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reo brainrot is plaguing my mind so here's some short bf hcs !!!!!
note ; oh my god this was rotting in my drafts since NOVEMBER. finally got the energy to finish the last one my gosh..
bf reo mikage whose mood completely depends on yours !
his classmates find it silly how you could be sitting on your chair feeling down because of a low test score you got and reo would be there beside you, seemingly sad too, but because of what?? he got an A+ on the same test after all..? his family finds it relieving to see reo smiling beamingly whenever you're smiling, you wouldn't even be smiling directly at him yet he'd still look gleeful! his teammates find it weird how reo could be mad at them, yelling and yelling, shouting and shouting, reminding them to play properly and get their act together and then you come in unannounced with a box of cookies and that same smile reo adores, suddenly his eyes light up and he's squealing when you come closer to him as if he just didn't swear the living shit out of his teammates. if reo could do cartwheels and frontflips, he would've done those on the way to you because he is just so madly in love with youuuuu!!!!
bf reo mikage who absolutely loves hearing go on and on and on about your day !
he especially loves it more when you're spilling tea about people from your class. i mean yeah he knows it's bad but he can't help it? the way you're so focused on telling him an almost 3 minute gossip about this one girl in your history class is all he needs to just lay there on bed with you as he caresses your hair. those moments seldom happen, it usually has you having him lay on your chest while you talk about the funny incident at math class where your teacher forgot about the quiz that was supposed to be taken today and how you got 2 drinks from the vending machine instead of one because you had stumbled over air and hit the machine harshly which caused another drink to fall down. oh and he sees your eyes glimmer up and how you almost always run out of breath because you just have so much to tell him! even if he's always clinging to you either by interlocking arms or grabbing your waist, you'll always have some stories to ramble that even he doesn't know off!
bf reo mikage who impulsively buys anything he sees in stores that remind you of him !
it's a bad habit of his but is it really that bad when he gets to feel you embrace him when he shows you the new matching keychains he bought the two of you? though you tend to scold him for spoiling you rotten, nothing will ever stop him from buying you gifts and trinkets because that's his love language! passing by popmart and sees the mofusand hippers? automatically buys FIVE because he thought they looked like you whenever you were zoning out which is a telltale sign that you badly needed reo to give you a piggyback ride home, not that he minded it though. he's scrolling through facebook and an ad for a jacket pops up? he's already buying two versions, one for you and one for him so that you guys can match! reo def gets offended when you ask him how much they cost and that you'll pay him back because he is your BOYFRIENDDD, he will buy those gifts with NO intention of getting something back.
bf reo mikage who lets you do all sorts of hairstyles on him !
he will also proudly show it off when you guys are at school too, he could care less about what other people think because why would he? his s/o did that hairstyle for him so why should he be ashamed? you would see a cute hairstyle post whilst scrolling through Tiktok and wanted to try it out, but before doing it on you, what better way to see if it was cute by trying it out on your boyfriend? reo wouldn't even try to say no because he wouldn't mind it at all, plus it was a good way to spend time with you. you would let him hold your phone as you try to follow the steps in the video as quickly yet properly as you can. after a few mistakes and redos, you had finished the look and dare you say, it may fit him better than you.. reo looked really good even though the hairstyle was a bit on the feminine side. he'd keep it on for the entire day, not caring or doing anything when the teachers tell him to take it off (rich boy privileges LMAO) oh and later on, you'd also put pins and hairclips on him too! the ones that matched his hair and eyes! this would also be a frequent sleepover activity the two of you do, reo would set up a space in his room dedicated to THIS specific thing!!!
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you appear to draw isaac and gerard as being very physically close. cuddly even (:3c), and i want to learn more about this specific aspect because its so cute.. were they always like that? did they have to build up a lot of trust in each other first? how do they see and engage with touch? are/were they ever touch starved?
Drawing a made for the ask lalalala
First of all, thanks for the question! <3
In Gerard's case he used to touch Isaac's hands for example or shoulders to basically indicate he was safe with him and also try to communicate he wanted something more than a friendship with him when they were starting to know each other. I feel like even tho Gerard doesn't consider he's romantic himself in a traditional way i feel he actually is-- (Like when Susana Gimenez asked Charly Garcia if he was romantic and he said yes and Susana asked him "really? You like a dinner, with roses and candles??" And he said "i said im romantic, not stupid" lmao) He calls bitch pet names and cute things even tho she's always abusive towards him, he still tries, so imagine how much freedom could he have with someone like Isaac, a guy that has an anxious attachedment style. I feel he is the way he is in the game as a way of self defense, a way for him to cope with all the shit he has to go through all the time xD so he can't show much emotion or tries to hide it with humor, but in Isaac's world, this paradise isn't so bad, it's more,,, realistic. He doesn't have the constant need to hide his needs in a relationship like he used to (Well, only in private since ... its the 90s-2000s, duh). Gerard started to be more expressive with his physical touch towards Isaac as went time on, cuz of isaac's delusions of people being infected or sinful (this last one mostly because of his alters, for example, Demon) and also so Isaac could have time to process his own feelings, being someone who tries/tried to be a devoted christian this relationship felt wrong in all senses, it took him some time to accept he indeed liked him. Isaac isn't someone who would be nagging you on the streets is he saw you in, for example, a gay relationship, he's ignorant mostly, he doesn't have evil intentions (he also uses this ignorant/innocent view as a way to cope with his own emotions towards man).
While in Isaac's case, once he accepted it/half accepted it started to do your typical couple stuff, only in private, he gets mad when Gerard holds his hand on public and even tho this bothers Gerard a little bit he just can't complain, he understands but also well... his wife was much worst than this. Isaac feels safe cuddling with him, he feels like nothing wrong can happend when he's around (even tho Gerard's bad luck follows him everywhere lol), sometimes when he's having strong episodes because of his delusion it feels like he and him are the only non infected. Isaac has BPD so touch and words mean a lot to him even tho he isn't the best showing his love in a conventional way + he's non verbal for most of the time, it's like they both have two different types of autism lol
I think that's all i have to say about this at least for now, i'm still working on the ship but these types of questions really help me to understand and think of ways to improve it, thanks a lot for the question once again, i'm glad people are interested in knowing about my au/ship.
The song i used as lyrics for the drawing (i love this Tribute so much, please go check it out):
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hellooo!! what would rapper!chris do if singer!reader got overwhelmed at a event/ red carpe and is having a hard time calming down?
ā.Ėā® rapper!chris always eases singer!reader's anxiety
the flashing lights are everywhereāwhite bursts burning into your vision, too fast and too bright to avoid. photographers shout your names like itās a sport, each voice blending into a chaotic roar.
chris stands tall beside you, unfazed by the madness, his confident smirk on his lips. you, however, feel your chest tightening, breath hitching as the noise and crowd close in.
your fingers curl into the sequins of your dress, gripping tight like itāll somehow ground you. your heart pounds in your ears, louder than the voices around you.
