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crying in the club | mv1
pairing: max verstappen x norris!reader
summary: how should one react when their boyfriend wins the world championship at the same time their brother loses it?
max my four time world champion!!!
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yourusername: the sun will shine on you soon baby brother!! this season was tough but you got through it âĄâĄ i love you forever (world champions are overrated anyways đ)
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user1: you are the strongest soldier here
user2: you are the reason i survived this season
user2: everytime i wanted to throw up, i thought about how you were doing, and thought you mustâve been doing much worse, thank you!
user3: youre finally free from all this âchampion battleâ talk đž
user4: you running back in forth from redbull to mclaren made my night
user5: itâs even funnier how her body language would change, in the mclaren garage she would be all gloomy but once she ran back to redbull it was arms up partying
lewishamilton: i wouldnât say alll world championships are overrated
yourusername: shut up lewis hamilton 7x world champion, arguably the best f1 driver in existence, kind, humble, handsome andâwould you like do go on a date with me?
maxverstappen1: excuse me?
yourusername: i donât know what happened max, i was i insulting him and next thing i knew i wanted him on my lap
lewishamilton: i feelâŚodd
yourusername: good odd or bad odd
lewishamilton: i canât tellâŚ
yourusername: come over to the redbull garage to find out đź
landonorris: genuinely, what the fuck is going on?
maxverstappen1: i donât know, so iâve decided to ignore it
landonorris: ignoring what ever that was, thank you đ§Ą
yourusername: say it
landonorris: say what
yourusername: say âi love youâ you emotionally stunted gremlin
landonorris: i donâtâŚ
yourusername: say it lando
maxverstappen1: yeah cmon lando, say it
landonorris: too like both of you or?..
maxverstappen1: yes, tell your brother in law that you love him
landonorris: okay first, youâre not my brother in law, second, i donât feel very comfortable right now
yourusername: say it with me lando, âi loveee youuuâ
landonorris: guysâŚ
yourusername: SAY IT
maxverstappen: CMON LANDO SAY IT
yourusername: SAY IT
yourusername: SAY IT
landonorris: OK I LOVE YOU GUYS
user6: is this the peer pressure my school always warned me about?
user7: noâŚthat was just, sad.
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yourusername: THATS MY FOUR TIME WORLD CHAMPION!!! THIS IS FOR ALL THE BUMS WHO SAID HE WAS NOTHING BUT A PRETTY MAN IN A FAST CAR, NOW WHAT????? NOBODY COMPARES TO MAX FUCKING VERSTAPPEN. AND YOU ALL BETTER REMEMBER THAT.
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user8: now itâs time to hit the club
yourusername: iâll be crying in the club, thank you very much
user9: crying for lando, partying for max, itâs perfect
user10: you are the perfect amount of supportive to both lando and max
maxverstappen1: ik houd van je đ
yourusername: @/landonorris
landonorris: i donât speak dutch??
yourusername: he just told me he loved me loser
landonorris: o-kay?
yourusername: gosh you are so emotionally unintelligent, it makes me sick
landonorris: i just lost the world championship please be kind to me
yourusername: im your sister which basically means i lost the championship too, yet i still tell you i love you?
landonorris: THATS NOT HOW THAT WORKS
yourusername: I LOVE YOU LANDO
landonorris: LEAVE ME ALONE
maxverstappen1: we should get married in vegas
yourusername: oh my god, yes. but no elvis because he freaks me out
maxverstappen1: CHARLES SHOULD MARRY US
charles_leclerc: guysâŚi would be honored
yourusername: i donât know max, i have a feeling youâll run away with him and leave me at the alter
maxverstappen1: yeahâŚthat probably will happen đ, itâs okay, lando can marry us!!!
landonorris: what the fuck is today
#f1 x reader#max verstappen x reader#f1 fanfic#f1 imagine#f1 fic#f1 x y/n#f1 x female reader#f1 x you#f1 social media au#f1#norris!reader#max verstappen x y/n#max verstappen smau#max verstappen blurb#max verstappen fluff#max verstappen x you#max verstappen fic#max verstappen imagine#max verstappen fanfic#max verstappen
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Do you ever get annoyed by askers getting the more simple parts of your characterizations wrong? Does it ever feel like people just aren't listening to you because of how they keep asking about the fundamentals of your characters?
