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binge watched all of ramy and a scene thats been sticking with me was when ramy’s cousin shadi said that he understood why ramy was the way he was when he came to visit egypt bc now that shadi’s in the US he’s missing what he hated about being in egypt. he specifically said that he hated the adhan but now he misses it because he cant sleep since its so silent all the time and like. Yeah. that scene seemed more jokey in tone but it just struck me because he explained an experience ive been having since moving so exactly
#theres such a lack of like. Noise generally. sometimes i have to sleep with some youtube video playing whatever noise on#we didnt have central air conditioning which like. ya is a blessing#but i miss our clunky air conditioners from the 80s that constantly made noise#its like ever since i came to the us i havent been able to sleep comfortably#personal#probably will be deleted soon. just thinking#for years ive been wanting to learn how to draw places so i can put our old home down to a drawing#before i forget all the details#and i think i’ll start trying
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I would pay an ungodly amount of money for a Supernatural finale where Dean rescues Cas from the Empty and tells him he loves him too, Eileen comes back to be with Sam, and Jack chooses to live with the four of them in the bunker as a happy family.
#if someone has the contact info for whoever I would need to pay to make this happen pls send it I’ll start a go fund me#the finale we got was so bad and its only really just hitting me how bad it was#like they really said f you to all the character growth that we saw over the 15 seasons#i can’t stop thinking about it#i’ve been reading fix-it fics for 3 days straight but its just not the same#i might try and write my own fic because nothing has everything I want#destiel#supernatural#castiel#spn#dean winchester#deancas#dean x cas#sam winchester#supernatural fandom#eileen#eileen leahy#jack kline#sam and dean and cas are jack’s parents#fix it fic#sam x eileen#saileen
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I really love Jaster Mereel, the most “fine then I’ll do it myself” guy of all time. Like, after he killed his corrupt superior UHC style and got exiled for it he could’ve been on that vigilante shit. And he did come back ready for a fight- but not with a battalion, or another assassination. With a fucking entire new system of living and governing contained in a codex he wrote himself, based on ancient laws he wanted to resurrect. By all accounts he wasn’t even in academia or government before that moment, he was a cop. And the best part is he fucking managed to create a majorly consequential schism in Mandalorian society purely on the strength of having actually really good ideas in that big-ass academic magnum opus he spite-wrote. That’s some Protestant reformation shit!!!! I wonder if someone said to him during his sentencing like “you can’t just make up your own laws because you disagree with the ones we have” and he said oh word?? Insane, I love him.
#he could have stopped at some bullet points too or a manifesto would’ve worked#but bro wrote the whole book#he had THINGS TO SAY and he wasn’t going to stop at some measly hundred pages#NOBODY was doing it like him.#he said fuck you i’ll show you a government. and he fucking did#like his balls were huge but simultaneously i wonder if he even anticipated the impact it would have#martin luther nailed up those 99 theses hoping to spark debate in local academia not start a schism#mereel had to know the death watch was gonna try to kill his ass for publishing that but he did it anyway#and i wonder if it just completely took off from under him#and hey as a student of history i have to think ab what the actual societal circumstances were#that that movement was able to happen.#he must’ve been tapping into some really widespread discontent you know#jaster mereel#true mandalorians#haat mando’ade#mandalorians#mandalorian history#supercommando codex#mandalorian civil war#mandalorian culture#mine#my meta#sw
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some WIPs from the 80s AU i never finished
#so… hi#i think…. i might start making some stuff here soon#i’ve been gone a lot longer than i intended to be#& i feel a lil bad about it bc i really miss my boys & bein here & all that but#idk it’s just been a rough month#but i’m starting to get the itch to create again#i have a very silly idea for the mbz AU#i also just really want to draw some stuff#i miss making things. i’m going nuts. i’ve hardly done anything fun in WEEKS#i’ve sort of started working on some new OCs but ngl#doing anything that doesn’t involve dhes or kel genuinely feels like i’m betraying them#but i have a concept that i really want to explore so that’s what i’m trying to do#i have been working on a few AUs here & there too but#but mostly nothing fun#i need to do something fun while i still can bc i’m starting at uni next month#& i just know i’m gonna have shit for free time then#i’m taking all in person classes which makes me very nervous#i’m trying to be excited about it but mostly it’s just causing me anxiety lol#but anyway. um. yea. hopefully i’ll catch up on everything & reply to the tags/asks i’ve gotten since i’ve been gone#if i reply to something you said/sent to me a month ago… pls just act like that’s not weird. thanks.#rainyrambles
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valgrace except leo schemes with everyone and their mother to throw jason a bonfire party with close friends and family. they sit snuggled close to each other, curled into one another’s side as everyone shares stories about and first impressions about the son of jupiter.