"you good, mama?" chrisās voice cuts through the chaos, low and smooth like it always is.
you blink up at him, trying to nod, but the movement feels stiff and unconvincing.
his smirk fades, replaced by something softerāsomething only you get to see. "nah," he says under his breath, "you aināt good."
before you can argue, his hand finds yours, warm and steady. he pulls you closer, shielding you slightly from the relentless flashes.
"jus' breathe," he murmurs, leaning down so only you can hear. "in, out. slow, baby."
his voice is the only thing cutting through the static now, smooth and familiar, grounding you when the rest of the world feels like too much.
you stare at the line of his jaw, sharp under the bright lights, and focus on the rise and fall of his chest instead of the chaos swirling around you.
"aināt shit out here that can touch you, kid," he says low, keeping that same protective calm. his breath tickles your ear, warm and steady, a comfort for you to follow when your own feels scattered.
his hand brushes against yoursānot grabbing, not making a scene, just there if you need it. that simple gesture calms something chaotic inside you.
"you donāt gotta smile for these people if you donāt want to," he says, voice firm but easy. "let 'em take what they get."
that earns a small laugh from you, more breath than sound. "i thought you loved the cameras."
"nah," he drawls, eyes flicking toward the photographers with a faint smirk. "they loveĀ me."
thank you for reading!! <3
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can we get a ceedak timeline š¤ i feel like thereās a lot idk abt them fr šš
yes u absolutely can i could talk about them forever and ever š„³š„³
disclaimer: i do wanna say this is just from what iāve gathered because i didnāt become super fixated on nfl rpf until last year </3 one day iāll do a legit deep dive like an insane person and update with all my findingsā¦
second disclaimer: im delusional yes and a part of me straight up thinks that theyāve had to have hooked up at least once bc i love to psychoanalyze people i'll never meet but iāll make sure to say when iām being fully delusional KSDJFHSKDS
putting it under a read more because iām sure itāll be much longer than necessary
also i will reblog this and add links to some videos!!
SO before i get into like when ceedee was drafted and such i wanna talk about how invisible string coded they are because i love shit like this sm
both were born in louisiana only about an hour and a half apart from each other until ceedee moved to texas as a child after hurricane katrina hit (heās said heās moved around a couple of times as kid in interviews before)
dak went to mississippi st. in college and ceedeeās dream school was LSU (rival collegesā¦ š¬) but he had committed to oklahoma (also they wouldnāt have met or anything in college anyway because dak was drafted in 2016 and ceedee started playing in college in 2017 but i digress it makes my brain light up anyway lol)
when dak was drafted he was projected to go like late second round/early third round of the draft but šæ he got into some trouble beforehand (driving under the influence) and ended up falling to the 4th round (after the front office kept trying to trade up to get a different backup QB)
dak also had to compete for his spot as a backup and was named starter after romo was injured in 2016. this was dakās rookie year and he led them to the playoffs - almost to the nfc championship game. after this he basically took the job from romo
okay so FAST FORWARD to the 2020 draft. ceedee was projected to go top 10 and he fell all the way to SEVENTEEN so the cowboys were able to grab him then (drafted bpa instead of for need)
idk all of this is just very <333 to me that so many things managed to fall into place just right and they managed to find each other on the same team out of THIRTY TWO teams it makes me weeeep š¤§ also just something else that i think is very cute because i truly am a little insane: ceedee was born april 8th and dakās jersey number is 4 and ceedeeās is 88 so 4/8 ALL THE DOTS CONNECT SOMEHOWā¦
so weāll go through a teensy bit about dak i suppose and then ceedee this wonāt be too long
dak: baby of his family and has two brothers. his parents divorced when he was little and he was very close with his mom before she passed away in 2013 (heās started a foundation since then for cancer research and suicide prevention/mental health). went to mississippi st, cowboys starter his rookie year, etc etc. he also lost his brother to suicide in 2020 and heās said before he feels a responsibility to live on and carry his and his momās legacy throughout his life. heās like suuuuuper underrated in the league i feel and a lot of cowboys fans are complete assholes to him all the time it makes me so mad cos they could literally never ever make me hate him - he makes me so weepy ššš umm but yeah heās donated a ton to children cancer funds too and donated during BLM protests and things like that - he won the walter payton man of the year award. he just had a baby and got engaged in october (remember for the yaoi LOL) ok im gonna stop here cause i donāt wanna rant too much lol
btw i know what you are dak prescott:
ceedee: MY BELOVEDā¦ my favorite my absolute favorite. he has two brothers and two little sisters. idk if heās the eldest or not tbh i see different things all the time that heās the second eldest whatever not that important i guess. so blah blah college blah blah - he wears 88 on the team because thatās considered really special to the cowboys franchise and is reserved for elite receivers. idk heās the most beautiful man ever and he does a lot of donating too - i know he participates in a lot of football youth camps a lot to help kids out and he likes to provide meals to families around thanksgiving and christmas time. a loooot of cowboys fans have criticized him for not being that much of a leader and pouting a lot on the sidelines (which he does sometimesā¦ my mimir) but i think this last season heās reaaaaallyyy taken a step into more of a leader type position especially with dak being out and heās proven himself more than enough. he LOOOVES spending money on clothes itās so cuteā¦ gonna be a sad day when the class war happens and iām faced with cedarian lamb. ummm i also legit think heās gay and closet is made of glass but whatever
see this is the problem i never stfu but okay CEEDAK what you actually asked about ksjdksjdks
PRE-2020 SEASON: this was before ceedee was drafted (some stuff i found last night) and this is what i mean when i say i havenāt done like a deep dive into these things bc iām sure thereās soo much more but this kinda gives the general vibes
ļæ½ļæ½I was like a little kid at the playground,ā CeeDee tells us. (on the first time Dak texted him to invite him over to his house, says it was surreal.) august 21, 2020
and i actually hunted the exact clip down where he says this: (will reblog with link - skip to 4:25 he talks for like a minute or so - sorry the audioās funky itās because of covid so all the reporters werenāt in the room iām pretty sure) DELUSIONS: you canāt tell me ceedee wasnāt nursing a crush here idgaf
2020 SEASON:
ceedeeās rookie year
personal stuff happened with dak before the season started - this is when he lost his brother to suicide and heās been really outspoken about mental health since then. on top of that he broke his ankle during week 5 of the season (and tried to snap it back into place by himself on the field). dak was performing on like a sort of insane level before the injury happened so </3 what couldāve been and all thatā¦ the what-ifs of it allā¦ so that year they werenāt able to play together as much
Oct 11, 2020: āCeeDee Lamb said he texted Dak as soon as he got out of the shower. Thanked him for everything heās done for him and they were gonna hold it down for him until they see him on the field again.ā (after the game dak got hurt in)
POST 2020 SEASON:
"He came back from his second surgery about two months ago so heās walking around, rehabbing, doing everything right," Lamb said Wednesday. "Itās great to see, especially when you seen him go down. You saw the look in his eyes and you saw how sad he was and how much this game meant to him. Just to see him smiling again, happy again, being with his guys is a great deal."
