun makes you both a lil tired so you fall asleep side by side

and you get kind of flustered when you wake up beside taeil like oh 😳 okay 😳 now 😳

the two of you hang around each other in secret. not because it’s against the law or it would be publicized or anything like that,,,, intima is a very casual island and no one would bother the two of you too much,,,,,,,,, but taeil feels like a little secret you aren’t sure you want to share ,,, also your brothers and sisters would tease you relentlessly for giving your time to someone KNOWN for singing love songs about you

your friendship w taeil feels a bit like a bird feather on a windy day,,,,,,, like one hesitant breath could blow him away,,,,,,,, but taeil is so FUNNY and warm and gentle and COMFORTABLE that you slowly start to feel yourself fall for him.

taeil is a story-telling bard in the way that the songs he sings often tell stories of his life or the life of someone famous, installed in their hearts from the moment they were all in elementary school. like imagine him singing a tale about the greek gods or norse mythology or perhaps he goes and bit more fairytale and songs of thumbalina or sleeping beauty

he’s an amazing storyteller, so much so that when the two of you hang out, he often recites some form of verse to you, especially if it’s a legend you love dearly (SIRENS) ,,,,,, but the one thing that kind of irritates you is that he has yet to sing you one of his legendary songs that are “supposedly” for you

you’re not trying to be prideful, but this is the lovely singer everyone has told you about, and you still haven’t heard any of his original songs. or at least, his original songs dedicated to you. you’re very curious to see what you look like in taeil’s eyes, even though it might make you feel horribly vulnerable.

and taeil is like :) obviously :) i’m not going to sing love songs :) about my crush :) to my crush :)

but it’s whatever.

what i want to talk about is the coronation babey !!!!!!!!!!!

it’s very public,,, in the middle of the courtyard,,, and all the market stalls are up selling their wares to the large crowd!!!!! and kids are playing in the moat !!!!! sort of a summer festival and you’re the main event lol. like some people will gather and watch the coronation and some people will be off dancing on the other side of the courtyard but everyone is celebrating the same thing!!

and this is a high fantasy setting so there aren’t any modern things like microphones or speakers aside from a copper horn or smth ,,, but it’s all very fun and festive!!!!

merchants are selling banners of orange and gold,,, yellow roses and tiger lilies,,,,,,, flower crowns and faux scepters for the little kids!!!!!! and there’s lively music for people to dance and celebrate to,,,,,, and can you guess who is in charge of the music !!!!?! TAEIL

he’s got an entire band leading the courtyard and it’s all traditional songs for the most part of taeil is able to slip in a few love songs now and again. and ofc everyone loves them bc they know taeil and OBV it’s hard to hate taeil

but :( you aren’t really focusing on the music since it’s such a big day for you but if you were you’d know that taeil is singing his original songs :((( all the love songs about you,,,,,,,,,,

and i SWEAR i can imagine taeil singing hozier-esque songs..... omg or like mystery of love ,,,,, imagine him singing mystery of love on one side of the courtyard while you’re getting crowned queen on the other side

that image is something that can be so personal to me ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

:(((( and you’re dressed in a tan and peach maiden dress,,,, cloaked in golden silk with day lilies tucked in your hair,,,,,,,,, omg or BRAIDED into your hair,,,,,, you just look like a sun goddess okay golden by harry styles are the vibes ALRIGHT babes,,,, and there’s a speech to be made and someone made cake for the masses,,, so you get a bit caught up it everything

taeil isn’t really in the crowd for the coronation as i already stated before ,,,,, but he can kind of hear everything that’s happening and it makes him just smile to himself as he messes with his lute :((( omg if you guys haven’t heard you are gold by the national parks THATS the song taeil sings as the celebrations are dying down

and all the street lanterns are lit and people are quieting down and eating or chatting or rounding up their kids for bedtime !! omg little kids racing past and giggling, their flower crowns askew as they shout about becoming a queen one day :( that’s so cute esp to imagine taeil watching them fondling and waving at them as they pass

and there are fireflies all around!!!! lighting the pathway!!! it’s just so cute and soft and lovely think tangled at last i see the light scene OKAY except it’s not on water it’s a festival and it’s beautiful every seems to be glowing in the light

this au is partially inspired by tangled,,, or the kingdom of corona (lol) so

anyways back to you are gold

the chorus is as so: “you are gold / you are all i see / you are aurum scarce and meant for kings / and i will wait if it’s time you need / what i see in you i hope you find in me.”

and can’t you just SEE taeil singing that absentmindedly not really knowing that you’re making your way to him and then he just looks up during the final chords and he just,,,,,,, fumbles the music and his voice cracks a little (but how COULDNT it bc you’re so beautiful and angelic and taeil could easily picture the stars against your skin and in the shade of your eyes)

“h-hi,” he stutters. “you look. nice.” :D

i think taeil is pretty confident with his feelings but i also feel like he can be quite clumsy with them as well. if that makes sense. but on the other hand confessing to the now-queen of your island is a bit much and taeil isn’t really ready to be rejected on a regal level.

“thank you,” you say. AND!!! you can feel your cheeks get hot because taeil is quite handsome and you DEFINITELY heard the last few lyrics of the song and it ignited feelings inside of you that you weren’t sure you’ve felt much of before.

you kind of just want to take his hand and go spend some ~ alone time ~ with him ^_^

“you know,” you sit down beside him and wrap your cloak around yourself. “everyone has been telling me that you’re quite famous for dedicating your love songs to me. how come i haven’t heard such declarations?”

taeil’s ears turn red and he smiles down at the lute in his lap. “isn’t it a bit disrespectful to make you listen to all the songs i write for you?”

“i want to hear them!! genuinely!!”

can you just IMAGINE taeil holding eye contact and singing sunshine by hozier >:( or like ANY song by ray montangue for today we’re pretending taeil wrote all of these

hold you in my arms by ray montangue YOO :((

just taeil strumming and singing sort of under his breath because he doesn’t really want anyone else to share this lil moment with you. and he’s so sweet like i imagine after he sings he doesn’t expect any praise and he certainly doesn’t expect you to confess your love or anything like that

bc taeil is a respectful future king

LIKE JUST IMAGINE kind of grabbing his face and just giving him a lil kiss,,,,, a lil smooch,,,,, if you will

taeil is probably rlly pretty just after being kissed like his eyelashes would flutter so prettily and it would be so soft like he’d just press his forehead against yours and then omg a FOREHEAD KISS like a really gentle one

you would be so important to taeil like i think he would just be so gentle with you in every way

the relationship is a slower one,,,,,, you have queenly duties and he’s still working as a busker,,,,, getting ready to help the merchants in the winter,,,,,,,

but the two of you make time. it’s similar to before, you just set up picnics, or sometimes you watch him sing, and he’ll write you love songs and send them to you through a letter,, stamping with purple wax,,,

and taeil is always so sweet :( i think he’s more of a casual lover in the sense that he doesn’t need pda or loud declarations in order to make you feel loved flashback to him dedicating every love song to you in the middle of the square but he’d be the type to just hold your hand around the courtyard,, or he’d just send you soft smiles from the other side of the marketplace

he’s the time to buy you a basket of your favorite fruits and deliver them personally to your door

everyone in the castle just lets taeil into the chambers section at this point

the two of you will swim in the moat and play hopscotch with the village children or go shopping together or take naps beneath the afternoon sun and with taeil by your side it’s all so fond and precious and some times you’ll go days or weeks without seeing him just because of schedules but it’s never awkward when the two of you get back together

and it’s actually not until some of your very own villagers are coming up to you like hey,,,,, why haven’t you made taeil your partner yet?? he’s so precious and sweet and he would look lovely in a crown 👀👀

and uhhh who are you to argue with that lmao

so you buy taeil a ring

a pearl !!!! encased in silver <3333 i like to think that the tales he sang to you about sirens often slides to a pearl of some sorts,, so you make sure it’s the rock you place on the ring

and you take him back to that rusty old creaky old ugly old fountain :)

and you just,,,,,, ask him to marry you ,,,,,,,,,,

ofc taeil says yes, a bit frozen because the two of you have talked about marriage but only briefly,,, and he wasn’t sure you’d ever take that step so he didn’t want to pressure you

taeil ofc has always been ready,,, his soul is more open than yours if that makes sense !!! which isn’t a bad thing but he has definitely been ready for a lifetime with you for a long time now

and it’s a long-ish engagement i feel like

not that it really matters but it’s more of a betrothement !!!! so the two of you are technically already married even before the ceremony if that makes sense??? like everyone alludes to taeil as the consort and the two of you live together and receive gifts of betrothement and !!! it’s quite sweet and it’s the way they do things in intima

also you guys aren’t in a big hurry for another ceremony esp bc yuta’s coronation is coming up and you don’t want to take any of his spotlight

king!yuta hold up

but yeah taeil is a wonderful consort !! doesn’t do much yet politically bc he isn’t especially versed in politics but he’s learning!!! he’s really good at keeping a good energy in the room even if two ambassadors are fighting taeil will just be vibing like :-D and it often calms tensions

he’s just a GREAT person and a helpful ruler even tho he really doesn’t even have to be,,,, he’s just a consort,,,, but he still takes the effort to learn genuine laws and help guide the people

the people are obviously obsessed with him,,, they wouldn’t ask for another consort because he’s so kind with all of them

still sings in the courtyard as his job ,,, and the people love it just as much ^_^ esp because now all the songs are openly for you and about you and it makes people more fond of you as well

taeil creates y/n propaganda pass it on

but he works in the castle too,, and he’s a fast learner especially when it comes to settling arguements within the village or even within the court,,,, he also sets up festivals !! he’s wonderful at it !! genuinely !! taeil as an interior designer i can just see it man him designing flower arrangements and the setlist and just !! being a wonderful host

and tbh you’re very thankful because it’s nice to rule with siblings but it’s even nicer to rule with a soulmate

and taeil feels just like that — a soulmate, a missing piece of the puzzle,,,,,

and if intima is the sun , if you who rules it is the sun, then taeil is the moon,, and it’s quite obvious that the two of you were made for each other

perhaps in the future the two of you will have kids or adopt

or you guys get a puppy!!! i can see you w a puppy and taeil with a kitten and the two lil pets just follow you guys around omg

the two of you fix up the old fountain so it isn’t rusty or squeaky anymore

you guys find rocks out on the shore and create a new bed at the bottom of the fountain

and guess what!!!! you guys write little wishes on the rocks and invite everyone else to do the same with the idea that once the fountain is filled with wishes, you’ll hold a festival where you put the wishes back into the sea to be completed

omg how cute would that be like a yearly thing where the fountain would be filled with rocks and everyone gets a handful to take down to the beach and throw into the sea

it’s where lovers write their names and people confess to their crushes and anniversaries and birthdays are celebrated and it’s where artists write pictures and poets write verses and people write prayers to the sun

and it’s where you and taeil announce your first pregnancy >.<

and it’s really soft

the place between the sea and the sun is where your love lies

where your family lives

omg taeil singing lullabies to his baby :( HES be such a sweet dad

i feel like taeil already has a family just by his vibes yknow

but say it’s a daughter he’d teach her how to play the lute and he’d buy her her own

he’d let her express herself in any way and identify however she’d want and love whoever she wanted

he’d be an AMAZING father and husband and king

ANYWAYS to conclude

this was fun to write and i hope it made sense i know it’s all over the place but in conclusion taeil is sexy and deserves to be loved

