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seeing as it’s most likely the same prop just reused i like to imagine that it’s the same one and he rearranges his room sometimes. there’s something so innately slay about it to it’s core….love that
these aos bitches don’t know what they’re missing out on. “spocks room was minimalist and not very showy” oh girly do i have some news for you. this bitch has the most dramatic room i stg
#bitches will see someone rearrange their room and be like omg#soooo much slay can fit into this one man#idk i just like the idea that spock exists outside of the show#so even if we never see his room and his decorations aren’t really the focal point#he moves it around because it’s important to him and no one else#and i know i’m reading too far into it#but IDC!#i love this guy therefore i will make up random shit about him
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Holy shit I love your Dirk interpretations, it's so true and I could talk about this shit forever. I feel like another part of his character that people seem to forget (along with Roxy for some reason) is that he's from the future in solitude in an apocalyptic wasteland. I just see that part of his character always removed which is disappointing because I feel like that's a pretty big part, especially regarding his themes around technology, his brother's theme of Time, his own isolation, and how he plays in the vastness of the universe and spacetime.
Art I drew related to the subject because I like to respond to asks with art.
But absolutely. I certainly understand where the lack of discussion over his isolation + upbringing comes from, considering a majority of the fanbase that I have seen builds their ideas based on their own version of postcanon. I’m not entirely sure how that would be fixed, but certainly even in the somewhat recent past I would see a lot more content regarding his upbringing both literally and symbolically. I don’t have much to add regarding the things you’ve mentioned, because they just are what they are. Dirk being confined to a singular room left to him by a father figure he never met, in a future where the only other person left on the planet is someone he cannot pursue a relationship of because of himself, with purely 3 robots to keep him companion, one being an exact replica of his own brain who is *also* trapped inside a pair of glasses, is about as literal as it gets to me.
The contrast to me involving the flooded, organic world in comparison to the little speckle of Dirk’s apartment packed with the dude and his technics is not only a representation of his isolation and entrapment within himself, but also of his lack of control. I think his obsession with & themes of control are a direct product in the case of Dirk specifically *of* this kind of upbringing. His themes of technology are also related to his themes around control. So much of his character is actually revolved around this to me like so much. Dirk is so deeply disconnected from humanity in every way and so much of his character + symbolism is based around that.
It doesn’t even have to be about the symbolism or anything though. It’s just pretty *interesting* in the literal sense that he lives in the middle of the ocean in the future. There’s not only a lot to theorise on to do with his young life there, but on how it might affect him in the way he acts for the rest of his life. The latter part is probably what I see mentioned the most by people talking about Dirk regarding this, I’m surprised I don’t see more discussion on the former too though. I really ought to actually talk more about Homestuck stuff on here. I will do it myself.
Roxy & Dirk’s relationship is largely ignored though because there is a narrative a certain demographic spreads that Dirk resented and blamed Roxy for her interest in him, and thus too many people believe that their relationship was or would continue to be an abusive one. Realistically, I believe it’s important to acknowledge that the way Roxy treated Dirk regarding his homosexuality wasn’t right while still acknowledging the obvious amount of respect and admiration Dirk had for Roxy. I mean we have a huge piece of dialogue from their post trickster mode conversations on the quest beds from Dirk purely stating how he feels about Roxy that people completely ignore somehow. I think this usually happens to characters that are women though. I know everyone says it, but it is true. Jane gets the exact same treatment of boiling her down to solely her negative aspects. The things I see completely mischaracterising both of them are horrific.
I mean how much more explicit can it get that their relationship is obviously very important to Dirk? But I digress. I think the best or I should say “most interesting” interpretations of their relationship usually come from DirkRoxy shippers actually.
I would be interested to hear about Dirk’s relation to his brother’s theme of time though. I don’t have any thoughts on this and I don’t recall ever hearing anyone talk about it before. If you or anyone else would be willing to enlighten me I’d be thrilled.
