#and i made myself sad in the process

[regheart]

That’s Marlene McKinnon, she was killed two weeks after this was taken, they got her whole family.

That’s Frank and Alice Longbottom — Poor devils. Better dead than what happened to them.

That’s Edgar Bones... brother of Amelia Bones, they got him and his family too, he was a great wizard...

Gideon Prewett, it took five Death Eaters to kill him and his brother Fabian, they fought like heroes...

That’s Dumbledore’s brother, Aberforth, only time I ever met him, strange bloke...

[discount-kirishima]

You're an angel, I'm a dog

Or you're a dog and I'm your man

You believe me like a god

I'll destroy you like I am

[in-my-loki-feels]

🫲 Hand on lower back for Lokius 😊

This one got sad. 🥲 I hope you like it?

5. 🫲 Hand on lower back

At first, Loki resented the way Mobius’ hand always seemed to find its way to his back. As if he needed to be ushered around like a child. Mobius kept a respectful barrier of air between them in the beginning, but Loki could still feel its presence.  In Alabama, as they stepped out into the full fury of the storm, the thunder and lightning overhead reminded Loki of Thor. He hesitated as the group headed inside and felt a light touch at his back. It didn’t feel as patronizing this time, especially when Loki met Mobius’ gaze and saw understanding there.  After Lamentis, there was no hand at the back to help him along. He was marched after Mobius, a Minuteman on each side, not even trusted to follow under the threat of the Time Collar being used. He hadn’t realized he could miss such a simple gesture until then.  Even after they reconciled, and then found each other in the Void, Loki had thought there would be no more touches to guide him. Their paths were diverging—catastrophically, it turned out, as he finally found Mobius within the TVA Archives and Mobius looked at him without recognition and said, “Who are you? What’s your name?” However temporary that had been, the fear that had filled him as he fled was nearly swallowed by despair. It had been one thing to imagine never seeing Mobius again. It was another to be faced with a reality where he might never expect any sort of kindness from the man he’d come to call his friend, a man who meant more than Loki could even acknowledge to himself.  Being ripped from that time had been a relief, but nothing could compare to how it felt when he was dumped into a reality where Mobius knew him and reached for him without hesitation. He guided Loki out of the chaos of the war room to a quiet spot where they could talk and Loki finally felt hope again.  He hadn’t known how right he would be about their paths diverging until he’d lived countless centuries attempting to fix the unfixable. To find a solution that did not exist. More than once, he slipped back to a moment where he could find solace in that reassuring touch, to lean into it a little more than he had any of first time he’d lived them.  As Loki turned away from the window where his friends waited, bathed in green light, and looked up into a destiny he could have never foreseen, he thought of a warm hand on his back. A steadying hand, one that gave him the strength to go on. He tightened his grasp on the timelines and took the first step.

Prompts are here. Other ficlets here.

If it makes anyone feel better, just imagine this is a predecessor to this fic.

[rambheem-is-real]

Cross My Heart Pt 1

pairing: kid varadha x kid deva

Summary:

Deva barely makes it a few feet out of the arena before he collapses from the pain. His family and Varadha have things to say when he wakes up.

breaking news: in a *shocking* twist of events, touching a live wire can in fact fuck you up

-

Deva walks out of the arena, feeling like his nerves are vibrating inside of him. He can taste thick, coppery blood through his teeth, there’s a ringing in his ears, and there’s a searing pain across his shoulders that he knows means there’ll probably be a scar later. He can barely see five feet in front of him, his vision is so blurry. 

But he can’t show weakness now, not after everything he’s done. 

He’s gotten Varadha his mukku pogu back, had won it for his prince. That bastard had dared to lay a hand on him, to take what rightfully belonged to Varadha, but with what he’s done today Deva knows Rudra won’t go after Varadha for a while. 

However, that depends on Deva staying strong now. He’s in no position to fight, he’s aware that he probably fucked something up internally, but he had tried to project enough confidence and anger into his warning to Rudra that he hopes the act was convincing enough. 

Keep going, he wills himself, begging the adrenaline coursing through him to not abandon him right now. 

Deva can see Varadha’s proud smile out of the corner of his eye, the bounce in his step that was missing this morning when he sought Deva out, nose bare. He can’t let Varadha know how badly it hurts, knows his friend will blame himself for it when it wasn’t his fault at all. 

They make it past the gates of the arena, thankfully not followed by Rudra or his lackeys. Varadha beams at Deva, and opens his mouth, probably to say something adorable as usual, when Deva feels the last of the hormones leave him. Varadha’s joyful face morphs quickly into horror as Deva lurches forward, catching Deva in his arms. He cries out as Varadha grabs at his sensitive shoulders, and feels Varadha tense at the sound. 