annabeth mentioned how she threatened him with her dagger at first, piper and their mist filled memories, thalia with baby jason antics that had her hair turn gray at a young age.
after the night ended and they all go their separate ways, leo and jason snuck out somewhere else to share a kiss under the stars.
leo's first impression of jason was how beautiful he really is and seeing him made him believe in love at first sight.
#valgrace#jason grace#leo valdez#hoo#pjo#heroes of olympus#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#fic#my writing#in honor of jacey grace’s birthday#i love him guys#i love him forever#i also might do valgrace week#perhaps#maybe#i’m thinking about it because i’m freaking busy like all week#and i start class on wednesday#i’ll try to do one or two prompts if anything
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Ko-Fi Commissions! ✨🍒👗
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Bringing back the Character Cards for just a SHORT time- they’ll be closing on the 20th, so get ‘em while you can!
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#want to try out some new things in feb so I figured I’d bring back the classic to start the new year#I’ll also try to set up more ko-fi member goals and goods bc I know I’ve been slacking on it#I really do like making the palettes tho! think I’ll try out zines or small comics next#as always thanks for all the support! ✨#hope your new year is treating you nice!
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Food for thought. Maybe off topic, but I was military. You’re known by title and last name so often in an environment like that, and I feel that might be similar in a collegiate environment? I find Emmrich’s insistence on being called by his first name when joining the Veilguard so endearing.
Like yes, he’s Professor Volkarin there at work, at his job. But here comes Rook and the Veilguard and from the start he wants to engage as equals. Not be some outside aide or expert they’re calling on from the Mourn Watch. He’s a part of this, and desperate for connections outside what he’s known as. He’s trapped by the dressings of esteemed professor in his home. Maybe that’s a reason he never found that true love.
Think of the prestige of his position, the rarity of corpse whispering, his distaste for nobles. It’s likely some Nevarrans have tried to use him and his desire for intimacy and romance to advance their own interests. No wonder he’s deep in the Shrouded Halls doing work alone. My exceedingly rich uncle would bemoan that he never knew if someone was really his friend, if they really liked him, or if they just wanted his resources and wealth and material he had to offer. He was ruined by desperate loneliness.
Apply that to everything Emmrich has to offer Nevarrans and the Mourn Watch, he’s a necromancer on the path to something as rare as lichdom. Are his peers real friends? Can they be real love? Has he had any real connection or was he the gifted orphaned that was taken advantage of young and detached as the reality of his situation settled?
Maybe I need to go over the dialogue more. But you’ll note Hezenkoss even calls him Volkarin (and you’ll note he calls her Johanna, he’s reaching out), and that makes sense, my old military friends still default to my last name. It’s familiar and dropping the title was comfy enough. But when you’re only known by that title and last name? When you never hear your name like it’s love?
Sure he joined the Veilguard because of what he has to offer, but on this team everyone is bringing unique and vital skills to the table, he’s not alone. And he wants to be just Emmrich. What a breath of fresh air it must’ve been to be truly seen and eventually known. No wonder he can fall so hard so fast for Rook. He finally gets to be Emmrich. Not the Professor.