#homestuck#homestuck fanart#hs fanart#dirk strider#blooby posting#ask#Sorry for taking so long to reply to you on this. I’ve been in more of a drawing than a speaking mood lately#which is very unusual for me. This is definitely not as much of a post as it could be but I’m still not back on my thought and speech game#I know the Roxy mention was in brackets but good lord the treatment Roxy gets from fanbase is insane. Couldn’t help myself#Sorry if anything is worded badly. I’m tired per usual#I think (with no malice in my heart) people just tend to leave out what they don’t like about characters though.#I was very briefly talking with Pomme johnegbertirl#and it got me thinking about how far a lot of people’s interpretations of characters stray from what would be realistic to canon#based on their own biases. Which I guess I probably do too to a certain degree.#I’m not one to judge people for their characterisations at all#I tend to be very forgiving when it comes to reads#but… I admit that is indeed a little disappointing to see how completely ignored some parts of his characters are.#Sorry for tangent that is tenuously related. It is relevant enough to shove haphazardly into tags#I’m glad you like my Dirk ramblings though. Thanks brother#We live on
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modern au and esen’s honkers are haunting the instagram feed
#id in alt text#yea this was inspired by That watermelon smashing vid#if u don’t know what i’m talking about you’re living a more peaceful life than i am#at first I was like hm maybe this is a bit too ooc for ouyang#then I remembered the 'doEs GeNerAL Xu pLAY thE FLuTE???' and I was like nah ok it checks out#no filter & accidentally revealing how much of a gayass he is is how he rolls#also rip Ma she's just trying to hang out with her boygf and that hideous Pest that Wretched Thang that useless twink#just manifests wherever zhu is and ruins the mood#she deserves to hatecrime him as much as possible#also I don't think esen is 100% aware he's posting blatant thirst traps. his insta is mostly pics of his horses and his beautiful eagle#then one vid of him doing mounted archery that breaks the internet for 3 weeks#rinse and repeat#also yeah wang's special skill is starting shit in the comments section#he would absolutely thrive in the toxic waste that is social media fights#ty for reading this far. more unhinged takes at 5#esen-temur#zhu yuanzhang#ma xiuying#general ouyang#the radiant emperor#she who became the sun#he who drowned the world#my art
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Wait. Oh my god I just. Something clicked and I need to be held now. St Trina is supposed to represent the part of Miquella that was able to heal others, genuinely and truly heal them, such that even the sickness would kneel and swear loyalty to her, for taking away its pain and misery (source: putrescent knight). Miquella’s needle represents a stop gap. A way of holding back and shielding one from the influence of outer gods. Pure, unalloyed kindness that can relieve you of even the pain of the scarlet rot, so long as it remains within you.
So when… when Malenia ripped out the needle… and sacrificed all her pride, honour and humanity in order to let the scarlet flower bloom in her fight with Radahn to guarantee her victory no matter the cost (Millicent is her humanity trying to return to herself, she is literally the rejection of the scarlet rot that Malenia feels, ejected from her body during the first blooming, I’ve gotta do a whole post on Millicent because she’s a fascinating character study with world building context of the DLC added)…
Doesn’t that mean she ripped out the literal kindness she felt from her own brother in order to do what she did? Dude wtf hold me. But wait it’s even worse because not only can she no longer feel her brother’s kindness protecting her, she didn’t have anyone or any way to put back the rot goddess. Unless… it was Finlay. Because as stated by putrescent knight’s remembrance, to be loved is to be healed (St Trina is Miquella’s love). So not only did Finlay carry the Scarlet Bloom all the way back to the Haligtree from Caelid, when Malenia awoke alone without her brother there anymore to help her heal making her bloom all over again, Finlay stepped in to help save her from herself. To be loved is to be healed. And Malenia was definitely both loved and healed because when we find her… she’s asleep. And St Trina, saint of healing and sleep, is love.
ELDEN RING LESBIANS CONFIRMED???
#let me have this#I know I’m reading too far shut up#I NEED THIS OKAY#my writing#elden ring#malenia blade of miquella#cleanrot knight finlay#malenia goddess of rot#malenia x finlay#shadow of the erdtree#saint trina#miquella the kind
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Too Hard
Woop part 2 of the trip inside Jamil's head. Part 1 here.
The next time Jamil caught sight of you on campus, his first instinct was to turn around on his heel.
What a stupid thought to have because of you.
Besides, that would only make him more conspicuous, not less.
So, when your eyes met his, Jamil gave you a short nod in greeting. He would’ve left it at that and kept on his way, had you not walked up to him.
“Hi Jamil! How’s it going?” you said with that impossibly disarming smile of yours.
Why was it so difficult to look at you like he normally would? You had no right to make him feel so stiff, so unnatural.
On autopilot, Jamil exchanged a few pleasantries with you - those lessons from his parents had been instilled too deep in him for him to falter too badly in a simple exchange such as this. Still, Jamil quickly excused himself by telling you he still had to find Kalim before his next class.