"First day he kind of caught me by surprise with his arm strength," Lamb said. "He knows the little nuances of the game to be better. He makes it easy to follow him, if you will."
2021 SEASON
ceedeeās second year, he was in a WR room with amari cooper (currently on the bills) and michael gallup (now retired) blah blah season happened whateverrrr but AFTER this season the front office (iāll always be mad about this lol) traded amari to the browns for a 5th round pick š hence THIS!!! which i consider the #Real beginning of ceedak:
āDak Prescott asked for CeeDee Lambās locker to be moved next to his: āMy two other locker mates left, so I was a little lonely. With him being young, hopefully heās my WR until Iām done playing. Just bring him closer, more conversations, heās right there to talk and communicate.āā
said he had no doubt ceedee could become his "main guy"
hereās some fun stuff i found from 2021 too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3hCmIZN-YI&ab_channel=DallasCowboys (7 min mark this was after a game winning td in overtime against new england)
āCeeDee Lamb on game-winning 35-yard TD: āIt was the best feeling ever, honestly.āā
2022 SEASON:
https://youtu.be/T73xGDsFiVo?si=Qn_dwK1yfnHPiMya talks about dak here at 7:50 āall i need is himā š¤§
heās actually said this a couple times lol he says shit like āweāre all we gotā about each other - heās said it this most recent season too so <3
dak injured his thumb this season though so he was out for like 7 weeks i think i canāt remember off the top of my head lol but again another season where they didnāt get to play much together
fun 2022 stuff:
āLast year, Cowboys caked Dak in the face on the field for his 28th birthday. On his 29th today, CeeDee told us they planned to do the same in the locker room. Hoped Dak would think he was safe after no cake on the field, and then locker room ambush.ā
āScene here: Dak was talking to us at his locker. CeeDee walks past wearing metallic red lens sunglasses indoors and eating chicken. Says the key to following up ass-kicking is ākeep kicking ass.āā
āDak on CeeDeeās vibe: Yeah, cool as hell - says ākeep kicking assā while heās eating.ā
āDak Prescott walked by during our interview with CeeDee Lamb - QB1: CeeDeeās that dude! / WR1: Happy birthday, Dak!ā
link posted in reblog: skip to 2:30 he almost says he loves dak lol also very
2023: THE SEASON OF CEEDAK!!!
https://youtu.be/7_WRIzb5fPA?si=R0TETc2qtW0IOP5P the infamous "was gonna take him out for dinner tonight" clip is from this aka what got me hooked on ceedak lol (this interview is just so good in general i love ceedee sm - def recommend watching! such a nice look at his personality)
this is where my delusions take over i deadass think they hooked up at LEAST once around this time lol maybe end of 2022 season maybe early 2023 season IDK but anyway during this year the offense was soo wack for a couple of weeks until the bye week and then ceedee made some noise about it bc he felt like he wasn't being as utilized (which is true i'm so serious mccarthy was SUCH an annoying coach lol) but quotes:
āCowboys WR CeeDee Lamb said Dak Prescott approached him and said: āIf you have a problem with anything, just come up to me and weāll talk about it.ā Lamb said he and Dak worked on getting on the same page their first day back in the building after the 49ers loss.ā
Dak: āI mean, a frustrated player that feels like we all couldāve done better and feels like he can change the game, I understand it. I really do. So itās in the sense of just communicating with himā¦ CeeDee is a guy that Iāll never lose confidence in and trust who he is and understand why heās frustrated. But at the end of the day, heās a leader. Itās about him leading other guys and picking other guys up and him just trying to make sure weāre all pushing our best. Thatās where the frustration is, we have to remove that. And he will. Heās a young player thatās growing by the day and heāll only get better. Heāll be better because of that.ā
but after they switched the offense around dak and ceedee went craaaazyyy - ceedee was named all pro, dak was in mvp talks (should have won it to be honest i'm sorry lamar i still love you <3) but 2023 cowboys will seriously haunt me forever lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sudQu72KDXs&ab_channel=NFLonFOX
DELUSIONS: dak announced he was having a baby like two weeks after this game SO letās just sayā¦. maybeā¦. perhapsā¦ they were hooking upā¦ ceedee probably knew before the public did - not saying thatās why he seems a little upset at the beginning of this clip cause who knows š¤·āāļø like i said DELUSIONS butā¦ i canāt help it when the timeline timelines donāt shoot the messenger
also i do wanna mention that dakās fiance follows a loooot of cowboys players on ig but she does not follow ceedee and he doesnāt follow her AGAIN just delusionsā¦. butā¦ iykyk š
sooo they were poppin off in 2023, ceedee was breaking records and shit, won nfc east, went to the playoffs and then i DON'T wanna talk about it i have my theories about wtf happened during that playoffs packers game but šš anyway the offseason before the 2024 season was genuinely the worst of my life because BOTH ceedee and dak had to get extended and jerry jones (who is the worst) waited until after training camp to get them both signed lol so ceedee wasn't participating in training camp at all which affected them in the beginning of the 2024 season which was a complete mess A MESS but here's some fun stuff after ceedee signed his extension/during that offseason
āRemarkable. Thatās who CeeDee Lamb is. ā¦ Heās special. Heās just getting going and as long as Iām here, heās gonna keep stacking these records year after year.ā
āCeeDee Lamb strongly defended Dak: No one deserves the criticism that he gets. The way he gets talked about is crazy.ā
2023-2024 OFFSEASON:
worst months of my life lol ceedee was holding out for his new contract and didnāt get it signed until likeā¦ august i think? anddd dak was signed fucking three hours before kickoff the first week of the season lol i HATE this front office
but hereās some fun quotes after ceedee was signed:
CeeDee Lamb: āWe were texting quite a bit. Obviously I missed being out there, competing with himā¦ for is being so in tune together and all it takes is one text message or one conversation, one phone callā¦ for us bothā¦ having the same passion for the game, same love for the game. I want whatās best for Dak and vice versa. Shout out to him too for getting that bag, too. Weāll be together for the next five years.ā
Dak Prescott on CeeDee Lambās added muscle weight: āHeās wearing a lot more sleeveless shirts. As long as the speed is there, and it looks like it is (in practice), Iām fine with however big he is.ā LMAO??