#emmrich volkarin#dragon age the veilguard#emmrook#dragon age#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#datv#emmrich x rook#likely been said before but I’ll say it again because I love this character#kudos to the Veilguard writers for having him stress that at the start#think it reveals plenty on his current situation#ramble ramble ramble this lonely man deserves therapy and love#I ain’t giving it lol bring on lichdom#young Volkarin fic where he’s trying desperately to navigate the noble world in search of true love#they just want a corpse whisperer#again and again and again until he detaches and makes a skeleton son
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pajamas gay boooiissssssssss SOCKS-
#I THINK I DIDNT POSTED THIS ONE HERE ISNT IT???#I think I’ll start posting only the ones are worth posting aka most recent ones lmao#it’s very hard to keep track of old drawings bc idk how to organize myself bc AUTISM#or adhd idk what it is anymore#ANYWAYS ILL KEEP POSTING FROM THIS DRAWING FORWARD#ILL TRY MY BEST TO KEEP TRACK HHHHHVGFJFG#this is from December of 2023 btw lol#art#my art#fanart#digital art#digital fanart#luca fanart#luca pixar#luca paguro#alberto scorfano#alberto luca#luberto#gay#pride month#luca disney#luca movie#luca x alberto#alberto x luca#luca#lgbtq#autism be autisming#btw if you want me to post a drawing here that I’ve forgot to post you can let me know <3#gay gay homosexual gay
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enmi gintoki…………… orz
#bfy altered my neurons entirely that movie is actually crack made for me specifically#THE ANGST IS SO SO SAD. BUT SO SO GOOD#i’ve had these for soooo long but i just forgot to post them lmao#i think about him. a lot. Too much#enmi gin appeals to the part of my brain that thinks markings (smtiii remnant) and bandages are fucking cool#i LOVEEEE THIS DESIGNNNNNN ACK#it makes me feels so. hngh#his faint smile when he’s finally beaten and is near the end. someone wants me dead#fun fact though i couldn’t take them saying virus seriously bc of the fucking ill smith episode#i’ll be trying to listen to plot but everytime they mention viruses i start giggling incessantly#anyways#BE FOREVER YOROZUYA RUINED MY LIFE AND IM VERY GRATEFUL FOR THAT#sakata gintoki#be forever yorozuya#yorozuya yo eien nare#gintama#ok bye
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I went and stood in front of a judge who said congratulations and got my name changed. Now I have to wait two weeks for my social security appointment before I can change my ID or passport, but I did the first step!
#ramblies#my beloved was really trying to hype me as I left the house and I’ll probably be excited later but right now I’m just exhausted and loopy#two days of early mornings are starting to tell and I’m out of it#I went right to the DMV thinking I could get seen quickly since it’s the asscrack of dawn but I have to do social security first booo#my last class of the semester is today and I have to help tear down our team space and I’d like to unsubscribe from activities today
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you know when you’re about to fuck, and they push their dick right up against your hole?… Now imagine that’s the exact moment they get a tickle in their nose. (And boy it’s obvious!. Their nostrils start to flare, twitch and wiggle, just as quickly their hands move from their dick to their nose).
#I’ll leave the rest to your imagination…#But tonight I’m thinking they fiddle with their nose trying to stop the tickle#But they loose that fight and break into a rapid fit as their dick jumps and jolts against my pussy#Only to have them apologise… “sorry#But I really think this is an endlessly sexy scenario and I’ll feel differently tomorrow 😈#snz thoughts#snzfucker#snz scenario#nsft snz scenario#Bonus points if they start saying sorry through hitches as the tickle builds 😳
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Get Haunted
#this is OLD#I was briefly obsessed w ghost Draco#so I’ll b posting more prob lol#as I clear out my iPad#still into it honestly#ohhh how he would pester#I imagine like him having a really reactive face#like dramatic#like he’s got big anime eyes when he says shit like this but#if he gets sad or rejected he melts into sludge like howl#or disappears and shrinks#or like when he thinks abt his situation he gets Wretched and bleeds more#or gets distorted angry like more rage than a normal human face is rigged to express#his hair emotes like studio ghibli#he squish-and-streches#anyways#good luck on your (tortured) enemy to lovers to Orpheus arc Harry#I believe in you !#blood is the colour of my true loves hair unu#he says reaching out to try and touch#yeah and who’s fault is that Harry?#cosmically let’s go with Voldemort#harry potter#draco malfoy#drarry#draco x harry#harry x draco#hpdm#hp fanart#in fact here we can trace back the origins of my obsession w green pink colour palette which endured when I started drawing again
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thought about rook de riva and viago potentially growing up together maybe a decade or so apart and now i’ve been randomly cracking up all day because i keep thinking about the absolute nightmare that must have been teenage viago de riva
#i just try to think about him without facial hair and im already laughing#viago the kid who CHOSE to be a crow. oh i bet they hated him in there#i cant think abt it seriously i’ll start having emotions but otherwise it’s very funny#viago de riva
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Quick wip of a photo study….