(No hate to any askers, this is just a genuine question) (I just wanna know more about how Ano feels about answering things all the time)
See Anon, my motto in life is âgive the benefit of the doubtâ and if thereâs one skill I learned from life, itâs patience
When I see an ask that gets my characterization wrong, I do not assume that the person asking is ignoring my posts or is trying to push their own characterization onto me, I assume that maybe the person is a new follower and has not read through my older posts, or someone who hasnât been online in a while and only returned recently, so i simply gently nudge them in the right direction to how I characterize them
Were there asks that made me feel a lil frustrated? Yes, I wonât lie to you about that, and tbh Iâm ok with asks that get the finer more deeper details wrong, as these kinda things can be a bit tricky to understand and deal with
But when it comes to the fundamentals of the character, the simpler aspects of the character, for example, Nightmare holding no true attachment to anyone but his twin, something that I pretty much show all the time and I get an ask that gets it wrong, I do release a lil sigh (thatâs something I havenât actually gotten an ask that got it wrong which is why Iâm using it as an example)
But again, I give the benefit of the doubt, and assume that the person is genuinely asking and is not purposely ignoring my posts or pushing their own ideas onto me, so I still answer it the same way I answer any other ask, gently nudging the person asking to the right direction of my characterization
Of course, this is when it comes to my own characterization, there are asks I receive that is asking generally or are exploring what ifs, these are fun and do no harm, and I do find them fun to explore
That being said, most of the asks I get are genuinely fun and leave a big smile on my face, and even when I get an ask that frustrates me a bit, Iâm still grateful for it, Iâm grateful that people genuinely love my characterizations enough to want to know more about them
So generally, Iâm happy with the asks I get still, whether they get my characterization right or wrong
Thank you for showing interest and curiosity about my characterizations of my lil blorbos :)
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cougar | will and dani (and mack)
in honor of mack's interview with empty netters
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mack gets back to the apartment the day he met with the netters boys and didn't say anything about the interview besides it was good. but when it came out dani and will listened to it to see what he said.
when it got to the last question about american pie, and he passed stiffler's mom (or whoever the character is, i never watched american pie) and the netters guys say, "that was a test to see if mack has an older ladies guy and out here hunting cougars."
and then mack says, "i'm not gonna say anything but ask that to smitty."
will and dani piss themselves laughing. they were in the car getting back from a date they were having. and when they get home and mack is on the couch chilling out, will says, "there's no way you said that i'm into cougars with chris and dan."
"ok i'm not wrong. your girlfriend is a year older than you."
"you don't need to put me on blast with that." he said trying not to laugh. dani is giggling the whole time. she's still pretty close to will and holding his hand. she says, "i thought it was funny. thank you for humbling him mack. but be careful calling us out. i'm a proud cougar because i love him but don't announce that."
"yea yea. they loved it."
"is that why they texted me after and asked how old my girlfriend is?"
"probably. my bad." mack says laughing. will cackles, "fuck you asshole. you're on your own for dinner and walking to the rink tomorrow."
everyone laughs at that and will and dani head into their room to watch a movie and ignore mack the rest of the night. will is now rethinking his choice of living with mack and becoming friends with him.
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Funny, isn't it?
toji x you â angst - melancholy
bad vibes and suic:ide mention. careful 18+ (i think so)
NO SMUT!!! ONLY ANGST!!!
'It all started when you said: is fine, Toji, you can do what you want. You will just go for a walk with them, don't ya?'
Funny, isn't it? How he ignored your messages the first hour you were apart. It was your anniversary, five years of dating, the fifth day in a row you were apart. Funny how this happened a third time, and of course, it was funny when he answered your call, upset. He didn't usually drink, why did he do that? You knew he had a drinking problem. Why would he do that?
Of course, it was pretty funny when he said that his friends took him to a party in the middle of the "walk", right?
Sure, it was funny when he cursed at you, said all that nonsense you thought he would never say to you. You thought he genuinely loved you, but it's funny to think that he just used you, the same way everyone else had done. You heard his friends, Gojo and Geto laughing at you, the laughter of drunk women saying that you were a nobody.
Oh sure, not to mention when Toji himself said: any of these bitches can have a better pussy than yours, any of them was prettier, smelled better and would definitely suck him much better than you.
So, after the humiliation session, you took all your things, "your" car, which was now yours since you had paid for everything, and left back to your house. And then, everything became funny to you. Toji's calls the next day begging you to come back, him knocking on your door, crying on the phone calls. Ahh yes... that was beautiful, and funny, of course. It was funny when, after a few months, you were in a new job, meeting new people, and Toji was still in that mediocre house, going after any mean and selfish bitch who, when they found out he was broke, would leave, and he would go back to humiliating himself in your house.
He always said, "Babe, listen to me, I know I said shit, but I was high and... shit! I was high and drunk, those bitches were influencing me to say that. I just wanted to look cool in front of those two assholes, please forgive me. Come back with me, I'll be different...". Then you cried. He wasn't going to change, you missed him, but was it worth it?
Funny, right? Before, you would do anything for him, but I don't think you would feel the same way now. It's funny to know that he slept with your best friend, it's funny to know that he was the one who was spending your money on brothels and, when you questioned him, he would give an excuse. Now you understand everything.
Yeah, maybe it really is funny. It was really funny when you moved to another city because you couldn't stand him humiliating himself on your doorstep anymore, he went with a restraining order. That was the end for you. And a few months later you found out about his breakup. Had Toji really done that? What if you had stayed? What if you had come back?
It was funny, till it wasn't anymore. Was funny to know that you could try have him back, but now you can't.
Now, we both can say that: Funny, isn't it? How you deal with the grief and the guilt of losing him again? This time you can't have him back.