Dak Prescott: āI peeped the biceps. Heās wearing more sleeveless shirts now.ā
Dak Prescott recently on CeeDee Lamb: āHeās talented. He works hard. Heās special. Heās the best receiver in the league for a reason. And Iāve seen Instagram videos. I know youāve seen him. Heās working. And he works hard. So I have no angst, no worries about when he gets here that weāre not going to pick up where we left off. And when you're a stud like that and youāre smart like he is and youāre good at communicating, that makes that process that much easier. So itās not like weāve got to build something. Weāve got that. We just got to reignite it when he gets here.ā
on how much ceedee worked with dak at the field at dakās house even though he was staying away from the team: āOften. I would say quite often. Anytime that Iām back in town, and heās obviously back here, I hit him and thenā¦ itās veryā¦ good having a rich quarterback.ā
Dak Prescottās thoughts on the tandem of him and CeeDee Lamb being compared to legendary duos like Joe Montana and Jerry Rice: āI think that says a lot just cause weāve only done it for four years and you just named some of those duos that did it for their whole careers. But then again, I feel like we can be better than all of themā¦ so love the comparisons, they sound good and all, but hopefully one day people are saying these next duos and next tandems can be like me and CeeDee.ā (i will kms over this quote one day)
iām sure thereās things iām missing but this is already sooooo long lol so
2024 SEASON:
WORST SEASON OF MY LIFEEEEEE / ceedak angst era
the front office set this team up to fail and let like a ton of players walk in the offseason, didnāt use free agency, injury riddled team, had a bunch of rookies starting but anyway just gonna go game by game really quick because this is when i was locked tf in and itās more recent so ?? more detail seems alright when it's necessary also i wrote so many half-finished post-game fics this season to cope with how terrible it was iām cryingggg it was insane
cowboys vs browns: i was at this game :) good game they won
cowboys vs saints: blocked this game out actually!!!
cowboys vs ravens: fake ass comeback also the game ceedee CRASHED OUT on the field lskdjslkdjsskjdsk which is so funny bc i literally love lamar sm and was so excited to watch butā¦ my players wanted to make me MISERABLE
this was said a day or two after the game by ceedee (bc he fumbled during it and then wasn't there for post game media people andddd was yelling at dak on the sideline šæ)
āOur relationship has, if anything, gotten stronger. Donāt let what, whatās out there fool you. Weāre brothers to the end. We know that we all we got, and I tip my hat off to him. I got the utmost respect for him.ā
āSo with that being said, everything is gonna come out - the energy, the passion, the love, the fight - and then weāll make up in the end. So no, no craziness now. Donāt.ā
dak also said something about his rhythm with ceedee being a ārare feelingā whichā¦ okay internalized homophobia but i CANNOT for the life of me find the actual quote iāve searched through my gallery but itās not there </3 if i find iāll add later (iām pretty sure it was after the baltimore game but i canāt remember)
cowboys vs giants: this is a tremicah game no need to mention ceedak idt - nasty ugly win but whatever
cowboys vs steelers: dak prescott giving me a heart attack 12 fucking times during this game
cowboys vs lions: donāt wanna talk about it! iām a hater! always will be sorry!!! ben johnson statpadding on my sorry ass terrible team i was SICKKKKK
BYE WEEK: my trials and tribulationsā¦. my nfl rpfā¦
CeeDee Lamb on getting in some extra work with Dak Prescott during their bye week: āWe love our bye weeks. We took advantage of it. We got right. We used every opportunity to get better and I feel like itās going to show. We got on some routes, and obviously the timing is everything. We needed that.ā
now ummm this is the week dak got engaged so. which is really funny because after the announcement post on ig ceedee went GHOST on instagramksjdjks like i went back to check because iām crazy (these are delusions btw) and he had been posting like once a weekā¦ maybe once every two weeks PRETTY consistently like for at least a couple of months but after the engagement happened there was pretty much nothing for likeā¦ almost two months?? ummm which AGAIN iām not saying anything iām not insinuating anything buuuuutā¦ā¦ buuuuutā¦.. also itās really fucking funny because in this same interview ceedee dropped that he left the country during the bye week but didnāt post it on socials at all so iām like ohhhhā¦ youāre coping w the engagementā¦ i see LMAO anyway
cowboys vs 49ers: sigghhhhā¦.. lets get into it
SO this was a loss but two ceedee touchdowns.. iām leaving with something!!!
āYeah, I found CeeDee,ā Prescott said when reflecting back on Lambās breakout in the Bay Area. āHe did a good job of getting open, running all of his routes hard no matter where he was, if he was the one or if he was backside on a concept. Loved his intentionality in the game. He kind of said something like that to me during the game, midway through the game, like āYeah, weāre back.ā And that was before, I think, his two touchdown drives. So just him even playing with that confidence, communicating that, it gives me a lot of confidence.ā
super hopeful right maybe they'll really connect again and things'll be fine LOL
cowboys vs falcons: worst game ever dak tore his hamstring off the bone like a fucking idiot and ceedee sprained his AC joint and would not stop going back out into the game i was ready to kms
cowboys vs eagles: not talking about it idc
cowboys vs texans: loss because ofc but whatever ceedak hugged before the game tho so i didnāt gaf about the loss - i canāt find the clip rn but if i do iāll post it
cowboys vs commanders: this is when i accepted they were tanking and then they decided to just be elite for whatever reason lol made me so happy though ceedee was so happy <33
cowboys vs giants: whatever
cowboys vs bengals: worst fucking game of my life nothing to do with ceedak but one of my other fave playerās (i also ship him w ceedee idgaf) knee EXPLODED so that was so much fun to deal with
cowboys vs panthers: i still canāt believe bryce young decided to forget how to play football in this game im crying
cowboys vs tampa: again they just wanted to be elite for whatever reason
cowboys vs: eagles: donāt wanna talk about it idc
cowboys vs commanders: WHATEVER thanks for the 12th draft pick ashton jeanty you will be a cowboy
SO. thatās basically where everything's at lmfao worst season EVERRRRR with ceedak ANGST um but yeah hopefully 2025 will be better... iām cautiously optimistic because their old coach is finally FINALLY gone because he was really limiting them and their ability you know? 2023 season was amazing and then 2024 started and it was likeā¦ mccarthy just reverted back to his old scheme that wasnāt working. it was really annoyingksdkskds. but the new coach (despite it seeming like a silly hire) had a decent press conference (that ceedee didnāt attend bc he was playing around in paris LOL) andddd he seems to be setting up a nice staff around him so hopefully hopefully hopefully 2025 is a lot better and ceedak will save me againā¦ canāt wait for training camp omg
anyway if u read all this iām SO sorry i hope itāsā¦ expansive enough?? i wanted to include kind of how itās been through the years and i had a lot more to add for 2023/2024 because thatās when my adhd was just like Yea letās hyperfixate on this so. been stuck here for awhile and iāll probably be stuck here for years and years and years <3
#ceedak#ceedak timeline#THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH FOR ASKING#i'm crying this was so fun i hope it's formatted properly - i haven't used tumblr in ages#but yes i love love love them sm#i would love to go back and watch a ton of videos from ceedee's earlier seasons and maybe i'll edit and add more to this whenever i do :3#so happy i get to spread the ceedak agenda i've been stuck here with them for AGESSSSS#glittersgloom#ask#nfl rpf
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Re: aroace tagging discourse
Speaking as an aroallo person, my (albeit limited) exposure to this discourse has been less "never tag reblogs with #aroace EVER!!!" and more "Every time I try to go through the aro (and even aroallo, for some reason) tag, a vast majority of the posts I see are more about aceness than aroness, and I'm tired of not being able to find posts that are relevant to my experiences."