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #342

“in this farewell, there’s no blood, there’s no alibi  /  ‘cuz i’ve drawn regret from the truth of a thousand lies”

What’s your all-time favourite cartoon? Does anime count? In which case I'd say Fullmetal Alchemist, or the original Pokemon. If we're not including anime, then uhhhh Avatar: The Last Airbender, even though I have much more to go in the series. Have you ever taken dance lessons? What kind? Yeah, I've done a few for many years: jazz, clogging, modern, and hip hop. When did you last run and why? I literally couldn't tell you. I don't even know if I can run with the current state of my legs. My knees would probably crumple. Does your house/flat/whatever the hell you live in need cleaning? Not necessarily cleaning, but sorting. I still have boxes outside and inside my room of my stuff I need to put up somewhere... but whenever I prepare to do it, I just get so overwhelmed and shy away from it. Then there's the spare room, that's a total mess loaded with boxes and the like. Mom and I have just avoided it like the plague. Was your last relationship with a man or a woman? Woman. What do you think your next achievement will be? HOPEFULLY getting a job... Do you like mushrooms? NOOOOOOO. What dream do you remember most vividly? I'm not talking about it. Favorite kind of bread? Pumpernickel. Rabbits or hamsters? Rabbits. I've never met a nice hamster, and I just think rabbits are cuter. A movie you’ve never seen that it seems like every one else has? Harry Potter films. Favorite dog breed? I'm biased towards beagles. When was the last time you climbed a tree? Never, actually. Where I live, there aren't really many weighty trees with low branches. Just pine trees. Most common lie you tell? That I'm "fine" when I'm not. Ever seen your parents make out? Jc no, I'll take a hard pass there. Do you put your hair up a lot or down? It's too short to put up. Most of the time do you straighten or curl your hair? Neither. What piercing do you hate? I'm not a fan of cheek dermals at all, but you do you 100%. Were you raised in a religious house? Yes; I was raised Roman Catholic. Do your parents get mad when you're on the computer for hours? Mom used to for many years until I became an adult and she just realized it was in vain. I haven't lived with Dad since I was a teenager, but when my parents were together, he usually didn't say anything. Have you ever been asked for a nude picture? No, thankfully. I'd stop talking to the person immediately. What would you do if your parent hit you? I honestly feel like I'd slap them back and get the fuck out. Or just freeze in shock and cry. What's your most common mood? Stressed but distracted. Do you like poems? Yeah, usually. Ever kissed someone half-naked? Uh yeah. Have you ever been in a parade? No. Do you still play Pokémon? I play Pokemon GO, and I've actually been tempted to get out my DS and play one of the games I have (I can't remember which). I do find Pokemon games to be VERY grind-ey, though, so I can't play them for too long without getting bored. What is your favorite Pokémon? Ninetales. I also really love Espeon, though, and Charmander will always have my heart. Is there an animal you like that most people don't? Bats! :') Is there an animal that you think is overrated in terms of how it's liked? No animal is overrated. Have you ever "quit" a site and came back to it more than once? Uhhhh I don't think so. Do you have an "odd" fascination with anything? Most would probably consider "vulture culture" to be pretty weird, being drawn to dead animals and all... What's the hardest thing you've been through, & what did you learn from it? The breakup with Jason. I learned that some people make promises they aren't afraid to break, that someone can promise "forever" and not mean it, that the most unexpected can just snap their fingers and forget about you... I learned a lot. And most things, not positive. What are three "unrealistic" things you want most? 1.) To be able to financially support myself by just freelance nature photography; 2.) sooo many different kinds of pets; and 3.) to be totally rid of my mental illnesses. Do you take any daily vitamins? No, but I would if I was the one who bought groceries and stuff. I do however take Vitamin D once a week for my legs. Who are three of your favorite fictional characters of all time? JUST THREE??????? FUCK MAN idk. Uhhh well there's of course Darkiplier and Wilford Warfstache, then uhhh probably Pyramid Head. If you had to give the world a pre-existing mythological/fictional being, what would it be? Idk, I'd really need to be more educated on their lore before I made that decision. Do you have any desire to learn (a) foreign language(s)? Which? I both do and don't want to resume learning German. I got very good at it and could have basic conversations, but lack of application has slaughtered my vocabulary. Now it's like, it'd be nice to try again, but for what purpose? I don't think I'll ever actually apply it to my life, so it just seems like it'd be a load of wasted effort. But then on the other hand, I also feel that doing something you simply want to do isn't a waste of time. Idk. What is one of your firmest beliefs? Equality for all. No race, religion, whatthefuckever makes you more or less valuable than someone else. Do you have anything that keeps you from doing something you'd truly enjoy? Oh yes. Depression and anxiety, mostly. Do you work to fix your faults? Or at least, admit to them? I definitely try, and I'll certainly admit to them. How do you hope the world will change, if at all? I just want more compassion, less violence, more understanding... What is/are your view(s) on god, religion, spirituality, or relations to? In short, I believe that something sentient created the universe, and it/they/he/she/what-have-you just... let life play out from there, I think. I like to believe there's a plane of consciousness like an afterlife that exists, but if not, I don't really care. I hope the evil get what was coming to them, and the good get back what they gave, but maybe we're all better off without life after death. We'll all find out one day. Are you arachnophobic or scared of spiders in the least? Some, yes; others, not so much. This is very situational. Do you play WoW? What do you think of it either way? Haha, you're asking an avid player. I enjoy it, but not as much as I used to. At one point I was a Heroic raider, sometimes dabbling in Mythic, but now I'm just mostly a casual mount collector that likes chatting with my guildies and just doing dailies 'n shit. I owe a lot to the game, honestly; it helped me stay occupied throughout the breakup, and still today gives me something to do. What kind of computer do you have? Windows 7/Vista/XP/Other? I have an Acer Nitro with Windows 10. Are you taking any interesting classes in school/do you not attend? I'm no longer in school. If you don't attend, are you taking any "lessons" for anything? No, but I would like to join a photography course somewhere. A book/piece that has had an exceptional impact on your life? Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo just made me hate war more than I innately did. What genres of music are your favorite? Just metal as an umbrella term. Some heavy stuff, some less, some in the middle, some leaning towards other genres... but I just like metal. Do you think that fate plays a part in people's lives? No. Wouldn't "fate" just make it all... worthless? Like we're just storybook characters with a predetermined ending? What are your opinions on the media? One word: manipulative. What's a piece of technology you'd like to own? I REALLY want a PS4, especially lately. There's just a lot of games I REALLY want to play. Are you afraid of technology developing to where we're too reliant on it? We're already *too* reliant on it, which I do believe is a bad thing. I know, absolutely hysterical for me to be talking. What's your favorite odd ice cream flavor? I don't think I've ever had a truly odd ice cream flavor. There's this local place though that makes a kind that tastes JUST like s'mores, and I can fucking murder a cup of that. What's your opinion on stereotypes/labels? They're limiting and devalue uniqueness, imo. I know very, very few people who totally fit a certain stereotype, so why even bother. Like I don't care if you use them as adjectives to some extent, just don't put too much weight on them. Just be you. Do you believe that history repeats itself? It's not necessarily doomed to, but it happens sometimes, obviously. Would you rather learn from your mistakes or just undo them? Depends on the mistake. What was the most interesting class you had in school? Probably Mythology in high school. Do you write? If so, what? Yeah, meerkat role-play. And every now and again, poetry. Do you have a favorite culture? No; I'm not educated on nearly enough to pick one. Do you believe in global warming? Have you researched it? Lol no shit I do. I don't exactly think it takes much research to see with your own two eyes that it's factual. Do you prefer piercings or tattoos? Tattoos, if I had to pick. What comedy movie is your favorite? White Chicks. Have you ever meditated? Yes. Doesn't work for me. What comes to mind when you think of a great moment in your life? Realizing it was my choice to liberate myself and my happiness from my ex. He didn't and never should've carried it, because that's my right. What do you like about springtime? Aaaaall the flowers. <3 How have you handled having to stay in? It's not really different from my average day, so... How would your friends describe you? Quiet and overthinks literally everything. Have you ever hallucinated? When I was coming off a certain med in middle school, I saw black moving shadows. What (or who) is the best thing that ever happened to you? The partial hospitalization program I attended for two months following my suicide attempt. It's where I met my psychiatrist, who set my medication straight. Medicine besides though, I learned so many coping techniques and just how to deconstruct my trauma. As well as possible, anyway. What is the worst decision you ever made? Handing over the ability to make happiness for myself to another person. What is your favorite arcade game? Don't have one. Do you feel neglected? No. What school subject(s) are/were your best? English, Arts, Science. Are you allergic to pollen? Yep. What style of wedding dress do you like best? Probably ballgown. Are you over your first love? I probably never will be in complete totality. Do you always answer your phone? No. I only ever do if I recognize the number. Who was the last person you know to have a birthday? Today is actually my sister's birthday. What song is currently stuck in your head? I have Halocene's cover of "What I've Done" on a loop right now. It has me absolutely covered in goosebumps. Do you ever use coloring books? Not really anymore. Do you personally know anyone who is an author? Not to my knowledge, no. What’s your favorite kind of salsa/dip to go with tortilla chips? Just your normal, mildly hot salsa. Do you wash your car by hand or drive through a car wash? Mom's car hasn't been washed in... well, years, given its bumper. Mom worries that in a car wash, it'll be broken off (it is literally held on with a lot of zip ties and duct tape), and we ourselves don't want to wash it, so... Do you have any uncommon kitchen appliances, such as espresso machines, waffle irons, etc? I know we have one or two, but idk what they're called. What did your parents major/minor in in college, if they went? Dad never went to college. Mom changed her major a few times, but her latest was social work, I believe. Has either of their careers influenced what career you chose or want to pursue? Not at all. What kind of natural disaster is most common where you live? Hurricanes. Why is your least favorite season your least favorite? Because it's hot as fuck and humid. Have you ever had an animal get into your attic? No. When was the last time you started a “new chapter” of your life? I don't know. Hopefully I'll start one soon when I leave PHP and pursue a job... What room in your home do you spend the least amount of time in? I'm always in my room. Do you do anything to reduce the amount of electricity you use? I feel awful admitting I do quite the opposite... Being in the dark during the day affects my depression, so I'll have my lamp (or both) on even if it's just sort of shaded inside. Are you usually open to trying a new food that you aren’t familiar with? Eh, it depends on the food. I'm not very adventurous with foods though. Do you listen to Panic! At The Disco? I do. Have you ever had a kinky dream about a celebrity? ... It wasn't "kinky," but it was a dream lmao. Has anyone ever told you that they loved you, and you couldn’t say it back? That's how I ended the whole Joel childishness. Which friend do you confide in most? My mom. Do you wear a cross? No. What is your favorite doughnut? That's so hard. :( Krispy Kreme's normal glazed though probably takes the cake. I also love chocolate frosted and just totally plain, though. Do you have a hot tub? If so, where is it located? No. Did you read the Twilight series, or jump on the bandwagon after the movie? Neither. Do you or your parents rake your yard? Dad did growing up. Now nobody does or needs to. Who did you last go to the movies with? Dad, I think? What color was the last vehicle you were in? White. Do you have any family members in the military right now? No. Is there a ceiling fan in the room you’re in? Yeah. Have you ever heard voices? No. If you’re not straight, who was the first person you came out to? Sara. Do you remember the first time your first crush ever said hi to you? No. Do you ever go places with wet hair? Yeah, idc. Who is your favorite little girl? My nieces. What do you want the most in life? To feel like I made a difference, even a tiny one. If you could have anyone’s singing voice, whose would you choose? OBVIOUSLY Amy Lee's. What’s the most expensive thing you’ve bought that turned out to be a waste of money? *shrug* What’s something you’ve bought that turned out to be way more useful than you anticipated? Hm. Have you ever been on a ship? No. Would you ever date a disabled person? (Be honest) Yes. Would you rather adopt or have your own child? IF I wanted kids, which I absolutely do not, I'd rather have my own. I know I'd feel a deeper connection. What would you class as cheating on someone? As soon as you do/say something you don't want your s/o to know about, you're cheating. As far as earrings go, would you rather wear hoops or studs? Studs. Do you recycle? Yes. If someone dislikes you, what is most likely to be the reason? People have thought I don't try hard enough before. Do you put a line through your "7"s? Yes. ^ What about your "Z"s? Yes. What are you most known for? My art "skill," at least irl. How do you feel about shameless self-promoting? Depends on when, where, and how. As someone who's trying to be a freelance photographer, I get that it's sadly necessary, but there are some places it's just uncalled for.