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â YOU'RE JUST A STRANGER s.jaeyun
PAIRING. fem!reader x nonidol bf!jake CONTENT. angst , jake is kind-of a jerk (âĽďšâĽ) , breakup , cursing WORD COUNT. 1,281 NOTE. omg i've wanted to write an angsty fic for awhile so this is me finally doing it :3 the plot is kinda ass so i apologize T v T pls remember this is all just fiction !! hope you enjoy âĄ
You were convinced that Jake was the best boyfriend anyone could ever have. He was insanely good-looking, dressed well, loved his family and friends, and had a loving personality. Jake always made time for you and never went a day without checking up on you. He even told you that he would marry you one day and that you guys would have three kids and one dog. Frankly, he was really just perfect.
Well, until he wasn't.
When you first met Jake, you guys were sophomores in highschool. You guys had met in your science class and ended up becoming close friends. After growing closer to him, you realized you had some pretty strong feelings for him. And surely enough, he felt the same way about you, too.
So in Junior year, he confessed to you and of course you said yes. How could you not? Throughout the next year, you felt as if life couldn't be any better. Your first love also loved you, and he was also possibly the most charming man on earth!
However, things quickly changed.
Fast forward a year and a half later, you guys graduated and quickly moved in together. But Jake was no longer the same. He was no longer the sweet boy that showed his love and affection for you. Instead, he was closed off. He never started conversations with you, you always had to be the one to start it. Jake was just becoming more distant.
Why? Why was your own boyfriend distancing himself from you? Did you do something wrong?
It was now 7:40 pm and Jake had still not answered your texts. Jake always answered, or well- he used to always answer.
baby i'm omw to the grocery store and i'll make us some dinner tonight <3
jake i just saw a dog that looks so much like layla lol
jake?? i haven't heard from you since you left this morning, r u okay?
i'm not trying to bother u jake but i'm rly worried pls atleast txt me back :(
You didn't know what to think. Was he ignoring you on purpose? Did you accidentally make a mistake? Was he falling out of love with you? Was he cheating on you?
No way, he couldn't. Yes he had been distant, but no, Jake would never. You wish he could just give you an explanation, at least.
You were just about to call him until you heard footsteps entering the apartment.
Jake's finally home.
You walk over to Jake and worryingly bombard him with questions while helping him take off his puffer jacket.
"baby...how're you? where were you today? did your phone die-"
He cuts you off.
"quit being so fucking nosey y/n." he says, sounding pissed off.
What? Did you just hear that right? And why did he sound and look so mad?
"jake...what? I was just worried..." you tell him, your voice laced with a bit of shock.
"i'm a grown ass man, i can take care of myself." he responds, not looking at you.
He quickly walks over to the fridge and grabs himself a cup of coffee- coffee that you made for him, hoping maybe he'd thank you or acknowledge you.
Not to your surprise, he just grabs it and walks to the sofa. Not one glance, not one "thank you". Nothing.
"hey jake, did i do something wrong? if so i'm sorr-"
And again, he cuts you off.
"can you just shut up please, you didn't do anything wrong." he tells you, and you're not convinced. How could you be?
"okay well then why have you been such an ass towards me? please just give me a fucking explanation" you say while sitting beside him on the sofa.
You notice how he moves away from you, and you can't help but feel a little frustrated.
"maybe it's because i'm sick of you always bothering me y/n."
Bothering him? You've only ever tried to care for him. Fuck, you can feel your eyes getting watery.
The room feels cold, even though the heater is on. There is no longer that warmth- the comforting warmth that you oh so loved. Things had really changed, and you really fucking hated it.
"bothering you? jake i'm your girlfriend, all i'm trying to do is love and care for you. i-"
"okay then just stop. stop loving and caring for me." he says in a louder tone of voice.
Now you're really frustrated. What the fuck is happening with Jake?
"what the fuck is wrong with you? jake, what the fuck?"
"nothing is fucking wrong with me y/n. maybe i'm just tired of your ass. maybe i'm just not in love with you anymore."
Did he just- oh. So you were right. He really doesn't love you anymore.
"jake you could've just told me you didn't love me anymore. you could've just told me so i didn't have to be put through this shit, and so that you could've just left." you tell him, your eyes filled with tears.
"i couldn't tell you because i know you would fucking cry like a crybaby."
You felt your heart break into two. The man you loved, your once sweet boyfriend, was now treating you like you were nothing to him.
And in Jake's eyes, you really were nothing to him anymore.
"jake what the fuck i-" you try to speak but you're choked up. And fuck, you feel the first tear fall and next thing you know- you're sobbing.
"see, look- you're crying. i knew you'd fucking cry. and shit, you're an ugly crier too. i can't keep up with your shit anymore y/n, i'm tired. you always treat me like i'm a baby, making me food and shit. just stop. i'm leaving and this is over. we're over. bye y/n" he says while getting up from the couch.
You feel numb. Your first love just stabbed you, right in the heart.
Before you could say anything back, he'd already grabbed his bag and jacket and was on his way to the front door. And this time, you knew he wasn't going to come back.
You quickly get up and run to the front door, stopping him in his tracks.
"jake can you atleast look at me please-" you tell him and he listens and looks at you. However, his stare is emotionless.
"please jake can i hug you one last time?...please" you ask, voice shaky from your sobbing.