Like, I don't care if an aroace person tags an original post or reblog with both tags, I'm just frustrated that I can't even find community with other aroallo people because the majority of aro people are also ace. Even the tags for aroallo people specifically is somehow full posts that are about asexuality and are therefore not something I can relate to. The aroace and alloace communities are huge, and that's great! I'm happy for them! But, just once, I would like to find a community of people who are like me without feeling excluded for being one of the only people who is aro but not ace (not that aces don't accept aroallo people, they do, but it's obviously hard to be in a space where most people don't want to discuss sexual or horny topics while being someone who ONLY experiences sexual attraction.) We're the fringe group of an already fringe group, and it's sad. There's not much out there that's designed with us specifically in mind. :(
hello there! thanks for taking the time to send an ask
unfortunately, i'm still gonna have to ask people to correct this behavior because it IS hurting other people for the sake of being self-centered and petty. i'm sorry if this sounds harsh, but the "aromantic" and "asexual" tags are for all asexuals and aromantics. as you stated, if you want stuff for just aroallo people, there are tags for that. i know there's not much content, but that doesn't mean that someone gets the right to make aroace people feel uncomfortable and like they can't even go into the two tags that their identity is comprised of.
if there's a lack of content in aroallo spaces, that is your sign to fill in that gap. making aroace people feel like shit for interacting with posts literally made for aromantic and asexual people is not the way to go to get more alloaro content and people to interact with. think about the inverse: would an aroace person getting mad at alloaro people and saying that it's wrong to reblog a post that's just tagged "aromantic"? what if the OP isn't alloaro? would that give them an excuse to harass alloaros?
unfortunately, friend, the behavior still sucks ass and it's not okay. again, if you want content made specifically for alloaro people, that tag is quite literally right there. if you're not seeing what you want to see, that is your calling to do it yourself. i know it might suck to hear that, but this really doesn't give anyone an excuse to make aroace people feel like shit for using the aromantic and asexual tags. they're STILL aromantic. they're STILL ace. and they're not getting upset at you that they can't relate to you. this behavior is really unfair. try to reframe your line of thinking.
the aromantic community is not owned by alloaros. it's for ALL Aromantics.
the asexual community is not owned by alloaces. it's for ALL asexuals.
i hope this makes sense. try not to take other peoples' identities seriously. i know how much it sucks to feel left out, but this is your sign to build a stronger alloaro community. if you want to see it, you have to put yourself out there and do it. complaining about a lack of content will not make some more magically appear out of thin air. i'm sorry if this is harsh, but this behavior hurts people. it cuts them deep. and it's not fair to assert that the aromantic tag is for people who aren't ace, and that the asexual tag is for people who aren't aromantic. it makes no sense and it's excluding people for the sake of being self-centered. please try to reframe your thinking. as rude as this may sound, you are not the protagonist of the aromantic community. i am not, either. none of us are
as an aromantic person on the asexual spectrum, it doesn't bother me in the slightest when i come across alloaros in aromantic spaces. i can't relate to them with regards to their sexuality, but we're both aromantic, and there is plenty of ground there. i have no right in telling them that they don't belong, they have no right in telling me i don't belong. this is a specific issue with specific aromantic people being acephobic, and specific ace people being arophobic. it's not an attack on you, it's being directed toward someone else, and it's not cool to think that they should deserve to feel isolated from their own community just because you don't relate. you can't relate to everyone in your community. diversity is key. we need general aromantic spaces to stay diverse. we need general asexual spaces to stay diverse.
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I was going to jokingly be like 'three threads one post GO !' lol but then I was like- no, I need to sit down re-read all of this and organize my thoughts better and probably still miss stuff I wanted to say. Time to have multiple tabs open !
Mark and Kate talking about surviving horrific body altering trauma! About struggling to relate to people after enduring horrible shit! yess. Figure out that you can be vulnerable with someone and you don't have to be having sex with them or insisting you love them so much they have to understand- you CAN have platonic meaningful relationships with people! Sometimes it IS very good to have an outside perspective. If TT were essentially Kate's family (and then they just... splinter into nonsense- okay- detour- why the hell weren't TT WAY more up in Robot's bizz about the fact he was a 30 year old man hanging out with teens for years? Aside from just letting the narrative give us general logistics on how they all got together- where are their personal feelings on this? Presumably they did treat him differently bc they believed him to be a robot- how do they feel about that trust being violated? Things they were willing to say to him? Things he might have seen? Why would any of them be okay with someone who lied to them like that still being in charge of their well being? Why am I once again stuck with an awkward romance storyline (Amanda and Rudy) instead of what is naturally there in the TT dynamic? Just?? hello?? Like, 'I violated one of my coworkers bc I realized he made you horny' is wild as it is- but the fact that I am getting that storyline instead of 'my coworker is mad at me because I lied to him for years'? Where are the GoG and TT dealing with liars meetings? Where is Immortal talking to them about what its like to have someone not turn out to be who you thought they were??
TT and GoG 'guess I wasn't the only one being lied to' dynamic we SHOULD have gotten.
On the retiring heroes line- where is more stuff with Samson! He didn't retire, he was SIDELINED bc he lost his powers and then he clawed his way back in. How does he feel about people willingly stepping away? Is he an insane adrenaline junky? Was he going to lose his health insurance if he didn't get back into things? What are his motivations !! If he was a member of GoG why wasn't he at the funeral. Why wasn't he up there talking with Nolan. Why didn't he come by for drinks. Lemme see THAT dynamic. Let's hear what Nolan has to say about his 'coworkers' when one of them trying to mourn is RIGHT THERE. What would his advice be to Mark about loss? Like, people who work jobs like that have a certain degree of disassociation from things/dark humor etc etc, but how would he not have a different outlook than Nolan? Was he pissed at GoG bc he wasn't with them after his powers were gone? How did he feel about the Nolan reveal? Secretly glad that you weren't around with the deaths happened? Insanely guilty that you weren't?