[bigskydreaming]

I'm not sure if you got my request because i didn't had internet when i sent it, so i'll write it again xd Do you think Dick (and the batboys in general) are famouse like Bruce? Because in the comics there's not any clue about it, i've never seen anyone say something like "oh look! Its Dick Grayson!, y'know, Wayne's first ward/son And its a shame, because reporters would make such a hard life to all of them, it would maka a good narrative tool

Honestly, this is a prime example of that inconsistency I rant about, and also DC’s refusal to just COMMIT on even the most basic aspects of their universe like….uh…how many kids does Batman have. 

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Like, you would think that would meet the MINIMUM requirements of “shit you should probably have figured out and make sure everybody’s on the same page with” but DC’s like….nah, that’s not important.

So I mean…..I’m reasonably certain - like this is just my personal belief, but I’d put money on it being right, lol - but I think the primary reason there’s so little mention in the comics of how Bruce’s kids are viewed in the public eye/how much the public are aware of them (in the New 52, at least, as pre-Flashpoint there was a lot more plot around that kind of thing, especially back in the 80s and 90s)……

…is because 90% of the writers and editors have no clue either, and nobody wants to be the one to ask, and like, open that can of worms. I 100% think you could ask five different writers at DC which kids Bruce has OFFICIALLY adopted in this current continuity, and get five different answers, lol.

There’s been so much handwaving about Dick’s status ever since Spyral, and again - I think its because nobody bothered to think through the logistics of the Hypnos/global-mindwipe machine BEFORE writing it into the story, and then once it did occur to any of them to like….wonder just how specifically it worked, they were like, fuck it, better just be as vague as possible. So, according to Grayson, everyone Helena didn’t program into the exclusion list before the satellite was activated should have no recollection of Dick Grayson, which is why he was able to ‘go back to his old life’ and be Nightwing again, without worrying about his secret identity having been unmasked…..

But what does that mean for his official identity as adopted son or even just ward of billionaire Bruce Wayne? People can’t have NO memory of Dick Grayson and still remember that Bruce Wayne took in a kid named Dick Grayson. I mean, as far as I can tell, the overall consensus in the comics seems to be that after the satellite was activated, Dick just kinda started from scratch as ‘Dick Grayson’ like, he was free to be himself again, but it was like he was a blank slate/came out of nowhere as far as everyone else was concerned. But again, that means as far as anyone outside of their close circle of family and friends know….Dick Grayson is a non-entity to Bruce Wayne and the two have no history. 

Which I mean, is fairly shitty and you’d think if nothing else, there’d be massive story potential there for delving into Dick’s character and his relationship with Bruce and examining how he felt about ‘having his old life/identity back’….except with the caveat that as far as the world is concerned, his life and identity don’t and have never included his father.

Cut to DC: Naaaaaaaah.

But even WITH that, plot holes persist, and abound, because…..why didn’t the satellite erase the Court of Owls’ knowledge/memory of Dick? Even before Luthor gave Cobb those goggles and files to help him with bringing Ric into the fold, Cobb clearly was already stalking Ric and knew exactly who he was….the Court obviously already had that doctor in place while he was still in recovery…so, whoops. I mean, you could probably come up with an explanation about the Court, via their own tech and resources, having had some protections in place 24/7 that kept the satellite from affecting them even though they weren’t on guard for it specifically…..but again, Occam’s Razor….I feel like the real answer is DC just didn’t care enough to think things that far through. Especially since the average Bludhaven citizen, like Bea, at least didn’t seem totally blown away when Ric revealed to her that amnesia aside, he was supposedly some rich billionaire’s adopted kid….which again suggests that as far as the writers were thinking, people in general are familiar with the idea that Bruce Wayne has more than one kid.

Then you’ve got Jason’s whole situation, and to be honest….I really only have the vaguest idea what’s going on there, because reading Lobdell books is against my religion, and I am a devout and deeply spiritual person, as you all probably can tell. I mean, I know that there’s something going on where like, Jason had himself legally resurrected in the public eye and is openly referring to himself as Bruce Wayne’s formerly-assumed dead foster kid……but like, is that the official official word, or would other writers if you asked them say they’d been operating under the assumption Bruce had adopted Jason too at some point in the Rebirth timeline, or….idek, man.

I…..honestly don’t have the faintest fucking clue what to make of the many back-and-forth retcons about Tim and his parents and his official place in the Batfam/relationship with Bruce, and am actually slightly terrified of even trying to make sense of that clusterfuck of a Gordian knot, so my official stance on Tim is to just like….back sloooooowly away from the anthropomorphic-migraine-masquerading-as-a-backstory, without like….agitating it and accidentally setting off another multiverse Crisis birthed wholly from just that one all-consuming black hole of a retcon.

I mean, there’s a reason I basically just shoehorn all the kids’ official pre-Flashpoint family statuses into anything I write in Rebirth continuity, and that’s not just stubbornness and my refusal to play the “now this kid is adopted…now he’s not…now he is again….except he’s not….oh he’s adopted again…..oh wait now he’s not again" game. 

Its like. Also for the sake of my sanity and stuff.

(And also hahahahaha fuck you DC times infinity, every time you use the words “blood son,” or “real family” in a comic, or have one of Bruce’s other kids refer to Bruce as “your father” when talking to Damian, as if that’s not an utterly bizarre and roundabout way for any sibling to refer to their mutual parent and thus I j’ete REFUSE to acknowledge it as valid….ahem, anyway, my point is, every time they do that in a comic, I double down and headcanon Bruce throwing a random as fuck gala for literally no other purpose than to remind all of Gotham that he has half a dozen kids and they’re all better than everyone else’s. Ugh. Kill it. Kill the “blood son” nonsense with fire and lightning and also lots of stabbing maybe).

Anyway, that’s my official stance on DC’s stance on Damian in the books.

Then as far as Cass goes….ugh, her origins were pretty much utterly butchered by the New 52, which IMO has also failed to give us Cass and Bruce bonding and dynamics sufficient to Sate Mine Ire™, sooooooo…..I mean, my perception of the current canon is that Cassandra’s official status is “secret mystery foster child that nobody really knows about,” but because I do not care for that and there’s the whole not sufficiently sated ire thing I mentioned, I officially reject this canon and willfully replace it with pre-Flashpoint Bruce and Cass love and adoption. DC’s welcome to kiss my critically acclaimed hiney if I’m doing it wrong.

Which brings us last, but certainly not least, as its only this way because I go sequentially and Duke is still Shiny and New comparative to the others and will be until the next inevitable fostering/adoption/clone hi-jinks bumps him up the sequential ladder (except I randomly switched Damian and Cass around this time because LOOK I DONT MAKE THE RULES, THERE ARE NO RULES i hvea Adhd hiccup sob leavem e aloooone soooooob)…..

Duke’s official status, much like the rest of the Batkids, can be summed up as Honestly, I Really Don’t Have A Fucking Clue And Am Just Winging This Whole Thing.

I mean, there’s less inconsistency with him, due mostly to the fact that so few writers other than Snyder use him (boo, hiss, and not just because I hate having to give Snyder credit for stuff - look, I love his Duke, but I loathe how he writes Dami, its a thing, I just…don’t get me started). But what inconsistencies there are….well….they’re a bit glaring.

Basically one major storyline showed Duke as being an official foster kid/ward of Bruce’s and living out of the Manor with Bruce and Damian and occasionally Tim when he’s not off road-tripping around the multiverse….and then Batman and the Signal had Duke in the care of his uncle, who was stated to be his legal guardian and Duke was constantly sneaking out in order to meet Bruce in the special Signal-cave he built specifically for Duke to operate out of so he didn’t have to like, drive all the way out to the Manor to change just so he could then drive back into the city and patrol. And then Batman and the Outsiders just said fuck all that, here’s Duke and Cass hopping hemispheres with the Outsiders every other issue, so apparently nobody’s making unscheduled visits anywhere back in Gotham to make sure these two are where they’re legally assumed to be, which again, for the record is…..*error, source not found*

LOLOL and the really fun thing about this little back and forth is I’m pretty sure allllll these conflicting takes are all the work of the same writer. Like. GET ON YOUR OWN PAGE, DUDE.

Also, again I have to assume the “Can’t Be Bothered To Give A Shit, Or Maybe They’re All Just Really Bad At Logic” curse has struck again, because….uhhhh…..

….at no point anywhere in Duke’s stories have I seen Bruce or literally anyone else express concern about the fact that Duke living with Bruce as his official foster, like he definitely and clearly was at some point at least…..means that literally every single one of his We Are Robin friends who knows that he was taken in by the Batfam (and there’s several of them who know this)….like, by the transcendent properties of You Can’t Honestly Think They’re That Dumb, that’s a good five or six civilians out there who probably took all of five seconds to play connect the dots and figure out the Wayne family, having officially taken Duke in on paper…..is pretty likely the Batfamily.

I mean, I like all of Duke’s friends and would definitely headcanon/write them as all being trustworthy and able to keep this knowledge to themselves for Duke’s sake, if nothing else, but I mean, its pretty unprecedented for Bruce to out himself and all of his kids/allies by extension, to like, that many civilian teenagers all in one swoop….

…sooooooo, you’d think, AGAIN, logically, maybe, perhaps, this is the kind of thing that should be brought up in a narrative somewhere as a plot point worth delving into, y’know, just for shits and giggles and maybe a little bit of that whatchamacallit - oh right, character development, but.

Cut to DC: Naaaaaaah.

 *throws up hands and does the I Can’t Even Shuffle all the way home*

In conclusion:

DC is a mess. The official/public status of each and every Batkid is a mess. Except for Damian, the blood son, but we have that pencilled in on the schedule to be killed with fire and also stabbing, so he can get filed under ‘just a fucking mess’ with the rest of his siblings. Hashtag Solidarity.