"sure whatever" he responds in an annoyed tone of voice.
You slowly bring yourself closer to him and rest your head in his chest and wrap your arms around him. But you didn't feel that same warmth. You didn't feel any sort of love or comfort that you hoped you would.
He just stood there. He didn't wrap his arms around your waist and kiss the top of your head like he used to. Of course he wouldn't. You just missed the old jake.
"okay y/n that's enough. i'll get going" he tells you while unwrapping your arms.
You can't find any words to say to him, you really can't. You just stand there, looking and feeling like a complete mess.
"bye" jake says as he walks out the door.
You don't say "bye" back to him, because you can't.
You're just standing there, frozen, numb. You just watch him as he leaves. You watch him leave the apartment as your boyfriend, for the last time ever.
And then, the door closes. He wasn't your boyfriend anymore and you weren't his girlfriend anymore. And no you wouldn't be calling him your ex boyfriend or your first love.
If anything, you would call him a complete and total stranger.
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medic tf2 doodles?!?!?? in this economy!???!?!? (art from yesterday)
most gentle and sweet middle aged german man in the whole entire world smile vs planning to swap all of your organs with a series of interconnected frogs smile
a doodle i did of Medic and Archimedes.... he looks too round in this drawing, not smug and evil enough..... also Mitzi from the RAE appearance :D
i LOVE the voicelines Medic has with Haunted Archimedes, he's not disturbed or even slightly put off by the fact that his zombified dove is 1. talking and 2. has a violent and constant craving for brains. he's just like. being a slightly irritated pet owner about it. he's just like "ugh yes archimedes vants all zhe brains doesn't he. now shut up". also i think this is the most on-model medic drawing i've ever done wtf
#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 medic#medic tf2#archimedes tf2#mitzi mozzarella#doodles#sketches#sketch#also um. please no thirst comments in the tags. /srs#i feel incredibly uncomfortable with comments like that and i don't want those things being said about my art#and i feel like it might happen here so like. please don't do that thanks đ#man i love drawing medic. he's actually so fun to draw and i love giving him the most insane expressions ever#he has so many sharp angles it's so fun!!!#i also really like the second opinion voice lines. he's not even frightened. he just has an annoying roommate sewn to his face#aahh this is why i love medic#i have a cold right now so i can't think of any other tags to put on this post........#might post some more barry stuff later. i drew a pretty cursed one yesterday heehoo#i want to post some of my really old tf2 art from like 2018#and maybe some SUPER old tf2 stuff from a decade ago if i can find the notebook i drew it in#back when i used to draw everything with a pen and no guidelines đ#i'm pretty sure i still have it! it's not something i would throw away at all#it's probably hidden deep in my closet with my other old art stuff#i'd like to share my super old unhinged comics with a bunch of characters from various properties some day#i remember making a comic where all my favourite tf2 and mlp characters teamed up to stop peg from peg + cat from taking over the world#because i really didn't like the show as a kid. i thought peg's voice was annoying and it was a show about math. and i hate math#it's not even a bad show... it's really cute actually..... why did i hate it so much#i was peg + cat's biggest hater. if p+c had a million haters i was one of them. if it had 1 hater that was me. if it had 0 then i grew up#anyway. ignore all those tags i went on a ramble loolll#i forgot this post is about my medic drawings... yeah i really like these drawings and i love drawing medic <3
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kicking my feet and giggling (<- just got apologised to)
#guys i have worth??? im actually a human being deserving of basic respect and SHOULD be apologised to if i am not given that??? holy shit#ok but like i actually was pretty mad and i just wasn't going to talk to them when the weekend ended but to think they'd actually apologise#guys i am a friend worth apologising to omg this is so nice#(<- was fuming over how i was a âfriendâ not even worthy of her basic decency and respect an hour ago)#LIKE IM STILL MAD#okay i actually cant vaguepost to save my life but basically this girl whos a friend i recently got close to and formed a friendgroup with#shes really fucking whiny and ive been tolerating it for so long but on friday she was extremely whiny and rude whenever i just asked a#simple question#and it's really draining and humiliating to be spoken to like poop on the sidewalk in front of other people#but anyway other than that i was really upset because during pe i wanted to show her my hip injury cuz i thought it was funny#(it wasn't diagnosed yet i just felt my joints moving weirdly)#and like that involves her putting her hand on my hip#so i asked her to do that then she started whining about how she doesn't want to touch me and that i'm weird for asking ppl to touch me#then she started telling like the 3 other ppl around us i was weird and wanted ppl to touch me#then this other cool girl overheard and looked at us funny i guess cuz then the friend said 'haha now [cool girls name] is also laughing'#i was so fucking embarrassed and humiliated i still want to tear up thinking about it#like are you actually my friend wtf i don't even need enemies w a friend like you#i wanted to cry so bad then#ugh i hate it#like you couldve just said no thanks bro what is ur problem#this just made me realise how much i hate how she talks to me sometimes#and i know i need to stop surrounding myself with negative vibes in order to feel happy#but its still so frustrating#we were doing so well the other day and google meeting everyday#then this happened and then she got mad and started ignoring me on the way home#bro idk i hate ts i should just stop making friends#rant
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why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up
#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director#and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production#and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out#but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again#i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately#so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me#i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me#i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added#and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad#anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much.#but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great#but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else#but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing#and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us#and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing#and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more#especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this.#and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not.#and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING#and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine.#but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad.#because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented#if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that.#but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent.#and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt#i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried.#and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over.#i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help#and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh#brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.