Aside from Atlantis being pissed about their dead king, like... did any other country demand reparation for what Omni-Man did? Was all that destruction apparently limited to the USA? Were aide packages sent? Refused? How many times even outside of contexts like that, were heroes sued for interfering in the matters of other governments workings? What are the extradition laws of superheroes? If they are all secret identity types- how do you identify where to send the court order? Do all heroes belong to a global registry official or not, and that is where their rights are determined? There has to be some sort of court for dealing with heroes no ??
Nolan isolating Mark and Debbie initially viewing it just as him being protective, bc it's a dangerous world out there! Stuff happens! But then Mark starts to push back against his dad, and she wants him to have human friends and suddenly it doesn't seem so protective bc Nolan is ALSO keeping him from that. Debbie finding superhero partners but struggling to find superhero PARENTS and just trying to figure out where the line is. Why are so few heroes parents? Just bias of where she is? Do most retire/take a break to raise their kids before going back? Are most too paranoid about the GDA taking an interest in their offspring to risk it? Are there RULES/laws about heroes having kids? How fucked would that be?
Does Mark ever wonder why he's an only child? Did they only want one kid? Was he an accident? Was Debbie willing to have more but Nolan's behavior with bby!Mark weirded her out too much? Was him being absent just enough of a deterrent to her not wanting to deal with all that again? If the GoG were a network for them, was Mark like a weird little celebrity to THEM bc yeah, heroes tend not to have kids? Aside from just being nepo baby, was he basically only child'd by an entire superhero team? What was that like?
While I'm not too familiar with the DCU- your batfam meta posts are intiguing- so in transfering some of the broader strokes from them- I think you tackling a 'Mark isn't Nolan's biological son' fic would be fascinating. Sort of a step to the side of the 'what if Mark never got his powers' fic that sometimes pop up in the fandom
OOOOOO chewing on this currently, hm, the much a distinct flavor of exactly what youāre talking about, but the potential for more family drama depending on WHO knows. Does Mark know?? Is he waiting every day only to be crushed? Does he confused non-Debbie features with Nolanās? I suppose Iām not the most enthusiastic about non-power AUs, but I think thereās something very fun to explore about Mark having to settle with, if he knows all his life, he will never have powers? I think the trajectory of his dreams will obviously shift, I can see him still having that distinct fatherly idolization, but perhaps embraces being useful to the GDA? Cecilās number one internāonly internācurtesy of nepotism, ha! There is something tickling me about Mark taking the Robin Route/Role for the Teen Team in terms of having no powers, just insane skills, BUT thereās something way more delicious about intern Mark when s1e01 happens and Mark tries snooping around to find out the truth about what happened to his Dad.
I wonder if, with Mark having a whole another father, if theyāre more or less distant relationship, depending on WHEN Nolan entered Markās life? Like if Debbie met Nolan later for this, or just for fun, they dated once, separated (Mark being born during then), then they happened to stumble into each others lives again and Markās already been born, anywhere from tween to teenager so thereās a gap in how close they are. I feel like one important aspect of the whole Family Drama is how close theyāre supposed to be, a functional, loving family turned upside down? So I wonder what more distance does. I wonder how Nolan copes when his family is entirely human and he canāt project onto Mark.
I love thinking about these, omg.
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Man, it's cool and all if you see a metaphor for marginalisation in the monstrous, and if you want the power fantasy of 'what if you could just eat anybody who threatened you/pissed you off'. Me too.
However, as soon as you start saying 'no, these monsters are a 1:1 on Specific Marginalised Group, and you have to treat them in the fiction like they are directly representative of real human members of the marginalised group', BUT you also, in the fiction, make them hurt/kill/eat humans? And then try to shame me, your audience, for noticing or engaging with the bit where they kill people, because you made them directly representative of a real-world marginalised group? You have lost me, and also, I think, the plot.
#hear yourself. for the love of whatever you cherish.#'but they only kill bigots so ACTUALLY they're the GOOD GUYS -' your metaphor of monstrosity is entirely premised on the question of#'what if what you went around righteously killing; believing your actions to be justified;#were actually people and it was not in fact righteous or justified to just kill them'#'what if the world isn't neatly split into 'good guys' and 'bad guys'#who gets to decide who or what is 'bad'? because that's the original problem of monstrosity-as-metaphor-for-marginalisation#(if as a creator you say 'oh my intention with this was X' cool!#if instead you go with something like. well.#'well in this setting monsters are so rare it doesn't matter that they kill people and you'd have to be a homicidal sadistic psychopath >#< to hunt them; but sure I guess if you want to play a Bad Person' well I might have#but if you're going to explicitly judge me for wanting to engage with the moral question of 'how justified is this and who would do it#versus how justified are these monsters if they do have to harm or kill people to continue to exist'#then maybe I just don't want to play your game at all)#anyway I'm sick to death of poor uwu cozy vampires who are SO marginalised so I'm not Allowed to care about all the people they murder#it being fucked up is what's fun about it! do all the other shit but let me take the murders seriously!#and inb4 someone accuses me of being a bigot for saying 'actually I don't think you get a free pass to kill and eat people if you're gay'#remember when the CW's famously reactionary and conservative Supernatural tried to just gloss over the part where every time its heroes >#< killed a demon with a magic knife it also killed the person the demon was possessing#and say 'oh no it's fine we don't care about those killings; they don't matter; don't bother caring about them either'#but they were doing it to glorify exactly the kind of people that these 'monster as metaphor' stories are trying to cast as expendable?#I have other examples that are like. real dramas. but That Paranormal Show is the one that's in the same niche that I'm talking about here#it feels more insidious when it comes through a fantasy show where there are monsters involved#so you can say 'no it's not real so it doesn't matter'#but then ALL of it is equally not real. and vampires are not actually an oppressed group. because they don't exist.#you can say 'these vampires are a metaphor for an oppressed group so this fiction matters in real life'#or you can say 'don't care about the murders because they weren't actually real'#but you can't say both and then get mad at ME for treating the murders as seriously as the vampires#let me engage with your premise and don't waste my fucking time#or just set your fluff in the Sesame Street universe where vampires drink cherry Kool-Aid and help kids learn to count
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it's always "believe victims" until said victims actually try to reach out and warn people about an abuser who abused multiple people and then suddenly it's "trying to make a call-out post on an innocent person"
#I'm still so fucking mad I can't stop thinking about this#yes this is about specific people but if i don't wanna say shit bc i don't wanna cause stress for the other victims#and i feel that if i do say shit people will get more mad at me for exposing how said person speaks to abuse victims#instead of getting mad at the person for speaking so disgustingly to abuse victims just to defend the poor abuser š#you aren't immune to being complicit in abuse#ESPECIALLY if you immediately run to disregarding victims just because the abuser is your friend#I'm so fucking mad I'm so tired of feeling angry all the time#vent ig
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This is far from my best work, but it's 1:30am, and I needed to get this down before I slept or lost my mind. So here, take a snippet of Rook seeing Zara again for the first time in 3 years.