I mean, I say just write or headcanon their official status however you damn well please, and it’ll STILL be more effort than I believe DC has put into organizing and staying consistent with all of this, and thus STILL make more sense than what we currently have to work with.

*Shrugs* If they don’t care enough to provide a clear canon blueprint to follow when mapping the Bat Family Tree, I can’t be bothered to care if the one I make up myself happens to contradict one single mention of one kid’s official status as claimed by one issue of one book.

Especially if it was written by Lobdell.

Jason’s just a foster son my ass. grumble mumble bitter vengeful swears and a pox on all DC’s houses. WHY DO YOU PEOPLE HATE ADOPTION SO MUCH, INQUIRING MINDS WANT TO KNOW AND ALSO FUCK YOU.

[royal-random-the-yogurt-queen]

15 questions, 15 mutuals

I was tagged by @deadmomjokes

Are you named after anyone? Yes, one of my mom's favorite authors for my first name, and a lovely community-grandmother/local librarian that she knew for my middle name.

When was the last time you cried? Happy, sad, what are we talking about here? Uhhhhh, I was listening to some good talks/devotionals (of the spiritual variety, yes) on my first overnight roadtrip by myself a couple weeks ago, and a couple of them got me right in the feels, so I think then?

Do you have kids? No. But I do claim a few characters from assorted fandoms. Mostly right now, my children are Ezran and Soren from The Dragon Prince.

Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yeah, kinda, when I'm with my friends out at the college and they say something goofy.

What's the first thing you notice about people? Uhhhh... Face? I also get vibes from people that usually tell me if they're someone I should hang out with a lot or not. So that's cool.

What's your eye color? Green originally, and then several summers ago, somehow they split vertically and are now half green and half yellowish.

Scary movie or happy ending? Happy ending. I do like thrillers, but the majority of "scary movies" are demon-based, and I don't mess with that crap even for "fake entertainment" purposes. No-sirree-Bob.

Any special talents? Um.... I do draw. I can roll my tongue. And trill. I can even sound like Chewbacca. I can pick up most things pencil-shaped with my toes.

Where were you born? Illinois, USA.

What are your hobbies? Drawing, YouTune, piddling on here, singing, hanging out with friends.

Do you have any pets? Not unless you count the snake that got shoved on us several years ago who shares my room and hates everyone. Or the small children I live with.

What sports do you play/have you played? I played softball when I was younger. I don't currently play anything.

How tall are you? Around my sister's height, and she answered 5'6.5", so somewhere close to that. If I get someone to crack my back soon, it might be a little more.

Favorite subject in school? Life science/biology. So much so, I even want to teach it.

Dream job? Uh, teacher. Just not with all the crap that comes with American public schooling, cuz that crap sucks. So, uh... home-school teacher/tutor?

Tags: @viegasgirl @twentyonepanicingpadfoots @j-the-latter-gay-saint and anyone else who wants to!

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #051

“her place of work is not that far away: it’s the room next door”

Describe your hometown. What's it like there? It was a crappy and dangerous place. What's your favorite memory with your last ex? Probably this one night during my first stay at her house where we just stayed up listening to music and talking about totally random and pointless shit. What is the oldest online account that you still use? Uhhhh... maybe my Facebook? What country does your favorite band hail from? Ozzy is from England and Rammstein is German. Ever wondered what it would be like dating the same gender as you? I've dated the same gender as myself. When was the last time you smoked pot? Never. Have you ever jumped off a high dive into a pool? No. Do you use one towel when you shower or two? (one for hair, one for body) I use one ON me, but three are on the floor nowadays because the shower door stays cracked and I also dry off mostly on the toilet because I need to sit. Do your mothering instincts come out easily? No, honestly. It's weird but I literally feel more maternal towards s/os than kids. I HAVE however noticed the longer I've been helping Mom babysit the kids, the more "I need to protect/make them feel better" sort of upset I get if one of the kids are crying because they're hurt or something. Tampons or pads? I really don't like either, but I prefer tampons regardless. Who in your opinion is the hottest male celebrity? Markiplier, sobs. Who did you last fall asleep with? My boyfriend. Who were you last in a car with? My mom. Are you embarrassed/uncomfortable dancing in front of other people? Yes. Would you ever consider styling your hair as a mohawk? No. Of all the pets you have had throughout your life, which one has meant the most to you? Is there a reason why? My dog Teddy. I felt connected to that dog on a spiritual level. Roman is like, RIGHT behind him. Do you think that fake plants are tacky? Have you ever seen any that looked real? I mean, not really. I really just don't care. How many friends do you have on Facebook? 109. When was the last time you made out with somebody? No one needs to know that. What tv show(s) have you been watching currently? OH MY GOD Girt and I started Extraordinary Attorney Woo the other day AND I. AM. OBSESSED. I have not been this into a show in SO FUCKING LONG and omg I absolutely adore it, you should 100% check it out if you don't mind reading subtitles if you're unfamiliar with Korean. What pet names do you use with your significant other? A lot, really. I probably say "hunny" more than anything though. Have you ever dated a smoker? If not, would you? I haven't and I probably wouldn't. Can you hear anything right now? Yeah; I have "Moskau" by Rammstein on rn. Do you share a middle name with any of your siblings? Yes. Can you cry on command? If so, have you ever used it to your advantage? No, I can't. Have you ever missed a flight? I sure did, and I was MEGA fucking upset; I was making a surprise visit to Sara on her bday, and I was supposed to be there before she even woke up, but thank god I still got there without the secret slipping out. Her parents were great with making things seem normal and her dad slipping off to pick me up under the guise of doing something else. Do your neighbours have any pets? Have you ever met them? Idk about our immediate neighbors, but I know there are dogs in the neighborhood because at least one never shuts up. Do you know your significant other's passwords? No, they're not my business. Would you rather be a panda or grizzly bear? Probably a panda. Do you like BBQ sauce? No, I actually hate it. Do you hang out with your siblings' friends? No. Have you ever kept anything wild as a pet? As a child, yes, and I thoroughly implore others NOT to do it unless it is a rescue mission by an educated professional. Taylor Swift or Carrie Underwood? I honestly like Carrie. Think about your ex, your crush, or the person you’re currently dating. Were you attracted to that person as soon as you met them, or did the attraction develop over time? I wasn't immediately physically attracted to Girt, but I'm pretty certain I was drawn to him emotionally very quickly. What is the sexual orientation of the last person you talked to? Straight. Did you get ice cream from the ice cream truck when you were little? Do they still have an ice cream truck where you live? Yes, every now and again. There's not one around here. What has been the most traumatic experience of your life? Does it still bother you? My boyfriend that I practically worshiped leaving me very abruptly, and yes. I worry all the goddamn time Girt will eventually have enough and leave. Your last ex finds out you’ve fallen in love with another person? She already knows this. How long was your longest make out? lmao bro this question makes me think of someone keeping track of time like a goddamn high score, which isn't something I do. Idk, idc. In your opinion, which hurts more: physical or emotional pain? Emotional. Is there a certain song or band who remind you of specific people? Motionless In White and Black Veil Brides will absolutely always make me think of Jason because those were his favorites. My mom is also WILDLY obsessed with Metallica, so they make me think of her without fail, too. Can you recall the last time you bought flowers for someone? What kind? Uh, I don't think I've given someone flowers since I dated Jason, probably for Valentine's Day one year. They woulda been roses. I'm planning on getting Girt at least a rose or two this year as well for our anniversary, coming up real soon. And when was the last time someone sent flowers to you? What kind? Tyler got me an unnecessarily large bouquet of roses one time when he visited my house while we were dating for like two weeks. Are there any books that you own more than one copy of? I don't believe so, no. As a child, what was a trait or habit you had that annoyed your parents? Ummm... idk. Besides always wanting to be on the computer. Does your best friend get along with their parents? I don't know how Girt got on with his dad, but he and his mom are great. Is there anything in you room your parents would be pissed about? What? No. Are you welcome at the last person you kissed's house? Yes. Have you ever gotten anything racist about you yelled at you? No. Does the last person whose house you were at like anyone? I was at my sister's place, and she's married with three kids, so. Have you ever watched someone being carried into an ambulance? My mother, yes. Have you ever showered with a member of the opposite sex? No. Has a boyfriend/girlfriend ever given you a stuffed animal? Yes. I still have all of them. Do you put clothes on your animals? Cookie rarely has a fuzzy jacket on, but I mean, she's a tiny chihuahua so it's for when she could get cold going out somewhere. She LOVES going on car rides. Who do you feel most comfortable talking about your feelings with? Probably Mom. Have you ever walked on the beach at night? Yes, it's a stunning thing. What would you do if you walked in on your best friend having sex? My best friend is my boyfriend so I'd be pretty fuckin upset. Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf? They're the same people, but in the hypothetical situation my bf WASN'T my best friend, I would absolutely forgive neither of them. I'd never speak to their asses again, quite frankly. Are you mad at your significant other? No, I have no reason to be. Have you ever had a UFO sighting or a sighting of strange lights in the sky? A strange light, absolutely. I'm not saying it was extraterrestrial in origin, but it was absolutely weird and I don't have an explanation for it after researching. What by your definition is the naughtiest thing you have done? Done "things" on furniture we shouldn't have. What is one thing you’d never want your parents to find out? HA, that ^ Would you rather have big or small dogs? I'm usually more drawn to big (or medium-sized) dogs, but I don't really want a dog, period. Do you like your first name? Yeah. Do you wear glasses? Yes, I FINALLY have glasses again. I don't like wearing them, but god is it good to see. Who is the boy you trust most? Calling a nearly 30 y/o man "boy" is weird to me, but w/e, Girt. Which girl do you trust the most? Mom. How many times have you been engaged (if any at all)? None. What do you think of the United States? Lol we fucking suck, and I say that with great confidence. It feels disgusting to even be an American. Is the United States really the best country in the world? HELL no. I don't know which country is, but it sure as hell isn't here. Have you ever been called something and you didn’t know what it meant? I sure have; at the time I didn't know "martyr" had a modernized definition when I was called this by one of Jason's friends, and I AGREED with him because I thought he meant it in (I believe) the original way, where I'd die for what I believe in. It's humiliating to remember with how it must've made me look. It was actually after this event that Jason full-on deleted and blocked me there on Facebook. Do you have a picture of you and your lover kissing? No, actually. I think like two pictures exist of us both in the frame, and that's not one of 'em. Do you think you will/did you cry at your graduation? I shed a couple tears. What’s your second favorite color? Maroon or coral, idk. Do ever wish you lived in a different country? Oh yes. Have you ever been involved in an affair? No. Are you a parent? No. What about an uncle or an aunt? I am. How many jobs have you had? Technically three, but two were so short-lived I barely even count them. Hell, saying I've even had a single job is hardly accurate. Do you remember when you first went on the internet? No. What was the last music video you watched? Did you like it? "Ausländer" by Rammstein, and I did enjoy it. All of their videos are always great. Have you ever had a pet turtle before? So as a kid, a red-eared slider (an invasive species, just to make this worse) wandered into our yard... aaaaand I kept it in our kiddy pool. I did eventually let it go where the turtle most likely did come from (a pond down the road), but that whole situation is something to NEVER repeat. Have you ever met someone with two different color eyes? Yes, a doctor recently! It was even cooler because he was African American, straight outta Gambia actually, and one was this GORGEOUS, deep blue, and the other the traditional brown. He was awesome. Have you ever felt like someone was following you? YES. I have an EXTREME phobia of people standing behind me, I don't care how far away they are. DO NOT fucking stand behind me because I start panicking that you're going to grab me. Have you ever made out with more than one person in one night? No, that's not something I'd be okay with doing. Do you think there is a soulmate out there for everyone? I don't believe in the concept of soulmates, no. If you have any piercings, who did them? I know Claire's did my earlobes the first time and probably the second, then everything else I ever had were done by actual professionals at tattoo parlors. Please do not get your kid's ears pierced at Claire's for a number of reasons. Are you on your period? No; I'm actually like over a month late, but it has to be because I, first off, fucked up my birth control, but my meds have also been changing a lot and stuff and that can really affect your cycle. I'm not worried because Girt and I still haven't gone ~that far~ yet so being late literally can't mean anything that bad. Have you made out with anyone in the last 2 weeks? Yeah. Has a boy ever called you babe/baby? Yeah; I know Jason said one of them once, but I'd asked him to not call me it again and he never did again. I know Tyler did too, and once again, told him not to. Girt is the only one that has where it didn't REALLY make me uncomfortable, but neither to this day is my preference, so I'm thankful he doesn't use either a lot at all. Have you given anything up for Lent? I know I'd tried as a kid, but that was the extent of it. I don't think I ever succeeded any year. Have you ever gotten kicked out of a class for being disruptive? No. Do you have a good friend of the opposite sex that is not a boy/girlfriend? Yes, Sam. If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else would they be mad? Well yeah, and he'd have the right to be. Who was the last person you knew to have a baby? Uhhh... idk, I know so many people having kids around this time. Hell, most are onto their second. Has anyone ever cheated on their significant other for you? What Joel did was absolutely cheating, yes. What’s the age difference between your parents? Two years and a few months. What’s the nicest thing your best friend has ever said to you? Just that he loves me, ig would be the top. He's said a lot of sweet things. Name one of your favourite foods that starts with the letter "s." Shrimp. Ever had surgery? Yes, twice. Can you handle blood? Yeah. What’s your best friend’s middle name? He doesn't have a middle name. What color do you want your wedding suit/dress to be? It's very likely gonna be black. Would you have a party at your parent's house without their permission? I'd do that to neither parent, I respect them too much for that.