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learning about henry kissinger death, and my own ignorance about the depth of this war criminal is alot
especially when hes responsible for 150,000~ Cambodian civilian deaths
Literally as the daughter of Cambodian refugees its really crazy to read this and see that America's red scare killed so many people. The "effort" to ensure communism doesnt spread in SE Asia, and made it worse and made tons of those countries anti-american
#my.txt#i preach to learn ur history but im nothing but a sham sorry#the us bombing cambodia due to ''vietnamese insurgents'' in those locations when there's not#the vietnam war and those bombings leading to the khmer rouge to gain power crazy#its all fucked up in this world#keep coming back to this#my stepdad once asked me when i was criticizing America i dont rmr why. if i was anti-america#and i said no because i was still pretty ignorant about the us. i was maybe 16? 15?#but learning all this how could i not be anti-america?#do not get me wrong#canada is pretty fucked up as well and i do know my Canadian history more than my US + Cambodian history
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Perverse intrusive thoughts manifesting themselves in dreams is the actual worst.
#Especially with the timing of this one#Brain⌠have some fucking respect for the dead#ugh ugh ugh#[throws up]#The worst thing is Iâm so used to them that I barely feel disgusted anymore#Iâm not sure if I can properly tag this as OCD anymore because Iâve kind of kicked the worst of it with incidental exposure therapy#and straight up ignoring everything until it went away like a petulant childâs attention-seeking behavior#At one time this would have distressed me about one hundred times more than it is right now#Like if I still do have it: itâs more in the form of âjust rightâ in which I talk to myself in the mirror#and constantly correct my sentence structure and say the same things over and over again so it comes out ânormal soundingâ#but that could just be scripting too??? so idk#I mean talking to myself in the mirror is pretty disruptive when I need to go to sleep (the mirror is across from my bed)#or generally do things#but itâs kind of a fun activity#The activity itself does not cause me distress and itâs pretty useful sometimes#I use what Iâve said to myself in the mirror in real conversation; my speech is smoother and less choppy as a result#Because if I donât plan what I want to say; I get so hung up on certain details that I fuck up the chronological order of events#This way I have an outline if anyone mentions certain subjects#Plus I can vent and be ugly (uglier than I am on here) and no one gets hurt#I also vent on here because I donât have a captive audience; people can choose not to read it#Itâs impersonal#Itâs my thoughts and feelings with my presence removed from the situation so no one is locked into conversation#vent post
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For all the teething I've been doing on Pavo and Esti i haven't been able to like, actually write any thing for them recently mostly because I've been Busy.
But also because I'm snapping between like 3 ideas for them at terminal velocity and haven't been able to actually get anything written for them and it's like having pumas bouncing around my skull at mach fuck as though theyre house cats at 2 am when you're trying to sleep,
#idea one is the day after things start changing and they haven't discussed it fully yet.#Pavo is mulling over some things and Esti is too nervous to ask about it. but they're alone out hunting#its such a nice day. and Esti thinks hes going to be saying goodbye soon. and hes making himself sick with anxiety over it#and they're alone together like old times but its Not like old times because Esti remembers how sweetly Pavo had kissed him that#morning after and how good it had felt to spend the whole morning in bed cureld up against him.#and Esti doesnt think he could stomach the idea of leaving without getting another kiss or at least finding out if Pavo regretted it or not#and the story is them being sweet on each other and avoiding the big heavy topic until Esti can verbally ask about it. because like Pavo#knows him well enough to know whats eating him up. but he wants to hear Esti say the words#and then the second idea is Esti waking up from a nightmare after hes been brought home from that hell. he screams for Pavo and#like of course pavo is on his feet and at the door that separates their rooms in an instant. but its locked and Esti is too#scared to navigate to it because hes already wound up and hes still not used to life as a blind man. so the idea of getting out of bed#and crossing an open room with nothing to help him orient himself is Terrifying.#probably more than it should be but the nightmares are still fresh in his head and hes having to make himself focus and ignore them#and just reasure himself that it Actually is Pavo and not one of those monster that had used his voice. and its hard hes crying and Pavo#has to take down part of the fucking door frame to get the sliding door off its tracks without just busting it down since Esti didn't#need that particular audio experience right now and he liked that doors painting and Pavo had already sent for the craftsperson who#made his eyes to commission them to make a set for esti. and he doesn't want to destroy something pretty esti likes when itll only be a few#until esti can enjoy it again. and he gets into the room and esti scooches over in bed to welcome him into it because despite Everything#esti still will always feel safer pinned between a wall and Pavo than anywhere else. and he just needs to feel safe.#and the third thing is because of something deardest said a yesterday i think about Pavo in his old age. and im just Chewing on the image#of him and esti in his carriage. Esti's hair has gone white and hes nearing his end. and thentwo of them are together and happy#and able to reflect on the lives they've had together. and its mostly just the idea of Pavo being glad hes so much older than Esti. because#it means despite Esti only being half demon and having a much shorter life because of it. Pavo isnt going to outlive him by very long.#and All of this. Everything was because of how scared Pavo was to be alone. and hes not going to have to be in his last days.#so Yeah. thats been whats on my mind when im not devoting it to like lame shit like work#wow im bad at reading#their url is derederest#not deardest