Trying, and failing, to keep his voice from shaking, [Rook] said āHello, Captain.ā Mouth still open in surprise, [Zara] replied āWell, hello yourself.ā The reality of what she was seeing seemed to hit her as she rounded the desk. āRook, is that really you?ā He nodded. āItās me.ā Zara ran towards him, stopping just short of touching him, and said āWhat did she do to you?ā Rookās heart stuttered and he had to brush his fingers together to confirm Sigmarās ring was still in place. Could she possibly see through its illusion? But then he remembered what Lanny had said. She knew where you were. His throat clenched and he choked out āTwo years.ā A wave of grief swept across Zaraās face as she said āIām so, so sorry.ā Rook shook his head vigorously. āItās not your fault.ā Zara ignored him. āIt is my fault. I failed you. As your captain, itās my responsibility to keep you safe, and I failed you.ā Rook wanted to say something, to reassure her, but she pushed on. āShe sent me letters, told me all the terrible things she was doing to you. Iā¦ I let you down.ā Those words hit Rook with the force of a dozen cannonballs. Lanny had said that Zara knew Wolf had him, but knowing that Zara had been aware of what Wolf was doing to himā¦ somehow that was more painful than any wound Wolf had ever inflicted. He barely managed to force his next words out around the lump in his throat. āWhere were you?ā And why didnāt you come? āShe said sheād kill you if I came to get you. Or if I hired anyone to get you. Youāre standing here because I stopped sailing.āĀ
(honorary one-time tag for @space-writes bc I remember you enjoyed my other bits about Rook and Zara.)
#morrigan.text#my writing#dnd writing#oc: Rook#oc: Zara#btw when I say that what she said was more painful than any wound wolf inflicted I'm not just talking about her not saving him.#it also just hurts him to know that she was hurting too.#she left him with that woman for two years (to save his life yes. but she left him there all the same) and yet half of his thoughts are#''I'm sorry I hurt you.''#ROOK. MY BELOVED BABY BOY. PLEASE.#STOP APOLOGIZING.#also if anyone needs a cheering up after this please know that their conversation got interrupted by a giant snake showing up and zara#immediately asking Rook ''WHAT DID YOU DO???'' bc she knows her boy.#and he's like ''idk I just woke up like an hour ago'' and then he suddenly remembers that he swore like 3 times (town rules say no to that)#and he just goes ''SHIT'' and Zara fucking clamps her hand over his mouth and says ''take that back!''#and through her hand he says ''how the fuck am I supposed to take that back?'' and she just clamps his mouth harder.#oh. and the time he swore earlier was bc he stepped outside and got spit on by a bull and he was like ''is this normal??''#and someone said ''I've never seen that happen but these animals are part of [big snake almost-god]'s menagerie'' and hands Rook a paper#with all the town rules (there are many). And he goes ''what the fuck?'' and then he gets to the rule that reads ''no swearing'' and he goe#''SHIT!'' and then he realizes what he says and goes ''AAAHHHH.'' and I was cackling.#I was doing this on purpose btw. I knew that this would make the snake mad at me and I did it anyway bc I am a chaos gremlin.#however I did NOT know I would get Rook's only friend from before the party killed by doing this. RIP Jay. I loved you so much.#but yeah. my boy swears like a sailor bc he is one. and it did in fact get people killed. But it was funny to me.#ALSO when she met the party the first thing she said was ''thank you for saving my boy'' and I almost sobbed.#like yeah. he is her boy.#I'm going to explode just thinking about it.#okay if you read all these tags I love you forever and please feel free to yell at my idiot boy in the comments/tags/wherever.#maybe if enough of us join in he'll actually listen. (no he won't)#OH RIGHT. And the party is finally staring to realize how much of a capital L Liar this man is.#because they can literally see him catching himself about to say ''I'm fine'' every time they ask how he's doing
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today just will not let me rest huh. reasons are in the tags but i get very emotional just be warned
#hush n shush wifi#just a tad sad#actually more like angry as shit#okay let me TELL YALL about my day#first: the annoying#i was going shopping at a grocery warehouse and you know how those parking lots are always super crowded?#well it was. there were no parking spots and there were so many cars and people trying to go everywhere#i scraped my wheels too which is fine but one of my relatives who likes cars acts like it's a sin#so that shook me up enough that i didn't go outside for the rest of the day#and THEN#OHHHH AND FUCKING THEN.#if anyone remembers the absolute ass of a person from last year who i thought was my friend but said horrible things to me out of the blue#WELL THEY CAME BACK#i never got a chance to block them initially because they blocked me first#BUT I GOT FUCKING MESSAGES FROM THEM TONIGHT#AND ALL THEY WERE SAYING WAS ESSENTIALLY THAT THEY MEANT WHAT THEY SAID#they said some bullshit about the execution being wrong and that their ex wrote it for them#which by the way is just scummy on its own#and that they get mad emotionally which is a horrible excuse#and had the AUDACITY TO ASK IF I HAD ANY QUESTIONS#IN WHAT DELUDED SELF CENTERED WORLD DO YOU HAVE TO LIVE IN TO THINK I WOULD EVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN#my trust is a VERY VERY FRAGILE THING#AND THIS IS A VERY LARGE CONTRIBUTOR TO IT#this isn't an apology. they regret none of it#this is a way for them to make themself feel better#the scariest part is that this person by now is almost/IS an adult#which is terrifying if that means there are more people like that out there#i try not to wish ill will but i genuinely hope no one ever has to suffer through being their 'friend' ever again#anyways they're blocked on all of my platforms now.#if the person is somehow reading this. hi! never talk to me again. you're a horrible human being with no consideration for other's feelings
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@thehelplessmortals shared this with me and...Penelope coded.
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She definitely tried to gross out Odysseus in a dumb "You think you can handle me, idiot? >:) " way. (She's stubborn and in denial at first. When she realizes she actually likes him, she's a mess.) And while eating raw fish is normal for naiad-born in Sparta, when she learned Odysseus wasn't used to naiads in daily life, she just really went wild with it.
He's just staring at her kind of expressionless and she thinks "Ha, see? You don't really like me."
But he's just like
"You like carp? Cuz if you do, we got plenty on Ithaca! Many more fish too! And if we don't, I'll get you some!"
And she's annoyed because her plan didn't work. Girlie is self-sabotaging even though she thinks he's neat.