Jamil didn’t miss the way your smile faltered. Had you hoped to get something out of him?
“Oh, okay. I’ll see you two later, then.”
Something about that irked him, though Jamil did not allow himself to dwell on it further.
His heart really had no business still racing as it did when he walked away, unaware of the frown on his face.
Just act normal. That’s all he needed to do.
After all, he had no time for dwelling in silly fancies.
If Jamil had been acutely aware of you before, it only seemed to worsen now that he was making a conscious effort to not act any differently with you. In fact, the harder he tried to keep you out, the more you invaded his thoughts, unsettling him.
The most innocuous words from you looped in his mind, and even the simplest actions caught his eye. For goodness's sake, he’d found himself staring at you while you were queueing up in the cafeteria the other day, not even doing anything other than standing around and looking bored!
For once, Jamil found himself grateful for all his duties. At least they provided him with something else to occupy himself with.
After all, if he was busy enough, it was difficult to think about those bright eyes of yours, your sweet laugh, or the way you bit your lip while thinking.
Still, sometimes it felt like no matter which way he turned, you were there, ready to throw him off-kilter. Not like it was his fault that often the most convenient route to class intersected with your daily routines. Or that your face seemed to jump out from any crowd, catching his attention.
Which certainly did not help his basketball performance. Jamil certainly did not recall you having such an interest in sports before, yet suddenly you were always there, distracting him. What had changed?
Could you possibly-
Jamil scoffed to himself, forcing his thoughts back on track for the nth time that day.
He picked up the tray of food and started taking it to Kalim. After dinner, he’d need to help Kalim with his homework, there were some housewarden tasks that would need dealing with, not to mention the preparations for the next-
Jamil froze in his tracks.
The voice he heard was quiet, but it was unmistakably you.
Really, it should not have come as such a surprise to him. You had become a rather frequent visitor to Scarabia, and Kalim often invited you to stay for meals. In fact, Jamil had started planning the dorm’s meal prep with your tastes and dietary restrictions in mind, just in case.
Jamil rounded the corner with strange exhilaration, his heart fluttering needlessly.
Yet, his mood evaporated when he saw you.
Why did you stop talking and look so guilty as soon as you caught sight of Jamil?
Jamil knew that look you gave to Kalim, had used it himself a thousand times. The one telling Kalim to keep quiet about something.
What could there possibly be that you would be comfortable sharing with Kalim, but not with him? That would give Kalim reason to sit so close to you, a comforting hand on your shoulder?
Jamil's mind raced with possibilities, yet could not settle for any single explanation.
He’d have to ask Kalim about it later.
Jamil gave you a short, polite greeting, his eyes lingering on you in an attempt to read what you were hiding.
“If I’d known you were coming over, I would’ve prepared something for you to eat as well,” Jamil said, already thinking about which parts of the dorm’s dinner to spruce up for you.
“Oh, no need, just figured I’d pop by. I’ll get out of your hair soon enough,” you said, something sheepish about your expression.
As expected, Kalim asked you to stay and dine with them, and with just a bit more persuasion you agreed - though not before telling Jamil that he should join you too and have himself a breather.
And since Kalim agreed with you, Jamil soon found himself sharing a meal with you and Kalim. Yet, even as he sat down with the food, his mind raced.
Had you been getting particularly close to Kalim lately? But surely Jamil would’ve noticed such a thing. Maybe someone from the dorm had been giving you trouble? But if that was the case, then surely you could let Jamil know about it, too. Unless for some reason you did not want to? But if it was something that concerned Kalim, then sooner or later it was bound to concern Jamil, too.
All the while, Kalim was talking to you about this and that, the latest topic being the animals kept on the Asim estate.
“I’ve got some pictures, let me show you!” Kalim said with an excited grin.
Only, a thorough patting of his pockets and a look around confirmed that Kalim’s phone was nowhere to be seen.
Jamil pinched the bridge of his nose. Where had Kalim left it this time?
Before Jamil even had the chance to say that he would handle it, Kalim sprinted off. Jamil hesitated for a moment, automatically halfway up from his seat, before he decided that leaving a guest unattended would be a worse offense than not helping out his master.
Jamil slumped back down with a sigh, mentally tracing the path Kalim took today, trying to recall the last time he saw Kalim handle his phone.
“Breathe. He’ll manage,” you said. There was the faintest of smiles on your lips, and Jamil could not decide if it was knowing or amused. Perhaps both.