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trying to organise anything with my mates is so hard because they all have more of a life than me and its getting a bit embarrassing always being the only one like âi am free all the timeâ when then theyâre telling me all these amazing plans theyâve got that are getting in the way of us doing anything lmao
#also like im the only one left at home really#out the girls 1 is in plymouth one in bristol#then the others that were still here 2 of them are in london now#and the last one is pretty much always in stevenage with her bf#so im starting to feel really lonely here lmao#and theres only one boy left here who just never replies to anything lmao#like london obviously isnt far and one of them is in hackney with is easy to get to but she's never around#its not the same as when we used to just pop in to town for a meal after work in the week#i try to organise going to see my mate in Bristol so many times because she's my best best mate and shes just never free#and i always say im done with my uni mates but one of them actually bothered to wish me happy birthday this year#so i started trying to organise meeting up with her because she's in london#and she was like 'im busy until Christmas but im gonna have a belated birthday party'#then she ignored my happy birthday message to her#and has also read and ignored when i asked about said birthday party#like my next plans for seeing anyone that isnt my parents is the milan match with eleanor and alex đ ITS IN MARCH#like. what do i do lmao#stacey speaks
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a beautiful man with long black hair dressed in all white sat next to me on the train back from denmark. i complimented his outfit, and he asked me where the train was going. after i told him, he then pointed at my shirt which says 'catastrophe' and said "oh i know a lot about those." and laughed uproariously.
and then he asked me "do you know about norse mythology?" and i said yes a bit because i read the edda a decade ago, and he said "i met fenrir in denmark" and i said that's probably not good if fenrir is walking around. and he said "oh don't worry about it, vithar will take care of it" and i replied oh but that's ragnarøk, that's still pretty bad for us mortals is it not? and he grinned at me like i said something incredibly funny. and then he ignored me for the rest of the train ride?
#norse mythology#i LOVE strange encounters on the train and i am a veteran in them because#i have an approachable face and i will yes and anything#but this one was especially crazy
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Did somebody say Bill shouldn't be allowed to swear? I think somebody said Bill shouldn't be allowed to swear. Thanks to that, have these retooled The Good Place jokes:
The "powers that be" can refer to either the Theraprism staff, the Axolotl, or just. Ya know. Disney in general. Or all three! Whichever you think is funniest. ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ
The "party" Bill's referring to is Weirdmageddon, of course. He was quite the ashhole to everyone back then.
Ford has probably gotten pretty good at the 'tune out your psychopathic ex with dank memes' challenge.
It must be very cathartic to be able to make Bill shut up whenever you want with just the press of a button. I'm sure Ford doesn't abuse this ability at all.
Oh, sure, 'Not now,' he says, before he immediately backs out of the newly-made hole in the Theraprism wall. đ
Don't worry, Bill doesn't get far.
also yeah i know this one doesn't have an attempted swear - i just wanted to use the joke because of the massive stink-eye involved in it because it makes me laugh
âŹď¸ More goofs beneath the brief ramble if you wanna skip it lmaoâŹď¸
Why is Ford even there, you might ask? Well, he either decided he preferred to watch Bill suffer in person over being distantly and repeatedly harassed with the same evil desperation book for the rest of his life, or he got roped into some kind of contrived community service for 1.) all his many counts of interdimensional thievery, and 2.) his ignoring all the very clear warnings to NOT summon Bill in the first place (which I like to imagine is also illegal). Theraprism staff were just like, 'Wait, this guy matters to Bill? Ooh, we can USE that! It might be the only thing that can help him want to get better!' It is not considered that throwing Ford at Bill so soon after Weirdmageddon could instead make them both WORSE - in new and altogether special ways! :D
Anyway, I'm calling it the Community Service AU, and I am most likely not going to do anything else with it beyond appropriating these silly Good Place jokes. So, feel free to adopt the concept if y'all wanna??? Just make sure that Bill is still not allowed to swear, no matter what, full stop. It's gotta be a real linguistic corkblork of a situation for him, is all I'm sayin'.
Finally, have these bonus Good Place jokes, but with Handyman!Bill this time:
'Opposite tortures' doesn't sound so bad...at least until it's an all-powerful chaos entity known for torture saying it.
you may think i forgot mabel's cute pink cheeks but the truth is that i did in fact forget but then immediately stopped caring which makes it okay, SHHHHHHH
And, finally:
lmao this is shit
True facts, if you cram Season 1 Eleanor Shellstrop and Michael into a singular triangle shape, they turn into Bill Cipher. This is science, look it up. Or don't, and just trust the source that is me, bro.