#Thinking about this animal again#I like them a lot :-]#Trying to get more confident posting Bad art and things in this account…. Or at leadt#Things that aren’t all the way finished /polished . Because it makes me scared…#So I might start posting wips of things I’ll post on my side accounts here#Wip#jbird’s art
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Has anybody started an effort to create an archive of Runawaysiren940’s videos? I’ve already seen gendies wanting to get her videos/channel taken down because that’s obviously the appropriate way to respond to a young woman’s death.
#I’d like to help out if somebody’s started an effort#and if nobody has maybe I’ll see if I can try?#the best thing I can think of is a Google drive#and maybe a Google doc with all her video titles so people can ‘sign up’ to upload certain videos#I just really don’t want to see her work disappear because gendies can’t handle opposing views#she was so intelligent and her videos were not only a valuable resource for radfems#but also a valuable resource for those who disagreed with her but had open minds#on the video announcing her death I saw a few comments that basically said ‘I disagreed with her but this is sad’#she reached all kinds of people#runawaysiren940
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I decided to start talking about Wick and Rocky's relationship because I like their dynamics too, I like seeing Wick scared of Rocky and Rocky being aggressive with him, which is unusual because Rocky is rarely aggressive with anyone, but of course Wick is an exception to rule
Also my mini opinion about their possible relationship, I think that if Rocky didn't have to fight for his place, then he and Wick could become friends, or at least tolerate each other a little, I also see some superficial similarities, their gentlemanly and romantic natures, and their common love for explosions (remembering the quarrymen chapter), but this is my assumption, I think that I don't understand the characters' personalities well, so I can be wrong in this assumption, something like that. So, what do you think about their relationship?
for starters, i cannot thank you enough for this ask! as i’ve said previously, i have many thoughts on these two, so it’s nice to finally be able to share some of them. although given the extent to which i think about them, i apologize in advance if this is sloppy and sort of everywhere … while i’ll try to structure things the best i can, i cannot promise i’ll succeed! but hopefully this is an enjoyable reply nonetheless.
one of my favorite things about rocky and wick’s relationship is absolutely how aggressive rocky is towards the aristocrat ; he is prone to glares and cruel jokes and borderline hissing whenever the man is within his line of sight, or can be brought to a wailing-fit over the mere mention of his name from miss m’s mouth. there is a childishness to it, but a very prominent threat as well in spite of rocky’s usual incompetence. so he goes out of his way to posture around wick, readily lying and adorning himself with the gangster drapes he so badly wants to wear, in the hopes that it intimidates … will even badmouth wick’s family and make fun of his name and rock related obsession to mitzi, and so on so forth! yet all of this is very reminiscent of schoolyard bullying rather than anything too severe, though we as the audience understand rather quickly that rocky would bash wick’s head in with a tire iron if he could. ( translation : if it wouldn’t earn the tears or hate of a certain beloved mitzi may ) and it’s all very intense despite the absence of actual violence! and i understand why many fans see this as unusual for rocky and believe that it’s only wick who makes him act so aggressively, but i’d argue it isn’t really wick at all that prompts such scary reactions from him … and that rocky is a deeply angry character who’s a.) been boiling quietly for a long, long time and b.) has turned wick into a punching bag of sorts for this inner world of resentment and hurt. basically, when he’s judging the well-to-do or poking fun, his eyes don’t look at wick and actually acknowledge him as sedgewick sable ; instead this is a being, something vague and metaphorical, who threatens to upseat rocky’s permanence in the lackadaisy and steal away his savior, and he’s had a hand in the violinist’s misfortune for a long time.