Fuck, Deva thinks. His plan of not letting Varadha know was a bust. The world fades to black along with Varadha’s panicked cries of Deva’s name. Sorry raa, Deva thinks before he finally blacks out from the pain. 

-

Deva wakes up feeling like he got hit by a bus, with a headache the size of Mars, but at least that infernal ringing noise is gone. His vision is still blurry, but not as bad as it was the last time he was awake. It’s enough to make out the figure of his father sitting on a chair beside the bed Deva’s laying on, looking worried somewhere above Deva’s head. There are voices from that direction, and Deva focuses to hear his mother and.. Varadha? arguing with another man. 

“What do you mean you can’t fix him?” Amma demands. 

The man, probably a doctor, sounds nervous in the face of Amma’s anger as he tries to placate her. “I’m sorry, but the shock he went through will have long term consequences. There’s nothing I can do about that.”

“You’re the doctor though, isn’t it your job to fix people?” Varadha asks, and with a pang of guilt, Deva notes that his voice is rough, like he’s been crying for a long time. 

Deva tries to sit up, but realizes his muscles feel so heavy he doesn’t have the strength to move anything other than his head, and maybe if he tries hard, his hands. He tries to call Varadha’s name, but his throat closes up and he can only manage a truly pathetic cough. At the sound, everyone immediately crowds around him. 

“Deva, how are you feeling now?” Amma asks, clutching his face, and he can see tears in her eyes. 

“I’m okay, Amma,” Deva says, trying his best to project strength, and can see everyone visibly take a breath of relief. 

The doctor examines Deva briefly. “I’ll let you all talk to the patient first,” he says, gathering up the medical supplies haphazardly placed on the table next to Deva’s bed. “I’ll be back to do more tests soon.” 

As soon as the doctor leaves, Varadha throws himself on top of Deva, sobbing. Deva tries to comfort his friend, but he can barely lift his arm high enough to simply place his hand on top of Varadha’s soft curls. He looks up at his parents, trying to see what he should do, how he should comfort Varadha, but is met with two stony faces. Deva winces. 

Amma immediately starts yelling. “What were you thinking? Are you crazy?”

Dhaara joins in, voice thick with worry. “Touching a live wire like that!”

“The next time you pull something like this I’ll kick you out!”

“Varadha told us what happened-”

“Then you’ll know, once you feel what I felt when-”

“-could’ve died, you’re lucky the current wasn’t high enough to kill-”

The voices start overlapping as Deva’s headache worsens, and he shuts his eyes against the sensory overload. He also doesn’t really know what to say that will get him out of this, so he stays quiet. 

They pause for a few seconds, realizing Deva’s not listening.

“Deva,” Dhaara starts gently. “The doctor says you’re going to have complications for the rest of your life.”

Deva opens his eyes. “Like what?” Not like he really cares, but might as well know. 

His parents look at each other, then back at him, like they’re unsure of how he’ll take the news. 

“The doctor said you’ll have a lifetime of unpredictable muscle tremors and temporary paralysis. And that’s the bare minimum. You’ll still have to be tested for the next few weeks to make sure you don’t develop cataracts in your eyes, and see how badly the feathering marks across your shoulders scar.” Dhaara says, looking more and more devastated by the time he gets to the end. “You’ll also have to be monitored for any neurological damage.”

“Ok,” is all Deva replies. 

His silence seems to enrage Amma even more. “Do you even care? Who’ll take care of you when you’re old and paralyzed? Who’s going to marry you with those scars on your back?”

Dhaara winces. “Ammadi, why are you bothered about all that? He’s barely ten.”

“I’m his mother, of course I’ll bother about it! It’ll be me tending to him decades later if his condition worsens!”

“Of course I’ll be there too, he’s our son, we’ll both take care of him-”

“That’s not the point-”

Deva tunes them out once again, realizing that he’s regained enough strength in his fingers that he’s able to stroke through Varadha’s hair. I’d love to braid the hair if it gets longer, Deva thinks absently. He only knows the traditional Shouryanga ones, but he resolves to find out if there are any special Mannarsi braids. 

Dhaara is the first to quiet down, and gently mentions to Amma that they should calm down since Deva is still hurt.

Amma sniffles. “Ah, like he has that consideration for his poor parents. He doesn’t care if we live or die.” The tone makes Deva feel awful even though he knows she’s exaggerating. He refuses to feel regret, though. No matter how upset it makes his mother feel. He won’t ever regret defending Varadha, not even if he loses his life in the process. 