Somehow, despite his frustration, Jamil’s own lips wanted to curl up too.
“Hmm. Maybe he will.”
Sure, Jamil could’ve called Kalim’s phone, to make it easier to find, but it was not that urgent, was it?
Jamil took another bite of his food, keeping an eye on you from the corner of his eye.
How was his mind so empty and so buzzing at the same time?
“You know-”
“So-”
You looked at each other, both just as surprised that the other had spoken up at the same time.
Even your surprised look was so-
“You first,” Jamil said. The way you bit your lip... Jamil had to raise a cup to his lips, slowly sipping his drink.
“Just… Feels like it’s been quite a while since I’ve seen you be still, you know. Or exchanged more than two words with you,” you said. You were attempting a light, joking tone, yet it was quite clear there was more to it.
“You say that like it would be unusual for me to be busy.”
He was not prepared for the way your soft sigh tugged at his heartstrings.
“No. It is not.”
You were both quiet after, poking at your meals. Normally, Jamil would’ve cherished such a moment of peace, yet this particular silence between you two was decidedly awkward.
Where was your usual chatter? Why weren’t you looking at him like you usually did?
“If you’re worried about me, don’t. I’m fine,” Jamil said, some softness creeping into his tone despite his best intentions.
“That's what Kalim said too,” you said. Yet the way you looked at Jamil made it clear you were still skeptical.
Wait.
Had you clammed up earlier because it had been Jamil you had been talking about with Kalim? That Kalim had comforted you about?
The thought twisted his stomach into knots.
Eta: you can find part 3 here, part 4 here, and finally part 5 here. Hasdhfsdf the way I fought with that last scene I swear. I don't even want to know how many versions I went through, trying to figure out how to say what I wanted without rubbing it into your face or making it too veiled. The joys of trying to convey things through a limited pov. Hopefully it came out reasonably balanced in the end. Rip to all those sentences that were lovely on their own but didn’t work for the whole. Hopefully I can rehome y’all one day. I do have thoughts for part 3 and part x (might be some chapters between those two as well, who knows at this point), so maybe we'll see those at some point, too. Tag list: @colliope @crystallizsch @diodellet @jamilsimpno69 @jamilvapologist @twstgo If you'd like to be tagged for future works, let me know! (Just be aware that sometimes I do also write nsfw, though you can certainly ask to be tagged only for particular kinds of works.)
#twisted wonderland#jamil viper#twisted wonderland x reader#jamil viper x reader#ner writes#jamil definitely knows how to deal with his feels#also writing this is making me wonder how aware jamil is of his inner versus outer life#like he’s very aware of how he comes across because that’s what he’s been told to watch out for#but how well has he truly learned to understand himself and his own feelings wants etc?#(I mean as you can tell I’m assuming not very well)#originally this went to more of a “jamil hears just the wrong part of the conversation” route but#a) I kinda hate that trope especially when it’s dragged on beyond belief and#b) Kalim maybe doesn’t want to spill anyone’s secrets but he really is such an open book especially with Jamil so#also it’s not like jamil needs the extra help to catastrophize he already does that well enough on his own 🙃#tho then I went a little too far in the other direction and had to pull back#but let's just hope I didn't edit this to death by now#also also: since I seem to have a bit of a naming theme going on for this series#if I were to be the sort to go for the angst route what part would definitely be titled Too Late or something along those lines#also x3 but loved folks commenting on that part about reader being inoffensive in the first part#I certainly had fun writing that line#(and in general extra love to everyone who leaves comments on tags replies wherever always great to read those)#(and in general chat with y'all)
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it’s like baby gorl there’s no way I, the author who wrote the fic you’re commenting on and who is the intended audience for this comment, am gonna agree with you 😿🙏 some things can just stay on your chest 🙏
#there’s a threshold I think of what I accept in comments about characters#and their actions or about who is in the wrong or what should happen#because I do like reading people’s opinions#and sometimes when someone is like I didn’t like obi-wan in this fic#I’m like makes sense! maybe you weren’t supposed to or maybe the argument they had was supposed to not be clear cut on who is right#because arguments in real life don’t always have a clear cut winner or morally superior person lmao#I’m ok with that I’m ok with comments saying boo this character is annoying#because sometimes they just are (eg the amount of people who just don’t like obiwan in pbatmb like?? yeah of course he’s not gonna be nice#but I digress lol#anyway but there’s a threshold of when comments about not liking a character go too far and you’re just like.#saying mean things about the writing itself and that’s not something lm gonna allow to be normalized#no matter the intention behind it#you do not type a comment like this knowing it wil be send to an author#who will get an email notification about a comment#click on it and go oooo long comment :D and then go oh.#you don’t do that it’s rude it’s being a jerk#I’ve been here for like 3 almost 4 years I feel ancient in this fandom sometimes#and I’ve gotten so much feedback on my work through that time and so many nice comments and community#but mean comments can really hurt especially new writers#and they can make people who maybe would write fic for a fandom decide to not#like this isn’t even that mean I can almost see the writer just wanting to say how they feel#but sometimes you do not have to 🙏#also I just think this understanding of the characterizations in the fic and probably their understanding of the characters in the films#is a wee bit trash but that’s for me to say in the long tags of my own blog post and not for me to comment on their fics for the fandom#(they don’t have any but I did check because 3am kit felt nosy)