[supreme-sauteer]

All...

I know it’s a couple days late but here you go

if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to? 

Read: Yu Yu Hakusho Watch: Yu Yu Hakusho Listen to: Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 OST

have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?

Can’t really say I have yet lol. Closest person is maybe the mangaka for Medaka Box

list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

Yu Yu Hakusho: Yusuke Urameshi, Persona 3: Junpei Iori, Red vs Blue: Lavernius Tucker, Space Dandy: Space Dandy (Because I too am an unusual idiot), 

do you like your name?  is there another name you think would fit you better?

I used to not like it. buuuut I definitely couldn’t see myself with any other name now

do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?

Nah, sometimes I don’t really do a lot I tend to just be.

are you religious/spiritual?

Kind of? I’ve got thoughts on stuff but I try not to think too deeply into them

do you care about your ethnicity?

I don’t know why but this question just makes me think about that time I saw a headline about Bow Wow saying he doesn’t understand how civil rights relates to him because he’s mixed

what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

Not really sure. I don’t listen to much of what I used to listen and I don’t listen to a whole lot of stuff now.

are you an artist?

very rarely i like to draw dumb stuff that comes to mind so sure?

do you have a creed?

Fuck up a little less everyday.

describe your ideal day.

The introvert in me says having all my friends come together for a night of games (preferably fighting), food, some anime maybe, yeah.

The extrovert in me says a night on the town, playing some pool, good music, and a few drinks

dog person or cat person?

Dogs!

inside or outdoors?

mostly indoors

are you a musician?

nope lol

five most influential books over your lifetime.

The Amulet of Samarkand Series, (if manga counts) Yu Yu Hakusho, Magi, Rurouni Kenshin (pre-Hokkaido arc) uhhhh…tbh i wouldn’t say i’ve read many books i’d call influential to me.

if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?

probably not tbh.

would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?

I wouldn’t really say i hold myself back on here so i guess.

what’s your patronus?

according to that pottermore quiz, it’s a Pine Marten. Kinda underwhelming

which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?

Hands down, I’m a Slytherin lol

would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?

Pokemon world.

do you love easily?

people, no.

list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.

Video games, TV, Pathfinder, Work, Sleep.

how often would you want to see your family every year?

immediate, i’d say weekly. extended family depends on which side of the family it is lol

have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?

i’ve felt completely in sync with a few people on stuff before so sure?

could you live as a hermit?

Nah.

how would you describe your gender/sexuality?

 Heterosexual Cis Male

do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?

Yeah but I want my muscles back lol

on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?

6?

three songs that you connect with right now.

This That and Unsurprisingly This

pick one of your favorite quotes.

“Violence for violence is the rules of beasts.”

[wellthatschaotic]

1. What kind of system are you? (Describe this in any way you like. No need to use -genic or popular terms if you don't want to)

.....chaotic. very chaotic. i mean. we live up to our system name -

2. How many of you are there?

uh, 22-25 members as of now

3. How long have you known about your plurality?

since, like...late summer of last year i think? july maybe?

4. What kind of spaces/communities do you/did you hang out in? (Both plural-relevant and non-plural-relevant spaces are valid answers, past and present)

we hang out here mostly, uh...yeah this is the only place we're actually open as plural and comfortable with ourselves so (hopefully that'll change though!)

5. Had you heard of DID/OSDD/DDNOS before you became plural/discovered your plurality?

technically yes, functionally no- we'd heard of DID, but never got it explained further than "Alters Disorder(TM)" so like we didn't actually know what it was

6. Do you have a wonderland/innerworld? If so, what do you call it, and what are some things that you and your system members do there?

we do! we usually call it our innerworld (we differentiate between headspace, innerworld, and paracosm) and sometimes we go there while fronting, sometimes we watch people do dumb shit through the cafe window, sometimes people will get food from the token nameless fast food shop and come back to the cafe to slowly eat it while making eye contact with the fronter, yes chris i'm talking about you

7. What do you call your system members?

we call each other headmates, sysmates, sys(tem) members, brain roomates, dumbasses

8. If you're plural but don't use the word "system" to describe you&, what word do you use?

we use either system or collective so

9. What are some of the best things about being plural?

i got friends in my brainy parts! i always have a support system and a home and a family that comes with me wherever i go, and sure sometimes it's hard, but i wouldn't give any of my headmates up for anything. also we've met some really great people in the spaces we've come to<3

10. What are some of the not-so-great things about being plural? (Any answer is valid- nothing is too minor or too major to be an answer to this question.)

first thing that comes to mind is communication issues and memory issues...it sucks tbh. it's a lot of frustration, too- like, a lot of "should"s that don't happen y'know?

11. Do you have a spiritual or psychological view of your plurality?

some of us have a sorta psychological view? like, how our autism relates to it? but overall no, not really

12. Do you ever experience "switching" or "possession" or any sort of change in who controls the body? If so, what do you call it, how easy/difficult is it, and what is it like? Were you always able to do this, or did you have to learn how over time?

we do experience switching! it always depends on who's switching from who and everything, but it's usually pretty unpredictable/uncontrolled, unfortunately. we're trying to learn how to control it at least a little

13. How do you and your system mates relate to each other? (Are you friends, family, romantically involved, caretakers, etc.)

we have every type of relationship! we're like super blurry right now sorry but yeah

14. Have you come out to anybody in real life/in a singlet space about your plurality? How did it go?

we tried but...it didn't go as well as we'd hoped. everyone kind of just does that "oh" then brushes it off as if it'd never happened.

15. What kinds of forms and appearances do your system members take on?

most of us aren't human, so there's a lot of uhhh variety. we make a lot of picrews dlfjskld

16. What are you and your system members interested in?

chris just said "men" and eli said "same" so

17. What is your life like in the meatworld?

it's getting better, actually! we do got the metnal ilness (/ref) but it's not quite as bad as it used to be :)

18. What are your music tastes? Movies? Favorite colors? Animals? List any other favorites as well

uhhhh our music taste is all over the place, most of us like cavetown/IDKHBTFM, isla likes some songs from the oh hellos & the paper kites, so yeah. not really pop music but hey it's good music.

i think we all know yelena's favorite movie, ,,

eli's here and his favorite color is orange, i know edyn's is like an ice-blue, emily's is red, yeah i won't name them all though

all animals are hella cool

19. Does your system have a host/original? If so, what do you call them? Explain what role they play in your system

nope

20. Do any system members have notable relationships outside of the system? Explain them!

nope not really

21. If you haven't been plural for your entire life/haven't known about your plurality until later in life: what was life like before plurality compared to life now?

it was more...lonely, almost. we didn't know about the friends in our head and we didn't have any communities to relate to

22. If you chose to become plural: why? What has changed since then?

n/a

23. Is there anything you'd like to say to the plural community at large?

y'all are hella awesome, no matter your -genic label or functioning or whatever, i hope you have a fabulous day (and like. maybe stop caring about other systems labels too. it really doesn't matter)

24. Is there anything you'd like to say to any singlets reading this post?

PLEASE ask questions! please!! ask!! if there's anything you're confused about or would like to know or are just plain curious, ask!! i promise it's not bothersome or offensive!! it's so much more stressful to get an "oh ok" than to get a question, honestly!

Sysmeds should not get to write the narrative about us on this platform!

Scrolling through the tags, it seems like a great deal of what's said about us on tumblr is either sysmeds trying to make us look bad or all-encompassing plural blogs that just say everyone is valid (which is great! and these blogs should keep doing what they're doing! but it would be nice to have some more frequent endo (and other) representation on here too!)

Either my tumblr algorithm just sucks major balls, or most endos, tulpas, spiritual systems and other non-sysmed-approved systems get scared off of this platform because of how many loud hateful voices there are compared to how few people there are who we can relate to. (like most of the cool-looking accounts i can relate to that i find are dead and so is my blog for the same reason lol).

SO! Let's do a thing. If you are endogenic, parogenic, a tulpamancy system, a spiritual system, a daemien, or any other kind of system that sysmeds try to silence, reblog this post with answers to these questions to tell tumblr what our lived experiences as plurals are REALLY like!

(Feel free to pick and choose which questions you want to answer, or just come up with your own and tag them under #endovoices or substitute endo for whatever kind of system you are! Also, feel free to just reblog with one answer at a time, or to just answer the questions in a standalone post; no need to credit me, I just want more systems sharing their experiences!)

1. What kind of system are you? (Describe this in any way you like. No need to use -genic or popular terms if you don't want to)

2. How many of you are there?

3. How long have you known about your plurality?

4. What kind of spaces/communities do you/did you hang out in? (Both plural-relevant and non-plural-relevant spaces are valid answers, past and present)

5. Had you heard of DID/OSDD/DDNOS before you became plural/discovered your plurality?

6. Do you have a wonderland/innerworld? If so, what do you call it, and what are some things that you and your system members do there?