Dhaara sends one last worried look towards his son before he leads Amma out of the room to let Deva rest. 

By this time, Varadha’s sobs have quieted, and he turns his face to look up at Deva. His eyeliner is completely smudged, falling in black streams down his face, his cheeks are red and blotchy, and there’s snot in his nose from crying so hard. Deva thinks he’s still the most beautiful person he’s ever seen. 

“Arey Vara,” he starts. 

Varadha sits up and quickly punches him in the chest again, making Deva recoil. 

“Ow, what the hell?”

Deva regrets every single time he’s teased Varadha for not being aggressive enough towards anyone he’s angry at as Varadha tears into him. 

“You absolute fucking buffoon! Look at the state of you, yedava [idiot]! What the hell were you even thinking?”

“Not you too,” Deva groans. 

“I thought you were fine!” Varadha cries. “You got up fine, you threatened Rudra and you were fine, you walked out fine, I thought you were FINE! And then you collapse in my arms, what the hell was I supposed to think?”

“Sorry raa.”

“No, that’s not enough! I had to carry you all the way back to your house, asshole! I thought you were about to die in my arms!” He’s close to tears again. “All for what, a fucking nose ring? Let him have it, I would rather have you, alive and well rather than a stupid nose ring!” 

Deva stubbornly looks through the window next to him. He’s fine apologizing for worrying Varadha, but if Varadha thinks he’ll get an apology for getting his nose ring back, he might as well give up now. Varadha’s too nice for his family, he needs someone like Deva who’s willing to get fucked up to make sure Varadha gets the respect he deserves. He may not see it that way, but that’s just Khansaar for the both of them. Only the strong survive in this place. 

“What, are you gonna give me the silent treatment too?” 

Deva avoids Varadha’s glare. He’s pretty much paralyzed right now, it’s not like he can do anything else. He can keep playing this game. 

Finally, Varadha gives in, and softens his voice. “Fine. Please raa, just promise me.” He lifts his hand up, and Deva looks over. “Promise me you’ll never do anything as reckless as this again for me.” Deva hates how desperate he sounds. He so wants to promise Varadha anything he wants, anything he asks for, never wants Varadha to cry again in this life if Deva can help it, but he can’t promise this.

Varadha seems to notice his hesitation. “Ok. Don’t promise. Just.. just say you’ll try your best. At least give me that.”

Deva sighs. It’s the best he’ll get. He tries to lift his arm up to put his hand in Varadha’s awaiting hand, but it takes him a few seconds to get there. He pretends not to notice the way Varadha’s face falls as he sees how badly Deva’s hand is shaking. 

“Fine. I’ll try my best to not be reckless again.” 

Varadha frowns. “Try to keep your word Deva, please. Don’t make me go through this again.” His voice drops into a whisper, and another tear slowly makes its way down Varadha’s face. “I thought I lost you.”

Deva doesn’t know how to respond to Varadha being this honest with him, this vulnerable. He’s never been good with comforting words, so he attempts to shrug and tell a joke to cheer Varadha up, but fights back a groan at the searing pain in his shoulders as he attempts to lift them. Varadha’s eyes track the movement and the subsequent twitch of pain, and Deva internally winces at the resurgence of guilt he can see in them. 

“Varadha… Rey. It wasn’t your fault. It was fully my decision to challenge the pailwan.” 

Varadha visibly debates responding to that, but seems to realize Deva’s just as stubborn as him, and gives up. “Whatever.” He fidgets for a few seconds, then comes to a decision. He looks Deva in the eyes. “I’ll always be there for you, raa. You know that, right?” 

“Of course I know that,” Deva says, confused.

Varadha shakes his head. “No, I mean, what your mom was saying earlier… she’s wrong. If this does fuck you up in the future, when you’re older, I’ll be there to take care of you. No matter what I’m doing, no matter where you are, I’ll find you, and I’ll be there for you.” There’s determination in his eyes, and Deva knows he meant what he said, every bit of it. 

Deva gives him a small smile, floored by the depth of affection Varadha has for him. 

Varadha frowns at his reaction. “Unbelievable. You actually thought I’d let you do something like this and then not take care of you afterwards. Yedava.” He settles back onto Deva’s chest. “You won’t get rid of me that easily, don’t worry.” Varadha moves so his ear is directly over Deva’s heart. Deva feels a warmth slowly expand inside him as he realizes Varadha’s trying to comfort himself by listening to Deva’s heartbeat. 

“Does it hurt a lot?” Varadha asks softly, tracing the feathering marks on the back of Deva’s arm. 