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A completely normal marriage portrait
#I LOVE THIS FIC SO FAR GUYS#BUT I MADE THE MISTAKE OF NOT READING THE WORD COUNT#IM SIX CHAPTERS IN I CANT STOP NOW#SAVE ME#I am weary with contending#goodtimewithscar fanart#grian fanart#desert duo#scarian#hermitshipping#I’ll do something with mumbo for this fic i promise#I just had a vision and needed to draw what I thought their portrait would look like#the mumscarian is too strong#I have a larger vision for this specific drawing but we’ll see if it gets done#scar good times is a very smart man and would never marry an assassin#and his wife is absolutely human and definitely human and also is not planning to kill him#and genuinely no one knows what’s happening between him and her bodyguard#but it’s definitely something#i’m having so much fun#pigin is artistic
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something about when you choose the other to dismantle the wards near the end of the game Neve or Bellara will disapprove of your decision. and like I can’t see another reason for that except that both of them wanted to protect the other, just in case it went wrong. and when something does go wrong and one of them gets kidnapped? i can only imagine the guilt and fear they’re feeling, wishing they’d argued with you more and insisted on being the one to dismantle them to save the other from that fate, hoping beyond hope that the other is still alive… their relationship kills me it really does
#bellara lutare#neve gallus#veilguard spoilers#I’ve only played where Bellara gets kidnapped so far and Neve just sits in Bel’s room#and the dialogue implies she’s been staying there for days. like she’s waiting for Bellara to come back despite knowing she won’t#and i can only assume Bellara does the same thing if Neve has been kidnapped#i saw someone post dialogue that was Bellara saying they told each other everything. how many times did they sit in each other’s rooms and#just talk about everything they were facing. their fears. their hopes. silly things too like book club and serials. about Neve’s cases and#stories about Cyrian. the potential romances brewing in the lighthouse.#my Rook romanced Neve and did Neve admit to Bellara how she felt before she even told Rook?#did Bellara pick up on it and get overexcited but stop herself when she saw Neve getting genuinely emotional about it?#did Bellara make them sweets to eat while they sat on Bellara’s bed and helped plot out her novel? while Neve rambled about her theories#for the case and Bellara listened and added input from reading her serials#I’m insane about their dynamic it’s just so… genuinely sweet and soft
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Righteous Hand of The Father
What Were You Made For?
#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#az doods#not gonna lie I’m really proud of this one#I genuinely do not know how to draw a helmet from this position I struggled so bad#I found zero reference#and I’ve stared at it for far too long#is this any good?????????#I SAW THE LIKES#YAYYYYYYYY#phew there’s 0 notes for 20min I thought I did Bad (likely just a time zone thing I probably did ok)#<33333#edit:#hmm#did I do Bad????????#if ur reading my notes feel free to tell me I Did Bad#I genuinely cannot tell right now#would’ve deleted but there’s already one (1) reblog so I’ll let it live#grant it mercy from being incinerated#o7
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they are fukuzawa’s boys, adopted twins, and menaces to the yokohama police
(pls do not tag as beast)
#oriondrewthis#bungou stray dogs#bungou sd#bsd ranpo#bsd odasaku#i’m glad everyone likes my extremely self indulgent au#i’ve literally been thinking about it for three years and it’s like free therapy istg#as far as i’m aware there aren’t really any fics about this au#but i could be extremely wrong about that idk i haven’t read too many bsd fics if i’m being honest#i have a personal google doc full of hcs and drabbles that i’ve been adding onto for years#but that’s really about it#i know i’m not the only one who’s thought about this concept#i just have never interacted with anyone who shares the sentiments who aren’t my friends who i’ve forced the concept onto#i will defo be drawing more of them in the future especially considering. canon events currently agskdjdkd#but yeah thank you for the love 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽#they are brothers your honor#oh it’s very important but ranpo is older#by five days but it doesn’t matter he’s older and that’s what’s important#yes i am ignoring that technically in canon ranpo would’ve been 22 in dark era#and odasaku is canonically 23 in dark era#this is my self indulgent au and i make the rules#two pillars au
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Almost back home!!! I’ve been away for two weeks and I haven’t had good internet connection. Looking forward to getting back home.