7. What do you call your system members?

8. If you're plural but don't use the word "system" to describe you&, what word do you use?

9. What are some of the best things about being plural?

10. What are some of the not-so-great things about being plural? (Any answer is valid- nothing is too minor or too major to be an answer to this question.)

11. Do you have a spiritual or psychological view of your plurality?

12. Do you ever experience "switching" or "posession" or any sort of change in who controls the body? If so, what do you call it, how easy/difficult is it, and what is it like? Were you always able to do this, or did you have to learn how over time?

13. How do you and your system mates relate to each other? (Are you friends, family, romantically involved, caretakers, etc.)

14. Have you come out to anybody in real life/in a singlet space about your plurality? How did it go?

15. What kinds of forms and appearances do your system members take on?

16. What are you and your system members interested in?

17. What is your life like in the meatworld?

18. What are your music tastes? Movies? Favorite colors? Animals? List any other favorites as well

19. Does your system have a host/original? If so, what do you call them? Explain what role they play in your system

20. Do any system members have notable relationships outside of the system? Explain them!

21. If you haven't been plural for your entire life/haven't known about your plurality until later in life: what was life like before plurality compared to life now?

22. If you chose to become plural: why? What has changed since then?

23. Is there anything you'd like to say to the plural community at large?

24. Is there anything you'd like to say to any singlets reading this post?

That is all I've got for now, but feel free to add any more you want to share! Please remember to be respectful to all system types if you post, I do not support bashing or invalidating of any system types. I will also reblog with my own answers soon.

(Note: these questions are not in order of priority or importance, I just wrote them down as I came up with them. Feel free to answer out of order and skip or add whatever you want!)

Also this should go without saying but making any rude sysmeddy responses to this will just result in being blocked and totally ignored, so don't even start, there's no point. The block button is right there.

Have fun everyone!

[itsybitsylemonsqueezy]

12 & 149 for the asks.

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Uhhhhh, fuck, good question. Good fucking question. I have actually been at a loss for music and new songs recently ^^; So, we’ll see what happens with this list.

“They That Go Down to the Sea in Ships” - Herbert Sumsion (If that sounds like a Bible verse, it’s because it is. Look, I heard this song on the radio, it captivated me, it’s FUCKING GREAT and I have a MAJOR WEAKNESS for choral music, so... just fucking listen, it’s great.)

“Everybody’s Lonely” - Jukebox the Ghost (Making a HUGE genre switch, this has also been on my radio a lot. It’s super catchy and I enjoy the meta aspects of it. I always love it when pop goes meta. So there’s that. It’s mostly just great to belt out in your car when you’re going somewhere.)

“Dare You to Move” - Switchfoot (Which I just thought of the other day for good Midoriya/Todoroki feels. Still haven’t found a good Kirishima/Bakugou song, but I'll find one, I’m sure.)

“Hello Seattle (Remix)” - Owl City (Getting slammed with a wave of nostalgia and embarrassment, I gotta admit, I’ve been jamming to this in my car a lot on an ancient CD I rediscovered. This is also a good driving song, so... y’know. There’s that.)

“Five Variants of “Dives & Lazarus”’ - Ralph Vaughn Williams (There’s like a 5 way tie for this last slot of songs I’ll actually STILL be drooling over years from now. Recessional, Wish That I Was Sober, Little Lion Man, My Love, Eschaton... but I gotta be a nerd and go with this because I always forget it’s in my playlist and then it comes on and I”m just “Holy fucking shit, how did I forget this song exists?” Like... WHY do I even listen to anything else? This is it, this is the best song. I have finally found the Best Song guys, the music is over, we did it. It isn’t, but... you get the point. So bookending with some heavy, spiritual shit, good times)

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Uhhhh... I mean, no, not really. See, the problem I have with ghosts is you never hear of any NICE ghosts do you? Leaving Casper aside, there’s no helpful ghosts or guardians. At best you might get a neutral ghosts and honestly if there were more neutral ghosts, I’d be behind the idea that spirits did roam around in the liminal space between this reality and... whatever fucking else there is. But no, most ghost stories, the kind that stick around for generations especially, are all based around violence and trauma. The ghosts are vengeful, mad, or in pain. And I don’t hold with a theory that is only a punishment, either keeping those souls in purgatory to suffer forever, or as a warning and reminder to all of us, lest we forget. I don’t jive with any idea of an afterlife that is purely negative or is more focused on punishment or judgment than, y’know, just... fucking rest or whatever. 

If there is an afterlife and if there is a way to make contact between this reality and that, I’d expect a lot more positive ghosts. Many, many more people have died who lived good or at least normal, average lives. And they aren’t haunting shit. So, either ghosts exist as a form of purgatory, which just seems cruel, or we’ve all hyped ourselves so much that we’ve fooled ourselves into BELIEVING these sites of horror contain spirits as a mass psychological phenomenon. And, dude, the placebo effect is REAL, you ABSOLUTELY can believe something so hard it’s real to you. I think people who say they’ve had an experience are telling the truth. Would I have the same experience? Maybe! Some of the places you find ghosts are pretty fucking awful and I’d probably react. Would I chalk it up to supernatural causes? Probably not. Could I know for sure tho? No. But it still bothers me that there isn’t a positive counterweight, that people aren’t comforted or helped by ghosts at the same rate or the same magnitude that people are terrorized by them. That, to me, suggests psychological phenomenon over divine system of judgment. And if it IS divine system of judgment, I will be SO GODDAMN PISSED and be HAVING WORDS with the people in charge when I die. Because THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT YOU FUCKING BIASED ASSHOLES?!

And, now, to be as open-minded as I can, MAYBE there are good ghosts, but their goodness is so small, we don’t recognize it for what it is. Maybe they’re the last second reminder of that thing you forgot before you leave the house. Maybe they’re a shadow in your room, keeping you company, but we don’t know how to communicate with them so we get scared or mistake their intentions. Maybe they ARE helping in small ways all the time and we’ve just never known. That’s also possible. Because I sure as fuck don’t know what’s happening.

But, for my money, and as far as this pertains to my personal sense of faith, no I don’t believe in ghosts because I don’t believe in an afterlife of any description. When I really understood what death was, it was so goddamn permanent to me, the actual physical atoms of it, that I thought there’s no way to preserve me. There’s no way my me-ness passes on, except through the people who remember me. When I confronted death, that’s what I saw. But that’s not, necessarily, what anyone else sees or should see. If that is not the truth that works for you, that’s fine. It was my truth. But that, down to brass tacks, is why I don’t believe in ghosts. I think once you’re dead you’re dead, and we do our best to remember you, but that’s all that stays here. There is beauty and sorrow in that. But I think, mostly, it’s kinder than if you were trapped in eternal torture or doomed to not interact as you once did. Perhaps it is better that we get all or nothing. I try to think of it that way at least ^^;

[elddansurin]

so i there’s a pretty good OC meme floating around, and i took the liberties of filling out the entire thing myself because let’s be real here, i’d like to see any of you try and stop me. i filled it out for serras bc that greasy boy could use more love

Personal

1)      Age? I've never pinned down an exact age for him. Early- to mid-30s, is the vibe I'm feeling. 2)      Gender? Male 3)      Romantic/Sexual Orientation? There's a safe bet that if it's a character I've made, he's gay. It applies here. 4)      Height? I want to say at or around 6 foot even. 5)      Race? Dunmer 6)      What do they look like? Black sclera, some self-applied scars over his brows, and a lot of haphazard piercings he also did in front of a mirror. Serras is tall and sorta lanky, but moreso in an underfed way, as opposed to someone like Gavriil who is Just Like That. When he's living more stable-like, Serras can actually put on some healthy weight, but he's never been too shredded. I feel like if he ever really settled down, he might start going a bit flabby around the midsection. 7)      Any disabilities? Nothing physical. 8)      Is there a meaning to their name? In canon, no. His dad thought it sounded nice. I, on the other hand, borrowed his name from a neopet. 9)      What makes them, them? Interestingly enough, it's in how much of himself is borrowed from other people. He's never really learned how to be just Serras. Most of his opinions are other peoples' opinions, the bulk majority ofc being his father's, but a few of his old friends have also impacted him (mostly in the way he currently talks). And, naturally, he picks up some of Gavriil's mannerisms with time. If you asked him to boil down who he really was, outside influences aside, he'd probably have some kind of crisis. 10)   What do they want to be when they grow up/what do they want to do with their lives? He genuinely has no idea, and it's a source of constant background anxiety for him. He doesn't really know what his talents or ambitions are aside from petty crime and living day to day. He does his absolute best to just... not think about it.

Family

11)   Do they have parents? What are they like and how do they act with their child(ren)? His mom's been out of the picture since he was a newborn, but he has a super tight relationship with his father. And by that, I mean ridiculously codependent. They love each other and get along very well, but their relationship is not healthy, and Serras has only recently become aware of that. 12)   Do they have siblings? How do they interact with them? If not, do they wish they had siblings? He has a few half-siblings whom he has never met and is unaware of (via his mother, who is absolutely still kickin).  13)   Extended family? Do they see them often? Plenty, but the only one he has ever met is his maternal aunt. They keep in touch and are on good terms, and she was the one who gently suggested he should try and learn to live on his own. 14)   Do they like where they live? (Is it a safe place?) He doesn't really know any better. He's spent his entire life on the move and has rarely lived in a single place for more than a few years at a time. He and his father were constantly moving around western Morrowind and eastern Skyrim with no real rhyme or reason, and now for SOME reason, Serras has a hard time setting down roots. 15)   Where do they live? Are they wealthy? Poor? Middle-Class? In theory, his home is outside of Mournhold, where his dad lives in a small hovel. In practice, he lives out of a tent. But it works for him. By which I mean he's used to it. 16)   Do they have a lot of expectations/pressure on them from family to do great? His dad put absolutely no pressure on him and barely disciplined him at all. Serras will bend over backward to make his dad happy because he loves and respects the man, but he has a serious, serious issue with any other authority figure (or anyone he perceives as an authority figure). He's either very afraid or outright contemptuous of anyone with power over him. 17)   Do they have pets? He's had a ton of pets, from cats to nix puppies to pony guar. They tend to either get left behind during hasty moves, or "run away" when his dad gets tired of having them around. 18)   Who do they look up to the most/are the closest to in their family? Undoubtedly, his father.  19)   This there anything special about their family? His family has (or had) strong ties to House Indoril and the Tribunal Temple, back when that was the sort of thing that mattered. But his father was outcasted and went so far as to drop their family name entirely out of sheer spite, and Serras has only the vaguest understanding of his family history. 20)   Do they wish they lived in a different family/household? He just wishes things were more stable.