obviously, rocky doesn’t think wick robbed him of his family twice over and made him homeless, but he is channeling the fear and anguish of those events into his loathing for wick, if that makes sense? it’s easier that way -- to finally have an outlet for everything bleeding inside of you, to be able to bite and claw at something without feeling conflicted or having to take personal accountability for your own mistakes … which is something that i think rocky does struggle with to a degree. he is sort of a finger pointer! his pain has to be worth something, it has to be for someone else ; spending years homeless and losing his last bit of family was for freckle, and the scrambling of his literal brain was for mitzi, and that means he can’t ever be angry with them! well, except that he is, somewhat, but he buries it deep down instead of feeling it. with freckle there is a sense of strain between them -- an air of ‘you owe me’ from rocky to freckle as he uses freckle to appease miss m, and he constantly pokes fun at his cousin too. it’s lighter than his jabs at wick, but there’s a constant pestering, a reminder of how good freckle has it : how he’s got the mom and the house and the job and the girl most notably. i don’t think rocky is intending to come across as mean, and to his credit he hardly does! but it’s rather clear to me that some part of him, some hidden and deeply hurt part, is rather indignant about taking the fall for freckle all those years ago. which he can’t understand, because how could he? he made that choice, he decided to take accountability for something he didn’t do because he loves freckle and knows it’d be so easy to believe this family tragedy was roark’s fault ; the devilish child he was, all troublesome and too broken to properly fit anywhere. so there is a disconnect born here, where rocky can’t comprehend that he’d be angry at freckle, so instead these not so great feelings are placed elsewhere and silently boil over time. and with mitzi … i don’t think he’s angry at her per se, but there is a frustrated and desperate chorus of : why him and why not me, when i’m the one out here dying for you? which is certainly unpleasant. of course, rather than allowing those feelings to be more aimed at miss m, whom he feels unloved by, he ( again! ) represses these emotions and allows them to fester into his greatest fears and fantastical complexes. i think there is a lot of other miscellaneous anger he could have towards others too … perhaps some part of him is sore upon seeing ivy’s normal lifestyle, watching her go to university and knowing that’s been taken from him. or an ache felt when hearing stories from zib and the band and how they used to travel successfully, living as nomads, and rocky is all too reminded of his similar lifestyle and how he couldn’t make it work as effortlessly. people with immense trauma are more prone to irrational anger and jealousy, to viewing everything around them as unfair and believing it’s even more unjust that so many people get to live comfortably while they’ve suffered. a situation that gets more messy when you’re someone like rocky, a man who’s willingly made choices that have harmed himself and wants to continue on with his smiling, bumbling fool of an act. he does not want to be angry, does not want to see it within himself, i think, which leads to an accidental increase of it.
all of this is to reiterate that wick is a scapegoat for rocky and nothing more. it’s why he’s rather hypocritical whenever it concerns the man. for example, it was stated by tracy that he looks down upon wick for his excessive presence at the bar, yet he appears to enjoy hanging out with zib -- who drinks just as often! he makes fun of how all wick ever talks about is rocks, when he himself is prone to poetry rambles that people find irritating or boring, and etc etc. this is also just a human nature thing, to critique someone you heavily dislike and even going as far as to belittle things you love or do in your own day to day because you just hate them that bad! but given rocky’s willingness to befriend anyone, it more so reeks of a dehumanization element. wick is every obstacle in his way, every divine force that threatens to send him packing again, so he is equal parts unnerved by wick’s presence and angry about it. it is mostly a fear response we are seeing, an emotion that’s morphed into long held resentment and anger. so his actions are extremely defensive, with him trying to push wick far away and keep him and mitzi separate, like some sort of animal attempting to ward off a threat that’s come too close to their home. despite the loaded animosity there, this hate has hardly reached its peak … but it shall only grow more intense as things continue onward i’m afraid, since as it stands ( in the comic at least ) rocky is at an all time low … and is ten times more desperate. i’d honestly say wick has become so warped in his mind’s eye that he can only strive towards ‘winning’ over the other man, because that’s all he can see anymore. i think mitzi implying that wick willingly helped her out, the intense head injury, and rocky’s fragile emotional state is exactly what pushes him towards premeditated murder in look-see. i don’t know how people perceive that arc, but to me it’s very clear that rocky actively sought to see the deaths of wes and fish that night. going as far as to lament that he’d be, “very disappointed if ( he ) dreamed them,” and purposefully luring the marigold duo away to have freckle pick them off. while you could argue that this was a smart move, in a gangster sort of sense, there’s still no denying that rocky is oddly chipper about the whole thing and is now seeking death out ; whereas before his methods of vengeance were just, well, ruining people’s livelihood but ultimately leaving them alive. this isn’t to discredit the fact that rocky is going through something! he is in a very muddled and dark place, mentally and physically, but even tracy has said that the head injury hasn’t changed rocky’s personality -- it’s only brought things to the surface.