I’ve been quiet cause of it, so how about a shop/merch update!! The products from my shop have already gone through a round of proofs this last week after I placed the order (as some files had gotten mixed up). I’m hoping the products finish their manufacturing and are shipped to me within this next week or so!
I’ve ordered extras of everything to put up in the shop as “in stock” after I send out my preorders, also ordered a few items as samples. They had a higher MOQ (minimum order quantity) so if they turn out well, I’d like to do a giveaway with some of them!
#I know I’ve been kind of quiet in general lately too apologies for that#gonna be honest and life has been pretty rough lately#general TW I reference death below#two incidents happened a few months ago regarding almost losing brother and losing a cousin to horrible situations#and it’s really been very difficult to deal with and has brought on a lot of haze and mental dullness or inability to focus#and tbh even months later it’s still been very difficult#it’s why I’ve probably come across as closed off or absent these last few months#so just explaining that#I’m still overcoming it but I believe I’m doing better now#I have been unable to mentally pull myself together enough to successfully create any content like fics or art#though I’m trying very hard#it is getting easier too. I have written a lot more on vacation than I’ve mana fed to write in a long time#I still love and appreciate PLA and submas so so much that just hasn’t been able to manifest in content creation lately#but it has manifested in buying merch haha#when I get home I may just show my collection#I am still alive in this fandom#if you’ve read this far thank you#and thank you for sticking around while I’ve been quiet!!
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“If you’ll pardon the observation, you appear to be in your underthings.” “…Yes.”
I am once again asking you all to read Mortal Follies pls and thank you
#myart#i love them so much#stupid sapphic bitches#mortal follies#alexis hall#CURRENTLY I am reading 10 things that never happened#Which is fantastic so far I have like 3 chapters left and it’s the gay xmas novel I didn’t know I needed?#But yeah these girls…………. ThESE LADIES#xoxo I love you maelys & georgiana#Let’s b real if I were the Duke of Annadale I too would be down ferocious for the naked woman outside the party that just appeared whilst#I was just trying to have a smoke#How often does that happen honestly#Anyway#yeah no I’m realizing I’m posting this to the wrong account but I#too tired to rewrite the post now ? Ah well
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hohoho i am writing a remus & sirius confrontation that is ending up a little too mean and it’s verging on the edge of not fitting into FoD but by god, is it satisfying 😈😈😈
“Oh, stop pretending, Remus.” There’s a part of Sirius, not insignificant, that tells him to shut the fuck up. To bite back the words as he’d always done. They don’t expect it of him but he is perfectly capable of maintaining a civil tongue when needed. He just doesn’t want to, today. “You’ve always resented us, haven’t you?”
“Padfoot, do you even hear yourself—?” Remus’ amber eyes are bright, almost feverish, and Sirius knew that all he had to do was push.
So he did.