Friends

21)   Best Friend(s)? Gavriil, who also holds the title of being His Only Friend. In Serras's eyes, Gav's this hypercompetant dude with an intimidating level of education and experience, nevermind that he's also an emotionally damaged drifter. Serras has a habit of downplaying the negative attributes of the people he admires, see. 22)   Who was their first friend? A little Argonian boy from back when he and his dad were living in Windhelm for a year or two. He'd have been 10 or so. 23)   What is their friend group like? Sparse! 24)   Do they have a love/hate relationship with any of them? Learning far more toward the former than the latter 25)   Do they consider any of their friends to be like siblings? I'm going to say no, for two reasons. One is that Serras is painfully very much an only child and has no concept of what having siblings would be like, and for two, he has a very hard time keeping things platonic when he finds someone who will put up with him for more than a few hours. 26)   Have they ever hurt a friend or lost one? He never sets out to intentionally hurt the people he loves, but it happens. And he's lost quite a few friends, for a number of reasons. 27)   Do they have a crush on any of their friends? Take a good guess. 28)   Do they share classes with good friends? I'm going to be a smart ass and say he's more of a rogue while Gavriil is clearly a mage. So no. 29)   Whom do they go to the most when they need a shoulder to cry on? His immediate gut reaction is to cry to dad, but he's conscious of that and trying to reel it in. His next reaction is to bottle it up, because that never backfires horribly. Or if it's just something small and petty, he'll complain to Gav. 30)   What would this person do without their friends in their lives? Serras Does Not Do Well on his lonesome. That's the nicest way of putting it.

School

31)   What grade are they in? If they aren’t in school, how come? Dude's never spent a single day in any sort of classroom. 32)   Do/Did they like their teachers? Was there a good one? Bad one? His one and only teacher was his father, who, best efforts aside, was not very good at being a teacher. Case in point: Serras is functionally illiterate and I doubt he'd be able to read much beyond a third grade level. 33)   Do/Did they listen to their teachers or are/where they goofing off a lot? As a kid, he had no interest in learning from books and was way more interested in working with his hands (which is how he got so good at general outdoorsman skills). Now that he knows how uneducated he is, he desperately wants to learn and be taught but is too embarrassed to figure out how to start. 34)   Are/Where they a good student grade wise? I feel like he'd be a solid B-C student. 35)   Do/Did they need extra help? All things being equal, he'd have been a pretty average student. Now, well, he has a lot of catching up to do. 36)   What is/was their school like? Slapdash and improvised. 37)   Do/Did they have bullies in school? That would imply a lot more social interaction than he actually had as a kid. For a significant part of his childhood he was very sheltered in the most literal sense of the word. Even when he did start being socialized a bit more freely, his dad would have fucking immediately shut that shit down if he thought his baby was getting made fun of. 38)   Have they ever gotten into a fight at school? He fucking absolutely would have, given the opportunity. He's too scrappy for his own good. 39)   Have they ever done something stupid/embarrassing at school? Well, he was pretty socially maladjusted for the first... what, two-thirds of his life? It's inevitable. 40)   How far do they plan to go with school? If they dropped out, do they want to go back? He absolutely does want to further his education by some means. If nothing else, he wants to learn how to read gooder.

Other

41)   Are they dating anyone? Do they want to date? Are the married? Divorced? He's in a constant state of getting crushes on anyone who's nice to him. However, his track record with relationships is uhhhh not great. That said, yes he does want to date. 42)   What is their favorite hobby? Do they keep it a secret? He loves- absolutely loves- pickpocketing and other petty crime. It's just his thing. 43)   If they could have one thing in life, what would it be? Emotional stability. 44)   Do they work? If so, what is it? If not, are they looking for one or even want one? He's never been able to hold down a stable job in his life, and he certainly doesn't know what he wants to do. He's had a few laborer-type jobs, and none of them lasted for more than a few weeks. Dude just couldn’t cut it in that kind of environment. 45)   Do they use social media? He lives out of a fucking tent. 46)   Have they ever been in the hospital? Dude gets beat up a lot, so yeah. 47)   Do they believe in the supernatural, that there is more than the eye can see? For someone who lives in a world with literal gods and actual ghosts, his beliefs are unspecified and undecided. His father stopped worshipping before he was born, and so Serras doesn't know what to do with himself, spiritually speaking. At this point, it doesn't bother him and he doesn't care. 48)   What do they do when they get angry, stressed, or upset? When upset, he fidgets, talks too much, engages in a lot of self-touch gestures, etc. When that ramps up, he shuts down and starts bottling up. When that stops working, Bad Times Ahoy. 49)   Would they consider themselves as a good person, bad person, or morally grey? He views the world in pretty black and white terms, morally speaking. He's killed before, so he considers himself to be a bad person. Though the only lives he's taken were in 100% self defence, he sees that as being as bad as regular murder, so he tells himself he would be alright with unprovoked killing. He's never done it, but he tells himself this. On the flip side, anyone he's arbitrarily deemed as Morally Good will almost always stay that way, regardless of their actual motives or actions. Like I said, he's very good at excusing the negatives of the people he likes/cares about/idolizes. 50)   Does this OC have any part of you in them? (I.e, personality traits, similar background, etc). I've based a lot of younger-me in him. The maladjusted weirdo who doesn't know who he's supposed to be, who doesn't know how to be his own person. It's a weird, awkward stage to be in, and that's how I've envisioned Serras. Drifting, alone, in a transitional period of his life between a stunted beginning and potential character growth. Will he get there? That remains to be seen. Also, some other stuff, but you know. Spoilers. Ask me this again after I post chapter 13 and I’ll get more specific.

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

Fanfic Asks

Found here: https://itsreallylaterightnow.tumblr.com/post/615345458657771520/

1. who is the hardest character for you to write? Oh gods, it's gotta be Gar. I don't do the Spontaneous Goofy Silly thing. I just have absolutely no idea how to write a goofball because I really don't connect to Being a goofball whatsoever, especially one who's So Totally Opposite of myself. Although, if OCs count, it might also be Kary, because she's also spontaneous, but she's pretty rage-y about it and has a VERY sour attitude towards strangers, she's totally silly and teasing around friends, flirty around cute people-- she just takes a lot of energy to keep up with.

2. who is the easiest character for you to write? Dove? Does Dove count? Because she's my OC baby and I've written more for her than any other character in any universe. But if OCs don't count, it's gotta be Raven. I can write for HOURS about things like empathy, meditation, reading, the ins and outs of what emotional control does to your mind and relationships, and having A Dark Side that you're too compassionate to ever give in to. I've spent more than 15 years of my life obsessed with her, analyzing her, noticing her traits and extrapolating as much as I can based on a wealth of canon glimpses into her deeper layers. She's the character I "get" more than any other character aside from the ones that spawned from my own head.

3. How do you know if your writing is “in character”? If I can read the dialogue and hear it in their voice, I've got 'em down. c: I overanalayze a LOT about the characters: their phrasing and linguistic quirks especially, but also their actions, their motivations, their personality-- though, to be fair, Marv Wolfman did a lot of Deep Dives into what makes each character tick, which makes writing fanfic for the Titans a bit of a cakewalk. It's still tricky, especially given that I write in a sort of amalgam universe stuck between the comics and cartoon, so characterization is always a bit of a gray area. But I can generally tell if Something Is Off about a line or action. Don't always know how to fix it, though...

With only such very, very RARE exception. Some scenes are inspired by my own experience, some are inspired by other media (even if I didn't really enjoy it, if I liked a particular line of thought, a scene might sprout from that planted seed). The Final Journey was heavily inspired by a book called Toes by Tor Seidler, at least the very last part of the book.

I have no fucking idea where DDD came from though, that one honestly just spiraled way out of Dove's control, and then out of MY control, and the entire writing process was just a desperate scramble to capture her breakdown and PRAY she'd get out of all this madness alive. Yes, my own experience informed HOW to write about it, what it might feel like, but the idea for "Dove slips up So Fucking Badly she kills people"? What the HELL.

5. Do you tell the people in your life that you write fics? Everyone who's REALLY close to me knows about Dove. Some of them know about Srentha and Kary, I think few of them know about Leyla... I tell everyone I'm a writer though. And if they ask, I will proudly proclaim that I write fanfics about my original characters.

6. What has been the hardest fit for you to write? "Fic", I think that's supposed to say? But uhhhh, probably DDD. Watching Dove go through that has been... really rough. Really, really REALLY rough. (To put it into perspective, I used to write for 3-7 stories every single week. But once DDD started going downhill hard, about the time Dove's first victim happened, I became absolutely OBSESSED with figuring out how she gets out of it.

7. What fic of yours makes you the most emotional? Honestly, that depends entirely on my mood. Lovey-dovey mood? Probably either all the fluff of secretshipping, or the tragedy in Spellbound pt. II. Self-doubt and PTSD? Raven's counsel at the end of DDD. Mystical or spiritual mood? The Final Journey because of Dove being guided by Azar.

8. What is a scene you wrote that you are most proud of? Holy hells bells, the climax scene in DDD! The battle! Between a really powerful empath and a totally unhindered telepath! In a mindscape! I haven't managed to make myself really proud of the ~style~, but the CREATIVITY. The "weapons" they used! The scenery! The escalation, the drama, the consummation of everything Dove had been fighting and Raven had been fighting with her over, and then the ENDING? Gods. Writing such an abstract battle scene was a HUGE challenge, because I've never seen any precedents for it. But I really, really love the way it came out.

9. Is there one character that you refuse to write? why? ...Rrrronaldo? Not that I've done much of anything with my SU ideas, but his arrogance and Totally Missing the Real Actual Meaning of things would probably just make me angry. Come to think of it, that's also the reason I refuse to put Terra in my stories. (Aside from the fact that I would go fucking insane from trying to figure out what the HELL her mindset is alone, what's her plan, what the hell did "Things Change" mean, etc. I just can't do it for her. And I don't forgive her.)

10. When you write fics, how much of canon are you willing to ignore/skip over? Veeeery, very little. I only have Three Anti-Canon Rules in my fanfics: 1.) The Brotherhood of Evil wasn't able to break an ancient and powerful curse that took Raven A FUCKING WEEK to LEARN how to break! So Malchior can't have been released by them. 2.) Sons of Trigon was a bad fanfic and doesn't exist in canon. I absolutely 10000% refuse to acknowledge anything in that story. And 3.) We don't talk about Things Change.

11. Do you prefer to be cold or hot when you write? Oh, cold, absolutely. I've written in an 85F room with two cups of ice water and three fans before, so it's not like I can't write in the heat when I'm really inspired, but I'm so sensitive to heat that I have passed out while sitting when it was just 75F outside. But cold... Cold I can THRIVE in.

12. What is your ideal writing area? My room. Somewhere quiet, peaceful, calm, separated, and where I know I won't have people trying to read over my shoulders.

13. How do you come up with your titles? I try very, very hard and hope I've come up with something that Sounds Nice AND Makes Sense. (I'm still debating the title of "Fire and Flight: The Keys to Igniting a Pacifist Heart". 'Flight' because that's what Srentha's name means, and it's his debut story, but like.... Fire only means Devastating Things to Dove, so I'm reeeeally fighting myself on that. I love the poetry in the title! But like.... couldn't the poetry be a little less devastating? But my brain refuses to spit anything else out. And also, that Day of Fire was a pretty important plotpoint, since it's the whole reason they were separated...)

14. How do you come up with chapter titles? Usually picking something that Sounds Cool and Has Relevance to the most important aspects of the chapter. I'm still really proud of calling a chapter of DDD "Sins of the Father" BEFORE Marv Wolfman used that phrase for Raven!