#this is normal for naiads but she also doesn't have impulse control. She'll jump in mid-convo.#...part of the joke is that basically no one eats carp because they're fucking disgusting :D same with catfish...at least where I live#Helen: āuh...I could just shock the water and then you could get them.ā#Penelope: āWhere's the sport in that?! >:( ā#It's not like a āplaying hard to getā she just genuinely doesn't believe he could possibly like her and being a shit about it.#āHelen's supposed to get the happy ending. not meā (which Helen even is like āyou're an idiotā) she eventually gets#her act together :D she's overwhelmed right now. especially since he's just head over heels and just... a LOT as he doesn't know#what to do with these feelings either and she gets mad at him for constantly talking about marriage āThe more you say it. the less I wanna"#especially with his reputation to bully and fuck with people. and the fact that he lied to her so much when they first met. she doesn't#trust him. He's overwhelming her and then she's finally like. āif you're so interested. we're doing things at my pace.ā then things get chi#they're both so used to putting up their guard that they can't genuinely believe this could be something wonderful#she actually is kind of afraid of the fact that ā...Do you just have a thing for Naiads?? since you're not used to them?ā are you weird?#but he interacts fine with other naiads. and isn't affected by Helen.#shot by odysseus#Mad rambles#my headcanons#odypen#btw. she chew through bone technically :D fish bone but bone#kind of want to make a āmoodboard for the Water Wifeā#penelope#Water Wife
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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.
#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it#asmr#audio roleplay#rp audio stuff#redacted audio#anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud#and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators#but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it#which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium#like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform#and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication#and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements#like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh#tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that#and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno#i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it#bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it#this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable#but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself#feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything#who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl#anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now#actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon#u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.
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#i feel like i can't feel any emotion normally#like i know that can be a thing with autism but i don't know if i have autism but i may#but i also certainly have adhd is it a thing with adhd?#anyway basically part of the reason i'm always so distraught is because i literally just#feel like i'm stressed literally always and can't read a single mean comment or anything without#feeling it for weeks#the other day youtube recommended me some random rage bait#it was like 'old pagan lady whinges at bad handicrafts' or some shit#and then it was just an old british woman drinking wine and bitching#and she specifically was bitching about resin#and saying that no one should support resin jewelry because it's plastic and it takes no skill because all you're doing is pouring#resin into a mold#so it doesn't even really count as art it's basically just manufactured#and i went into the comments hoping someone would defend me and it was just like wall to wall people agreeing and#calling resin artists immoral people#and making fun of it#it felt like mad at you island but real#and literally the entire rest of teh day i was ideating suicide more than usual#and even still i feel like i'm no longer allowed to make my own art#because of some randos online#again just not normal emotions#shrimp emotions actually#they come on so so so hard and don't go away i get depressed at the tiniest thing
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Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake
#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update#she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back#i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat#im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it#bc what the fuck#i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages#and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things.#i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit#and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc#it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday#why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up#I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever#i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for#and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about#that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell#why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family#and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call#which gives them space to harass me about work and shit
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Idk if yall are still active but I just eagerly quit this show around early season two. I was kinda hate watching the whole way, but I started googling spoilers when I saw how fucked they were being to Lincoln and Raven (and more, but theyāre my faves). Do you have any show recs that are similar with the shows ābuilding a new civilization after tragedyā (minus the colonization and racism etc)
hey!
i actually binged the entire show recently and i can confidently say it was not as groundbreaking or cool as the showrunner believed. the first 2 seasons were incredible but it just devolved into a mess and the ending was so dark and horrifying. also the fandom was completely unhinged and did not need to act the way they did š
onto your question: yes!!!! battlestar galactica is what inspired me to watch the 100 in the first place. it very much shares the themes of mass tragedy, civilizational warfare, living in space, seeking a new home, and humanity fighting for survival without losing its soul. start with the 2003 miniseries (a three hour pilot) tho or it might be confusing. it also has diversity without the weird racist tones of the 100's diversity, although the cast is a lot whiter. the 100 has also obviously borrowed a lot of concepts and terms from it but i don't want to spoil you. all in all, it is one of the best shows i have ever watched and it delivers until its very last second.
lost in space is also quite cool. and i have heard good things about the expanse! another show that shares some themes (without the space element) is the society - very fascinating
#i have also changed my mind on a few things rewatching as a full blown adult without any fandom influences#octavia - not abusive until her annoying blodreina shit but she was traumatized whatever#clarke - yes manipulative but she really believed she was doing it for everyones good and was the first to let herself suffer for others#no one was perfect ever#everyone fucked up hard and the fandom's insistence on making everything black and white was so toxic#it was just more complex than teen stans could stomach#for example. bellamy killing the sleeping army was wrong. but for clexas to extrapolate that grounders = natives and skypeople = colonizers#girls what??? lol#and similarly the insistence that bellamy is a white man so could feel better hating him?? soooo ridiculous#similarly.... bellarkes did set themselves up for disappointment when they chose not to believe the showrunner about it being platonic 24/7#and lexa was really never bad like even when she left their asses to die i get why... people were just mad about clexa#all this to say everyone would be better off if they watched it with a more rational neutral detached lens and didnt make it about idpol#this includes me lol#the racism was real the homophobia was real and the fans amplified both to insane degrees#the end!
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Man I just give up.
#dora daily#if only there was a way to just stop everything#idk if I want to die but I want everything to stop#like so many times I go out or smth and something bad happens#or I get triggered in public and I try so hard not to lose myself and start drama in public but I just canāt#every time I show any emotion people start laughing#I canāt even try to stop myself from bawling in the middle of the store without someone#just being so insensitive and rude and diminishing how I feel#you know I say Iām never mad and that is true bc I may seem mad a lot online but Iām not like this irl#but for the first time I actually got mad at someone irl and I was literally gonna beat him#I was genuinely seething so bad itās not fair and things keep getting worse and worse#I was so close to just throwing this stupid phone and shattering it and ripping up those dumbass#birthday cards they sell in the store#and that stupid bitch of a sister I have is so fucking stupid#she sees someone anxious and incredibly upset and she acts like that ? fuck her#like bro idek how I have lived for this long and idek why I donāt go and just overdose on SOMETHING right now because#logically speaking I should just give up#but I donāt know why I canāt#like please my life is literal shit okay is replying on time so hard for you to fucking do so I donāt go even more insane fuck all of youuuu#UGHHHDJSOS#I SWEAR TO GOD I am so sick of this just you all wait#none of you deserve normal treatment all you deserve is something even worse than ghosting#just you wait let this stupid semester end and Iāll deactivate my socials go speak to the fucking wall you morons#you think Iām gonna wait around what are you paying me to be here ? if anything IM paying with my sanity#like if this was related to a spouse who was a billionaire but he was treating me as shittily as you guys treat me then Iāll say fine#at least Iām getting something out of this transaction who gives a fuck#but im not getting paid#im not receiving support#Iām getting laughed at and ignored#and used only at YOUR CONVENIENCE !!! what the FUCK ! I donāt exist for anyone and certainly not yall even if I did.
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