- brought to u by ‘i’ve been thinking about remus and i also recently read a fic that blindsided me w commentary on james’ and sirius’ social positions intimidating remus into compliance as an excuse for his cowardice and general temperament and got incredibly annoyed at how he is, yet again, victimised so i shall now endeavour to turn that idea around on its head using the ‘ol ‘u cannot help someone who does not want to be helped’ adage so help me god’
#u only need one guess to know who is mean#which i have promptly negated by adding that little snippet lol#there’s two distinct threads to this scene#i don’t think the two of them fit#so i’ll have to choose one and put the other in the graveyard doc#but honestly? even the first one has devolved into a ramble#that is now taking away from the power of its dialogue i envisioned#but james really needed some screen time from beyond the grave? so we have sirius slipping into musings ab hogwarts and his family#i rly like that tangent too tho#but there is a very specific grievance that i need sirius to air w remus#it’s not the usual how could u believe i killed them or even how did u think i betrayed james or why didn’t u check on harry#all of that shows that sirius still *cares* about remus and his opinion#i’m playing w the idea of him just. not. giving a shit. he’s more interested in forcing remus to confront some hard truths ab himself#hmmmm now that i’m thinking out loud. that makes sense#and would fit almost perfectly after the remus & harry conversation i’d put in the outline#huh#there really is something to this talking out loud method huh#truly a brainstorm#if you’ve read this far#my salute and thanks to u 🫡#pen’s writing
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how do i turn qantoine’s spontaneous marriage proposal to qetoiles into evidence of his early-days fear of qfrench drifing away and keeping secrets from one another
#the conversation takes place in antoine’s vod: L’ANNIVERSAIRE DE TALLULAH at 41 mins ish#like . okay . its such a fucking crazy moment to me that still lives in my head bc it’s a a joke . but it’s also not#he asks etoiles directly after spiderbit wedding . ‘don’t you want to get married?’#after it gets mentioned*#etoiles turns him down bc he ‘doesn’t have time to fuck [he] needs to kill everyone’#and antoine says ���well but— just a marriage’ like it’s the act itself that is the most important to him not anything that could come with it#the confirmation of partnership . of having someone to rely on . something that feels to him maybe more certain and solid than the#friendships antoine had at that point . like if he felt things were slipping and he was being left behind he wanted the certainty of#something like a marriage that is traditionally considered More important and certain .#and i think the end of their conversation is notable in how antoine brings up the notion of betrayal — he getting betrayed by others and how#he’s fed up with it . after etoiles says no to the marriage (though specifying that he’s gonna think about it) antoine brings the whole#betrayal thing up after a pause . he doesn’t necessarily consider etoiles as having betrayed him but it’s that lack of certainty#certainty that etoiles has refused to give him that makes him start to open up about how he’s tired of people promising him things (or#seeming to promise him things) only to leave him out and in the dark . and there’s an insecurity there that really shines if you take this#moment into consideration with the Larger Shifting his character is going through .#like tldr ; qantoine has begun to realise that his friends are starting to form deeper bonds with other people and thus keep secrets with#them which to him means leaving him behind . taking notice of this he brings this up to his friends in . not exactly direct ways . he#talks about how he doesn’t like secret keeping but doesn’t seem to push much further and he also tries to remedy the issue#of feeling left behind by doing shit as discussed above ^ however on account of the InHuman i’m not sure he understands what he’s doing very#well . and as we know antoine doesn’t make much progress and ends up retreating into himself and beginning to keep his own secrets . to do#his own shady shit . to work in the shadows and not be honest with any of his friends either . to hold them at arm’s length despite how much#he still cares . the only person he puts his full trust into anymore is pomme . not ayp who he deems too underhanded . not bagz who he sees#as having started the whole ‘secret keeping’ stuff in the first place . and not etoiles who’s actively going down a path with the codes and#resistance that he cannot follow#that was NOT a short tldr . why the fuck am i writing dissertation length tags about MINECRAFT BLOCKS#god whatever who cares i get joy out of this thats what matters#anw if you read this far holy shit ur insane . thank you#i am going to bed now godbless !#jay rambles#qfrench.posting
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So many things about Babs and her community that I think about. Like even her work as a librarian would have been influenced by how to support the vulnerable people in her community. Like it isn’t just about getting people to read and the joy of reading etc. because books and those ideas themselves don’t mean there is always action. Also the library offers great resources and given Babs interest in community and the work you see her get into later.. It would have been great if when Babs was originally in a relationship with Jason Bard if together they would have had projects and brought attention to disability awareness. Also given both their parents there would have been other things they would have cared about too like how to help single mothers and rehabilitation etc. Like it’s just amazing that so much of her work has been community based outside of identity and could have been more so if they have touched on more things as well.