source : q&a with tracy .
which, yeah! makes sense! head trauma can cause a person to become a wreck emotionally ( think mood swings, irritability, etc ) but it doesn’t completely morph someone either. personality changes may occur, but it’s not like you’re being rewritten entirely, you know? and given tracy’s old statement, it’s clear that ‘personality changes’ aren’t a side effect he’s suffering from. something that adds to my beginning statement, which is that rocky is a deeply angry and troubled person, more so than fans give him any credit for.
however, to touch upon your mini opinion about these two, i actually wholeheartedly agree that rocky and wick could become friends if circumstances were different. they do in fact have many superficial similarities, but one of the more prominent things they deeply share is never really belonging in the groups they frequent. this is more overt with rocky’s character, yet wick faces it too in subtle ways. the well-to-do crowd, seen through the investors, find the gentleman to be lacking in about every place imaginable ; to them he is an obsessive freak who cares too deeply for meager rocks, something they constantly mock him for, while he’s also being noticeably set apart from the rest of them … he seems younger than the investors, more excitable, passionate, and a little less experienced, and doesn’t seem to care for money or reputation as much as them either. there is a constant rubbing between him and them, where what he enjoys is seen as wrong, such as his love for the lackadaisy and his choice in paramor, a grieving widow with extremely dangerous ties. we also know that wick doesn’t have many friends at all, with the only two he has being lacy and church ( church is listed as such on his character profile, in a sort of tongue-in-cheek way ), both of whom work for or with him. they are obliged to hang around, and while they care in varying ways, they are prone to judging him just as much. honestly, it’s not shocking that wick seeks refuge at his chosen speakeasy! but even there he is rather distant from everyone else. he doesn’t speak to zib ever in the comics, nor seems all too close with viktor, ivy, or horatio … it is merely mitzi he is close to, even if he knows of the other people who work there. and, once again, wick very obviously doesn’t fit in. he is not gangster material, could never be an atlas may replacement, much less someone who could get his paws dirty in such an active way. so he has his feet in two different worlds and doesn’t know how to fit into either of them, or which one he actually wants to fit into more. i think in many ways rocky could relate -- these are two very lonely people who wish to belong somewhere and be accepted by some group or another but go about it in all the wrong ways. wick, who is too hesitant to fully commit to what he wants and is worse off for it, and then rocky, who obsessively throws himself against what he wants until he breaks every bone in his body. they also have explosives to bond over, lol, and other miscellaneous things like their taste in women i suppose … but this potential bond adds to the tragedy of lackadaisy, where we see two people who on every level should get along but we’re burdened with the knowledge that it’s an impossibility anyway, because there’s no removing the circumstance of which they’re in.