15. At what point in writing a fic, do you decide to quit? Who says I quit? The only way I'll quit a fic entirely is if I don't want to write it anymore. But because of the aforementioned Curiosity and Drive to Learn about what the heck is happening in these scenes in my head, that rarely ever happens. There have been exactly Three (3) fics that I quit writing. ~ 1.) The Titans/Pokemon crossover, because I realized I had no idea what to do with a Misdreavus in Titans Tower. (That one actually got published, but then deleted in a fit of Self-Consciousness because I was convinced people would find it cringey. I really wish I'd kept it because it was a cute idea, at least... and nowadays I can think of so MANY things! I never even wrote her meeting Silkie!) ~ 2.) The shameless self-insert where comic!Raven showed up in my room one day because I realized I had no plot ideas whatsoever, I really just wanted to write about meeting Raven in an actual physical sense. ~ 3.) Misery's Company, my Ruby Gloom fanfic, because frankly that was another shameless self-insert fic, and I realized I had no idea what to do once we got Misery back to Gloomsville. And then I realized I didn't have any particular motivation to even write it THAT far. I just totally lost interest. I didn't want to write about the rest of the Gloom crew. And I utterly lost touch with the magic in the show. I couldn't write in the style that meshed so WELL with that fic anymore. It's actually still up for adoption, I just have to find someone willing to actually adopt it.

16. How much of your personal life do you put into fics? Mhhhh, only as much as is relevant. Mostly writing from experience With Situations and Feelings, though I don't insert my reactions into how others would handle their experiences. DDD probably got the most so far. Although I can't lie, I've also found myself consulting some of my own experiences when writing for Raven as well. Like what empathy feels like... but it's mainly for things like Deciding Which Descriptive Words to Use.

17. What is the most supportive comment you have gotten? Ooh, that's hard! I've gotten several good reviews that really motivated me-- they were all on fanfic.net, but maybe the one that was like "The originality is too great to be lost" on DDD? Or the review I got for the Unforeseen revamp that was like "It flows like silk" and talking about how much better it was than the original!

18. What is the most negative comment you have gotten? All the accusations of Dove being a Mary Sue? Yeah. She never WAS, but I didn't know how to write a bio about her without comparing her to Raven, so nowadays I can see why they went there.

19. How do you handle negative comments? Back then, I sent a pm and asked them to clarify. Nobody ever did... 8F But nowadays I mostly just ignore it.

20. What story that you have written makes you the happiest to re-read? Either really triumphant or really soft moments. I love the gentle moments between Dove, Srentha, and Leyla. I love the plot progression in Something Special. I love the revamp of Mystery Sickness, seeing how far my writing has come. I love reading any tender scene between Srentha and Dove. Dove's memories with her mother are so formative and important and sweet and special. I love how peacefully Dove and Srentha's marriage scene came out. There are just so many that make me happy...

I also wrote a really cute scene between Steven, Lapis, and Amethyst where they made a sort of roller coaster for him because he was banned from FunLand and that's just an adorable sweet idea, but I never fully wrote it, whoops.

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1. Hmm not really, maybe mm with Halloween cuz spooky yknow

2. Ooh haven't really played much of the 2D games but minish cap is super fun!

3. Favourite Zelda? Ohhh nooo they're all amazing, uhhhh, I think maybe tp and Albw might me my favs?

4. Ahhh heres where people start to hate me- my least fav would have to be botw- it's a good game and all I just got a bit bored of it 😅

5. Ohhh favourite soundtrack ahhhhhh I'd probably have to say oot! Also tho! The hyrule warriors songs are actually so underrated!! Oh and dont even get me started on the spirit track soundtrack! It's so good!!

6. Oh definitely majoras mask, I started it, got to the first temple, fell to the bottom of it and haven't played since- the time limit freaks me out, same with phantom hourglass! Oh and the scary trains in spirit tracks means that I stopped partway through that-

7. Fav dungeons, hmmm the forest temple in oot makes me happy, hyrule castle in both oot and albw is pretty fun too, oh oh and the tower place with the giant burger Caterpillar in albw! I love that one!! The minish cap ones were super fun too but I cant remeber much about them-

8. Most underrated game? Hmmm, honestly probably spirit tracks, I really need to actually play though all of that sometime

9. Least favourite charater in the series?? Uhhh idk, I guess tingle kinda freaks me out?

10. Fav item, hmm bow or magic rod maybe?

11. Fav ganon, ohhh defo wind waker, I actually feel bad for ww ganon

12. Sentimental value would definitely be oot, twas the first zelda game I actually finished

13. Best character designs? Maybe albw? Hilda and Irene make me very happy-

14. Hmm probably the classic master sword

15. Fav location, oot gerudo valley comes to mind, mostly for the music but also it's quite fun sneaking around and jumping the bridge with epona.

16. Lorule 😌

17. Most atmospheric.. probably botw ig

18. What game feels more mature? Hmm Twilight Princess maybe, just the dark grim vibes yknow, plus link actually looks a bit older in that one.

19. Darkest story? Probably Majoras mask, not so much the overlaying story, like yeah it's dark but its all the little stories of each character.

20. Fav 3D... oot and albw

21. Prettiest zelda game, straight up the official art for skyward sword is super pretty!! I love the water colour vibes! Albw has really pretty art aswell!! And of course theres the whole of botw aswell, it looks gorgous.

22. Favourite link, maybe toon link? But like specifically from phantom hourglass, he's very cute.

23. Spiritual Stones, I actually have necklace pendants of them! (Tho the kokeri emerald is missing which is sad cuz it's my fav)

24. Game with best weapons? Uhhh idk, I haven't actually gotten very far in them (cuz they're console games and the whole family uses the consoles) but ss and tp have some pretty cool weapons!!

25. Ooooh favourite companion! I actually have a really soft spot for navi! I love midna too tho!! Oh and of course ghost zelda from spirit tracks!!

26. Fav Handheld, defo albw cuz oot doesn't really count even tho I played the 3ds version-

27. Best title?? Uhhh idk I dont put much thought into that-

28. Most wholesome, hmm probably minish cap, its super cute!! I love the minish so much!!

29. Fav item to use? Didnt I already answer one like this-

30. Fav title theme, definitely oot!! Its a classic!

31. Hardest dungeon played, that majoras mask one, oh or the turtle one in albw, I hate that one, there was an annoying one in la aswell

32. Best map design... maybe la? It was pretty simple but nice

33. Puzzles or combat? Hmmm it depends really, I suck at both so I feel great whenever I accomplish either 😅

34. Game with hardest boss, hmm what's the hardest boss for me??? Maybe straight up ghoma in oot just cuz it freaks me out-

35. Game with hardest final boss, probably la? I think I died during that and never actually finished it- tp looks pretty hard too, and I think mc has a timer or something? Ohhh actually skyward sword looks really hard aswell, no where near that point but watched my dad do it and oomph-

36. Most engaging story to me, probably albw, it's one of the big reasons I love it 😌

37. Least fav enemy, pretty much everything in ss cuz I suck at the controls and the whole directional thing throws me off.

38. Creepiest enemy, dead hand (is that what its called, the creepy thing at the bottom of the well in oot?) And the redeads but specifically the ww ones

39. Most satisfying ending.. oooh that's a tuffy, a lot of them end pretty sadly- I think I might have to go with hyrule warriors on this one- I think spirit tracks ending is supposed to be pretty good but I haven't gotten that far yet

40. Most out of place thing in the series? Maybe those clowns in tp? Like everything's super dull and whatnot and then thwres just this giant colourful hexagon thingy??? Also that one kids shop as well in tp-

41. Ohhhhhh fav ocarina sonnngg, shit I love them all uhhh, song of storms hits really good- and I'm actually in love with sarias song aswell

42. Fave non transformation mask in mm.. gonna be real basic here and go with the bunny ears!! They're just so cute!! Plus they make you go faster!!

43. Fav transformation mask, haven't gotten that far but the zora one looks very cool!!

44. Hardest sidequest?? Uhhh ykkow those like, hey look at this photo, you need to go here to find whatever it is in botw? Yeah I hate that one. (I think it's one of the shrine ones?? Like not the sheika slate photo, those were easy to find, but there was one in one of the stables or something?)

45. Best sidequest, haven't actually played it but that one quest with that purple haired adult turned kid guy in mm seems really cool and I wanna get through mm just so I can play it-

46. Fav remake/remaster, 3ds oot!! Albw remake is really cool too tho!!

47. Most fulfilling? Probably oot, something about it just makes me really happy whenever I complete it

48. Fav graphical style... honestly probably ww- everything looks so good! Especially the swirls!!

49. Fav thing in a bottle, fairies definitely, hey have saved me sooooo many times

50. Favourite shield, gotta go with the classic oot master shield.

🌟 TLOZ asks 🌟

1. Is there a Zelda game(s) that you associate with each season or time of year?

2. Favourite 2D title?

3. Favourite incarnation of Zelda?

4. Least favourite entry in the series?

5. Favourite LOZ soundtrack?

6. Is there a Zelda game that intimidates you/looks too hard?

7. Favourite dungeons?

8. Most underrated Zelda game?

9. Least favourite character in the series?

10. Favourite item?

11. Favourite Ganon characterization?

12. Which Zelda game has the most sentimental value to you?

13. What Zelda game, in your opinion, has the best character design?

14. Master Sword, the Four Sword, Great Fairy's Sword, the Koholint Sword, or the Biggoron Sword?

15. Favourite location within Hyrule?

16. Favourite location outside of/parallel to Hyrule (Termina, Lorule, Holodrum, Subrosia, the Dark World, Labrynna, the Great Sea, etc)?

17. Most atmospheric game?

18. Which Zelda game feels most mature to you?

19. Which Zelda game has the darkest story to you?

20. Favourite 3D title?

21. Prettiest Zelda game?

22. Favourite incarnation of Link?

23. The Pendants of Virtue, the Spiritual Stones, or the Goddess Pearls?

24. Game with most impressive/useful lineup of items?

25. Favourite companion (Midna, Ezlo, Navi, etc)?

26. Favourite handheld title?

27. Game with the best title (Breath of the Wild, Twilight Princess, Link's Awakening, etc)?

28. Most wholesome Zelda game?

29. Favourite item to use (aside from the sword & shield)?

30. Favourite title theme from a Zelda game?

31. Hardest dungeon played?

32. Game with the best map design?

33. Do you prefer puzzles or combat?

34. Game with the hardest boss?

35. Game with the hardest final boss?

36. Which game had the most engaging story, in your opinion?

37. Least favourite enemy?

38. Creepiest enemy?

39. Which Zelda game, in your opinion, had the most satisfying ending?

40. Most out-of-place thing in the series?

41. Favourite ocarina song?

42. Favourite non-transformation mask from Majora's Mask?

43. Favourite transformation mask from Majora's Mask?

44. Hardest sidequest in the series?

45. Best sidequest in the series?

46. Favourite remake/remaster (Ocarina of Time 3D, The Wind Waker HD, Link's Awakening for the Switch)?

47. Most fulfilling Zelda game?

48. Favourite graphical style within the games (cel-shading, realistic, 16-bit, etc)?

49. Favourite thing to keep in a bottle?

50. Favourite shield?