“Not at all,” Deva says, and Varadha scoffs, but is it even a lie? He gets to feel his Varadha’s cheek pressed into his chest, gets to hear him all but explicitly say that Deva is someone he genuinely loves and cares for. What more could he want? 

They sit in silence like that for a while, enjoying each other’s company. 

Before he slips back into unconsciousness, Deva can hear footsteps coming back into the room, then stopping abruptly. He knows Varadha is asleep by now, can feel the even pattern of his breaths, and he himself probably looks asleep as well. There’s silence, then a hushed “Dhaara, what are we going to do about this?”

Deva fights to stay awake, wants to hear the response to that, but is rapidly losing the battle.

The last thing he hears is an amused, “I suppose we’ll have to start being nicer to Raja Mannar, if he’s going to be part of our family in a few years.” 

-

[bardnuts]

But how long did they think we could walk, we could sing

Before our voices gave out and our limbs gave in

x x

[misc-obeyme]

(Pouring some thoughts here)

I've always had this headcanon that Solomon had children, who he outlived, in the past.

Sometimes I would imagine that if he were to have children again (let's say with MC), he needs to prepare what he's getting into. The highs and lows of fatherhood for an immortal. Once again, he would experience the wonders of nurturing a vulnerable individual who seeks his love and protection while sorrow simultaneously consuming him as he ponders on the future where he would be the one who has to bury his child.

I've kind of thought of this, too.

I think with any children Solomon may have had back in his normal human life span days (like I dunno in his thirties or something), he might not know that he would end up burying them. It depends on when he becomes immortal. Like he might have had kids before he became immortal, you know?

But I think that by the time MC comes around, he's fully aware of what he's getting into. He's going to have to bury MC some day, too.

But wouldn't it also be joyful for him to watch someone he loves and the children he had with them live fulfilling regular human lives? Wouldn't he cherish watching them grow old, even if it means they're leaving him behind? They'll get to experience a phase of life that he never will. And if those children then have more children and so on and so forth? He can follow his own family throughout the generations. It's going to be lonely, but it'll also be full. And in the end, I think Solomon would realize that his life is better with them than without them. Even if it's brief. Even if he has to say goodbye when his children are old. Assuming they die of old age, those kids of his will be in their 80s and 90s when he finally buries them. And they'll probably hold his hand before they pass and tell him they had a beautiful life thanks to him. Inevitably bittersweet, but isn't the pain worth the joy, too?

[blubujollyrancher]

that relatable moment when you assumed the girl you used to care for perished in a tragic lab ablaze incident and only realized she still lived when you stumble upon her years later after you've erased yourself from everyone's memories and now she no longer remembers you

[cookiescr]

Healing is so fucking weird man like few days ago I was crying the whole day and now I'm fine even in the mention of the things I'm healing from and also anything that reminded me of them?? I am afraid of three things: that I have stopped caring, that I am suppressing my emotions or that I would get used to the calm and not be able to handle it again when something triggers my emotions

[paimt]

woag. vibeo game?

(very rough still)

(but now theres more colours)

[wishwandrers]

Dark Urge well he means so much to me

[guesswhosaninja]

do you ever hear the phrase "I was so scared of wasting a day that I nearly wasted my life" and have it haunt you for a month

there are so many times I've felt like I simply lost years, and you'll finally do something and realize you spent six months saying "I should do that soon" without doing anything or "I should get back to that" each day for months on end

[apocketfullofhobbits]

this day6 comeback is not hitting the spot for me ngl

[wereh0gz]

I will always be in awe of the sheer artistry and craftsmanship that goes into making fursuits

Like before I joined the fandom proper I didn't know just how much work needed to be put into them, and how much of a labor of love they are

Not only that but there's such a variety in styles and creative designs that I find myself appreciating almost every suit I come across. There's so much creativity on display and it's genuinely so inspiring I just can't get enough of seeing them

Fursuits are so cool man

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

HA I'm 100% not making this camp nanowrimo goal

[depoteka]

in some weird way that is truly hard to explain i knocked over an entire cup of tea straight on my phone and boxes of yarn. i'm gonna scream

[yuukimiyas]

૮꒰˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶꒱ა˖⁺‧₊˚ g’mornie & happy saturday lovies!! i gave myself a lil grace & let myself sleep in a lil longer than i usually do (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)⁾⁾⁾ now i am slowly but surely startin my day <33 lets try & continue to give ourselves a lil leeway as we move through the wknd w new emotions, feelings & experiences!! you’re doing GREAT & i am so PROUD of you!! ໒꒰ྀིㅅ´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა all my love forever!!