#idk I’m thinking of something somebody said#writers do get their views and roots from somewhere#like the idea about Babs just making a guess about wires when she is reminiscing in Cassandra’s Batgirl run#babs is highly intelligent and has the map of Gotham tattooed to her heart#The diminishing of her skills isn’t new and it can go as far back as her original tenure as Batgirl#and then you KNOW why it was written a certain way#her time as Oracle was also written by no wheelchair users so there is also that to consider too when reading#also going back to writers like I feel like you really need to think why sometimes write things instead of just following eveything they say#like do you think it makes sense? would certain choices make sense for a character?#biggest example is the mess that ended up being Jason Todd#and the hate he got as Robin because of where he came from and how writers felt about that#also how writers felt about it too when writing Red Hood#the racism with Talia etc#the list goes on and on#barbara gordon#delete later
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omg i forgot to tell you guys but i was fully dying last night roommate storytime
for context: my roommate, let’s call her cece, is the most cliche tiktok theatre kid girl you could ever imagine. we did random roommates so we don’t have that much in common; she likes to go out to clubs and frats and shit and i spent my night last night doing a puzzle. dichotomy of man
anyways, i was back in the room getting ready to gts and she comes BURSTING into the room and immediately starts stripping 😭😭 i’m like “hi cece….whatcha doing..” and she jumps a foot in the air bc she didn’t see me. keep in mind i am not doing anything secretive or hiding, like i’m just standing there.
she starts going on this crazy tangent abt how she’s a horrible person and is abt to do this horrible thing and i immediately clock that she is drunk off her ass 😭 she’s also just standing there in her bra and underwear and i am looking so hard at the ceiling bc wtf am i supposed to do in that situation
and idk if i misheard her but i swear she said to me “i’m going to fuck my best friends boyfriend” 😀🤨 she’s also changing into like a lacy babydoll??? like hello!!!!??
so i’m thinking : ok this girl has been on a self sabotaging streak recently (another story for another day) and she is in no position to be doing anything like that rn so i guess it’s my job to talk her out of doing this disastrous thing
so i say “cece don’t fuck your best friends boyfriend. that’s crazy.” and she goes “nononono not fucking, eye fucking. i eye fuck everyone when i’m drunk.” which i can confirm bc she was doing it to me at this exact moment, i am still staring at the ceiling
so i’m like ok fine that’s ur prerogative as long as ur not compromising urself do what u want. but she’s conscious enough to know that if she keeps eye fucking this guy her best friend is going to be paranoid abt it?? and like have a horrible night?? but she’s not gonna stop!!!??? whatever
and then this is where i start dying bc she starts comparing herself to ME 😭😭😭😭
she’s like “ugh molly you’re so cute and wholesome, like spending ur night with ur game group and ur puzzle ugh i want to be like youuuuu” full drunk girl whining and like spinning around and i straight up had to bite my fist
bc i was doing the aforementioned puzzle bc she had sexiled me abt 2 hrs before
but she’s in this like playboy cover lingerie set going BACK OUT to her friends room, full sprinting across our room bc she keeps forgetting shit, has not said a coherent sentence once, and is talking abt how i’m a cute little wholesome person and she wants to be like me. i feel like i’m tripping on something
and then this is the best part i’m quoting this verbatim
“and while i’m about to go do this HORRIBLE thing because i’m a HORRIBLE person YOUREEEE gonna be in here in the room probably writing some cute fun story which by the way you should probably post on AO3 bc if i ever figure out how to work AO3 i bet i’d find ur stuff and i bet it’s be so good but i’d never tell you i found ur stuff bc i wouldn’t know but i would know because you look like you’d be a good writer okay BYEEEEE!”
and then she slams the door and is gone until 3 am. this was in a span of abt 4 minutes
#i have never once told her i wrote fanfic#i told her i’m a writer#that’s it#so crazy that she extrapolated that far but if the shoe fits i guess#also she cracks me up bc she thinks she’s SO WEIRD#like those girls on tiktok who are like ‘guys say they want a weird girl until they find out i watch anime 🙊 and read AO3 😝😝’#she told me one night ‘i’m doing something so weird and crazy tn’#i say what#bc obviously i’m gonna ask she’s baiting me#and after coaxing it out of her for like 5 minutes she says#i’m downloading wattpad 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭#and i spongebob cartoon blink at her#bc open on my computer#is 7 tabs of my wips#i was making the last call and masterpiece master lists at that very moment#and not to say that i’m especially weird#like i know i’m a dork but it’s not like i’m off the charts weird#but like#cmon#it’s just funny to me#she also said she wrote percy jackson fanfic as a young girl acting like it was the most galling thing someone could do#at that point in time i was being way too young on the internet and balls deep into johnlock discourse on tumblr.com#she’s so silly#also i was supposed to be studying rn i spent 30 minutes typing this story out#i’m gonna fail my exam tmrw so i’m being hashtag avoidant#off my rocker
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