Anyway, I should be in bed, y'all have fun with these, I guess. Tune in after like a week or so and maybe I'll have an addendum to my comic about how Bill was drawn naked for karaoke night. Because him actually being naked was not the only thing I considered as a plausible explanation. XD
Also if you see any inconsistencies or errors in any of these comics, No You Do Not :D
Also also, reblogs are rad as hell and I appreciate every single one, just don't repost, please and thanks. Every time a repost is made, an artist somewhere cries. :,)
#fanart#gravity falls#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#stanley pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#pyronica#handyman bill au#book of bill#the good place#incorrect quotes#heck yeah i'm tagging billford - cuz these old men are EXES#jfc i said i wasn't going to color any other gravity falls stuff i made - and then what do i do?#i fukken color all of it#i may have a problem lmao#the green area outside the theraprism is because i forgot what was outside it and just went 'lol greenscreen idgaf'
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 âCampfire Storiesâ
Send me âCampfire Storiesâ and my muse will tell yours about a scary tale, folk story, or even one of their own spooky experiences.
She had fled the noises of the city to the nearest beach. Senritsu had never been a good sleeper, but sleep was nothing but a distant dream, a wish, a fantasy, when she was visiting cities even when the noises would die down at night a little. Those noises never died down enough for her, every breath, every electric buzzing, every honking car, every person turning in their beds, every step on asphalt, was another nail boring into her skull painfully. But sometimes the weather was a blessing and in the grey mist laying over the ocean by the beach like a thick blanket the noises were almost muffled down and if she focused- focused intensely, focused tieredly, focused desperately- enough on the waves and the gulls above she could almost think it was quiet. It was still not quiet enough to not hear Suguru. "It does not sound like the northsea at all.", the woman hummed, running her short, gnarled fingers nimbly through the cold water until they felt numb and cold like lifeless pieces of meat sticking to her arm. Shoes pulled off the woman had crouched down as close to the waves as she could without diving into the ocean, so the cold water would tickle around her ankles and shins icily.
"Much too colourful. Much too rilassato. Ma non troppo murderous. And even with bells and buildings washed over by the waves beneath, it really does not sound like the northsea." The frown on her round face drew a long, deep line between her big eyes as she continued to tieredly listen, listen, listen. She heard the near harbour that never slept, she heard the waves, she heard the buzzing of electricity in the air from the near buildings, she heard Sugurus breathing warm and alive against the cold air, she heard the fish darting through the deeper waters farer out into the bay that were still unbotherd from any fisher or beachvisitor at this early hour. Between all those noises it was still quiet enough to sooth the migraine that the noises of the city hammering, hammering, hammering like ironnails into the Musicians skull would cause.
"Did you know that the oldest northgerman rhyme in songs and poems is Nordsee=Mordsee? Northsea=murdersea, roughly translated. It even shows in the local folklore how much that sea is feared for its murderous nature. When someone drowns at sea, they come back as a Gonger. Named after the Gong-sound the bells of the nightwatch make to announce midnight. So when this bell sounds air through the night the Gonger, bloated up and grey and cold rises out of the sea that had swallowed them. But they do not go after the family waiting for them on the Halligen or by the coast. Instead they hunt down the people seven generations down the line from them who dared to be born and raised and be happy without them. At night the Gonger presses through the smallest space, be that under a door or through a keyhole to lay down ontop of the people they hunt and make them dream of drowning. In the morning this people would wake up with in saltwater drenched sheets and a puddle of the same water covering their bedrooms floor. The Gonger will than fuoco continue to visit them until they either drown just like they do or they remember the drowned person they dare to forget. Most storys end with them drowning. The Gonger is not picky." With a huff Senritsu eventually stood up and stepped back, shaking the water off her gnarled feet even if it did not stopped any sand from sticking to her soles. In the much too early morning the sand was cold, crunching in her much too keen ears loudly beneath her feet like little bones. The noise made her grimace as if she had bitten on a foul fruit and Senritsu just shaked her head gently with a rueful laughter over such a little, normal noise making her flinch uncomfortable: "Its of course nothing but a metaphor for the aimless danger of nature. The Gonger, just like the northsea goes after random people with no connection to another, but the fact that they live near the coast like their drowned relative as people related to another sometimes happen to do. Just as people drown in storms by the sea for no reason but the fact that they happned to live by the sea. Its semplice stories that try to give sense to natural and random happenings." There was a quiet sound when she patted the sand off her cold, numb feet and slipped back into her ballerina shoes. The shells she had collected a few hours before when she had seekd ut the bay and put in her vests pockets clinked against another like bells. Almost, only almost overtuning the heartbeat of the sorcerer Senritsu was listening to. Voices and mechanic roars echoed through the mist from one near harbour slowly waking up from the early hours doozing.