though i like to believe that despite wick’s fear of rocky, he maintains a kindness towards him regardless. i think his worries about rocky are rather surface level … he doesn’t know the boy at all, really, and thus can’t make heads or tails of him, hence him believing the lie in balderdash. so when i’m feeling particularly self indulgent, i like imagining a world where they’re forced together and sort of ‘stuck’ together ; to which rocky finally breaks and exposes his wounds to wick, in every sense of the word, and wick finally gets him. the aggression, the possessiveness of mitzi … it is all fear and desperation and a profound sadness, things he’d sympathize with. if rocky was able to explain that he loathes wick because if he saves the lackadaisy then mitzi won’t need him anymore and that it’s not fair that wick gets to so easily fix things when rocky would give his soul for his home, for her, and how wick could render every sacrifice he’s already made for naught by smoothing things over with some greenbacks and he can’t lose this, he just can’t --! … which, well, wick is too kind of a man to be able to do anything except feel awful, even though it’s not his fault at all. here we have two people who could coexist! and they should, since rocky logically can’t do every speakeasy job ( band member, rumrunner, mitzi’s shadow, also the guy who gets the money for the hooch ) by himself, just like how wick can’t save the lackadaisy with only his cash and limited booze stash. it’d be a joint cooperation, a collaboration between them, both equally important in the grand scheme of crime’s every turning wheel … but rocky’s rage and fear won’t let him see that, and likely never will. still, in scenarios where everything ends up alright for the lackadaisy and the people involved in it ( which is not how canon will go, by the way ), i fancy wick and rocky getting better within their relationship. rocky will always be prickly and quick to upset around the other man sadly, but perhaps he could see wick in a softer kind of light. or at least understand vaguely enough that he isn’t out to get rocky, so to speak. and then maybe wick learns that pancakes soothe rocky’s ire and poorly makes them anytime he wishes to talk to the man, and other fun things like that! but you should have more confidence in your character analysis skills, because you were spot on ( at least in my eyes ) about them potentially getting along if things were different. it’s certainly a fun aspect to play around with, and is important to note when discussing their relationship so you can fully understand just how warped rocky’s perspective on things are. and how unstable and traumatized he is too, of course </3 sidenote, but i also hope that throughout everything i’ve said here, or anything i’ve said before on my blog, that my love for rocky and my own sympathy for him comes across well enough. while he’s deeply flawed and i have no qualms discussing said flaws in depth, i also don’t think of him as some insane freak who’s evil at his core or anything like that. honestly, i adore analyzing him so much as a character because of how far down his issues go! he’s very well written, i’ll say, as is wick and many of the other characters, but i digress.
once more, thank you for the ask! i’ll end this here because i fear if i don’t i’ll start going in circles, since their relationship is so vast and very important for rocky in a character sense. hopefully i shed some more light on it though! i love these two to bits and pieces and i wouldn’t be half as invested in lackadaisy if their dynamic wasn’t so monumental -- at least to me.
#my asks.#lackadaisy analysis.#lackadaisy#rocky rickaby#sedgewick sable#tracy j butler#i also think rocky’s sudden taste for marigold blood is him making marigold his other scapegoat#he isn’t dealing with anything in a healthy manner and is so traumatized it’s starting to spill out of him … which is. uh. not good!!#but it sure is what’s currently happening regardless#cannot stress enough that rock is a very ill and traumatized individual who hasn’t had a single break in his life#he is constantly in stressful situations that are dangerous … and like.#when you’re constantly put in those situations you become numb. and angry. and it becomes hard to heal#or to truly connect to others … etc#i could talk in depth about rocky’s traumas and why they’ve caused this anger issue and this inner disharmony inside#because frankly there’s a lot there! and i hate to say it but people who are hurt normally show their hurt in ugly ways#especially if mentally ill … which rocky is imo#it’s just the reality of things! this isn’t me demonizing mental illness or the effects of trauma. i’m just being realistic here#someone as deeply troubled as rocky ( someone with NO outlet and whom hides his feelings from others and himself )#is bound to be. well. troubled!! his smiling facade is merely another mask he wears to cope and to be good for the people he loves#it is not … really rocky rickaby … rocky rickaby is that and the wrath and the self destruction and more#AHEM but i digress. how rocky treats wick and all that has really done wonders for understanding his character#and i truly love the wick / rocky / mitzi trio so bad. their relationships with each other is what drew me into this world#like. i am shaking them so much. the overlap!! the complexities inherit in their bonds and what that says about the individual characters!#it’s amazing truly lol like … i have had such fun thinking about them twenty four seven for the past three-ish months#anyway. anyway! i love analyzing these bitches. they can fit so much into them#and i’m rooting for wickmitzi endgame and for wick to desperately try to bond with rocky … while his bloodshot eye is twitching as we speak#lots of fun!!! lots of pain and agony too … rocky is nothing but a painful character alas. that is his nature. but that is also his appeal#and ooops i’ll shut up in the tags now i just. have a lot to say. and a lotta love to give to these two!! but uh. yeah <3 loved writing thi
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