"Well than, dear cicerone," The woman sang those words as sweetly as a song swaying in the tact of the waves when she grinned up to the man in all good humor: " I told you mine, now its your chance to tell me yours. Indulge my curiosity velocitĂ . Maybe that pacific ocean of yours is indeed as murderous as my atlantic ocean, mhmmmmmmmmm?" [ @uzumakiuser ]
#THANK YOU I LOVE WRITING ABOUT CREEPY FOLKLORE STORIES#although I did ignored my own headcanon here: Senritsus father is from Lßbeck. so the sea she would know best family wise would be balticum#'bells/buildings beneath the waves' =Senritsu is also refrencing the rungholt mythos#its said that if one walks along the Nordstrand (Northbeach) than one cansometimes hear the bells of rungholts church beneath the waves.#which is partly true because the grote Männdränke in the 13th did indeed reshaped the northseacoast. and sunk 'rungholt'#but historic rungholt had been many shipyards and not a whole fuckin city drowning as the myth says and especially not with an own church#you however can still find metal and old wood from 13th by the beaches from that catastrophe#or the second grote Männdränke (literally great mendrowning) from the 16th century#I would however never recommand to pick upANYTHING from the northseabeaches because THATS NOT GOING TO BE PRETTY AMBER THATS FUKIN PHOSPHOR#Hey what do you us your bachelor in arts in german philology and history in? to write stuff on the internet. so much stuff#V: Krabats Songcycle#uzumakiuser#rungholt also means = wrong wood. rung sounds loud spoken like wrong because lowgerman is so closely related to english and nowdays german#as in: its the langauge both langauges developed from. in english it was even reintreduced due to the hanseatic pact#ah yesss language history. my one true love
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Back off,kid.
Pairing : Gojo Satoru x Reader
Note âËâšâĄ : (Teen)Gojo is jealous over (kid) Fushiguro having a crush on you.
Fushiguro Megumi always wonders if he made the right choice every time a white-haired sunglass wearing teenager walks into the house.
The tall older boy would grin as his hands form a salute. âYou doing good Megumi and Tsumiki?â
He was as useful as the indoor plants. Fushiguro thought.
Gojo wasnât much good at cooking and neither helped with cleaning, probably because of his rich backgroundâbut he did spoil them with lots of food and pocket money but he wouldnât ever admit that.
As much as Fushiguro would love to throw insults at Gojo, he holds back his tongue each time; Tsumiki would send sharp glare and nag him if he did.
The first friend he brought to visit them was a girl; it was after Gojo went missing for a while and when Tsumiki inquired about it ,he simply said one of his dear friend went cray-cray as his finger twirls at the temple of his head.
The girl had short, brown hair with a distinct smell of cigarette; her name was Shoko Ieiri. She wore an impressed look when she entered the house as she looked over to Gojo. âHehâ The place is pretty neat,Gojo.â
Fushiguro looked to Gojo who placed some groceries on the counter top with a proud smile on his face. âI know right!â Gojo replies.
The young boy frowns. âItâs Tsumiki who keeps the place clean.â Shoko gives Gojo a stare before she cackles.
A week later when Tsumiki was still in school with club activities, another person makes an appearance ,you. He could faintly hear conversations between you and Gojo through the front door on how youâd actually wanted to visit them sooner but was bombarded with mission before it swings open.
The first thing Fushiguro noticed was how Gojo seemed to make you enter firstâ other times he barges in without a care for Shokoâ his hands near your back with a slight space, without touching it. Why was Gojo being nice?
You blink at the dark haired boy. âFushiguro Megumi, right?â Gojo peers from behind as you smile. âDid you eat?â
âNot yet. Waiting for Tsumiki to get home.â Fushiguro thinks youâre the first person who is kind of decent.
You nod take plastic bag from Gojoâs hands and lift up it, your smile widen. âIâll make you some good stuff then.â
âI want to eat your cooking too,y/n.â Gojo chirps in only to be ignored. And to your credit, it was actually good. He didnât remember the last time he had something this good home made.
After that, your visits seemed to increase which Fushiguro Megumi did not mind, in fact he was getting fond of your presence. You helped with food, cleaning which lessened the load on Tsumiki plus you also helped him with his studies.
âYou seemed to get it now, Megumi.â Poor kid, blushes a bit hearing your compliment. âPractice this set of questions and I think youâll do pretty well on your tests.â You smile.
Fushiguro nods as he does as you say, face still heated up. He looks up at you, who was reading a book. Your hair slightly in your face, lips slightly parted with eyes focused. You were extremely beautiful and as much as he wouldnât admit it , he had a big fat kid crush on you.
âMegumi-chan.â Suddenly he is shoved to the side as a body makes way in between you and him. It was Gojo who sat in between. âMove over~ This seat is mine.â
The boy frowns and so did you, not liking Gojoâs action. âDonât interrupt the kid, who is studying.â Kid? OuchâŚYou huff as your move over, despite you complaining you make space for him, focus back on your book.
Fushiguro watched as Gojo leans closer to you, almost resting his head on your neck as he looked over to your book; after a while eyes slowly moved over to you, his expression softens.
Gojo smiles as he tugs a piece of hair behind your hair, to which you donât react as if it was normal. Thee older man then turns his head to Fushiguroâoops,he got caught staring.
The white haired boy then grins, a condescending one in fact as he mouths out the following words.
ây/n-is-mine.â Fushiguro huffs. âback-off.â
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